#I’m so tired dawg
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Apologies for being MIA: I split with my agent, publishing is a nightmare, and other personal life stuff have made me feel burnt the fuck OUT. I love this community and this topic but god almighty does it feel Sisyphusian and demoralizing to try to convince publishers of a thriving market that already exists that a topic would do well and they just. Don’t believe you lol tldr capitalism sucks the soul out of all of us and kills all joy
#monster fucker#monster lover#monster fudger#terato#monster kink#terat0philliac#monster#monstrousdesire#monstrousdesirestudy#exophelia#publishing you pussy ass bitch you’re shooting yourself in the foot#publishing is a nightmare#publishing#i hate capitalism#I’m so tired dawg#monsterfucking
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The horrors. They grip me so. Let me loose oh grip of life
Anyway here’s Dante doodle
#ophelya speaks#project moon#limbus company#pjmoon#ophelya doodle#dante limbus company#dantehhh#dante lcb#I’m so tired dawg
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Why are Wally and Howdy so cute together??
Just something about em that fuels my wee small lil heart smhhh- their dynamic is so wacky yet simple it makes me crave more somehow 😔🥄🥄
Fuckin e e p y
#Ngl this took me some time to doodle dawg my brain is currently running at 2 centimeters an hour#Probably cause I didn’t sleep much smhh#Also side effect from howdy propaganda#Every time I see a sliver of howdy content my body feels like I overdosed in caffeine JSHDHDHDDJ#That is all#welcome home#welcome home wally#wally darling#Welcome home howdy#howdy pillar#welcome home julie#welcome home barnaby#barnaby b beagle#Howdy propaganda#Edit oh god I’m so tired that my dyslexia is gaslight gatekeep girlbossing me JDHDHDH#Wallypillar
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this isnt rlly a serious post more so than a thought I need to verbalize but like. there’s an INSANE difference between the fandom being like “hey what if jack was actually his age and got to be a little normal” vs y’all treating a grown ass man like he has to cover his ears when someone swears or sleep with a nightlight on because he’s afraid of the dark, and throwing the P word around to anyone who thinks he’s attractive. one of these things is not like the other.
#there’s a layer here about giving jack the childhood he specifically chose not to have#and ignoring his other choices because that’s just. idk a running theme with any character who struggles to have autonomy#but whatever idk#genuinely i think the past year or so that I’ve spent talking about this has burnt me out#either that or I’m just too fixated on VB to really care too much#like obviously I still care about it and wish more was done to help but it’s not really a warpath for me to walk currently#just.#I’m just tired dawg#it’s like talking to a deaf brick wall#please just do some research into infantilization I cannot keep having a one sided conversation with people who don’t care#spn#jack kline#baby jack#spn fandom#fandom critical#fandom ableism#tfw2.0#not even just ableism it’s the whole mischaracterization woobified bullshit all over again#and the using baby jack as a prop for everyone else but I digress#jack: *chose not to be a child and hates being seen as one and is more than willing to get violent if he thinks he has to*#y’all for some fucking reason: he’s just a widdle baby he can’t handle the scary movie he needs his daddies to take care of him#I’ve already said all these things before#i am tired. so tired
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oh my gosh it’s Minecraft story mode BRRRRRRR(internal screaming) time
#got the mcsm on my mind. Saw that fanmade trailer for that fanmade thing and I am so hype and excited#But I can’t do anything cause I’m too tired. The pain. The misery.#I want to play the game (I started playing it but never finished I think. So ig play it properly) and draw stuff dawg#But I really don’t think I’m gonna have the time for all that#Maybe I’ll have the time to play the witherstorm story full out#anywho. missing mcsm hours#I would watch someone else play it but I’ve already done that so I think it’s time I just play it myself.#Also usually when watching someone else I would like watch edited videos that just keep in the important story stuff but with mcsm#All of it is important story stuff so like. Really no use in that#mcsm#minecraft story mode#ack#text post
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AFest once again and I’m bringing moomintroll to con this time
@snufkins-left-boot this is going to be us in a few minutes. Traffic get the fuck outta the wayyyyyy ;-; i have somewhere to beeeeee
#wait ok but I just now realized my regular green backpack is perfect !!?!?#dawg I’m so scrambled brained because I’m excited and tired from my job the last few days#can’t wait to see you again my sweet !!#moomin#snufkin#animefest 2024#moomin cosplay
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woke up at 4am feeling the weight of my life crushing me, so I’ve been sitting out in my car for the last couple of hours because I just need. to. be. somewhere else.
#tumblr ate something like this but I think I deserve to shout uselessly into the void#shits rough dawg#I know it’s rough for everyone. I feel shitty even talking about myself. still… compelled to vent… big butts#haven’t really been on here much since it hasn’t really scratched that itch lately & just makes me feel lonelier#it’s cold#saw the Jazzercise studio open across the street. 5am for Jazzercise? wow. early.#and then everyone left an hour and a half later. lights out. everybody gone. weird schedule. I am perplexed.#went down the road and got a soda and I’ve been sitting in my driveway contemplating for the last 2.5 hours#guy at the gas station tried to talk to me but I just half assed a smile and nod and left#even though I know I’d love to just… talk to someone. I suppose it has to be ‘on my terms’ whatever those are#I miss having a therapist. or even just when my little brothers would talk to me. when anyone would. blegh#my insurance is still a mess and I’m about to run out of one of my blood pressure meds this week#maybe I’ll have a stroke. scary to think about. I think about dying a lot but that potential feels too real. just… pop! and I’m done.#I’ll try today to finally push to straighten it out but everything feels daunting#woke up with so much anxiety. about my health. my hearing. no money. my life. had to get out of the house even if it’s just right outside#hate to say it but I need(want) thc. haven’t wanted to spend money on it but I could have really used it this morning#can’t be sad if you can’t feel anything (jokingly but also not. whichever is less sad sounding)#actually treated myself to Dune 2 last week and it was so so good. wish I could go again. but it’s drugs food or movie right now. so…#I know. dumb priority but BIG SCREEN. maybe it’ll hit theaters again for the next awards season hopefully. just a real nice loud experience#anyway… I should go inside. almost 7am. need to take my brothers to school then drive my mom to her daily appointments#I’ve felt so hollow and angry and sad for so long it feels like. I feels so weak and sad and I’m tired of it. I’m so tired.#I’ve been eating about 1 meal a day and sleeping a lot. this is the worst my body has ever been. I feel like I’m just waiting to die.#is this relatable?#just have to look past it. it is nothing. this body is nothing. just enjoy your soda.#gonna look at pictures of butts now#ok gotta go I love you goodbye forever#you can ignore this#text
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The binder anon hasn’t even asked me so I’m a fit of jealousy here is Normal Oak-Swallows-Garcia WITHOUT a binder. Thank you and goodnight.
#dndads#dndads s2#dungeons and daddies#I’m tired it’s bedtime dawg#normal oak#normal oak swallows garcia#I don’t like drawing normal actually so they’re so right for that but still
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depressed shrimp be like i’m gonna fucking krill myself
#shitpost#i’m so fucking tired dawg#i’m delirious with exhaustion#memes#shrimp#there’s a shrimp hashtag??#okay yeah whatever sure#sure might as well
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Tboy fagdyke tummy Tuesday dog boy edition (he/it)
#ftm nsft#ftm t4t#ftm ns/fw#ftm dogboy#tboy tummy#tboy tummy tuesday#tboy tuesday#tboy nsft#ok to rb#dawg I’m so tired but it’s ok bc I can’t miss tboy tummy Tuesday#anyway who wants to be my chew toy#nothing new pose or setting wise#but fun chew toy and one of two collars and also more hair
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so I’m just gonna be drawing curse exe until it’s my birthday:3
#idk how to tag this#trans rights are human rights#tumblr fyp#artists on tumblr#smh 😔😔😔#dawg idk#curse exe#i’m so tired#im not mentally stable#sketchbook#traditional art#sketch#yippee :3
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I’m supposed to move my stuff to my moms today but I’m so freaked out by having to tell my dad that I’m gonna stay with her I just keep putting it off and my mom keeps asking me why I’m not moving anything ….. this is so hard 😭 I feel so horrible
#I just woke up at noon. lame.#AND IM STILL TIRED#I don’t even know what I want anymore I don’t even know if I WANT to stay with her and I don’t#know if that’s just my guilt clouding my judgement. idk. I’m freaked out.#my mom is really excited about this cause she knows exactly how my dad is. I just feel so bad. it’s gonna hurt him but it’s also gonna hurt#my sisters that I’m not with them every day. but also. I’m 20. I could be across the country at school right now.#so what the hell is the correct choice..?#this seems so high stakes among my family but I know that in reality it’s not. but this is the equivalent to ..I don’t know#it’s like really intense for no reason. it’s so frustrating. IM LITERALLY STILL LIVING W MY PARENTS DAWG 😭#ITS NOT THAY BIF A DEAL… but to him it is. so that’s why it’s a big deal to me . so embarrassing don’t read this
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the unbridled rage i feel inside of me when people refer to me as “[husband]’s wife” AT WORK!!!!! co-worker called him to ask a question about me (not me. they don’t call me to talk to me.) and they kept saying “your wife” and not THE NAME OF THEIR CO-WORKER.
like, cool. cool cool cool good to know that you don’t actually see me as a member of this team just as my husband’s wife who works for you.
#i love my husband with my whole heart that man is my world#but i am also a complete and other person???#it’s one thing in social contexts but in a professional setting it makes me feel so shitty#it’s happened to me so much with coworkers referring to me as his wife/girlfriend#(one time it was literally a guy i worked with all the time. he referred to me as ‘your girlfriend’ and im like#dawg we know each other????? use my fucking name i have a fucking name)#anyways it just grates on me more than it probably should#i’m tired of my identity being tied to being my husband’s wife#em’s ponderings
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4 more days of work and I will be free…
#I’m so tired#it’s gonna be WORTH IT it’s WORTH IT I will be GLAD I DID THIS when the hours show up in comp#but jebus I’m so tired dawg#I’m gonna sleep my entire day off and yk what I earned it so fucka u#arty escapades
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another thing i’d like to say ☝️ my identity as a Black american is inextricable from the rest of me. i often find myself in predominantly white spaces on account of my interests and other identities (and lbr, a LOT of spaces only leave room for white experiences and voices as the norm or default) and i always feel the need to remind my peers in those spaces that my Blackness is non-negotiable. i want to be loud, and i want to make y’all uncomfortable. IM uncomfortable. god and so many of my friends and acquaintances mean well but i’m about to die a death of a thousand papercuts. god.
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Not to like “oh woe is me” post but I feel like I can vent on tumblr since it’s idk tumblr. But I was SO excited for my final semester of undergrad this summer and then almost immediately after I got here in August I began struggling very deeply in ways I have never struggled before. Like confused 24/7, missing assignments because I was too tired to even get out my phone let alone my laptop, forgetting everything including what I’m doing or where I’m supposed to be and even classroom locations on a campus I’ve been at for 4 and 1/2 years. Losing things constantly, randomly loosing grip strength and dropping things, horrible brain fog, waking up feeling like I’m shaking 24/7 but everyone telling me I’m not shaking anywhere when I ask, issues walking, dizziness, vertigo. I’ve been having such extreme fatigue I can’t even get out of bed to pee until it hurts because I’m just too tired. This has been happening since August. Which I assumed this was bad depressive episode so I had them double my antidepressants, and then nothing got better.
But then like two months ago I woke up with this pain in the left upper corner of my right eye. Just a spot the size of my fingertip. And it had me in so much pain I was throwing up. So I thought “I’m a big kid, I have migraines like this all the time.” and I took some of my medicine for that. But it didn’t go away. It lasted for a whole day. When it came back a few days later I decided maybe it was sinus pressure, so I took some allergy meds and some cold meds for a week while it was hurting off and on. But that didn’t work. And then it came back and I got a migraine over top of it. So it wasn’t that. And FINALLY last week it got so bad I couldn’t see out of my eye, the pain had been constant for about four days, and I was so dizzy I could barely walk. So my mom drove an hour out of state to pick me up and an hour back down to take me to the er, who promptly sent me to their on call opthamolagist who, after a serious of very very bright lights directly to my hella dilated pupils, told me my optical nerve is swollen and I need and mri.
Which is FUCKING STUPID that my optical nerve is causing me this much pain. But whatever.
Anyway the day after I went to the er and saw the eye doctor I had a follow-up with my primary care physician, and he said “oh yeah, they’re gonna want that mri urgently. We want to make sure you don’t have ms. Your symptoms are consistent and optical neuritis is often one of the first things ms patients experience before diagnosis.” like girl? If I have ms that chose to present itself by incapacitating me to the point I am failing my final semester of undergrad, and may not be able to fix it, I am going to lose my mind. It couldn’t have presented itself six months from now?????? There’s no confirmation it’s me yet until after my mri, but still. Whatever this is has me pissed tf off. Show up at a different time.
All that being said. Here’s a meme I made about it using a screenshot from one of my fave vines because I’m actually coping and not at all having a sort of hypochondria spiral and doing as much research on it as possible. That would be weird.
#no but actually when googling symptoms I have like 90% of the ‘common early symptoms’ of ms.#anyway like. whatever witch cursed me???? I’d like to be uncursed now.#I also have been having these like random spasms where I throw my arm??#the best way I know how to describe it is it’s LIKE a tic except it doesn’t repeat so I know it isn’t a tic#it’s more of a violent twitch. AND my right eyelid has been bugging out and twitching like crazy.#there are other symptoms but I really just wanted to vent#actually no the numbness in my hands and feet sucks donkey dick#there isn’t anything wrong with having ms like in a real way. it’s just when it chose to present itself is so upsetting to me#I really wish it could’ve happened after I finished my semester#this is so unfair that my future might be jeopardized just because my doctors weren’t listening to me in august#I’ve been saying this is happening and it’s LIKE my depressive episodes and LIKE my migraines and LIKE when you get really bad sinus#pressure but I’ve also been being abundantly clear that these aren’t normal symptoms for me when any of those things#I’m TOO tired for it to bed my depression. especially with everything else.#it’s not sinuses and I have had migraines ontop of it and that pain stayed constant.#and if I didn’t listen to my doctor when he was it was nothing maybe I’d be being treated already. maybe it wouldn’t have destroyed my fina#semester of undergrad. dawg I just wanted to graduate college.#long post#vent#personal#adding generic tags so people who filter long post or vent in the tags don’t have to see
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