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Not my classmate reposting a video joking about "sitting next to the autistic kid and 'vibing with them" while portraying the autistic kid as incredibly idiotic-
And then me realizing that she always joked about how obviously autistic I was before I was diagnosed
#I think she bullied me? I'm not sure#Great#I'm pretty sure she thought I was a total idiot and her calling me autistic wasn't her joking with me but her insulting me#And she probably thought it was funny cause I didn't get the joke#I hate people#So much#Why would someone do this#I don't get it
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Avatar Love talk 3: Game vs Action
Follow up from (and also defending Kyo in this vid)
Yangchen: I plead the fifth on what Kuruk said. No idea why you two think you got your horny ass desires from me. Kyoshi: I'm not the one who sensually listened to the sound of Kavik writing with a pencil, but go off? Yangchen: Again, pleading the fifth! Anyway I still think Kyoshi has the least amount of game. Kyoshi: Really? We're still on this? Can't we talk about something else? Wan: Like your mommy issues? Kyoshi, pushing his face away and knocking him down: Ok, defending my "game" it is. Yangchen: Kyoshi, really, just accept it. You can't flirt for shit. Kyoshi: Again, I don't need to. Yangchen: You keep saying that! How do you expect to get anyone if you can't or don't flirt? Kyoshi: I walk into the room and look at them. Maybe smile, if I'm feeling feisty. Yangchen: That's not going to work- Wan: It worked for you, Yangchen. Yangchen: *deflated* Kyoshi: Oh so it's "flirting" and "super game" if Yangchen does it, but if Kyoshi does it then I'm just lucky? Wow. Hmmm. So fair. Yangchen: Kyoshi, you had two years with Rangi and Yun and I had five minutes with Kavik. We are not the same. Kyoshi: Listen, Yangchen, I think we've got it all wrong. It isn't about game or flirting. It's about action. I know how to get my girl going- Wan: Yangchen knows how to get Kavik going too! Yangchen: SHut UP, Wan! .......Yeah I know how to get Kavik going too, blow steam in his ear, fling him off a bison, what's your point????? Korra: Wait, fling him off a-? Kyoshi: Oh no no, Yangchen. That's not what I mean. You see, I'm probably going to go down in history as "World's best daughter-in-law." Whenever I sincerely talk about how I'm going to take care of Rangi or Hei-Ran, and Rangi melts into a literal puddle at my feet. Korra: So, like, you're amazing moral character is how you flirt? Kyoshi: No, it's not flirting. It's doing. Actions. Like I said before, they like me for who I am. And maybe because I have a good smile too. Kuruk: Being good looking does help. Yangchen: Ugh, where are you going with this? Kyoshi: I'm getting to it. What I want to say is, 'What's so great about having game, when the real measure should be the results?' Yangchen: *rolls eyes* 'Results.' Please, Kyoshi. We all know I had Kavik wrapped around my finger. Kyoshi: So you got with him? Yangchen: I-well uh- Kyoshi: Tell me, Yangchen. Which one of us actually GOT their boo in the end? Hm? Yangchen: .......... Kyoshi: Only actions and outcomes matter, Yangchen. What's so great about your "game" if you can't even "win"? Wan: I haven't seen a burn this severe since that volcano took out Roku. O-O Voice on the phone: 911, what's you're emergency? Korra, on the phone: I just witnessed a murder! I mean both parties are already dead-can the dead die twice?????
#'reminds me of that one kyoshist video' this one is partially me defending Kyoshi and her 'lack of game' TT0TT#i mean I'm just following the narrative of the posts but yes I wanna defend my girl#rangshi#rise of kyoshi#shadow of kyoshi#chronicles of the avatar#i'm sure yangchen and kavik got together#kyoshi just wants to back her into the mother of all corners#“either admit you aren't as good as you say you are or admit you and kavik got together which is it gonna be?”#kyoshi#rangi#this isn't me throwing yangchen under the bus I just wanna bully her a bit and put some pressure#please confirm they got together please I'm begging TT0TT#i know the easy counter of 'world's best daughter in law' can be countered by hei-ran getting stabbed#but I think only putting that on Kyoshi (even if she blames herself) is a little too rough/harsh (she didn't really agree with the plan tbf#yeah didn't disagree either but like there where a 1000 things going on and oops she still chose HeiRan in the end)#plus I want to make Yangchen sweat first so we're going to ignore it for now 8U#avatar love talk#korra#wan#yangchen#Kyoshi and Yangchen are going to be bitching at each other for a bit jkfdlsjafld#kyoshi always did say that action mattered the most uwu#'are you really quoting the book for something so silly' yes#yun said kyoshi had a beautiful smile so 8U
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wash tormenting the reds in the most petty ways possible because he's still pissed off about them hitting him with a car and then blowing him up in s8 is so important to me you don't even understand
#I'm pretty sure I've said it on my old blog before but wash is the blues older brother but to the reds? he's the neighborhood bully lmao#that scene in s13 where wash gets all the chorus soldiers to turn on grif for refusing to attend the training sessions? 100% an act of#calculated cruelty on wash's part lmao#oh oh or in s11 when wash hooked up blue base to the ships power but not the reds? also calculated lol#wash stealing all of their stuff in s10 will also always be a fav petty wash moment of mine#he is out to make them suffer and they're not even aware of it lol#rvb#agent washington#mine#not t/oaru#if i ever write my ct lives au fic I'm going so hard on petty grudge holding wash#he is an absolute menace but he's so lowkey about it that in universe trying to convince ppl that wash is as petty as he is#is nearly impossible#the only ppl aware of wash's true nature are the counselor the director ct alpha and probably maine (and maybe florida)#everyone else sees him in a similar light as his fanon characterization#that's part of the reason why i think lina was so shock in s10 when he turned his gun on her bc to her wash was always so subordinate that#she just genuinely never saw it coming#anyway wash/ct/maine friendship is so important to me. i like to include south in there too sometimes but honestly south comes off as a#loner type. like she doesn't mind ppl but no one except north is really willing to tolerate her uh....personality for long periods of time#shes very....reactive and emotionally charged#but tbh id be that way too if i was stuck with north#north unironically reminds me of my dad but not in the good way lol#god my tags are all over the place#audhd brain goes brrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr
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#feel like my relationship with my younger brother is changed completely forever not to be dramatic lol but i am sad#we used to b very close but he has kind of. found his faith again and gone full missionary christian which like. i knew meant the dynamic#was doomed lmao but actually acknowledging it makes me sad i feel like i'm grieving for the friendship we used to have even though#it is literally a me problem i think from his perspective he doesn't think anything has changed. but i feel weird about everything#also his new gf is nineteen and he is. almost 25 and i am the only one who feels weird about it like i know she's over 18 but! idk i can't#tell if i'm being overly cautious or if my gut instinct is right. my sister & her husband have a similar age gap but they met when they wer#both over 30 so like. it didn't feel weird. and i didn't feel comfortable actually seriously talking to him about it apart from the first#time he mentioned her over facetime (he went to another country to do mission stuff & met her there) so like an idiot i've just been#making jokes about the age gap becausee like. thats always been our thing lightly bullying each other lol but he blew up at me and said#i've had nothing positive to say about her since he's been back home and that he thinks i hate her and i'm out of line for constantly#implying he's creepy for dating someone younger. idk i felt like such a freak idiot horrible person about it. it completely blindsided me#bc yes the jokes were coming from a place of idk how i feel about this situation so i'm going to rely on the humour-based communication#we have always fallen back on as a safety thing but i guess i was wrong or the dynamic shifted or something anyway it's all fucked#& everyone is just telling me i feel weird out of some?? misplaced kind of jealousy thing?? because i'm 'losing' my brother to his gf lol#which does not feel right at all he has dated so many other girls and i have never had a problem it is literally the age gap like i haven't#even met this girl i'm sure she's very nice! i just worry about her being nineteen!! jesus. and yes maybe i do feel some resentment around#a brother younger than me who seems to be able to live his life with zero difficulty whilst i'm stuck being this unemployed loser who ruins#literally ever friendship & relationship ive ever had but i think thats ok right like i can't help feeling that. i don't fucking knowwww#am i just projecting all these sad feelings about our friendship dying onto his new relationship or like. am i right to be genuinely#concerned she's six years younger than him and still a fucking teenager!!!!!! i don't know
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the imposter syndrome i feel every time i even slightly think i might be autistic is insane, specially for a person who highly relates to the lived experiences of people who are professionally diagnosed.
Like I was just watching this one youtuber, and she was talking about very specific examples in her life and childhood where she saw autistic traits that made her realize she was autistic and then seek a diagnosis and then get one, and everything she was saying was like she was describing my life! But yeah no, I can't be autistic tho
#and one thing that has been filling me with dread (as if it was relevant lol) is the idea of seeking a diagnosis and#either not geting it because it's already so hard to find a diagnosis for '''''''women''''''' (afabs)#and that will make me doubt myself even more! but most importantly those around me who already don't believe me#but also i'm very scared about this one thing in particular which is the talking to your parents portion of the diagnosis#where the therapist will want to talk to people who knew me as a child... and that person will have to be my mom#and i'm pretty sure she will dismiss most signs. like she would either not bring them up because ''they're normal''#or play them as less important than they were#or maybe she didn't even notice them! because most of my struggles are internal!#things like being bullied or having no friends or liking a routine#idk if she'll be able to talk about all those#because my bullying wasn't violent it was mostly dismissive#my ''friends'' weren't really friends like i didn't CARE for them as maybe someone would have#and also they would leave me for no reason at all out of the blue... so i don't think even THEY considered ME a friend#and liking routine i guess she could say i prefered it but she doesn't know to the extent i hated going off it#i'm sure she forgot about the time i cried (as a 10 year old so not THAT young) because they made us change classroom#and i didn't know that was gonna happen... it was added to the anxiety that i thought my mother wouldn't be able to find me#but like the unknown classroom traumatized me (to this day i get anxious just thinking about that)#like... all those things i don't think she would bring up (if she could even) and i fear that will make me not get a diagnosis#not that this is a thing that's gonna happen cause as i established i cannot afford a therapist nor i'll ever get a diagnosis i don't think#so like it's not relevant#but i am anxious about it nonetheless#angel talks#personal#idk what's my point with this post btw i'm just venting and creaming to the void#dkfjhgdfg
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decided to leave my job and i'm gonna fr gonna cryyyyy
#literally can't work with my new boss bc i can't trust her#she went to the head of the department with complaints abt me without ever speaking to me or giving me any indication she was unhappy#and various other reasons im not happy w management and the school in general#HOWEVER#i love the kids sm and im gonna miss them and worry abt them 😭😭😭😭#im literally scared for some of them bc it feels like the other teachers have no empathy for some of my favorite kids#one of them who is so so sweet and when he cries i'm the girst to comfort him bc everyone else thinks he needs to toughen up 😭#also my new boss sucks so so bad and is gonna be such a bad influence on him and all the other kids#and my main co teacher said she's gonna quit if i do so i cant even beg her to look out for my babies and take care of them 😭💔#and it would be unprofessional to mention any concerns to the parents but genuinely some of the kids would be better off elsewhere#like im actually worried about it#i dont want some of the really sweet sensitive kids to lose their sweetness bc they're being treated unkindly#and the worst bullies and spoiled kids are the ones the teachers dote on#so it encourages some of the sweet ones to act out for attention#anyway 💔#i really do need to go tho#and i'm sure i'll love the kids at my new job#but im so sadddd#also its unlikely i can find a well paying job w this age group even tho i love this age group#its basically impossible not to get attached to them at this age and i get to pick them up and hold and cuddle them and stuff#and you cant really do that with the older kids sadly#literally on the verge of tears even seriously thinking abt leaving#things have been p bad for a while due to management but i never seriously considered leaving bc i love the kids so much#but i literally can't see a future here#and my new boss clearly hates me and im worried she's going to try to get me fired#she already made up a bunch of lies about me and its only been three weeks#anyway i only make 15 an hour so hopefully i'll at least get more somewhere else and i know i'll still love the kids#its just really hard#which is why i've stayed this long#i was p unhappy before my new boss even started bc of the way they treated my old boss
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Bonnie being angry and disappointed at Freddy when Cassie helps bring him back only for him to see the destruction and decay of his family and home that Freddy allowed to happen because of Gregory, and breaks up with him.
Bonnie later slowly starts falling in love with Proto Freddy (maybe a bit of it is Bonnie projecting but he's def falling) instead.
And Freddy can see it happening from where he is.
Gay drama~
(Long post. I went off on one lmao and can't use read mores on my phone, sorry mobile users)
Ohhh that's a fun one! Bonnie rebounding onto Protobear and after a while those feelings become real... he deserves it honestly. He deserves a happy ending after everything, and so does Protobear! Bet that's an emotional rollercoaster to get through though... That party doesn't sound fun... For them anyway. Very fun for us though! Sucks to be them!
You know what else is fun for this? Bonnie falling for whoever Freddy believed deactivated him. Freddy treating someone differently before the events of SB, and side eying them all the time, not trusting them at all because of what the must have done to Bonnie... It must have been them! They're the only one the makes sense! They're the one that made him disappear and is trying to act like everything's normal! They must be to blame! They took his Bonnie from him and won't tell him what they did or where he is! Whether he's right or not is irrelevant, if he believes it's true, he's going to want nothing to do with them! They need to stay away from Bonnie!
And now here he is. Watching Bonnie flirt with that person. Be it Monty, Roxy, Moon, Chica, whoever. Freddy finally saying out loud what he's felt he's known for a long time now, that this animatronic killed him, how could Bonnie possibly even still look at them, never mind fall in love with them after that?!
Bonnie's face falls flat. He turns to Freddy and stares him right in the eyes. "They didn't do it, Freddy." or even, "They did it to save me, Freddy. What did you do?"
Absolutely devastating. The gay drama is so good
On another note, this is making me think of Protobear and Roxy being fucking hilarious. "Hey, you wanna really freak him out?" one of them asks and they start fake dating in front of Freddy to piss him off. Like they're the most over the top, mushy couple with the most insufferable nicknames, trying so hard not to laugh their asses off, and the first one to crack loses. Everyone gets in on it. Whaaaaat?? Roxy and Protobear?? Oh they're sooooo in love so so so in love, they're not pretending, they would never pretend!!
Jskdndk they get Cassie in on it and she starts calling them mum and dad 2 and Freddy is pointedly trying to leave the room as quickly as possible, but as usual, the fucking doors aren't letting him out again. They're always on the blink now, it's absolutely never Roxy using her security clearance to play Musical Doors with him. Nope. Never. Look at their fake mushy romance boy, you can't escape.
Freddy has never been more confused and sickened in his life. He's always hated Roxy and Roxy's always hated him, this is the worst thing to have to watch ever. He's even more upset if Bonnie pretends to be their partner as well, and even more so if Roxy was who he assumed deactivated him. This is a nightmare scenario and he's being so brave about it.
Sat there trying so hard not to say a word. He's so fine. Not glaring at all. No no no, he's not staring listlessly at them, he's just trying to contact maintenance via the network, obviously. He's not resisting the urge to grimace and not wishing the floor would swallow him up right now. Absolutely not. He would never. He's so so so happy for them. Yup. So so happy. Could not be happier. Why won't these fucking doors open?!
You could apply the fake dating to Protobear and Bonnie specifically too. Bonnie's going through a rebound, and he knows it, so he stays away from Protobear for a while. He tries to take care of himself and the others are right there to help him out the best they can. When he's feeling better, he starts gradually spending more time with Protobear (who has had the situation of Bonnie and Freddy explained to him and is very understanding about it) and the two start slowly building a friendship. Slowly, so as to not rush Bonnie through anything. Protobear himself has walked away from several hangouts because he can tell that Bonnie is struggling, even if he won't admit it, they're handling this with the utmost care...
But then Bonnie, Roxy, Monty and Chica, the four that should never be trusted without supervision, get talking. Bonnie is laughing at these three clowns telling him all about how they're fucking with Freddy for fun, and let him in on some of their schemes. They're hilarious, and he would have thought so before everything happened too, even if he did think they were a bit mean at times. I mean, rallying a bunch of kids to gang up on Freddy in their Fazerblast game as a 'super secret mission' is a touch mean, right? Not anymore. He deserves it.
But then they get to thinking. Bonnie wants to try messing with him too. They bring him in on some of their dastardly plans, and come up with several new ones for him, and believe me, at this time, not a single one of them has the braincell, so you can imagine the bullshit they come up with lmao. He finds this weirdly cathartic. The ability to moderately inconvenience Freddy in funny ways is more fun than he thought it'd be. He was worried it would hurt, worried it would make him think about things too much, and while it does hurt to look at him sometimes... Well his heart is more with his friends than ever now. He feels no desire to be nice to him, or to go back to how things were anymore. He's okay now and this is what makes that real to him...
Then one day it hits him. His own plan to mess with Freddy. Completely his own, the three stooges had nothing to do with this one. It hit him when he was hanging out with Protobear and DJ. What if they were fake dating in front of Freddy? Bonnie and Protobear! Madly in love, with the most sickeningly sweet pet names and the worst pick up lines you've ever heard in your life! DJ thinks that would be pretty mean... But would get him so good, he's a surprisingly petty guy sometimes. Protobear agrees and is completely up for this, it sounds hilarious, but... is Bonnie sure he's ready for that? Is he sure he can handle that?
They think on it a bit and talk to the others about it, who think that's fucking genius but have the same concerns as Protobear. Sunny thinks it's a bit much (and he's probably right) but is very excited to play along with this. He loves playing pretend, he's where Cassie gets it from. When they decide they're gonna do it, they set a few boundaries just in case, make a safe word for if they feel they start going too far with it, and swear to eachother to call it off if it all starts getting too much... Or maybe too real.
Oh my god they have so much fucking fun with it. Protobear has never laughed so hard in his life. The others joining in, helping them pull this off, and building on the joke too make it even more fun! They're having a blast and Freddy is suffering greatly! Customer service mode can't save him now!
But after a while, things start to change. Some of the flirting becomes a little too heartfelt. The insistence that they're not actually a thing becomes less frequent. The act starts to spill over into their everyday lives. Suddenly, they're not so sure this is still a joke anymore. Suddenly, the overdramatic cuddles last until long after Freddy has left the room. Suddenly, they're starting to wonder what it be like to be together for real.
Realisation hits and oh god oh no oh fuck this was NOT the PLAN god DAMN IT
So much fun to be had here!
One more funny one: instead of just Roxy or Bonnie pretending to be with Protobear, what if it's everyone? Protobear has one giant polycule going on where everyone apparently adores him and he dotes on everyone cause he loves them all so so so much. Freddy is staring in disbelief at the 'romantic' cuddle pile Protobear is right in the centre of like this is the most normal thing in the world. It's a Plex wide competition to see who can be the most insufferable in a fake relationship and whoever cracks first loses. It's a team effort! A coordinated attack! And sometimes they actually do fluster Protobear and eachother they're all having fun!
I'd like to call this plan the Protocule :)
(Also, hi jellycreamjammedart! This is the first post I've made today so you may wanna check I've not reblogged with more additions later on. I know you get online kinda late in my timezone, or at least that's when I tend to see you around, so saying this is just in case!)
#comedically torturing freddy is my favourite thing to do it's so funny#he has this massive grip on what emotions he displays it's like he's in permanent customer service mode sometimes#watching him struggle so hard is Roxy's favourite pass time lmao#long post#pop rox answers#OH GOD I'LL REBLOG WITH THIS ADDITION LATER TO MAKE SURE IT'S SEEN#BUT BONNIE ACCIDENTALLY USING THE PET NAME HE HAD FOR FREDDY IN PROTOBEAR#AND PROTOBEAR DOESN'T KNOW SO BONNIE FLINCHES EVER SO SLIGHTLY#WHILE PROTOBEAR TURNS TO LOOK AT HIM A BUT FLUSTERED BY THE NAME AND SMILES SO SWEETLY#BUT SO UNLIKE FREDDY AND BONNIE IS MELTING ABD OH GOD OH NO WAIT A SEC IS HE FALLING OH GOD OH NO#wait is this bullying? i feel like roxy would bully him but hmm. I'll have to think on that...#maybe it's the doors specifically that's suddenly bugging me#hmmmm i dunno. anyway#i love waking up to things that give me ideas dnjdjd#now imagine proto is zags the old freddy and the confusion is rising djdnjd#to be clear freddy is unaware most of this is just them fucking around#he's suspicious of a few things but not everything#they're all very sneaky about their crimes and the vast majority are harmless and just inconveniencing#very few of them actually want to hurt him but will mess with him a little from a distance if it's funny#they would all mess with eachother before hand they just weren't sneaky about it so the whole 'getting caught' thing is all that's really-#-changed. not for roxy though. she's always fucked around with freddy specifically as sneaky as possible#was just less often before now...#I'm wondering what the scenario is here btw. how did we get to a presumably open plex that freddy is a part of?#i feel like certain animatronics wouldn't let him through the fucking door again#hmmm anyway
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no, but have i talked about this on here before? because i don't think i have yet. though i was just thinking about all of the different people that barton has been interested in romantically, and one of them that definitely stands out to me is auriel. because even he doesn't really know what it is, but in the main story for barton, she's been missing for quite some time. i'm talking like ever since his final year of undergrad. so, it's been more than a decade since barton has seen her and yet, he still checks whether anyone with her physical description has suddenly shown up again in gotham.
and he has actually made an effort to compile whatever evidence he could pertaining to auriel's disappearance, which... although there hasn't been anything new as to where his character is in the timeline of events right now? barton may be the only person in gotham who is actively looking for her anymore. plus, before auriel went missing, she had actually lent one of her coats to him and i swear to god... this man has never taken care of an article of clothing better than he's taken care of her coat. so, this kind of makes me wonder how barton's usual behavior could be so contrary compared to him doing something like this.
i mean, judging by how he behaves around most people (which is basically TERRIBLY, to put it simply jsjsj), i think that he must've felt like they had a deeper connection between each other somehow. though auriel herself is certainly not a villain. so i'm saying this in terms of barton perhaps trusting her enough to tell her things that he wouldn't normally tell a soul, like how he was (and still somewhat is) afraid of his bio father as a kid. but yeah — seeing as i know what had happened to her character, this hits especially hard for me 😭 because she may not be dead but auriel certainly hasn't been in a good spot for a longgg time
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.#ANGER'S HELPED ME STAY ALIVE: headcanons.#YOUR NEED GREW TEETH: character study.#ooc post.#god auriel really did deserve SO much better than what she got / where she's at overall in the story RN. but yeah i honestly think that-#barton genuinely loved her like he loved marceline but with his type of love often comes things that are ehh... definitely not so good.#i mean things like him going out of his way to make sure no one's bothering this person by hurting people who may be bullying them-#who had hurt them in the past kind of thing bc having barton's devotion is a little bit like having a WAYYY too protective guard-dog jsjsj#BUT him keeping an eye out for her even after all of this time and trying to occasionally view the evidence he gathered related to how she-#disappeared from a different angle despite barton having a rather big hunch that he's not going to find anything different.#and him only providing the best upkeep to her coat in hopes that she'll come back one day + auriel will notice that it looks the exact-#same that it did before is just - BYEEE i'm crying sobbing throwing a table because WHY can barton be like this sometimes and then-#be such a douche the next second like ;; anyways the point is if you see a penny lane coat in his closet it does in fact belong-#to auriel and it is just. GAHHH in beautiful condition still
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Hihi, me again ☺Hope you're doing well. I was wondering, do you think Eddie is insecure? He seems so confident and sure of himself but the bullying can't have gone by without leaving a mark on our poor boy
I think everyone in the entire world is insecure in some way or another. I don't think Eddie is exceptionally insecure compared to average. He - fully aware of where he stands in social status at the school - full on invited a cheerleader who is the girlfriend of one of... well, enemy is a bit strong, but you get what i mean when I say, the girlfriend of one of his enemies back to his place to sell her the Extra Drugs, instead of telling her he could bring them the next day or something. At some point these kids looked at him and said "we need you to play the guitar to distract a bunch of monsters and also the fate of the town and maybe the world depends on you doing this" and he was like sure I'm in, I'm capable of that. I think he was genuinely surprised to find that he "ran away" from what happened to Chrissy BECAUSE he isn't normally like that, he normally has confidence in his capabilities.
This isn't to say that bullying didn't have an effect, or that he couldn't be hiding insecurities. Everyone does that. He probably does that. But also sometimes bullying goes the other way, if you've got enough "fuck you" inside and a parent or guardian and/or friend(s) that has got your back. Sometimes that kind of confidence isn't covering up insecurities. Sometimes it's the result of the same kind of interactions as the one he had with Jason in the lunchroom. Sometimes, if you've bitten back hard enough a few times, you reach a point where you find out your bullies are scared of you. The point where you can jump up to high ground and challenge them in front of everyone, and all they'll do is tuck tail.
#stranger things#eddie munson#i'm sure he'll find things to be insecure about#but it won't be anything the bullies have tried#also not for nothing but we see it with the bullies in S1 too#El bit back HARD#twice#and did we ever hear from them again on screen?#I don't remember seeing them ever again#i say what I say because when I was VERY little#someone attempted to bully me#my mom listened to me and then basically told me#well that's stupid and she's wrong and I was like welp#my mom's right! and went back and took no shit ever again#even though a LOT of other people tried over the years#so I know sometimes a switch just flicks#maybe it did for him maybe not#but I think he's just genuinely confident
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I hadn't read the ztd prologue in a while but I'm midway through writing my fic that could benefit from that knowledge so I finally got around to it with some of my friends and I firstly did not recall Sigma losing his cool that quickly but also the only canonical interaction this Sigma has with this Akane being "Swear future you will not lie to past me about how the end of the world goes down" and her essentially lying about not lying is so good and Phi being just as mad at him as Akane but otherwise staying off to the side oough the dynamics at play there
#because! I was fact checking on the wiki and it indicated that they were simply inconsistent with this information#as in she never gives the details away despite her own memories having left D-COM intact#but I did already think she probably just decided to lie by omission about the decision game#but this really did make it feel like that was the intention all along!#so yeah I'm glad about figuring that out logistically speaking it was bothering me while writing to not be sure#she was about to cry from how Sigma was talking to her too... that one fanart I made of her with big weepy eyes.......#stop bullying the criminal mastermind she was born in a wet cardboard box all alone#it works for the angle I'm coming from writing her though that she's feeling the pressure of not knowing everything™#and suddenly having to prevent a whole apocalypse after she just started to have a life again™#Sigma this girl is the best liar of the series do you really expect her to not take the chance if she has to like it isn't second nature#underrated dynamic they're the worst coworkers and no one actually respects one another#they're so funny to me they're sooo at odds while working towards the same goal but no one really got a choice to#and in the end the real time loop was the friends we made along the way and the world really only ended because she got them to prevent it#''oh but there's also the fanatic-'' shhh....#zero escape#ztd#zero escape spoilers#vlr spoilers#sigma klim#akane kurashiki#not art#writing
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okay okay i'm calm. hung w friends and talked through it and everything will be fine, i know that. i am looking forward to better days
#she bork#i will be so incredible once i'm in the right line of work. nothing is ever good enough in retail and that's why i constantly feel like a#failure. i will find a place with much lower pressure and in a professional sphere where my talents and strengths can shine and my#weaknesses will be nurtured and strengthened instead of exploited and bullied. i will i will i will.#on a sidenote lol i wish i knew why i always become the punching bag at my jobs. at literally every job i've held i become a target for#harrassment and mistreatment and i'm not sure why. i'm tempted to point to myself as the common denominator but it's not my behavior or my#performance??? at least i don't feel like it is lol i will admit i have a tendency to get complacent when i'm doing work that doesn't fuckin#matter to me at all but i don't think it's to the point that it warrants like dislike and targeting lol like i still do my fucking job just#with less earnestness and enthusiasm so it's not like i'm being fucking useless. idk i guess i just have one of those faces yay me :)
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...It's kind of wild when the terf that you got into a fight with and had to write an essay on "Why violence is wrong" back in high school now works at the pharmacy where you get your medication from...
#I'm sorry for the vent I just am mad that she could be in a PHARMACY. I hope she's at least changed her ways.#she should not be working in health if she still thinks this way.#She definitely remembered me too. I don't think she could forget honestly. neither of us was injured btw.#It wasn't a “fight” in the way you think most fights are. she called this sweet trans boy the word rhymes with maggot (that's what she is)#a maggot.#while she was moving around a lot and idk. rage took over and I twisted her arm and she happened to fall and then I cussed her out#I probably over did it but moving her arms around while ranting and then calling him that just pushed me over. I WAS calm at first.#He was a shy and quiet kid and he “didn't want to make a big deal about it” so I tried to follow his request but... you know.#it was in theatre behind the curtains during rehearsal and everyone heard/saw so yea. I got into trouble. no detention surprisingly#it was a long time coming. she would constantly harass him with shit about how “You still look like a girl”. and using wrong pronouns#and teachers were told but they didnt' do shit. She also was just a mean person. This guy wasn't the only person she bullied#I only wrote on why VIOLENCE was wrong. not about what I did. The only thing I feel bad about is that I scared the poor guy I was defending#I don't remember what I said (I was that mad) but apparently I "picked her personality apart like a bunch of lego bricks and then told her#why the “lego brick” is fucked up“ He was just 14-15 and she was 18 btw😒literally harrassing a sweet KID.#was convenient though because all I had to do was give her a look and she would immediately back down. idk what I said when I yelled#at her but it was nice that I could do that whenever she would start shit#Mad rambles#idk y'all I'm scared that she's in HEALTH. if I know anything I'll see if I can report her because while I hope she wouldn't fuck with tran#folks medications idk for sure. she was really cruel back in high school.#vent#rant#I try not to post shit like this but I'm worried you know?
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I've got a confession I must admit. I thought Luz and Willow were a much cuter idea for a couple than Luz and Amity when I watched TOH because the latter gave me Mabel and Pacifica vibes.
...I am remembering why that's not a positive :)
#Hayley Speaks#The truth come out: I am not a fan of them together romantically </3#Pacifica I respect the fact that you get a redemption arc and everything#But you need to back off my sweet angel Mabel#But also we need to get you out of that toxic household and you two can work on being friends and stuff too#Because none of that's your fault and your parents are absolutely to blame for raising you to act like that#But also I hit Irrational Treasure and Pacifica is making my baby feel bad about herself so now I'm mad at her~#But also I support her when she's NOT bullying my daughter <3#And no there's nothing wrong with the ship (or Luz and Amity either)#I support the wlw of it all for sure <3#I think I've also just kinda never liked the mean girl characters bc those girls bullied ME as a kid#So the idea of getting with one of those girls myself (if I were still a girl and lesbian) is. Hmm. Nah.#It's just a very complicated kind of dynamic for me to enjoy
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I just want to know if taylor would still be fine with dating that man if he had called ice spice a b*tch because we all know how she feels about men calling her that, but I honestly think the way he talked about ice spice was just as bad (and a lot of the things he said in general are wayyy worse) so would she care if her boyfriend called some other woman a b*tch? I'm just curious
#to be clear I think she had every right to be as mad at k*nye as she was he bullied her for year for litteraly no reason#but I still feel like she would never stand up for another woman like she stood up for herself (unless of course it would benefit her)#so is she any better than all those people who turned their backs on her in 2016?#honestly I'm not sure anymore and the idea is sickening#I've always knew taylor was a flawed and complex person qnd tried really hard not to put her on a pedestal#but I guess in the end I did and it's honestly heartbreaking to see it crumble#it's not just the mh situation either it's the way she associates herself with horrible people again and again and again#until I feel like a bad person for still supporting her#everything mh says genuinely makes me feel so sick and disgusted#like I know it's silly to be this upset about somone I don't even know dating a bad person#but I currently feel really bad about myself and my life and usually I would turn to taylors music in a situation like this#but now it honestly makes me feel even worse#I don't understand how anyone can tolarate the shit he said#tw matty healy
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I Am A Failure Of A Human Being :)
#who's fronting?#for later me#other#negative#like. everything about me. all of me is a failure#I couldn't even keep my brain to one whole brain I had to split it apart several times#I keep hurting myself in every way. I'm useless to my family and my wife and I'm insufferable so I no longer have any friends#I dropped out of college. everything about me is wrong and a failure#I can't name one thing I did right besides asking my wife out and even then I'm sure she resents me for putting her between me and her#(admittedly abusive) mom#I apparently bullied my younger brother. my older brother assumes I just wasn't around. my mom thinks I'm a failure and that's a fact#she told me the other day she feels like she failed as a parent and I'm part of the reason why (she didn't phrase it like that but I know im#a huge disappointment and a source of grief for her)#I didn't take care of my dog properly for years so I can't even say I did my dog right#I can't hold down a job. I can't even have a normal body. look at it. it's got disability in it#I can't even GET ON DISABILITY bc I can't hold down a job long enough to afford to go to the doctor to get declared disabled#I couldn't even do sex work right. I had a following and I lost it by being dumb and neglectful#I Am A Failure As A Person :)
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i read some post about having a fear of being perceived due to the constant criticism you received as a child.
and to be honest i never really thought of that as an issue i was dealing with, even though i do have a very strong tendency to avoid being perceived and definetly have troubles with it. but i always just kind of assumed the criticism had to come from parents. and mine were really lovely in that department, like no complaints.
but reading that post i suddenly remembered a certain sentence i kept on hearing as a child from other children... "why are you doing this?" and "why is she doing that miss?" and like those children weren't bullying me or anything (some were, but like i managed to get out of kindergarten and primary school fairly well with minimum bullying, nothing drastic, just the usual kids stuff that everyone deals with). and yet i still have a physical negative reaction remembering that sentence hahaha
but anyway that is not the point, it only got me thinking.
in high school i was quite severly bullied by two of my friends. one luckily failed her first year so i got rid of her. but the other stayed. her bullying was by far the worst in first year at the time when we were best friends (she'd make up rummors about me and spread them around the school, like not only around our class, or was telling me how unatractive i was because i looked like a hanger or how she felt sorry for boys whose girlfriends had drawn on eyebrows (i was filling mine in, because i have naturally very thin and fair eyebrows and it was the 2010s) or she'd straight up tell me i shouldn't tell people about certain things i liked doing cause they were weird and so on). but even after she cut me off as her friend, she kept on like observing me i guess and making comments about me and my behaviour in front of everyone. especially in the last year, when i got off my hormonal therapy and as a result became a bit more social and happy again she would constantly pick on me. like it really was mainly just about observing my every move and making comments about it.
and i guess it really fucked with my head.
i never really took it all that seriously. but then i was taking a criminology class in 2021 and the professor held a class on bullying and its effects. and i just remember how tense i became at the start of the class, i almost didn't want to hear about it. and then she got to talking about how it is proven that bullying leads to higher rates of anxiety and depression and so on and so forth and how teachers don't really understand how they should handle bullying. that they handle it as a conflict between two students, when that is the worst way to do it, because one child has all the power over the other and if they try to "resolve it on their own" the one with the power will just continue to dominate the other etc. and by the second half od the class i was shaking and almost crying (it was over zoom, so i was in the privacy of my apartment and my boyfriend actually had to comfort me in the middle). and as much as it was hard to think about it, it was also so healing. like for the first time in my life not only someone acknowledged what happened to me was bad and that it had lasting effects and explained everything, it was also that it came from an authority figure, an adult. because NONE of the professors (and almost none of our classmates) ever picked up on what lana was doing to me. for the first time i felt like it really wasn't my fault.
and that is why i think it is so important to teach kids not to bully. and especially for us as adults now not to bully kids!!!! because i know why lana was that way, i know what her family life was like and i know why she picked me. like i understand. but that doesn't actually help with the issues i'm still dealing with. it really stays with you for life. it gets better and therapy and working on it can definitely do wonders. but yeah, please lets do better and not teach kids bullying. please. DO NOT BULLY KIDS, it stays with them forever and that is also where they learn to bully others.
be kind and gentle and understanding to kids. love them and show them love. please.
#me#personal#ranting#bullying#and like i know no one is perfect and i'm sure everyone has done some things that could be catagorized as bullying#i understand we were just kids and kids can be mean and everyons is capable of bull#and i still remember the instances when i would do mean things to other kids and i hate it#so i am not saying that kids who are bullies are evil or something#no. every teenager is very prone to being mean and even to bullying#i mean our brains aren't fully developed yet at that age so of course we will be cruel to others#i'm just saying that that kind of systematic bullying and the need for it stem from somewehere. they are learned.#and they are most likely learned from the adults in their life#for lana personally i also know she wanted to be just like alison from PLL#so yeah that also got me thinking about how haracters like that as much as they are fun might be contributing a lot to real life bullying#anyway just a little rant about my experience cause i've been thinking avout it a lot lately
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