#I wish this wasn't the funniest thing I've ever seen
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this quote is so sick coming from him considering he has an illegitimate daughter that he completely ignores 😭😭
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me looking at my reflection when i first wake up
#angel only barked at herself in the mirror once as a puppy before she figured out that wasn't another dog#but it was one of the funniest thing i've ever seen and i wish i had it on video#anonymous#letterbox#puppies
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It was late, Lovisa was staring out of her balcony, dressed in an pale pink nightgown, wearing a matching sheer robe, with a fluffy hem and cuffs.
She missed her parents, she had regrets, and truthfully, she was scared.
Was there really someone out there who wanted to kill her? She didn't want to die, especially for politics.
A knock at the door interrupted her thoughts.
"Come in!" She called, from outside, she was surprised why Ahsoka would be knocking, normally, she just walked in as she pleases.
But who she wasn't expecting, was to see Anakin Skywalker walking in.
She turned around to face him, her elbows leant on the balcony as she stared, taking him in.
Seeing Anakin again, after all those years, it did something to her, something she didn't like.
He was incredibly good looking, which made things a lot more complicated, she knew for sure she was attracted to him, but he was a Jedi, and they follow a very strict code, it's why she didn't like him, she hated wanting things she couldn't have, and yet, it was always the things she desired the most.
He was also funny, and charming, and actually had an personality, unlike the other men she was forced to spend her time around.
"Hi, Princess." He greeted, walking towards her. "I wanted to check on you, make sure you weren't murdered, or at least still in your room."
"How did you know where my room is?" She asked him, her brows furrowing in curiosity.
"Padme showed me, my rooms just down the hall." He met her outside, and she turned back around, as he also lent on the railing.
"Oh..." She looked down, obviously his room would be near hers.
Silence surrounded them for a bit longer.
"Uh... I- I wanted to uhm, thank you.." She started, picking at her fingers, why did she feel nervous, Princess Lovisa Amidala was never nervous. "...For saving my life, a lot, today."
"Your highness, it is my duty to protect your life with my own, nothing will happen to you, as long as I can help it." He studied her face, as he licked his bottom lip.
"Oh, right." She looked away from him again.
"Princess, did I say something wrong?" He asked.
"No, you've done nothing wrong." She sighed.
"Then what is the matter?"
She weighed the question in her mind, but eventually, in normal Lovisa fashion, she dove in head first, not caring for consequences.
"Is my life only important to your job?" She asked, and she wanted to kick herself, as soon as the words left her mouth, but she looked back, keeping her eyes on his.
It took Anakin a few seconds to remember that he could speak, but he still could not find the words.
"Of course not." He said, shaking his head as he tried to think of what she said, and then what she meant. "I- Princess-"
"Don't" She held her hand up to him. "Talk to me without my title."
She wanted, no, needed him to care for her as a person, not as an Monarch, not the way as everyone else.
"Lovisa, I do value your life, regardless of who you are, and I do not wish to see harm brought to you, no matter how cruel or exhausting you have been to me, today." He said, truthfully.
She laughed, thinking of what she had really spent the day doing to him, how he had carried her through the village on his shoulder, how he had carried her so effortlessly.
"You have a beautiful smile." Anakin said, enjoying the sound of her laughter, it made him want to become the funniest person in the world, just to hear it.
"What?" She asked, even though she heard what he said, she just wanted to hear it again.
"You're the most beautiful person I've ever seen." He corrected himself.
"Please don't say things like that to me." She rolled her eyes, remembering herself.
"Why not?" He bent his head, as he looked at her.
"Because..... I don't like the way it makes me feel." She blushed.
"It makes you feel bad? Me calling you beautiful?" He was growing more confused.
"No." She whispered, as she looked up at him, her eyes darting to his lips, before back up to his eyes. "The opposite."
She saw how his own cheeks reddened, and so she turned her head from him, looking towards the horizon, at the waterfall, the large span of grass.
"How did you become a Jedi?" She asked, changing the conversation.
"I was discovered, in my home town." He answered.
"By who?"
"Master Qui-Gon."
"I met him before." Lovisa nodded. "Where are you from?"
"Tatooine. It's not well known."
"I've heard of it, my father told me about that place, it's very far from the Kingdom." She said, as if he wouldn't already know that.
"Yes, it's a very sandy place. I don't like sand. It’s coarse, it’s rough, and irritating, and it gets everywhere." He said, with disgust.
"Well, I can imagine." She laughed, "But your family, they are here, yes?"
"No, princess." He shook his head. "My mother is still back home, and I never had a father, I haven't seen her since joining the force, ten years ago."
"Oh..." She looked at him, sympathy swimming in her eyes. She loved her mother dearly, she couldn't even think about being so far away from her, for so long. "I presume you miss her terribly."
"Everyday, but the Jedi way, is to have no attachments, no fears, it can cause weakness, but the Jedi code, it's very outdated."
"Yes, I think it is." She nodded.
"So are the rules of being royal, I'm beginning to see."
"Very outdated." She pouted, as she looked away, an annoyed look on her face. "I have no role in life, no job, except to make the King and Queen look good, to be a back up for the throne, in case anything were to happen to the heir, or to marry wisely."
"Marry wisely?" He asked.
"Unlike you, I'm not forbidden from love, but, slim pickings. I can either marry to further my wealth and power, or I can marry for alliance, and neither of them interest me, very much."
"How come?"
"I don't care much for politicians" She waved away. "It's all rather stupid, and so are they, mostly. I'd like to marry someone who I got to know, someone who see's me as someone they can love, not just a step closer to a throne they will never get to sit on. I want to be married to a husband who wakes up everyday and thanks the universe that he was placed on the same planet as Lovisa Amidala, not Princess Lovisa, of Naboo, and the idea that one day my father will ship me off to some foreign land to marry a king, for the sake of the kingdom, terrifies me."
Since he was a child, Anakin had been thanking the universe, everyday, that he was placed on the same planet as the girl who had came to the temple, and told him how bored she was, that her father was in meetings, who had beat him in a spar, and laughed at the fact that she was a few inches taller than him, who had told the other Padawans and younglings to leave them, as they were having lunch together.
Anakin placed a hand on her cheek, his thumb swiping at her soft skin, his blue eyes locked on her hazel ones.
She was staring at his lips again, and he involuntarily licked them.
Every warning in their heads were going off, loud, but they both shut it off, no one was here now, telling them that this was wrong.
Anakin bent his head, grazing his lips across Lovisa's.
She gasped at the touch, and she nodded her head, making it happen again.
“Anyone would be lucky to have your love and devotion, I know I would.” He whispered. “You’ve been on my mind every single day since I’ve met you, Lovisa.”
And then they did it again.
“I missed you, incredibly much, Anakin.” She whispered back to him.
Anakin finally kissed her sweet lips, it was a taste he wanted on his own lips, forever.
The hand on her cheek moved to intertwine in her hair, and the other moved to hold her waist, under the robe.
Lovisa pulled away, leaning her forehead against his.
"Ani..."
But he lifted her head, and she fell, again, closing the gap between them.
Once again, realisation had kicked in, and she hated herself more and more.
"Ani, we can't." She whispered. "You’re a Jedi, and I'm a princess, we have our codes."
"Who cares about that?" He told her, the hand in her hair slightly tightened, before he let go, running his fingers through the dark curls.
"Everyone does. It's- this is forbidden."
"You always break the rules."
That she did, which is why she let him kiss her in the first place, but it was too good to stop, and she didn't want to break her own heart by following her rebellious tendencies, loving something she could never truly have.
"We can't do this." She sighed, "We would both be in incredible amounts of trouble."
"No one has to know, it'll be our secret."
"I don't want to have to hide you, we could never go past just this, secret kisses in the dark, there's nothing else for us, but this."
"And it's not enough?"
"Not from what is expected from me."
“I won’t give up on us.” He promised, his jaw clenched, as his eyes held hers, “I won’t throw what we have away, for stupid rules made hundreds of years ago.”
“Ani, there is no point clinging on to wishes and desires, it won’t change the trajectory of what is real.”
“But this is real, you can feel it, Vis, you know something is there, and I can too, there’s a reason we were brought together again, after all this time.”
“Because someone wants me dead, Anakin, and you are a Jedi, I don’t see that as fate.” She snapped.
“But I do, this is my first solo mission, there are lots of Jedi to choose from, much that are far older and wiser than I, and yet, I was picked for this, that doesn’t feel like a coincidence.”
“The more we lean into this, the harder it will be to come back from it.” She huffed, fed up with his stubbornness.
“Then I will leave the order.” He said.
“Anakin! You cannot! Do not say such foolish things.” She waved him off.
“It is not foolish, Princess.”
“It is, you are the chosen one, you are meant to bring balance to the force, to exceed expectations, you can not be so selfish as to leave for me, besides, you hold no other title, and I doubt you have much wealth, my father would never accept you.” She was being blunt, she knew it was harsh, but he needed to hear it, to come out of his delusions.
“I suppose you are right, your highness” The muscles in his jaw tightened, and she could see how his eyes swam with anger, but he remained steady, presenting himself as calm. “But nevertheless, that does not change how I feel for you, which is deep.”
“You hardly know me.” She scoffed.
“I’ve known you since we were children, and from the moment you pointed me out, you have held my heart in your hands, my heart beats for you, and I didn’t even know your name. I woke up every morning, your face being the first thing I saw in my mind, I waited and hoped that I would be greeted with your presence, once more, and now that I have had the chance to be this close to you, that I have you back in my life, I will not throw away this chance. The universe has finally answered my prayers, and I will not waste the opportunity. I won’t give you up, Lovisa, and I beg that you don’t disregard what I know you feel for me. My very soul yearns for you, and I hope that the kiss we shared will not be the last, that it will not become a scar on my lips.”
Lovisa felt dizzy with his confession, no one had ever spoke to her like that, bared themselves so raw, like this, it was all so new, and so sudden, and she never expected the first boy to properly confess his love for her, to be Anakin Skywalker.
But he was right, she did harbour strong feelings for him, she had never felt this way, it made her nauseous, she quite frankly hated it.
She placed a hand on his cheek, and he leaned into it, and his eyes fluttered shut, he was beautiful, how could anyone possibly compare to him, how was she ever going to move on from this boy, to someone who would never match to any of his qualities?
“I wish things were different, Ani, I wish that there was a life for us, out there, but we live in a reality where it is not, nothing we can do will change that, and it’s time you face it, I’m sorry.”
Then she walked back inside, to hide in her bathroom, for him to leave, as she willed for her own heart to stop racing.
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i’ve already expressed how much your agere! headcanon means to me in the tags lol, but i also wanna add that you just write it really well. i stopped reading age regression fics a LONG time ago because they felt really cringey or unrealistic, but the way you’ve written it feels natural but over the top in just the right ways for Wade. It doesn’t feel fetishized at all or like that’s all he is, and it’s really nice to see it to be taken seriously in a fic setting. So thank you 😅🙏🏻
Thank you, and I did read all of that by the way, I didn't want to upset you by responding but wasn't sure if ti would be creepy to inbox you or not about it. I fully understand though and Honestly am semi in the same boat? The first step is definitely taking care of yourself and I think you have something to be proud of because you did it :)
I don't think there's anything to worry about and that's the great thing is being able to do it at your own pace and when its time, label it. if you don't want too then don't. What ever you are comfortable with because at the end of the day its for YOU.
I have two more request slots open by the way!
Yes, I found it unrealistic too especially when everything is perfect and its barley ever related back to the characters trauma rather then "Lol I'm baby, goo goo ga ga, Nothing I do has consequences apparently because 'im daddy's favorite baby girl' also I just ripped off my nappy and wet the carpet" ????? Im not kidding There is genuine things written like this. And its not satire? It feels unserious and more of a mocking or joking thing then actually helping the Charater?? if that makes sense?
Anyway- Yeah I've gotten this comment a lot that most of the stuff written is flat out fetishization or is cringy in the sense of being not thought out so it sounds soooo weird. (Again- more fetishization, Especially with the excessive ageplay ones where they're literally pretending they cant walk yet.. sexual stuff.. it's definitely not for me.)
Ive said it before but Ill say it again. What people do in their bedroom with consent is not my buisness, maybe that stuff does help some people? maybe they are just inexperienced writers and I'm misunderstanding something? Either way- Im not judging, I just wish there wasn't so many sexual innuendos in the SFW ones. like.. huh? That's the point of SFW right?
Another thing I do when writing these is I think of actual littles reading these and I think about what is going to make them happy/ feel understood and seen as someone trying to heal rather then as a massive joke.
Look- As my therapists funniest patient- Truama can be hella funny but I feel having Agere as the butt of a joke is just.. wrong.
#tw#sfw interaction only#sfw agere#poolverine#deadpool and wolverine#deadpool#deadpool 3#KidWade#“He doesn't quite get it but he has the spirit” Caregiver Logan Howlett#logan howlett#fanfic discussion#thank you for asking!
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(This post is a bit random so if you get it you get it if you don't get it it's fine)
It's 2024. I should be going to the disco, which I dislike.
Instead, I decided to hyperfixate on a Welshman.
One thing that baffles me to this day, and trust me it has happened more than once, is has anyone ever tried to protest at least a bit to still have Matt as John? Did no one try hard enough? Or have the attempts failed?
I mean-
I'm a newer fan (even with content crumbs I am a fan) still, so I can't be sure, but I'm amazed that in all these years that have passed, no one ever did anything, and now he can't even play Constantine (I think).
And now, the only role I've seen is him dubbing John 💀
Ignoring this discourse about John, I've decided to search for other roles, movies, and series, and what I've found was interesting, to say the least.
I am becoming passionate about him for various reasons. Other than wanting to revive pre-pandemic activities, I have noticed a pattern: I enjoy searching for things that I only watch. These are some thoughts I had about some things I could not find in Italy:
Hard to find (for example, I'm still searching for "The Halcyon," and the funniest thing about this is that in Italy, it was shown on TV (on an RAI channel, RAI is an Italian broadcaster) during 2017 and it's not available on their platform.
Region-locked content (the DCAU being region-locked is such a crime; we only have House of Mystery, and that's it) or even trying to watch a simple cameo when the entire series is region-locked (the Harley Quinn one). However (and this is good news), while searching for Away (one of his movies to watch), I found Tubi and used a free VPN. It was slow, but it worked, and I watched it.
Expensive (I paid Assassin's Creed Black Flag in installments, so that wasn't expensive, but still...)
It was a play, so they haven't recorded it, but to see and better understand the role he played (in this case, read), I read Thérèse Raquin by Émile Zola, and it was still effective.
Not even available on Chili (an Italian streaming platform on which you can rent or buy movies), the title only appears but is not available for streaming (lol).
Using Vinted or secondhand shops in general (it’s not the best time for me to go fully secondhand, but I suppose I could find some things there).
At the moment, I've watched just what I could easily find without resorting to piracy (which is ironic, since in Assassin's Creed Black Flag, Matt voices Edward Kenway, a pirate.).
In this list of things I could easily find, we have:
Constantine (thanks to another fan)
Criminal Minds/Criminal Minds Suspect Behavior (I had Disney Plus for a month, so I've watched it from there)
Flypaper, Adverse (Prime Video)
Arrow (Prime video)
Legends of Tomorrow (Netflix and Mediaset infinity)
House Of Mystery (Amazon prime, you have to rent it but still)
While writing this I found that "Layer cake" is on Sky, which I have and Now TV too.
Pocket Money (While watching it I just understood two words out of an entire short and I'm a c2 in English 💀)
Away, Wild Decembers, Armistice, Blood Monkey
So, you might have been asking yourself... Have I gone mad? To search and find for stuff not even available in my own country? In my own continent, too?
But I thought this is what comes with being a fan of someone, even if the career is what it is.
Considering me being unlucky, I was never able to see Matt when he acted and then had premieres at the same time.
Asssassin’s Creed Black Flag? I was 10, a child, lol.
Legends Of Tomorrow? I liked anime, manga and everything japanese.
And the list goes on...
It's nice to see what was like and what I couldn't live, gosh, I'm praying hard that we get to see him act again, I want and I wish to be present, live or not.
I wanted to make a really nice speech but nothing comes to mind, when I get it maybe I'll post it 💀
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"Good Omens' vibe" huh? How much time do you have for weird headcanons?
I had a silly idea during the whole Jesus is coming debacle of a very Crowley-esque fallen angel Terzo who's best buds with Jesus. The entire desert temptation is just Terzo hovering with his wings acting as a giant sun umbrella and trying to play off his concern as being super evil - I had this idea that he kind of blames humans for his fall? Since in Bible (song) it says "The third day was their mother" I thought of him as a guardian angel of humanity so he either chooses to let Adam and Eve eat the apple or can't react in time and is punished for that by falling. So...
Terzo: I'm an evil demon
Jesus: You came to Joseph's shop to buy a chair and then payed 6 times the price because the profits that year were bad
Terzo: ...that wasn't concern. Not at all. I was tempting you... Uhhh... making you get used to life of luxury
Jesus with the most unimpressed face he can muster: Yea, sure, whatever helps you sleep at night
And Terzo also accompanies Jesus on Golgotha, trying his best to help and biting back scathing remarks (because what good parent wishes harm on their child) for later. And then he's the one welcoming Jesus back to the land of living. And then Jesus runs away from heaven every now and again to hang out with Terzo on Earth and help people
And no one at the clergy has any idea of course, so the prophecy of Christ's coming causes a huge chaos. They get the warning too late and are still setting up the defences when he knocks. The ghouls make a line of defence between Copia frantically trying to complete a summoning circle and the door. Jesus finally barges in (he knocked and no one opened the door, what's the guy gonna do? Stand in the rain all day?) and he's all happy like: Terzo! Long time no se- Wait, you're not Terzo. Well, have you seen, by any chance, a man, slightly shorter then me, black, short hair, white eye? Tends to be very insistent regarding one's meals? Maybe two pairs of big black wings?
And then summoning works, the two catch up, ghouls and Copia just stand there awkwardly because isn't this guy supposed to be smiting them with holiness or something?
And then Jesus probably notices someone's scar from beheading ^^
There's more, because for some incomprehensible reason this is quite a fleshed out idea, but it was supposed to be short, anyway good night
Anon this is one of the funniest things I've ever read 😂
LuciTer just hanging out with Jesus, cracking open a beer like:
"You're dads kind of a dick."
"Yeah."
Also it's funny you say ""The third day was their mother" I thought of him as a guardian angel of humanity so he either chooses to let Adam and Eve eat the apple or can't react in time and is punished for that by falling. So..."
Specifically "him as a guardian angel of humanity"
#ask red#red speaks#perfectly coherent i understood every word!#ghost#the band ghost#terzo#papa emeritus iii#devil terzo tag
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rwrb thoughts from someone who hasn't read the book (yet)
The good/general thoughts:
pleasantly surprised by the acting! which I know sounds mean, but listen, I saw these guys in other things and I wasn't suuuper into them, so it was a nice surprise lol
THE CHEMISTRY BETWEEN THE TWO again, pleasantly surprised by that lol they played off each other SO well
10/10 soundtrack, it definitely took inspiration from older rom-coms and I loved it <3
PS I really liked all the side characters! I wish we'd gotten to spend a little more time with some of them, but everyone was pretty great <3 also, all the women were awesome, and I am very gay and very in love <3
Ok, I really, REALLY liked how they showed the two of them texting each other, and the whole editing around it. It was pretty cute
I was living for all the latine songs at the new year's party, that was a nice touch
ok, when everyone was getting down at the party and alex and henry stayed up and stared at each other and time slowed down, I know it was supposed to be romantic, but I have to say it: it was also the funniest shit I've ever seen lol
henry at the party is giving both 'i have social anxiety and my only friend here is a social butterfly and keeps leaving to be with other people send help' and 'i thought you invited me here as a first date kind of thing but you're dancing and making out with other people and i'm feeling so betrayed rn :('
'christ you're as thick as it gets *kiss*' LMAO
Listen, I'm not usually into rom-coms (I say, like a liar), but I was pretty happy with the writing, in general. I laughed at all the funny parts, got emotional over all the dramatic ones and swooned at the romance bits. Great job, everyone
'I just can't afford for you to fall in love with me' LMAO babe, we're WAY past that. On both sides
ok, full disclosure: I don't really like sex scenes all that much (there's nothing wrong with them, I'm just very ace lol), so I usually just use my phone while they're happening, and while I did that a little bit here too, I was still paying attention, and honestly, they were pretty sweet. They did a good job. And, like, I have no idea why the film was R-rated lol you literally don't see anything
again, love the little montages that show the passing of time, while also showing they're keeping in touch and getting to know each other better and stuff. It makes the relationship between the two and the way it's developing feel a bit less rushed, which is nice
ZAHRA MY MOST BELOVED
YES PLEASE I WANT TO SEE THAT POWERPOINT PRESENTATION THANK YOU
KARAOKEEEE
alex giving an impassioned romantic speech to henry, about to confess his love: // henry:
'I didn't want to break his heart' - oh, honey, you already did :(
'to tell you that I love you, knowing that you wouldn't say it back' brb sobbing
NOT CAN'T HELP FALLING IN LOVE 😭😭😭
'because when they write the history of my life, I want it to include you and my love for you' help i'm dying 😭😭😭😭😭😭
MIGUEL DON'T THINK I DON'T KNOW IT WAS YOU please die in a fire <3
alex's speech was really good by the way 🥺
LOVESICK HOMOSEXUALS LMAO ZAHRA MY BELOVED
'baby' screaming crying throwing up jgdkfk
I FORGOT THE KING WAS STEPHEN FRY why is this so funny to me
SEQUEL WHEN
The... less good?/general questions:
Kinda wish there'd been a bit more enemies in my enemies-to-lovers film
'he just grabbed my hair in a way that made me understand the difference between rugby and footbal'' - please, I beg you, someone smarter than me - what the fuck does this mean 😭 ppl are LIVING for this quote and I'm like ??????
this is probably me being stupid and ignorant lol but why would alex's relationship cost his mum the election? like, from what I've seen, her government has been very pro-queer, that's not really a secret, so her son being queer and in a relationship with a man shouldn't lose her any voters..? the people who are against 'the queers' were not going to vote for her in the first place, soooo..? me is confused
honestly, this is probably an unpopular opinion, but... the king was not that bad? like, i'm not saying he's not kind of homphobic and kind of a dick lol but i get the impression that everything stems from the whole thing about sticking to tradition and public image and bla bla. Like, again, obviously, part of that involves homophobia, but I think that on a personal level, he... doesn't really care? Even at the end, he's like 'ok, are you absolutely sure about this, cause there's no going back. Yes? Really? Well, go off I guess *long-suffering sigh*'. Like, I got way more homophobic vibes from phillip than the king idk 🤷♀️ (I really hope I don't have to clarify that this only applies to the film, and not like, the real life crown lol)
Sooo, as I said, I haven't read the book yet, but I've seen some posts about it, and I think after watching the film I've realized that it's biggest flaw is that it's that - a film. It's a great film, don't get me wrong! And it's pretty obvious I really liked it. But damn, I'm a firm believer that book adaptations only work as series. They don't have to be super long or anything, but there is just no way to fit everything in a book in a two hour film. And yeah, when you're adapting something you have to make some changes, but Idk, it's kind of a shame that you lose so much (and even without reading the book, I can tell there's a lot of stuff missing). In any case, I can't talk too much about it until I read the book, but yeah 🤷♀️ It does seem like they did a good job, though - like, it genuinely can stand on its own really well, but I guess I'll have to find out for myself
Also, tagging @silassstingy bc I promised her my thoughts on the film and she might give me some interesting insights on some of the stuff I mentioned, cause she's a queen like that <3
#rwrb#all in all I give it like a 9.5/10#I'm docking half a point bc it made me cry multiple times which was VERY rude(?)
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It wasn't funny at the time but looking back on it man it is genuinely hilarious how my first attempt at getting diagnosed and getting help with my mental illnessess went.
So imagine if you will the skinniest, most unwell, sleepless looking 18 year old, just real Victorian orphan vibes with permanent shakes and a penchant for passing out in fear if he so much as thinks of leaving the house. I need you to know that's the kind of state i was in when i walked into a doctors office to see one of the oldest men i've ever seen in an employed field. He sits me down and asks me what's wrong, he's the GP at my local doctors; that's a general practitioner, if you're outside of the UK maybe that's not a familiar term. Anyway he's not a psychologist, you don't get to see a psychologist unless your GP refers you! Anyway he asks me whats wrong and i explain to him my long list of debilitating anxiety symptoms, i tell him about not being able to eat or sleep or leave the house; i'm in a bad way at this point in my life, it's not a good time for young jay! Lad doesn't even know he's a man yet! Pretty bad time all round!
And so after i explain to him the situation we get our first of the many funny 'i'm not sure this man is qualified to have this conversation' red flags.
"Do you have a boyfriend?"
Uh oh.
Well no, sir, on account of the not leaving the house socialisation has been tricky, see?
"Oh you need a boyfriend and some friends, that'll help love :)"
Uh oh.
It is at this point in the appointment we are winding down towards the end of my time here at the doctors, and our next big ol' waving red flag hits like a jet liner. And this ones the big one, the one that gives me reason to tell this story and watch people look a mite aghast.
The GP laughs, claps a hand on my shoulder and says "well don't you worry, we won't be locking you up for this one!"
I freeze in shock.
What did this man just say.
Now, i don't wish to imply that this wouldn't be a horrifying thing to say to a different teen riddled with severe mental illness who didn't have a family history of relatives being admitted to psychiatric institutes, but i am suggesting that MAYHAPS. JUST POTENTIALLY. That was a slightly more horrifying sentence to come out of a medical professionals mouth to someone who has that as a family history in his own living memory! So i lock up in horror, alarms blaring in my mind, wondering how the fuck i'm going to politely and finitely end this conversation and meeting and leave vowing never to cross this mans path again in my life; but i don't get much time to ponder what to do, because here comes the final red flag, that second jet liner crashing right in, the final can of petrol being poured on the burning wreck that is the first appointment i have ever made to talk about my mental health.
This man, a complete stranger, i had never met this GP before in my life, hugs me. It is so uncomfortable, i would not say i am the most comfortable with physical contact from strangers even now nearly ten years later, but then? At age eighteen? This is just about the worst thing that could've happened in my eyes! I do not come from a family that hugs, i didn't not know how to hug back then, in that moment it's awkward and weird and i just freeze and wait for it to end, and then i leave the room with the GP beaming and waving after me like he's just performed a miracle and i'll forever be cured from this point on.
I walk to my mom waiting for me in the waiting room, she smiles and gives me a thumbs up.
GENUINELY it couldn't have gone worse, objectively the funniest awful situation i have ever been in.
#jay talkin#long post#SORRY THIS STORY IS STILL HILARIOUS TO ME I LOVE RECOUNTING IT#ftr i did go back and requested a different doctor talk to me#they eventually got me on cognitive behaviour therapy which i did not get on with at all#so i will gladly take pride in all my progress this almost decade is due to my own hard work#and research into mental health and therapy techniques#because doctors did not help and the nhs's mental health system is a mess <3#i'm doing much better nowadays absolutely no thanks to this countries health care system!#just in case you were under the impression being in the uk means just snapping your fingers and free healthcare works wonders. nope!#nhs got gutted and isnt funded or supported enough and if you live in rural villages#your gp has probably zero clue what to do for mental illness related stuff!#i still live pretty rural so i cant WAIT to go to the gp's about trans shit :) im sure they will be prepared :)
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Are ya'll ready for: El seriously overthinks video games + minor FF7 Rebirth spoilers hour?
I'm finishing up the mission on Junon where Cloud and Co go undercover and just watching Cloud lose himself in the role, genuinely getting ATTACHED to the Seventh Infantry and me then having to escort my baby infantry ducklings around as they murder other Shinra troops out of the mistaken belief they are on the other side made me FEEL A LOT OF THINGS. Like holy shit that’s insane even typing it out. And kinda dark and a little twisted. And potentially fucks those poor Infantry troops over yet they are STILL rode or die for Cloud. I wasn't expecting to get socked in the feels as much as I did.
Because Cloud is so detached and emotionally standoffish, watching him seriously get into the role of playing at the Captain of the Seventh Infantry is hella significant.
And I think it's because it's so familiar and something he is missing. He misses the camaraderie and brotherhood of serving. Sure, he moved onto becoming a SOLDIER and who was his damn role model/sempai? Zack Fair who is one of the most big-hearted, best big brother energy dude ever. So of course he would subconsciously internalize that's what a good leader should do. Sure, there was also Sephiroth but he's clearly the worst and reflects what bad leadership skills would be.
So yeah, I think there's a part of Cloud that misses serving, or at least misses that sense of brotherhood. He's been a lone wolf for so long, I can't imagine he's not starved for that kind of connection. It's also prolly easier and less complicated than the relationships he has with the main party.
Okay so that's me being all philosophical. Now let me be a degenerate and horny on main for a second.
Holy fuck nuggets Rufus is so hot. He's ALWAYS been hot but he's especially hot and v. Ice Prince-y and I fucking love it. I am laughing at the absurdity of his clothing and how it continually gets more complicated and ridiculous. He legitimately looks like he's wearing a fucking farthingale with that ridiculous belt collection he's wearing. Or yanno....bdsm gear. XD
Somehow they have managed to take Roche who was already at Maito Gai levels of over the time 100% energy and made him even MORE ridiculously and over the top. I lowkey wish he would stop talking. I have an excellent solution on how to do that and that is for Cloud to shut him up by fucking him until his brains bleed out of his ears over his stupid bike. Or yanno, there are other ways to shut him up varying from gag and other creative things to occupy his mouth with.
Even though it's clear Cloud is pretty hetero-coded but after like 25 years of soooooo much Sephiroth/Cloud, Zack/Cloud fan content, I don't think that's going to stop the internet (or myself) from shipping him like a fandom bike. Hell I actually love Cloud/Tifa cause I am a disgusting multi-shipper.
Ahem. Anyway I hope Cloud gets to reunite with his Seventh Infantry people at some point. I think I'm like.....1/3 of the way through the game and holy shit. I've discovered I detest minigames. I love side-missions in games but fuck DDR minigames or that damn in real time strategy game Fort Condor. There's a reason I've never been interested in FF Tactics.
EDIT: OMG Red XIII going full on Karen Mode and demanding to speak to the bartender/employee who won’t let him play in the Queen’s Blood tournament because he’s an ‘animal’ is the funniest shit I’ve seen so far in this game. 🤣🤣🤣🤣
EDIT 2: never mind, Red going full on Chester Cheetah/Michael Jackson absolutely takes the cake. I’m ded.  I also stayed up way too late beaten this freaking queens blood tournament mini game and I really gotta go to bed now.
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Sho
6. What's something you have in common with this character?
Hmm.... hard to say since Sho is just. completely batshit. I guess the easiest and most obvious answer would be that we're both artists and like to find beauty in aesthetically strange things. But I dont think i have a single thing in common with him personality wise LOL
20. Which other character is the ideal best friend for this character, the amount of screentime they share doesn't matter?
I think susukichi and sho have extremely similar temperaments + quirks and if they weren't on opposite sides of The Conflict they'd get along great. I said once before that Susukichi would be the Sho Minamimoto of NEO if sho literally wasn't also already in the game. Their vibes are super similar and they both want to have a fun time.
23. Favorite picture of this character?
This one marketing image from when the anime was airing is the funniest thing in the world to me. like. why the fuck is sho even here. he is in no way buddies with anyone in the hachiko gang (during this specific timeframe anyways) there is literally NO logical reason for him to be posed alongside this specific group of characters here. This image from sho's pov is just him + guy hes actively trying to kill + guy he's stalking only bc he's joined at the hip with the guy he's trying to kill + guy he met twice and beat the shit out of one of those times + 2 people he's never met or interacted with before ever. On a marketing level its clear they just wanted to include him with the main characters simply bc hes a super popular character among fans but it's makes for the most unintentionally hilarious image ever.
Shiba
1. Why do you like or dislike this character?
First. he's extremely funny and dresses like a harlot. Second THE LAYERSSSS Shiba's primary motivation is like a puzzle that the narrative gives you all the pieces to and then invites you to solve. Not in that the game doesn't tell you what it is At All, it says as much that he's on a powertrip towards ascension, but it's difficult to wrap your head around Why until you deliberately examine and unravel each of his relationships with the other shinjuku reapers: how they affected him, what their side of the story is, why they're emotionally estranged but still sticking together, etc. I enjoy that you have to take the time to put it together yourself, but also the full picture you get once that puzzle is complete is one that i enjoy immensely. The fact that the core of shiba's plight is rooted in his relationships (or lack thereof) is very true to the spirit of twewy and I greatly appreciate that they applied all this to the game's main villain AND gave him a chance for redemption on top of it. His final scene is one of my favourites in the game and really sticks with me.
7. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you like?
The memes. Shiba's so easy to meme on its great. I have a folder of shiba memes on my desktop whenever i see a new shitpost or edit i Have to save it. im glad he gets clowned on so hard. Shi Basuks Cok lives in my head rent free. I wish shiba's va did small comms like I've seen other voice actors do sometimes bc i would pay him money to hear him voice act that post as Shiba for real. But i can dream
8. What's something the fandom does when it comes to this character that you despise?
I know i like Just finished talking abt how much i love the shiba memes but i also dislike how Majority of what i see of shiba is Just the memes and jokes. I wouldn't go as far as say i despise them at all (or i wouldn't have a folder of shiba memes) but I think its disappointing that i hardly see anyone actually take him seriously as a character or give him any consideration for analysis. Or not as much as I'd like to see, anyways (when i do see it it fucks hard though.) I also get the impression sometimes that some people take delight in the memes + clowning on shiba specifically bc they think he's just Not well written or interesting which bums me out a little.
23. Favorite picture of this character?
this clown shiba edit i made a yearish ago. i hold it close to my heart.
#initially for number 20 i was going to answer sho/coco bc i think their canon dynamic is hilarious#but its hardly the ideal friendship for him. its the ideal friendship for ME as a spectator.#i think if sho was open to relationships w other ppl the main thing he'd want out of them#is just someone to bounce off or entertain his wacky thoughts and ideas with. of which i see susukichi being more receptive to than coco#any other character would either be confused or terrified or just be like ''yeah ok sure whatever dude''#ask#twewy#neo twewy
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Please tell us your Thots on Barok and Gina for the ask game!
I'm going to do Gina first bc. you'll see.
Gina
Sexuality Headcanon: Bi as well as demiace/demiaro
Gender Headcanon: Girl but also in a v loose sorta agender sense. I think it really boils down to - she honestly just doesn't care. Being gendered is fine, not being gendered is also fine, but she doesn't feel strongly either way
A ship I have with said character: Goulstrade! Ginasusa & ginasusahao are also noice, but I don't have any preference here
A BROTP I have with said character: I already mentioned her siblinghood with Iris when answering previous ask, but Kazuma worsties are the funniest thing I've seen in some time and I love it. Also her found-family-ism with Herlock is super cute and just...!!
A NOTP I have with said character: Can't rly think of anything specific, so just apply the same NOTP rule as Susato
A random headcanon: Ever since she was v young she loved horses and when she had a chance she would sneak out even to just look at horsies. Even now she hopes one day the Scotland Yard will asign her a horse (or she manages to buy one)
General opinion: V good character, but divines i wish she had more screentime!! One of my faves ever since my first playthrough and yall make me like her even more <3
And now. Barok my... yes <3 (anon what did you do. now i wont shut up for a week)
Barok
Sexuality Headcanon: Aspec first and foremost. He's definitely grayace with strong leaning on ace, but what flavoring of aro is he? Nobody knows and certainly not him. Don't even ask him what gender he likes, he'll bluescreen
Gender Headcanon: Guy... maybe. I think he never really questioned it bc he didnt need to, but at the same time he also wasn't raised with strict gender roles so he has a vague understanding of what a 'man' even is. Also considering everything that happened in his life gender is just so, so low on his thinking-about list. I can absolutely see him just realising he's agender as well as being just guy[tm] and everything in between.
A ship I have with said character: Vanlock my beloved,,,,, thank you for making me rotate them in my mind again (I mean this in a good way!). Both Barok & Herlock are such strong personalities that I can't help but love it. There are just so many aspects of them that i love!! Starting from the very surface level opposites (sad vampire - essentially a sunshine) to the more complex stuff like the fact that they're balanced just right to be able to find support and solace in each other without one of them auto devolving into a 'i-can-fix-them' state. I mean it - at the very core they're both flawed or even broken people. Barok's is just way more visible because he's all 'mysterious' and angsty and Herlock is mostly masking it with being silly. Anyway if I write any more this will turn into an essay,,, Also DLC case English side my beloved
A BROTP I have with said character: Aside from the canon friendship with Albert probably Runo post-canon whatever kinda friendship thing they have going on. I mean with how big-hearted Runo is and with Barok showing that he can change & repent for being, well, collosal asshole I can easily see them being friends. I can imagine something similar for Susato but she should be allowed to throw him to the ground first
A NOTP I have with said character: Him and Kazuma is probably the clearest "no" for me. Worsties turned cordial turned maybe eventual friends sure, but I feel like there is too much grievances and trauma between them to result in any sorta healthy relationship
A random headcanon: You even wondered how he's still so flexible? Barok is still practising ballet. In secret of course!
General opinion: Easily one of my favorite DGS charas and by a landslide my favorite prosecutor (I know my avatar say otherwise lol). He's incredibly complex and honestly I just have a soft spot for characters that are just so trauma ridden. I have opinions about that part of his arc and I would just rewite it to hating Asogi's specifically and Runo by extension since they're associated/friends. But at the end of the day and what really solds Barok to me is that he shown that despite being fucking awful he can change. He's not an immovable rock, he can understand being wrong, hell, he can apologise. Try to be better person. I can't help but adore that But yeah he absolutely should have his ass handed to him once or few times, no denying that (I could say also much more but divines I really dont want this to turn into an essay lol)
[ask game]
#Kestrel Ramblings#tgaa#gina lestrade#barok van zieks#ask game#as you can see. i have opinions. many thoughts. sorry this turned out to be so long sjkfhasj#and sorry for the wait!!#another small edit i forgot the link to the ask game again lol
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Chapter 8
Mao: Here’s your coffee. Kazuki: Thank you.
Behind the hidden door of the painting. Kazuki Soneto's soft voice echoed in the quiet private room.
Mao: I've heard about Mari-san. I'm sorry for your loss. Kazuki: It’s okay. Thank you for treating my mother kindly when she was alive. Mao: What brings you here today? Kazuki: There’s a will…or should I say…. a final letter that my mother wrote to me. According to that, it seems like she had left a memento with Mao-san. Mao: ………. Kazuki: You have it, right? Mao: ……Yes. Kazuki: Alright! …No, I mean…Ahaha. I'm glad I finally found it. It's a very precious keepsake. Thank you for looking after it. Where can I get it? Maybe it’s here today? Mao: ………I heard Mari-san had been suffered a very serious illness. Kazuki: Eh? Ah, yes… She had been diagnosed with a malignant tumor. Mao: So that's why she hadn’t come to request us for the past six months or so? Kazuki: Ah….. I guess. No, that’s right. She's been in and out of the hospital since then.
Soneto Kazuki looked a little unsettled as he sipped his coffee right after saying that.
The thing is….. Mari-san was doing just fine a month ago.
Mao: (It's true that I haven’t received any request from her for a while, but she had been showing up at the cafe and the bar until a month ago.) (… Lying through his teeth like that…. He must be really in a tight spot.) (I wish he wasn't her real son, just an impostor. But that face says otherwise.) (I've seen him in photos many times, that nose and those eyes are the exact same as hers. There's no doubt about it.)
The occasional sweat wiping from the forehead, the restless gaze….. Those are the typical behaviors of a liar.
Mao: .…….Mari-san often talked about her son. She loved her child very much, but he left in his mid-20s and she couldn’t contact him at all. Kazuki: Oh… I see. So you did know… Ukyo: Since when did you come back? Kazuki: Um.….. Actually, it was about three weeks ago. I heard from a friend back home that she’s not feeling well, so I came back for the first time in ten years Mao: Mari-san must have been happy to see you after such a long time. Kazuki: .…..I wonder.
A bitter, sarcastic smile flashed across Soneto Kazuki's cheeks for only a moment.
Mao: ………. Why did you leave? Mari-san said that she tried everything to hold you back. Kazuki: ………..Excuse me? That’s the funniest thing I have heard today. Don’t you know that it’s her that kicked me out? Mao: (Found a landmine.)
Everything was just as she said, there's no doubt he’s her son. But he's definitely hiding something.
Kazuki: Ah… Sorry. My voice was too loud. Mao: It's okay, this is a private room. It hasn’t been long since her passing, so you must still feel unsettled. Kazuki: ……..Yes. That must be it. Mao: But why did she say that it’s her son that left? Kazuki: I absolutely have no idea. I was suddenly thrown out, and I've been living in such pain that I could die ever since. Mao: (Suddenly thrown out, huh…..)
Mari: Maybe I spoiled him too much. Mao: You gave him a lot of love, didn't you? Mari: He’s my only son, so I gave him plenty of it. But that might be a bad idea…… Even in his mid-20s, all he ever does is ask for money, money, and money without doing much work. That's why I wanted him to stand on his own two feet. I thought I could knock some sense into him by saying, "Live on your own!" Mao: Isn’t that what you want then? Mari: But… He seemed to take a pretty big grudge against me, and never contacted me again. It's been 10 years already. He is the most precious treasure I could ever have had….. I really wonder what I should have done…
Mari-san who always drinks heartily and laughs off anything, let out her complaints for the first time that night.
Mao: .…..Was Mari-san’s last letter a normal one?
I listened while silently praying that my prediction would be off the mark. Soneto Kazuki looked around and spoke quietly.
Kazuki: .….No. It's just one strange card… Mao: (…Bingo?) Kazuki: Do you know the horror game "Find me!"? Mao: Find me. I trust you. Kazuki: Yes, exactly. I thought that my mother had left me an inheritance because apparently at the end of the game you get a jewel. I noticed some clue in the game and searched the whole house, and found out that it was sent to you. That's why I came to retrieve it!
Soneto Kazuki gave me a fawning smile.
Mao: (If I’m going to respect Mari-san’s wish…) (I don't think I can give the jewel to him.) Unfortunately, I can’t comply with that. Kazuki: Eh?
His complexion changed almost immediately.
Kazuki: H-Hey… Hold on a sec. Why not? You’re just keeping it under your care, right? If you don't give it back, that’s no different from stealing. Mao: Have you ever stopped and thought for a moment why she would do this? Kazuki: Huh? I don't know anything about that… Mao: Have you even thought about it at all? Kazuki: I said I don’t know, are you deaf? It doesn't matter. Mao: What I've been entrusted with is Mari-san’s will. Kazuki: Will? Mao: "Find me.” Kazuki: !
Mao: What did Mari-san want you to find? I'll take good care of it until you reach the answer by yourself. I have no intention of betraying Mari-san who trusted me to do the job. You’re not getting anything with the way you are now. Kazuki: What's the big deal here…? I heard she had been feeling unwell, so I came back in a hurry. But as soon as she saw me she started her lecture and said she had a plan to donate most of the inheritance to an institution… And now you’re saying that she won't give me the jewel she made me go through all the trouble to find? What kind of bullcrap is that? Mao: Mari-san must have decided not to give anything to her son, who only sees her as money dispenser. That's why she set up this game. Kazuki: Excuse me? Mao: After you received the message card, have you searched every nook and cranny of your house? Kazuki: I did! And as a result, I found evidence that it was sent to you! Isn’t that a jackpot already!? Mao: Not yet. You're still missing the most important point. Kazuki: !? So what is it? I don't give a damn anymore! Spit it out!
The dark eyes that had completely lost the human likability glared at me.
Chapter 9
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✨🎀🎈💞💥🎙️💌💌💌
No those three at the end aren't a mistake, I know you have lots of WIPs and I wanna hear about them (insert activethreat emote)
✨-What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit):
Hmm. I'd say Ten Lives (The One Worth Living) but I think I might be biased and just want to talk about my Johnny, Kitty, and Shadow ideas more. I like them a Very Normal Amount I prommy.
🎀-give yourself a compliment about your own writing
There's a post that I've seen plenty times before that I think about all the time that goes something along the lines of "I'm having creative ideas above my skill level!" or something like that, for when you have a great idea but just don't know how to execute it the way you want. I legitimately feel where I am at a point where that isn't an issue for me with my writing? I think most ideas I can execute within the general sphere of what I want them to be; I might not always like them, and they might not always be what I consider "good," but they are comparable to the original idea.
🎈-describe your style as a writer; is it fixed? does it change?
It tends to change based on the type of thing I'm writing. And how much sleep I get. I like a lot of shorter sentences, followed by one long rambling one for most kinds of prose, since most of my prose is an ooo ouch my bones type of prose. It does change all the time though, so that might be different in a few months. It certainly wasn't what I preferred until like, August.
💞-what's the most important part of a story for you? the plot, the characters, the worldbuilding, the technical stuff (grammar etc), the figurative language
hm. augh. mm. thats a toughy! I'm going to say worldbuilding, because I often find myself more interested in the worldbuilding that the Actual Story I'm Trying To Write (its why a 30k first draft of a novel is fitting, completely unfinished, in my google drive. The current guys suck. I want the old ones. But the old ones only work as history for the new guys. Its sad.)
💥-find your least kudos'd fic - say something wonderful about it.
I'm ngl I completely thought it was gun safe but First Concert! It's a pretty short one, but it does what I sought out to accomplish; combine Dora and Ember's interests in a way that illustrates their differences but also shows that they're much more similar than you'd think.
🎙️-which one of your fics would you like someone to make a pod-fic of?
I have literally never put thought into that ever. If I had to choose, probably All In The Name Of Love or Strength of the Past And Weights of The Present, mostly because they're my favorites.
Welcome to WIP hell! See, you'd think that it would be a problem, having two of my WIPS be EI so I can't talk about them, and one being one you know so much about already. You might think that would hinder me somehow, in being able to tell you about them. YOU'D THINK!!
💌- share something with us about an up-and-coming work (WIP) that has you excited!
Chapter 2 Of Cover Blown: I love pitch pearl man, I really do, and with what I'm planning for this one I think it is going to be about as good as my pitch pearl can get (Dreamwalker excluded dw). I love putting guys in situations, especially when those situations involve bad injuries and babbled confessions.
Speaking of Dreamwalker, I'll add this here too, because while you might know a lot, I always have more. I love how I'm writing the ghosts, just across the board. They are all pieces of shit in the Funniest Way, especially since Danny is a whole ass child right now. You're scheming about a nine year old babes, calm down. He hasn't even lost all his baby teeth yet.
As for the last one, I'm going to put it under a read more. TW for bugs and Danny rotting, but its ok he's fine with it.
Bug Boi (title to be changed later) has been shelved indefinitely for. Many reasons! I have. So much to write. Bug Boi is, for those who do not know. Where I put as many bugs into the boy as possible. He loses organ privileges and instead becomes the landlord for a hoard of different bugs. He loves them, and they love him, and when they die (as bugs often do) they give him their little bug souls as a thank you so he because More Bug.
Anyway, I recently learned about the scorpion fly, who looks like this:
It is so cool, and has recently (idk how recently) been seen in forensic entomology, meaning that I can put these fuckers into Danny's eye sockets or esophagus or wherever else and be. Not technically wrong!! I have no idea if Bug Boi will ever be taken off of my list of to be written, but if nothing else it gives for me a place to put bugs.
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I'm very happy that being LGBTQ, everyone says it's okay for your sexuality to change and adapt. I went through so many changes and denied for so long a part of myself that I'm now realizing I am. The best thing is not feeling bad that it changed. The sad thing is feeling bad for everyone I've ever dated (With the exception of a few people). I'm slowly coming to terms that I'm cupioromantic. I've always had the thought of maybe I'm on the ace scale due to feeling nothing but busts of energy every once in a while. I had a partner who was so confused when I just couldn't do anything with them even though for the first week it was almost nonstop. I've had partners be confused about how closed off I was and my ex confused about how I could just jump to a new person. Realizing now that I can't picture myself in a romantic relationship shakes me to the core. I've always seen myself as a romantic but really that only came to other people and characters. Personally, I can't imagine myself with someone romantically. It doesn't change the fact that I crave cuddling and hanging out with someone. Even now, I wonder if I'm just touch-starved and just want friends. Kissing has always been weird to me. Making out sounds like hell and I've never understood that people enjoy it. The few times I've kissed people, I remember thinking I must have done it wrong because I felt nothing. I miss friends over exes. I think I grew up with so many people telling me you can't just love someone without loving them romantically. The truth is you can. I miss the friends I loved. I wouldn't ever kiss or date them, but I still loved them. Still enjoyed and loved everything they did and who they were. It's a lot and the emotions I feel are a lot. I feel heartbroken (Ironic) to those I've hurt with not realizing and complete at the same time. I've finally found myself. The funniest part is I struggled with my identity for quite a while and I always joked my sexuality was the easy thing. Turns out it wasn't lol. I'm happy, still a bit sad, but so f*king happy and content.
If you read all of that, I'm impressed. Thank you for reading my story/rant/coming to terms. I wish you to be yourself and remember that it's okay to not know who you are. It's okay to realize a different label works for you. It's okay to never have a label. Don't let other people tell you what you should be. Only you know you. If you don't like something, it's okay to say that. It's okay to just exist and be in the moment. To not know where you're going but know you'll get there someday. That's all I want to say really. Have a good day and keep being you. :) -From Emi the cupioromantic demi boy
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Obi-Wan Kenobi as a father headcanons (Obi-Wan Kenobi x reader)
Obi-Wan saying "i wish that i could say i was" to Little Leia's "are you my real father?" gave me ALL the feelings so i had to do this
This is set after Revenge of the Sith and before Obi-Wan Kenobi
Tw: pregnancy
• You and Obi-Wan had moved to Tatooine after Order 66, because he promised he would watch over Luke
• You both knew it was dangerous having two Jedi together when the Empire was hunting down every single one of them, but, after years of hiding your feelings from the Jedi Council, you knew you couldn't live without each other
• "Now there's no Jedi Order anymore and we can finally be together. I know it's dangerous, but I'm sure together we'll be stronger" - he said, giving you a reassuring kiss
• To prevent being found by the Empire, you moved to far away, deep in Tatooine, and started using new names: now he was Ben and you were (Y/N)
• You also decided to abandon every trace of your life as Jedi and found some jobs to make a living, in order to try and live an ordinary life
• Living in Tatooine wasn't easy, but at least you had each other, which was more than you could ever ask
• And of course, being the loyal Jedi you were, you both spent so much time trying to step away from each other and fight those feelings while you were in the Jedi Order, so now you had to make up for lost time, which included lots of... ahem... sexy time 🌚
• Obviously some time later you started feeling the effects of that (🤭) and to say you were terrified was an understatement
• "Ben, I think I'm... I think I'm pregnant" - you said, really worried about that thought
• "What? Are you sure?" - you could feel the surprise in his voice
• "I... I think so"
• "(Y/N), that's wonderful!" - he said smiling and holding your hands in his
• "What? No! How are we going to raise a child here? What if the Empire senses them and takes them away from us? I-I can't-"
• "(Y/N), listen. I will not let that happen, okay? We are strong and we will do whatever it takes to protect our family, you can be sure of that" - he said, holding you and making you feel so safe
• You hugged him back and started crying. You were absolutely scared, but he had a way of reassuring you that you really believed every word he said
• Pregnancy was tough (specially in Tatooine), but Obi-Wan (or Ben lol) was the best partner you could ever ask for
• He was always helping you and making sure you were comfortable
• When the baby was born, you had to face new challenges, but you knew you would overcome them together
• And surprise: it was a beautiful girl! You both named her (D/N) and promised to do whatever you could to protect her and give her all the best
• Her first years were a bit tough because both of you were sooo inexperienced
• "(Y/N), she won't stop crying. I'm about to start crying too because I absolutely don't know what to do" LOL he was so precious, always trying his best
• But when your daughter got older (around 4 years old), things got easier and the three of you became the best friends ever
• Her favorite thing to do was listen to the fantastic stories you and Obi-Wan made up just for her
• "Mommy, will you tell me story pleeeease"
• "Okay, come here” - you said, as she sat on your lap - “once upon a time, there was a princess called (D/N)"
• "Hey, that's my name!" - she said smiling
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"Things that aren't meant for the ears of the queen of love and beauty." Of course Martyn would never write anything explicit, not unless he was asked to, but joking about it brought a chuckle out of him. He could feel eyes on the two of them, but when his cousin's seemed to land on him, he suddenly felt as if his reaction to her words was going to have to be an appropriate one, as well as a quiet one. Though he wasn't sure why, given the fact that every time he saw his friend and his cousin interacting he could practically see sparks flying off the two of them as if they were going to burst into flames at any second. Nevertheless, he smiled softly, and locked eyes with her. "I promise I won't tell him. Not a word." And he would keep that promise. "...So, I suppose making him practice dancing with me tirelessly paid off. The face he pulls when focusing on not looking down is the funniest thing I've ever seen." The mere memory of the expression had Martyn looking away with a big smile. "Too bad for the scheming mamas that I am what one would call difficult. And very picky. I'm just glad Theon doesn't wish to push any unwanted betrothal upon me, nor Arya."
"What else did you write?" She asked, pulling him back towards her domain, the shadows at the edges, blue eyes darting across the room, to check if anyone was watching them. Because, as much as she hated to admit it, it did catch her attention more than the dance card around her wrist. "Of course. I must admit, he is a better dancer than I may have first assumed. Don't tell him I said that, though." Eyes snap to Martyn as soon as the words pass her lips. A dangerous game, any time she spoke of their shared friend, a knife's edge. She trusted Martyn with anything and everything, but not that. Not when she was so worried about any news of it reaching home. "Or, in another view, someone sees how valuable you are, and want you all for their house. Perhaps some of these scheming mamas wish to push their progeny on you."
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