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Thinking abt kazuma,,, thinkng abt how he has silver eyes compared to kazumi’s gold,,, as if even kazuma’s character design is telling the world he’s in second place, & that he’ll never live up to his brother’s example </3
#I’m a little fucked up about that tbh#also like the way when he was possessed by gyze he had golden eyes…would’ve perhaps been interesting to do more with that#like a ‘I’m finally free of ‘imperfections’’ moment#is it kazuma or gyze speaking? who knows maybe both#cfv#cfvg#shouji kazuma#also also I wonder if the dad has silver/white hair since kazumi does & kazuma has that little silver/white streak…#bc if so that’s another thing that could allude to his position as the less-favored son#like the little silver streak in kazumas hair shows he’s related to them#but bc most of his hair is blue it’s glaringly obvious that he’s also an outsider#like maybe kazumas mom has blue hair and that’s where he got it from.#(I don’t remember if we saw the dad in g since I only watched it once so it’s very possible we did and I’m wrong)#this is probably either me over analyzing or just smth obvious we were supposed to pick up but WHATEVER#just having kazuma thoughts yk how it is#this is from like last November help me I hoard drafts too long#thinking abt him again though. miss him. might fuck around and finish my cfvg rewatch
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rewatched madoka magica again today bc i fucking hate myself and to absolutely no one’s surprise i went through all five stages of grief in a single evening
#let’s talk about sayaka miki for a second#genuinely the fact that her whole character is centered around tragedy almost to a shakespearean extent#she’s selfless and brave and values her justice and righteousness above all. calls herself an ally of justice#in fact i think it’s rather intriguing how her whole character is centered around “justice”#her story being a more twisted retelling of the original little mermaid#how she is initially portrayed as a very heroic and confident character even before becoming a magical girl. always shielding madoka#selling her soul to heal the boy she loved out of a selfless desire to see him well again#her being absolutely distraught abt being robbed of her humanity and betrayed by kyubey#she combats this harrowing realization by immersing herself in her duties not caring that she is slowly deteriorating in the process#becoming numb with pain and fighting recklessly and psychotically trying to drown out the pain#finally coming to the sickening conclusion that humanity doesn’t deserve her saving and she succumbs to a fate of her making#last words being “i was so stupid” which trumps her previous statement of “there’s no way i’d regret this”#ALSO? the fact that her costume and weapon are symbolic of a knight. she rly portrays this hero of justice who will protect and defend ☹️#i think abt the fact that homura said that sayaka’s wish was so selfless it was only a matter of time before she died#sayaka being the example of what happens to magical girls who go through the entire cycle and eventually become witches is so sad to me#genuinely just like. sick and twisted#very very fucked up.#characters who have their own misconstrued interpretation of “justice” or who are centered around justice in general.#you will always be dear to me.#sayaka reminds me a lot of akechi in some ways ngl#harboring an almost idealized vision of justice but it slowly rots and festers and corrupts their hearts the more immersed w it they become#actually losing their sanity when they fight bc of how much pain they’re in but refuse to acknowledge it until they break#refusing any help and wallowing in misery despite having ppl who love them and want to save them#last words are those expressing regret for being such a fool. for being ignoring#being used by yhe main villain as a stepping stone towards their true goal. they were merely a pawn#also doomed in every version of their reality. always doomed by the narrative no matter what choices they make#i have a type i fear#HAHAHAH ALSO the fact that they’re both dressed so regally compared to everyone else in their respective series#meant to portray them in a virtuous and princely light. only made more apparent by the sword being their weapon of choice#i’m gonna shut up now but they’re soo eerily similar its unnerving tbh 💀
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guys genuinely i’m both excited and terrified the dhmis pilot will be shown in full again because . first off, never before seen (by me) content, and we don’t get that a lot in the dhmis fandom. possibly new characters, dialogue, etc!! second, THE CREATORS DONT EVEN LIKE IT AND HID IT FROM THE PUBLIC AFTER IT WAS SEEN ONCE WHAT IS IN ITTT😭
#i know a couple reasons is that it’s not the direction they wanted to take and they thought they could have written some things better#BUT FROM HOW LITTLE THEY’VE TALKED ABOUT IT..#AND FROM SO LITTLE WEVE SEEN#im honestly scared there’s gonna be a moment or two that is just not good at all and possibly shockingly bad (for me at least)#but tbh. they are kinda really smart at making things and i don’t think they’d fuck up that bad#STILL WHO KNOWS.#also like mari im terrified of seeing morgan in HD#MORGAN DOESNT EXIST (delusional)#i actually don’t care too much about morgan it just. surprised me is all 💀#anyway i’m actually mostly excited and i’m hoping we’ll get to see the full pilot in HD or someone will actually record the whole thing#like i said in the reblog i’m mentally preparing myself for a “he would not fucking say that” moment#anyway see y’all when it airs#for later#☎️#dhmis#don’t hug me i’m scared#dhmis wakey wakey#dhmis pilot
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going to see my grandma today. immovable object vs unstoppable force and such
#if you’re new here i love my grandma very very much and we are close#since we’re close tho we get on each other’s nerves a lot and who/whatever you’re imagining Nikki’s Grandma is like you’re wrong#she once managed a political campaign and got the guy elected just to prove she could do it and then remembered she’s not a republican#and got the guy voted out next election cycle#least insane Nikki’s Grandma story tbh#one time when my mom and aunt were little they all went camping and there were bears. their dogs chased the bear up a tree#meanwhile my grandma has locked herself and only herself in the car and wouldn’t let my Papa and mom and aunt inside LMAO#whenever I think about that one I’m like Girl What The Fuck!#anyway she managed to get herself on GLP-1 injections last year and finally got the ED she’s always wanted. I feel veyr normal about it
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anybody on here read fucking. uh. the magicians
#books have made me insane. and they were supposedly nyt bestsellers back in their day and yet no one ? is talking about them????#granted their day was ten years ago BUT#god. i’m so insane i had to start watching the tv show (only ~50% the same canon) because that people ARE talking about#if only a little bit and mostly to complain about some shit that apparently went down in the later seasons regarding a ship i’m pretty#agnostic on tbh#maybe the show will sell me on it and then proceed to shatter my heart as well. we shall see as i continue#anyway read them! read them read them!!!#i was hesitant for a while because they get pitched everywhere as ‘a GROWN-UP narnia… a WITTY GENRE-AWARE harry potter…’ and i was like.#well to be frank that sounds kind of mean-spirited and lacking in whimsy :/#but actually they’re SO good 🥺 they are like love letters to the genre that are also a fresh take and are fucking hilarious and chart an#incredibly moving emotional journey of the protagonist from adolescence to adulthood#so please. someone come be insane with me :)
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Pick something for me to write
Ignore the blacked out thing, that’s someone else’s document
#some description:#I have no fucking clue what untitled document is#it could be ANYTHING#Marius angst is me going ‘buddy grew up in a war zone and doesn’t trust his immortality. let’s play with. also perhaps an eating disorder?’#One Bullet (WIP title) is#okay so#the plot of the fic: Pre immortality Jonny-he just shot his father#his dad is dead#he’s just kinda. sitting there. with a dead dad.#he thought it would be harder??? though t it might take longer???? it’s just occuring to him that this is permanent and might change his#life/ probably for the better tbh. his dad sucked. but still#and so there’s this one video#that’s just one eyed jacks#from like- a live show or smth#and after Jonny finishes the little speech his dad gives him but before he gets to one eyed jacks again#Jonny is sorta like acting out the bit- and he’s all sad. and he starts to turn the gun onto himself but then suddenly panics and points it#towards the audience#and I only noticed this after a comment pointed it out#and then my writer brain got ticking#so the plan there is Jonny is sad- about to shoot himself- Dr Carmilla walks in and is like ‘how about no.’#I might rewrite that one entirely (I don’t like how I’m writing Jonny’s thoughts about his dad rn)#and I have no idea where I’m going with the Marius fic- I’m just making it up as I’m going along#wow that’s more tags than I intended.#the mechs band#the mechanisms#the mechs fanfic#tw sui implied#okay anyways. this post is just me advertising the super cringe fail angst im writing and might even post if I finish#so like. idk. if you want to see these if I finish them tell me? I plan to write something about Brian too#welp. have a nice day :D
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why is this dialogue in astarion’s sex scene im crying
#she really said don’t fuck with me I have the power of god and anime by my side 😭#she had like three options to sleep with one was gale but I’m not rlly feeling him for shri’iia so I did not#second was lae’zal BUT I want her to romance shadowheart not SHRI’IIA 😭 like pleek go to her j want y’all to continue#ur enemies to lovers arc (delusion)#so I went with astarion but that dialogue made me howl like relax??????? omg unclench a little 😭😭😭#but now idk if I want continue his romance good thing I’m not locked ..!!!#but tbh I don’t interact w the companions unless there’s like an exclamation point lol I should prob do ….#shut up about bg3.
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Do you think almost inadvertently initiating the end of the world would fuck up poor Mabel and she’d have some major issues when she grew up? Cuz I do 😬💔
#gravity falls#Mabel#tbh how can any of these kids grow up normal after that#like even Pacifica is screwed lol#Mabel got possessed by ghosts and bit the hands of a malevolent canine demon#I mean Dipper had fucked up shit happen to him too but this ain’t about him lol#Mabel’s gotta be a little unhinged as she gets older right lol#weigh in yall!! I’m curious wat u guys think on this subject
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“You haven’t done that one quest? In all your time playing?” <- a friend or internet stranger
“That quest makes me feel bad” <- person who’s character has probably committed atrocities in one way or another (me)
#emma posts#this is it. this is how I play games#if I want to know about what happens when you do a quest that makes me feel bad I’ll just look it up online#I’m playing a fucking game. let me not feel awful for once#im not about to try being perfectly good because I know I would be bad at that too#two of my friends said that I can never play any character in a way that isn’t ‘chaotic good’ and said that’s the only dnd alignment#i would have irl#not even in an ‘I’m so cool and edgy’ way#they meant that in a ‘I don’t know what your internal standards are. they aren’t bad. but they are definitely not… lawful’#I’m not even totally sure how to describe what they were saying that night tbh#I don’t know how to say this without people thinking I’m edgy or pretentious or something#I’m just kinda frustrated that I am bad at playing an evil or lawful character#just to see what happens#I get two decisions in and I’m like ‘I’m not having fun right now. It’s just a constant fight against myself’#this is about when your character is an oc btw#things are sometimes a little different when the pc is already a whole ass character#‘necromancy is okay if they’re already dead but betraying your follower is bad’ mindset#I know a lot of people play this way. but they seem to be able to play not this way too?#I think that’s the heart of it#also I have been made increasingly aware of the fact that I might not totally understand what is average#in a lot of ways#I’m getting distracted though I think
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i wish some people would realise that ‘just try it’ truly doesn’t work and doesn’t help sometimes
#this is mainly about completely irrational phobias but also about not liking certain foods tbh#like i get with some stuff trying things slowly bit by bit can be helpful#but believe me i know my limits better than you#and i am well aware it is not a rational fear#but it has been affecting me badly for my whole life and you telling me there’s nothing wo worry about will not FIX IT!!!!!#’it’s more scared of you than you are of it’ SHUT THE FUCK UP#OK YEAH maybe that worked for a little kid#but it feels fucking infantilising#OH YEAH THATS ANOTHER THING#don’t talk to me like i’m a little kid for stuff like that#and that once again includes disliking certain foods#txt
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First day of the semester and I’m already exhausted lol
#it’s the last year and I’m not ready for this#when did I become a ‘’senior’’#I’m just a little guy nearing thirty#but I woke up today at five am after the longest time and tbh this is the vibe again#love my silent hour of drinking coffee and scrolling through tumblr again#the best thing about having to return to school and have that routine back#fuck the news it’s the tumblr for me#but anyway wish me luck I have no idea how I’ll survive this semester#🫡🫡🫡#vee talks
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really unhappy with what we do in the shadows rn tbh. i want my boy to kill
#what happened to the fucked up shit. why don’t they want to commit to the fucked up shit anymore#also maybe why the humor is falling flat for me?#the original film and first season or two of the show relies on the juxtaposition between the darkness of vampire stories vs the mundanity#incompetence and silliness of the mockumentary format#watching the pilot right after watching s5e10 is like. complete whiplash wrt tone and style#i don’t like silly little gags with no setup and nonsensical fantasy lore that doesn’t really tie into the whole Vampire thing#tbh i do get why people still like the show like maybe i’m just not the right audience but the show has changed a LOT without actually#committing to any of the big writing choices that could possibly make the writers get creative about the dynamics between the characters smh#whatever whatever i just miss when my boy was my boy. rip#and when there were consequences for the characters. and payoff.#and humor. but you know. whatever
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this Tylenol ain’t shit w
#talkingcore#emotions. man.#there’s so much music that I just haven’t listened to in a bit and it’s making me feel things it’s not even like sad things I’m like damn#how long has it been since I’ve listened to beautiful stranger by Madonna as featured in Austin powers international man of mystery#but also something in my brain feels like it needs to cry like I don’t feel like I physically can but something needs to be released#so do I go pet sounds? smile? falsettos? I feel like I need to be in a sleeping bag and Contemplate#fun fact! Kendra Morris has an absolutely stunning cover of don’t talk (put your head on my shoulders)#I’m pretty neutral on beach boys covers tbh I’m never crazy about them since like they really never measure up#how many mid covers of god only knows can I take? not many. but like she & him have their little Brian Wilson tribute I like that.#the covers are a lot better when they don’t try to perfectly replicate whatever the fuck Brian Wilson was doing they aren’t him#brain wants to go melancholy mode but I’ve no clue over what. girl just tell me what I’m supposed to be sad over I’ll commit to the bit#need to keep listening to new stuff but also need old stuff Maybe that’s it maybe I just need old stuff again? like routine?? shit idk#also like at 5 am I woke up and remembered how in choir people kept comparing me to the director they had the year before me#and the thing is she had the same name as someone else in choir that was student teaching my first semester so I kept thinking they were#referring to her Id be in my choir fit my silly suit my proud butch uniform and they’d be like oh this is so ‘insert name’!#and it kept throwing me off because the student teacher was like. not like me at all so I was like fuck#what kind of girl core energies am I accidentally emitting this is Bad. so anyway 5 am I’m like fuck it I need to research this person#I search. find her. she’s butch. I’m blessed. they weren’t lying like man we do such a good job at being generic! yay!#butch And in choir! love to see it! keep thinking how I am destined to be like in my 40s doing mundane tasks#I’m gonna be soooooo good at watering plants and putting salt on the sidewalk before it snows and cleaning drains#need to be a dad mom so fucking bad you don’t get it I need to drive carpool and take off work for dentist trips and watch hgtv#AHHHH i think that got rid of some of the sad lfg💥💥💥💥this must be super long god damn sorry
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Wooo! Horny Rosi is out to play!
My questions:
3: Do you have any unusual kinks/fetishes?
5: What’s your favorite sex position?
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3. Depends on what you think unusual is 😂
A few idk different ones are cnc, somno. Fantasies - stalking/kidnapping
5. Idk what it’s called but laying on my stomach??? Yeah that’s nice. Or doggy.
#since I’m following a bunch of blogs with the same kinks as me I never know what’s unusual anymore lol#also I just want someone to explore different and new kinks/fetishes with tbh#brooooooooooo#idk what it’s called and idk if you guys know what I’m talking about#but when I’m laying on my stomach#and they pull my hips up a little bit and slide into my pussy#fuck that’s nice and deep#also when someone is pounding me and my legs are on their shoulders?#yeah that’s good too hahaha#thanks for the questions 😘#ask#anon
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