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sadnightforus · 11 months ago

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YOU MIGHT BE SLEEPING (LJY)

biker boyfriend!juyeon x gn!reader

SYNOPSIS: In an attempt to surprise you for the 500 days anniversary, he took you on a ride to his favorite places that are far away from the city, after various complaints from you that you found nothing to do in Seoul.

WORD COUNT: 3.9K

WARNINGS: none… we reached this point guys (besides the mentioning of Eric being a super rich guy that’s all). too much fluff *insert the crying waterfall emoji because normal emoji does not cut it*

A/N: don’t know if y’all know this but I was inspired by that one particular fanmade video. the og concept was supposed to have a bad boy vibe but he looks too good in that middle pic so I have to comply with this one instead. so cute, I’m kicking my feet fr. also omg full on fluffy soft fic from me??? I Will Die. 😭😭😭

ALSO THIS IS THE FANMADE VID.

reblogs, comments and likes are appreciated!

You’re bored of Seoul.

Don’t get it wrong, you don’t hate the city at all. But Seoul always has something going on. The streets look amazing during the day and night and there’s modern technology everywhere. Everything seems so fancy and lavish. You’re proud of how far the world has come.

Even though it’s incredibly hard to earn a quiet time for yourself since it’s a really busy city and if you want complete silence, you have to block out their own voices. It’s hard to ignore the presence of others when there are loud noises and so many people at once.

However, for you, it’s also the city of love.

You met Juyeon when you both first enrolled into the same college and happened to closely share a semester together due to the duo group work your professor was making you do (and the deadline was well over 2 weeks). Those 2 weeks were blissful, you used to think he was a bit cold and even more so, a bit too full of himself, since he is immediately dubbed as ‘the dancing prince’ and he hangs out with the popular crowd. But your first impressions didn’t matter because he was incredibly nice and polite, and was so helpful when helping you with the project too, be it ideas or just offering to take places in completing the work. And you both ended up getting an A due to the outstanding efforts you put into your work, which you have to thank your amazing partner for.

And after the project ended, he still keeps in contact with you, insisting that you’re quite an interesting individual to know and hope to develop a further friendship. A total lie from him because he later admitted that when you both got into a relationship with the saying that by then, he already liked you and he just wanted to see if he has a chance with you.

Now back to the present.

It’s Saturday and you both are on a semester break. You live with your roommate/coworker and she’s off to work already, leaving you alone in this apartment as it’s your day off today. You were cleaning up your room and wiping off the dust off the furniture when suddenly you received a phone call. You look at your caller ID and you can’t help but smile when you see who it is.

So you pick up, pausing your cleaning process so you can talk to him just a little bit.

“Hi, my pretty baby.”

That name never fails to flatter you and make your heart jump out of your chest.

“Hey there, pretty boy.”

You think you do a pretty job concealing your flustered face and tone (rightfully, sue him for reducing you into a mushy lover). Otherwise, you would’ve been so embarrassed if he knew he had done irreversible damage to you.

“You don’t have any plans for anything today, right?”

“Why? You wanna take me to one of Eric’s father’s fancy restaurants?”

“Great idea, actually.” He laughs, humoring you along. It’s no secret that Juyeon loves spoiling you. He had a hard exterior, according to all of your friends and you yourself. But when you guys began dating, they were subjected to the PDA between you two and their opinions on him quickly changed because just who is this guy? And plus, he also likes to take you on a new adventure.

Somehow, it makes you feel like a naïve teenage girl who’s dating a bad boy and you always wanted to ask him if he is truly one (even if you know he works part-time as a barista for his parents’ café shop). It’s hard to believe that someone as perfect as him can possibly exist. It’s unbelievable.

“I was wondering if you’d like to join me for today's exploring.” He shyly explains and you can feel his shy smile tugs through his tone. What have you done in your past life to get a guy like him wrapped around your finger? Whatever you were doing, you’ve done it right.

“If it’s Seoul, I’ve practically walked through every shady alleyway. It’s no fun.” You whine, your wet cloth cleaning off the dust is long forgotten amidst the phone call between you and your lover.

“It’s not Seoul. I wanna take you somewhere else.” He keeps it vague and you suspect that he has a surprise for you.

“Okay, let me clean myself up a bit.” You exclaim, putting down the wet cloth and hanging it up to dry from your bedroom (in your defense, it’s not dirty at all. You have a habit of wiping off your dust often and you definitely don’t have enough time in your hand to clean it right now).

“Can you pick me up in an hour and a half?” You ask him, strutting around in your room to go to your bathroom to freshen yourself up.

“You can still show up in sweats and I’d still think you’re the most beautiful person I’ve ever seen.” He says, means every single word of it because he thinks you’re pretty. So goddamn pretty he loses his mind over you and he doesn’t believe that he’s the one who gets to have you all the time.

“Lee Juyeon, shut up. I think I stink. Do you honestly like it when I’m sweating like a dog?” You make a gagging face while you’re putting on your cleansing foam.

“The sweats can’t wipe away your beauty.” His reply makes you want to bang your head into the wall so bad.

God, he’s such a romantic.

“I’m showering. You can save that sappiness when you pick me up later.” You furiously blush, trying to get him to end the call so you can get ready to go wherever he leads you to.

“I’ll see you later then, baby.”

And the line is disconnected.

You sulk a bit before putting your device back as you snap back to reality. But you’re also beyond excited where he will take you to today.

So you divert your attention back onto getting ready and hoping that the new things you’ve been wanting to try out will work.

“You look absolutely breathtaking.” Is the first thing Juyeon says after he comes to pick you up.

You decide to wear a black big cozy jacket, combined with black jeans and white shirt, which goes with his similar casual wear that he chooses.

There’s a spark in his eyes as he scams your whole body. A boyish smile yet so much of a shyness ticks behind that expression. He hands you a helmet, to which you still remember that the particular item is a gift from his dad who bought motorcycle tools equipment as a present for his 19th birthday and that includes the helmet you’re holding in your hand. You check to see if it has been unlocked yet. Once you see that it does, you quickly put it on your head, adjusting it properly before locking it and you gently hop onto the vehicle, excited for the ride.

“Are you ready?” He asks, wanting to make sure that you’re seating yourself comfortably before the motorcycle takes off.

“I’m all done.”

And you hear the engine takes off, as the vehicle takes both of you far away from your place.

The air feels fresher than usual, the atmosphere and the feelings remind you of the old Hong Kong movies you used to watch with your friends as a teenager. You always dream of doing something wild and adventurous to feel the essence of the ‘neon & loneliness’— something that has been used to precisely describe those types of movies. And now it’s like you’re living your dreams out.

If it’s a dream then you don’t want to wake up from it.

His soft woody cologne that radiates from his body all makes you feel like everything is in a daze and you’re the main protagonist of those films that you always loved. How did you get so lucky?

The motor is being driven further away from the city and you’ve crossed numerous luxurious stores and fancy places as you hold on tight to your lover. You’ve seen different kinds of people today; the sad, the happy, the singles, the couples, the divorced, the kids, teenagers, adults and you think you might’ve driven past celebrities by accident too.

Your eyes are trained to watch the road and take your worries off the daily life you’re experiencing today. You think though, instead, it’s making you realize something very precious about life.

People can be in a state of anything, regardless of their age. And they’re diverse, they have something to tell. Behind every person, there’s a story that is waiting for a person to uncover those. Uncover the deepest, best and worst parts of themselves.

You think you’re lucky that your boyfriend is the most gentle and caring person who always brings out the best part of yourself. Never once had you ever felt as if you were held back or restricted from good opportunities. He always encourages you to chase after your dream, while he steadily works towards his goal.

The short breeze through the city now has long escaped. You both are going somewhere unfamiliar, although you’re not sure how exactly familiar he is with where he plans to take you. However, you know better than to doubt him when he is quite literally the very same person with a really great taste in everything.

Your thoughts do eventually come to a stop as he drives to a gas station and by that time, it’s around 3 and a half in the afternoon. The vehicle’s engine is no longer running after he shuts the power off and you know it’s time you get off the bike.

“I’d like to fill in the tank please.” Is what he says. His honey voice, ever so softly, makes you wonder how people aren’t falling for him already. The staff comes to him immediately and helps fill in the gas as per request.

“Do you want to buy something?” He turns to ask you. “Or do you need to use the bathroom?”

“Not really.” You respond as you shake your head.

You both stand while waiting for them to pump the gas and calculate the bill. And when you both are done, he gears up the vehicle to signal that the adventure is nowhere done. You hop on it, excited to see what will be waiting for you.

You both leave the place,

Your boyfriend’s scent soon lures you to sleep, with you being barely able to open your eyes. It hasn’t been that long that you fall asleep together with him, but you both are somehow always away with the college assignments and personal workloads that are being dumped on you. Having him really close for the first time in 3 weeks does nothing but really makes you want to rest up.

And you think to yourself, hmm, screw that. He’ll wake me up when we arrive at the place.

Then you lay your head and close eyes as you feel yourself drifting further away to the dreamland that has been long awaited for you.

You woke up once you felt like you were being carried.

You didn’t register it until you felt the abnormality of the said body pillow that you’ve been resting on start moving up and going even gradually higher. It’s only then that you open your eyes, consciousness not fully hitting you yet as your exhaustion keeps luring you to the dreamland. However, since you don’t have such a habit of sleeping when you are being moved around, you try your very best to open your eyes and pray that the sunlight will hit your eyes, although it’s unlikely as the sky beams with the color of soft orange and yellow, like a beautiful fire in flames.

“Ju-”

“Shh, baby. Just sleep.” He shushes you, continuing to give you a piggyback ride. You immediately protest and almost go feral and also, almost cause a disturbance to him too.

“I’m wide awake, you can put me down and I can walk.”

“Nice try, but no.” He chuckles and you can already imagine the most annoying yet such a beautifully crafted boyish grin plastered all over his face. He’s lovely– that’s just who he is.

“But where are you taking me?” You ask, eyes now can’t close on their own as your sleepiness already wears off from talking earlier.

“You’ll see.”

And several minutes later, you both reach a part of a town that you’re sure has never been here before. He seems to be lost, with the way he hesitates to take a step further as he walks.

“But Ju…” You whine. “Can’t you tell where you’re going?” You plead for him to give an answer, you so badly wanted to know what place he will show you this time.

“Nuh uh.” He shakes his head a bit, still insisting on being mysterious and vague with the direction you’re heading.

“But will you put me down? It’s uncomfortable being carried when I’m like, awake.” You complain and he finally gives in, sighing as he puts you down and you almost stumble forward and fall as the gravity feels new to you and if your boyfriend wasn’t there to catch you at all, you’d certainly slip by now.

“Thank you.” You mumble out.

“You good to go?” He asks, offering you his hand to hold as you busk in a new, unfamiliar place together. His eyes sparkle up, light of hope and love, so much adoration stores up in a gaze of his that belongs to a person that you’re proud to call him yours.

You’re losing track of yourself with the way you keep looking at him without a word, like a dumbfounded teenager that has no idea what they should do when they harbor romantic feelings towards their crush. But he lets you, until you gulp down to wet your throat and proceed with the next thing you’re going to say.

“Yes.” You have a dopey smile on your face. “I can’t wait.”

And you both take one step, two steps and more steps forward. Until you get inside the mysterious building.

Your boyfriend is not a man of many words, but his actions are always sincere. When he speaks, he always expresses his love for you.

You can even say that in almost two years of your relationship, you never have to doubt his feelings for you. That’s just how transparent he is. You don’t think you can find a greater love than him.

With more steps further, you make it past the door and you see many abstract arts and paintings being hung, scattered all across the wall. Each frame and piece, colorfully coming together to make a piece of stories that is waiting to be told. The lines that piece it together, asymmetrically perfect in a way that it never seems to be out of place, although if you separate it, it wouldn’t make much sense to the naked eyes that only saw the remaining pieces and never get the chance to witness the beauty of the completion and harmony that lies in the form of crafts that you see with your own eyes.

Similarly, that’s how you feel about your boyfriend.

Not many people know him and you always had the impression that he was rather cold and closed off. That’s how he appears to the outsiders. The description of him from fellow classmates and his friends are drastically different because they never get to fully see what he is like as a person.

A person who is full of love to give to others, the one who dotes on others and is full of adventures.

Life with him is never boring, he brings a new kind of joy in your life. The kind of excitement that is dangerous, but you’ll let him lead you to go anywhere, even if it’s a thousand miles away. You trust him to keep you safe because never once had you been harmed or run into dangers.

He instructs you to stand in front of him, you do so without a question. He pulls out a silky fabric and you already know what he wants to do– blindfolds you for the surprise. You let him as he carefully wraps the material around your eyes in a gentle manner to ensure that it doesn’t hurt you.

“Hold my hand and follow me.” He speaks to you softly and you nod your head. “I want to show you something.”

In a sight of darkness that is hard to break from, you let him guide you. He’s your light amongst all of this and you know he’ll never let you slip or stray away. With careful steps forwarding on the stairs and going up, further and further and then the floor feels smoother without the anxiety of reckoning, it only takes a bit to finally realize you’re past the staircase.

You feel like time freezes and you’re not sure how much time has passed by, although you think it’s not that much. It’s by far, the most anticipated thing for you.

Then you hold his hand tighter as he takes you in this unfamiliar place.

You’re not the only one with so much adoration for your significant other. Your boyfriend is no different from you.

For Juyeon, being with you makes him feel like he’s in heaven. There’s no greater feeling than your presence around.

You heal a broken part of him that he didn’t know existed until you become the most cherished and frequent presence in his life, which is no doubt, loneliness.

You’re calming, intelligent and intriguing. You’re an open book, but also, a mystery that he wants to keep uncover. He can lose himself in just studying about you and he wouldn’t care. You’re that someone to him who he trusts, with all of his life.

When he inherited a motorcycle as a present from his parents in 11th grade, he usually rode it everywhere alone, even when he had friends. He discovered many fascinating locations, hearing every kind of life story from strangers whom he met on the road when he did his little exploring and witnessed people going through many stages of life. He used to watch people flirting and he wished that he had someone else to share his perspective and sightseeing with.

You came along unexpectedly and stole his heart away. He can barely imagine a life without you now. The things you do to his heart is unhealthy. You’re the sole reason that his burning passion for life doesn’t become something he deeply despises.

The once cold seat of the motorcycle is now replaced by the warmth of you. And he wouldn’t want to have it in any other way.

He has seen many beautiful things that calm and heal his soul, but none of it were you.

He thought beauty lies in the empty roads of complete darkness, or constellations and stars in the sky. But it’s clearly you, who is a Venus personified.

He’s in love and he’s not hiding it.

Which is why he wants to show you this view.

By stopping in his track as he has reach the final destination, he reaches to slowly the blindfold off your eyes, all while tells you to still your eyes closed and only open under his command.

Both of you walk further and further away, with the help of Juyeon who guides you in the desired direction. Cold breeze hits you and you realize now that you’re most likely on the balcony and not in the secured walls of this building.

“Open your eyes, baby.”

You let the light penetrate your vision as the skin that covers your seeing splits apart.

The view is breathtaking.

The sky turns into a light beat of deep orange, pale blue, deep pink and purple. You see the simplicity, the complexity and something so lively.

You see how the sky slowly turns itself into a pitch black, as the colors start to beautifully blend themselves, creating an unforgettable view that spreads through all across the universe from your own eyes. The wind blows slowly, as if to celebrate the magic of your shared happiness with him, which makes the moment even more unreal.

The lights that hang from there only intensifies its beauty.

You see polaroids of you both together being decorated, some you weren’t aware that the pictures were being taken. There are books and a table for dining that are put together like high end restaurants and you have no doubt that it wasn’t just a one day of work at all.

“Happy 500 days anniversary.” He tells you, hand gently caressing you. “This house originally belonged to my grandpa. He has since passed it down to me.” He states so ever so softly and you’re shell shocked.

“He told me that if I find someone special, I should bring them here. Because this house witnesses how my grandma and grandpa love each other and everyday is always special to them. For a long time, I didn’t understand what he meant because the idea of a lover that exists in a lonely person’s story doesn’t make sense. But I met you, my special person. I want this house to witness our love, too.”

You have tears brimming in your eyes as you listen to him speak further, all while his gaze lovingly settles on you and his thumbs wipe your tears.

“I didn’t know what love was until I met you. When you’re away, I miss you. When you’re sleeping, I wish you’re awake so I can tell you some jokes that make you laugh.”

“Me too.” You lose yourself into the warm brown eyes of his. “When I think about you, all my sadness disappears. It’s cliché, I know. But.. I think I’m so lucky to have you.” You choke on your own silent sob as he presses light kisses onto your lips.

“I’m so lucky to have you too.” He says truthfully. “I never believe in destiny, but I think we’re destined to love each other.”

And under the now moonlight that slowly shines onto you both, he cups your face and kisses you with all his might, as fireworks go off in the sky, as if to be a witness of this beautiful love story.

You don’t care for any of that as he whispers ‘I love you’ and you whisper one back too.

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ominousvibez · 10 months ago

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So I originally published this post a little bit ago about how important it felt to me that Arin should remain without an element in Dragons Rising, because it would be such an interesting character arc to explore. But I also published that super late at night and it was more a train of thought, not something fully written, but I want to expand on this more.

Arin should not have an element, and here’s why.

(Runtime: 3:29:09) (JK I’ve just been watching hbomberguy vids for the last week)

When we’re first introduced to Arin as a character, he’s shown to be a huge ninja fan. He carried around Lloyd’s mask for God knows how long, too afraid to wash it in fear of damaging it. He wears it as a mask, too, when he tries to be just like the heroes he looks up to (which is a lil’ gross buddy). He propped the ninja up as these great heroes, and his optimism generally bounced nicely off Sora’s more pessimistic view of the world.

Arin grew up with the stories of the ninja, so it makes sense that he would try to emulate his heroes. And when he meets Lloyd, and starts training to be a ninja, well, it’s kinda his dream come true.

Other people have compared Arin’s character to that of a longtime Ninjago Fan IRL, too. He knows the lore, he knows the stories, he knows about the ninja. Sora, on the other hand, is the opposite, and a good representation of the new fans in the audience. She didn’t know these brightly color-coded ninjas existed until the Merge, after she ran away from everything she knew in Imperium, and she’s just trying to survive with her silly bestie Arin.

But then, Sora unlocks her elemental ability over technology—a new elemental ability, unlike anything seen before in Ninjago—and the story really begins.

Throughout the first season, it focuses a lot on Sora’s struggle with mastering her new abilities. At first she thinks it’s something that only their dragon baby Riyu can activate with her, but then starts to think that all her efforts lead to suffering, before finally coming full-circle and accepting them as her own, eventually unlocking her true potential in the climax of the second half of Season 1. BendoBricks on Youtube has a much better breakdown of her character arc, which I’d really recommend, cause I’m not here to focus on her.

No, I want to focus on Arin.

Arin—the long-time Ninjago fan’s self-insert baby boy who I would gladly kill for—is a great character, and despite being the POV character at the beginning of the first season, does fall to the wayside a bit when focus goes onto Sora and her character arc. Which is fine, don’t get me wrong—because Arin falling a bit to the side feels like it’s being done on purpose.

Imagine this. You’re a fan of this group of superheroes in your world, and you spend your days wishing you’d be like them. Or maybe you’d daydream about your parents selling you to these superheroes, or something. And something really bad happens, the world completely changes, and then you’re on your own, and those superheroes vanished.

You make friends in this new world, and you share these stories with your new friends! It’s great. And then one of those heroes comes back, and wants to train you and your friend to be heroes, too, as your friend has a superpower. Doesn’t that sound absolutely amazing!

You’re a prodigy, too—you’ve trained and taught yourself the techniques these heroes used, and they’re all impressed. But your friend has a superpower.

And you don’t.

This is the situation Arin is in. Everyone around him has an elemental ability. Sora, Riyu, Lloyd, Kai, Nya, Zane—everyone he basically associates with daily has this amazing power (or is a cute lil’ dragon). And he doesn’t have anything. Even though he’s taught himself how to use Spinjitzu, and has managed to unlock a technique where he can transfer that spinning energy to an item, he doesn’t technically have an elemental ability. It’s less impressive compared to other characters, especially the ninja, who have known Spinjitzu for like thirteen years. It’s impressive he’s learned it on his own, unlocked the key for it by himself, but in comparison, he doesn’t have a lot to set him apart from the other ninja other than the fact that he doesn’t have an element.

In my opinion, this would be a much more interesting route for them to take his character. Staying without an element.

Of course, it could later be found out that Arin’s a new elemental master of, like, momentum, or something like that, to explain how he picked up Spinjitzu so quickly and can transfer it to objects, but I think that would be the lazy way out.

Arin’s character acts as an amazing foil to Sora through Season 1. He’s a ninja fanboy, she kinda doesn’t care. He’s energetic, optimistic. She’s cautious and a bit pessimistic. Arin later gains oni-like horns on his ninja gi, and Sora is associated heavily with dragons (which I’ve heard is quite a duality in the lore, idk I haven’t seen the later seasons yet).

Sora is an elemental master, and Arin… isn’t.

Bits of a new character arc can be seen through S1 for Arin. In the last few episodes of the series, while Sora masters her element, Arin withdraws a bit from it all. In Episode 10, following the first battle in Imperium, he sits by himself, away from the others, and dejectedly tells Lloyd, “If you have all of them, you don’t need me anymore”, before it cuts to not just Kai, Zane, and Nya; but also, Sora and Riyu. Their conversation was less about Arin’s lack of an elemental ability, and more of Arin’s fear of losing others; they have a similar conversation in episode 20, where Arin laments his object Spinjitzu only being accessible when he’s literally scared to shit and how frustrating it is, and Lloyd comments on how all of the ninja had moments when they were scared, but they acted through the fear.

I feel like both of those scenes happening in the mid-season and season finale happen interestingly. For once, they center Arin by himself; he’s sitting aside by the wall, messing with a shuriken in ep 10, and he’s throwing the shuriken and trying to activate his object Spinjitzu in ep 20; but they both put him on the sidelines, away from others.

(Okay I know in ep 20 Sora is also by herself with her mech, but Arin is still aside, so my point still stands.)

The opportunity of a character like Arin not ever developing an elemental ability like the other ninja feels like something almost too good to waste. Before Nya became the Water Ninja (and when she was actually allowed to be a character and not just The Girl), Nya had interesting moments, such as developing Samurai X as a way to be a part of the team without actually being a ninja.

I think the ideal character arc for Arin would work similarly to Sora’s, but flipped, if that makes sense. Perhaps having him attempt to unlock an elemental ability, running out of luck with everything, and getting frustrated at his lack of worth, despite his skills with Spinjitzu, would be an interesting way to go for his character. Eventually he would learn that he doesn’t need to have a cool elemental ability to be a ninja; he’s just fine as he is. And maybe that can be what’s holding him back from truly developing his object Spinjitzu is that fear that he’s not worthy enough to be a ninja. He turns his lack of elemental power into his strength.

The DR writers have a cool arc they could give him, and I think they ought to go for it. I’m sure more about Arin will be revealed in S2, and he’ll have his character arc then. I just hope that the writers don’t take the easy way out, and give Arin a much more interesting character arc than the same “omg I have an elemental ability I gotta learn” that Ninjago has done multiple times already.

#ninjago #ninjago dragons rising #ninjago dr #arin ninjago #ninjago arin #analysis #ninjago analysis #i just really love him okay.#i will protect him i want to see him grow healthy #i want to tell my friends and family about him #i hope this makes more sense than my first post L M A O #ominouswrites

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writingjourney · 2 years ago

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ziplocked love pt. 2 | dew x fem!reader

Summary: Dewdrop is away on tour and you’re struggling more than you care to admit to him.

Content: 4k words, fluff, a bit of angst, smut (18+ only, facetime sex, mutual masturbation, vaginal fingering, dirty talk, nudes), more soft dew, more banter, aether being a cutie

Part 1 | Part 2| Part 3 | Part 4 | Ao3 link

Again, this is 18+ only because it contains explicit content. I am already preparing for this to vastly underperform xD Thanks to everyone for your help with the donuts! Hope you enjoy!

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Summary: Dew is away on tour and you’re struggling more than you care to admit to him.

One big advantage of living in the ghoul’s den is that they have their own kettle. You don’t need to walk all the way to the kitchens for the comforts of a late night tea. Instead all you have to do is carry your mug from the kitchen area down the hall to Dew’s bedroom, lock the door and settle into your pile of blankets. The tea doesn’t warm you up quite as well as your boyfriend does, but the options are limited and you take what you can get.

Your phone buzzes right when you take the first sip.

S: Send me a hot pic to keep me going ‘til I’m alone later, baby.🍑

You smile at your screen and contemplate Dew’s request, staring at the peach emoji he added. You could just do it or… No. You end up sending a pic of your steaming tea mug instead.

Y: Like this?

D: Haha.

Y: Have to be more specific.

He doesn’t reply for another five minutes. The ritual starts soon and with the time difference, it’s getting late for you. While waiting, you try to snap a seductive picture of your baby blue panties. You’re wearing Dew’s shirt with a big inverted pentagram on it but his smell has already faded and even though his room does still smell like him, it feels like you’re taking over more and more. He’s only gone for a month but time stretches so long these days.

D: Skin, baby. Please.

You send him one of the pics you just took, your hip only covered by the tiny panties, the hem of the shirt visible at the edge right where your belly starts. Y: Only ‘cause you asked so nicely.

D: Cute.

You frown at the screen. Y: That’s all I get?

D: Babe, if you want more you have to send more.

Y: And what do I get?

D: Compliments.

Y: Nah, thanks. I know I’m hot.

You think you got him, watch the three dots on the screen blinking, then stopping, then blinking again. He’s probably speechless now, used to you revelling in his praise, maybe you can even get him to beg. But no. You lose the game, the dots disappear. Never gamble with a demon.

You startle when the device starts vibrating a second later. As always, his picture lighting up your screen makes your heart flutter. You saved him under Little Menace after you learned that he saved you under Little Minx. Seeing the name always makes you smile.

„Hey, handsome,“ you say. „Calling to beg?“

Dew scoffs. „Calling to hear your voice since you won’t give me anything else.“

„Aw, I love you, too.“

„Babe,“ he warns.

„What?“

„Is it so bad that I miss your body?“

You chuckle. „No, but you already have a ton of nudes.“

„I need new ones every day, you can’t expect me to be happy with the one hundred and fifty-three that I have!“ He sighs when you don’t answer. „You just love being mean to me. Letting me starve.“

„I do. Because you’re cute when you get desperate.“

„All I heard was I’m cute and I agree.“ He hums, a happy drawn-out sound that makes you smile. „Okay, I have a proposal. You send me a pic. A really good pic. And later, when I use it, I’m recording that for you.“

„I’m listening.“

„What, that’s not enough?“

„No, I have a bunch of nut vids of you. And I’ll be asleep by then. Where’s the excitement?“

You’re teasing him. Of course it’s enough, of course you’re happy with any crumb he throws your way. He often sends you pictures of himself in front of the venues they’re performing at or just random things he finds interesting and you eat it all up. Last week he sent you a pic of some random person’s cat, saying it reminded him of you, and you couldn’t wipe the grin off your face for hours.

„How about I add some extra pictures? Come on, you’re getting a video and a bunch of pics for just one nude. Great deal, if you ask me.“

You can’t help but chuckle. „Hmmmm. Alright, I think that’s okay.“

„You’re messing with me. You know fully well that you’ve got me wrapped around your finger, you little minx.“

„You’re just very horny,“ you say, smirking at the use of the nickname. „Making deals while horny is never a good idea, baby. Shouldn’t you know that, as a student of the infernal dealmaker?“

„I do know that but you left me no choice.“ He pauses and you wish you could see him. „Wait a sec. How the hell did you manage to trick me when I’m the one who’s supposed to trick humans?“ You hear shuffling on his side, a door, voices. „Fuck, I need to get ready. I love you, baby. And send the fucking pic, I swear it’s urgent.“

With that he’s gone and you let out a sigh of disappointment, the sudden quiet surrounding you like a heavy fog. You’d sell your soul to have him here. But then again you kind of already sold it, agreeing to a romantic relationship with a demonic creature. It’s all fun and games up until the moment you realise they’re not human, that their emotions, their whole minds work in mysterious ways you don’t always understand.

You snap Dew the picture he wanted, trying to bury the doubts, six feet under. He misses you, you know it. Of course what he misses most is touching you because that’s the one thing you can’t do over phones, but it’s not like your body is the only thing he misses, right?

Unless ghouls don’t feel like that. They are eternal creatures, forged in the ever-burning fires of hell. What’s a few earthly months to them? And he has so many distractions, he has no time to properly miss you.

The thought stings more than it should. It’s not his fault. You know who you’re in love with and he does the best he can. You know he’s already way out of his comfort zone, being committed to you, why can’t you stop wanting more?

After sending him a better photo, you change into sweatpants and a hoodie. No point in looking sexy now and it’s cold in the ghoul’s den, your tea already lukewarm. It hasn’t gone unnoticed that you’re sleeping in Dew’s room, snide comments by Siblings and hushed whispers when you come up the stairs a daily occurrence. But no one has stopped you yet and so you continue to wrap his blankets around you, bury your face in his pillow until you’re close to suffocating.

Even now, you sometimes find one of his silky long hairs in bed or wake up with one of his blond lashes stuck to your cheek. Missing him always feels hardest in those tiny moments – pulling a new shirts out for you to wear and remembering the last time he wore it. Passing by one of the spots in the abbey that he kissed you in. Or fucked you in. Sometimes he just stops you in the hallway to nibble at your neck and tell you he loves you. And you half expect him to do it before remembering that he’s gone. Because he is gone and yet he’s everywhere. Walking around the abbey feels heavy now, the echos of these moments following your every step.

You close your eyes, reminding yourself that in two weeks you’re going to fly out to see him. You can only visit for a few days and then he’ll be gone for another month. But it’s better than nothing, it’s better than whatever this here is.

You’re not sure when your basic bodily functions became dependent on someone else.

Okay, that is dramatic. You know you can live without Dew, you don’t really need him for survival.

But ever since he left, you sleep like shit.

There is just something about the empty bed that depresses you. It’s not even the lack of sex, even though him tiring you out most days probably does help, but you’re pretty sure it’s being alone with your thoughts that wakes your insomnia again. Before Dew, these nights were frequent. You’ve gotten used to discussing your days with him, receiving his comfort and undivided attention, clearing your head before it hit the pillow.

Now, you’re just alone with yourself again.

The longer he’s gone, the more sleep-deprived you are. It doesn’t help that you’re on kitchen duty all week, getting up at five a.m. to help with breakfast and then nearly falling asleep during Morning Mass a few hours later. The same exhausting rhythm every day, slowly grinding you like wheat in a mill, until you’re nothing but dust.

When Dew finally FaceTimes you on their day off on Thursday with a five hour time difference you’re knackered and emotionally drained. For him, it’s still a young evening. For you, it’s midnight on day four of this agonising cycle.

You answer with a forced smile that turns into a genuine one once you see his face. „Hey, baby.“

„Hey, babe.“ He’s lying in a hotel bed, white pillow propped up behind him. „You look so beautiful.“

„Thanks.“ He’s either lying or the dim light in his room hides the bags under your eyes. But you take it nonetheless, any kind word welcome. „You look really handsome, too.“

„I’ve been thinking about you so much today.“ He sighs dramatically. „See, we were at this donut place and they had all your favorites. It felt wrong not to get you anything.“

You hum. „Sounds great. What’d you get?“

„Thought about getting Boston Cream but then they had Red Velvet, so I couldn’t not get that. I mean, it was red.“

„Why am I not surprised?“

„Aw, baby you know I like stuffing my mouth with sweet red things.“

You can’t fight the smirk. „Was it good?“

„It was incredible but nothing compared to your taste,“ he says. „Which is also something I’ve been thinking about all day.“

„Are you alone?“

The inquiry is stupid. Literally any of the other ghouls would have been heard snickering or crudely commenting by now. But for some reason the question alone feels seductive.

„Yea, Aeth is over at Rain’s for an hour or so. We’re all by ourselves.“

An hour is good. You can muster enough energy for that.

„How about you show me what’s under that black t-shirt, then?“ you ask.

„Will you show me what’s under yours?“

„Trying to bargain again?“

Dew smirks. „Always.“

You both shed your layers until you’re completely bare and it’s exciting to watch it only via small frames, tiny glimpses, to hear the shuffling but not see all of it just yet. You catch a pierced nipple, a stretch of bare, charcoal skin, the beginnings of his happy trail, slender muscles and boney joints, his hair spilling over his shoulders, until he’s done and holding you up to his face. You can tell he’s flushed, not only horny but properly turned on, ready to do the nasty things you’ve been dreaming of ever since your last phone date. You wish you were more awake, more in tune with yourself.

„You’re so beautiful,“ you say. „I miss touching all of this.“

He smirks. „Me too. Show me more of you, baby.“

You know he wants to see your breasts, they’re pretty much already in frame anyway, and you squeeze your arms together to push them up some more. Dew gives an appreciative hum, followed by a wistful sigh.

„Touch your nipples for me,“ he says. „I want to see them perk up. Like they do when I blow on them.“

You do as he says, moving your fingers over your breasts, circling your areola, squeezing, then rolling your nipple between two fingers, all while watching over the screen how he starts stroking himself. He’s hard and beautiful, veiny and slick with his own spit. It really gets you going to watch him, even though you hate that you don’t get to touch him in any way. He’s already leaking, the skin of his boney fingers glistening wetly. You lick your lips, trying to conjure up his taste, to imagine his hands touching you right now. For a second you close your eyes and it’s almost real. You run a tentative hand down your belly, finding your pussy dripping, waiting, aching for him.

„I’m so wet, baby.“ You whimper when you brush your clit. „So, so wet.“

„Show me.“

It always takes you a while to get comfortable wielding around your phone, to stop worrying about the camera angle or if it looks weird in any way. In the dim lighting, your curves look soft, your skin ashen, almost like it’s dressed in shadows, and you hope it translates. When you move the camera between your legs and play with your arousal, Dew groans.

„Fuck, I can’t believe I don’t get to taste this,“ he says. „I would kill a man to eat you out right now.“

You smile, mostly because you know he’s not exaggerating. But at the same time, you’re aching for his cock far more than for his mouth, mostly because you really need his lips on yours. You want his whole body surrounding you when his tongue pushes past your lips. The lack of kissing during phone sex is infuriating.

„Babe, I can’t see you,“ you complain. He gets sloppy when he’s focused on you.

„Right, sorry.“

He readjusts the camera. „Better?“

„Yea.“

„You think you can show me if you’re ready for me?“

It’s easy to imagine he’s sprawled out beside you, giving you orders to touch yourself before he does. You’ve done that before. So you slowly push a finger inside of you, testing the waters before you add a second one. „So ready,“ you say. „Please.“

He curses but you can’t keep your eyes open. It’s painful to know he’s not gonna do it for you, no matter how much you’re begging. You pump your fingers into your dripping cunt but they’re not as long as his, not as nimble. And they certainly don’t stretch you like his cock does.

„Doing so good, baby. I know you’d take me so well.“ His voice is strained, you know he’s pretty far along, his hand moving faster now, rhythmic, obscene sounds coming out of your speakers. They’re not as clear, not as melodious, muffled by the microphone.

Nevertheless they have the same effect on you. „Mhm, Dew.“

„Keep going,“ he says, groaning as his hand moves over his length. You only vaguely register what he’s doing, too busy with yourself. You wish you had your second hand to touch your breasts or even better, to squeeze your throat like he does. It’s not enough stimulation, not enough to drown out your thoughts, the white noise buzzing in your brain, making it hard to let go.

„You have to keep talking,“ you say, knowing it’s the only way you’re gonna come. „Please.“

„Fuck, you just have to imagine it’s me. I’d fuck you so good, you’d scream down the whole abbey.“ Another groan, faster sounds. „You’re doing so well, baby. I can see how much you want me, keep giving me those pretty noises. Make yourself feel good for me, huh. So damn good. Shit, that’s my girl, my good. fucking. girl.“

You tumble over the edge when you hear Dew’s unrestrained moans and whimpers mixing with your own, the slick sounds of his hand spreading his seed over his length as he rides out his orgasm. His groans fill your ears as you press your fingers into your spongy walls, trying to reach higher. It’s intense, despite the lack of body contact, and you feel your heart clenching in your chest. It’s pleasure mixed with a range of other sensations you can’t quite place. Already you can feel your emotions whirling around, thoughts becoming muddled again. You fight back, to cling to sweet oblivion for a while longer, but you’re too vulnerable right now and it takes all the restraint you can muster to bite back a physical reaction. All you want to do is cry like a baby, to let it all spill out.

But Dew is still there, he can’t know.

„Fuck that was so much better than the fucking donut.“ You hear a few more deep breaths. „Aight, baby, I’m just gonna clean up and get dressed before Aether comes back.“

He’s gone then, camera facing the white hotel ceiling as you vaguely hear running water in the background. It allows you to let out the sob you’ve been holding in and the tears fall on their own accord. Your body is sensitive, you’re stripped bare not only physically. You put the phone away, face down so he can’t see you weeping but the quiet only lasts a few seconds.

Because of course he can still hear.

„Are you crying?“ he asks, shuffling back onto the bed.

You fight another sob. „No.“

„Baby, show me your pretty face.“

„No.“

„Hey, don’t shut me out.“

His velvety soft tone makes you pick the phone back up, pouting into the camera as you try to fight back more tears. There is no way you can get rid of the grimace on your face but he doesn’t show it; his face is scrunched up, brows knit together in concern. He’s wearing a black t-shirt now and you miss seeing his bare chest.

„What’s wrong?“ His voice drips with worry. „Baby, tell me.“

„I’m sorry.“ You sniffle. „I’m so sorry, I ruined it.“

„No, no, it’s fine.“

„I don’t know what’s wrong with me.“

„That’s okay, it’s all too much, huh?“

All you can muster is a weak nod, closing your eyes to fight the approaching headache.

„What can I do to make it better?“ Dew asks.

Come home.

But you know the request is unfair and you don’t really want him to. You know he loves touring, he’s having the time of his life based on what you see in all the videos and you want him to soak up all of it. You’re just being selfish, codependent and clingy. And you don’t want to be selfish, codependent and clingy. You want to give him the space he deserves.

„Nothing,“ you say. „I can handle it.“

„You’ve been a bit off for a while now but I figured you’d tell me if something was wrong,“ Dew says. „You trust me, right?“

„I don’t know what you mean. Of course I trust you.“

He ignores you. „Is it just missing me? Or something else?“

You frown. Just missing him. For some reason this feels like the wrong answer. Just missing him. He’s obviously doing so much better than you.

You swallow, the lump in your throat making it painful. „You know orgasms make me emotional.“

„Baby, this is not that and we both know it.“

He gives you a minute to search for an answer which is fair and very unlike him and his impulsive nature. You appreciate his patience and to see his handsome face so full of concern eases your worries. He’s trying so hard for you. You don’t need to hide.

„I sleep really bad,“ you admit, looking away. „And yea, I really fucking miss you.“

„You’ll be here soon, though. In a week.“

„Yea.“

„You can do it, right?“

„Yea, I’ll manage. I can handle it,“ you say, barely hiding your irritation. „I told you.“

„Hey, don’t be snappy.“

You look back into the camera. His face is surprisingly soft, not upset like you expected. He looks beautiful with his hair slightly messy like that, eyes still glinting with that post-orgasmic bliss.

„I miss you, too. You know that, right?“

„Yes.“

„And I can’t wait to see you.“

„Mhm.“

He scoffs. „I can’t wait to see you too, Dew,“ he says in a high-pitched voice, a poor imitation of yours. „I love you sooo much.“

Despite yourself, you smile. „Idiot. I don’t sound like that.“

„Look, there’s my baby.“ He smiles. „So fucking pretty.“

His words cement the happy expression on your face. It feels good to hear him say it, feels good to have him cheer you up. His virtual comfort is a bandaid that’ll carry you over the next week. Seeing him will be a proper remedy.

„I guess I’m just really tired,“ you say in defeat. „I’ve been on kitchen duty all week which means getting up at five and then I can’t sleep until three most nights.“

„You’re running on two hours of sleep?“

„That’s being generous, yea.“

„Now I’m not surprised you randomly start crying,“ he says. „I would have most likely killed someone by now.“

You giggle. „Oh, yea, you would’ve.“

A door opens and Dew groans in annoyance.

„Heeeeey,“ you hear Aether calling. „You decent?“

Dew rolls his eyes. „No.“

„You are, you liar.“

Aether comes into frame, plopping down behind Dew and pulling him close to his chest, saying your name. „Hi.“

„Hi, Aeth.“

„You look pretty,“ he says.

„Stop staring at her boobs,“ Dew says. „Baby get a shirt. He’s ogling you.“

You roll your eyes and put the phone to the side, slipping into the shirt from earlier. „I don’t know why you care, he saw me so many times by now.“

„Only because he doesn’t know what knocking is.“

„Hey, if you don’t lock the door that’s like an invitation,“ Aether says. „Besides, your girlfriend loves when I come over to cuddle at night because then she can finally be someone’s little spoon.“

„What are you talking about? She loves being the big spoon. Don’t you, baby?“

You grin. „I love both.“

Dew makes a face while Aether’s smile widens. He squeezes Dew to his chest, engulfing him in a hug that is so tight he almost drops the phone. „You are very small spoon shaped,“ Aether says. „I get it.“

„Fuck you,“ Dew replies.

„Wish I could squeeze myself in there,“ you say with a sad smile.

Dew’s eyes find yours over the display and he gives you a knowing look, aware of your pain, but Aether doesn’t seem bothered.

„If you want something to cuddle with you can take my huge banana plushie, that’s basically Dew’s size anyway,“ he offers, then snickers. „Well, the size of his body.“

Dew makes to complain but you interrupt him. „Thanks, that’s a nice idea. Hey, if you two are tired, we can just say goodnight.“

„No, we’re not tired,“ Dew exclaims. „It’s only eight.“

„I am tired,“ Aether says.

„Not my problem.“

„It’s okay,“ you say. „I can just…“

„No, I want to fall asleep with you.“ Dew awkwardly wriggles free from Aether’s grasp. „Or watch you fall asleep at least. Would that help with your sleeping issues?“

„Maybe.“

„She has sleeping issues?“ Aether asks.

„Stop listening in,“ Dew chides. „This is a private conversation. Private. Do you want me to spell it out?“

„It’s not private. We’re in the same room. I can’t not hear you.“

„Try harder?“

While they bicker, you put the phone away, clean yourself with a tissue and finally pull the covers over your shivering body. Then you prop the phone up on Dew’s pillow. After a few tries you get it to stand so you don’t have to hold it anymore. It takes a few more minutes until Dew has his bed for himself again and you see his face.

„Want to try and sleep?“ he asks. „I’ll just… hang around until you do.“

„You don’t have to.“

„I don’t want you to fall asleep alone and sad. So, yea I have to.“

You reluctantly nod and close your eyes. You are tired, or at least your muscles are, getting heavier by the second. You’re almost asleep when you hear his voice again, a whisper that gives you goosebumps.

„Hey, baby? I love you.“

You smile. „I love you, too.“

Somewhere in the background you hear Aether call over the buzz of a toothbrush. „I love you, too!“

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I hope this was at least a little bit of what you wanted it to be because ngl I don't do well with the pressure of expectations. I can see myself writing a part 3 with a reunion, so lmk if you'd want that. Prequel is in the works, too. Feedback is as always much appreciated and a big motivation for any writer, remember this is not the clock app and we're real people. Have a nice day friends and thanks for reading!

Part 3 here

#dewdrop x reader #dewdrop smut #dewdrop ghoul #ghost fanfiction #reader insert #nameless ghouls #nameless ghoul x reader #the band ghost fanfiction #fanfiction #dewdrop x you

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ode2cheol · 1 year ago

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big deep breath OK SO . ive been so excited for this comeback like idk with every new cb i feel like i get even more excited than with the precious one yk so i was really waiting for it to come out!! they released the mv while i was in class (they hate me) but during a little break not long after i managed to watch it and i was bobbing my head and swinging my feet at the sound LJKE U DONT GET IT I WAS GENUINELY SO HAPPY

honestly this is one of my fav svt albums and idk it just makes me so happy all the songs are so perfect and good there's not a single one i don't enjoy and the aesthetic is so cute and im so excited and impatient to FINALLY HAVE MY ALBUM IN MY HANDS ARGHHHH but yes this was such a success im so happy they broke so many records and they just continue to prove how talented they are wooooo

for the songs there isn't one i dislike at all but i really like SOS idk the beat js so nice and the lyrics are really good and this may be also due to me loving marshmello when i was younger but STILL !!! Diamond days makes me SOOOOO NOSTALGIC i love it so much im so glad they used kind off the same sound/sample as Shining Diamond im in love 💔💔 i think back 2 back is my fav song of the album!! i love minghaos highnote and the beat and just the overal vibe idk it stood out to me sm their voices fit the song so well im obsessed with the part around 1.30 where dino and hao sing in like a low voice? YGM BUT ITS SOOOOO GOOD just the entire song is so good i think tbh i have a soft spot for pu songs 😭😭😭😭 i haven't had much the time to really analyze yawn but the soft voices and vocals are heavenly i genuinely passed away BECAUSE YOU ARE MY BREATH 💔💔💔💔 LIKE WDYM UR MY BREATH WHY IS THIS SONG MAKING ME TEAR UP DONT EVEN LIE RNNN monster is such a fun song i just know I'll play it on repeat like fire while im walking to uni to wake me up and get me in study mode 💥💥💥 it's giving Halloween vibes and im here for it!!!! it's also just fun to me because my roommate/bsf and i bet on who sang the first line and she swore it was gyu and i swore it was vernon and today we didn't see each other much so like 1h ago she told me she saw in a lyric vid that gyu sang that line and i was like ??? girl i have weverse and i follow it religiously so ik it's both of them AND WE COULDNT AGREE BECAUSE WE DIDNT HAVE ANY PROOF so i ended up showing her weverse and it was so fun we were both right in the end and we did a silly dance LMAOOAOOOO IT WAS SO FUNNY 😻😻😻😻 but lemme tell u about headliner. FUCK THAT SONG BRO WHY AM I CRYING ??????? no it's actually my fav song along back 2 back like are u actually kidding me ???? this song makes me wanna study even more for my Korean classes like FUCK HEADLINER SO BAD 💔😭😭😭😭😭 I CRY AND LAUGH WITH YOU THIS NIGHT💔💔💔💔💔 WHERE WE OFFER ALL OUR LOVE💔💔💔💔 HOW BEAUTIFUL💔💔💔💔💔 BEVAHSE YOURE MY HEADLINER 💔💔💔💔💔 this moment when we shine together don't lie rn I'll actually kms and take a bath with my toaster like wow jumping of the 9th floor of the apartment building next door seems like such a fun activity today 😻😻😻😻😻😻

RIGHT OMG I WAS LITERALLY TUNING IN EVERYDAY AT 12 AM KST TO SEE IF THEY DROPPED FHE ANNOUNCEMENT AND WHEN THEY DID I WAS SOOOOO HYPED ‼️ like fml was SO huge i couldn’t wait for this one ALSO THE MV LITERALLY RELEASED DURING A PRACTICE FIRE DRILL FOR ME 😭😭

it genuinely is one of my faves too, like although the songs aren’t necessarily my fave of each unit (i still LOVE each one) the album was just so well put together ?? everything flowed perfectly and like usually it’ll take me like two or three listens to like some songs but i listened to the album start to finish ONCE and fell in love w EVERYTHING i’m not even kidding ❤️‍🔥 I CANR WAIT FOR MY ALBUMD TO GET HERE AYSHSHAHDJHS

right like there wasn’t a bad song at all !!! my fave has to be headliner bc it’s just so fucking emotional like woozi why u got me crying on the train home 😐😐😐 it gives me MAJOR our dawn is hotter than day vibes which i love sm !! the whole album vibes reminded me a little of you make my day a little i think it’s just me but yeah ‼️ i LOVED back 2 back too omg perf unit ALWAYS hits and YAWN OMG 😓 every track was amazing 😓😓😓 STOP THE DEBATES ON THE MONSTER FIRST LINE LMFAAOAOAO 😭😭 speaking of monster, cheol’s part.. changed me . i loved SOS too omg it gave such like band vibes ??

ALSO HELPPPPP HEADLINER’S LYRICS OMG 😓😓 my mom heard me listen to it and said “girl why are u listening to such sad lyrics..”

#dori .. 🪼#seventeenth heaven we luv you

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jonghyunlesbian · 1 year ago

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i am interested in your shinee concert experience pls show/tell me everything

sorry for responding late i had a Lot To Say and this took me a while! but yes !! i’ll do a read more because this will be long lol

so firstly i saw shinee in dallas for the fanmeet and for SWV! the fanmeet was july 31, 2016 (i have the official poster hanging up in my room lol) and the concert was march 24, 2017 (i get reminders that i took a lot of photos that day still).

so unfortunately i think my photos and vids from the fanmeet specifically might be lost to time? because i had a different phone and it wasnt an iphone however if i remember correctly it wasn’t very long only about an hour and a half and they only played about 5-6 songs since it was a fanmeet. they had a segment where they called fans onstage to guess what song was playing and they got to stand onstage with the members!! we also had banners we held up during the last song for taemin’s birthday ❤️ at the end end, the girl i sat next to had a poster saying she was minho’s biggest fan or something along those lines and i think shawols know he always stays onstage the longest after they finish to say goodbye to everyone lol so everyone around her was frantically waving their lightsticks to get him to see and he saw it and pointed at her and smiled it was sooooo cute!!

i dont have much merch from the fanmeet but i have the poster (its just their main photo from view with black text stating the fanmeet info on it)

i’ve had the same phone since december of 2016 so i def have the photos and vids from swv!!!! i went with some of my close friends at the time and my brother and i was SAWBING the whole time it was so embarrassing … anyway to warn anyone i was in an obstructed seat which at concerts means my view was a bit more limited (in my case i was at the very far left if the stage like last seats of the row situation). also this concert is very memorable to me because not only was it a full length concert (shineeworlds are notoriously like 3 entire hours) but i also surprised my brother with the tickets on his birthday the week before ❤️ he had literally no idea until then that we were going and we cried for like an hour when i told him LMAO

i have a BUNCH of shinee world 5 merch like i bought almost everything LOL and i’m soooooo glad i did in hindsight because i genuinely thought theyd tour more and obviously a lot has happened since march of 2017 so i’m really thankful to have had the opportunity and experience of seeing them ! if i ever want to move on from shinee merch i am 1000% raffling it off to tumblr friends !

in terms of the photos i’ll post i want to apologize because they are really bad quality 1. i had those obscured seats 2. i took most of my photos while recording too! 3. i can only post a few here but i took hundreds and a dozen videos!

big takeaways from seeing them live were: onew sounds even better live than recorded! jonghyun is goofy and charismatic! key is so funny and spoke english the whole time and also his head was really big (i’m sorry diva but it’s true 😇 ily)! minho absolutely adores shawol and always has! taemin flows and dances like well oiled machine its beautiful! they are absolutely fucking amazing live, they put every ounce into every single song they perform and genuinely want to make the fans enjoy the experience its so fucking fun!!!

my last thing! here is the setlists from the fanmeet and from swv for archival purposes and in case anyone was curious!

#shinee #ask #mistarover #long post

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idealisticrealism · 8 months ago

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TCL 3x03 thoughts

Many thoughts and spoilers, as usual.

The Main things:

Given the timeframe with Fi’s journey back (and needing her in time for the Child Protective Services meeting), it can’t have been more than a day or two since the last episode.

The reappearance of Adan’s name in the credits was very confusing until Russo produced the video. I’m pretty used to the body double use now (managed to not even cry at the sight of my boy, which I'll take as progress) so my main thoughts about the vid were that it looks just like a scene from a fic idea I had last week that did make me cry, and also that if the footage is from a police body cam, I’m guessing that cop is dead/unconscious and slumped against their own vehicle given the angle and the fact they’re not moving…

Calling it right now, ‘Jeremy the handyman’ is undercover FBI. Russo is smart enough and determined enough not to put all her eggs in the Nadia basket, so I think that this is her other plan to take Thony (and through her, Arman) down. And as she later tells Nadia: nothing is ever as it seems. So I'm convinced the racist attack on the Cleaning Ladies office was fabricated by the FBI to allow ‘Jeremy’ to be introduced into Thony’s life in a way that would lead her to trust him quickly and allow him into her circle, especially with his kindness and all his sentiments about the shittiness of xenophobia and how ‘this is her home, no matter what anyone says’. I’m actually genuinely pissed about it tbh, bc Thony deserves that kindness and support for real, instead of having her isolation and fear and vulnerability preyed upon by people who want to throw her behind bars just because she didn’t play by the rules of their flawed and biased system…

Sigh honestly though, Thony is too stubborn and short-sighted for her own good. Like yes she saved Soledad’s life by ignoring Dante’s orders, but in doing so she risked her own life as well as Fi and Chris’ lives, and also jeopardised her relationship with both Ramona and the CPS worker who is responsible for deciding if Luca should be taken from her or not. At least she’s written consistently in that she always tries to do the ‘right thing’ and save the person in front of her, but that means she often overlooks the potential consequences of taking that action and the overall balance of good vs bad that would come out of it. Like I’m guessing she’s one of those people who absolutely hates the Trolley Problem lol

Well now we know how Paolo’s money comes into play… funny that if he’d never given Chris the money, Chris wouldn’t have been able to give it to Camila and her mum, which means they wouldn’t have come on the crossing, so he would have never had to fight the guy to defend Camila, and wouldn’t have ended up getting stranded in the desert…. Again, this show really is great at demonstrating those ‘well-intentioned actions leading to bad outcomes’ moments

This ep is really trying to give Jorge a bit more depth, from him being all cute about Violeta’s soccer practice (showing he’s an involved dad who is also laid back and knows how to have fun, not one of those intense/pushy ones), and how his warnings to Thony have become less like threats and more like well-meaning advice. He’s willingly acting as Thony’s chauffeur rather than sending an underling to do it, and he’s also letting her debate with him on a more even level than before, where previously he just shut her down immediately. He even actually seems to listen to her about not hurting Nadia and the idea of letting Ramona meet Nadia instead (given what we see in the trailer). The scene where he finds her with the van is likely meant to look like he is hiding something, but I think he is genuinely looking for Arman and actually didn’t know that this was the van that took him, and he just doesn’t trust her enough yet to be open with her about it. I also think he respects that she cares enough about Arman to stand up to him, to challenge him about his possible involvement– if I’m right and he truly is trying to bring Arman home safe, her persistent loyalty to Arman even in the face of danger to herself would be a big point in her favour.

Okay what the hell is the little glass jar Thony finds, though?? Something of Arman’s? Something that they can get a bad guy’s fingerprints off of to give them a lead? A sedative medication that indicates he was drugged and taken somewhere, rather than killed and dumped?? I need answerssss

Poor Nadia is suffering through feelings of betrayal on all sides here lol. I don’t blame her at all for going to Russo and trying to save herself and Arman through a deal, but I’m so relieved that Russo’s obsession with punishing Arman has made that alliance an impossibility. Now all we need is for Nadia to cool down a little, and realise that despite everything, there’s only one person she can truly turn to… (and yes, I’ve written a fic about it lol)

“You ever notice that everyone around him turns up dead?” lollll look at this show being all self-aware about its tendency to just kill off its problems haha. But still, Russo’s got it all wrong; Arman’s not the common denominator here. He may have been the one pulling the trigger a few times, but he was almost never the one actually setting the events in motion. Instead, it’s Thony. Despite being someone who tries at all times to save lives, Thony is like an unintentional angel of death for those she encounters, and sadly Arman is going to be the next to fall.

Other stuff:

It was interesting to see how clever the cartel is with all the different types of vehicles they use to transport people in order to avoid suspicion, I wonder how realistic that is?

I love that the show has continued its tradition of having cleaners/household staff regularly appearing in the background, highlighting the fact that even if they’re often overlooked, they’re there

The date on the bodycam is messing with my timeframe for the show based on the only other previous reference to dates that we’ve gotten, and though I know they probably just picked a random date, I don’t like it haha

That was very cool imagery with Ramona’s tea, of something shrivelled and dull being put into an intense environment and blossoming into something amazing… hmmm, wonder what they’re trying to say about Thony there haha

Fi totally ships Chris and Camila lol. I love the bond that formed between the two families (Fi protecting them in the store by putting on the Southern Belle act was awesome), and I hope Camila and her mum continue to be in the show, like maybe Fi and Thony could hire the mum as one of their cleaners and help both of them settle into life as an immigrant in the US.

Also, the ICE raid was hard to watch, but bless the ladies in the store who helped them to hide! True allies!

The emotional song playing at the end as Fi and Chris are left behind is called 'Sister, Take My Hand' which just feels fitting for this show

Anyway, really looking forward to the Nadia & Ramona meeting next week. My wild dream of a badass coalition of mob women (Thony, Fi, Nadia, Ramona) running Vegas may just happen yet…

#The Cleaning Lady #TCL recaps #TCL spoilers #The Cleaning Lady spoilers

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nerd-chocolate · 2 years ago

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As a promise and thank you for the lovely art here is your gift @aganyan also both of Austins and Simon and Denise belong to @artzychic27

Simon off screen of a camera: So, what are the three things that you love about your boyfriend?

Jean: Well I can name millions of things that I love about Austin. It's hard to just pin three of them!

Simon: Come on Jean, this for a video I’m making.

Jean: What kind of video?

Simon: Don’t worry about it. Now tell me, I know you can do it.

Jean: Well if you insist, I’ll name a few things. I love when he smiles, how he builds and acts like a big teddy bear, and how sweet he truly can be to others. Those are things I love about him.

Simon: Well that good to know, *towards to face the camera* on to the next person.

A few minutes later in a SpongeBob narrator voice

Simon off camera again: So, mind telling me what are the three things you like about Jean, Austin?

Austin: Oh sure! I love his eyes, whenever he smiles, when he sings, he sings like a soothing hummingbird, when he laughs, his cute dimples, and his-

Simon: Hey Austin?

Austin: Hm?

Simon: Sorry to interrupt you for a second but I only needed three, remember?

Austin: But why only three exactly though?

Simon: Because I don’t need the video to be that long.

Austin: Fair enough, okay then but these don’t have an exact order though. I love it when he smiles because I can see his cute dimples, when he sings especially when it to me, and how thoughtful he can be to the people he loves. Those are three that stand out to me the most.

Simon: Aw that was sweet, anyway thanks Austin.

Another few hours later in SpongeBob Narrator voice

Simon in front of the camera: And there you have it folks, it shows that people can’t just list just a few things about their partners that easily because they really love each other that much. *Denise walking by see them and sneaks behind them* anyway I hope you enjoy the vid-

Denise: *kiss his cheek* Love you, a’mor. *Leaves*

Simon: … *blushes with a goofy smile on their face before fainting*

~~~

Austin Q: Grrrrr. *having a bad day*

Sophia: ‘I need a plan to make him feel better but how exactly? … *light bulb idea sound sound effect* I got it!’ *goes to find something*

Austin: ‘I hate my parents so much.’

Sophia: Hey pumpkin head!

Austin: What is it, Sophia? *shock*

Sophia in a sea otter onesie and holding a shark onesie and a bunch of shark based movies: I noticed that you're upset and I wanted to make you feel better. So how about we watch some movies and talk about our day while doing it?

Austin: … *goes to hug her* I love you so much!

Sophia: Heh, I love you too, you dork.

#miraculous ladybug #miraculous ocs #jean duparc #quotes #the austins #simon #denise

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punkscowardschampions · 2 years ago

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Janis & Casey Pt.1

Janis: She attempted what I think was meant to be an apology

Casey: And what, I’m meant to be bothered she’s said sorry

Janis: I doubt she’s going to attempt to send one to your inbox, like

Janis: just mention it because despite the lack of remorse, she did actually bring something useful to my attention

Casey: go on

Janis: The flat above the pub is empty, so, that’s that problem sorted

Janis: not ideal but better than the alternatives of which there’s fuck all tonight

Casey: you’ll take the dog with you then, yeah

Janis: you can come too, you idiot

Casey: you reckon, do you

Janis: Yes?

Janis: why would you not

Casey: they weren’t his biggest fans, mate, they’re not gonna be mine

Janis: Not to the degree that they’d do that, they’re not that bad

Casey: have they said it’s alright, or are you and Libi

Janis: I know my family

Janis: but no, I’d rather ask in person, I’m going later

Casey: let us know, like

Janis: ‘course I will

Casey: I don’t fancy getting my hopes up ‘til you’ve had a word

Janis: alright, well, whatever the case, can you start packing up

Janis: if she’s got anything worth having, take it

Casey: way ahead of you on that one

Janis: I’ll talk to [one of your brothers] about a van too

Casey: we’ve a plan, that’s something

Janis: yeah, it is

Janis: soz you won’t get your hopes up ‘til I’ve got it in writing, like

Janis: I have a [window between clients] in [before lunch] I’ll go then

Casey: okay, I’m near done with the packing up, even with the dog giving us such a massive hand

Janis: Wow, we really don’t have a lot of shit, do we

Casey: not at the minute, but keep on dropping subtle hints like that and I’ll hit the shops for you

Janis: 😏 I don’t need things

Casey: can just be a bit of want, girl

Janis: no, that’s just you too

Casey: too cute of an answer to even try and have a go against

Janis: you’re cute, and the dog

Casey: you

Janis: have you gone on your walk yet?

Casey: decided to hang on til this were done so we can piss off for ages

Janis: good thinking, no wonder he’s being a nuisance though, feeling all forgotten 🥺

Casey: I’ll not be fuming he fancies cocking his leg nowhere in here, can’t say it ain’t deserved, might do the same myself, in fairness

Janis: okay, rude

Casey: it’s the point, well done

Janis: you know, dickhead

Casey: 😏

Janis: Distracting me from sorting our entire lives out in 1 day, how dare you

Casey: I’d say sorry but you’ve already had to listen to one Libi never meant

Janis: I don’t know how she doesn’t see how fucking serious this is

Casey: she don’t live in the real world, her, if it’s not on a screen she’s not having a look at all

Janis: you’d think she was the one living on the street the way she was acting like she’s all alone in the world

Casey: what lasses are like

Janis: piss off with that

Casey: you know I don’t mean you, but the rest

Janis: reassuring, that

Casey: happens to be true, that

Janis: special, am I

Casey: very

Janis: I like you too, even though you’re a massive sexist

Casey: I love you, even though you’re talking bollocks

Janis: love you more

Casey: nah, I do you for how distracting you are

Casey: been doing my head in packing this place up

Janis: I know, it hasn’t been five minutes since we were unpacking

Casey: might have been a shithole but it was our shithole

Janis: We will get somewhere, somewhere we wanna be for ages and can

Janis: and over the pub does have two rooms

Casey: be handy for when I’m being a massive sexist

Janis: definitely what I meant, spare bed for you ‘cos I can’t stand the sight of you

Casey: I can’t stand that you’re out of my sight

Janis: [selfies like here I am]

Casey: fuck’s sake, that would be how you look

Janis: ready for an early grave?

Casey: I get it, you want me to do more than piss all over this flat

Janis: well, I do want you to do that very much but

Casey: but you’d rather you was here instead of watching a vid, me too

Janis: yeah 😔

Janis: and I feel bad I didn’t help pack

Casey: don’t, what’s the world coming to if footballers have to touch themselves up

Janis: you’re not mad at me, just Libi for being a dick, yeah

Casey: you’ve done nothing except be so fit and at work

Janis: story of my fucking life, I want to swap and have 5 days with you, at least, and I guess I’ll do the 2 here

Casey: counting down the days til your maternity leave, story of mine

Janis: I know, never imagined that would be something I was waiting for

Casey: I’ve changed my mind back, we’re having 11 kids at least again

Janis: please

Janis: I just wanna be with you

Casey: and I’m starting on scratch cards or something

Janis: only worthwhile reason to being minted, never working again

Casey: long as we pretend to the kids we’ve not won or they’ll be right little dickheads

Janis: maybe all kids are anyway

Casey: I’m not having that, not ours

Casey: she’s already perfect and so will the others be

Janis: let you do all the hard work, I can’t get it right, obviously

Casey: come on, it’s about time Libs acted her age

Janis: she is, that’s the problem

Casey: you’d have done the same and I’d have done worse

Janis: we stole your dad's car, for fuck’s sake

Janis: didn’t think twice, bit different when you’re the dickhead adult you never signed up to be

Casey: if the landlord weren’t such a twat it’d wouldn’t have been no problem, wouldn’t tell her that and excuse the twat I reckon she is herself but

Janis: she could’ve asked, god, they’d have let her have the function room in the pub, mum would’ve let her use the barn

Janis: just shows she was doing it to be a spiteful cow

Casey: you can’t have done a totally bad job when she’s got that in her, here I was thinking she was sod all but our kid’s doormat missus

Janis: 🙄 I’m in no mood to entertain that, or it being a positive

Janis: whatever, there’s no more time to think about her today, too much to do

Casey: speak for yourself, once this dog’s walked I’ve got nowt on

Janis: you’re meant to be sleeping

Janis: not taking the broken bed with us

Casey: can’t be bothered trying to sleep on my own

Janis: at least I can set the place up, you’re going to be exhausted, baby

Casey: I’m knackered as is, too much going round my head though

Janis: yeah, I get it

Janis: so tell me about it and I’ll ignore you if its more 🥱 than this lads chat

Casey: just

Casey: living there, me and you

Janis: yeah, bit fucking visible

Janis: I’ve told her she has to talk to Bob, I’ll tell Jimmy

Casey: I dunno how he’ll take it but how I reckon he might’s enough to keep any dickhead up

Janis: we’ve been put in this position, before any of us are ready

Janis: I dunno, it’s never going to be fun for him, is it

Casey: fun’s over, we had it here

Casey: and in [your runaway locations]

Janis: do you not want to come

Casey: I wanna be with you, couldn’t hack not

Janis: then we’ll still have fun, why would we not

Casey: it’s proper real now is what I meant by what I said

Casey: no more hiding and pissing about, and for us that’s good, but it’s not only us

Janis: If he breaks down, then

Janis: I don’t know, we’ll have to work out another plan, alright

Janis: I’m not going to push ahead if he can’t hack no more right now

Casey: alright

Janis: we don’t need it on our conscience, fuck that

Janis: the kids can go fuck themselves for all I care right now but yeah

Casey: it’ll be okay, I’m tired and thinking the worst for it, that’s all

Janis: I mean, it’s been a month of just those two, no emergency calls or anything like that… we have to take it as a good sign when its all we’ve got

Casey: too right

Janis: I’ll try to do it in person, if he’s down for that, I can try and talk about some of the other shit too

Casey: I’ll stay up for however it goes, if you need me, either of you, say the word and I’m there

Janis: thank you

Casey: you won’t but

Janis: 🤞🤞

Casey: won’t even let the broken bed tempt us, wide awake and well focused

Janis: I’m so lucky to have you

Janis: if it’s good news, will you have a nap for me?

Casey: you’ve got it wrong way round, and yeah, ‘cause I know how lucky I am, I’d do anything for you

Janis: I couldn’t do this without you

Janis: it’s gonna be alright, I swear

Casey: you’ll never be without me, and I’m more than alright about it

Janis: have you had a cuppa yet

Casey: you heard, kettle’s packed with everything else

Janis: go get one, or a pot, like an old man

Casey: come with us, can’t you

Casey: live out that old married couple fantasy

Janis: not if I have to make room for my grandad and Jimmy

Janis: tomorrow

Casey: point of being the boss if you don’t take the piss nipping out every 5 minutes

Janis: You know I’d have to bring them back fucking no foam skimmed lattes with an extra shot

Casey: and what, you don’t love me enough to make a dickhead of yourself, that what I’m hearing

Janis: I reckon I’ve proved that’s not true loads of times, boy

Casey: name one

Janis: what about when I [any pick of your various public hookups] or [another example lol]?

Casey: you never looked a dickhead during them, you looked fucking

Casey: I’ve not got the words for it even, so shut up

Janis: telling me to shut up when you’ve got no way to make me

Casey: I’ve always got ways

Janis: prove it

Casey: [sending her a voice note she’d have to shh to listen to, cheating slightly there imo but pop off, we know you just wanna be extra whilst she’s at work and literally with a client really, being v graphic about how he’d shut her up and what he’d do if she doesn’t, as always]

Janis: [send a mini vid of you putting a headphone in like now listening, ‘scuse me client]

Janis: 😖 why

Casey: you asked for it

Janis: don’t you know its bad to always give people what they want?

Casey: other people maybe, I told you, you ain’t like none of them

Janis: special and spoiled

Janis: maybe I’ll get used to it one day

Casey: let’s never get used to each other, fuck being that sort of married couple when we can feel like this forever instead of

Janis: its a deal, as good as vows ‘til we can

Casey: I’ll add it in to what I’ve got written, don’t worry

Janis: don’t, I’ll explode if you’ve really written anything

Casey: don’t, I’ll need you to read it back to me if it gets much longer, til I can keep it in my head then and not have to make a dickhead of myself on the day

Janis: how do you get it right every single time, you’re so

Casey: I’ve had loads of time to get right what I wanna say, knew I’d marry you one day, like

Janis: Fuck

Janis: the mascara is going to need to be so waterproof it’s embarrassing

Casey: Grace’ll have to live with you not letting her attack you with none, not like you need it anyway

Janis: I miss you, I can’t wait to be safe at home with you tonight

Casey: miss you more

Janis: that’s impossible, you’re the cute one, I'm just reaping the benefits

Casey: you’re the one who’s fit enough to sell clothes no dickhead would be seen dead in if you’d not tricked ‘em into it

Casey: and it couldn’t feel more possible they could bury me right now for how bad I want you

Janis: I should do it again, get us loads of money before the 11 babies ruin the game

Janis: you could come with me, or I just do gigs this way

Casey: they wouldn’t do a thing like that

Casey: but ‘course I’ll come with you, dunno who we’ll sort to have him now Libs is running round causing havoc and far too busy, still, I will do

Janis: have to be a full family affair

Casey: he’ll be buzzing

Janis: she said you’d hate it

Casey: takes after you reckoning I’m a massive sexist, is why

Janis: I told her she doesn’t know you

Casey: none of them, only you

Janis: just me, no one else sees it but I’ll keep telling them

Casey: I won’t be fuming if it stays for your eyes only

Casey: at least til there’s the 3 of us

Janis: I’ll tell her how good you are, stuff you’d be too modest to say about yourself

Casey: good luck getting a word in ‘cause I’m not gonna shut up about you to her

Janis: sick of hearing us, poor thing

Casey: nah, that’ll be Grace’s honour to have, can’t leave my daughter out the club when the rest of us are all sick of hearing her

Janis: call her your daughter again

Casey: bring her to me then

Janis: where

Casey: gasping for a cuppa too, she is

Casey: told us I’ve to unpack the kettle or get one ordered else we’ll fall out

Janis: dunno where she gets that attitude from

Casey: my daughter

Janis: she’s meant to behave for you

Casey: she is, she knows how much I need to see her, and you

Janis: 15 minutes, I can do 15

Casey: from when

Janis: soon as I get home

Casey: soon as that lad gets off the table, you’ll be on your way

Janis: not waiting for him to get his clothes back on

Casey: not when I’m here waiting to get yours off

Janis: they’re in my way

Casey: and mine

Janis: more importantly

Casey: most importantly, Libi was in our way from when I got back, I could’ve been fucking you til your alarm went off

Janis: what she and I deserved, for entirely different reasons

Casey: you deserved that run, baby, but I would’ve given you loads more

Janis: see, no idea how considerate you are

Janis: if we hadn’t gone on our run, I would’ve not been able to last ‘til she left

Casey: with it I dunno how we lasted

Janis: barely, is how

Janis: I thought about just getting on you about a thousand times

Casey: in my sleep I think I did

Janis: really?

Casey: might’ve just been a dream

Janis: I want it to be real, you sleep fucking me

Casey: you heard us say I’m knackered before

Janis: do you want me to

Casey: tell me to go to bed

Janis: go to sleep, you need it

Janis: I’ll make sure you only have the nicest of dreams

Casey: fuck

Janis: shh, baby boy

Casey: promise, I’ll be good, I’m going

Janis: good, mummy will be home soon to tuck you in

Casey: [a pic of him in bed like see look how good I’m being but obvs he’s stripped it during packing so you get the added bonus of seeing him in all his extraness]

Janis: look at you, fuck

Casey: shh, it’s my sleepy time

Casey: you’re only allowed to say goodnight

Janis: you’re right good boy, mummies are bad too sometimes but they shouldn’t be

Janis: good night, I love you the most

Casey: you’re so good, the best

Casey: and I love you more than anything

Janis: you’re my favourite, if you feel anything, it’s just me giving you a forehead kiss okay, don’t be scared

Casey: I wouldn’t be able to sleep well without it, you have to

Janis: its how we keep nightmares away, I’d never forget

Casey: I’m safe with you

Janis: wherever we are

Casey: the where don’t matter, never has

Janis: long as we’re together

Casey: and we’re gonna be forever

Janis: always

Casey: goodnight

Janis: [let him go to sleep or pretend, whatever his vibe is and get yourself back]

Casey: [maybe you do fr fall asleep you do be tired but I don’t believe for one second you aren’t gonna just be pretending when she’s back, Chubby if nothing else, isn’t gonna let her just reappear silently and you aren’t a deep sleeper boy unless y’all are together]

Janis: [this dog always being in the way and requiring love before we can be our feral selves, god bless, it’s the only time you remotely take a second these days so allow him to love upon you before you’re tiptoeing into this bedroom as quietly as you can and just looking at him, stroking his hair before leaning over to give him his forehead kiss]

Casey: [me here being judgey like I know damn well you haven’t taken that dog for his long af walk yet sir because you got distracted by this gal and your feelings about leaving this gaff, soz Chubby, I promise he will because Janis has shit to do, but right here rn it’s the HAPPY sigh for me, and fuck it, you can be that kind of half asleep still vibe if you and we want hun]

Janis: [he really will be pissing in this house which is not a habit to encourage but today, you won’t be getting told off, there’s too many emotions running far too high and fuck this landlord anyway so yolo; just genuinely BEAMING down at you like so enamoured, running our fingers through your hair and down your neck and to your shoulders, giving them a little massage, hopping over you gently as we can to sit on the other side of the bed, it’ll inevitably be squeaky af ‘cos it’s shit and broken but we’re trying lol]

Casey: [it’s a miracle that bed is in a fit state for y’all to even lie on still tbh, do a sleepy roll over to be fully on her side with her how I always do to my poor boo, so in her grill lol and obvs snuggle her because who are you otherwise, asleep or awake]

Janis: [half lying down next to him, getting into a comfortable cuddle position whereby you’re cradling him to your chest but still have full reach if you decide you wanna be feral because he did give you that consent, for now just giving him all the comforting kisses all over his face and continuing to massage his upper body]

Casey: [because it is comforting and sending him into a deeper sleep how titty time does for me, everything she’s doing and the fact he can hear her heartbeat he’s doing happy noises about, it also goes without saying though that because his head is to her chest he will be nuzzling into it until her clothes are out the way enough he can get her nip into his mouth, like when babies breastfeed while asleep, but because he isn’t a baby he’s getting harder than he clearly already was while he sucks and doing lil moans around said nip]

Janis: [‘I love you so much’ saying this very softly against whatever available skin is closest to your mouth without disturbing him and what he’s doing ‘you deserve this’ like a nice meal and a good sleep because it has been a TIME, thanks Libi; moving your clothes out of the way more even though it was adorable to watch him nuzzle and made you feel all the things, blatantly just looking down at him getting harder and doing your own !! noises, heartbeat getting quicker]

Casey: [making the kind of nonsense sound you do when someone speaks to you when you’re asleep and you’re trying to answer, is it ILY back no, but is it adorable yes, moving slightly whether it’s in response to the other !! noises she made or her heartbeat or both, pulling her closer and as a result making his own !! noise again from the contact which causes her nip to come out of his mouth so then he’s just putting his open mouth everywhere trying to find it and there’s SO much spit going all over the place, excuse him]

Janis: [just doing a little lol at him and making noises like you do when a baby is babbling and you’re like oh, really, tell me more, the lol turning way, way indecent when you’re putting your whole mouth over us, moving to let you cover even more skin shamelessly before guiding you back to the nip eventually]

Casey: [equally shamelessly moving against her with more intent and !! when he has the nip back in his mouth cos buzzing about it, no notes]

Janis: [the most encouraging ‘there you go’ ever, even if you’re saying it on the GASP you can’t suppress]

Casey: [me here like don’t think about the similarities and total differences between this and JJ dryhumping each other senseless later, just don’t think about it, let’s distract ourselves by letting him say her name, however incoherent it may be]

Janis: [my boo says DO NOT even think about it, shh, it doesn’t exist on the same day in the same life lmao, right now none of us are aware that is going to be a thing so we’re ignoring it and we’re here sliding our leggings down because you can’t be going through as many pairs as you would need to lol, do yourself that favour and say his name back]

Casey: [gonna say the moving she’d need to do for that, however much she’s trying not to, would wake him a little bit, even if he’s back to the half asleep vibe of before/isn’t fully awake because that feels legit, smiling at her like oh hey you’re here, again adorable, pulling her closer to him to erase however small of a gap she had to create between their bodies to get those leggings out of the way, such a sleepy voiced ‘come here’ as he does]

Janis: [‘hey, you’ in the softest voice as you’re playfully closing his eyes for him again like no no, you’re meant to be asleep, but we have to give you a quick kiss on the mouth too because missed you and we know we can’t stay too long]

Casey: [simply must give her a ‘hey’ back in the same tone, keeping his eyes closed like a good boy but doing an even bigger happy sigh than the first one he did at the start as she kisses him and obvs he cannot resist turning it into a sleepy soft makeout sesh as he gets inside her]

Janis: [making tiny, involuntary noises into his mouth because you’re trying to be quiet but also you cannot ‘does that feel good?’ in a whisper as you’re moving closer to him somehow, so the whisper is in his ear]

Casey: [doing the kind of involuntary shiver you do when something tickles whether her breath during the whisper or her hair did or not, and a GASP in answer to her question that turns more into a soft moan as he also starts to move]

Janis: [just making the most of doing the most with movements that are intense and deep but not fast and frantic because not the move but also it’s necessary we can’t just lay here and let you go on forever like you probably could ‘it feels so right having you inside me’ still whispering in his ear]

Casey: [matching what she’s doing with what he’s doing, because always, pulling her hair gently but insistently until y’all are kissing again, still softly but with more intensity than when he first started the makeout, because gotta be inside her the most that he can after she’s said that and that includes his tongue in her mouth so]

Janis: [makeout with him like you’ve got places to be because true and you need as much of him as you can get before you have to leave again, playing with his adam’s apple more gently than you normally are but enough he feels it]

Casey: [opening his eyes properly for the first time because when he says ‘I missed you’ he means it and he needs to see her, if only briefly, holding her stomach so we all know the you is plural obvs, but in case that isn’t clear enough, giving baby Jac her own ‘hey, you’ before kissing her stomach indecently, all while they are still going at it here which makes me die lol, because then he’s reaching for the toy he got this bub that he literally had near him while he was sleeping like the most adorable nerd because in no world can he bear to pack that away until the last possible sec, touching the nose of whatever animal this soft toy is to her belly button before he puts it back down beside him where it’s safe from how feral you two are and all your bodily fluids]

Janis: [🥺 at you all whilst making the most 🥺 noises to match because everything about that is too cute and we’re NOT okay ‘aren’t you lucky’ @ this bump under our breath]

Casey: [looking up at her from where he was kissing her stomach but a moment ago because we hear those noises and then he also sees her expression and ofc it makes him so !! that he HAS to kiss her throat very dramatically and then start making out with her almost frantically]

Janis: [just here forgetting the plan and making it frantic tbh because we can’t do this any longer, given I’m sure that’s the longest you’ve gone without having sex since you started, Libi being there last night]

Casey: [‘what did you do to us?’ meaning when I was asleep because the I’m so close rn and DYING is super apparent in his tone as well as his 0 hesitation in being as frantic as her and every !! loud sound he is making]

Janis: [‘what you wanted me to’ like you were directing all of it ‘what you begged us for’]

Casey: [he’s blatantly very into that response, how could he not be, hence ‘I’m gonna-’ can’t say it but it’s even more obvious how close he is than he already was ‘don’t let me, you’ll have to piss off back to work and-’ again we cannot finish a sentence because dying and trying so hard not to fully lose it so she’ll have to stay here forever doing this + the unhinged sounds and feral breathing ‘just- tell me I can’t’]

Janis: [‘I’ll stop fucking you, don’t you dare cum’ because always happy to oblige, would be kind of undercut by how close we blatantly are too but still, mind your business, lowkey pushing away from him but not to the degree you’re actually off him just like you stop that]

Casey: [despite the fact he asked her to do it he is nevertheless dramatically dragging her back closer than she even was before somehow, literally hard enough to knock the air out of her because he knows how much she likes that, thrusting into her so hard it’s ridiculous and the noises are beyond unhinged + basically at screaming level, not soz to the landlord or neighbours, only to Chubby who is probably living his best life trying to unpack everything again and run off with whatever random things he finds how dogs do, busy enough that they’ve been allowed to get this feral despite his lack of walk ‘please, please’ not at all clear any more if he still wants her to stop him or if he now wants her to let him cum ‘fuck!- Please!’ but he’s begging her either way]

Janis: [the force of this is fully enough to have this bed on the ground by this point, when you’re too winded to do anything but make spluttering/wheezing sort of noises about it so matching you with that unhinged energy, attempting to put your arms out in front of you and push him in the chest like no, go away but of course, he’s still actually inside you and you aren’t stopping him in any real way, not you looking at your watch seeing if you can let him or he needs to wait because you’ve still got x amount of minutes or whatever, getting a single ‘what?’ out because you have neither the breath nor the composure to make that a full sentence but we’re asking you to tell us what you need]

Casey: [I don’t even need to say how into this playfight vibe she started he is, RIP to this bed for real this time because the way he’s pinning her to it so lowkey aggressively after that watch check because no don’t go + obviously trying to fuck her through it as well as the floor beneath with how hardcore we’re being seriously will destroy what was left of it, excuse him for making it literally impossible for her to breathe with all of this ‘you know what’ like it’s her fault she has to leave instead of an absolute blessing she’s been here at all]

Janis: [the heart eyes on your bright red face because you can’t breathe but you’re so into it too, just headbutting your chest casually but not at all casually ‘please, please’ echoing what he said earlier]

Casey: [giving the biggest hearteyes back in contrast to his aggressive actions and almost angry tone when he spoke before and does now ‘you feel too fucking good’ like how dare you, using a throat grab to lift her slightly, just enough that she isn’t being crushed to death by his body at the same time as he’s doing this and cutting off her air supply by kissing her]

Janis: [the ‘so cum’ being said against his lips being her mouth purely forming the words shape, no sound is happening because we simply cannot]

Casey: [really grabbing her arse as if he’s gonna smack her for even suggesting such a thing but actually he’s pulling the cheeks apart and pushing his fingers into her as he starts to cum, and all of this on a bare mattress with no warning, we really are saying fuck the landlord on this day, she could shit]

Janis: [me like hope you don’t but know neither of y’all would truly care, and as per, the possibility turns you on to the 1000th degree so of course you’re cumming with him]

Casey: [soz not soz world for how dramatically they are both doing it but needs must]

Janis: [keep up with your own mischief, Chubby, they’re not injured or in danger]

Casey: [I promise you’ll be getting a walk when she goes back to work sir, they just had to do that]

Janis: [we know you have to leave way too soon after that for your liking but even if you should be leaving now, lay here with him and cuddle him to you again like you did when he was sleeping]

Casey: [no recovery time ever for this gal, but lie and listen to her heartbeat again, because it would be cray after all that and he loves that he did that to her in such a short space of time]

Janis: [‘bastard’ but said in the most affectionate tone ever, as we’re touching our throat where you were holding us like we’re feeling for any marks but we’re just having the immediate flashback]

Casey: [not moving from his position but reaching up to draw a heart on her throat the literal second after she’s done touching it as though he read her mind]

Janis: [no dignified way to do it but you also have to feel where he grabbed on and then penetrated your booty because you might need to do some clean up there, doing a little sigh that isn’t fully emo af but just like back to reality for us both]

Casey: [pick her up and carry her to the bathroom to do this aftercare for her because again read her mind and you have to because it’s your fault and you want to because you’re you]'

Janis: [‘maybe you’re not so bad’ like he really took the bastard comment to heart lmao, drawing your own heart somewhere on him whilst he’s busy]

Casey: [‘maybe’ like it’s casual and a throwaway oh yeah you’re right kinda comment while he’s cleaning her up but it isn’t at all because it’s him admitting that he doesn’t feel like an utter bastard anymore and that’s so important]

Janis: [‘definitely’ to the bump under your breath]

Casey: [playfully flicking some water at her like oi what are you two talking about, but he’s smiling so genuinely at her]

Janis: [‘mind your business’ with the same smile at him]

Casey: [literally getting down to baby Jac’s level like go on tell me girl and putting his ear to the bump she doesn’t yet have, making noises like mhmm as if he’s listening, like a big nerd]

Janis: [‘grass’ at a normal speaking level like I hope you heard that, baby Jac lmao, in the mirror sorting out your face and hair so you can be presentable to leave]

Casey: [‘don’t listen to her, little mate’ in his soft talking to baby Jac voice, a pause like she’s saying something back ‘yeah, you’re alright, she’s got wrong end of the stick, we know, like, but I’ll still tell her’ and then hugging her from behind, the kind of hug that’s so !! it lifts her off the ground and spinning her round to face him as if baby Jac said you’ve gotta hug her BIG cos she’s gotta go soon]

Janis: [rolling your eyes like oh charming but only playfully, of course, about to say something about him being that sort of dad that undermines everything you say and do when he lifts us off our feet with this bear hug so then we don’t need to say anything, just let ourself be squished and surrounded by you]

Casey: [‘we love you’ no notes]

Janis: [‘love you too’ in a lil voice because never not a tiny bit to entirely sad to be leaving you ever ‘sure she’d rather stay here with you’ like soz to you both that’s a physical impossibility]

Casey: [‘takes after you at that’ because he knows she wants to stay too, but putting her down and giving her a gentle push towards the door]

Janis: [lowkey run out of this flat because we know you’re terrible at goodbyes and you’ve got too much to do today]

Casey: [and you find this dog and sort out his playful unpacking so you can then take him for a walk when she’s definitely gone or else he’d be running after her and my boo is so right there is too much to do soz]

Janis: [we know you’d both love nothing more but foot is put down, you’ve got to fit in a few more clients, go talk to Fearghal, then go talk to Jimmy at lunch, nbd]

Casey: [not to mention talk Jimothy off his suicidal ledge via text or whatever before you go see him, so busy]

Janis: [I mean all in a days lmao]

Casey: [god bless, thank god we did give you that hookup to de-stress because with everything that’s happening it’ll feel like there’s years between the jc and jj ones]

Janis: [the way it truly can’t be that many hours though by definition… yikes haha]

Janis: [but anyway, a picture of a massive Starbs order ‘cos of course you had to have a reason to say you were pissing off out]

Casey: [a pic of Chubby’s pouty lip like he’s so gutted he didn’t get a puppuccino idk how to spell that and I never will, thanks autocorrect ?]

Janis: He’ll take you, mate, don’t worry 😘

Casey: Oi, don’t be promising the lad owt I don’t fancy delivering

Janis: what being a parent is all about

Janis: can’t disappoint that little face

Casey: what you order for her

Casey: [idk but the girliest food ever like baby Jac is a princess thank you so you better have]

Janis: caffeines no good for her, you’ve seen her auntie

Casey: I said 🧁 not ☕️

Janis: oh, well, point still stands

Janis: fuck up your own body, kid, you’ll do enough damage to mine no doubt

Casey: I get it, them places make you mardy

Janis: no more than most places full of dickheads do

Casey: and I miss you already too

Janis: always do, before I even left

Casey: how about I call in sick to work tonight, we can just settle ourselves in

Janis: are you sure?

Casey: yeah

Casey: it’s only [idk a student night or some kind of midweek nonsense not like how busy and feral weekends are] anyway, barely need us

Janis: if you think they’ll let you then yeah, obviously

Casey: I’ll lay it on that thick they’ll be shitting themselves to have me behind the bar

Janis: I trust you and your ability to bullshit, like

Casey: tah, fills us with all the confidence I could need

Janis: yeah, dead scared of authority, you

Casey: yours

Janis: 😏

Casey: [a picture of Chubby having his puppuccino like see, told you, don’t dare go against what you say, but I imagine it’s a knock off one from some cafe he’s walked past not official soz to the huns]

Janis: too young to know the difference and you didn’t have to face the basic bitches

Casey: 😏

Janis: got your tea too?

Casey: I have

Janis: then my work here is done

Casey: oh right, been nice knowing you

Janis: nicer than that

Casey: a bit

Janis: more than 🤏

Janis: 👉 👈

Casey: giving me a flashback with all that, you are

Janis: you who did it, boy

Casey: yeah, you heard, I just said I remember

Janis: me who can still feel it, that’s distracting

Casey: least you’ve not got a sitting down job, even I might feel 🤏 bad if you did do

Janis: 😤

Casey: felt that

Janis: you wish, this lad probably just thinks I’m weirdly out of shape

Casey: blind, is he

Janis: awh 😎💔

Casey: steady on, I remember how you feel about 😎

Janis: not actually medically advised, his

Casey: never know if you don’t bother taking sod all medical advice

Janis: are you talking to yourself now or

Casey: could be, but I reckon I’d know if I couldn’t see, so

Janis: you would hope, yeah

Casey: weren’t the problem no matter how many teachers took the piss reckoning a pair of glasses would sort us right out

Janis: anything to not do their job, that lot

Janis: not got any better

Casey: Lucas is still there, enough said

Janis: don’t remind me, fucking creep

Casey: he manages to be about the place when our kids are old enough to go, I’ll not send them

Janis: we’ll find a better school

Casey: can have scholarships, the lot, they’ll all be smart as, I’ll make sure they are before they go any school nevermind off to it with the big kids

Janis: ‘course you will

Janis: as long as they don’t turn into assholes

Casey: don’t have to send ‘em with posh kids, just smart ones

Janis: you’re cute

Casey: only the best for my daughters

Janis: I don’t like thinking about it that far

Casey: I get it, I’d rather they stay little too

Janis: I dunno, I just can’t picture it like you do, I don’t think I want to

Casey: you don’t have to, I’ll make sure the surprises are good ones while I’m on about doing whatever else

Janis: I don’t wanna piss on your parade about it or anything

Casey: I get that as well as, don’t worry

Janis: I’m not worried about the flat, just his reaction

Casey: yeah, same

Janis: I have to just come out and say it, no easy or nice way to do it

Janis: is there

Casey: I don’t reckon, nah, not pissing about is gonna be the only favour you can really do him

Janis: yeah, you’re right

Janis: fuck it, here I go then

Casey: deep breath, my love

Janis: [send him what you sent Jimmy because we know it took him a sec to reply]

Janis: that sounds alright, don’t it?

Casey: there’s nothing wrong with it, to the point and that, without being dickhead levels of formal or too matey

Janis: I tried

Janis: when he replies, let you know the gist

Casey: alright, tah

Janis: [let this convo go on for a bit because you sorted the flat situ, the Bobby school translator appointment and coming ‘round for a cuppa and to get Libi’s present pretty quickly]

Janis: he seems alright, I thought it was going to be bitchy secretary formal but he sounds like himself, at times

Janis: he’s alright about the flat, understands its unavoidable and I’m gonna go with him to the school to talk about them getting Bob a proper translator before him and Lib get any worse

Casey: Okay, none of that was what I were expecting but I’m not fuming about it, like

Janis: I know, yeah

Janis: maybe I’m just delusional from the stress but he seems properly alright, not just saying he is

Janis: ‘cos if he was doing that he would’ve 👍 and stopped talking, that’s the standard

Casey: you can work out the difference better than anybody else, I trust it

Janis: he’s actually got a present for Lib, says I can pick it up at lunch, wouldn’t offer that if he was fucked up from this news

Casey: and he’s remembered when it’s for, can’t be that gone

Janis: exactly, feel like a knob for being so scared to start this convo now, like

Casey: feel like I’ll have to take back every bad word I’ve ever said about our kid if this is his doing

Janis: might’ve had a point telling Libi to piss off and leave him to it

Casey: too right if the result’s this

Janis: might take 🤏 of pleasure telling her that today but best not, poor cow

Casey: let us, never did have none ‘cause I didn’t swing for her last night

Janis: oi, I sorted that for you [however long ago your quickie was]

Casey: yeah but

Casey: I properly fancied hitting her, you get it, it was mutual

Janis: I know, it’d only make her act like more of a dick though, cause more trouble

Janis: so you have to settle for going on lots and lots of runs and taking it out on me

Casey: do my best to live with that, far as compromises go, reckon I can, just about

Janis: you can even tell me about how badly you wanted to, I ain’t gonna grass, unlike certain people

Casey: I might, as we’ll have all night to have a chat, I’m gonna ring work now

Janis: in our new home

Janis: where she won’t be having no key

Casey: nobody will, it’s ours and you’re mine

Janis: we need all night

Casey: be a very sweet home where I don’t need to share you

Janis: I’m yours

Casey: and I’ll claim you all over it ‘til there’s more reminders in that place than you know what to do with

Janis: I’m gonna make you happier than you know what to do with

Casey: oi, cheater, you have, pick a new one

Janis: hmm, what do you want 🤔

Casey: just you, from when we met I was happier than I could hack

Janis: don’t make me emotional

Casey: sorry, I’ll shut up before he works out you are and it sets him off

Janis: shh, it’s going well, don’t jinx anything

Casey: has gotta be a record or something it is still

Janis: these days, yeah

Casey: so you’re alright, I’ll shh

Janis: 😘 have got loads to be doing, you

Casey: in a bit then

Janis: gonna be over there from [whatever o’clock to the next] so don’t worry if I don’t respond ‘til after then, alright

Janis: might get heavier in person but I’d message you if it was too bad

Casey: unless I hear from you, you’ll not from me

Casey: it’s okay

Janis: thanks, for getting it

Casey: I get you both, always have

Janis: I know that

Janis: he probably does too, more than he’d care to admit

Casey: rather not admit it myself, only do to you

Janis: maybe one day

Casey: maybe

Janis: [actually go quiet when the convo takes a turn towards the suicidal how it did]

Casey: [likewise cos you said you would, soz you’re fully in the dark about this but]

Janis: [just makes sense, it isn’t the kind of convo where you can also be carrying on another]

Casey: [agreed, and from his POV whatever is happening he trusts her to handle it, unless she says she can’t and wants him involved, so there’s no need to get involved via asking for updates and stuff every 5 seconds, he knows she’ll tell him what he needs to know eventually, good or bad]

Janis: [like this is going to end up being a long time for y’all but she did tell you when to expect her back so we best skip to then and ahh]

Casey: [oh lord she coming]

Janis: back at work, back on 📡📱

Casey: How was it

Janis: Heavier, as predicted but neither of us ended up catatonic so in comparison

Janis: I think we made some progress

Casey: I’m happy with that, even in comparison, like

Casey: I got myself ready to hear loads worse

Janis: it’s never fun to be the dickhead waiting, I know

Casey: should be used to it, never am somehow

Janis: things are different

Janis: but, me and him need to talk more, there’s still shit we need to do together, about Bobby and Libi and that

Janis: it was helpful, to actually know what was going on with him and in his head, like I haven’t for ages

Casey: him letting you back in is different, never thought I’d see the day at one point

Janis: he knows he can’t carry on like he has, I wasn’t going to freak you out but it did get a bit dark, he knows he needs help, and is actually going to look for it

Casey: good, can’t say no fairer than that, can we

Janis: it’s gonna be Libi’s birthday, then having a meeting with the school about the translator, then if he needs me to, I’ll go doctors with him, make sure what needs to be said is

Janis: it’s a start, yeah?

Casey: yeah

Casey: for once I don’t feel a massive twat having my hopes a bit up

Janis: you said it, and I knew it was true, we needed to do that, for closure's sake

Casey: I do feel a twat though that I can’t believe he’s so alright

Janis: aside from the whole suicidal thing but

Janis: I guess none of us can pretend we’re shocked, makes it all the fucking worse

Janis: but he wants help, I’m sure of it

Casey: first time he’s properly acknowledged all that in his head, nevermind said he wants rid

Janis: it was like when I thought you were gonna go to prison, he stopped replying, for a bit, he was meant to be at work but suddenly in my head he’d stepped out and into the road or

Casey: fuck, I’m sorry you had to hack all that

Casey: I should’ve checked, whatever I said

Janis: no, it’s okay, he did come back after a bit of freaking out over the phone

Janis: had to focus, try not to talk over him or some other bullshit I usually do

Casey: easier said than done when he’s maybe about to off himself

Janis: I guess, yeah, it weren’t nice but

Janis: we got there

Casey: you did it, you got through it and through to him an’ all

Janis: maybe he’ll decide he can’t do Libi’s bday, or whatever, we can’t get too ambitious too soon but he wouldn’t have even had words to say yes or no to anything last month

Casey: exactly, that’ll more than do me

Janis: s’like some weight I didn’t even know was there until it was lifted is gone

Casey: I fucking love you

Casey: you’re so

Casey: I dunno, I’ve not got the words now, brave don’t sound right

Janis: I’m not brave, just the only one in the position to have that chat with him right now, you would if it were a possibility yet

Casey: yeah, but you keep on putting yourself in the shittest positions, over and over, for all us dickheads, it’s not nothing, I just don’t have a clue how to say what it is

Casey: everything it is, in a word

Janis: I made it the shittiest situation, well, we did, I guess, for all of us

Janis: its my job to make it right, as best I can

Casey: you could’ve pissed off out of it, other dickheads do in the shitty situations they’ve made

Janis: fucked if I know how they live with themselves though

Casey: they don’t, if my dad’s anything to go by

Casey: I’m proud of you, let us be, fuck’s sake

Janis: but you can’t

Casey: he’s alive, today that’s down to you

Janis: I kissed him goodbye

Janis: I don’t wanna say it and take away from the hope you’re right to have about him but I don’t wanna keep it no secret

Casey: goodbyes matter, if you had to, you had to

Janis: it felt like something we should’ve done a long time ago, way before us

Janis: but I know it happened now, not making no excuse

Casey: I can’t have a go, I meant what I said, you’ve kept him here

Casey: he needs to be more than I need to kick off, it was just a kiss, a goodbye

Janis: not like a peck on the cheek though, more than that

Casey: I don’t wanna hear the details

Janis: alright

Casey: you said it were like when you thought garda was gonna cart us off, I get it

Casey: I’d do fucking whatever not to lose him either

Janis: I know you would

Janis: it was too similar, the dread and then the relief but not being sure how long that would last, if it would

Casey: it does my head in you had to go through something like that again

Janis: he can’t help it being the truth but I told him he was a twat for stopping responding when he did

Janis: it made everything seem more immediate than I hope it were

Casey: he is, he’s a right knobhead for it

Janis: I fucking love you too, you know

Casey: I know, but I fucking hate there’s no more I can do at the minute or have done when this was going on

Janis: I’d feel helpless too

Janis: but us trying to do anything with him or the kids as a duo, just ain’t going to work, we have to go to them separate, for now

Casey: like I said before, I can’t go to them at all, they’ve gotta come to me

Janis: okay but at least I can persuade Jimmy, or his therapist can

Janis: have to rely on him to do the work with the kid

Casey: I can wait, never used to it or not

Janis: I think you’re whatever the word that isn’t brave is too

Casey: I ain’t, I’ve just done enough bad to them, I don’t reckon I’ve got it in us to do no more

Janis: he knows he has you too, he said as much

Casey: what did he say

Janis: that he let you down, by being different after your mum left, I told him what you said to me, about first hitting him

Janis: that you used to rate him like Bobby did, how he thinks he’ll end up hating him too

Janis: I told him you don’t, it’s not that simple

Casey: no, simple definitely don’t fit

Janis: not one of you, like

Casey: he would say I used to rate him though, dickhead

Janis: he always was a bighead, deep down

Casey: got that in common, the 3 of us

Janis: oh, he did say that maybe he shouldn’t have treated you like you were Bobs age

Janis: did also maybe imply I was a paedo after that but we’ll let it slide

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amazingphilza · 4 years ago

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twitchcon :: cc!multiple x reader

fluff , platonic , gender neutral ! some mcyt headcanons if you were to attend twitchcon w them

cc’s included in order: tommyinnit , tubbo , ranboo , wilbur soot , philza , technoblade

cw: kinda lengthy for the minors (i think), not as much for the hags LMAO /hj

tommyinnit

this man is so excited to be at his first twitchcon & being able to hang out with all his best friends makes it a hundred times better

when he isn’t at a panel or doing meet & greets, he’s dragging you everywhere to see the whole convention center (clingyinnit)

he is just so at awe despite this not being his first convention to attend

you’d be surprised he gets tired pretty quickly & stops over to the partner lounge

you both rest for a bit against a wall in a pretty packed hallway despite it being an exclusive area to twitch partners

every time a famous streamer walks by he will yell it out and record it then vlog your reaction, even if they’re surrounded with bodyguards & trying to get to another place quickly

he’d zoom in his camera to their face at a horrible angle and be like

“oh my god it is THE ninja. ninja famous fortnite player, HELLO.”

but he gets completely ignored

then the camera pans out to you, still really zoomed in that the capture is blurry

“ninjainnit?”

“EH?”

tommy is so confused, forgetting the bit ninja did on his twitter where he renamed himself ‘ninjainnit’ for a split second

okay tommy isn’t that athletic but he will chase you and the rest of your group down a hallway if he had to

he’d probably find a toy gun from the artist alley/seller booths and shoot you and wilbur with it

but if tommy stumbles across any of the dream team, it’s about to be minecraft manhunt but irl

and he will def play his stream music while walking or smth when he’s bored (or trying to jump dream & sapnap)

** DO DO DO DO MANHUNT MUSIC **

oh my god,, now thinking about it he’s probably the one to open like random doors of empty rooms and steal stuff while you film him

like he will take a random empty glass, a bunch of pens, a freebie t-shirt, everything he sees he takes with him and you’re just panic

“tommy we’re literally not supposed to be here, and i’m stuck here filming you. it’s surely a felony in action”

“well, it’s their fault for leaving the doors open! plus this is great content. who’s the dirty crime boy now, HM?”

you’d tell wilbur about this and he’d scold tommy and threaten him with the same pen tommy stole

tommy probably would also drag you some weird event happening outside twitchcon along with tubbo and ranboo

“pokimane is giving out free pizza to everyone if we go to this one restaurant down the street!”

“we are literally gonna get bombarded. have you forgot you’re like three of twitch’s top streamers? i’d rather pay for all of our meals than try getting free pizza from pokimane against all her other fans”

“DEAL! let’s go to five guys then!”

you unfortunately end up paying for all 3 of their meals and picking on their food instead of buying your own

even with all of them making way more money than you, they still happen to be cheapskates

OR tommy will end up getting a burrito from a taco truck, immediately making a mess of himself, then proceed to complain how messy the food is to eat despite knowing what he was getting himself into before even ordering

“shit my clothes are all ruined now!”

“well that’s your fault you got a burrito, as if it’s your first time having one”

“i mean the food is good, i’m not complaining about that but i don’t think it’s that good that it’s worth costing my red and white shirt, im just saying”

tubbo

same with tommy, he is so excited

i don’t know why but i imagine him overpacking his suitcase and you making fun of him for it

anyway tubbo has his irl backpack on and streaming EVERYTHING

probably spends a lot of time at a bunch of different booths, checking out all the pointless gadgets he could buy for his stream

you’re the one to stop him from doing so

“TUBBO IT’S LITERALLY OVER TEN THOUSAND DOLLARS, STOP. DONT GET IT.”

“WHY NOT?? IT WILL BE COOL FOR MY STREAM AND I WILL USE IT EVERYDAY”

“okay theoretically speaking, how the hell are you going to even bring it home? which—let me remind you—is across the country for you and not to mention the giant ocean separating america and the uk”

“free ship-pang!!!”

“i hate to break it to you tubbo but there is no way you can get free shipping on a FIVE FOOT PC. it’s nearly as tall as you! what are you even gonna do on it, hack the government???”

the arguments are all lighthearted but eventually you give in and let him splurge over a thousand dollars in different devices he claimed he “needed”

i could honestly see him visiting the beaches in san diego and going for a swim or even renting out a boat to use for a bit :D

also he’d bring benson along with him and taking a bunch of scenic photos with it in them

i have a feeling he’s the type to schedule a spontaneous meet & greet because he was bored & gets in trouble for causing a mob in a certain part of the convention

he’s like “oh god, i did not expect this many of the bois to show up AHAHAH oops”

tubbo would def pull a lilypichu and bring his melodica or ukulele and play themes while following random people/cosplayers

at the end of the day, you’d find his bag just stuffed with crap he either got for free or bought in the convention

“how did you get all that stuff? i was with you all day??? and it’s only the first day of the convention, hello?? it looks like you’ve been collecting as if twitchcon has went on for a week already!”

“HA i have my ways, do not underestimate my powers”

lani would probably tag along for the vacation honestly

like whenever someone comes up to her giving her gifts/asking for pics, you and tubbo would tease her about how famous she is

and i dunno but something about tubbo just gives me this amusement park energy and going to legoland and spending the whole day there since it’s near by and because he can

ranboo

he is like a beacon in a sea of people, that’s it .

i honestly just see him causing as much chaos as the other two

ranboo would probably like take someone’s camera whether if they’re streaming or if it’s for the vlog, hold it up high, and point the camera directly above someone’s face

it did not matter how tall you were and if you had platform shoes on, ranboo was a skyscraper next to you

“HAHAH this is how i see you from this height, this is funny”

then he shows you the vid of the recording of him getting like an aerial view of your face

like you see your nose and all your pores and just overall a bad angle to be captured in

“OH GOD RANBOO DELETE THAT, ITS HORRIFIC”

i dunno why but i feel like he’d jump scare every person that was cosplaying as his minecraft character from behind for some reason

“BOO!”

“ranboo i’m not even remotely dressed as your skin—”

“don’t worry i’m practicing it’s fineee”

“you’re like the height of 2 people combined, i think you will be fine as is. you even intimidated the security at the front”

i feel like if he had his own panel he’d like pull up some undertale song in the middle of it and scare all the people in the crowd

“lore but in real life”

probably would get some matching keepsake with you from artist alley/the booths!

i could imagine like a cute keychain or smth :D

i feel like he’s the type to like randomly volunteer as a participant for those mini events in a booth thinking it would be funny but regrets it the moment he’s on stage

after introductions the presenter is like “okay ranboo, you will be given a random meme prompt above your head you won’t be able to see until after and you will have to make a random face to compliment it!”

and you can just tell by his facial expression he’s just thinking

oh god what have i gotten myself into

what is this game? who came up with this idea?

you’d laugh at him the whole time, even after he’s off the stage and finished with that small fiasco

“that was horrible. never again.”

“AHAHAH IT LOOKED SO AWKWARD YOU DID GREAT”

“I CROSSED MY EYES AND PUFFED MY CHEEKS BECAUSE I COULDNT THINK OF ANY OTHER FACIAL EXPRESSION. THE PROMPT ENDING UP BEING ‘WHEN TWITTER CANCELS YOU FOR USING PLASTIC STRAWS.’ AND WHEN I SAW WHAT IT WAS—LITERALLY WHAT KIND OF GAME–”

“I GOT PICTURES AND EVERYTHING ITS PERFECT AHAHAHAH”

wilbur soot

honestly with wilbur it’s slightly more chill

he already experienced twitchcon before so he’s just glad to see his friends again after so long

insists that you explore the convention yourself rather than sticking with him the whole time but you do anyway!

wilbur would probably have like a mini concert and gets you front row seats with the rest of the group

but that doesn’t mean before it that you’re not helping him set up

“y/n please– my amp is so heavy, i can carry it”

“don’t worry! i’m strong” :D

and musically talented or not, he will probably bring you and the rest of his friends up to stage to just vibe and sing a bunch of random acoustic songs

it’s not like some big concert hall stage,, i imagine more like a casual thing w a slightly higher platform from the ground yk?

after spending a long day at the convention he’d also bring everyone across the city to la jolla or smth !

you’d all probably have dinner there and chill, watching the pretty sunset

“this place is really pretty but oh my god im gonna lose my breath hiking up this stupid hill, please slow down”

and wilbur is like ??? because he’s completely fine with his long legs and everything

“just walk faster”

“no, you walk slower”

AHAHAH and for context traversing through la jolla by walking around the town is a bit hard since it’s basically on a bunch of hills (walking up from the beach to a restaurant actually is actually sm work, trust me ive been there)

wilbur honestly doesn’t spend that much time in the actual convention center, he’s probably sightseeing a bit of san diego with you instead

but i could imagine him staying at the tabletop games area playing dnd or smth

“c’mon y/n, come join!”

“uhh i’m not sure, i’m not the best at roleplay and...”

“it’s fine don’t worry!”

he’d pull you in with him and end up enjoying yourself even if it was your first time

and if you’re of age, you’d be wilbur’s +1 at the twitch partner party and make sure mans doesn’t too drunk

if it’s not too late in the night, you two would chill at the beach after the party

it’s just a nice, calming moment after all the loud music mixed with hundreds of conversations at the party

also something about like taking polaroids pictures with wilbur just seems to go hand in hand for me

i’m not sure why but you will be taking lots of pics with wilbur for sure (not necessarily you both in the photo, but of sceneries as well while you’re together!)

philza

literally a dad on vacation with his children, it doesn’t matter how old you are

need sunscreen? surprisingly has it

want a snack? probably has a small granola bar somewhere in his bag

but same with wilbur, he’s more chill like this isn’t his first time at twitchcon

omg he’d def bring you to the artist alley and just buy a bunch of fanart and stuff tho

“oh wow look phil, someone made a giant poster of the dream smp and shit!”

“holy shit that’s so good what the fuck!”

and he’s like rushing to that artist’s stall to buy a poster or print

idk why but phil seems like the person to know where he’s going all over the convention center

he probably had a copy of the directory map but yk

you just have trouble reading it bc all the signs seem to be misleading to you

nothing really crazy screams out to me of what phil would do at twitchcon besides like go to a few events, spend a bunch of time w his friends, etc

HOWEVER i could see him wasting a lot of his time at the gaming area and testing new games that are currently on the works of being developed

like “woah y/n, this vr game is sick, you should try it out!”

ngl i feel like phil would plan a visit to disneyland for everyone, like he gets the tickets and everything but once you’re at the park it’s free reign, y’all go everywhere with not much of a plan

the minors would try to cheap out phil and pay less than the others even though everyone else fully paid phil back and everything LMAO

ok but if he’s feeling nice, phil will buy everyone cotton candy/pretzels :D

and if you’re not hungry, he’d at least get you a mickey balloon

HE WILL HAVE MATCHING MICKEY EARS WITH MUMZA YES .

ALSO STAYING FOR THE FIREWORKS THOUGH OMG

just in general, best idea phil had for taking everyone to disneyland :D

technoblade

surprisingly techno is really calm despite this being like one of his first conventions

but when he finally settles in and gets comfortable, he’s showing the same energy

if you’re playfully yelling, he will yell back

however there’s still those awkward moments that are unavoidable

idk why but something about him makes me think that if you feel tired and want to go back to your hotel room, he’d go with you just to make sure you get there safe

he probably also needs a break from being around everyone else for a moment too LMAO

i could also see him searching far and wide in the artist alley for fanart of himself AHAHAH

walking around with him in the convention consists of someone yelling “BLOOD FOR THE BLOOD GOD” every 5 minutes but you don’t really mind

something about him makes me think he’ll be forced into playing minecraft twitch rivals along with the rest of sbi or smth

and he’s like “oh god, i’m going to be on stage? and people will see my face while i play minecraft?”

“i’m sure it will be fun!”

“i mean i like being competitive and feeding my ego, but i’m not that desperate.. well”

do i imagine techno getting easily tired of being surrounded by a bunch of people and just going back to his hotel room with phil and watching some anime with him? yes

and will you watch even if you have no idea what’s going on? also yes

i feel like after a while of you guys hanging out in techno’s room, the rest of the gang will just slowly join you guys

like eventually everyone is there; you, techno, phil, wilbur, niki, tommy, tubbo, ranboo, etc

and techno is like “wha– where did you guys come from?” because his room is basically packed

and niki could be like “oh we can go if you want!”

then techno just insists that she’s fine “but who let the child get in?” clearly implying tommy’s presence

“OI!!”

eventually techno gives in with the company and someone gets a bunch of board games to play from the front desk

lots of yelling and laughing for sure

when it becomes late at night, techno is like half conscious, you’re on your phone, wilbur is staring out the window & enjoying the night view, tommy is passed out on the couch from tiredness, tubbo & ranboo is still wide awake quietly talking, and phil & niki are helping clean up the giant mess

eventually everyone brings themselves to go back to their own room except tommy who won’t budge

you give techno a look and he immediately understands what you were thinking

he rushes to the bathroom to fill up two cups with ice cold water and handed one to you

“on three?”

“okay.. one”

“two”

“three!”

then both of you pour the water on the poor child’s face

he jolts awake and saying a string of curses

“what the fuck techno? y/n too?”

“get out” is the only think techno says that before tommy rushes out with his stuff and you leave right after

a/n: i honestly can’t wait until conventions open up again though,, phil and ranboo were talking about vidcon earlier and omg.

also i kinda want to take in tommy requests but i’m not sure??? it would be both cc! and c! x gn!reader for sure tho. i love writing him to bits but who knows, maybe i’ll only stick to my ideas,, or not. send in a tommy x reader request, might do it, might not, but he’s my fav cc if you can’t tell so! :D (i dunno if i will keep it strictly platonic, but unrequited crushes and stuff are fun to write hehe,,)

edit: let’s hope i fixed all the grammar mistakes LMAO we love writing late at night :) /s /hj

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