#I’m never getting better
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the one thing about viktor I always adored was his humanity. he was always an advocate for the undercity even when he was a well-respected part of piltover. in some ways, I feel as though jayce’s decision to heal viktor against his wishes with the very thing viktor meant to have destroyed killed that humanity in him. when he emerges, he’s not the spirited man we’ve grown to know; it feels as though his soul has been changed in the same way his body has been: irreversibly. we’ve lost his ‘affection’ as he so aptly puts it, but that affection is also an intrinsic part of him as a person. and with this void in his personality, I fear he will never return to the man with big dreams of creating a better world for the people (and in some ways for himself.) I fear he will only do it out of some necessity the hexcore has imposed on him; just as jayce has imposed a soulless living onto him.
#arcane#arcane season 2#viktor#viktor arcane#jayvik#tragic jayvik save me#jayce talis#jayce loves without regard for the reciever#anyways#I’m never getting better
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is nobody gonna talk about how spicaze frequenrtly used to draw fanatt of alicia effectively manhandling beafor because I Don’t Think the potential of that knowledge is spoken about enough
#forgive me father for I have sinned#-> LMFFFAGSHSHSOOSO#sorry I’m a lesbian#I’m never getting better#alicia
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one day, in a thousand years
#I THINK I HAUVE COVID#oh to meet your love after a thousand years at a museum exhibit of your past lives#thinking about them makes me so sick so ILL DISEASED#I AM NOT IMMUNE#spc i’m cursing u forever for this wtf. WTF bro wtf#ouyang’s last thoughts were a desperate plea for esen to wait for him.#he has NEVER called him by first name he has NEVER asked him anything#and his last thought is asking him to wait#and esen does. bc he would have given ouyang anything he asked for#god i hope u get rawed so good it makes up for all the lost lifetimes u earned it#he who drowned the world#she who became the sun#the radiant emperor#general ouyang#esen-temur#(zhu also present in the golden imperial dragon and the golden light of gayness that brought them together again)#my art#not super proud of how it turned out tbh tbh it looks better in my head 😔😔#would’ve stayed in the drafts if not for my need to feed this 4 ppl fandom#and if not for robin motivation nfngdjfb ty kissa you forever#id in alt text
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What do you mean I’m a bit late for Janus’ big day? Of course not, how could you say such a thing! I definitely didn’t forget all about it in my absence and only get reminded in the incorrect quotes video live chat; that’s not like me at all ;]
Anyways I decided to dress our sassy snake in some different outfits I think he’d like. He seems like the type to get all dolled up on his birthday and it goes with Thomas posting pics in outfits inspired by the sides on their appreciation days!
@thatsthat24
#sanders sides#janus sanders#ts janus#thomas sanders#sanders sides fanart#my hoard#I’ve returned!#the newest asides came out and I remembered how much I love it#so I’m hyperfixated again and I’ve not now peace since#it is nice to actually finish something again tho#I’ve been pretty busy working lately and now I’m starting to pack to move into my first apartment!#so not much time to really sit down and draw#and when I do have time I can’t get the motivation to actually draw anything#I want to get better about posting stuff on here#(even though it feels like I’m just dreaming into the void a lot)#even just silly little things or rough sketches I’ll never finish#I hope it’ll help me continue to draw and make things again#I forgot how nice it is#anyways if you’ve read this far thanks#have a cookie :] 🍪
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Mostly just figuring out how I want to paint him
#I never put him in color#I don’t really like that one portrait I did of him so I’m trying to get better#solas#my art#dragon age#dai#dragon age fanart#fen’harel#I’m in a weird place with my art rn#I feel like I’ve been bored by some of the things I’ve been drawing and I wanna make stuff I’m actually proud of ya know#idkkkkkkkkkkkk
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sylvia plath, todd anderson and virginia woolf (aka ACTUAL tortured poets) watching taylor “im breaking up with my boyfriend for his intense depression and blaming it on him, im dating a racist who enjoys watching woc being brutalized and harasses young woc artists, i sent my fans out on a hate train to attack a young woc actress for a line she had to say as part of her job to show how mentally ill her character was, im dating a maga supporter, i refuse to say anything about a current genocide despite being the most influential person in the world right now, i am a billionaire, i fly 13 minute flights and have the highest carbon emission of any celebrity, i am a known white feminist who only speaks about issues when it affects me and has constantly let my fans get away with extreme racism and even encouraged it by associating myself with known racists” swift call herself a tortured poet (her writing sounds like a bunch of thesaurus words slapped over gabba hanna and rupi kaur-esque poetry that was created purely as a trinket for an edgy pinterest board)
#anti taylor swift#like she can be problematic that’s okay#there are SO many problematic artists i like#but she’s not even that good#like read sylvia plath or virginia woolf or listen to LDR or fiona apple or mitski or lorde or boygenius or olivia rodrigo#aka her peers#and realise how much better they are#they truly write art because they have a compassion and rawness for it#whereas taytay only writes to get more money LOL#she’s so extremely privileged that her life is not at all relatable and now she tries to make it so#by romanticizing the most mundane#thats never been your brand babe now it’s going to sound like dogshit#GUTS by olivia rodrigo is better because it has such an intensity to it. liv means what she says and you can feel it!#fiona apple means what she says when she writes about begging her lover to love her back!#mitski means what she says when she writes that she is self destructive and puts herself in bad situations since that’s all she knows!#lana means what she says when she writes about her suicide attempt at 15 because of constant abuse from her mother and crippling depression#all of it such haunting and beautiful works because it truly comes from the soul and isn’t a cash grab#Anyway i’m so sorry virginia and sylvia and todd#todd anderson#AND JOE ALWYN#joe alwyn my favourite man ever#joe alwyn#dead poets society#anderperry#sylvia plath#virginia woolf#the bell jar#lana del rey#fiona apple#mitski
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[ cw: death mention / sibling death mention / isolation / ]
Thinking about how Leo’s portal and teleportation powers have both directly (and in one instance, indirectly) been the cause of him being separated from his brothers at least four times now.
There’s that time in Portal Jacked, where his inexperience leads to his portal being messed with and his brothers ending up in Tahiti.
There’s the Bad Timeline, where Leo’s portaling led to them losing the Key, therefore indirectly leading to the apocalypse and in turn, ending with Leo being the last of his brothers alive (though just for a few minutes.)
There’s him teleporting him and Krang into the Prison Dimension, cutting him off from his family so wholly that the only way to fix this was a literal mystic miracle.
Then there’s the comic, where Leo’s powers act up again and make him lose months of time completely isolated from everyone and everything he knows.
Just, looking at all of this, it’s like the universe gave him the powers of distance on purpose to test him (and his bros), literally seeing if they can overcome unimaginable space and still make it back together. Imagine if it doesn’t stop here, and Leo has to learn to either deal with the occasional complete isolation or deal with time travelers coming back to stop some terrible event his powers (whether directly or indirectly) have caused, events that always lead to separation in some way, shape, or form.
It’s worth noting, too, that his portals often led to accidental separation, but his teleportation was the one power of his that was used to isolate himself on purpose…and was also the one that in any other scenario would have been the most permanent.
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rottmnt headcanons#rise leo#rise comic spoilers#tmnt 40th anniversary#adding those last two just in case even though it’s been months lol#anyway hiiii I still think about Leo all the time and the Implications of his abilities#I truly do think their powers matter sooooo much to their characters frfr#and it’s very very interesting to me that Leo’s whole lineup has everything to do with space and distance#and he himself is constantly forced away from his family#no but imagine this happening all the time - like…his abilities almost PURPOSEFULLY causing his separation in some way#maybe as a test? to test his and his family’s bonds? their bonds are what ultimately power them after all#Leo in particular has lacking faith in himself and his powers despite his confidence in other areas#and I wonder if that comes through in his abilities#I love Leo getting better and better at his powers but the innate self isolating/self destructing nature of them never leaves#Leo: no I don’t wanna be vulnerable#His Powers: no? but what if *this*#Leo: w h y#Leo: actually what if I do it MYSELF *teleports himself into the Prison Dimension*#His Powers: 👍#Mikey: 👎 ⁉️⁉️⁉️⁉️ NO????#leos over the years isolating themselves for training and/or self punishment indirectly leading to rise leo being cursed#(also I’m still gone haha this just hit by brain and I’m too tired to not write it out lmao)
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i’d kill to be the only one you admire. who else could deserve your praise?
#do you guys ever get stuck in a mindset of like#haha they will never leave me bc there’s no one better than me#vs i’m a piece of shit and there’s nothing interesting or good abt me so they hate me and will leave eventually#dedication 🎀#obsessive love#obsessive yandere#yan blog#love sick#yandere lover#yandere bf#actual yandere#yandere blog#yan boy#yancore#yanblr#yandere
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If Bruce had the option to get his parents back but one of his kids would die he’d choose his kids every time.
But what if one of his kids had the option to get their parents back but Bruce would die?
#Cass has a problem with killing so it’s hard to say what she’d do#especially if Barbara was being considered her parent in this case#Jason had Catherine once upon a time#she wasn’t a great mom but she was sick and could get better#Tim I really can’t say#if you wanna go off fanon I think he’d choose Bruce a million times over#but I’m not and his relationship with his parents is so complex#Dick is one that truly confounds me#because my brains telling he’d pick his parents but my heart is telling me he could never#Duke would choose his parents#If we want we can include Babs and Steph#Stephanie would choose Crystal over Bruce#Babs would kill Bruce for Gordon#batman#batfamily#batfam#bruce wayne#stephanie brown#barbara gordon#cassandra cain#dcu#tim drake#duke thomas#dick grayson#jason todd
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I’m the happiest I’ve ever been in my life and. I just feel like crying over that fact. a few years ago I was sure I’d be an anxious miserable wreck for my entire life but now I wake up and I love the world and I promise one day you will too. please keep going please hold the world tight. you will giggle at something silly with a stranger. a staff member at a place you frequent will smile when they see you. an elderly person will look at you gratefully for helping them. you’ll cry about stupid stuff and laugh about it later. you’ll drink cold water during a hot day and it will be the best sensation ever. being alive is the best thing I’ve ever experienced.
#WWWAAUUUGGHGH#IM VERY EMOTIONAL. I love living I love the earth I love my friends so much#it was. so bad a few years ago#panic attacks every other day. miserable most of the time. unhealthy habits. every day felt like a bad day#but then I managed to get out of an awful situation. and I made an effort to try and love the place I live now as WELL as being homesick *#* for my home country. and I fought to notice the little things. and I went outside even when I haaated the idea of it#and now???? I’m still disabled. I still have anxiety. I’m not yet back in my home country#but my god I’m so happy in life. it does get better. everyone was right#even though I experience severe chronic pain on the daily. even though I live somewhere noisy and hot and crowded.#life is silly that way :3 I promise it gets better. it’s so cliche and it never sounds true but it is. it is#hopepunk
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toxic yuri vampires you will always be famous to me
#mysims#simblr#ts4#ts4 edit#the sims community#oc: naomi#oc: nadia#lethal devotion#I was gonna post these some other time but nie’s little smirk I’m entranced sorry#I need them both immediately. oh my god#AND NADIA 🧎🏻♀️#no greater joy in life than making oc’s with ur friends#there’s this one specific scene I’ve been thinking about between nadia and nie#okay back story nie was assigned to kill nadia her client paid top dollar to see her killed#they know nadia is powerful but not much else about her is known#nie's snuck into her kingdom by being gifted to her as a lowly maid#one of the first things nadia says to nie is she’s too pretty to be doing her laundry and she’d look better on her knees#THAT SHOULD BE MEEEE 🫵🏼#nie’s first attempt at nadia life is by poison#but as soon as nadia bites into her food she’d slowly look up at her and begin laughing in her face#she’d grab her by the throat until they’re face to face and say something like#'you think ive never been poisoned before my dearest punishment?' and kiss her with the poision still on her lips#DONT even get my started on their nicknames#nadia calling nie her sweet creature my little sacrifice my darling monster#nie would call nadia my darling god with so much disdain and hate in her voice#as if she doesn’t dream of begging at her feet every second of the day#whatever 😒
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furious that there is ONE hand-drawn frame of wolfwood, and it’s the best his character design looks in the entire show, and it’s right after meryl hit him with a truck
#trigun#mumbling#but also if there was gonna be one representative image of the guy this isn’t a bad choice all things considered#get stampeded. idiot#i’m mostly just mad that he never looks like that again????#it’s like only shot in the show where he has something resembling his actual nose???#honestly the way studio orange combines 2d and 3d animation is pretty clever a lot of the time#but unfortunately it does tend to just really drive home how much better 2d is for Character#there’s a reason everyones faces aren’t quiiiite as cgi as the rest of them
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“The Mechanical Puppet with the Borrowed Soul”
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No spoilers for the endings in the tags, please <3
#took a break from working on my assignment to sketch this out#i’m not even finished with my first run of the game and i have SOOOOO many thoughts on the relationship between Carlo and P#the tension between P and everyone who looks at him and sees Carlo and how it prevents him from getting to be his own person sometimes#as if being puppeteered by a ghost#through the borrowed soul of a boy he’s never met#yet was built in the image of#i fully believe P is his own person seperate from Carlo#whether he’s a puppet or a human#Ergo or no Ergo#and if there is an ending that tells me otherwise then i reject that reality and substitute my own#NONE OF YOU BETTER SPOIL ME IN THE TAGS OR I WILL HUNT YOU DOWN >:CCC#p#pinocchio#lies of p pinocchio#carlo#lies of p carlo#lies of p#lies of p spoilers#spoilers#lop spoilers#echosong971#art#digital art#fanart#lies of p art#lies of p fanart
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I don’t know how to explain any more clearly that it doesn’t MATTER if it seems legitimate to you. You have got to fact check every single headline and post and claim on the left just like you need to do on the right.
The left is NOT immune to misinformation and rushed reporting. And the more emotionally polarizing or shocking the talking points, sound bytes, and headlines are, the worse it is and more frequently it happens.
Learn to verify through multiple independent sources. If you can’t do that, you can’t trust it.
If you have to wait extra hours for the real information to come through vetted channels—NOT just one individual somewhere everyone links to, and not just one single media source either, EVEN if it’s a major news network—thats just how it has to be. What news outside of genuine local disasters near you TRULY needs your outrage and post-sharing in the next hour specifically?
Misinformation works best by not seeming like misinformation and by fitting in with the rest of what you already expect to see. It doesn’t help anyone to not be able to recognize and avoid the stuff.
#hey little star whatcha gonna queue?#and before I get any angry anons saying I’m making the argument that both sides are the same#I am not. and nowhere did I say that#and if your immediate reaction to any amount of criticism of leftist spaces or communication#is knee jerk outrage and defensiveness#this is an invitation to explore why that is for you.#this isn’t about anyone on here this is from conversations I’ve had with a few people IRL who have shared leftist misinformation a lot#so if you’re feeling attacked by this post and I haven’t directly spoken to you multiple times about misinformation with you responding bac#this isn’t. a vague post. about you. okay?#I cannot reiterate enough THIS IS AFTER IRL INTERACTIONS NOT A CAL OUT VAGUEPOST#and as one final note. IF YOU FOLLOW PEOPLE. WHO CONSTANTLY USE. THE MOST INFLAMMATORY WORDING CHOICES POSSIBLE.#YOU SHOULD NOT FOLLOW THOSE PEOPLE NO MATTER WHAT THEY TALK ABOUT.#no one communicating in true good faith to ALL PEOPLE about facts uses loaded language more than occasionally#the sooner you learn that the better. and that really starts narrowing down the pool of who you want to actually listen to (while still#verifying anything they tell you)#get higher standards!!!! and read some books or watch lectures about actual effective communication to broad groups without using tribalism#and also. anyone on the left trying to convince you of massive efforts and conspiracies that are anti everything#is also wrong 99% of the time and not a good source to listen to#never EVER assume conspiracy when it can be more simply explained through either#ignorance obliviousness incompetence financial greed or misunderstandings#the end. I’m really done this time. I’m just sick of seeing so many people fall prey to this#shh katie#cult escapee#politics and current events#don’t get swept up in the constant tsunami of performative online activism#election 2024#world events
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people on tumblr will literally post things like “you have to eat vegetables and expand your palate i dont care if you are a picky eater because of autism (if i can overcome it you can too)” and everybody will reblog it being like “yes this is true for everybody no matter what” and think its okay. like sorry but that wont work for everyone and there is no one size fits all and some people will never be able to eat these things no matter how hard they try. im only allowed by my doctors to eat recreationally and not for nutrition, because my ARFID is so severe that i get my nutrition solely from a specially made formula drink. your suggestions of “try vegetables roasted!” or “try them in soup!” and assurances of “i did it, you can too!” don’t work for those of us with more severe mental illnesses and disabilities. stop tying a person’s worth to their diet and stop assuming everybody has the ability to do what you can.
#seb speaks#autism#arfid#disability#i am TIRED.#for me#it’s not just sensory issues it’s a subconscious response#that reads unfamiliar foods as poisonous#this has been confirmed by all the doctors and scientists ive spoken to#actuallyautistic#i cannot have it blended to where i cant taste or feel it because even the thought#of those foods elicits panic attacks#because again. my brain reads them as poisonous. whether i want it to or not#you may say ‘this is sooo unhealthy tho’#and yes! it is! because i’m mentally ill and disabled and i will never be healthy in this department#for as long as i live#i have done 3 rounds of feeding therapy and 1 support group#and countless visits to doctors and specialists and scientists#and they have all confirmed i will not get better#so the best i can do is to drink the formula and eat my safe foods. it’s the only way i’m physically able to live#and it’s why im not dying in a hospital bed from malnutrition anymore
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We were robbed of a Hueso Jr. episode because good god I need he and Leo to interact.
I can just imagine an episode where a very busy Hueso has no choice but to ask Leo to babysit, and Leo’s like heck yeah I’d rock at that.
And of course Hueso is constantly like oh god what if something goes wrong that’s PEPINO he left with his CHILD.
So continuously throughout the episode he imagines the worst case scenarios for what could possibly be happening.
Every time Hueso imagines another catastrophic scenario the scene cuts back to Leo and Hueso Jr just calmly watching a movie or playing a game or something else equally as innocuous.
Eventually the worry gets to Hueso so much that he cuts his business short and races back home to see -
A peacefully sleeping Hueso Jr smiling as he lays snuggled up next to a shockingly quiet Leonardo.
He’s pleasantly surprised, and agrees to ask for Leo again next time he needs a babysitter.
Or, as it seems he may need to, when Hueso Jr. wants Leo to visit.
#rottmnt#rottmnt leo#rottmnt hueso#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt headcanons#you can also imagine this story as a two parter where the first is Hueso’s perspective where all he thinks will go wrong actually don’t#meanwhile the second part is Leo’s perspective where an accidental portal mishap (not Leo’s fault this time!)#(Jr may or may not have snuck into his father’s office and grabbed a portal stone)#thus begins a chase where Leo pulls out all stops to make sure this shockingly slippery child is safe#at the end they’re both exhausted but on the top of a skyscraper and Hueso Jr is just like wow#so Leo is like you know what…I can do you one better#so he shows off the view from the Empire State Building that Jr never got the opportunity to experience#obviously the kid passes out when they get back but it’s the most fun he’s ever had#anyway I’m in my all Leo’s are good with kids agenda
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