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livvylubug · 10 months ago

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Hope everyone’s ready for tomorrow, cause I am! (I’m going to have a mental break down)

#I don’t know if I’m joking or not yet #I’m so terrified in the best way #is there a word for being unbelievably anxious AND excited?#murder drones #art #digital art #thousand yard stare #but it’s Uzi #Uzi doorman #murder drones uzi

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stealingyourbones · 7 months ago

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Gotta love when folks write Superman incredibly anti-clone even though he had good reason in the beginning to Not Like Superboy (HES A WINDOW INTO WHAT CLARK WOULD HAVE BEEN WITHOUT THE KENTS) and decide that forever on he’ll be spiteful towards clones even though he literally Does Not Care if you’re a clone unless you’re Superboy.

#IF YOU LIKE THIS CHARACTERIZATION IGNORE ME BUT I GOTTA VENT #bones speaks #bones writes in the tags #sometimes I wanna bash my head into a wall. SUPERMAN IS INHERENTLY A GOOD PERSON IN EVERY WAY KON EL IS JUST A TERRIFYING REALIZATION-#OF WHAT HE’D BE WITHOUT A LOVING CARING AND NURTURING FAMILY! HE DIDNT LIKE KON BECAUSE HE WAS SCARED)#RAGGGGHHHHH #for the love of god I know it’s an easy way for Danny to hate Superman (SUPERMAN ISNT THE BAD GUY YALL PLEASE) but there can be so much more #have him awkwardly go up to Danny and ask him how he handled having a clone and try to use that info to get along with Kon!#he works with countless clones in the Justice League and I don’t see y’all writing him hating them. make it make sense #just- please. you don’t have to read a comic to know that Superman is meant to be The Best Of Humanity. just write with that baseline #I’m just sad folks are being so gosh darn mean to Supes. he’s a delightful character to read and my favorite big superhero #and a lot of folks in dpxdc do the anti clone stuff and that’s Clark’s entire personality for the comic.#you don’t think he’d be sympathetic because Danny was given immense duty and power and is only a few of his kind? or having an evil self in #another dimension that showed him the destruction he could bring?#Clark is a smartass. he is a seeker of the truth. he is a reporter (and a damn good one too). he is a loving husband. he is an alien.#he is a hero. he is a god. he is a caring friend. he is a genuinely kind and good being.#I recommend reading All Star Superman. Under The Yellow Sun by Clark Kent. and Superman:Grounded

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megumi-fm · 6 days ago

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#hi. i kind of managed to get my hands on adhd meds. not the way it should be done but it was bad. and i was desperate.#it’s beautiful. life is beautiful on meds. everything was so much clearer and more vivid and my brain was empty in the best way #but yeah. turns out i get pretty terrifying chest pains on it. and it is b r e a k i n g my heart #i hope this is just a reaction to methylphenidate #and that i’m fine on dexamphetamine because the starting dose for dexamphetamine is higher…#i’m gonna get a prescription soon. i hope i can actually get the stimulant medication. sigh

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sickfreaksirkay · 5 months ago

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having university doubts goddd kill me

#i got into one of the best universities in the uk (+ in fact the world) and I rejected it because I didn’t want to live in London #but now I’m like. why did i reject that #also i got way higher grades than i needed so i could’ve gone to like. oxford etc #and im going to a really good uni like top for uk but its not Up there for the world university rankings #but i don’t really want to live in london because its terrifying and expensive #but also i fret i won’t fit in at the one im going to and it seems to have a really tiny lgbt community there which is off putting to me #anyway none of this matters because I’m going to the one I accepted in a couple of weeks anyway #i just feel like everytime i tell someone what uni im going to i have to clarify that i turned down the better one so they don’t #think im not that smart. which is stupid because im going to a really good one anyway so no one will think im not smart for going to it #also. maybe i wasted time studying to get such good exam results when i only needed a a a #SORRY. ignore this gang🙏🫶 im normal now

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ashmp3 · 5 months ago

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you know when that wave of loneliness comes like i really am trying to be normal but can’t help feeling so alienated and unlovable i should’ve killed myself when i was 18 it really wouldn’t make that big of a difference but my fuckass dad had to die first

#anyway almost done with queue and i’m gonna go on a run (at the gym boooo it’s too hot outside) and hope for the best #for the glimmer of hope etc etc but yeah it’s hitting me like. No one likes me everyone thinks i am stuck up bitch and i will die alone #and i am terrified of change and putting myself out there why is everything so embarrassing #only way out is through i tell myself but sometimes it looks like too much work i wish i could die in a tragic accident so i wouldn’t have #to feel bad for dying and people would be like Ah what a shame but i would be chilling #tt

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luke-shywalker · 4 months ago

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#i’m terrified to ever watch this movie. i think it would kill me. basically it’s about a marriage falling apart.#anyway—adam driver would do so good as bobby in company and i would die to see him in it #i’m seeing company tonight!!#it’s a special musical to me. it’s about marriage. how marriage is both exciting and boring and makes your life better and worse.#the months leading up to our wedding i was kind of a cynical mental wreck. there was so much i did not like about my husband-to-be.#sometimes i felt like the only reason i was going through with the marriage was because it was too late to get out of it.#i had spent my teen and college years wanting to have a boyfriend/husband then i got one and realized #oh wait this didn’t actually fix my problems huh #actually there are NEW problems now #and then somehow this past year has actually been like. the best year of my life lol #it’ll be a year next month!#yea there are still those Little Things. sometimes there are Bigger Things. but bruh this dude is so good for me #i have never been thriving as much as i have this year.#i’m so much healthier in so many ways than i have ever been all my life #and like it’s cringe to say that cuz i don’t want to say MARRIAGE is what fixed me but. i think it’s okay to say that #there must be some kind of GOOD to marriage otherwise there’d be no point in doing it #and i think i make his life better too. he tells me so at least lol.#and i’ll only be able to watch the show with one eye LOL but my husboi will be with me watching this musical #that i used to listen to when i was angsty about getting married #and now we are married #and life is great.#somebody need me too much #somebody know me too well #somebody pull me up short and put me through hell #and give me support #for being alive…#yeah there are times when it’s harder than being single but. the blessings are multiplied along with the hardship.#shywalker stuff #Youtube

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makotonaegiunderstander · 8 months ago

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do you ever go do autism crazy for something you can feel it in ur chest. like it’s hard to breathe almost it’s making you gasp for breath and jump around physically. got an adrenaline rush thinking abt Kirigiri.

#GODDDDD. I LOVE HER SM AUTISM WOMAN.#I go insane thinking abt her and her life and how she develops in THH and past it #and how Makoto and her literally bring out the best AND worst in each other #and her narrative parallels w Byakuya. the way they’re so similar that they’re hypocrites for disliking each other #at first and then the way they’re indispensable in that they’re they only other one that Understands why they’re like that #I cannot word my thoughts for her nearly as coherently unfortunately so no paragraphs tonight. I’m just going to start growling like a dog #the way she fucking commands so much respect and control and how strong she is #and the fact that she is constantly reinforcing that strength by shoring up any weakness or vulnerability with terrifying effectiveness #that leaves her invulnerable but completely alone. and for a long time that seemed like a good thing #and she may even believe it is #but you hear the way she talks about her father and you realize she’s HUMAN. she doesn’t want to be an island all the time.#she has emotions just like anyone else and being viewed as though she doesn’t is incredibly alienating and reinforces her isolation #if she really didn’t care she wouldn’t still be mad that her father left her alone. it wouldn’t still pick at her the way it does #it wouldn’t drive her to abandon the entire purpose of her family by revealing herself as the Ultimate Detective in order to get to him #and then there’s Makoto and Byakuya challenging those aspects of her all over again #Byakuya sees the worst of her. he believes what she puts forth as herself and sees that ruthless cold efficiency #and he isn’t wrong to believe those things. as much as she wears a mask it isn’t fake that she has those qualities #but then comes Makoto who doesn’t see through her mask either but chooses to believe she must be human somewhere even if he’s not sure #he continues to trust her with absolutely no reason to and it feeds into her own ruthless efficiency by making him her Guinea out of sorts #but it also means there’s someone on the shoreline of her island. they want to come in. Will she let them?#that island is painful but not more painful than being vulnerable.#hhhh #I’m crazy

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solitaireships · 1 month ago

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Found an article talking about racial imposter syndrome in mixed people who look white and finally I’ve found something that describes it

#my posts #like i do have a lot of privilege that comes from looking white #and i’m never gonna say I don’t #but it sucks bcs i can never really feel like i fit anywhere #like i’m not white fully and i have a different experience from white people bcs of that #but i also experience things differently from visibly asian people #so it’s like well. what can i do bcs i belong nowhere #and any time i talk about being korean i get terrified i’ll be told i’m lying #or i’m faking stuff and actually just white and a piece of shit for trying to talk about stuff #when it is actually stuff that affects me #and comparing it to imposter syndrome is really the best way to describe it #i am always worried about how i’m being perceived racially #and i’m terrified whenever i post pics of myself i’ll get messages calling me a fraud #i have no control over how i look or how people perceive me #and it sucks bcs that means i have no community #and always feel like i have to prove my right to my own culture #even when i have like. native korean friends telling me I don’t need to worry about it #informative vent in the tags lol

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littlestellababy27 · 4 months ago

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Because of the way our brains developed, it is physiologically impossible for humans to process trauma they are still experiencing. What this means is that often we only begin to feel the full effects of the traumatic event after we are safe.

In unrelated news, I’m home.

#I know I should be patient with myself but it’s so hard not to feel like I deserve to feel this way #didn’t I do my best?#I’m terrified that I did and my best just isn’t good enough #stella says

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quietwingsinthesky · 2 years ago

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like. okay. i have no real horse in the race of “which brother is the secret bad abuser” because the show does not actually care about that or think that either of them is actually treating each other that badly (except for when sam get manipulated, which is always his own fault and he should suffer for it /s)

but what i will say is that the way dean is written sometimes manages to make me more uncomfortable than any of the villains on this show. dean scares me. completely unintentionally, they did write a guy who only gets Worse over time, and it’s compelling, and it’s upsetting for me to watch.

#I don’t really mean this as a criticism because To Me it is just like. a part of the show.#it’s a feature. perhaps a Bethesda’s bug of a feature but. it’s a feature.#dean’s change in character feels natural. watching him get worse feels like the logical conclusion of where he’s going.#(the logical conclusion could also have been ‘dean makes an effort to not be so controlling’ but they didn’t do that. they leaned into it.)#so it isn’t much like. say. Lucifer. Lucifer is a character who just flips. motivations and character completely changed.#so disregarding his later appearances just? makes sense? to me anyway. that’s Not My Wife #but Dean’s character degradation is completely different in that it builds on what’s already there.#and whenever I write him I feel the need to. idk. grapple with that. with that potential to become Worse.#he is controlling! he doesn’t ever really trust sam that much post-s5! he does treat Cas his best friend like he doesn’t matter unless #he’s acting more human! these are just facts about him that show up long before the later seasons and idk! Dean is! he’s a lot!#he and Lucifer have a lot alike in the way that they’re driven mostly by love. and that love can easily go rotten. and it’s terrifying.#spn #dean winchester #sry watching s6 makes me think about. things.#actually no. not sorry. I’m going to get worse about this if I keep watching so stay tuned.

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impossible-rat-babies · 1 year ago

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