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Allow me to introduce,,,,,,, the Sea Monster AU,,
(can also be thought of as ‘selkie au, but Afton’d, sort of’)
The premise: Reader is a selkie that was tricked and wounded by a group of scumbag sailors who wanted their sealskin, and in an attempt to save their own life, they fought back, ripping the entire crew of the ship to shreds. In their fatally wounded state, they find themselves changed and warped into something no longer their kin: a monster warped by shapeshifting and the magic of the sea to survive their tragic circumstances.
They are later found unconscious amongst the wreckage of the boat by Pirate Eclipse, who, curious, takes them in and treats their wounds. When they wake they are afraid, skittish, and loathsome of what they have become. Eclipse feels empathy at their struggle, and over the course of their healing, the two become close and eventually, ofc, fall in love!
(More concept art below the cut, tw for blood and such)
Some extra tidbits:
Eclipse is an infamous pirate! Sun and Moon are respectable sailors and have no interest in associating with him.
SeaMonster-Reader thinks they are hideous- a horrible, ugly monster, and a murderer on top of that. They often hide themselves in sheets or large clothes, both to bring back a similar feeling as their (now lost forever) selkie skin and to shield their appearance from the world.
Eclipse thinks they are beautiful. He tells them so very often. They are easily overwhelmed by his affections and get emotional a lot. He thinks this is very cute.
Not long after they start bonding, an enemy crew attacks Eclipse’s ship. Seamonster Reader attacks instantly and viciously as soon as they detect the hostility, tackling the opposing captain over the edge of the boat and dragging him down below the water. Several seconds later, they claw their way up the side of the ship and attack the second in command, claws and fangs dripping with sea water and red, frothy blood.
Eclipse, of course, thinks this is hot
The opposing crew flees and stories start to spread of a pirate who keeps a blood thirsty half-man beast alongside his ship, a thing that can crack a hole into the belly of a ship or rip man in two.
Eclipse is pleased to be feared, but is outraged that people describe Reader as a hideous animal-like thing, and counters their tales with stories of his sea-folk lover, beautiful and precious and made by the sea with loving care, a force of life and love
One of the first words seamonster-Reader learns to say is ‘you’, then ‘thank you’. The first time they say Eclipse’s name, he is sucker punched by Cupid’s arrow
Eclipse he loves to soothe seamonster Reader, rubbing their back or touching their fins. Reader is flustered by this, but trusts Eclipse and eventually starts to enjoy it, sometimes (timidly) seeking it out. Eclipse wants to smother them in kisses every time they do
Eclipse calls them his beauty, or angelfish. Seamonster Reader calls him ‘Clipse’ or sea star
#bones of a rabbit#bones of a rabbit fic#bones of a rabbit au#sea monster and pirate#sea monster reader#sea monster au#fnaf au#pirate au#pirate eclipse#fnaf x y/n#fnaf x reader#fnaf eclipse x reader#rambles#au rambles#story ideas#doodles#sketches#concept art#I should be working rn LMAO BYE#I’ll share more doodles later#anyway I hope u guys like this stuff hhfhfhhd#and I hope it makes sense hhf#ok byebye
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I cannot fathom the level of self importance some people must have to behave this way
#it’s more so selfishness lmao#idk I’m getting unnecessarily worked up about this but 6 months ago I kinda vanished off of everywhere and then I noticed she deleted some#messages#girl I would’ve responded later calm down gosh the messages aren’t going anywhere nor are they disappearing#dora daily#I think of all people who should be mad you’re the last one because tell me why you were so viscerally rude to me since the beginning and#played a massive part of the roaa situation by being complacent when oh ! I thought you’d side with your alleged best friend ME#girl you have no right to complain at all not to mention you take FOREVER when you have no excuse to reply back but when I’m struggling I#apparently have zero excuse ☠️ girl bye#not to mention the fact that when I was so frustrated with myself having these bad headaches and being so incapable of doing anything when#exams were so close all you had to say was what can I do#well bitch what could I have done when you were at hospital#I guarantee you I was the only one texting you 24:7 asking how you were#reassuring you that it’s okay to feel upset about being in the fucking hospital and you don’t need to have such toxic positivity all the tim#oh but when the other girl had freaking back pain from her period or something apparently that’s more of a concern#girl bye#not me who has chronic headaches and cannot even study and nothing sticking cause it’s that bad#oh but go ahead compare it to your chronic illnesss like yes it’s horrible and yes it impacts you a lot#but I don’t think it impacts your brain and memorisation capacity#not to mention how fucking jealous she is of everything like I can say oh god I was so stressed and girl she has not felt stress in her life#compared to what I go through yet she is jealous of the fact I can stress ? tf?#and when I say I almost passed out cause of exhaustion she doesn’t give a shit when I was being so serious#in truth I’ve come to realise nobody does seem to care at all lmao they all think I’m lying#why would I lie about that be so fucking fr rn#anyways this is why I simply don’t want to talk about my physical condition with anyone anymore because they’ll think I’m a liar anyways 🤷♀#not to mention the fact if you even knew me a little you’d understand that it’s so impossibly hard for me to feel comfortable enough to#complain to talk about me feeling sick or sad or whatever I only do it here cause no one follows me and no one will rlly see it at all#but even here I feel like my throat closes up and I can barely breathe when I do complain#so pls …#this one sided friendship thing is crazy cause girl how do I shake you off?
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this part genuinely makes me feel like eating dry wall like i can't explain how i feel about it without making some of you finally tire of me and block me about it i think
#.txt#reservoir dogs -#sorry for just randomly posting clips . i was actually working on my vid i swear but then i started Thinking. and here we are.#anyways going genuinely insane in the tags . i'm so sorry. ->#(im only sorry for the sheer amount of tags or if u disagree w/ my interpretations / headcanons. if ur just annoyed lmfao sucks to be you!)#anyways. you guys ever think abt the way orange HAS TO know white's lying to him abt his odds of survival.#bc i think abt that genuinely constantly. all the time thinking about it.#also the ''joe's gonna get you 100% again'' -> first of all . lol. second of all -> ''he was the only one i wasn't 100% on'' hello? HELLO!!#also freddy's voice here makes me feel like punching walls . like it makes me wail in anguish.#no but yeah i think abt the theme of lying & the fact some of the first lies we hear are in this scene in a way#also this part is leaning wayyy harder on headcanon but i always think. like if orange WASNT lying abt who he is. then it'd be reasonable#forhim to not know how likely he is to die and/or how blatantly larry's lying (''i'm talking days!'') but as a cop he SOOO knows he's fcked#but like . what's he gonna do. ''hey i know that's bullshit'' like obviously not and partly bc of How he knows but also bc like#you just don't argue with the only guy who's caring for you while you're seemingly on the brink of death!! LMAO#and certainly not when he's the only one telling you you'll be fine!! even if he's just bullshitting you so you don't freak out!!#I DON'T KNOW i go kinda insane about this scene . as . you can tell.#if you too are insane about this and the implications . don't worry. in several months. my fic will feed you. you will see.#idk . larry lying to and/or for him <33333333 kinda makes me go insane. kinda makes me go wild.#idk. i should be getting ready for bed rn. WHATEVER. bye. logging off. if you read all these i'm in love with you okay#i've just been turngin them around in my head like a microwave for hours so i needed to infodump or else i would explode i think
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YEAH NO TONBI GOT HANDS.......... my timing on suggesting it may be Questionable but I AM very glad it holds up as a movie :] hopefully the interview and We Make Antiques are fun diversions! But also take it easy <3 can confirm Nakai is Pretty Moe in both though <3 And I WILL harass you about Masato's VA next week...
TBF YOU SUGGESTED IT A WEEK OR SO AGO twas on me for taking a while to get to it... nevertheless i did really enjoy it thank you..... AND YAYA IM SO STOKED TO WATCH THE FULL INTERVIEW AND WMA2 THANK YOU SO MUCH AGAIN ☆*: .。. o(≧▽≦)o .。.:*☆!!!!!
esp cant wait to hear about masato's VA in the future.. 👁️👁️
#snap chats#LISTEN i think we all just have to accept at this point any time there's a story about a doting father or fts a doting father#i will cry like its unavoidable. so whether my life's falling apart that week or everything's fine#There Will Be No Difference In How Much I Cry ☠️☠️ im just built terribly what can i say it makes for GREAT inspo tho#tonbi WAS real cute tho and i did enjoy it a lot Because yasu did remind me of my dad a lot#very lucky to say my dad's never slapped me or thrown water in my face tho so LMAO BUT FOR THE MOST PART Yeah...#in a way it weirdly felt like watching an AU of my life. if i may sound insane. listen i already said the kid's name had me twisted LISTEN#fr tho cause ive always wondered what my life wouldve been like if i was able to be raised by my dad instead#im gonna make myself start crying if i get too deep into it LMAO NEEDLESS TO SAY i really enjoyed the movie :)#EVIL that they really did let us see akira get married and now yasu gotta give a speech and If He IS Anything Like My Dad#i know damn well he was winging it and didn't prep a script and I Will Start Crying if i think back to my sis's wedding#STILL MAD THAT THE ONE TIME I HAD TO PISS WAS RIGHT BEFORE HIS SPEECH BUT WHATEVER MOVING ON#said i wasnt gonna talk bout the movie/my dad anymore lest i make myself UPSET yet here i am... always saying more when i shouldnt ☠️#but yeah... i have ONE (1) more comm this week Lest Someone Wants To Snipe A Spot IDK#SO im gon do that :]#and im kinda tired rn... but the uncertainty of how much time i have nowadays urges me to work on it a bit#i dont THINK it should take super long but it IS a full-rendered piece so.... it will take time needless to say#n e way not to sound insane but nakai is An Endearing Chap. is the most sane way i can put it#i mentioned it durin a stream but somethin bout him just naturally exudes cute... idk... im delirious probably ANYWAY BYE FR NOW#CANNOT WAIT for next week to be harassed 🥰🥰
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PLEASE RECOMMEND ME MOVIES (OR SERIES, I DONT REALLY CARE) BECAUSE I WILL HAVE THE APARTMENT TO MYSELF FOR 2 DAYS SO I CAN WATCH ANYTHING I WANT IN THE LIVING ROOM. ILL BE ABLE TO WATCH TV, GET THIS, ON AN ACTUAL TV! BUT I DONT KNOW WHAT TO WATCH.
#It'd be really cool if it was available on netflix because I don't really get how the amazon thing works exactly#And it'd be cool if it was romance and/or slice-of-life#And maybe queer.#And please don't assume that everyone knows a series/movie because I know like 2 movies and 6 series. So there's a big chance I won't know#Whatever you're recommending to me lol#It can also be something long. Chances are I won't watch it in the 2 days I'm on my own but I can always continue on my phone#Very useful post again#Also. I am back (I'd love to say from the dead but I feel like that'd be weird rn lmao)#I am very good at oversharing on tumblr. Hope everyone appreciates that👍#Also I don't think anyone noticed I wasn't really active the last few days because I still checked the activity (idk how else to say that#But I mean like the notes and stuff; I thibk it's really difficult to tell that I was in the English advanced course) but idk. I also#Reblogged something. So Idk why I am writing so much. No one cares. Ok. Bye.#I am so good at posting#I should get an award.
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such a gentleman — max v.
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PAIRINGS: max verstappen x fem!reader
SUMMARY: max' best friend breaks up with her boyfriend in spectacular fashion. maybe this is the push he needs to finally admit he's in love with her.
AUTHOR'S NOTE: i'm genuinely blown away by the kindness and support i've received from everybody so far. i was really nervous to start posting here, but you've all been incredible! i hope that you guys enjoy this one as much as i enjoyed writing it — WARNING that this smau involves references to infidelity (not max or the reader). have fun and feel free to send me requests!
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yourusername what better way to take my mind off things. monaco, you were a dream. next stop...?
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maxverstappen1 Thank you for being there. 💛
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user2 hope you're feeling better!
user3 You should totally go on holiday somewhere and just forget about him tbh
yourusername that's the plan 😉
user1 ugh i hope max dropkicks him into next year
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danielricciardo my offer still stands...
yourusername you're just built different 😔 aus is too hot for me!!
landonorris thanks for convincing max not to order in the sushi platter
yourusername anything for my favourite papaya 🧡
oscarpiastri hey.
yourusername sorry osc, he's got the longevity :( give it a few months?
user4 oSC????
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user2 the second pic???
user4 omg i cant believe max and her went together sdjhfhdj
danielricciardo and here i thought aus was too hot for you??
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user1 oh theyre in love ur honour
user7 showing the ex what he's missing fr
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landonorris without me??
yourusername next time xx
user3 the fact this means max took the first pic has me spiralling
user5 no way her ex isnt seething over this LMAO
user6 his fault for cheating imo 🤷
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yourusername another month, another race. glad to be back 💛
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user2 no max in the likes?
user3 its over i fear
landonorris supporting the hometown boys, i hope?
yourusername count on it!
user1 and if i speak-
user4 don't.
danielricciardo was the coffee as good as he says?
yourusername even better i promise
user5 HE???
user6 surely-
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maxverstappen1 Didn't get the win this weekend, but I won something better.
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user1 oh my god.
yourusername thank you for loving me ❤️
maxverstappen1 Always ❤️
user4 its so over for her ex BYE-
user3 more affection than her ex ever showed her i know that's right
user2 They're sickeningly cute I can't rn
user5 parents???
danielricciardo fucking finally
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yourusername oh shut up
oscarpiastri no no he has a point
yourusername do you want me to pay for lunch tmr or not??
oscarpiastri i'm willing to take the risk
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#f1 x reader#formula 1 x reader#max verstappen x reader#f1 smau#f1 imagine#max verstappen smau#max verstappen imagine#my work!
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gym was soooo much fun. someone kick my ass on thursday to make me go out to the queer bouldering social after work 😡👊
my parents brought my bike up last time they visited and I'm only just taking her out for the first time today but god she's such a beauty..
#i know ive been saying ill start going regularly for like 6 months but it just wasnt feasible to get there via public transport after work#but now i have my bike AND now i can leave work earlier to catch my new bus i have time to get home + change + cycle there#so no excuses!!#plus my med dose goes up again then so i should feel pretty good in the evening hopefully. ive def felt better on this one so far#no headaches/excessive tiredness etc#anyway... was meant to have a parcel delivered today bc i specifically paid for saturday delivery but they delivered it yesterday#and i was trying to figure out HOW bc neither me nor my flatmate were in. but apparently they left it with a neighbour#but theyre not answering the door rn so i cant pick it up.. ill try again in a few hours theyre prolly just out enjoying the weather#this is a DIFFERENT parcel to the one i was complaining abt earlier this week lmao. different delivery service too.#howwww do they all keep fucking it up like im literally paying u more money so i can get it on a specific day!!!!#dont offer nominated day delivery if ur not gonna fucking deliver on the nominated day. stupid ass#ANYWAY i should go make lunch.. and then hmmm maybe vacuum and then find smth nice to do this afternoon#maybe ill go back out with a book and read in the park since its so nice. or maybe ill shut myself in my room and play elden ring#peace and love ok bye#.diaries
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EMERGENCY REQUEST
hi sweetheart ! haven’t been feeling good recently (I feel like a dumpster fire rn 🥲) and I was wondering if I could request a short little modern!au sanemi x gn!reader x kyojuro fluff drabble? I don’t really have a specific prompt aside from that, just need some comfort from some of my cc’s :( I understand if you don’t feel comfy with the request too so no hard feelings if you deny it, thank you !! 🫶🏼
# kyojuro rengoku & sanemi shinazugawa
tags : modern au! gn!reader, poly relationship, fluff, slice of life? not proofread of course.
a/n : hi keira !! i searched up some fluffy prompts bc i’ve been running out of ideas these days lmao but then ended up writing something really random… i hope you’ll like it. i’m sending you a big hug & i hope you’ll feel better soon !! <3
“stop moving,” sanemi’s gruff voice fills your ears. you know he’s talking to kyojuro, because you can feel him moving too. “oh, my apologies,” his tone is lower than usual, as he thinks you’re still sleeping.
“good morning,” you say without moving. kyojuro chuckles and kisses your forehead. “see? you woke them up,” sanemi growls, annoyed. “i’ve been awake since you kicked my butt,” you confess and you chuckle, followed by kyojuro. sanemi simply falls quiet as his cheeks turns red.
“do you have work today?” you ask kyojuro, moving closer to him. he wraps his arms around you, holding you close to his warm chest. “yeah,” he nods and caresses your back slowly. you’re close to falling asleep again.
“noisy,” sanemi mumbles into his pillow. “you’re just jealous,” you mock him. “he’s gonna kiss me later anyway,” he replies quickly. “me first!”
“alright, alright,” kyojuro giggles before getting up before you two. as usual. “no, come back!” you try to grab him from his pants but he’s already out of reach. you watch him disappear into the bathroom and then you roll over to sanemi, positioning yourself on his back.
“mhm,” he doesn’t move, silently appreciating the contact. you snuggle closer, resting your forehead against his nape. “you’re warm,” you murmur and he simply nods, his face still buried in the pillow.
you stay like this for a while, when kyojuro finally exits the bathroom and starts getting dressed. “you two should get up,” he announces, his tone now loud as usual. “no,” you and sanemi reply at the same time, causing kyojuro to smile.
“i’ll make breakfast,” he then announces. “no, wait,” sanemi grabs your legs and finds a way to get up with you on his back. you wrap your arms around his neck and sigh softly, eyes still closed.
“i can make breakfast,” sanemi assures him and walks to the kitchen, still holding you. “preferences?” he asks you, caressing your leg with his thumb. “pancakes,” you answer, rubbing your cheek against his neck. “gotcha.”
sanemi starts preparing pancakes while kyojuro finishes getting ready for work. sanemi is able to prepare breakfast while having you on his back the whole time.
once you three are done eating breakfast, kyojuro helps cleaning the dishes before leaving for work. “alright, i gotta go now,” he kisses your forehead, then walks over to sanemi and kisses his nose, making him blush. just like the first times.
“bye, kyo!” you smile at him and watch him leave the apartment, hugging sanemi’s arm. “have a good day at work,” the white haired boy adds, making the other one smile.
once the door closes, you turn to look at sanemi and pout at him. “at least pretend you enjoy spending time with me,” he pinches your hip, making you squirm. “i enjoy it! you’re just all grumpy,” you punch his arm playfully. “i got work to do, bye,” sanemi starts walking towards his room and you quickly follow him, jumping on his back. “you promised to bake cookies with me today, for kyojuro,” you remind him.
“tsk, i know what i promised,” he replies in an annoyed tone. “then??” you look at him expectantly. “yeah, yeah. let’s go.”
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“that uzui, i don’t like him,” you turn to sanemi, raising your brows. “you don’t even know him, and kyojuro speaks good about him anyway. what’s the matter?” you ask him, kyojuro looks at sanemi too. “i don’t know, i just feel it,” he keeps his eyes focused on the plate, making kyojuro chuckle. “are you jealous, darling?” he asks him, and you smirk at that.
“the hell?! why would i be jealous?” he spits, annoyed. you catch the hint of a blush on his face and that is enough to make you laugh. “he’s just a colleague, ‘nemi,” kyojuro leans closer to him and kisses his cheek. “me too!” you turn to kyojuro, waiting for a kiss.
kyojuro nods and kisses your cheek too. “well, i’ll stop talking about uzui then,” he smirks, playfully looking at the other man. “cut that shit,” he rolls his eyes. “we made the cookies for you, not for him by the way.
you watch sanemi get up and putting the plates away before you could offer to help him. “ooh, baby ‘nemi was so proud he wanted only our kyo to eat them,” you smile fondly at your lover. “i see. well, i enjoyed them very much! quite tasty, ‘nemi,” your other lover reassures sanemi, making him blush.
“whatever,” he mutters while starting washing the dishes. you two notice he’s embarrassed enough so you leave him be. “it’s your turn to chose the movie tonight,” you get up and look at kyojuro with a smile. “nothing boring, thank you,” sanemi adds soon after, making kyojuro chuckle.
“alright, i’ll go check the dvds,” kyojuro gets up too and reaches the living room, looking through the pile of dvds for something to watch all together. “do you want chips or pop corns?” you ask sanemi, opening a cabinet. “pop corns,” he answers while drying his hands with a towel. “gotcha,” you nod.
you all sit down on the couch as kyojuro turns on the tv before sitting right next to you, sanemi sitting on your other side. “i love movie nights,” you confess in a soft tone. “me too,” kyojuro adds while resting his arm on the back of the couch, to caress sanemi’s neck. “mhm,” he nods too.
you rest your hand on sanemi’s thigh while leaning your head over kyojuro’s shoulder, enjoying the comfortable feeling of having them close to you.
you end up falling asleep on sanemi’s shoulder. they carefully take you to bed, kissing your cheeks and then lying down next to you soon after. “i love you,” sanemi murmurs while staring at the ceiling. “we love you too.”
HERE ARE A COUPLE OF PROMPTS THAT A SITE MADE AND I THOUGHT IT WOULD BE FUN TO SHARE THEM BC THEY WOULD BE CANON HEHE
#📂 — writing !!#kyojuro rengoku x reader#sanemi shinazugawa x reader#kyojuro rengoku drabble#kyojuro rengoku imagine#kyojuro rengoku fanfic#sanemi shinazugawa drabble#sanemi shinazugawa imagine#sanemi shinazugawa fanfic#kny kyojuro#kny sanemi#kimetsu no yaiba#kimetsu no yaiba fanfic#demon slayer#demon slayer fanfic
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ok b4 i make these damn credit requests n send reports to customers i gotta write a bit of testicles philosophy that's been clankin around inside my cranium for a while. if u don't wanna read bout stuff like this pls scroll by but if u do pls bear with me while i talk about an incredibly sensitive topic that's almost impossible to tackle with any level of seriousness due to the Absurdity of transness
so im gettin neutered in 2,5 weeks. this has been a long time comin n now it's suddenly crystalized into a tangible date that's rly close (close enough that it alrdy caused sum Despair n schedulin stress on my part cuz im a anxious scaredy cat (sorry n thank u<3)). this is a huge fuckin deal. i've had dysphoria bout these guys for as long as i can fuckin remember. i'm nowadays pretty ok w/ havin a dick, but the accessories r abysmal n need to go.
first things first, they're uncomfortable. anyone who has some will attest that life w/ balls is at best bearable (mens underwear n pants leave a lot of space for convenience) n at worst horrid n painful (to safekeep reproductive capabilities they're equipped w/ a frankly ludicrous amount of nerve endings). i'm in almost a constant state of mild-to-severe discomfort cuz i'm very dysphorically aware of them at most times, like rn. they're always moving around no matter how well secured in place n the more u secure them in place the more uncomfortable it can get. n Adjusting their position especially in public no matter how stealthy i am about it makes me feel like some kind of a pervert cuz well i AM grabbing n moving my junk around. ugh. so this is very much a dysphoric "THIS BODY PART DOESNT BELONG" type situation.
secondly, i do NOT want to reproduce, especially not via inseminating someone. that's a horrid thought n makes me feel like some kind of a gigeresque parasite-spewing breeding maschine. note: this is a Personal Feeling, making n having babies is a perfectly normal thing to want to do. but i do not have the need to do it via my own biology.
third, FORM FACTOR. fuckin gods i own so many pieces of clothing that will finally fit nicely when im free of the two pain orbs attached near a very critical part of pants n underwear. i've looked at n adored how pants fit ppl without this kind of junk in the way forever n been so so envious even b4 i had the language to describe it. i rly hope it's as comfortable as i imagine it.
fourthly, i kno it's not a requirement to be an androgynous person to lack reproductive ability, but shit fuck godsdamn it, it will help with the feeling. kinda like how changin my legal gender was altogether very unimpactful (as it should be tbh...), but gave me self-confidence n entitlement in my identity. the idea of being physically something between genders is amazing n freeing as hell. masculinity has weighed heavy on my shoulders n this'll take some of the load off. stop giggling
fifth n final point that i have in mind rn: i can stop takin fucking spironolactone!!!!!!!! im convinced just this will be a huge quality of life improvement, i'm so dried up it's crazy. i piss like every couple of hours n my lower lip has been chapped af for weeks. t1d dries u up already i rly don't need an additional drug doing that. plus i'm p sure spiro has some side effects goin that i'm not even aware of but i'm eager to find out what changes.
all in all this is HUGE. i'm gonna probs cope w/ the wait w/ a lot of humor n some of this humor will make me more dysphoric (dysphoria has been growing the whole winter) but pls bear with my ballsposting soon i'll stop talking about them forever and i rly have NOT mentioned the guys ever cuz of the dysphoria so final chance to say goodbye i guess? lol. anyway gotta work now bye hope this was somehow revelatory re: my feelings w/ this whole issue for those of u who r for some reason interested in the general genital situation lmao
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THE UNBEATABLEest
so is this technically a ART/OC DUMP or...
NAHHHH
New OC timememeemmssmmsmsmemme
This is... Uhhh... Actually I don't have a name for her
Her nickname is THE UNBEATABLEest
But idk what her actual name is yet
Hmmmm...
Wait why did my computer just start making computer sounds what the heck
I'm on my iPad rn and my computer is turned off but it's still making computer souds
maybe it's in sleep mode or smth but I swear it should be OFF OFF-
Wait, I'm getting off topic
ANYWAYS
I should probably explain why her nickname is that
so basically...
she beated nintendo and scored one million
That's really it
anyways anyways
I noticed while drawing her that she looks and acts pretty similar to Comi, so I drew this
Okay, they look WAYYYY too similar
Uhhhhhhhhhh....
Let's just say they're siblings or something lol
yeah, that'll work 👍👍👍👍
And, here's a little comic I made
uhhh that's all for now
don't ask where I got the image in the last page from-
there's also this...
but uhhh
LET'S JUST PRETEND THIS DOESN'T EXIST-
anyways look at my cool keyboard
uhhhh bye I guess lmao
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it’s bad today and i keep thinking about dying asap like i don’t even wanna go to work the next two days i just wanna do it today but i won’t i won’t i just feel crazy and i’m sober and so suicidal i hate myself sm i randomly sh’ed earlier and like it was really rushed and impulsive idk it wasn’t like how i normally do it, it didn’t even feel good. i can just picture the torturous cycles of recovery and relapse in my future and i know how it will end i feel like i should just let it end now yk i can’t cope everyday and it’s been too long there’s too much i don’t want to try i don’t want to take up the time and space and effort from myself and everyone else. i don’t want to take anything from anywhere from anyone i just want to take myself away where nothing can hurt. i need to drink rn lmao bye
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tonight's delta green recap:
- step one: don't get too attached to the npcs that have helped/are helping you
- failed step one
- me about Jack and Jordan:
- (to be fair. they don't probably need any protection but like. principle of the matter here)
- all this to say please let Jack be.... maybe not FINE but not DEAD when we open the trunk of the car (assuming that's him and not a ambush waiting)
- ... handler pointed out to me that after all the work to keep the hammer around we fucking FORGOT IT when shit went sideways. which makes sense but still
- hey Jacob? Jacob? I think you should leave that little hut. Just a thought. (He doesn't know they're eggs. Oh God.)
- car got rammed but we are OK because seat belts and airbag halve damage. this is a psa. WEAR YOUR FUCKING SEATBELT
- JOY JUST ONE SHOT MAX DAMAGE KILLED A DUDE
- Jacob rolled low when it mattered <3
- WELL. ITS NOT JACK IN THERE BUT WHOEVER IT IS JUST DISSOLVED A FUCKING DUDE
- Jacob is leaving the hut; whether this was smart will be revealed shortly.
- WILKENSON????
- oh shit Jay has 3/13 hp . lol. lmao
- we've found a town with a portal and there's? pizza being cooked? possibly? Jacob is going to see if they'll share.
- oh shit normal (?) human in the pizza building beyond the window
- aw wilkenson is nice-- also hi Monday
- wait what do you mean Sunday is missing.
- Jay trying to think rn is bad. Don't.
- FIVE PEOPLE JUST RUSHED IN; THEYRE AFTER JACOB?
- now he's in freeze response lmao rip
- God's perfect little idiot has been captured and is now out of play for now
- wait handlers having him do 3 POW rolls
- JACOB ROLLED 2 1s?? IM LOSING IT
- Jacob successfully thwarted these college students interrogating him and
- SUNDAY WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING HERE
- back at Anastasias house with Jay and Joy and Monday and Wilkenson. hi Anastasia. we got fucked up #jcelllife
- ...
- GOD I hope Jack (& Jordan) are okay
- 'sometimes there's things worse than just plain dying' I mean you're right Jay but like. Are you good.
- anxiety makes you do weird shit <- he just spent like 15 mins writing a reply that consisted of 2 questions and some description
- alright everyone's eepy. we sleeb. bye
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thousand autumns donghua, episode 15~
SO here's another guy!! is he the one from before? wait. WAIT. WHO THE HELL IS THIS GUY??? is it the ke han guy?? no wait he had a different hat, i think :P uh-ohhh the subtitles are,,,,,WAY OFF like…..i have absolutely NO IDEA what is happening rn. this is. this is very funny actually 🤣 i wonder why this guy refers to zhao chiying as 'shimei' when she's the sect leader?? doesn't the higher title supercede the lower one?? HOLY SHIT SHEN QIAO IS INCREDIBLE he will forgive u for hurting his feels but if u come back and shove it in his face HE WILL WRECK U HOLY SHIT lol they bring the kid with them to watch shen qiao fight oh shit are these THESE ARE THE SUBTITLES FROM AN EARLIER EPISODE YEAH FROM THE ONE WHERE SHEN QIAO WAS STILL FORTUNE TELLING AND AN OLD LADY SAID HE WAS TOO SKINNY LMAO oh shit A STORM????!!!! SHEN QIAO U ARE INCREDIBLE. SHEN QIAO WILL U MARRY ME. SHEN QIAO ILU BBY. SHEN QIAO HA GOT HIMMMM look at him floating like wuxia jesus!!! he doesn't even need the shillelagh anymore, he's got a sword and a bunch of shadow clones he won't even bother KILLING this loser, it's fucking BENEATH HIM!!! ummm uhhhh they're talking about…..fearing death??? the guy said to kill him….and then he brought up yan wushi?? which SURPRISES shen qiao. who is delicately daintily walking toward him. WHO HAS NOW MENTIONED YU AI AS WELL. SHEN QIAO IS SHOOKETH the guy tried to KILL SHEN QIAO in an UNSPORTSMANLIKE MANNER D:< but shen qiao smacked the attacks back to him and now he's…….DEAD???? wow ok that was. unceremonious but whatever OH NOES SHEN QIAO ARE U OK BB?!??!! aawwww shiwu calls him 'shifu' now, how cute 💚💚💚 yan wushi is chasing down a guy…i think we've seen him but i can't remember lol 😅 is it….duan wenyang?? maybe??? idk ;A; OH NO HE'S HAVING HEART PROBLEMS TOO good god these ppl can't go five seconds without a health problem. they've now just been SHARING their health with each other, splitting it between em. super gay. also inefficient AWWW SHEN QIAO IS DREAMING ABOUT YAN WUSHI BEING ILL AND PASSING OUT HIS DREAM SELF RAN TO YAN WUSHI AAAAAAWWWWWW he still likes that stupid old man, despite everything ;A; that's so cute ;A; are u pining away, shen qiao?? is ur heart far from u at this very moment??? i wish i knew what was happening. i literally. do not know. i'm trying to guess via context clues but i'm. not good at that lmao 🤣 shen qiao is talking. it sounds nice but i don't know what it means. probably something angsty. the child speaks!!! i know not what he says either. but the sword is bigger than he is, which is hilarious 🤣 LOL BABY NO. U CAN'T GO FIGHT TOO. UR TOO SMOL. TOO LITTLETINY. awwww shen qiao knocked him out so he wouldn't have to deal with tears!! it's not like this will further traumatise the child who probably has abandonment issues already lol :'D zhao chiying: well i guess i'll babysit for u. here take this bag. bye now! bixia disciples: bye now!!! :D shen qiao: thanks :) this should turn out fine :) NOW THEY ARE BOTH WALKING both shen qiao and yan wushi are WALKING PARALLELS CINEMATIC PARALLELS. AMAZING. i'm sorry if this one isn't particularly funny lol it's……a bit harder without any solid understanding of what's happening to work with 🤣
#birb watches#thousand autumns donghua#qian qiu#sorry if this one sucks#i TRIED MY BEST#IM SORRYYYYY ;A;#ZONGZHU FORGIB ME ;A;#ALSO PLS TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED BC I DO NOT KNOW ;A;
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Season 2 Episode 7!!
- zombie? In this show magics canonically real right? I doubt they’re gonna do zombies tho lmao
- if season 1 buck had decided to commandeer a giant shovel machine (forgot its name)like this people would’ve dragged him
- HI KAREN! Hens father left??? This fandom really doesn’t talk about hen enough bc goddamn
- bye bye hens dads life support
- hi Maddie
- THIS IS THE GHOST CLIFF CALL (I think) wow season 2 is iconic
- chimney is such a funny guy who always agrees with me, yeah PULL THE CORD HEN. Lmao not hen bringing up the rebar incident… you he indeed
- eddie stop serving face a ghost just called 911 for a man on a cliff
- EDDIE YES A GHOST CALLED 911 GHOSTS EXIST IN YOUR UNIVERSE SHITS CRAZY
- Buck no way you just said we gotta live one right in front of the the live one in question
- SEE ITS A GHOST
- no way Bobby’s acting like the idea of a ghost calling 911 is crazy, who tf else made the call? Really a random other stranger who left?? There wasn’t even a path under him it was ocean
- EDDIE STOP SERVING FACE YOURE MAKING ME NERVOUS! I remember being a student watching prospective parents creep on our class
- SHANNON! WE’RE GONNA MEEY EDDIES FIRST VICTIM!! Tf you mean there’s not a custody agreement.. how has this never come up before
- BATS! ABBY THE CITY NEEDS YOU
- Eddie stop serving face there are bats among us
- lmao Donald trump joke in hit show 9-1-1
- why’s everyone acting like the ghost thing is crazy, that phone was so freaking clean! And there’s the same voice, LADIES AND GENTLEMEN IT WAS A GHOST
- A GHOST CALLED 911 I LOVE THIS SHOW
- Why do they keep saying a ghost called 911, like we get it
- oh maddies talking about Abby… yeah buck you gotta leave her house man she’s not coming back
- HENREN! Nice to see you without the cheating arc queens
- still so crazy that I never heard about this arc like what
- henren being cute, love it.
- SHANNON! HI IM SO GLAD TO MEET YOU! … why did Eddie hug her like that tf
- Eddie stop serving face, the wife you abandoned who then abandoned you is looking at pictures of your son
- god Eddie really is so hot, like distractingly so
- omg Shannon Abby’s mom was sick too, you guys should meet up
- Shannon I’m so sorry to hear this bc I know that man’s lying to your face rn… truly can’t comprehend that he left her alone to raise a kid with the same people who badmouthed her after she DIED. I know lots about the Shannon backstory bc people love eddies drama
- wait…. Athena you saw the cops be incompetent asf and you decided you wanted to contribute to that? Well anyways
- someone should’ve told 9 year old Athena about the true crime girlies
- pull that plug hen!
- on a serious note, this arc with hen and her dad is so fucking good. Like no offense but can we focus on this instead of Athena’s thing and eddies mess?
- Carla and Eddie should get together fr
- Eddie be so fucking for real. YEAH TELL HIM CARLA!! He works 30 minutes from her??? LAFD IS THE BEST IN THE WORLD?! That can’t be true, what about Australia?
- awww christopherrrr i love this kid
- the police being insane again, wdym you’re bringing a horse near a firebreather, you wanted to die fr
- OH NO HE HURT THE HORSE! If this horse dies the police man needs to die on my screen
- police man this is so 100% your fault, FUCK YOU
- ohh not the metaphor for hens dad… how’s she gonna pull the plug on her dad if she can’t do it for the horse. Can someone like hold hen please
- oh hello little girl, hope this doesn’t traumatize you for life. And we’re just letting her watch??? Ok ig
- guys I actually don’t care that much about the horse, I only knew him for like 5 seconds and I knew he was gonna die the moment I saw that stupid cop on him
- so what’s the point of Athena’s little arc here, like what is this for
- SHANNON! Damn Shannon’s beautiful. Eddie Diaz you get your hand off of that woman’s car, have you lost it?? This is like a softer version of that scene everyone was freaking out about in the kissing booth
- OH SHANNON😭 it’s not your fault your kids disabled and it’s not something that’s a fault anyways, Christopher’s awesome
- wait guys I love Shannon, she’s so juicy and complex. Wow Eddie is a horrible actor, Shannon’s putting her shannussy into this and he’s like “I miss you” 😐
- oh no way are they kissing rn. Wait this is such a hot couple like guys lemme squeeze right in between ya
- ugh hi buck, hi Carla! Yeah that voice is me buck, move ON! DAMN! Can a woman not mourn her dead mother without a man whining about it. Buck moooove omg, if you’re so upset about it then MOOOVE! Yeah that’s what I said, you should have moved on a looong time ago
- FINALLY BACK TO THE INTERESTING HEN PARTS! Aw hen :( confessions to an imaginary daddy is gonna get me unfortunately. Oh she’s gonna pull the plug! Forgive him?? Aw hen, I wish they’d let this arc kinda breathe without the Buck nonsense and whatever random thing Athena had going on, but that was very touching
- like why is buck doing the end thing rn, HENS FATHWR JUST DIED! Buck this is embarrassing for both of us bc i forgot you still lived here tbh… like wasn’t he flirting it up w/ Taylor last episode? I thought he’d moved on!
this episode should’ve been called ‘a ghost called 911’. God why is season 2 so boring, and I still don’t get why you guys are so obsessed with Buck like all he does is give me second hand embarrassment and mildly annoy me. Ok onto the next episode
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BWHAHAH have I seen that video- [ofc i have. multiple times. it's saved somewhere. the way he waited for her to hold his hand.] a really (un)important update: the peach-strawberry sorbet hair? it's grown on me sm it's acc on par w/ his hot-girl-redhair e.g. tinyurl.com/ycxezc6r the caption is so real (like I read it and thought, ah yes, this was written by/for jen/🍙) + his pseudo-aussie accent- good lord
lmao what sort of r:u album update was that- this was you are stupidly endearing, you noob 🥺😭 onigiri to the rescue: the ebay listing's here and the jay option is still in stock! ❤️🔥🐈⬛ tinyurl.com/mr3jmud8 [side note: shipping was free + to the UK, took <2 weeks w/ full door-to-door tracking - not sponsored, just a very happy onigiri + yo we'll have matching albums 🥺🧸]
oooh my friend recently bought the same chloe + it smells ✨️ divine ✨️ lmao the fainting's relatable bc i'm in my penhaligon's/aesop phase rn and I need an intervention bc I recently sampled armani's thé yulong + I can't stop thinking abt her 🫡
i haven't caught up with skz's jjam promos but what the hell is this gif-worthy clip: tinyurl.com/yc77n2ps the wavy hair? the accessories? the smirk? f-me he's insane. speaking of- the snippet. is that supposed to tide me over? on a flipping cliffhanger? he stays. tell me he stays over. istg jen you've created a monster out of me.
in honour of your discovery of blonde 🐈⬛, my fyp also gave me this masterpiece vm.tiktok.com/ZGecE7sDR/
made the mistake of opening that video on my big monitor at work and almost had a heart attack. the red hair will always be supreme to me but this peach era is a close second methinks... i fear i might be falling down another heeseung rabbit hole aksdksjfhds
i swear the employees there must've thought i was a weirdo bc i was holding the album and squinting to spy the non-existent dashes and then going to stand in front of the fan by the door to crosscheck with the instruction video on my phone (it was hot as balls and the store has awful ventilation) lmao. i ended up just getting the inceptio ver !! pulls under the cut !! i think i’ll def get a jay ver as well when i go to asia in 3 months just bc it’d be cheaper there 🤣
ohhh penhaligon’s packaging 😭 if you’re looking for an intervention you’ve come to the wrong place bc i am an enabler you should get one, no time like the present 💕 thé yulong !! i’m excited to try her heheheh guess we know what i’ll be on the hunt for on my lunch break tomorrow lol
i am personally victimized by this. i think this is the one of the worst things he’s ever done to me. the pretty curls with the smirk !!! i’m going to yeet myself out the window bye. honestly everything that has to do with ate era!mimo is giving this vibe lmao i can’t explain it 🤣
speaking of wt, does he stay? what’s the occasion? would she let himssst? 🤭
did i know that i probably shouldn’t open this video at werk either after the first one? yes. did i open it anyway? also yes. i’ve got one foot in each rabbit hole and idek which one to fall into anymore. this is looking like another love triangle
anywhomst, ze pulls !! i did not know what i’d be getting with this album at all and ngl right after i left the store i said out loud to myself “what am i doing with an enhypen album” but when i got home and opened her up, this woman was left speechless !! SHE’S BEAUTIFUL 😭 it’s so cute i LOVE this concept 😭 the photobook is one of the prettiest ones i’ve ever seen 😭 the stickers are so adorable i had to put them on my new tissue box !!! the pc’s and the postcard 😭 ADORABLE i love her sm
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wow, should i be surprised to absolutely love chap 11? probably not, that’s the usual feeling after reading all of your works, i have a hard time trying to put into words all my thoughts about this chapter (english it’s not my first language 😿) but i’ll try cause i feel it’s the least i can do
god ryu is soooo fucked (no pun intended), her being nervous to finally see yeji after a month and after the kiss but at the same time wishing it happens sooner, damn ryu really fell harder, btw those pictures were indeed for YOU ryujin !
reading the “yeji is sweet” line, made me remember the first time i came to ur blog confessing about trying to read the word count kajskdjd, that line made me so happy 😭😭
and ryu planning everything 😭😭 as an anxious person i get her soooo much, that would be so me, also she’s so smart like killing to birds with one stone, her assignment and getting the girl, brilliant
i don’t think i have said it before but i just love the way you write the characters, it may be cause i find so easy to relate to them, to feel what they are feeling even through words, i was probably in the same nervous level as ryujin during her whole plan, shes stronger than me tho, yeji naked on her bed ??? yeah no drawing would be done on my side
it does kill me the fact that they both want the exact same thing but they think the other doesn’t 😭 and they are so respectful about it like, ‘i’ll take anything the other would give me’ 💔💔
i have a question, i don’t know if it’ll be answered later but it’s been bugging me since i read the chapter, did they hold each other after they finished? 🥺 i know they both think they’re casual, but they are also friends so, i just need to know 😭😭😭
thank u for another amazing chapter, i’ll patiently wait for the next one and also choreo epilogue and new fic (???) omgggg
ps: to the anon who said something about yeji in lingerie, how am i supposed to do anything productive with that thought on my head now ????
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i am finally here.... catching up with my asks.... thank you for your patience it's been a time 🫠🫠🫠
hank you for liking the chapter (and the fic and my writing and everything 😭😭😭)
ryu is so fucked but at least yeji is too. like can it really be “ryujin falls harder” when yeji is how she is LOL they’re just the same at this point (and yes every single picture yeji posted over break was for you ryu LMAO)
omg yes the infamous “yeji is sweet” that you caught during the brief yunjin drama lmaaoooo so observant. every time i screenshot my wordcounts i’m like “what are people gonna manage to catch in the background here”
and yessss ryu is such a planner. i think she likes to really think things through and attempt to have control of a situation especially when it’s scary or she feels vulnerable. and also she’s just a smarty lol like whose plans have gone better so far 🤔
thank you for saying that! i’m really glad i can write people in a relatable way :) i just want these two (and the side characters) to feel real and to have a realistic relationship. it’s just more fun that way for me as a writer and as a reader
the way they’re on the exact same page but in a kinda bad way like…. you like each other the same way AND you’re being idiots in the same way??? please 💀
omg yes okay they’re def cuddling after and there will be onscreen cuddling in future chapters i promise you 😤 very good question thank u
im writing far too many things at once rn lakdjfl so thank you for the patience with me answering this very very late
ps: not the yeji in lingerie thoughts agin i’m running away now BYE 🏃🏽
#im here im alive#I BEEN WORKING AND I BEEN WRITING#there'll be nmau cuddling you'll be sorry you asked#ily thank you sorry it took me so long to answer this!!#getting my shit together once again lol#asks#🍬 anon#nmau
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