#I’m sorry I’m rambling I am SO TIRED

[the-bi-space-ace]

I’m running on 4 hours of sleep, caffeine, chicken tenders and spite so this is going to be chaotic and rambling and short let’s goooooo

… screaming crying throwing things losing my mind that was SO GOOD YET SO PAINFUL. I will need ten business days just to recover from that.

Goodness. My heart ACHES for Crosshair. I mean... it always has. I have always felt such deep sorrow when it comes to him. But this just... It took me out.

Crosshair has always craved connection, trust, and loyalty. He needs it so badly and this episode just proves how far he’ll go for that loyalty. He bonds with Mayday, even over that short period of time, and he can’t leave him, not like that. He can still save him. He can keep this connection he’s made. Except. No. No he can’t. The empire won’t save Mayday they won’t save anyone they think is too “weak” or who isn’t “useful”. The absolute devastation and suffering on Crosshair’s face after all that time of half dragging this man through snow and ice. After having to huddle for even a little bit of warmth. After surviving in unbelievable odds. And then to not only have Mayday die but have him be given up on? When his outcome could’ve been different? It destroys Crosshair. You can see it. Written all over his face. In his body language. In his voice. In the resolved way he drops to the ground and finally gives up fighting to stay conscious. This need for connection, to survive through connection to others, really really sticks out to me. Because that’s it right there, right? You can survive. But only if you’ve got people you trust and who care about you to watch your back. Every person Crosshair thinks can do that for him has left or is ‘gone’. The batch is gone. Cody is gone. And now Mayday who he dragged through the snow to save is gone. Crosshair forms bonds with people everywhere he goes and he doesn’t do well without those bonds. I could write a whole book about that but I’ll stop now 😅

I want to touch on that scene at the end. I think the wording is interesting “you might survive”. This idea of survival is so poignant in Crosshair’s story in particular. Mayday calls the two of them survivors at one point too. This idea of surviving and doing what is necessary is so engrained in Crosshair’s story that it’s impossible to ignore. While I am worried and scared about the implications of that last scene - experimentation, taking away his agency and his control, and many possibilities of him dying or being controlled in this season - I am holding out hope that his story will be done justice and he’ll end up surviving, as he has always done, and he’ll get away from the empire. AND he will not die this season bc I say so 😅

I know we are all terrified of the possibility of him dying and I am here to say that I don’t think he will. There are a few reasons why I think he won’t. One is that his story arc would make no sense with a redemption by death storyline. After the suffering and what we’ve seen him go through. Death as the end game? It makes for poor storytelling. Two is that he’s such an integral part of the story as a whole that I just don’t think it would make sense for the writers to kill him off after hyping his storyline this season. Like… I just wouldn’t be able to wrap my head around it if that happens. It would just be a lazy (I guess that’s the right word) ending for him. And I will hold out hope that we aren’t taking the easy way out since we’re making him suffer so badly.

I hope that made coherent sense! I loved this episode. This season has really been great and I’m so excited (and terrified) for next week!

[crybaby-bkg]

wanna bug Toji soooo bad while he’s on the phone. his ass doesn’t have a job so it’s not like he’s discussing important business, but he likes to make it look that way. phone tucked between his shoulder and ear as he uses one hand to rub circles on your exposed thigh, the other flipping through the tv channels. he’s speaking in a low tone, his eyebrows mused together in agitation as he calls the guy on the other line a barrage of insulting names.

and you’re just a simple person—the man looks hot as fuck like that and you just have to bother him. so you do, despite the side eye he gives you when you swing your leg over, foot in the air, right in his face. he swats you away gently before going back to his phone call, bites at your toes when you still try to wiggle them in his face.

"If you think you can lowball me like that, then you're stupider than I thought." Toji grunts to the other man on the phone, distracted once more. a little peeved that his attention isn't on you much anymore, you do what any little conniving imp would do.

you sit on his lap. backwards, facing the TV, looking over your shoulder at him with such an evil little grin that it makes his eyes squint to you in warning. but you've never listened much, especially when you know you'll be rewarded so plentifully in the end.

so you rock your hips, just slightly the first few times. your legs sat on either side of him, hands resting in the space between his legs on the bed, leaning your weight back on his hips that you sit against. instantly, you can feel the swell of him beneath his sweats, feel the thickness that you love to fill you up start to twitch when you circle your hips, grinding them oh so slowly against his covered cock.

when you look over your shoulder again, Toji only stares, the slightest lilt of his lip turning up at the corners. he tries to act unbothered, one arm bent back to rest his head against, the other holding the phone to his ear. but you can see through him, and feel just how bothered he really is.

so you up the ante; start to lift and drop your hips slow, slow, slow at first before the pace begins to build. you lean forward on your elbows, pull your underwear up until the curve of your ass is exposed, gasping from the friction, from the feeling of his cock rubbing so sweetly at your slit through the thin cotton.

you look over your shoulder once more, grinning, biting at your lip as you grind against him, close to completion. he can see it all in your eyes.

"Gonna call you back later. Got some important shit to take care of right now." Toji hangs up without preamble, gaze distant as he focuses on the ever growing spot of your arousal that starts to leak onto his own sweats.

but you're a little minx, with the way you scramble from his grasp before he can catch you, laughing when he snags your ankle to drag you back down. he's suddenly kneeling over you, grin sharp and ferocious, the straining of his cock through his sweats hanging so intimidatingly low, that if you lift your hips just a little, his tip would kiss your clit in the sweetest kiss.

"And where do you think you're going, you little brat?" Toji growls, dropping down to nip at the base of your neck, licking over your pulse point.

"Not letting me off the hook that easy, huh?" you tease, hands splayed beside your head in surrender, just wanting a little bit of the chase before the devouring. and by the look in his eyes, you know you'll only be bones by morning.

"Not in a million years." he promises right before the inevitable pounce.

[makoredeyes]

As if I wasn’t enough of a simp then they had to go and give A God On Mars that sick drum line

[h-didanart]

Question: How many AU Bloodmoons do you have?

BOY AINT THAT A GOOD QUESTION

*slams three notebooks, an iPad, and the phone on the table*

LET US FIND OUT!

Bloodmoons that I have written or drawn about in public platforms where their existences can be confirmed:

Five pairs and a single, these are:

Everyone is alive, for some reason- My takes on Bloodmoon I and Bloodmoon II that appear on a one shot I wrote and a concept I shared here; Dagger and Rifle (placeholder name, I don’t know what else to call him :(), Rabies and Bleed

The Moon and Sun show- The ones from my swap au, which I am still counting because Fang has exactly one line which was meant as foreshadowing tho I don’t know if it worked cuz no one mentioned it; Scythe and Fang

The Bloodmoon One- The ones from… that au (which for some reason I made an alternate timeline for where they’re humans); Bloody and Harvest

Get in losers- The ones from my more silly au where everyone joins the family; Hunter and Harvest

The bffs- The one that got separated and became Jack’s friend, or has Jack as his emotional support bot, and the root world of the Virus!Jack event; Original

Those are the guys you guys can figure out I made rather easily.

Now, having looked through my notebooks and writing spaces, and counting the six Bloodmoons we already have:

Sixteen pairs, two singles, one trio, and one quartet

That’s eleven pairs, one single, one trio, and one quartet more than what you guys know.

Let’s get into their lore, shall we?:

The tree at face value- I was experimenting with family set ups for the Celestials and decided to take things literally, Bloodmoon here would be the child of Eclipse. They were never named.

Creator sucks, deluxe edition- okay, okay, this one is weird, and I’ll admit I wasn’t really thinking it through when I made the concept, ergo it will probably come off as insensitive and weird, which is understandable because I was not thinking through what I was thinking. So, human au, Sun and Moon and Lunar have DID, both Bloodmoons are Lunar’s alters. That’s it. This is one of the two aus in which the twins are younger than 20. Lunar, Hunter, and Harvest.

The RaTc (pronounced ‘rats’)- short for ‘Redhead and traumatized club’, basically a place where I drop all my favorites//ocs that have so many things in common that I can refer to them as being ‘the same guy’. Bloodmoon II was the latest addition. Original and Adaptation

Uno-less afterlife- my take on the ghost versions of the dead SAMS characters, I’m planning to write a one shot for this one when Sun dies (or if, I guess). There’s the first Bloodmoon who’s half melted and kinda disintegrating, and the newer addition of a mutilated Adaptation II. Original and Adaptation, Copy Adaptation

This is what you wanted- that concept I shared sometime last month (?), Bloodmoon wanting to get reprogrammed and getting Eclipse to help them, and then getting amnesia. Ruby and Scarlet

DND mini phase- a simple doodle of Bloodmoon as a vampiric rogue, thing which I don’t even know if it’s possible. They weren’t named

Death game- … I may have watched a Danganronpa let’s play. Look, the concept is neat, and the character designs are cool as hell! That said, I did plan a whole au revolving around the SAMS characters being put in a death game, I’m pretty sure I planned to have the twins kill someone and get away with it because of a loop hole. Bloody and Harvest

Fantasy au- not restricted but definitely inspired by DnD, a magical world where there’s all sorts of creatures and places. The Bloodmoons were vampires that Eclipse got to work for him, and then got out of control. Ruin revived them as a demon on account of being a necromancer. Neither the first or second versions were named

Pure and utter regret- I… I might’ve… I might’ve shipped the twins and Jack at some point— It was a crackship and I don’t even ship them anymore, I‘ve adopted the ‘Bloodmoon is aroace’ headcanon, and y’know, canon is being canon for Jack. They’re really just friends now. Yet, I still have about three digital pages worth of them being all kissy and shit. I feel like shit. Fuck, I even had a name for them. I hate myself. They go by every single name ever given to a Bloodmoon (because this was purely a fun crack ship)

April fools actor au- exactly as it says, Sun and Moon started thinking of ways to bring engagement up for the channel, and then Eclipse popped up, and so they all ran the channel together, bouncing ideas off of one another, and so began the lore episodes. Bloodmoon is a bot that was made by Eclipse from some scraps of code he did originally intend to use to mess with the Celestial twins, now repurposed into a theatre kid. They probably have names but they’re only referred to as Original and Adaptation

I got infected by Magic Girlitis- I was watching a bunch of videos about Madoka Magica, and then I watched the ‘Will you press the button’ video, so now I have magical girl designs for Moon, Sun, and Lunar. I never got to them, but the blood twins would’ve had a really cool introduction and would’ve been a genuinely scary antagonist to our heroes. They weren’t named

Fragment of the ocean- I asked a friend of mine what I should draw for Mermay, they said mermaids and oceanic creatures, I accidentally created an au. Bloodmoon is an apparent human (has never been seen as a mermaid), who after being controlled and used by several people was adopted into the Foxy family. They also have DID, because human. This is the second au where the twins are younger than 20. Bloody, Scythe, Hunter, and Rabies

AAaaaand that’s a wrap! Those are all the Bloodmoons I have come up with!

I think

I hope

🎶I pray that he— uh wrong character

I may have issues

[daeyumi]

i think uh. the Announcement has ruined my night actually. the more i think abt it the worse it gets haha.. 🙃🫠 like literally i don’t think there’s a way the movie can be good. i’m gonna get off social media for tonight & go play switch or smthn,,,,,,,,

[quietlyblooms]

it really does feel like one thing after another sometimes and i’m just

[mossy-paws]

the fear of being dragged into like 10 fandoms all simultaneously and only being able to draw things for like. 1 of those fandoms because you aren’t confident with humanoids yet

[bilestat]

insane how quickly something small can tank my mood

[bizlybebo]

HII VIX BLOWS YOU UP BC YOUVE ABSOLUTELY INFECTED MY BRAIN WITH THAT MS G AND LIGHTSPEED POST YOU MADE/POS

SO GRABS YOU

ID LIKE TO JOIN IN ON THIS AND BEG YOU TO LISTEN TO GOOD LUCK, BABE BY CHAPPELL ROAN AND THINK AB THEM PLEAASEE

I NEED TO KNOW IF YOU AGREE WITH IT BEING THEM OR IF IM LOSING IT RN

HIIII MOOMINNNN <333333333 HIIIIHIHIHIH

my girlfriend loves chapel roan omg

AND ALSO. YOURE SO RIGHTTT. THIS IS SOOO THEMMM.

the like. 80s(?)-inspired soundds of the song are soo amazing too because lightspeed’s whole thing is rollerskates and iajfjsmtmakfj

THIS IS SOOO THEMM.

like right off the bat. THIS IS THEM. THIS IS THEIR WEIRD DIVORCED-BUT NOT THINGGG.

^ LIGHTSPEEDS POV. REAL.

^ both of them. neither wanna admit it and i puajtnwmgmakkgjw

^ AND THEN. THESE LYRICS ARE SOO MUCH FUNNIER WITH THE CONTEXT OF MISS G NOW BEING DIVORCED FROM HER EX HUSBAND JSNFNWJMGJ

[moltengoldveins]

good LORD I am so FREAKING TIRED. like. I come downstairs. I ask mom for a hug while she is up moving around the kitchen. I have not asked while she is in the middle of doing a Focus Task (not a good idea) or while she is sitting in Her Seat (do not approach while in seat) She asks “whats wrong?” And confusedly half-returns the hug after I’ve already grabbed her. I explain that I’ve been fighting to write for the past few hours and I’ve barely gotten a page and a half done, and I’m upset and sad I cannot do anything about it (my damn chronic illness meds aren’t available right now and I cannot think.) She stands there without speaking with an entirely deadpan expression. I wait for her to respond because I just told her what was wrong. She doesn’t move. She doesn’t change her face. “I’m…. Just frustrated I guess?” I try to prompt her to say Literally anything. She just sorta stands there, still and not emoting, for a solid ten more seconds. Eventually her face goes from ‘complete blank’ to ‘slight expectation. She wants me to do something.’ And it takes me another solid ten seconds to move out of her way to let her into the main part of the kitchen. She pushes past me without a word and walks through the kitchen and out of the room. Solid thirty seconds later she yells at me from the other room and tells me to hurry up and clean up a basket for my things she left out earlier. No more input on the conversation. She acts pissed at my existence for the following hour and a half.

[thequeenofsocialanxiety]

The Great War of 2024

The day I fought 2 wasps and a hornet that decided my living room was the best place to chill out at night.

Weapons of choice were hairspray, spray bottle filled with soap water and a slipper.

It started when I heard a massive thump against my living room window and then a couple of seconds later movement. I look at the source of the sound it’s a massive hornet like a good 5 cm long. Of course the wimp that I am, I just left the room for awhile hoping it left. I came back and it seemed like it left back where it came.

Time went by and I saw a wasp on my living room ceiling lamp and I was like what’s going on but I left it alone yet again hoping it leaves on its own.

One long YouTube video later I look back at the lamp and see two of them and now I’m panicking.

It’s over, I’m moving out.

But I’m broke so battle it is.

If it was only one if them I would just use a roll up newspaper like usual but there’s two of them. So I need a long distance weapon.

In came the hairspray bottle. It seemed closest to a bug spray that I had at my apartment. I kept distance and I sprayed towards where they were and it did pretty much nothing but angered them. I booked it to my bedroom like the coward that I am.

I then realised I couldn’t even go to bed because I left my phone and charger in the living room. So I used my pc to google ways to kill wasps and after a extremely long post like this one. I got the answer and it was a spray bottle with soapy water.

I, of course, also googled if the hairspray was any good and it was. I just needed to spray it more directly on them .

Here’s the thing when I went to back to my living room, they were gone and the bodies were nowhere to be seen so they were alive somewhere. I waited in hopes of them resurfacing again only to realise the hornet was still here. It had decided to fall asleep or rest on my wallpaper and wasn’t active unlike the wasps.

So that’s great, wonderful even. I hadn’t managed to kill the two tiny wasps but somehow I needed to end their big cousin too.

Eventually the wasps came back to lamp and I did the best that I could do and sprayed them with soap water and hairspray. ( please don’t spray water on a active lightbulb, it was 3 AM and I was panicking like an idiot.). They disbursed but I kept a eye on them and one of them didn’t disappear so I kept spray it until it rested on the wall to clean it’s wings from the soap and hairspray. That was the moment I went in for the kill. Direct spray and it fell, unmoving.

Good. One wasp gone.

The second one had disappeared during the fight but that was fine I can deal with that later.

But now came the big problem, the hornet.

Thankfully the hornet was less agile and hadn’t moved or sense danger since it fell asleep. It was resting far up the wall but I just climbed on my couch, took a couple of deep breaths with the hairspray in one hand and soap water in the other.

Game time.

I first sprayed it the soapy water and then directly the hairspray. It fell down the ledge of my couch. I not so gracefully jump off my couch and then kept spraying it. It kept moving so I picked one for my slippers and wacked it.

It then took flight but that didn’t last long. Of course I kept an absolutely calm reaction to that factor. (I’m an absolute wimp.)

It landed ont my router and I was well shit I can’t spray that and I can’t really hit it too. I kept trying to push it off the router but it was holding on for dear life. It fucking knew it was safe there.

Finally it fell on the ground and that was game over for it. It got wacked like 7 times and beheaded because no way I’m leaving a slight chance of it surviving.

The second wasp did make a appearance while writing this post but I left myself defenceless and I was too tired to deal with it.

May it live I guess.

[hangmanapologist]

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[hopecomesbacktolife]

hey romance does feel different than friendship actually and I’m tired of people trying to tell me I’m wrong for this 🙂‍↔️ respectfully, no, I know my own experiences, my own heart, and while both types of relationships are important to me and share some—SOME!!!—commonalities, they do actually inherently feel different to me and I interact with those dynamics differently from one another and they hold different places in my heart. and frankly I’m no longer going to let others’ efforts to make me feel guilty for that or like I’m wrong or lesser-than somehow, succeed. no babes, I know me best, thank you but no thank you 🙂‍↕️ you do you but that in its very essence means trusting me to do me too. but whether or not others do trust me to know myself, truly idc because I do know myself, regardless of whether they validate that. I know me and I know my own heart and that’s really what matters 💓

[abisalli]

So sorry for not posting lately… it’s about to become even worse (Zelda TOTK is out)

[vethsoddities]

Veth’s Steph and Pete Headcanons

CW:This Follows The canon of NPMD the best I can so mention of funeral’s and death and the like so be warned if I forget any warns tell me and I’ll add them

and if I spelt or got any lore wrong lmk nicely thank you

Master List

A/n: I’m totally “normal” about these two I wrote these at 1 - 2 am and b4 that I tagged all of these at 1am hope these makes since I’m on new meds and they made me kinda tried and my eyes hurt so bad anyhow my requests are open check my master list it’s pinned on my profile anyway enjoy these headcanons I’m also going through and editing all this at 2:58 am so technically I’ve been working on this from 1 am to 2 am to 3 am I hope you like this

Stephanie Lauter and Peter Spankoffski headcanons

After all that happened in NPMD ie Steph losing her dad and Pete losing Richie and Ruth and Steph having to shoot him and Max stopping the bullet and doing the whole “I’m the only one who can kill you nerdy prudes” and Grace taking one for the the team by giving up what she cherished most 

Pete and Steph didn’t want to be far from each other and ending up holding each other for a while so that led to them having sleepovers at the others home Steph hated being all alone in that big house so she was glad to have Pete being there with her.

They both try to comfort the other when they start to breakdown after all that has happened Steph seems like the type who doesn’t know how to comfort someone same with Pete but they both try and they love the other for that

Steph and Pete didn’t label their relationship right away because they weren’t sure what would happen after all that went down but they knew for a fact they loved the other after a LONG and I mean a Long time of denying the fact they were in love each other like they canonically had a song about it too but after a bit calls each other their partner or girlfriend/ boyfriend thing

These two in my mind both have They in their pronouns and or possibly t4t because they aren’t totally straight in my mind Pete to me seems unlabeled but Steph is either Pansexual or Bisexual and could be gender-fluid and or She/they but either Gender fluid or Demi girl she has She/They pronouns

Pete without a doubt is trans FTM and uses He/Him and possibly on occasion uses They and or them and I could possibly see him as Asexual but I’m not for sure on that one just yet

Pete definitely drives home the fact that Steph is smart and that he’s proud of her and whatever else Solomon told her is bull shit and he loves her no matter what and that he will be their for her no matter what

Steph does the same type of thing for Pete that he is in fact cool to her and not a loser and comforts him fully and says that he’s a handsome always especially when gender dysphoria kicks his ass and will be their for him through it all

This could be me projecting but these two would probably give a little smooch on the other’s forearm and tell the other they love them

I feel like Steph would do Pete’s hair into different hairstyles, Steph definitely teases him lovingly about the bow ties still

Steph at some point mentioned thinking about doing a wolf cut or short hair and Pete supported her no matter what Steph did the same with his hair if he wanted to cut it or let it grow more either way she could still run her hands through his hair

And as Steph does in canon affectionately calls Pete a Nerd and him possibility calling her Mean Girl or probably something else it’s 3:11 am rn and I’m proof reading this when I could be sleeping to creativity is low lmfao

Homecoming was fun for both of them and as it should be I think they have photos of it both digital and Polaroid and for the Polaroids, they have the pictures hanging up on an aesthetic string and clips thing

Content warring here’s the mention of Funerals and death(ig I don’t think I say it at all but still be aware)

Now when it came to the funeral’s of Richie,Ruth it was a ruff time for both of them and seeing as they all were friends it was one of the Moments Steph comforts Pete even if it wasn’t something she was good at still

and after words they visit Ruth and Richie’s graves and leaves flowers and possibly Anime themed stuff for Richies grave and no matter what both Ruth and Richie gets flowers on their respective graves 

When Solomon’s funeral came around I think Stephanie kinda shut down having to be around her fathers colleagues friends and connecting and was going into auto pilot going through the motions of everything that she knew how to act as to make sure Solomon’s image looked good

Pete was their with her and after a while pulled her away from the people so he could make sure she was okay as she could be for what was happening and she just broke down and they decided to leave after funeral things happened

I feel like after wards of both funerals just like after NPMD but before homecoming’s they just held each other to comfort one another and saying sweet things to each other because they love each other

[capetowncapers]

Chronic illness babes who explain repeatedly to people their limits and that they set boundaries literally just to get the rest they need and respectfully they need to take care of themselves… only to have those boundaries ignored and trampled on bc it’s ~more convenient~ for other people or they ~don’t wanna~ take your symptoms seriously if they can’t visibly see you have an issue…. Make some fucking noise I guess 🗣️🗣️🗣️