#I want to love this game so badddd
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plate-armoredpangolin · 2 months ago
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Time to start my 5th(?) rouge trader playthrough!
I have never ended one!
The farthest I’ve gotten is Yrliet!
Primarily because the class system feels wack and I don’t like the UI!
I don’t hate the game and actually want to play it but it just gets painful!
Help!
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ratatatastic · 7 days ago
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congrats to our new offensive dman mikksy who is beloved by this team they cannot help but tease him about his new goal scoring prowress. something so beautiful about jameson asking everyone about mikksy back-to-back goal games even ekky like you will all be subjected to mikksy legacy game
sasha bringing up his failed second goal attempt LEAVE HIM ALONE HE WANTED IT SO BADDDD OKAY 😭😭😭
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the many shades and faces of love
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but also congrats to mikksy who is just i come in do my job and get out if they go in they go in
florida panthers @ minnesota wild postgame interview | 12.18.24 (x)(x)(x)
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articskele · 3 months ago
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Thinking about....... Sun Onceler.........
#sometimes the sun is a twink and he loves you and he refuses to leave your brain apparently#he's just so fun! what if instead of knitting thneeds he spins water into clouds! and they can be anything bc they can be any shape!#i realize in hindsight i have a tendency to make characters that embody some aspect of nature and may or may not be a deity lol#so maybe the others could make an appearance! sunler playing a lyre or smth singing about them#the stars and how she knows the fate in the cards#the siblings summer wind and rain#the beast and her orchard#but of course ending with how he's totally cooler and more important than everyone else#and it turns out apollo is not only the god of the sun but also of art and music so it really fits him methinks!#i doubt i could ever pull off running an askblog. however#i like the idea of him causing mischief. oh someone wants this thing to happen? let's make it a game!#keep your friends close from epic comes to mind#i don't have much in the way of story but. there are these two scenes in my head that are SO good#i wanna talk about em so badddd but i don't wanna spoil in case i do something with em#but i will say that one of them is a really really fun reference >:D#and the line “RED IS THE NEW GOLD”#but anyways i think an important part of him is that he loves people. he loves these silly little humans running around more than anything.#because all of this ultimately stems from the idea of the sun missing you when you've been inside for a long time#wanting things to get better for you and being there to celebrate the little victories yknow?#my nonsense
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crossbackpoke-check · 2 months ago
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inspired by @colap1nto <3 and posting here to hold myself accountable: writevember! attempting to write something every day no matter how much and what it is
i am however inventing stipulations for myself so i cannot weasel my way out of it, which includes a valid definition of “write”:
actively put words into a document in the form of a proper fic!!! too many wip not enough hands!!
poems (actually laughed at me coming up with this but maybe i will go back to my roots)
research/meta/primers
tag stories are permissible IF i actually compile and edit them into a readable document that day
editing to post to ao3 (the optimism) is also valid. it takes me so long
i do have concrete arbitrary deadlines for one and a half fics that i would LOVE to finish and post in november (dewey^2 and [redacted :)]) so i’m hoping this helps!! also, this is secretly just a sticker chart where i get to put down emojis for each fic i worked on and check off boxes but a win is a win
day 1:🪻🐈‍⬛
day 2: 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 3:🫃2️⃣
day 4: 🍎
day 5:🫃2️⃣
day 6: 📑, 💌
day 7:🫃2️⃣ AND ☁️💧. who is she
day 8:🪻🐈‍⬛
day 9:🫃2️⃣
day 10:🫃2️⃣
day 11:🫃2️⃣ we are on a STREAK and also a countdown 🫡
day 12:🫃2️⃣
day 13:🫃2️⃣
day 14: 📬💍
day 15: 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 16:🫃2️⃣
day 17: 🔴 ⚫️,🫃2️⃣
day 18:🪻🐈‍⬛
day 19:🪻🐈‍⬛, 😇🤭 (🕒 -> 🕜)
day 20:🫃2️⃣
day 21:🫃2️⃣, 🤫 🪽🃏
day 22:🫃2️⃣
day 23: 💯❕
day 24: 🪢
day 25: 🐛🏮🦋
day 26:🫃2️⃣
day 27:🫃2️⃣
day 28:🫃2️⃣
day 29:🫃2️⃣
day 30:🫃2️⃣
WRITEMBER RECAP: an overall sucess!!!! this was so much fun and really forced me to write even if it was only a little bit every day. like, to the point that i'm debating doing a cute little twelve days of christmas snippet fest. absolutely could not have finished and published dewey^2 p2 without this challenge or posted p3 :)
thirty days of writing
twelve different fics worked on
poems: 1
i have no word count for you sorry i wish i did but it is at least over a few thousand words!!!!
times i wrote for a day past midnight (making it technically the next day) but because i was still awake i counted it for that day: at least 17 if not closer to like. 25
tags i forgot what they mean: one. what the FUCK is 🪢??? OH MY GOD I KNOW EXACTLY WHAT THAT IS NEVERMIND
duolingo streak (worked on the same fic in a row): 5
#liv in the replies#guys are you proud of me. i put everything I would normally yap into the tags in the actual post. hashtag growth#i say continuing to yap into the tags. I don’t want to be pessimistic but I AM scared this is occurring during my monthly bout of#productivity and I will face the doldrums and absolute inability to write in 2-4 days lol#also everyone says this next systems course is GARBAGE and terrible and super hard which. okay 💗 yay 💗#I should’ve put “reply to ao3 comments’ as a valid form of writing because the comment box terrifies me but it’s FINE#if you have ever commented on my fic I love you with every unspeakable fiber of my being and there is one comment I feel so guilty about#but it’s because every time I think about it I need to go jump around in circles I can’t fangirl too hard I also cannot find the WORDS#like even typing this out i’m like. anxious butterfly but it’s because I have so much love in my heart#also i am codifying the emojis to fics for Me sorry because I think it’s fun and i’m being secretive for literally no reason.#everyone tell me to get off of here and work on an actual fic. after I have my nik-induced/enabled 2353 breakdown#we hit day five and yes I DID forcibly make myself not work on a completely different fic. i wannnntttt to finishhhhh 🫃^2 2️⃣ so badddd#& this is not a game of ‘work on a different wip every day’ even if i could feasibly do that🫡 good news is i rlly think 3 -> 1 1/2 is done?#update 11/10 (technically 11/11 but it’s fine this is how it normally works) if i write like an unhinged person which is to say at all#bc i have midterms but also really like an unhinged person i MIGHT be able to adhere to my self-imposed deadline for 🫃2️⃣. god bless me#at 1:30AM yesterday having an absolute breakthrough with a line that has been in some variation in so many different fics including mine#for myself specifically because i keep having this moment: 🪢 is the fic in the bottom of the yowling doc lmao.
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finnzcorner · 4 months ago
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Hear me out-
Transfem Ranchers, in crochet outfits- that Jimmy made cause I headcanon that it's one of their talents :>
I blame @sincerely-nines for my hyperfixation of ranchers :']
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slamrink · 1 month ago
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klay 0 points but he looked sexygorgeous doing it + lockdown defense + mavs WIN and dubs clinch so im leaving here with something 🙂‍↕️🙂‍↕️
#nba#klay thompson#dallas mavericks#mavs lb#love when he makes shots but ive shrimply accepted that it is now a somewhat rare occurence which is understandable tbh given age/injuries#they could never make me hate u king#not even if u go 0/100 i srsly dgaf ur face card + beautiful soul more than make up for it i promise#freddie mercury voice#I look ... and i fiind ... I still love youuu#that said I really think people are not giving him enough grace or credit for all the positive ways he impacts the game#like he has set such an impossibly high standard for himself by literally becoming thee singular second greatest shooter OAT so#imo its pretty unreasonable for fans to demand him to put up prime klay numbers nightly when this team doesn't even need him to do that#to be able to win which is actually a good thing !!! not to be a +/- watcher but him just being on the floor opens up so much space for#everyone else because defenders will swarm him no matter what and he knows this because he is very smart !!!#I just have so much love in my heart for him and it physically hurts me to see anyone speak negatively about him after everything#that he's overcome and how critical he is of himself :( I just want him to feel loved :((#guys this is so stupid i don't even KNOW him and he still occupies a fairly large portion of my brain and heart 24/7 it's so badddd#steph and klay were my whole entire childhood and then i forgot about them for the year they were injured and then I remembered them again#after which they found their way back to each other and won the whole fucking thing !!! that's the shit of romcoms bitch !!!#and even if they really won't ever share a backcourt again (which pains me to even type out ew) I'll still love both of them#unconditionally i fear#and also forever#how can you not be romantic about basketball baby!!!#steph/klay#if you read all of this first of all im so sorry and thank you too lol :)
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threadrunner · 2 years ago
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lord shaxx takes me out back and beats me unconscious with a broom and tells me to go play competitive and get a Rose
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lannisterdaddyissues · 28 days ago
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should i download an fe shadows of valentia rom and emulate it. yes or yes
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jellophoid · 2 months ago
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their heat actions are so so so cool wtf
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lapandablasee · 1 year ago
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bought rpg maker mv on a whim but now i have too many ideas and too little time teehee
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bonfire-beret · 1 year ago
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And then there were two.
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avxtarlz · 1 year ago
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Real or Not Real? || Tom Blyth x Actress Reader ||
Summary: Y/n and Tom Have been seen Dining and Traveling together since Their Upcoming RomCom movie. They have been alittle to close to each other lately and People on the internet are speculating If they are just Together or not.
(Idk I’m just running out of ideas 🥲)
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Y/nUsername and tomblyth just Posted on their Story
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Y/nTomSources Y/n Y/l/n and Tom Blyth seen at the airport At the Location where they are Filming Their New Romcom Movie.
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User1: can’t wait for their new Movie
User2: They are Traveling to visit me guys 😜
User3: Her just getting off the plane and yet still being Pretty 😍
User4: WHEN WAS THIS?!
User5: He’s soooooo
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Y/nUpdates Tom and Y/n seen dining together with Friends As they just Arrived to film their Upcoming movie.
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User6: I just love how she always wears her Headphones Anytime.
^ User7: The fact she wears it like an aesthetic 😩
User8: She’s so pretty!!!!
User9: Are they both the Main People for the film?
^ User10: yes!
User11: Ship them so badddd
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Y/nUsername Had to make a Pitt stop 😜. If evil why hot? Snow lands on top. @tomblyth
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User12: UMM HELLO? THE CAPTION?!
User13: THE FIRST PICTURE 😧
User14: Pulling my hair rn.
User15: Y/n casually watching Hunger Games While coryo snow AKA Tom Blyth is sitting right next to her. 😭
User16: They have to be dating there’s just no way.
Rachelzegler: why was I not invited.
^ Y/nusername: I only wanted to watch the movie just to see you 😜
tomblyth: You can finish the last sentence 🤔
^ User17: Everyone knows.
User16: HIS COMMENT LMAO
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Movieupdates New looks at M/N Starring Y/n Y/l/n and Tom Blyth
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tomblyth Everything slows down when I’m with her 💕
User17: Their so cuteeee
User18: Is it comfirmed?!
User19: Got to be dating like 😀
Y/nUsername: ❤️
User20: Her reply 🥲
User21: Bird is a paid actor
User22: Last picture 😭
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Newsflashsources Actors Tom Blyth And Y/N Y/L/N caught Together In public By Paparazzi.
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yuzurins · 2 years ago
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streamer!suna x streamer!reader - this was so self indulgent and badly written in my notes app but it’s ok i want to be back here bc tumblr is fun haha
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“me? and y/n?” suna scoffed, face showing no hint of reaction. “now that’s too much, you guys are overthinking it.”
he mumbled, deep in concentration, as his eyes darted back and forth from his game to the rapidly moving chat screen.
**h789: don’t act like we didn’t see you build a whole house for her!!!
**n.m**y: you literally got her a whole tank of axolotls THOSE THINGS TAKE SO MUCH TIME TO GET
su**: the flowers MAN the flowers 😞
**be*17***: and the list goes on…
suna rolled his eyes and let out a small laugh. “were you guys here when i literally blew the house down and kidnapped all the axolotls?? it was an elaborate plan to prank her and make her scared of course.”
miya**sam**: shut up bro😭
mk**j1*: 🫢🫢🫢
g****0a: SUNA THE BIG FAT BULLY
su**: he’s bullying her bc he likes her
miya**sam**: ewww how sadistic of him
uu**720**n*: IT TAKES TWO??? HELLO???
luvv**esu***0: nah guys he’s dating me why would he be with y/n
k*tss**k: imagine being delulu
**h789: my bae yn too good for him she’s thousands times better than u
a look of disgust crosses his face.
luvv**esu***0: stop he just doesn’t know it yet!!
su**: just stop it’s so embarrassing t-t
h**y*vs*: are you sure guys
h**y*vs*: feels like sunarin wouldn’t be that mean to his girlfriend :(
“no literally, i hate her guts.” he paused the game he was currently playing, opened up a new tab and searched up “sunarin being mean to y/n”
scrolling down the long page of search results, he stared at the camera with a face that screams “told you so” and laughed.
“chat, you guys can fantasize all you want, but just know that there’s tons of evidence online that can prove you all wrong in less than a second, so it’s just funny seeing you all believe that me and her are actually dating-“
now as if on cue, you burst into the room in your pajamas and dashed over to the boy sitting by the computer.
suna flinched and turned around immediately, panic starting to overcome his face. “what the-“
“RINNNN PLEASE PLEASE PLEAAAASEEEE CAN WE GET A CAT I REALLY WANT A CAT SO BADDDD I PROMISE ILL TAKE CARE OF IT AND CLEAN UP ALL OF ITS POOP I REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLYYY JUST WANT A CAT ITS BEEN MY DREAM ALL MY LIFE!!!!!” you blabbered nonstop as you clung onto his arm, not giving suna a chance to interrupt you at all.
“y/n what are you talking about i’m kinda streaming right now-“
“IF YOURE SCARED ILL STOP LOVING YOU AFTER WE GET THE CAT I WONT I PROMISE I REALLY DO SO Please don’t say—” seeing the look on his face, you turned around to see the thousands of people spamming the chat, finally realizing what he was trying to tell you and shrunk down in disbelief. “no….”
miya**sam**: told you so
miya**sam**: hi y/n!! 🤣
su**: OMG
mk**j1*: NEOJDDIJDJC NO WAYYY
**h789: SHES ADORABLE I LOVE YN
g****0a: STRIMMER EXPOSED
atsu**b*****: LOLOLOL
suna immediately turns his webcam and microphone off.
your boyfriend scowls as you give him an innocent smile.
uh oh, busted.
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magmythedevil · 1 year ago
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Envy shippers are forgetting something, and thats kinda of connected to misogyny.
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Just warning before i start that i will be talking negativily about N a litte bit in this post, even If a love him very much, Its necessary lollll.
Also Please dont think this post is some form of hate against V or envy. Its a post about the way >some< NxV shippers treat Uzi and their double standards.
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So, i saw that *one* group of people making jokes about Uzi dying/N killing Uzi so N can be with V again and after some time thinking i realized that those jokes are kinda of connected to how they think that "Uzi stole N from V" or "V deserves N more than Uzi does"
And thats make me think: why, them, as an envy shippers, chooses to throw their hatred at Uzi especifically? Why is the Idea of Uzi, the young girl who did >>nothing<<< to deserve what shes going through, dying so satisfing to them? Even If Its a "joke"?
And i guess i know the answer, they think V deserves N more, they are the one that deserve to be end-game, because they have a tragic love story, they had a spark and becuse they have known each other for way longer and all that stuff, right?
But I guess, them, yes, the one who love V and N as a duo and as a couple, are forgeting something important in this equation: N himself
If they want to blame someone for envy not working in the present time that much, N is the one they should be hating on (and V too tbh) not Uzi, Uzi is just having feelings.
N is the one that choosed to prioritize and protect a random purple worker girl he just met.
N is the one that choosed to change sides and fight against his own damn crush to protect the people of a random worker girl he just met.
he is the one that choosed to stop to act on his crush on V once he met Uzi, the random worker girl. (Srs, not even a single sigh of it since episode 2)
He is the one that choosed to keep holding Uzi's hand (and embrance It harder, when she was the one to ask him to let It go) while blushing at her on that hallway in front of everyone.
He is the one that randomly got her to have a dance with him in that prom fight.
He is the one that felt extremely bad of the Idea of Uzi being scared of him, yes, the random worker he just met.
He was the one to get angry at V for not respecting Uzi and say to her face "what is wrong with you?"
He is the one that ins't afraid to be all cozy with her in public (cabin fever is here as proof)
He was the one that, even after reexperiencing the thing he had with V in the past again, was happy to see Uzi instead of being nervous about it, when even V was embarassed.
Uzi never did anything, thats just a Uzi they created in their minds. wich ins't that surprising since they all dont even like to rewatch most of the show anyways (N and Uzi's interactions are too much for them to handle)
The worst thing she has done was being agressive to V, but mind you, thats bc V was treating her way worse when Uzi even considered her a friend.
>>N<< was the one that, accidently or not, made most of (If not all) his romantic moments with Uzi real.
But they wont talk about his position in this triangle right? Its just Uzi, Uzi this, Uzi that, Uzi is always the villian here.
Because N is the perfect boy who ins't capable of understanding love outside of his thing with V, right?
""N would never feel something like that for Uzi!!! Hes clearly being peer pressured by her!!""
"""the writing is sooo badddd!!! N would never do this ugggfhh""
""weirdo vickers, fix you damn show""
And..... you know what that sorta looks like...right? Yes, misogyny . Because they choose to hate on and make weird jokes about Uzi, the woman, when N, the man, had a bigger role with his romantic thing with Uzi than she did. And If they hate nxuzi so much, they should be hating on N too, but i know they wont.
For the people who hate to see N "being babied" they sure dont like to talk much about him in these things
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evelynpr · 4 months ago
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bakugou for the character ask game?
Truly the teenage boy, shonen deuteragonist, love interest coded, gay asshole, of all time.
My first impression - Woah I did not understand why people were so into this guy. Like I get it, he's a flawed and loud pretty boy, he gets character development, and probably gay, but seriously him??? His mouth is so fucking foul and he is so up his ass. - I was meh with this character, enjoyed him in fan content, but just did not get why people were sooo into this guy.
My impression now - I cried in "Light Fades To Rain". Twice. - My god his growth...his will, his persistence, and by god his love for Izuku is so ridiculous and powerful I just cannot help but admire the little shithead. - He is also a lot more to me than I expected, with the whole "foul mouth shit", "high expectations bullshit", "violent urges", and "dedicating your whole life and love to someone you love and admire" and that...that makes me feel quite conflicted.
Favorite thing about that character - The thing about Bakugou is that...you just cannot help but wish you had the same kind of persistence, strength, will, and power that he does. I love how all this is initially so shallow and selfish, then grows to wanting to be a better and truer hero. He really learns and changes and is just an unstoppable force of nature, it's genuinely incredible and beautiful to watch.
Least favorite thing - I wished that the overall writing did go harder in making him stop bad-mouthing people and...everything so much. You can tell he did grow to respect and care for people around him more, but by gods he is sooo bad at communicating his feelings right now. (tbf, he is so fucking young and traumatized) - Also, really please stop hitting people. I get a knee-jerk reaction to that kind of physical violence sometimes ngl.
Favorite line/scene - There are so many. I already mentioned his death in "Light Fades to Rain" so I'll mention a different one - Team Bakugou in Class A vs B was so goddamn good, for being a monumental milestone of his character. How much he trusted his teammates and put himself in danger to save others, winning in the end. No injuries, no failures, truly a perfect beautiful victory. How he also pushes Deku to keep getting better afterwards in his usual constipated-ass language too. Man I just love that battle to death.
Favorite interaction that character has with another - (me pulling out scenes that aren't bkdk centered here hahaha) - I fucking LOVED the Bakugou vs Ochako fight. It made me love Ochako so so much as a kid. I really wished we had a follow-up to that battle, and it genuinely changed my life. - I love how it really shows just how focused and rational he is in battle. How he truly respects his opponents, Ochako in this case, and the sports festival really establishes so much about him.
A character that I wish that character would interact with more - Speaking of which...OCHAKO VS BAKUGO 2 COME ONNNN - There is SO MUCH these two need to talk about. How to save people, who they want to save, who saved them, never underestimating each other, how they changed and grew. I just love these two characters to bits, that's why I need them to FIGHT AND TALK SO BADDDD - Additional: Also Toga (see my post on Toga right before this one lmao), Shoto (because I still don't really get their friendship but its hilarious, and I love Shoto)
Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character - I legit cannot think of anything here...like for Toga...I am so sorry my brain is blanking T__T - It's hard to be a massive anger-issue filled, victory-focused, die for their lover (twice), amazing chef, all at once, kinda guy...you know?
A headcanon about that character - I am a believer in trans!fem Bakugo in the future. He's so ridiculously angry for some reason, voice always cracking, and just on-edge for some reason. Idk I just think its hilarious and satisfying if he transed his gender in the future and became happier and more comfortable.
A song that reminds of that character - I also have a Bkdk playlist in the making! Here's some bkg focused songs in character development order: - Boys will be Bugs, President Perfect, Top of my School, Oh No!, I'm Gonna Win, The Last of the Real Ones, Skyfall, Die For You, Set Fire to the Rain
An unpopular opinion about that character - Like Toga, he actually isn't possessive. I think he quite well understands and accepts that Izuku is a very loving person that many people are easily drawn to (I mean, he'd be a hypocrite if he didn't understand that). - He is protective instead of possessive. He keeps an eye out for anything and anyone who could possibly actually hurt Izuku, but he doesn't hold him back at all in hanging around with others, and when other people fall for Izuku either. - He is actually quite skinny, and doesn't have the big thick buff guy build. Those go to Izuku and Iida more imo.
Favorite picture - I never really thought of this much??? I love art of him being softer, more solemn, quiet and contemplative even. I guess I'll go pick out some favs right now...
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aly-writes · 1 year ago
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hi! not sure if this makes the cut, seeing as your request inbox is almost full. but i'd like to request chishiya headcannons with cheerful/outgoing reader but they slowly become the opposite after losing their friends game after game. thank you and have an awesome day ahead! you deserve it!
y'all the new layout on desktop is killing me, wth is going on😭 i ended up adding d.p. and bloodhounds to my list of shows i'll be writing for, so check my rules to see which characters you can request (when requests open, please don't send them in right now or i'll get overwhelmed lol)
anyways here is some chishiya because we all adore him to the end of the earth and back. he's gorgeous i need him so badddd. i maybe got a little carried away :) this was really enjoyable to write
warnings: chishiya and s/o are in a pre-established relationship, angst w/ a happy ending, hurt/comfort, spoilers for s2 at the the end
chishiya with an s/o who loses their cheer
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you were bright. so bright, in fact, that sometimes you blinded chishiya
chishiya knew you. your ups, your downs, your flaws, and your strengths. it would be strange if he didn't given the fact you were engaged before ending up in the borderlands
when you both ended up here, it didn't take him long to realize how big of a liability you were. not only to him, but yourself as well
did he trust you to complete games? yes, he did. you had a strong sense of determination and were 100% a survivor, so he had no doubts there
what he didn't trust was how you would react to other people in your games
being so friendly and optimistic gave you nothing but a disadvantage in this world, and he knew from the start that it would tear you apart
as much as he wanted to distance himself from you the moment you both arrived at the beach, he couldn't bring himself to do it.
he's a clever man who doesn't typically feel much remorse. he knew that if you hadn't been connected to him prior to the borderlands he would have ditched you instantly
but unfortunately for him, he lets his feelings get in the way because you were the one person who could truly make him feel
no matter how tough things were, you would give him a kiss on the cheek and a pat on the back. all the while encouraging him to 'cheer up, you look best when you're smiling'
you continued to shower him with love and affection while you were alone, just like you did in the real world. things were totally different now, but you didn't let that dampen your spirit
you and him were opposite ends of basically everything. you couldn't be more diverse, so it wasn't a shock at how familiar you got with everyone.
and when i say everyone, i mean everyone
you had worked in a social field beforehand, so you tended to be extremely good at memorizing names and facts about a person
it was one of the things that interested chishiya the most. while he encountered many different people per day and ultimately started to forget about them, you kept those you met near and dear no matter how powerful your experience with them
you were a people magnet. you basically radiated a friendly aura, and the other residents of the beach noticed quickly
you got along with mostly everyone (note: mostly. the militants were a different story...)
unfortunately for you, this meant that when you were put in groups for a game, you were bound to know at least one person in your group on a personal level
that is where your downfall began
chishiya knew it would happen at some point. when he saw you walk to your group's car chatting up a storm with one of the other members, he mentally prepared himself to take in your emotions when you came back.
and his speculations were confirmed correct, once again. your body was battered, bruised, and had definitely seen some better days during it's time. the way your eyes moved from one corner of the room to the next was sloppy and dull.
to be blunt? you looked like shit.
but he wouldn't say that, not once. although he had a certain fondness towards snide comments, he also had a fondness towards you. he was aware of what you needed in that moment, and the thing you needed most was him.
the way your gaze trekked through the crowd of people exuded a certain type of exhaustion that one can't explain. it was like you were exerting every ounce of your leftover spirit to find a specific person. and when your gaze finally found him, he could practically feel the tension that lifted off of your shoulders himself.
you moved toward him in such a despairing, yet hopeful way. the way your emotions screamed out to him so prominently was incredible. with just a small movement he already understood exactly what you were thinking and feeling.
when you reached him he gently took your elbow and guided you around to corner, if only to receive a small amount of privacy.
"'shiya..." your bottom lip quivered ever-so-slightly. the emotions swimming through the pools of your eyes were that which he couldn't comprehend. so complex, so telling but so complicated. seeing the exhaustion raking through your entire body, he wished he could understand.
he desired to find some type of mutual emotion in the lingering emptiness, but the small amount of hope in your eyes told him all he needed to know to understand that he was not able to. and he probably never would.
he couldn't give you the solace of knowing what you were going through, so the only thing he could do was bring you into arms.
and you cried. and you cried and you cried and you cried until you couldn't anymore because, for the first time in this damn world, you felt like you could lose everything you had built yourself upon. and it was terrifying.
as time progressed, chishiya noticed the brightness of your eyes leave bit by bit
he had tried to protect you from what he knew would happen, but you were stubborn about what you wanted and stuck in your ways
you thought that making friends would make everything more bearable, but you now realized how foolish you had been
the once starry partner he had known was not diminished to something of an empty shell of what had been
but even then, during quiet nights when the party of the beach had fallen silent and all that remained was you and him, you would tell him about your hopes for the future
you were still there, just nowhere as prominent as before
after the massacre that came from the ten of hearts, you didn't bother talking to anyone that wasn't him at all
the hope in your eyes had fizzled out completely
there were many problems chishiya knew how to fix. injuries? the easiest trick in the book. games? child's play to him.
but your lack of emotion was something he was frazzled on. he truly didn't know what to do, and if he was being completely honest with himself? he hated seeing you like this
you started to remind him too much of himself
empty eyes, lack of empathy for those around you. he felt like he was looking in a mirror and it kinda weirded him out
it wasn't until after he completed the king of diamonds that he decided to ask you about it. and not just make a comment, he wanted to have a genuine conversation with you
unfortunately he didn't get to do so when he wanted to because of niragi's trigger-happy finger
he was in pain and you were panicked and everything felt like too much for you
you were over him in a second with arisu and usagi, holding his face in your hands and crying
but you were crying and you were beautiful and that was enough for him, because FINALLY you were showing some sort of emotion
so when you sent arisu and usagi off to go take down the last two face cards, he felt... relieved
your face was so full of determination as you tried your best to tend to his wounds
he knew that the old you was in there somewhere, he should have expected it to come out in such a dire situation
as the day got darker and his heartbeat got fainter, you whispered out all your feelings and the waterworks would not give you a break
and all he could do was smile at you, which seemed so uncharacteristic but... you had both just been through hell and back, so you took whatever you could get
when the fireworks eventually shot off signaling the end of the game, he looked over at you one last time before making his decision. he couldn't be more delighted with what he saw
your eyes were filled with both love and hope, and things were back to where they should be
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