#I say that Bc hes been HOGGING my muse :/

[bl4sphemy-archived]

would anyone be mad if I moved Samael back to my multi? I’m not saying I’ll do it for sure buttttt…

[slumpcd]

♡ nyx and devon

who asked who out first? i mean neither since they sneaking around but if like both we'e single, devon would def wait for nyx to do it. who went in for the first kiss? hm ... could've been either? but i kinda like to think that it was devon like breaking that first boundary. who gives the other nicknames? nyx def gets called nyxie, and devon makes up stupid ones when she's drunk. who cooks the meals? them ... cooking ?? no. takeouts mostly bc yk they have other things to get to ... he he who has better taste in music? one's a rockstar so ... that kinda gets the cake who hogs the bed? devonnnnn 10/10 times who wakes up first? dev bc she has to sneak back into her own room in the mornings lmao who makes the coffee? i feel like nyx would be the coffe master? who's the big spoon? both, switching <3 but devon prefers being big spoon who stays up the latest? nyx ... probably. who reaches for who's hand? both, but i think nyx feels more yolo and does it? like doesn't care as much if ppl sees while dev tries to be v secretive. who's a fan of pda? nyx ?? not devon at least who snores? both give me snoring energy heheheh. who gets annoyed more easily? devon, really got a short temper and just freaks out. who initiates sex? both but when the doors are closed, devon is needy af and can't wait. who asks who for their hand in marriage? would they get to that even?? devon is in a long term relationship but like real commitment scares her. now she feels like she can run if she needs to. my muse's favorite memory of yours? it's probably some memory of them sneaking off while on tour and just disappearing for the day for a "friend hangout" but like they did some sightseeing, dressed up, had dinner and then spent the night with movies in the hotelroom. a regret my muse has regarding yours? devon regrets putting nyx in the situation they're in. like making the first move but still not being ready to leave her boyfriend. she feels guilty as hell. if they could change one thing? change how they met ... wishing they had met sooner and when she was able to commit. their love language according to my muse? nyx is big on words i feel like? saying what they think about dev. but i also feel like physical touch is a thing since they can't do it whenever and wherever.

[terrainofheartfelt]

for your ask game:

tonight, where I'm set alight - 3, 4, 6, and 9

make me crescendo - 1, 4, 5, 9, and 11

nearer and farther than they - 2, 3, 6, and 13

thank you 💛

tonight where I'm set alight

3: What’s your favorite line of narration? I’m gonna go with this one, because articulating this idea makes me fizz like a glass of prosecco:

He melts into the touch, exhaling, wanting to make himself malleable, to be sculpted over in her image, made new by her hand. A magazine profile tried to call her his muse once, but it isn’t true. She is art and artist in and of herself. His writing—just like he is here—is in service of her, not the other way round. Hers, hers, hers.

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue? Not sure how to answer this one like a Lady, but I have to say:

“You’re so pretty...So pretty when you’re needy.”

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics? Oh, well…I guess because it was virtually written on a dare from Nads. well, maybe not a dare, but this was around the holiday season, and we were joking at the time that we should get back to the #dangetspegged agenda in the new year, and this fic just…happened. I guess it’s notable bc I wrote it on my phone while bored at my parent’s house? 

9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic? Nope. I wrote it pretty much in the space of like…maybe 48 hours. My smut fics don’t really have alternate versions, my writing technique when it comes to that genre is just to fire em off  and not get too into the weeds, because they’re really just one (1) scene that doesn’t require much plot, so they don’t take long to write, and if I were to think about them enough for alternate versions to exist, idk…that just sounds way less sexy. 

make me crescendo

1: What inspired you to write the fic this way? Well, this was a kinktober fic, so I took two of the prompts from the list I was working from—I believe it’s still linked in the series description—and just ran with it. And well, I chose those two prompts “Wearing Their Clothes + Lingerie” because Ivy and Nads and I are all big on the Dan Humphrey in Lingerie agenda, so I knew at the onset of the month that that was something I wanted to write if I could find the right idea, and then I opened the month with another Blair/Nate/Dan fic, which got SO many demands for a sequel *cough cough* S *cough cough* that I was peer pressured into more ot3 territory, and all those elements just came together from there into this. 

4: What’s your favorite line of dialogue? I really like the post coital banter at the end:

“I think we wore him out,” Blair muses quietly, stroking gently along Dan’s sleep-serene face. “We?” Nate jokes, his voice low, mouth turning up in a smirk. “Not to be a credit hog, babe, but that was all me.”

5: What part was hardest to write? I think just the…choreography? The movement of getting from one monet to the next. I do not by any means claim to be an expert in this particular…genre, but I do think of it in terms of like, blocking a scene, choreographing it, like what happens physically, what beats I want to hit, and then sort of connecting those dots. And since there are three bodies in this fic, that choreography was that much more complex. 

9: Were there any alternate versions of this fic? Again, I don’t really do alternate versions for smut, they just don’t take up that kind of time or headspace. 

11: What do you like best about this fic? Kind of to 5, but I love the domesticity of these three and how they love each other, and I feel like I show a good balance of how they all interact with each other, as a trio and in their respective duos and how they are all parts of a loving whole. There’s a specific kind of softness to Them that I really love. Even with all the filth. 

nearer and farther than they

2: What scene did you first put down? Oh gosh, it’s been like, over a year since I posted, so my memory is fuzzy, but the first things that were so clear that I had to get them out were the chunks of dialogue over Dan and Blair’s conversations, those exchanges they had at the bar and in the car etc etc. I remember once the story took shape around those having to move some bits and pieces around, but it started with those conversations, the “why did you chose to become a conductor?” and “why were you in italy/why did you come back” those one-on-ones came to me first, and the rest sprung up around it. 

3: What’s your favorite line of narration? This bit from the penultimate scene:

There’s something in the way he’s looking at her that sets her cells humming. Like that first sounding of A440, right before she takes the podium. Like the beginning of something.

6: What makes this fic special or different from all your other fics? I mean, it is my niche expertise fic! That tumblr post that’s like, when fic writers do an au about their very specific professional field, that’s this one. It’s the closest to home I’ve really gotten with fanfic, and I was honestly kind of surprised that I wrote it when I did, because I was (and am!) still mourning my past life as an opera singer, so for a lot of 2020 and 2021 I skirted away from any shop talk for fear it would hurt, but writing this fic was actually a really lovely experience, and I got to geek out and talk shop and share something I love with this facet of my life, and it felt really good!

13: What music did you listen to, if any, to get in the mood for writing this story? Or if you didn’t listen to anything, what do you think readers should listen to to accompany us while reading? OH SO MUCH! I do have links embedded in the fic for listening pleasure, but the absolute musts are the Liszt Dan plays at the concert, and the Oberthur Blair plays, the both of these are all time favorite pieces of mine. And of course, I listened to my favorite bits of the operas Blair conducts: L’enfant et il sortileges and Il segreto di Susanna (my favorites of L’enfant are the fire aria, the cat duet (i’m dead serious), and the math teacher, and my favorite in Susanna is the duet between the two leads). So that’s all the plot relevant stuff, but I also listened a lot to my assorted classical music playlists on my Spotify: Lit™ Opera Lit; Lit™ Piano Lit, and Lit™ Orchestral Lit, oh, and my Art Song Literature playlist too. Recommendations for selections from those are available upon request 💕

fic asks game!

[greaterspeed]

@boku-no-terios​ asked: 📱 (x2 bc ilu yoms )

Relationship Building  ✪ accepting Send📱for a voicemail my muse left yours.

The communicator felt heavy in Sonic’s hand despite how light it truly was, grey and shaped like a brick. Rouge had handed it to him when he last saw her, not many words had been exchanged, Sonic himself couldn’t recall the last time he’d opened his mouth to anyone.

Words hadn’t needed to be exchanged though, the hog knew what it was, he’d heard it beep on prison island from where it had been tucked away in his quills. His hands had once wrapped around it, the same hand that had clasped with his own as they hovered above the colony, two shooting stars, gold and white gold.

He’d burnt out though, and now all that was left was the things he had touched. A ring, and now this. Sonic had already played with the settings, some desperate attempt to find if there was recordings so he could hear his voice once more, fearing he’d forget it before long.

The screen flashed with no saved messages, but Sonic saw the option to save one in the corner of it’s tiny green screen.

He remained silent upon pressing the option, lips parted and breath held, as if his voice would suddenly speak out through the devices tiny speakers. It would be impossible sure, this wasn’t a call but still the hedgehog waited until his body forced himself to breathe. “Hey.”

His voice was unfamiliar, cracked and hoarse. Sonic struggled to get it to work again. Without a clue of just how much memory this gadget held, he couldn’t waste time, but yet every word caught in his throat.

“Hey, uh...” He choked out, gloved fingers clutched tightly to the machine. What did he even say? Not that it mattered, the one he was talking to couldn’t actually hear him. At least, the logical side of Sonic’s brain told him so, but every other part of him felt as if he was face to face with him once more.

“You were so brave, y’know? And I—” Sonic cut off those rolling words, frustration burning in his core. He would probably know he was brave, it was Sonic who had failed him, let him slip through his fingers just as he had let hundreds drown on his watch only weeks before. “Darn it, Shadow!”

He cursed him, emotion bubbling over for that brief second before Sonic fell silent once more. It wasn’t Shadow’s fault, it wasn’t, it never would be, but that didn’t mean his absence hurt any less. He should be there, enjoying the planet he protected, that he never truly got to see in the first place. Instead Sonic was stood in his place, the lone survivor, when he had pleaded with Shadow to return to safety.

It took another minute before Sonic spoke again.

“I’ll look after this place for you, okay, buddy?” This world that should be Shadow’s to explore, he’d do it for him. See it all again for him. Ensure everyone got that chance of happiness. “See you later. We’ll catch up then, yeah?

“...wait for me.”

[dear-yandere]

—ask collection!

a collection of mostly very old chats and sweet asks that i never got around to answering! thanks for the patience and love!! 

beware, fairly long post... woops....

chat asks.

darling: Eu-jin is best boy. Change my mind.

vanya: i am physically incapable of fulfilling that request, how dare you do that to me... i’m biased since he’s my own oc, but i would die for my (very best) boy eu-jin... who can resist such a gentle yandere that loves you so whole-heartedly?

that reminds me! he’s actually based off of kuroyuki and gekkamaru from the otome nightshade, so if you want similar characters by any chance, do check them and the game out ♡

darling: I was watching the dub for Part 5 of JoJo's Bizarre adventure yesterday...Mista called himself Daddy and I like- sdfghjfgsdhnhnmj!! My heart can't take this--

vanya: WAIT HE DID???? i’m not even big on daddy kink and reading that made me go 😳 this is vital information to know... what episode was this??? for research purposes, of course. gotta perfect my yan! mista, after all~...

darling: for yandere songs, have you heard of the major to minor covers by chase holfelder :O? the way he delivers the lyrics in some songs (betty, all i want for christmas), added with the key changes to minor, is really fantastic, and gives a stalker-ish vibe imo! and he's a really good singer in general

vanya: i have!! a good chunk of them are actually on my personal yandere playlist, so i end up hearing them frequently when i’m writing!! i haven’t been keeping up with his uploads recently, so ‘betty’ is completely new to me and just, wow???????????? this man is an absolute god send for us “romantic” horror fans... ♡

this ask gave me such a lovely idea, though, darling: assigning yandere types/mbti based off each of chase’s minor key covers. i think i’ll do that just for you. ♡

darling @blossomiich​: I reread some of your old character interaction asks and saw the one with Jotaro hugging his Darling after a panic attack and the elephant seal plush reminded me of the iconic C H O N K Y ringed seal plushie that was kinda trending and I can totally imagine Jotaro having one of those >w< that's so adorable!

vanya: i honestly don’t remember that interaction, but then again i don’t remember most things hmghng so i looked it up and

j...just imagine star plat hogging it and not letting joot cuddle with it 🥺 the duality of man...thank you for this cute image...

darling: Umm, sorry for asking this. I'm just curious because of your bio language in your header. Are you Chinese too, perhaps?

vanya: no worries!! i’m mixed guyanese (indian, chinese, & possibly black and/or portuguese), but my family only celebrates (or rather, acknowledges?) our indian descent, since the majority of our family is predominantly east indian. 

my header is actually a quote from a danmei novel (and one of my all-time favorite fandoms), tiān guān cì fú (heaven’s official blessing)!

darling genki stan anon: Omg you're writing for free now, i didn't expect that one lol. It's a cute show innit? Not a nagi stan but I feel like nagisa has that kinda unsnapped personality that would make him peak delusional yandere material lolol like oikawa but less threatening and without his head being up his own ass 😂. Hope you're doing well!! -gsa

Gdjsjs im such a fool, i think my last ask said something about not thinking you'd write for free when i literally just pointed out kisumi on your sideblog LMAO my bad 😅 😂 also ill hold back on the gen chan requests because ive already asked so many in the past! Thank you though 🥺. Also feel free not to post this, it can just dip into my onesided chats with my lil flower 💐 so long as you receive them im fine 😌 -genki stan anon

vanya: nagisa isn’t my favorite (kisumi is), but gods if he wouldn’t make a great yandere. honestly, out of the iwatobi boys, nagi is probably the most unhinged. i wouldn’t peg him as delusional, at least not at first; i think he’s very lucid and knows exactly what he wants and how to manipulate people in order to get it!!! kisumi is fairly similar now that i think about it... i might... have a type...

please feel free to send in gen-chan requests whenever you want!!!! i’m kinda super asocial, so it’ll take me a while to answer, but i love getting asks from you since you’re so sweet and excitable!!! your little flower reads and cherishes them all!! 🥺

also darling genki stan anon: Sorry for spamming you with asks hdjkdks, u dont even need to reply im just kinda brain empty venting here whether you recieve them or not 😂 i just needed to confess that while yes i am #1 gen simp, and he is undoubtedly my fave oc of yours but that Ilya tentacle smut had me very much so highkey kinda 👀, had to re read the genki oral style drabble to bring my head back. He dont even need to worry about luca bc that man a thot. I think therin is a thot too but like lowkey, a classy thót -gsa

vanya: omg i’ve kept this one for forever mnmghngh i might’ve even answered at some other point, now that i think about it... but i just 🥺 gosh i hope i find my muse soon, because i really wanna write you a genki fic 🥺 hhhh

the ilya tentacle smut was so in character for that boy... i have no clue how to write monsters, much less tentacles, but i’d honestly do anything for him 🙏 kinky russian boy...

therin is definitely a classy thot, the kind that only bangs the finest concubines then turns around and slut shames you for banging the very same prostitutes gbfmngnfg rules don’t apply to him, in his kingdom...wish that were me tbh ✊😔

sweet asks.

darling one: i've read almost all of your dazai and chuuya fics and i love them so much!! your formatting is also super aesthetic just a question, i saw on your kofi that you also draw so i was wondering if you drew all the header arts?? bc they're all super pretty :) have a great day!

darling two: Just wanted to say love the writing and the way your format your posts is so aesthetically pleasing. One day I hope my posts looks half as good as yours because I legit can't get over how pretty and organized it looks.

vanya: omg thank you so much!!!! one of my bffs, yue, is to thank for the formatting and aesthetic choices, really! if you wanna see more of her aesthetic formats and posts, she actually runs a few blogs! you may know her as @milkscafe​, formally @milkaaton! i adore her and her aes choices so much 🥺

as for the headers, i don’t draw 99.98% of them! i have drawn a couple, but they’re so few and far in between since i almost never finish my art wips haha... my older posts are lacking proper credits because i’m an absolute idiot, but i’m slowly working my way backwards to credit them all where possible! they’re all indeed super pretty!!!

have a great day yourself, my love!!

darling: THEY’RE NOT BAD CONTENT, I LOVE THEM ALL

vanya: this was in response to a now-deleted lil blurb but i kept it in my inbox because i wanted to say i love u very much and seeing this ask each time i open my inbox makes my heart skip a beat ♡

darling: Listen I love your writing, you inspired me to start it myself! I've always loved to write, and read of course but your style and concepts just stick with me. If you where to write something besides Yandere content/fandom content and started your own series? I would read the shit, out of it. I'm always nervous to interact with my favorite writers because you know, I'm afraid of the impression I'd leave but I just wanted to say this anyway! 💞💞💞🔫😳

vanya: wowowow fgfnmgnfmngfg that’s such a high compliment my brain just gmfnbgmnf go boom fogjfngnfg and thank you for the interaction, us writers truly appreciate it no matter how awkward or nervous you think you may be / come off!!!

darling one: As a writer, your post struck a nerve with me. I don’t send feedback to writers I like nearly as much as I should (and certainly not as much as I’d like in return as a writer). So, as such, I’m going to start doing that when I can, starting with you.

You are an incredible writer. You were one of the first yandere writing blogs I found and you’re still one I check in on regularly to see what you have been working on. You can portray a sense of suspense and intrigue in a natural way that many other writers - published ones included - struggle with. You delve into the darkness without it feeling forced, and you have an amazing grasp on the psyches of the characters you write for (which is a quality I adore in writing and strive toward myself).

I’m not great at ending these things so I guess.. you keep doing you? Because the you is great and I appreciate it.

darling two:  hey. i'm here to tell you that from the bottom of my heart i love you and your writings. i really admire your writing skills. you inspire me. one of your posts once saved me from a nervous breakdown. thank you for everything you do. you're a wonderful person. good luck!

darling three: I wanted to tell you that thank you for writing such wonderful beautiful writings and that you take time to edit and write I hope you are taking care of yourself 💖❤

darling four: Thanks. I was having a hard time and deleted all my apps, but as soon as i opened my phone my first instinct was to look at your blog and i got my motivation back. Thanks (:

darling five: Hi ! I just wanted to say I really enjoy the stories you write and how they are detailed so well ! Stay safe and I hope you have a good day/night ! ლ(╹◡╹ლ)

vanya: ahhhh, these are very old asks mostly dating back to my “tumblr writing community is dying” post, and i’ve kept them this entire time because i’m just so starstruck. i have no clue how to reply to compliments, so i’m not sure what else to say besides that these asks made me very happy and got me through a few insecure moments!!! i’ve actually been feeling a little down about my writing recently, mostly because of lack of motivation / inspiration, so revisiting these really warmed my heart, so thank you truly ♡ i’m certainly keeping the originals in my inbox until the end of time!!

darling @monstrously-obsessed: psst, this local cryptic mom thing send all of their love for you 💕

vanya: your local herbo says she loves you very much momster 🥺 mwah

also, to the anon worried about my safety:

thank you so much for pointing that out!!! it hadn’t even crossed my mind when i made those ocs, so i appreciate your concern! i was contemplating revamping those two as is, so this is a great place to start! thank you again!!

[isolctions]

@thvndcrstrvck​ asked: ultimate relationship tag for mars & teyani :~)

relationship tag*

*only accepting for established ships. (domo gets a pass bc i luv them <3)

disagreements.

who is more likely to raise their voice? — i feel like they do an equal amount of voice raising. the only real difference is that i feel like mars is more loud in tone & the type to go “i’m not yelling!!!!!” whereas teyani’s yelling takes on more of a stern tone. who threatens to leave but never actually does? — mars, prbly. who actually keeps their word and leaves? — teyani. she absolutely served him papers while he was at work. who trashes the house? — nobody, tf? they’re too old for that shit. do either of them get physical? — i...would think not. because teyani is extremely passive & if mars would’ve tried it, she would have left earlier. so no. how often do they argue / disagree? — it prbly wasn’t often in the beginning of their relationship, but one of those “when it happens it’s messy” type of arguments. now, best believe it’s an argument every two hours as their relationship is incredible strained. who is the first to apologize? — teyani.

sex.

it’s me having no idea what their sex life is like bc we haven’t plotted out this far, #help. they did the do until they no longer liked each other, now they don’t.

family.

we also didn’t plot out this far. but i mean, teyani having her daughter is canon so she and ines were/are a package deal (like was she pregnant before this relationship??? after??? was ines already born??? chile, idk.) and i’m sure mars was cool with helping her while they were together. mmcht.

affection.

who likes to cuddle? — teyani is a big cuddler. who is the little spoon? — truthfully, mars! as much as she likes being held, she also likes to do the holding. you never know when ur partner needs that kinda comfort. who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? — while doing this, i kind of have this idea in my head that neither would like to inconvenience the other when they’re doing smthn important. but if they’re watching a movie on the couch or some shit, teyani might be the one to start sneaky touching. who struggles to keep their hands to themselves? — boffum. depends on the mood. how long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? — if they’re not already asleep, maaaaaaybe an hour? hour and a half max? who gives the most kisses? — teyani. what is their favorite non-sexual activity? — teyani likes hand holding. mars might like doing smthn hands on like helping cook or some shit. where is their favorite place to cuddle? — the practical places, such as the couch while unwinding or in bed before going to sleep. who is more likely to playfully grope the other? — maybe mars. how often do they get time to themselves? — not mf often!! which is why teyani tries making the most out of it whenever they’re around each other.

sleeping.

who snores? — mars. do they share a bed or sleep separately? — they once shared a bed, but now they sleep separately. either in different rooms or one is in a different location all together. if they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? — used to cozy up until one steals a blanket or gets hot. who talks in their sleep? — prbly teyani. what do they wear to bed? — um...pajamas? are either of your muses insomniacs? — it would more than likely be teyani. it can be hard to sleep sometimes when spirits keep bugging you at all hours. can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? — nope. do they wrap their limbs around each other or stay side by side? — it prbly was a slow transition from being wrapped around each other to laying back to back. real divorcee shit. who wakes up with bed hair? — um, mars keeps his hair short & teyani got a bonnet or a scarf on. who wakes up first? — teyani’s always been an early bird. plus she was prbly already up anyway. who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? — NO ONE!! get ur ass up to eat! like, they’ll make a PLATE for the other but you better get tf up if you wanna eat it. what is their favorite sleeping position? — teyani tends to lay on her side curled up, while i feel like mars is more of a ‘lay on the stomach sprawled out like a starfish’ kinda guy. who hogs the sheets? — mars. so selfish. do they set an alarm each night? — ya, they got jobs. can a television be found in their room? — i wanna say, like...tv’s in bedrooms are so common now...but also...i feel like no??? idk i’m making shit up who has nightmares? — mars? i mean he for the streets, so i’m sure he has nightmares? who has ridiculous dreams? — teyani has visions that mars would prbly write off as ridiculous dreams, ergnerjk. who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? — i said mars so it’s the law now what time is bed time? — uh? idk? 11pm maybe? any routines / rituals before bed? — bathing & brushing teeth. teyani does skin care and moisturizes and twists her hair. mars does...whatever he does...idk him like that who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? — depends on how much sleep they got

work.

who is the busiest? — they both have busy work schedules, considering they both have full time careers. but whereas teyani has more of a schedule, mars has the most unpredictable hours & his lil’ hannah montana ass double life. who rakes in the highest income? — hannah marstana. are any of your muses unemployed? — nope. who takes the most sick days? — maybe teyani? i mean she has a one year old? who is more likely to turn up late to work? — i feel like neither, but again, it would likelier be teyani. who sucks up to their boss? — eye roll. i think teyani did at first. what are their jobs? — computer analyst / medium. surgeon / liar. do their muses enjoy or despise their careers? — nah, i think they both enjoy it. are your muses financially stable? — with or without mars, she good!!

home.

who does the washing? — teyani. who takes out the trash? — boffum. who does the ironing? — teyani bc she already does laundry bc she likes it. who does the cooking? — boffum. who is more likely to burn down the house just trying? — HMMMMMMMidk. who is messier? — teyani is honestly more prone to being messy, but at least she cleans up! who leaves the toilet roll empty? — i feel like men always do this. so i’m choosing mars. who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? — teyani. but again, she goes back for it later. who forgets to flush the toilet? — ew, no one. who is the prankster around the house? — the spirits that follow teyani around. i’m not joking. who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? — teyani. who mows the lawn? — they pay somebody to do it, idk. who answers the phone? — whoever is near the damn phone? duh? who does the vacuuming? — they do their fair share. who does the groceries? — both? they’ll go together if it’s smthn specifically they want but it’s mostly just whoever calls the other and goes “hey what do u want” who takes longest to shower? — teyani if she’s washing her hair, but mostly mars. who spends the most time in the bathroom? — teyani! she has big hair! and glowing skin!

misc.

is money a problem? — no. teyani gets paid fairly well, mars is a surgeon, and also has...extracurricular activities. how many cars do they own? — teyani has to take a train to her job, so i guess one overall? maybe two if she has to go out somewhere? do they own their home or do they rent? — owned, but teyani now rents an apartment. do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? — closer to a coast. do they live in the city or in the country? — city, babey. do they enjoy their surroundings? — i mean, it’s what they’re used to. what’s their song? — ..........we’ll come back to this. what do they do when they’re away from each other? — teyani just works, really. she has a few hobbies that she tends to. has ines to care for. mars i feel like is the errand runner, and would spend his day like, doing Something. where did they first meet? — this is literally killing me i’m never doing this for a brand new ship again how did they first meet? — UHHHH whatever let’s go with they were set up. who spends the most money when they’re out shopping? — neither? at least, not intentionally? if so, it’d be on practical things like groceries. who’s more likely to flash their assets? — neither. who finds it amusing when the other trips over? — teyani. like mars is so serious...when he does smthn dumb, you just have to laugh! any mental issues? — i mean, teyani had a bout of postpartum once. who’s terrified of bugs? — not terrified, but teyani’s not exactly fond of them. who kills the spiders around the house? — mars, while teyani fearfully leads them outside. their favorite place? — the crib! who pays the bills? — boffum. do they have any fears for their future? — they are literally in the middle of getting divorced. maybe if one of them died or smthn? who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? — mars, when he feel like bein sweet. who uses up all the hot water? — mars. which is fine. who’s the tallest? — prbly mars. but teyani isn’t exactly short, either. she 5′7. who’s more likely to just randomly hop in the shower with the other? — teyani. who wanders around in their underwear? — neither. who sings the loudest when singing along with the radio? — teyani, but mostly to be annoying. what do they tease each other about? — teyani sneak-helps gianna make fun of mars abt literally anything. who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense sometimes? — i mean...they both dress kinda basic i think? do they have mutual friends? — shit, prbly. who crushed first? — teyani. any alcohol or substance related problems? — i don’t...think so? who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? — uh, maybe mars? who swears the most? — boffum.

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1 & 3!

{1: Who has been your favorite muse to play?}

Oh!!! That's a tough question in all honesty bc they're all so great to play in different ways? I'd have to say one of the boys though, bc Devon is by far my most fiery muse and that makes nym very fun to play bc most answers with nym are straight forward and it can be fun to annoy nym but that secret soff side to nym is so good too. Noble is also fun to play, ofc the multiples aspect where you get to see him and his alters grow as people and get closer together, but also bc she's such an awkward boi at such an awkward point where he's making all his major life decisions while also working in recovery and trying to be who wants to be, I mean that in the sense of being able to get deep into the rp by him picking up little things from other muses and whatnot! But I love all my babies so much 🥺🥺🥺

{3: Are there any particular aus or plots that you'd really like to write?}

Oh dang!!! Idk about aus but I love shippy plots and emotional plots, like plots where two characters are just bonding and talking about their past and learning about each other by their views on things and their perspectives!!! I love when two characters have that deep connection even if it's in a platonic sense, however I am a sl*t for shippy things not finna lie and no tea no shade but the little ones need love, Ace can't hog it all- 😂😂😂

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theannoyedskittle replied to your post: 

Like?? You’re super nice and I love your style of writing?? You convey your ideas so amazingly well and it’s always a treat when I see you on my dash 🙏🙏

it’s always a surprise to hear someone say that i’m ‘nice’, but it’s certainly a pleasant one! i fret that i tend to come across as uh.. prickly, perhaps shdkf

but anyway! thank you very much! 

seerxxtaiko replied to your post: 

//while we’re both social recluses in regards yup regular chats (or often just don’t have much to say), I’ve always felt comfortable with you! And you have fun to talk with, especially when you share pet stories as well as videos you’d think I’d get a kick out of! And of course, I love your character interpretations and the drabbles you’d make for them!

oh, i’m really glad to hear that you feel comfortable with me! i never want anyone to feel uncomfortable and i sometimes worry i cross that unsaid boundary when i do stuff like send videos and talk for 2398423984234 years about my animals. i’ve never been particularly good at ooc talk ahaha..

urumisu replied to your post: 

fantastic ways with conveying emotion and describing sensation and show-not-tell and!! >:O !! Good

aah thank you! the conveying of emotion is something i’m especially uh. underconfident? in how i write (as i fear my views on anger/sorrow/etc are skewered and don’t let me do it well as a result), so it’s actually Really Nice to hear that i’m decent at it ;;

rawnderer replied to your post: 

i luv u hari <3

ur smelly kris and u will forever be the rat to my hog <3

Anonymous said:

I wanted to comment on the 🌟post but I don't have a rp blog, I just like reading interactions (also I'm afraid 😅) but I really want to tell you that your blog is amazing 😍 I love all your interpretation of the different muses, especially Porunga (honestly he's so slept on). Whenever I'm having a bad day I come here bc I know no matter what you write it's going to make me smile. Stay great mun!!

i totally understand being afraid, but at the same time, rest assured that i’m not going to bite your head off or anything for talking to me, and you don’t have to have a rp blog to do it! 

i’m really, really glad that i can help make someone’s day a bit better w/ the Adventures i get up to on here. it’s no joke when i say that stuff like that is a big reason why i write in the first place.

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✩ watergate :3

this took too fucking long

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? i feel like emma cos she’s more angry dramatic and he’s more emo dramatic but i was also gonna say he probably should to accomodate for his heightWho threatens to leave but never actually does? neither of them, they’ve both left one another repeatedly. Who actually keeps their word and leaves? both of them, see above. Who trashes the house? i don’t think either of them … i can’t see him ever doing it but if he did she would kick his ass things need to be NEAT Do either of them get physical? basement gate tease ! but no … it’s soft ….  that’s been erased from my memory … they’re emo not violent  How often do they argue/disagree? all the time but about #dumb shit nowadays … used to be more serious but now? you like chocolate ice cream better? … idiot  Who is the first to apologise? if they had a penny for every time mickey has apologised to her both of them could quit their low salary jobs and move to france 

Sex:

Who is on top? bold of u to assume they aren’t both switches Who is on the bottom? ^Who has the strangest desires? Any kinks? mind ur fucking business … snuggling is a kink Who’s dominant in bed? i don’t think dominant has ever been in either of their vocabulary where’s the john mulaney gif abt soup in the lap … regaurdless … probably he has to be she’s babyIs head ever in the equation? she suck the dick for free and mickey is a good boy, he knows how to go down on a womf If so, who is better at performing it? i don’t know how sex works is it easier to eat thrussy or suck a dick … they both try the only thing that matters is that once he said she was better at sex than [ redacted ] Ever had sex in public? private public … like not dressing room public but like, romantic lookout in a car public … hope no coppers come 2 shine their flashlight Who moans the most? idk if this is my sexism or my lesbian but women should, legally, be required to moan more than menWho leaves the most marks? he better swallow his masculinity and get used to concealer but i feel like that wld not be an issue for him, king ! he can’t borrow hers though it won’t match Who screams the loudest? WHO YELLSWho is the more experienced of the two? mickey. fucking duh. Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? they make love :3Rough or soft? soft … unlike his penis How long do they usually last? haha 8 seconds joe goldberg tease? idk how long sex even lasts in general …. solidly average is my guess Is protection used? he better wrap it before he taps it my girl cannot afford plan b . so yesDoes it ever get boring? not …. boring but ….. consistent. when emma gets too drunk she asks odette for sex advice bc she doesn’t want to bore ickey Where is the strangest place they’d have sex? nowhere is strange if ur brave enough.

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? …. yes ….If so, how many children do your muses want/have? she wants 27 children actually but literally anything from 1-30 will suffice …. they need a lot of help on his inevitable farm Who is the favorite parent? mickey is the fun parent so u already know who it is Who is the authoritative parent? REMEMBER the clip i sent u from the marky mark movie … she’s always the bad guy until he gets #fedup and he has to remind her that she’s not doing it this time AJSDKF Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? honeslty both of them unless emma hoards all the candy … selfish  Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? both of them they make fucking SIGNS …. its a little league game u dont need to paint the football stripes on ur faceWho goes to parent teacher interviews? they both go but mickey is better at them because emma always goes into teacher mode and tries to talk about Who changes the diapers? mickey does he’s a NURSE he is not grossed out , she is . baby poop is rank Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? where tf is that gifset from prison break when u need it … she does but only because she hates diapers and it’s only fair to pop a tiddie out every night for ur kid in exchangeWho spends the most time with the children? ummmm FAMILY FUN NIGHT x Who packs their lunch boxes?Who gives their children ‘the talk’? mickey he is obligated as a medical professional she don’t teach sex ed …. Who cleans up after the kids? emma but only because she’s a neat freak Who worries the most? both of them try to pretend they’re VERY cool and nonchalant and this is actually very easy until one of them cracks (probably her) and they both worry together constantly . solidarity babey ! ….. moreso her tho u cannot change my mind Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? auntie odette change my mind we said FUCK watergate lives , emdette rise 

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? both of them …. constntly …. disgusting Who is the little spoon? [ jake peralta vc ] everyone likes to be the little spoon, it makes them feel safe ! LOOK HERE buddy …. he is and i dont take questions , even when he was 10 ft Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? can he fucking keep his hands AWF …. thats coming from me not emma she appreciates it Who struggles to keep their hands to themself? both of them …. its CONSTANT … hand on the shoulder , touching someone’s back as u walk past …. SOFT ! n then the one gif  u sent from superstore where amy slaps jonah’s ass that’s emma How long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable?  they actually fall asleep cuddling and wake up complaining abt falling asleep in a uncomfortable position… shut up abt ur back pain ur not 80 Who gives the most kisses? KISS kisses …. he. but know … she’s always kissing him on the cheek What is their favourite non-sexual activity? this is gonna sound g*y as hell but stay with me here ………. just being in the same place , even when they’re doing diff stuff . TOGETHERNESS …. vomit time Where is their favourite place to cuddle? the couch , i retract my statement about them not being 80 they actually fall asleep watching tv Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? casually ? she … to actually initiate eye emoji ? he How often do they get time to themselves? all the time , they know 2 other people 

Sleeping:

Who snores? he does im hcing this for ur own character If both do, who snores the loudest? she doesn’t SNORE she’s a lady Do they share a bed or sleep separately? they’ve been in 200 different stages of relationship ……. OTHER than depending on that , she sleeps better w him there :3If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? they start far apart cos she’s a blanket hog but she always ends up next 2 him Who talks in their sleep? she mumbles sometimes ….. its nothing coherent What do they wear to bed? she owns 47 different stupid size xxxxxxxl shirts that were 2 bucks  from walmart and wears only that . i bet mickey owns a bathrobe, bourgeois pig … Are either of your muses insomniacs? idk she reads a chapter of whatever dumb shit she’s reading and has tea or wine and conks out ….. idk his business Can sleeping pills be found by the bedside? idk abt taking them and ik its not the point but shes anal retentive abt keeping medicine in the medicine cabinet so THERE BETTER NOT BE Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? AS I SAID … they start out on opposite sides of the beg and end up more tangled than tangled (20whatever) Who wakes up with bed hair? his hair is floofy ,,,, Who wakes up first? i feel like that depends on his shifts …. she wakes up at the same damn time every week day …. weekends though she sleeps in for 10 yrs so him Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? emma tries and he has to leave bed anyway because the fire alarm goes off  What is their favourite sleeping position? she prefers it when she has all the blankets Who hogs the sheets? she does Do they set an alarm each night? they have JOBS does she look like pippa to u Can a television be found in their bedroom? yes so she can cry over dumb rom coms over somewhere other than the couch …… he’s invested in them , change my mind Who has nightmares? i already know ur about to say he does so im calling the cops on u end of story Who has ridiculous dreams? all of emma’s dreams are indistinguishable from bad acid trips Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? she sleeps in the fetal position he seems like a sprawler …..Who makes the bed? emma …. its gotta be CLEAN and if he ever says “why make it we’re just gonna sleep there again” its on SIGHT What time is bed time? whenever she passes out , always before midnight , considering they’re 72Any routines/rituals before bed? i bet they brush their teeth at the same time to see who can do it faster like they’re five year olds …. or that gifset from new girl where he’s like “ u read my walking dead fanfic ? ”Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? emma takes three cups of coffee to be able to be her CHIPPER self …. 

Work:

Who is the busiest? she has like a 6 hour work day so he for sure Who rakes in the highest income? i just googled nurses versus preschool teachers and he makes twice what she does …. laughs nervously …. glad she’s going back 2 school but elementary teachers STILL make less …. mr talbot got COIN ! Are any of your muses unemployed? no , freeloading is ILLEGAL Who takes the most sick days? i feel like the two worst jobs to go into sick are a literal hospital with immunocompromised people and a preschool with toddlers who dont wash their hands …. equal maybe Who is more likely to turn up late to work? despite her original beef with odette in the apocalypse verse emma is NEVER late to work Who sucks up to their boss? she cooks dinner , a nice LASAGNA for whoever to heat up and mickey has to break it to her that making whoever her superior is eat what tastes like glue will in fact , damage their relationship What are their jobs? hes a nursey  boy …. shes a teacher Who stresses the most? about life in general? her. about work? probably him. he’s dealing with LIVES she’s got the alphabet Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? they better they aren’t getting paid enough to hate it Are your muses financially stable? they’re not rich but they’re not dying and that’s what matters 

Home:

Who does the washing? emma because it relaxes her Who takes out the trash? he better , she does not like to  LOOK at things once they are thrown out … its smelly Who does the ironing? neither of them have ironed anything in their lives Who does the cooking? HE HAS TO IDC if he isn’t fuckign gordon ramsay she’ll kill them Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? emma Who is messier? if he leaves a single sock on the floor he is automatically messier than her Who leaves the toilet roll empty? that’s satanic neither of them Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? he does …. its just not REALISTIC that she does Who forgets to flush the toilet? that’s gross ……hopefully neither ….. DISGOSTEING.mp4Who is the prankster around the house? anything STUPID is hers and hers alone but i feel like he’d do something relatively innocent and it would go HORRIBLY wrong like , hey emma come get y’all juice ….Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? despite being organized in every other aspect of her life emma has never kept track of keys in her life its a disease Who mows the lawn? he does , he shld do it shirtless so she can objectify him Who answers the telephone? mickey, she truly stares at it hoping it’ll go away Who does the vacuuming? emmaWho does the groceries? she would make HORRIBLE decisions ,,, he shld make the list and she shld get it Who takes the longest to shower? no sexism but she’s a girl Who spends the most time in the bathroom? see above 

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? yES like … they can afford groceries , make rent , but for literally every american except jeff bezos money is a problem in some area . this isn’t a hc just a capitalist hellscape How many cars do they own? two …. neither of them are very nice cars Do they own their home or do they rent? rent unless/until he gets the farm of his dreams Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? countryside thats where FARMS are … but like rn , coast cos there’s the ocean in town Do they live in the city or in the country? see above bbgDo they enjoy their surroundings? the goats of the future and the noisy neighbors of the current and past eras both leave something to be desired , but in general yes What’s their song? not to go all modern au but remember when stereo hearts was on their 2011 mixtape AJSKDF …. issa bop and its arguably the most cutesy singable on the playlist What do they do when they’re away from each other? bitch idk ? exist as human beings ?Where did they first meet? idk she probably met him for coffee or sum before moving in together to make sure he wasn’t a serial killer How did they first meet? they were roommates … oh my god they were roommates …. she prolly put an ad in the paper very lucky she did not get murdered x Who spends the most money when out shopping? i feel like neither of them are big spenders but her sticker and colored pen budget is larger than it should be Who’s more likely to flash their assets? i thought this was talking about tits for a second but im assuming mone ? they keep it humble Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? they both do , bullying one another is a bonding experience Any mental issues? more than you know my guy Who’s terrified of bugs? if she sees a SPIDER she floors it , but she releases most other bugs …. he better kill anything w 8 legs tho Who kills the spiders around the house? mickey , as described above wow im psychic Their favourite place? they can make any place work together … gay but true , just like me Who pays the bills? she has a special binder just for taxes Do they have any fears for their future? all the fears actually Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? she cannot cook but she has 10/10 ordered takeout , put it on plates and been like :the happy version of the pensive emoji yk the one: i cooked it while the reciept is still on the counter Who uses up all of the hot water? thats very selfish she wld never but she also showers first bc she doesn’t trust him not to ….. Who’s the tallest? they , in american , are the SAME HEIGHT ,,, fuck centimeters Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other?Who wanders around in their underwear? clothes are oppressive let them both do it coward Who sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? it probably turns into a competition until they’re both singing at the top of their lungs …. omg watergate you’re gonna burst a vocal cord oh my god they can’t hear us they have airpods in What do they tease each other about? literally everything …. one of them BREAHTES wrong and the other is like “ ah didnt realise the asthma express was in town “ Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? mickey literally dresses like the fresh prince so u already answered that for me Do they have mutual friends? can the real jack detler please stand up Who crushed first? she ……. did not immediately fall in love with him let me tell u , it took her some solid MONTHS to realise she was in deep for his bitch ass Any alcohol or substance related problems? i wld hope not , #stubie twWho is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? them , together , for getting kicked out of the bar for singing Who swears the most? neither ? 

[floralege]

all the ships !

who’s more likely to find who wearing their clothes?: i feel like brigitte has a blast putting pru in designer clothing, considering that’s how they met. bonus is catching bee in pru’s band t-shirts. fern has made a lifestyle of stealing liam’s zeppelin shirts. also just thought of rome in a suit and had a heart palpitation 

who enunciates hand holding?: this is mick and daisy, who are probably met with playful disgust. shut up, we’re gonna hold hands. 

who likes having their hair washed by who?: jules n bella take dramatically long baths together, romy loves washing molly’s hair, fred probably plays with cameron’s hair and it makes her soft inside 

who likes to slow dance?: this screams scully n mulder, and mulder may initiate but scully digs it. catch fourteen year old mick asking brigitte to dance while delphine says that’s never gonna happen. oh ho HO how time flies. we all know gid’s got a romantic hard on for rome, so slow dancing under the full moon is a big must.

muse that’s more likely to fall asleep with their head in the others lap?: liam falls asleep all over fern while she’s on the phone with record execs, jesse literally thinks of jane as his personal pillow, jules and bella take turns sleeping on each other and make a big show of it 

muse that does all the cuddling in a blanket fort?: i could not tell you a single ship that would have a blanket fort??? maybe sadie and jimmy when they’re super drunk??

who hogs most of the covers at night?: your answer was pretty apt so i’m sticking with that 

muse who nuzzles the others shoulder to get them to give them a head rub?: sadie definitely, also jesse. daisy just does it instinctively for dom

how do they share a desert? two forks or one?: cameron and freddie share one fork and stuff each other’s faces, it’s adorable and we hate them. pru and bee start with two forks on opposite sides of the booth, til pru slinks over and they become giggling messes. 

who gets jealous more easily?: gideon was never too jealous before rome had james, and now he’s like, pathetic. also very annoyed that she never displays her jealousy. liam, we know this. mick gets a little :/ but also knows he’s literally not even really dating delphine so he gets over himself pretty quickly. sadie doesn’t get jeaaaalous exactly, but she also likes to pull the ‘he’s already got a friend’ card so 

who gets angered more easily?: gideon, liam, sadie, pru, scully is half mulder’s size and will fight anyone who looks at him wrong.

who gets the most shoulder rubs?: this one is longer than expected and also you got the right answer already so, cecile probably bc she is an angel 

what are there arguments/fights like? how often do they fight?: early liam/fern fights were built on jealousy n drugs and somehow always ended in sex unless liam felt like being withholding. tbh pru and delphine are soulmates but at some point pru will take pity on her brother and need to have a talk with delph like ‘so whats really gonna happen bc i’m starting to feel bad’ somehow! molly and romy are so cute yet somehow always have fights that hurt like hell 

who is more likely to throw things in fights?: bella, fern, gideon is like the 18th century version of that post where the girl framed the guy’s punch in the wall 

how do they make it up to each other/apologize after an argument? probably just sex all around. also expensive jewelry from grady. 

do they have nicknames for each other?: pru, bee, stills, fernie, molls, drunk sadie says ‘jimothy’ a lot, ivor was a big fan of saying ‘miss cece’ no matter what. obvs scully and mulder, but that’s too easy. when they’re sneaking around, dom and daisy probably had code names, and they were probably bad. they’re so anglo. 

caring for each other while ill, how does the other muse go about it?: brigitte probably gives pru the full pamper treatment, so pru pretends to be sick a few days longer than she actually has. munchhausen by caldwell 

who’s more likely to be patching the others wound?: fern has tended to many of liam’s bloodied knuckles over the years, ivor boxes now and then so he probably came into work very sore n bruised up and cecile took care of him. 

muse that says ‘I told you so’, after they come home from the beach and other muse is burnt to a crisp while whining how bad it hurts for not listening and putting on sunblock after the other muse repeatedly told them they’d get burnt?: well i read this in jane’s voice so very clearly jesse/jane content right there! 

your otp has a newborn baby, who gets up in the middle of the night when he/she cries?: freddie and cameron were both so excited when henry was born that they probs both jumped at the chance to do it bc they live in some little rose-colored world. daisy and dom have already Done That Shit and would cringe at the thought… also imagine them having some late in life baby after all that shit went down? camille and moises would truly be tormented. jesse would be the softest dad i’m :’)

what would they be like as parents?: like i said, jesse would be a soft dad ! so soft ! too bad his life is filled with fucking pain at every turn, he’s so good with kids. mick has a complex about his childhood, so he’d be determined to be a v attentive father. daisy and dom are messy as people, but they’re good parents who love their respective kids very much. as we’ve learned, liam and fern luv the kiddos but… can’t hack it for too long. 

what would they have been like as childhood sweethearts? dom and daisy are technically childhood sweethearts and… look how that turned out. jesse and jane would’ve build very intricate sandcastles together, which is very soft. pru/bee/mick/delph are kind of??? childhood sweethearts?? but they’re still figuring it out in their twenties so we’ll see where that goes. in the ethan’s gf au, liam n fern probs known each other as teenagers n she was always at rehearsals. love a throwback. childhood scully n mulder might’ve been way different, she would’ve actually believed back then. 

who initiates taking a bath together?: gonna devote this solely to romy/molly and pru/bee bc my gay ass wants f/f bath time together. for pru and bee, it’s cute but they gotta keep their voices low and it’s like that scene in friends when monica has to hide under the bubbles bc joey walks in, and mimi n moises are probably joey. romy and molly have wine and make a night of it 

who likes who playing with their hair?: DID WE NOT ALREADY DISCUSS THIS ABOVE SMH 

[magtitude]

31 -- 40 Chris headcanons from my old blog/s under the cut. watch out tho bc it’s a long post. additional cw for headcanon 32: suicide/suicide ideation/suicide attempt, mental illness, abuse ( child & medical ).

31. Chris will probably always have a chip on his shoulder over his parents’ stupidity – i.e., getting pregnant and having him at such young ages. Even though he knows he’s neither the first nor last, it still annoys him ( although ‘annoys’ isn’t the right word, that’s what he says ).

32. By the time Chris is 14, he figures that there’s more going on with his family’s history than either his mother or aunt are saying, and it’s why they’re both on opposite ends of the emotionally-expressive spectrum ( Diane – close off; Angela – bursting with emotion ).

And it’s not until he’s 15 that his mother has a “little emotional breakdown” ( as she calls them; “they’re temporary”, she says ), and admits that she’s been having suicidal thoughts lately ( more than lately, she’ll say later ), and she promises she won’t, even though she has it planned out how and where.

And it turns out, through listening to his mother’s upset rambling, that he had an uncle who killed himself by throwing himself into a river a few months before Chris was born, and that aunt Diane tried to do the same when she was 12.

And that Angela’s parents were awful, terribly awful. and it was no wonder her siblings wanted to die and that she has all these thoughts all the damn time–

Won’t go to a doctor, though. Don’t trust them, not after what they did to William. The doctors that their parents had sent William to for his behavioural problems; it made him worse, made him unreachable.

And Chris thinks, oh, this might explain some things.

33. A general list of things he is and likes:

tall

nerd

doofus & memelord

Angry Inside

but also Dad Inside

an idiot sandwich

doesn’t allow himself to show weakness

will push himself to the limit if he thinks he should be ( especially/more so post-mountain ), i.e. less eating, less sleeping, less taking care of himself, more drinking, more likely to start arguments to distance himself from his loved ones

only ever Kinda OK at any point in time during his pre-Proper Adult™ Life. childhood before josh? <:/ Not Good. childhood when he meets josh? improvement, but still feels weird. teenager? Dead All The Time, he thinks. but also memes. young adult? Some Shit Happened, My Dude.

… he’s at least content before All The Shit Happened, tho.

AN. IDIOT. SANDWICH.

loves hugs, cuddles, & kisses. very cuddly. and the forehead thing.

34. The first time he was asked by another school kid which school he used to go to, he lied and said he was homeschooled. That way, if someone teased him and said, “you didn’t have many friends back in your old school” ( or something like that ), he’d say, “well duh i was homeschooled :///”. He keeps it up for as long as possible – which is probably forever since no-one really cares about it, and he was 8 when he moved, anyway.

35. “One of my muse’s prized possessions.”

His phone, definitely. It’s portable, it’s got all his contacts, all these funky features that’ll keep him busy and happy ( photo & video galleries, various apps, etc. ). And if it gets too full, he can just dump what he doesn’t need to keep on there onto his computer.

36. “A sleep headcanon.”

It’s either too much, or not enough, and one feeds into the other. Tends to go to bed at ridiculously late times ( even when he was younger, he was terrible at bedtime ), sometimes as late as 6 or 7 in the morning.

Sleeps more on his front/side than on his back.

When sharing a bed – he can either be a bed-hog, or very clingy, even if the other’s hair gets up his nose. And he will steal the covers; he’s like a self-generated heater, but he still feels cold without them.

37. “What was my muse’s first heartbreak?”

His first heartbreak was before he was even in a relationship; having developed a crush on Ash, and after a good few hours of realising he had a crush on her, started to talk himself into believing she’d never return his feelings, alongside the thought that being in love made him vulnerable, thus becoming some messed up ouroborous of self-doubt and fear of rejection.

Basically: “Oh, hey, I have a crush on her… shiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit. :’(”

38. “What are the ways my muse says ‘I love you’ without actually saying it?”

Numerous texts. Making breakfast. Cuddling in his sleep. Brushing through their hair. Forehead kisses, and kisses on the mouth, and the cheek. Cuddling when he’s awake. Showing them all of the things he finds cool on his phone and/or laptop, and what he thinks they might be interested in. Teasing them, jokingly, about how they’re in love with him ( “you’re in love with me? whaaaaat?” ). Touching their face all the damn time. Reminding them of things they need to keep up on, or checking in. “Sleep tight, dork.”

39. “Describe a physical action that shows complete trust.”

Shoulder-touches. Keeping his back to them. Letting other people touch him in casual ways – shoulders, arms, back, hands. Falling asleep near them. Forehead touches.

40. “On a sleepless night, what would they be found doing?”

Mostly either on his computer or his phone, watching or reading anything that will fully occupy his attention – spooky stories, or weird-but-true things, conspiracy theories, etc. -- which probably won’t help with sleeplessness, but hey-o.

If he can’t get himself to focus on those, he may end up just lying in his bed and making himself more miserable with whatever he happens to be thinking about ( e.g. having a crush on someone, memories of living in Las Vegas, unspeakably upsetting thoughts ).

If he’s also restless, he’ll go for a walk outside.

[pocmuzings]

✩

-rubs hands together-

Disagreements:

Who is more likely to raise their voice? maybe isaiah, but it would never be at ashley. he can get pretty worked up sometimes though.Who threatens to leave but never actually does? ne...i ..t her?? they like each other too much lmaoWho actually keeps their word and leaves? i feel like ashley always keeps her word, like the one time you can trust her to keep something to herself, it’ll be regarding isaiah. whereas i feel like isaiah is the kinda person that would leave, because he feels like he isn’t being good enough for ashley.Who trashes the house? ashley maybe? isaiah is pretty clean.Do either of them get physical? nope no no they are healthy n lovingHow often do they argue/disagree? pretty much never? the only time they kinda get a bit ... uppity .. is when ashley tries to shrug off people’s shitty behaviour. Who is the first to apologise? both of them usually do. ashley is too pure for the world and always apologises even when its not her fault.

Sex:

Who is on top? for the most part, isaiah, because he’s more dominant.Who is on the bottom? ashley probably, but lbr isaiah would lov her on topWho has the strangest desires? probably isaiah. he’s tried a lot of diff things.Any kinks? he really likes when they tease each other in public, and know they can’t do anything about it. or he likes just being able to sneak off somewhere, and come back, obviously disheveled and pretend like they’re fine. he also loves sexting, or if she sends him pics. Who’s dominant in bed? isaiah.Is head ever in the equation? almost always, isaiah likes to make sure his girl is good n ready for him :-)If so, who is better at performing it? isaiah loves doing it more, but ashley is probably the best at it.Ever had sex in public? they probably would, yes, like in a bathroom or changing room.Who moans the most? ashley maybe?Who leaves the most marks? ashley, we hope.Who screams the loudest? again, hope it’s ashley.Who is the more experienced of the two? they’re both experienced in different ways. Do they ‘fuck’ or ‘make love’? bit of both.Rough or soft? for the most part, and to begin with- isaiah is a soft bean.How long do they usually last? look if ashley is going down on isaiah, he will last like... a minute, max, because she’s really good. but at sex in general, i feel like they can last a while. maybe 20 mins for just sex, but if there’s good foreplay thrown in there, then a couple of hours.Is protection used? isaiah defs would be all over the condom sitch, bc he wouldn’t want to make her have to take a pill, or iud, or rod or anything.Does it ever get boring? nope, nope, never.Where is the strangest place they’d have sex? probably behind the school bleachers, right after a game, when isaiah was high on adrenaline from winning. 

Family:

Do your muses plan on having children/or have children? i don’t really think they’d be thinking about that for a long time.If so, how many children do your muses want/have? ashley would probably want a cute little baby? but, isaiah is kinda... fine with where he is.Who is the favorite parent? isaiah, maybe? just because he’s such a dad, and makes lame jokes and doesn’t mind embarrassing himself to make kids smile. ashley is more just like, the sunny, bright, always positive one. they’re both loved tbhWho is the authoritative parent? again, isaiah. he’d be the one to be like “nope, time for bed.” and then they’d all ‘awww’ and ashley would join in and isaiah wouLD STRUGGLE TO KEEP UP.Who is more likely to allow the children to have a day off school? ashley. they’d cough once around her and be like ‘i’m sick’ and she’d be like ‘omg of course baby, stay home’Who lets the children indulge in sweets and junk food when the other isn’t around? again, probably ashley? not excessively, but she’ll playfully let them ‘sneak’ cookies behind isaiah’s back. isaiah always knows, of course, but they all pretend he doesn’t.Who turns up to extra curricular activities to support their children? ashley is the best damn unofficial cheerleader. she’d probably be all up in those pta meetings, or just helping with dances and stuff, whereas isaiah would be more of like.. a sports coach kinda. Who goes to parent teacher interviews? both of them for sure!Who changes the diapers? ashley would be exhausted, no doubt, so isaiah does not mind doing the heavy lifting from here.Who gets up in the middle of the night to feed the baby? isaiah, bc ashley needs her sleep.Who spends the most time with the children? they both spend quite a bit of time with their kids? they’re good at balancing it out, because they both know what its like to have shitty parents. Who packs their lunch boxes? ashley, and she does it so well, she has it down pat. she puts little smily faces in their salads, or sandwiches. whereas, isaiah gets clueless and ends up just giving them a paper bag with $10 in it, to buy lunch.Who gives their children ‘the talk’? GODDD, isaiah would try to lead it, but lbr, ashley would take over bc isaiah would struggle.Who cleans up after the kids? both!Who worries the most? ashley worries more openly. Who are the children more likely to learn their first swear word from? ashley, probably, she’d let one slip by accident, and that would probably be their kids first word. 

Affection:

Who likes to cuddle? ashley isn’t so used to cuddling, so i feel like isaiah often initiates it. they both like it though Who is the little spoon? ashley, for sure. she fits perfectly in his arms!Who gets naughty in the most inappropriate of places? omg... both have their moments honestly. it really depends. if isaiah is feeling really relaxed, and happy, and a bit pumped up, then he’ll initiate it. i feel like most of the time, ashley initiates it accidentally. Who struggles to keep their hands to themself?  isaiah usually hates pda, but he’s always kinda gotta have his hand in hers, or his arm brushing against hers. he needs contact basically all the time #clingybitchHow long can they cuddle until one becomes uncomfortable? isaiah probably falls asleep with his arms around ashley, and she ends up having to squirm or be like ‘isaiah ur lying on my HAIR’ . so maybe .. an hour?Who gives the most kisses? ashley, she gives lil cute kisses, all the time. What is their favourite non-sexual activity? just being around each other in general? lmao, these bitches love each other.Where is their favourite place to cuddle? a bed . isaiah still likes to stay private about over excessive pda. Who is more likely to playfully grope the other? ashley probably, and isaiah would wanna die. How often do they get time to themselves? quite a bit. isaiah often goes into his own holes n stuff, and ashleys good at pulling him out. 

Sleeping:

Who snores? neither? If both do, who snores the loudest? isaiah snores sometimes, and sleep talks sometimes, but for the most part they’re both pretty good. one time ashley did have an awful cold though, and isaiah refused to leave her side. she snored so loud that the walls literally shook, and isaiah knew not to say anything bc he knew she’d feel bad. Do they share a bed or sleep separately? share, always. If they sleep together, do they cozy up together or lay far apart? if it’s rlly hot, then they might lie a bit apart, but still hold hands. for the most part, they’re cosy n together.Who talks in their sleep? isaiah probably. or ashley mumbles little funny things like ‘no, snowman, you can’t take my penguin’ and isaiah grins so big. What do they wear to bed? isaiah probably just wears boxers. ashley probably has like ,, this sexy af bralette and short shorts or something. Are either of your muses insomniacs? hmm, not clinically, i don’t think, but ashley definitely has trouble sleeping with everything shes been throughCan sleeping pills be found by the bedside? for ashley, yes.  isaiah keeps them there, and insists she takes them if it’s a really bad night. Do they wrap their limbs around each other or just lay side by side? wrapped up like a pretzel.Who wakes up with bed hair? ashley? isaiah probably loves it.Who wakes up first? definitely isaiah.Who prepares breakfast in bed for the other? isaiah again. he’d like bring a tray over, thinking he’s so romantic, and be like ‘wakey wakey’ and ashley would probably scream and knock the tray over, and they’d end up getting breakfast out instead lmao. What is their favourite sleeping position? cuddled up together on their sides. or isaiah likes lying on his back, holding one of her hands with his, against his chest. Who hogs the sheets? maybe ashley? neither, bc they’re both so selfless.Do they set an alarm each night? not really, isaiah’s body clock is pretty good.Can a television be found in their bedroom? for sure.Who has nightmares? ashley :(Who has ridiculous dreams? ashley :)Who sprawls out and takes up most of the bed? isaiah probably, without even noticing.Who makes the bed? both of them, they do it together, and probably end up messing it up all over again. What time is bed time? they don’t... have a bed time?Any routines/rituals before bed? isaiah always, always asks her if there’s anything she needs, or for him to help her with, before he’s about to sleep. they both usually shower together too, because isaiah likes to help wash her hair.  and vice versa.Who’s the grumpiest when they wake up? maybe ashley, but not really? she’s more just... sleepy still. 

Work:

Who is the busiest? they both have a good work ethic, but i feel like ashley probably runs around a lot Who rakes in the highest income? ... maybe... isaiah. sigh.Are any of your muses unemployed? nope they’re good at taking care of themselves. Who takes the most sick days? neither?Who is more likely to turn up late to work? ashley, because she fell asleep.Who sucks up to their boss? isaiah probably.What are their jobs? currently? mystery busters! in the future i’d like to think that isaiah is on a professional lacrosse team, or coaching. ashley would make a really great childcare worker i feel. or she’s good with fashion, so anything there. Who stresses the most? isaiah, usually.Do your muses enjoy or despise their careers/occupations? currently ... a bit of.. bothAre your muses financially stable? isaiah is, therefore he makes sure ashley is too, but ashley by herself .. maybe not.. so much? 

Home:

Who does the washing? isaiah.Who takes out the trash? isaiah.Who does the ironing? isaiahWho does the cooking? isaiah lMAO he gotta take care of his girl ok, she work hard.. she aint gotta lift a finger. Who is more likely to burn the house down just trying? ashley hahahaahahaWho is messier? maybe ashley? she’d probably try distract him by throwing flour or something.Who leaves the toilet roll empty? hopefully neither.Who leaves their dirty clothes on the floor? if hes in a rush, isaiah will.Who forgets to flush the toilet? pls god neitherWho is the prankster around the house? maybe isaiah?Who loses the car keys when it comes time to go somewhere? ashley, omg.Who mows the lawn? isaiah. and he’ll do it shirtless and sweaty, so he can cool off in a shower later with his girl ;-)Who answers the telephone? either?Who does the vacuuming? isaiah.Who does the groceries? isaiah. or they go together!Who takes the longest to shower? ashley maybe.Who spends the most time in the bathroom? ashley, bc have you seen her amazing makeup skills? girl has to take TIME to put on her FACE.

Miscellaneous:

Is money a problem? isaiah would never let it be, but that would probably cause a problem in itself.How many cars do they own? isaiah has one. i don’t know if ashley does, but lbr, isaiah would get her one if she needed.Do they own their home or do they rent? rent currently, but isaiah would defs get one.Do they live near the coast or deep in the countryside? coast.Do they live in the city or in the country?  city.Do they enjoy their surroundings? definitely! isaiah makes sure it’s a friendly neighbourhood and nobody is problematic.What’s their song? take your pick from my playlist! (my personal faves are probably white ferrari , simplethings and saved by khaled)What do they do when they’re away from each other? probably text each other constantly, or send a bunch of emojis. theyre so annoying.Where did they first meet? at  A FRAT PARTY SDJKNSNJHow did they first meet? zach was friends with both of them, and introduced them. he was just like ‘ha ha, two of my friends, meeting!’ and they literally took one look at each other and zach was like ‘o fuck, they in love’ Who spends the most money when out shopping? LISSTEN isaiah will literally THROW his credit card at ashley. he likes when things make her happy, so why not buy them? he does spend quite a bit on shoes, though. Who’s more likely to flash their assets? isaiah would flash a bicep to ashley, and ashley would flash some cleavage to isaiah. but in public ... i mean. probably ashley, by accident. Who finds it amusing when the other trips over? neither, they aren’t meANAny mental issues? probably tons. Who’s terrified of bugs? ashley.Who kills the spiders around the house? isaiah.Their favourite place? with each other :) or at chalk!Who pays the bills? i mean they both would, but isaiah probably just debits his card automatically. Do they have any fears for their future? losing each other, after all the people they’ve already lost. Who’s more likely to surprise the other with a fancy dinner? isaiah, for sure. Who uses up all of the hot water? maybe ashley? but tbh isaiah wouldn’t care.Who’s the tallest? isaiah omg.Who’s more likely to just randomly hop into the shower with the other? isaiah for sure. Who wanders around in their underwear? ashley, and isaiah probably stares literally falling more in love by the secondWho sings the loudest when singing along to the radio? both of them ?? maybe? What do they tease each other about? maybe isaiahs glasses, sometimes ? or not knowing that the other like the other? Who is more likely to cringe at the other’s fashion sense at times? neither? they’re both pretty well dressedDo they have mutual friends? ha ha.Who crushed first? literally it was both at the exact same time. Any alcohol or substance related problems? i don’t think so. isaiah chains smokes when he’s stressed, and he smokes a bit of pot, but... nah he’s pretty good.Who is more likely to stumble home, drunk, at 3am? maybe isaiah after a game? bc if it was ashley, you better believe she wouldn’t stumble home, bc isaiah would pick her ass up anytime, anywhere. Who swears the most? isaiah lmao.

[butigottaaa]

bb and ace

♛ fill in the blanks | fluff otp edition

Who’s more likely to find who wearing their clothes?: BB would find Ace in his clothesWho initiates hand holding?: BBWho likes having their hair washed by who?: Ace likes having his hair washed by BBWho likes to slow dance?: BBMuse that’s more likely to fall asleep with their head in the others lap?: AceMuse that does all the cuddling in a blanket fort?: AceWho hogs most of the covers at night?: AceMuse who nuzzles the others shoulder to get them to give them a head rub?: BBHow do they share a desert? Two forks or one?: Two forks. Ace gets more and BB feeds himWho gets jealous more easily?: AceWho gets angered more easily?: AceHow do they go to sleep at night?: With BB’s arms wrapped around AceWho gets the most shoulder rubs?: BBWhat are there arguments/fights like? How often do they fight?: I feel like they’re not really arguments more BB trying to get Ace to talk and Ace trying to change the subject. Who is more likely to throw things in fights?: Ace?How do they make it up to each other/apologize after an argument?: BB would be a low-key sap about it and hug him from behindDo they have nicknames for each other?: Probably ‘babe’ or in a punny way like ‘my ace’ (as in his name and he’s number 1)Caring for each other while ill, how does the other muse go about it?: BB would leave Ace with his favorite video games and comics to occupy him and would check up on him and give him oftenWho’s more likely to be patching the others wound?: BB bc Ace is clumsyMuse that says ‘I told you so’, after they come home from the beach and other muse is burnt to a crisp while whining how bad it hurts for not listening and putting on sunblock after the other muse repeatedly told them they’d get burnt?: BBYour otp has a newborn baby, who gets up in the middle of the night when he/she cries?: BBYour muse’s of the otp reaction to finding the others crying about something? And how do they make them feel better?: He’d be really worried and shocked. He’d want Ace to cry it out and if he was comfortable talk about it, and offer to take him to the comics store or to get sweets he likesWhat would they be like as parents?: I feel like even though he works at a toys r us, Ace would be bad with kids but he tries his best to be a good dad, and BB is one of those tough but fair dads who sometimes makes dad jokesWhat would they have been like as childhood sweethearts?: They’d eat lunch together all the time during school (which idk how that’d work bc they’d be in different grades but for the sake of this we gon ignore that fact lolz)Who initiates taking a bath together?: AceWho likes who playing with their hair?: Ace likes playing with BB’s hairThe place they mostly likely accidentally fall asleep together?: On the couch in either Ace’s house or BB’s apartment

@crystclsnow

[madonnacooper-blog]

camden for the fluff thing bc why not

Who’s more likely to find who wearing their clothes?: Camden obviously finds Madonna in his clothes, even 5 years later he’s online like ….. bitch is that my shirt?!Who enunciates hand holding?: I like to think it’s a bit of both of them, because he makes Madonna soft as fuck.Who likes having their hair washed by who?: Camden, duh. Who wouldn’t wanna touch those curls?Who likes to slow dance?: Madonna, when she’s drunk.Muse that’s more likely to fall asleep with their head in the others lap?: Camden, hands down. That little shit gets his hair played with and it’s game over. Muse that does all the cuddling in a blanket fort?: Madonna, for sure. When she thinks they’re hidden away, she’s an absolute cuddle buddy.Who hogs most of the covers at night?: Covers??? They use blankets?!?!?Muse who nuzzles the others shoulder to get them to give them a head rub?: Madonna when she’s feeling like she needs his attention. How do they share a desert? Two forks or one?: One, because she swears she’s not hungry.Who gets jealous more easily?: MADONNAAAAAAAA. She crazy, you guys.Who gets angered more easily?: MADONNA AFHow do they go to sleep at night?: Cuddled up like two sappy teenagers in the dead of night. Spooning leads to forking, children.Who gets the most shoulder rubs?: Probably Camden because she’s always wanting to touch him. What are there arguments/fights like? How often do they fight?: They fight often, but most of the time it’s stupid as hell and it lasts a whole ten minutes before they’re back together like nothing’s even gone wrong. When they do fight – it’s absolute hell. But it wouldn’t be Madonna if she didn’t get a little rise out of him.Who is more likely to throw things in fights?: Madonna, for sure. Oh??? You like this painting??? NO FUCK YOU, I PAINTED IT, I’LL SMASH IT IF I WANT TO.How do they make it up to each other/apologize after an argument?: Most of the time, it’s not an apology – it’s defeat. Madonna looks into those baby blues and forgets she’s even fighting in the first place, she just remembers she’s not in his arms, and that just wont do.Do they have nicknames for each other?: Do C & Don count?????Caring for each other while ill, how does the other muse go about it?: Madonna tells him to stop being a big baby, but she still goes out of her way to make him soup from scratch. Who’s more likely to be patching the others wound?: I’m sure Camden’s had to patch her hands up more than a few times, she’s so violent – who could imagine her not with bloody knuckles? Muse that says ‘I told you so’, after they come home from the beach and other muse is burnt to a crisp while whining how bad it hurts for not listening and putting on sunblock after the other muse repeatedly told them they’d get burnt?: Is that even a question?!?!? Camden is putting her in time out while she angerly mumbles about aloe. Your otp has a newborn baby, who gets up in the middle of the night when he/she cries?: Both of them, because they’re cute like that and if one wakes up, the other is close behind. Your muse’s of the otp reaction to finding the others crying about something? And how do they make them feel better?: If Madonna found him crying, she’d honestly not know what to do. She’d awkwardly rub his shoulders until he told her the full story, but she’d be there for him even if he didn’t. She turns into a total pile of sap when someones upset, she’d most likely hold him until he was okay and then smother him in kisses until he at least smiled again.What would they be like as parents?: I feel like they’d be absolutely insane as parents together. It’d be adorable, but their fights would be about something silly like leaving the milk out. They’d both fawn over their child like those parents at the park who are on the swings with their children, Madonna would fall more in love with their child than she was with him. It’d be a ginormous turn of events because all the hatred in her body would disappear, she’d see nothing but the three of them for the rest of her life.What would they have been like as childhood sweethearts?: Madonna would’ve threw his juicebox on the ground and then came back with a cookie to apologize. She’s sour, sweet, and then gone. Look at my little sour patch kid. Who enunciates taking a bath together?: Madonna, for sure. She’s like C, you’re in the shower? Good – you fucking smell, move over I want a kiss. Who likes who playing with their hair?: I think they both like playing with the others hair. There’s something soothing about the two of them together, it’s a pile of flaming mush.The place they mostly likely accidentally fall asleep together?: Anywhere. Literally, fucking anywhere. If you were so sucked into someone else that you barely knew the rest of the world existed, you’d fall asleep anywhere too. The movie theatre? Asleep. The library? Asleep. The park? Asleep? The bar in the corner? Yep, that’s them. They’re asleep.

[doctor-sweet-blog]

2, 4, 6, 8

2) if you HAD to choose, who’s your favorite muse? this is RUDE tbh gosh uhhhhh i dunno. tehy really all bring so many different things to the table? i think just from...a writing...nO I CANT DO THIS DONT MAKE ME. i think belle/simba/lou/sweet are probably my favorites all for vastly different reasons but the first three esp bc i’ve just written them the longest.

4) is there a muse that not a lot of people roleplay with? well, maui needs threads rn so!! hit me up. ahaha. overalllll--i mean, lauryl hogs simba a little bit, i would like to get him back out there with more people (so if u want simba hmu!! tho also, he’s like sad and heartbroken rn so be prepared for that.) andd honestly?? i’d love to get both tina and hercules some more friends. especially hercules!

6) which one of your muses have you been playing the longest? belle, obvi! it’s beenn gosh. 2 years and like 2 months-ish at this point. simba isn’t far behind, i got him like four days after belle hahaha

8) what is each of your muses otps? notps?

belle - otp: hades notp: i mean i dont /not/ ship her with anyone? she’s just in love w hades so

simba - otp: BERLIOZ fuck im crying now notp: uhm nala, tink, uhh anyone obvious (this reminds me SOMEONE SHOULD HIT ON SIMBA HE’S SINGLE GUYS NOW IS YOUR CHANCE I S2G)

toulouse - otp: i don’t wanna say; i ship a lot of things and lou needs 2 focus on himself right now ahahha (OBVIOUSLY LOUD) notps: his siblings obviously uhhhh, tbh sotou leave that pure pls it’s just so sweet (okay maybe i ship it a little fuck)

bambi - otp: dash, the revival of ron, theo, uhhh there are people im missing im sure bam is a whore; notps: i gotta put theo on this list too. also: girls.

perdita - otp: fate, tbh i want SOMEONE ELSE TO ROMANCE HER CMON GUYS, notps: fate lmao kidding

sweet - otp: sweet babe, stronglioness, doctor bros notps: nah none really. his bitch ex annalise

hercules - (br)otp: greece lightning. notps: none really; no one who is mean to him.

attina - otp: paul, uhh anyone boy who talks to her and is nice; notps: none really, i guess paul just cuz it’s gonna be a disaster

akela - otp: kavya, cry. notp: uhhh none tbh i am here for whatever. OH-- mowgli lmao 

peach - otp: everyone. notp: no one.

[bleusarcelle]

Just Remember

Alright, so, this is probably going to be my last Fic post in THIS blog, it will still be active, it will still post Voltron stuff, I just start posting the fics from my WRITER Blog, so everything is orginized and stuff :D

Anyways, I was having a shitty morning with myself so, I wanted to scream but I couldn’t bc I was in traffic and like, so many people around so I did the best thing: I wrote. 

Langst but also happy langst. Even Lance have these moments guys, they are valid and okay. 

Ps. Hope it’s not too hard or stressful to read? 

Disclaimer: Voltron dosen’t belong to me. 

Shiro’s disappointed glare.

Lance punches the bag.

Pidge’s annoyed roll of eyes.

Another punch followed by a kick.

Keith’s exasperated scoff.

Kick, punch, shout.

Hunk’s exhausted sigh.

Punch, kick, punch, tears.

Coran’s shake of head.

Tears, punch, shout.

Allura’s skeptical frown.

Screams.

Lance screams and shouts and curses. He lets it all out. He lets his words and shouts echo around as he falls to his knees in the middle of the training room. He hiccups as sobs shake his body. He doesn't bother to wipe away his tears, he lets them fall to the ground and stain the mat below him.

He curses loudly and lividly for every part of him that makes him feel unworthy. He weakly punches the mat as he whimpers and his shoulders lose their strength.

Shiro’s disappointed glare turns into a concern one once he catches Lance’s weak whimpers as he cradles his own hand to his chest.

Frowning in worry, Shiro steps into the training room and takes a seat besides the brunet as Lance tries to hide his injured wrist.

“Lance, buddy, there’s no need to push yourself, I told you.” He reprimands gently, giving him a look when the brunet doesn’t allow him to get a better look of his wrist, “This training is new, you don’t need to be an expert the very same day you learn it.”

Lance sighs as he lets Shiro takes his wrist into his hands and the older teen inspects it carefully. and just hums dryly as an answer.

“Buddy, you’re already our sharpshooter, it’s okay to take your own pace as you learn to improve yourself.” Shiro says quietly after a few minutes in silence as he wraps Lance’s wrist in a white bandage, “You are getting used to the new form of your bayard, these things take time.”

“I know.” Lance answers softly, a small frown on his face, “But I feel like I’m letting you all down if I don’t learn to use it fast enough. What if we are in the battle field and because I still don’t know how to use or if I shot someone innocent or worse, one of you guys, by accident and -”

“Lance.” Shiro cuts off, not unkindly, “You’re our sharpshooter. The entire team and I have full faith in you.” He offers a proud smile at the brunet, “You would never miss a shot.”

Lance takes a deep breath as he let go of his abused lower lip. He sighs, wiping the thin line of blood coming from the corner of his mouth as he raises his head.

“It’s all in your mind.” Lance tells himself, placing a hand over his eyes to block out the light. “It’s all in your mind, it’s all in your mind. It’s okay. It’s valid. Just remember.”

The brunet takes a deep breath. “Just remember.”

He stays in silence for a little longer.

Pidge’s roll her eyes annoyed as Lance cheers in victory when the screen in the break room flashes the words of ‘Victory For Azul’ in big gold letters.

“Yeah, ok, you win this round, Mister.” Pidge says, shoving him by the arm, smirking when the brunet’s laughs, “I will win the next round, for sure.”

Lance chuckles as he raises his hand and ruffles Pidge’s wild bed hair. “We have been playing this game for like two hours, Pidge, aren't you tired of me already?”

Pidge scoffs as if the mere question offended her. “Pick up your controller, Mr. Spanish; I’m kicking your ass.” She declares as she presses a few buttons and the screen shows the announcement of Round 4.

Pidge wins until Round 10.

Lance’s mouth twitches as his brain keeps filling him with the missing scenes with his team.

Inhale. Hold. Exhale.

He falls back on the mat and lays down, closing his eyes as he repeats his breathing exercise.

“You’re okay.” He breathes out softly, “You’re okay, you’re okay, you’re okay.”

Keith scoffs exasperated as he watches his boyfriend hog the entire blanket in their bed.

“Lance, no.” He whines, stomping his foot against the floor, “Stop hogging the blanket every time I go take a shower.”

“Nop.” Lance replies from the bottom of the mountain of blankets, “You’re the one who wants to train so late, bear the consequences, buddy.”

“Babe!” The black haired man shouts annoyed and Lance suppresses his snickers as Keith’s pouts.

“Nope.” He repeats gleefully before yelping in surprise when a body slams itself from above, successfully crushing him, “Keith!”

Keith laughs playfully as he lays above Lance comfortably on his stomach, meeting Lance’s bright blue eyes easily even in the darkness around them, “Hi there.”

Lance snorts before he smiles. “Hello, hello.” He answers softly, reaching towards his boyfriend and Keith quickly meets him halfway.

“You’re comfy.” Keith confesses quietly against his lips and Lance laughs.

“Oh, hush.” He says as he smiles and nuzzles his face against Keith lovingly.

Lance hums quietly under his breath as his breathing goes back to normal after a few minutes.

He taps the surface of the mat he’s lying in with the tip of his fingers, following the rhythm of the song he’s humming.

Hunk sighs exhausted as he takes in the sight of his best friend covered in food goo.

“Lance, buddy, what’cha doin’?” He asks, fighting back the grin that threatens to appear as the brunet blinks surprised.

“Uh…” He starts, voice trailing unsure, “The mice made me do it?”

Said group of mice squeak at the accusation before Hunk accepts his losing battle as he laughs.

“Let me guess?” Hunks say and Lance nods, waving his hand as permission, “You tried to make my goo cookies?”

A pause.

“No…?” Lance answers, smiling innocently as some goo falls from his hair and Hunk shakes his head.

“Dude, if you wanted some you could have just ask me.” He says, stepping into the kitchen and wiping some of the goo from his friend’s hair and then grabs a clean cloth from the counter.

Lance pouts as he accepts the cloth and wipes his face. “I didn’t want to bother you.” He confesses softly.

Hunk snort amusedly. “Buddy, baking, food and you will never be a bother for me.” He reassures, smiling big and bright at the sheepish brunet, “Now, come on! Let’s do some baking!”

“I heard baking!” Shiro’s shout echoes around them as the leader of Voltron slides into the kitchen with a bright smile, “I call dibs on Lance’s biscuits.”

“No, no, those are mine, Shiro!” Come Keith’s shout as the younger brother jumps on Shiro’s back to fight him.

Lance and Hunk start baking, ignoring the wrestling brothers on the floor.

The brunet takes his training gloves as he sighs calmly when the door of the training room opens and closes and steps makes their way towards him.

He doesn't need to open his eyes to acknowledge the warm body lying beside him.

He takes Keith’s hand into his own in silence.

Coran shakes his head and Lance’s face fall.

“Hey, come on, now.” Coran says as soon as he notices the brunet’s sad eyes, “You are doing great, Lance! You got 9 out of 12 correct!” He praises, smiling big and proud at the brunet sitting in front of him.

Lance pouts. “Well yeah, but still, I’m still nowhere good. I can barely understand it! I will be a miracle if I’m ever able to speak it with you guys.”

Coran’s face softens at the words. “Oh, Lance, the mere fact you want to learn Altean is enough. Allura and I are so grateful that you are giving us this small time of normality that allows us to remember our roots.”

He leans forward to ruffle Lance’s head. “You’re doing great, mikró ílio.”

Lance blinks before he beams. “Little sun.” He translates softly and Coran smiles back just as brightly, pride clear in his eyes.

He doesn’t know how long they have been lying there, but at some point, Lance’s humming had stopped but Keith’s voice had filled in the silence, singing softly and quietly under his breath,

Lance allows himself to smile.

Allura’s skeptical frown turns into a confused one as Lance points at the corner of the screen.

“Okay, I understand your point, but wouldn’t it be easier to create a distraction and then just take the quintessence?” She asks and Lance taps his chin in deep thought.

“Well,” He starts, “It’s an option, but remember that the quintessence is something real valuable to the Galra, specially to Lotor now that Zarkon is out of commission. Their guards have been doubled since out last attack.”

Tapping twice into the screen, the video of their last mission appears. “See? The room is filled with druids plus some Galra Soldiers and the occasional Supervisor making rounds. A direct attack would only put them in higher alert even when some of us are sneaking in.”

“So sneaking in from the start is the best option.” Allura muses and Lance shrugs.

“It’s our best shot.” Lance declares, smiling when Allura nods her head at him and smiles.

“Well, you’re our sharpshooter, there’s no way we’re missing this.”

“Thank you, amor.” Lance says softly, turning his head to meet Keith’s face and his heart flutters when Keith’s blue eyes meet his own.

Keith stops his singing to smile gently at his boyfriend, “You okay?” He asks quietly, reaching out to brush Lance’s bangs away from his face and his eyes turn tender when the brunet nuzzles his face against his hand.

“Nah, my mind is still being a bitch.” Lance confesses, turning slightly to drop a small kiss against Keith’s palm, “But you being here kicks its ass, so I will be.”

“And I will be here.” Keith says, leaning forward to drop his own his against the brunet’s forehead.

“Thank you, amor.”