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void-tiger · 5 months ago

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…wHY do y’all feel the need to mention where someone’s at when they’re not around! Sure I have a crush on that idiot but I’m never going to admit to it, and actively avoid bringing them up myself ‘cause it’d feel like a freudian slip and it’s not my business anyway.

How often do I even come up in y’all’s home conversation. Is it out of pity? Or is this idiot just as insufferable as I am to my friends who are WELL AWAY from this and therefore Safe to repeatedly try spring-cleaning my demiromantic acengst with.

Are y’all pressuring them about me, too, or has that FINALLY, finally eased off.

(And what value can I possibly have, anyway. I’m unemployed and just shy of a shutin from severe anxiety/moderate depression and cptsd, adhd, and a smorgasbord of muscular-skeletal issues that just keep creeping up and staying and moving the goalpost to even TRY getting a job. The idiot has other friends when they have time to spend on them. All I am is stubborn enough to stick around and wait if I’m not actively being chased off IF the other party seems to really want that connection.)

#tiger’s roar #i am pathetic #and it’s hard to feel Good about being moved out #when I CAN’T work/keep a job. and how many credits I have to take to keep my scholarship makes trying to get a part time job Impossible Too #I’m doing this on student debt #and my parents won’t just Stop calling me spoiled apparently out of envy #that they’re able to spot my deposits and rent for the 2 months before reimbursement #and cover getting things like cooking utensils and used furniture and cleaning supplies #even though 2/3rds of what I have I either bought/kept myself OR are things they don’t want anymore #if anything. it should be a victory that they CAN provide this for me #where their parents’ couldn’t or wouldn’t #sure I got to move out whereas they immediately married ‘cause a kid was in the oven and the judgement that came with that #but they also weren’t chronically ill to the point of disability #and the chances of me marrying? almost zero. because I’m asexual and kiss repulsed and demiromantic #…sure I’m pretty sure my crush likes me back. and despite what happened last year their family really seems to like me #but even if they felt they did have the time and energy to just. ask me out? or hang out like we both seem to want?#I don’t think I’d ever accept that I wouldn’t just. drag them down with my stupid health #and even WORSE: make them feel sensually neglected ‘cause I can’t even think about kissing without basically gaslighting myself.#…friends can be supportive and physically intimate with hugs and whatnot #but me as a girlfriend? HA. I can’t give someone ‘enough’ without making myself feel utterly awful #and yeah. there’s a grief with that.#I’ll…try to let it be someone else’s Choice. not make someone else’s decisions for them #…but.

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fluent-in-lesbianism · 2 years ago

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I cut my hair short for the first time ever and y’all. I’m in love

#y’all really didn’t hype the short hair enough #not only do I get a tiny pony that serves a tiny swish #I’m gonna save MILLIONS on shampoo istg #this is my millenial avocado moment #student loan debt? gone.

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forerussake · 10 months ago

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got rejected for the job i really wanted and now idk where to go looking next. future is looking a little bleaker today :///

#i’m just tired and i need to find a job bc i need to repay my student debt #and public transport is becoming so expensive i’m starting to cut into my savings for it #but it’s so hard to find sth im actually excited about #and i don’t want to take a job i don’t like bc i know it’s going to destroy me #but i do need the money #and in general i had just envisioned my life to go very differently than it’s going at the moment #rl

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tellie-vision-art · 2 months ago

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Where the hell am I supposed to even post art now, or even go to look at art???

I barely even use twt anymore bc I barely see art and the posts I do see usually aren’t even entertaining anymore, it’s just a bunch of shit I don’t care about or drama that I could live without hearing about

Here is basically dead, I do see art but it’s not usually art I care about? Like, I like OC artwork idc that much about fan art most of the time but that’s most of what I see (and it’s for media I don’t consume also so—). Or maybe I’m unlucky and my mutuals’ art just doesn’t show up for me 😭???

Both sites, it doesn’t matter what I post, it WILL be flopping, my mutuals don’t even really interact with me anymore and they always used to 😞. What do I even do? I just feel completely lost between this and all of my personal/health issues

#sometimes I become delusional and I think maybe #maybe I will be able to sell commissions one day #but in times like these I know those thoughts are pointless to have #and even if I could do something that could generate a minimal amount of extra income #it’s too late now #I’m over $1000 in medical debt and have $13000ish in student loans #which were taken out for nothing bc the college I enrolled in sucked and was a waste of time #the payments are all so much and even if I make enough to pay my bills and care for my animals #I can’t just fucking save money because my stupid fat ass just HAS to have binge eating disorder #I waste all my extra money eating an over abundance of food that just makes me feel worse #and I can’t stop #everything is falling apart and out of control and I don’t know what to do anymore #every time I think I’m getting better I fuck up again and it’s back to the start #I just wish I knew how to fix everything but it feels impossible

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allons-y-to-hogwarts-713 · 3 months ago

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#y’know. singing Moving Too Fast and getting to ‘got all this and more before 24’#kiiiinda feels like shit working retail with student debt at 28……#but then I remember the rest of the movie and yeah I guess I’m doing alright 😅😭

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britishraptor · 6 months ago

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I have what you want. I have the free time, the family support and the money to do pretty much anything I want. And I can’t bring myself to do anything.

#I’m lucky I’m not in the USA #my student debt just kind of sits there increasing with inflation until I work a job that meets the repayment threshold #what do I even want to do?#I have nothing to offer this world but the occasional witty one liner and emotional support #lucky speaks #lucky rambles #sorry guys I’m in a bit of a funk and the future is uncertain

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bioswear · 1 year ago

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I’ll say it once: I think Israel needs to fuck off, Palestine should be free, America needs to stop sticking its dick where it doesn’t belong

#but I sure as fuck am not going to put face value stock in any of the political posts about it here #SIMPLY because it’s tumblr and sometimes people are very passionate in their stances #personal txt #which is why I have barely reblogged any of the Palestine stuff #bc I have not the time to do my own research and formulate my own knowledge about it #I think it’s terrible I think it’s unnecessary I think America shouldn’t be sticking it’s Money Dick where it shouldn’t belong #but I also have student loans to pay back crippling debt and a massive lesbian crush on my cute bi coworker so #so you know… in the realm of what I can and cannot control #I’m going to worry and care for Priority 1 (which is always me)#anyone would like to start some shit in my inbox by all means it’s been a long time since I’ve had the Displeasure of being a Bitch online #I don’t have to justify anything to people on here but I thought it should be said

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earthwalkinangel · 1 year ago

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Wishing the American government a big fuck you this fine morning

#I’m pissed about student debt #do I just pay it all off at this point bc I don’t like it hanging over my head

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nerdgirlnarrates · 2 years ago

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Good lord are away rotations expensive. Renting a car alone is ~$2000. I’m wondering if it would be cheaper to Uber to the hospital every day. I’m lucky that I can stay with a friend for one rotation, but I need a one month rental for the other. How on earth is this sustainable?

#aways are kind of a scam #like I’m excited to visit other programs #but I shouldn’t have to go into thousands of dollars of additional debt in order to do that?#especially when it is essentially required to apply to the specialty #med school #medblr #med student #my content #my text posts

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birthdayplant · 2 years ago

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looks like i’m going back to school this fall…

#if any current/prev college students have any advice PLEASE dm me #i did online classes in 2021 and hated it so i’m gnna try and do all my classes on campus cause i think it’ll be easier for me #also student debt freaks me out but like i’m gnna pretend it doesn’t exist #i’m kinda anxious but like when am i not

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void-tiger · 10 months ago

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What do I want? I want to be seen as a peer.