#I’m so upset with myself right now

[yellobb]

*forces myself to drive to therapy even though I don’t want to exist rn*

Therapy: is tomorrow

[rainbowbuck]

in a vicious cycle of me spoiling stuff and then getting angry I did it

[lesbianlothcats]

I just want to say one more thing for now, to anyone who is struggling right now because the Bad Batch has been your comfort show but how they handled Tech has potentially ruined that for you, you’re not alone. I know that doesn’t make it any easier to deal with, but you aren’t alone.

[kimtaegis]

🌧️

[random0lover]

I hate men and their need to act like any emotional reactions you have while you’re on your period is just you being “hormonal” and “not yourself”

(Rant in tags)

[spacespore]

HI TUMBLRR it’s me

[kavehater]

I’ll never understand younger siblings whining about their older siblings moving away like I bet yall were nasty and annoying too like wow all those years and you claim to adore the older sibling and post oh woe is me the older sibling abandoned me … girl … the older sibling didn’t have a parental certificate or anything.

[shiveringsoldier]

didn’t get the dream job

[keysinthecouch]

You all have a voice. You can use it.

[m--bloop]

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[heartbreakfeelsogood]

[iknowwhereyousleepatnight]

people begging me to do something to make a certain someone happy aren’t taking into account that i hate this person and i will revel in the knowledge that i kept them from getting the most perfect version of what they wanted. in fact i hope they mourn the loss of this for the rest of their life and die unhappy about it

[ierogenvy]

two messages in three days from two separate people and at this point i really do have to wonder if it’s me because. like what the fuck.

[blueberrywhale123]

So idk how I feel about this, kinda silly and a bit embarrassed I suppose …

But my sister decided to rewatch the hunger games because she wanted to see Finnick (AKA the best character other than Peeta).

And so I watched it some with her cuz I like it casually but I don’t really seek it out.

BUT this time, I was wondering about the books and stuff because … idk why but I was. And im telling you that I completely planned on living my whole life without reading the books of only because people keep telling me to read them and how great they are.

HOWEVER I cracked and I decided because I’m basic, I wanted to read the fake romance stuff. So I borrowed the book and did just that. I started from Katniss and Peeta finding each other in the area and have been perfectly content I have literally no desire to read the 1 and 2 parts of book one.

but Catching Fire got me. I haven’t been able to put it down and now I think I might get the 3rd and I’m so UPSET about it🤪

I don’t know how I’m gonna face my cousins and admit that I’ve broken my resolve 🤣😅

[dottores]

the past few days have been wonderful 😍

[yappingmoxie]

made a birthday post for my grandma yesterday since no one else remembered it and immediately afterwards my sister made one and really drilled in hard about how she named my newest niece after her. and idk. I’m still upset. I’ve been crying off and on about it because like. I know it wasn’t right but my grandma would tell anyone who listened how I was her favorite grandchild (and tbh I think besides it just being true she did that bc she knew how awful my mom and sister were to me) and would brag on me constantly. and my sister did nothing but talk about how annoying my grandma was and say the worst things about her right before she died. but yet she loved her so much that she forgot her birthday 2 years in a row so I mean clearly she just had to take the name I fought with her over during her first pregnancy. I’m so glad I’ve had my cousin throughout all of this because otherwise I’d feel legitimately insane. She’s been amazing at reminding me how much grandma loved me and helping reinforce that grandma and I DID have an agreement that she wanted ME to name my daughter after her if I ever had one. Everything my sister does though feels so spiteful. Like I love my niece so much and it just sucks that I can’t even spend time with her without being reminded of how much my sister wants to hurt me. I don’t blame the baby though. Like it hurts and makes interacting with her a little difficult but she’s innocent. And the thing is I wouldn’t have even minded if she named her that out of genuine love and respect for my grandma but I know she didn’t. From not letting anyone be with my grandma in the hospital when she died to putting her ashes in my fucking mailbox to telling me that my grandma hated me and I didn’t do enough for her to telling me how awful I was for taking a week off to implying I should’ve been there even tho she lied to me about her being in the hospital to withholding photos she promised me of her to ruining my grandmas house (she lets my 5 year old niece write all over the walls and keeps a million fuckin farm animals like ducks and chickens and turkeys inside when grandma didn’t even let dogs in) to asking the preacher at her funeral to say some pointed remarks about me being no contact with my mom to now using her daughters name as a direct slight against me I can’t help but feel like all she wants to do is weaponize my dead grandma against me without even worrying about how disrespectful she’s being to her as long as it hurts me. I haven’t even tried talking to about my nieces name because after confronting her about my grandmas passing I know it’ll do nothing to actually remedy anything and will just lead to even more explosive fights where I know she’ll just double down on saying things she know will hurt me. And I don’t want to argue about my grandma. I don’t want to use her memory for something disrespectful. It doesn’t feel right and doesn’t feel like honoring her in any way that she’d appreciate. I just want her to be respected. I want her name to be used for something kind and loving instead of spiteful. Because ultimately that’s what she was. My kind and loving grandma. Not a tool to cause arguments and tension. She was always the mediator in the family and I can’t help but think how disappointed she’d be to know her passing has been used in the way it has to further drive a shift in the family.