#I suspect I have adhd

[mako-fish]

Being “gifted” in middle school: Can you help me study history 🥺? Oh wait XD you’re a regular kid fufufufu >:3 my bad, forgot you’re not as advanced as me 😎

Being “gifted” in high school: The only reason I am here today is because my depressed gay friend group has made a blood pact that we will only off ourselves if someone else in the group does it first. I’m 90% sure I have ADHD. Please I am begging you do you take my chemistry class. WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU HAVENT DONE THE HOMEWORK EITHER, I WANT TO GO HOME AND CRY BUT IF I LEAVE CLASS EARLY I’LL FAIL EVERYONE IVE EVER LOVED

[einartired]

I’ve been overstimulated by noise since 7 in the morning and I don’t know whether I want to draw on my wrist or stab it. I don’t trust myself with a pen at the moment.

[pikhachu]

sighh late night extra bc i got pissed off and what i feel she feels

[twisted-wonderland-shenanigans]

Past Me: *-struggles for months on end to figure out how to write the next chapter of Kaiju!AU-* "I know what I want to write and I have the scene in mind, but how do I get it on the page????"

Today Me: *-decides to do a web diagram of potential scenes for said chapter after seeing the success I had with a different story's plot point and suddenly has a new plot device to give Yuu a bigger role in the story-* "????? How????"

Soooooooo...yeah, I've been productive, I swear, just words being stubborn with me 😅

[snapscube]

i saw there was only 2 parts of u playing ace attorney on snapcube 2, did u decide to finish it off stream or smth?

let me tell you a story....

there once was a woman named penny who had an incredible, large group of friends

she loved doing things with these friends, including streams of funny lawyer games

"wow!!! i should do this more often!" she said, after the second time

she really wanted to! so she thought and thought and thought for days. "i should do this again!" she thought.

"it's been two weeks!" she thinks "i should reach out soon and do this again! that will be easy!"

the words never come. there's so much going on! everyone seems busy, or maybe she just doesn't feel particularly present, maybe she wonders if it would be a bother. she's tired that day, or something bad happened, or it's just been so long.

has it been so long??? "it's been two weeks?" she thinks, realizing it's been 3 years.

[jinxed-ninjago]

ninjago polls inspired by my experience in college: part ??????

before I continue my personal monologue for my theater class, take a poll that will have a very obvious purpose once you see it

[wheelie-sick]

"I can't stop playing video games I'm so paralyzed" vs my mouth and face are slowly paralyzing themselves because my immune system won't stop attacking my cranial nerves. I gag and choke on everything I swallow including my own saliva- this is dangerous. I drool, both in my sleep and when I'm awake. I slur my speech which makes people think I am drunk. I have strabismus.

[jalboyhenthusiast]

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[flygonscales]

2 weeks at uni and I’ve already reached peak procrastination. I found masking tape and somehow decided that the best use of my time was to make a tiny Belphemon-sleep.

[itsadancingdinosaur]

Big goal for the rest of the year is to come out to my parents, brother and one of my close friends as aroace. I'm at a stage where I think I'm comfortable enough in my orientation that I want to tell them. It's a big enough part of me as a person that I'd like them to know it

[o-phreneticum]

Another pixel art of Spamton

Updates on IELTS: overall I got a 7.5 out of 9 (got a 9 for reading, very proud of it hehe), and even though my initial reaction was "I'm a fucking failure", apparently (according to my dad), it is a pretty impressive score, given the fact that I wasn't really preparing for the test and instead spent all of my time shaking in fear (very productive indeed). My next task is to apply to the university I've chosen and... well, hope for the best :)

Btw, on the day of the test we had snow in Latvia, very convenient (no it's not, I fucking hate cold weather). But it was very interesting to see flowers covered in frost and snow.

[rainyfestivalsweets]

10/15/24

I am still here. Been a tough week. Weight unknown. Rough period, been sick for a long time, hurt rib, tough to sleep. Never feel rested.

Work is weird. They just let go someone who had 24 years of experience in a really hard to learn computer system. She was the one who did almost all of our extremely high dollar claims. The knowledge we lost due to the lack of documentation for this stupid system is unknown. I surmise she was let go (from the context) because she was working off the clock.

Did they stop to think or ask why she felt like she had to work off the clock? Did they stop to think how our team would be affected?

Idk, but they canned her anyway.

Anyone could be next.

I am heartbroken for her, and scared myself because I am generally a loud mouth fuck up. I have no where near the level of knowledge that she had.

If they weren't paying for school I would try to shamble somewhere else that has a better culture.

Or better yet, just care for mom until she passes. Play games. Read. Quality time and not worry about the future.

I hate that I struggle with basic tech stuff. I am having problems getting into one of the classroom systems for school. They keep sending authentication to my work email, which i cannot be on if I am not working and I cannot be working on school when I am working. Catch 22.

Add new terror to my dieting experience.

Overeating, although a conditioned response, is still my go to. I weighed over 300 pounds, it was my go to for a very long time. I am trying to overcome that BS but it is a struggle.

But... for today, I am going to do what I can. Stand at my desk. Hopefully get some good steps in and go to jiu jitsu class.

I had a delightful salad for lunch and just whipped up an apple cider yogurt dip thing that I am planning to use with apple cinnamon rice cake bites. Just plain nf Greek yogurt & sf apple cider mix.

Last night's dinner was chicken & asparagus risotto, which had rice in it. Idk that i knew that when I bought it but I ate it.

I worked out to beat off the stress from the school problem. (And to try to stay "in habit" because I have a hard time with habits. Prolly she to undiagnosed ADHD. )

[clowningcrows]

it’s crazy how the human brain can make you feel so fucking miserable out of Nowhere to the point of being like i am the worst person to ever exist and everything is bad and it will always be bad and then you take a shower and you’re just like. oh lol sorry guys i forgot that everything would actually be fine <3 #embarassing

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Books of 2024: ADHD FOR SMART ASS WOMEN: HOW TO FALL IN LOVE WITH YOUR NEURODIVERGENT BRAIN by Tracy Otsuka.

I saw this on a new release promotional email and thought "well shit, that looks like my life, I should Investigate That™," only to realize it was a brand new hardback and I didn't want to pay $29 for 200 pages of information. Since I found out about it on release day, my next thought was, "Oh, I can check and see if my library has any copies!! We love supporting our libraries in this house!!"

Reader: They did Not.

But! I did find the "request a book" option on their website, and I entered this book, and I got a robocall within a week saying my hold was ready to be picked up! Y'all!! The library literally ordered this book for me (it was stamped into circulation one (1) day before they called me!), and now I have it to read! I love libraries!!

(book pic featuring the super cute coaster set @asexualbookbird made me that I love with my entire heart!!)

[unproduciblesmackdown]

has happened plenty around iconis goings on but what an all-timer

[yume-x-hanabi]

I am definitely back in fandom lmao, I've gotten into three new xillia projects and am fighting hard not to start a fourth