#I was honestly not expecting a romance here but our boy deserves to be happy
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lightwise Ā· 2 years ago
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Ā Analysis of Phee and The Bad Batch
I know that this topic has been heavily discussed the last few days, so I apologize if any of these points are repetitive. I also am not discounting anyoneā€™s differing opinions. I was a bit hesitant about shipping Tech and Phee together going into S2 E13, but five minutes in I was fully on board both with this amazingly sweet relationship and Phee being a straight up badass role model who I think is GREAT for the Batch as a whole.Ā 
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WHO PHEE REALLY IS
When Phee is introduced I think we all were expecting a typical pirate a la Hondo Ohnakaā€“funny, charming, dangerous, but ultimately just out for themselves and the chance of financial gain. Phee has way more complexity to her than this.Ā Ā 
Moral Compass: Sheā€™s a good person. She has a moral compass, and a great one at that. She spends most of her time traveling the galaxy both to explore history and natural wonders but also to restore artifacts (many of which donā€™t even hold monetary value) to refugees who have lost their homes and cultures due to war. And she often risks her own life to do so. For a pirate sheā€™s pretty dang honorable. I think this is when Tech really starts to warm up to her, because he is intrigued by and respects her value of these other cultures and her efforts to give people who lost their homes a sense of belonging.Ā 
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Intelligence: Phee is so smart both in intellect and emotional intelligence. Sheā€™s been around the galaxy for awhile and knows who to trust and who not to, even when she considers someone a friend (cough Cid cough). Her adventures require her to know and love history, science, and the appreciation of the art and cultures that she explores. While her mind works very differently than Techā€™s, she has more than enough curiosity and learning to engage with his level of intelligence.Ā 
Bravery: Traipsing around the galaxy searching for lost treasure requires a lot of bravery and survival skills, especially when traveling alone. The Batch have pretty unique skill sets both as soldiers and survivors, and Phee is more than a match for all of them with both weapons and her ability to navigate dangerous situations.Ā 
Compassion: Her dynamic with Mayor Shep and his daughter Lyana, her help throughout the natural disaster the island faces, and the specific ways that she shows care for the Batch members and trusts them with her community, all speak highly of Phee as a person who adds safety and value to all of her relationships, something the Batch members desperately need.Ā 
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PHEE BOTH SEES AND CARES ABOUT EACH MEMBER OF THE BATCH
Hunter: He trusts her now. We open with the Batch playing bodyguard as Phee is negotiating a tense deal. Hunter is absorbed in the moment and is fully prepared to defend Phee no matter what. Itā€™s clear that his previous dislike/distrust of her in their first encounters is gone, and that he trusts having Omega around her even in a dangerous situation. Phee has also softened towards him and talks with him quite a lot, both teasing him in a very sibling-like manner: ā€œso why bring us?ā€ ā€œmakes you wonder, doesnā€™t itā€, but also quite seriously respecting him as the leader of the squad and the father of Omega. She directly voices her opinions and concerns to him and goes to great lengths to let him know she cares about Omegaā€™s and their future, and he listens to her concerns. She knows that he wants to keep his family safe and settle down, and she wants to give him an example of what that could look like.
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One moment that really solidified this for me is how Phee reacted when Hunter pushed in between her and Tech as they were watching the sunset. Someone less acquainted with Hunterā€™s skills and brooding nature might have thought that he was just cutting between them or dismissed his qualms about what he was sensing. Pheeā€™s reaction proves that she takes Hunter seriously because she immediately knows something is wrong and isnā€™t at all offended that her moment with Tech was interrupted.Ā 
Wrecker: While their interactions are more sparse, itā€™s clear that Phee understands Wreckerā€™s motivations tooā€“food, helping others, rest. She brings them to a place his hunger can be satisfied, where his physical strength is an asset but itā€™s not the only reason heā€™s accepted, and she convinces Tech to let him and the girls sleep a little longer when Tech is ready to wake them up. Her face here says it all.
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Omega: In episode 5 we could have argued that like some other pirates weā€™ve had the pleasure of coming across (ahem Hondo again), she might have looked at Omega as just a little sidekick who she could impress and teach a few lessons. Here we see this is not the case. While she is impressed by her fighting skills, Phee is genuinely concerned about Omegaā€™s livelihood and welfare as she gently suggests to Hunter that she needs friends and a stable place to grow up. By bringing them to Pabu she is able to introduce Omega to another girl her age, give her a chance to relax and be carefree, and show Hunter and Tech that there are sides of Omega that need to be nurtured, without dismissing their current life with Omega at all.
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Tech: Alright. The main reason why this post is being written šŸ„¹šŸ„¹šŸ„¹. This little romance is the sweetest thing to me and with how much character growth we have gotten from Tech this season, I think seeing how Phee interacts with him only continues to highlight that growth and social connection.
I cannot get over how sensitive Phee is towards Tech. She understands how his brain works and doesnā€™t shame him for it, but simply tells him what her thoughts are without invalidating his. She accepts him for who he is while also showing him other ways of viewing the world. The way she pushes lightly against his boundaries and social awkwardness (especially around physical touch), but in a very respectful manner, always giving him the space to pull away or say no. How she knows that heā€™ll hate an overly boisterous social gathering and lightly teases him about it. How she gets him to put the data pad down and experience the world through his other senses. And as other people have more eloquently mentioned (shoutout to the Star Wars Universe Podcast), how she makes him feel safe. Safe enough for Tech to feel fully comfortable being himself around her, and also to begin to get curious about who she is and her points of view. She is giving him the space to meet her. And boy is he.
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Weā€™ve already seen from previous episodes that Tech has a strong moral compass and cares about people suffering in the galaxy. Her sense of moral justice and care appeals to him and he respects it. Tech just watches her in awe and interest at how she deals with people. He is steadily falling for her. She shows him beauty. She shows him compassion. She shows him new ways of relating to others. She understands his family and how they all work together. She matches his level of interest and fascination about the world. And heā€™s melting in the face of it.
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THIS SMILE??? THIS MAN SMIRKED AT HER. SMIRKED, I TELL YOU. šŸ¤©
Putting this caring, sensitive, socially awkward, neurodivergent, nerdy genius of a man and this badass, independent, kind-but-takes-no-bs, intelligent woman of color together is so fun to see. Iā€™m loving these two and canā€™t wait to see where this goes.
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seangelfish Ā· 3 months ago
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Omgggg congratulations on reaching 300 followers !!! You totally deserve it !!! I hope I'm not late to the event. Can i req fluff with tsumugi and s/o who adores the mojakko mascot of him in Switch's SSVRS game ? (It's the blue mascot in Sora's climax card) s/o loves the mascot so much she immediately bought a plush toy of him the moment it releases, and takes it everywhere, which makes him happy but a bitttt jealous that she paid attention to it more than him šŸ˜­ thanksss
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Here's the first request for the Ensemble Stars portion of the event! Thank you so much for your request! ('ā–½^äŗŗ) Your request is ranked 6th. Thank you for participating in my 300 followers event and I hope you enjoy reading~ šŸ’™
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"YOU KNOW I LOVE YOU THE BEST, RIGHT?"
Tsumugi Aoba x reader
ā™” Tags: Fluff, casual romance, established relationships, fem reader, not proofread!
ā™” Word count: 561
ā™” A/N: I've only read the prologue to this story, so I hope that's enough! Sorry if I butchered anything in this fic because I can't find any proper translations to the actual story at all... but I hope you like it anyway! (ā‰§ā—”ā‰¦)
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"What are you two doing?" you asked the two boys curiously. You placed your hands on your boyfriend's shoulders as you leaned in closer to their computer screens.
"Oh, (Y/N)!" cheered Sora. "We're playing our game! We're working with someone from a game company that worked on SSVRS to make one for Switch!"
"That sounds fun, but... what are you supposed to be?" you asked your boyfriend, Tsumugi, who looked almost as confused as you were at the avatar that was chosen for him.
Sora laughed. "It's Mo-jakko!"
"Mhm, it's Mo-jakko," sighed Tsumugi with a smile. "Scary, huh?"
"Nope, it's cute!" you squealed. "Haha, it looks just like you!"
You started ruffling his hair and he let you without a single complaint or any means to stop you.
"(Y/N), you should join us!" Sora suggested. "It'll be fun!"
"Okay, why not?" you said as you sat down on the chair Tsumugi was already occupying. Now that the two of you were sharing it, it became harder for him to control his character.
But he didn't mind it. He liked how close you were sitting next to him, he didn't care that the two of you could slip out of the chair at any moment. Even when there were plenty of spare chairs in the room, he wanted to be a little selfish and have you right there next to him.
After the session, Sora mentioned that if the game receives enough praise, then Mo-jakko could have his own line of merch to which Tsumugi sighed, but agreed on how cute that may be for their fans.
But Tsumugi didn't expect you to also be interested in something so silly like that.
So when he saw you one day at work with a Mo-jakko plush attached to your side, he was rather confused. Sure, he thought it was cute and it did make him happy that you were showing love to his mascot, but he had noticed how you took it everywhere you went.
Even on dates with him.
At some point, it seemed to him that you were paying more attention to the mascot that resembled him than him himself. He didn't want to ruin your fun though, so he kept it to himself for a while, but there came a time he had to let it all out.
And because Tsumugi was one that didn't understand why his words came out like that, you were particularly dumfounded.
"Tsumugi, are you perhaps... jealous?" you asked, suppressing a laugh.
"M-Maybe?" he answered honestly. "Well, you don't talk to me the way you talk to Mo-jakko..."
You appreciated how honest he could be, so you couldn't be too mad when he finally communicated his feelings to you. You ruffled his hair, fingertips making contact with his fluffy blue locks.
"You know I love you the best, right?" you chuckled.
"Yeah, I know..." He smiled. "But... please don't forget about me, (Y/N)..."
"Who do you think I am?"
You laughed and he followed suit. He admitted it was rather silly of him to be jealous of a plushie, but he did want all of your attention on him than an inanimate object.
You pulled him in, hugging him close.
"I'll always love you more," you continued as his arms wrapped around your body. "After all, Mo-jakko can't hug me like this!"
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Intro page | Ensemble Stars masterlist | #Sil300Special!
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infiniteetcetera Ā· 6 months ago
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Potentially controversial statement here but I swear this is not an attack just a genuine question: why do people assume Lucien will genuinely want/be heartbroken by Elain???
A point I see so often attacking Elain/defending Elucien is that Lucien has ā€œbeen through too much to be heartbroken againā€ and ā€œdeserves happinessā€ and ā€œSJM loves his character and wouldnā€™t just take his mate awayā€ but likeā€¦why do we equate mates with happiness and Lucien with liking Elain at all??
Obviously, Lucien is far more willing to try out the bond than Elain is. We know heā€™s attracted to her physically (but letā€™s be fr sheā€™s obviously attracted to him too, our fox boy is hot) but beyond that thereā€™s likeā€¦nothing to it?? They donā€™t talk, he doesnā€™t know her particularly well, the time they spend together is awkward, and Elains initial impression on a lot of people is being simple/boring (I am NOT saying Elain actually is these things, just thatā€™s the vibe she gives off to people as other characters have noted).
I think Lucien is definitely curious about Elain, he grew up believing a mating bond was this big powerful perfect thing and thought he lost his mate ages ago. Elain doesnā€™t make sense as a mate to him, which seems to make him all the more curious about her. I think thereā€™s also a lot of guilt tied up between them too, we know Lucien feels bad about what he did to Feyre and how he was involved with what happened to the sisters. We also know Lucien is a well bred polite courtier of a man. All these things together make it seem perfectly reasonable why Lucien still tries to speak to Elain, buy her gifts, acts how one would expect a male to act with his mate, is put off by her cold shoulder, etc but I genuinely donā€™t believe he has real feelings for her beyond the bond (yetttt) becauseā€¦literally how could he???
Again this really isnā€™t me hating on Elain, sheā€™s lovely but a pretty private/complex character as well and Lucien doesnā€™t know her. Iā€™ve seen so many posts lately about how ā€œLucien would be so crushed to know what happened on Solsticeā€ or ā€œElain has to grovel for liking Azriel because itā€™s wrongā€ or even just the insinuation (which silly goofy characters like Rhys make themselves) that Lucien is ready to blood duel and start throwing hands for Elain and again I just REALLY DONT SEE IT. I think heā€™s curious about the bond and willing to see the whole mess through but Lucien really has no reason to want Elain any more than she wants him. I know apparently the bonds ā€œeffect the males moreā€ or whatever but if Cassianā€™s ridiculous ā€œIā€™ll let Rhys threaten my mate any dayā€ self has taught us anything itā€™s that itā€™s reallyyyyyy not that simple.
I donā€™t know I just feel like thereā€™s this weird babying of Lucienā€™s character Iā€™ve seen a lot in the fandom recently that completely misunderstands him. Like our boy was spitting 10/10 rizz in the first book and gets called hot by 90% of the characters, he is not some underdog here. Elain is not above him and he really doesnā€™t need her. The love triangle is really more a fandom thing than some actual competition between the characters. Even if Azriel wasnā€™t involved Elain would still act the same way toward Lucien and I honestly think if he really wanted her/ if they had a connection prior to being told they are mates heā€™d be handling the situation differently. For now, I think people are assuming heā€™s a lot more invested than he actually is.
Obviously this is a romance series and there will be drama involving the Elain/Lucien/Azriel love triangle in the next book because thatā€™s been whatā€™s laid out, but if Elain just turned around and said ā€œsorry respectfully I want someone else letā€™s break this bondā€ I really donā€™t think Lucien would be ā€œheartbrokenā€ or ā€œcrushedā€ over it. Again, thereā€™s this whole weird ā€œmating bonds drive males crazyā€ thing up in the air but Iā€™ve failed to see any real examples in the ACOTAR universe that show me these bonds are a good thing so Iā€™ll believe it when I see itšŸ¤§
IDK, overall I know this series is about the sisters but I love Lucienā€™s character so much and really want to see more of him (and believe thereā€™s a lot to unravel there) and people threatening to not read the rest of the series if next book is Elriel because ā€œLucienā€™s been through enoughā€ just seems silly to me because I think his happy ending has nothing to do with Elain. It might involve Elain, yes, but Lucien also has a father, a mother, and a brother out there who are all decent people that would love him which he hasnā€™t gotten to explore yet. Iā€™m also convinced this man could pull any male or female in Prythian if he wanted so I donā€™t think just because sheā€™s framed as his big love interest now Elain is his only option.
I know a lot of people feel strongly about their side of the love triangle but I just really want to see all these characters happy and think a lot of people are overthinking itšŸ˜­ I think SJM has equal probability of making Elucien a great 10/10 ship and ruining their potential and making them Nessian 2.0 so Iā€™m much more concerned with these characters being written well and getting a real happy ending than who that ending is with. I also think ACOTAR has been very limited in scope thus far and Lucien is one of the few characters with the possibly to break out of that mold and get us out of the night court for a bit (yes this is me once again asking for a Lucien TOD bookšŸ˜”āœØ) . He could still 100% wind up with Elain, but I really just donā€™t imagine the love triangle/build up to that being as dramatic as people think. Lucien and Az are both decent respectful males and as long as neither oversteps I really just see it coming down to what Elain wants and whatever her choice is I think both characters will respect it and be able to move on perfectly fine.
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esta-elavaris Ā· 2 years ago
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Hiiiii!
Itā€™s taken me some time, but I finally read the two first chapters of Fallen Through Time. Apologies for taking so long, I was travelling and it was only today that I finally had time to sit down to give them the attention they deserve, despite knowing theyā€™ve been posted for a few days.
Boy, was the wait worth it! Honestly I was super excited when you decided to take this AU on. But now??????? How can you expect me to contain my excitement when you give me this amazingness????
I absolutely LOVE AND ADORE Elizabethā€™s characterisation: the low-key sass of a clever woman ahead of her time, her excitement at having the mystery that is Theodora appear in her backyard (and Estrellaā€™s panic at the potential danger lol, Iā€™m sure Elizabeth drove that woman crazy), how adaptable she is and how she just rolls with the situation of Theodora appearing on the beach and her weird clothes, and sheā€™s like, ā€œEstrella give me your apronā€, ā€œbring milk and booksā€, ā€œI shall undress her and do things myself since everyone else seems petrified by the weirdness of it allā€. Yay to problem-solving, independent, efficient, get-shit-done Elizabeth!
Iā€™m so eager to learn what she thinks of the whole situation once Theo tells her the truth. Will she tell her the truth? If she does, I feel like she would take it in stride, which would in turn make Theoā€™s process to adapt to Port Royal life much easier (having the sponsorship of the governor via his daughter wonā€™t hurt either, I guess). Your Elizabeth would be ready to deal with anything from a zombie apocalypse to a alien invasion and everything in between and I am here for it (I think this is so in character, you have her exhibit so much of the adaptability that is such a huge part of her character in the movies). I bet once Theo realises this, sheā€™s gonna be happy to have her on her side!
Iā€™m so looking forward to Theo and Elizabeth becoming friends, I cannot even tell you šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­šŸ˜­. If Elizabeth knows the truth from the get go, I imagine thatā€™d lead to a much closer relationship between the two and I am sooo excited of how this impacts the upcoming events, particularly how this could lead to Elizabeth influencing (as in fostering) Jamesā€™ and Theoā€™s relationship. Also, I feel that Elizabeth really needs a girlfriend to whom she can talk to about her own frustrations with her fatherā€™s expectations of her (ie marrying James), and her desire for freedom and adventure (I imagine sheā€™d be super interested to hear about women in the future!), her thoughts about Will and her perceived impossibility of that romance due to the difference in their stations, and anything and everything in between, so Iā€™m so happy in this story she found Theo the way that she did.
And of course, Iā€™M SO PUMPED FOR JAMESā€™ INTRO IN THIS STORY AND HIS FIRST ENCOUNTER WITH THEODORA! The distrust! The sparks between the two (because Theo will take no shit from no one much less a man, and James is high key turned on by this, in a gentlemanly way of course)! The undeniable interest in one another that later turns into unavoidable attraction! The eventual realisation by James that he actually doesnā€™t fancy Elizabeth but kinda really likes Theodora and the internal conflict that this creates in terms of expectations vs wants!
Ahhhhhhh I am just so eager to relive this whole masterpiece from this new perspective, so I am so happy you decided to do this, honestly a million thank yous!
Hereā€™s a gif of our favourite commodore to express my gratitude to you and love for this AU (oh to be that sword fr!)
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AAAAA hi yes hello -- no worries on you taking a while to get round to reading it, it's probably for the best because it'll be a little bit before I can get the next part done anyway, so I'm sorry about that! It's all good!
Thank you so much!! I'm so stoked that you're enjoying it, honestly I'm just mega grateful that you even suggested the idea because it's provided an amazing excuse for me to revisit Theorrington from the very beginning, which is a āœØgodsendāœØ -- y'know those musicians that whine about having to go out on stage and play the greatest hits over and over while nobody cares about the new stuff? Fuckin couldn't be me. I'd be like "Paradise City for a fifth time? DONE." (Not that I'm comparing my bullshit to Paradise City, but ikyk.)
But yeah, honestly I was excited about writing this to begin with but when I had the Elizabeth Revelation it really kicked it up a notch. Like, she's much more likely to properly strip Theo down to help her than Norrington was (well, until later much later in their relationship if u know what I mean heuheueheu šŸ‘€ - I'm sleep deprived, I'm sorry), because it would be much less of a propriety/honour issue between two women, which means she would be way more likely to come across the wallet. I did consider having her not do that, and sort of hand-waving it away, but it felt a bit disingenuous, and then I stopped and actually asked myself "what if she did find it, though? Why shouldn't that happen?", and it just felt like it absolutely should.
Like not only is it exciting because it presents the first major difference between this and the AU, but because it just makes Elizabeth's involvement here so much more substantial. Like not only will she be helping ease the path for James and Theo (even if that's for her own gain, which feels fitting anyway), but because she can mentor Theo in the ways of the time, too. I feel like James would be way more willing to give her the benefit of the doubt in the very beginning if he saw her acting in the ways Elizabeth had taught her - aka as little like a pirate as possible.
And honestly like, I was worried that Elizabeth's reaction might seem too convenient, but the more I tried to map it out, the more true it felt? Like this is a woman who's just absolutely fuckin desperate for adventure and for an escape from the monotony of the life she's expected to lead. She has no clue that said escape is absolutely on the cards, so having someone from the future drop into her lap would be a godsend, and maybe even her only godsend and only chance at adventure, as far as she knows. Like at this point in her story she reminds me of Rose from Titanic in the beginning of that movie - where she just sees her life stretching on before her, all planned out and very expected, and just needs something else, whatever it takes.
It's exactly like you said - she really needs a girlfriend, but especially one who understands. I feel like so many women in her current circles would think she's the luckiest woman alive and that the path being set before her would be The Dream, but Theo would actually get it and offer a new sort of ear to lend.
Plus, this is the woman who tried to trick Barbossa on his own ship at the very beginning of her bloody character arc in TCOTBP. She's a badass. Taking a lost futuristic woman under her wing is small scale.
I think so long as she knows Theo doesn't mean any harm, and isn't a malevolent force, she'd be all in with getting as involved with this as humanly possible, and it makes for so many fun and exciting possibilities!
I'm ALSO very excited for how much of a rockier start this could give James and Theo, because man they're kinda hot when they're mad at each other (respectfully).
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waitimcomingtoo Ā· 4 years ago
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In Case You Donā€™t Live Forever
~chapter ten rewritten~
Pairing: Peter Parker x Venom!Reader
Synopsis: you are Peters greatest love and Spider-Manā€™s greatest enemy
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Instead of lying in bed and crying all night, you decided to go out as a venom. You checked the hallway through the peephole in your door before leaving your apartment.
Once you stepped off the elevator, you kept your eyes glued to the floor in case Peter left his apartment as well. Since you werenā€™t looking up, you ended up smacking into the back of some guy.
ā€œSorry.ā€ You muttered, still adverting your eyes.
ā€œItā€™s all good.ā€ He answered. You knew that voice. He turned around and your face lit up.
ā€œAndy!ā€ You exclaimed. You wrapped your arms around his neck and he pulled you into a tight hug. You lifted your legs off the floor and squeezed him as hard as you could. You really needed a hug.
ā€œHey you.ā€ He laughed, pleasantly surprised that you were happy to see him. ā€œHowā€™s it going?ā€
ā€œUh, itā€™s going.ā€ You faked a smile, not sure what else to tell him. ā€œWhat are you doing here?ā€
ā€œWell youā€™ve been so busy lately that we barely talk.ā€ He said, a little harshly. ā€œI figured Iā€™d come down and surprise you.ā€
ā€œReally? Thatā€™s so nice of you. Thanks for coming.ā€ You squeezed his arm gently and he gave you a bright smile. It was weird. It didnā€™t affect you like it used to. A gesture like this from Andy would usually keep you up for weeks wondering if it meant he wanted to get back together. He could usually pull you in with the slightest hint of wanting you back. This time, you didnā€™t feel the pull.
ā€œYou alright? Your eyes are glassy.ā€ Andy asked after a few more moments of staring.
ā€œYeah. Just a fight with my boyfriend. You know how it is.ā€ You shrugged and wiped your eyes with the backs of your hands. You had briefly forgotten about Peter and your fight.
ā€œRight.ā€ Andy said flatly. ā€œI forgot you were seeing someone.ā€
ā€œThis is somebody else.ā€ You clarified. ā€œAnd heā€™s my ex-boyfriend actually. We just broke up.ā€
You bit the inside of your cheek, regretting what you had said. Why would you tell him that? Yeah, you were mad at Peter, but you werenā€™t going to be mad forever.
ā€œOh really?ā€ Andy perked up. ā€œDo you want to talk about it?ā€
ā€œYou know, I would really appreciate that.ā€ You answered honestly. ā€œCome on. Iā€™ll show you my apartment.ā€
You lead Andy back up to your apartment to talk. You knew he wasnā€™t the right person to air your grievances with, but he was all you had right now. MJ wasnā€™t answering her phone and you really needed to talk.
You thankfully didnā€™t see Peter in the hallway as you unlocked your front door and let Andy in. Little did you know, Peter was out on patrol, looking for you.
ā€œSo what brings you to New York?ā€ You asked as you got yourself a glass of water. Surely he had other reasons than just visiting you.
ā€œIā€™ve missed it here. I missed the city, the shops, and you knowā€¦you.ā€ Andy said sheepishly. You felt your heart twinge a little at his words. He missed you. And embarrassingly enough, you hadnā€™t missed him. Not since Peter started taking up all your time, anyway.
ā€œI missed you too.ā€ You lied through a smile.
ā€œNo we didnā€™t.ā€ Venom said telepathically. You shushed her and kept your eyes on Andy.
ā€œSo, have you finished up shop here? Can I expect you back in San Francisco soon?ā€ Andy asked as he looked around your apartment. He noticed a lot of framed pictures of you and a certain brown eyed boy.
ā€œJust about.ā€ You answered. ā€œBut Iā€™m not sure if Iā€™m ready to head back just yet. I kinda like it here. Iā€™ve set down roots.ā€
By roots, you meant Peter. You were irrevocably in love with Peter Parker and you wanted to stay in New York to be with him. The longer Andy stayed, the more you wished to talk to Peter and fix things. You didnā€™t have to go to your flight the next day. You could just go to his apartment and forget your fight ever happened.
ā€œAre you gonna come back for the wedding?ā€ Andy pulled you from your thoughts as he dragged his finger over a picture of you kissing Peters cheek at his graduation. You heard a hint of sadness in his voice, and maybe a little annoyance.
ā€œWhen is it again?ā€ You asked. All plans about the wedding completely slipped your mind since coming to New York. It was almost funny, this conversation felt so foreign to you. Andy, San Francisco, the wedding. It wasnā€™t your life anymore.
This was. Peter was.
ā€œAugust 10th.ā€ Andy reminded you, a little bitter with his tone.
ā€œShoot. Thatā€™s Peters birthday.ā€ You said apologetically.
ā€œIs Peter the one you just broke up with?ā€ Andy almost scoffed.
ā€œYeah, but like, not forever.ā€ You laughed awkwardly. ā€œI still love him.ā€
ā€œWho is Peter anyway?ā€ Andy asked abruptly, folding his arms in disdain. ā€œ
ā€œPeter is the best.ā€ You gushed, picking up a photo of you and him lying on his bed and blowing some dust off the top. ā€œHeā€™s my neighbor across the hall. I donā€™t know. We just fell all the way in love. He really understood me and I really understood him. And he makes me want to be a better me. He challenges me, but not in a pushy way, you know?ā€
ā€œI know.ā€ Andy said quietly, keeping his eyes on you.
ā€œYeah. He keeps me on my knees.ā€ You shrugged until your face turned a deep red. ā€œI mean toes. He keeps me on my toes.ā€
Andyā€™s jaw tightened when you corrected yourself.
ā€œSounds nice.ā€ Andy said through gritted teeth. He was seething with jealousy and it was evident.
ā€œIt is nice. Or, it was. I need to talk to him and fix things. I love that boy with everything.ā€ You said, mostly to yourself. Andy still heard it.
ā€œWhat about me? Do you still love me?ā€ Andy came up to you suddenly and put one hand on your cheek and the other on your hip. You were surprised by his question, and even more surprised by his actions.
ā€œI had to stop loving you the moment you broke up with me over a job.ā€ You practically scoffed as you moved his hands off of you.
ā€œYouā€™re still upset about that? Come on, Y/n, that was a million years ago.ā€ He whispered, brushing hair away from your forehead. You stubbornly reached up and pushed the hair back in place.
ā€œYeah, I am.ā€ You said, feeling slightly annoyed. ā€œWe were together for two years and then we didnā€™t speak for six months. So yeah, Iā€™m still a little upset.ā€
ā€œWhy?ā€ He asked idiotically.
ā€œWhy?ā€ You raised an eyebrow as you took a step back from him.
ā€œYea, why?ā€ He shrugged.
ā€œIā€™m upset because I needed you.ā€ You raised your voice. ā€œI needed you and you werenā€™t there. You lost me and your job on the same day and I swear, losing the job hurt you more. And while I was begging for jobs and crying myself to sleep, you were off with some other girl, giving her the same ring you said youā€™d give me.ā€
This time, you didnā€™t feel tears coming to your eyes. You only felt pure rage as all the things you wanted to say to Andy for the past year came tumbling out.
ā€œI proposed to her because I loved her. I loved you too.ā€ He defended, getting angry himself.
ā€œYou didnā€™t love me!ā€ You half laughed. ā€œYou just wanted to be needed by me. You wanted to keep me small so Iā€™d content at your side the rest of my life.ā€
ā€œThatā€™s not true.ā€ He scoffed, only increasing your anger.
ā€œItā€™s not? Then how come you never cared about my work? I never saw you reading my articles or watching my show. You have always been threatened by my success because you knew it exceeded yours.ā€
ā€œAlright. Maybe I was a little jealous.ā€ He shrugged dismissively. ā€œYou were younger than me and had already accomplished more than I had. And you know what? That didnā€™t sit right with me. I shouldā€™ve been the one calling the shots, not you. Am I not allowed to want to feel like a man?ā€
ā€œYou think youā€™re some kind of man?ā€ You laughed sharply. ā€œYouā€™re just a coward who runs when things get hard. I mean, look at you. Here you are, yelling at your ex girlfriend for making you feel like less of a man. But you know what, Andy? I do not have to apologize for making you feel inferior.ā€
ā€œOkay, fine. I was out of line.ā€ He admitted. ā€œBut donā€™t tell me you havenā€™t thought about us getting back together. I know how badly you wanted me back when I first broke up with you.ā€
ā€œOh, Andy.ā€ You sighed as you put a hand on his cheek. He smiled at you and wrapped his hand around your wrist, leaning into your touch. You dropped your smile suddenly and pulled your hand away, lowering your voice to deliver the punchline. ā€œThat was a million years ago.ā€
He stepped back when you threw his words back at him.
ā€œI canā€™t believe youā€™re still hung up on this.ā€ He shook his head mockingly at you. ā€œIt wasnā€™t that big of a deal. What was I supposed to do? You cost me my job so it cost you our relationship. Iā€™m trying to fix that now. Isnā€™t that enough?ā€
ā€Øā€œI know what enough looks like.ā€ You took a step towards him and pointed to yourself. ā€œYou and your condescension are not it.ā€
ā€œY/n, baby, hear me out.ā€ Andy pleaded. He swiftly pulled you into a kiss. You pushed him off and wiped your mouth in the back of your hand.
ā€œYou canā€™t do that. You cannot just kiss me whenever you want. And what about Dani?ā€ You scolded him. Your heart broke for her. She didnā€™t deserve such an unfaithful man. He looked at you with sad eyes.
ā€œYou moving to New York made me realize how much I needed to see you everyday. I broke up with Dani when I realized I couldnā€™t live without you.ā€ He admitted. ā€œThe wedding is off. Itā€™s you that I want Y/n, not her. Itā€™s always been you. You canā€™t tell me you didnā€™t feel anything when we kissed. Just try again and youā€™ll see.ā€
He tried to pull you into for another kiss but Venom came out and snapped at him like a dog, coming dangerously close to his face with her razor sharp teeth. Andy backed away immediately. Venom slinked back towards you and rested on your shoulder, staring Andy down.
ā€œBack up.ā€ Venom growled and Andy obeyed.
ā€œYou canā€™t just kiss me and think everything will be okay. This isnā€™t some romance movie. This is real life. Iā€™m not going to be the girl who mopes around until the boy who broke her heart comes running back with flowers and a ring. Iā€™m going to be the girl that picks herself back up and kicks his ass out the door. You need to leave. I mean it.ā€ You pointed to the door. Your hand was perfectly still. You had stood your ground and it felt good. Andy nodded solemnly and walked to your door.
ā€œIā€™m sorry. If itā€™s worth anything at all, Iā€™m sorry.ā€ He said honestly, giving you one last look.
As soon as Andy opened the door, Peter knocked him out with one punch. You gasped in shock as Andy fell to the floor. You didnā€™t even realize Peter was in the hallway. You and Peter looked at Andyā€™s unconscious body and then up at each other. Without saying a word, you rushed towards each other and pulled each other into a passionate kiss.
ā€œI heard every word. Iā€™m so sorry that I doubted you. I love you and I just want to keep you safe.ā€ Peter said against your lips.
ā€œI love you too.ā€ You smiled. ā€œIā€™m sorry I keep running away when things get hard. I promise, Iā€™ll never run again. You have my word. Iā€™m yours, Peter Parker. Until the earth starts to crumble and the heavens roll away.ā€
Only, that didnā€™t happen. None of it happened. No matter how much you wanted it to. Andy opened the door and left, leaving you alone in your apartment. You watched as he shut the door, shivering a little at the sound. You didnā€™t cry when he eft. No, you smiled. A big happy smile. Damn it felt good to move on.
ā€œThanks babe.ā€ You stroked Venom on her head. ā€œYou really had my back. I love you.ā€
ā€œWe love you too but youā€™re a hypocrite.ā€ Venom answered, making you look at her in confusion.
ā€œWhat? No Iā€™m not.ā€ You defended.
ā€œYou told Andy that he ran away when things got hard.ā€ Venom reminded you. ā€œIs that not what you did to Peter?ā€
You felt embarrassed at your double standards.
ā€œThis is different.ā€ You muttered.
ā€œYouā€™re right. It is different. The difference is you loved Andy but youā€™re in love with Peter. You have to fight for the people you love. You canā€™t just walk away.ā€ Venom said, suddenly in a calming and understanding tone.
ā€œWhy not? Itā€™s easier.ā€ You said weakly.
ā€œThat was before you met us. Now, you have backup.ā€ Venom said and nuzzled into your cheek. You wiped your tears and nuzzled her back. You two were quiet for a moment as she silently comforted you.
ā€œNow go talk to him or weā€™ll eat your kidney.ā€ Venom said suddenly. You felt your heart stop.
ā€œYou wouldnā€™t.ā€ You said, daringly. You were a little scared she actually would.
You felt a sharp pain in your side that knocked you to your knees. You clutched your stomach as you doubled over in pain
ā€œDid you just eat my kidney?!ā€ You screamed.
ā€œWe like to follow through.ā€ Venom said simply.
ā€œVenom!ā€ You exclaimed.
ā€œWeā€™re kidding. We just bit it. Relax. But we will do it for real if you donā€™t talk to Peter.ā€ Venom argued.
ā€œSo I have to talk to Peter or youā€™ll eat my kidney? Does that sound like a fair ultimatum?ā€ You sassed.ā€
ā€œYes. It sounds very fair to us.ā€ Venom replied.
ā€œBut Peter didnā€™t tell us who he really was.ā€ You grumbled. Even you thought it sounded dumb at that point.
ā€œAnd we didnā€™t tell Peter who we really were.ā€ Venom reminded you.
ā€œItā€™s different.ā€ You protested. ā€œHe wasnā€™t hiding the fact that he can turn into an alien with razor sharp claws and teeth.ā€
ā€œMight I imbue you with some alien knowledge?ā€ Venom asked.
ā€œPlease do.ā€ You said sarcastically.
ā€œPeter is a good guy. He had good intentions, Y/n. And we thrive off killing men with bad intentions. So if you apply that to PEMDAS, you can conceivably see that we belong with Peter.ā€ Venom stated. You let out a short laugh. She was making senseā€¦kind of.
ā€œHe may be a good guy, but weā€™re not.ā€ You said, a little sadly. ā€œHow many times did he tell us we canā€™t eat people? He will never accept us the way we are. Why should I ever bother trying to fix things?ā€
ā€œBecause you love him.ā€ Venom answered.
ā€œI do.ā€ You sighed as the picture Andy was touching caught your eye. ā€œI love him enough to let him go.ā€
ā€œLet him go?ā€
ā€œYes.ā€ You made your decision. ā€œThere are a million reasons why he and I canā€™t be together and only one reason why we should. Just because I love him, doesnā€™t mean I can have him. Iā€™m getting on that plane tomorrow, and youā€™re not stopping me.ā€
Meanwhile, Peter had stepped into an elevator with a man who looked incredible familiar on his way back to your floor. He had swung around the city to clear his head and now he was ready to talk to you. The man in the elevator looked visible upset and distraught, and Peter noticed no buttons had been pressed. That meant the man was just riding in the elevator with no place to go. Peter awkwardly stepped forward and pressed the key for the fourth floor. The man noticed it and smirked.
ā€œYou going to Y/nā€™s?ā€ He asked with a wicked look in his eyes. Peter looked at the man in astonishment.
ā€œYeah. Actually. Howā€™d you know?ā€ Peter asked the stranger. The man looked like he had an idea brewing behind his dark brown eyes.
ā€œI just got back from there. Youā€™re Peter right?ā€ The man asked. Peter was shocked again. He was almost positive he had never met the man.
ā€œYea. I am.ā€ Peter said wearily. How did this guy know you?
ā€œIā€™m Andy. Y/nā€™s ex-boyfriend.ā€ Andy replied with a cocky smirk as he dropped the bomb on Peter. Peters heart fell. Why was he at Y/nā€™s apartment? Why was he in New York at all?
ā€œOh, youā€™re Andy? The guy that broke Y/nā€™s heart after belittling her for two years?ā€ Peter asked in an innocent tone. He knew what he was doing and Andy seemed to sense it.
ā€œYea. Thatā€™s me.ā€ Andy muttered, no longer feeling cocky. Peter smirked as they rode in silence for a moment.
ā€œWhat brings you to New York? Y/n told me you moved to San Francisco.ā€ Peter said, desperately wanting to know why Andy was anywhere near you. Peter knew you had forgiven Andy and befriended him, but that didnā€™t stop him from holding a vendetta against the guy. He broke your heart and he didnā€™t deserve to ever be in your presence.
ā€œI came to visit her. Sheā€™s coming back to San Francisco soon but I missed her too much to wait.ā€ Andy said, attempting to psych Peter out again. They both wanted you and didnā€™t want the other to have you.
ā€œRight. For the wedding.ā€ Peter said sharply.
ā€œOh, the weddings off. I actually came here to win Y/n back. And it went pretty well if I do say so myself. But sheā€™s still coming back to San Francisco. Just not for the wedding. Sheā€™s moving back to be with me.ā€ Andy lied. Peters heart completely stopped this time. His blood boiled in his body and he looked at Andy with a deadly glare, only just noticing the lipstick, your lipstick, on his lips. So it was true. He had kissed you and now you were moving back to San Francisco, thousands of miles away. Peter felt like there was no air left in the world. He couldnā€™t see straight at the thought of another manĀ kissing,Ā touching,Ā lovingĀ his girl. Andy smirked at Peters reaction. Before Peter could say anything, the elevator doors opened. Peter got out and looked back at Andy with sad eyes. Andy gave him a wicked wave as the doors closed.
Peter slowly turned and walked back to his apartment. He looked at your door and felt tempted to knock. Even though you were the cause of his sadness, you were also the only one he wanted to comfort him. Peter decided against it and went inside. He could hear the sound of you packing your bags, the zippers of your suitcase clinking every now and then. Peter laid in bed with tears rolling down his face, desperately thinking of a way to win you back.
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Summertime Happiness
(OM) Boys (excluding Simeon, Solomon) x GN!Reader
Synopsis: the beach episode
WC: 3.2k
Note: itā€™s summer, and I miss the beach. I really want to go so I projected it here. I will say this is a part one bc I plan on writing smut for part two and you get to pick which ending you want. For example, you could pick to spend the night with Diavolo or you could choose Mammon. Iā€™m challenging myself to write for each character so weā€™ll see how that goes.
ā€œBeach! beach! Beach!ā€ Mammon, Asmo, and Levi were chanting in the back of the car.
ā€œGuys, weā€™re not even halfway there.ā€ You groaned. They had been like that ever since you got to the human world. They then started squabbling about what to do. Mammon then tried to steal Leviā€™s tablet. Asmo seemed to ignore them completely.
ā€œThis would be our first human world beach! Of course, weā€™re excited. Just think of all the photos I could post.ā€ Asmo was gleeful, the main person who suggested this trip.
ā€œWell can you guys keep it down. Iā€™ll turn this car around if you donā€™t!ā€ They shut up, leaving you able to concentrate on the road, ā€œYou guys are lucky that Lucifer is in the other car.ā€
ā€œI didnā€™t know you could drive MC.ā€ Satan was in the front seat next to you.
ā€œOf course! Iā€™ve been driving since I was 16.ā€
ā€œIā€™m sure you could teach Mammon how to drive safer.ā€
ā€œOi! Quit insulting me!ā€
ā€œHonestly, why couldnā€™t Belphie be in my car. Heā€™d just sleep.ā€ You grumbled under your breath.
ā€œI still donā€™t understand why Diavolo would want to come here when he has a beach of his own. Besides the beach is stupid.ā€ Satan was now complaining. The choir in the back started up again, and you could feel the headache develop.
Instead of listening to them, you turned the music up to drown out the noise they were making.
Thatā€™s when Barbatos gave you a call. You answered it hands free, ā€œhello?ā€
ā€œMC, it seems the young lord would like to visit the nearest rest stop. He wants to see a human world gift shop.ā€
ā€œThere will be gift shops at the beach!ā€
ā€œYou donā€™t understand MC! I heard rest stop gift shops offer a wide variety of trinkets that the state offers.ā€ Diavolo sounded too excited for you to say no.
ā€œAlso, Beel ran out of food, and we donā€™t want him to rampage in the car.ā€ Lucifer sounded annoyed, probably because he got put in the back seat since Barbatos was driving.
ā€œIā€™m hungryā€¦ā€ you could practically hear Beelā€™s stomach growl from the backseat as well.
ā€œI suppose we need to fill the cars up with gas as well. There should be a rest stop at the next exit.ā€
ā€œUnderstood. Weā€™ll follow you to the rest stop of your choice.ā€ Barbatos hung up. The music resumed. Hopefully, they didnā€™t hear the commotion from the back of your car.
You pulled off the next exit to arrive at a big gas station/truck stop. Parking your car at a pump, the others got out of the car to stretch their legs.
ā€œYou guys go ahead and get some snacks or drinks. Make sure to get me one too. The others should show up shortly.ā€
They walked into the shop thankfully not arguing. Barbatos shortly pulled in at the pump opposite of your car.
They also got out, and Diavolo practically ran to the shop with Beel following behind him.
ā€œLucifer, please donā€™t let them get into any trouble. Thatā€™s the last thing we need.ā€ He nodded already looking annoyed. Upon inspecting their car, you could see Belphie peacefully sleeping in the back seat.
Barbatos walked over with a map consulting you on the best route to the beach. Their D.D.Ds didnā€™t have human world GPS, and of course, they didnā€™t have any human world phones to access it (and you werenā€™t planning on buying a new phone.) With a pen, you highlighted the route after consulting your GPS. You knew that Barbatos wouldnā€™t get lost behind you, but it was nice having this assurance.
Barbatos then turned around and excused himself from your discussion, heading towards the gas station shop. You tended to both of the cars, making sure that they were filled up and ready to go.
When you saw all of them come back to the car, Mammon was thrown over Barbatosā€™s shoulder.
ā€œPut me down!ā€
ā€œIā€™m sorry MC, but Mammon will be riding with us now.ā€ You didnā€™t even want to know. Beel now was in your car, which solved part of the headache that was going on.
Lucifer simply texted you:
Mammon tried to steal
You knew that Mammon was going to be harshly punished in Barbatosā€™s car which he deserved. The last thing yā€™all needed was for the cops to come and arrest Mammon.
You noticed how many bags of souvenirs Diavolo was putting in the back of the car. It looked like he swept the store clean of everything. Same with Beel but with food.
ā€œBeel, please make sure to not get food everywhere in my car. My parents would kill me if I ruined their seats.ā€ He nodded and kept chowing down on the bag of chips he got.
Satan just shook his head and handed you a granola bar and a soda. Thankfully someone remembered to get what you asked for.
You all loaded the cars back up and set off once more. This time your car was quieter, and you were so thankful for that on the rest of the way to the beach.
ā€”
ā€œFinally! Weā€™re here!ā€ Asmo exclaimed when you parked the car at the condo yā€™all would be spending time at. Barbatos shortly pulled in next to you.
They got out of the car and met up with you, ā€œWeā€™ll need rolling carts for all of our luggage and supplies. They should be in the lobbyā€™s office.ā€
Lucifer and Barbatos left to go fetch them and check in to the condo for you.
It was surprisingly easy to get all of the suitcases, beach supplies, and coolers up to the room. You made sure to get a big condo so everyone could get their own room (saved yourself the headache of who will be rooming with who.)
ā€œAlright everyone, time to set up the ground rules!ā€ You gathered everyone to the common room, ā€œMake sure you all remember your human world names. Please do not stray too far from the others. We do have the beach for ourselves here, but the public beach isnā€™t too far from here. Please be careful to not wander that way. We have an itinerary for dinner and free times. Please do try to behave yourselves over the week we are here. Other than that, weā€™ll have fun!ā€
They all agreed and left to go unpack their stuff.
ā€œI really hope we can get through this without any trouble. Weā€™re spending too much money being here instead of being in Devildom.ā€
ā€”
The sand was nice and warm. The sunlight danced over the waves, making the ocean sparkle. Lucifer and Barbatos already got the umbrellas and beach chairs prepared, so all the rest had to do was get into swimsuits.
Running out to settle down on a chair basking in the sunlight was your first objective.
ā€œMC, you need to apply sunscreen before you sit out in the sun.ā€ Barbatos walked over with the spray on sunscreen.
ā€œRight. I forgot.ā€
ā€œMC, I can help you put on your sunscreen!ā€ Asmo ran over to you, ā€œThen you can rub it all over my body.ā€
ā€œOi! If anyone is going to rub sunscreen on them, itā€™s going to be me. Iā€™m their first so I have that right!ā€ Mammon was quick to swoop in and grab the bottle out of Asmoā€™s hand.
ā€œYou canā€™t use that excuse every time. Especially since youā€™ll never admit how you feel.ā€ Satan was the next one to take the bottle.
ā€œI-I have no idea what youā€™re talking about.ā€
ā€œOh, you know youā€™re a simp.ā€ Levi came up to yā€™all, ā€œO-Of course I will apply sunscreen on you MC. Who am I kidding youā€™ll never pick me.ā€ You could hear every mumble under Leviā€™s breath.
ā€œWhat on earth are you all doing?ā€ It was Lucifer, ā€œthey are perfectly capable of putting sunscreen on themselves.ā€
ā€œBut their back! They couldnā€™t possible read that part,ā€ Asmo flirted, ā€œand Iā€™m the perfect person.ā€
Lucifer rolled his eyes and took the bottle out of Satanā€™s hands, ā€œIā€™ll put on your sunscreen MCā€
ā€œNo fair! How come you get to do it?ā€ They started to whine. Honestly at this point you didnā€™t care who put it on you.
ā€œThank you, Lucifer,ā€ you turned your back towards him so he could apply the lotion on you. Feeling his hand run up and down your skin did feel nice.
The others continued to bitch at Lucifer about it.
ā€œHaha! Your brothers are lively as always.ā€ Diavolo stood next to Lucifer, who only sighed at his comment.
ā€œIā€™m afraid so.ā€
Now that everyone was prepared, Mammon, Asmo, Levi, and Beel ran towards the water. Belphie was already asleep on a beach chair. Satan sat next to him with a book in hand. Diavolo was forcing Lucifer to build a sandcastle with him, while Barbatos helped by carrying buckets of ocean water.
A smile grew on your face as you ran towards the ocean yourself with a floaty, finally able to relax and play with everyone there.
When entering the nice warm water, youā€™re immediately dunked in. Rising back up,
ā€œMammon! You ass!ā€ You move your hair out of your face.
ā€œItā€™s ok MC, he did the same to me. He has a death wish,ā€ Asmo looked furious. Every time heā€™s swim close to Mammon, he would simply swim away.
ā€œDidnā€™t peg you as a good swimmer.ā€
ā€œThe great Mammon can do many things!ā€ His laughter was infectious, and your anger fizzled out as you see the brothers chasing each other.
ā€œUgh, what normies.ā€
ā€œWhat did you expect to do out here Levi?ā€
ā€œWell you see I saw in this anime called A Trip to the Beach turns into a romance story and-ā€œ
ā€œForget I asked. Iā€™m surprised that Mammon didnā€™t dunk you.ā€
ā€œThe water doesnā€™t scare me.ā€
ā€œMakes sense. You do kind of control water. I guess this would be the best place to summon Lotan, besides the fact this is a human world beach.ā€
ā€œHahaha. I have no plans of doing that. My Ruri-Chan towel and bag would get soaked, and I donā€™t want that.ā€
ā€œRightā€¦ā€
You then heard eating sounds in your ear. Turning around, you see Beel mouth full of fish, ā€œYou canā€™t just eat the marine life here!ā€
ā€œBut I was hungryā€¦ā€
ā€œThen go to shore and grab some of the food we brought down here!ā€
Beel took you up on that offer as soon as he finished devouring the fish he caught with his bare hands. You just prayed he left something for the rest of you, lest you have to go back to the condo and get more.
Mammon quickly swam back and hid behind your back, practically using you as a shield.
ā€œDonā€™t use MC to protect you!ā€ Asmo was coming in hot. You dunked yourself under the water for Asmo to finally catch Mammon and push his head in the water.
Upon both of you returning to the surface, you shook your head to get the salt water out of your ears.
ā€œYou pushed too hard Asmo!ā€ Mammon bitched.
ā€œYou brought this upon yourself!ā€
ā€œCan you both shut up? Iā€™m trying to fantasize about Ruri-Chan.ā€
ā€œStay out of this otaku!ā€ They both shouted at the same time. Levi clammed up.
ā€œOf course, they think Iā€™m some weird gross shut inā€¦ā€
ā€œOh Levi, thatā€™s not true. Just let those two idiots fight and dunk each other under water. Letā€™s go back to shore and hunt for seashells!ā€ He felt better from your words. Grabbing the floatie that seemed to be abandoned (youā€™re glad it didnā€™t float away into the sea), you both swam back and went to dry yourselves off.
Beel was devouring all of the food in the coolers you brought.
ā€œSatan! Why didnā€™t you restrain him?ā€
ā€œHuh, itā€™s not my job to keep Beel from eating everything. Thatā€™s Belphieā€™s.ā€ You glanced to see that he was asleep basking in the summer sun.
ā€œOf course.ā€ You turned your attention back to Satan, ā€œwhy donā€™t you come with Levi and I to hunt for seashells?ā€
ā€œNo.ā€ It was immediate and caught you off guard, ā€œIā€™m at the climax of this book, and Iā€™ll do beach stuff when Iā€™m done. Except go into the water.ā€
ā€œStill donā€™t get it, but whatever.ā€
You grabbed the necessary supplies to gather seashells, and you made your way back to the shoreline with Levi by your side.
ā€œLetā€™s see if we can find one thatā€™s not broken! Iā€™d love to get to a nice cone shaped oneā€ Levi cheered up.
So far, youā€™ve only found broken sand dollars and pieces of broken corral, ā€œwell this isnā€™t great.ā€
ā€œOi! Why you hogging MC all to yourself?ā€ Mammon always knew how to ruin a moment.
ā€œHey, Mammon~ā€
ā€œY-yeah?ā€
ā€œYou want a dollar?ā€
ā€œYes! Giving money to me is an investment-ā€œ
You simply placed a sand dollar in his hand causing Levi to practically die, howling about how you got him good.
Mammon just stood there looking like he could turn to dust at any moment. You couldnā€™t help but laugh.
Satisfied with your haul, you and Levi placed the bucket of shells back at the beach chairs.
ā€œStill reading Satan?ā€
ā€œYes, and itā€™s getting good so leave me alone.ā€ You roll your eyes in response. Levi said he would chill with Satan in the shade, something about getting his daily log on bonuses.
Shrugging, you turn on the group you hadnā€™t visited yet.
ā€œLucifer! Diavolo! Howā€™s the sandcastle coming?ā€
ā€œWellā€¦I tried making a sand sculpture of Lucifer, but it doesnā€™t look anything like him.ā€ Diavolo pouted. Upon looking at the pile of sand, you tried to hold back your laughter. If this was supposed to be Lucifer, then Asmo should really give him a makeover.
ā€œThe important thing is you tried Diavolo,ā€ Lucifer tried to hide his annoyance, but of course he was bad at that (he would never admit it though.)
ā€œMaybe we should take a break, my lord.ā€
ā€œI guess so.ā€ You felt bad and patted Diavolo on the back.
ā€œYouā€™ll get it right the next time you do it. Here why donā€™t I show you something humans do on the beach!ā€
Diavolo perked up, and the three of them followed you back to the shaded umbrella where their beach chairs were. You sauntered off and grabbed four bottles of beer and a bag of limes you cut up earlier (thankful that Beel didnā€™t eat them.)
You handed them the beer as well as a bottle opener, ā€œOk, so typically on the beach with this brand of beer, you push a lime into the neck of the bottle. It helps add flavor to the drink of the summer here.ā€
You demonstrated for them, even though Barbatos was a step ahead of you anyway. Diavolo looked at it all with wonder, taking a sip after preparing it, ā€œFascinating! Is this really what humans do?ā€
ā€œSome. I like to do it when I go to the beach. Itā€™s nice and relaxing. Plus, the advertising says to do this.ā€
ā€œI do have to say, it does add a little aromatic flavor. However, Iā€™ll have to decline drinking more than I already have.ā€ Barbatos handed the bottle back to you. Even though you knew he had his reasons, it bummed you out a little.
ā€œWell Lucifer! What do you think?ā€ Diavolo turned towards his friend who was happily drinking his.
ā€œHonestly, I needed some sort of break after being in the sun for so long.ā€
ā€œWell, Iā€™m glad I was able to help.ā€ Lucifer smiled at your response, praising you about how youā€™re always a help to everyone.
You sat down next to them on the sand and just took in the calmness of the beach air, the smell of salty sea water filling your nose. It was enjoyable to have one moment of relaxation.
ā€œHey MC! Belphieā€™s awake! Help us throw him into the ocean!ā€ You could hear Mammon from the other side of the beach.
ā€œYour brothers are always so exciting, Lucifer,ā€ Diavolo was laughing and was waiting for Lucifer to laugh along with him.
ā€œMore like a headacheā€¦ā€
ā€œIā€™ll go over there so they donā€™t bother you three. Remember to get the relaxation you need. The three of you work way too hard, you deserve a break. That goes for you to Barbatos! You donā€™t have to be a butler here.ā€
He laughed at your comment, ā€œSo noted.ā€
Satisfied, you ran back over to the others.
ā€œIf you like to live, youā€™ll let go of meā€ Belphie was trying to fight, but with Mammon, Asmo, and Levi together, he didnā€™t stand a chance.
ā€œSame for you Beel! Put me down so I can finish my book!ā€
ā€œNah, you can finish your book later. Weā€™re at the beach. You should have fun with us!ā€ Mammon had a death wish. They managed to pull Belphie and Satan into the water. Belphie at this point had already given up.
Satan, however, was like trying to bathe a cat. Extremely unhappy about it. He screamed profanities and was about to go apeshit, until you were by his side and holding his hand.
ā€œItā€™s ok Satan. They just want you to have fun.ā€ He huffed in response with a hint of blush developing on his face.
Finally, all of you were in the ocean, splashing water at each other, seeing who could hold their breath the longest, and float around letting the water massage your worries away.
The fun eventually was coming to a close. The sun started to set, and everyone went to pack everything up.
ā€œHold on!ā€
They turned to look at you who has a mischievous look on your face, holding up sparklers in their face, ā€œTheyā€™re a lot of fun to have on the beach too.ā€
Everyone was about to decline until, ā€œOhhhh, that sounds like fun. Iā€™ll do it with you MC.ā€
Diavolo started to take sparklers from your hand and went to get a lighter.
ā€œWell, I guess I can do it too.ā€ Mammon said.
ā€œIt does sound like fun. Plus, I can take all sorts of photos to post when we get back to Devildom.ā€ Asmo ran to be by your side.
ā€œDonā€™t eat the sparklers Beel,ā€ Belphie said walking over with his twin.
ā€œW-well itā€™s a normie thing to do, but if MC wants to do it then I will too.ā€ Levi took a sparkler from the packet.
ā€œAs long as Lucifer isnā€™t going to participate then I will too.ā€ Satan said.
ā€œToo bad because Lucifer has to do this too!ā€ Your words sounded very adamant, leaving Satan with no other choice.
Lucifer sighed but then smiled, ā€œAs long as your happy MC and Diavolo.ā€
You squealed in happiness. As you lit the sparklers, everyone waved them around. Asmo took photos of everyone with theirs. Mammon tried writing words (they didnā€™t look good.) The rest were happy to chase each other with Diavolo and Lucifer standing on the side. Diavolo was mesmerized by the sparks shooting out, and Lucifer couldnā€™t help but laugh with him.
Barbatos filmed the entire thing for everyone to remember later. One of the best days ever.
ā€”
After showering, you noticed the night was still young. Everyone was kind of doing their own thing now.
You didnā€™t want the night to end too soon. Hitting up the town seemed like a good idea.
You sat thinking of who you should bring with you.
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mychemicalrachel Ā· 4 years ago
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So I finished season 2 of Love Victor a few days ago but I needed time to process because that was a lot and part of processing is reviewing/reflecting, which Iā€™m gonna post here. Everything under the cut because I ramble.
(also, itā€™s anti Victor/Rahim. Venji is endgame and you can pry that from my cold dead hands. Skip this if thatā€™s not for you. Iā€™m not posting this to start drama. Just my opinions.)
To start off, I liked this season. Iā€™m gonna trash it a little, but itā€™s done with love. There were a lot of things I wanted to see after season 1 and, surprisingly, I got a lot of those things! Such asā€¦
I wanted more Felix and Pilar. Which we got. I did not want it like this. Iā€™m not opposed to them together, I like them, but I wanted Felix and Lake to stay together. HOWEVER, Iā€™m kinda glad they broke up because yā€™all itā€™s paving the way for bi Lake (another thing I really wanted) and I cannot wait to see her and Lucy together.
Kind of following along with that, I really wanted them to give Pilar more friends this season. And they did that with Rahim. And then they took Rahim away and gave him to Victor instead. Guys, this is killing me. I want to see Pilar with actual friends, give her more of a social life I am begging you.
JACK. I knew, I just KNEW, that we were going to get a Spier cameo this season and I honestly kind of expected it to be Emily, maybe Nora, but I am so happy it was Jack. Heā€™s grown so much since Love Simon.
I wanted to see Mia portrayed as her own person and not a villain. She was justified in her anger and betrayal because Victor hurt her. They handled it really well I think. Sheā€™s such a good friend. Iā€™m also glad we got more of her and Veronica bonding. I canā€™t wait to see Mia with the baby, thatā€™s gonna be so cute.
I wanted more Andrew and this season did not disappoint. He was like the cool uncle that everyone went to for advice.Ā 
Now, with all of that said, I did get a lot of things I wanted from this season. I also got things I did not want. I was actually really excited when they introduced Rahim and kind of went full circle by having him go to Victor for advice. I was like, hell yeah! Gays who can be friends without being all over each other! And then they started this love triangle thing and I kind of hated it. I liked Victor and Rahim as friends, I want more of that because I think Victor (and Rahim, too, to be honest) could use more queer friends. Just friends. They built up this entire relationship between Benji and Victor in season 1 and spent a lot of this season confirming that yeah Benji and Victor are in love even though they have some tough times, and now Iā€™m just supposed to accept that Victor has started having feelings for someone else? No thank you, please stop.
And that leads me to things I want to see in season 3!
Victor chose Benji obviously. You cannot convince me otherwise. Someone he started having feelings for when he was going through a mentally distressing time in his life fails in comparison to the guy he spent an entire season falling in love with.
Now Iā€™m not discounting Victorā€™s feelings. Iā€™m sure he felt something for Rahim, but we need to acknowledge that Victor was in the middle of a stressful time. He had only recently come out, he was dealing with his mom not accepting him or his boyfriend, he quit the basketball team, he was struggling with his place in his and Benjiā€™s relationship and then Benji wanted to ā€œtake a breakā€. He canā€™t be blamed for latching onto someone who wholly accepted him and made him feel normal.
Also, itā€™s fairly common to play into the trope of ā€œthis character is new to being gay, he canā€™t just be with one person so we have to add another love interest and make sure what heā€™s feeling for person A is real.ā€
That said! Benji will probably feel insecure now! And thatā€™s okay! Letā€™s explore that! Letā€™s allow Benji to be the one who's insecure in this relationship for once instead of always having Victor be the one to doubt everything! They donā€™t have to break up to take a step back and slow things down!
As such, I really want to go back to the Victor/Benji roots. Make them friends again. I want stupid cute moments like them dancing to Call Me Maybe and trying on thrift store clothes. We spent so much of this season making Victor and Benji boyfriends that we kind of skipped over the whole friends aspect. Thereā€™s a reason they fell in love in the first place and we need to revisit that. A relationship is not just sex and miscommunication. Itā€™s laughing together, itā€™s enjoying each other's company, and I didnā€™t see nearly enough of that between Victor and Benji this season.
They were not at all subtle with the parallels between Felix and Victor this season; Felix having to choose between Lake and Pilar while Victor has to choose between Rahim and Benji. I mean, I donā€™t think it was supposed to be subtle. It couldnā€™t have been more obvious. And at first I was worried that Felix chose Pilar because of the parallels and that must mean Victor was going to choose Rahim. But the longer I look at it, the more differences I notice in their parallels and I donā€™t have the eloquence to unpack it all right now, but it all just made me more assured that Victor is going to choose Benji.
Moving away from Victor/Benji, thereā€™s something that keeps bothering me; itā€™s when Felix and Lake had sex at the lake. Cute romantic moment, yeah sure, I probably wouldnā€™t have thought much of it, except it made a deal out of Felix buying condoms beforehand. He was prepared. Thatā€™s good. Only, when they went out to jump into the lake, they only had towels. Which means that there is a very good chance they didnā€™t use protection. That, coupled with Georginaā€™s comment about watching Teen Mom...I foresee a pregnancy scare in the coming season. Whether itā€™s an actual pregnancy and we get a whole pregnancy storyline (possibly an abortion, maybe a miscarriage. I donā€™t really see it going full term for whatever reason) or if itā€™s just an episode where Lake thinks she might be pregnant.
Iā€™m pretty excited to see how they handle this newfound romance between Lucy and Lake. Does Lake already know sheā€™s bi? Does Lucy? Lake made a comment at the beginning of this season about making sure everyone knew Mia didnā€™t turn Victor gay, which makes me wonder how Lake will react to discovering she also likes girls. No, Iā€™m not saying sheā€™ll think Felix turned her into a lesbian. But I think sheā€™ll doubt her feelings for Lucy. Sheā€™ll think (however briefly) that maybe she was just hurt and maybe she doesnā€™t actually like Lucy, sheā€™s just coping with having her heart broken by a boy.
But I want all of her doubt to end when she accepts that sheā€™s totally bisexual.
Now that we got our bi character, Iā€™m gonna start demanding an ace character, too.
I want Miaā€™s mom to be awesome. Her dad kind of sucks and she deserves at least one good parent.
HOWEVER, if her mom also sucks, I think it could bring her and Veronica closer.
Speaking of parents, I want to explore Lakeā€™s relationship with her mom more. She always tells Felix about how she was pressured to be skinny, and that right there is a terrible basis for a mother/daughter relationship. But she also felt comfortable enough to tell her about Felixā€™s mom and ask for help. So yeah, I definitely want more of them. I need Lake to stand up to her mom, though. I need her to be like, ā€œyou made me insecure in my body and I have self esteem issues because you made me think I wasnā€™t good enoughā€ and I want to expand on that. Maybe Georgina had a good reason (in her mind, anyway) to treat Lake like that, and while it may have been a horrible thing to do, I donā€™t think she saw it that way. Iā€™m not saying she should win a mother of the year award, but what she did to Lake needs to be acknowledged and talked about.
And then thereā€™s Felixā€™s mom. I want to see her recovery. Itā€™s a process and I donā€™t want her to magically be okay now. I also want her to meet Pilar (and Victor. Has Victor ever met her?) but also she really liked Lake and I want them to keep in touch, even though Lake and Felix arenā€™t together anymore. I still want them to be friends.Ā 
AND I HAVENā€™T EVEN STARTED TALKING ABOUT ISABEL AND ARMANDO. Iā€™m glad they found their way back to each other, but again; itā€™s a process. I think they should stay apart for a little bit and not just jump back in where they left off. They still have problems to sort through, but this is a start. Theyā€™ve realized they want to be together.
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Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Sanders Sides (Web Series) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Anxiety | Virgil Sanders/Creativity | Roman "Princey" Sanders/Deceit | Janus Sanders Characters: Anxiety | Virgil Sanders, Deceit | Janus Sanders, Creativity | Roman "Princey" Sanders, Logic | Logan Sanders, Morality | Patton Sanders Additional Tags: Mild Language, great way to start off the tags, Movie Night, Getting Together, Getting Back Together, First Kiss, Angst with a Happy Ending, Emotional Hurt/Comfort, Romantic Fluff, allusions to a messy breakup, they're all disney princes, Post-Episode: Putting Others First - Selfishness v. Selflessness Redux | Sanders Sides, because of course it is, also Post-Episode: Flirting with Social Anxiety, because i'm never getting over that ep, Virgil is a smitten bastard, someone get this boy reassurance and cuddles rq, Not Actually Unrequited Love, Anxiety | Virgil Sanders is a Good Friend, (and an even better future boyfriend), Nicknames, Banter, look just because they're in love doesn't mean they're not gonna roast each other, Prinxieceit is just everyone needing love and then simultaneously getting that love, it's what they deserve, i stole the title from the lyrics of a song because i have no imagination Summary:
Virgil had wanted them to make up, just... not like this.
At least, thatā€™s what he had thought.
It started with a goddamn Disney movie, because of course it did.
Well, it didnā€™t, but that was the best way to sum up... everything.
Virgil was curled up against the corner of the couch, knees pressed to his chest. He was as small as he could make himself, but it still felt like Janus was far too close, regardless of being on the other side of the living room. Patton was wrapped in his favourite blanket. Logan was perched, relaxed, beside Janus. Virgil didnā€™t know how he did it. All he had to do is look in that snakeā€™s direction and his stomach would churn and his heart would start burning and ā€”
Growling silently at himself, Virgil focused on the television: on Anaā€™s harmonic voice and Hansā€™ bright expression.
It was then, of all times, that Roman started to sing.
Quiet at first, hardly a hum muffled by barely parted lips. But it was there, and it was more music than the mindscape had heard in weeks.
Patton didnā€™t react like Virgil knew he truly wanted to (with assumedly deafening squeals and clapping), but he watched the moral side just barely contain excited vibrations. Virgil struggled to hide a smile. He didnā€™t miss Loganā€™s subtle appraising glance in the princeā€™s direction, either.
Then another voice joined in, and Virgilā€™s beaming heart sunk to the bottom of his stomach.
He tried not to glare at Janus. He didnā€™t want to cause a scene. It was movie night and it had been more peaceful than most previous tense, uncomfortably quiet nights. He didnā€™t want to be the one to ruin it for everyone. (For Roman, he wouldnā€™t admit.)
But Roman hesitated the moment Janus accompanied him, and Virgil could just see the expressions flashing through his face and hear the thoughts to accompany them, despite only seeing the back of his tussle-haired head. Heā€™s already seen it all enough times.
But then he started againĀ and Virgil wondered if this was what mental whiplash felt like.
He sat there, heart in his throat, as he listened to the pair duet to a Disney song about deception and naivety and toxic romance with all the connection and love that they never had.
The gradually widening hole in Virgilā€™s chest gaped considerably when Janus stood and offered Roman a hand, still singing to Hansā€™ voice. Virgil had to bite onto a whimper to keep it from leaving his mouth when Roman accepted.
Patton giggled, delighted, as Janus twirled the two of them around the living room, both harmonising like angelic love-struck Disney princes, their voices rising above those of the movie. Even Logan looked amused as he watched.
Virgil felt nothing but sinking dread.
Ā It had been nearly midnight when Roman had stormed into Virgilā€™s room, a panicked, emotional mess of a broken heart, and collapsed on the bed beside Virgil. It had been a few weeks since the ā€˜wedding fiascoā€™ and Virgil was already sick of it.
Not Roman, to clarify. Never, ever Roman.
But the angst. The tense dinners and awkward conversations. The sneaking glances Janus would shoot at Roman, and the way Roman avoided every single look.
The way Romanā€™s eyes had stopped glittering. The way he never sang. The way he trembled in Virgilā€™s grip like a leaf in a storm, like a tortured puppy waiting for another punishment to fall when he least expected.
The way Roman still cried, still begged for things that Virgil couldnā€™t give him.
The way Janus had taken something as precious as Romanā€™s unyielding, unconditional trust and loyalty and love, and broken it into a million pieces without ever considering its value.
The way he could do nothing but hide his own tears in ruffled hair and wait for the wails to stop.
ā€œIā€™m sorry,ā€ he could only whisper on deaf ears, the exhausted prince long passed out in his arms, and, ā€œIā€™m here. I have you.ā€
Never itā€™s okay,Ā or, youā€™ll be alright. Virgil wasnā€™t about to echo sentiments that had no guarantee to be true.
He wasnā€™t sinking to that level.
Ā ā€œI need to apologise,ā€ Roman had said, his voice cutting through the peaceful silence of the room. Sudden, but not abrupt. He was hardly so dramatic and shocking anymore. Virgil had no idea he could ever miss it so much.
He looked up from his sketch journal and titled his head.
Roman had stopped colouring the printed sheets of calming exercises and was now staring at the ground, turning the green pencil over between his fingers. There was a determined light in his eyes, something that Virgil hadnā€™t seen in so long. One that he didnā€™t dare extinguish now.
ā€œTaking the first step would... That would be brave, right?ā€ He looked up at Virgil, still so damn trusting, too damn dependent. ā€œI would be brave again.ā€
Youā€™ve always been brave, Virgil didnā€™t say.
Roman deflated at his silence and it felt like a stab to the gut. ā€œM-maybe.... maybe not.ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ Virgil blurted, and Roman looked like Virgil had just slapped him. He stumbled over himself to continue. ā€œI mean ā€” I meant no, wait, because ā€” because thatā€™s a good idea.ā€
ā€œYou really think so?ā€ Roman asked tremulously. Virgil swallowed the lump in his throat.
ā€œYes,ā€ he said, but it sounded like a lie. Why did it sound like a lie? ā€œYeah, Princey. Of course.ā€
Romanā€™s face fell from its hopeful expression, and Virgil wanted to scream and yell. Wanted to take Romanā€™s face in his hands and promise that nothing was his fault and he was perfect and fine and Virgil loved every single part of him and Roman never had to worry about anything ever.
ā€œAre you certain?ā€ Roman asked, and Virgil hated how uncertain he was, how uncertain he had never been until these past weeks. Months.
ā€œI think making the first move is the bravest thing anyone could choose to do,ā€ Virgil told him, and it was the most honest thing he had ever said.
ā€œReally?ā€ Roman asked again. This time his voice cracked. Virgilā€™s gut roiled, and he decided that he had had enough.
He moved forward on his knees, ignoring Romanā€™s squeak of surprise when he was gripped by the shoulders, and straightened to glower fiercely down at the prince.
ā€œIf you think that is whatā€™s best, then you do it,ā€ he said without room for argument. ā€œYou donā€™t let anyone tell you otherwise. You donā€™t let anyone convince you out of it. If it screws up, fine, try something else. If it works, then great, well done, mission accomplished. Move on to the next step. YouĀ are the onlyĀ one with control over your life, and your actions, and the thoughts going through your head. Do you understand?ā€
Roman honestly looked a little awestruck, and when Virgilā€™s own actions caught up with Ā him, Ā he had to fight the rising blush. He shook Roman, if only to stop him from looking like that.
ā€œUnderstand, Princey?ā€ he prompted.
Roman then shook himself and blinked rapidly.
Please donā€™t cry, Virgil thought.
But Roman smiled. A huge, trembling,Ā genuine smile, one Virgil hadnā€™t seen in so long that he had lost track of the days, and Virgil felt as if he might pass out.
ā€œI understand,ā€ Roman said, and Virgil barely had time to relax before the prince ducked forward, and between Roman coming towards him and then shooting out of the room calling thanks over his shoulder, Virgilā€™s mind malfunctioned.
It took a moment of silently sitting in the middle of the floor, probably looking quite pathetic, before Virgil slowly raised a cold hand to the flaming skin of his cheek.
He blinked, and his brain caught up enough to register the lips that had been pressed there.
Holy shit,Ā Virgil thought. ā€œHoly shit.ā€
Roman probably hadnā€™t even noticed heā€™d done it. Had he even realised what heā€™d just done to Virgil? How much Virgil was not going to get over this for a Ā very long time?
He didnā€™t want to think about it ā€” in fact, he was in favour of drowning out all his thoughts for the rest of time ā€” but it still grew, unbidden, in the back of his mind.
Did he mean it?
Ā Virgil hated Janus.
Of course he did. Janus was manipulative and smug and chose lies over truth like a suffocating man would choose oxygen over water. That wasnā€™t his best metaphor, but metaphors werenā€™t Virgilā€™s thing.
The point Ā was Ā that Janus had never cared about anyone other than himself. He kept people at armā€™s length like his life depended on it, and he never did anything that wouldnā€™t benefit him.
Virgil hated that. He struggled with relationships to begin with ļæ½ļæ½ļæ½ any kind of relationships.
He wouldnā€™t admit it, and he didnā€™t even know it at first, but he needed support in a relationship ā€” as anyone would. He needed someone to reach out and allow him to meet them halfway. He wasnā€™t built to continuously reach out and plead for the other half of a relationship to work with him. He needed that first step to be taken first.
It was why he was so perplexed by Patton at first. It was why the light sides had baffled him every time he was with them.
It was why their family had lasted so long.
And also why his and Janusā€™ hadnā€™t.
He loved Patton and Logan and Thomas. He loved Roman, more than he should. And he hated Janus.
Of course he did.
He had to.
Ā There was never a direct conversation.
Roman and Janus never went off by themselves and never came back with an obvious change of heart. It was still tense for a long while, and Virgil still didnā€™t enjoy dinners, and didnā€™t attend movie nights. Neither did Roman, apparently, as multiple times Virgil ran into him in the hallway, trying silently not to attract attention.
Virgil never asked about it, but he knew. It was obvious.
But there were little things.
When Janus made morning beverages for everyone, he included a sparkling gold-and-red mug on the tray, and Virgil had caught the moment he quietly asked Patton, thinking they were alone, how Roman liked his coffee.
When Roman roughly sketched a tableau of the group when he thought no one was paying attention (that would later become an oil painting that was kept in a quiet corner of his bedroom, no matter how gorgeous Virgil insisted it was) Janus and Remus were both included, despite the latter having been absent in the time of the planning stage. And when Virgil had peered closely at the final product, heā€™d silently marveled at the gentle expression on Janusā€™ face, serene and empathic and gazing at the others with a softness that Virgil hardly ever saw so openly. (How had Roman been able to capture it so perfectly?) So different compared to the ā€˜reptilian rapscallionā€™ heā€™d been depicted as weeks ago.
(His scales had been iridescent.)
So, yeah. It didnā€™t start with the monthā€™s first fully attended movie night. It started with so much more before that that Virgil didnā€™t want to think about.
He trapped the growling scream in his throat, tugged at his hair like he could tug the vicious images from his head.
He didnā€™t wantĀ to think about Janus twirling Roman around the living room, treating him as if he were a prince in the movie. He didnā€™t want to think about Janusā€™ confidence and how Virgil himself could never do that. He didnā€™t want to think about Romanā€™s smile when he thought about talking to Janus. He didnā€™t want to think about flushed faces and breathless laughs and eyes so goddamn lovestruck it was sickening. He didnā€™t want to think about mismatched eyes glittering more than he had ever seen in so long and flaming scales and ā€”
NO! No, no, no!
Virgil buried his face into his pillow.
He didnā€™t want to think.
The pillow didnā€™t do much to suffocate his thoughts.
His throat was parched, though. Sobbing and coughing and wailing into your mattress to muffle screams would do such a thing.
God, he needed a drink.
Water. Water. He needed water.
After pulling himself from the bed, he trudged through the hall and down the stairs, no doubt looking like he had just woken up. It was dark, and the lights were off. Everyone else must have followed suit after Virgil had gone upstairs.
Stinging eyes half-closed, he fumbled with the kitchen cabinets and clawed out a glass for himself.
It was when he turned around to the sink, now facing the living room, that he noticed he wasnā€™t alone.
Two pairs of wide, horrified eyes were locked on him. Janus was without his hat and cape. His always formally presented shirt was crinkled, his hair tousled from broad fingers carding through it. Roman had discarded his prince attire, and he looked somehow small in his black undershirt. His redden lips were the same colour as his cheeks. Virgil felt sick. Roman didnā€™t own red lipstick.
They had separated long before Virgil had seen them. It didnā€™t make much of a difference.
The sound of the glass dropping in the sink startled Virgil from being frozen.
Janusā€™ mouth moved as he spoke but Virgil didnā€™t hear what he said as he took a step backwards. His words only caught up to Virgil a few seconds later when he was already backing up towards the other end of the kitchen.
ā€œVirgil, darling ā€”ā€
ā€œNo,ā€ Virgil said, even though oddly nothing audible came out. He took another step back and his back bumped against the counter.
ā€œVirgil, we ā€”ā€
ā€œStop,ā€ Virgil finally said out loud. Janus stopped. ā€œJust ā€” get out.ā€ His voice cracked. No, worse: his whisperĀ cracked. It kind of took away from the way Virgil wanted to emphasize just how pissed he was right now.
ā€œVirgil ā€”ā€
ā€œShut up,ā€ Virgil snapped at him, but his voice still wasnā€™t above a rasp. ā€œGet out.ā€
ā€œListen to me, shadow ā€”ā€
ā€œNO!ā€ Virgil roared. Janus didnā€™t flinch, but behind him, Roman quailed backwards. ā€œI donā€™t care! Donā€™t fucking try to Ā lie Ā yourself out of the fact that I walked in on ā€”ā€ He cut off there, because he almost said something that he would never be able to take back. ā€œJust get out.ā€
ā€œVirge,ā€ Roman said placatingly, because he was a moron who didnā€™t listen even when he really should, ā€œI know youā€™re angry ā€”ā€
ā€œHeā€™s not angry,ā€ Janus interjected because he was an Ā asshole Ā who liked making Virgilā€™s life absolute hell. He glared at the ground, fuming. He couldnā€™t look up. If he looked up...
He stood, once again frozen, head bowed like a prisoner on death row. Roman was silent. Beyond Janusā€™ burning gaze pinning him to the spot, Virgil could sense the prince looking between the two of them, concerned.
Janusā€™ voice came as a crushing blow, the final landing hit before everything ended.
ā€œHeā€™s heartbroken.ā€
The penny dropped, and it was still once more.
Virgil trembled under the weight of the silence. He glared at the droplets of salty water collecting on the tiles in front of his socks.
ā€œWhat?ā€ Romanā€™s voice wasnā€™t above a whisper.
A hand, cool and smooth and just barelyĀ quivering ā€” one that couldnā€™t be Janus because he always wore his gloves and he was never so vulnerable around someone like Virgil ā€” came to press against Virgilā€™s cheek, careful fingers trailing his jaw.
Virgil found that he was rooted to the spot. ā€œDonā€™t. You canā€™t be any different now then you were before.ā€
ā€œIā€™ve grown since then,ā€ Janus whispered. His hand burned. ā€œWe both have. You know that.ā€
Virgil closed his eyes and more tears trailed down his face.
ā€œHow could you?ā€ he asked, opening his eyes to glare up at Janus. ā€œHow could you ever change?ā€
The look on Janusā€™ face was indescribable apart from open.Ā ā€œYou know how,ā€ he murmured, and cold pads brushed against Virgilā€™s lip. ā€œYou know.ā€
A sigh shook itself from Virgil, and he slumped.
ā€œDonā€™t lie to me,ā€ he said, and it was a plea. Virgil didnā€™t beg, but he was.
It wasnā€™t a retort. It was a request.
Virgil didnā€™t ask for things. He couldnā€™t. He was too self-conscious and hyper aware of being ungrateful or demanding. Too scared of being rejected. So he never asked for anything. He just... didnā€™t.
But he was.
ā€œI would never,ā€ Janus whispered, and Virgil wanted to be furious, because that Ā was Ā a lie. Janus had lied so many times. He always lied.
He lied about simple things. He lied to Thomas. He lied about what he wanted. He made things difficult with the deceit that spewed from his mouth.
He wasnā€™t talking about simple things.
Still shaking, Virgil closed his eyes. He lifted his chin and tilted his head.
He waited.
And cool lips, half rough and scratchy, half soft, moved themselves against Virgilā€™s.
It didnā€™t feel the same as Virgil remembered. It tasted like hesitance and request and trust. It was also apparently mushing Virgilā€™s brain.
He didnā€™t realise how slack his shoulders had gotten until Janus pulled back and Virgil had to take a breath. He stared up at the... snake. He didnā€™t feel betrayed. Or horrified. Or even a little disgusted. He wanted Janus to keep staring at him. He wanted to be kissed like that again.
He looked down at where Janus had taken his hands. In the corner of his eye, he could see Janus looking at him with something akin to anxiety, but Virgil kept his gaze on their clasped hands. He clenched them tighter, and felt Janus relax.
He felt another pair of eyes on him and looked up.
Roman was fidgeting. He was looking between Janus and Virgil with a look that Virgil hadnā€™t seen... ever. He hadnā€™t even looked at Nico with so much adoration and love and like he would do literally anything in the world for the subjects of his attention. It made Virgil feel slightly breathless.
But he was playing with his hands, a nervous gesture Virgil was familiar with.
Janus didnā€™t give Virgil a chance to make a move.
ā€œCome here, my prince,ā€ he said, voice still soft. He reached out. ā€œWe have room.ā€
Roman looked moments away for throwing himself at them, but he held back. He looked at Virgil, and the anxious side was startled to see his eyes shining with fighting tears.
And goddamn it if it was the cheesiest thing he had ever said but fuck if his chest didnā€™t fill with so much warmth it felt like he was going to explode.
ā€œCā€™mon, Ro,ā€ he said with a smile. He couldnā€™t smirk. Somehow his face wasnā€™t letting him. ā€œNot gonna keep me waiting, are you?ā€
Meeting the challenge without an ounce of hesitation, Roman lunged for him, and Virgil surprised himself by taking his own pounce right into the princeā€™s arms and crushing their lips together.
It was more than Janusā€™ kiss, which was still so full of fear and hurt and guilt and the want to be something once more and the need for closure. Still so freshly wounded.
This was different. This was fiery and passionate and made Virgil turn pliant.
ā€œI want you,ā€ Roman whispered when they pulled back. ā€œI want...ā€
Virgil tilted his head. ā€œGo on,ā€ he murmured.
ā€œI want both of you,ā€ Roman blurted, looking between Janus and Virgil. ā€œIs... Is that okay?ā€
Virgil cupped the princeā€™s chin in his hands. He glanced back at Janus, who immediately took the hint and slid over to them, one hand moving to the back of Virgilā€™s neck and the other to Romanā€™s hair. Virgil watched in amusement as Roman near-melted beneath the attention, nearly purring in pleasure. That was a trick he would have to try himself at some point.
ā€œI donā€™t know about either of you,ā€ Janus purred.
ā€œLiar.ā€ Virgil smirked.
ā€œBut I would consider a further discussion about thisĀ remarkably important to a growing relationship,ā€ Janus finished.
ā€œWell, yes, but ā€”ā€ Roman cut himself off, nodding. ā€œYes. Alright. That makes sense.ā€
ā€œDonā€™t do that, Princey,ā€ Virgil told him, headbutting his chin gently.
ā€œGo on, darling,ā€ Janus said.
Roman still blushed, but tentatively asked, ā€œCan we... just stay like this for tonight?ā€
ā€œA huddle in the middle of the kitchen?ā€ Janus asked with raised eyebrows, and Romanā€™s blush deepened.
ā€œYou stale croissant,ā€ Virgil said, smacking Janusā€™ shoulder, ā€œdonā€™t bully him.ā€
ā€œItā€™s alright,ā€ Roman assured with a smile. A real one. ā€œBut I do have to ask where that nickname came from.ā€
ā€œYouā€™re on thin fucking ice too, Your Highness,ā€ Virgil snapped, pointing a threatening finger in his face.
ā€œWe just made out, dearheart,ā€ Roman said with a smug grin, swooping in to peck the comeback right out of Virgilā€™s lips. ā€œYou can act upset tomorrow.ā€
Smirking, Janus fidgeted absentmindedly with the sleeve of Virgilā€™s hoodie.
ā€œNow,ā€ he said, capturing the two bickering... boyfriends? Were they ā€” Was that too far? ā€œYour room, my prince?ā€
Roman looked tired, but he still lit up. ā€œOh, yes,ā€ he breathed, moving to clutch Janus and Virgilā€™s hands between his own. ā€œYouā€™ll love it. Iā€™ve got a bed big enough to fit all of us, and itā€™s not too obtrusive and I can use the fairy lights and ā€”ā€
ā€œAlright, darling,ā€ Janus said, kissing him on the cheek. ā€œShow us when we get there.ā€
Roman, beaming, turned and guided them up the stairs.
Janus made to follow but hesitated at the last minute, glancing back at Virgil. His eyes werenā€™t guarded as they normally would be, and it made Virgil feel vulnerable in turn. Janus opened and closed his mouth but didnā€™t seem able to speak.
Virgil took Janusā€™ hand in his. ā€œNot backing out now, are you?ā€
Janus looked fiercely affronted. ā€œOh, definitely,ā€ he said with an attitude of someone who had just been told it didnā€™t count if you got slapped by someone with their left hand even though theyā€™re right-handed. And Virgil, despite everything, laughed.
It was only when crawling under cool, heavy red blankets that Virgil realised he had forgotten to have that drink of water.
He watched Janus trail a path down Romanā€™s features, smirking at the princeā€™s ticklish giggles, their bright eyes reflecting the soft glow of the dim, glittering lights overhead. At their three-way still-clasped hands lying atop the blankets. He smiled.
No matter. His chest didnā€™t feel so tight anymore.
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taeyongdoyoung Ā· 4 years ago
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summary: you are a mermaid and you save a handsome man from drowning but little do you know itā€™s not his first rodeo when dealing with mermaids. seonghwa, a former prince, is currently hongjoongā€™s first mate and boyfriend. hongjoong is the captain, the pirate king of the most savage crew across the seas. and you want nothing to do with them. not because theyā€™re pirates, but because theyā€™re humansā€¦
ship: mermaid!reader x prince/pirate!seonghwa x pirate!hongjoong
genre: little mermaid!au, pirate!au, angst, fluff, romance
authorā€™s note: stay tuned for demon!jongho hehe
warnings: insecurities, confessions, some swearing (like twice?), another secret being revealed, af-i canā€™t even say it af-ffectionĀ šŸ¤¢šŸ¤¢
word count: 1.9k
chapter one ā˜ ļø chapter two ā˜ ļø chapter three ā˜ ļø chapter four ā˜ ļøĀ chapter five ā˜ ļøchapter six ā˜ ļø chapter seven ā˜ ļø chapter eightĀ ā˜ ļø chapter ten ā˜ ļø chapter eleven ā˜ ļø chapter twelve ā˜ ļø chapter thirteen ā˜ ļø spotify playlist
Hongjoong's POV
Surprisingly, building a pool in the ship for Y/N and Soojin to use didn't take much time. Seonghwa, Yeosang, Wooyoung, San and I all worked together because during the past weeks we'd grown closer to the mermaids. And even though I probably wouldn't admit it out loud...they had grown on me.Ā 
Looking back at my previous actions, I felt like such an asshole. Doing this, small as it was, was my way of apologizing. I just hoped it would be enough. And yet again, if Y/N managed to forgive me, then maybe, I deserved to forgive myself.
"What are you moping about?" my thoughts were suddenly interrupted by Seonghwa.
"Uh...nothing."
"Come on, don't you think I deserve the truth?" he sat down next to me, casually leaning on one side. I was taken aback by his proximity. It's been a while since...I felt so close to him.
"I was thinking about Y/N," I confessed.
"In a murderous kind of way or...?"
I rolled my eyes.
"Of course not. In a...I can't believe she forgave me kind of way."
"Isn't that a good thing?" Seonghwa looked confused. "Why the long face, Joongie?"
I almost jumped away as if struck. It's been far too long since he'd addressed me so affectionately. I missed that. I missed him.
"Because I don't know if I deserve it."
Seonghwa laughed. I was telling him about feeling like shit and he was laughing. The nerve! I stared at him expectantly. Soon enough, he started explaining himself.
"Do you think I deserve her forgiveness?" he chuckled bitterly. "Ariel is gone because of me and I kept that a secret from Y/N. And she forgave me anyway."
I shook my head.
"Your parents and the sea witch are the real villains, Hwa," I insisted. "There's nothing to forgive."
Seonghwa laughed once again, in total contrast with my sombre expression.
"You know...you and Y/N are not so different after all."
"What's that supposed to mean?"
"The first thing...that's exactly what she said after we rescued her from Mingiā€™s fishnets. There's nothing to forgive. You two are quite similar, actually."
"You know...I think I'll take that as a compliment," I grinned despite myself.
"It is a compliment," Seonghwa assured me.
"And the second thing?"
"Hm?" Seonghwa tried to pretend he had forgotten but I could see right through him.
"You said the first similarity was us saying the exact same sentence. What's the second thing?"
"The second thing...is I'm completely enamoured by the two of you."
I couldn't even begin to process what he was saying. After all my cruelty...he still...It seemed too unimaginable to be actually happening. And yet...
I had to make a joke or else I would break into tears, fall apart and never recover from it.
"Well, that's your own problem, not necessarily a similarity betweenā€“"
"Can't you say something normal for once?" Seonghwa groaned.
"What do you want me to say?" I sighed desperately.
"Something honest. Something real."
I smiled sadly.
"I don't deserve you as much as I don't deserve Y/N's forgiveness."
"That's not for you to decide," Seonghwa argued. "And it's not real. Not to me. And I'm certain Y/N will agree."
"Shall we ask her?"
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Reader's POV
You and Soojin were enjoying the water inside the pool. It allowed you to be close to Seonghwa and Soojin ā€“ to Yeosang. And you had Hongjoong to be grateful to. Honestly, he wasn't so bad, after all. He could actually be quite considerate when he wanted to. And he had somehow overcome his jealousy, or at least it seemed that way. So, when he and Seonghwa showed up, almost running, you couldn't help but beam with happiness upon seeing their pretty faces.
"Well, if it isn't my two favourite pirates across the seas," you did your best to sound confident and a bit teasing.
"Don't tell that to Yeosang," Soojin warned, joking. You waved her off and she swam away to the other edge of the pool, to give the three of you some sense of privacy.
"What brings you here?" you asked nonchalantly.
"This is literally my ship, Y/N," Hongjoong reminded you. "You're my guest."
"Semantics," you giggled, not at all taking offense.
"Hongjoong and I have a question for you," Seonghwa explained.
"May I hear it?"
Hongjoong suddenly started playing with his nails, refusing to look into your eyes. Was he nervous? You couldn't believe it. The once terrifying captain now seemed like a good little boy to you.
"What's wrong?" you asked in a soft voice.
"N-nothing," he lied.
"Hongjoong said he doesn't deserve my affections as much as he doesn't deserve your forgiveness!" Seonghwa ratted him out.
"Seonghwa!" Hongjoong complained.
"What? You're the one who suggested asking her."
"I was going to but..."
"Hongjoong, that's nonsense!" you exclaimed.
"Huh?"
"Not about your intentions," you hurried to explain. "I'm certain that you would have said it yourself if Seonghwa had given you a couple more moments to collect your thoughts."
Seonghwa shrugged in a "guilty as charged" sort of way.
"What's nonsense," you continued, "is you believing you don't deserve love or forgiveness. Everyone deserves that!"
"Even me?" Hongjoong inquired sheepishly.
"Especially you!Ā You've been trying so hard to change. You saved me and Soojin from the fishnets and now you built this pool to make me and my sister feel comfortable. If that's not reason enough to be deserving of forgiveness, I don't know what is."
"Do you really mean that?" Hongjoong asked self-consciously.
"Would I say it if I didn't mean it?"
"She has a point. Y/N's super honest about everything," Soojin yelled from the other side of the pool.
"Soojin! You're not supposed to be eavesdropping!" you scolded her.
"Can't help it, you guys are not exactly keeping your voices down."
You shook your head in disbelief.
"Do you believe me now?" you said quiet enough for only Hongjoong and Seonghwa to hear.
"I do," Hongjoong whispered, visibly relieved.
"Told you so," Seonghwa muttered under his breath.
"Oh, give me a break."
"Not a chance," Seonghwa smirked and kissed Hongjoong's cheek quickly. Then, he leaned down over the pool's edge to kiss your lips. No sooner had he done that than Hongjoong pushed him inside the water. That was followed by Seonghwa's loud protests.
"Hey! That was exactly how I met Y/N!" he exclaimed a bit later.
"Yeah?" Hongjoong scratched the back his head, as if to search his memory.
"I mean, if you hadn't thrown me overboard, I wouldn't have ended up in a whirlpool and Y/N wouldn't have saved me."
"So, what you're saying is I'm responsible for whatever the two of you have got going on?" Hongjoong joked.
"Don't exclude yourself from the narrative!" you started tickling Hongjoong's legs. Not expecting the attacks, he lost his balance for a moment. But that moment was long enough for you to pull him inside the pool, as well.
"Ugh, no way!" he bemoaned his defeat.
"Who's making all these waves?" Soojin complained. "For a second, I thought I was back in the sea."
The three of you laughed simultaneously, exchanging conspiratorial glances.
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Seonghwa's POV
As I looked at Hongjoong and Y/N laughing in unison, I couldn't help but wonder why we had wasted so much time. I would give anything to have had this perfect peace between the two of them from the very beginning. And yet, this was our journey. Flawed, full of fears and frustrations, but it was ours. And no one could take that away. Or so I thought...
That night, I returned to Hongjoong's room. I was determined to do right by him. And the only way to achieve that was to swallow my pride and talk to him honestly. I didn't want anything standing in the way of our happiness, least of all, our own foolishness. So, I took the first step.
"You still have free space for me?" I asked, a bit nervously, after he opened the door.
"You'll always have a home with me, Hwa," Hongjoong replied sweetly.
"Fuck, I missed you," I admitted. "I know we're literally a few doors apart, but still."
"I get it. You have no idea how badly I've missed you, too," he confessed.
"I want to kiss you," I said suddenly. "Not like earlier," I added, referring to the quick peck on his cheek. "Like before."
"Then, what are you waiting for?" Hongjoong panted desperately.
"I need to tell you something first. I just...want to be completely honest with you. You've probably figured it out already but...I love you. And I love Y/N. Please don't ask me to choose. I can't."
Hongjoong nodded in understanding.
"I wouldn't. I've learned my lesson already. And since we're being honest, I don't want you to choose. I was wrongfully prejudiced against mermaids. But now that I've gotten to know her...I like Y/N and I think I might even grow to love her one day."
I smiled fondly, proud of Hongjoong's change of heart.
"There's nothing that would make me happier, Joongie," I told him and was just about to close the distance between us with a kiss when Hongjoong placed his hand on my chest as if to stop me. I looked at him utterly confused. "Didn't you want this?"
"I did. I do," he corrected himself. "But I have to tell you something. Before it's too late. I would hate to see another secret destroy what we have."
"What's wrong?" I immediately sensed it must have been something really difficult to talk about, judging by Hongjoong's miserable expression.
"Remember that time Yeosang was in Mingi's territory and my ship caught up with his at a suspiciously fast pace?"
I nodded, already hating the direction in which this was going.
"And remember you confronted me about it but I refused to tell you the truth?"
He was stalling. It was beyond obvious and a bit aggravating.
"What did you do?" I asked directly.
"I kinda made a deal with a demon and sold my soul," Hongjoong blurted out.
What. The. Fuck?!?!
"Kinda? You can't just kinda summon a demon! Hongjoong, what the hell were you thinking?"
"We could have lost Yeosang!" he argued. "It was the only way."
"There's always another way! I can't believe you would do something so reckless..."
"I would do it again if it means Yeosang gets to live."
I sighed, unable to find the energy to scold him any further. He probably felt like shit already, considering he'd been keeping it a secret.
"How much?"
"How much what?"
"How much time do you have left until the demon comes to collect? A month? A year?"
"I don't know," he admitted. "The demon didn't specify. He just said he'll take my soul when I've achieved true happiness. Whatever that means. But the fact that you and Y/N forgave me has made me believe true happiness is not too far around the corner."
"We'll figure out a way to stop the demon. I don't know how but we will. I just got you back again. I won't give you up. Never again," I promised and wrapped my hands around his face, kissing him. He quickly let me in and ran his hands through my hair, moaning into my mouth. I smirked against his lips. It was nice to see I still had that effect on him.
"Together?" Hongjoong murmured once I broke the kiss.
"Always," I confirmed and stroked his cheeks.
To be continued...
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clonemando Ā· 4 years ago
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Had a bad day and am stressed out so I wrote some Father/Son Jaster and Jango hurt comfort to make me feel a little better. Please enjoy!
Jango hasn't been eating like he should after hearing rations are low and Jaster isn't pleased to find out.
Jango smiled as he sat next to one of the foundlings being looked after by the Ha'at after the last campaign and offered them a second bowl of tiingilar. "Shh, just a secret between us." He said with a wink at them when their expression lit up amd he took the empty bowl in exchange. Jaster couldn't know he had been giving his portions away or he'd be furious but Jango knew what it was like to be new and hungry and too scared to ask for food. Especially when their rations were as low as they were at current. Death Watch was targeting any settlement that traded with Haat they could find and it was leading more and more to turn them away and refuse to trade with them. That with all the crop burning and more foundlings being left behind with no where else to go meant slim pickings for food. Jango was older than most of the others. He was used to missing meals while out on the field with Jaster. Plus the less he ate the easier it got to ignore the slight pains of hunger that would occasionally pop up. It was fine. He wasn't starving himself. He still ate midmeal. He just only at midmeal and whatever snacks Jaster occasionally would share with him.
He got up and walked around to another new kid and snuck them a ration bar that was supposed to he for his breakfast. They smiled at him in thanks and he nodded back before heading to turn in the empty dish.
"You finished that off fast Alor'ika! We should enter you in a competition." Bari said with a bright grin that showed off some fangs she had inherited through mixed genetics. She looked mostly human but so did most Mandalorians, years of adopting any species or race into their own had played with all of their DNA in weird ways. Jango himself was certainly some sort of mash of things as well but it's never really mattered since he was human enough.
"I guess the mission earlier just really had me hungry. I'm all filled up now though. Delicious as I expect from the best cook in the camp." he said kindly but she just raised a brow.
"You really are Jaster's ad with a tongue that smooth Alor'ika. Speaking of which, I haven't seen your buir yet. Take him his portion for me? He's probably still going over those maps." She asked handing him another full bowl and Jango nodded.
"Of course. Honestly how he got anything done before I was here to remind him life exists is a mystery." He chuckled and headed back towards his father's room getting nods from a few verd as he passed them. He felt good about his position. He wasn't cocky enough to think he was special or anything like that but he hot along easily with the other Haat'ade and most seemed to think he belonged with Jaster. It felt nice to be wanted and to have other people confirm his place with them. Even if he didn't become Mand'alor after Jaster, he'd always belong there.
"Buir! Bari sent me with your food. You get lost in that romance novel again?" He asked teasingly as he set the bowl down on Jaster's desk after clearing some space.
Jaster jumped a little in his chair glasses askew on his face before he relaxed at the sight of his son. "I actually think I fell asleep after calling a few more friends to make sure Tor hasn't bothered them." He admitted ruffling Jango's hair fondly and picking up the bowl and sniffling the stew inside.
"Mmm. This smells great. Bari really is a miracle on this whole operation. Only she could manage Tiingilar on such a meager budget." He chuckled and Jango nodded.
"Yeah. It's great! She's an amazing cook." He said clearing his throat when his stomach growled at him to cover the sound.
Jaster took a few bites while Jango looked over the list of numbers Jaster had been going through.
"Hmmm, something about this tastes different." He said after a while and Jango hummed absently.
"She said earlier that she ran out of the normal spice paste she used and started using Clan Rook's stuff instead." Jango said surprised when Jaster choked on his bite causing him to pat Jaster's back.
"Clan Rook's? Are you sure? And you ate it?" Jaster asked eyes fluttering over Jango with concern.
"Of course! It's not like I'm going to turn down Tiingilar! What are you scared Clan Rook is out to poison me or something?" Jango asked playfully though he was trying to understand what had Jaster so upset.
"Jango... Clan Rook uses vash nut powder in their spice mix." He pointed out and Jango winced. Right. Of course they did. And he just happened to be extremely allergic to that particular nut.
"Well... I... Actually wasn't that hungry tonight and didn't want to worry you. I'm sorry Buir. I shouldn't have lied about it. I'm fine though. It's a good thing too it seems since it saved us me swelling up and needing to go to medical." He tried to joke but Jaster was staring at him with a considering gaze now that made him uncomfortable.
"Well you still have your breakfast rations right? You can have that tonight and I'll talk to Bari and make sure there's no more surprises like that again." He offered and Jango reached into the empty pocket head ducking.
"I... uh... I don't have my breakfast ration anymore buir." He said letting his hair fall forward to hide his eyes feeling heat burning his face in shame.
"What happened to it? Did you drop it?" Jaster asked and Jango cleared his throat as his stomach growled again but this time there was no hiding it.
"I'm really not hungry Buir! Really. I'm fine." Jango said knowing he couldn't lie and especially not to Jaster.
"Jango, what's going on? Why aren't you eating? Are you feeling sick?" Jaster asked setting his bowl aside to feel Jango's forehead but Jango pushed his hand aside.
"No... I just... gave it to the foundlings. They need it more. Many are too nervous to speak up and rations are low right now. I don't mind. When things pick up again I'll eat more. I promise." he admitted quietly.
"Jango... why didn't you say anything? You... How many meals have you been skipping? How long?" Jaster asked looking concerned.
"I've been giving away my breakfast rations and late meal. I still eat with you obviously. It's enough. I'm used to it. It doesn't even hurt anymore." He said quickly then regretted it.
"Anymore?! It doesn't hurt anymore? Oh no. No no no. Come on." Jaster stood and grabbed his arm gently but firm enough he couldn't jerk it away easily and started dragging him out of the room.
"Buir! Buir wait! You're overreacting! It's really fine! Some of the verd were even impressed by how good I'm looking!" He said and Jaster almost growled.
"Looks don't matter! None of that matters! You haven't been eating Jango! You're a child! If anyone should he cutting portions it would be the adults and even that there are ways to manage it so we all take turns so no one misses meals the way you have. If you had just said something I could have been giving you extra breakfast rations to give to the others if they're too nervous to ask. You shouldn't have been starving yourself! Do you have any idea how it feels to hear you talking like this? Like you deserve to eat less for some reason? You're my son and I've failed you by not even noticing you were doing this to yourself. I thought maybe the weight loss was because of a growth spurt coming on. I never had an ad before but you... You've been hurting yourself. We're going to medical. They're going to run tests and we're going to figure out how badly you've thrown your diet out of whack. Hopefully not too badly. Then we're eating every meal together until I'm certain I can trust you again." Jaster ranted and Jango just stared at the floor fighting tears. He had just wanted to help.
Jaster took a deep breath and let it out. "Jango, ner ad, you are a good boy with a good heart. But you matter just as much as the new foundlings, you know that right?" he asked more gently as he knelt and tipped Jango's face back up.
"Of course I do. But I'm going to be a leader one day and I have to make sure that our people are all taken care of first. You would have done the same thing!" He argued feeling the tears start to spill down his cheeks and hating it. Being eleven sucked.
Jaster wiped the tears away with his thumb. "Jango, if that was true why am I still eating normally? We have plenty of food Jango. Yes it's a little tight, but nothing to where you need to skip out on everything besides midmeal. And I'm your leader. So, again, it would be me or the other adults, who would be responsible for figuring out how to ration. Which we would need you to be honest about how much you need to eat to be able to do. You're my son. I love you and want you to be living a happy healthy life. Something not hurting anymore, is not a sign of you being happy and healthy. It should never hurt to begin with. You're not in trouble. I'm not mad. I'm scared and upset with myself for not noticing and fixing this sooner." He murmured more calmly and Jango wrapped him in an embrace he eagerly returned.
"Do you promise to actually eat all the meals I give you and tell me if you or anyone else needs extra from now on?" Jaster asked and Jango nodded from where his face was tucked into Jaster's shoulder.
"Good. Then let's get you examined and then I think we both deserve a treat tonight. After you eat a proper latemeal." He said firmly but lifted Jango up and carried him to medical.
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chattahoochiecoochie Ā· 4 years ago
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Various Storms and Saints Review
Iā€™m alive! As per usual here is my disclaimer. Iā€™m a fan in every sense, though I write fanfiction, and even some personal stories in my free time, I am in no way qualified to actually judge or critique anyones writing. Therefore, this is just a fun way for me to express what I liked about my most recent reads. Without further adieu lets get started.
This story is by @viridianatnight and can be found on AO3.Ā 
This is going to beĀ long, so pack in, Iā€™ve got a lot of thoughts. First and foremost, Iā€™m a summary kind of gal. I like to know what Iā€™m getting into, I analyze the tags, fully digest the summary down to the punctuation. VSAS lacked a summary but the reviews were raving so I went ahead and dove head first. Man oh fucking man did she nail it. Maybe our dear author isnā€™t one for summaries or maybe she planned it. Every chapter had me on the edge of my seat, waiting for that final reveal, the big drop in plot, the crescendo. It was worth it. Through every guess and shot it the dark it was worth it. She delivered.
Every so often you read a story where there isn't a syllable wasted. This is one of those. From that damn pebble in a box all the way to Narcissaā€™s nickname for her son. My dragon? Are you joking me.Ā 
Never before have I felt I have known Hermione. You love her, always, she's a star. But here she is human. Here she is a woman. Here is a character who I know, who I have met, who I will meet again in life. She is drowning and swimming, lost and found. She is me. She is all of us. Self loathing is so deeply tragic and for the first time that I have read, Hermione is tragic. This story is as much a romance as it is a tragedy for the ages. You watch the little girl you loved as a child, whoā€™s character came alive on paper, start to die in front of you. Without becoming to much of a sap, the simple fact is this, if you as a woman want to feel seen go open your web browser and get to reading.
And Draco. What a man. Tall and handsome is to be expected, but multifaceted and palatable is another beast entirely--and yet here he is on screen, all of those things. His relationship with Theo is (I hate to overuse the word) human. Theyā€™re boys still, really, who love one another deeply but will never admit it without a fight. Theyā€™ll defend one another fearlessly and bite hard when confronted about it. Draco often has passion in the stories Iā€™ve read but not like this. He has a fire inside him that burns for Hermione, for his best friend, for his mother, and even for his enemies. He is completely consumed by his love and his anger. He is almost nothing outside of those feelings. They make him as a man, good and bad. Sure he might be a touch scary but boy oh boy is he the kind of partner (and lover) we all long for.Ā 
Before we get into the little things I want to talk about Ginny. What a star. What a friend. In most stories Hermione is cut away from the group, relegated to Slytherins almost entirely. Its wonderful to see her friendship with Ginny thrive, and even more to see it be genuine. There is sisterly love sure but Ginny puts up a fight, as every good friend has.Ā 
Molly. You bastard. Her letter to Hermione left me gutted. Especially when sheā€™d been so great at holding Ron accountable in the past.Ā 
The cellphone was truly something special. The way it allowed Theo to step further into the light as a main character was brilliant. Speaking of his role, theres a happy ending! Our comic relief and great logician (seriously his wisdom is what held this all together) finally gets an ending he deserves.Ā 
That of course launches me into another ramble. Queerness is so rarely written without angst. Seamus and Dean are just in love. There is no hardship or pain written about. They are two young men and they are in love and there isn't anything else to say about it. And the way that Theo feels no shame about being in love with a man, rather just shame that he canā€™t have him, its just beautiful. Itā€™s simple and plain and perfect.Ā 
Okay okay I know I said this was going to be long and I promise Iā€™m wrapping up. Heres a rapid fire round before I sign off entirely. Lavenders death? Crippled me. She is a virtue? I squealed. Peace and love, Iā€™m so sick of having to google French. So sick. So tired. Iā€™ll keep doing it though, till the day a man calls me mon coer.
Honestly my joy is too much for words. This is one of the greats, without a doubt. Viridian, you have a gift, and I pray that you never stop wanting to share it with us.Ā 
If you liked this review you can find my others here TRTTDĀ |Ā Manacled | Remain Nameless | Apple Pie and Other AmendsĀ Sorry if the links are funny, I completed traded places with my secondary blog a while back and its been weird :/
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toujoursmiraculous Ā· 4 years ago
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Thoughts on the New York Special!
I never thought Iā€™d see such an episode but here we are. I think I screamed a dozen times or more, Iā€™m not even sure. But I have a sore, scratchy throat to show for it and Iā€™m okay with that. Most of it was at how many times Adrien kept being not-just-a-friend and both secondhand embarrassment and pity for Marinetteā€™s attempt to see him only as a friend kicked in. But Iā€™ll start from the beginning. No, the voice actors arenā€™t different, the audioā€™s been manipulated and is pitched down! **Except Nino. Ninoā€™s voice actor resigned and has been replaced**
Ladynoir friendship + a glimpse of their Astro forms? Heck yes!
Ms. Bustier having a baby was something I had a feeling about but canā€™t actually believe itā€™s happening and Iā€™m just so happy for her. Best teacher award should go to her and her studentā€™s reactions just prove that.
ā€œAdrien, youā€™re our Sock Washington!ā€
this is his version of Marinetteā€™s
ā€œYouā€™re our everyday Ladybug.ā€
Sad Adrien and trying-too-hard-to-be-just-friends-Marinette interact and sheā€™ll do what she has to do to get him to go along.
Honestly, I think Marinette trying not to reveal her feelings is better than this, this is just painful to watch her try so hard. Dx
Sad Adrien not being able to fence properly so Kagami who he possibly? likely? is dating, considering she kissed him, asks whatā€™s wrong.
You know, instead of what a good girlfriend/love interest/friend would do and try to sympathize and attempt to make him feel better, she pushes aside his feelings and makes it about her... Oh Kagami, this wonā€™t bode well. Poor Adrien deserves better than being told he and his feelings arenā€™t as important. He gets plenty of that at home.
Absolutely love the attention Gorilla gets in this, itā€™s so cute.
LUKA IS THE BEST FRIEND EVER UGH. How many girls have a guy in their life that has feelings for them, yes, but still would do anything that would make her happy, even be with someone else? Who would go to lengths to make sure things work out how she wants them?
Okay, the whole plane scene before everyone fell asleep was intense. I can feel Marinetteā€™s anxiety and desperation so hard, I feel so bad.
I also feel bad that Adrien sounded disappointed by her not sitting by him (and probably doesnā€™t quite understand why she wonā€™t, either) as well as Ms. Mendeleiev knowing her students think less of her than Ms. Bustier and doesnā€™t like that.
AND also that both Marinette and Adrien for having to feel guilty for making a trip out of the country. :/ Nobody deserves it more than them.
Wow, thatā€™s a lot of things to feel bad about early on.
Marinetteā€™s luck really sucks on this trip, doesnā€™t it? Turbulence in the bathroom. Yikes. But of all people to notice her walk by, it has to be Adrien while they watch the beautiful sunset together. Of course it does. Itā€™s like he has some sensor that knows when Marinette is sad or something. x3
Adrien, looking sweetly and IN LOVE at her:Ā ā€œYouā€™ve got something, Marinette...ā€
ā€œSo-something?ā€
ā€œYeah, there. In your hair.ā€
....
Alya: I canā€™t decide if theyā€™re the cutest people I know, or the most embarrassing.
Nino: I love Adrien, but heā€™s like a baby chick that just started cracking out of his egg.
I- Theyā€™re just so done šŸ˜‚
Then you see more of Alya/Nino and their Operation New York plan and itā€™s freaking adorable, but you think Adrienā€™s done talking but OH NO thereā€™s more
ā€œ...Well, what I meant to say was...thanks for managing to convince my father. *gives her a hug*ā€
Okay, first off
OH MY GOSH I CANā€™T EVEN WITH THIS. THIS IS JUST SO SWEET AND CUTE AHHH THIS IS THE FIRST ADRIENETTE HUG EVER! I screamed so loud I just... my heart is so happy. ;~;
Second,
slyly grinning
IS THIS NERVOUS ADRIEN, I SEE? He tried to say it the first time but chickened out. šŸ˜‰
Also, you cannot convince me that when they both went and sat back in their seats, anxious as the plane was getting attacked, that they would not be holding hands if Marinette had actually ended up sitting by him.
Aeon sees them together for ONE MINUTE. Just one. And she knows.Ā  To all the people that
still
somehow doubt that theyā€™ll be together...what will it take for you to realize that they are?
Sabrina liking that boy makes me so happy, she actually gets some scenes that arenā€™t related to Chloe!
Alya: And you might make a friend. *elbows Mari*
Marinette: šŸ˜‘
Hehehe the teasingā€™s not gonna stop, you set yourself up for this.
Iā€™ve counted people referring to Marinette and Adrien as ā€œfriendsā€ of some degree 21 times so far. Letā€™s see what it gets to at the end.
Class: We just got here but LETā€™S SNEAK OUT TO GO TO A PARTY....and almost get busted.
The sound effects in this are everything, I adore them. xDDD
The way Adrien smiled at Marinette when they had their backs to the door, and how his smile faded when he realized they werenā€™t alone. šŸ˜‚
Jess: Ugh people in my room
Aeon: HAHA THEYā€™RE SO ADORABLE THIS IS THE BEST. I TOLD YOU THEYā€™RE MADE FOR EACH OTHER
Marinette: Is it a bird?
Adrien: Is it a plane?
Sabrinaā€™s crush: No, itā€™s Hot Dog Dan!
Why do you have to get me with that xDD
Okay, but the girl saying ā€œGo Sabrina!ā€ made me happy too ugh. Just the fact that Sabrina came to America and people like her is just the best.
Highpitched!Nino: FINALLY, MY CHICKS WINGS ARE GROWING
Not that the show didnā€™t make me laugh before but dang, I keep laughing at this humor. Itā€™s like a crack video mixed with the sweetest romance.
ā€œOH! Thatā€™s the song we danced to at Chloeā€™s birthday party, remember?ā€
ā€œOh, yes, hahahā€
looks at her sweetly, shyly
ā€œThen...will you?ā€
ADRIEN, MY LOVE, I DONā€™T UNDERSTAND WHATā€™S GOING THROUGH THAT PRETTY HEAD OF YOURS. So... you remember. And it makes you happy. And you, again, nervously ask her. To dance with you. Again.
Youā€™ve looked at her with the most soft of expressions more times in under an hour than Iā€™ve seen anyone look at someone
ever
. Uggggh the way heā€™s falling for her is just so sweet.
And Iā€™ve lost count of how many ā€œfriendsā€ there have been due to the overwhelming cuteness. I think 25?
The fact that Adrien and Marinette canā€™t get through an automated door. Iā€™m wondering whatā€™s causing that? The fact both have a Kwami with them? Is Aeon messing with them? I donā€™t really think the latter is happening so Iā€™m puzzled but itā€™s hilarious.
ā€œI donā€™t mind being stuck somewhere with a friend like youā€ with the most adorable expression on his face ever.
ADRIEN PLEASE, ARE YOU TRYING TO DESTROY ME WITH THIS?Ā 
Jess: And in order to save him...
Aeon: Donā€™t kidnap him, I LOVE him!
šŸ˜‚ I wanted Jessā€™s plan to work out so badly though.
Maybe next time.
Miraculous out here teaching American history. šŸ‘ Totally forgot Lafayette was only 19 when he arrived in America and asked to become a general, but he had just turned 20 when he fought his first battle. The white powdered wig always threw me off of everyoneā€™s real ages.
I think this is the closest Marinette and Adrien have transformed out in the open like this.
Ooof @ pissed off and sarcastic Ladybug.
Chat Noir: I was afraid of losing your trust!
Ladybug: Well I canā€™t trust you anymore, can I?!
Ooohh that hurts. That really hurts. And that distraction like that really went bad. Good thing Aeonā€™s not human. x.x I really do feel like them finding out their identities would solve more problems than itā€™d cause at this point.
I get that the situation was bad, but excuse me, they have no right to demand their Miraculouses. Ladybugā€™s the
Guardian
.
Knight Owl: ā€œStop right there, thatā€™s an order.ā€
LB & CN: WE DONā€™T ANSWER TO YOU
Lol love the way they ran off and got away without being seen.
Sad and in pain Ladynoir. Wow, this whole scene feels so mature.
And Marinetteā€™s reaction to Chat Noir renouncing Plagg and crying as he ran away hurt so much. I was not expecting all the angst!
Poor Adrienā€™s traumatized now. He knows heā€™s lucky she wasnā€™t human and things worked out, but he also knows that he came this close to Cataclysming Ladybug, and he couldnā€™t deal with that.
Liiri is so cute I want to see more of her! Very grateful she doesnā€™t end up in the hands of Gabriel for long.
But really Gabriel, it wouldā€™ve been smarter to take it to Paris than give it to a villain in New York where it ends up with a superhero. xD
Depressed Plagg is another level of ouch. Depressed Marinette and Adrien looking at each other like theyā€™re about to cry is yet another.
Marinette about Chat Noir: He made his choice. What were we supposed to do?
Adrien: I wouldnā€™t have minded being stuck here a little longer with a friend like you.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO why did you have to go there again?
And then she gasps and really looks like sheā€™s going to burst into tears, and then he gets even
sadder. ā€œMy fatherā€™s right, I shouldā€™ve never come to New York.ā€ Alya: ā€œWhat is wrong with you, Marinette?! Couldnā€™t you see that he was just waiting for you to tell him to stay?ā€ ā€œHe made his choice. What did you expect me to do?ā€ ā€œIt doesnā€™t matter what I expected you to do! Whoā€™s Adrien to you? A friend or more than a friend? There will never be a better time to be clear with yourself, Marinette! Do you want him to leave or do you want him to stay?ā€
Within minutes, Marinette said the same thing about both Chat Noir and Adrien. o.o
Also hold up. If what Alyaā€™s saying is true, which very well could be considering how he went from looking sad but still smiling, to looking utterly crushed after saying that line to her and her reaction, and the fact he said it before... Along with every single thing he did the whole trip.... Are we missing something, here? At first I thought itā€™s just Adrien being Adrien but about to actually acknowledge his feelings, just not yet. Seeing just the trailer I thought it was gratitude maybe, but obviously this is much more than that. But is it possible at all that he already has and, considering how sheā€™s told him she doesnā€™t have feelings for him more than once before, that heā€™s been hoping to drive her to say otherwise this entire time and find out if she actually really does have feelings for him? šŸ¤”
Because dang thatā€™d explain everything heā€™s been doing.
I know heā€™s hurting over what happened with Uncanny Valley and giving up his Miraculous and leaving Ladybug. But it
still
came down to him with Marinette, looking at her like that was his last bit of hope and happiness he wanted to hold onto and was dashed....
NOT OKAY.
Again, Marinetteā€™s luck on this trip SUCKS so much what the heck, you canā€™t even let her phone have battery??
Her rushing after him in the pouring rain on a bike screaming for him to stay and then falling hard (oof mustnā€™t have felt good for Plagg and Tikki) to just lie there in the street whispering ā€œAdrien I...love you,ā€ broke me. It really did. Itā€™s so beautiful and so sad and I just want them to be happy oh gosh. šŸ˜­
But please get out of the road sweetie, youā€™re going to get run over.
By the way, I think Iā€™m at 29 times they referred to each other or others referred to them as friends. Not sure though, I lost count and my heartā€™s a mess.
So Majestia decided to just blow skyscrapers far through the city and into the water that would no doubt kill everyone inside... in New York City...where skyscrapers were literally destroyed in real life killing thousands? I really hope this isnā€™t supposed to be a kind of reference.
Also the President of the United States being a superheroine thatā€™s in harms way interacting with supervillains that can do horrific things such as forcing her to spill national secrets or use her power from things such as mind control to control the nation, for example, probably isnā€™t the smartest thing to do. Cool for plot but dang thatā€™s dangerous.
You know, like right now when heā€™s making her press the nuke button where a million missiles and bombs are getting ready to go.
ā€œI donā€™t know if I can do this. I canā€™t imagine being Ladybug without...
him
.ā€
ā€œI couldnā€™t bear to see the disappointment in her eyes.ā€
Iā€™m not crying. This isnā€™t twisting my heart all up at all. X.x
But yes the action and Astro Chat! He looks so cool flying through the sky like that omg. Heā€™s BAT CHAT
But the way she just ran and hugged him, saying never to do that to her again.
And how he returned that hug and she hugged him tighter and then wiped her tears away.
This is everything. Absolutely everything. I could watch this a thousand times and not be sick of it.
He also after this better know how much he truly means to her.
Hawk Moth: Ladybug, Chat Noir, if you donā€™t do as I ask, I will launch a nuclear rocket that will undoubtedly start World War III. If you donā€™t do as I ask, it will be on you.TICK TOCK TICK TOCK
Geez, you think he canā€™t get any crazier and he just does. How would another World War help him live happily ever after? Unless he could use two wishes to undo it once he got their Miraculous. Hm.
Majestia is like Captain Marvel because sheā€™s the only other superhero Iā€™m familiar with that could launch a rocket to the sun with her hands.
The animation in this is so beautiful. I havenā€™t said it yet, but some of the scenes are so breathtaking.
Iā€™m sad that Aeon wonā€™t remember theyā€™re Ladybug and Chat Noir, but surely sheā€™ll remember Adrien, Marinette, Ladybug, and Chat Noir right? x.x
And appreciation to Nadja Chamack for letting Parisans know Ladybug and Chat Noir didnā€™t abandon them, but just had serious issues to attend to elsewhere.
Wow thereā€™s an ice sculpture/statue of sorts in New York of Ladybug and Chat Noir (along with Uncanny Valley and Eagle) now? Sweet!
Okay, I believe itā€™s 30 times nowĀ  that ā€œfriendā€ is used. I may be off, I got really into it the second time watching when I was counting and itā€™s too late to be serious about it.
Hmm, Marinette can ask herself
the question
on her way back to Paris the following day. Iā€™m assuming about how she feels and if she should still try to let him know her feelings?
Also that Adrien smile, knowing full well Marinette was responsible for that clip for him. Awwww x33
Ohh that ending Iā€™m so looking forward to seeing more of Eagle, Uncanny Valley, and possibly that new superhero team with the new Miraculous.
This special was as if they took the best from S1-S3, then threw in a bunch of amazing new things that I couldnā€™t have thought would happen, and gave us such an amazing special. Also that it opened up things for the next special and S4! I donā€™t think I couldā€™ve asked for much better. Iā€™ve missed this show terribly and love that itā€™s back in a way.
Also terribly sorry for such a long post but I mean the thing was 52 minutes long after all. xD
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winryofresembool Ā· 4 years ago
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Things We Lost in the Fire, ch 34
aka Caleo uni au
Fic summary: Calypso starts studying at a new university, but to her annoyance her new flatmate is a loud mouthed mechanic who also likes to sneak his dog in whenever. But as she learns to know him better, she realizes they might have more in common than what she first thought. Eventually, even the darkest secrets come outā€¦
Chapter summary:Ā At Waystation, please don't ask me what partĀ 
A/N:Ā Woop, not as long a wait as earlier! I am kind of surprised that this chapter ended up being easier for me to write than the previous one despite the emotional stuff L&C are talking about in it. But I'm also extremely happy I got it done!
Hmmm, should I say anything else? I guess I just hope you guys enjoy this monster chapter! (almost 5k words, a lot for me) And please, please let me know what you think of this chapter because I really, /really/ want to know!
Words:Ā 4900+
Genre: romance & hurt/comfort
Warnings: none
previous chapter / AO3
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It took Calypso a while to collect herself after her breakdown. On one hand, she felt bad that she had yelled at Leo like that, especially in front of Georgina. But on the other hand, she felt he had deserved it. When Leo had asked her if something was wrong, she had already been emotional because of the song and the feelings it had made her realize. When she added the frustrations caused by the ā€˜present incidentā€™ and also her fear for her future and what her father might do to that, she was kind of surprised that she had managed to stay calm even that long.
After she had made sure that the redness on her face had faded a bit and she would be able to speak in a normal tone, she finally joined Leoā€™s family who had just started preparing the dinner. Leo himself wasnā€™t present; apparently Festus had been expecting a long Christmas walk, but Calypso still wondered briefly if that was only an excuse. Luckily she did quite enjoy cooking while listening to Jo and Emmieā€™s stories because that gave her something else to think about.
The dinner guests arrived about an hour later. Among them was a man named ā€˜Litā€™ (Calypso had to raise her eyebrow at the nickname), who apparently took care of an actual living elephant among other things. With him was the ā€˜Golden Haired Dudeā€™ whom Georgina had mentioned earlier, only he had dyed his hair brown recently. He introduced himself as Lester and he mentioned liking music, which piqued Calypsoā€™s interest but she didnā€™t have a chance to ask more about it during the dinner. The two had also brought Lesterā€™s young ā€˜masterā€™ Meg with them. Calypso was still too distraught by the earlier events to really focus on getting to know those people better, but somehow they, especially the two men, seemed to be even louder than Leo was usually. Meg seemed nice, though, and Calypso found out that they shared an interest in gardening. She still noticed wishing that the dinner would be over fast so she could just withdraw into her room and try to calm down a bit.
***
ā€Alright, whatā€™s going on here?ā€
Jo and Emmie dragged Leo and Calypso out of the dining room after the dinner. Calypso didnā€™t understand why; they had managed to behave perfectly neutrally while the guests had been there, at least in her opinion. Well, honestly speaking neither of them had talked much - mostly when they were asked some standard questions like ā€˜what do you study again?ā€™ - but that was probably for the best. Otherwise Calypso might have said something she would have regretted.
ā€œWhat do you mean?ā€ Leo asked Jo defensively. ā€œItā€™s not like I step danced on the dining table or anything like that! We were behaving just fine!ā€
ā€œMr. Valdez,ā€ Jo used her most threatening voice, which actually intimidated even Calypso who had gotten used to many kinds of threatening in the past. ā€œIn your case that means that something is definitely going on. I have not gone through a single Christmas dinner with you where you havenā€™t tried to tell at least one of your favorite Santa jokes. And yes, donā€™t think we have just forgotten what happened this morning.ā€
ā€œBesides, Calypsoā€™s eyes have been red since this afternoon,ā€ Emmie added. So she had noticed, Calypso sighed in her mind. She had made sure to wash her face carefully with cool water after her little mental breakdown and had even added some concealer under her eyes to hide the redness but of course these two wouldnā€™t miss a thing.
ā€œAnd we did notice your glares at the table,ā€ Jo finally finished the chastising.
ā€œListen, moms.ā€ Leo crossed his arms. ā€œI appreciate you trying to help but this is between Cal and me.ā€
ā€œAlright,ā€ Jo said. ā€œThen how about you try to deal with it while doing the dishes.ā€
ā€œWait, what?ā€ Leo protested. ā€œGeorgie needs my help with building the 1000 piece puzzle she got from the neighbors; I promised her I wouldā€¦ā€
ā€œGeorgina can wait,ā€ Emmie said firmly. ā€œLeo, Calypso is our guest and no matter what your issue is, you two are adults and you should be able to talk it out maturely.ā€
Calypso had already learned to know the two women well enough to be able to tell that once they had decided something, you wouldnā€™t be able to change their minds easily. She too did want to protest because this was not how she wanted to do her ā€˜grand talkā€™ with Leo, but it seemed rather pointless. They really did need to talk, and the sooner theyā€™d get it done, the sooner they might be able to find some sort of normalcy in their situation. Maybe. Calypso didnā€™t think their relationship had ever been particularly ā€˜normalā€™.
ā€œAlright, weā€™ll do the dishes,ā€ she said eventually. ā€œBut I donā€™t know what happens after that. I guess it depends.ā€
ā€œHmm, I guess we canā€™t ask more than that,ā€ Emmie nodded. ā€œOK, weā€™ll leave you two to it. And if anything breaks, remember, you will be replacing it!ā€ she referred to the fancier dinnerware they had been using that day.
ā€œAs if I would even dream of breaking your plates,ā€ Leo mumbled when his mothers were already on their way out of the room. Calypso almost snorted at his comment before she remembered that she was mad at him, and simply made a sound that was a bit like a sneeze.
An awkward silence fell in the room once the flatmates were alone.
ā€œWellā€¦ā€ Calypso finally broke it after they had been scrubbing the dishes for several minutes without saying anything.
ā€œYeahā€¦?ā€
ā€œAre we going to talk about what happened today or not?ā€ She folded her arms, dropping some soap water on the floor in the process.
ā€œI donā€™t know, are we?ā€ Leo attempted to provoke her, but he was lacking his usual spunk. When Calypso kept glaring at him, he finally sighed. ā€œListen. I know I acted like an idiot earlier. What else is new? But the thing is, this day is justā€¦ always getting to me. I canā€™t help it. I know it sounds pathetic, butā€¦ā€
Leo was stopped by Calypsoā€™s hand around his wrist. ā€œI know what happened to your mother. I mean, the full story. Jo and Emmie told me. What happened was really, really horrible, but that doesnā€™t excuse you yelling like that when I was only trying to help. You also really made us worry when you ran away like that. I was afraid something was going to happen to you! And when you came back, you were acting like nothing had happened! Can you imagine how frustrated that made me feel?ā€ Nearly tears in her eyes again, she finished. ā€œIt made me feel that you donā€™t care about us!ā€
ā€œCalypso, calm down! Iā€™m sorry, OK?ā€ Leo raised his voice. ā€œYeah, I was selfish. And yeah, I shouldnā€™t have reacted like that. I didnā€™t think much at that point. I know it doesnā€™t excuse what I did but let me at least explain why I did what I did before you blow up the whole house.ā€
ā€œAlright,ā€ Calypso gave in. ā€œDo explain.ā€
ā€œEvery day since my mom diedā€¦ā€ Leo started, emphasizing the two first words, ā€œIā€™ve been feeling guilty about her death. Some days I feel better, but itā€™s always worse during Christmases. Because thatā€™s when she died.ā€
Calypso had a feeling that Leo wanted to say more, so she waited quietly, trying to look encouraging.
ā€œThis morning, before our present opening, I had a nightmare. Yeah, you probably already guessed what it was about. I saw how the fire started - I had left my blueprints too close to the fireplace and it justā€¦ spread - and how the policeman told me my mom had gone inside the house whenā€¦ when I was lying unconsciously in our backyard. She had been looking for me because she didnā€™t know I had managed to escape.ā€ He tried to clear his throat but his voice was still cracking when he finished: ā€œMy mom was my only family and she died because I was stupid and careless.ā€
While Calypso and Leo had had plenty of arguments in the past, she had rarely seen him as bitter as when he said those final words. It seemed as if he was in physical pain because he was so angry at himself. She wanted to say something encouraging, but she knew from experience that there was nothing that she could say in a situation like that that could make it better. Kind words didnā€™t bring the people you loved back. She did, however, try to show with gestures that she understood ā€“ she really did ā€“ and she moved closer to him, gently putting her hand on his shoulder.
Leo attempted to collect himself for a moment before he continued, blinking his eyes furiously: ā€œIt didnā€™t help me mentally that my aunt was forced to take me in after the fire. You can probably imagine her reaction. ā€œYou mutt, you really think you deserve to live after what happened to your mother?ā€ Yeah. That happened. She told that to an 8-year-old boy. Iā€™m almost thankful to her that she did eventually send me to a foster home. Only almost though.ā€
Calypso remembered his stories of the foster homes he had been in and understood what he meant.
ā€œI hope that this explains why I donā€™t want to deal with fire now. Not because Iā€™m afraid of the fire itself. But because Iā€™m afraid of what it could do to people I love. So, yeah, that is why I was not thrilled to get those matches on this particular day.ā€
Calypso had to admit that after hearing the story from Leo himself, his reaction made more sense.
ā€œIā€™mā€¦ sorry. About what happened to you and about the matches. I really picked an awful time to give them to you. But I still wish you had told me all that earlier instead of just waiting to blow up. And I never meant anything hurtful; I didnā€™t mean you need to use them any time soonā€¦ I just wanted to show you that I have faith in you. Because I do!
Leo was quiet for a while.
ā€œYeahā€¦ I know you were only trying to help,ā€ he sighed finally. ā€œI donā€™t know. I had such a good day yesterday and then one night turned it upside down. Itā€™s not your fault. Some thingsā€¦ just had been building inside me for too long.ā€
ā€œI know how you feel,ā€ Calypso said quietly.
ā€œYou do?ā€ Leo asked.
ā€œYeah. Um, I think itā€™s my turn to open up about some things. You told me your story so I should do the same.ā€
ā€œOkay, go on,ā€ he encouraged, seeming curious even though he was still visibly upset.
Calypso took a moment to decide where to start from. ā€œAs youā€™ve probably noticed, Iā€™ve been battling with some ghosts of my past for a long time now, and this fall has been quite a rollercoaster for me emotionally.ā€
Leo nodded at her.
ā€œI thought that when I would move outā€¦ escape from my fatherā€™s mansionā€¦ I could just put all that behind me and start from the beginning. And in a way I was able to do that. I do enjoy living here. I like my studies ā€“ even though it has been very different compared to what I did at homeā€¦ sometimes difficult... but Iā€™ve never been one to sit around when I know I have work to do so I. Thatā€™s the way Iā€™ve been raised.ā€
She looked up from her hands. ā€œIā€™m also really grateful that Iā€™ve met all the wonderful people who have become my friends here. Yeah, believe it or not, you included. Butā€¦ All that makes my fear even stronger. Iā€™m afraid that it all will be taken from me again.ā€
Leo frowned. ā€œI donā€™t understand now. Why would that happen? Is it because of your father? You mentioned something about that once.ā€
Calypso was on the verge of tears again but she bit her lip and tried to put herself together. ā€œIā€¦ I did something awful when I was 16ā€¦ and my father wants to make sure that no one will ever hear about it.ā€
ā€œWhat happened?ā€ Leo asked.
ā€œIā€¦ had someā€¦ um, relationship issues, for the lack of a better word. My boyfriend of that time had discovered that his previous girlfriend had moved back to New York, and, surprise, he wanted to end our relationship. He wasnā€™t the first to do that. Thatā€™s what always happened. They always had someone who was more important to them than me.ā€ Calypso rubbed her forehead tiredly. ā€œI was pretty down after that because the 16-year-old me thought that no one would care about me.ā€
Leo looked at her with a ā€˜thatā€™s bullshitā€™ kind of expression, but for once he said nothing. She could still see that he had sympathy in his eyes.
ā€œSo, one day pretty soon after that guy went back to his ex, I was invited to a party. Most of the people there were a bit older than me so yeah, there was alcohol involved. I was shy and still really upset about what had recently happened to me so I thought that maybe a drink or two would make me feel better. But I drank way more than that because I just wanted to forget about everything for a while. Someone at the party knew my big sister ZoĆ« and thought that it would be the best for me if sheā€™d come to get me home before something bad happened to me. Well, ironicallyā€¦ā€ Calypsoā€™s vision started blurring as she attempted to finish the sentence. ā€œZoĆ« would probably still be here if she hadnā€™t come to pick me up.ā€
She swiped her face into her hand very ungracefully and sniffed a couple of times before she was able to continue.
ā€œSoā€¦ she arrived and when we got into the car, she naturally started scolding me. I donā€™t remember anymore what exactly she said but I know I deserved it. But at that moment I was being an idiot so of course we got into an argument. And she didnā€™tā€¦ā€ She couldnā€™t hold the tears in any longer, instinctively searching for support from Leoā€™s shoulder.
ā€œItā€™s OK, Calā€¦ You donā€™t have to tell me more if you donā€™t want to,ā€ Leo tried to calm her down, awkwardly patting her back.
ā€œCan you hand me some of that paper towel?ā€ she sobbed when she managed to get some words out of her mouth, pointing at the roll on the table. ā€œI must look like a mess.ā€
Leo attempted to give her an encouraging smile even though Calypso knew that must have been hard because he was probably feeling as bad as she was on the inside.
ā€œR-right, here,ā€ he said and pulled one piece of the paper towel from the roll, handing it to her.
ā€œThanks,ā€ Calypso mumbled and swept her nose and cheeks into the paper.
ā€œNo problem.ā€
Calypso chuckled at the irony of the situation while she was attempting to dry the last tears. ā€œWhy is it that I was the one who was worried about youā€¦ and now Iā€™m the one who ended up crying?ā€
ā€œGuess weā€™re both pretty messed up,ā€ Leo concluded for her. ā€œBut itā€™s OK. We canā€¦ you knowā€¦ try to support each other?ā€ It was more of a question than a statement, and Calypso assumed Leo was still unsure if sheā€™d let him stay in her life.
ā€œYeahā€¦ maybe we can. But, umā€¦ I should finish my story.ā€
ā€œTake your time.ā€ Leo nodded at her.
ā€œSoā€¦ā€ she finally said. ā€œWe were fighting. And she got so distracted that sheā€¦ I mean, neither of usā€¦ noticed that there was a car coming really fast from behind a curve and the road was pretty narrow andā€¦ before she had time to brakeā€¦ the car hit us.ā€
Calypsoā€™s heart was still beating rapidly when she remembered that situation, but taking a couple of deep breaths, she managed to avoid another crying fit. A couple of tears fell on her cheeks but her voice turned angry rather than sad.
ā€œSheā€¦ she died almost instantly. I donā€™t know how I got so lucky that I ended up with only a couple of broken bones and bruises. The driver of the other car was injured quite badly but from what I heard, also survived. I bet my father was relieved about that,ā€ she finished bitterly.
ā€œCalā€¦ā€ Leo tried to say something but she interrupted him.
ā€œIf you say your motherā€™s death was your fault, so was ZoĆ«ā€™s death my fault. She would still be here if I hadnā€™t messed up at that party. She would still be here if we hadnā€™t been arguing on the road. So, I know exactly how you feel.ā€
ā€œYeahā€¦ there are some similarities thereā€¦ā€ Leo admitted. ā€œBut I donā€™t think it was your fault. It was an accident.ā€
ā€œSimilarly to what happened to your mom,ā€ Calypso noted.
Leo decided to not continue with that topic. ā€œOne question: how does your father have anything to do with this?ā€
Calypso sighed out of frustration. ā€œI told you once that he basicallyā€¦ā€ She decided to change her approach. ā€œUm, after that accident he didnā€™t let me go anywhere anymore, especially unsupervised because if someone had found out that I had something to do with my sisterā€™s deathā€¦ that would probably have ruined his career. Insteadā€¦ā€ she said darkly, ā€œhe was able to take advantage of peopleā€™s sympathy. ā€˜Oww, poor Mister Astalā€¦ he must have been devastated after such a loss!ā€™ But you know what?! I knowā€¦ he couldnā€™t have cared less. The only thing that man cares about is his money and power.ā€
Calypso noticed that Leo was clenching his jaw. ā€œIā€¦ I havenā€™t even met the guy but I really, really hate him. Trust me, Iā€™d punch him in the face if I happened to meet him. Hard. But honestly, I think he deserves way more than that. Heā€™d deserveā€¦ā€
Leo proceeded to tell Calypso what exactly he thought her father would deserve, and weirdly enough, somehow that made her feel slightly better. Sure, nothing would ever give her back the years she had lost because of him. But at least she knew she had people on her side, and that was the most she could ask for in her situation.
ā€œEven though I support your plan 100%... which by the way isnā€™t something I expected to sayā€¦ Iā€™d prefer it if you never, ever had to meet him.ā€ Calypso shook her head. ā€œIā€™ve already told you that he is capable of ruining lives if he wants to.ā€
ā€œAnd Iā€™ve already told you that I donā€™t care,ā€ Leo said challengingly.
ā€œYeah, but I do!ā€ Calypso exclaimed angrily. ā€œHow do you think Iā€™d feel if he hurt you, because of me?ā€
That finally stopped Leo from arguing with her. Maybe he realized that he would feel just as awful if something happened to her.
ā€œOkay. I wonā€™t be hunting him down right now. But Iā€™m still sticking to what I said after the Halloween party. If he ever does anything to you, know that I will help you. No matter what it costs.ā€ Calypso looked at him with awe. No one had told her before that theyā€™d be willing to risk so much for her sake.
ā€œWhyā€¦ why would you do that for me?ā€ she whispered.
Fire was burning in Leoā€™s eyes. Maybe because he was angryā€¦ maybe for some other reason too. Before Calypso could prepare herself, he announced without hesitation:
ā€œBecause I love you, Cal! Itā€™s as simple as that!ā€
There. The words Calypso had been both hoping and dreading to hear were out now, and there was no way to take them back. She couldnā€™t say she was completely surprised by his confession after everything that had happened since Halloween, but stillā€¦ to hear him say it aloudā€¦ it still felt different than just knowing that it might be the case. Only a few hours earlier she herself had come to accept the fact that her own feelings were deeper than just some regular crush, and now thisā€¦ She felt extremely overwhelmed.
ā€œDonā€™t say that,ā€ Calypso mumbled, not able to look him in the eyes at that moment. ā€œIā€™ve heard people tell that to me beforeā€¦ and theyā€™ve never meant itā€¦ā€
ā€œYeah, but I do!ā€ Leo kept insisting. ā€œYou should know me well enough by now to know that I donā€™t say things I donā€™t mean!ā€
Finally, Calypso lifted her eyes from her hands to Leoā€™s face. He was watching her with a dead serious expression, but at closer look she noticed that there was also a certain softness, gentleness in his eyes. The kind that made her knees feel weak.
ā€œI know that,ā€ she said quietly, and before she could stop herself, she stepped closer to Leo and took the towel he had been using to dry the dishes from his hands and threw it on the table. Her heart was racing and she felt a bit shaky, but she moved even closer, leaving only a couple of centimeters between them. Before she progressed from there, though, she very lightly brushed his cheek with her thumb, stopping at the corner of his lip, to let him know of her intentions. For a moment he just stared at her dumbfounded before nodding slightly while blushing furiously, and that was the only sign she needed. Moving both of her hands to the sides of his face, she rose on her tiptoes and kissed him fully on the mouth.
Calypso still remembered how the kisses she had previously experienced had often felt like the other one had been in a rush to get somewhere, possibly out of his real love interestā€™s sight. But this time was different. When their lips touched, Leo froze for one moment (Calypso hoped it was because he was thinking ā€˜whoa, canā€™t believe this is happening!ā€™ and not because he was horrified), but he quickly recovered from that and responded, at first slowly, lightly, but when she kept encouraging him, he got more eager. Before he got ahead of himself, though, he stopped and looked at her straight into eyes as if to ask if it was OK. That was how Calypso knew that he wanted this just as much as she did.
ā€œKeep going,ā€ she whispered, and Leo did what he was told to do. He pressed his lips firmly against hers and sunk his fingers into her hair, sending sparks down Calypsoā€™s spine. Warmth spread through her entire body when he tilted her head slightly to get better access to her lips and deepened the kiss. She was surprised by how soft his lips felt against her mouth (for some reason when she had been picturing this situation ā€“ which, yes, had happened more than once, she had to admit to herself ā€“ she had imagined them a bit rough, like his hands) and she felt a little light headed as Leoā€™s tongue gently poke her lips to ask her to part them. She happily reciprocated and discovered he tasted like the gingerbread cookies she and Georgina had baked, which probably meant he had liked them.
Even though Calypso would have liked it to continue longer, soon they needed to break away to get some air. Her face was red, she was panting and somehow her hair had also gotten messy in the process, but she didnā€™t care. Why would she when she felt loved possibly for the first time in her life? Leo was looking at her gently and she wanted to reach in and continue from where they were left off, but before that she felt she needed to say something.
ā€œDonā€™t tell your mothers that happened,ā€ she mumbled while resting her head against his shoulder, trying to sound serious but knowing she was failing.
ā€œDonā€™t worry, I wouldnā€™t dream of it.ā€ Leo stopped stroking her hair when she lifted her head from his shoulder to see his expression. Leoā€™s eyes were so unlike they had only been about 15 minutes earlier when Jo and Emmie had ā€˜forcedā€™ them to talk. Back then they had looked almost black and emotionless, but now they were back to the lighter chocolate brown Calypso was used to, sparkling happily at her comment. It made her very relieved to see him like that; she must have done something right after all.
ā€œGood.ā€ She nodded and looked at him expectantly. Leo picked up the hint, but instead of kissing her right away, he lifted her on a kitchen cabinet so she wouldnā€™t have to stand on her tiptoes (not that Leo was tall; Calypso was just that short). Calypso rolled her eyes at the gesture, but when Leo took her face into his hands, she forgot all about it and leaned in for another kiss. Unfortunately, this time they hadnā€™t taken into account that there was a cupboard right behind Calypsoā€™s head so when they started leaning more backwards as the kiss got more heated, she hit her head against it. ā€œOh great, of course when I finally get to kiss the girl this would happen,ā€ he rubbed the back of his neck and looked apologetic, but Calypso just chuckled.
ā€œDonā€™t worry about it. Maybe it was a good reminder for us that there would probably be better places to do this than the kitchen of your parentsā€™ home.ā€
ā€œYeah, maybeā€¦ā€ Leo had to agree. Before Calypso got off the cabinet, though, she pressed a light kiss on his forehead. She didnā€™t know why she did that; it just felt good at that moment.
When she pulled away from him, Leo asked, sounding a bit unsure: ā€œSoā€¦ does that mean that you love me too?ā€
Calypso shook her head, kind of amused that this boy who could figure out a really difficult math question within minutes was so unsure about her feelings. ā€œWhat do you think, idiot?ā€
ā€œI donā€™t knowā€¦ I still wasnā€™t entirely convinced by those kisses,ā€ he attempted to joke but quickly received a fist on his arm. ā€œOw! That hurt!ā€
ā€œNot a good moment to joke,ā€ Calypso stated.
ā€œFine, sorry,ā€ Leo said while rubbing his arm.
ā€œYou are lucky that I happen to love you.ā€ Calypso stuck her tongue out at him, but before he had time to say anything, she took his hand and squeezed it reassuringly.
ā€œYeah. I am,ā€ Leo said, completely seriously this time. ā€œBut how did we get to this point from myā€¦ um, issues anyway?ā€
Now that Leo mentioned it, Calypso realized it was a valid question. It felt like everything she had felt that fall had been squeezed into a very small package and then suddenly just popped open. But she also felt relieved that they had finally managed to speak up about what was bothering them.
ā€œI donā€™t know, to be honest,ā€ she replied. ā€œBut Iā€™m kind of glad that Jo and Emmie closed us here.ā€
ā€œYeah. Me too,ā€ Leo agreed.
ā€œListenā€¦ā€ Calypso kept her eyes on their intertwined hands. ā€œI donā€™t know what is going to happen. You know, with my father and everything. But you made me realize that I canā€™t just give up without a fight. That I canā€™t get what I want if I donā€™t try. So Iā€™ve decidedā€¦ I want to try thisā€¦ usā€¦ if thatā€™s what you want as well.ā€
ā€œAre you crazy? Iā€™d be the stupidest guy on earth to say no to you,ā€ Leo said dramatically. ā€œEven though this will sound cheesy as hell, Iā€™ve noticed that Iā€™m happier when I spend time with you. You know, just cooking, chilling, whatever. So, Iā€™m thinkingā€¦ Maybe together we will also be able to kick our issuesā€™ asses. I will be working on getting over my fear. Andā€¦ I guess I will also have to try harder to open upā€¦ about my past and all thatā€¦ It probably isnā€™t always gonna be easy but hey, feel free to call me out if you need to.ā€
ā€œYou bet I will, Leo Valdez.ā€ Calypso smiled at him, a real, genuine smile. ā€œAnd I too will do my best to talk about whatā€™s bothering me more. I realize now that I should have done it way earlier.ā€
ā€œWe are some stubborn idiots, huh?ā€ Leo gave her a lopsided smile.
ā€œYeah.ā€
ā€œUm, soā€¦ just to be clearā€¦ What do we tell the others? Aboutā€¦ us?ā€ Leo asked after a while.
ā€œIā€™m thinkingā€¦ maybe it would be better if we donā€™t tell everyone quite yet. Iā€™ve had a lot of bad experiences in the past as you know so Iā€™d prefer to keep it just between us for a while. You know, just to make sure thatā€¦ nothing goes wrong.ā€
ā€œAlright, thatā€™s fair enough,ā€ Leo agreed. ā€œAlthough, nothing stays a secret from my family for a long time. Itā€™s like theyā€™re psychics or something.ā€
Calypso chuckled. ā€œCanā€™t disagree with you on that. I swear that Iā€™ve known them for a few days and they already know more about me than I do.ā€
ā€œYouā€™ll get used to it, though,ā€ Leo reassured her.
ā€œHopefully so. Wellā€¦ what should we do now?ā€ Calypso asked tentatively.
ā€œTheyā€™re probably expecting us to be done with the dishes by nowā€¦ā€ Leo glanced at the clock on the wall. ā€œButā€¦ I guess one more kiss wonā€™t hurt?ā€
ā€œI would hope so,ā€ Calypso said and reached for him, pressing another kiss to his mouth.
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myglogic Ā· 4 years ago
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My Home (Han Jisung x Reader)
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Pairing: Han Jisung (Stray Kids) x Reader
Genre: Fluff, a little bit angst, enemies to lovers (not really tbh)
Word count: 4,2K
Summary: A well-deserved vacation was expecting you and your friends. You happen to meet a guy named Cody on your Hawaii vacation. But Jisung is not happy about that.
A/N: Hi! this is my first skz story on this blog with (hopefully) more to come! I didnā€™t really correct this, so there might be some grammar mistakes. The usual. Hope you like it!
Finally. After a long workday in retail, you got your well-deserved vacation to Hawaii with your closest friends. You are all university students and everyone worked their asses off for this vacation. You hoped that this vacation would let you relax a little. You wanted to sunbathe, meet new people, and have fun. Your friends Chan, Changbin, Jihyo, Taehee, and lastly Jisung were all coming. You didnā€™t even know if you could call Jisung your friend though.
You loved all of your friends but with Jisung it was a little different. Han Jisung and you wereā€¦ how could you describe it best? You had a rather playful relationship. You sometimes really didnā€™t like him, he was loud, pushy but at the same sweet and cared for everyone. It was as if you had a little competition between the two of you. But no one knew what the competition was about. You wouldnā€™t say you hated him but you would have preferred it if he wouldnā€™t go to Hawaii with you. He makes fun of you all the time and sometimes you just want to tape his mouth shut.
Chan assured you that he would try to control him. You knew that it was a little too much to ask of him. You were basically asking him to babysit Jisung. You hoped that he would behave himself.
You were working your last shift at the small clothing boutique close to your apartment before your vacation. You already shopped the essentials like a cute bathing suit, sunscreen (LOTS of sunscreen), some cute sunglasses. Mentally, you couldnā€™t wait to get out of this stupid store. You heard the little bell on the door and looked up to see Jisung.
ā€œYo, Y/N!ā€, he shouted and smirked as he walked up to you. ā€œWhat are you doing?ā€, he said. He had a smoothie in his left hand which he gave you.
ā€œThanks.ā€, you said and accepted his smoothie. ā€œAs you can see, I am waiting in an empty store just to get paid.ā€, you huffed, clearly bored.
Jisung laughed a little, ā€œWell, I canā€™t wait for our vacation! Oh, by the way, donā€™t worry about me. I heard the babysitting thing.ā€
You hit his shoulder, ā€œAs if you will leave me alone.ā€
ā€œWho said anything about leaving you alone? I will be by your side 24/7!ā€, he said and pocked your cheek, as he bent over the counter. ā€œI will never leave you!ā€, he said in a dramatic voice.
You put your hand on his mouth, ā€œShut up! If my boss hears you, sheā€™ll think that I flirt with the customers!ā€
You wanted to remove your hand but felt something wet on your hand. ā€œDid you just lick my hand?! Ew!ā€, you started punching his shoulder. ā€œThatā€™s disgusting!ā€
Jisung giggled, ā€œYouā€™re cute, Y/N. I wouldnā€™t mind you flirting with me.ā€, he smirked and tried to defend himself from the punches he was getting from you.
That was how it was between the two of you. Jisung sometimes was a huge flirt but you never took him seriously. Yes, you did find him attractive but you would never tell him that. He messed with you all the time, maybe something was entertaining about this but there were days where you wanted to be left alone.
ā€œI would never do that. In Hawaii, I will find a cute surfer guy and flirt with him instead.ā€, you said proudly, as you looked at the clock. Just 20 minutes left.
Jisungā€™s look darkened a little, ā€œNo surfer guy would date you. Or even flirt with you.ā€, he said, with a distaste in his voice.
ā€œAre you jealous?ā€, you laughed. ā€œIdiot. Iā€™m there to have fun, one person will flirt with me for sure!ā€
ā€œYeah, whatever.ā€, he said, cutting his sentences short. ā€œIā€™ll leave then. See you at the airport tomorrow.ā€
Before you knew it, you were on the plane sitting between Chan and Jisung (who was drooling on your shoulder because he took some sleeping meds). You took pictures to blackmail him later on. Taehee and Jihyo were taking pictures and Changbin tried to photobomb them. Successfully. You were really grateful to have such friends. Even on your darkest days, they knew how to cheer you up. You all needed this vacation badly.
You looked at sleeping beauty on your shoulder and softly removed a piece of hair out of his. His hair was dyed blonde, just for this vacation. He said that he wanted to compete with the bright Hawaii sun - just to see who could brighten up the beach more. While he was sleeping, you thought that he looked very peaceful. You could watch him for hours like this. Chan, of course, noticed you touching Jisungā€™s hair and just smirked at you knowingly. According to Chan, you and Jisung will end up together someday. You profusely refused to believe that.
After the 14-hour flight was over, you went to your big ass hotel room that you got for six people. It was really luxurious and the hotel was amazing. You had the perfect ocean view from your room and you were here to see those things. But before you could go out and explore, you and your friends threw yourselves to the first soft-looking surface to sleep for another three hours. Yeah, economy flights to Hawaii werenā€™t the most comfortable ones.
After everyone freshened up, you and the girls decided to go down to the beach, whereas the boys decided to check out the pool of the hotel. The beach was lively, there were nice beach bars, people playing beach volleyball and a lot of abs. For real, it looked like a gym if you took a look at some of the bodies on the beach.
You decided to get a cold cocktail to cool yourself down and sat down at one of the stools. As you waited for your drink, you noticed a nice-looking guy who was staring at you, but not in a creepy way. The bartender told you that the guy who was looking at you paid also for your drink. Take that, Jisung.
You smiled in his direction and the brunette guy sat down next to you. He had brown hair with green eyes and was probably one of the most attractive guys on the beach right now. ā€œHey, I couldnā€™t help but notice youā€¦ā€, he said and smiled at you with a dimpled smile.
You blushed a little, ā€œHiā€¦ My nameā€™s Y/N, and yours?ā€
ā€œCody. Nice to meet you. Youā€™re not from here, right?ā€
Cody was his name. You thought he was really cute. But not as cute as Jisu-, you stopped yourself before finishing that thought. What the hell? ā€œYeah, I came here with my friends from Korea soā€¦ What about you?ā€
ā€œIā€™m from the States. California, to be exact. I havenā€™t met anyone as beautiful as you in Cali, though.ā€, he continued flirting with you.
You moved a little closer. ā€œWe donā€™t have guys like you back home too, I guess it must be fate that we meet here, huh?ā€
You continued talking to him and you really hit it off until you felt someone tapping on your shoulder. ā€œWhat are you doing here alone and where are the others?ā€, Jisung said, looking skeptically at Cody.
ā€œIā€™m not alone. This is Cody, Cody this is one of my friends Jisung.ā€, you said and smiled brightly, also giving Jisung a look that said: Go away, Iā€™m having a blast here.
Jisung rolled his eyes and sat down next to you, ā€œWow Y/N, youā€™re quick. Meeting new people already!ā€
You rolled your eyes, ā€œHey, Cody. Here is my number. How about you call me and we do something together? I will be here for a week.ā€
Cody came close to your face to whisper, ā€œIā€™d like that. But next time, come alone.ā€, he said and winked at you. Then he got up and left.
Then you turned to Jisung, pissed. ā€œOkay, what was that? I clearly gave you a signal to leave!ā€
Jisung rolled his eyes, annoyed at you bickering with him. ā€œReally? That dude is no good news, Y/N. I was just scanning the situation. You donā€™t know him.ā€
You sighed, ā€œLook I appreciate it but really. I can take care of myself. So, where are the others? Over there is a party, letā€™s dance!ā€, you said, offering Jisung your hand.
He sighed and took it. ā€œDonā€™t embarrass me with your dance moves.ā€
You grinned, ā€œItā€™s on!ā€
On the dance floor, you danced the worst possible way, making Jisung move more and more away from you. Just as he was out of the dance floor, you took his hands and pulled him back in, which made him stumble a bit. He stood close to you, the close proximity between you making you feel differently.
Jisung then put his hands on your waist. ā€œLet me show you how to really dance!ā€, he said and made even weirder dance moves. You both were dancing the night away, laughing, and having fun. But he was really by your side the whole time, just like he told you he would. The next time you had to get rid of him to meet Cody alone.
But right now, you were having the time of your life with Jisung not annoying you for once. It was weird. The way he held your body, the way he looked at you. There was something in his expression that you couldnā€™t decipher. You had a warm, fuzzy feeling your stomach now. Jisung was giving you his most earnest, brightest smile right now. Maybe it was because of that.
ā€œI hope we donā€™t get a dancing ban.ā€, Jisung said, still laughing.
ā€œI donā€™t even care. They can stop us from dancing on this floor but the embarrassing moves will live on in our hearts.ā€, you said and smiling at him.
ā€œSpoken like a true queen!ā€, he said, agreeing with you.
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Throughout the next few days, you met Cody more often and he seemed really sweet. Just the summer romance you were looking for. Of course, things with Cody werenā€™t ever supposed to be serious but you have always imagined finding the perfect guy on a summer vacation. Just like in the movies he was way too perfect for you and sadly the distance separated you. Well, you at least imagined it to be like that.
You really didnā€™t know anything about him but you honestly didnā€™t care as long as he didnā€™t want to murder you. On the first evening you met Cody, Jisung coincidentally was there too.
You met him at the beach where you wanted to swim together a bit. Jisung sat down on his towel. He wasnā€™t next to you but his eyes were on you and Cody the whole time. How annoying. He then called your other friends over. Jihyo winked at you for finding such an attractive guy on your first day which earned herself a glare from Jisung.
On that evening there was a bonfire. You sat down next to Jisung during that bonfire. ā€œHey!ā€, you said, happily.
ā€œYou sound happy. Did Mr. America do that?ā€, he said sarcastically.
ā€œNah. Not only him. Iā€™m just enjoying everything.ā€
Jisung made you two some burned marshmallows. ā€œWell, I hope this can make you happy too!ā€, he said and gave you a hot marshmallow. ā€œBe careful though because-ā€œ
Before he could finish his sentence, you put the marshmallow in your mouth, making you squeak a little because of its temperature.
ā€œā€¦ Itā€™s still hot.ā€, Jisung finished his sentence. ā€œStop panicking dude! Let me helpā€, he said after seeing you frantically breathing. Jisung softly blew in your mouth to make the marshmallow cool down faster. He moved closer to you to do that.
This must look stupid. That was what you thought. You were burning your mouth and he was trying to help you like that? You must admit he looked cute doing that but you for sure didnā€™t look cute burning your mouth.
ā€œBetter?ā€, he asked and smiled at you.
ā€œY-Yeah. Thanks.ā€, you said swallowing the marshmallow. You didnā€™t know why but even small gestures like this made your heart swell. Jisung might be annoying but he is the sweetest boy you know.
ā€œNo marshmallows for you.ā€, he said and then put his arm around you. ā€œItā€™s a little cold.ā€, he said and used that as an excuse to move closer to you.
You blushed a little, ā€œHuh. Yeah, it is.ā€
That night you spent like that and every thought of Cody left your head.
On the second day, you invited Cody along to spend time with you and your friends. Cody got along with your friends, except for Jisung, because he didnā€™t even look at him. You went hiking to the Koko Crater Arch Trail to see the beautiful scenery of Hawaii from another point of view. Cody was with you the whole time, helping you to hike safely by holding your hand if the trail got too steep. Jisung was behind most of the time, not talking a lot. He was acting weirdly and you didnā€™t know why. But because you were busy trying not to break your leg, you couldnā€™t talk to him.
The others walked ahead already leaving you with Cody alone. ā€œSo that friend of yoursā€¦ Jisung, was it?ā€, Cody started as you walked slowly side by side.
You nodded, ā€œYeah? Why do you ask?ā€
ā€œHe doesnā€™t seem to like me. Does he have a thing for you or something?ā€
You burst out laughing, ā€œWhat? Jisung and me? No, he doesnā€™t even like me as a friend! I mean we have the same friend circle. Itā€™s not like we hate each other but yeahā€¦ That would be weird. Why do you think that?ā€
Cody laughed at your reaction. ā€œOh damn, sorry! Itā€™s just whenever I come near you or even touch you, he glares at me like he wants to kill me.ā€
ā€œHe is just a little protective sometimes, especially since we are in a foreign country, I guess. But he is like that with the other girls too.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t think so.ā€, he said and took your hand. ā€œSo, nothing is going on between the two of you?ā€, he asked.
You turned to him, brushing a strand of your hair behind your ear. ā€œI am single, that I can assure you.ā€
He gave you a full dimpled smile, ā€œI guess itā€™s okay if I do this then?ā€, he said and moved closer to you, his face inches away from yours. You gave him a nod and closed your eyes. The next thing you felt was his lips on yours. It was a little rough and he wasnā€™t the best kisser but hey, it was still sweet.
What you didnā€™t know was that a pair of eyes saw the whole thing as well. Jisungā€™s eyes widened. Chan sent him to look for you and Cody since you were separated from the group. But he didnā€™t expect you to lock lips with said boy. He felt angry and sad at the same time. He didnā€™t know what to do so he just took a deep breath and waited for you to stop exchange saliva.
You stopped kissing him, looking up at him. ā€œThat was nice.ā€
ā€œIt was. I hope that weā€™ll be doing more of that later?ā€, he asked you cheekily.
You smirked, ā€œIf you earn it, sure.ā€
ā€œKinky.ā€, he said and laughed with you.
You then heard someone clearing their throat. Jisung. Your eyes widened a little. You donā€™t know why but you panicked a little. Did he see you? ā€œOh! Since when are you here?ā€, you said wanting to find out if he saw all that.
ā€œJust arrived.ā€, Jisung lied, not wanting you to feel uncomfortable. ā€œChan thought you guys were lost soā€¦ Should we go? We should be at the scenic point soon.ā€, he said awkwardly.
You just nodded and took Codyā€™s hand. However, as soon as you saw Jisung stare at your hands you subconsciously let go and hiked the rest of the trail with the two boys.
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After that day things got very confusing between you and Jisung. The boy who swore you that he would stick to you like glue was nowhere to be seen. Usually, he was hanging out by the pool with Chan and Changbin. As soon as he saw you, he put on headphones or suddenly had to go to the hotel room. Something was off.
One evening you sat down with Jihyo and Taehee to ask them if they knew what was up with Jisung. You explained the situation and both looked at each other as if they knew something.
ā€œWhy are you looking at each other like that? Do you know something that I donā€™t know?ā€, you asked them, looking at them curiously.
ā€œThis isnā€™t something that we should tell you soā€¦ Iā€™m sure that the problem will be gone soon.ā€, Jihyo assured you and patted your back. ā€œHe has a lot to think about. Give him some time.ā€
Taehee nodded, ā€œYou know him. Everyone has bad days.ā€
You didnā€™t question the situation more. You knew they wouldnā€™t tell you more. Jisung and you had to talk sometime.
You and Cody however were in a ā€œhoneymoonā€ phase just like two people in a fresh relationship. You both knew that this relationship wouldnā€™t work out but you wanted to spend time a lot of time together. It wasnā€™t really a relationship but more like fooling around? But these last few days Cody acted a little weird. He was more distant than before. You didnā€™t spend all of your time with him but your friends still felt a little neglected.
Your vacation was about two weeks and before you knew it you only had three days left. After debating a long time, you have come to the conclusion that you needed to talk Jisung. He was once again hiding somewhere but with the help of Chan you found out he was at a beach bar. You quickly found him and sat down next to him.
ā€œWhatā€™s wrong with you?ā€, you said, quickly addressing the elephant in the room.
Jisungā€™s eyes widened at the sound of your voice. He turned to you. ā€œHi to you, too?ā€
ā€œShut up. You are totally avoiding me! Why?ā€
ā€œYou always tell me to leave you alone. Why are you bothered now?ā€, Jisung said with a fake disinterest in his voice.
ā€œThis is not the same situation and you know it!ā€, you said in a serious tone.
ā€œCan you stop talking so loudly? We are at a pretty crowded beach.ā€
You then stood up and took his arm to go to a more secluded part of the beach. ā€œCan I shout now?ā€
ā€œLook, I donā€™t know what your problem is but I ordered a cute cocktail with these little umbrellas in them soā€¦ā€, he said and wanted to leave but you pulled him back. He stumbled back and now your proximity was even closer.
ā€œI justā€¦ I didnā€™t imagine that most of my vacation would end up like thisā€¦ You are ignoring me.ā€
ā€œI didnā€™t imagine my vacation to be like this too, Y/N.ā€, he huffed.
ā€œIf you would tell me what your problem is then maybe I would understand you better!ā€
Jisung clenched his jaw and now he looked at you with anger his in eyes. ā€œReally?! You really donā€™t see anything? That Cody guy is playing with you! You spend more time with him than your actual friends!ā€
ā€œIs that the reason? Cody? Jisung, I am an adult who can take care of herself! I can do whatever I want!ā€
ā€œYou really donā€™t get it, do you? Iā€™m just looking out for you!ā€, Jisung shouted back at you.
ā€œI donā€™t need you to look out for me.ā€, you said, clearly angry. ā€œThat doesnā€™t explain why you have been avoiding me. The others told me this too. But they talked to me unlike you.ā€
Jisung took a deep breath to calm himself down and then looked at you. ā€œI told you the reason.ā€
ā€œNo, you didnā€™t! You are a coward, Han Jisung! Thatā€™s what you are!ā€
Out of anger Jisung walked up to you and took your face in his hands. In a matter of seconds, his lips were on yours. At first, you didnā€™t know how to react but you quickly closed your eyes. Unlike with Cody, Jisung knew how to kiss you properly. It felt right to kiss him. You couldnā€™t quite understand what was going on. But right at this moment, you didnā€™t mind Jisung kissing you.
You felt his hands wrapping around your waist, pulling you closer to him. His lips moved at the right pace and no matter how cheesy it sounded, it felt like you two were missing puzzle pieces.
You stopped kissing after realizing what was happening. You looked at him with wide eyes. ā€œWhyā€¦ why did you do that?ā€, you whispered, your forehead pressed against his still.
He was quiet for a few seconds. ā€œI was hopingā€¦ that I could finally make a move. I wanted to use this vacation to finally tell you how I feel. I know things have been really weird between. We are not exactly friends but we donā€™t hate each other. And from one to another I noticed that I really like bickering with you, talking to youā€¦ just thinking about you made me happy. Especially after our little dance competition on the first night, I wanted to tell you this.ā€
You flushed. Your cheeks felt hot. ā€œReally?ā€, you said. That was the only thing you could say right now.
ā€œBut after I saw the whole Cody thing I lost my whole confidence. Dude, how can I compete with someone who consists of muscles? And you were all lovey-dovey with himā€¦ I justā€¦ I donā€™t know. It scared me so I stayed away from you as far as I could. To be honest, I saw him fool around with another girl too. But you looked so happy, I didnā€™t want to ruin it.ā€
You sighed. ā€œIs that what you meant when you said he is playing with me?ā€
He nodded. ā€œIā€™m sorry.ā€
You felt like you should be sadder about the fact that Cody was fooling around with other girls. But you didnā€™t. You had your fun with him and it was never serious. But Jisungā€™s confession made you feel things that you never felt before.
ā€œDonā€™t apologize. Iā€™m sorry that I made you feel shitty this whole time. This vacation was supposed to be perfect.ā€, you sighed.
Jisung noticed that you never really answered his confession. Maybe, you didnā€™t like him back so you avoided talking about the kiss. Jisung sighed, ā€œWell, we should get back then?ā€
You nodded. ā€œThank you for talking to me.ā€
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The last three days were fun. You confronted Cody about the whole ā€œcheatingā€ thing. It wasnā€™t really cheating but you told him that you didnā€™t want to see him again. Things between you and Jisung were back to normal. Almost. You enjoyed the last days with your friends and it was the most fun youā€™ve ever had. You went swimming, drinking, dancing. Before you knew it the last night arrived.
During your last night, you asked Jisung to meet you at the balcony of your hotel room. Jisung saw you in your flowy summer dress. His eyes sparkled even brighter as soon as he saw you. You were leaning on the balcony railing and Jisung did the same.
ā€œHi.ā€, you said, blushing a little.
ā€œHi.ā€, he answered awkwardly.
ā€œLookā€¦ I just wanted to tell you that I didnā€™t forget about your confession.ā€, you started. ā€œItā€™s just I needed a little time to think and to process everything.ā€
ā€œI donā€™t want you to feel pressured, Y/N. Itā€™s okay if you donā€™t like me back.ā€, Jisung assured you with a hint of disappointment in his voice.
ā€œNo! What are you talking about?ā€, you said, giggling a little. You moved closer to him. This time you put your hands on his cheek. ā€œI like you a lot, Han Jisung.ā€, you then closed the distance between you.
Once again, kissing him felt nice. His soft lips on yours were the best feeling in the world. This kiss was shorter but still sweet. ā€œI just needed to sort this thing with Cody out because I fully want to commit myself to you, you know.ā€
Jisungā€™s hamster-like cheeks were now on fire. ā€œYou are the best, do you know that?ā€, he said and gave you another long kiss. ā€œIt feels nice to kiss you whenever I want to.ā€
ā€œYeah. I canā€™t believe that this is happening right now.ā€
ā€œMe neither, Y/N. Soā€¦ Are we like boyfriend and girlfriend now?ā€, Jisung innocently asked.
ā€œOf course. My boyfriend.ā€, you said and hugged his torso tightly.
On the plane ride back home your head was on Jisungs shoulder and his head was on top of yours. Your fingers were entwined and you were sleeping peacefully. You didnā€™t only go home with your new boyfriend. He was your home too. You never noticed before but he always was your home in a way. Only yours.
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hellooooo my legacy loves !! i hope lifeā€™s been treating you all well ! i know right now things are still pretty difficult ( as been all of 2020 tbh ), so i just wanted to flood the dash w a little positivity !!Ā  you know, sometimes i feel bad because it seems that i canā€™t connect with everyone as much as iā€™d like, and it sucks !! but between my spotty activity at times and bad response times i didnā€™t want you to think i loved you all any less. so !!! below you will find a love letter to all of you lovely muns as well as some individual comments about my favorite thing about your musesĀ everybodyĀ !Ā also, if you have lgc friends who arenā€™t really dash scrollers feel free to share this with them so that they can see !! anyways, go ahead andĀ enjoy šŸ˜‡šŸ’–
dear legacy,
okay - let me start by saying - i care for you sooooo so much !! and that goes for ALL of you reading this !! even if weā€™ve never talked, or you just joined, or we talk like every other month but never seem to catch each other at the right time ? i care for you !!! and donā€™t you ever forget it. honestly, legay is one of the healthiest places iā€™ve been in to develop my muse in a safe space, void of any judgement or just weird vibes. and that has to do with all of you, and iā€™d like to thank you for that !! our mods, of course, get a special hug for all that you guys do - i know that things can get hard, and we test your patience sometimes ... i get it !!Ā  but to us, youā€™re kinda like our rp parents ?? we might nag, joke, and annoy but itā€™s all out of love, we promise ahaha !! anywho, once again everyone iā€™ve met in legacy, has no lie been so special to me ?? and i want you guys to know that !! literally all of you, even if it was just a quick message, have made an imprint on the great rp experience iā€™ve had here and iā€™d like to thank you for that ! and no this isnā€™t me leaving, i promise iā€™m gonna stick around for a loong time to come ahaha. but honestly, who wouldā€™ve thought ? i was bouncing around from rp to rp, and i didnā€™t recall, if iā€™m being hoenst, expect anything to come out of me giving this place a shot for the 2nd time ? but iā€™m so grateful to have gotten such a wonderful experience that made me not want to leave. thereā€™s always things to do, muses to meet, and itā€™s crazy how well everyone keeps the dash flowing ! iā€™m always excited to look at what you and your muses are up too, and honestly iā€™m lowkey invested in all their little relationships lol ?? but thatā€™s what makes this place so special ! the friendships, the enemies, the romance, and everything in between has made this into such a unique writing atmosphere to be a part of. so for that, i say thank you. and hereā€™s to more legacy for years to come !!
now for the special portion of my letter !!! in alphabetical order, you will find a compliment of mine for your muse below !! phew, here i go :
(Ā  and pls ... if i forgot u ... i apologize 20000x !! PLEASE tell me lol !! obviously this is for muses who are here at the time of writing this 10/2/2020, and i may update ! but if your muse is here at that time and you donā€™t see them PLEASE tell me i want to write them something but i might have accidentallyĀ deleted someoneā€™s in the process of writing so many ! )
phunsawat kannikaĀ first of all i have the fattest crush on her fc ojoijjoioij !! anyways, i love the commitment to all her pages, all her character inspos are my favorite, and iā€™m really interested to see her adjustment to korea ! i think sheā€™s doing a great job already and will show that she can go even further !
yoon ariaĀ i havenā€™t got to say it yet but i LOVE how much of a meme she is oijoiiooij !! esp since sheā€™s a model, itā€™s fun to have one whoā€™s this cool model on camera but honestly so real and fun ?? like it gives her so much depth and iā€™m sure sheā€™ll develop a loyal fanbase of like-minded goofs ? i want her and nari to interact tbh haha !!
lee benjiĀ my KING ! i love seeing benji develop his sense of purpose and try to see what he wants to become in the long run, and also how heā€™s stayed true to himself even after mocing to a whole different country ! and of course, his commitment to caring for others !
pongsak teeĀ i ship jinseo and tee oijojoijoij !!!!!! anywho we love the thai representation, i really have enjoyed seeing teeā€™s progress over the past few months and how heā€™s adapting to slowly coming into the starlight ? it seems heā€™s still managed to maintain his kindness and i really enjoy that about him !
im nari is void because she is my muse but i love her very much hee hee !!
kang eunho first off as iā€™m writing this i see eunhoā€™s first words for his babysitting solo is him flipping out over how cute babies are and i just think thatā€™s adorable lol. but anywho ! eunhoā€™s such a little sunshine and def gives me baby energy ?? light of my life. heā€™s like legacyā€™s daily dose of vitamins !
im bomi hana ... my favorite girl who iā€™m in love with ojjojjoijioji !! i think hana is so weird and goofy in the BEST ways and sheā€™s an example of someone whoā€™s not a famous girl, but a girl who happened to get famous ? i love her for her quirks and all her uniqueness, gamer girls ftw, 10/10 main character material !
hwang minjun i also love shinha and minjun too lmao !!! they are ... v cute !! i love how warm minjunā€™s heart is from what iā€™ve seen, and how open and accepting he is to all types of people and welcomes them to his warm fuzzy heart !!! also i would like to personally thank him for taking max in when they were in tokyo max DOES NOT deserve !
kim jinah ah i love her sm !! i know it sounds like max talking, but i love how sheā€™s basically one of the bros lmao ?? but really ! i love her dually embracing of her cuter side and her more casual one, and how she just seems like the type of person you can have a drink and a good talk with ? and her interactions w junghwan stand out and give her an unexpected soft side !
lee yushin i feel like yushin is the younger brother we all wish we had but donā€™t deserve !! just a real fresh breath of air, definitely a little goofy but just as sweet ?? has the capability to win over even the coldest muses hearts ! and i am rooting for actor yushin 100%. you got this bud !!!!
kim nami somehow nami always pops up first on my dashboard but iā€™m not mad about it at all lol !! and i think nami is actually very multi-dimensional ! she already seems pretty sure of where she wants herself to go, and i think sheā€™s going to make a really good senior to mentor junior trainees once sheā€™s debuted for a bit ! she def will come correct !!!Ā 
lin yue the way iā€™m SO invested in guessing what sheā€™s eating but never can .... ahh !! also she loves martial arts which means nari would love her if she knew her uwu. anyways to me sheā€™s quite the baddie, i feel like sheā€™s got her toes dipped in a lot of things and therefore will be very versatile in what she can do ? i really love that ( outside of her outstanding visuals ) she actually has a v good personality and niche interests !
ahn dohwan i have promised myself i wouldnā€™t put any emphasis on fcs but since vernon is one of my ults i literally have to say: TASTE. anywho lmao !! dohwan gives me cafe boy vibes ?? hear me out. could totally see him making someone a macchiato while listening to their problems and offering advice ? he just seems like a v good listener & adviser ! i think once he debuts for real for real heā€™s gonna have a lot of bf material made by fans haha !!
leong charlotte first of all i just need to comment i saw a while ago on the dash when charlotte covered i wait and that was ?? iconic ??? we stan ??? streamday6pls ahem anyways ! her being in a band itself makes her an instant baddie, but beyond that she also seems v kind & passionate from what iā€™ve seen ! sheā€™s got the cute & the fierce, and because of that i think sheā€™ll be fierce competition in the industry once she debuts !
choi max is my muse however as my first bb here i love him deeply heart heart !!
jung ahin i will not lie i did not know seungwoo before i saw ahin, then realized he kinda looked like wonwoo and started to simp ?? IOJOIJOJ anyway this is more of an ooc note but thank u ahinā€™s mun for bringing me to the light šŸ˜‡anyways !! i want ahin to do more things to make himself happy bc i think he really is this close to living his best life !! i want something really really good to make him super happy yk ? also i support his english learning journey !
kang jaemin HI ME REALIZING I NEED TO MESSAGE U BACK Iā€™M SORRY SCREECH anyway !! he has a very warm presence, i feel like even when he debuts heā€™ll be the approachable type ? but also heā€™s just so smiley and i love it !! such a little fuzzball !! i do feel like more is going on in jaeminā€™s head than people would think, though ??
lee jaewoo listen jaewoo is my baby ok ... and heā€™s nariā€™s too ! also btw did you ever get that birthday text from her own his acc ? anyways iā€™m going wayy of topic letā€™s regroup lol !! i honestly admire the level of passion and drive he has so young, and heā€™s already come so far ? jaewoo has a lot of love in his heart for people and i hope he keeps that even after years of acting ! he truly is the light of lgc agency uwu !
seo yura i feel like yura is v real ! i think she only hides the things she feels are nessescary about herself, but to me she still comess off as really genuine ? it seems she has many types of connections present in her life, which i really like ! i think sheā€™ll do really good at holding her own once itā€™s time for her official debut and iā€™m excited to see whatā€™s ahead !
kang jun i think jun doubts himself far more than he realizes just how much heā€™s capable of !! jun is so adorable and he might hate me for saying that but it is what it is !! i donā€™t think heā€™s recognized his true power yet, and though thatā€™s sort of good at humbling him, i think he will be a beast when he becomes fully confident ?? and i believe he will !! i think getting a proper fanbase will show him just how much he can do !
Ā ji haneul okay haneul made it to type zero, so tbh he already has his life together more than half of us ?? IOJOIJOJ no but for real i think haneul is a trueĀ  āœØprofessional āœØeven if he wouldnā€™t believe me if i told him ? although HE might not be so confident in it, i think haneulā€™s growing into his more mature self well and itā€™ll actually help him in the long run as he starts his journey in the idol industry !
kang jina you know what ? i think jina would be a really good leader in her group, if she were to debut as an idol ! i think she has really good communication skills and seems to just vibe with everyone around her ? which is important, as a leader ! but i also feel like she could lighten the mood and kay down the rules depending on which is needed ? thatā€™s just how i feel ! i think sheā€™d do well <3
seo geonwoo first of his theme is so aesthetically pleasing wow ?? anywho ! i do really enjoy geonwoo and honestly need to pay him more attention !Ā  i honestly respect the fact that he knows his own power, and isnā€™t afraid to be confident in himself ? he just seems v sure of how he wants to live his life which makes him seem v stable, and def in the right direction ! i think he most often knows whats best for himself, and thatā€™s a really valuable skill to have !
ok miyoung first off i DEFININTELY whole-heartedly ship miyoung and hunji, i do !! šŸ˜Œ but yes miyoung def has romcom protagonist vibes, and i mean that in the best way possible ?? like sheā€™s got quite a lot of things going on for her simultaneously, all while trying to discover things about herself too ?? i empathize with the level of chaos in her life but i think sheā€™s handling it all very well and itā€™s exciting to read about !
son nabi nabi my ANGEL. i didnā€™t even know nabi too well prior to us plotting but now iā€™m so glad that i do !! she has the kindest heart and is willing to go out of her way, even for people she isnā€™t that close to, just out of the good of her heart ? and i think thatā€™s so powerful ! sheā€™s so baby and i vow to protect her from all the horrors of the entertainment industry because sheā€™s a prime example of light amongst darkness !
ahn jaehwa you knowww jaehwaā€™s my girl šŸ˜š i just love her adventurous spirit, and how she definitely is filled with more mischief than she may show on first impression ? i think she can use that to her advantage, and it will translate really well as charisma !! her and maxā€™s first interaction showed me just how much of a daredevil she can be and i love it ! psa, we need to plot again !Ā Ā 
lee yohan first of yushina nd yohanā€™s broken friendship is some .... tea šŸµ iā€™m intrigued ... really i am !! i kinda wanna give him a massage chair for his birthday because i feel like there really is a lot of internal conflict going on in his head ? def hoping he achieves the dream od getting famous before heā€™s forced to enlist and drop his dreams, and in return for my support i am expecting free starbucks coffee on him, lol !!
bae nathan i honestly didnā€™t even realize just how iconic nathan is until we started plotting ? him and max share a lot of similarities, which i love, but beyond that he just is such a real dude who kinda just seems ... ok with being not perfect ? and i enjoy that ! heā€™s accepting the fact that he makes mistakes and knows that thatā€™s ok. i feel like in the future heā€™d have a fire podcast ?? like i just feel like itā€™d be so real and entertaining !
han allie first of all, happy ( belated ? ) birthday to allie !!! second of all, producers in general are always just so interesting to me ? i feel like even though sheā€™s still finding it, allieā€™s rather focused on creating a sound for herself and making it different ? def has the drive to make her dreams a reality, and i know sheā€™ll do well ! allie, fighting !
kim junghwan i think junghwan has a heart of gold ! heā€™s good at working with others and def would have nice personality to just sit and talk about life with ! i think he also has a lot of hobbies and interests that are v cute and soft boi, so heā€™s definitely gonna attract the soft stans !! heā€™s another person i feel would make great leader material some day. also ship him and jinah all the way šŸ˜‰
kim alex first off i LOVE luna she is my pride and joy .... i feel v embarrased i think we were supposed to thread and i forgot ! but that beside the point !! i feel like he does have crazy duality ?? at some points itā€™s likeĀ ā€œwow, nice man, pet parent of the yearā€ and other times itā€™s like ā€œwow this man is wilding did he just say that ??ā€ but ... the way i love both !! itā€™s so interesting seeing his conflicts and how he deals with other people, but maybe thatā€™s the messy mun in me šŸ™Š
ahn jaesun jaesun !! a king. first off i said it to danbiā€™s mun before but i am just putting it out there i love him & danbi together i do, i ship it !!! secondly i think, maybe because heā€™s been around for a quite awhile, but you ( the mun ) seem to have a very good grasp on his character ? i think heā€™s had really significant but gradual development, sort of coming out of his shell and expanding the things heā€™s willing to take on ! and i love that for him.
yoon shinha let me repeat that minjun and shinha - i ship it !!! i donā€™t even know hwo to describe it but i just love the energy shinha exudes !! itā€™s fun, playful, and full of energy, and i think thatā€™ll transfer really well on stage !! heā€™s the type of guy whoā€™s just down for whatever and i feel like he could befriend anybody if he really wanted to ! i like that about him and think heā€™ll have no problem getting along w whoever he works with in the future !
kyo miyeon my queen .... oh how i love her ! šŸ˜£ā¤ i think miyeonā€™s got a cold exterior with a soft interior ?? like sheā€™s sososo composed and a little cold on the outside, but in reality sheā€™s just over here loving animals and the simple things in life ? i think once she debuts sheā€™s going to have fans have v passionate debates about whether they like her cool or soft side more since theyā€™re both so prominent and so good !!
lĆøvehjerte emil first off emil being from denmark and his name immediately stood out to me when he was accepted, and to me makes him v unique ? also doyoung rights ;) i like how well he seems to adapt to the situations presented to him, even if theyā€™re new and unfamiliar to him ! i think he has his ability to keep his cool, but is still learning a lot from being a trainee and proving he can definitely grow beyond what heā€™s already accomplished !
jung miso miso is the baddest b no one can change mt mind oijoijoijo !!!!! but no for real i always have admired miso even if i havenā€™t got to interact w her on my muses too much ? at first i def got vibes of the popular girl everyone wants to be just like ? but iā€™ve realized sheā€™s a loot more ! she has ( shrek vc ) layers, and i think itā€™s good to see someone who has a lot of things people would see as ideal, but without being unobtainable !
nam yunho yunho intrigues me so much !! iā€™m sad max hasnā€™t gotten to interact with him yet lol !! i feel like in this i keep comparing muses to character types but - just take a journey with me ok soijioiofoijfio !! i so see yunho as one of those guys in the movies about small town whoā€™s family has has a business there for years and heā€™s the chill guy who shows the main character around town ? AND THATā€™S A GOOD THING LMAO ! i feel like heā€™s just immensly chill and always is just vibing and down for a good time ! <3
jo jiwoo i think jiwoo is so exceptionally cute !! but donā€™t underestimate her because to me she also does have a very fiery spirit ?? and i love it !! def would have the potential to be a maknae on top and i am here for it !! but since she wants to be an actor i def see her even stealing the hearts of the staff ?? the best example of a puppy in real life iā€™ve ever seen !
na sera first of all being a twin is automatically cool so thereā€™s that ?? but also !! i like how hard sheā€™s fighting to prove her own, individual self worth ! iā€™m definitely excited to see how sheā€™ll find herĀ ā€œthingā€ that really riles her up and makes her feel passionate ? and that maybe sheā€™ll decide the idol thing is for her and go forward with it as a career !
min soyoun i think soyounā€™s definitely go the girl next door charm, she defintiely seems like the type who you could be friends with easily, and i think sheā€™ll maintain that even when sheā€™s more famous ! she gives me free spirit vibes, and i think that even if she doesnā€™t know how, life will somehow work to make sure she always does well ! sheā€™s defintiely proved her individuality and i think sheā€™ll stand out from most around her !
geum danbi ugh danbi ... the way iā€™m obsessed with her ! i mentioned this already but her and jaesun ? cute we ship it !! i am a stan, i am ! anyways i think that danbi is so powerful, and i donā€™t mean that jokingly ! she does hold a very commanding presence for me, and i really respect her resilience in continuing to fight for her debut, even after being discouraged numerous times in the past ! i think thatā€™ll make her debut all the more worth it, as she has taken the time to get even better and improve her skills !
jang taesung taesung ... the way i really am fascinated by him ! i donā€™t even interact w him on my muses but heā€™s still so entertaining to me !! heā€™s so casual and i just enjoy seeing his interactions ? he isnā€™t afraid to be authentically him, and though he doesnā€™t really show it in his words all the time heā€™s got a lot of emotions swirling around there ! he do ... he do be messy sometimes i get it ?? heā€™s a lil problematic ?? but it entertains me so we will take it !
song ahri ok i donā€™t want to claim this bc iā€™m not COMPLETELY sure but do i have permission to ship her and geonwoo .... i saw their thread on the dash and theyā€™re so cute what šŸ˜ššŸ’– ( revision : they are together i can say this lol !!! ) anywho onto ahri things ! she just seems like the sweetest person EVER sheā€™s v gentle with her words and actions, and definitely seems like a comforter of sorts ? i think that, whoever she gets close to, would def have her to lean on in hard times ! sheā€™s likeĀ 
son seolmi first of congrats on seolmi as the new musical actress !! we need more of them >.< but i feel like when seolmi looks back on her training experience sheā€™ll be very proud of herself ! she has made a lot of improvements over her training period, found her passions, and worked to prove herself ! but i think, although sheā€™s working v hard, sheā€™s also doing twice as good at maintaining her friendships and being good to the people around her !
seo minseok minseok a true angel !! i know we havenā€™t gotten to write together in a while, but seeing his thread w nari we had i saw how kind he was ! heā€™s loyal to the people he calls friends, open to trying new things, and i think in the future when he gains experience heā€™ll be a really great mentor to the people who he precedes !Ā 
oh max ok first off i feel like i cannot not say this everytime i see him on the dash or a thread with him iā€™m constantly in a state of confusion about which max it is oijoioiiojaojoi ?? but !! iā€™m despite their names, theyā€™re actually pretty different ! because unlike max choi, oh max is has a very loving and warm personality, and even though he comes from money you couldnā€™t really tell by his personality ?
park dohyun i def want him and max to interact together, side note !! because theyā€™re both goofs and, of course, we need as many lgc boys connections as we can ! but anywho, i love dohyun, as i feel muses such as him are v necessary ! he definitely provides comic relief, and even though he doesnā€™t like to reveal his emotions, that just reveals another component to his emotional depth ! even if he isnā€™t someone who is vulnerable, i think it is great he does his best to make others happy !!
lee jiho i mean can i pls just adopt jiho as my child ?? heā€™s so cute oijjoijoij !! i think all though heā€™s ambitious and knows what he wants in life, heā€™s also realistic with himself and knows what he can expect and how to work toward a clothes ! itā€™s a trait not everyone has so i like that he does ! i think heā€™s also enough of a positive thinker that throughout any troubles he may have, heā€™ll get through it with a nice mindset !
lee hanbyul i think that once debuted officially officially, hanbyul will definitely grow in popularity almost immediately ! sheā€™s already done well at gaining the hearts of fans even when she was a trainee, and with so many friends and opportunities under her belt sheā€™ll get big in no time ! i think sheā€™ll definitely be well known and that sheā€™ll bring multiple fandoms together because itā€™s just hard not to like her !
jung jihye i love jihye !! sheā€™s so raw and rolling with all the punches life has given her ? even after a rocky start to her career, sheā€™s ready to give it a second chance, and although she went through a lot of bullying discovered a newfound love for acting ! i think that her dedication to being happy will show in her passion for whatever she acts in in the future, and iā€™m excited to see how the public perceives her !
tsai sunisa isa is the ultimate chill dude haha !! i think that heā€™s very calm and level-headed, while not coming off as careless ? although heā€™s very casual, he clearly does care about the otherā€™s around him, and i think for him that shows in the little details rather than the big things ? i think heā€™s the type of person who does well at picking up on the energies of others, and noticing small details about them !Ā  v v cool šŸ’–šŸ˜Œ
shin yeseo u KNOW me and max are collectively whipped for her oijoijoi !!! no but honestly, from what iā€™ve viewed of yeseo from an outside perspective, sheā€™s goes beyond the socially required level of thoughtful ? she really does listen to everyoneā€™s perspective and do what she thinks is best for everyone involved and i really like that ! i also like that the simple things are enough to make her very happy, and that she puts her all into the ones she cares for !Ā 
kang yonghwa i love how in love yonghwa is in with life, and how bright his spirit is !! he has such a ... sunshine spirit ? thatā€™s the best way i can put it ! heā€™s just so positive the majority of the time, and i feel he has the ability to see the best traits of others and bring that out of them ! i also love his sense of adventure, and i think heā€™ll be a favorite for fans in no time ! kang yonghwa, 10 / 10, our best boy !!
kim hyunbin hyunbin reminds me of a cartoon character, in the best way ! heā€™s definitely very theatrical, and also has a more playful, teasing side to him ? i think that everyone needs a hyunbin in their life because heā€™s very considerate of the emotions of the people around him, and on top of that has a lot of interests and boosts any social scenario !
choi jinyoung jinyoung ... an angel ! itā€™s so my fault we donā€™t but we should plot more ! uwu anywho ! first off, happy belated birthday to him ! i noticed that during our to the max thread, despite being a little overwhelmed by human tsunami max choi, he stayed very polite and was open to trying a new experience out, and for that i really gained respect for him ! i think heā€™s a v soft boy but i donā€™t think heā€™s weak at all, in fact maintaining his kindness for others has shown my just how strong he is !!Ā  šŸ˜‡šŸ˜‡
oh eunhye just like her article says, eunhye has a real knack for entertaining and i think itā€™s already begun to show ! i think her authenticity easily transfers to the camera, and that it makes people love her all the more ? she has the type of hypnotizing personality that makes people want to get to know her, and i donā€™t think itā€™s coincidence that sheā€™s had the opportunities that sheā€™s had already come to her !
oh gitaek congrats on becoming a producer gitaek !! clap clap !! hehee but i think gitaek is very adaptable ! even in environments when he doesnā€™t want to do anything, heā€™s going to push through - like dancing, for instance ! also him and hyunbinā€™s dynamic ?? v interesting. iā€™m invested on seeing where it goes ! i think gitaek has a lot of potential, much of which heā€™s already showing, and i think heā€™ll have no problem discovering himself fully and becoming big !
son alec just gotta say i always mix him and alex up on accident i wanna scream oijooi !! but also while scrolling his page and saw this:Ā ā€œ old people are amazing, is the conclusion heā€™s come to yet againĀ  ā€ and i just wanna say i love him for that ojojoioij !! but anyways, alec gives me the vibe of a young adult still sort of finding their way, and i really love that ! he enjoys what he does but still has doubts, and i think that little back and forths very important ! i hope he becomes a super famous actor and achieves all his dreams !
son jieun i love how much jieun cares for her friends !! she was bold enough to straight up call taesung out for mistreating allie and tbh ... kinda in love with that energy ?? i think her bravery goes beyond even just this though, as sheā€™s already tried many new things that others may have strayed away from in fear ! her sense of justice and determination is something i admire and honestly i feel like if it wasnā€™t for her obvious career path sheā€™d be a great lawyer haha !!
nam jueun itā€™s the way i want to claim that i indeed am one of seojin & jueunā€™s biggest fans ... i am šŸ˜ŒāœŒ but listen !! i have to respect jueun for the way that sheā€™s managed to repair a damaged relationship AND work on herself and her career at the same time ? and both are going good ! sheā€™s also got a real edge to her, and i feel like she doesnā€™t realize just how cool she is ?? we stan !
park seojin now we alr know ... seojin is one of the muses i am most whipped for in legacy i cannot lie iā€™m sorry !!! listen ,,, i love my tsundere !! heā€™s had exceptional development, but in really small yet significant ways, and heā€™s grown so much in the time heā€™s been here ! in terms of max, heā€™s definitely starting to take on a more nurturing role, and in term of himself, getting a better idea of who he is as an artist and a person and i think thatā€™s gonna really show when his band debuts ! also think heā€™ll be a strict yet incredibly respected mentor when the day comes ? anyways iā€™ll just say i l*ve park seojin and go šŸ˜­šŸ’”
lee jiae lee jiae, the apple of my eye !! i was astounded how much kindness could be fit into one small body ?? even in situaitons she doesnā€™t like, she maintains her bright spirit that brings people to her in the first place, and i think that comforts the people around her if theyā€™re having a hard time as well ! but i think she also does have a bit of a chaotic side when panicked and i do love it i do !! do not underestimate lee jiae everyone i am betting all my money on the fact that she can beat some ass !!
hwang sori first of all her theme made me gasp itā€™s literally so incredibly gorgeous omg ?? but !! the first thing i read was hwang sori is an ugly crier and that made ME ugly cry with laughter LMAOWAOOA !!Ā  even though sheā€™s relatively new iā€™ve already come to love how out of the box and unapologetically her she is ! she has so much to offer, both on and off stage, and i know sheā€™s destined to be a star ! iā€™m already so invested and excited to see what she does in the future !
lee aaron aaron !! our dad of the year sobs. of course, my favorite thing about aaron is how nurturing he is ! he has no problem taking care of others, and i think that although itā€™s easy for younger / less experienced trainees to be intimidated by those above them, aaron removes that stigma completely ! truly a gentle soul. my only complaint about aaron is that heā€™s so selfless that i feel he sometimes forget about himself, so aaron please eat more and take care of your health oijoijoioij !!Ā 
lee youngmin the way i love youngmin !! i was so touched by his patience when he helped my baby nari get herself together when it came to learning lines for cram school ! it proved to me that heā€™s a v caring person, and even if acting was sort of a sore subject for him, he still went through with helping her ! and that brings me to my next point - congrats for joining the actors youngmin !! i admire him for giving something heā€™s apprehensive about another shot, and iā€™m so incredibly excited to see how it goes for him !
song yifei ok even though i donā€™t know yifei too well yet seeing her intro did help me see why iā€™m going to love her so much !! i appreciate her adaptation to such an unusual environment like korea, and although iā€™m sure sheā€™s homesick and a little lost sheā€™s already doing her part to adjust to life in korea ! starting so young, i have to admire her work ethic and her strength by not giving up ! iā€™m excited to see what she can offer us all !Ā 
hwang minsik ok so !! even though minsik is quite the introvert, i think itā€™s v cool that he has worked past that, and although it may have been uncomfortable, got more comfortable performing in front of others ! i think that being in his head for the majority of the time will actually prove to work in his favor, as itā€™ll be easier to transfer all the emotions heā€™s feeling into his music when he locks down and pursues his dream of being a producer !
tsuchiya mitsuki from what iā€™ve seen, mitsuki seems to be very considerate of others, and i like that she celebrates otherā€™s accomplishments outside of just her own ! the entertainment career can be a very risky and sometimes scary one, but i think that sheā€™s doing a great job at rolling with it and putting her all into forming it into a serious career path for herself !
yamashita ichika i think she put it best - sheā€™s new to korea, but not this world !! i love love LOVE how sure of herself ichika is, and though it may come off as blunt, maybe yā€™all arenā€™t just ready to accept the truth sheā€™s spilling ... šŸ‘€ lMAO no but for real !! sheā€™s a woman who knows what she wants and i never will be mad at that ! you can never say that ichika doesnā€™t keep it real and i think thatā€™s something we need to learn from her !
hwang subin i think subin is incredibly self-aware, which really is such a super important trait to have ?? heā€™s had a lot of conflicts over his training period, but heā€™s overcame them, and to me he holds a lot of grace even in those scenarios he has this sort of ... calmness to him ? idk maybe thatā€™s subjective but thatā€™s how i feel ! i think in the end heā€™s going to turn the pain into power, and heā€™ll be one of the people really idolized for their resilience !
kim minjee i feel like along her path to fame, sheā€™s learning all sorts of new things about herself in the industry, and that feeling of self-discovery is awesome ! i think sheā€™s a really good example of the changes people go through throughout their path toward stardom ! i think she does her best to embrace both the highs and lows life brings her, which i think is preparing her to be a really steady person when it comes to being famous !
im hyunjin my baby !! the way i love him beyond measure !! he gets along with max so well and i love how well they balance off each otherā€™s energy ! heā€™s got a boyish charm that helps me remember that yes, a lot of the trainees are still kids at heart, and that reminder is v refreshing ! though a lot has been thrown on him with this trimester, heā€™s been a good sport, and i think heā€™s such an accurate representation of someone whoā€™s growing up in the spotlight ! i think itā€™s enough for me to excuse him mixing up the maxs. šŸ˜ššŸ˜Œ
okamoto akira what a wonderful soul ugh !! he really did impact nariā€™s heart with his unconditional kindness. i think heā€™s grown even in his time in the rp alone ? heā€™s so kind to others, and i love how he holds interest in other people and their stories ! even though heā€™s still getting adjusted to life in korea, i think heā€™s doing a great job at getting his name out there while making a good impression of himself. but like i said about aaron pls, akira, take care of yourself more !! you deserve the best, heart heart !!
jeon haeun haeun has such an intense drive when it comes to her love for dance and performing, and i hope she never loses that ! itā€™s the most important thing, after all ! sheā€™s got such a spunky personality, which will work in her favor as it will keep eyes on her even after sheā€™s off the stage ! sheā€™s a baby, being so young, but already has proved herself to have a worthy place in legacy, and i think sheā€™s even got the capability to teach the older trainees a thing or two, haah !
park viggo i definitely respect viggo, because of the insecurities that have developed from his biological parents putting him up for adoption, heā€™s shone so brightly already at such a young age ! and i just read his solo w / his encounter with his biological father and - literal chills ?? but .... phew ! iā€™m so impressed by how heā€™s had so many horrible experience influence his life, but not let it overtake him ? heā€™s so strong and if he can handle what life has already thrown at him, i know heā€™ll have nothing but good to look forward to from now on !
techaapaikhun kit i donā€™t think iā€™ve had the chance to tell you yet .... but god i LOVE kit oijoioi !! heā€™s such a loveable ball of fluff ! he has a very big heart, and i feel like even when he doesnā€™t know exactly what to do or whatā€™s going on heā€™s still very much šŸ˜ŠšŸ’–āœØ ?? you would never think heā€™s a foreigner because he just seems in high spirits ! also him and daehyungā€™s interactions ? 10 / 10 in terms of entertainment, definitely deserves a read !
ahn yein i love the short queen energy this woman exudes !! her duality is already quickly becoming my favorite thing about her ?? sheā€™s so this and this ! i truly cannot wait to see how sheā€™ll let her musical style influence the type of music she produces, and i think sheā€™s a producer full of energy who has the potential for being famous for her music and her own personality !
seo yumi though yumi did go through a lot of hardship with her first debut, i really respect her for fighting to prove she deserves a spot in a group for a second time, even if the first time wasnā€™t even her fault ! i think because of it, even if her lightā€™s dimmed a little, her enhanced discipline will work in her favor, as well as her prior experience, and potentially give her a step up among others ! which, hopefully, will make the hardships she went through not to be in vein !
han insoo insooā€™s gone through quite a bit, and though iā€™d imagine that to be incredibly tough on him, he hasnā€™t lost his shine ! he still has a brightness to him when interacting around the people he loves, and i think thatā€™s what it takes to be in a band ! i wish nothing but the best for him, because honestly, i think heā€™s just trying to get by and have a good time, and i really have to respect it !
choi jongsuk okay so from what i see jongsuk is a tad manipulative in the way he interacts with people ... and yet ... i stan ? obviously this isnā€™t a very good trait, but it is entertaining, especially for a messy mun like me haha !! i think, if he wants to, he can actually use his particularly good social skills to his advantage, and become a charmer among his fans !
choi daehyun omg prince daehyun rise !!! i always love the spoiled rich boy types, because to me, they have the most room for growth ! if iā€™m being honest with you as ... awful as heĀ  might be i think heā€™s one of those trainees who would 100% give everyone a run for their money ? because if he doesnā€™t have anything ( beside money ofc ) he has confidence, and well .... confidence is a dangerous thing !! iā€™m really really anticipating seeing how heā€™ll get along with the other trainees, and his journey in legacy !!
chwe hunji phew .... my adoptive son !! i admit i am slightly biased to hunji i am i am what about it !!! šŸ˜ŒšŸ’– i gush about him all the time so iā€™ll keep it ( relatively ) short - i donā€™t think hunji realizes, but given the whirlwind of events thatā€™s happened in less than a year, heā€™s doing a fantastic job of both grieving and growing !! heā€™s been able to look out for those who need him most even in his darkest times, put up with maxā€™s shenanigans even amongst trying to decipher his feelings for him, and adapted to a ever-changing climate that comes with being a trainee in his hardest year ! not to mention how much heā€™s grown since his arrival !! his development ?? chefā€™s kiss !
kang dongwon first of all already massive respect to dongwon for doing school and training at the same time ?? thatā€™s already difficult in itself ! but i think heā€™s taken a lot of risks despite not necessarily wanting to, like expanding outside of activities heā€™d expected that he would do ! itā€™s good for him to dip his toe into numerous places, and heā€™ll be less thrown off if heā€™s asked to do something unexpected in the future. also him & his relationship w his siblings is the best haha !!
park sarang first off seojin and sarang together are such a cool duo !! the concept of siblings in the industry is honestly so cool ?? but anywho ! but i soso admire sarang !! even though she was initially was following her brotherā€™s dream, itā€™s gradually morphed into her own, and she really has developed an individual name for herself, which shows her passion and determinism ! i also love how they have a healthy relationship, even with normal sibling fights, without getting into super super competitive territory ?? that just shows her capability to love & thatā€™s great !
kim jinseo first off !! his familial relationship w shinha ? we love to see it ! cutest cousins on the block ! but what i admire about jinseo is how stable he is ! i think he can help people and handle his own problems without getting too stressed, heā€™s a good problem solver and i think he can calm down and figure out the best way to approach a situation ? also once again him & tee ? cute, we ship it šŸ˜Š
kim ara first off, friend of the year award goes to ara for helping hanbyul through her breakup and working around processing her emotions ! and also that sheā€™s pretty mature in handling her own breakup w / nathan ! that brings me to the point that i feel ara is a thoughtful person, who definitely sees the good even in bad scenarios and tries to think of the positives that come out of her life, even if it can be difficult to do so !
jin eunji now we know thatā€™s my queen !!!!! i honestly love seeing eunjiā€™s development, and sheā€™s much more of a deep character than she shows on the outside ?? and thereā€™s even more left for others to discover about her ! sheā€™s trying to work through her shit but I like her because sheā€™s the realest depiction of someone whoā€™s growing - because itā€™s not particularly nice or cute ?? itā€™s rough but itā€™s real, sheā€™s struggling to grow and move through her emotions but sheā€™s growing nonetheless and i love that for her !!!
park seon seon is def the type of girl who is just sort of taking it day by day, and i respect it so much !! she has a lot to discover of herself and what she wants to do, but quite honestly i like that about her !! i think that sheā€™s still young and def doesnā€™t need to stress about it, and i like that sheā€™s just sort of flowing in whichever direction that life wants to take her ! i can only imagine how far sheā€™ll go when she discovers her true potential !
lim sanghyun i feel like sanghyun really is prepared for any situation thatā€™s thrown at him, even if he feels like he canā€™t do it !! i mean, since birth heā€™s had tons of bad cards thrown at him, and yet he always manages to turn them into something good ? although it may seem like he doesnā€™t have good fortune, to me, it seems he has the opposite, because he always finds a way out the trenches !! i think sanghyunā€™s legacyā€™s phoenix !
choi daehyung omg daehyung has been a favorite of mine since he came !! i love peeking at the many relationships he has bc theyā€™re tbh so interesting !! he's honestly fit to be a main character in a show ? and i think, despite what daehyung thinks, heā€™s grown a lot in the time heā€™s been here ! to me, heā€™s more aware of his emotions, and more reflective of the choices he makes ! sure heā€™s got some things to work on but letā€™s be real .... donā€™t we all ?
lau mike mike is such a breath of fresh air !! def a roll with the punches kind of guy - reminds me of those popular kids where itā€™s just like ... dang, things always seem to be go well for them ?? iā€™m jealous ?? but i think more of that has to do with mike rather than him just having good luck ! he does good at adapting & working hard, from moving to korea, to changing careers, to now training ! he seems to excel and everything he does and i have no doubt that will help him out in the long run !
li zimeng meng is so pretty !! but sheā€™s also SO much more !! this whole thing of her feeling average, and like she didnā€™t really stand out in comparison to the other trainees .... itā€™s so real !! and honestly, so good for her ! even though she doesnā€™t feel special always, i KNOW she is, but i think itā€™s also great she has this good foundation ? because rather than being good at only 1 thing and realizing in the long run she hates it, zimeng has the potential to be super well-versed and i think sheā€™ll be more aware of what she needs to work on to improve !
tsai king truly our king ... and i donā€™t mean that ironically !! i looove kingā€™s development, i truly love to see it !! though heā€™s still got his pride, i think heā€™s transformed his confidence from blind cockiness to a reason for him to want to work hard and succeed ?? king definitely had things to work on, but he has worked on them, and i think heā€™s truly proved his place in legacy in the long time heā€™s been here !! also thoroughly impressed w how much heā€™s done !
baeĀ dohaĀ i think that if I had to describe doha, it would beĀ ā€œ proceed with cautionĀ ā€ !! heā€™s a cautious person, i feel, who wants the balance between having a good life and keeping himself grounded ? which is a really good type of personality, and I think it would make him a leader for those around him ! heā€™s also very observant, and i think that will make him much more meticulous of a person as an actor !
song shaun first of all i gotta still thank shaun for doing tiktok dances with max back in the day !!!! that was iconic and i will never forget it lol !! andĀ i'm so glad heā€™s back. anyways, i think shaun is definitely the type of person thatā€™ll stay true to himself even after becoming famous, he seems v carefree, but also w/o not losing that ambition to work hard ??Ā 
pongsak arinya arin is so freaking adorable !!! i think sheā€™s like a puppy and I love it !! sheā€™s so curious about the way around her, i think she just loves what life has to offer her and in turn life loves her ?? she has such a playful and optimistic light about her and to me, itā€™s impossible not to want to be her friend !! her fans will easily love her <33
jeon haru to me, haru seems like a team player !! he listens to the input of otherā€™s, and i think before rushing to do what he wants to do, itā€™s in his spirit to think of how his actions affect other people ! and i think thatā€™s shown in how heā€™s babysitting on the show, even though heā€™s a little panicked ! i also think heā€™s a good self-soother, heā€™s good at helping calm himself down and make himself feel better, and to me thatā€™s so great !!
liu jiao I think sheā€™s doing a great job at making her reality one she enjoys ! sheā€™s struggling to find the differences between her dreams and her moms, what she wants and what she doesnā€™t ! and still, i believe that sheā€™s doing well and spreading love to those around her despite ! i hope she finds full inner peace and that she can live a life of happiness ( and a little wrecklessness tbh ) without any worries !!
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Golden Time - Part 12
> Pairing: Hybrid Jeon Jungkook x Reader
> Summary: Y/N has been rescuing and recovering hybrids her entire life. Now she has inherited her grandparents hybrid sanctuary. It was a normal rescue, get the hybrid, recover him and give him a choice, stay on the sanctuary or find a life for himself. Why was this one so different?
> Genre: Hybrid!au, romance, smut, angst, fluff
> Warnings: Swearing
> Word Count: 1417
> A/N: Hey guys... here is the next part of my Jungkook hybrid fic!! Itā€™s getting a little darker as it nears the end of the story!! I really hope you guys are enjoying it!! ALSO those who wish to be added to an eventual tag list, please leave a comment or an ask or message me!! Thank you so much for your support!!
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HYBRID SERIES LAWS
Y/N was cold. Her head throbbed, the ground beneath her was solid, uneven, and completely uncomfortable. It was not something anyone living and breathing should be lying on. And yet her body curled into herself, her hands moving to hold her head as it ached.
Blinking, trying and failing to open her eyes, even in what seemed like a dimly lit room. Y/N's eyes barely opened, squinting, only making out shadows and shapes, and it wasn't promising. Nothing in her line of vision as she tried to sit up was a good sight.
Finally dragging her cold, limp body against the even colder wall, Y/N finally started to focus. Her eyes skimmed her surrounding, she was in a cage, a cell, metal bars kept her in the cell. Her hands felt around her, she could recognise what she sat on, cement held this cell up, causing her to shiver.
Out of the corner of her eye she caught movement. A thin shadow moved slightly, from what Y/N could make out, the shadow moved backwards. Away from Y/N.
"Who's there?" Y/N voice was scratchy, she needed water.
The shadow stood frozen, crouched into itself and avoiding Y/N. They seemed to think if they didn't move, Y/N wouldn't think they were there. But in a place like this, Y/N would never let her guard down.
"Hello? Who the fuck is there?" Y/N aggressively growled, needing whoever was there to come forth.
Y/N did not, for the life of her, expect to recognise the huddled figure. In the life Y/N had chosen to life, to protect those that needed it most, she would never have expected to see then here.
"The fuck are you doing here?"
xxx
Jungkook was looking forward to getting home. Home... he finally had a home. A home he was proud of. A home he could come home to and be welcomed honestly and completely.
He had found his home.
At 6 o'clock Jungkook and Mr Astor finished in the fields. They decided to walk back to their homes, enjoying the lasting setting sun. Mr Astor saw Jungkook eyeing something in front of the many houses they walked between. With a knowing smile, Mr Astor moved towards the houses and asked if he could take some, before saying goodbye and catching back Ā up to a stunned Jungkook.
"For your mate." Mr Astor smiled widely, handing Jungkook the flowers. "These are her favourites."
Jungkook smiled down at the small bouquet of sunflowers. They were bright and beautiful and Jungkook just knew that they suited Y/N.
"They mean adoration, loyalty and longevity." Mr Astor continued as they both walked past houses getting closer together. "Y/N always thought that sunflowers would make anyone happy, bring joy. And she always wants to bring joy to people, especially to those who enjoy it. And you seem to bring her joy."
"Do you think so?" Jungkook looked up at the old man who had become like a grandfather to him, wanting his approval as much as anyone's to be with Y/N.
"My boy," Mr Astor put his arm around Jungkook with a soft smile. "I have never seen Y/N smile as brightly as she does when she looks at you. It reminds me of when I first meet my wife."
Jungkook blushed, his hands holding onto the flowers tightly. Jungkook wanted to make Y/N smile. He had always promised to never make her sad, only to see brighter days with her.
When he stepped onto the path to home he expected to see Y/N. Maybe out on the porch waiting for him. Maybe coming out to greet him and Mr Astor.
What he didn't expect was to see the 2 hybrids Y/N was talking about at lunch. The shorter of the two sat on the steps of the porch, his ears twitching, his sharp eyes focusing onto Jungkook as he heard him approach. The other, who had smiled and wave the first time he had seen Jungkook was for the first time not smiling. His ears were alert, his eyes scanning the area, his nose twitching, trying to catch a scent.
"Jungkook..."
The flowers in Jungkook's hand fell, now lying in the middle of the path. Forgotten. Cold. Wilting away.
xxx
Y/N couldn't believe what she was seeing, having to blink a few times. The back of her pale, almost purple hands rubbed her eyes a few time before looking back at the hunched figure.
The thin, frail body, sat rigid in the ever present darkness of the cell. But their eyes. Their eyes were lifeless, having witnessed horror to land themselves in here. Y/N didn't want to think it, but maybe they deserved it. Though Y/N knew that no one deserved to be locked up, caged like an animal... even if they acted worse then a wild animal.
Mrs Bonavich hugged her boney knees to her chest, her eyes were avoiding all contact with Y/N. She saw that Mrs Bonavich seemed to be bitting her nails, she couldn't see much in the dark, but she knew the movement. The nervous tick to bite her nails was enough to make anyone rethink their situation.
The cell was bad enough, but a woman like Mrs Bonavich scared and nervous? Y/N needed to get out of here.
"Where are we?" Y/N asked, her quiet voice echoing in the dark room.
Mrs Bonavich merely shrugged her thinning shoulders. Her eyes scanning quickly over Y/N and away again, towards the cage door. It was like she was scared to speak, scared to move to fast. Even if she was very twitchy and fidgety.
"Do you at least know who bought us here?" Y/N asked again, her hushed voice hurting. "Why they have us?"
Again, Mrs Bonavich avoided answering, turning to the cell door. Y/N caught on, she was waiting, listening to hear if anyone was coming. But from where Y/N sat, you would easily be able to hear anyone moving towards them. The echo of the footsteps would be too easy to hear... so what was Mrs Bonavich really waiting for?
"You're going to be loads of fun to be stuck in here with." Y/N huffed out a breath.
Sooner, rather then later, Y/N's eyes adjusted to the dark. She could see where she was, though there wasn't much to actually see. Mrs Bonavich hadn't moved from her place in the corner of the cell. The cell itself wasn't all that big, but dark enough it was difficult to see too far in front of her.
The only source of light was coming from outside the cell, an almost gross green light coming from the left. The walls were once white, if the stains were anything to go by, dirt and blood and from the smell of it something unpleasant sat on the walls.
This was an animal cage. Y/N was now one of the caged animals.
xxx
"Jeon Jungkook," The panther hybrid moved off the porch steps, stalking towards Jungkook who stood frozen in the middle of the path.
"You're scaring him." The dog hybrid pulled the other back a little bit, putting on an easy smile. "Jungkook, I'm Hoseok. This is Yoongi. We're two of Y/N oldest friends."
"We were the first hybrids she ever rescued." Yoongi nodded, looking away down the driveway then back to Jungkook, blinking a few times. "We need to talk to you."
Jungkook merely nodded. His ears standing straight up, his leg bouncing a few times, trying not to panic. What was going on?
"Mr Astor," Both of them greeted the elder man. "Something has happened." Yoongi continued.
"Y/N was supposed to check in nearly 4 hours ago. We haven't heard from her and came to check in. Then we checked the cameras." Hoseok Ā balled his fists, hitting them against his leg.
"Someone took her." Yoongi placed a hand on Hoseok shoulder, stopping him from hitting his leg. "We need you to look at the video. See if you recognise anyone."
"Why me?" Jungkook barely whispered.
"We are on lockdown." Hoseok gestured to their home. "We are keeping you and everyone safe. Y/N's orders."
"Y/N has personally dealt with all of our past. She is currently dealing with yours." Yoongi folded his arms. "She doesn't want anything to happen to you. She wanted you to be safe."
"But someone from your past has come to make sure that doesn't happen." Hoseok looked from Mr Astor to Jungkook. "We need your help to make sure Y/N is as safe as you are."
Jungkook nodded. Knowing it was the right thing to do. But even without seeing the video, Jungkook had a hunch to who it was.
They would never leave him alone. They never would.
They wanted Jungkook home.. Even if now his home wasn't with them. They still wanted him.
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