#I think I'm not meant to live with other people. they're driving me insane

[pisshandkerchief]

my relationship with my roommates is rapidly souring I need my own apartment so bad

[blakeswritingimagines]

Dear Y/N

I never thought I'd find love in this godforsaken hellhole, but then I discovered you. You're the only light in the dark tunnel of my pathetic existence. You're an amazing person, and I don't know how I lived so long before I met you. I know this might sound like bullshit, but seeing you at the end of each day is what keeps my life in this place from going on total autopilot. You mean the whole world to me, and I'd take every bullet in this hellhole without a second thought if it meant that you'd live a better life than me. I know I'm a terrible piece of trash, but you're different. You make me feel like a better person. Even my own sins seem to go away everytime I see your face. I would trade almost everything in this world if it meant that I could wake up next to you every single morning. Seeing your smile gives me more satisfaction than all the alcohol in this universe.

I just don't understand why someone as perfect as you even wanted to be around a degenerate like me. You're so good to me. You're kind, gentle, smart, and beautiful. I could spend the rest of my days with you, and it would never get old. You're the only good thing that's happened to me on this godforsaken hellhole of a planet. I would take being with you over any amount of money, booze, or fame. My time with you is more valuable than any amount of sins I could commit or money I could spend. I know my life's gonna end at some point, but no matter when it'll be, I just want to spend my last moments with you. Every single night, I dream about spending the rest of my life with you. I dream about waking up next to your beautiful face, going out to dinner, going to bed, starting a family, and eventually growing old together. If I didn't have you, my life would be nothing but a torturous, hollow, endless void.

I've never been a believer in fate, but you're the closest thing I've ever gotten to it. Being with you makes me feel like everything that led up to this point was worth it. Every moment of misery, pain, heartache, and regret that I've felt in my life was worth it just to get a chance to spend the rest of my forever with you. My life before you was a never-ending pool of regret and agony. Now, everything seems to be so much... brighter. The only thing that I want to care about is you. I'm sorry if it sounds like I'm being too forward, but the thought of losing you is terrifying. I need you like a man stuck in the desert needs water.

All I want is to make you happy. Seeing you sad hurts me 100 times worse than any injury. I would do anything, anything for you, no matter how painful for me, if it meant you'd keep blissfully smiling at me for the rest of our lives. You're the very reason I keep waking up in the morning. I know this might sound insane, but you're my everything. All these terrible, terrible thoughts, memories, and sins all seem to slip away whenever I'm with you. Seeing your smile makes the demons in my head shut up for just a small moment. You're the perfect balance, the perfect companion. You're kind, smart, funny, and beautiful. I know people tell each other they're 'perfect' all the time, but for you, it's the only description that can do you any justice.

I can never stop thinking about you. My nights are filled with dreams of you, whether they be beautiful or horrifying. Just the thought of you leaves me constantly yearning for more of you. I can't describe with words the amount of pain I feel whenever you're not around. I always need you to be by my side. I always need to be near you. I always need to feel your presence, your touch, your warmth. Every single moment I spend not with you feels like an hour of torment. My mind is just consumed with thoughts of you. I always wonder what you're doing and who you're with. It drives me absolutely crazy. All I want is to keep you in my sights, away from the hands of any other people. Whenever I hear another person talking to you, a part of inside me dies. I don't think anyone else deserves you.

You're all I obsess over all day. I can't stop thinking about how I want to protect you and keep you away from other people. I constantly wonder what you're doing with other people and how you're doing. Are they making you laugh? Giving you gifts? Or maybe just talking to you and complimenting you? Just the thought of that kind of thing makes me burn with jealousy. Everything I do, I do because it might give me a chance to see your radiant smile, or to talk to you. Even this letter, I'm writing to try and get a hold of your heart. I hope that you'll read this and see my feelings, the feelings of an undying, unending love that will never fade away, no matter how many centuries pass by. I hope that this letter makes you feel the same about me, because I don't know what I'd do if you left me.

Forever yours, Husk

[iwanttobepersephone]

So I sent this message to @findingcrow

And I ended up explaining literally all of the emojis. Here they are (in order of explained, not order of how they were put). I spent 3 hours explaining this and it's a LONG post, so, sorry lol

👯‍♀️-The twins are just a pair of dancers, and I love the vibes of Scar and Grian dancing together in the desert

🫧-The bubbles are because their love has the same vibes as the way a child loves bubbles. The child thinks bubbles are pretty and fun, but often pops them due to a lack of understanding of their fragility

⚖️- The scale is a symbol for justice, something that Grian had the intention of bringing to the server, and yet, in the end, he hated following through with it (killing Scar)

🪬- The hand is called a hamsa, as far as I'm aware, and is a symbol for protection and guidance, something that Grian offered to Scar throughout the entire time they knew each other

✨️- The sparkles are about how attractive and nice their love seemed to Grian, how shiny the prospect of loving Scar was

💌- Well, to me, it feels like keeping his love hidden inside him, leaving only hints of its existence. You cannot read what's inside the envelope until you open it, but the heart implies it was sealed with love. He hides his feelings in the envelope like a letter never meant to be read

💃- Ok, so, the dancing one is the same as the pair dancing

🌌- The galaxy is about his home, as I like to think the Watchers live in sorta in space-ish. I think a lot about Grian routinely going up on the roof in any season of the series and just, staring at the stars. "Oh wow," he'll say, "it's so much more beautiful looking up than down"

🫀- I tend to use the real heart for situations when my love feels, well, *real*, more so than the typical cartoons heart can express. When it feels almost as if the other person is less of a loved one, more of a part of me, like we've become so very intertwined that I can never forget them. I think you can guess why that applies to Scar and Grian

🎭- The drama masks are, once again, about how he hid his feelings. "No," he said, "I'm not in love. He's just my partner in crime." It's also about how he acted out a personality that fit his needs, too. He always wanted to win, and Scar was a part of that. "I made a deal, I have to live up on it" while he's actively helping kill people, knocking down the number of who he'll have to kill once he's red. In the end, all his actions were for his own gain, but slowly the facade he put on them of being for Scar became real, the mask became his face

🕯- And the candles, well, "the light of the server." A candle in the dark. A fire, something so fierce and destructive, becoming passive and helpful. Something so necessary for some. Plus, they're often associated with magic and rituals, a tool for manifestation and summoning and communication. But a fallen candle, a flame forgotten before bed, it can become destructive again. That's what burns down houses, what takes lives. And if it doesn't lose control, it burns, and burns, and keeps burning until all of itself has melted, until it's nothing

⚔️- For the swords, I thought mostly of when Grian attacked him. Y'know, "YOU TRAITOR!". #1, I like to think of it as him putting his sword to Scars throat, so swords are obvious there. #2, he also was guarding himself! He trusted Scar, showed him parts of himself he never showed anyone else (maybe even revealed he's a watcher?????), and then Scar KILLED HIM! As part of a stupid game! (Yes I'm aware of the irony there it drives me insane I can rant about that themes about that for so so so so long and the guilt Grian feels for being the cause the games Rzaurskr74us4s4ua). So, obviously, he started to guard his heart, like swords across an entrance

⚰️- Coffin is 2 things, first, the way their love died as Scar did. I like to think that Grian tried to bury him a little, Scars final resting place was also the resting place of their love (at least, the final resting place of SCARS love). The second thing is that Scar would sell coffins, remember? But he never got one. He never got what he gave, but he did get everything Grian had

🎠- So, the horse isn't JUST a horse, it's a merry-go-round horse. Y'know, from a carousel? So, in all the seasons, their relationship kinda follows the same main story-beats, right?

•Early betrayal/beginning of a grudge

•They're forced to make up, even if just briefly

•Help each other out with something

•They fall out again

•They die (sometimes being the CAUSE of the others death, even if indirect)

It happens again and again.... like how a carousel goes around and around and around. You CHOSE to get on the carousel, Grian, and you can't get off until it's over, you know that, Grian

🏜- Anywas, for the desert, well, they're the desert duo

🦙- For the Llama, don't tell me you forgot about Pizza!

🌓- Ok the half moon, Let's see how effectively we can put this into words. So it's 2 sides of the moon, right? It's the same thing at its core, the moon, but two entirely separate appearances, light and dark. It's the same thing at its core, a game, but two entirely separate experiences, the player and the creator. 2 sides of the same coin sorta deal, yeah? They both play the game, too, and in my mind, Scar sorta creates the game, too, in his own way. Would Grian have ever stuck around the game the way he did if Scar weren't there? Scar kept things interesting for him, kept him from getting bored. Grian bent and created new rules to make sure Scar had fun, the game was created just as much for Scar as it was for Grian. And again, Grian plays too! Grian has plans blow up in his face, Grian faces punishments of breaking the rules, and despite what the other players may say, Grian lost, too. It's the same thing at its core, a game, unwinnable, but malleable

❤️‍🩹- The bandaged heart is a bit more on the nose,

I like to think both Grian and Scar were, in some way, hurt when they met. Maybe Grian had become used to the ultimately selfish love of the watchers, and had trouble believing that any other sort of love could exist. Maybe Scar hated his namesake, and wished he could hide it. (Examples, I can't quite decide on what I wanna do with it, lol. But as they grew closer, that changed. Grian began to believe in selflessness, and Scar began to find beauty in every part of him. They bandaged each others wounds and healed each others hearts

🧨- So, the dynamite is also pretty obvious, I feel like, like it's Grian. Now I COULD do some sort of deep meaning, pretty easily in fact (blowing up in the emotional way instead of the physical way, losing control of his emotions, once again circling back to "YOU TRAITOR"), but that's really not what I had in mind when I put it there

🏳️‍🌈- The queer flag.... do I need to explain that

🕰- So, the clock is a really cool one, because Grian knew from the very beginning that this would never last. Somewhere, in the back of his mind, he had a timer in the back of his mind, constantly ticking, for when it was all gonna end. It was only ever a matter of time, but he pretended it wasn't. He pretended it would last forever. Maybe, if he hoped for long enough, the clock would stop ticking, but it didn't

⏳️- Now, the sand timer has, once again, a very similar meaning. It's a timer till the end of it all, the knowledge that it will always run out, *always*. But he still joins the games, over and over again. He flips the hourglass over and restarts the timer. The sand will keep pouring, it will never change, it will end the same, always

[letsfaceitimhereforthecultstuff]

okay so i finally finished the first 2 seasons of 9-1-1, it took a lot longer than i'd anticipated due to other things like assignment deadlines and the app not working getting in the way but i did it

so here are the cliff notes (i might make more in depth posts in the future about some episodes because i have THOUGHTS)

cliff notes after the break i meant to add bullet points but i accidentally added a question instead and i don't know how to get rid of it (i'm currently on mobile) 🙃 so imma just use it

if the answer is no I don't need to know

first i gotta get this outta the way ... i'm not liking tommy i've only seen what 2 episodes with him in and i'm so sorry but he's been kinda mean (imma put that down to him being repressed maybe) but i'm hoping he gets a nice redempetion arc and it's not just brushed over because from what i've seen on here he's such a sweet guy but i did not get that from his first two appearances (maybe the writers just weren't expecting him to because a recurring character later)

i'm LOVING athena and bobby's relationship they're such a good fit for eachother i have been blessed to be able to witness it

it hurts so much whenever someone says "you're not their/a dad" to bobby like why would you do that

when did the writers and producers decided they wanted buck to be a queer character because I've been getting vibes already and it's led me to wonder which came first them wanting queer buck or fans wanting queer buck and them responding in kind

i'm enjoying the new dynamics that eddie's addition to the team has brought i love exploring interpersonal dynamics in my TV shows i also love eddie as a character and cannot wait to dive deeper into that man's psyche

speaking of interpersonal dynamics MADDIE!!! the ghost whisperer herslef [buck thinking a ghost called 911 HAD to be a nod to that right?!] anyways i love love love maddie i'm holding out hope for her and chim they've been through a lot and they deserve happiness

speaking of happiness when will they let chim live!?! - i know that's an ironic statement to make considering technically they've let him live twice - but they cannot seem to give this guy a break he's my guy also he's got a set of pipes on him in his flashback ep working at the kareoke bar singing garth brooks I keep thinking I've hit my peek with my love for this character and then they add something that makes me love him even more

if chim only has one fan it's me and if he has no fans then i have passed because that man means so much to me

they've been putting hen through the ringer a little bit too tbh but i appreciate that they're allowing queer people to get a little messy and make stupid mistakes but not villanising them for it and just being like these are things that happen in relationships sometimes you either work through it or you don't

i have been really appreciating how this show deals with queerness in general too its not this big flashy thing like "hey look over here we have some gays for you shiny shiny gays in our show" they just exist they're loveable they're flawed and they also just happen to be queer

okay imma stop before i ramble too much but if you wanna hear my thoughts on anything specific that happend in the first two seasons hit me up i love talking about this show and need more outlets for it

[gepgep2]

But I decided to become an anthropologist and I ended up going to Madagascar for one reason or another, and through sheer coincidence kind of, I stumbled into a place where the state had in fact disappeared. I was living in an anarchist society. But the fascinating thing is it took me a while to figure it out. People didn't warn me at first.

So I went off and I was in a small town but, the town was like an hour's drive out of the capital. It's hardly like out in the boonies anywhere and there was government offices, there were people in the government offices typing things, there was a police station, various other state facilities, so it would seem obvious there was a government here. But as time went on I realized there was something kinda weird going on here. Actually I think what gave it away is I heard the story about this guy named Enri, he was this enormous scary guy who was either insane or pretending to be insane. People seemed to have mixed opinions on this one. But all agreed that he was terrible- he's violent, he'd beat people up, sexual assault, steal things. So eventually people thought something needed to be done about this guy, and this is the town of 10,000 people right. And as I learned, there seems to be this basic principle in Madagascar that if you want to lynch someone you have to get their parents permission first. If you think about it, it makes sure it really doesn't happen very often. And if it does, there's probably a very good reason.

Basically it's a way of ensuring that like, your dad or your mom can go up to you and say 'Look, you really need to clean up your act- I don't know how much longer I can front for you here.'

So after about three tries his father said 'To hell with it. You're right, the guy's crazy.' They came at him with agricultural implements, he was injured and immediately ran into the local Catholic Church and demanded sanctuary- said 'Help! Help! I'm being persecuted because I'm mentally ill.' The priest eventually loaded him in the back of a van and took him off to a insane asylum, where they kicked him out three days later for beating up the other patients, but he never came back so it kinda worked out.

Be this as it may, when I was hearing this story I was thinking 'Wait a minute... there's like a police station right over there. Why didn't they do something about it?'

They were like 'Yeah, but have you seen Enri? He's enormous! They don't wanna fight him.'

'They have guns!'

'But they're not gonna shoot him, I mean come on.'

So there was this idea that it really wasn't any of their business. Eventually I figured out the police basically were there to keep the highway open. And they wouldn't go off the paved road. So what this meant is like, unless you're actually in the town itself, first of all nobody was paying any taxes, police would not come. Even in the town they wouldn't do much. But the fascinating thing was they set it up in such a way that you wouldn't know until you've lived there for a while that there was no state operative in this area. Because there are people who seem to work for the government. Later I learned that they weren't really being paid and they even had to buy their own paper to fill out forms because the government was basically providing nothing. But they were keeping up appearances.

There's a sort of traditional mode of resistance, I mean Malagasy are masters of passive resistance. Under the French colonial period for example they were trying this sort of thing. the basic approach is like, if somebody shows up and wants you to do something you really don't want to do, the first line of defense is: be nice to them, give them coffee, agree with everything they say, when they go away pretend the incident never happened. 'What? What guy? No, nobody came through telling us anything.'

And there's layer on layer of defenses these guys have developed. and it didn't work that well under the French, suddenly when the French government went away it was working better and better. The IMF was basically cutting the budget. They just simply cut police to the rural area, they figured people are running their own affairs anyway. They werent getting any taxes out out of them to speak of even before that. What eventually happens is the government effectively dissolved but they were still playing this game: this sort of like, tacit deal- we will never embarrass you, and make you feel like you're an important person who has authority, as long as you don't actually try to exercise it in any way. So everybody was playing along with this illusion of a state that didn't actually exist.

So it was an interesting test case in a lot of ways, in fact I find it a very compelling argument to use for people. Again one of the most common arguments against anarchism is that, well you can't get rid of police because people will just start killing each other. Just considered self-evident. No evidence needs to be produced. Well, actually no. This can be empirically tested and that doesn't happen. There was a case- police went away and nobody killed each other, any more than they did before, which isn't very much. And I think there's many places in the world like this by the way, where states have disappeared but we don't know because sometimes, if you are a rebel, you realize that the stupidest thing you could possibly do would be to put up a flag and say 'Hahaha! I am a rebel! We are autonomous now!'

For every case like Somalia which you hear about because there's violence, there's probably a dozen like Madagascar where nobody even knows.

It makes you think. What is it about living under a state, under someone else's authority, under the constant threat of violence if you break the rules, that actually causes behavior that makes it seem self-evident that people would behave violently if there wasn't such structures? Because in fact, if there aren't such structures, that's not how [people] act.

So there I was in Madagascar. I come back, I get a job teaching at Yale. one day I walk out of class and there's a newspaper box that says martial law declared in Seattle. And soon enough I discovered that the sort of social movement that I'd always kind of wished would exist, but didn't, actually had formed during the time that I wasn't paying attention. My immediate reaction is like great, where do I join?

So I got involved in the direct action network in New York and there are two things that really surprised me and which I've been trying to think about how to deal with ever since.

People were trying to develop this model of consensus-based direct democracy which although we identify it with the anarchist tradition, comes out of feminism just as much or more. Anarchists really adopted it because it's the type of process that could work in a society without coercive enforcement of decisions.

And it was a wonderful thing for me, but I suddenly realized that, that is what people were doing, that's how decisions had traditionally been made in Madagascar for thousand years probably.

And one reason I hadn't been completely able to understand what I was seeing when people did that at the time was, it was so natural to people that nobody really talked about it. It was just the way you do things. Whereas Americans even though we thought we live in a democratic society, how many of us have really had any experience sitting down with a whole bunch of people making a collective decision on an egalitarian basis? Maybe when we're ordering pizza.

https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=t1Icrh7S9l8

[all-pacas]

Back in the day I wondered if they were angling for Chase Thirteen and rolled my eyes at first but they do kind of have the screwed up best friends to lovers vibes to them. And the actors had decent chemistry.

Also I think House’s treatment of it would’ve been hilarious

I think in all honesty the show was angling for them as a pairing, and it's only by the grace of god (and Olivia Wilde's career taking off) that it didn't happen. But seriously: they never talk or interact for 3 years, and then suddenly they're having heart to hearts in Private Lives and Chase is flirting with her a little and propositions her like. He went the entire show without ever having an emotionally honest conversation with Foreman, but 13? Instantly.

And I'm torn because I'm a huge sucker for — I really like them as not romantic, like, they both have such fucked up histories of sleeping around and going for easy fake intimacy, I think for Chase and 13, not sleeping together is sort of more romantic (platonically romantic, romantically romantic, whatever) than if they'd hooked up: they easily could have and it would have meant nothing and they probably would have never talked again, not in some dramatic bitter way but because they both would feel like they had no reason to, you know? But they don't get to do their usual bullshit.

And they drive me insane, because they're such parallels — lonely and self destructive and not nearly as closed off and aloof as they want to be, as they try to be, how they have parent trauma and sibling trauma and murder trauma and cope with (implied and stated) drinking and drug use and sex. And how they can be such good supports for one another, and how they both crave that support (you could make some interesting contrasts between Foreman and Cameron, who are more alike than I think is obvious, and how they both… were not quite what 13 and Chase needed; 13 was lonely with Foreman, felt pushed away; Chase was always trying much harder than Cameron). They have complicated feelings about grief and the people they've lost and love. I love how Chase kind of gets to step into a big brother-ish role with 13, he's openly protective of her and supports her; I think she could easily do the same for him. And that all makes for a fantastic imagined/alluded to friendship, and I love the prodigal siblings thing (and there's a whole other post about how it isn't that they really think of one another as siblings in the least, how the title is much more about their relationships with House, how that's another thing they have in common)… they're on weirdly equal footing. They know the worst things about one another, their greatest weaknesses and failings, and accept it totally. And they like hanging out. It's great.

But! You really could make it romantic, too! It could honestly be kind of sweet! Or kind of weird! Or both! Like, imagine 13 post-series trying to hook Chase up with her girlfriend, not in a polyamory way but in a "when I'm gone I think you two should date" way. Imagine House's incest jokes. Imagine Foreman's incredible pain. (Imagine the Chase euthanizes 13 instead of House headcanon, but with this added layer.) Mostly I just want them to be friends forever, but I don't think it would be crazy for them to kiss, too. :(

[candyskiez]

Steven Universe! And She-ra

Fair warning, I haven't watched either of these in a long time

For SU:

Favorite female character: Pearl. I love her so much. Her grief is just so damn realistic and I really like how they went about developing her. A big strength of the show to me is how even the characters who are meant to be undeniably very good people still do awful shit sometimes. Pearls a big example of this. She's so human and the whole sardonyx plot is what made me start liking her and she only became a better character as the show went on. She's just so good man and I really like that her arc isn't about finding another lover or anything. Maybe she gets another in the future but idk. I'm glad they didn't include it in the show? It's nice to see her be able to heal and be single at the same time. Yknow?

Favorite male character: Steven! Another huge selling point of the show for me was the show exploring how common cartoon things would shape a characters mental health and development. Steven feels exactly how a real person in that situation would realistically develop and it's very interesting to me. I want to study him under a microscope.

Favorite season: Season three! Idk a lot of my favorite episodes are from there. Definitely a highlight of the show for me.

Favorite episode: A Single Pale Rose. Sorry. Other favorites are alone at sea, back to the kindergarten, volleyball, Mr Greg, Friend Ship, now we're only falling apart, Log Date, and monster reunion.

Favorite ship: Pearlrose, by far. Only ship I got properly invested in from this show. They're just so interesting and messy and complicated. Their situation was so fucked up and kind of doomed them to be on unhealthy footing with each other but they tried so damn hard and maybe if they'd just had more time, maybe if Rose had just chosen to live, maybe they could've fixed it!!! Aaaaagh!!! It drives me insane, man.

Character I'd die defending: Rose. What can I say that hasn't been said already man

Character I just can't sympathize with: I'm not poking the discourse bears

A character I grew to love: Amethyst but honestly most of the cast. The vast majority of the cast started out pretty unlikable and then just grow on you.

Anti op: Bellow diamond. I just don't like it, nothing personal.

She ra:

Favorite female character: Adora!!! I love her!!!! She's so much more interesting than people give her credit for. I will always wish we got more episodes centered around what her time in the horde was like + her own personal experiences with shadow weaver, as well as more of her feelings on the big split, because what we got was so interesting ad aarvhhhhh.

Favorite male character: Bow. He is underrated (partly due to wasted potential.) He was so interesting in season four and man. Man. I wish we got more episodes with him? Man we couldve had it alllll. The world if Bow had an episode focused on him. I wanna know more about him! Arrghfhhfhfhf.

Favorite season: Season four, hands down. It's a really really good season. I don't think I dislike a single episode from it they're all bangers. Also protocol is underrated. The insight we get into Light Hope and the horde trio was so good and added so much to the show and Glimmers arc in it was top tier idc what yall say. Also YAY BOW DEPTH!!!! I loved him being bitter and messy and burnt out!!!! I loved the guy who fixes everything not being able to fix it and being hit with it because he is the only one trying! He wants everything to be okay and nobody else wants that! Everyone else just wants to be right! And nobody wonders how bows doing! Idk bow really gets to shine in that season I loved it.

Favorite episode: Fractures. It's a really, really good episode. But im torn between that and princess scorpia? They're both just so so good man.

Favorite ship: Do you even have to ask (catradora. It's catradora.)

Character I'd die defending: Glimmer. Yall don't know her like I do. Also Adora. I would defend her in court.

Character I can't sympathize with: Once again, I am not poking the discourse bears.

A character I grew to love: Scorpia. She's one of my favorites, unexpectedly. If I actually dissected why I love her I'd be airing out my deepest emotional traumas publicly.

Anti otp: Glimmadora out of nothing but pure spite. I have no problem with the ship itself but the discourse got so bad that everytime I see it I die a little. Like it's a good ship! But the fucking discourse man. Terrifying.

[tomwambsmilk]

I feel like I've noticed a weird thing in some movies lately where they sort of feel like watching visual representation of a sparknote. You know how when you read a sparknote, it gives you the beat-by-beat of everything that happens plotwise, but without any of the depth? It might say "Character A goes to a party and argues with Character B, and then they profess their love for each other. The next day Character A goes to work and cries in the copy room because they feel uncertain about the relationship." But if you read the book those two lines are a good 50 pages of narration and dialogue which explore the nuances of Character A's mindset and their relationship with Character B. So if you just read the sparknote, you might know what happens, but you don't necessarily understand the characters and everything they're meant to convey.

And I feel like I've seen a lot of movies lately that feel like a sparknote. They want to convey that Thing Happened so they'll show a scene with two lines of dialogue establishing Thing, and then they'll jump to the next scene with two more lines establishing Next Thing, etc etc through the whole movie. And these movies tend to also be the WORST for on-the-nose dialogue, because the dialogue just exists to Establish Things. For example - I went to see TBOSAS last night, and the whole idea of Snow turning into his father is Established with exactly two scenes - one where Tigris tells him that she remembered seeing hate in his father's eyes, and another at the end of the movie where she says he looks just like his father. Boom! Established! They want to establish Snow's influence on the final form of the games, so they have a scene where Snow stands up and lists all the types of pageantry he thinks would make the Games more appealing. Boom! Established! They want the audience to know that Snow is in love with Lucy Gray, so they have a scene where he visits her and wipes away a tear with his handkerchief. Boom! Established!

But.... where's the exploration? People are complex, and so the most fascinating and interesting characters have multiple facets that need to be explored in a variety of circumstances. What does 'becoming his father' mean to Snow? Probably not just one straightforward thing that can be readily established in two scenes. What does Snow admire about his father? Is there any degree of internal conflict in the idea of becoming his father? There's just so much you can't learn in a movie like this. Why does Snow love pageantry? What does he understand the relationship between pageantry and politics to be, and how does that evolve over the course of the film? What is it that draws Snow to Sejanus when he's so despised by the rest of the Capitol elite that Snow wants so desperately to be a part of? Does Snow really love Lucy Gray, and if so, why? What does she represent that he can't find in the Capitol? The movie doesn't even need to give solid answers - honestly, questions like these hit better when there's enough ambiguity for audience members to have different interpretations - but there needs to be SOMETHING for us to work with.

And I think what drives me most insane is that when a movie like this comes out, if there's a big enough name behind it people will laud it for making its primary character 'inscrutable' ???????????? bitch that's just bad storytelling????????? Look, if you mean 'inscrutable' as in 'can't be put into one simple box' - sure, great, but that's not what these characters are. You straight-up just don't know anything about their interior lives, which is such a major misstep that I can't believe people are celebrating it just because Christopher Nolan did it (yeah I'm still pressed about Oppenheimer, the other great example of sparknotes storytelling that got endlessly celebrated just because Nolan did it. It's crazy to me that Oppenheimer has the higher RT score because at least TBOSAS has redeeming elements)

[secretkittywolf]

More Gladioturashipping incorrect quotes

There's so many that fits these two so well!

Quattro: Being in love is a constant battle between "I wish to sit on a window bench with my lover, our legs tangling as we listen to the birds" and "Hey, let's go throw rocks at fascists" and I think that's very sexy of us Dextra: If the window's open and you time it right, you can do both

Quattro: When you said 'Magic in Bed', I wasn't expecting this... Dextra: *pulls out card from deck* Now, was this your card? Quattro:  holy shit-

Dextra: Are you ready to commit? Quattro: Like, a crime or a relationship?

Quattro: We’re getting married, bitches! Dextra: And we're about to make it everybody else's problem

Quattro: I like your new pants! Dextra: Thanks, they were 50% off! Quattro: I’d like them better if they were 100% off *winks* Dextra: The store can’t just give away clothes for free Quattro: That’s… not what I meant Dextra: That’s a terrible way to run a business, Quattro

Dextra: Valentine’s day is just a consumerist holiday that holds no real value other than drive people insane buying heart shaped chocolates for their significant others and pos- Quattro: I wrote you a poem Dextra, already crying: You did?

Dextra: Hey, about that love letter you sent me- Quattro: *blushes* What are your thoughts? Dextra: The fourth sentence- Quattro: Yeah, that’s where I got really emotional and I- Dextra: It’s “y-o-u’r-e” not “y-o-u-r”

Dextra: You know my motto: carpe diem, carpe noctem, carpe coles Quattro: Seize the day, seize the night, what’s the last one? Dextra: Seize the dick

Quattro: I'm trash Dextra: As someone who's environmentally conscious, it's my duty to pick you up. Does 7 work for you? Quattro: Quattro: You smooth motherfucker Quattro: And yes it does

Quattro: There are 20 letters in the alphabet, right? Dextra: Nope, there's 26 Quattro: Ah, I must have forgotten U, R, A, Q, T Dextra: Aww, that's cute, but you're still missing one Quattro: You'll get the D later ;)

Dextra: I still have no idea how I’m attracted to you... Quattro: Yeah, well, you’re stuck with me, and no take backs, honey

Quattro: This date is boring! Dextra: This isn't a date. I said I was going to the store. Quattro: Then why did you invite me? Dextra: I didnt, I specifically said "don't come with me," then you said, "fuck you Dextra I'll do whatever I want!

Dextra walking into the kitchen and seeing all their limes peeled: Quattro, I love you but, what the h-e-double FUCK! Quattro, sipping coffee happily: I love you too :)

Quattro: Dextra and I are no longer friends Dextra: QUATTRO THAT IS THE WORST WAY TO TELL PEOPLE THAT WE’RE DATING!

Quattro: I’ve been dropping them the most insanely obvious hints for like a year now. No response Dextra: Wow. They sound stupid Quattro: But they’re not. They’re really smart actually. Just dense. Dextra: Maybe you need to be more obvious? Like, I don’t know… “Hey! I love you!” Quattro: I guess you’re right. Hey Dextra, I love you Dextra: See! Just say that! Quattro: Holy fucking shit Dextra: If that flies over their head then, sorry Quattro, but they're too dumb for you Quattro: Dextra...

Dextra: Do you want to explain the text you sent me last night? Quattro: It was autocorrect

Dextra: Autocorrect wrote "You're so hot. Please step on me"? Quattro: Yes

Quattro: Fight me! Dextra: *gets on one knee and pulls out a ring* Dextra: Fight me for the rest of our lives

*Quattro comes home absolutely drunk, undresses, and stands in Dextra's bedroom* Dextra: Babe, are you.. coming to bed? Quattro: No thank you, I’m sure you’re lovely but I have a girlfriend Quattro: *Lies on the ground and falls asleep* Dextra: ...

Dextra: Since we're in a relationship now, your clothes are my clothes too. Don't ask me why I have your shirt on, this is our shirt Quattro: Fine, but when I come strutting in with your fuzzy socks I don't want to hear shit

[amalgamationillustration]

Today is a big ADHD shame day. Either my meds aren't working any more or I've somehow fucked up my life whilst on them. I'm pretty sure they're not working and I have an appointment in just over a month but god today I feel like shit.

I've gained back most of the weight I lost and I'm not in shape any more even though I felt amazing with how consistent I was with exercising. My joints and asthma are shit now again and it's literally my fault. The worst part is I'm not even that overweight but it just doesn't take much for my body to feel the struggle of it. It also sucks because really to be and maintain the weight I felt the best at I'd only need to cut like 200 calories max a day, but I just can't consistently maintain actually logging my food without getting bored, forgetting or realising I'm over so there's no point doing the rest that day. I dont then proceed to overeat after that but I just think eugh its gonna make me feel bad and some days it's unavoidable especially when I have such a small margin for deficit. Because I'm not super overweight, a big deficit isn't reasonable or realistic so I'm not going to start cutting back insane amounts, but weirdly its harder to just lose a smaller amount than it was when I was bigger.

I also feel like I'm bad at friendships and I've had one recently that's devolved because we just have different communication styles, I communicate too much and too often and she communicated less frequently and less consistently and so I always end up annoying her with my hyperactivity and she annoys me when she asks me to be less which is so hard when I have 0 self control skills, especially when my meds are out of action seemingly.

With my other friendships I've always struggled with making myself overly available for people and finding they then rely on that and start only really talking to me to tell me bad news or to complain and they actively disengage when I'm happy or successful at something. And I'm trying to avoid repeating the same patterns but it's hard to push people away when I know I can be there but in doing so I don't notice when its suddenly become all encompassing. I also struggle with friends not living near, not replying to messages cause they also have ADHD, not committing to hang outs which makes me stop trying. I have dreams about friends I've lost touch with because they're otherwise occupied with other friends or other things and I just feel like I fall so far down the priority list for some people that I'd list much higher.

The only reason my spending isn't out of control is because I cleared my debt and closed my credit accounts, if I hadn't I'd have already dipped back into them and I'm having to actively fight myself not to take out new lines of credit just to get dopamine purchases.

I'm just so eughh at the moment, I can't motivate myself to do anything, everything feels like it's either unrewarding work or it's something I shouldn't be engaging in because it's something I'm trying to be better at. So it's like I don't wanna get up and overeat for dopamine, and I don't want to spend money I don't have, but because I don't have any dopamine I also can't get up and do things I need to do. It's driving me fucking insane.

The worst part is knowing exactly what I need to do or should do because its what I've done when my meds work, and just still not doing it because my brain is too dopamine deprived to do something not bad for me that will give me dopamine. And if I do manage it I can't manage it for more than a few days. All I can manage is bed rot. Then I don't spend money or over eat or annoy anyone but I also don't get anything done that might help I'm so mad at myself it's so dumb and its not normally this bad. I am lucky to get an hour out of each of my meds each day, like I take short acting and it's meant to last 4 hours and I'm blessed if each one gives me an hour so I can have 3 useful hours a day, at a push.

[missspringthyme]

January 9th, 2024

I ended up going up to see the friend I was going to see last week, this week. After a day of procrastinating leaving by playing the Sims, I finally made the 2ish hour drive to the town that I continue to be shocked he has willingly chosen to live in.

This friend is one of my oldest. We met for the first time when we were 12, although we only really became as close as we are now after we graduated high school. This is due to a few things, one of which was we were simultaneously in shitty relationships where our boyfriends didn't want us talking to each other because we got along too well.

Anyway, he's really good at making you feel comfortable, and seen, and taken care of; and now he has a house, a fiance, and a dog that reflects that. I love visiting him.

On the drive up I ate almost an entire bag of nori maki, so when he asked me if I was hungry I lied and said yes. He's the type of person to hear that and then say we can go get dinner later even though he's starving.

My friend worked in restaurants for many years, and his fiance still currently does, so they are both very good at picking out places to eat and probably know at least one of the staff. We went to "one of the only decent places to go to" which was a bar that served sandwiches. I got the smallest size of the vegetarian option that had no peanut butter, and when the bartender asked me if I wanted anything to drink my mind went blank.

Besides sips here and there, I stopped drinking about 1 or 2 years ago. The reasons behind this include (1) Unless heavily disguised, I hate the taste and tbh the heavily disguised drinks taste better without it (2) I developed an intolerance where I start vomiting heavily after I've had more than 2 drinks (3) Despite rarely drinking, when I did drink I did so heavily. The moment I realized that I could have just as much fun on a night without risking blacking out again, I never turned back.

Despite this, I'm a firm believer in a fun little drink to accompany a meal, so I've been trying more mocktails. I turned to my friend, who has worked as a bartender and is fantastic at mixing drinks and asked him for ideas for a mocktail I could try. I was expecting something unexpected or cool that I had never heard of, and this motherfucker said "a Shirley Temple". They're incredible though, so I got one. He drank a beer.

We talked about how busy and draining our lives are right now, and how crazy it is that he's living such a stable, adult life. He's an archaeologist, which is insane, but he's working really hard to be seen as invaluable when the layoffs he sees looming on the horizon finally happen. I'm not sure how his wedding is going to look, but I'm excited to be important enough to someone to be in their wedding party. He texted me the day he got engaged to ask if there was any time I wouldn't be able to come to their wedding so they could plan around it when they set the date.I know my friend is a little worried because his fiance has more people to invite, but I know it'll all be wonderful in the end.

Their dog is very, very nervous and doesn't do well with moves, but she usually really loves me. It took some work, but eventually, she came and sat with me again while my friend and I talked. I need to come to see them more often so I can reestablish myself as a favorite again.

His fiance came home later that night, and joined in our conversation. I really like him, and I hope eventually we can become friends outside of our mutual connection. First I need to get better at calling my friend though.

I was offered edibles and decided to take some, stupidly thinking they were the same dosage as last time I had taken edibles at their house. Previously, 2 gummies had meant feeling relaxed but clear-headed, this time it meant that I felt that I was trapped inside a heavy skin suit and I didn't know where my lungs were. I'm becoming more and more fond of not chemically altering my mood.

When I was drunk, I had a horrible habit of doing everything in my power to not let anyone know. I would do the most obviously drunk-person things and then deny if anyone asked me. I found out I have the same instinct when high, but I went to bed before it became too much of a problem.

[entoman-created-by-the-tallgreys]

Then Again, it could possibly be the fake fog

You see the fake fog was described by the god Zeus as allegedly another deity he doesn't know he actually said that he's not quite sure if it is a deity or not one of the Divine family

But he is sure that it's a severe problem for all deities the fake fog is completely an absolutely sentient and 100% malevolent

It's only intent is to destroy everything in creation

. . .

I sometimes wonder if the fake fog is cancer if you think of God and a Grand Spect of All Thing's !

I wanted to fake fog is like sentient cancer !

?

Anyway the fake fault does a whole bunch of things one thing you need about the fake frogs is extremely corrupting it's also a complete psychic Elemental

Not an Elemental That is Psychic, No, it's made entirely out of Psionic Energy, aka Psychic Energy !

. . .

I've talked much about this piece of fucking shit but to make things even more deep I thought I let you God damn know this thing has a long list of powers and I only learned about these Powers as I suffered it and figured it out as my soul died throughout my life as it drains me it's always draining me with well I like to call them fog thralls

They're like zombified puppets but they are extensions of the fake fog they have no real free will and no real sentiness but they act like they're completely alive but they're malevolent nature is that of an extension of the fake fog itself

Think of it like Possession of a Ghost, or a Spiritual infection Upon Another Spirit

. . .

The fake fog corrupts all things and perverts all things it does not mean Dark, it will make demons act like angels and Angels act like demons

It will turn fire to water and water to fire, but the soul of the creature is not meant to act that way so it's a form of torture, And Soul Damage

The damn thing also is big on cursing the living shit out of Every mother fucking thing in Existence

The fake fog also drives deities completely insane and that sounds like they act like bad but you have no idea by the level of insanity imagine someone doing a lot of asset I mean like LSD now imagine someone smoking crack cocaine now imagine someone crazier than a Looney tune now imagine someone dropping even more acid now imagine them smoking methamphetamine which is a slightly different from crack cocaine, and that's still fucking same compared to how fucked they are

How long does it take fog last here's the paradox of the fake fog

When the fake fog is locked away it exists nowhere in time but when the fake fog is free it always existed everywhere in time ?

The fake fog also drains all power in all energy and all magic of all things even deities lose all their Divine powers and go completely insane sometimes they gain their power back again but their powers gained back only in to where the fake fall can use it to wear deities go against one another for no good reason they're more insane, then I fucking Looney tune !

They are completely insane and they are become extremely malevolent and they seemingly don't know that what they're doing most the fucking time but they're very sure of it at the same time

It drives dead he's insane and eventually they have to try to break away from it cuz they're possessed under control even Zeus is fucked even God is fucked by this thing it makes God turn on his people yes even God even fucking God so this thing must be equal to the level of God or around the same generation of God

The Almighty Creator, I sometimes wonder in these dire times if it's more important to hold loyalty to God or is it important to break loyalty to God, I sometimes wonder that shit ?

See I'm not a human being I'm a fairy and fairy is supposed to love themselves as we love ourselves we love each other, because we are a high mind we're not just a hive

THAT'S, NOT THE FUCKING POINT

I often wonder why I should do in these moments I wonder if I should stay loyal to God and keep doing this sacred chance I came up with in the name of God's glory

. . . . .

Air, Earth, Water, Fire in the name of God there is no Higher !

. . . . .

?

Either way I thank you whoever you are for reading it to the very end I don't know what's going on a cosmet scale is probably a Divine battle ?

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At the end of my life whenever is going to happen I said this throughout my life and I'll say it again I'll be happy when I'm dead but I'm also terrified that I'll be brought back that leaves might need to go into great deep rage against God to want to listen say do ultimate battle with him because his creation it's been a cactus of my ass for a long time

And God shows me no mercy despite I show him nothing but love nothing but devotion nothing but dedication nothing but purity

I always wondered by God gave me the middle finger but then again every time the gods acted insane they always have to fog around them or they had a bit of a foggy aura or they had fog in their eyes

Either way I don't know why I have to keep suffering this bullshit when I die I hope I get to fly

When, I finally get to leave this fucking body I hope I truly am done forever

[lordelmelloi2]

It's normal for teens to be attracted to other teens, hell it's normal for teens to find adults attractive, but I do think that like. The phenomenon I witnessed in the circles I saw here on tumblr and twitter where we had *Grown Men, Women, And Everyone in-Between Or Neither Or Otherwise*, people who are adults, constantly talking about how bad Castoria needed to get fucked or how much of a sex pervert she was ... I don't know how anyone can witness anyone talking like that about a teenager and not be like, WTF? It was fucked up because so much of LB6 is strictly about Castoria's trauma and neglect, how she only could rely on Ector, and how her supports have been ripped away from her, and how she's expected to do this grand act without a chance to live humanely or experience life or love... and people just wouldn't shut up about sex or petplay or fucking whatever. And she's like just a teenager. She's 16. But people kept acting like she had absolutely insane raging hormones, and projecting their own sexuality onto her, and the shit ppl wrote and drew was like... bro is she not like in dire need of some happiness that doesn't assume sex fixes everything about her? Or rather, do you idiots really think sex just cures you and everything you ever went through? Is sex the end goal of happiness for yall? It just felt demented as fuck. Like, who cares? But also why is it any of their business?

That's what drives me nuts and people talk about it seriously when it's like, American media, like I read conversations discussing how weird it is that tv runners and filmmakers love hyperfocusing in on teenage sexuality & sexualizing teenagers, how burdensome that for teens they can't enjoy media meant for their age group without *somebody* joyfully writing or trying to depict how much Sex they're having or how Sexy they are... I'm not even asexual, I just think this is a patriarchal problem that a ton of people just decided didn't matter anymore. Like it's ok to sexualize teen girls because they're teenagers. And if they're anime it's doubly okay because otaku don't care about that stuff. "Buh its Fikshon. Its make believe its pretend" type excuses made by people who think you don't passively absorb messages about how you should be acting, how you should talk, or look, or behave, depending on the positive connotation and depiction of anything in media. Like we're already aware we are slaves to advertising. Im getting ahead of myself here so let me like recap my thoughts:

- I think a ton of adults have this assumption that fictionality means 1) No teens will see it and internalize Sex = Value, 2) No adults will internalize that it's ok to treat teens like this and start behaving strangely towards teenagers

- "oh well then we should never depict teenage sexuality" How about this: Teenage sexuality has rarely been depicted with the dignity that allows teens to process real emotions about it rather than simply existing as spectacle and entertainment for pedophilic, boundary-lacking, disrespectful adults. And teens know this.

- Castoria is just so blatantly a little girl that needs like guidance and support and real ways of treating her like a person first that when I see people jump to speculating her sex life or talk about fulfilling her through sex I just want to strangle them. It is mostly adults that I have witnessed doing this and very rarely teens.

- I don't trust these adults because I think they have implicit bias directed towards being disrespectful of the boundary between adults and teenagers, they likely don't understand that that boundary is about respect, it's about treating those younger and less experienced than you with dignity and not forcing expectations onto them, they don't understand that negating that boundary is predation. A teenager is not your emotional equal. Or rather, they shouldn't be -- and if they are, and you're an adult, you need to understand your own maturity being on par with a teenager's doesn't mean you have the right to make adult expectations of a teenager. & I think that last bit as a principle applies to Many, Many things, not just sexual abuse dynamics

- I think if people try to strawman and say "well we can never talk about sex ed then" are also stupid because any sex educator will tell you there are clear cut boundary respectful ways that you can advise minors on sex ed and health that are able to answer their questions Without being disrespectful towards the minors involved or prying or treating them as equals to you.

- The older I get the more I realize the sheer and utter gap between a 16-17 yo and Any person above like. TWENTY years old and I start getting angrier and angrier the more instances I see of people talking about teens, fictional teens, teenagers in media, ETC. like they're sex symbols instead of like. Just. Kids. They're kids. They are literally kids that are growing up. My god. You do not really start to understand until you hit like 25 on average, I think, how absolutely batshit insane it is for ppl to be fantasizing about teenagers. & Quite frankly. I find it all starkly antifeminist and properly aligned with fascist ideals to be obsessed with this kind of thing as a virtue of sexual ""liberation"" or whatever people are saying these days. What exactly is liberatory about this and who does it benefit? In what way? What kind of ideas and power does this align with in our current political climate?

Asides from her being 16 years old it does make me insane when people talk about how bad they wanna fuck Castoria or how bad they need her to get fucked or something. I think these people are just straight up deranged. Maybe its bc I have kids but like theres noooo fucking way anyone who looks at Castoria and is fantasizing about anything sexual wrt her isn't a predator in some way bc how the fuck do you look at a sheltered, emotionally neglected 16 yr old like that and start immediately thinking about sex. She should be doing a nature walk field study and like playing basketball with her friends and going to hot topic not doing whatever the hell these weirdos think she should be doing lmfao

[omegawizardposting]

This focus young LGBT+ folk have on their identity being completely unique from everyone else's is so dangerous. It only serves to isolate them from people with similar experiences at a time when we should be finding common ground and uniting against the people who want us dead.

"I'm not gay! Sure, I'm exclusively attracted to the same gender, but only if they wear glasses!" You aren't glasses-sexual. You're a gay person who thinks glasses are attractive.

"I'm not a man! Yeah, I want to go on testosterone and have surgeries to make me look like a man, but my gender is soft and cute!" You aren't cutegender. You're a trans guy with an aesthetic.

I see kids arguing over who can and can't use the genders/sexualities they've "coined", and it drives me up the wall. I cannot fathom how they don't see why that's fucked up and insane. They're quite literally treating gender and sexuality like a fandom. Meanwhile, a trans man could be raped, impregnated, and forced to detransition for the rapist's child's safety. Roe v. Wade has been overturned, and our lives are in danger. We still cannot piss in public restrooms, for Christ's sake.

This is serious. I wish it wasn't. I wish gender and sexuality were fun little accessories we could all put on and take off at our leisure. That's just not the case, though, and people are dying. People will die. You need to stop obsessing over what makes you different from the boring, regular queers and start recognizing what makes us the same.

No label describes every facet of your gender and sexuality. That's not what they're for. They're meant to bring us together under one banner. They're meant to relate us to one another. They take a common experience, like same-gender attraction, and gather all those who have it under the same roof because, on some level, we can understand each other. There is safety in numbers.

The minutia of your attraction and gender do not matter. They are so fucking unimportant. I promise you, no one cares if you only like guys with white hair and 300 IQ. What we care about is community, and your constant attempts to distance yourself from us and our experiences does none of us any favors.

We need you. You need us. You are us. So fight with us.

[imissthembutitwasntadisaster]

hi hello may i request your mcr essential tracks? 👉👈 i am Exploring.

OOHHOOHOO OK I love answering this question whenever anyone asks me this question it literally makes my day.

So The Black Parade is low-key for many people The Definitive MCR album, and it is also a concept album, telling the story of a man dying from cancer. For this I would recommend listening to the whole thing through for the narrative, it's about 40-50 minutes I think? But if you don't want to, the most crucial track is Famous Last Words, the last one, also Disenchanted my beloved (almost wasn't put on the album! Personally an offence to me!!!), I Don't Love You, Dead!, House of Wolves, The Sharpest Lives, Mama, and of course welcome to the black parade THE MCR song my beloved. Also Kill All Your Friends is a b-side released separately but it is! So good!!!

Danger Days is their fourth album and also my favourite. Perhaps not as good as Black parade, nevertheless has my whole heart, has a lighter sound, more into the pop of pop punk, even has some dance tracks. Listen to Summertime song of my heart favourite song ever written, the only hope for me is you BELOVED, scarecrow is an underrated masterpiece by which I mean it makes me feel Emotions, Planetary Go! I love!!! And kids from yesterday makes me cry. Danger Days is also a concept album, about a post-nuclear apocalypse California, but the narrative is more in a few spoken tracks and the music videos than in the songs themselves so it's a bit looser.

Three Cheers for Sweet Revenge is their second album, very much more on the punk side of pop punk, angrier, faster, literally iconic, also technically a concept album? But not as much. Helena is often considered one of the best MCR songs ever, give em hell kid is one of my personal favourites, Cemetery Drive is also excellent, Desert Song is another B-side but listen listen it's SO GOOD, thank you for the venom is also so good, and of course! Who can forget I'm Not Ok!!! The only song to ever matter actually!

Bullets, the first album, is definitely rougher, younger, perhaps worse, than the others, it took me some time to love it but it is actually worth trying if you like the others. Skylines and Turnstiles was the first song ever written for the band after Gerard Way witnessed 9/11 and decided to try to save people through music (the first line of the first song of the band is "you're not in this alone" and I'm so normal about that fact but also you will hear this theme constantly throughout - they're trying to save people). It's also a good song. Our Lady of Sorrows! Vampires Will Never Hurt You! Headfirst for Halos! All good songs!

(btw there are so many things I could content warn you for that I won't, instead just let me know if there's something you don't want to hear and I'll tell you which to avoid).

Conventional Weapons was written after Black Parade, meant to be an album, was scrapped, and then released after Danger Days as a series of singles. Paid dust. Iconic. Listen to Make Room, Surrender the Night, BOY DIVISION PLEASE, and The Light Behind Your Eyes which makes me cry so so so much.

Fake your death was the last song released before the band break-up, it's an explanation of sorts, and it's amazing actually. Foundations of Decay is the new single which also is very long and makes me insane.

So that's it! If you want to poke around just pick the first few I said for each album to get a sense of the vibe!!! I am Firmly Convinced everyone could have at least one MCR song they like because they have The Range so just throw the songs at the wall like spaghetti until one sticks I guess. Have fun and let me know if you listen to them and if you like them and sorry for going on so long.

[dimonds456]

Michigan is weird and I love it.

Hi, hello, I am from Michigan. Or, as we tend to call it, I am a Michigander. And, I've realized that we're very, very weird compared to other states. So, here's a guide on how to blend in and pretend like you've lived here your whole life while visiting to see pretty lakes <3

We have weird slang. You'll see us using words like

Youper / Yooper

Noseeums (No/see/'ems)

The thumb

Traverse / Cherry City / Cherry Capital

Good gravy

Allow me to explain. Michigan is split into two parts; the Lower Peninsula and the Upper Peninsula. The LP is shaped like an oven mitten, and the UP is shaped like a sideways hand. This will be important later.

Up north, in the UP (pronounced "yoopee"), we have different accents, beliefs, and ways of living from the rest of us! I'm down in the LP, though, so I am not what we call a Yooper. Yoopers are the people living in the UP, who tend to rough it more, use less, and have their own accent, too! They're mostly known for their accent and how batshit insane they are /aff.

In the summer, we have loooots of bugs. Filmmakers love coming here, since we have so many "biomes" here. Beautiful and gross lakes, thick forests and barren sandscapes, stuff of the like. This means we have a very diverse ecosystem, including noseeums. Noseeums are tiny bugs you cannot see until they are right in front of you (~6 inches), or they buzz in your ear. They're actually called Fruit Flies, but you can't see them, so we usually call them Noseeums. Yoopers do this more than us down south.

Since Michigan looks like an oven mit, we tend to point at our hands to indicate where we are. The peninsula that sticks out if the LP we tend to call "the thumb," since, y'know, it looks like a thumb. The LP is the right hand, the UP is the left! Pinky and thumb sticking out, anyway.

Hey, if you wanna come visit us, I would highly recommend you go see Cherry Capital! It's a beautiful town with lots of resources, tourist-y things, and a great place to live. Oh, is it not appearing in Google Maps? Sorry, I meant Traverse City. We call it Cherry Capital since, according to Michigan rumor, it's the place that grows and sells the most cherries. Don't know how true that is, but y'know.

Good gravy, that's a lot of stuff. Oh yeah, we've got those too. Lick a tree for maple syrup, don't jump the salmon, lots of weird phrases. I can't remember all of them nor can I really explain them, except the two here. "Lick a tree for maple syrup" is a newer one (that I think was inspired by Tumblr, actually) that basically means that you're not putting in enough effort to get something. "Don't jump the salmon" is a variant on "look before you leap," because if you jump over the salmon swimming upstream, the bear will getcha.

oh yeah hug a moose is another one, too

We also have weird behavior. Like I said, you can use your hands like a map here. I keep forgetting that other people don't know this, and once I tried showing someone next to me n a plane while we were in Chicago, and she had no clue wtf I was doing. But, it's common practice here.

There's waaaaaay too many campsites, a ton of people go ice fishing (AND DRIVE TRUCKS ON THE LAKE AND DON'T FALL IN), lots of deer hunting, lots of deer signs. You have to know a lot of about wildlife here, like being aware of deer trails. If you don't know what those are, then you may be wondering why there are so many caution signs with deer on them.

oh yeah and all of it is "northern Michigan." no one says "Southern Michigan." I have no idea why.

Anyway. Fellow Michiganders, feel free to add to this. And other states that have weird traditions, too, I'd love to hear them.