#I will never apologise for who I am

[torgawl]

i keep thinking about how “is this what justice means to you, answer me neuvillette”, despite having been used in a case all those hundred of years ago, was probably a question that haunted - and still haunts - neuvilette during the entire time he has been chief of justice. i keep thinking about how they highlighted his struggles through time with both carole and wriothesley's trials. how guilty and powerless neuvillette must have felt for not being able to support and save those he recognised as vulnerable and victims before a system that corrupted their fates but that he wasn't able to change despite his position. the theme of being a casualty of a system no matter if you're the victim or the perpetrator in its eyes. the way neuvillette took, in both cases, things into his own hands. even if it was too late to fix the hurting carole and those who cared for her went through, even if it was too late to save her life; even if it was impossible to change wriothesley's past, his verdict and subsequent imprisonment; neuvillette went above and beyond, making use of his influence, to allow both melusines and wriothesley the opportunity of a better future - to melusines by making sure they weren't discriminated, to wriothesley by supporting his attempt at a second chance in life. i think part of the reason he's so intriguing is our awareness that this internal conflict he's bound to have is so complex. you have a chief of justice, or a judge, that is supposed to be imparcial and follow the law stictly confronted with situations of social injustice, unable to protect those who rely on him. you have someone who understands better than anyone what it means to be an outcast, being able to relate to those who are ostracised and have their pain weaponise against them. you have, in vautrin's case, a friend who cannot even showcase his own pain and is still expected to fullfil his juridical duties despite being personally related with those involved in the case. someone who people constantly turn to but whom he feels like he has no right to turn to himself. it's about the conflict between his feelings and his duty, between what's expected of him and what he can actually do. i think that's why the end of his story quest is so emotional and why it's so heartwarming to have him realise he isn't an outcast anymore, that he has a community there for him too. because a system is a system and he will probably never be able to save everyone, because yes he isn't human, but it doesn't mean he doesn't deserve to belong or that an active demonstration of love towards individuals and people he can relate to rather than the theoretical concept of humanity isn't meaningful. in fact, i'd it's a lot about that, about finding ways to be kind and how community gives meaning to life; how personal relationships and targeted kindness can shape society, or at least i think so

[echojedis]

How do people do OCs, I can never get them to click properly

[jakeperalta]

spent weeks psyching myself up to stand up to my mum and then immediately got shot down by her 😃👍

[lemonthepotato]

My dog was very interested in the video about Viossa I was watching. I think I might’ve found her native language.

[steelycunt]

riding through the town on horseback ringing my big old town crier bell yelling IF YOU THINK HE IS HOT-CODED YOU DO NOT GET HIM!! IF YOU THINK HE IS HOT-CODED YOU DO NOT GET HIM!! until the local blacksmith strikes me down with a red-hot poker and my horse bolts from underneath my limp and sizzling form

[torao-chan]

man idk what to tell yall

im just. exhausted atm

[vulturevanity]

Really digging Sunset's expanded backstory for the EQG rewrite. So, how does the first movie's events go between Sunset's villain acts and her defeat as well as Princess Twilight and Spike's involvement? Does Sunset still break up the friendships of Applejack, Pinkie, Rarity, Rainbow Dash, and Fluttershy? How is the state of Rainbow Dash and Fluttershy's friendships with Sunset during the movie with having to go against their old friend and save the school?

(Thank you! I'm having a lot of fun infodumping about this rewrite shsjk)

That is the Big Question! It's like asking "how does the entire rewrite's plot go?" Which is a lot to get into, and I'll have to keep the bulk of it for the Big Bullet List Post(s?), whenever that gets done. I tried to be brief but failed, so under the cut it goes:

In the rewrite, Sunset is still a huge jerk, but not to the extent we see in the movie; she doesn't go off yelling unprompted insults left and right -- while it does spill out rather frequently, her anger has a target. Yelling at a bunch of teenagers is cathartic in the short term but it won't help her get revenge on Celestia and Twilight.

The friend group is indeed fractured due to her, but rather than her manipulation causing everyone to hate each other, it was her messy heel turn that split the group in two. Rarity, Applejack and Pinkie didn't want to deal with Sunset's anger issues anymore; Fluttershy was terrified that saying anything would make Sunset mad and turn Rainbow Dash against her, so she just stays quiet; and RD is adamant that people are just overreacting to Sunset's attitude and genuinely believes what Sunny says about Twilight ruining her life. Twilight does still try to bring them back together because she still needs help getting the crown back and they're her best shot, but has a much harder time getting on Dash's good side (RD lowkey takes Snips and Snails' place as the lackey). It's only with time that Dash slowly realizes that Twilight doesn't really seem the type to ruin someone's life and starts to question her standing.

Twilight's and Spike's roles don't change much; Spike is still acting as Twilight's voice of reason, and Twilight is still trying to get the crown back. Most of her confrontations with Sunset are prompted by the latter; at first Sunny only ever attacks Twilight because she only actively targets the people who deny her of what she wants; and she only lashes out at the human 5 again once they start siding with "the enemy". It's not a surprise when her 3 ex-friends quickly take to Twi and start pushing for her to win the crown, but it really hurts when Fluttershy joins them, and she blows up spectacularly when Rainbow Dash finally puts her foot down against the idea of kidnapping Spike (wasn't that messed up?). By the time the climax kicks in she's well into her third-act breakdown. When the final confrontation happens she is so angry and so heartbroken and this shot is finally earned

And when the friendship-fueled magic battle ends and she's defeated, she is so so broken. She stays sitting down in that crater and bitterly refuses Twilight's help to get out at first, until Twilight sits by her side and has a genuine heart-to-heart with her for the first time. This also touches on Twilight's arc of being a brand new princess: she realizes that Princess Celestia, the golden standard of what a Princess looks like to her, isn't perfect; she made mistakes and hurt Sunset even if she thought she was doing the right thing. It doesn't justify Sunset's attempt to get revenge, but at least she isn't wrong to feel angry about being given such great expectations about her destiny only to be set aside like that. Twilight offers a do-over back in Equestria, but Sunset understands that she also messed up a lot in the human world and needs to fix things before she can go back (and also she is now terrified of seeing Celestia again now that she no longer wants to blast her into the Sun), so she stays behind for the sequel. And everyone's still mad at her for brainwashing them but that's why Rainbow Rocks exists.

Anyway I've only been rotating Sunset Shimmer in my head since Rainbow Rocks came out so. thank you for engaging with this, it's fun

[arsenicflame]

every time i get to ride a high i think 'oh maybe i can try and do this' and inevitably a couple days later i crash and burn and get reminded of exactly why i was thinking that way in the first place

[fingertipsmp3]

Btw I’ve never talked to an actual medical doctor about my mental health issues so I have no idea how to go about it. Lol

[gottagobackintime]

[bahoreal]

i keep "based on your likes" on out of like, morbid curiosity about tumblrs shitass algorithm (i think it goes, i [tumblr user J] like a post by tumblr user A. tumblr user A likes posts by tumblr user B, tumblr user C, tumblr user D. tumblr user J gets shown all of tumblr user As likes. i must have liked a post by someone who only likes posts about religion because i am getting a steady stream of almost harrowingly (derogatory) christian posts.

[dirt-str1der]

I literally had a dream about reading the worst fan fiction like fucking ever kiryu was just randomly a yandere and nishiki was trying his best to survive also kiryu turned into a dragon (deez nuts) halfway and let nishiki kill him for being a bad boy but he was so upset about having to kill his bro that he just lay in the corpse for a bit and thats when i decided to stop reading and i literally opened tumblr in my dream to complain about how bad it was like the writing went back and forth from being terrible to incredible and i found myself enjoying some parts and despising others. I skipped the first few chapters so i had to tab back out and read the summary like why are they in a beach resort and the summary didnt just tell me nothing but it was also double spaced between each line and very fucking irritating and while reading it i kept thinking this is extremely ooc and boring like they would not fucking say that

[luxraydyne]

pop quiz what breed of childhood trauma borne neuroticism is it called when being condescended to on just the most neutral, limpid, nothing thoughts you express like you’re a little silly child, or “out of your depth”, or woefully misinformed, or just speaking on something you shouldn’t cause fuckin hell you’re doing it *wrong*, and with the most plainly obvious remark too, makes you want to chew on your own arm until you reach bone marrow

[thecoolerliauditore]

screaming cus I love rendog i love rendog i love rendog i love rendog. ouppy. deserves all the love in the world.

[krispiecake]

currently thinking about how when i told my dad to tell my mother i would not be speaking to her until she apologised she just. straight up stopped even trying to contact me. like, not even a text. absolutely insane how much this woman refuses to admit that maybe she was wrong about how she handles some things. she cannot swallow her pride to even do this one really small basic show of respect. fucking mental.

[heartyearning]

context for today’s rant is that i got the feedback on my jury’s written feedback in the ‘general’ section (meaning it comes from more than one person) that i’m disrespectful towards my teachers and fellow students (i got it phrased in 2 different ways for flavour) & when i asked around today who said this so i could see how i could change my behaviour (btw none of my fellow students think this which i know bc i asked and everyone was shocked that i got this feedback) all of them were ‘i dont think this but it was discussed that’ which is funny bc it means the school’s computer system has a ghost or no one wants to fucking apologise to me for a very personal and hurtful comment that they can’t back up, but anyway, i was asking for clarification & my most diplomatic teacher (who i dont for a second believe to have written this feedback bc she’d have said so to my face no doubt) was like “well some teachers are worried about you and [best friend]’s clique & think it might turn into an Intellectuals Vs Others thing” (i don’t need to tell you this is so fucking out there i nearly fell from my seat like i have never said this in my life and when this very teacher saying this made a comment about one of my less-well read fellow students i was one of the ones who ‘‘rallied’‘ or whatever in her favour) and anyway then she continued “some ppl feel like u make condescending comments & you just need to remember not everyone has had your trajectory in life” WHICH IS FUNNY because she says this bc my bestie’s got a whole philosophy degree but i’m a highschool dropout with a lower than average iq in certain subjects. which obviously isnt even close to being the point and i do know that but i’m clearly feeling very upset and mad about this whole situation.