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First half of 2025 (general reading)

This is for the first 3 to 6 months for you in 2025. Please choose a pile and scroll for your reading.

Pile 1: Hongdae magnet

Pile 2: calico cat

Pile 3: Fox and blue flower

Pile 1

What a nice pile! I think the energy of how this pile went matches the cards pretty well. The cards just sort of like hopped out of the deck. So, I think for the first 3 to 6 months of this year, you're going to be taking some bold steps, kind of throwing yourself into things, literally taking leaps with your career or some kind of skill or hobby. I see a lot of returns for your efforts. There's a lot of potential success and recognition. Again, this looks like it's particularly going to have to do with work, a skill, a hobby, or something that you're studying in school. Some of you may even graduate with law degrees or something in some kind of social justice. So probably yeah a lot of you might be graduating in around May or June.

I see a lot of you upgrading your skills in regard to if you play music, or you are a writer or some kind of artist. Because of the practice, practice, practice category I definitely think it's reinforcing you putting in the effort everyday or every week doing whatever it is you're doing, and then eventually you're going to see rewards from it. Again, this feels more like in the form of promotions or a new job where you make more money or is more suited to your skills, or graduating with a degree or certificate especially in a particular field. This isn't so much like graduating with a general liberal arts degree though there's nothing wrong with that, but this feels like people who are studying something more particular whether it's arts or science.

This makes even more sense with the open up to change new moon in Aquarius card. Aquarius is often about information, technology, communication. So I'm seeing more like science or law driven people and then some of you will just have very specific things you're doing with the arts like it would have to be specific widths instruments like you play the horn or you are specifically studying digital art. So I see a lot of success with that. There's a lot of clarity coming through as well. I think some of you are going to embark on some life changes in the next 3 to 6 months and you'll have more clarity about your future and what you want to do and where you want to go and probably job offers will come in if you're graduating.

Also again the art of Life card with this door that is blue with a star on it, it says there's no sacred light in the aura of an invisible life be bold in your skin let your love dance in sight. So again I think confirmation for those of you graduating with art degrees or upgrading your art skills. It's also reinforcing that idea of being bold and taking leaps and sort of carrying that full energy into the first half of the year. I think this also harkens back to the idea of clarity as well. So lots of things will start falling into place for you kind of like a puzzle. And I feel like it's just going to go step by step by step. Very normal chronological events. Like you do the work, you graduate, you get the job either before you graduate or shortly after because you have all the skills you need to get it. Or even if you're just getting your bachelor's degree and moving on to graduate school or from graduate to PhD. Everything seems to be lining up fine according to how the energy is now. Again as long as you are still putting in the effort and having a positive mindset and being goal oriented.

With affirmations, it says to lift up your thoughts and energy, and to attract what you desire, use positive affirmations. Again I think this is being very clear-minded with your goals and your choices and as long as you follow that path, you'll get exactly what you want. I'm not necessarily seeing a manifestation card, but this is what it feels like. However the logical side of me is like well of course it's going to come because you put the work into it and had clarity and a positive mindset about where you're going. So that just makes sense right. When you put the directions into an app, more than likely it's going to take you where you need to go because you get on the road and you take the turns that you're supposed to and you clearly know where you're headed. As long as you carry that mindset, it will be fine.

In terms of colors, I see quite a lot coming through. The predominant one for me are the purples and the blues and then greens and yellows. So a lot of clarity in terms of mind and communication, spiritual effort is going to be necessary. Like I said having a positive mindset and doing the affirmations. Green is going to be your heart, doing something that you have passion for. The yellow would be doing it with confidence or building your confidence through repeatedly doing whatever it is you're doing. Like if you want to be an actor, you are already performing in plays on stage or taking the acting classes. If you want to be a scientist or researcher, you're working in the lab and getting hands-on experience at school.

So, this feels like my very logical, goal-oriented people or at least people who are super confident in where they are headed. I also sort of wonder if you might have a bit of luck during this time. Almost like things will be on your side for the most part. But again I think that has to do with mindset and having a goal and putting in the work.

I don't think there's much to say. I find this pile pretty clear. But we can talk about the numbers. You have a six 11 or two and then an eight... So maybe June could be especially significant like June 11th or June 2nd or June 8th. I think the Justice card in terms of what that card usually means besides indicating maybe an area of study or work that you're going into, is just the suggestion that you're going to be rewarded for the work that you put in. It's giving like that karma energy. So whatever you put in you're going to get out and you're going to get recognized for, you're going to earn skills, and be acknowledged for your hard work or abilities. Some of you besides wanting to become a lawyer might want to become a judge or a social worker or PR or philanthropy especially. And again I still feel like a lot of science and research happening as well. And the arts.

Some of you could have legal situations and you'll find success. Something very specific would be a thing like workers compensation or receiving professional development from your job, having opportunities to travel to go to a conference something like that. Although there aren't really any travel cards here. Specifically during late January or February, you might have opportunities for change. This could be planning more during this time about your graduation or having job interviews etc

I don't see much in the way of romance at least that's not what the cards are focusing on for this time. I do at least see you in the presence of friends and colleagues. There are people who admire you for your skills and abilities. I think you could be generally well liked and popular even. Some of you. I see a fair amount of self-reflection as well, but this is going to be geared toward your goal and your future and what you want to do. The advice I can give is pretty much to stay on the course you're on, be confident in yourself, make both choices and bold decisions, try to keep your eye on the prize is what I want to phrase it as. I already feel like most of you are pretty well focused, so I want to say just stay focused at least until the 6 months are up and get where you're going. If there are any turbulent times ahead for you, if it's not really showing up. The only place that it kind of could exist is in this Justice card because Finn looks pretty well beaten up. But I think this is more whatever hardships you go through, something will come out of it. Because six of wands indicates success for whatever you're going to do or put the effort into.

In terms of confirmation of astrological signs if you need that. Libra and Aquarius are really the only ones showing up. So that could be your sign or you could have a mentor of that sign. It's not a romantic indicator here. It is cute how you have a horse in the practice card and then a six of wands has a horse in it. So you could have a friend or a family member who has been significantly supportive and loyal to you, especially in regard to you fulfilling this role. Somebody who's kind of helped carry you to this point, so as long as you're also very appreciative of that person in your life.

That could be part of your affirmations and showing gratitude. They both even have a little pink scarf around their necks or will one has like some flowers. Okay fine so maybe some of you if you did have a spouse or significant other that has supported you through your studies. It's not necessarily a love match but I feel like it's more showing appreciation for people who have supported you along your path. Like if they listened to you play your instrument or came to watch your shows or listened to you talk about your dissertation. Or maybe you even had a close friend or colleague that you're graduating with from your studies. But mostly I see it as support. It could even be a spirit guide if you're into that. Somebody who kind of had a hand in it on your way to make sure that you got the success that you deserved.

Okay well rather than keep repeating the same things. Very cool oriented group, success at least halfway through the year, moving on in terms of studies and career, potentially upleveling any kind of skill that you've been working on, being surrounded by supportive people, a real focus on the future and goals and making sure that you keep telling yourself no matter what happens that you're going to get there because you're doing the work. I don't see a lot of doubt or I should say I don't see there's a lot of room to have doubt. As in it's not going to help you get to where you want to go so just throw it out and be like okay. This is my destination, these are the routes or steps I need to take to get there, and that is literally all I need to focus on. I don't need to focus on any BS. That doesn't mean you can't have a personal life, it just means that this is something that's your priority right now. And because that goal is so clear in your mind, it does seem very attainable and real. So good luck!

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Pile 2

Where to start? Let's start with the tower and destiny card because both cards talk about and indicate change. I also think that having the spring card as well indicates that sort of change in transformation. I can't tell you whether this is going to be a difficult change, just that there's really nothing that you can do about it and that it has that very traditional the tower card meaning of something toppling down because something new wants to come in, usually that indicates something with the stronger foundation. Tower changes can be any kind of thing, they could be something like losing a job, or ending a relationship, or a loss in the family. I don't mean to sound scary, but it's more than just simple transition or transformation, then maybe we would have gotten the death card. This can be a more forceful type of change or it doesn't have to be a really dramatic or sad event filled with loss, but it tends to be something that shakes you up a bit and feels uncomfortable.

It also falls in line with the timing. We see that it says spring, so for some of you around the end of March could be an indicator of the timing. I know spring doesn't really like come until maybe you think of April but perhaps it will be a warmer year. Because I'm feeling more Aries energy so I guess that is March and the beginning of April.

So that definitely indicates timing of when you can expect maybe some type of event, change, upheaval. It does possibly involve people, as in a relationship, friendships, family. I say that because you have two Court cards. You have the Queen of wands and a king of cups. This could also indicate a specific relationship where the Queen of wands energy is perhaps an Aries. This could be a romantic relationship or a friendship or whatever. Because the king of cups is here. It could also indicate two people. If somebody is a water sign or water dominant and the other person is a Queen of wands type person. There could be some type of friction between these people or some type of significant change in this relationship or that person in this relationship could be causing some type of change for you in your life or going through their own change sure. I don't think the cards always have to indicate that this is about you. It could be about somebody in your life going through this type of change and then it having effects on you or you need ing to be aware of what's going on with them.

Again to get specific, this could have to do with literally if you have a daughter or niece or a younger person around you. I don't want to really give scenarios for that kind of situation. A pregnancy could be a tower moment. Not because it has to be negative but obviously it indicates huge change in your life and maybe uncomfortable moments or conversations if it's unexpected. The daughter card could also indicate your inner child or something that you've been wanting to do or pursuing or going through since you were young. It could be indicative of an event, particularly in the spring, that involves a child's birthday or communion or baptism or a birth in the family so a lot of you could experience or your family could experience an unexpected announcement of a child or an adoption or something along those lines.

The spring being more about birth too I'm more inclined to say that this is about a pregnancy and not necessarily like a death in the family or if it were it would be like you lose somebody and then you have an announcement of somebody being pregnant or something. But I'm not really seeing death here sorry. Not to freak you out. But I just have to go through all of the potential possibilities for calamity. The destiny card again tells me that you know whatever happens is meant to happen. Same with the purposeful card. When I see the practice gratitude card for last quarter moon and Sagittarius, I also think this is a message of being thankful for what you do have, being appreciative of the people in your life, of those moments of peace that you have because life isn't always static and peaceful. To get to those moments you have to go through change and being uncomfortable and even pain and struggling sometimes.

But putting that aside because we do have to talk about the tower in that way. We could just talk about timing and you may not encounter anything negative. This is just about things happening around Aries timing you could be reunited or meet somebody during this particular time. Again I gave you the characteristics. You could be the king of cups and they could be the Queen of wands or vice versa. I wouldn't sort of be surprised if some of you were drawn to pile one because in that pile, I felt like there was somebody in some people's lives that was the support and sort of admired them for their skills. And I see this again here with the daughter card and the little cat and king of cups kind of like looking up with adoration. So you might be mentoring somebody or you might not realize that somebody is looking up to you. You could be a teacher or work around kids and people might be looking up to you for leadership during some type of event in the spring.

In terms of other things I guess I feel like a lot of not solitary energy but somebody who's a little bit of a quiet hero or martyr type of energy. There's a lot of feminine energy here as well. I see somebody who's interested in spirituality and higher learning. That there's a lot of time for reflection and maybe questioning what your purpose is or what you want to do or why things are happening the way that they are. Not just in your own life or other people's life but maybe the state of the world.

These three tarot cards could actually be a bit of a combination of your personality. Somebody who's a little bit bold and creative like the Queen of wands, somebody who's a bit how should I put it like a bit self-sabotaging sometimes or sometimes like has these mood swings or just has a lot of feelings all at once, but also somebody who is extremely sensitive and would be a good listener and really genuinely cares and is super empathetic maybe to the point that saying bad things happen has a huge effect on you. I see you as again I'm feeling people who are drawn to work with children in some way. Teaching, social work, pediatrician. It could be an anniversary for some of you who maybe have lost a child and that anniversary or their birthday is in springtime.

I think the best message comes from the destiny card, which says one door closes another opens for you let the plans of destiny unravel true. And the door makes me think of Thailand or like a Buddhist style door. So like with that Sagittarius card, a lot of focus on spirituality. Like coming to terms with something internally that has to do with events in your life or the world and sort of rectifying those feelings that you're having. But a super empathetic type of personality. I do feel like internally troubled but like affected by external events. It might be a good time to really focus on healing whatever like childhood wounds or things that are affecting your feminine energy. You could be in survival mode and not being able to really rest and have that time to like heal exactly. Some indicators of advice are just the practice gratitude card. Being mindful probably. Remember to stay in the moment and when you get worked up maybe start thinking about things that you have that you can be grateful for or how you can have an impact on somebody else's life. Some people when they feel bad or they don't feel like jae deserve goodness or good things to happen to them or don't really like focus on themselves, can take that energy and put it into helping other people.

So I guess specifically becoming a mentor or maybe doing Big brother Big sister or considering adoption etc those are things that are coming through. I kind of want to pull another tarot card.

Ton of cups and death. So you did get that death card! So, I feel like such a downer when I read stuff because I have to read it two ways. I have to read it literally and then I can read it spiritually and whatever. So just because I read the most negative aspect of card doesn't mean that's going to happen to you.

What I get from this is again what I talked about in terms of the Tower and causing change. There could be a loss in the family, there could have already been a loss in the family. That's one possibility for a tower experience in the spring. And especially when you have ten of cups which can represent family as well to me. That's the most negative possible way to interpret it. But I already talked about some of those things. It can also be about an anniversary of a death. It could be like a global thing that's affecting you in terms of death.

But overall, also it could be that this king of cups card is specifically going to be a Scorpio. So maybe there's a lot of Aries and Scorpio energy that's affecting you during this time or the people involved could be in the Aries and Scorpio or you could be somebody with a fair amount of Aries and Scorpio in your chart or as your main signs. In that case this whole pile is just trying to analyze you in terms of your personality and what kind of person you are. So maybe that means the focus during this time is more about you figuring out yourself. Not a specific goal but just some type of transformation that you are experiencing that will develop who you are meant to be.

In general just death means spiritual transformation, or a cycle being fulfilled. Ten of cups is usually about happiness, whether it's about romance or family. It's about emotional fulfillment. So it can be some type of cycle come while like thinking back to what life was like a year ago and what has changed in terms of the things that have satisfied you or fulfilled you emotionally. Or that could be the cycle that you are working on now. What do I need to do to feel emotionally satisfied or happy or those are the things that you'll be thinking about during this time. Like there's a lot of emphasis here on just the cycle of life and death. So you're probably thinking a lot about those things right now. What's the purpose of life? Why am I here? Why do I have to endure these things? When am I going to meet my soulmate? Like why is everything so difficult or why does it take so long or why isn't my person here yet? Those times aren't wasteful or indulgent in our life. It's part of the process of figuring out who we are especially for people who are very intellectual and empathetic and affected by bad things that happen in the world or in our lives. Sometimes people take a little bit more time to push through that kind of spiritual sludge.

I don't know why but coming back to this spring event like a birthday or something significant with a child or daughter or whatever. It doesn't have to be a thing that is upcoming in the spring, it's just reiterating this cycle of life and death. But it's almost like some significant event around a child or childhood, has had a real impact on you and is now like causing this sort of internal what is going on. Kind of like a catalyst for change. Forcing you to change the way you think or to think about things more broadly or to change things that are happening in your life or something about you really. It's not really an external change I'm feeling. It's feeling more like an internal change that came about from some sort of catastrophic or sad event that either directly affected you or indirectly because you saw it on the news and it's just happening. So it's making you think about life and the purpose and things that you want or are lacking. There's nothing wrong with having reflective moments like that. And that's usually how people describe a tower moment anyway.

So a lot of spiritual navel gazing. Again practicing gratitude and focusing on the small pleasures in life as well as the small things that you can feel grateful for. Like looking at the bees on flowers or walking by and enjoying pretty things in a window display. I think things like that will be grounding because maybe I'm projecting but I feel like just a lot of frustration and a little bit of anger and resentment and trying to navigate through some of those feelings because really all you want to do is be happy but then you can't really be happy so it starts up this whole cycle of okay what am I doing wrong and what do I need to do and so on. But you're not a bad person. You're clearly a very sensitive and empathetic person and those people tend to end up having days where they feel bad about everything or sad.

You might pursue more spiritual self-care to help with that healing. You could consider therapy. With the daughter card, things that are just like indulgent in a child-like way. That type of joyous activity is really going to be beneficial for you. Especially really silly and immature things. So if you're feeling down, watch a silly cartoon or anime. I would recommend rather than watch anything negative or dark or heavy, to try and push yourself to read or watch positive or uplifting things. During this time, I would suggest limiting your time on social media or any kind of scrolling of the news. If you need to spend time alone, do that. I already see you focusing a lot on yourself anyway. But I do think you would benefit through volunteering or any kind of activity where you can help other people. I just don't think maybe intellectually and spiritually are going to be a little bit listless for the first half of the year. Restless way. Frustrated at times.

I don't necessarily see an outcome in particular by the end of 6 months. If anything this is more like a temporary time or sort of transitory time. You might see more results or more change or something happen around next fall and winter. Given that we have Scorpio and Sagittarius. Of course you could read this at any time as well. This can be a timeless reading. But for those of you reading early spring or spring or whatever well actually it's not timeless if it's for the first half of 2025. But that doesn't mean you can't read it later on in 2025 and reflect on what's happened. Point being just for this pile in particular, it does seem that next October to Sagittarius could be significant in some way. Again as well as the timing around Aries. It could even be a cycle where maybe something or some event happens in March or early April and then another effect happens from that or related to that in the winter. That can be a cycle of its own I don't know is that long enough to have a baby as well. From March until December yeah. So again some of you might get pregnant or know somebody who gets pregnant. Gets pregnant around March and then is said to have a baby in December.

It could also just be reiterating that there's a strong focus about the life death cycle. And how those are subjects that you are thinking about and affecting you right now. These things would definitely affect your mental health areas and relationships. So it's not really saying a lot in terms of specific events with this reading but just acknowledging and validating what you can expect to feel and think and go through during this time and that that's okay. And that it's just part of the cycle of not just life. Legitimately like if a death or something happening in the world is affecting you and it is concentrated particular around that subject of life and death. But also potentially just part of that internal cycle of spiritual transformation and how there's an actual public process involved with that. Where you have to do deep reflection and think about things and if that serves some kind of purpose in the long run. I feel like I've been in that type of stage for a very long time and I'm not sure what the final outcome is. The only thing I know is that you are supposed to go through it and it's a natural. And you aren't alone in having those feelings or feeling like okay life isn't really like going one way or the other. What do I need to do and that's part of the frustration. Lots of people feel like that.

It could be a breakup that kind of affects you or it could be the anniversary of a breakup. But again that's just the most negative to read it. You could always read it like hey during Aries months I meet this Scorpio or I meet another Aries or I meet this fire sign or this other water sign. And maybe you meet that person shortly after a breakup. And that's part of a cycle of one thing ending and another beginning and it being for the best. The only kind of solace I can provide is that like everything is happening in course and everything that ended either was part of a plan or was a component necessary to push you into a direction that is more stable for you. Like perhaps leaving a relationship that was abusive or just neglectful or just wasn't completely 100% and then moving to a relationship that fills the gaps that the other relationship couldn't. But you would never know that you needed those things in the new relationship unless you went through the relationship that made you understand what was lacking or what you did need. And then you can apply that lesson if you don't have any type of relationship and don't want a relationship to some other area of life

Like you lose your job or you want to quit or whatever and then you end up at a job that fulfills you in ways that the previous job couldn't but losing the job itself caused a lot of conflict and stress and you weren't exactly sure of the outcome. Sometimes I think people get lessons in different types of ways. I don't know why that is. I don't want to say it's easier for some people but it certainly feels like that whereas some people get pushed off a cliff. And you think what did I do to deserve this? But in my experience it's been like those are the people that would have been slower to let go of an experience or situation that was negative for them so in order to get them out of that situation the universe gives them like a really rude kick in the pants. That feels very hurtful at the time but it is what it is is all I can say.

And in terms of looking at the little calico cat as the item that you picked. You know it's looking very cozy. You don't really know its situation either. Is it in a box because it was abandoned? Is it safe and cozy in a new home. Does it not want to venture outside it's cozy little box because the world is scary? I think that reflects a lot of what this pile is like is like a lot of people are having different types of experiences. But they seem to be stuck in a box and the universe is working very hard to try to shove you out of it in different ways. You might be very set in your ways or feel comfortable even if things aren't exactly as ideal or as happy as you wanted. So life is like well I think I'm going to have to force you out of this box. It's also interesting that I mentioned feminine energy and my understanding is that calico cats are mostly female because it's the sorting type of genetic thing. So again there's an emphasis on feminine and energy, pregnancy. This doesn't have to apply to gender or anything it's just the energy of receiving and self-love and empathy. So that's why I think a lot of the root issues have to do with empathy and compassion and sensitivity and feelings. Lots of people in their feelings in this pile. I could do a psychological profile and say probably there were interesting traumas in their childhood or traumas around sexuality or relationships or intimacy or love or whatever. And so there's a part of you that just needs to be handled with care. As if you were a baby or child.

You need to be very careful with yourself and how you talk to yourself and how you treat yourself. So that's why I say a big emphasis on self-care like massages or taking care of your general health like going to an OBGYN or whatever related to your gender and health health. Doing things that make you happy that are small and things that you would expect would make a kid happy. Like watching your favorite shows or getting a coffee or an ice cream or going to an amusement park or getting a stuffed animal or getting something that makes you feel pretty. All in all, it's giving that typical heal your inner child wounds focus on those things. So if you like to listen to YouTube music, find some videos that center around healing childhood wounds and healing wounded femininity or whatever.

Follow that type of course in terms of healing and I think you will probably see results in the fall where you start to feel better or you recover from that significant change or you see that you can look back 6 or 7 months later or 9 months or whatever from March and be like oh I see the progress that I've made or I see why it happened that way or I see why I needed to go through that or have those thoughts or think about those things. I think it's a very slow progress type of energy. But it's essential and it's happening and it's valid. And this isn't to say that nothing is going to be happening in your life. It's just that it's not focusing on any specific events outside of a potential event in the spring. It's just that during the next 6 months or even this whole year, after events in life are going to happen and it's going to impact that internal life you have going on. You could have a whole slew of things that happen in the next year but that's not really the point

The point is more about this internal and spiritual transformation that you're on now and that you will continue to go on through the next 6 months and maybe even until the next year. And it's going to be not a super easy row. Maybe nothing significant happens but you're just feeling really depressed this year or anxious or whatever. And you working through that. Or maybe something upcoming will happen and put you on that kind of path as well. Or maybe by spring you'll have recovered from some type of event that happened year before and it's taken you that long to get to this point in the journey. So a lot of people having different experiences in this pile and possibly following a different kind of timeline where spring could be an end to something for some but a beginning for others and so on. It would make me think that it's possible a lot of people who read this particular pile are from a specific generation. Like a lot of gen z or a lot of millennial and so on. Because it's giving that sort of Pluto energy of being a generational feeling. Like a whole bunch of people going through this transitory period one time and being drawn to this particular pile.

So what can you expect? Lots of thoughts and feelings. Watch adventure Time. Go back and watch the shows that you used to watch that are nostalgic for you and made you laugh or feel good. Don't go back and watch Arcane for the thousandth time or even squid game. Like don't watch violent and heavy media. Literally put the limits on your social media scrolling. Go to the settings and make sure you aren't on Instagram for more than a couple hours a day.

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Pile 3

This pile is really all over the place. And that doesn't surprise me given the way it shuffled and the cards fell out. Like the Earth card sort of fell out because three of those Oracle deck cards came out and I was like that's too many I'll just take these but then when I peaked to see which one it was in case it came up relevant it had the fox on it so I was like oh well that's weird giving the sticker but I put it back anyway and then later on I was like no maybe I should include it maybe it was important. And then multiple cards came out of the other decks and then there were only two tarot cards and I was like clearly this is for the pile of people who are going to have issues concentrating or focusing.

Some readers say that when that happens it's also the pile that gets chosen by the most people. But let's just see.

I think the issue is that for the next 6 months there's just going to be a lot of different things happening. There's going to be opportunity for travel and adventure, there's going to be opportunity to try and work on your goals, there's going to be opportunity to do your spiritual practices, there's going to be opportunities where you can be a leader or organize some type of event or work on yourself and become more authentic. There's just like a whole lot of s*** that the universe is throwing at you at one time. Something that is kind of interesting is this walkabout card which says you discover your path in sacred walk about the trees are your people the Earth is your tribe in indigenous lessons you find the will to survive. This card has a lot of things that tie into other cards that you got like Earth and then in this manifest card she actually looks like a tree and with the adventure and even the guy in nine of wands with a stick it kind of makes me think of somebody walking or hiking. And then the be real card also has trees and stuff and the Earth card talks about being respectful of the planet so that makes me think of the word indigenous as well

I wonder if there are a lot of Earth signs or like earthy water signs for this pile. In terms of manifesting as well this 11:11 card with the synchronicity and spiritual numbers or whatever make me think about manifesting and the magician card is number one so there is an element of working on or working toward and being able to manifest certain things in life. But what are you manifesting well the perfect timing card says this is the right time for you to move forward. This matches the adventure card, it matches the nine of wands, step up and lead and so on. So a lot of the messages coming through are about finding your authentic goal and stepping into your power. I know those are kind of buzz words which I hate but just to give you an idea of it's almost like you are being set up to become a type of person or be put into a position where you become a leader.

This can be a lot of things like becoming a manager, becoming a graduate assistant, becoming a counselor and so on. It's like if you experience challenges or have experience challenges you are being set up to be put in a position where you could potentially help others. But it's also a feeling of not just being a cog in the machine like you would have your own spiritual practice or your own therapy practice or you would start your own blog to talk about travel or spiritual stuff. Like it's you literally taking the lead almost like a business person.

See the bigger picture as well like I just imagine somebody getting ready to prepare a small business and coming up with a business plan. And that doesn't have to be literal it can be an example of what to expect like you are being prepared to do this thing where you will have responsibility and it will take planning and organization and imagination. And then you also have to get real. As in like not just about just being authentic here but like it feels more like get real. Like be practical, see the bigger picture, like what needs to be done to start this business. Like what are the legal things that you need to go through, how do you figure out what inventory you're going to have. The universe is definitely asking you to put your big boy pants on

And I think that message is coming because generally you might be somebody or you've gone through something that's distracting you. But the universe seems to think that you are in a very unfocused and distracted energy so it's like hey button down okay it's time to like get it together and figure out what you're going to do and like realize that if you keep going in this direction then this thing probably isn't going to happen. Like a goal or something. So you really need to like strap in here. Because honestly I feel like the manifest, Earth, adventure cards are like all of these distractions. Sort of like all these shiny things that are keeping you off task. Like oh well I would do that but you know I want to travel or oh I would do that but like I want to go to this fun party or oh I would do that but like I want to do a lot of different things so I don't know where to start.

And that might be where the seven of wands and nine of wands are kind of coming in. Because the seven of wands can kind of make you feel like you are backed into a corner or you have to defend an idea about something and nine of wands is also that kind of like having gone through the ringer or like needing to defend something as well so there's a lot of defensive type of energy or potentially some blockages. But I personally think the blockages are the things that are distracting you. For some of you that could just be that you are a lazy or easily distracted. For some of you it's just been like non-stop events or like bad luck.

Even so I do think it would be a good time for you to travel. To be able to experience new and different things so that you can gain perspective about how things could work or how things are different from what you're doing or even just to clear your head. But like you can't spend the entire year traveling. But I do definitely think that doing interesting and intellectually stimulating things for you will give you perspective and maybe help you kind of like see that bigger picture. Some people like when they get bogged down with life might go stay by the ocean or like go take a trip to New York or something. And that allows them to kind of put space between the things that are muddling them down at home. So I think the universe is saying that is an option for how to kind of clear your head so you can start thinking about other things that you want to do or need to do

You know what's interesting is the second pile was a lot about those people who picked that pile were extremely focused so if you could befriend people who chose pile two they could probably help you with your goals. Maybe some advice would be like to write down lists of goals and the steps it would take to get there. If you have issues with time management which would not surprise me here like I don't think a lot of you would be very strong project managers or if you are it's just like become so much that you are sort of overwhelmed and you can't coordinate your personal life.

So I really think you know forcing yourself to think about goals and writing them down step by step or doing things we're like okay what do I want. Even if that changes each day, maybe writing down in a journal what do you want to achieve today, what do you want to achieve this week, what do you want to achieve this month and then take it even further like okay what do I want to achieve in a year or even 5 years from now. I think something like that will really help you to picture what it will take to get there and to really have a concrete idea of what the hell you're doing.

Like maybe you think I don't know I don't know what I want to do so I'm just going to do a lot of everything. Which is fine because that's gathering information to figure out what you like or you don't like. So maybe you're in that kind of stage but I'm still feeling like okay you can play around for so long but then what are you going to do. And it might even be that you have pressure from family or friends that are like okay you did all this stuff now like what are you going to do. Almost like as if you are at this stage where maybe you're like in your early twenties or late teens or something and you have kind of been living this life as a kid still and now people are like okay you're getting older so you need to be able to handle responsibility and you're going to start being treated like an adult so you can't just faff around all the time

I mean looking at your sticker even it makes me think like the fox is sort of distracted by this pretty little flower and it's nice to have little joys in life but eventually the fox has to like prepare for the winner and find a den or like find a mate or do something. Like you don't really have to grow up and there's no natural way of becoming an adult or being an adult because no matter how old you get you're not going to feel like the age that you are. But you do need to kind of think if you are taxing other people and relying on other people instead of taking responsibility for yourself and what you need to do then the universe does want you to grow up a little. Like at some point you do need to become responsible and mature so I think the universe is saying something like okay you're ready to push forward and move on to the next step. No more just having fun. You do actually have to like find a purpose and have a plan.

Again I'm seeing a lot of travel or journeys. Maybe more slow than with other people because a lot of these images show a solo person or animal. So like with all the piles there's going to be some solo reflection. And yeah I basically think you are the group that is going to learn most through travel or like experiencing new things. It's definitely Sagittarius energy that's coming through the most. I can understand the Aquarius and Capricorn as well. Because Capricorn is kind of like that good organization and like practical skills that you could use in school or at a job.

There's this idea of learning more and having like a higher perspective of things that comes through this Sagittarius energy and then with the Aquarius it's a bit of that traveling down your own path I guess. Figuring out your specific identity which may be to do that you need to go through different experiences. It might also be a message to if you are a person who constantly needs to rely on other people or has codependency issues to experience more things just by yourself. Like maybe when you go out to dinner you'll only go out to dinner if friends are going and only go to see a movie if friends are going and like the idea of doing things on your own is scary. Well if you constantly rely on other people then you can't really figure out things about yourself because you haven't ever like been challenged to be on your own.

So yeah I think opportunities to have more Independence and be more self-reliant and make your own voices and do your own things is going to be what happens for the first 6 months of the year. Backpacking somewhere would be good hiking would be good, especially being close to nature makes sense for you. So if this is like going surfing or visiting destinations that are more focused on the geography or look of the place.

Because I do think nature and landscapes are the things that are going to have the biggest impact on you and how to kind of stimulate that thought process you need to become more independent and mature. It's almost like you're fighting growing up or being responsible or feeling like you have to get a job and do these things. Again I'm just feeling like it's somebody who just thinks they can play around for forever. Or even if not that just a sense of getting more organized. It doesn't really mean becoming more boring or anything. It just means there's something that you are purposely distracting yourself or are naturally distracted but it still feels like a defense mechanism. Like you don't want to look at yourself and you don't want to be serious and you don't want to do these things but it's coming from a place that seems to be like fear of change

people might consider you a bit naive maybe or sheltered. I get that from the white figures that keep coming up it makes me think of somebody like computer and innocent and youthful and a little immature. So I just think there's a lot you have to learn about yourself. And you're going to do that by doing more things by yourself. I think there will be a lot of figurative and literal exploring that happens. And again I feel like strongly will benefit from being in nature. Taking a walk through the woods. Like in a safe way. Taking hikes. Doing spiritual practices related to nature., as in like using things from the earth if you like to do any kind of witchcrafty like things. Like using sand, using leaves, using flowers.

You might have particular experiences around Aquarius time, Sagittarius, or Capricorn which is almost a year from now. I wasn't going to go that far. But like the previous pile there could be some type of cycle where something will begin in Aquarius and the cycle will last until next January. That could be like something happens at the end of February and you decide that you want to plan a trip for next December. Or maybe you graduate next winter so you still feel like you can kind of be young and a kid and then you don't have to get serious until you graduate but really you should probably be preparing to grow up even before then. Or maybe that's just something you're grappling with now is I do want to just enjoy this time until I have to get serious so I can still dick around a little bit. Which is fine. I'm not telling you either one way or the other if it makes sense to have fun and it's not burdening anybody. You know like when you lose track of time and you have a roommate but you don't pay rent on time and then they get in trouble for it. Or you stop turning in assignments or you aren't returning calls.

There's kind of like a flaky type of energy that's existing here as well. So that's something I kind of see. Like a very spacey, distracted, unfocused person. And not in a cute way. Like maybe you think it's cute but I think other people in life find it frustrating or immature. So I do think there's some growing up that will happen in the next 6 months or at least that's what the universe wants to happen. Whether you do end up focusing I'm not really sure. But as long as you travel and experience new things at least you'll be doing something. Red and orange kind of seem like significant colors for me in this this pile. That's like your root and sacral. So you might listen to those type of sounds on YouTube. You might wear those colors. That's kind of on par with the idea of being responsible and being more grounded and practical and potentially even taking the time to explore things so you can figure what you're passionate about. Because that sacral energy is usually about passion and creativity. So I think maybe you need to be inspired. Maybe you get bored easily and that's where it's coming across as unfocused and kind of flaky. Like you need to have people entertain you but it's like you know sometimes you have to be the source of your own inspiration. You can't be reliant on other people or other situations to entertain you forever.

I hope that doesn't sound too harsh. There's nothing wrong with having fun. But I do think there are people who take advantage of it especially when they are young and then it kind of laffects other people in your life because they're ready to get serious and you're really not and you don't get why other people are so serious. And I mean you aren't obligated to keep people around who can't handle you as you are now. Like if they think you were flaky or inattention seeker or like lazy or something then maybe they're just wound a little bit too tight and you aren't compatible. Everybody explores things at a difference scale and on a different timeline and not everybody knows who they are or what they want to do right away. Some people know from a young age and some people have to figure it out throughout their life and I think you guys are the latter.

So if you do want to be more focused I would suggest grounding activities and grounding spiritual practices that will help you focus more. Doing those other activities that are like making lists. So that you don't forget about things. If you need to get groceries write it down. If you have important dates use Google calendar and different practical ways of reminding you. I would also suggest like the previous pile maybe putting a limit on your social media scrolling because maybe you get bored and you scroll for hours at a time and then you have wasted a lot of time and you didn't do your assignment and now you have to go to class and you have to ask someone if you can copy and that's a burden on them because they did the work. Or your teacher is like okay so for the fourth time you haven't brought in your work. Like do you see where it's not okay all the time to be freestyling life completely. Like if you do it on your own and it's no bother then that's life man. But yeah

Other advice could be you know a rabbit or cats or a fox could be your spiritual animal or totem or an animal that you kind of relate to. Foxes are very clever and bunnies are very quick so you might actually be very witty or funny people. You might have the potential to write really well. Some of you might actually be kind of athletic or have an athletic ability or used to when you were younger. Like you used to run track but you don't really do it anymore. Or maybe you're the type of people who will start a lot of activities because they interest you at first and then you get kind of bored so it's hard for you to stay with one thing for a long period of time. You might have recently or will in the next few months or later on have small Petty arguments with people around you. Again this could be about your laziness like if you live with somebody you don't pick up after yourself, you don't do the dishes, you don't take out the trash and the people you live with will be like how come we always have to do this and you don't ever do it or your parents are like how come you always sleep until noon and stay up until 4:00 a.m. looking at your phone. You might notice more people doing that and that might be the universe's way of being like are you getting the hint now.

And also you know if you had ideas for big changes even if they feel impulsive the perfect timing card does suggest that that's fine. If you have an impulsive trip planned, that also is fine. Anything that will help you discover something about yourself and embolden and give you confidence and teach you about responsibility, I think those are good lessons for you to learn for the next 6 months or so. The moon also seems prominent in these cards. So I think you are also a group that relies a lot on intuition. You might be able to read people really well. You might have a lot of emotional experiences or deep emotions or deep feelings about certain specific topics. I do feel like you follow things that call to you.

So maybe there's not always a lot of things like a lot of thoughts happening in the skull sometimes and you're just like well I'm just going to do whatever I feel like doing. Not to say that you're self-absorbed or selfish or anything I just think that Sagittarius energy is coming through. Like you just do whatever you want because you just like feel called to do that thing at that particular moment. Which I can see where that would frustrate people in your life. I'm not saying that's valid that they are frustrated but I'm seeing it in a way that I get what they are frustrated about. But you also can't surround yourself with people who are constantly going to make you feel like you aren't enough or that you're always wrong in what you're doing. People have different ways of doing things. And that's okay like if that person is super rigid then maybe they need to be around other people like themselves. And maybe you need to surround yourself with people who are a bit more open-minded and creative and understanding and empathetic.

That will have patience with you. So if you have a lot of people who seem impatient or like hot tempered. Although you yourself may be hot tempered as well but maybe that's a message because it keeps coming to me is that you need to start thinking about your circle and Fu have the healthiest people around you. Like I almost feel like maybe you usually surround yourself with people who are a little shallow. Like really concerned with the latest fad or what influencers have to say and because you are too lazy to find enough for friend group or you just have been attached because you've known them for so long it's like well it's too much work to actually find better friends. But like why do you want to be friends with somebody who's always saying mean things to you. Like why did you get that tattoo it's so weird or why did you get that piercing it's so weird or why did you dye your hair that crazy color like come on or why are you wearing that that's like so 2 years ago.

Or you might have people who do make you feel bad about not knowing what you want to do or not being serious. And that's not really okay. Now if it's your parents and it's coming from a place of concern as long as it's not completely toxic then okay. And if you are being a slob and you have roommates then yeah you need to work on that and they have valid points. But nobody should be demeaning you to the point that they are making you feel bad about yourself and causing even more delay and confusion about who you are and what you want to do. So I don't feel like you should become complacent in this energy of like it's fine to not do anything because people don't expect anything. Or it's fine to have this friend group because like yeah they're mean sometimes but like we have fun when we go out. Like you don't have to put up with that. You could probably make friends easily and if you just apply boundaries with relationships like that then those people will kind of fall away and other people will come in that are much better for you.

Very specific message but some of you would be really good at comedy writing. Whether this is fiction or non-fiction or literal sketch comedy type stuff I think a lot of you would be really good at that. I just feel really strongly that a lot of you could be good writers. And that you're funny. Like maybe even a little quirky. Some of you might have an interesting clothing style. Like specifically like to shop at vintage stores or consignment stores. Some of you might be a bit on the alternative side in terms of your style. But anyway I think you get the general idea so yeah you should grow up a little bit but at your own timing and however you want to do it and not how somebody else tells you to do it because that's the way society is. Like you'll have your own timing as long as you're mindful of other people. And remembering that you don't have to settle. That it's okay to do things on your own. That doing things on your own doesn't have to be scary and growing up doesn't have to be scary and learning things about yourself and the world doesn't have to be completely scary or intimidating. Also my final suggestion is to read more.

Like not fanfiction but like think about reading books and listening to podcasts and finding a bunch of different mediums to learn as much as you possibly want to learn. If you want to watch YouTube videos. Maybe that's why you're staying up so late though but like I feel a thirst for knowledge. But also laziness like not reading physical books I think that would be really good for you though. Or if you can't even do that if you're a person who runs or travels in the car a lot to listen to audiobooks. I guess I think maybe those activities will ground you as well and calm me down a little bit. So especially if you do go on a walk through the woods why not also listen to a podcast. Or maybe you should just do one at a time maybe that's too overstimulating for you guys. And maybe that's what you do already and I should actually be telling you to unplug from that stuff and just enjoy the sounds of nature. But it doesn't really matter because I don't think you'll listen to what I have to say anyway LOL. Because there is a bit of stubborn energy here okay well hopefully that helps bye!

#tarot #pick a card #General reading #2025 predictions #spirituality #Tarot reading

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mysterious-corpse · 7 months ago

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I think I went through an autism regression or burnout and just masked it really really hard

#fuck #autism regression #I’m not even diagnosed #everything’s so much harder now than a few years ago and it’s not just the added responsibility #it’s harder than 2021 so I don’t think it’s the mental illness #I mean I just got diagnosed with ‘too overstimulated’ as the reason for debilitating headaches the past month #autism #I’m really scared #I mean I’ve been scared anyway #I guess I’m more and less scared now that I’ve put a possible name to it #I used to go to school everyday and be fine #and then I used to go to school everyday and not be fine but I still could go every day #I’ve gone 3 days a week at most since January and I’m so overwhelmed and overstimulated #I can’t do things anymore #autism burnout

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lovelettered · 8 months ago

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#alright these tags are super embarrassing but i needed to rant publicly so uh. you can read this but please don't perceive me too much #it is so fucking exhausting having nobody to share my life with #i have literally zero friends at this point bc ever since my grandpa died i've pretty much stopped trying to keep in touch with my hometown #friends and i cut off my 'friend' group that were racist assholes who treated me like a doormat back in october and haven't really made any #close friends at college since. and i just fucking hate that this is the same way i've felt for so many fucking years like you'd think it #would be bearable at this point and i'd be used to being alone and for a while i honestly was but it just hit me tonight how fucking lonely #i am and how tomorrow i have to keep on just doing the shit i have to do in life without anyone to talk to and share it with #other than my mom who's been pissing me off lately so i've been pushing her away too!#it's so tiring to have to go out and do things and have responsibilities everyday and not being able to share that with anyone idk it makes #it feel almost like i'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders which is SO dramatic i know #like today i wanted to talk about the stupid false alarm gas leak thing with my sort of friends in this club i'm in but i didn't get to talk #to anyone at the meeting bc everyone was just talking amongst themselves in their little groups of best friends and it just reminded me that #i don't have that and i've never fucking had that i've only ever pretended i had that #it's like all these years i've been pretending to be a person that has friends and knows how to live life normally but i never have #more than anything i just miss my friends from home bc they're the closest i've ever felt to having friends that are like family but. i #don't know how to talk to them anymore. i didn't tell any of them when my grandpa died and i think they just assumed that i've moved on so #they've probably moved on and i already know that they have their own lives and friends at their schools that are a lot more full than mine #wanna know the worst part about all of this? i just had therapy and basically told her everything's fine #and i won't meet with her again until 3 weeks from now so literally the only person i can talk to about this right now is my mom #which i am absolutely not gonna do bc she's gonna get so scared and worried for me and i can't have that rn #anyways yeah. this isn't even that big of a deal like i haven't had friends for at least the past 6 months it's not like anything's changed #i just feel extra sad about it right now. i need a distraction stat gonna go watch watch some tv goodnight #shut up hanna

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ilovecoffeeandchemistry · 7 months ago

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I have so much respect for people w/ depression, idk how do they get anything done throughout the day (esp if they have jobs)......

Like, I don't even have depression and I can barely make myself get up from bed and eat something, I'm not physically tired or anything but just the thought of doing something (even if it's something I really want to do) makes me so exhausted I'd rather lie in my bed and rot

#idk how did i survive my high school years #i was severely depressed back then #and still managed to go to school everyday undiagnosed and unmedicated #it was hard #i guess i'm experiencing something similar rn but i don't really know what to do w/ it #i mean at least i don't cry 5 times a day like i used to so maybe i'm not that depressed #plus i used to cut my wrists and starve myself and i don't do that anymore so i think i'll be fine <3

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street-smarts00 · 18 days ago

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Santa Doesn't Know You Like I Do

Spencer Reid x Reader

Summary: Your first Christmas with Spencer and you get his name for secret Santa.

WC: 1.8k

Tags: Fluff, Secret Santa, friends to lovers, one use of Y/N I think A/N: Sorry I went MIA :( I got busy with school. I hope to push out many ideas while I’m on break tho. Here’s something cheesy and festive for the holiday season I hope you enjoy! (not beta read don't kill me)

Nothing was right. Nothing you found was the right present.

This was your first secret Santa with the BAU and you picked Spencer's name out of penelope’s mug. At first you thought it would be easy to buy a present for him because you knew him so well. In almost a year of being with the BAU you grew the closest with Spencer.

What you didn’t expect was your present ideas to not live up to your own expectations. Nothing you came up with could live up to your own standards. Of course your “slight” feelings for him definitely affected this, but you tried to tell yourself that wasn’t true.

You ran through dozens of ideas. Clothing, a new scarf, tickets for a play, special edition of a book he loved. But nothing felt like the right present.

You almost gave up in your search for the perfect present for him. The gift exchange was in less than a week and you still had nothing. Sitting at your desk in the bullpen you considered settling with one of your first ideas.

While getting up to refill your coffee mug you noticed Spencer’s attention was focused on his computer. He sat there deep in thought with his brows furrowed and lips in a fine line. When you walked by his desk you saw he was playing an online chess game.

“Working hard or hardly working?” you joked.

He popped out of his focus from your presence. “I finished my files a little early,” he responded bashfully.

“Are you at least winning?”

He smirked, “I’ve won four times. But that’s not even the fun part. The fun is doing different plays every time and seeing what the computer comes up with as the best response.”

That’s when it hit you. An idea for Spencer’s gift.

Finally something that felt like a good gift for him. At the end of the day you rushed out of work to go to the craft store and get your supplies. You worked on the gift everyday after work.

Soon the weekend rolled around and you found yourself at Rossi’s. His living room had the biggest Christmas tree you’d ever seen. Everyone’s gifts sat there for the evening. After dinner you all sat down to exchange gifts.

“I want to go first!” Garcia exclaimed. She jumped up from the couch and hurried to the tree to grab her gift for JJ.

JJ excitedly opened the gift bag to find a small black and grey purse with a colorful crochet keychain. The idea that Garcia also handmade part of her gift gave you a sense of relief.

“Oh this is so pretty. Thank you so much,” she beamed, admiring the bag and twirling the keychain. Garcia squealed in happiness before JJ offered a hug to her.

JJ then handed over her gift to Rossi, a bottle of scotch. He smiled and thanked her for the bottle saying how his collection needed a new addition.

He stood up and brought his hands together looking at the tree. “My turn.” He grabbed a thin box wrapped in silver sparkly wrapping paper and walked over to you.

“For you, my dear,” he handed you the box.

Your eyes widened and lips perked up at the gift. It may be a little silly but, part of you wished that you were Spencer’s secret santa. You reminded yourself that the possibility of you both picking each other's names was unlikely. The possibility of some things being the same between the two of you was … unlikely.

You ripped back the paper to reveal a large eyeshadow pallet. Upon opening it, you saw an array of beautiful shades you couldn’t wait to try out.

“Rossi, this is so sweet. I love it,” You thanked with a bright smile.

Now it was your turn. Everyone’s eyes only made the moment more stressful. You got up and grabbed the box with a nervous hand. What if he didn’t like it? What if he thought it was too cheesy or corny? What if he thought it was useless as he already owned two of them?

You tried to quiet your thoughts as you handed him the box, but they had no intention of leaving.

“Merry Christmas Spence,” you said softly.

When you turned and walked back to your seat you neglected to see the rising blush on his face.

Spencer glanced down at the white and red striped paper. He carefully peeled it off and opened the lid to reveal a chess set nestled in between red tissue paper. The board spaces were off-white and royal purple with corresponding chess pieces the same colors. When he picked up the wooden pieces and saw small leaves and flowers painted on them. The King and Queen specifically had crowns in a shimmering gold.

“Wow look at that,” Emily admired.

Upon further inspection he noticed the small human imperfections in the details. The way not one leaf or flower looked exactly the same. Or how the clear coating over the paint was slightly streaky in some spots.

“Did you paint this?” He asked.

You nodded your head and answered , “Yeah I did.”

A faint “awe” could be heard across the room from Garcia.

“Y/N,” Spencer started, his voice full of admiration. “This is … beautiful.”

The butterflies in your stomach were getting restless.

“Really?” you asked, not able to hide the smile spreading on your face.

“Yes! It’s Perfect,” his eyes sparkled at you. “I love it. Nobody’s ever given me something like this.” He beamed at you with a smile that made you love sick.

The realization that you both were not alone set in and Spencer cleared his throat before closing the box. The gift exchange continued as Spencer handed over a present to Morgan.

The rest of the night was filled with catching glances and far away looks between you and Spencer. He seemed to feel more relaxed in a way after receiving your gift. Not that he was acting any differently. He just seemed more open. With the group and with you.

You lived off that feeling the whole evening. The idea that you made him happy. You helped him see he was appreciated and loved.

Not that he had to know you loved him.

He didn’t know that. Right?

As the hands on the clock passed you announced your departure and said your goodbyes. You stepped outside and felt a chill against your skin.

You held tight onto your keys as you walked to your car. The snow had just started to fall. Occasional little flurries fell down from the sky.

“Wait!” Someone yelled from behind.

You turned to find Spencer trying his best to run but not slip on the icy parts of the driveway. When he got closer you noticed his cheeks and the tip of his nose were pink. Probably from the cold weather you thought.

“I wanted to formally say thank you for the chess set,” he explained.

“You’re welcome,” you replied with a smile. You stuffed your hands in your pockets away from the cold. “I’m glad you like it. I was worried you’d find it cheesy.”

He looked confused. “Why would I find it cheesy?”

You shrugged, “because I hand painted it.”

“But that’s what makes it perfect,” he reassured. His voice is sincere and soft. “It’s personal and shows you care.”

His eyes widened. “Oh um-“

He suddenly remembered why he rushed outside and scrambled for something in his jacket pocket. It was a small cube shaped box wrapped in paper covered in snowflakes. Quite fitting for the weather.

“I know I technically wasn’t your secret Santa but I still wanted to get you something.”

You took the gift from him with a slack jaw. “Spence-“

“This isn’t because you were my secret Santa. I still wanted to get you a gift regardless,” he reassured.

“I- Thank you,” you started unwrapping the gift.

“It’s not homemade like yours but I hope you still like it.”

”It doesn’t have to be homemade for me to-“ the wind was stolen out of your lungs.

The gift was a small gold and white music box you immediately recognized. You opened the lid to reveal a ballerina in a pink tutu spinning as Sleeping Beauty Waltz played. Your heart ached as you admired the tiny dancer.

”Is this the music box from that antique shop in Seattle?”

While on a case in Seattle, you and Spencer went to an antique shop to ask the owner about evidence found at the crime scene that was purchased there. You fell in love with a beautiful music box in one of the aisles.

“It is. I saw how you looked at it in the store and in the car you said it reminded you of when you used to do ballet. So before we left Seattle I went back to the store to get it for you. I thought it would make a great Christmas present.”

“But, that was three months ago.”

He sheepishly smiled and his cheeks only got more red. “Yeah, I had to keep it a secret for a while.”

Your heart rate started to pick up as the butterflies returned. “I can't believe you went back and bought this for me,” you muttered in disbelief.

“Of course I would. You mean a lot to me and I knew this was something that would make you happy.”

You admired the music box before carefully placing it in your purse. “Thank you so much. I love it.”

His smile grew and reached his eyes. His eyes looked beautiful in this lighting. The Christmas lights from the house made them look practically golden. Even in the freezing cold you could melt from his eyes.

He shifted his weight and licked his lips. He seemed wrapped around the words in his head. “I also wanted to ask if maybe you’d want to go see The Nutcracker with me.”

Your heart damn near stopped.

“It’s playing at the theater downtown. I was thinking if we don’t get a case then we could go see the show on Friday. Maybe, if you want to, that is,” he rambled in nervousness.

“I’d love to,” you beamed.

His face brightened at your eagerness, but his nerves were still present. “But not as friends. As a date?”

You chuckled, “Yes Spencer, I would love to go on a date with you. I think the nutcracker is a perfect first date.”

“Great,” he said with relief. “And maybe afterwards we might have time for a game of chess with my new board.”

God he was cute.

“That sounds great.”

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marvelwitchergilmore · 5 months ago

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Surprise Marriage

Summary: Logan x Fe!Reader -> When you and Logan receive some...surprising news, it leads to a lot of unanswered questions.

Disclaimer: One or two swear words here and there. Mostly fluff, chaos, little angst, yearning, kissing and a happy ending. Not Proof Read.

The morning, so far, had been slow for Logan.

Which, thankfully, due to the last couple of years, wasn’t out of the ordinary. Sure, a kid or two might forget to have done their homework or the coffee filter hadn’t been changed. But other than the small, common, everyday mishaps, everything had been pretty normal.

But somehow, when Logan woke up, something felt off.

Maybe it was the quiet hallways, maybe it was the fact he hadn’t seen any other professors in the break room or around the school, or maybe it was the fact that when he walked into the Professor's office, everyone looked at him with…worry.

“What is it? What’s going on?”

“Logan, I think it’s best if you sit down.”

Logan looked around everybody and they all looked worried, too. Not “someone’s dead” worried, but worried enough to make him feel uneasy.

“What’s going on?”

“Have you seen Y/n today?”

Logan shook his head. “She had a late night. She’s probably still sleeping.”

Professor X looked at Storm. “Go and get her for me, please.”

Storm nodded and made her way out of the door and towards your bedroom. Meanwhile, Logan was still confused.

“Charles, what’s going on?”

The man took a small sigh and looked at the papers on his desk before looking back up to Logan.

“Come on, clearly everyone else knows. What is it?”

The Professor went back and forth with himself for a minute before finally looking back up. “I suppose I should tell you. You’re married, Logan.”

Logan laughed. “Excuse me?”

“I received these papers this morning from a law firm in Oklahoma. It seems it took them a while to find an address for you both.”

“Both? What?”

“Here, take a look for yourself.” The Professor pushed the papers to the edge of his desk where Logan took them with caution and a lot of confusion.

“What the hell? When were these even..drawn up? Better yet, who’s my wife?”

“Well, that would be the other question except-”

Just as the Professor was about to finish his sentence, the door to his office opened and Storm walked in with you not far behind. Everyone looked at you…worriedly. Like they knew something you didn’t.

Logan looked annoyed as he flipped through a couple sheets of paper but when he saw you, he held the same expression but only for a minute then it turned into…into something else. Something you couldn’t quite put your finger on.

Then you remembered.

It had been laundry day.

And you wore one of his shirts to bed.

Standing in his t-shirt and some plaid pyjama shorts that you found in the back of your wardrobe, your hair down and slightly messy from having only just woken up, you looked around everyone.

“What’s going on?”

“Well, Y/n-”

“Take a look at this.” Logan handed you the pile of paper he had been reading, and with a slightly tired and confused look, you read through it.

What was it meant to be? A news article? A government contract? A kid’s essay who’s handwriting they couldn’t read…again?

But no.

It was anything but.

Well, maybe a government contract…of sorts.

“This is a marriage licence.” You spoke aloud. “Logan, why am I looking at a marriage licence at eight in the morning? Oh my god, are Jean and Scott finally getting hitched. About time.”

“No,” Logan said. “It’s ours.”

“What?”

“It’s ours. We’re married.”

You stopped reading. Even if you had pretended to do so, all the words on the page suddenly became blocks of ink that you couldn’t make out.

“What?”

Then the Professor started to explain. “We were hoping one of you could explain this to us, though if neither of you wish to, that’s completely fine. What happens between a husband and wife is none of our-”

“When did this even happen?” You asked Logan.

“I don’t know.”

“A law firm in Oklahoma sent it over. Apparently it’s taken them a while to find your address.”

You thought for a moment. Yourself and Logan hadn’t been in Oklahoma for nearly ten months. And you certainly didn’t get married. At least, not from memory.

“I need to sit down.”

Logan pushed out the chair beside him with his foot and you fell into the softer leather. You had just woken up and all of a sudden you felt like you wanted to sleep for at least a month.

“We’re married? Are you sure it’s ours? Maybe they got the addresses mixed up and…I don’t know. Got it wrong?”

Logan leaned back and pressed his hand to the side of his face. “Flipped to the back page.”

And so you did.

There was your name. And Logan’s. Signed and dated.

You were married to Logan.

Logan had become your husband as of ten months ago.

You had become Logan’s wife.

“I think I’m gonna puke.”

“You’re not pregnant, are you?” Scott said. Jean hit him on the arm. “What?”

“Hard to not be a little offended at that.” Logan said, half under his breath, half to you.

“Do either of you know when this happened?”

You shook your head, still trying to read the pieces of paper in front of you. When could this have-

“The library.”

“What?”

Logan sat up. “We signed for a package. What kind of delivery company has us sign a marriage contract instead?”

“I don’t know but it had to be there. That’s the only time we ever…wrote our names, signed a piece of paper. It could have been this.”

“We would have noticed if it said “MARRIAGE LICENCE” at the top of the page.”

Then the bell rang.

“We…should pick this up later. For now, let's just try and go about today as normal.”

You could only nod in agreement. And as everyone left, the Professor turned to both you and Logan who were sitting facing each other in your chairs.

“I’ll give you both some time.”

Logan nodded a small thank you and waited until the door closed behind Xavier before he spoke.

You were silent. Still processing. Your heart was like rapid fire against your chest and your vision was slowly losing focus on the paper in front of you.

Logan pulled the paper from your hands and placed it on the desk before shuffling closer and holding onto both of your hands.

“Hey, hey, look at me.” One of Logan’s hands came to rest by the side of your face. “Just breathe. I can hear your heartbeat from here. Just…take a deep breath.”

“We’re married, Logan.” Your voice was quieter than usual.

“I know.”

“We’re married.”

Logan nodded. “I know.”

“What are we going to do?”

“That one I don’t know. What do you want to do?”

You shrugged. “What are we meant to do? By all technicality…we’re married. Husband and Wife. According to this piece of paper, I’ve been a fraud to the government by not going by Howlett.”

“So we…we get a divorce?”

“How? Don’t there have to be…grounds for getting divorced?”

“So, we tell them it was a mistake.” Logan offered. “I’m sure we’ll be divorced as quick as we found out we were- are married.”

You could only nod.

Logan rubbed a thumb over each of your knuckles. “Hey, we’ll be okay. It’ll all be fine. Hey, talk to me. What’s going on?”

“I woke up and found out I’m a wife with a husband. That’s what’s going on. Jesus, are the lights always this bright in here?”

You covered your closed eyes with one hand, trying your best to stop the pounding in your head.

“How can you be so calm about this?”

Logan shrugged. “Figure you’re freaking out enough for the both of us.”

That made you laugh a little.

“Come on, we need to get to class. And you need to get dressed. Unless you want to teach in your pyjamas.”

You looked down at yourself. “Oh, yeah. Sorry about using your t-shirt. Laundry day.”

Logan smiled. “It’s okay. Keep it. It looks better on you anyway.”

Hours later, you found yourself in a pair of jeans you fished from the bottom of your semi-fresh clothes pile and decided to keep Logan’s t-shirt on. A, because it’s one of the most comfortable things you’ve worn, and B, it was the only clean top you had.

And after spending all day teaching classes, you found yourself going through each of your dirty items and throwing them into the washing machine, being careful to make sure there were no sneaky bright or dark colours that made their way into a wash they shouldn’t have been in.

“Hey.”

You turned to find Storm waiting by the door before walking inside.

“Hey.”

“How are you feeling?”

“After teaching a bunch of teenagers all day? Exhausted.” You said with a small laugh. And Storm chuckled for a moment before walking around you and leaning on the wall so she was facing you as you unloaded your dirty laundry into the machine.

“I know that feeling but that wasn’t why I was asking.”

You nodded. You knew that. “I don’t know. It’s just…new information.”

“Have you seen Logan today?”

You shook your head. “Not since this morning. Though he did leave a coffee on my desk when I got back to my classroom after lunch.”

Storm smiled. Between herself and the others (including the kids - though they were yet to find out) Storm thought the best thing to happen was for yourself and Logan to get married. Okay, maybe not in the way it happened. But it was a positive thing.

They had been watching you and Logan for years, becoming friends, becoming teammates, trusting each other, finding your own…ways together. Like with the coffee. Logan only did that with you. Or how, despite only knowing him a week, seemed to know more about him than anyone else did.

You were both so close with each other than some of the kids in the school had questioned your relationship status with each other.

“Have you talked about what you’re going to do?”

“What can we do? The most reasonable, and sensible, thing to do is get a divorce.”

Storm crossed her arms. “Have you talked about maybe…staying together?”

“What?”

Storm shrugged. “It’s an idea. Maybe this is a sign telling you both that there’s something more than just friendship. I mean, going off what you’re currently wearing…that is his, isn’t it?”

You looked down.

“It’s laundry day. He let me wear it.”

“And are you going to give it back, or did he tell you to keep it?”

You were silent and Storm watched as small patches of blush warmed your cheeks. She had her answer.

“Look, all I’m saying is, maybe this is a sign. Maybe this is your chance to see if there is something more between you and Logan.”

“If there was, something would have happened by now.”

Oh, how Storm wished that was true.

But sometimes it was agony watching you both together. Like how at Christmas, you fell asleep against him by the fire and Logan smiled. It wasn’t a big grin, but he smiled. Or how you were the only one Logan would let near him when he had been impaled in his shoulder by a six foot rod. Or how you looked at him. And how he looked at you right back.

There was more than just friendship. A lot more.

“Just think about it.”

And with that she left. And you were left wondering.

What the hell was there to think about? You and Logan were friends, sure, but…more? Sure, when you first met him, it felt instant. Instant likeness, instant trust. And that never came easy for you. Or Logan for that matter. And, yeah, maybe once or twice you had thought something could have happened.

Like the night in the motel room, funnily enough, in Oklahoma.

It had been one bed and you had both woken up and turned to face each other. You had both been talking for a good twenty minutes when the conversation lulled and you were both there. You felt something. You couldn’t put your finger on it but you felt something. But everything was cut short when the owner of the Motel came to knock on the door so he could fix the leaky tap in the bathroom.

Or like the night when you all went camping with the kids.

Somehow, you had found yourself sharing a tent with Logan even though it had been planned for you and Storm to bunk.

You teased Logan on how happy he was to be bunked with you and not Scott. And for a split second, you could have sworn you saw him blush. Though it was probably out of embarrassment of your teasing.

But that couldn’t have been something. It couldn’t have meant anything, could it?

“Couldn’t sleep?”

Logan turned and found the last person he expected to be standing by the door.

“Scott?”

“Figured you’d still be awake and lo and behold, I was right.”

Logan watched as he walked inside and sat across from him. “Have you come to say something, or just be a dick the whole time?”

Scott chuckled, “Maybe a bit of both.”

Logan raised his eyebrows and took another drink.

“Have you talked to her?” Logan knew exactly who he was talking about. But he shook his head.

“Not since this morning.”

“Have you talked about what you’re going to do?”

“What do you want, pal?”

Well, he wasn’t being Logan if he didn’t want to skip the pleasantries.

“I think you and Y/n should give this thing a chance.”

“Excuse me?”

Scott smirked a little. “Come on, you can’t tell me you’ve not thought about it with her. How close you two are, how you both seem to know what the other does before they even do it. And call it what you want, I think this is the perfect excuse.”

“Perfect excuse?”

“To see if something can actually happen between you two.”

“And why should it?”

“Because you’re in love with her.”

For some reason, that felt like a punch to the gut to Logan.

“Look, bub, I know-”

“Logan, the way you look at her isn’t the way a friend looks at another friend. I’ve seen the way you look at her. We all have. From day one, that girl has been something else for you, and even if you don’t know it, the rest of us do. You’re in love with her. You always have been.”

“No, I’m-”

“You can’t deny it, Logan.” Scott told him. “Eventually something is going to snap and it might be too late. So, you’ve done the whole relationship a little backwards. So what? You’d only get divorced anyway if it doesn’t work out. But you need to do something about your feelings, Logan.”

Logan had to laugh. “I think I’d know if I was in love with someone.”

Scott sighed. Did he seriously have to paint Logan a fucking picture.

“You make her coffee every day. You bring her lunch and sit with her every day. She is the first person you go to when you finally want to ask someone for help. And I know for a fact she is the first person you tell anything to. She knows more about you than anyone else in this building does, and that is down to you and everything you have shared with her. Anytime anyone looks in her direction, you aren’t too far behind her.”

“I saw you, that day, when the Mayor and his brother turned up at the school.” Scott continued. “The way his brother was looking her up and down…Logan you were by her side in less than ten seconds and we all saw the look you gave him. That man left the Professor’s office trembling. He also never looked in y/n’s direction again.”

“What’s your point?”

“That you were jealous, Logan. And that, for as much as you can and probably will try and deny it. You love her.”

The conversation lulled for a moment.

“All I’m saying is at least think about it. We’ve all seen you together. Maybe it’s time you finally noticed yourself.”

Logan didn’t see you until the next day when he caught you folding laundry in your room.

“Want some help?”

You turned around and saw him. “Sure. You can start with that pile.”

Logan entered your room, a little more awkward than usual, and started folding clothes.

“How are you…how are you feeling?”

You shrugged. “Like normal, I guess. What about you?”

“Yeah, fine.”

IT was a slight struggle after that but conversation flowed a little easier eventually.

That was something Logan always loved when it came to being around you. He wasn’t the biggest one for talking to people but with you, it was easy. Probably helped by the fact you could somehow change topics at lightning speed.

Conversations with you were never, ever boring.

Even when they were probably meant to be.

And it wasn’t long before your fear surrounding being married…faded.

Around a week later, a leak had sprung on one side of the school which meant having to bunk rooms for a while. Of course, all the kids went with their friends.

But it also meant you had to bunk with someone too.

“You can bunk with me.” Logan told you.

You nodded. “Finally sharing a room. Wow, we’re really moving generations in this relationship.”

“After you, wife.”

This became a common theme, until the weight of the words settled down on both of you once more.

A divorce lawyer had picked up your case.

It would take a couple of weeks to get all the papers sorted, but yourself and Logan would be divorced by the middle of the following month.

Like nothing had ever happened.

Except, it just so happened, that was when something did happen.

Scott and Storms’s words had been playing on Logan’s mind and yours. Not helped by the fact it wasn’t the last time someone held that kind of conversation with either of you.

You found yourself in a similar conversation with Scott, whilst Logan had a similar conversation with Jean.

And then the Professor approached you both, without the other one knowing.

Except he hadn’t been to sit down and talk to you about it. He just made small comments in passing that left you both questioning more and more about your true feelings.

And then Logan found you in the library one night.

“Here you are. You didn’t come to bed so…what are you doing?”

Standing close to the top of the book ladder, you were scanning through different books with a flashlight.

“The main light is too big and the fire’s light doesn’t reach this far back.”

Logan blinked. “That…still didn’t answer my question.”

“I’ve got a new semester of lessons set out. I wanted to get a head start on finding the books needed.”

Logan looked around. “You got a list?”

You looked at him. “Logan, it’s past midnight. Go to bed.”

“That’s not what I asked. Where’s your list? I know you’ve got one.”

Sighing, you reached into your back pocket and held it out. He walked over and plucked it from your fingers.

“There’s twenty six books on this list.”

“And I currently have three. If you still want to help, any that you find, just place them on the table behind the sofa.”

And so he did.

By two in the morning, you’d both found twenty three books in total. Just three more left.

“Is this the right edition?”

“Let me see.”

Logan walked over to where you were still standing on the ladder and handed it up to you. You flipped through a couple of the first pages as you slowly climbed backwards down the stairs.

“Yeah, this is the right one. The last two should be on a lower shelf.”

As you finally reached the last few steps, you felt your foot slip and your knees crashed against the bars. Except, instead of falling backwards, or rolling with the ladder itself, Logan’s hands steadied you.

“You alright?”

You took a second to breathe. Having your life flash before your eyes for a couple of seconds really knocks the wind out of you.

“Yeah, yeah,” you laughed a little. “I’m fine.”

You turned in Logan’s arms and was met with his broad and solid chest as his hands held you at your waist.

“Good,” Logan laughed a little, too.

The sound of your life had always been like music to his ears.

A comfort, even when the moment hadn’t been all that comfortable beforehand.

And for that moment, time seemed to still. Any silence that had been in the room was slowly becoming defending, until your hearing focused on his breathing. The steady rise and fall of his chest and the quickening of your own heartbeat.

The flashlight that you had held in your hands had rolled somewhere onto the floor when you slipped on the ladder.

But you had never seen Logan so…clearly.

You had known him for so long and had even spent nights and mornings in the same bed together. But for the first time, you were committing him to memory. Part of you felt like these moments would go, once the papers came through. That even if neither of you wanted it, something would inherently change between you both once the papers were signed and delivered.

But something in that moment was changing too.

Like how you were realising you never wanted to be away from him. That the best place on this earth was right where you were. In his arms, his eyes on you, and yours on him.

You found yourself leaning in forward, almost as if, if you didn’t get closer to him, he might disappear.

And he was doing the same.

One of his hands came up to your face as he rubbed a couple of strands of your hair between his fingers before he slowly pushed it back and let his gaze wash over you.

He was committing you to memory, too.

His eyes locked on yours once more, just as his other hand trailed down your waist and to your hip.

You fell closer to him.

Or maybe he pulled you closer.

Either way, you never wanted to be without his touch.

What felt like an eternity later, you finally felt his lips against yours and yours against his.

It started off slow. This was new territory for you both when it came to the other. It was slow, full of mixed feelings and…something else.

Then it snapped.

Logan pushed a little harder and you felt your legs hit the back of the book ladder just as his hand and arm snaked around and up your back, holding you flush against him as your own arms pulled him closer to you.

Logan braced the hand that had been by your face, by the side of your head, holding onto the book ladder, keeping you both steady.

And he felt your breath hitch as he stepped into you.

Before you knew it, you were braced against one of the bars on the ladder as Logan’s lips went from yours, across your jaw and down the column of your neck. A small grunt escaped him as your own fingers scratched through the back of his hair and down the back of his neck.

However, just as his lips returned to yours and his hands slipped under the hem of your t-shirt– his t-shirt, as your own started reaching for the hem of his…a clock went off.

“W-w-w-w-w-wait. Wait. Stop.”

“Is everything okay?”

You swallowed. “Yes…no. I don’t know. We shouldn’t be doing this.”

Logan wanted to ask “Why? Why shouldn't we?”. But instead, lowered his head. He knew why.

“You’re right…you’re right.”

Your own temple came to rest against his for a few moments, neither of you wishing to leave the moment just yet.

“We should go…before someone comes in.”

“It’s two in the morning, who is going to come in?”

“I don’t want to leave.”

“Then don’t.”

You stayed quiet for a long time, feeling Logan’s fingers draw circles over your skin. Eventually, the only sound you heard was his heartbeat and his breath, slowly matching your own.

But no matter how much of you told you to stay, you tried your best to fight it.

You and Logan were friends. Friends who were about to get a divorce from a marriage neither of you could remember fully consenting to.

“Goodnight, Logan.”

Reluctantly, you stepped out of his arms, his light grip on your hand not letting go until you were both too far apart to hold on any longer, and made your way through the school until you came across an empty room.

It was the smaller quiet space that overlooked the back of the school. Perfect for the nights when too much noise was keeping you up at night.

Except, it wasn’t noise keeping you awake.

It was your own mind, relieving the one thing you thought you would never do with Logan. The one thing you wanted most to keep going. The one thing you would never forget.

When Logan woke the next day, part of him thought it was all a dream. But even he couldn’t have dreamed up anything from the night before and have it still feel so real in the morning.

Then he didn’t see you for three days.

Save for one moment when he brought a box of your things from his room, to yours. You opened the door, wearing another one of his t-shirts. One that went missing months ago. One that he had seen on your at least a dozen times since. One that he felt he was truly seeing for the first time, on you.

The exchange, coming from the both of you together, couldn’t have felt anything more than awkward.

And then another moment hit.

You didn’t close the door.

He didn’t know what to say.

All he knew was that he wished he was back with you, in the library.

And you were wishing the same thing right back.

“I should-”

“You should-”

A small, awkward laugh came from both of you before eventually you shut the door, wishing you had enough confidence to open it back up and call after him.

Two days later, Logan hadn’t seen you at all.

And a morning meeting, with Storm going to get you from your bed, led to Logan realising why he hadn’t seen you.

“She’s not there?”

Logan turned immediately. “What?”

“Where is she?”

“I don’t know. She’s not in her room or any other place she usually is this early in the morning.”

“Doesn’t she have classes to teach?” Scott asked.

“She doesn’t teach Wednesday and Thursday.” Logan told him.

And it wasn’t long before Logan heard his name being called behind him by Xavier as he marched his way out of the office and to every room he could think you would be.

You were nowhere to be found. It was almost like you hadn’t been there for weeks. The books you had taken out – the ones Logan had helped you find – were piled neatly in your bedroom. On your desk, you had a small wicker basket filled with letters and postcards, all arranged in date order, the newest ones being at the front.

The pictures you had on your windowsill displayed all the people you loved the most. And included a picture from when you had ambushed him on his birthday. He rarely, if ever, took a photo.

But he smiled, albeit a little awkwardly, with you.

“Where could she have gone?”

Logan looked around your room. You wouldn’t have just gotten up and left for good. You loved teaching your kids too much, despite whatever else had happened.

Then Logan saw the framed pictures on the wall, just across from your bed.

“I’ll check with Cyerbro. She couldn’t have gone far.”

“She could be half way across the world by now!”

Logan shook his head. “But she’s not.”

A lot of them were confused, but Xavier watched Logan for a moment.

“Do you know where she is?”

“I have an idea.”

With that, Logan reached for the wall and pulled down one of the smaller frames and carried it out with him.

“Hold on, I’m coming with you.” Storm called out to him.

“You don’t even know where I’m going.”

“Logan, you look like you’re just about ready to punch a bull. I know, right now, even if you are the last person she wants to see, you are the first person she needs. But that also means I know what you’re going to do and, love you or not, Y/n wouldn’t want you to hurt someone or even yourself to find her.”

And Storm was right.

And she was right to tag along.

Because just five hours later, Logan had pulled up outside a local pharmacy. They had received a call on the way; they were heading in the right direction, but they needed to go into the town first. Any chance of finding where she was in the mountains lay where she had been all day.

And it wasn’t long before Storm had to step in to stop Logan from almost killing the cashier.

He had been dancing around the question, leading them all on different tangents of conversation about the town and the people in it before finally he got to his answer.

The cashier nodded. “I don’t know where she lives, but Connie might. She knows everything in the town.”

“Where is Connie?”

The cashier pointed out of the door. “In the bakery, across the street.”

“Thank you,” Logan told him, swiping the picture back up from the counter and walking outside. Storm stopped short behind Logan when she saw he wasn’t moving off the sidewalk.

Then she saw.

You had just left the building and climbed inside your beaten up, old Jeep Wrangler. You pulled out of your parking spot and drove off down the street.

And Logan followed.

However, halfway up the road, he started to recognise the place. He’d been here before, except he was going up the way he would come down and out of the cabin.

So, he took a turn.

He was at your cabin ten minutes before you were. Storm had stayed behind in the town to call the others and let them know what was going on.

“You fixed her up well.”

You jumped at his voice and threw a can of pumpkin puree at his head. Though he managed to catch it before his head made a dent in the can.

“Jesus, Logan.” Then you realised. “How did you find me?”

“You forget that I know you. The pictures on your wall. They’re a lot more recent.”

You didn’t know what else to say so you turned back to your front door and pushed it open, Logan hurrying after you.

“Why did you leave?” He called out, placing the can on the side.

“I didn’t leave.” You called back as you unpacked some of your groceries.

“You disappeared into thin air but you weren’t abducted. I’d call that leaving.”

“I needed a break, Logan. I needed…time.”

“Time from what?”

“From everything. From you, from marriage, from the school, from the library. It’s like I woke up one morning and, quite literally, everything had changed. One day we were- we were teachers and friends…we were us, Logan. And then…we kissed and…I don’t know what we’re meant to do, Logan.” You dropped your head as you pressed your palms onto the kitchen counter.

“Maybe we’re meant to do nothing.” Logan walked towards you. “Maybe we keep things as they are.”

“What? Single and married?”

Logan shook his head, bringing his hand to pull yours to look at him.

“Married and together.”

Your lips parted for a moment, your eyes scanning his face, waiting for the joke to have its punchline.

“So, we did everything a little backwards?” Logan shrugged. “So what.”

“Logan…”

“I love you, y/n.” Logan told you, nothing but seriousness and truth in his eyes. “And I think you love me, too. But you’re scared. And so am I. Do you love me, y/n?”

You were trying your hardest to keep your emotions inside you, but something was failing. “Of course I do.”

“Then we start here, just you and me.”

“If something goes wrong, I can’t lose you. You mean too much to me, Logan.”

Logan smirked. “Good job I can regenerate.”

You scoffed and hit him in the shoulder. “You know what I mean.”

Logan nodded, a faint smile on his face. “I know. You’re not going to lose me, Y/n. You couldn’t ever.”

“Promise me.”

Logan nodded. “I promise. Can I kiss you now?”

Logan didn’t have time to finish his question before your lips met his in a searing kiss, your hands pulling him closer to you whilst his own arms wrapped around you.

Maybe you had done the whole relationship thing backwards, but that didn’t matter. Not anymore.

Not when you finally had each other for life.

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moonlightrafe · 7 months ago

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Bad Idea, Right?

summary: A night of drinking with your friends lands you at your ex boyfriend’s apartment — which is ultimately a bad idea.

pairing: Modern!Aemond x Ex girlfriend!Reader

word count: 3k

warnings: Explicit smut, alcohol consumption, angst, brief mention of drug use, language, oral sex (f receiving), fingering, p in v sex, creampie, Aemond is a fuckboy. 18+ MDNI

note: idk how I feel about this but Modern!Aemond is my weakness, and the grwm of Ewan ruined my life. Feedback is appreciated! Feel free to send me requests!

If someone were to ask you your own personal example of girlhood your answer would be simple: getting ready for a night out with your girlfriends. While going out and partying with your friends was fun, you considered the act of getting ready together art in itself.

It was tradition, a ritual. Filled with laughter, inside jokes, excitement, and anticipation.

Glitter, hairspray, memories. It was your time to bond and let go of everyday stress.

And that’s where you found yourself right now: sat in front of your best friend’s vanity, large curlers in your hair. The sweet smell of vanilla coming from Rhaena’s birthday cake scented candle filling the room.

Six months had passed since your breakup with Aemond and the twins had declared that you had spent more than enough time moping. It was time to get you back out in the world.

“I’m so happy that us girls are going out tonight,” Baela said as she finished up applying her mascara.

You involuntarily scoffed at her comment.

“What?” She questioned, glaring at you.

“It’s not like it’s just us,” you say matter of factly.

“Oh, come on! You know Jace is basically one of us!”

She wasn’t wrong. If you had to pick a guy to be in your friend group, it would be Jace Velaryon. He was easy to talk to, kind, considerate. A breath of fresh air from what you were used to. You understood why Baela was into him. Plus, he donned a beautiful set of chocolate colored curls matched with an adorable, toothy, grin.

“Do not beat around the bush, Bae!” You admonished, “I know Cregan will be there too.”

Cregan Stark was Jace’s best friend. A rugged guy from the North. He had a thick beard and piercing gray-blue eyes. He had quiet confidence, basically a big teddy bear. There was no denying he was rather handsome. It’s not that you would be opposed to sleeping with him, per say, you just weren’t sure if you were ready yet; although Baela begged to differ.

Once the three of you were all ready to go and the Uber was on it’s way, Baela pulled you to the side.

“Look,” she began, holding each of your hands in hers, “I know you're nervous. You’ve been through a lot and it can be hard to put yourself back out there — but you deserve this. Aemond’s out living his life, you have to live yours! It’s going to be fine! You look incredible, we are going to have a great time.”

Baela, as usual, was right. You were enjoying yourself. You were now on your third drink, tapping your finger nails on the glass as you half heartedly listened to Cregan tell an embarrassing story about Jace from when the two of them were in high school when you felt your phone vibrate.

A text from an unknown number flashed against your screen, paying no mind to it you opened it immediately. Your stomach dropped.

Hey… it’s Aemond.

You swore that men had some kind of radar that would let them know when a woman was finally happy without them. When that radar went off, only then was it that they decided to try to contact you again. Not during the months where your heart was left in ruin, not when you would do anything for answers. Only once you were healing, on the brink of reaching that light at the end of the tunnel; they weaseled their way into your life once more to ruin everything — and Aemond was right on schedule.

It had been months since he last contacted you, you felt as though your stomach was gonna fall out, your nervous system in a frenzy.

You could not let him ruin your fun.

“Let’s take a shot of something,” you suggested.

And then your phone buzzed again.

I know it’s been awhile, but I wanted to see how you’re doing?

Been awhile? That’s the understatement of the year. He didn’t care how you were doing when he broke up with you over a text. He didn’t care when the rumor of him sleeping with a professor spread around campus, humiliating you.

Ignore. Ignore. Ignore.

Relief washed over you once you saw Baela return with 5 shots of Tequila in hand.

“Heard this makes your clothes come off,” she said as she handed you the shot glass, shooting a wink over to Cregan. You downed the shot quickly, ignoring her comment. The liquid burned down your throat as it settled into your stomach.

Slamming the shot glass onto the table, your head spun and you could’ve sworn you felt your phone vibrate again. You needed air.

“I’ll be right back, I need a cigarette.”

“I’ll come with you!” Rhaena chirped.

“No!” You shouted, almost too enthusiastically.

“No, that’s okay. I know you hate the smell of smoke, Rhae. I’ll just be a minute.”

With that, you frantically made your way to the patio of the bar. Just as you lit your cigarette a familiar voice called out to you.

“Ohhh shit! I knew that was you!”

Now you were sure that the universe was certainly conspiring against you. It was none other than Aegon Targaryen. Aemond’s drunken, perverted, older brother. Wonderful.

Turning on your heel abruptly and puffing smoke out of your nostrils you gave him a reluctant wave.

“Hi, Aeg.”

“How are you?” He asked, wrapping his arms tightly around you, “how have you been?”

Not sure if it was the liquid courage or the need for someone else to witness the audacity of your ex, but you just shoved your phone into his chest, eyes glued to him as he scrolled through the messages with his eyebrows raised.

“Damn, I never would have thought Aemond to be the type to beg!” he laughed as you shot him a look of disapproval.

“Listen,” he said before taking a long drag of his own cigarette, “Aemond means well. He was pretty shaken up after you guys broke up.”

Yeah, right. What was there for him to be shaken up about? He broke up with you.

“And if you ask me,” he continued through puffs of his cigarette, “you’re the best thing that ever happened to him.”

“Isn’t he seeing someone like, twice our age?”

“Not anymore.”

A pregnant pause filled the air between the two of you as he handed you your phone back.

The conversation was becoming awkward, so Aegon tried to comfort you the only way he knew how.

“I know you’re stressed and all… do you, uhhh, want a bump?”

His question took you by surprise.

“A bump? Um, I’m good, Aeg.. thanks.”

The blonde lifted his hands up in defeat.

“Good call, if you do go see Aemond, I doubt he would be happy about that.”

“I’m not going to see Aemond,” you answer flatly, hitting his arm lightly.

“Well, whatever or whoever you decide to do tonight I wish you luck!” he smirked, “but, I know our mom would be thrilled if you started to come around again.”

“She misses me?” you blurted out, the desperation clear in your voice.

“Yeah,” Aegon shrugged, “we all do.” He smiled as his large palm patted against your back before he made his way back inside the bar.

You stood in silence as you finished your cigarette, unsure of what to do when you received yet another text from Aemond. You responded with the first thing that came to your mind.

Have you been drinking?

No. Come over. I want to see you.

Your phone buzzed again, but this time it was a picture. A photo of his cat Vhagar. The elderly feline was sprawled out across his leather couch, the caption reading: “she misses you too.”

She did not. She only ever liked Aemond.

Well, I’ve been drinking so… can’t drive.

Where are you? I’ll come get you.

No. He couldn’t. You couldn’t risk Baela seeing, she would kill you.

Nah. That’s okay.

God, this conversation was going nowhere. Why were you entertaining him anyway?

Let me get you an Uber.

Buzz.

Please.

Gods, he was pushy.

Fine 🫠

Once you found yourself back inside the bar, you decided to use that last shot of tequila as your reason to leave. You had said something along the lines of the mixture of liquors wasn’t agreeing with you and that you were gonna head out. The girls were disappointed, but they understood. Baela’s only condition is that you were sure to text her once you were home safe. You bid Jace and Cregan goodbye, and even agreed to go out for drinks with them again in the upcoming week.

As you sat in the backseat of the Uber, your palms filled with sweat and your heart raced as you made your way to the other side of the city to Aemond’s new apartment. You couldn’t help but feel nervous, wondering how he might react and if this was the right decision. Your mind raced with thoughts and emotions, but you tried to stay composed as you you pulled up to the building.

Aemond was waiting outside the apartment complex for you. His expression was unreadable as he puffed on the last few drags of a cigarette, quickly flicking it to the ground and stomping it out so he could make his way over to you.

“Hey,” he greeted, offering a shy smile before extending his arms out to hug you. “I’m glad you decided to come.”

His scent alone was intoxicating. A mixture of nicotine, spearmint toothpaste and musky cologne. Being in his embrace again had your head spinning, you felt as if your heart was going to beat out of your chest. It was almost as if the two of you never parted ways, like he never left. Damn him, you thought to yourself .

“Well, this is my new place,” he said as he opened the door to the lavish apartment. It was absolutely was stunning. Beautiful, mahogany cabinets and stainless steel appliances. The living room was spacious with high ceilings and a giant window that had an incredible view of the city. It was very Aemond-esque. It felt familiar, safe.

You spotted Vhagar on the dark green velvet couch in the center of the room.

You watched carefully as one of her eyes opened, she rose from her spot almost instantly once she spotted you. Making a beeline to Aemond’s bedroom.

“I thought you said she missed me?” you asked playfully.

"I may have lied," Aemond replied, giving you a shy smile.

An hour had gone by and you had spent the majority of it arguing with Aemond about your past. You listened to him attempt to apologize, explaining that it wasn’t you, it was him. He made a mistake, he’s changed. You weren’t having it, and yet, in the midst of it all, you had found yourself sitting so close to him you were almost on top of him. Mid sentence he had crashed his lips against yours. A rude interruption, for sure — but now, all bets were off.

The kiss was rough and intoxicating, a clash of teeth and tongue. He grazed your bottom lip with his teeth before sucking it into his mouth. Your head spun.

"More," you whispered against his lips, "I need more of you."

Aemond took no time to pick you up and carry you to his bedroom, as he placed you down on his bed gently. You feel his hands tearing off your clothes, striping you down to your underwear. Your heart raced with anticipation and desire. The intensity of his touch sent shivers down your spine. He lowered himself on top of you, reaching his arm up over his shoulder to remove his own shirt.

As he leant back down over you, his tongue trailed from your chin to your lips. A soft moan escaped your throat as he sucked on your lips, taking control of the kiss.

Arousal stirred inside you as he nipped down at your neck, licking and sucking until you arched your back under him, desperate for his touch.

“Missed me baby?” he teased, “because I sure missed you”, his violet eye scanned over your body, blown with lust as he made his way down. His slim fingers ghosted along your stomach, then gripped harshly onto the meaty flesh of your thigh. Your legs parted, letting him know what you wanted. He didn't hesitate, pulling your underwear off with one swoop. Leaving you completely bare in front of him.

“I missed this pretty little pussy too, fuck,” he groaned before biting at your thighs just before lowering his head between them, licking a stripe up your slit. You bucked under him, pushing him harder against you, driving his face deeper into your center.

A low groan left your throat, his name falling from your lips as you tugged at his silver hair and held his face against you. His tongue circled around your clit, the small bud swollen from his attentions. His fingers found their way inside you, exploring your cunt.

His thumb replaced his tongue on your clit as he rubbed harsh figure eights against you. He continued to rub your clit harder. Your breathing quickened, and your body legs began to shake.

"Oh, there’s my girl. You gonna cum for me?"

The combination of his words and a few more thrusts of his fingers made your mind go completely blank. Your ears rang, your vision blurred so much you had to squeeze your eyes shut, eventually seeing stars. Aemond finger fucked you through your orgasm as you soaked his hand.

You laid there for a moment, total blackness surrounding you until your Aemond’s calm voice brought you back to reality.

“Holy shit. You good baby?”

You nodded your head eagerly at him, “More than okay.”

After giving you some more time to come down from your first orgasm, Aemond crawled on top of you, as he began to slowly drag his cock between your already swollen folds, swirling the tip in your wetness; almost pushing in, but not quite.

“Aem,” you moaned, “please, I need to feel you. All of you .”

“Still so needy, hm?” He teased as he buried his cock inside you to the hilt. You winced at the length of him.

“Littleeee bit of a stretch baby,” he said as he let you adjust to his size, “there we go.”

"Oh.. Gods," you moaned. You forgot just how big Aemond was. The stretch was almost unbearable and yet, you craved more. You wrapped your legs around him, pulling him deeper into you.

He began to rock back and forth into you, pumping his cock in and out. The louder you moaned, the harder he pounded into you. Eventually, the head of his cock pressed against your cervix.

"Please, please don't stop," you begged. He began to pound into you harder and faster, the lewd sound of his balls slapping against your ass filled the room. You felt your second orgasm of the night building inside of you as he continued to fuck you.

"Oh, Gods! Aemond, please, you’re going to make me cum again,” you babbled as your orgasm ripped through you once more. Your cunt clenched around his length as the tip of his cock bullied the spongy spot inside you without mercy.

Your slick coated walls contracting around him was all it took for him to lose control. He let out a loud groan as he spilled himself inside you, filling you with his seed as he bit down hard on your neck.

“Fuck,” he groaned as the aftermath of his own orgasm coursed through him, his cock still twitching inside of you. After placing a wet kiss on your cheek he positioned himself upright, placing a hand flat on the headboard behind you to help keep balance, he slowly pulled his cock out of you. You winced at the emptiness, a pool of warmth leaking out of your cunt and onto the bed sheets.

“Oh, shit. Here, let me help clean you up.”

As you came down from your high, you also came to your senses. No. Him cleaning you up would be too intimate of an act — as if he wasn’t just buried inside of you.

“No, Aem. It’s fine, I need to go to the bathroom anyway.”

He shrugged, “there are washcloths under the sink if you need one.”

Your heart sank as the bathroom door shut. A red lacy bra, that definitely didn’t belong to you was slung over the door handle. Memories of your past relationship came flooding back, along with feelings of sadness and regret. You couldn’t help but wonder who the bra belongs to, your first thought was that older professor. It's a painful reminder that not only had Aemond had not changed at all, he also just took advantage of you.

This was definitely a bad idea.

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moonchild033 · 2 months ago

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5H Placements and It's Related Notes 🫶🩷🫣

(These observations are based on the whole sign system, sidereal charts and all obs are subject to change with other aspects in the chart, so don't conclude anything with a single placement, take whatever that resonates and leave the rest,hope you enjoy giving it a read, take it lightly!) ❤

This post includes the topics:

Planets in 5H, 5H placements who should be careful with gambling and addictions, 5H Planets and Children (Part 1) and BONUS POINTS

(I'm glad to make a post after a long time but I swear I felt extremely tired and half slept through it lol, so if u notice any English mistakes, look past it lmfao 🤣🤣🫠)

Let's start with planets in 5H:

5H SUN - Late pregnancy can be seen, either by their own decision or medical condition. Even if the sun is exalted, 5H suns are prone to argue and have difference of opinions with their father and the same could happen to them with their children, kids might be rebellious. Can be advantageous in terms of landing govt jobs. If u r in medical field, this placement can bring fame. They won't hesitate to do anything that makes them happy, they're adamant and stringent in pursuing the things they like, even in love, they might like the chase but also feel like their ego is hurt if the love is not reciprocal.🧡🧡🧡

5H MOON - They can be constantly thinking abt real estate, buying lands, generally constant thinking abt future.They have this urge to succeed in arts, fine arts and literary industry. Can be interested in agriculture, in this generation, they can be the ppl who like to have indoor plants or do terrace gardening as hobby.🩵🩵🩵

5H MARS - The multi-talented, independent, cool person in ur neighborhood. They have the enthusiasm to learn new things everyday, they hate to say 'idk', instead they put much efforts to learn various things.They don't get demotivated after failures or give up, the tendency to fight it all until the end can be seen. The downside is that in a love relationship, they might take hasty decisions on both entering and leaving a relationship.♥️♥️♥️

5H MERCURY - Jack of all trades, the difference between mars and mercury here is that mars puts hardwork to learn many things but mercury playfully masters educational knowledge and extracurricular. That one internet kid explaining physics equations and painting like a pro at 7yrs old🥲 They actually enjoy doing it, likes to feel intelligent for the love of the knowledge and not for fame or ego boosting. As kids, they could've been the ones showing magic tricks to other kids at school 😭😆 They're great at performing magic tricks as mercury is a playfully cunning planet.💚💚💚

5H SATURN - They might feel competitive with relatives, that feeling to become the best in their family will always be there. They would want to provide a luxurious life for their kids but feel bad or blame themselves if they couldn't do that. They are introverted and have hard time involving in leisurely enjoyments, so they can be seen as a boring or a very serious personality among their friends. They focus only on their own family and constrict their other circles, whether it be interacting with neighbors, friends, colleagues etc, they could be the type to go to office and come back straight home everyday religiously. A point to remember is to not expect too much from children and be satisfied with your old age life with them w/o having any expectation, whether it be materialistic or emotional needs, depending on yourself is the key.💙💙💙

5H VENUS - Lovely person, period. They are the people who always seem to be happy and try to make others happy too. Women with this placement have the girl's girl type of friendships where the girls are truly by their side. Can be known for their perfume like a signature or use a generous amount of fragrances like their life depends on it. The downside is to be careful in love relationships, this can give multiple relationships if Jupiter or 7H lord is not aspecting it. They could change hairstyles, dressing sense frequently, even updating the next model of their mobile phone even when it's perfectly working. Even if they're not rich or couldn't afford the rich stuff they like, they would still buy things that atleast appears rich, the end note is that they like to display their refined taste. Their hidden secret could be that in one point of time, they could've had an obsessive crush on a person with huge age gap or in a taboo type of relationship.🩷🩷🩷

5H RAHU - That one person who never listens, they question each and everything earning angry response from their parents or authoritative ppl but they really don't understand why other ppl are getting upset bcoz they will be lyk, 'What happened? I just wanted to know why🫠' but others might feel lyk they just like to oppose every little thing deliberately w/o much reason. If you have this placement and feel like you've to keep your relationship a secret, then it's definitely a bad relationship for you, it might be a forbidden fruit. We all would've done few things that we hide from our parents but this placement can enlarge that list, their parents just don't know abt a lot of hidden things they might do, this doesn't mean they're doing some criminal activity, this just means that their household can be traditional or strict and they could do some outrageous things that won't sit well with their parents.They might question religious practices, traditions and God, if this rahu gets lots of aspects from others, this could also develop into a God complex personality.🤎🤎🤎

5H KETU - The recurring but less spoken part abt this placement is the fate of easily getting caught for their mistakes, they would feel lyk their friends are doing much more errors but they're escaping, but this person gets caught red handed. Hence refrain from saying lies, gossiping or deliberately committing any mistake bcoz ur name will come up in speakers while those with u would get away with it🔊 😭🥲 Don't think my friends are here, we're doing it together, if something goes wrong, you would become the one carrying the blame, so be cautious and do a favor to exclude yourself from circles who drive you in wrong ways, doesn't matter even if it's just a minor thing. Even though you are generally a reserved person, problematic men would come to you in the disguise of matching your taste, they could look like they're matching your taste but like a serpent, after their skin sheds, they would become a different person who can damage ur very idea of luv (this is not to scare u, this is a friendly reminder to be cautious of chameleon like ppl when entering relationships). There's another point to remember, u would find it difficult to differentiate between good and bad ppl, so even if a good person approaches, you would lose them or upset them tremendously due to ur suspicious nature, you could question them a lot, asking for constant reassurance to the point of frustration. The good side of this placement is being talented in occult sciences and deep thinking ability, the tendency to pick up a thing and learn abt it from the roots. They would be blessed by ancestral God, praying in their ancestral temple often will be beneficial.🩶🩶🩶

5H JUPITER - 9th aspect of Jupiter falls on ascendant, hence they would be religious, have optimistic outlook on life, even though they're lucky, they themselves wouldn't trust in it, they r the type of ppl who think their own hardwork will get them to great heights. Even if this 5H Jupiter is debilitated, since he aspects and strengthens the ascendant, all ill effects can be overcome by this person, they have an unwavering strong personality to do so. They've taken this birth to enjoy the fruits of their past lifetime, so simply refraining from damaging distractions would keep them lucky in all endeavours.💛💛💛

(I know that I wrote very less for some planets above and more for others but it's just how my brain worked in the moment, I'll reblog and let u know if I add more or write extra about the less written placements in another post 🥺🩷)

5H placements who shouldn't be involved in gambling/sharemarket or any games that revolves around the concept of luck/guesses and be careful with any type of addictions or relationship with wrong ppl:

Saturn, mars, rahu, ketu, waning moon in 5H

5H sun (only) if in conj. with the above mentioned planets.

5H lord is Saturn or Mars and it is exalted.

5H lord conjunct with a debilitated planet or itself being debilitated.

5H- Pregnancy and Children🥹🩷:

5H SUN - Your children might want to get out of your embrace pretty soon, they want to fly high, go out and explore this world when you're not ready to let them go from ur grip. They could argue with you about how they want to be more expressive and enjoy everything life has to offer, u want the same for them but the sun being your natural soul significator, it feels like you're letting go a part of ur soul. Your child could be a natural leader, a sunshine in disguise. You can conceive late, you could enjoy lots of lovemaking sessions but the number of children can be less, mostly one or two, if two, the elder child will assert their dominance to the younger one, doesn't mean they would rule over them but they'll definitely show that they're the elder one and demand respect, but on the other hand, they're protective of their younger sibling too.❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥

5H MOON - If u r a woman having this placement, learn to say NO and discuss about pregnancies, whether you want another baby or not. Eventhough this is a nice placement, later it can sometimes manifest into being treated as a baby making machine with or without being realized, so be ready to question yourself whether YOU want it. These mommies can be very affectionate and want more babies but learn to consciously differentiate between whether you love the act or you really want to raise babies as 5H being house of romance and lovemaking too, don't mix both in an emotional entanglement. Waxing moon will give smooth and normal delivery, waning moon can give some difficulties but probability of normal delivery can be high. You can have a loving relationship with your children, they can be homebodies too, the children can prefer the cozy home environment where you create a loving atmosphere. You can have more number of children, possibly many females or the first one being a girl baby.🥹🫶💙

5H VENUS - Your children could be a pain in the ass if you aren't well settled but this placement it is highly unlikely that you don't accumulate wealth over time. With this, you yourself will be bling-bling, you would double that for your child. This can manifest into you matching outfits, handbags, coolers and hairbands with your kid. During pregnancy itself, you could buy a lot of things beforehand for the arrival of the kid (which is common) but the things you buy might be overboard. These ppl are also prone to feeling inferior about how your body changes after childbirth, can do mommy makeover. You could expect lots of gift giving love language from your partner during pregnancy, on the downside, refrain using pregnancy or the child as a point to demand any luxuries from spouse. As venus aspects 11H, you could especially buy a car after first child. Possibility of female children is more.😍🥰🥰

5H MERCURY - Your children could be the type to recite about how their day was as soon as they come to you from school, as this would be the type of atmosphere you would've created. You would've established a safe and open communication space for your children where they feel comfortable with sharing. One thing you should remember is, when ur child says something to u alone and lets u know that they don't want u to tell it to the other parent, either you don't tell or share it with ur partner w/o ur child's knowledge according to whatever ur parenting technique is, but the point is to NOT betray ur child's trust when they TELL something bcoz u would be a person who has an amazing communication with ur partner too, u might be lyk besties gossiping together, this could make the child feel like you're not on their team or u and ur partner exclude them (which can be hilarious but it's a CHILD). U can have an equal number of male and female children but the gender of the first baby can be guessed here based on the aspects 5H receives.😃🤗✨

5H MARS - Your children will try to take care of u in their own way but don't do the parenting mistake of ordering them around, definitely not gonna work out here, it's either their way or highway. Number of children might be less, one or two male progeny can be present. More possibilities of delivery being medically assisted, even if it's not c-section, some medical assistance could be given to help. Your child can mirror you a lot, if you get frustrated and throw your phone, they might do the same bcoz they actively pick up patterns and copy them enthusiastically (all kids do that to an extent but with this placement, ur kid can be alert in taking in the environment shaping their behaviour). As a child, ur kid can be competitive but can be very anxious too, the nervous energy will be high if mercury is making aspect or conjunct, teach them calming exercises and encourage. You could be the mom who's fit even after a delivery, santoor mummy. On the downside, remember to not fight with your partner excessively infront of kid as 5H mars is a love-hate relationship, just every aspect of romance including the act and arguments everything is explosive, it can result in your kid disrespecting your partner.🫶😸💖

(I'll write the remaining planets in this list in the new post or add it here and reblog, I just got too tired, periods suck I swear 🫠😭🤗🩵)

EDIT: Find the remaining planets here! 🥳❤️‍🔥

BONUS POINTS FOR TODAY:

5H Placements who have the ability to guess what's gonna happen in the near future and protect themselves & their loved ones from unfavorable events are---

5H stellium, many planets in 5H lord's nakshatra, 5H lord exalted, 5H ketu 🥳🥰 (Fire ascendants to an extent if their 5H lord is not debilitated)❤️‍🔥

Even though Jupiter is male planet, if it's in 5H, the person has higher chances of having more number of female children but incase of aspects, if Jupiter aspects your 5H, higher chances of male children is present. This is an exception when it comes to 5H being putra sthan and possible gender of babies guessed based on the gender of the planet present there.🥳✨♥️

NOTE: I'll make another post for ppl who have empty 5H, on how to interpret 5H themes based on their 5H lord placement and aspects, this post is focused on having planets in 5H 🩷🫣

That's all for now sweeties, hope u liked it! 🩷🩵

Let's Learn and Grow Together 🥰

With Love-Yashi ❤️‍🔥🫣

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clrasecretdiary · 3 months ago

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Why does she give a damn about me? | Spencer Reid x Reader

cutesy, cheesy fluff

In wich Spencer thinks reader is out of his league but she could not be more into him.

Content: Garcia is a queen as always, sunshine!reader

Warnings: Maybe some light lack of self steem from spence, but nothing crazy!!

He was used to it at this point. Being the weird kid in high school and college, Spencer never really expected anyone to be into him and, after being rejected a couple of times, he had practically closed himself off in that sense. But then, you came into the picture.

You are one of those girls that everyone seemed to gravitate toward, not only because of your beauty but because of your essence. You were genuinely kind, smart and good with people in a way he wished he was, maybe that’s why he was so drawn to you, you had all the qualities he wished he had and being close to you made him feel complete.

Needless to say that he was in love with you, it had started as an admiration and when he realized he was thinking about you all the time, but he was sure you would never be into guys like him, he was sure you’d never see him as more than friends.

–

You had joined the team a few years ago, you were excited to finally be doing what you really wanted when you joined the BAU, going out in the field and being on cases instead of just working a desk job all the time. When you first met the team, everyone seemed very welcoming but you felt yourself especially drawn to Spencer out of all people, at first he seemed distant but with time you noticed how sweet he was and how much he cared for everyone around him and god that man was so funny, you loved his weird science jokes and his magic tricks. How were you supposed to not fall in love with him? You asked yourself that question every time he brought you coffee in the morning or went on his rambles about some random thing.

After a particularly intense inquiry from a very drunk Garcia in one of the girls' nights she organized at her home, you told her your feelings for Reid and she made you swear you would act on it.

“Garcia, I'm not confessing. He's not into me like that, i’ll just ruin our friendship”

“Oh honey, he practically kisses the floor you walk in, he follows you around the office like a lost puppy and practically kills any officer that dares to be the tiniest bit mean to you. There’s no way he’s not into you, at least try pretty please” She says, doing puppy eyes at you. Garcia took her job as a cupid very seriously and was not going to let this be her first fail.

“Alright, i’ll try but if he ends up hating me you’ll have to bake me cookies everyday until i die” You say rolling your eyes and finishing your glass of wine.

“Ohhh i’ll be cooking cookies for you guys wedding!”

–

So, here you are holding his favorite order from the local coffee shop and gathering the courage to press the button to the elevator

“Hey are you fine?” A familiar voice calls you, when you turn around its spencer.. Great, guess you’ll have to do this right now

“Oh hi yeah, I was just um… meditating”

“Did you know meditanting has been proven to increase your memory and is also great for reducing anxiety. I really should start doing it, what method do you use?” Spencer says while pressing the button to the elevator

“Ummm breath in, breath out i think” You say, unsure how to respond

“That's actually one of the best ways as it oxygenates your brain and helps it work better, it can also help you feel more calm since deep breathing activates the parasympathetic nervous system that sends a signal to your brain to tell the anxious part that you're safe and don't need to use the fight, flight response” He says, doing the little smile and head nod thing he always does after info dumping.

You smile back at him, as you both enter the elevator and press the button to the BAU floor.

“I brought you something” You say, handing him the coffee shop bag

He opens it and smiles at you “I can’t believe you remembered my favorites, thank you so much” You love that smile so much, all you can think about is how perfect he is and how there’s no way you can continue on without dating this man.

“Actually, I need to tell you something spence… I was thinking, maybe we could go out together as like, a date or something” You say, already blushing from the embarrassment you felt and how scared you were that he did not reciprocate the feelings.

“Really? Of course i want, to be honest i’ve wanted to ask you to be honest but i thought you’d never see me like that”

“Are you kidding me spencer? I’ve had a crush on you since we first meet”

The elevator gets to the office, and you both walk in blushing and joking about how you two were so blind to each other's feelings. As you get in, garcia passes by you two stopping to stare

“There’s something happening here…” She says, pointing between you two and pressing her eyes together as if she’s profiling you two

“I asked him out”

“Oh my god finally, you see? I’m always right, I don’t even need to ask what he said, look at Reid, he’s glowing, ohh i’m so happy” She says, walking out to probably tell the news to everyone on the team.

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dropsnectar · 3 months ago

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Your Puppy Siren!: When a Siren becomes a House Husband

PART TWO

NSFW

Obviously, when Baby got his legs, you couldn't just abandon him. You weren't sure exactly what was next for the two of you,, so you took it one step of a time. Baby had an issue with that, as balance wasn't necessarily a skill he could magic up with his oceanic enchantments.

He leaned on you the whole way home, taking jerky steps through the grasses.

When you showed him around the house, and the first thing he did was ask where you slept. You had shown him your bedroom and he immediately made himself comfortable about the blankets and pillows. You set him up with a copy of ‘The Lion, The Witch, and the Wardrobe”, before going to make him dinner: mild Japanese curry.

It was mostly vegetables, as you had only had a few ounces of ground beef left, but you hoped his stomach was as human as his now legs. His whole body had changed, leaving him now almost albino pale, with large dark eyes that were still a bit too big for his human face.

When you went to walk him to the dining room table, you found him standing, holding the book to the ceiling as he read. He was leaning back and forth on each foot, as if the movement kept him upright. Perhaps he still had his sea legs under all that new skin.

He still needed your help to get to the table but his steps were more sure now. He ate the food happily, making sure to compliment you whenever possible. On the way back to your room, Baby could now keep his balance as he went. The first thing he did was gather as many pillows and blankets as he could from the living room, before leading you by the hand to your room, and arranging them further on the bed.

“Do you like it?” He asked, eyes eager. It had never occurred to you that Sirens may nest, but you took it in stride.

“It looks very warm.” you apeased, tired.

Sleeping on the nest didn't go as bad as you thought, but Baby had been a bit confused when you had tucked a blanket around the two of you

“It's to keep us warm.”

He had responded by pulling you to his arms and wrapping his legs around you.

“I can do that just fine.” He beamed. You laughed and let him hold you as you fell asleep. You could figure out Baby's fate tommorrow.

You had always pushed off the deciding of Baby's fate to tommorrow. You couldn't face it. Going to your part time job, then nursing school had been difficult for you. You were exhausted everyday you came back home.

Baby made himself as useful as he could. You had taught him some of the basics of cleaning the house. He had seemed somewhat confused by the idea of cleaning, but he took it upon himself to make sure the place was gleaming when you got home. You had taken him to the library a day after his legs sprung up, and he had carried home a pile of books, one of them being “Martha Stawarts Complete Guide to Housekeeping”.

You hadn't resided in the place long, but places you hadn't even realized were dirty were suddenly sparkling and smelling lightly of lavender and orange peels.

He had also brought home a whole pile of fish. It seemed that he could now shift his form back and forth at will. You remember coming home, sweat covered and in need of ibuprofen, when you found a pile of fish on the kitchen table. He had looked so proud if himself.

“We can keep them all in the freezer! What a useful device!”

You had gently taken his arms in hand and explained that humans weren't able to eat fish whole like sirens could. They had to be stripped of their scales and deboned. He seemed a bit tired by this, yet another a strange human quirk, but had taken it in stride. Per his request you had set him up with an instructional video on the subject.

He seemed to catch on pretty quickly, the only difference was that rather than using a sharp knife, he had preferred to use his talon like nails. They were retractable, he clarified later, and arguing they were cleaner than any knife when you had demanded he washed his hands before working.

“They will only get dirty again anyway!” He had argued, one of the few times he had ever done anything but smile at you. The concept of germs was met with raised eyebrows and apprehension.

For the first time in your life, you gave him “the look”. As this seemed to be a communication move that spanned species, he gave in, washing his talons? Claws? Before going back to his work.

A silent system had begun to flesh itself out. You brought home the money and groceries, and did most of the cooking, he did everything else. And anything you asked of him. Which wasn't much, but he became more and more useful by the day.

You couldn't help but feel a bit proud for Baby. The more you learned about him and Siren Life the more different the two of you seemed. But he had been adjusting so well, you almost didn't have to worry about him. Plus, it was hard to be mad at someone who made a point of taking care of you, like he did.

He gave you shoulder messages, microwaved old dinners when you didn't feel like eating. Hed shush you, and sometimes carry you to bed, petting your hair and singing you to sleep everytime everything felt like too much. And that was often.

It had been a week since he had taken up shop in your bedroom, and reality reared its big fat head like a snake. You had been whisked away to bed, and instead of cooing at you and humming that impossibly sweet voice of his, he had started to nibble on the side of your neck, hands reaching towards your pajama shorts. His tongue felt so incredibly good, and his touch was like silk, but you knew where this would leave.

“Stop. We don't have any protection.”

He had frozen and blinked at you, expression changing to the barely concealed mask of an adult trying to not laugh at a child's sudden declaration.

“If I sense any danger, I will deal with it immediately. Now come here…” His voice grew husky. You trailed back.

“I know we haven't talked about this before but what if… well you're a human so im not sure if it'll be the same but… I can't get pregnant. I don't know if it works the old fashion way or you might lay eggs in me or something but… we need to be careful.”

He was still smiling but he was biting his lip. “While I DO lay eggs, that part of me hasn't changed, I don't understand why it would be an issue. I am your husband, after all, shouldn't it be normal to have children at some point?”

“H-husband? Why do you think you're my husband?”

Babys face changed, the closest you had ever seen him get to upset. “We mated, we share a nest, how am I NOT your husband?”

“We had sex, yeah, but we didn't get married. Do Sirens mate for life? Is that why you think this?”

His expression grew animated and confused.

“Sirens do not mate for life, we have breeding seasons. But Humans mate for life, do they not? Why do you think I have been doing all this? I mean, I even made you a nest and you slept with me in it! How much more is their to a human marriage ritual?”

You stared at him, the realization dawning. You slowly put your hand over his and arranged your expression to one of patience.

“Humans used to mate for life. But ita a bit different now. We can have sex, even spend years courting before we agree to marry.”

Baby just stared at you, his confusion and anger turning to one of hurt.

“B-but what does that mean? I told you, I love you. I want to be with you.” He leaned forward tears starting to glisten at the corner of his eyes.

“I wanted a life with you. I threw my old life away the moment I got these legs. I have no idea where my pod is now, I can not return to them. I do not wish to return. I want to stay here, with you and be your mate.” He nuzzled his nose against yours and then took your cheeks in his hand. He gazed into your eyes, filled with longing.

“I may be new to being your partner; at being Human too. But I will do whatever you ask of me. Please. Be mine?”

He started to kiss your forehead. Then your eyes. Then your cheeks. His gaze strayed to your lips and he whined out, full blown tears now streaming from his eyes.

“I'll be so good. So good for you.”

Your heart went out to him. You had to admit, life had gotten so much easier to bear since he had entered it. No one could make you laugh like he could, could make you as curious as he could, could kiss you like he could.

You thought about it. Genuinely thought about it. You had a job, and nursing would pay you enough to pay for both of your lives once you started. You'd have to teach him how to properly navigate human society but he was so smart and charming, you were sure he would do so well. You came up with so many reasons why it could be doable, but the most important one was you didn't want to let him go.

“It'll be really hard for you. Are you sure you want this?” You whispered. “Want… me? You could spend the rest of your life sharing your season with mate after mate. Are you sure you would want to spend the rest of your days with me?”

He looked at you with intensity, the light finally dawning across his features.

“It will always be you.” And then he was on you. Was kissing you.

He was quick to take off your clothes, and did the same. His mouth was hot and needy, the feeling of his tongue in your mouth being everything you could ever want. That was except for one or two other places.

As if he could read your mind, he grinned, pulling himself down to stare at your groin, fingers grasping, teasing and exploring every sensitive curve and crevice. Then he got to work with his mouth and you groaned, your core turning molten. You could hear the noises of his mouth on your flesh, and it made your cheeks overheat.

His tongue glided around you as he sucked with his full mouth, making you shake and jerk under him. He made sure to pin you down with his hands now, before he started to trill and sing around you.

You chocked, pushing your hips up against his big string hands, which were now a mix of grey and white. It seems he had been riled up to, as his form was caught halfway between human and Siren. It was a new sight and he was absolutely gorgeous and one long note made you crash over the edge, toes and fingers curling.

The whole time his eyes were on you, gauging your reaction. He continued to auck you through the high but now started clawing at your entrance, circling slick little shapes. He seemed to take great joy in this, teasing your ache, before he plunged his fingers in making you choke and sigh all at once. When he was certain the area was worked enough, he gave you big puppy dog eyes.

“Can I be yours again?” He whispered huskies slowing the rate of his fingers. You nodded and he pulled himself up, pumping his own cock a few times making sure it was properly slick. His cock was half transformed too. It was extremely veins and the ridges weren't as pronounced, but he was thicker. You licked your lips as you remembered how he felt inside you.

Aware that you were watching him he keened in pride. He then slowly inserted himself, pushing further and further until you took every inch of him. You gasped out and clawed at the sheets in pleasure as he pumped you, his own eyes glazing over as he unleashed low, pornagraphic moans. He was louder than he had ever been, snapping his hips into yours, fingers clutching deep into skin. He looked completely blissed out as he rocked himself into you, huffing and moaning.

“Sound. So. Beautiful.” You breathed, knowing he was getting close. You could feel a heaviness now in the air. He wouldn't be able to help it. He'd be so drunk he'd use that song of his and you'd cum and cum for him until he was too far in exctasy to make any noise. And you were right.

You could tell he was holding it in. But he couldn't help but hum out, a song that seemed to cup and penatrate your very soul, making your entire mind stuffy and silly. You didn't want him to stop, going over the edge as another one of his moans turned into a full blown note. He kept bucking into you, skin slapping skin, as he keened and hummed and sang out for you. He wanted you to feel good. Wanted you to cum and feel good only for him. Because you were his.

When you felt his cum splash inside you it was warm, and more sludge like. It took a while to seep put of you. A comedic point in the back of your mind noted, “No eggs”.

He pulled himself to your side, pulling you tight to him. “Can… can I stay in you for a while?” He said it in a light begging tone. You nodded, a pulse of faraway pleasure as he pushed his soft dick inside you again. It felt nice, being one with him in this sweet comfortable moment.

You wanted to ask him about the magic, about the song and how for just a moment, it was like you could read his mind. But their was something so special about the moment, you didn't want to push him too far. Maybe next time, you could egg him on to use that power on you, to be completely encompassed by his pleasure and song.

“I know your tired, and we can wait but… can we do it again?” He pushed his nose to yours and traced it up and down, his eyes watery and begging. You could feel his dick twitch inside you.

“Please just let me spoil you. It is our wedding night after all…”

You had to stop yourself from correcting him. Tomorrow you would explain vows and wedding ceremony, but for now you'd just give in. But you had to admit, now a big piece of you belonged only to him.. So, in a way he had been right.

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soxcietyy · 5 months ago

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Anatomy

Gojo x reader

18 + You’re about to take one of the most important exams. Unfortunately you suck at your anatomy and need to learn the material fast. Luck for you Gojo is good at everything, not only that but he’s also a teacher. Soon you learn about his odd teaching techniques.

"I don’t think I’ll be able to pass this test." You groan as you drink your coffee Shoko had bought you.

You were out with the two of your friends so they could cheer you up. As a healer you had to go the health care route in your studies but it wasn’t so simple.

"Why don’t you just cheat? Shoko is cheating!" Gojo looks at her before returning his gaze back at you.

You let out a deep sign as you slouch in your chair.

Just because she’s cheating doesn’t mean you should too. She’s had some good memory so it was easy to learn everything for her. Unlike you who had to actually go study for it.

Shoko said she would help you cheat through the homework, quizzes, project but you where on your own for the final exam. If you wanted to graduate at the same time as her then you would have to ace this anatomy exam tomorrow.

You felt too scared to cheat. What if you were caught? You would be academically expelled!

You groan loudly before looking up at your friends who had worried expressions.

"How bad do you guys think I’m going to do?" You ask.

"Fail"

"You’ll be fine"

They both said at the same time. Shoko elbows Gojo and then proceeds to grab your hands.

"Just study hard. I would love to help but I have a mission to go on but…" she turns to look at Gojo who was biting his biscuit. "But Gojo here is a teacher now."

Ah right, that moron did take up a teaching job right after graduating. Now that you think about it Shoko might be right. He’s a teacher! His job is to teach material to students. He could help you learn everything you need to. Not only that but he was good at everything he did, he would be able to learn everything in no time.

"Gojo you have to teach me!" You say with a pleading look.

"Haha, right as if you would want to learn anything from me. Don’t you two always make fun of me? Saying I’ll be a horrible teacher and whatnot."

Both of you glare at him.

"Ah, your serious I see.,." He says confused yet surprised.

—-

He was taking his sweet time looking over your text book. Giggling over a few certain pages before slamming the book shut.

You lift your head up from the couches arm.

"Alright I got everything down. Do you want to start with the bones or muscles?"

Gojo decided that the best place to study was in the comfort of his own home. You had protested by saying a library or coffee shop would be better because it would motivate you more.

He then proceeded to call you delusional and dragged you to his place.

It’s not like you haven’t been here before. You all used to hang out here almost everyday during high school. Now he was too busy working while you and Shoko were busy at school trying to get a masters degree.

"Bones"

You figured out really soon that his teaching techniques were quite odd.

Wack

"Ow! What was that for?!" You say as you rub your thigh.

Did he really just hit you with his arm?

"Where did I hit you?" He asks.

"My thigh you idio-"

"Wrong, tell me the name of the bone."

Ah, of course. You sigh as you tell him that he hit your femur with his ulna.

Wack, wack

That’s how studying went for a while. Eventually he would speed up the process by going faster and by hitting multiple spots at once. At the end you felt so sore.

You laid sprawled out on the floor as an ice bag rested on your rib cage.

At this point five long hours had gone by. Thankfully you had learned all the skeletal bones in the body but it was taking longer than you initially expected it to. If you guys keep on like this then it would take you forever to learn the muscles.

"You look so defeated already." Gojo said amused as you laid still.

"This is just harder than I thought it was going to be. Don’t you have a different way of learning anatomy without hurting me?" You ask.

You saw his mouth turn into a wide grin before he squatted down.

"I do have a different way but I feel like you’d dislike it." He smiles.

"I Dont care, I just need to learn the muscles in two hours!" You say looking at the clock.

"Let’s put consequences, people are prone to make less mistakes and to try harder if there’s a punishment."

You roll your eyes.

The exam was early in the morning and you needed all the rest you could get. He was just wasting time at this point. You sigh and just go along with his nonsense.

He grabs your hand and pulls you up so you could sit. He then sat across from you and took his mask off from his face.

He must finally be taking this seriously. Grabbing your hand once again he pulls your index finger and puts it on his cheek.

This was the exact same method, just with no pain involved.

"Masseter"

Then he dragged your finger to his temple.

"Temporalis"

You watch as he squints his eyes at you and looks at you suspiciously.

"I thought you needed help. Seems like you have it down."

"I obviously know a few things. For example the obvious ones like biceps. I know everything above the neck too."

He sits there in his thoughts for a moment before grabbing your hand again.

He slowly unfolded your hand and brought it to his chest. It surprised you for a second but you quickly remembered why he was doing this.

"Breast."

The both of you look at each other for a solid second. Holding eye contact before he suddenly burst out laughing. He had to catch his breath before correcting you.

"Pectoralis major"

Right… you would have totally gotten that right if it wearing for him doing such a thing.

You repeat the answer under your breath as he moves your hand once again.

This time it’s was his abs.

You swallow hands as he runs your hands over them. He wore a tight black shirt making it feel like it was his real skin. You could tell he was watching you carefully. Trying to read the facial expressions you were making. He was enjoying this…

You could concentrate at all. You had the answer on the tip of your tongue but it would spill out.

He kept running your hand up and down

"You’re taking too long y/n, the answer is recuts abdominus. We can come back to it later. Shall I give you a hard one?" He asks.

Maybe this was enough for today. Clearly he was toying with you and you had no time for such thing. Once you get home you’re going to study till midnight.

He moved your hand before you could tell him the study session was over.

It took you a moment to realize what you where not touching and it was indeed hard.

You jolt as he squeezed your hand around his length.

Don’t think about it.

Just answer the stupid question and be over with his games.

"Your small penis"

He glare’s at you as he runs your hand up and down his shaft.

"You know well this isn’t small."

You turn to look away from him so he wouldn’t see your cheeks turning pink. You could feel how it twitched under your touch, how it was pulsing begging to be let out. Begging for any sort of attention. Something you weren’t willing to give so easily.

"Anyways you’re wrong. A penis isn’t a muscle."

Huh?

"It’s not?! But you can move it right?"

Gojo for some reason took this as in invitation to unbutton his pants and to spring it out. You didn’t know whether to look away or take this as a learning observation.

Learning! You’re doing this to learn about the human anatomy! You hum in your head.

Averting your eyes down you see it. That wide long monstrous thing. How could that possibly fit inside of anyone?! Who would even want to sleep with him?

He moved it somehow. You watched it move up and down slowly.

"That’s two answers wrong in a row y/n" he coos.

Right. The punishment.

"So what are you going to make me do? Run laps? push-ups? Your chores?"

"No it’s something even better. Not only will this benefit me but it’s also going to make you learn a bit faster hopefully." He says.

Grabbing your leg he drags you towards him. You yelp at the sudden surprise. You knew he was a hundred times stronger than you so you didn’t bother to fight back. You watched him carefully as he climbed over you. His hair dangling over you.

He leans in slowly into your ear and whispered six words.

"I’m going to put it in."

Your breath hitches as you pushed him back.

This man was trying to kill you! There’s no way, absolutely no way that was going to fit in you at all! Of course you’ve had your fare share of men in you but nothing this big.

You shake your head repeatedly at him.

"You scared? Don’t worry I’ll be nice and careful. I’ll even let you stop me from moving if you answer my questions right." Gojo moves your hair to the back of your ear.

He ran his thumb over your temple in circles trying to sooth you.

All you had to do was get the answer correct right? You’ll just get them all right so he won’t even be able to enter you.

You feel as his hands run over your waist. His cold hands touching your sensitive skin before he gripped your bottoms and yanked them down. Your hands quickly go down to hide everything but he was quick to grab both of your wrist with one hand.

"You’re tempting me to just ram into you if you keep squirming like that."

You stay still causing him to laugh.

"Since you got two wrong I get to put two inches in." He says as he lines himself up with your hole.

You kick him and yell at him to stretch you out first but he refuses by saying that it wouldn’t be a punishment if he were to do that. With that out the way he began sliding into you. The second his tip went in you let out a cry of pain.

You try to run away by scooting back but he held you down and kept going in.

His eyes would squeeze shut at he bit his bottom lip. You could feel as he gripped your wrist and the leg he was holding up.

You let out a louder cry as he kept going. Begging him to stop and to let you adjust. There’s no way women actually enjoyed sleeping with him. He was carrying and actual weapon. He could literally kill someone with that.

Once he did stop you let out a loud groan.

"Such a good girl, you’re doing so good. Who would have know you were so tight." He kisses the inside of your leg.

You whimper in protest.

"What’s this?"

He points at the side of his rib cage.

"Y-your external oblique." Your voice trembles.

"Atta girl."

He then points at the middle part of his thigh.

You began to panic. Name, what’s the name?!why couldn’t they have simple names?! Why are there so many different muscles?

You open your mouth hoping the right answer would hopefully come out. The femur was located there so it had to have the word in the name right? Or at least rhyme with it. Femur-loris? Femoris? That sounded right but what if there’s a second part. Or maybe it was just one word.

You looked at him hoping for a hint but he just stared at you. Finding it amusing the way you were trying to think so hard while he was inside of you.

"You’re taking too long." He says as he shoves himself deeper inside of you.

Ngh!

You whimper as gets I n deeper.

"Femoris!" You yell out.

He makes you take in another inch.

"Fuck! You piece of shit! You’re a horrible teacher! I’m not going to learn anything like this!" You curse at him.

He slams the rest of his three inches inside of you causing you to cry. Your eyes almost roll back as you felt him stuff you. He slams your arms above your head and presses his pelvis deeper into yours. Rolling his hips over and over again making you go crazy. Your eyes began to water as you felt overwhelmed. Hot tears coating your eyelash.

Mascar stains your under eyes and your face begins to heat up. You’re begging him to slow down. Looking at him with a pleading look.

"Gojo, please! I don’t know the answer. I can’t even think straight right now!" You sob.

“Recuts Femoris." He says through his teeth.

He leads your hand to his chest and makes you tell him the answer to that one again.

You give him the correct name of it and felt as he began to slow down inside of you. He lets go of your wrists and brings his thumb to your clit. Rubbing it in circles to give you pleasure.

"A reward for being such a smart girl." He whispers.

He watches as you squirm and jolt at the sensation. He kept sliding in and out of you slowly but the pleasure was more overwhelming than the pain.

You start moaning out his name the faster he went. You’ve never felt this good before. With all the men you slept this had to the best one yet. He wasn’t even fucking you probably! He was toying with you!

What would it feel like if he was actually trying?

"Can’t you just fuck me properly?!" You say

He looks at you shocked before smiling. He put your legs over each shoulder and leaned in closer to you. You moan as he somehow reached a deeper area inside of you.

"I will when you get everything down and if you pass I’ll even eat you out." He groans as he grinds himself onto you.

You don’t know how or where all of this knowledge came from all of a sudden. Each place he pointed out you got the right answer, well almost. You would slip a few times making him pull away and slam into you. At some point your body finally adjusted to his length. This making the punishment more wanted. Sometimes you got the answers wrong on purpose.

By the end you had everything down and he was finally fucking you the way you wanted.

He had you on your knees as he plowed into you.

"I think this technique of learning is way better. Now shall we keep doing this for every exam?" He grins.

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