#I’m just a mess today

[nikkupsticks]

I thought maybe she’d care

[laurrelise]

i’ve done another silly little doodle :3

[flowing-between-space]

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[valeovalairs]

When I fuck something up, there’s always this little voice in the back of my head, that says, “oh fuck.” And it’s Charlie Slimecicle saying this. Every. Single. Time.

[vesper-the-great]

Happy (late) 2/2, guys!

[fumifooms]

hey i have a lore discussion for ya. so. basilisk chapter: laios is like 'wow monsters that are a mix of multiple animals are so cool! i used to have this fake monster that had all these cool attributes. but i've realized now that i'm older that it's better if a chimera only has two or three animals, instead of a bunch.' however, the Ultimate Monster has about 12 animals in it. and because chilchuck says 'i thought he grew out of this', it's clearly not a continuity error. 1/2

So. Do you think this Ultimate Monster transformation was influenced by the Winged Lion, and it's evidence that the Winged Lion was specifically preying on the fantasies of laios when he was a kid dreaming about being a monster? i've never seen anyone talk about how odd it is that despite laios saying 'chimeras are better if it's just one or two monsters', he still likes his Ultimate Monster design, and even adds the third head to it during the story. 2/2

You’re right that this is a layered topic, but no I don’t think it’s a fantasy he only had as a kid that the WL had to dig for. Below we have a EverydayHeroes Scans glossary page plus the final chimera sketch. As you said, the third head is added during the story. "That scylla sure was cool, let’s add a wolf head in there." Something which he has to note down before going to fight the Winged Lion.

Notice the emphasis on "cool". I think the familiar chapter is the other major relevant bit for this plot thread. It shows us with no ambiguity that Laios does care about aesthetics. It shows us that he can build a monster through logic and be reasonable about it, but he’s also not immune from getting carried away.

Ultimately, it’s still Marcille who builds the perfect familiar that succeeds for the situation, and Laios undermines it for its looks before seeing it in action. Marcille here ALSO mentions how he ‘should have grown out of this phase’.

So yes I mean, I think it’s clear that Laios’ fantasy is a fantasy, it’s not rational or logical or even something good that would work out, and even he knows that. Kind of like how when the winged lion showed him visions of a golden kingdom he reigned over during the succubus-induced dream he ended up saying "yeah… Things wouldn’t be so simple". The winged lion draws from deep seated desires, wether or not the person knows it’s stupid or that they shouldn’t, morally or otherwise, doesn’t matter. The winged lion is brute forcing through enticement for them to cave in. I don’t think Laios thinks becoming a monster would be all that he’s hoped for rationally, especially after seeing the whole chimera Falin situation. It’s like people irl saying they’d like to be a housecat and lounge all day; it’s a fantasy but not something that would really work out, as most people can acknowledge while nevertheless still keeping that pleasant daydream. The winged lion calls it out too! "If you’d wanted to be another kind of monster instead of animal, you’d be invincible right now". His preference for chimeras itself is a matter of taste and not practicality. It’s not well thought out, it’s a craving. Laios wanting to be a chimera is a soup mix of comfort fantasy and childhood coping mechanism and special interest hobby and idealization, and more.

And!!! That’s the point! What saves the world, how Laios saves the world, isn’t a flawless plan! What saves the world is Laios’ most authentic most flawedly human desires, ones he couldn’t control or repress. It’s the weird interest that everyone shamed and denigrated, his uniqueness and feeling of disconnect towards humans, that ultimately saves humanity. Because he genuinely desired becoming a monster, genuinely had that hungry curious nature in the deepest corner of his soul.

The Winged Lion doesn’t work through thoughts and the brain but through wants that are more primal, in your guts, in your heart. It doesn’t seek to checkmate you through logic, it wants you to surrender yourself willingly through manipulating your wants, your weaknesses, your emotions.

It’s like Laios’ curse at the end too, and even the succubus. If Laios were to rationally go through these desires-based trials, it’d reflect his actual wants, instead of just desires and cravings: the curse would have been that Falin can’t be revived, and his most alluring form would have been Falin safe. Dunmeshi in this way is kind of about the struggle of rising above our animality and these deep seated desires that go against productivity and what we actually want, like say, always feeling physically hungry even if you’ve eaten more than enough and knowing you should stop there. Like, it’s why we’re talking about allure and enticement.

Like aughhhh!! Why Laios got to eat desires is because he genuinely wanted to see how it tasted so bad, it wouldn’t have been granted by the lion if it wasn’t something he truly desired, like <3 it’s not something he could have simply strategized he needed to genuinely want it. It wasn’t the plan. It wasn’t plan A or B or C.

Laios my favorite fucked up cinnamon roll who saves the world through his authentic selfish desires

But no I don’t think Winged Lion was preying on his kid fantasies as much as like. The remnants of it that are still there and repressed in him. Kinda like how Marcille’s desire is also about childhood trauma, but if it’d been processed better it might have been different. I do feel like irl we carry a lot of stuff with us that was shaped in our childhoods, often some level of unhealthy and irrational that we have to kinda work through and be like ok that’s enough of that let’s be serious now. And yeah! Yeah. You’re very right that his chimera is strongly associated with his childhood desires though. It’s just that these desires really do stick, and sometimes they can overtake logic, wether or not you’re an adult and wether or not you have a demon on your shoulder telling you to let yourself be tempted.

So yes! Laios knows that a chimera with fewer animals is logically better, but a True Heart’s Desire isn’t always rational or good and his heart yearns for the Rule of Cool.

It’s, again, like the succubi! Laios is interesting for this because the thing with succubi is that they freeze people: they make the prey freeze and not want to resist/run away, but they don’t make it reciprocate either. They don’t- they don’t usually have to reason with them and be like "no i swear we’re totally real <3". Like no one in the party thinks there’s any chance of hot naked blonde women, general Hareus or Izu’s mom actually walking out of the darkness in the dungeon, especially since they were already on guard and knew succubi were going to attack. But with Laios it was more complex than that. And I think it’s way less "oh haha yeah what you’re saying makes so much sense" and more "I want to believe this is real so for a lack of a better reaction I’m just going to not do anything, maybe just maybe it might be". Again it’s enticement, it appeals to your desires. Again it doesn’t operate on a rational level, and that makes sense because the succubi are monsters who seek to trigger your fight or flight or freeze instinct and make it land on freeze; it doesn’t operate on a rational level but a deep seated one that seeks to shortcircuit logic and better instincts. And part of that was Laios’ succubus going "oh your party members have 4 heads each!!!! Ain’t that cool!!!" like, his desire for chimeras and many headed monsters is so not rooted on a logical level.

It’s a silly fantasy. He thinks several heads are cool and he wants them, like the familiar he makes with Marcille. He chooses aesthetic over practicality becahse he wants to try and believe it’ll work out so bad, and truly I can’t blame him.

[myokk]

fast sketch for today💓💓

[sexologii]

not to be mushy, but sometimes I see my little underdogs on this show, and they’re just so tired from the game and they’re having a moment of being down and they’re ready to throw in the towel, and I sit behind my screen saying “there’s a lot of game left to play, don’t give up just yet” and then in my life, I’m just having a period of being extremely down and I’m just so ready to give up on everything and I don’t know, there’s a lot of life left to live

[katnissmellarkkk]

unpopular opinion maybe(?) but i’m so very happy gale did not die in mockingjay. i know a lot of fans across the internet really wish he would have died instead of finnick but that would have bothered me to absolutely no end. because it would have cheapened katniss’ choice. take away the fact that she would have inevitably grieved gale and that it would have broken her heart and that she would have ultimately needed time to process the loss before growing back together with peeta. take all that away and you’re still left with the fact that if gale was dead, peeta would have always looked like a consolation prize.

[ectoplasmer]

You know that saying about how moles and freckles are places where your soulmate liked to kiss you in your past life? Imagine your f/o taking every chance they get to kiss you on those exact spots. Having them sneak a quick peck to the area and seeing them smile to themselves against the skin before they pull away. Them kissing an area where there are a lot of marks over and over again, as if they’re trying to appreciate each and every one. Them grabbing your hand and lifting it to their lips to kiss any spots there, or having them roll up your sleeve to peck any marks, having them sit in front of you to kiss any along your legs… just your f/o making sure you know they love kissing you on those specific spots <3

[moonchildstyles]

prosecco h at her graduation!! he would have the biggest bouquet of flowers and take so many pics of her just bringing her around the school so that he can get a pic of her in front of every building and she is all embarrassed when she notices that everyone is staring at how adorable they are because harry has the biggest grin on his face the whole time

no you know he would have HUGGEEEEE flowers and be so excited the whole time just so proud of her and I’m so obsessed w all the pics they’d take and he’s just so clingy and happy w her even if she’s a little embarrassed from how much attention ppl are giving bc he’s being so much😭

[the-bi-space-ace]

There’s something tender yet sharp about Echo. He’s kind and full of heart but he’s fiery and passionate. He has strong values and a strong wit but he will adapt if/when the situation needs him to.

[vaciena]

I think it just hit me that I’m actually getting better

[polarmary]

I’ve come across some posts stating that Kotoko having a normal upbringing and no trauma would make more sense with the whole “being able to see yourself in the characters” and that “anyone can be/ turn out this way” unlike if she had an unhealthy upbringing and a traumatic past but, bear with me-

This post is not about her ideals in any way, as those can form in someone that suffered injustice themselves, watched injustice happen in front of them or simply watches the news.

What I want to say is that, when it comes to looking at someone - or a character for that matter - and being able to think “that could be me/I could turn out like this” comes with specific circumstances. After all, which makes you feel like it could be you, a character that didn’t go through any hardship or trauma going after their goal or a character that went through trauma and hardship? Doesn’t the latter give a feeling of “if they can end up like that then maybe I can too” even if you never went through anything yourself?

The “normal” character already had a head start - not having mental or physical problems blocking their way - While some “normal” people could still be able to view the character as someone they could turn out to be, others couldn’t and specifically people that went through trauma and bad upbringings. They would be put apart, the thought it gives is simply “of course, they didn’t have to go through xxxx, I could never turn out like this” and that breaks the whole purpose of this type of character no?

However, a character that does have a complicated past that left scars - either mentally or physically or even both - still choosing to chase after their goal instead of giving up does give a feeling of it being possible to become like them no matter what your upbringing was, not setting anyone apart and truly being what this type of character is supposed to be!

Of course this is merely my opinion on the subject, I’m not the voice of reason after all!

I also want to note that I’m not trying to say that kotoko’s behaviour/ mentality and ideals are a good thing to have as they are both harmful to others but also much more harmful to herself

[uhbasicallyjustmilex]

my heart is NOT coping with the following:

miles choosing one of the earliest solo songs he co-wrote with alex as his slow song to play in dublin

said song already having a special place as the record ender to his first album

said song also involving the lyrics “if you just get it together and read my mind” and “i have learned to wait and you have learned that you can make me”

miles posting black and white videos of him playing it with so much nostalgia and emotion i literally started welling up on the train

[mrsoharaa]

I’m sorry but I’M JUST SO VERY THRILLED NOT TO SHOW YALL MY HUSBAND WHO FINALLY MADE IT BACK HOME 😭😭🫶🏼