#I sobbed when I heard it the first time
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As if the acustic version of Just Pretend [Live 2024] wasn’t heartbreaking enough, the live version is from the february Prague gig aka my gig and one of my favourite gigs of all time… it lives in my head rent free ever since.
#the whole 9 minutes and 47 seconds make me go absolutely insane#bad omens#I sobbed when I heard it the first time#just pretend#concrete forever ost#concrete forever tour#concrete forever tour europe#bad omens prague#noah sebastian#jolly karlsson#nick folio#nick ruffilo
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au where shen qingqiu has the whirlwind romance of the millennium, but it’s from the perspective of the other peak lords who are in complete shock and horror at seeing this new side of their misanthropic coworker.
#the scum villain's self saving system#scum villian self saving system#scum villain#scumbag self saving system#scumbag villain#scumbag system#svsss#ren zha fanpai zijiu xitong#rzfzx#mxtx svsss#mxtx rzfzx#shen jiu#shen qingqiu#original shen qingqiu#og shen qingqiu#og sqq#sqq#original sqq#is sj in love with this random stranger or is he trying to make yqy jealous? i guess we’ll never know…#everyone is shook because it’s the first time they’ve ever seen the qjpl smile at someone#they definitely thought that sj was possessed by a demon when they heard him giggle over a lame joke he bullied lqg for saying#qing jing peak#qing jing peak lord#yqy is sobbing in his pillow because he lost his chance with sj for good#shen jiu x oc#shen qingqiu x oc#original shen qingqiu x oc#the qjp disciples are happy because sj is actually being nice to them for once lol#someone needs to wife sj up it would’ve done him a lot of good in pidw#svsss crack
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thoughts from the Thunder Saga
Suffering: First of all, adorable. He's scared of the water 🥹.
Second, he ain't got no daughter.
The questions are hi-fucking-larious. "Let's say I'm on the run- or hiding! From... idk... Poseiden!" *shrugs* also, when I first heard the "oh no," it sounded so deadpan lol. *in the world's most deadpan voice* "oh no. whatever shall you do."
Different Beast: OH SHIT! OH FUCK!! OH SHIT! OH FUCK!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! *SCREAMING, CRYING, HYPERVENTILALING* I AM NOT OK I AM NOT OK I AM NOT OK I AM NOT OK
Scylla: I FUCKING KNEW IT!!!! I KNEW IT FROM THE CIRCE SAGA!!!!!! I FUCKING KNEW IT!!!!! THE "forgive me!" NO, BABIES!
Hello, Scylla.
Oh, Scylla.
Oh, Odysseus.
Mutiny (oh no): Oh. Oh no. Oh baby. Oh sweetie. Oh no, please.
Oh shit.
Oh no. please don't. please don't do this. please, please, please don't. I'm sorry, don't. OH!
Eurylochus, no.
Thunder Bringer: Wow, Zeus. Keep it in your pants.
Zeus, don't. Don't you dare make him do this again.
Don't.
Baby...
Ok. Ok. I'm not ok. That was not ok. I am so not ok right now. I put my head in my hands and I sobbed. I think I can count on one hand how many times I've done that. That hurt. I'm sad now. I don't think I can recover.
#epic the thunder saga#epic the musical#jay herrans#odyssey#jorge rivera herrans#i'm honestly still crying#it was really good#i need everyone to suffer emotionally the way i did#this was worse then when i first heard him see his mom in the underworld#that song still makes me tear up and i've heard it 1000 times#emotional whump#i'm putting this under emotional whump both because it is *my* emotional whump#and odysseus' emotional whump#i am so sad right now#that was not ok#ok rant over i have to figure out how to move on in my life#*sobbing intensifies*
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Odypen definitely and equivalently adore each other BUT I weirdly can't see them as the type to actually say "I Love you".
They still definitely vocalize their love for each other but it's more so in "My Joy", and "Extraordinary Woman", "Strange Woman/Man", etc. And very cheesy lines (both say some cheesy shit in the Odyssey, and he definitely does in the Iliad as well. "Joy like a drowning sailor seeing land" bit???)
I could see "I adore you" but even then, that's probably during very specific moments but the actual "I love you"??? I just typed it just now for fic shit and... It weirdly just didn't feel right and I don't know why. 😅
Idk maybe it's kind of because I see them as over the top in ways, they love wordplay and riddles and I think they'd almost think "...That's not good enough >:( " about it??? I don't know???😂
#I wrote this last night. I'll do the asks I got later. don't worry! :D#I am the cheese god remember?😅#I think these two would try to “out-cheese” each other and whoever is left speechless first loses#“I would forget my own name before I would ever forget you” bullshit. CHEESY#And yes. “I sleep in our nest with you or outside on the dirt” stupidity >:D#I plan for Odysseus as a beggar to ask why she waits so long. As he's been gone a longer amount of time than the time they had together#(Simply asking as reassurance. He knows his answer. Calypso asked him. but what about Penelope?) but she gets mad at the#“Beggar” and pities him as he must be telling the truth about having a miserable life if he never got the chance to know such devotion#How what they have could never be sullied by#something as trivial as distance and years. How the years with him were the best in her life. Only made better by their son.#'My dear Joy made songs and poems about love a reality as that was simply the life we shared. Even separated our 'song' will always echo#no matter how long it's been. I'LL make sure it always does. And I know he's doing the same... That strange man used to say that#even if he died his corpse would drag itself back to us before he'd ever give up.'#...I'm not one for 'odyssey zombie au' but when I first heard it yeah. :'D Came up with this back then#“His eyes as hard as flint or horn-” Bullshit! The sad lil fuck is hiding sobs with coughs and telling her to keep away for fear of her#catching whatever “illness” he has. The nice thing about being disguised as old means sickly old man works.#...#I'm noticing that Odysseus has a lot of silly oneliners while I write Penelope with a shit ton of set up :'D#They are so silly and I love them so much#...I wrote a lot :'D#Mad rambles#shot by odysseus#my headcanons#odypen#yahoo!!!#sometimes I wonder if I should tag this with more things but I don't want to taint the regular tags with my bullshit :'D I KNOW I'm insane
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"sometimes you gotta change, even when you dont want to. even when it hurts" - trucker in a81 left of the dial 'trucker's atlas' god im so sick of having the most hard hitting lines come out of nowhere like guys i was not ready for that!! i was not ready for the sentient truck that i barely understand to say the deepest shit ever!!!
#im thinking about archive 81 again#i just wanted to relisten to the song from the bone graveyard#because its “hauntingly beautiful” (how i described it the first time i heard it)#and it is but also trucker just dropped that in the middle of the song#honestly i almost cried#a81#archive 81#left of the dial#nicholas waters#trucker 81#static man#also off topic when i went back to relisten to echo i started sobbing#im not even sure why? its a good song but damn#no need for all that
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Supermassive characters that I headcanon to have Selective Mutism
Ashley
Abi
Brad
Junior
Megan
Anthony/Andrew
Erin (canon :D)
#i know ive said this before but when i heard erin say she was selectively mute i started sobbing#that was the first time i saw a character like me and it made me so happy#supermassive games#the dark pictures anthology#little hope#the devil in me#until dawn#the quarry#man of medan#selective mutism
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Guys I just found out that poppy playtime was originally called toystory but evil... TOYSTORY BUT EVIL...
TOYSTORY BUT *slams desk* TOYSTORY BUT EVIL... ARE YOU SERIOUS.... ARE YOU FUCKING KIDIDNG ME... TOYSTORY BUT EVIL????
IS THIS REAL...
I SWEAR TO GOD IF ITS REAL IM GONNA CRY...
WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY "TOYSTORY BUT EVIL"???? 😭😭
WHAT
I'M CRYING.... TOYSTORY BUT FUCKING EVIL.... THIS IS CRAZIER THAN THAT TIME I FOUND OUT THAT THE ACTUAL VA OF THE INK DEMON AGREED TO VOICE THE INK DEMON IN A 5 MINUTE ASMR VIDEO OF "THE INK DEMON COMFORTS YOU"... okay actually it isn't crazier than that
BUT STILL
THIS BETTER NOT BE REAL OR I SWEAR...
#multifandom account#multifandom#multi fandom blog#multifandom blog#random#Poppy playtime#...#Toystory but evil...#TOYSTORY BUT EVIL...#WHAT WENT THROUGH THEIR DAMN HEADS...#“TOYSTORY BUT EVIL” IS THE MOST HILARIOUS YET WEIRD YET TERRIBLE NAME FOR A HORROR GAME I HAVE EVER HEARD#I AM GLAD THEY DIDN'T GO THROUGH WITH IT#WHY WOULD THEY???#I'M CRYING#I'M SOBBING ACTUALLY#also but the ink demon ASMR thing#It's real just search#The ink demon comforts you#Literally just search the ink demon comforts you and it's the first result#And oh boy The comments are wild#I'm starting to think that I was born with a missing piece of my brain that is preventing me from finding the ink demon attractive#....#TOYSTORY BUT EVIL... WHY#That's hilarious.... I'm losing my sanity...#I laughed so hard when I found out#This is what happens when you're born with terrible humor#By the time you turn 15 your humor is non-existent...
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#sometimes I will think about this quote I read once that said ‘Shakespeare wrote better than he could write. Michael Angelo painted#better than he could paint’ and the point was just. the art as something almost speaking through the artist#especially at certain points#and I feel that way about Taylor#I don’t know how to explain it but sometimes I hear her songs so differently than at other times#like sometimes. (this is going to sound insane) sometimes they sound too fast to me#like. it’s TOO efficient.#in terms of structure#because she is BRUTALLY efficient almost#and sometimes (sorry I keep using the word sometimes) I just want to reach out my hand and like. rest it over the song#and tell it to breathe. and at other times I can FEEL the song slot into place and I can feel the depths reached and I can feel the stars#align into place as she taps into the greater truth#like the first time I heard loml#and burst into tears#or when I listened to it again when I was on a drive in the mountains with Nina and I just started sobbing at the end#it doesn’t hit for me every single time (though every time it’s a good song)#is what I’m trying to say#and I think it’s because Taylor’s talent is the most restless spirit I’ve ever seen. she’s like a beanstalk growing right in front of me#and so as wonderful as she is she is never as wonderful as she WILL be#and I hate that attitude generally (so much) of being like ‘she’s just getting started that’s the crazy’#but the truest comments about Taylor ALWAYS say that#and it’s always struck me as true!!!! and that is why every album is better than the last and to an extent makes her previous work#look small in hindsight.#I keep being so struck by tortured poets and the way it has synthesized the personal and the storytelling#into a new blend we have NEVER seen before. the muses are present but theY ARE NOT PRESENT IN THE SAME WAY#they do ! not ! matter ! the way they used to#in her art she is getting farther away from what we call diaristic songwriting and she is moving deeper into the world of art#and as she does it you can FEEL (or at least I can feel or at least I think I can feel) the lightning and thunder (so to speak) gathering#in her heart and in her mind and in her journey and she is going to EXPLODE one of these days
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HEY MAC I GET WHY CLARENCE IS UR FUCKING GUY NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I literally still have it paused. I haven't heard his voice yet. I'm not strong enough. david motherfucking kaufman dude
#aaauagahahhhhhh#(<< the most disgusting sobbing noises youve ever heard)#hey remember how i kept saying i fell off my couch when i listened to 39 the first time#yeah it was this
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Love posting my Spotify receipts for the month bc you can always tell when I’ve had smth big to write for one of my classes bc the one Jash song (Dream (Outro from Calamity)) will make the receipt. I did not end up a Jashinator but I do like having a song I can rely on to make me write things.
#rian’s slay compilation#the first time I heard the song I was in a mood all da time so I really identified it w what splitting felt like#idk it doesn’t hit as much now bc I’ve undergone a different sort of mental illness lately (more tired than actively harmful to myself)#^it’s the way it picks up in intensity. that’s what it feels like when you try to communicate how smth feels but they don’t listen and then#go have fun at a concert and you feel so nauseous that you have to leave a shared group chat while you sob your eyes out for several hours.#y’know? anyway June/July was fun. I need four hours of build daily to keep me occupied (tired). it does actually do me wonders.#I’m so big and strong now. idk how big you are my lovely mutuals but I could lift the smaller ones I reckon.#right now I could pick up (not for long) anyone around or under 150 pounds. also preferably not super taller than me but I think it’d work.#it’s a start! I should start lifting. makes me feel big and strong. I wanna pick my friends up.#^sorry to derail this in the tags but I typed that up and was like ‘that’s such a King statement’. it’s bc someone liked a post where I#talked about feeling all overgrown and how King being half a foot shorter than me but still picking me up like a brides made me feel Not#Overgrown#I don’t worry about feeling overgrown so much anymore but I do kinda miss the bride lifting. it was nice every once in a while#it’s small things like that.#side note I think I could pick King up now bc they’re roughly my weight and as we established I can lift ppl about my weight very briefly#it’s the build. it makes me big and strong. it’s all the wood holding and platform throwing
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not me lying wide awake at 5:30am on a sunday on my day off bc after almost a full year I finally FINALLY realized the implication of the end of remember them from the cyclops saga
#that song has one of the most powerful ending crescendo sequences ive heard in maybe all of musical theater#so it. always felt incomplete after ALL that buildup during the I AM THE INFAMOOOUS#only to just drop to SILENCE. no music. no fanfare. just ODYSSEUS!#he doesnt even really sing it he just sort of... shouts it#and then its followed by the faintest sound of ocean waves#its poseidon. listening. THATS why athena said DONT#poseidon heard that declaration and came back to get him later#😬#i just looked up the lyrics for ruthlessness too and poseidon basically spells it out 😂#ive only listened to that song once or twice tho and i guess i wasnt too focused on the words#anyway i relistened to the songs on friday and theyve been rotating in my mind like a 7/11 hotdog#the whole cyclops saga especially is just.... so so good#they truly dont make music about bashing peoples heads in like they used to#the first 3 songs of the saga especially... oof#how they blend one into the other back to back and end up making like a 10 minute narration of events#the whole thing is so bone chilling#it gets my heartrate up lol#PLUS the theme of pain and vengeance bring more pain#EVERY time polyphemus says 'what gives you a right to deal a pain so deep'#and when odysseus says 'what good would killing do when mercy is a skill more of the world could learn to use'#rocking back and forth sobbing crying#remember them the next time that you DARE choose not to spare! remember them... remember us... remember me!#cant wait for everyone to turn their back on this musical in 5 yrs#like they did with hamilto.n#hamilto.n never stopped being good actually#yall are just embarrassed about being weird fanatics over people who rly existed
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Splabjandkaskndk i just listened to clancy again and finally really heard the ending of paladin strait (idk i guess i didn't really hear it yesterday) and omg my jaw fucking dropped in the middle of the drugstore whattttt???????!!!!!!???
look, if i speak-
#...i may never shut up again#but for real when i heard the ending of paladin strait for the first time i genuinely started sobbing#i wasn't even confused i was SCARED#i would recommend watching the music video but i don't know if it's that good if you don't know the lore#and the lore is... quite complicated#(that's like the best answer i can give because i could explain it all to you but it would take time)#(you can also watch I AM CLANCY video on yt because it actually explains a lot)#i love your reaction tho mine was the same hdhdhdhhd#i saved every letter you wrote me*
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16 and 24 please :)
thank you bestie :)
16. a song that makes me nostalgic
I absolutely love that song, loved it from the very first time it turned up in my spotify weekly discovery list a few years ago. and it makes me nostalgic for... nothing specific. for what is described maybe. I adore the lyrics. the melody. everything about it. thank you for making me think of this song. I'm a bit teary eyed now. <3
24. a song I want as my theme song the easy answer would be:
- because of my name - and this was actually the song I chose (the end of it) when I picked up my graduation certificate up on stage back when I was young and beautiful and even more confused and ahahah so this falls into the nostalgia category as well lol the text fits to this very day, ah well. <3
okay lemme cheat quickly and come up with something more contemporary as my theme song... ah yes, burning hour my beloved!
I guess this song. is actually me in a way.
#ask#ask game#music ask#thanks for the ask bestie#I'm such a sucker for some good strings hell yea <3#i say things here#i share things here#brian eno#john cale#spinning away#the beatles#hey jude#burning hour#jadu heart#i think i sobbed when i heard burning hour for the first time#discovered it in january 2023 when i was looking for potential concerts to visit in london#sadly they were fully booked :(
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technically two episodes until i get zolf back, but at what cost 😭
#rqg#bluebird.txt#Pain. In My Soul.#i will listen to the bonus episodes this time#no fucking way i'm skipping the side quest are you kidding me#let's see if i sob as hard as i did the first time i heard grizzop die 😭😭😭#i remember exactly where i was: curled in a fetal position on the floor of my room!#but in a different spot on the floor than when i was curled in a fetal position crying when i listened to mag 200#important to note#one is the designated rqg cry spot and the other is the tma cry spot
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listening to girl crush live at bbc and sobbing
#the first time i ever heard/watched it i literally lost it#i was so overwhelmed with how proud i was of him#like. his voice sounds so fucking good AND he’s playing guitar at the same time#that’s not an easy thing to do#and even after all the albums he’s released it still makes me feel the same thing#like when it pans back w all the lights when he makes the key change#IM SCREAMING SOBBING AND EXPLODING#he’s so beautiful and so fucking talented and honestly i feel so lucky to be alive at the same time as this mf#and to get to see all this go down in real time#anyway. IM FINE#I JUST LOVE OUR LITTLE 30YR OLD BABY BOY OKAY#rowyn rambles
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ladybird was so real for the mum and daughter just violently hurling the most atrocious comments back and forth at each other like a nuclear game of hot potato and the dad just sitting there saying absolutely nothing like 😐👀
#i should rewatch ladybird but i fear my first year uni trauma (literally just last year why does it feel so long ago) when me and my mum#were just perpetually at each other's throats is gonna creep up#literally remember WEEPING to this film during that period bc it had always been a kicker for me bc hello it's LADYBIRD#anyone with a mother is gonna find something in that film that stings a little#but then i went to uni and me and my mum argued on my move-in day to the point we were driving down for the most monumental moment#of my life thus far like literally MOVING OUT OF HOME FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER THIS IS NEVER GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN#JUST LIKE IM NEVER GONNA BE AT HOME AGAIN PROPERLY and we just were not talking#and my dad was just there in the car like 😐😐 so AWKWARDLY lmfaooo#and it felt so much like ladybird's mum on HER move in day it was A LOT FOR ME OKAY#and we then spent the entire year in THE WORST period our relationship's ever been like WHAT THE HELL WAS THAT#and the whole 'please talk to me mom im bad i know i am and im sorry' GODDDDDDDDD#yeah no actually im not rewatching ladybird#the way that was also the year eeaao decided to come out too. you can imagine my distress#me in my little prison cell of a first year accommodation biting my pillow and sobbing <333 girlcore#my flatmate absolutely heard me. he is stronger than any british army veteran#hella goes home
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