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I know Iโve said it a thousand times but imma try and go through my inbox because i have over 40 things sitting in there๐
Like they probably forgot about their asks but Iโm gonna power through and post them when Iโm done writing all of them๐
I need to finish them before I start school in the fall but I think I could do it๐๐
#lowkey I kinda lost motivation for writing#I started writing at my peak#I was reading books everyday and I had so much creative energy to write#so ig I burned myself out#especially when I started writing for pjo since thatโs what my inbox was primarily filled with#I LOVED responding to everyoneโs pjo asks cuz everything was so unique#but at some point it started to feel a bit repetitive for me#and then I started reading less books irl#and then my senior year came around and I just stopped writing๐๐#BUT IM BACK#READY FOR CHANGE#IM READY TO TACKLE THE PJO AND VOLTRON ASKS#โ๏ธ๐ด๐ด#I started watching anime again and now Iโve been filled with this new excitement and energy#so I want to use it to its advantage#responding to asks and writing my own things for characters I like!!!#yall ainโt ready for this comeback#pjo#voltron#teen wolf
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my favourite genre of seventeen is when they're straight up lying
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#quite possibly the funniest still in the entire episode#โhe's not that scaryโ with THREE WHOLE PEOPLE ON THE COUNTER#this is like the funniest episode of gose we've gotten in a while#gose writers understand the series and the medium so much they always know and commit to the funniest bit possible#i could write an essay on the going seventeen horror specials and how the writers subvert/evolve the going original episodes#the exit pass part of the episode was peak btw#i had to cross-reference their outfits + the next few camera angles + voices to figure out who the two crouched in front of jeonghan were#so if that wasn't them. rip.#seventeen#svt#going seventeen#gose#wonwoo#junhui#jeonghan#my art#fanart#art#comic#no watermark it's been 3 months since I've touched this account I forgor#dont repost or dk will start his 5 step donald duck zombie routine and you will not be able to escape.#i also need yall to know. when jun was zombie-talking to the exit pass people. he sounded like an angry bird.
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Well, I did say this was a multi-fandom blog... Alright, let's do this.
The Qing Jing Peak Lord's Bamboo House
(and the symbolism therein, as recorded in the donghua)
I was snooping through the establishing shots of the Qing Jing Peak Lord's Bamboo House, and had to laugh as I always do at all the gay symbolism that managed to sneak its way inside. But then I looked a little closer, and was floored by just how much passive storytelling was packed into background assets. I talked about it at length over discord, and at the urging of others decided to make a shareable post on social media as well.
First, the shots which first piqued my interest in this topic years ago:
Shen Yuan transmigrates into the stallion-genre webnovel entitled ็ๅฒไป้ญ้ (translated as Proud Immortal Demon Way). The author's and his own usernames are dick jokes.
Notice the chrysanthemum vase, the cock vase, and the stallion statuette.
The stallion and cock are obvious nods to these jokes on their own, but for the uninitiated, the chrysanthemum is a symbol of gay sex between men, as the asshole itself is often euphemistically referred to as a chrysanthemum. This should have been Shen Yuan's first clue that not all is as it seems here! These are the personal quarters of Shen Jiu โ the original Shen Qingqiu!
But let's move to the main room you first walk into upon entering the bamboo house.
There it is: the writing on the wall.
As the Peak Lord of strategy and the scholarly arts, Shen Qingqiu would naturally have calligraphy and paintings hanging everywhere! So let's break it down.
On the top we have ้ใณ่ช็ถ ("Dao Follows Nature"), which comes from a Dao teaching by Laozi (founder of Daoism) meaning that life, death, the entire universe, the heavens and earth and everything outside and inbetween, all follow a set of laws referred to as the nature of things. Although unrelated to the Buddhist couplet below, it's certainly relevant!
Originally hanging in right-to-left order, I've arranged them to read left to right here to make things easier to keep track of. The calligraphy reads ่ฅฟๆน็ซน่ๅๅนด็ฟ ๏ผๅๆตท่ฎไนๅ้ฆ and is a couplet commonly found in Guanyin temples. My classical chinese is not as strong as I'd like, but this translates roughly to "The bamboo leaves in Paradise are green for a thousand years / The fragrance of lotus flowers in the South China Sea is as thick as 9 sticks of incense."
The character ่ฅฟ for West is used to denote the destination of enlightenment/purity: the buddhist Paradise (think Journey to the West). The South China Sea is where Guanyin was born. Upon the Lotus flowers is where Guanyin is commonly depicted as sitting. The "9 sticks of incense" though literal can also refer to the 9 tiers/grades of reincarnation lotuses with the 9th tier being the lowest, meant for those who in life committed the most evil of crimes โ the 4 parajikas โ and who can only manage a sincere Amitabha recitation 10 times and no more than this.
To put this in context with Shen Jiu (the same jiu as in 9/ไน), the 4 parajikas committed by the 9th Tier Lotuses Reborn (officially entitled the Lowest of the Low) are:
Sexual Intercourse
Stealing
Murder
Claiming attainments of stages of pure mental concentration that have not been achieved (in other words, rushing or lying about your cultivation/enlightenment, or maybe even becoming a Peak Lord without having formed a golden core beforehand).
From what we know in the context of the novel, Shen Jiu is innocent of at least the first of this parajikas, but the overall view of Shen Jiu in the eyes of others in the story is that he is guilty of them all. This calligraphy can be seen as a condemnation or a reminder for the character Shen Jiu, who even as the Peak Lord Shen Qingqiu is widely thought of as a scum villain and the lowest of the low.
Phew! That's a lot to unpack.
But if you turn your gaze to the original screenshot, you'll see to the right that there's a vase painted with a blue bird. This vase appears in several rooms of the bamboo house, and seems to be the image of a qingniao (้้ธ; lit: Qing bird, wherein ้ can mean blue/green/clear-but-brackish black).
These qing-coloured birds are messengers and foragers of the Goddess-Mother of Paradise (Xiwang-mu ่ฅฟ็ๆฏ, the "west/paradise" character from before, lit West-King(unisex)-Mother). They're a highly intelligent species who are exceptional in song (a good representative for Qing Jing's scholarly arts and pursuit of qin!), and the older ones might learn to speak human tongue. As a subspecies of luanniao (้ธพ้ธ lit: luan bird), they're thought to be related to The Phoenix and indeed thought to be the lifetime/samsara just before being reborn as a Phoenix.
If given to a "master" they don't like, the qingniao may refuse to pass messages or sing until they're set free, but if they do get along with you then they're loyal to the end.
As a point of interest, the Qing generation of Peak Lords uses the character ๆธ
, which is ้ ("colour of nature; brackish black, blue, green; young) + the radical for "water," resulting in the meaning of clear (as in water or heart; see-through); distinct; quiet (as in still); just and honest; pure; to settle or clear up; to clean up, expunge, or purge.
And as a bit of trivia, Liu Qingge's sword Cheng Luan ไน้ธพ means "to ride the luan, take flight on the back of a luan." (Relevant, because the qingniao is considered a subspecies of luanniao).
With the Lords of both Qing Jing and Bai Zhan referencing this bird, I really wonder about its significance! It's spawning plenty of theories and headcanons for me.
Heading back outside for a moment, you'll find that in the Quiet Pool (ๆธ
้ๅฐๆฑ qingjing xiaochi (yes, the same Qing Jing the peak is named for)), there are lotuses, and on land there are flower shrubs which are either wide-petaled chrysanthemums (gay bottom jokes ahoy), or a type of peony, the king of flowers demarcating wealth and prosperity. Either way, a blossom fitting of our Qing Jing Peak Lord Shen Qingqiu!
My one regret is that I cannot get a clear shot of the fan hanging on the wall to try and translate the calligraphy on it. If anyone can snag one, please tag me! I also couldn't translate the paintings with poems hanging in Shen Qingqiu's bedroom (it's just too small and blurry for my bad eyes to make out). If I make another post attempting these things, I'll append them to this initial post in an edit afterwards.
#svsss#shen qingqiu#liu qingge#i started writing this at 3am#and now it's 8am#what am i doing with my life#who have i become#qing jing peak
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Trying to remember that I can enjoy things, even if other people didn't like it.
Reading YouTube comments on Sonic Prime stuff was a bad idea. Got me feeling stupid for liking my silly crazy boys :(( Was the show flawed? I mean, yeah. Almost fundamentally. But still, it made me laugh and smile and kick my feet! It made me feel like a kid again, and y'know what? That's enough for me.
It ABSOLUTELY had its share of cringe moments, but for everything that Prime was, second-hand embarrassment and all, I was BEAMING. I can understand (and agree) with a lot of the backlash without shitting on it entirely. I can nod along with fuming fans while cheering for my favorite goofballs. I can appreciate the beautiful animation, the composition, and the sheer AMBITION of such a massive and dramatic project. The humor, the expressions, the fluidity of some of those fight scenes..MAN.
I will always adore Prime, awful pacing or not, and that isn't because I'm blind to the mistakes throughout its run. It's because I love the blue blur enough to see past the hiccups. That's my funny little guy, after all. So fuck it.
I love my little show :))
#seldomspeaks#Sonic Prime#sonic the hedgehog#I know I know- characterization this..writing that..but dude- and hear me out-#๐ฆ#Character designs were mostly PEAK and I will hear no slander there#DREAD??? THORN?? Don't even get me STARTED#I will say that Nine deserved better AND worse than he got. Whole arc was rushed and weird#and the ending? wtf LMAO#But I don't CARE :)) Those are my little guys god damn it#And hey- that's what fandoms are for! Fix whatever your heart desires :))
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Ted saying that no driver has had this level of attention on them since Michael Schumacher...
Gentlemen, a short view into the past; Max's debut season, his Red Bull debut, the literal rule changed as a result of his debut in the sport... oh and everyone and their mother calling Kimi Max 2.0 and Toto's second chance at signing debut!Max since he failed the first time around...
#max verstappen#f1#formula 1#formula one#the sky sports commentators were literally clutching their pearls when max debuted ๐ญโ๏ธ#and practically screaming crying throwing up after the red bull switch was announced#gleefully questioning whether he was ready for it#him then winning his debut red bull race was chefs kiss#also... you can't really compare the attention schumi got#we've seen glimpses of it no question with the attention max & charles get#especially Charles as he is the predestined son of ferrari#ferrari is a religion after all#but schumi was on a whole another level#i can see max & charles reaching and exceeding it#but it was an insane level of attention#in the peak of paparazzi#the 90s and early 2000s were something else#not to say it's gotten better because it really hasn't but the way its done has changed#adapted to better suit the world of digital media so to speak#schumi was a cultural phenomenon to a lot of people including baby me he was f1 he was ferrari#i'ma stop before i start writing an essay about how Michael was F1's Diana because i feel thats where my head is at the moment lmao#also not ted also forgetting seb#my man got a penalty 6 seconds into f1 career ๐ญโ๏ธ#and was quickly dubbed the crash kid#max was crashtappen#max seb michael were all labelled aggressive#seb & michael only got appreciation when they were leaving/ when they left the sport#the history book on the shelf is always repeating itself
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Hey!! For your next fic could you do Leo and Mikey angst
It came be 2012, MM or rise
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๐๐ข๐งก ๐ต๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข: @tmntalways ๐๐ข๐งก
ยทฬฉฬฉฬฅอ๏ผ*โขฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*ห๐ท๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐!!! ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ โน๏ธ๐โฆ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ข ๐๐๐ ๐ธ ๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ข๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ข ๐ข๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ฉท!!! ๐ฐ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐ธ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ธโ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข ๐
๐๐พ! ๐ธ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โ ๐ธ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ซ โฆห*โข ฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*๏ผยทฬฉฬฉฬฅอ
๐ถ๐๐๐๐: ๐ท๐๐๐/๐๐๐๐๐๐๐
๐๐๐๐๐:ย ๐น,๐ธ๐พ๐พ
๐ป๐๐: ๐ผ๐๐๐๐ข ๐ข๐งก
๐ป๐๐: ๐ป๐๐ ๐ข๐
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ข: ๐ผ๐๐๐๐ขโ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โฆ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โฆ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ฃ๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐โฆ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ '๐๐'. ๐ฐ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐? ๐ท๐ ๐๐๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ขโฆ
๐๐๐๐: @shut-up-jo @someone1348 @saturnzskyzz
@savemeafruitjuice @rice-cake-teen10 @mistyandsnow
@skyloladoodles @itzsana-kiddingmenow @titters-and-tingles
(๐ฐ/๐ฝ: ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐โฆ๐๐๐ *๐ฐ๐ท๐ด๐ผ* ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ข: ๐ณ๐๐โ๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ข! ๐*๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐บ๐๐๐/๐ฝ๐๐ต๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ณ๐ฝ๐ธ!!!)
๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐: ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐-๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐, ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐. ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ฟ๐ป๐ด๐ฐ๐๐ด ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐!!!
๐๐ด๐ผ๐ธ๐ฝ๐ณ๐ด๐: ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐โ๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐ฐ๐ณ๐ท๐ณ ๐๐๐/๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐!!! ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ก๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข๐๐๐ ๐๐ ๐๐๐๐๐ข โบ๏ธ๐๐๐๐
๏ผ*โขฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*ห๐ฐ๐๐๐๐ ๐๐ข ๐๐๐๐๐๐๐ ๐บ๐พโจ๐๐ถห*โขฬฉฬฉอโฉโขฬฉฬฉอ*ห๏ผยทฬฉฬฉฬฅอ
Mikey couldnโt do anything right now. Likeโฆanything.
Wellโฆperhaps he was being aย bitย tooย dramatic.ย He wasย breathing.ย And he wasย fidgeting with his squishy cube.ย So saying he wasnโt doingย 'anything'ย wasnโt entirely true.
Right now he justโฆcouldnโt do anythingโฆproductive.ย
For example, the box turtleย triedย making his favorite dishes and deserts! Butย thatย endeavor just ended up being aย hugeย messย in the kitchenโฆandย leaving the youngest turtle with aย bunchย of unappetizing food.ย
Which he fed all to Raph by the way.ย
Some would call that choice of action cruel but Mikey would just call itย 'using his resources'.ย
Besides, itโs not like the eldest minded at all. He said, and I quote:ย 'It has a niceโฆcrunchyย feeling to it. Did you put some of Donโs inventions in this?'
Which honestly got a couple of chuckles out of the smallest turtle teen of the bunch.
Then, Mikeyย triedย skateboarding! But for once in all his 14 years of livingโฆit was just utterlyย boring.ย
And after all of that nonsense, Mikey thenย finallyย triedย reading a comicโฆbut he was too unfocused to even get to theย second pageโฆ
But what wasย reallyย new? Mikey could never focus on jackshit even if said jackshit hit himย rightย in the shell.ย
His brothers and sister would always have to remind him toย stay focusedย orย 'not do this'ย orย 'not do that'.
For example, a couple days ago Donnie had toย kindlyย remind the box turtle (wellโฆas kindly asย Donnie could be anywayโฆ) to brush his teeth.
To. Brush. His.ย Fucking. Teeth.ย
And honestly? Having to be reminded to do that wasย reallyย embarrassing. And the orange banded teenย knewย his brother didnโtย meanย to humiliate him internallyโฆbutโฆyeah.
And itโs not like the softshell wasย wrongย either! The youngest turtle just couldnโt freaking accept that he himself couldnโt do such a simple task in the morning.ย
But literallyย every taskย heย completely fails to doย is justย utterly simple ones!
Like cleaning his room or not forgetting things or even keeping track of time!ย
โฆAnd the sad part about all of it was Mikey justย honestlyย couldย notย understandย how his family havenโt gotten sick of his annoying tendenciesโฆ
And letโs be for real hereโฆthat was basicallyย allย of his tendencies.ย
The box turtle groaned loudly in his room, slamming his whole body on his bed as heย screamedย into his pillow.ย
There had to beย somethingย he could do instead of just wallowing in his own self pityโฆ
And one of those options couldย notย consist of bothering his family with his random bad mood. They had to put up with him 24/7โฆtheย leastย he could do was give them some space.
The youngest then glanced at his drawing notebook hopefullyโฆ
โฆOne little sketch of something random wouldnโt hurt, right?
The amber eyed teen reached for his notebook, grabbing a pen from his drawer as he started to sketch his desk becauseย why the absoluteย fuckย not?ย Based on the objects heโs drawn in the pastโฆsketching a simple desk should and will beย easy,ย right? Right.ย
Thatย wasย until the orange banded teenโs pencil tip broke.ย But it wasย fine!ย He could just re-sharpen it,ย right?ย Right.
Thatย wasย until the youngest realized he had absolutely no clue where his sharpener was due to the fact his room looked like a pig stie. And there wasย no wayย he was looking for it inโฆthat whole situation.ย
โฆThe situation he created in the first place.ย
Michelangelo layed on his bed with his face staring at the ceiling in frustration, he ran his fingernails along his arms, not making really deep cuts with them but going deep enough for it to hurt a bit.
Like a reasonable turtle would, Mikey should probably get one of his stress toysโฆor better yet,ย another pencil!
But letโs be for real hereโฆheโd most likely find a way to fuck that up too.
Suddenly, there was a small, quiet knock on Mikeyโs door butโฆin all honesty? He just wanted to crawl into his shell and sob for the next hour and a half. Letting out a niiiiice and quick 'come in' would takeย wayย too much energy.ย
The box turtle let out a soft grunt, letting whoever was on the other side know it was a-okay to come in.
Abruptly, Leo peeked in the room, a wide smile plastered on his face as he closed the door, โDamn, Mikesterโฆit looks like every single natural disaster went through your roomโฆโ
โIโm cleaning it.โ The youngest grumbled to his brother.
โReally?ย Youย sureย about that, little bro? Because if my memory serves me correctย (which it in-fact does), you said thatย last week.ย And the week before thatโฆand the week beforeโโ
โI SAID IโM FUCKING CLEANING IT!!!โ The orange banded turtle snapped, sitting up on the bed to glare at his immediate older brother before slowly realizing what he just did.ย
The youngestโs heart dropped as he looked away from his brother. The orange banded mutantโs eyed widened as silent and small tears ran down his face. He covered his mouth as his other hand turned to a fist, his nailsย unforgivinglyย digging into his palm.
โI-Iโm sorryโฆIโm s-sorryโฆI-Iโm so s-sorryโฆ!โ He started, rocking himself back and forth before stopping as he was met with a warm embrace. Leonardo hugged him gently but firmly, rubbing the otherโs shell in a comforting hold. โWoah woahโฆ! Bud, you have nothing to apologize forโฆโ The slightly older teen said as he rested his chin on the top of his baby brotherโs head.
โL-Like h-hell I donโt. I-I just screamed a-at y-you forย noย reasonโฆโ Michelangelo wobbly said. โYou were just trying to lighten the mood but I justย hadย to make everything harder like I-I always doโฆ!โย
โMikeyโโ
โI-I alwaysย do this.ย I-Iโm so f-fucking s-sorry Leoโฆโ
โMikesterโฆI-I appreciate the apology but it seriously isnโt necessaryโโ
โYouโre probably soย sickย of me and soย angryย at me. I-Iโm sorry I justโโ
โMikey!โ Leo gently yelled to get the otherโs attention, squeezing the smaller turtleโs hands as he stared straight at him with pleading eyes. โDo Iย lookย mad?โ
โโฆN-No.โ
โDo Iย soundย mad?โ
โโฆNo.โย
The second youngest sadly smiled, โSo what are you apologizing for, hm?โ
โโฆI-IโฆdunnoโฆI-I justโฆI just felt I needed to apologizeโฆโ The box turtle mumbled as he looked at his hands. The blue banded turtle sighed, slowly getting out of the hug so him and his little brother faced each other. The slider rubbed the other turtleโs palm with his thumb comfortingly, โโฆDo you wanna talk about it, baby bro?โ
The leader in blue was just met with silenceโฆwhich he could honestly work with.
โAngeloโฆyou know you can tell meโฆanything,ย right? Likeโฆanything.ย Although, it doesnโtย haveย to beย meย you talk to about it. It could be Raph or Don or April or even Dad or Draxum! I justโฆdonโt want you sitting here and bottling up the way you feelโฆโย
Silence. Leo continued.
โYouโre always there when we need you, Angel. Whether itโs to vent or to just ramble about shit, youโre justโฆalways there.ย We donโt tell you this enough but we appreciate you always being someone we can lean onโฆโ
Silence. Leo continued.
โButโฆyou do know you can lean on us too, right?ย Comfort goes both ways and I can see youโre hurting, buddy. Soย pleaseโฆif you need to talk to meโฆIโm right here.โ
Mikey sniffled, squeezing Leoโs hand, โI-I d-dunno. Today is justโฆweird.ย This wholeย weekย has just beenโฆweird.โ Leo nodded, giving his brother his full undivided attention, โHow so?โ
โI justโฆhavenโt been able to do anythingโฆโ The smaller teen admitted.
โWhat do you mean?โ The taller teen inquired.ย
โI havenโt been able to doโฆanything.ย Like, I canโt draw, cook or even skateboard!ย Me!!!ย Not being able toย skateboardโย isnโt that crazy?!โ The amber eyed turtle laughed bitterly.
โAnd itโs not like Iย canโtย do it. Iโm perfectly freaking capable of doing it in the right amount of time I want but my brainย just. wonโt. let. me!โย
โI keep procrastinating and not doing the stuff I want to do and I have no ideaย why!ย Iโmย tiredย of just putting things off and being this way! I want to do thingsย withoutย having to ask you guys for help or to remind me or to relate it with a hyperfixation that I have!โ Mikey hiccuped, a new wave of tears rolling down his face as his hands shook.ย
The amber eyed teen sniffled, refusing to look at his immediate older brother at all right now becauseโฆholyย shitย he just overshared a whole lotโฆ
Likeโฆaย whooooooooooleย freaking lot.
โโฆThat sounds like you.โ Leonardo shrugged.ย
In a state of just shock and confusion, the box turtle pulled his hands away from his brother, looking up at him as lime green eyes met amber ones. โIโฆwhatโฆ?โ Michelangelo murmured.
โIย saidย that sounds like you.โ Leo said again casually as Mikey glared at him, โYeah. Iย heardย what you said but that isnโt helpful.โ
โIโm just being honest with you, Mikester.โ Leo said, โJustโฆlet me explain, okay?โ
โโฆYou have five minutes before I kick you out of my room.โย
โDeal.โ The lime green eyed mutant commented, โYou canโt draw, cook or skateboard right now. Youโre procrastinating and not doing the stuff you want to do in the time you plannedโฆis that correct?โย
Michelangelo sent deathly daggers to his brotherโ which the other wasnโt phased by at all. This time was probably theย best timeย to crawl in his own shell and just sob his eyes out becauseย what kind ofย dumbassย question was hisย dumbassย brother asking him?!
โโฆYes.โ The orange banded teen mumbled.ย
โAndโฆwhy are those bad things?โย
โWHY?!โ The box turtle huffed out a laugh of annoyance, โPfftโย youโre asking meย why.ย Maybe itโs because itโsย annoying?!ย Maybe because itโsย frustratingย to deal with and Iย donโtย want to burden you guys withย myย problems?! Maybe because I donโt want to fucking feel orย beย this way?!โ The youngest shouted, breathing heavily as he finished his rant.ย
The box turtle looked away again, silently cursing at himself for getting annoyed so easily. โMikey.โ Leo started again, โYour being too hard on yourself, okay? No one is expecting you to be at your 100% all the time.โย
โWhat you just described to me; you being able to not focus or you getting bored easily or procrastinating with stuff isโฆliterally you.ย Youโre just being you.โ The slider explained as he held his baby brotherโs hand in his. โAnd I get it.ย Itโs hard to deal with it sometimes and itโs going to be hella frustrating. Likeโฆsuper borderline frustrating.ย But you canโt shun them away and justโฆtry to ignore them, bubsโฆโ
โLetโs takeย moiย for example. Iโm impulsive, I talk loud and lose thingsย daily.ย Those three things donโt make up my whole personality but it would be super weird and off-putting if I justโฆdidnโt do or have those three things, right?โย
The youngest giggled wetly, โYeahโฆit would. A-And by the way, Iโm still waiting for you to find that glittery pen kit I gave youโฆโ
Leonardo groaned loudly and dramatically, causing the other teen to giggle louder, โIโmย lookingย for it, okay?! Itโs in my roomโฆsomewhere.โ The taller mutant mused, โBut anywaysโฆback toย you.ย You procrastinate, you relate things to your hyperfixations and you canโt do some of your favorite tasks from time to timeโฆthose are some traits that make up you, is it not?โย
Mikey sniffled, rolling his eyes playfully due to the fact he knewย damn wellย where this was going, โYeahโฆโย
Leo smiled softly, seeing his younger brother was starting to get his point, โI wouldnโt change a single thing about you, okay? I know sometimes itโs hard to deal with the things you described but you haveย usย for that.โ He said as his smile turned to a grin.ย
โYou can come toย meโย toย usโย anytime.ย We love you for who you areโฆyour flaws and all and we justโฆI-I need you to know that we love you so so muchโ!โ The slider was cut off by a sudden abrupt embrace from the box turtle. The orange banded teen sobbed into the otherโs shoulder, clutching the taller turtle like a lifeline.ย
โT-Thank youโฆโ The box turtle wobbly said through tears.ย ย
โOf course, Angel.โ Leo said as he hugged his baby brother back, โI love you.โ He said as he kissed the other teen on the head.
โI-I l-love you tooโฆโ
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โTell your thoughts to shut up.โ Leo said as he lightly poked Mikey in the forehead numerous times. The two were sitting on the box turtleโs bed just simplyโฆrelaxing and enjoying each otherโs company.ย Michelangelo was sitting in between his older brotherโs legs as he had his shell to his brotherโs plastron.
Leonardo hugged his brother protectively, resting his chin on the top of the box turtleโs head. โWhat do you mean?โ The youngest giggled out. โI canย hearย your thoughts, man. Youโre not bothering me or disturbing me in any way, shape or form, alrightโฆ?โย
The amber eyed turtle nodded, squeezing Leoโs hand, โY-YeahโฆI know...โย
โIโmย choosingย to be here becauseย I love you.ย I donโt feel obligated to be here, okay? Youโre not annoying and you, neither your problems are a burdenโฆokay?โ The slider said reassuringly, โItโs okay to ask us for helpโฆand we donโt mind reminding you to do thingsโฆokay?โย
โYouโve said โokayโ like,ย fifty timesโฆโ
โMikey.โย
โMhmโฆyeah yeahโฆI gotchaโฆโ
The elder looked at his brother skeptically, resting his chin on his little brotherโs shoulder so they made solid eye contact, โI want you to say it.โย
โโฆSayย whatย exactly?โ
โI want you to say that you are anย amazing personย and you donโt need to change aย single thingย about yourself.โย
โYouย are an amazing person andย youย donโt need to change a single thing aboutย yourself.โ Michelangelo grinned smugly. Leonardo glared at the youngestโs interpretation to his statement, โMikey, you know exactly what I meant.โย
โI said what you wanted me to sayโฆsoโฆโ The amber eyed teen trailed off.
โMichelangelo.โ The slider said in a warning tone as he poked the otherโs side. The box turtle squeaked at the unexpected touch, trying to stop his immediate older brother from doing it again but his brother had a strong but gentle grip on himโฆ
Then the smallest turtle came to recognition that he was stuck in aย potentialย tickle hug with no way outโฆ
โฆHow wonderful.ย
โL-Leeheeoโฆdoohooย nahat.โ The orange banded mutant warned through his giggles, said warning not seemingย tooย threatening due to the fact he was already laughing up a storm. The leader in blue raised a brow, poking the otherโs side repeatedly, โI just want you to repeat what I saidโฆin theย first person.โ The taller teen specified.
The smaller turtle squirmed in the hug, small frantic giggles pouring out of his mouth.ย Thisโฆreally wasnโt how he was expecting his day to go.ย Just about an hour ago, he was wallowing in sadness about the stuff he hated about himself, toย talking about itย with his brother, to now gettingย tickledย by his brother.
โฆSo could heย reallyย complain about how things turned out?
โฆYes. Yes, heย absolutelyย could.ย ย
โLeeheeon!ย Plehease dohonโt!โ The youngest squealed as one of his brotherโs hands hovered over his stomach. Mikey held onto the otherโs wrists, trying to stop his elder brother from tickling him but his small attempts ending up to be all for nothing as Leo effortlessly tickled his stomach with one hand.
โLEEHEEHAHAHA!!โ Michelangelo laughed wholeheartedly, swatting at his brotherโs arms. The lime green eyed turtle cooed at the gesture, now using both of his hands to attack the youngestโs plastron, โD'awwโฆlook at you giggling your head off~! Youโre my adorable little bundle of amazingness, arenโt you~?โ
The smaller teen shook his head, a faint blush appearing on his face, โSTAHAโ squeal N-NAHAHA!โ
โWhat~? What was that?โ The blue banded mutant asked as he kneaded the box turtleโs hips. โGYAHAHโ squealย SHIHIHIT!ย COHOME OHAHAN!!!โ The amber eyed turtle cried frantically as he kicked his legs on the mattress slightly.ย
The youngest squealed with laughter, curling in on himself as he slumped in his big brotherโs hold. Leonardo just sighed fondly at the action, wrapping the other in another hug as he raspberried his neck. โLEEHEEHEE!! PLAHAHโ squeak NAHAHAT THEHERE squeak PLEHEASE PLEHEASEโ squeak!!!โ
โNot there~?โ The elder lightly mocked, โWhat aboutโฆhere~?โ He mused as he used his hands to scribble all over the younger turtleโs ribs. Mikey cackled, shaking his head to try and atย leastย subside the tickly feelings.
โNAHAHAโ squeal AHAHAHA!! NAHAHAT THEHEHERE EHEโ squeal EHEHEITHER!!! LEEHEEO!!โ The orange banded turtle squeaked as Leo stopped for a second, โIโve triedย soooooย many spots, buddy! How many times are you gonna say not there, hm?โ
Mikey genuinely squawked louder than a firefighter siren, squirming so much it looked like he was actually being electrocuted. โPLEHEHAHA LEEHEEO NAHAHAT THEHEHE RIHIHIBS!!!โ He cackled.ย
โNot the riiiibs~? Why~? Is it because itโs yourย tickleย spot~? Yourย tickletickletickleย spot~? Because youโreย ticklish~?โ Leonardo asked as he lightly nibbled the crook of Mikeyโs neck.ย
Michelangelo screamed in laughter, scrunching up his shoulders as he dug his heels on the bed, a couple of his plushies sadly falling on the floor (R.I.P. manโฆ) โEEEHEEHEEP!!!ย S-STAHAP BEEHEEING MEEHEAN!โ Mikey said as he thrashed on the bed.ย
The slider said nothing, his hands sneaking up to the box turtleโs underarms. โAAAAHAHAHA!ย OHO NOHOHOโ squeak SHIT! SHIHIHAHAT!โ
Happy tears slowly begin to appear in the smallest teenโs eyes, he weakly hit Leoโs arms as a last attempt to be set free, โLEHEHEMME squeal GOHOHOHO!โย
โOhonly if you sahay it, bubs.โย
โIHIHIโ SQUEAK!! LEEHEEHEEON!!!โย
โYeeeees, baby brother~?โ The elder dragged out as he kneaded the otherโs hips.
โIHIโLL SAHAY IHIHAT I-IHIHIโLL SAHAHAY IHIT!!โ The amber eyed teen squealed.ย
โAnd you promise not to be a sassy little shit about it~?โ The older teen asked.
โSQUEAK YEHAHAHAโ SQUEAK YEHES YEHES I-I PROHOHOMISE!โย
Leo stopped tickling his little brother, hugging him protectively as the youngest caught his breath slowly but surely. โW-Wahaitโฆwhahat squeak wahas ihihat yohou eeheeven wahanted me squeak to sahay again?โย
The taller turtle pondered for a bit, thinking to himself before loudly groaning, โThatโsโฆa good damn question. I donโt really remember exactly what I wanted you to say in the first placeโฆโ The lime green eyed turtle sighed, โForgetfulness at its finest...โย
The red eared slider adjusted himself, making sure the other was comfortable before starting to speak again, โWellโฆbased on what we talked aboutโฆcould you maybe justโฆy'knowโฆโ Leo gestured with his hands before groaning, โDo you get what Iโm trying to say, man?โย
โโฆI thihink I have ahan ideaโฆโ Mikey giggled as he fiddled with his hands, โI shouldnโt beat myself up so much because of some of my traits or quirks. And Iโmย allowedย to feel frustrated and/or upset because things donโt go my way because of them. ButโฆI shouldnโt allow those things to put me down...โ
Michelangelo smiled softly, rubbing his palm with his thumb, โThey donโt define me as a person but theyย makeย me a person. I donโt need to be at my best 100% and Iโmย allowedย to have bad days. And if things get too overwhelming or difficult I can just go to you guys.โย
Mikey hugged himself, letting out a small laugh as his happy tears welled up in his eyes, โIโm justโฆbeing me.ย And thereโs nothing wrong with that.โ Leonardo teared up at his brotherโs words, hugging him tighter than he ever had before and burying his face at the back of the youngestโs head.
โNever forget that, Miguelitoโฆnever forget that.โย
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#Rottmnt tickle#Rottmnt tickle fic#Rottmnt tickle fanfiction#Lee!Mikey#Ler!Leo#MWYAHSHSHHSAN#This is actually so silly I love this ๐๐๐#I hope you guys enjoyed the angst ๐คช#ADHDERS AND PPL WITH ADHD TENDENCIES UNITE ๐๐พ๐๐ฉท๐๐๐๐โผ๏ธโผ๏ธโผ๏ธ#Adhd is a bitch ๐คโฆ#Leo can be an asshole at times but he doesnโt mean to I swear ๐ญ๐#My boy just copes with jokes but he has a hard time understanding that not EVERYONE copes like that#So when Mikey snapped at him and started breaking down he was like: โ๐ -> ๐ -> ๐ -> ๐ -> ๐ซขโ#I HATTTEEE forgetting to brush my teeth ๐โฆitโs so damn nasty man#AND NOT BEING ABLE TO DRAW LIKE YOU USED TOโ๏ธโ๏ธโ๏ธ GRAUGHHHH REAL SHIT#I care about these two sm omfg#I need more content with these tWO LOOK AT THEM ๐ฅน๐๐งก!!!#โTell ur thoughts to shut up ๐โ msndhjsjss peak sibling comment#Also I changed my writing style a TEEEEENSY weensy bit if you havenโt guessed#For a whileโฆI havenโt like the **โs I put at the noises that characters made when they laughed :/#Soooo I tried just doing it in italics and AHHUUGHFHS ๐๐๐๐๐๐ฉท๐๐๐#IT LOOKS SM BETTER#I just wanted the laughing to seem more natural#Your just being you guys ๐ซถ๐พ#DONโT BE SO HARD ON YOURSELF PLEASEEEE#Eat some snacks!!! Drink some water/juice!!! Exercise!!!#Your allowed to feel the way you do so just take it easy โบ๏ธ๐๐พ#IโM RUNNING OUTTA TAGS BUT IF ANYONE WANTS TO TALK ABOUT THE BEHIND THE STAGE WORKS ON HOW I MADE THIS I CAN ALWAYS YAP TO YOU ABT IT ๐๐ค๐พ#I donโt think I implied this very well but Leo feels the same way Mikey feelsโฆso thatโs why he was so PERSISTENT on making sure Mikeyโs alr#But Leo take his own advice challenge GO ๐ฃ๏ธ๐ฃ๏ธ๐ฃ๏ธโผ๏ธโผ๏ธโผ๏ธ Maybe a pt. 2 ๐ซข??? Idk yet lolololololol
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I need more fics where Dick acts just like in the comics when Jason comes back.
No more "Little Wing! I missed you so much! I'm fine with you killing people, I don't care! You're right, B is an asshole."
Bring back the original "Jason?! Wtf are you doing??? Stop killing people, you little bitch! I'm gonna kick your fucking ass! B is way too nice to you, because it would be me, you would be in jail!"
#dick grayson#jason todd#nightwing#red hood#dc comics#I will never forget when Dick thought about letting Jason dies again just to not have to deal with him anymore#peak sibling behavior#like he is tired of this dramatic little shit#and than Jason writes him a letter being โlove you big bro Sowwyโ#dick: hey everybody today my brother stole my suit and is killing people again so I'm starting a kickstarter to put him down#dick: the benefit of killing him would be that I will be bothered way less#only bruce is being โpls comeback jasonโ his siblings are all giving him the finger#tim is trying tho but Barbara and Dick are tired of his shit
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happy friday! here is a little bbts chapter 5 proof of life
When Tim comes down again his mouth is full of bloodโbitten cheekโand his whole head throbs, an almost fizzy numbness flooding through his jaw in the sudden absence of pain. He struggles through another wheezing breath, wincing at the familiar sensation of torn muscles around his rib cage. โAh,โ Checkered Shirt is saying. โThere does seem to be a localized paralytic effect. That last placement may have been counterintuitive; my mistake. But as we discussed, thatโs the beauty of mistakes in a setting like this. The opportunity to learn from them.โ Tim tips his head. Clumsily spits a mouthful of blood on the metal floorโevidence, he thinks hazily, if he moves meโand finds his tongue. โFunny how you still havenโt gotten what you want,โ he half-slurs, โconsidering how many opportunities you keep having.โ
#also today i drafted the official Moment of Realization and i am very excited#i've known roughly how & when it happens since i started the fic but finally got down to the details. peak fic writing feeling right there#anyway i keep wanting to share bits from this chapter as i write! and then feeling silly#also there's not much filler in this chapter so every snippet i've wanted to share felt too revealing or too confusing out of context#i'm a slow writer but it's going. it's going. they are suffering#my fic
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WIP WEDNESDAY
Rewriting what was the old chapter 22 of TBBW (1920s Dance, Woo Woo!) and the last half, the klaroline half, has become a chapter all on its own. It's really building up to be one of my favourite chapters in the entire fic, and it's partly because I read @kirythestitchwitch's Crash Course which made me crave a cheeseburger so badly I wrote it into this fic. So here's a sneak peak --- don't let the fluff fool you, this chapter has its fair share of angst hehehe
โYou know, Iโm really surprised you didnโt insist on paying,โ Caroline commented, unwrapping the paper around her cheeseburger as she settled back on the bonnet of Klausโ car.
Klaus sat beside her, unwrapping his own burger as he stretched his legs out in front of him, one leg hanging off the side and resting on the upwards curve of the rim that snaked above the front wheels. Caroline leant back against the glass of the windscreen, relaxing into her spot as the sweet, steaming smell of the burger hit her โ two seasoned patties topped with melted slices of creamy, cheesy goodness calling out to her from their package in a perfectly toasted, soft sesame seed bun, stuffed with crisp, curly lettuce and slices of fresh tomato. Up above, the light pollution from Mystic Falls was less intense so far away from the town, parked outside a quiet diner just off the Jackson highway. The stars were beginning to peak out from behind the clouds, the moon a quarter-full and shining down on them from the night sky above. Behind them, the warm glow of the diner spilled out onto the parking lot, employees wiping down tables and serving the odd exhausted truck driver behind the glass, like one gigantic, square-shaped fish bowl. The neon lights of the dinerโs name, Wayback Burgers, flashed and flickered in the dark, reflecting red and blue light onto the wet pavement.ย
โAnd whyโs that?โ Klaus asked, licking his thumb where the various condiments and sauces had leaked out of his large, triple stacked bacon cheeseburger and onto his hand. Sheโd felt weird ordering him nothing at the drive thru after sheโd asked for the cheeseburger and fries, impulsively buying a milkshake to wash it all down with too. So sheโd turned to him and asked if heโd wanted anything, and with some hesitancy, heโd ordered one of the meatiest burgers on the menu.
It was weird. The choice prodded something in her brain, seeming familiar. It was only when they got their burgers, Klaus eyeing his with a hunger that looked out of place on a vampire, that she realised why.
Tyler always ordered the meatiest thing on the menu too. Burgers, ribs, steak, chicken wings โ it didnโt matter where they bought lunch, if there was an option to eat like a hungry pack of hyenas, heโd take it. Klaus had slightly more decorum, but the look was exactly the same.
โI donโt know. Arenโt you supposed to be ancient?โ she shot at him, setting the wrapping in her lap and taking her first bite of her burger. She sighed in bliss the moment the taste hit her tongue โ it was truly a magnificent burger. The patties were seasoned to perfection, falling apart in her mouth, cheese melted onto them. The tomatoes and lettuce were fresh but not soggy, and the pickles buried beneath it all had an acid tang that balanced the whole thing out. โOld people are always moaning chivalry is dead,โ she finished, holding a hand up to cover her mouth as she spoke around her food.
โAnd I seemed like the type?โ he asked, glancing at her with a raised brow. His voice dropped to a dry drawl. โWhy? Because Iโm old or because Iโm dead?โ
She grinned, cheeks full of food. โBoth,โ she informed him happily, before chewing the last of it and swallowing. Klaus grunted, finally taking a bite out of his burger. Like her, he seemed to melt into the taste, some of the tension in his shoulders easing. She shrugged, eyeing him consideringly before turning her gaze back to her burger, folding down the wrapping. โMost guys get weird when I offer to pay.โ
Tyler normally did. Matt had. Since both boys were on opposite sides of the financial spectrum, she kinda figured it wasnโt because of the money.
He looked at her then, searching her face for something. He swallowed his food before he spoke. โDid you want me to pay?โ
She shook her head. โNo. It was my idea to drag you out here. And youโre giving me a lift home after my car broke down even though Iโve rejected you like, a bajillion times. Least I could do was buy you a burger,โ she teased, smile strained.
They hadnโt spoken about it, on the drive here. This thing between them; his jealousy towards Tyler and cruel actions earlier that night; the dozens of hesitant advances, if unwanted on her part. They werenโt friends.
Problem was, Caroline wasnโt sure if they were enemies either.ย
Enemies didnโt show each other their personal artwork or unfinished sketches that were hidden away from even their familyโs prying eyes. Enemies didnโt sit on a public bench and discuss lost dreams. And they certainly didnโt buy burgers at drive-thrus and eat them together under the starlit sky.
Klaus sighed, but didnโt seem offended. โI donโt think it was quite a bajillion times.โ
โYet,โ she corrected cheekily, taking a big bite into her burger.
Instead of the scowl she expected, Klaus smiled fondly, following her lead and taking a bite too.
#klaroline#klaus x caroline#klaroline fanfiction#klaroline wip wed#the big bad wolf#tbbw#1920s#1920s decade dance#klaus mikaelson#caroline forbes#morningstar writes#this chapter is my eureka moment#this one fucking scene is setting up so much character development I swear to god#this is the start of caroline trusting klaus#this is the start of her falling in love with him#are you guys fucking ready?#LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOO#sneak peak#tbbw spoilers#and yes there is a nighthawks reference in there#edward hopper's aesthetics have betwitched me body and soul
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youve probably gotten this question a dozen times but im just nosy, have you ever read grrm's other work a song of ice and fire? (NOT the tv show) if not, the way you post about messmer & marika's relationship makes me feel like youd love everything going on in those books haha
i do get a lot of comments telling me my OCs looks like characters from that (?) (and to this day i still do not look up any of those characters to see how they look like aksjfjkdfjkd), so a lot of ppl just assume i've read those books but i have never read any of it. yeah ๐ฅฒ๐ฅฒ
but some of my mutuals do blog about the show and the books a lot, and ngl after the DLC, im kinda curious ? so maybe i'll check it out in the future... idk yet.
last time i checked out a Western fantasy series........... it was crazy. (the fit i was having after i read through all Witcher books because of the TV show...... idk if anyone even remember that phase of this blog, but the reason i started playing videogame in the first place is because of Witcher)
up until this point i only look at Elden Ring in comparison to other Fromsoft games (and Sinosphere culture influence in the theme and design), but lately i do feel like i should check out GRRM work as well, but i also feel like it'd literally make my brainrot even worse so................ decision, decision.
#now that i think about it. me liking Pavetta and Yennefer and Ciri a lot back then is truly THE foreshadowing....#and the thing is... yeah i do like Witcher but the way the writing of female characters is like playing russian roulette in both the game#and the book kinda scar me for life (as in sometimes it's really peak but like 2 pages later i have to sit thru reading about their cleavag#and tw3........... everyone who plays that game know what that pause means#so once i started playing fromsoft games i stopped consuming western media altogether cuz that and jjk take up all my time#spiderverse last year is my first western media fandom in a while#but we'll see ! if anyone wants to sell TSOIaF to me feel free to go ahead i'm listening#ask#anon#reply
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Want to read a short comic about creativity, hope, and mental health? Look no further!
This comic is titled One Panel at a Time, and is a piece I made back in 2020 about my experience being an artist diagnosed with early-onset schizophrenia. You can read it here, or on Webtoon and Tapas if you'd like!
#I'm in a much better place than I was when I made this comic#to the point that it's a little shocking to remember thinking I had peaked in terms of my recovery back then#Young Sofie had no idea how much better life was going to get. Let that be a lesson to all of you:#Life gets better if you stick around to see it.#Also#y'all are probably starting to see some self-insert traits in Twig by now#and to that I say:#literally ALL of my characters are self-inserts#Because that's how we make writing a fun and healing hobby to have :>#stuff by sofie#comic#24 hour comic#24 hour comic day#short comic#short comics#mental health comic#mental health#schizophrenia#actually schizophrenic#psychosis#healing is not linear#healing is possible#mentally ill artist#hope#creativity#creatives#artists on tumblr#autobio comics#autobiographical comics
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So I drew this in 2022. I forgor ๐
#SOWWYYYY#genshin impact#tighnari#tighnari genshin#redesign#I predicted those scars man theyโre pretty close to lightning scars Iโll take it#I still kinda fuck heavy with the shading and posing on this one#peaked a little#anyways whenever I write him in fics I always referencing his appearance like this and people ask me about it so#ig iโll just send them this#wahoo!!#my art#I should start using that taggggg#if I can remember
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this is an invitation to ramble about slade/batboy ships: sladick, sladejay, sladetim, sladedami, and other batfam member/villain ships, especially jayroman and ra'stim :)
AAAAAA this is so delightful oh my god thank you. adding a read more just because this one is going to get Long to cover all the ships and all my opinions. because my god do i love Slade.
firstly, the original Robin/villain ship, SlaDick. Slade Wilson, literally created to be a Teen Titans villains, with the original Robin he cannot be normal about ever. i'm so sad there's not much interest in Slade aside from making him a generic Evil Guy who canonically likes teenagers because i think to just boil down his complex with Dick to 'weird attraction' robs them of SUCH nuance. Slade *trusts* Dick, he trusts Dick enough to ask Dick to train his own daughter Rose. and initially Slade's complex over Dick isn't sexual, it's seeing Dick as a replacement for his dead son, Grant. that's messy as hell and i love them for it. i don't think there's a single villain that has the respect for Dick that Slade has. i'm always of the opinion Dick's attraction to Slade is rooted in daddy issues and Slade's attraction to Dick is rooted in dead son issues. do i think they could end up as an old married couple? yes but only in a world where Dick is completely broken and feels alone. my favorite SlaDick flavor is post-Jason's death. Dick and Bruce are arguably at their worst during that era to begin with so Dick is pretty isolated and emotionally unstable. and Slade would take such advantage of that, swooping in to offer Dick emotional stability and fucked up sex to get out pent up emotions. (i'm big a big fan of Dick fucking out his feelings tbh) and Slade is just. this sort of bad habit Dick will kick for a year or two then come crawling back to. you can directly track how well Bruce and Dick are getting along based on how many times Dick has slept with Slade recently. and that's the prize, for Slade. knowing Dick will come back to him, eventually. it's all about patience. and if something really extreme happened to Dick (like Bruce's fake death) i think they'd even date briefly. it's not entirely impossible for Dick to date someone he disagrees with morally (see: his flings with Helena) and i think Dick would keep trying to 'save' Slade, using the upper hand he has of filling in this role of Slade's dead son to try to domesticate him. would it work? who knows but if anyone is going to try over and over, it's going to be Dick. it's practically self-harm for Dick yet the only thing keeping him sane. i love them.
SladeJay is... an interesting one for me. because i like the *potential*. but they have no significant interactions pre-Flashpoint. and while usually i can forgive New-52 and Rebirth for their grievances if it has ship fodder i just... can't do that for Jason. Judd Winick's Jason is the only Jason that exists to me so even Slade and Jason's canon interactions matter little to me because it's not the version of Jason i care for. the upside of that though, is it's more of a sandbox to explore what they could be and there are no limitations. i can just run wild. which is fun bc. you're telling me Slade wouldn't be so drawn in by the idea of a dead Robin who's come back and is now the antithesis of Bruce's morality? i think at some point Slade would want to poke the bear, really see what Red Hood is made of. do i see them working long-term? no but i do think Jason would have zero qualms working with Slade if he got something out of it. and if he could fuck with Bruce or Dick by having a short, fucked up relationship with Slade? that's even better. i don't think Slade could ever truly respect Jason, at the end of the day the Dick Grayson standard is too high and Slade would sneer at the idea of a legacy who fucked it up so bad he got blown up. but, he'd see that as Bruce's failure more than Jason's. and for Jason to have someone look him in the eye and say that Bruce *failed* him? i think that'd just *do* something to Jason. and Slade has lost a son, he knows what that loss feels like, how you feel you failed as a father. would he have interest in being fatherly to Jason? no but i think he'd have fun momentarily manipulating Jason and seeing what reactions he gets out of what jeers. Jason's been calling himself a failure this whole time, so to have someone else say it is no real big deal, but to have someone else say it's Bruce's fault and voice Jason's feelings? they'd have the most fucked up sex with the most unhealthy dirty talk that's both gentle and degrading. i don't think Jason would ever let himself get too close, he's far too emotionally guarded. but for a second, i think he'd fantasize about having even *half* the amount of attention that Slade gives Dick. bc what has Jason always been, but in Dick's shadow.
SladeTim. my two blorbos. in one place. somewhere in my drafts i have a half-started longfic about SladeTim that's one half really fucked up porn and one half slowburn feelings. arguably Tim and Slade don't have many canon interactions, but it's fun to me that when they do, Slade always seems sort of startled by how well Tim fights back and Tim's willingness to fight dirty in a way even Dick doesn't. and to me, that's the crux of this ship. as far as Robins go, Tim should sort of slip under the radar for Slade. he's not the dead one turned villain, he's not the grandson of Ra's al Ghul, hell he's not even the child of a second-rate villain like Steph, he's not *the* Dick Grayson, he's just... the other one. grew up pretty rich and normal and fell for all of Bruce's wax poetic nonsense. so when Tim puts himself on the map as a hero, makes himself a worthy opponent against Slade that's interesting. even to Tim, Slade isn't a particularly remarkable villain since Slade cares to stay more on Dick's radar. so when they cross paths there's a lot of unexpected. neither of them have thought about the other too hard. so there's this interest and intrigue about it i love. i'm a big fan of the idea Tim is a massive masochist, both physically and emotionally and Slade is The Sadist Ever so. i like them falling into bed together and having the most fucked up sex. like Tim just being a Weird Little Freak so fucked up even Slade raises an eyebrow. because this isn't what you *expect* of a kid like Tim, who's had a pretty easy life before tangling with vigilantes. he should be like a fish out of water, but instead he's matching Slade's energy in ways even Dick doesn't. and of course, how smart he is, that's an asset. it takes a special kind of kid to have the audacity to poison Lady Shiva with hotel chocolates and pull it *off* no less. it earns a begrudging respect, and it's rare to get Slade to respect someone. i really like the idea of Tim seeking Slade out only for fucked up sex and somehow Slade falls for this weird little freak who's cold and clinical outside of sex and keeps him guessing.
i'll be honest i've only considered SladeDami in the context of seeing antis say 'omg Slade has been predatory toward Damian ewww' and going 'no the fuck he hasn't but if you want that so bad i'll ship it just to spite you all' but their canon interactions do fascinate me. a lot of how they interact is predicated on Slade as a father, even more so than SlaDick. like Slade will fight Damian and then be like 'hey be good to your old man fathers need their sons' and fucking dip. and then with the whole Respawn thing and Shadow War? that was extra crunchy. for a brief moment Slade had a son who was a brother to Damian and then he goes and *dies*? talk about the complex that would give him with Damian, the spitting image of Respawn. Make Slade Weird About Batkids That Remind Him of His Son 2024. Damian holds an utter contempt for Slade that is simply unmatched. so Slade not leaving that kid alone because of his weird issues, making sure that Bruce doesn't screw up with Damian the way he screwed up with Respawn is very fun. and Damian slowly building up a tolerance to Slade's annoying antics could be fun. Damian is, at his core, still just a kid who needs the approval of something father-shaped and he will Take What He Can Get. are they ever healthy or long lasting? no but i do think Damian would cling to Slade during his teen years for something incredibly fucked up and codependent until either Slade dumped him or he forced himself to get over it.
JayRoman. i will not lie love these two but i don't think i've read many Black Mask comics when he's not interacting with Jason. which is funny because my entire conception of Roman is him just getting humiliated by Jason and really what more is there to know about the man. Jason is so unserious in how he handles Roman and the best part is you can tell it's truly because he doesn't see Roman as a threat. Roman's just a pawn in the game of getting Bruce's attention and sure, Jason is aiming to kill Roman by the end of it, but he'll always have bigger fish to fry. and that's so *infuriating* for Roman. this new guy who's *clearly* a fucking teenager shows up, owns you so badly it shatters your empire, and then you only live bc he seems to have gotten bored of you. JayRoman is my particular favorite ship for the flavor of 'the sub in bed is in control of every other aspect of their relationship and their submission is a gift that can be revoked at any time' which we don't get enough. fucked up power dynamics always have the sub being the one lacking control. and whilst i enjoy when Roman is able to absolutely control and manipulate Jason through various means, i think in canon, it makes far more sense he's pathetic and begging Jason for even a *chance*. and Jason very specifically picking who he subs for based on someone who he could kill or destroy at the drop of the hat if he needed to is a very Jason thing to do. there will never be trust between these two. they will fuck nasty and Roman will be in love with Jason. but they are both carrying a gun during sex. the gun is probably involved during the sex.
Ra'sTim. my everything. Red Robin (2009) you will always be famous to me. what *don't* they have. forced proximity. enemies to lovers. forced partnership. one-sided obsession. ridiculously large age gap. deep unforgivable betrayal. i will never evacuate these two from my brain dear god. Ra's is another one of those villains who gets painted with one broad stroke of being cartoonishly evil with no exploration of his interesting nuance. making him nothing but a villain is boring. where is the Ra's who loves so deeply and fully and has to lose his loved ones over and over and will not let that happen to Tim. he wants to consume Tim in a 'cannibalism as a metaphor for love but also probably literal cannibalism' way. the amount of trust put in Ra's in order for Tim to be able to betray him as spectacularly as he did? that's glorious. Tim had full unfiltered access to Ra's' computers even when he was advised against trusting Tim so much. and then Tim wins against Ra's and willingly lets Ra's kill him. (obviously Dick saves him, but I'm of the opinion Tim was just committed to dying in that moment and he was Okay With That) 'i will betray you if it's the last thing i do' as an act of love. Tim is to Ra's what Dick is to Slade. you will never convince me Tim and Ra's didn't hatefuck at least once during RR (2009) with a questionable level of consent. i'm so serious i will never shut up about them. the way Tim talks about working with Ra's as if he's making a deal with the devil and Ra's talks about Tim like he's the precious, once in a life time thing, one of the only people worthy to produce an heir for Ra's. how's that not gay. what other ship involved one of them literally trying to have the other's baby to raise as an heir. Ra's would probably carry the baby himself if he could. memes aside they're just so. they're so it. i love when Tim is forced into a Situation where he has to work with Ra's and confronts the darker aspects of himself that Ra's wants to bring out but Tim wants to squash. it is The corruption kink. whether Ra's succeeds or not in corrupting Tim doesn't even matter because the real crux of this ship is the chase. it's the way the heart pounds when they reach out for each other and you don't know if it's for a kiss or a killing blow. it's very Hannigram to me, in that i don't even need or want them to kiss to know they're in love. love to them is not true love's kiss, it's the thoughtful place they decide to stab the other in. be the sheath to my dagger type ship. hold all this bloody violence i know you're capable of inside of you. let me cut the violence out of you ship. what more can you ask for from a ship. Ra's would tie Tim down and torture him both as foreplay and as a love language and Tim would be too fucked up and self-sacrificial to stop him. always playing the dangerous game of how far will the other let them go until someone tries to die or kill. listen i think i lost the plot here but my point is they're unwell about each other. Tim will make Ra's regret the day he met Tim Drake not just for the betrayal but because Ra's can never go back to a time Before Tim. before knowing what the chase felt like. they're so. them.
#necrotic answerings#sladick#sladejay#sladetim#sladedami#jayroman#ra'stim#i was going to include timlonnie for my own indulgent reasons but this already got so long.#also i've been having some timulysses thoughts as of recent.#aghhhh#sorry this took me a second to answer#i was writing a fic for omega dick week#it ended up 11k words long god somebody help me.#seriously thank you so much for this ask this just makes me so soft ppl wanna ask my opinions on ships#like oh my god ppl care about my weird thoughts. wtf /pos#i was worried when i started this blog that like. no one would care.#but i'm thriving.#yeah in case you can't tell i'm a big fan of tim.#he's just so.#rastim will be like. the peak of peak for me.#but i love all the others just as much#slade wilson deserves more nuance than ppl just calling him a predator/loser. bc yeah he is duh but he's also complicated as hell.#also i'm so serious i saw someone say damian was a 'victim' of slade's#and their proof was a single cover where damian is chained up upsidedown and happens to stick his tongue out at slade.#like. oh my god read their actual interactions you walnuts.#this is a common sentiment on tiktok. the idea damian and dick are victims of slade on the level terra was#which. like blatantly no. they fucking were not.#also the judas contract is just a complicated ass storyline that deserves more nuance than it gets#btw for sladejay i know there's some interactions in the arkhamverse that seem pretty interesting#but i don't know the arkhamverse all too well so i didn't comment
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Shagoat fic that ties into a leshycat-ish centric narilamb fic anyone? ๐
#no i have not reached my peak of dumbassery#cotl#cult of the lamb#cotl shamura#cotl goat#cult of the lamb goat#cult of the lamb shamura#cotl lamb#cotl yellow cat#cotl narinder#narilamb#the one who waits#shagoat#leshycat#writeblr#ao3#writers#writers on tumblr#writing#archive of our own#i'm writing a leshycat swap au too#what i mean when i say it ties into the other fic is that i'll start the other one after I finish the shagoat one#because the goat comes from an alternate timeline#summoned by the mystic seller#i've put a lot and no thought at all into this
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thinkingg..............i might want to post some AU content on here. bc my posts are just seen by my awesome friends n moots and most of them can't see my AU work...but they have no idea the beloved antics i put in my AUs.................i want yall to see the waffle fries human au SO bad
#quail talks#hi im just. looking through the WF human au obvs#and im just thinking like. why tf am i even hiding AUs#like i know why i STARTED- i was just! embarrassed! embarrassed i draw 100s of drawings of my characters that aren't โโโcanonโโโ#i know i had a close person in my life at the time of my AU peak who was sorta AU-critical.... and i thought hiding them was for the best#but now its like......i do soooo much character work in AUs. and no one fucking knows#i feel like the Waffle Fries human AU REALLY sheds some light into the personalities and dynamics of the characters#even if some of them don't interact in canon! (the AU spans into Tuesday)#but honestly#who gives a fuck about canon. really. aren't AUs canon too!!! if youre the one writing the story.!?!?#genuinely.....#as an OC writer- the line between fanon and canon is basically nonexistent#but i nerve.....i have so many nerves all the time#silly!! silly head#aughh what if everyone knows i love drawing my characters#what if everyone knows i like drawing Ruse and Magic as hot human women
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this man was a mad scientist in the woods in the 1970's, ofc he smoked like a chimney.
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#the wizard posts#gravity falls#stanford pines#ford pines#im of the full belief that this man smoked like a damn chimney during his late 20s#like maybe 1 or 2 during college#but when he moved to gravity falls that's when he started to really go all in#during his peak of paranoia I think he smoked like at least a pack and a half a day#to try and stay awake to keep bill out#he's def got a oral fixation thing tho#like needs to be constantly doing some kind of stimming with his body at all times#and i think he picked up smoking cause he can keep his hands free for other โimportantโ things like experiments or writing#win win scenario in his mind#idk if any of you remember the stan twin theory back when ford was referred to as stanley but there was a ton of art that hc him smoking#that hc has stuck with me ever since like 2014#oh pre-NWHS ford my beloved......#in other news oh dear god do i need to get back into proper anatomy#the top right ford is just......off to me#i think it's the neck and not broad enough shoulders???#idk
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