#I want desperately to come back to this fandom but also idk how to start back into it

[pandora15]

i really miss obi-wan right now

[unquietwordssettledthoughts]

I have such a fucking urge to write HashiTobi, but it's been so long that I have no idea what I want to write for them

[randoimago]

How would Astarion, Gale, Karlach, and Shadowheart each go about apologizing to their significant other?

Fandom: Baldur's Gate 3

Character(s): Astarion, Gale, Karlach, Shadowheart

Note(s): Idk why but the first thing that popped into my head was Astarion bringing you something he killed, like what cats do 😂 I am also assuming this is Spawn Astarion, Ascended Astarion would never apologize or if he does then it's hollow words (same with Shar Shadowheart).

Astarion

He acts pouty that you're upset with him before sighing and finding some wine or flowers or something nice and pretty as an apology gift. Not really trying to buy your acceptance, but it's nice to receive presents and he wants to flirt with you again after apologizing, making sure things can go back the way they were.

I mean, depending on why you're upset at him is how serious he takes the apology. If it was him making some comment about eating someone or being annoyed at a kid then he doesn't take the apology that serious.

But if it was him doing something that genuinely hurt you (emotionally, he'd be devastated if he ever harmed you physically) then he'll absolutely be very apologetic towards you.

Gale

Sulks if you're upset at him. But he knows that every healthy relationship has its arguments so he hopes that he didn't completely ruin things between you two.

Depending on if you're ready to talk to him or not, he might hover with a book and start reading a quote from it about being sorry.

Of course, he'll tell you it himself, but he wants to first make sure he has your attention first. And he doesn't want to seem desperate and pushy for your forgiveness which is why he tries to be subtle at first.

Karlach

Very pouty if she upset you. Before she apologizes to you, she's probably beating herself up first. But then once she's do scolding herself, she'll go to you and ask if you're both okay. Doesn't matter the severity of what she did to upset you, she's immediately asking if your relationship is still okay.

Assuming she can touch you without burning you alive, she'll want to pull you into the biggest hug. But only if you let her! If you've decided that you don't forgive her yet or still need space then she'll understand and will sulk in the corner until you're okay.

If you're touch adverse then she'll want to give you some wildflowers she found instead, but only if you're ready to accept her apology.

Shadowheart

I think it also depends on the severity when it comes to Shadowheart too. She'll still apologize, but it might be more halfhearted depending on the reason why she's apologizing. She apologizes either way, but rather she learns from it is another story.

But if she sees how upset it made you then she does act like a bit of a kicked puppy. She'll apologize to you and ask if you're both okay.

Might try to make some small joke or tease you about something in hopes of livening the mood a bit. If that backfires then she's pouting more and apologizing more because she was hoping the joke would make you smile.

Taglist: @reo-the-leo @unhelpfulnpc

[skibasyndrome]

writing tag game!

first off thank you sooooo so so so so much to @hergrandplan, @lollygirlpops, @filmspring, @enjoythesilentworld, @caramelpenguin, @iwouldnevergetintofanfic & @gulliblelemon for tagging me, love you guys 💜💜💜 and so sorry for being so late to the party!

1.How many works do you have on AO3?

43! 38 of those are YR fics, the rest are from a former fandom

2. What’s your total AO3 word count?

232,639 words. which is... okay? I suppose? I always feel like I'm way too slow of a writer and like my tendency to only write oneshots and not multi-chaptered fics is something that I need to address some day, but tbh I'm pleasantly surprised that I had all these words in me! and that sometimes I write 15k that's just a single blowjob lol

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Young Royals, babyyyyy! I'm very one-track-minded when it comes to fandoms, I'm usually only interested in one thing at the time, and for the past one and half-ish years that's been my beloved yr <3

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

You crave the Applause / Yet hate the Attention my beautiful, wonderful one-time-I-tried-to-write-a-multichapter-fic-and-it worked-out <3 I really think this is sitting this high up because there are multiple parts to it (and maybe because it was one of the first fics i posted, back in 2023)

Lavender Haze strangers to club hookup wilmon, my beloved <3 I posted this a few days before s3 aired and it feels like it was the end of an era almost. I love that I still sometimes get comments on this one!

All this shit is new to me AKA pt. of Lavender Haze. Again, I think the multi-chaptered-ness is really helping this one. and I promise some day I will actually manage to finish this fic!!! and if it's the last thing i do!!!

Flash The Camera, You're A Star! co-written with @pagegirlintraining and we still wonder how this one hit the way it hit lmao. but good for cameraman Wille, that silly, silly fool <3

I've never met arms like yours hehehehehe, kinktober '24's bestseller, AKA snuggly cuddly cockwarming wilmon. honestly? I Get It (TM)

5. Do you respond to comments?

So 😭😭😭 at what point of being delayed will I have to reply to this with "no"??? 😭😭😭 see the thing is... I really want to and I still very much plan on replying to the lovely comments I've gotten during the past few months, but every time I sit down and want to start, everything I have to say feels very inadequate 🥲 which is super ridiculous, but idk, so many of those comments mean so much to me, and I want to take the time to reply in a way that's worthy of the comment and then. I don't 🥲 So I guess the answer has to be "no" for now, even though it really pains me. But I leave them all as marked unread so that one day I can go back and finally try to put into words how much they mean to me <3

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

If I'm allowed to include my little tumblr ficlets into the ranking then it's DEFINITELY this one over here

If ficlets don't count: I don't think there's one that's veeeery angsty? Sharpen your teeth, sink into me has an overall angstier tone and a sense of desperation to it that isn't necessarily resolved (also because I see it as a little peek into a fic universe I have yet to write more of), and Maybe I could hold you in the dark has a similarly open ending (and used to be a ficlet, so maybe that's that). For someone who enjoys angst so much I reeeaaaally don't write enough of it I'm afraid. Need to remember to write more angst!!!

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Everything else? 😅 I think most of my fics exist as these tiny windows into wilmon's relationship that's either just starting or firmly established, so there's almost always a sense of "these two have got it. they'll be fine" when we leave them. One that maybe feels particularly happy and "we can leave them here, they'll be fine" is Kyss mig med dina röda läppar.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not really. I've had a weird anon message here and there from time to time, but nothing too serious.

9. Do you write smut?

I think the right question to ask would be whether I write anything that isn't smut at this point 😅 I mean that's definitely hyperbole and I do have the occasional t-rating peeking through, but I really think I've found my niche as a mostly-smut writer. It's just what I'm most comfortable with and what comes easiest to me, funnily enough. There's something about writing that physical aspect of their relationship and the different ways this can look, depending on their circumstances, that is very compelling and beautiful to me and I love that, so far, people seemingly haven't gotten sick of my writing about it yet. Because that's definitely one of my fears, that I'm being too repetitive and that nobody will want to read the 40th smut oneshot written by me. But... idk. I'd like to believe that I try to make every single one somewhat unique and interesting <3

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I don't! I think the reason might be that I'm always only interested in one fandom at the time? But idk, crossovers aren't something I read most of the time either tbh, I'm just happy with my blorbos having their own universe.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Waaaaay back in the early days, I think it happened twice or three times maybe that someone copied my fic and reposted it claiming it was theirs. I only found out because people messaged me about it, and I thiiiink some of them are still up actually, but this was only on tumblr, so I doubt anyone would find either of our posts these days.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I've had a couple of requests (and told them yes), but I haven't seen any of the results. That seems to be a bit of a common experience from the answers other people gave, haha.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yesssss, I could eat that boy for lunch was co-written by @pagegirlintraining, @iwouldnevergetintofanfic and me, Flash The Camera, You're A Star! i wrote with @pagegirlintraining and Birthday Boys with @iwouldnevergetintofanfic.

@hergrandplan and I also have a very rough idea of a fic we want to write some day when we have time that I am veeeery much looking forward to working on 👀

And, I know that's not the question, but overall I think many of my fics thrive from me talking to other people about them. I love throwing around ideas with people and yelling about scenarios or concepts and a good number of my fics wouldn't exist if I hadn't had a friend to talk about them with <3 aaand there are certain fic outlines that only exist in my chats with some dear friends. so shoutout to the besties who listen to my ideas and shot ideas back and encourage the brainrot, ily <3

14. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Why would this question come into MY HOME and attack me like that??? jk jk jk.

I actually really, really hope to finish all the unfinished WIPs I still have out there, partially published. I don't like the idea of abandoning them and I also kind of want to prove to myself that I can stick with things, because while I do mostly post oneshots I reeeeeally want to write a couple of multi-chaptered fics in the future. And I can't trust myself to do that if I abandon my other fics.

15. What are your writing strengths?

Taking a character and really picking apart their psyche hehe <3 I loooooove introspective stories, I love getting lost in the thoughts and worries and ideas of characters, I love pausing the histoire to check in with the characters. And I've been told that I do it well, soooo <3

Also. Just generally? Smut? Is that a strenght? I know some people struggle with it and like, I have my own set of struggles around it, but it's still the "genre" I'm most at ease with and as a avid reader of smut I like that the thing I maybe most enjoy reading is also the thing I most enjoy writing. That's just kinda neat in itself, no matter if it's like... objectively a strenght or whatever.

16. What are your writing weaknesses?

I thiiiink this question is meant to be answered with something regarding style or anything else to do with the actual writing, not the process, but tbh I don't believe in objectively "correct" ways to write and I write rambly and overly detailed because I love to read rambly and overly detailed as well so. I'm going with process instead.

Sticking with things? Planning ahead? Structure? Going about things systematically instead of just... going with the flow? I think the thing that most frustrates me about my own writing is how easy it is for me to get out of the flow and how difficult it is a lot of the time to get back to projects I used to be very passionate about.

I love the way I go about writing, and I love that I have a more explorative process and I think for oneshots this works perfectly fine, like, having a handful of rough ideas, just starting somewhere and letting the story tell itself. But for longer projects this just isn't very sustainable? And I have so many stories to tell that kind of need to be longer fics.

In general, I think the very flow-based approach i have to writing is simultaneously one of the things I enjoy most about it, but also one of those things that make it most difficult for me. Which is. That sure is something.

17. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I don't usually mind reading it and I've actually tried it before in my own writing, but since then I've sort of moved away from it for my own fics? For no reason in particular tbh, but it's just easier and more immersive to write when I stick to one language.

18. First fandom you wrote for?

One Direction 🫡 I said to someone the other day that the 1d to yr pipeline is strong, because I keep coming across form 1d fic writers hehe

19. Favorite fic you’ve written?

I suffer terrrrribly from recency bias. My favorite fics at any given moment are mostly some of the most recently written ones. For the moment the fics I feel the most proud of might be

1. Real short leash (but I like it tight), very much one of those fics that I wrote for myself and like. three other people who were supporting me throughout, but idk. I have a lot of love for this one in my heart. it feels bold, I felt brave for posting it, I feel good about the way I created the characters, I genuinely love so many things about it, which isn't a feeling I get for a lot of my own fics usually. It feels... special in a lot of ways. And I'm genuinely proud of myself for becoming a writer who feels good about having posted a fic like that, after spending so much time being scared of posting more "out there" fics. these two genuinely mean so much to me and I'm grateful for everyone who gave them a chance <3<3<3<3<3

2. Moon go down (do it again) this one just has such a... calmness to it. it feels so settled and so peaceful and like such an interesting moment in the life of a very interesting version of them. and I was so happy to see that this story touched so many readers <3 that was such a beautiful surprise to me <3<3<3

I've been offline for a while, so I have nooo idea who's been tagged before and who hasn't. I've really sorry if I'm repeating tags, but I'm (no pressure) tagging @shouldntbearevolution, @grapehyasynth, @saynomorefic, @bigalockwood, @earlgrey-lateatnight, @dreamyelectronicmusic, @vvachillessongvv, @the-impala-is-my-home, @willesworld & and if anyone who's reading this rn would like to answer these: great news! you've been tagged as well!💜

[lukeynewtssimp]

When Nic is out and about with her bf all I see from Lukolas is pure hate and disdain for them both. It’s only now that the man brought out his gf that suddenly everyone is okay with it. Does that seem like equal treatment to you? Where was your defense before this?

You’re happy and proud of him for finally claiming her but where is the happiness for Nic? I’m still talking about Lukolas in general.

Do you not see the people saying he’s finally with someone well matched with him? And when people said the same hateful things after premiere night because of that stunt where was the support for Nic? You think his choices didn’t affect her, whether it was intentional or not?

This side of the fandom is extremely male-centered and you just don’t want to admit it. I am still very much hoping to be proved wrong in the future.

Wow okay there is a lot to unpack here.

Let me start by saying that my blog is very new. I only started posting like a month or so ago so excuse me for my lack of defence back when Nic apparently “needed” it.

Neither of them “need” anybody to defend them lol. We don’t get brownie points for proving we are their number one fan. They literally have no fucking clue who I am and don’t care to find out either. I just use my platform to express my love for the people I am a fan of and the things I am passionate about and to express my frustration at things and behaviours that annoy me. That’s the point of having a personal blog.

idk how to make it any clearer. Like it’s literally in my username, yea I am a fan of Nicola too but I’m a bigger fan of Luke. We all have our faves so I don’t get why you’re so angry that Luke is mine.

Yes I see the very small number of people making comments like that about Antonia looking good next to Luke or whatever. I choose to ignore it because I have seen a very small number of these comments and me talking about it would only amplify these pathetic people’s voices. I obviously do not agree with this take. It is rooted in fatphobia and those people can say whatever they want but they do not speak for Luke or Nic.

Nic is not some self conscious young girl waiting for a man to notice how beautiful she is. The fact that you think Luke’s decisions about who he’s dating affected her, then you’re the problem. You’re the one painting Nicola as this desperate girl crying for attention. Nic is a confident and very sexy woman and she fucking owns it and knows it. She literally ruled 2024 and has gained so much popularity last year as she deserves. And you know what? Luke knows it too and that man, unlike what you and other people think, is not and was never ashamed to show that he’s attracted to her and finds her beautiful and sexy and smart and talented. He’s not the most talkative when it comes to that stuff, that man literally blushes at everything. But his actions speak louder than his words. Just because he is dating a woman who doesn’t look like Nic does not mean he does not find Nic attractive and it also does not mean he rejected Nic by doing so.

As @jenhack beautifully put in the comments: Nic is not bothered! She is busy talking to other SAG nominees and being lauded by her peers. She does not need to, or have to be defined by any man she is connected with.

Crazy Lukolas do not only hate on Jake and Nic but they also hate on Luke and Antonia. Have you seen all the nasty stuff they have called this poor girl?

Sorry this has been very long but I just need everybody to stop projecting their hurt feelings and traumas on Nicola and Luke PLEASE!

PS: the “you” is not just aimed at you specifically anon, but everybody who agrees with that discourse of Luke hurting Nic by dating another woman and taking her to the premieres that I am tired of hearing about. And let’s not forget Nic took Jake to that premiere too…

[vintagelacerosette]

Tag game 🩷🎀

Hosted by the wonderful Jess @jrooc

Sorry for the lateness!! I was tagged by these twinkling starlights Kaka @stocious Dosho @doshiart Kat @mybrainismelted Pie @gallapiech Ice @spookygingerr Michelle @mmmichyyy Willow @ian-galagher Jen @wehangout Georgia @iansw0rld Cyn @ms-moonlight-inn Evie @ energievie Gigi @guinguin1984 Becki @francesroserecs Michelle @michellemisfit

Thaaankss 🥰

Name and A03 handle:

Shermyn/Myn & Dynastyria (no written works yet!💕)

Current Location:

On the lounge couch

Favourite picrew (don’t have one? you can skip this or do this one)?

So many to choose from!!!

Picrew 1 (I am obsessed with cardcaptors) , Picrew 2 (Willow made of usss & I treasure itttt 😍) Picrew 3 & Picrew 4 (bc who doesn't love a good bread bowl)

What’s one thing you want in a picrew?

I think more body size inclusively 🙌🏻

Favourite thing you’ve created (or seen created) for the fandom?

Tie between Molly's draw this in your style/Gallacrafts & 2024 gallavich valentine's!

Why is it your favourite?

It's the first time a drawing really looked how I thought it did in my head & I impressed myself. Also, I'm obssessed with the pastels in the gallavalentine. 🩷🩵💜

Did it come easily or was it hard to create? 

Hard bc I find body poses hard, then I start to procrastinate bc of that, but then I've got the deadline so it makes me stressed haha

Last ao3 fic you commented on?

from way up there (you and I, you and I) by the amazing @sam-loves-seb It was the cutest I couldn't even!!!

Biggest WIP heartache you’ve ever experienced? 

Where the Feigned Wind Falls by the very talented & missed Jenna @ianrightsonly

Thank you for sharing your story & I hope one day you'll come back 🥰

Favourite trope or head canon you like included in a fanfic?

Ohhh gotta be lust at first sight, then we fuck our way into true tender feelings!! I'm a sucker for it!! Notable writers of this are Jane @captainjowl & Kay @goodkwuestion & they are so damn good at it

Least favourite?

I haven't seen with gallavich thankfully but turning one character in a gay ship into the opposite gender to make them het!!

Secret or surprising kink or trope?

Omg it's gotta be uniform kink bc of Ray @whatthebodygraspsnot Kinktober 2022. It awoke something in me & I was like I finally get it ahaha

Describe how you feel after you’ve created something new?

I feel relief & feeling proud. Then I stress about when's a good time to post for most of ya'll to see bc of timezones 😅

Top hype man you have that always helps you get across the finish line:

My loves Benja @svltburn & Vey @look-i-love-u

I run to Ben in my art WIP bc like a kid showing art to an adult & Vey's given me amazing advice with writing that sparked inspiration 🥰

I'm in the headspace of desperately telling ppl about my fic ideas & wanting it to be a surprise so idk i may reach out for more hype men haha

It’s been a bad day, you turn to the fandom and you _____

Like Evie I mass reblog fandom works to spread love 🩷

I'm tagging these sparkling rainbow darlings if they wanna play & for anyone else consider yourself tagged 🌈

@ burninface @deedala @jademickian @sgtmickeyslaughter

@darthvaders-wife @matt404b @gallavichsbitch

@deathclassic @look-i-love-u @celestialmickey

@takeyourpillsbitchh @sickness-health-all-that-shit

@whaticameherefor @heymrspatel @gallawitchxx

@psychicskulldamage @sleepyfacetoughguy @doodlevich

@awa444 @suzy-queued @crossmydna @iandarling

@y0itsbri @michellemisfit @mikhailoisbaby @samantitheos

@pookiebearmick @reganmian @firecrxtch

@howlinchickhowl

[zanarkandfayth]

WIP ask! I've actually got three I'm curious about. First, as your local Ignis Enjoyer I'm legally obligated to ask about the WIP that's just titled ignis, lol.

Then I'm also interested in promptowreck, and in lost in the lucian countryside because me playing the game be like 😂

lol understandable XD as a local Noct Enjoyer I would have to do the same with anything just titled noct. so according to the file creation dates, the ignis wip is actually the first thing I ever started for the ffxv fandom, on february 4 2017. the first fic I posted for ffxv I didn't start until february 10th. at some point in my head I started thinking it was the other way around.

buuuut it's a fic that was meant to just be backstory about ignis, about him and noct first meeting (cos this was before episode ignis remember) and becoming friends because of the random ass headcanon I have about his parents being murdered gjkdkglskjgs and the trauma he had from that. I got 2.2K words on it but I got distracted by other fics and I was never sure what I wanted to fully do with it and now at this point I've just incorporated mentions of said headcanon into other fics and I just don't care enough to go back to it. I'll probably never finish it, but it's a shame because I do like what I have written of it, even though they're maybe acting a bit older than they're meant to be lol. little kids are hard to write XD

promptowreck is... well idk when you got into ffxv fandom or if you noticed this, but I swear there was a period in 2017 where everyone and their brother was writing a fic where the boys wrecked the regalia? and I really wanted to write one too 🤣 so this was my attempt at that. it was during my brief period where prompto was my fave instead of noct, creation date has it at feb 19 so a reeeeaaally early fic, it was intended to whump prompto but this was one of the fics that helped me realise I didn't actually enjoy whumping prompto or writing from his pov much. I abandoned it at 1.8K words basically right after I'd written the wreck happening, and while one day I would still like to maybe write a regalia wreck fic, it will for sure be noct's poor ass that I whump instead gjkldjkgls

the last one you asked about, the lost fic, is actually one of my three active WIPs which I think I've talked about on tumblr before so if it sounds familiar, that's why XD it's inspired by a fic by @quartzguts called Lost Signal, and there is a part where noct is fleeing through parts of lucis trying to make his way back to insomnia and gets some clandestine help from an unexpected source, and when I left my comment I said something to the effect of how I could read an entire fic just about noct fleeing through the lucian countryside, and, well... ideas happened XDDD

so yeah, it's gonna be a fic where he gets kidnapped and they take him out of insomnia intending to bring him to niflheim but they wreck the car in the rain while going through lucis and they all die and he survives and then spends a week just making his way through the lucian countryside back to insomnia, and a lot of whump happens to him along the way 🤣 he's meant to be all of fourteen in this fic I believe??? and I fuck up his bum knee multiple times pretty bad, and there's a point where he's gonna be chased by deadeye near wiz's ranch and in sheer desperation figures out how to warp despite not having been formally taught, he steals a chocobo at some point after that, he gets practically mauled by voretooth at one point, etc. etc.

the whole fic is plotted and I started writing it last summer and got the first chapter done but I just got into a bad writing slump around that time and was struggling with it and didn't like what I was writing. and now I've been slowly coming out of my writing slump but for the moment I've turned my attention to my main WIP, but I definitely intend to go back to lost fic and actually write it, preferably some time this year XD

(slightly longish) snippets from each under the cut if you're curious! anyways thank you for the ask!! hope I didn't ramble too much haha.

snippet from ignis:

Prince Noctis is a small, skinny boy of three with bright eyes and a cheerful grin. Ignis looks at him intently as they're introduced, looking for any trace of red in his eyes, but the only colour that shines back at him is a deep blue.

"Wanna colour?" the prince asks him once they're left alone, smiling up at him from his spot on the floor. For reasons Ignis doesn't understand, he has three colouring books open in front of him, and crayons are scattered all around.

Ignis shakes his head. He doesn't feel like doing much of anything. The lump in his throat is still there, and the echoes of his nightmares are still ringing in his head, the thunk of heavy boots and the quick burst of bullets, the quiet thud of flesh smacking against hard wood. He shudders, and squeezes his eyes shut tight.

"Are you okay?" Noctis asks, and Ignis opens his eyes again, considering him. The prince looks concerned, having abandoned his colouring to peer worriedly up at the older boy through the fringe of his black hair. "Are you sad 'bout your parents?"

It's the first time someone's directly asked him about his feelings. The neighbour who'd found him had set to fussing about him straight away, cooing and clucking and making him feel smothered with affection. Others have shown pity or sorrow, and done their best to coddle him. But they've all just assumed how Ignis must be feeling. The prince is the only one who's asking.

He takes a moment, trying to decide if he is sad or not. He thinks maybe part of him is, but mostly he just feels blank. It's hard to believe they're gone. Finally, he shrugs his shoulders.

"My mom's gone too," Noctis offers then.

Ignis knows. He'd seen it on television a couple of years ago, the funeral procession for the Queen, and the flash of King Regis' face a camera had gotten, etched into a stony emotionless mask, though Ignis had seen the grief lurking in his eyes. His parents had been beside him, murmuring about how horrible it was for the Queen to die so young, and how would the poor prince cope, growing up without a mother? At the time, Ignis couldn't imagine anyone having to grow up without their mother. Now he'll know all too well.

He doesn't respond, gazing quietly at the young prince.

"You can share my Dad." Noctis tries again, sounding endearingly earnest.

Ignis looks at him a moment longer, and then slowly, he nods. He knows it won't work that way, that King Regis can't be his dad, or any kind of a parent to him, and that even if he could it wouldn't replace his own dad, but it's the kindest thing anyone's tried to do for him so far, and the only thing that's taken his feelings into consideration. Noctis smiles, satisfied, and holds out a red crayon to him. After a brief hesitation, Ignis takes it, and at last settles down on the floor beside him.

snippet from promptowreck:

Prompto sighed, bored once more. He wished he could pull out his phone, but Ignis would complain about the glow on that too, even if he turned the brightness all the way down. So instead he just closed his eyes and leaned his head back against the seat, feeling the weariness of the day settle into his muscles. He really couldn't wait to get to the motel and just collapse onto the nearest bed.

A sudden noise in the road had him jerking upright again, eyes flying wide open. He could feel his mouth going dry, his throat closing up in fear as adrenaline suddenly began coursing through him. Though they'd only encountered it a handful of times, as Ignis did his best to keep them off the road after dark, Prompto recognised that sound easily—it was the sound of an Iron Giant, and more often than not those particular daemon types gave them a good run for their money.

His hand automatically fumbled for the door, preparing to jump out as Ignis brought the Regalia to a stop, but—

The Regalia lurched forward, racing ahead towards the daemon, and then swerved suddenly, sharply, swinging wildly across the road, and then the loud screeching crunch of metal on metal was ringing in Prompto's ears, dragging across them and making him cry out, reaching up his hands to cover them, only—

Only the sound was gone in an instant, and it took him a moment to realise the Regalia had torn through the guardrail and gone off the road, tumbling down into the hillside. He barely registered Ignis yelling "Brace yourselves!" He was too busy shrieking as trees suddenly began whipping past him, their low-hanging branches smacking painfully into his face and arms. Cold wind rushed around him, and the force of it kept him pressed painfully against his seat as the Regalia easily gained speed on the downward incline, and he tried to look out, tried to see what was in front of them, but it was so dark now, the headlights having been shattered with the initial impact, and he couldn't see a thing. Behind him, he heard Noct cry out, his voice muffled, and then Gladio's pained grunt followed shortly after. He couldn't hear anything from Ignis, but he also couldn't stop himself from screaming—

Metal scraping against rock, the shattering of glass into millions of tiny shards, and the sound was horrendous, and loud, echoing all around him even as the car jolted to an abrupt stop, rocking forward forcefully, and the next sensation was so disorienting that it was only after Prompto had landed with a hard thud that he knew he'd been thrown from the car and flying through the air. The sudden impact with the ground was jolting, making his head bounce, and then his world was nothing but pain. He had one fleeting, crazy moment to wonder if his camera okay, and then finally there was nothing as at last he passed out.

aaaand last one from lost fic, I DO actually like this bit even if I'm not happy with the whole chapter overall:

Noct looks towards them to catch the woman—Curls, it has to be a nickname, probably from the loose curls in her fiery red hair that goes down past her shoulders—rolling her eyes as she stretches her legs out on one of the beds, getting comfortable. It shouldn't, but it pisses him off. The casual, cruel way Asshole—actually, fuck that, he's calling the man Stab-Happy, Asshole is too close to the 'Az' the others keep calling him, and, well. He is stab-happy.

But it angers him, to be stabbed and then have it treated like it was nothing. He's being ignored, left to bleed, left to sit here tied up while sick and in pain, and he's even more thirsty than before, and now he's hungry, and worse than all that, he still has to fucking pee. And they can't even do him the basic decency of telling him what they want with him.

"Hey," he snaps out before he can let himself think about what he's doing, "I asked a question. I want an answer to it."

Stab-Happy freezes for a second, and then turns around slowly, raising an eyebrow at him again as one of the other men behind him barks out a sharp laugh. "You want an answer?" Stab-Happy asks, stalking back towards him. "Sorry to tell you this, pretty-boy, but no matter how much of a pampered prince you are, we don't always get what we want."

"Obviously you don't, or you wouldn't be pathetic enough to kidnap a fourteen year old just to get some money," Noct fires back. His brain is shouting at him, telling to shut up and stop being stupid before he gets stabbed again, or worse, but he ignores it. "Taking me was really stupid, you know that? Dad's not gonna let you live once he finds me."

"Shut up," Stab-Happy says, and then delivers a rough kick to his ribs. It hurts as much as the earlier ones to his stomach had, and he bites down on his lip to keep from crying out. "Gods, you're a mouthy little shit, ain't you? You're assuming your precious prick of a daddy is gonna find you, and lemme tell you, kid, that ain't happening."

"Says you, but we've already proven you're stupid, or I wouldn't be here."

The man who'd laughed before lets out a second one, getting up from the bed he'd been sitting on to come over and join them, hands on his hips as he looks down at Noct, pale blue eyes studying him. There's a prominent scar on his face, running diagonally from the far corner of his right eye to the corner of his mouth, and Noct easily dubs him Scarface. Some character in a movie that Gladio had shown him once. "He really is a mouthy little shit. Kid's got spirit. I like that."

Noct stares up at the men, his anger and fear warring within him. Scarface is the taller of the two, but only barely, and even though they're both fairly slender, with Stab-Happy more lithe and Scarface the slightly stockier of the two, they're toned, visible muscles attesting to their strength, both of them looking as if they could easily crush him if they wanted. He really should shut up.

"We'll see if he's still got spirit when I'm done with him," Stab-Happy says, glaring darkly down at him. He aims another swift kick at Noct's ribs. Pain blooms as a heavy black combat boot connects with his body, knocking the breath out of him, but he sinks his teeth into his lip again, refusing to make a sound.

"Hey, we need him in one piece," the woman says. "Don't fuck him up too much. You're already treading a thin line with the stabbing."

Stab-Happy rolls his eyes, kicking him again. "He's a big boy, Curls. He can handle it." Another kick, and Noct digs his teeth in until he tastes blood.

"You kick like a girl," he says once he catches his breath, because his mouth doesn't know when to quit. "My Shield's little sister can kick harder than you, and she's only nine."

A boot slams into his stomach, intense pain igniting within him at the impact, and he cries out before he can stop himself. Another quickly follows, and then a third, and then a second boot jams itself painfully into his hip, Scarface joining in, and he can't do anything but turn his head away, twisting his body in a pathetic and useless effort to shield himself from the abuse raining down upon it.

[blixabargelds]

Hiii Frankie 💕 7, 8 and 15 please ( for the writer ask meme)

thank you babieee

7. Share a snippet from one of your favorite pieces of prose you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

man this was hard. it’s honestly probably this long ass paragraph from my succession fic this mess we’re in. there’s holes i can poke it in from a writing perspective, i think my syntax is maybe lacking a little in what i now think of as my unique style, but man. it’s the one that came to my head and my gut so. it’s so personal and raw and uncomfortable and honest. i put my entire soul into this fic and i think this part both resonated deeply with a lot of readers which is so important to me, and is one of the reasons when i was in the succ fandom i had a lot of people tell me i was The roman roy understander. i think i’m good at getting into characters heads and this encapsulates that pretty well.

Roman’s never said yes please in his fucking life, but he has wanted it. It just rarely aligns for him like it does for other people. His head wants it, and his dick doesn’t. His dick wants it, and his head wants it to stop. He’s practised in knowing which part to listen to. Normally, the choice which makes whoever is fucking him get it over with. Fight or flight doesn’t work for him, he knows this, so he freezes until one of them comes. It’s not never him. Occasionally his head and his dick want it, like when Grace had worn that pantsuit and choked him still wearing it, or Gerri- he’d wanted it every time with her. She’d got it right, too. That razor’s edge of pain and pleasure, always pressed slightly closer to the former vein for Roman to feel right. Roman’s been thinking about it all, since he’s started staying with Stewy. About the possibility of being normal with sex. The idea of waking up next to someone and not immediately wanting to slink away, pretend it didn’t happen. The idea of getting fucked without being held down or hit. He just can’t picture it for himself. He’s been thinking about how he can’t get into some rooms of his head. He’s started to remember being called beautiful, a long time ago. He still hasn’t been to his barber.

8. Share a snippet from one of your favorite dialogue scenes you’ve written and explain why you’re proud of it.

again so hard!! i love dialogue and it’s something i think i’m really good at and get the most comments on. honestly there’s probs better ones i’ve done but i really love this exchange when john is trying to distract gale from getting his fucked up arm reset in this must be the place. mostly bc i came up w the meatball story on the spot it just flowed out of me i should write for scooby doo fr. and i also love the desperation of trying to distract someone from inevitable horror without giving away your gay love in a POW camp. idk it’s just fun

“Remember when you thought you saw a ghost in England?”

“Did not,” Gale says. His breathing isn’t quite right. Restrained and sharp, but John can tell he’s trying.

“You did,” John presses on. Buck turns his head a little, the anticipation of going untouched clearly building, but John takes his chin between his thumb and forefinger, brings him back around to look at him. “You woke me up at Christ knows what time. I never seen you so frantic, I thought you were finally drunk. And you shook me awake, oh, Bucky, I saw somethin’. Oh, Bucky, I swear it was movin’ through the north side barracks.” Gale blinks slowly, huffs out a small laugh. “And I thought you’d gone crazy. ’Cos Buck Cleven, he told me he don’t believe in any of that bushwa first day I met him, when I told you my grandma used to post up in Ma’s house when she was already long gone.”

“Didn’t see no ghost, John,” Gale says. John knows he can sense Doc moving beside him, now. He’s gone tense, chest rising and falling with gaining speed.

“Hey, Buck, hey,” John says, trying desperately to pull his attention back to him. Gale meets his eyes, and John is hopeless to combat the panic in them. “I know you didn’t. Remember what it was, huh? Remember?”

“Meatball,” Gale says, barely audible.

“Fuckin’ Meatball. Got into the pantry and brought a whole bag of flour down on him. He looked ghostly, I’ll give ya that-”

John is cut off when Gale screams. He has never heard a sound like it from another human being.

15. If you could choose one of your fics to be filmed, which would you choose?

Superstar. it’s literally me and elo’s prestige show. other than that this must be the place bc i love to see austin in pain

[moonlit-dreamers]

Can you rate all TSAMS characters?

oh dear lord- i can certainly try tho i get the feeling i'll forget some lol

in order of favorite to least favorite

sun - 10/10 - hes perfect, nothing can change my mind. hes heavily traumatized and incredibly anxious. hes the perfect specimen for whump AND hurt/comfort. im also just Heavily biased

ruin - 9/10 - yall cant fight me on this hes one of my favorites. hes a tragic, morally gray villain that did what he thought he had to. hes a sad pathetic wet cat of a man who i bet all my money on (a whopping 500 bucks) that he doesnt even know who he is as a person

eclipse - 9/10 - him being below ruin on the list means nothing bc theyre equal in my heart. again, tragic wet cat of a man whos too damn tired to deal with this shit any more. i also relate to him in ways that probably arent healthy <3

solar flare - 8/10 - BRING MY BOY BACK HE DID NOTHING ‼️

dazzle - 8/10 - sweet baby girl she can do no wrong

jack - 7/10 - he can do many things wrong but nothing could make me hate him forever <3

molten - 7/10 - he baby. he sweet. he dont know the world and thats okay. maybe i just like it when murder machines turn into pacifists and just want to have fun.

dark sun - 7/10 - he fascinates me. i want to put him in a lil test tube and study him under a microscope. i need to ask so many questions, most of them being some form of "what is wrong with you"

computer/spaniard - 7/10 - we dont talk about the previous 2 computers we dont care about them (i dont hate them im just biased <3) i only care about SPANIARD. i miss my boy why did they have to kill him he couldve been so good. sun needs his husband back/silly

old moon - 6/10 - he is... certainly a specimen. i keep bouncing between "i hate him i want to rip his head off" and "im wrapping him in a blanket so tight he cant breathe". before he died he was an absolute prick and the fandom ruined him for me bc everyone fell for his manipulation and blamed sun for shit moon did and bc i was so biased towards sun it was difficult for me to not hate him. after he came back hes more fun (and tolerable) due to him actually improving but i wish he had more set-backs bc like. to him he'd been dead for like. a week. he should be struggling more <3

earth - 6/10 - cant quite pinpoint it but i Do feel like she could be done better as a character. she... doesnt really change that much? idk how to describe it. maybe i just find her boring lol

solar - 6/10 - yes i am putting him this far down on the list bc i feel like he couldve been done SO much better. he has so little flavor it hurts. what are his struggles? what is his goal? what does he even do outside of sun n moon?? and dont even get me STARTED on how little his past is brought up in a meaningful manner, let alone be something that effects him. you could say "oh hes gotten better" yeah but we saw none of it so like?? fbkdsgnjkds i'll need to rant about his character another day smh my head

killcode - 6/10 - it was fun while it lasted or something like that. he was interesting and i Do wish they had just.. left him alive? not bc he would be "useful" or wutever but just bc like. wut if he wants to come back randomly? like he wouldve just been a fun side character

nexus/new moon - 5/10 - listen. i dont wanna put him down here. but his current arc fucked him over. he was so fun and whimsical before! he was just a silly lil guy trying to navigate the world around him and desperately trying to fill a role he couldve never filled. his current arc couldve been SO much better. but its not as emotionally charged as it could be. like. they just completely threw away his original motive! and now he doesnt care?? not even the slightest??? booooo tomato tomato tomato throwing tomatoes/ref

lunar - 5/10 - again, you can fight me, but current lunar just isnt it for me. lunar before he died? hell yeah. he was such a lil shit that only cared about stuff if it benefited him. he didnt care that he was hurting moon with his movements, he just switched sides bc moon actually paid attention to him. him and bm couldve been SUCH a good duo too OTL

bloodmoon - 5/10 - honestly i liked v1 bm more than v2. idk man. something about their energy was so different and it lured me in. v2 kinda just felt.. boring. no critiques on his character, just not for me *shrug*

gemini - 5/10 - i dunno. just boring to me

monty - 4/10 - yet another moment of "no direct hate on the character just uninteresting to me" with monty. theyre just. boring. also another moment of "i liked them before [insert event]" with the event being before earth.

the creator - 4/10 - just. meh? he could be better as a villain but hes like. been here for so long that i wonder if he really does much of anything? idk man. im losing steam atp dnf,jsdgndkj

this might be all of them..? i dunno. probably missed a bunch (and yes im aware i shoved in some laes characters shush). im gonna leave out eaps characters so this doesnt get longer and so i dont go on a hate rant about puppet/j

[swimmingclass1978]

About me (it pretty late but what ever) :

- so my name is Ariel / Ane 😃

-im a minor if i ever follow your page and you have some nsfw content then dw it was either an accident or i followed you bc of some regular looking post

-your honor im just a silly guy when it comes to the ghostface mask on women (or particualarly hot men)

-im so desperate for a girlfriend its not even funny

-loyal to one mutal and the other one is low key just there lol

- james/remus/barty kinnes im waiting please notice me

-this is basically a call for help lol

-a hellenic pagan but its new so let me be, no convering christians allowed

-Lady Hecate devotee❤️

-slytherin/ravenclaw but if i like you then im giving kinda griffindor energy? Tho i get tired easily and my social battery is lasting max of an hour, in the end of the day im a slytherin bro all the creepy shit i know is proving it

-I'm fine with any pronouns really but mostly he/she, they is also great but she has a special place in my heart even tho i hate it sometimes and he makes me want to scream and giggle

-so im a girl kisser and ace but i don't think i would date amab people. Its nothing personal just my preference but it also depends. (Idk why i put it here its kind of personal need for me to say)

-my favourite colour is green, but like deep green or like dead green not neon green and i also love deep red and black OH AND PURPLE BECAUSE I SAW A DORCAS FANART IN PURPLR AND OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG

-im a yapper here but irl i don't talk much

-i love love LOVE true crime, canibalism and necrophilia like if you ever gonna ask me how bodies decompose and then listen to me yap im gonna marry you without questions, with the respect to all the victims and their close ones. no one should have been harmed,

-my natice language is polish but i also speak english tho its not as good as i wish it would be. Im also learning spanish (DO NOT ASK ME ANYTHING IN SPANISH ITS SHIT) and im learning latin on duolingo (i blame donna tartt). I also took german for 2 years (can count to three) and japanise for a year (can onlu introduce myself)

-im obsessed with collecting little animal figures/plushies and giving them names????

-i love reading and all the crafty things like painting, drawing and diy and id love to learn book binding one day even if my printer doesn't agree with me (update: i've binded my own fic it went at least bad)

-im also a poet and a writer so i suffer from creativity more times then id like to but i unfortunatelly love it all too much 😔 i don't publish my poems bc i fear they are not very good but i wish to be a published book author one day

-if you are a hater or use any of these tags: anti <character/ship name> or pro <character/ship name> or you are a canon fanatic who can't stand people having fun then dni bcz i dont want any of your toxic bs on my blog or in my dms/asks thank you very much

- if you want to share you homo/transphobic bs then get out and never come back

-adhd

-im a sucker for good no voldy hogwarts jegulus aus tbh, amd anything that contains slytherin skittles or black brothers/sisters, i love them

-i'm an attention seeking whore when it comes to comments under my ao3 fics im not joking when i say this

-classic literature enthusiastist and Balladyna lover literalnie to moja zona wdym ze ona nie zyje? Zyje w moim sercu

-i hate waking up but i love staying up all night we exist

- jestem na humanie i imo to widać, bo ostatnio zapomniałam jak obsługuje się pierwiastki. Nie wiem też co autor miał na myśli więc chyba jestem w piździe everybody

-DMS ARE OPEN IF YOU WANT TO BE FRIENDS OR TALK LOL

Fandoms:

-marauders - ao3 hates to see me coming

-greek mythology

-twilight

- percy jackson

-good omens, i love them but considering things that have been happening then i dont think we will be getting seson 3 anytime soon :((( (update: nail count your fucking days and pray i won't finf out where you live)

-the poppy war thrilogy (started reading age 9 and kinda reggret it but happily it didn't caused me as much of my mental health as i thought) (dont repeat my mistake tho) (i'm weird now)

- bsd but i cant remember all the names yet I know whats going on so its fine

-TPN in every daydreaming sesion i gotta do an au someone as the main 3 its an addiction to amgst at this point. Also im making a petition on recreating season 2 so it will follow the manga

-The secret history and dps my friends hate me in atumn because of those two

-LAPVONE I LOVE IT

-low key papierz polak aż trudno uwierzyć, że polski fandom się nie poddał po 2021

-WIELKI PROSTRACJA BELIVER JAKBY PROSZE WAS GŁOSOWAŁABYM NA NIĄ W WYBORACH PREZYDECKICH 🧍🗣

FAVE MUSIC ARTISTS/BANDS: Mitski, Dawid Podsiadło, Radiohead, Gigi Perez, billie eilish, tv girl, i fear that a bit tyler the creator and chldlish gambino since its winter again (i only listen to him in winter???), the hazbin hotel soumdtrack....?, CZAPEL ROAWR 🗣🗣🗣🦅🦅🦅🦖🦖🦖

FAVE FILMS/BOOKS/BOOK SERIES': Dead Poets Society (book and the movie), 10 things i hate about you, Chłopi (movie and the book), song of the achilles, illiad, lapvona, seven hisbands of evelyn hugo, balladyna kochana moja, prolly more idk its late now,

FAVE CELEBRITIES: Timothy Chalalamele, ATJ, maciej have to, doda, anne hatherway(?), gosia (matka z rodzinki.pl), chapel roar, jezu no nie wiem ethan i andy,

HOBBY: drawing, painting, reading, writing, crocheting, diy, watching edits, baking & cooking, listening to podcast, thrifting, collrcting random items, talking to myself, reading fanfiction and probably more but i forgot, cóż mogę rzec, no człowiek wielu talentów

Current body count: seven kids in my basement, three burried in my garden (i do not have a garden)

I can be very funny believe me 🙏🙏🙏

Im also a charlie kirk hater and a feminist full of hatered (i will judge)

I do not know math but my esseys and creative writing works are amazing (at least i've heard) (from my mama 😃)

Kins: Regulus; Sirius low key but its pretty minor (i wanna be him); Pandora; sometimes Barty?; dorcas AND marlene (i dunno how bro it just happened) (pick your favourite gay)

Im happily married to jegulus twilight au with reg as bella that got abandoned in february 2024 (UPDATE: one chapter was added a month ago we are so back) and to a demon james/human regulus au that is still ongoing but id let it tear me appart and i would apologise to the author( im talking about The Devil Tastes Devine by TheBiButterfly on ao3 (it has me in a chokehold tbh)) and to OTB by @solmussa (hi *shy*)

Ships: jeggy, wolfstar, dorlene, pandlily, marlily, emmary, rosekiller, bartylus, pancas, marylane, lilylane, any marauder lesbians, nobleflower, quillkiller, teddromeda, poppy x minnie (i forgot their ship name), evanreg, jarty, kinda rosekiller + lily, rosestarkillerchaser(any variant of them really), moonwater, percybeth(is that their ship name?), solangelo, (shin)soukoku, any legal lesbian ship thb, i also liked jily in the past but the toxic shippers ruined it for me :( i still love her tho thats my wifey

My ao3 fanfic:

there is a light, i feel it in me: COMPLETE, black brothers angst, jegulus, wolfstar +more, trauma healing, angst/fluff, everything pandora and barty are doing is great i do not make the rules

there is no time; we are all gonna die: black cousins angst, Narcissa Black Centric, no beta we die like the blacks, hurt/no comfort, basically idgaf if you dont like the characterisation im just being realistic

The Sun and It's Star: JEGULUS TWILIGHT AU (its back), Regulus + Black Sisters + Nymphadora are wizards/witches, James is a vampire, not so twilight but its twilight?(you'll read, you'll find out), black brothers angst, trans regulus black, Wallys A+ parenting style, disabled Regulus Black,

Face reveal (bros gonna be blinded by the face card frfr):

Im also a proud owner of this justin biber ahh haircut I thought it was a wonderfull idea few months back and i do feel the best in my skin i've ever felt since my dysphoria went almost 2lvl down but no one want to talk to me at school now i think its not very nice of them tbh im a great person sometimes

Thats all lol have a good time or whatever

MY TAGS:

#ari talks -for texts or my fave posts i made

#ariel answers - for asks

[victoriousscarf]

Was tagged by @katajainen

How many works do you have on AO3?

302

What's your total AO3 word count?

5,012,937

Some of these were co-written but still when I went to check for this and found I'd finally passed the 5 million mark I was super psyched. I'd been approaching it for a while lol.

Your Top 5 stories by kudos

the forest is dark and deep and i've seen you here before

Its Not the End of the World (But It Might as Well be the End of Your World): This one will forever crack me up because I literally thought 2 other people were going to get a chuckle out of it when I wrote it. Still gets weekly kudos 10 years later (Wait *record scratch* ten years??? Yeah I started posting in 2015. Did not see that coming/had not processed that)

My Downfall is Rooted in Your Desperate Need

Looks Can be Deceiving, Even if You're on the Right Track (Technically it's Two Sides of the Coin but that's a co-written one so I'm going with my next down one)

I Won't Move the Heaven's for You and You'll Pretend to Forget Me

Okay I do love the fact that it's like "the forest is dark and deep is an outlier and should not have been counted" because everything else is DCU.

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I try! It's rough in my inbox right now so I've started just opening up stories and replying to all the comments on them straight on to try and tame the inbox down. You might be two years late but I'm getting there.

Honestly, sometimes people tell me I don't have to and I'm like "No, I'm gonna--eventually" not because I feel like I must, but because I like to! Author's talk about their love of comments all the time, but it's the love of the conversation, and sometimes having that back and forth reveals new and fun things about your story too. I love comments and replying, I just, sometimes get to a point where it's "you either get a reply or an update" and then I do that too many times in a row and the inbox becomes ungovernable.

Do you write crossovers?

I used to. I'll still enjoy a good fusion au, but I rarely straight up cross over characters anymore. They're fun thought experiments though, trying to figure out how different worlds would collide.

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yes. What kind? I don't know, whatever kind serves the plot. I'm not a PWP writer, let's put it that way. It's more "if this fits the purpose of the story or emotional arc, I'll write it." Very rarely do I just because... though that happens randomly sometimes.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes. In both the straight up plagiarism way and in the someone reposted my fic to wattpad and said their friend (with a totally different name) wrote it.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! Though some of them seem to have disappeared off ao3 over the years which is too bad. But I remember some were Chinese and some were Russian. A few podfics too! And let me tell you, nothing is better than that feeling, but also hearing someone read my own words does send me immediately scurrying to hide under my bed.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Hmmm idk. @meddalarksen? Have I ever co-written a fic before?

(The answer is yes).

What's your all time favorite ship?

Uhhhh... depends on the day but an evergreen classic is Spock/McCoy

What's a WIP that you want to finish but probably never will?

Hold My Hand Under the Rust and the Dust will probably never get finished. Unless I figure out how to do something totally different with it than I originally planned.

What are your writing strengths?

Logistics, according to multiple people. Smut for the aces. Making people cry.

What are your writing weaknesses?

Staying on task.

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet, but want to?

I never have written a single Legends of Tomorrow fic, despite talking about multiple ones.

What's your favorite fic that you've written?

That's a pretty impossible question lolol.

At the moment? The fic I'm incredibly proud of: to gain, to lose

The fic that gave me something no other fic has/I have probably reread the most: Only Break What's Yours

The fic that taught me I could do it: Find the Sun in the Corners of Shadows

The fic that fundamentally changed me as a person: the forest is dark and deep and i've seen you here before

[captainshyguy]

i've been kinda noodling on some thoughts for the past few months based on posts ive seen discussing fandom (not a vague to those posts or people rbing them bc a) thatd be silly and b) i cant remember who rbs what anyway lol)

anyway my thoughts are like...whilst i understand the want and wish to go back to more close knit, active fandom where its a community and everyone is heard and there's trades and events and dscussions on and everyone is rbing everythng i think its also..well, a bit disrespectful of peoples time to expect this all the time?

like idk i truly think a lot of people have less time these days, with employers squeezing so much out of their workers, a lot more people being chronically sick and exhausted bc of the pandemic. put that on top of there being a constant increase in media and art to check out every single year, and people who may be wary about fandom bc of past experience and drama like...are you surprised people are bouncing around more? are u surprised theyre maybe hanging on the side nd keeping to themselves?

like i've seen posts getting annoyed/being judgy about people not sticking with a fandom for longer than a few years and like

do you know how many things there are to check out at all times?? sayign this as someone who has liked and rbed pokemon art for nearly 10 years now, i have dozens of indie games i want to play, many shows i want to check out, art i'd actually like to make myself, indie webcomics i try to keep up with, music artists i'd like to check out more, youtube video essayists i'd like to support, and dont get me started on books and movies, which i've barely even stepped my toes into! there's so much!! of course people are going to move on!! there's so much in the world to see! all on top of real life!

fandom isnt like...a contract? its not something ur bound to. people can very much move on bc theyre busy or something else caught their attention, or they're just not feeling it anymore! fandoms fizzling out more these days isnt because people just suddely have terrible attetion spans its because media is more accessible than even and there's More of it, constantly. people have a limited time in life to check out and eperience the art they want to. fandom isnt a brand and you arent losing loyal customers (i say this as a small artist but that entitlement to peoples time and attention very much feels like SOME people have this attitude towards those who like their art and like. stop. you aren't entitled to either of those things actually. please treat people like people and not a number u desperately need to go up)

and like people will say yes there is so much but u can stil just choose a few fandoms to be super active in and its like well i mean they could but again. they also dont need to do that? if people do just want to come into a fandom, look at some art for a while (drawing, fics, whatever), take that into how they process and see the piece of media nd then go 'ok great, thanks bye' thats like..thats fine? they're not doing anything morally wrong by doing that. not everyone has the time and headspace to make new friends and comment on literlly everything they see. sure i certainly think leaving commets here and ther should always be encouraged, (i try to leave a nice comment on every art i reblog, and if i like a fic i will always give it a kudos and maybe a comment if i have somethig to say) and leaving likes where u can is good, but i think this expectation that everyone should put in a lot of effort into fandom is just..not realistic? people have lives, man. rich, inner lives that are not just the media they like online

[aurorawest]

Twenty Fanfic Writer Questions

Tagged by @lowkeyed1 - thank you and sorry it took me so long to do it!

Tagging @bereft-of-frogs, @rosieposiepuddingnpie, and @nostalgia-tblr

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

An even 150!

2. What’s your total Ao3 word count?

2,230,050

3. What fandoms do you write for?

At this point my fanfiction output is pretty sparse, but in the last two years, I've written primarily MCU. I've also written for Captive Prince, Six of Crows, The Daevabad Trilogy, The Gentleman's Guide to Vice and Virtue, Some Desperate Glory, and The Watchmaker of Filigree Street. Over the years I've written in tons of fandoms.

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

The Real Asgardians of the Galaxy (MCU, Loki & Thor)

The General Mess and Imprecision of Feeling (MCU, Loki/Stephen Strange)

Sleight of Hand (MCU, Loki & Stephen Strange)

You Come to Me Wild and Wired (MCU, unrelated ficlets, Loki/Stephen Strange)

They Change Their Sky, Not Their Soul, Who Rush Across the Sea (MCU, Loki & Thor)

The first three are all part of my 10 fic Loki series, it's not going to matter if we fall down twice.

5. Do you respond to comments?

Goddddd I've become so bad at it. I used to respond to every single one. One of my projects/goals is to go back and respond to people, but of course, my AO3 inbox is totally overwhelming at this point, and every time I see the number of comments I haven't responded to, I become paralyzed. I need to man up and just start chipping away.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? 

Do No Harm (MCU, Loki/Stephen Strange) and Anamnesis (Weyoun, Star Trek: Deep Space 9) are probably tied on this one.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? 

I primarily write happy endings so...most of them, haha. But I guess The General Mess and Imprecision of Feeling, since it's the HEA at the end of 10 fics. It's a seriously hard-won HEA haha.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

I have! I've been called a pedo on some Wreck-It Ralph fic (that was my introduction to purity culture, btw). Idk if I'd call this hate, but I once had a reader get pretty upset that an OFC in A Full and Factual Account of Asgard didn't turn out to be a love interest for Loki.

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Sure do! Honestly writing smut might be my favorite thing to write, haha. Whenever I get to a Big Sex Scene in my original stuff, I sigh in relief that I'm finally going to have an easy writing night. I've written m/f and m/m, but I have way more m/m, and an occasional m/m/m. It's mostly sappy, vanilla, OTP stuff, but I love me some dub and noncon, so there are a few of those amidst the gooey soulmate smut.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

Not really, though I did in my youth. Honestly they're...all kind of crazy. When I was in my early teens I wrote a 4 fic series that was a crossover between The Enchanted Forest Chronicles (the books by Patricia C Wrede), The Hunchback of Notre Dame (the Disney movie), and Newsies (the movie). It had time travel. And dragons, obviously. I also at one point was writing a crossover between Newsies (yes, I had a Newsies phase) and Doctor Mordrid, an obscure fantasy B-movie from the 90s starring Jeffrey Combs. Fun fact! It was actually supposed to be Dr. Strange, but they lost the rights before they made the movie.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yep. It was a Harry Potter fic. I threatened legal action (lol) and they took it down.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

People have definitely asked me if they can translate my fics, so I think so!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yeah, I had a friend I wrote a Loki & Thor fic with. I also used to collab on fics with my sister when we were kids.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

I guess it's gotta be Loki/Stephen Strange.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I have a DS9 fic about Eris, a Vorta who was only in one episode, where she's an agent who's infiltrated a rebel Vorta/Jem'Hadar cell. I LOVE that fic, but I just...don't see myself ever finishing it. Maybe someday I'll file the serial numbers off and turn it into an original work. It probably wouldn't be that hard because it's set hundreds of years before DS9 takes place, and I did a lot of original worldbuilding.

16. What are your writing strengths?

Dialogue, character, romance, sexual tension, pretty polished first drafts. I don't know if I'd consider it a strength yet, but I feel like I've really improved my pacing over the past year.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Probably visual scene setting, haha. I'm pretty thin on describing what the physical location LOOKS like. I'm better at describing sounds and smells, because honestly that's what sticks with me personally from a place, not how it looks.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I've definitely done it. I took many years of Spanish so I'm pretty confident that when I write in Spanish, it makes sense. I can tell when google translate is wrong, haha. One of my novels (coming out next year!) has some Afrikaans, and a South African sensitivity reader didn't say any of it was wrong. Though that reminds me, I really should message my friend/former safari guide to see if she has any complaints about the Afrikaans in it, haha.

IMO when you write dialogue in another language in a fic, you have to assume the reader doesn't speak that language, so you need to let them know what that dialogue says through context. I read a book recently where there was quite a bit of Quebecois French, and there were end notes with the translation, and...eh, it was a pain to flip back and forth to the end of the book.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

The first time I sat down with the intention of writing a story with a beginning, middle, and end (I didn't finish it), it was an Enchanted Forest Chronicles fic. This was before I'd ever heard of the internet, so I didn't even know that what I was doing was called fanfiction.

Though, my mom made me a scrapbook of a bunch of childhood stuff for my 40th birthday, and it included what I can only call a Lion King AU where the characters from The Lion King go to Camp Snoopy in the Mall of America. So idk, maybe that.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written? 

I think in some ways Anamnesis is the most ambitious single fic I've ever written, in that it's a difficult story. But I probably have to give the nod to it's not going to matter if we fall down twice. I'm totally cheating because it's a series, but I'm going to be really proud of it for my whole life so I'm going to take every opportunity to plug it, haha.

Thank you again for the tag!

[mymarifae]

hey it’s the writing anon from a while ago ^_^ read your thread on akito and kashika and i’d like to say THANK YOU for recognizing that kashika doesn’t have to be read so literally when looking at akito as a character 😭

it is genuinely a little jarring to see people go “oh he canonically wants to die hahaha” and leave it at that when he’s really been on a path of healthy growth for a while as of burn my soul … please!! he’s found a way out of the mindset of survival and desperation, he’s grown to love what he’s doing without so much of the fear of being left behind and his storied “future” is more within his grasp than ever, because he’s let his partners in and is more willing to lean on them, growing alongside them

i’m not saying we should disregard what he’s gone through in the past but i’ve also noticed it’s a bit of a trend within people interpreting akito to attribute his past actions to his current self— like i STILL see people bring his actions in main story and use that as their baseline for how he is as a character when it’s…. just not that true anymore. yes he’s kind of an asshole but he’s also learned that he has a place within vbs and that he loves his groupmates and they love him :(

anyway thank you :) your thread was a very good read!

omg hi again !!

yes it really seems like a good chunk of the prsk fandom struggles with like... acknowledging character development. i'm not entirely sure what it is, but it's insane to see how many people treat these characters like they're static figures. it's one thing to revisit past events and explore avenues colopale didn't take, and build upon the things they neglected (or just re-build entirely where they fucked up). it's another to look at everything akito is doing Now and respond to it with "he's about to overwork himself and go into another long spiral isn't he. oh look he got a line in beyond the way with the word 'die' in it he must still be suicidal and struggling with his inferiority complex oh no 😱" LIKE

akito has come so, so, SO far. his development means the world to me !!!! it has been so amazing to see this scared, self-conscious, bitter, traumatized kid grow into someone who is Confident and Passionate and Excited and Bright. he's grown!! he's learned!! we see him reaffirm multiple times in other events that he's not going to go down the same path he did in SBD - other characters will see him still practicing or about to go for a run or whatever and check in on him and he always tells them he knows better now. because he does! he's not just saying that !!!!

it took him some time to adjust, but he knows vivid bad squad has his back. kotaro has his back. ken-san has his back. ena has his back. hell even arata and tsukasa fucking tenma have his back. he knows he has a support system now ! these are people who want him by their side, and no they're not going to leave him when he stumbles and falls behind; they'll simply pull him back up and they'll just keep moving forward. Together.

and citing kashika as confirmation that he's (still) suicidal is crazy because that's not what the song is about? it's about him reflecting on his past and all the shitty things he went through that caused him to develop that bitter inferiority complex he struggled with for so long. and how he's starting to feel ready to move on from it all. even from haruryo's perspective, in which all the lines about wanting to die are literal, kashika is still a very, very, very positive song !! it's still about moving forward and allowing your love of music (or [insert personal Love of choice here]) to help you through dark times. it's not a song about wanting to kill yourself; it's a song about wanting to live.

idk this all is just super important to me because i am all about stories about growth and healing and recovery. and it's frustrating to glance at the prsk fandom and see people squandering these beautiful stories for... i don't even know what or why 😭

[cowboylikedean]

Harry didnt want to keep Taylor hidden in the shadows what 💀 yes they hid alot but that wasn't something that harry specifically did to her if anything that was her most public relationship ever she herself said that it was very public and they had to HIDE because of it. it's literally not the same to what joe put her through AT ALLLLLLLLL. harry also proudly said that he had no problem being seen with her “if you like cameras flashing everytime we go out baby i'm perfect" etc. like what are you even saying

Oh anon...

so first... what joe put her through was not hiding her away. this is an invention of the fandom. no where in any of the joe songs refer to being hidden as something joe wanted. Not. At. All. taylor believed she had to hide because that relationship started when people were calling for her death on twitter. i don't understand why this fandom refuses to acknowledge this unhealthy choice might have been taylor's. and in the pain of the boredom of her relationship, she realized it was unhealthy and unhelpful to her... idk

anyway, that's not the point cause it's not what i meant. I see how it could be misread though. no what i meant was that it had to be hidden. i was referring to the relationship by just his name, which is something i do sometimes to shorthand in my head lol. so when i said "joe didn't want to keep her hidden," i wasn't talking specifically about the fandom's fiction that joe told taylor he didn't want to be public, but more like that the relationship was built to require that. tayjoe was also her most public relationship. at the rep sessions, she made sure everyone knew who these songs were about. she attended events with him and confirmed in long pond that william bowery was joe. she spoke about him in interviews and referred to him publicly as her boyfriend. literally, only other guy she did that for prior was crusty hairball. the relationship's unhealthiness did not come from being hidden, it came from not being honest.

the problems in haylor, however, were connected to public vs private spheres. the backlash was about it and the fear and uncertainty but then also in the breakup the sleeping with people to make her jealous and then the only wanting her when she's with someone else and the unwillingness to commit. the difference between "out in the world" and "behind closed doors" was hugely important to them and as time went on in the relationship, it became less structured and far, far, far more secretive. using courtney cox's house so that no one would see them in hotels or near their residences is pretty.... affair-esque.

and then finally... perfect is not an honest confession. it's a desperate attempt to get her back... when he knows the issue is his lack of commitment, but being in public and okay with what people say is a form of commitment... you know, just not the one she was talking about but it was one of the forms of commitment that had been an issue so maybe that would work. i harry didn't say anything dishonest, but he wasn't organically and earnestly expressing love for being seen with her. he was trying to negotiate. so i wouldn't really use it as like an example of him being okay with being public with her. especailly since the message is literally like "i'll be seen in public hanging out with you, but i won't be in a relationship with you." which isn't really a gotcha for harry being pro-public relationship.....

[witchboyjimin]

20 questions for fic writers

stole this from my best friend. if you'd also like to do it, please go for it and tag me in it huhu

1. How many works do you have on Ao3?

60! which is. a lot of works but i've been posting since 2015

2. What's your total Ao3 word count?

623,307. i hope to hit 1 million words by the end of 2025 >:)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

everything is kookmin these days but once upon a time i wrote other bts pairings and before that i wrote for ikon and got7 (and before that aka before ao3: exo, bap, block b, beast, harry potter, naruto, kingdom hearts....god idk there are a lot of fandoms lol)

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

i like how desperate you seem (in the way you look at me) if i get in, i just might drown i glow pink in the night shine a light through the dark the moon keeps calling out to me, but i only ever hear your name

5. Do you respond to comments?

no, but i did promise myself to respond to comments again in 2024. starting with the ones left on my latest fic.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

uuhhh...probably i might not make it. simply because it's an mcd fic and spoilers! jk is dead throughout the fic and the fics ends like that...

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

lol i think pretty much all of my fics end with a happy ending aka the pairing ends up together, happily in love. 

8. Do you get hate on fics?

100%. lot of fandom drama involved with writing exclusively btm!jm. i've gotten anon msgs telling me to "kms", people hoping i get raped, murdered, my body never found etc etc. you name it, i've seen it. all because they hate that i write btm!jm.

i do think fandom has gotten less insane over this very recently but i am also just way less available and have a much smaller social media presence so lack of access to me has probably reduced the hate, too. plus i'm not actively part of fandom these days so people care about me less, which is great!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

it's my favourite thing to write! i do need to get back into it though...also was not aware there are types of smut? i guess the rly nasty kind rjfkndk i like pretty much most kinks/fetishes and think it's fun to explore them.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

i have written three crossover fics! >:) two were bobby (ikon)/jimin and one was jaebum (got7)/jimin.

craziest one was probably oh boy, don't be shy since it's basically bobby finds jimin's dildo and then dp's jimin :D

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

multiple times.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

yes, i used to allow translations but it got to a point where people would ask to translate and then never come back to link their translations. plus, i've had people link me to fics that were translated without my permission. 

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

yes! two of them :)

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin kookmin

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

god, i have so many wips i want to write that it's always like...whatever sticks. my current wip tracker has 30 fic ideas on it. i rly want to write this mafia au but i have 2 supernatural aus i also want to write very badly...

there is also a collab fic i rly want to write with my friend bee, which i hope to finish, but idk if we will. i just rly love writing hurt/comfort jgfkd

16. What are your writing strengths?

i'm very good at writing emotion. it's important to me that the reader feels and understands what my characters are feeling and feels that connection to the fic. i'm also good at writing porn for this reason. i'm also very good at worldbuilding and i will put in the research and care to ensure my worldbuilding makes sense and is as accurate as possible and failing that, as believable as possible. moreover, i am just a dedicated researcher. because i write for a korean boyband, it's important to me that i do the research into korean history, customs, current social etiquette etc. it's actually a huge pet peeve of mine to see people just make stuff up or have the fic be entirely westernised/americanised but the boys are all in korea.

i think i'm also good at consistent characterization and at pacing/flow in my work. these are both rly important to me and i've worked on them a lot over the years. i think this also lends to me being pretty good at plotting a fic out so that it's not long and drawn out or that i'm not taking the time to explore certain aspects i've introduced. balance is important!

i think i'm also pretty versatile. i can write different genres pretty easily (eg. i love writing action sequences and am good at making sure the pacing is rly fast and then slowing down when something romantic or suspenseful happens) and am good at like setting a certain vibe/tone for a fic.

finally, i am dedicated to improving. i don't think fanfic writers necessarily owe this to readers (fic writing being a hobby) but writing is really important to me and so it's important to me that i improve and challenge myself.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

i need to read more! i need to expand my vocabulary and learn how to better write metaphors. my imagery could use work, my dialogue definitely needs work. i want to write my characters with a more unique voice versus everyone kind of sounding the same. i want to make sure each character has their own "quirks" the way real people do.

i need to learn to write better description, too, as i think setting can do a lot for setting the mood/tone for a fic. a lot of my short-comings just come down to me reading too little so i need to read more and i need to dissect my favourite fics and books and pinpoint what i found compelling about them.

i also need to challenge myself to write more plot-heavy fics and to be unafraid to write characters who are unlikable or appear irredeemable. i want to write fic that has one main plot but a million little subplots and i want all of these things to come together coherently. i want my work to explore themes that are important to me!

i don't care so much about grammar but probably, i need to get better at that too haha

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

since i write fic for bangtan who are korean, i don't think it's ever necessary to write dialogue in another language. it comes across as cringey (derogatory) and borders on racist imo

19. First fandom you wrote for?

uh, beyblade? lolololol

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

i think it's my favourite rn because i just finished writing it lol but sorry about the blood in your mouth (i wish it were mine)

i am also very fond of i thought he remembered me; he took me back so tenderly because i love writing space aus! sci-fi is one of my fav genres!