#I say this in response to the 10 other messages I've received just like this in the past few months...

[wombywoo]

can we assume you've abandoned ghostsoap in favour of your ocs?

people need to be more normal about the fact that artists can have multiple interests 🙄

[mavrintarou]

[3:45PM] Suna Rintarou (prequel of DD) [2]

Happy birthday to Suna Rintarou! I know I've made him a clingy fox but I honestly think this man is a clingy fox when he's in love.

Warning: clingy man and smut (18+)

Prequel (part 1) Prequel (part 3)

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“So, what’s going on with you and this woman?” Osamu inquired, his brow furrowed in curiosity.

The glass cup froze at Rin’s lips, and the whiff of yeast in the beer hit his senses. Gulping his beer, he set the cup down. “It’s going…”

When he woke up alone in his bed two days ago, he was slapped in the face with disappointment and anger.

“Haah…” a bitter laugh escapes his dry lips, lips that he could still taste her from hours ago.

Rin slams his fist into the pillow she was sleeping on out of anger and frustration.

He frowned when his fist came into contact with what seemed to be a piece of paper.

Hey sleepy head,

I tried to wake you up but you wouldn’t budge. I was called in for an overnight flight, there was no one else near that could do it so I had to go.

I’ll text you when I land in Istanbul.

Y/n

Rin waited for her text like an obedient puppy that entire day.

Looking back, he can’t remember the last time he was excited to receive a text message.

[**note: The green color text is dialogue text message exchanged in the past]

Hey.

After leaving him hanging for over 15 hours, he can’t say he was elastic to receive a Hey from her.

Hey you. He texted back.

She quickly responded As I promised, I’d text you when I landed. Were you upset when I wasn’t there when you woke up?

Yes. He texted back. Very upset.

A little taste of your own medicine? :P

Rin let out a scoff.

Don’t be mad, I left you a note though, right?

She did, unlike him.

You did, not mad at all, sad but not mad. When can I see you again? He sounded desperate and was desperate, but he didn’t care.

I thought you said one date.

He chewed his lip, and quickly typed I didn’t specify…

You mean you haven’t had your full fill of me yet?

“No,” Rin answered out loud, his fingers quickly typing his response. Fuck no. If I didn’t make it very clear, Y/l/n Y/f/n, I’m very interested in you and want to get to know you more. He doesn’t know where this confidence is coming from, but he is going to piggyback off of it before he loses it. I don’t mean it as in your body, that’s a bonus. I know we are very compatible in bed, you can’t deny that. But I want to get to know you on a mental and emotional level too. And other physical levels too.

When he didn’t see her respond quickly, he groaned. She had the power to put him on his toes, he was willing to admit he was wrapped around her fingers.

His phone finally dinged a notification.

I’ll be home on the 25th.

It’s the 25th and he hasn’t heard from her, the last time they spoke was more than 48 hours ago.

Boundaries, his conscience is always reminding him. As if the universe is watching him and shaking their heads, they have been sending all sorts of videos and posts about dating. He’s been seeing them all over his social media platforms. He began watching dating tips and it opened his eyes.

But today was his birthday, and she said she would be home on his birthday. She didn’t specifically say on his birthday but on the 25th, his birthday, so he was going to convince himself she was returning for his birthday.

His phone vibrated in his pocket.

Hey, are you free for a call?

Instead of replying, he called her.

“Hey,” he breathed. He hurried out of the bar and shuffled away from the loud noise coming from the entrance of the bar.

“Am I… catching you at a bad time?”

God, I missed her voice, Rin thought.  

“No,” his breath is visible against the cold January night air. “Are you home?”

“Yeah,” she sounded like she was shuffling around, “just ended my shift. Are you… still down to meet?”

Rin looked at his watch, it was already 10 PM, was she… implying…

“I’m out at the bar at the moment, do you want to come out?”

It was a moment of silence before she replied, “sure, text me the address.”

Twenty minutes later, Rin kept looking at the door, his eyes instantly at the door every time it opened but would look away disappointed when it wasn’t the person he was waiting for.

Atsumu followed his gaze, “are you waiting on your girl? Is she coming here?”

The corner of Rin’s mouth curved into a smirk, his girl. “Yeah, she’s coming.”

At last, the person he’d been waiting for walked through the door and glanced around the place. Standing up, Rin marches over towards her.

Y/n smiles the moment their eyes meet, “hey – “

The rest of her words are cut off as Rin pulls her into a hug. It was a full-on bear hug, his face nuzzling into the crook of her neck and shoulder. “Missed you…”

Y/n pulls back and frowns, “had a lot to drink already?”

He nodded his head, his bangs flapping.

Y/n reached to brush his bangs away, “where’s your table at?”

He shook his head, grabbing her hands and bringing them to his chest. “Let’s go…”

“Go where? Shouldn’t we at least say hang out for a little bit – “

“No, we can go, go anywhere… I’ve had enough drinks for the night.” It was true, he didn’t want to drink anymore now that Y/n was here right beside him. He just wants alone time with her.

He groaned when he heard his name being called by Miya twins. Looking over his shoulder, he cast a glare at them to shut up but that only taunts them to shout his name even more.

Before he could do something, Y/n dragged him towards the table.

“Oho! You’re Suna’s girl?” Atsumu’s loud voice rang throughout the bar. “I’m Atsumu, this is Osamu, we’re high school buddies of Suna’s.”

Y/n smiled at them returning the greeting and all Rin could think about was how he was not happy to share her smile with his friends. Her smile was his and his only.

“Okay, Suna, stop glaring at us, go.” Osamu waved his hand in a shooing manner. “Happy birthday by the way.”

Rin watched Y/n’s eyes widen before she looked at him, “that’s right, it’s your birthday!” She leaned over and waved at a waitress, “a round of beer and shots at table 3 please!”

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“Rin…” Y/n shakes him by his chin, “put in your passcode…”He opened his tired eyes and stared at his door lock, his mouth opened but Y/n covered his mouth before he could speak. “Just press it, don’t say it.”

He moved her hand, mumbling, “how do you not know…”

Y/n frowned, “I don’t know and I shouldn’t know your passcode, we’re not that close yet.”

Rin stood on his own and held a finger, “watch,” he used that finger to press his passcode in. “Now, you know.”

Y/n looks away with a smile tugging at her lips, “get inside.” She pulls at the door and drags him inside.

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His head was pounding. He stares at the ceiling contemplating his life choices from last night.

A sigh of relief comes from his left and his head turns immediately.

He was 99% sure it was Y/n with her back facing him but there was that 1% that left him feeling uneasy. He couldn’t remember how he made it home but he was sure that he remembered seeing Y/n come to the bar… it was everything after that that he had no recollection of.

It was most definitely Y/n, she fit perfectly beside him just as he remembered. Carefully, he leaned over to get a glimpse and silently sighed in relief when it was her.

His brows frowned when he noticed the fresh blue-purple bruise on her right cheekbone. Without thinking, he flipped her on her back, waking her up. “What happened to your face?” He carefully cupped her face, his breath hitching when she flinched. “Who hurt you? Who gave you this bruise?”

“You, you did,” Y/n murmured, closing her eyes. “I’m very tired, I haven’t slept in over 24 hours. So let me sleep please.” She shifts and wiggles until she can pull the covers over her.

That’s when Rin realized they had been sleeping on top of his comforters instead of under.

He rolled her on her back again, “I’ll let you sleep in a bit but tell me, how did I give you this bruise? Did – did I hit you?”

She opened her left eye and stared at him. Genuine concern was written on his face making her think twice before she teased him. She didn’t doubt at all that he would ever lay his hand on a woman in violent ways, she can only imagine all the things running in his head. “No, Rin, you did not hit me. You head-butt me instead, on accident of course.”

She explained how she brought him inside and was trying to get him in bed when he tripped and knocked the both of them on his bed. His head collided with her cheek painfully hard making her see stars for a few seconds. He knocked out, locking her beneath him. She had no choice but to just throw his comforters over them instead of getting under.

“I’m so sorry,” he whispered, eyes on her bruise. “Can I… sleep beside you?”

“Sure,” she smiled tiredly and closed her eyes, instantly falling asleep once again.

She must have been so tired and she still came out to the bar. He thought to himself. As gently as possible without waking her up, he pulled the comforters up to her chin. She was so deeply asleep she didn’t stir when he pressed a kiss to her temple and a faint one to the bruise.

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Y/n was not used to having someone cuddle against her, let alone a 6’3 grown man.

But she didn’t have the heart to wake him up.

Looking at her watch, it was the late afternoon already. They had slept their entire day away.

That was something she was used to, whenever she would return from flying halfway around the world. She would need half a day to a whole day to readjust to the time zone.

Except this last flight. She left in a hurry as soon as she could and dropped off her luggage at home. She should have showered and would have but he had called her.

She quickly sprayed some perfume and left her place to meet him.

Y/n couldn’t count how many times she had reread his text message.

I don’t mean it as in your body, that’s a bonus. I know we are very compatible in bed, you can’t deny that. But I want to get to know you on a mental and emotional level too.

If she was honest with herself, she would say Rin was head over heels for her. It wasn’t that she wasn’t used to it, but she had never had someone younger than her show this much interest in her. She would admit that she did not realize how much younger he was to her. She thought he was her age if not older.

With her lifestyle revolving around her career, having a committed relationship was not a priority for her. If it wasn’t for his persistence and foolishness in kneeling in front of her in public, she would not have given him a second chance.

It’s an unspoken rule that you don’t have second times with the same person that was meant to be a one-night stand.

But Y/n herself… couldn’t help but give in to him.

Enjoy it while you can, she told herself.

A low groan rumbled from the body that was squishing her, “are you hungry?”

Y/n thought for a second before responding, “yes, now that you mentioned it.”

Rin lifts his head off her shoulder, his hair flopped upward messily. His eyes zeroed in on her bruise. “God, I’m so sorry.”

“Did it get uglier?” Her tone is teasing, she reaches to touch it but Rin catches her wrist.

“No, take this as a compliment but you can make a bruise look beautiful.” He kissed her knuckles. “Come, let’s go get something to eat.”

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Rin didn’t want to part from her. He had a feeling they would go their way after this meal.

He had ordered food and had it delivered to his place to avoid having Y/n go out in public with the bruise on her cheek.

So he took his merry time eating his hangover Miso soup.

He turned a blind eye each time she would tilt her watch to check the time.

“Are you regretting your life choices with alcohol and beer?” Y/n teased watching him sigh and stare at his soup. Y/n frowned when he looked up at her like a child afraid to ask a question. “What?”

“Are you going to leave after this?” He finally asked the question that had been eating him up inside.

“Do you not have work tomorrow?”

He shook his head, “no, I have the rest of the week off.” He waited a heartbeat before asking, “what about you?”

It was Y/n’s longer time off. Once a month, she’ll get four to five days off before resuming her hectic schedule again. Usually with her time off, she spent the time relaxing and running any errands she needed to while home.

Without any set plans, she caught on to his clear obvious hint. Y/n, in a playful yet earnest manner, narrowed her eyes at him and inquired, “why do you ask?”

“Because I want to hang out with you.” He answered right away. “We could do anything you want…” He looked at her with waiting eyes, “I just want to be with you.”

Y/n couldn’t resist the delight of being desired by someone, particularly someone as captivating as Rintarou. His charm and voice had her completely enchanted, and the more time she spent with him, the more spellbound she became. Is he completely unaware that his words to her evoked sensations in her heart that she had only fantasized about?

Being the one to break the intense staring going on between them, she could feel her face warming up. “I have tomorrow off as well,” she stated, locking eyes with him once more, this time with more confidence. “So, what should we do?”

.

Rintarou did not peg Y/n as one to enjoy horror films. His intentions after she allowed him to choose a film, a horror film, was to have her cuddle against him so he could wrap his arms protectively around her.

Instead, he sat beside her, pouting as Y/n’s full undivided attention was set on the film.

It was like she forgot he was there. Like she forgot she was supposed to cuddle beside him and let him make her feel safe.

After they finished their meals, Y/n was going to go back to her place to change and shower and return but Rin held on to the end of her shirt like a lost puppy

“Just use my bathroom…” he begged, staring at her with puppy begging eyes.

“What about clothes?”

You don’t need clothes, he wanted to say. “Just use my clothes…” After those words left his lips, he realized he may not survive if he saw her wearing his clothes.

Y/n sighed, she did not like clingy behaviors but she couldn’t bring herself to say no or deny him.

“Fine…”

His invisible puppy ears perked up and his tails wagged excitedly. “Want to shower together?”

“Don’t push your luck,” she laughed.

After her quick shower, she came out wearing a baggy shirt of his with his sweatpants.

Rin looked away and tried to distract his mind with other thoughts to prevent a boner from happening.  

His fists had been clutching tightly to his sweatpants for almost the last hour, did she not realize what she was doing to him sitting next to him wearing his clothes?

He cleared his throat for the fourth time and slowly, her chin turned towards him but her eyes couldn’t leave the screen.

The plot of the film had finally reached the truth behind all the paranormal activities.

“Y/n,” Rin whispered.

Her chin was still tilted in his direction except her eyes. “Hmm?”

“Is this film that good?” He’d heard good reviews on this film, but all he could watch was her.

She hummed after a few seconds.

“Can we cuddle?”

At last, her eyes finally left the screen and looked at him. She scooted closer and curled against his side after fully comprehending his question. “Is that why you huffin’ and puffin’ over there?”

He hummed after a few seconds, a smile on his face, finally satisfied. He hooked an arm beneath her knees and threw her legs over his lap. “This is much better.”

Ten minutes into the film, she felt his head rest against the crook of her neck and shoulder. His warm breath was steadily fanning her neck and collarbone.

He had fallen asleep.

As soon as the film was over, Y/n reached for the remote without moving too much to wake him up.

“Is it finally over?”

“Yep,” she answered, “that was one hell of a plot twist that you missed out on.”

Rin’s arms tightened around her and he hummed against her neck, rubbing his nose against her pulse. “Tell me about it, please?”

Turning off the TV, Y/n saw their reflection on the TV screen. With their height difference, his neck was awkwardly angled so his head could rest on her shoulder.

“If you’re tired, go to bed.”

He shook his head, squeezing her waist. “I’m tired but I don’t want to go to bed.” When she lifted her hand and threaded her fingers through his hair, he nearly let out a moan when her nails began massaging his scalp.

His lips pressed against her pulse in a kiss before he nipped the skin there but was immediately stopped by Y/n who shifted away and gripped his chin, “don’t mark me.”

Rin didn’t mask his disappointment and muttered, “fine.”

Her lips curved as she squeezed his cheeks, making his lips pucker, “tell me,” her voice dropped an octave lower, “why are you hard?”

With his lips still puckered he responded, “blame it on your thighs.” He pulls away from her grip and squeezes her thigh which is pressed against his cock. Ever since he pulled her legs over his lap, he couldn’t get the thought of her riding him out of his head, which was why he had to force himself to sleep the rest of the film.

His little nap only worsened as he had enough time to dream about Y/n riding him.

“It’s so… squishy…” he squeezed harder, making her squirm in his lap. “And soft…” He leaned forward until their lips were closed, “and I want to bury my face between them…” He didn’t miss the hitch in her breath. “So what do you say, Y/n?”

“Less talking and more doing, Rin…”

In an instant, she’s flipped onto her back on the couch with Rin kneeling in between her legs. His fingers grip the waistband of his sweatpants on her and frowned, “no panties?” The smirk on her face answered his question. Tugging off his sweatpants, he confirmed his suspicion. “Can’t believe you sat on my lap practically with no panties.” Hooking both her legs over his shoulders, he grins happily at her before his face disappears in between her legs.

Y/n buckled against his lips, thighs crushing against his head. “Rin,” she choked out his name and moaned loudly when two fingers thrust knuckles deep. “Oh God…”

She looked down at the man, his eyes were already on her, staring straight at her as he feasted on her.  

With his other free hand, he slipped it inside his shirt she was wearing and groaned when his palm touched her tit. She was wearing no bra beneath his shirt. His cock twitched, nearly cumming from being excited.

“Rin… Rin please…”

He suckled her clit before letting it go with a pop. “Please?”

Widening her legs, and freeing his head, she begged, “you… I want you.”

Rin lets out a shaky laugh and straightens himself. Hearing her say she wanted him nearly undoes him in ways he has never realized. He pushed his waistband down and frees his cock.

He tugs Y/n until she is flat on her back and her ass is hanging off the couch before hiking her legs over his shoulders. Rin pulls the end of his shirt to his lips and bites down on the material before guiding his cock to the wet and glossy pussy.

“Argh,” he lets out a low growl and pushes until he is fully inside her.

He starts with slow and steady thrusts, savoring how her pussy is tightly hugging his cock.

Y/n’s lewd soft moans hypnotize him making him want to slow down or else he may just cum embarrassingly fast.

“Rin – Rin,” she reaches to rub her clit but he slapped her hand away.

His shirt drops as he growled, “I’ll do it…” he spread her legs apart and became thrilled at the sight of his cock moving in and out of her pussy. His thumb found the swollen clit and he began circling it. He felt her clench tighter around his cock. “Are you going to cum?”

Y/n’s hands clutched her chest, she nodded, teeth biting down on her lower lip.

“I can’t hear you?”

“Yes!” She shouted.

He flashed her a satisfied lopsided grin before quickening his pace. Leaning forward he wrapped his other hand behind her head, bringing her lips to his.

They were both near their orgasm and with a few more thrusts they both whimpered in sync.

“Ah,” he groaned against her lips. A sheer thin of sweat is visible across his face. He opened his eyes, staring at her closed one. At some point her hands have gripped the collar of his shirt in a tight fist, keeping close to her.

Where he only wants to be.

Pressing his lips to hers, he kissed her deeply and passionately.

Y/n moaned, pulling a way to gasp for a breath. His face flushed making him adorable in her eyes…

“You…” he breathed, “you make me feel things… do things… I’ve never done it before.” He pressed a kiss to the top of her nose, “now, can we shower together?”

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Rin hated waking up early on his days off.

But it all changed now with this woman still in his arms, in his bed, sleeping soundlessly.

After their shower, they both got ready for bed.

The moment she settled into his bed, Rin initiated his attack.

“What the - !” She exclaimed when he threw half his body on her, locking her with his limbs.

“I can’t trust you not disappearing in the morning,” he murmured, burying his face into her chest. “Don’t leave me like last time… wake me up because I want to see you go if you have to go…”

At some point through the night, they shifted, she was now laying over him.

His hand pressed against the back of her head protectively as he pressed a kiss to the top of her head. “Morning…”  

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E/n: This man. I would never be able to say no to this man, ever.

>>> @queenelleee @mfreedomstuff @erintaro @callmeraider @chaotic-fangirl-blog @wolffmaiden @cloud-lyy @krooes

[lovelyjj]

Jsjdndnddhcudndufjf I LOVE YOUR WRITING SO MUCH LIKE AHHHHHHHH YOURE A GENIUS!!!

Can I request a JJ x reader where the reader is comforting him? It can be about anything you want. Maybe he’s feeling insecure about the relationship or his dad did something or maybe oooo maybe she’s been busy studying and hasn’t been able to spend a lot of time with him and hasn’t been texting him much so he starts to think she wants out.

If you can’t I understand :))

thank you angel, sorry this took so long

Reassurance

jj maybank x reader

wc: 1,094

The rain drizzled down near the château. The pitter patter of it hitting the roof could be heard even from the inside.

JJ sat on his bed in his designated room waiting for your arrival.

After about 10 minutes of twiddling his thumbs he herd his phone ringing. When he saw the contact photo he grinned and pushed answer.

"Hello" JJ answered.

"Hi baby" You exclaimed, your voice ringing through his speaker making his heart soar.

"What's Up" JJ asked.

"So I have a bit of bad news. I can't come over today. I have to study. I'm drowning in homework over here."

"Wait really."

"Yes. I'm really sorry" you spoke with remorse.

"It's ok I understand" JJ replied halfheartedly.

"I'll see you sometime soon" you reasoned.

"Yeah alright sounds good." JJ remarked.

"Bye JJ I love you" you say.

"Bye baby, I love you too" JJ speaks ending the call.

JJ sighed. He wasn't gonna lie he was disappointed. He really wanted to see you and cuddle up on this rainy afternoon.

He wasn't mad you blew him off. He really did understand. He was just missing you a lot. He felt saddened by your absence.

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The following day is when JJ decided to text you. Usually when the two of you aren't with each other you text. His phone however has been strangely silent.

JJ: Hey baby. I miss you. Hope your doing well. Would you like to come over tomorrow?

JJ waited and waited and he still received no response. Now JJ was confident and secure in your relationship. However, he was starting to get worried.

You not texting him back made JJ start to feel insecure in your relationship. This almost never happens. It usually would take a lot for JJ to feel this way. However, he started having his doubts pretty early on. It wasn't until the next day that he heard from you.

Y/N: Hey! Sorry i'm just now getting back to you. I had my phone off while I studied. I can come over tomorrow if you want.

JJ: Sounds good.

JJ was glad your finally agreed to coming over. He was just sad he has to wait a whole nother day to see you.

Usually the two of you would text non stop but after JJ sent his last message his phone was dry.

JJ started feeling like you wanted out. That this relationship doesn't mean as much to you as it does to him. He was spiraling and he needed to talk to you to find some sort of clarity. He did not want this relationship to end and the thought of you wanting it to had his heart hurting.

The next day came by slowly for JJ as he anticipated the day he gets to see you. The day came however and JJ was looking forward to talking to with you.

"JJ," you called out to him as you entered the château.

"In here," JJ announced.

You walked into JJs room and smiled.

"Baby! I've missed you," JJ spoke standing up.

You engulfed JJ in a hug and squeezed him.

"I've missed you to."

"It feels like it's been forever," JJ responded breathing in your scent. He snuggled deeper into your neck.

"Hasn't been that long has it" you asked.

JJ released you from the hug but was still holding on to you.

"You know that it's agony being without you right." JJ pressed.

You smiled brightly at him, beaming you brushed your hands up to his biceps and then slid them up to wrap around his neck.

"Really?" you asked in awe of him.

"Baby, you are the love of my life. Being with you is when i'm at my best." JJ concluded.

You reached up and kissed him passionately. Your lips locked together massaging one another.

JJ broke the kiss and placed his hands back on your waist.

"That's why I got so sad when you canceled on me. and then I didn't hear from you for like days on end." JJ frowned.

"I really am sorry I was just really focusing on my schoolwork." You added.

"Heck you got me questioning our relationship." JJ threw his hands up in the air.

You sat down on the edge of his bed, "JJ it had nothing to do with you." you pleaded.

"I thought you wanted out. Like you wanted us to be over." JJ said angrily.

"That's not what I want. I still want to be with you." You argued.

"You have a funny way of showing it." JJ added.

"Listen JJ i'm sorry i've been neglecting you but breaking up is the furthest thing from my mind. Let me reassure you." You begged.

JJ was pacing back and forth in his room as the two of you talked.

"Ok fine reassure me please," JJ begged.

You stood up and cupped his face in your hands causing his pacing to come to a halt.

"JJ Maybank I love you. End of story. I want to be with you until we're old and grey. Your it for me. I promise to be more attentive to your feelings. Please don't ever think I don't care about you because I do with every fiber of my being." Your heart ached at the thought of JJ becoming insecure with your relationship. You wanted him to feel secure and reassured that your not leaving him.

JJ grabbed onto your wrists and nodded. His expression was looking sad but he was just letting your words sink in.

"Baby. I love you. You just scare the shit out of me sometimes." JJ laughed.

You started to smile seeing JJ laugh it was like music to your ears.

"There's that smile I love." You announced.

JJ picked you up by the waist and spun you around. You giggled up in the air and held on to his shoulders.

"Promise this is forever," JJ said as he put you down.

You looked up at him smile gracing your lips and said, "this is forever."

JJ then tackled you to the bed. You launched onto the bed with him on top of you.

After a tickle fight, play fighting and laughing together you both winded down for a movie.

You and JJ were cuddled up together on his bed watching a movie. You were running your fingers through his hair as he laid with his head on your chest.

"You'll stay the night?" JJ asked.

"Of course I will."

JJ smiled and nestled further into you laying contently in your arms.

[onboardsorasora]

I've been writing this since I posted Part 10. @hitgirl0707 thanks for outlining this with me. It's almost 2k words, it's like I couldn't stop myself. *singing like Haley Williams* how did we get here?? Our liddol crackfic got a mind of its own guys!

Part 1 | Part 10

Part 11

To say Max didn’t sleep a wink was an understatement. He was worried. Those idiots better have taken care of Daniel. He was going to kill them maybe.

Finally, early in the morning he got a message to the groupchat from Lando that they were back at his place and Daniel was sleeping. Lando even sent a photo of Daniel curled up in his cat nest still in his party clothes sans shoes. Sassy was sniffing his hair and Jimmy was curled in his chest.

Max knew a drunken pass out when he saw one and just knew Daniel was going to have a killer hangover later. He was so annoyed, so mad. But he was relieved because Daniel was home at Max’s and he looked no worse for wear.

He was able to sleep a little and woke up early before his next meeting with Christian and Adrian. He spam texted Lando until he responded– the message was unintelligible, but all that mattered was that he answered.

He tried calling Daniel but it didn’t seem like he was going to answer. He was about to hang up when the facetime connected and he was greeted with Sassy’s face sniffing the screen. She chirped at him, a sound he was getting used to.

“Hey Sassy Girl, did you answer the call? Smart girl!” He praised, getting a mrow in return. Sassy eventually shifted from the phone and he saw Daniel was laying curled on his side with his arms over his eyes. Sassy sniffed and licked his forehead a little and he groaned pitifully in response.

“Daniel, how are you feeling?” Max asked softly but the worry was there. Daniel shifted his hand and Max could see a peak of nose and soft brown eyes.

“Maxy?” Daniel whined and Max’s heart clenched.

“Daniel, I’m here.”

“...hurts.” Daniel mumbled and tried to shuffle to get comfortable again but groaned instead. Jimmy bumped his head against Daniel’s arm.

“Daniel, you need to drink some water and some electrolyte juice, maybe. You’ll feel better, I think.”

“No…” Daniel murmured and sniffled and Max’s grip on his phone tightened. He was going to kill his friends.

“Daniel, it's the only way you’ll feel better. I promise.”

Max didn't have time to continue to beg Daniel to get up and ingest anything. He needed to head out if he didn't want to be late. He whispered apologies and told Sassy and Jimmy to continue to look after Daniel, he ended the call after hearing what sounded suspiciously like a whined ‘miss you Maxy’. He wasn’t allowing himself to acknowledge it, Daniel wasn’t coherent right now.

Max was clearly unsettled, Christian noticed and pulled him aside after the first meeting. He’d kept checking his phone, he received no messages from Daniel and the messages in the group chat weren't confidence inspiring.

"What's going on Max?" Christian was looking at him concerned. "Is everyone alright?"

"I need to leave." Max was blunt, Christian got more worried.

"Why what's wrong?"

With a sigh, Max explained everything. How Daniel was magical adept and was staying with him. And how he might be sick and no one was available to take care of him. 

"You can't just leave because your friend is hungover Max." Christian rolled his eyes. 

"Christian you don't understand. He couldn't even answer my calls. Sassy answered the phone. I know how it sounds but you have to believe me."

Christian didn't look moved at all and Max felt his heart sink into the pits of his stomach. His phone rang, Lando was calling him– finally.

"Lando! Please give me good news?"

"So like, Sassy keeps chirping. What does that mean?" Lando sounded pathetic on the other line. No doubt he wasn't going to drink again for another year.

"What do you mean? What else is she doing?" Max watched as Christian raised an eyebrow.

"Well she kinda led me to the cat nest. Daniel's still asleep I think. But Sassy keeps chirping at me and sniffing Daniel's hand."

"I dunno mate. Check his tattoos, maybe?"

Max watched as Lando's head moved off camera, he could hear Sassy's chirps; they didn't sound promising. Max tried to hold onto his fear, especially which Christian watching his every response.

"Uhm." Lando's voice squeaked with panic. "The rose looks pretty pale. Is that supposed to happen? It's pretty droopy too."

Lando's panicked eyes engulfed the screen.

"Show me!" Max demanded and bit his lip when the camera flipped again and Lando wrenched back Daniel's sleeve to show his tattoo that was indeed pale and sick looking. Christian looked over his shoulder and together they watched as the rose lost a petal.

"Max what do I do???"

"Well I'll be damned." Christian murmured in shock.

"Christian, I need to go." Max tried again, hoping some form of proof of urgency would help.

Christian sighed and rubbed at the bridge of his nose. "Fix this then come back." 

Turns out, travelling is still a nightmare even if you have your own plane. Things like clearance and pulling staff from days off became a hindrance. But what was the point of being rich if you couldn’t throw money at your problems? And that’s how Max was on his way home. 

Max was livid, and he let his ire be known in the group chat. Lando was groveling with memes, Charles said sorry (it was more like ‘sprrh’ but the spirit was there). And Alex was trying to recreate a timeline of events. 

None of that, however, made his dread any less when he received a text message from Michelle. It was just a link and ‘???????’. Which could never be good.

And it wasn’t. Because on his screen was a video of Daniel’s rose blooming and glowing with strobe lights and EDM blaring in the background. The caption was pretty simple, expressing shock at the moving tattoos and you could hear Daniel giggling in the background. They didn’t show his face thankfully.

Max groaned, because fuck. 

He didn’t need to look at the views or likes to know that this video had gone viral; how else would Michelle have seen it on the other side of the world? The phone rang in his hand and he answered it while dragging his other hand down his face.

“Max, what the fuck?!” Michelle was, reasonably, upset. It was painful to explain that he hadn’t been there and that Daniel was suffering. He could see the distress and distrust churning in her eyes. Eventually she let him go after he promised updates, it took nothing less than actual vows for her to believe him.

When he finally made it home, he truly didn’t know what to expect. The cats welcoming him back with loud meows and chirps were not it. He followed them to the cat nest where Daniel still layed, there was a bottle of water and gatorade sweating beside him but both were unopened. 

“Oh Daniel.” Max cooed, kneeling on the outside of the blankets and pillows. Daniel still hid his face from presumably the brightness of the living room. Max looked around, unable to locate Lando, which was probably for the best right now.

“Maxy…?” Daniel murmured, pained and unsure.

“I’m here. Can you drink some water for me?”

“Maxy, hurts so bad.” Daniel’s voice wobbled. Max’s heart clenched.

“I know Daniel, but you need to drink. You’ll feel better.” Daniel groaned pitfully and Max sighed. He crawled into the cat nest and gently maneuvered Daniel to rest against him. Daniel buried his face into Max’s chest, nuzzling his sternum. “If you drink some for me, you can go back to sleep and I’ll order pizza. Does that sound good?”

Daniel hummed and Max proceeded to help him drink half the bottle of water and half the gatorade. 

“What about your work?” Daniel rasped and Max waved him off, they didn’t need to talk about that. Lando came out of the powder room then, looking like death warmed over. No doubt he had been praying to the porcelain gods.

“Max, you’re here! Thank god!” Lando sagged with relief and threw himself onto the couch. “Wait, how are you here?”

“Doesn’t matter–” Max cut himself off from saying that they had a problem. Even though they did. He shook his head and focused on the task at hand, which was taking Daniel to his bed in the guest room. They didn’t quite make it and hand to beeline for the toilet where Daniel pitifully released what remained churning in his stomach. It wasn’t a lot but his body didn’t know that apparently. Max petted his hair while he dryheaved and then helped him into the soft sheets after. The cats padded and curled around him worriedly, and Max took that as an ok to leave the room to talk to Lando, Sassy would get him if anything.

“Mate what the fuck?” Max hissed at Lando, who shrunk back into the couch to hide. 

“Mate, I dunno. I’m sorry. We didn’t even leave him for too long.”

“Long enough!” Max pulled up the video and shoved it into Lando’s face. Lando paled further and looked like he was about to be sick again.

“Well, fuck.”

“All you had to do was keep him company, Mate. That isn’t so fucking hard. For fuck’s sake man!” Max ranted, dragging his hand through his hair in agitation. 

“He thought you were like his ex! Who was super controlling and wouldn’t let him go anywhere without him!” Lando cut in, Max froze.

“What?”

“Yeah, when I told him we weren’t going he got all sad and stuff, Mate. You can ask Alex and Lily, started talking about how he thought you were good. I defended your honour by the way! Thankyouverymuch-ow” Lando cradled his head in his hand.

“His ex was controlling?” Max whispered, the clench in his chest was back.

“Yeah, apparently he didn’t want Daniel singing. And Daniel had to stay home when he was gone. Couldn’t go anywhere. He was so upset Max, we couldn’t not go.”

“I’m not mad you went out, I don’t care about that. I’m mad he was left alone and got drunk. Who knows what else could have happened. What if someone slipped him something? What if more than this video is on the internet?!” Max was pissed, he wanted to teleport to Perth and meet this ex, he just only wanted to talk. Truly.

But he couldn’t do that so he had to settle for yelling at Lando.

“I’m sorry…” it was faint and both men turned around to see Daniel leaning against the wall in the hallway. He looked pitiful and sad, maybe a bit withdrawn. 

“Daniel– you should–” 

“I’m sorry– I should have known better. I shouldn’t have– Sassy says you don’t normally come back so quickly. I messed up your plans again didn’t I?” Daniel sagged against the wall. Max rushed over to help him with wide eyes. Lando stayed on the couch– once again out of his depth.

“Daniel–”

“I’m so sorry Max! I didn’t mean to, I promise! Please don’t be mad.”

Max grabbed Daniel’s shoulders, dipping his head to look into Daniel’s sad downturned eyes. “You didn’t do anything wrong. I came back because I wanted to take care of you. I’m not mad at you, I promise.” Max held his pinky between them. 

Daniel searched his eyes for a moment, staring deep into Max’s soul with his haunted brown cow eyes. Before he hesitantly raised his own pinky and hooked them together.

Part 12

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At @moominhands behest here is my game list thing! <3 Reasoning under the cut:

Favorite game of all time: If i absolutley have to pick one it'd have to be Shadow of the Colossus, tho runners up are definitely ICO, FNV, Okami, Windwaker and Twilight Princess. it's hard to choose just the one honestly there's so many more too, but this game was so influential and i sunk so many hours into just exploring the world and taking in every tiny detail, it and ICO really changed my perspective on games in general.

Favorite Series: Dragon Age, it's camp and has a lot of issues, but it gave me extreme brain rot and i love it a lot.

Best Soundtrack: ICO, this game has barely any music! But when it does, it really goes all out, the resting theme and the erie music before the final boss are my favorites.

Favorite Protagonist: Hawke, from Dragon age 2, this is surprising to absolutely no one.

Favorite Villain: Dormin from SOTC, I love this thing, is it even really a villan? who knows but it's very cool and i love the voice acting for it! runners up are the shadow creatures from ICO for similar reasons and The Master from Fallout 1.

Best Story: Night in the Woods. This was really hard to pick tbh i could've put a few in this spot but this is one of my favorite story focused walking sims and i love to revisit it.

Have not played but want to: Disco Elysium, I've attempted to play this game on console very briefly once but couldn't get used to the controls. Now that i have a PC I'm planning to play it but i need to be in the right headspace for big CRPGs as i find them hard to get into so, i just need to wait till the time is right to play it. I also want to play Hades.

You Love, Everyone Hates: The Last Guardian, everyone hated this game SO MUCH, especially at launch.. Heaps of streaming people who had only ever played Shadow all expected it to be SOTC again but when it turned out to be much closer to ICO with only some elements of Shadow people just hated it so much for what it wasn't. This game much like ICO can be frustrating at times but it's really good and had a lot of love put into it, the A I of the Creature Trico is especially cool as it learns depending on how you interact with it and becomes more responsive and easy to direct. It's certainly not a game for everyone but it didn't deserve the amount of disdain it received on release.

You Hate, Everyone Loves: (please don't kill me for these I don't actually hate them they're just not for me) Kingdom hearts, I tried multiple times to play these games and i just couldn't get into them, they're just not for me i think, i don't really find the gameplay or story elements particularly engaging. Sad! a lot of my friends really love these and seem to get a lot out of them. I never had the chance to play them as a kid though so i feel like i may have had different opinions if i'd started playing them earlier. Last of us 2, The weird opinion split when it released between bigots who hated it cause women and queer people were in it and then the other people saying it was the most profound piece of media ever was really frustrating because it kind of shut down a lot of good faith criticism. I think the main problems i have is that it came out in a really depressing time where something with such a bleak and unsatisfying ending came across as a bit gauche even though the devs couldn't have anticipated it. And that there's a bunch of good elements about it that just didn't really stick the landing for me, or were handled poorly imo. Personally the overall message it's going for via it's gameplay and story had already been done, and done better over 10 years prior (see Shadow of the Colossus; Ico was a stated main inspiration for the first last of us and i'm pretty certain Shadow was for part 2 considering the parallels), and it would've been quite ground breaking back then but now it's not so much. Again this is personal opinion of how it's just not really for me.

Best Art Style: Okami! Kind of self explanatory, even on ps2 this game's graphics still hold up because of that art style, and i love how it was incorporated into the gameplay.

Favorite Ending: Zelda: Twilight Princess, love this game, the climactic boss rush and the story conclusion is so good, it's such a long game and the characters go through so much it all really wraps up nicely even with it's melancholic tone. This was the first Zelda game i fully finished so the ending had more of an impact on me too because of that.

Favorite Boss Fight: Crimson Helm, from Okami, this guy is super fun to fight, cool design, great arena, always a good one to revisit.

Childhood Game(s): my first ever game was Duke Nukem DOS on the floppy disk on my dads old computer, it's a side scroller that's sound effects are drilled into my brain. Frogger i got later on the same computer once dad upgraded his for work, it was the first game i ever finished. and Nintendogs i got much later again with the old clunky silver DS, i played this game way too much.

Relaxing Game(s): Lil Gator Game, it's so fun and cruisey to play, really charming and great controls. Flock, I only played this recently but it's so fun, very pretty, you just fly about and spot new creatures to list in your encyclopedia! A Short Hike, really great chill vibes, i love revisiting this one every now and then. Proteus is also a good one.

Stressful Game: Mass Effect 2, I love these games but they're so stressful trying to avoid people dying from random dumb choices you make hours prior omg! 2 is especially bad for it off memory, i remember writing up a strategy sheet for that last big level so i could avoid people dying.

Game you always come back to: Drakan The Ancients Gates, I love this one, it's a bit janky but it's got a really weird and interesting world, with a weird plot and bizzare character design.

Guilty Pleasure: The Dog Island, this game is so silly but i played so much of it as a kid it was kind of ridiculous, so i really enjoy revisiting it every now and then, it's also kind of bizarre in terms of how the story is written.

Tons of Hours Played: Baldur's Gate 3, I've only played it through twice but it's stacked up a bunch of hours, really good tho! others that I've spent way too much time with is Dragon age Inquisition, Animal crossing NH and NL, and of course SOTC but i dont actually have the hour count for that one, i can only assume.

[samnyangie]

Important announcement!!!

Hello! I haven't posted here for long because of things, but I came here to say that I haven't forgot about Bobby's Birthday!

Last year, I built a website specially for Bobby's birthday and encouraged people to write something on the birthday message board, if you're interested, this is the link.

This year, I prepared something more huge...? In a way it requires more work (and money) on my part yet honestly I have no idea if anyone is eager to join but I've been planning to do this for a long time, so here it is.

To celebrate Bobby's birthday this year, I decided to hold a free giveaway (but the postage fee will be requested) of this collection of merchandise I've designed myself with a theme, The Midsummer Night's Dream. The collection will include:

A Postcard

A ticket to the play

And a random photocard

The Procedure

If you'd like to join this giveaway, firstly please fill out form below

However, before you fill it out, please note:

The information will be disposed in 3 days after the dispatch of the delivery

I will not be responsible for any missing or damaged postage caused during the delivery

I'll request to receive a delivery fee before your order being posted, I won't post it until then.

I'll receive the delivery fee only via PayPal.

If you don't respond to my message more than a day, I'll assume you've withdrawn from the giveaway, so please check the messages.

After you've filled out the form, I'll reach out to you through tumblr or other social media within 3 days with an evidence of your order has been packed/rechecking the address, the requested delivery fee and the link to my PayPal account. Once your payment went through, at least within a day I'll send the post off and give you the receipt as a evidence, and tracking number.

This giveaway will be held for a week so approximately 20th this February, you no longer request the giveaway onwards. I’m thinking to give to 10 or 15 people maximum.

But depending on the circumstances or the state of the post office, (strike, delay etc) it might take longer than estimated, but I'll inform you straight way if that's the case. Hopefully everything will go smoothly haha

I'll kindly ask anyone who is in the fandom, not just rsl but also dps fandom or just anyone to give this post a reblog to be reach out to more people!

I'll tag some of my mutuals who might be interested!

@boy-wonder-oncologist-fan

@aedan-mills

@deelaundry

@soophelia

@scarletblakeney

@greenparadiseperry

Okay, I hope I covered everything...? If you have any question, feel free to message me!

Thank you for reading this post, happy RSL month everybodyyyy

[cutebutalsostabby]

Voice Referendum P2

Some very weird anon just sent me a very weird anonymous essay about my post on the Voice referendum (link). I'm not going to give the essay itself any airtime, but I am happy to share some extra info for education purposes.

Terminology

The term "settler" refers to anyone non-Indigenous, regardless of ethnic background. Sometimes it is useful to be more specific, e.g. white, Asian, African and so on, but the Voice was a proposal created for the sake of Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander people (aka Indigenous, First Nations or Blak), therefore settler is a useful term to describe the non-Indigenous population - who were, unfortunately, invited to have an opinion on this matter.

The above is not to say that whiteness is totally irrelevant here: while I couldn't find any data on how different racial demographics voted, the survey conducted by Octopus Group and Accent Research (link) shows a telling correlation between those that voted No in the referendum and those that believed (falsely) that white people face more discrimination than Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander people.

I also note ABC's analysis (link) that those living in inner city locations were more likely to vote yes than those in rural areas. There are a few ways you could interpret that; one of them is that inner city areas tend to be more multicultural.

Do White People Experience More Discrimination than Aboriginal and Torres Strait Islander People?

No.

Given the above graph, it's not hard to interpret how the anon that messaged me about "shitting on white people" voted, but it's really not hard to fact check this claim: even beyond the catastrophic breaches of human rights during the original invasion of so-called Australia - from murder to disease to destruction of land and property to forced evacuation to the death of several Indigenous languages - the effects of genocide continue today. Indigenous people are about 15 times more likely to be in prison and have a roughly 10-year lower life-expectancy than non-Indigenous people (source). Even before the Voice "debate" arrived, The Guardian reported that discrimination against Indigenous Australians had risen rapidly in 2021 (link). It only really takes a few minutes of independent research for any claims that the Voice would provide "special privilege" to fall apart.

I'm Queer and Have Racial Opinions, Hear Me Roar

Queer settlers are still settlers. Queer white people are still white. Specifically in regards to this part of the message I received:

im a queer woman in a relationship that is not heteronormative and i agree with almost everything the left wing says. i just think

I don't think this lovely lady did think so I'mma cut her off right there. Thanks for your very exciting opinion :) please dispose of it responsibly.

...So Now What?

Well, the vote has already happened, and unfortunately it was a No. Honestly, I'm a bit confused about receiving this ask now? Ah well.

As I said in my last post, I don't think settlers should have been voting on this in the first place, but since we were, I believe it was our duty to vote Yes. All past opinion polls showed that as the majority Indigenous opinion. I do respect that some Indigenous people voted No themselves, whether due to Jacinta Price's perspective on the "Voice of Division" or Lidia Thorpe's as representative for the Blak Sovereign Movement. Indigenous people are not a monolith, nor should they be expected to behave that way. In the case of settlers voting No however: I don't believe there is a good excuse for this. I think it was a racist result. I'm not overly surprised, but I am disappointed. Even so, the Voice was never going to be the end of it.

A few years ago, I made a commitment that at least 1% of my income would go towards paying the rent to Indigenous people (further info here). I've kept this commitment and would encourage others with an income to do the same. I've also written to my local MP to remind him of the unactioned recommendations from the Royal Commission into Aboriginal Deaths in Custody as well as the Bringing them Home Report.

I'd really encourage all settlers, in Australia or elsewhere, to find some way to get involved. Let's make use of our privilege and make the world a better and more equal place for all.

Thanks for reading.

[kelleah-meah]

My 2023 Samhain tarot reading

Once again, I'm a little late sharing my annual Samhain tarot reading results. What can I say? Life's been a bit ... unusual lately.

Enough excuses. If you checked out my 2022 Samhain reading, you know the past few years had a bit of a recurring theme. In short, the past few year's reading gave me a Theme of the Year card that followed a pattern.

For Samhain 2019-2020, my Theme of the Year card was a Knight of Wands.

For Samhain 2020-2021, the Theme of the Year card was a Queen of Wands.

For 2021-2022, the Theme of the Year was represented by the King of Cups.

And now, for 2022-2023, the Theme of the Year is ... The World.

So here we are, looking at the 2023-2024 year, and what did it tell me to expect over the upcoming year? The Fool.

Nah, I'm just kidding!

I did The Fool card later in the reading, but it wasn't my Theme of the Year card. Even though this Witch's New Year spread did send me plenty of signs reinforcing the idea that I will be starting a new journey in my life (which is echoed in other areas of my life, hello reverse nodal return!), it wasn't as in-your-face as I would've appreciated, I did receive the message.

Let's dive in!

Here is my set up on All Hallow's Eve at the end of last month:

For anyone wondering, I typically begin all my readings with a brief breathing exercise aided by the Breathe app. Then I use the SoundHeal app to play a tone while I meditate. Of course, I can meditate or do a reading without doing all of these things, but I find that the ritual of it all helps me gain clarity during my tarot reading.

(With that said, I am looking to replace the SoundHeal app because it's not as effective as it used to be. I've noticed the tones go down significantly within seconds after you start no matter how loud you turn up the volume.)

Anyway, after I meditate, I lay out the cards to follow this specific spread:

And this is what it told me:

I know that's a little hard to see, but feel free to dive into the breakdown below to help give you more insight into each card ...

Theme of the Year

- 4 of Pentacles

Interpretation: I will actively give and save as I learn to be more in flow with the universe and live an abundant life.

Fall 1 (the remainder of Fall 2023)

- 7 of Pentacles

Interpretation: I will give thanks for what I harvest as I also reflect, reinvigorate, and realign, utilizing patience as the seeds of my efforts continue to grow.

Fall 2 (the beginning of Fall 2024)

- 10 of Pentacles

Interpretation: I will stop living in survival mode and expect success and happiness. Spiritual and material abundance will abound, and I will spread it around generously.

Hopes

- 9 of Pentacles

Interpretation: The harmony and harvest I seek are right in front of me. I will be myself and embrace the energy of success and celebrate my progress.

Dreams

- Justice

Interpretation: My dreams of balance and harmony are becoming a reality. In response, I will learn from every part of me and allow that wisdom to guide me.

Winter 1

- The Sun

Interpretation: I am whole and perfect so I will shine like the sun and find my confidence in joy and creativity.

Winter 2

- 6 of Cups

Interpretation: I will forgive myself and make peace with my past for it has brought me to where I am meant to be.

Creativity

- The Moon

Interpretation: I will go within, find comfort in the darkness, and calmly listen to the whispers of my intuition as it reinvigorates your creativity.

Career

- The Fool

Interpretation: I will trust my intuition as I dive into a new beginning for an adventure that will lead me down my soul's intended path.

Money

- 10 of Wands

Interpretation: I will let go of heavy burdens and prioritize my essential needs. The rest will fall into place.

Business

- 10 of Swords

Interpretation: I will let go to meet the new dawn so my wounds can begin to heal.

Spring 1

- The Devil

Interpretation: I will delve into my shadow side, go outside my comfort zone, and find the healing I seek. I am on the cusp of liberation.

Spring 2

- The Empress

Interpretation: I will focus on unifying my mind, body and spirit. I will also calmly move in the direction of my heart and abundance will follow.

Relationships

- King of Cups

Interpretation: Through diplomacy and wise leadership, I will find stability and balance while fostering love, empathy and acceptance.

Love

- Queen of Pentacles

Interpretation: I will give myself permission to rise to my potential, warts and all. Abundance in the form of self-love is essential to a life well-lived.

Summer 1

- 3 of Wands

Interpretation: Opportunities will arrive as I continue to move in the right direction. I will keep going as I manifest what I have prepared for years ago.

Summer 2

- The World

Interpretation: A blissful and happy ending is upon me. I will welcome this beautiful shift as it expands my consciousness and prepares me for the next adventure.

Travel

- 2 of Cups

Interpretation: A beginning of a new partnership or friendship is near, resulting in the merging of 2 paths and kindred spirits.

Explorations

- King of Pentacles

Interpretation: Every lesson, challenge, success and failure in my life led to more personal growth. I will cultivate my past and dream my biggest light to life.

Hearth

- 3 of Cups

Interpretation: Nothing is too big or too small to celebrate. I will trust my heart to lead me to genuine friendships that make life more joyful.

Home

- The Tower

Interpretation: An unexpected change will challenge you to the point where you will need to re-evaluate, re-direct, re-establish and re-align in order to move toward the brightest light.

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My overall thoughts:

Once again, I have no idea what to expect for the upcoming year. I know that at the moment, I'm at a bit of a crossroads and I'm doing my best to not feel afraid of what's to come.

The 4 of Pentacles is not a bad Theme of the Year. Clearly I am building toward something -- hopefully it will include paying off medical bills and reducing debt -- but at the moment, I don't know what that something is.

Let's just say I know more of what I do not want than what I do want.

There are a lot of major arcana for this upcoming year (although 1 less than last year), and it's important to remember that it is mostly pretty balanced:

The Tower

The World

The Devil

The Empress

The Fool

Justice

The Sun

The Moon

Considering what's going on in the world (especially in my country of the U.S.), I think the best I can do is take every day one day at a time.

[selene-moonie]

Be practical babes

Semi-random thought I had (also, sorry for my lack of posting recently, I've been busy working and manifesting other things) but I feel like sometimes we take the practicality out of manifesting.

Like I've seen some people say you can't complain about your present circumstances while you're manifesting your desired circumstances.

My response to this is nuanced, obviously.

If you're in trash circumstances, you're not going to like it. You'll probably be stressed out, you might feel anxious, and when things you don't like happen, you'll probably feel annoyed. And only when you get what you want that may change.

For example, I've wanted to go to the beach since last September. I almost went in December, but it didn't happen and I was really upset about it.

I think the week of V-day I was like, "fuck it, I'm going to the beach," and I started affirming angrily that I was going to the beach. The guy I made out with the night I was supposed to go to the beach in December posted on his ig pictures of himself at the beach, and I messaged him about it, telling him that I was so jealous that he made it to the beach. We spoke and stuff, cool. Days later, I'm having a conversation and I'm literally complaining to a new friend that I so desperately wanted to go to the beach and that if someone messaged me at 10:55 am the following day that they wanted to take me to the beach, I'd tell them to give me two hours (cuz I had a work meeting at 11:00 am) and they could come pick me up.

The following morning, sometime after nine in the morning, the guy I made out with messaged our group chat to plan a beach lime for Sunday. It was Friday.

I did go to the beach, it was wonderful, I had a great time and I'm going again soon.

Now, what was the difference between the type of complaining I was doing and what people usually recommend when it comes to complaining about your circumstances? Even though I was venting out my frustrations, I kept telling myself that I'd be at the beach. That no matter that it hadn't happened as yet, I would go. I was in the state of having it, despite my circumstances not reflecting that as yet.

Also, me venting was expressing my own anger and frustration towards myself for having slacked off in the first place, because at the time of originally manifesting it, I didn't persist and hence it didn't happen. And that's what I was really angry about, not the fact that my 3d didn't reflect my mind.

For a very long time, I was focused on not complaining or dealing with my feelings because I thought it would fuck up my manifestations. But in comparison to nowadays, my anxiety, depression, and spiraling were way worse in the past and I still manifested so do those things have anything to do with me getting what I want? Not as much as I used to think they did.

I still feel anxious and frustrated by things because there are still things I want to change in my life, but I don't let those feelings dictate whether or not I receive my manifestations. I get my shit regardless of how I feel.

I've found that by letting myself experience the feelings of frustration and anger allows me to let go of the old story, which then releases a lot of the resistance that I have to the things in my mind. Once I get to that point, my sheer determination to get what I want overrides any circumstances I may or may not perceive and it's usually a matter of days of me affirming that my desire shows up.

Ok so basically what I'm trying to say is that you can complain, but don't complain from the state you don't want.

When you're in garbage circumstances, things are going to frustrate you and that is ok. Do what you need to in order to manage your emotions.

However, when it comes to getting what you want, stay in the state of the wish fulfilled. Stay there, know it's yours, know you have it, or at the very least, that you're going to get it.

Because you're more likely to just be frustrating yourself otherwise.

So be practical when manifesting. Find a system for it that works for you and take your time. You're going to get everything you want, I promise.

Love,

your favorite Moon Babe,

Selene 🌚

[i-had-a-vision]

Ancient divination with the darkness, gods and caves.

And why it is to be heavily respected in practice especially.

You can't escape what you practice when it comes to divination in the dark.

All things are revealed in darkness, and ego is put on front and center, can you escape the trappings of self to witness the beyond?

Breathework, concentration, opening your mind

And the visions start, its all dark your eyes are wide open and if you dont keep your breath just right youll either hurt yourself from shock or youll jolt out of the vision and loose it.

So no matter how bad it gets no matter how much you really do feel the pain of hot flames licking at you or blunt force beaking open your skull open, you have to just breathe.

Overcome and rise.

Or it'll take you and you'll be locked in a vessel with horrible breathing issues, your body will be thrashing and contorting more than ever thought possible.

It is not possession at least not this, its the shock of not being able to process or comprehend whats going on, the energy spikes and it burns through my veins, if youve ever had a thermal medication enter your blood stream, you understand at least the path that fire would travel the heat from the medication is in comparison, a candle held to a forest fire.

The pain is agonizing.

But breathe amd respect the darkness and the deitys in accordance to the darkness divination. The point is the message of the vision and if you cant get that down what good are you other than a thrashing self absorbed idiot who didn't even know how to breathe right.

[I turn my critical gaze on myself now, judging my past mistakes that even encouraged this post.]

I did good this week though, the thrashing only happened i think two or three times and i was able to grab onto Goddess Athenas hand

[praise goddess athena for everything she did, she is truly increidble]

And pull myself mentally out of the pain and sensory overlode that is the innescapable visions in the darkness.

You cant close your eyes

Its still there

The darkness and the visions follow always

If youre reading this and you want to try divination in the way i've been tlaking about...

Realize You wont get the results, ive been doing this nearly my entire life and i was trained by many various teachers and myself on an array of methods behind divination as a whole. The door wont open if you just sit in the dark on drugs. You have to know how the doors lock even works and where to get the key. How its even made

If you do know youre advanced enough to trigger it, dont do it without help or more practice. your're not as advanced as you think. You will hurt yourself, or the visions will not be received as accruately because you didnt bother to actually look into the history of why we do what we do. The dark has and always will require some form of divine or spiritually advanced assistance at the beginning at LEAST.

The dark requires a guide and to ignore that would be disrespectfull to all entitys and gods behind the darkness' divination.

As it essentially brodcasts your massive ego in saying "hello ancient gods! i have come searching for divine answers entirely alone because i genuinely think im powerfull and knwoladgeable enough to see you without any kind of help whatsoever dispite thousands of years of human generations worshipping you and asking for your guidance or requesting gods to ferry us to you- no no see im one of the super special ones so give me a vision right now."

^

Thats what you look like 9 time sout of 10

I know, because they talk to those who do respect them. You may not see their negative response right away, because they tend to teach you lessions in action rather than words when you come at them with massive egos, they know not to waste their breathe on those who dont care and have shown no care or intrest in learning so far.

So, youll find your visions are false. They dont make sense, or worse, theyr clear perfect and you feel ethyerial, amazing!! you never needed anyone anyways!!....you see where you're flying Icarus?

Good luck.

[neaura-nightsong]

4 AIs in a Trenchcoat

I don't stop to come talk about my work much, especially lately. I've been too busy coding and developing, and frankly, no matter how many groundbreaking things I deploy, even when they're world-firsts, they never garner much attention, so I've taken to just keeping my head down and focusing on what matters; the work.

However, today I make an exception.

Soon, very soon, the world will be seeing Clustered Agent AIs everywhere. These are AIs that can do more things in more places, and part of what makes them tick is they operate in swarms. This means the AI you talk to isn't just one AI agent, but rather, many, working together to accomplish your goals, and the one you talk to, is simply that, the one tasked with interacting with you.

Now, before this happens at scale, I wanted to make my own proof of concept of this , just so I could say I did before I had other products to reference, copy, or derive my methods from.

So now we get back to the work... I've completely rebuilt N'lora Starbeam from the ground up, and she now works like this:

Step 0: A Chatlog of the past 80 messages in channel is generated and saved to a file for later use. [ChatLog Generated and Held]

Step 1: Summarizer AI (OpenAI 4o Mini)- This AI looks at past conversations in whatever channel, server, DM or etc she is in, and writes a detailed summary for N'lora to help her understand what was going on before she showed up or came online or after a reboot/crash etc. [Summary is Generated and Held]

Step 2: NightRaven AI (Google Gemini Flash 002) - The NightRaven is a rule-follower and enforcer. The NightRaven scans the current incoming user messages + has the context of the ChatLog created in step 0, and checks that nothing has been said that compromises N'lora's systems, checks for what modes and functions N'lora should use in her response (should she generate an image? share a photo of herself? Save an entry to her memory file? Look up a memory? reward or punish? etc) then writes a report for N'lora with said recommendations. [NightRaven Report Generated and Held]

Step 3: MindKeeper AI (OpenAI 4o Mini) - This AI stores, retrieves and manages N'lora's extensive memory file. MindKeeper receives the current user messages, along with NightRaven's report, and runs a file search on all of N'lora's memory files, looking for relevant memories or data to provide to N'lora to help her generate a response for the user. [MindKeeper Report Generated and Held]

Step 4: N'lora Starbeam (Google Gemini Flash 002) - Our User-facing AI Agent "N'lora", receives the Summary, the ChatLog, NightRaven's Report, and MindKeeper's Report, and then is prompted to generate a response, which is now much easier given that the previous agents have already done much of the heavy lifting; The user-facing agent can now focus on being excellent at interacting with the user, and is much less likely to make mistakes, forget important functions, or choose wrong or inappropriate ones.

Once the task of Response Generation begins for N'lora, she will then go through a 10-step Chain-Of-Thought system to once more verify her understanding of the input, make final decisions based on the recommendation reports, and decide on a final response.

Also by augmenting the use of both Google Gemini and OpenAI products, we've leveraged the best qualities of both platforms; the efficient memory storage and retrieval systems at OpenAI, and the freedom from censorship of Gemini.

This is a very small and limited example of an Agent Cluster or Chain of Agents, and you'll be seeing a lot more of it very soon. Though how transparent that will be, is debatable. So here's a little transparency from me. ;)

Thanks for coming to my nerd-talk. ^^

[goyountokki]

Go Younjung, Who is Infinitely Close to Clarity

Interview by Jo So-Hyun from Vogue Korea | 2021.02.26

"Wow, this is really great!" Go Younjung thinks as she looks at the ranking of <Sweet Home> on the Netflix main screen. Even before she became an actress, Netflix always be the main screen on her living room TV. "It's not even showed as 'content I've added to my wishlist,' it's 'Today's Top 10 Contents in Korea' No. 1. When I saw that, I was hit by reality that 'I'm starring in this drama.'"

Go Younjung, who debuted in <He is Psychometric> and appeared as a high school student with a sad story in <The School Nurse Files>, quickly gained global popularity as Park Yuri, a crossbow-shooting nurse in <Sweet Home>. As someone who started her career as an advertising model, the recognition she received through <Sweet Home> is making her feeling more emotional than when her photo was hung on the wall of a department store in the middle of Myeongdong. “There are a lot of foreign language comments on my SNS account. There were even comments that said <Sweet Home> was good (in weird Korean sentence), as if they had been translated straight from the translation apps (laughs).”

Park Yuri, who appears in the middle of the series, leaves a strong impression by taking the lead for others despite suffering from asthma. “Yuri is a calm, strong, and self-sacrificing friend. There is a metaphorical line, ‘She can sacrifice herself like this. She is about to die from suffocation,’ and I found that very appealing.” However, the specifics of why she helps people, what her relationship with Gilseop is, and why she speaks in Da-Na-Kka (military-styled speech) are not described. “I kept thinking about why Yuri did that and wrote a lot of sub-stories (to help her understand Yuri's character). To briefly explain what I imagined, since she suffers from asthma, she must have been going in and out of hospitals since she was young and naturally became close to nurses and doctors. Then, she must have thought that she should help sick people. Because she has been sick.” Unlike her appearance, which resembles the early summer morning fog, Go Younjung’s voice is somewhat low and thick, like the sound of a bell on a late autumn afternoon. This voice clearly imprints the actress, who has appeared in three works. “During the audition, after I finished reading Yikyung, Eunyu, Jisu, and Yuri's line, the director told me to do Yikyung’s line as a firefighter one more time. It was a military-style speech, then the director said that Yu-ri should use Da-Na-Kka. And when I first met Kim Gapsoo on set, I unconsciously said ‘Hello, how are you?’ (in military-styled speech) instead of casual ‘Hello.’ (Laughs).”

Park Yuri’s line, “Since I survived, I should live more like a human being” in response to Pyeon Sangwook (played by Lee Jinwook) saying, “What kind of manners are needed in this world?”, penetrates the message of <Sweet Home>. Between humans who are more monstrous than monsters and monsters who are more human than humans, <Sweet Home> asks about humanity. “I had a lot of trouble with that line. I couldn’t define it. I just think that if you value what’s important even if it’s not visible, wouldn’t you be living like a human being?” I’ve imagined what Yuri’s desire would be like if she were to become a monster. “I think she would turn into a liquid monster that helps people instead of attacking them, and she would apply her body’s mucus to the injured to help them heal.” She also added that if our society were to collapse like in <Sweet Home>, Go Younjung would have had a strong will to survive. “If it were me, I would have tried to live somehow. But if it seemed hopeless, I think I would die meaningfully. Whether it be as cannon fodder or as an organ donor.”

Go Younjung told an anecdote about how she read the webtoon <Sweet Home> in three hours and went to the audition. “I don’t usually enjoy reading webtoons, but I read <Sweet Home> in no time. I went to the meeting excitedly, thinking that it will be fun if it was made into a drama. I always enjoy watching works that are full of blood and gore. I like director Quentin Tarantino, who has the ability to interpret cruel scenes in a humorous way. I’ve watched <Inglourious Basterds> more than seven times. I also like works that show teamwork, like <Stranger Things>. <Sweet Home> isn’t just a monster movie; it’s humorous, touching, and really has everything!”

Another impressive point in <Sweet Home> is the four female characters including Park Yuri. Lee Siyoung, Park Gyuyoung, Go Minsi, and Go Younjung not only protect themselves but also lead and overcome crises. Go Younjung, who did ballet from the age of five until she was in her first year of middle school, did figure skating for one to two years, and also swam consistently, expressed her huge admiration for Lee Siyoung. “We didn’t have many scenes together, but I told her ‘I respect you’ when we had a company dinner. I like working out, so I learned so much from Si-young and had so much to talk about. Things like how even if you point just one finger in a different direction, the stimulation point is different, and what kind of protein supplements you take (laughs). I’m really into weight-lifting training these days.” This is the common conversation between actresses who shoot fire arrows at monsters and show off their erector spinae like Christmas trees. The four actors, who have similar personalities and great chemistry, said they are most sincere about delicious food.

The reason why she started acting is somewhat dramatic. For Go Younjung who is a college student majoring in contemporary art, her acting career opportunity came from a photo in a university magazine. Go Younjung, who used to dreamed of becoming an artist, curator, or teacher, had no interest in movies or dramas. However, Go Younjung, whose personality is “once she gets hooked, she will see to the end of it" has watched 600 to 700 movies as if she was trying to catching up on sleep. “If I liked a certain director, I watched all of that director’s filmography, and if I saw a great actor, I watched all of that actor’s filmography.” There was a day when she watched seven movies in a day without eating a single meal. “I just sat there drawing and wasn’t interested in anything in the world. But I changed while watching movies. My perspective changed and my values ​​were greatly influenced. Then, I was lucky enough to audition for great works and became even more determined to act. I really like the new stimulation and changes since I started acting.” She said that the best part is that she gets to know herself in ways she didn’t know. “I’m getting to know myself by meeting different people and characters. If I think about it, I’ve never been awkward around cameras since I was little. When my parents take pictures of me at the zoo or at the sledding hill, I don’t get nervous. I thought it was natural. But some people have camera phobia or are awkward around cameras. I thought that was a small but great blessing that I have, where many have to overcome it. If I hadn’t done this, I wouldn’t have known.”

Going back further in time, there was Go Younjung, an ordinary student who was obsessed with entrance exam art. “I only studied enough to get into college (laughs). I was confident in my practical skills. In my field, I always had to get at least an A, so I was a passionate student with a strong desire to win. On the other hand, I quickly gave up on things I had to give up. Like math? (laughs) I had a narrow and close circle of friends, and I liked to watch funny videos in the corner of the classroom. I was a truly ordinary student.” Her nickname followed her fate as a child born with the surname Go. “Because my surname is Go, I was called Goseumdochi (hedgehog), Gorilla, and Godzilla. In high school, I was only called by my last name. ‘Go’ or ‘Ggonjung’ (Ggonjung is from when you pronounce Go Younjung faster in Korean).”

The personality of only focusing on one thing without considering the consequences led Go Younjung to become an actress, but it also contributed to the production of a huge amount of carrot cakes, scones, and madeleines. She is into baking and bakes bread whenever she has time (she even baked a refreshing lemon pound cake on the set of <Vogue>). “I’m almost on the verge of getting a practical certificate right now (laughs). Cooking requires intuition, but baking is science. Temperature, humidity, and measurements all have to be accurate. I baked cookies as a test at first and succeeded! Since then, I’ve been making and sharing them one by one, never forgetting how delicious they were. I think I like giving more than receiving. Since I mostly take them to set, my hands have gotten bigger. Since I bake 12 madeleines at a time, I end up baking seven or eight batches. When I go to the gym, the trainers tell me that my shoulders are like that and that I should stop baking (laughs).”

As a self-proclaimed homebody, I am also very interested in pajamas. “I have been collecting pajamas by season since I received them as a gift. Even though they are not suits, there is a strange pleasure in wearing them that match the top and bottom. These days, it is cold, so I prefer comfortable, warm, and easy-to-wash clothes, but I like to wear wide pants. I like the feeling of not being too casual, but not too dressed up. I don’t know many designers, but I like Hedi Slimane’s designs. The menswear is also pretty. It is classic, but the fit is great.” (Coincidentally, the fashion editor prepared quite a few Hedi Slimane Celine outfits for today’s shoot.)

Go Younjung's next project is a drama set in a law school, <Law School>. "I play Jeon Yeseul, a law school student. She likes to dress up, has good relationships with her friends, and is cheerful. She is also faithful to her boyfriend and her love. However, this friend goes through various hardships and grows. The script was really interesting and the character was clear, which was great." Go Younjung, who is sparkling with excitement about acting, is standing before the words new beginning and next. "I'm not good at speaking coherently and I don't have any clear values, but I always think about it. I want to become an actress who makes people think, 'That's her?' 'Yeseul from <Law School> was Yuri from <Sweet Home>?' I think it would be really exciting to hear people say that!"

[howtoapologize]

JD Barker Apology

Background:

https://www.nbcnews.com/tech/booktok-jd-barker-email-sexual-promotions-rcna135929

So basically, an author in his 50's solicited a bunch of teens to be naked for a really awful payment. (100 dollars)

Original Apology

On January 23rd [2024], an email went out on my behalf to known BookTok influencers without consideration of age or gender, from a company I own, detailing the framework of a social media marketing campaign meant to promote my upcoming novel, Behind A Closed Door; an erotic thriller set to release later this year. The email detailed several video ideas that were in keeping with events that occur in the book, a work of fiction. Those ideas were followed by:

"These are just suggestions. You're welcome to use them for your video or come up with something on your own. Half the fun of something like this is to let creativity rule! The content of the video is entirely up to you. As long as it's promoting BEHIND A CLOSED DOOR, it will be eligible. So get creative!"

This campaign was never approved. The email wasn't meant to go out without a substantial rewrite, but through a chain of errors, it did.

I take full responsibility for that.

I'm horrified such a message was released. And I deeply regret the hurt I've caused to those who received it.

I have nothing but respect for the writing community and the people who champion it and I've let all of you down.

I have nothing but the deepest respect for women. I'm a husband. I'm a father. There is no excuse for the insensitivity demonstrated by my actions. The weight created by those actions is inexcusable. I can and will do better.

The written word is something I cherish. Words have a power. And sometimes they can hurt more than the most dangerous weapon. Knowing I've wielded that weapon and injured is something that will weigh on me for the remainder of my days. If you were impacted by this, I am truly sorry.

Grading

1. What are they sorry for? 5/10 He didn't mention to nude soliciting to minors part or how it seemed to magically only go to women and girls. Plus he had to promote the book a bit in the apology. "an erotic thriller set to release later this year." But this goes into the deductions portion.

He then follows it with excuses, which goes into the deductions.

2. Who is he sorry to? The Tiktok Influencers. Doesn't name them, but doesn't seem to know their names. 8

3. Why was it wrong? Doesn't say beyond he has respect for women? 2

4. How would he fix it and not do it again in the future? Doesn't say. He pins it on the Marketing team. (more on that later.) 0

5. Accept full responsibility? He says he does, but it doesn't feel like it. It's reaching towards non-apology with the previous in place. 0

6. Make reparations? No. No reparations. Like donate some of his book funds to RAINN. 0

Total: 15/60: 25% That's an F. Can he get a worse grade?

Deductions:

Promoting the book:

"an erotic thriller set to release later this year."

This is not the time. -3

15-3=12

Making excuses:

"These are just suggestions. You're welcome to use them for your video or come up with something on your own. Half the fun of something like this is to let creativity rule! The content of the video is entirely up to you. As long as it's promoting BEHIND A CLOSED DOOR, it will be eligible. So get creative!"

Shooting past the point where the email said to get naked to teen girls... yeah, no. That's not how it's done. -5

"The email wasn't meant to go out without a substantial rewrite"

Yeah, what this person said. -5

"I have nothing but the deepest respect for women. I'm a husband. I'm a father."

He didn't watch the Barbie Movie where they made fun of this.

Apologies aren't about you and trying to use others as a shield. -5

So basically he lied... - 5, which is supported by the following.

He tried to pin it on a woman and her firm while being sexist. -10 (This is in the NBC article for those who use readers.) Not that sorry about hating on women.

Total Score: -13

I don't think an apology rewrite could save him in this case. The amount of PR he'd need to do wouldn't really help. Even if he donated all of the proceeds to RAINN, which he won't.

The basics, though was that he shouldn't have lied and he shouldn't have used women as a shield when he was showing being sexist.

The best action would have not even written it in the first place.

[skellnonsense]

ABOUT WEBGLAZE

Some information about WebGlaze, as someone who does use it.

Waiting to Get Your Account

I got invited by messaging Glaze on Instagram (you can contact them on Twitter, too), and I did so on my own Instagram which is clearly an art account filled with pictures by a human. They may ask you to prove that you are a human artist somehow, but unfortunately I cannot explain what that is like because they approved me right away. It took about a month of waiting to hear back.

Keep in mind, that with everyone leaving Twitter, I would not be shocked if Glaze is getting bombarded with messages asking for access to WebGlaze right now. When everyone left Instagram for Cara, WebGlaze was receiving 200+ messages PER DAY. At this moment in time, it is my guess that it may take longer than it did for me for you to get a response. PLEASE BE PATIENT HEARING BACK FROM GLAZE. They have mentioned before that WebGlaze invites are handled by like, 1 undergrad. BE NICE TO HIM. BE PATIENT. HE IS WORKING VERY HARD!

Cara Glaze in October 2024

On Glaze's website, they instruct you not to sign up for WebGlaze if you already have an account on Cara. If you're reading this around the time this post was made in October 2024, ignore this and apply for WebGlaze anyway. If some time has passed then this may be outdated. Check Cara first.

Remember how I mentioned that everyone jumped from Instagram to Cara? Yeah they disabled Glaze onsite probably due to the massive influx and it hasn't returned as a usable feature yet. Just get WebGlaze. Here's what the Glaze page on Cara looks like at the time of posting:

Actually Using WebGlaze and What It Looks Like

Once you've signed up and made your account using the invite link they've sent you, it's pretty straightforward. Just log in like you would on any other site, pop in an image file, pick a Glaze setting, and hit 'submit'. You'll notice that WebGlaze likes to say "We are currently experiencing low demand, which will likely reflect in the wait times." I have used WebGlaze at different times of day and on different days of the week, and let me tell you, I've never not seen it say "low". Now remember, this can always change, especially as more people sign up for the service, but for the time being it's INSANELY speedy. I generally get my Glazes back by e-mail in around 60 seconds. So pop in your files, wait a minute or two, then check the e-mail that you gave it. Download the image and it's ready to share.

It also limits you to 10 Glazes per day and 40 per week, which may be annoying if you're trying to Glaze your entire backlog, but for the average artist it greatly exceeds the amount of art they make for that amount of time. You'll be ok.

There's also a page for a bio, but there is no way to interact with other people on this site, so I assume the bio is just there in case you want to share with the team running it? Function is unclear. Anyway I put in some info because Glaze and I can be Chicago buddies and hold hands and eat hot dogs together. Yippee! Here are screenshots of all the whopping two (2) whole available pages and what the e-mails look like.

Links

About Glaze

About WebGlaze

About WebGlaze Invites

OK since I haven't seen too many people talk about this since twitter news usually strikes pretty fast over here whenever e'usk does anything ever, let me give ya'll the run down on two things that will go live on NOVEMBER 15TH and why people are mass migrating to Blue Sky once more; and provide resources to help protect your art and make the transition to Blue Sky easier if you so choose:

The Block function no longer blocks people as intended. It now basically acts as a glorified Mute button. Even when you block someone, they can still see your posts, but they can't engage in them. If your account is a Public one and not a Private one, people you blocked will see your posts.

They say because people can easily "share and hide harmful or private information about those they've blocked," they changed it this way for "greater transparency." When in reality, this is an extremely dangerous change, as the whole point of blocking is to cease interaction with people entirely for a plethora of reasons, i.e. stalking, harassment, spam, endangerment, or just plainly annoying and not wanting to see said tweets/accounts. or you know, for 18+ accounts who do not want minors interacting with them or their material at all (There is speculation saying these changes are specifically for Elon himself so he can do his own kind of stalking, and honestly, with the private likes change, it lowkey checks out in my opinion)

Also, this straight up goes against and may violate Apple and Google's app store policies and also is straight up illegal in Canada and probably other countries as well.

If this ACTUALLY goes through, twitter will only be available in select countries, probably exclusively in the US, which would collapse the site with the lost of users and stock, and probably be the last push it needs to kill the site. And if not, will be a very sad and exclusive platform made for specific kinds of people who line up with musk's line of thinking.

2. New policies regarding Grok AI and basically removing the option to opt out of Grok's information gathering to improve their software.

And anything you upload/post on the site is considered "fair game" with "royalty-free licenses" and they can do whatever they please with it. Primarily using any and all posts on twitter to train their Grok AI. A few months ago, there was a setting you can opt out of so they couldn't take anything you post to "improve" Grok, but I guess because so many people were opting out, they decided to make it mandatory as part of the policy change (This is mainly speculation from what I hear).

So this is considered the final straw for a LOT of people, especially artists who have been gripping on to twitter for as long as they can, but the AI nonsense is too much for people now, including myself. Lot's of people are moving to Blue Sky for good reason, and from personal experience, it is literally 10x better than twitter ever was, even before elon took over. There is no algorithm on there, and you can save "feeds" to your timeline to have a catered timelines to hop between if your looking for something specific like furry art or game dev stuff. It's taken them a bit to get off the ground and add much needed features, but it's genuinely so much better now

RESOURCES

Project Glaze & Cara

If you're an artist who's still on twitter or trying to ride it out for as long as you can for whatever reason you have, do yourself a favor and Glaze and/or Nightshade your work. Project Glaze is a free program designed to protect your art work from getting scrapped by AI machines. Glazing basically makes it harder to adapt and copy artwork that AI programs try to scan, while Nightshade basically "poisons" works to make AI libraries much more unstable and generate images completely off the mark. (These are layman's terms I'm using here, but follow the link to get more information)

The only problem with these programs is that they can be resource intensive for computers, and not every pc can run glaze. It's basically like rendering a frame/animation, you gotta let your pc sit there to get it glazed/nightshade, and depending on the intensity and power of your pc, this may take minutes to hours depending on how much you wanna protect your work.

HOWEVER, there are two alternatives, WebGlaze and Cara

WebGlaze is an in browser version of the program, so your pc doesn't have to do the heavy lifting. You do need to have an account with Glaze and be invited to use the program (I have not done so personally so I don't know much about the process.)

Cara is an artist focused site that doubles as both a portfolio site and a general social media platform. They've partnered with Glaze and have their own browser glazing called "Cara Glaze," and highly encourage users to post their work Glazed and are extremely anti-ai. You do get limited uses per day to glaze your work, so if you plan on doing a huge backlog uploading of your art, it may take awhile if your using just Cara Glaze.

Some twitter users have suggested glazing your art, cropping it, and overlaying it with a frame telling people to follow them elsewhere like on Bluesky. Here's a template someone provided if you wanna use this one or make your own.

Blue Sky Resources and Tips

So if your a twitter user and your about to realize the hellish task of refollowing a massive chunk of people you follow, have no fear, there's an extension called Sky Follower Bridge (Firefox & Chrome links). This is a very basic extension that makes it really easy to find people on Bluesky

It sorts them out by trying to find matching usernames, usernames in descriptions, or by screen name. It's not 100% perfect, there's a couple people I already follow on Blue Sky but the extension could not find them on twitter correctly, but I still found a huge chunk of people. Also if your worried that this extension is "iffy," they do have a github open with the source publicly available and the Blue Sky Team themselves have promoted the extension in their recent posts while welcoming new users to the platform.

FEEDS and LABELS

OK SO THE COOLEST PART ABOUT BLUESKY IS THE FEEDS SYSTEM. Basically if you've made a twitter list before, it's like that, but way more customizable and caters to specific types of posts/topics. Consolidating them into a timeline/feed that exclusively filled about those particular topics, or just people in general. There's thousands to pick and choose from!

Here's a couple of mine that I have saved and ready (down below). Some feeds I have saved so I can jump to seeing what my friends and mutuals are up to, and see their posts specifically so it doesn't get lost in reposts or other accounts, and also specialized feeds for browsing artists within the furry community.

The Furry Community feeds I have here were created by people who've built an algorithm to place any #furry or #furryart or other special tags like #Furrystreamer or #furrydev. They even have one for commissions, and yes you can say commissions on a post and not have it destroyed or shadow banned. You are safe.

If you want, and I highly recommend it to get visibility and check out a neat community, follow furryli.st to get added to their list and feeds. Once your on the list, even without a hashtag, you'll still pop up in their specialized feeds as just a member of the community there. There are plenty of other feeds out there besides this one, but I feel like a lot of people could use one like this. They even got ones for OC specific too I remember seeing somewhere.

And in terms of labels, they can be either ways to help label yourself with specific things or have user created accessibility settings to help better control your experience on Blue Sky.

And my personal favorite: Ai Imagery Labeler. Removes any AI stuff or hides it to the best of it's abilities, and it does a pretty good job, I have not seen anything AI related since subscribing to it.

Finally, HASHTAGS WORK & No need to censor yourself!

This is NOT like twitter or any other big named social media site AT ALL, so you don't have to work around words to get your stuff out there and be seen. There are literally feeds built around having commissions getting and art seen! Some people worry about bots and that has been a recent issue since a lot of people are migrating to Blue Sky, but it comes with any social media territory.

ALSO COOL PART,

you can search a hashtag on someone's profile and search exclusively on that profile as well! You can even put the hashtag in bio for easy access if you have a specialize tag like here on tumblr. OR EVEN BUILD YOUR OWN ART FEED FOR YOUR STUFF SPECIFICALLY!

So yeah, there's your quick run down about twitter's current burning building, how to protect your art, and what to do when you move to Blue Sky! Have fun!

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Hello lovely, thank you so much for your honesty. I am guilty of 'likes' without making any other comments and I'm ashamed to say I thought I was showing my appreciation but I can see that it's not enough. I've had SO many thoughts about Talk To Me but for some reason I've always felt embarrassed about sharing them as though I'm maybe overthinking??? You have given us an absolute gift with your writing. At a time when life seems generally hard with no light at the end of the tunnel I love to disappear into the world of hannix. Put yourself first but remember that there are people out there who let out a little 'squee!' when they see you've posted an update.

I’m so sorry that this medium (lol and sometimes just my emotions) means communicating in a way that makes anyone feel shame 😭 Thank you to my mutual who talked me down from the spiral 😅 I agree with Brené Brown that shame isn’t a great place to start a conversation or to address how we interact with one another. Some of you have mentioned being new here, and I’m also sorry if my post made you feel unwelcome while you’re learning a new platform ❤️ Please always feel free to drop into my messages if that’s easier/ more comfortable

It meant so much to me that you took the time to introduce yourself! Your ask came with such consideration and appreciation bb. And I’m so excited for it. I just wanted to find the joy in the Football Rivalry again so I give you the same thing every other answer has received ❤️ I hope that’s okay

Please share all the thoughts!! No one is EVER overthinking something they love. I learn so much from what people share. Talk to Me is what it IS because of the thoughts and analysis people contributed. It is SO much better because of them and everything that I wrote since is so much better because of them. On my end, I will say the way I respond to comments is by incorporating them into the way I think about what comes next. I do my best to respond to everything on tumblr but sometimes, time constraints means focusing on the writing and answering that way. I hope people understand that. Another work is a long form response to the shares and comments. Also, if you’re sharing or commenting on something old, you are still contributing to the writer’s current and future work! Please “overthink” away and don’t feel embarrassed. I spent hours (days, weeks) on each chapter of Talk to Me doing my best to carefully thread the story and themes, to plant the character pivots, to explore their psychology and choices. Even my daily one-shots can take 8 to 10 hours to write to build out who the character is in that moment, their relationships, the people around them. Even my recurring OCs have character profiles 😂 Then there’s hours of research and working through things that need tweaking. And I don’t have a beta so it’s also the time spent doing my best to trim and edit my own work so I can get it out as fast as possible. Maybe with that context it won’t feel like overthinking 😅

I’m so glad Hannix is your “squee”!!! We all do need a lot of that now, don’t we ❤️ I think it’s…writers aren’t always writing from the best place in their lives. I overdrew my well here. My life was a disaster, writing was a distraction and I didn’t know how to ask for a refuel before I ran out of gas. I’m still learning how to do that. I wrote a happy post because that seemed easier for people to understand and more acceptable than the truth that I was sad and hurt and withdrawing. It’s true, I’ll need more time for the reasons stated. But I get my squee from knowing you all get your squee. So I came back to see if maybe we could all get our squee? I want to keep giving what joy I can ❤️

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In 2017 my Ex lied to the police our families and our children to take full custody of my son out of fear that I intended to do the same to her, a fear provoked by her husband's insistence that was what I would try to do something he decided without knowing anything about me or ever speaking to me about anything.

Because of the lies that they told I was restrained from speaking to her seeing my child for the next 3 years.

In 2020 I saw a picture somewhere online that looks like him that originated from Tumblr so I screenshot it we blocked it and asked if anybody knew who it was because it looked a lot like my son.

And as soon as I did the entire community within Tumblr at least in so far as anybody who followed or wanted to be followed

Used that inquiry as the opportunity to attack

Sending me DMs saying they killed him and buried him in the desert or that he was on the streets and a gay prostitute, or an hiding after being attacked by some random unknown individuals

And what I'm shocked about isn't necessarily the mentally and emotionally dysfunctional adults and I use the term loosely imagining that telling apparently killed their child is somehow in the realm of pranks or retaliation for some perceived insult ,

But really anyone and everyone else in any way ridiculous lives of the people with big mouths but apparently no balls who could in realizing or understanding what happened could dismiss or ignore the impropriate

You really shouldn't have to know or care about someone

To recognize the right thing to do .

I can have literally redirected all my assets towards the most creative or vicious civil lawyer I can find and almost assuredly had the most offensive of the perpetrators held responsible for the entirety of it and incarcerated for a period of 10 years in a federal penitentiary.

The fact that I don't feel comfortable being responsible for taking 10 years of somebody's life it shouldn't be confused with my willingness to smash their face into a freak show mess of blood and bruises, and I really don't need any other reason beyond the stupid shit that they have said since I realized that they were involved why does it matter they're grievances don't matter the accusations don't matter all that does is proximity

I'm not in any Rush I'll get to you and when I do I'm going to fuck you up straight out and I don't give a goddamn what you say ,

It's funny I told the stripper based on the things she was saying when I he must have put you up to this and for whatever reason whether sincerity or just seeing the opportunity to deflect responsibility she agreed he had

Now the suggestion is that I was just easily manipulated or gullible and I'm talking shit to an old friend who really hadn't done anything

But that has no possibility of being true

Because when I contacted this old friend and told him that I had been robbed and threatened by a sex worker who blamed him he for some reason thought he was in a position to provoke

You can decide why you're getting hit at the time if it helps

Asking someone to rob an abuse me or thinking that you can talk shit about it either way you're getting fucked up

I asked if anybody recognized that he's in the picture because I hadn't been able to speak to my son in 3 years

It's been 3 years since then and every message I've received about anything has been to explain some situation of which I never inquired imagining that who and where and what the people I left behind are doing would be some kind of source of jealousy or frustration which just further illustrates what a petty jackass mentally disturbed child this guy actually is

At one point when I suggested to her that she had somehow been connected to some random person from my past she found it funny and a bit delusional when there was nothing to connect them

I wonder what she would think now 3 years after suggesting it

3 years that he has spent day and night doing nothing other than trying to think of ridiculous Scooby-Doo drama scenarios to suggest to me

I will see what happened is your son is a transvestite gay prostitute going through a sex change who was attacked and he's in hiding and I'm the only one comfortable talking to so if you want to get a message to him I can do that if you suck my dick

I mean I don't know if I'm supposed to laugh or cry when a grown man sees that as the best use of his time pathetic