#I rejected him saying I don't love him
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Some men just can't handle rejection and accept a woman smarter than them who also knows her worth
#he was pissing me off#main to kindly unblock kardi thi#thinking he won't message me#par nhi#I had to be a bitch to show him his place#like#I rejected him saying I don't love him#and he called me “Selfish”?#excuse me sir?#do you have brains?#apparently not#men *tea*#some men *tea*#khushi rants
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hm. idk, maybe the reason Luke Newton isn't announcing new projects or posting any Bridgerton content is because some of you demons treated him like hot trash instead of a creative that you wanted more work from and he decided fuck it, this isn't worth the stress. you know, like a lot of creatives who get mistreated do?
like this is a man who went from couch surfing in a friend's house and bartending to make ends meet, deciding that the Bridgerton audition was the last one he'd do before he quit, to suddenly being recognized on the street because that last audition propelled him to star in a global show where fans who have zero media comprehension blamed him for his character's actions and literally stalked him at any hotel he happens to stay at. he went from being a dude doing musical theatre and shopping at thrift stores and recording random songs with friends and posting silly memes on Twitter to being harassed on his only social media page and his friends insulted and his partners bullied by his supposed 'fans' and anything he posts being so microanalyzed that he can't do a damn thing without someone coming out the woodwork screaming about how he's the WORST and won't he think of the FANS!?
like damn he can't have a girlfriend without being harassed, he can't travel without being harassed, he can't like or not like social media posts without being harassed, he can't post a fucking MEME without being harassed, he can't take a vacation or cut his hair or hold someone's hand or just live his life without being blamed for some bullshit or another. but yeah, okay, 'when will Luke Newton come back?' as if it isn't your fault he's AWOL now
#luke newton#colin bridgerton#polin#lukola#bridgerton#bridgerton has a bullying problem- from kanthony fans to benophie (i see y'all with your anti blogs and your mean opinions) to polin#y'all lukolas say you're fans but most of you are the ones microanalyzing and feeling entitlement to this dude#and you know what?#jakola#because y'all straight up sip the hateraid and lbsr rn and call a spade a spade: you don't know this jack (jake? idk and idc) dude#you don't care about his achievements and aren't fans of his 'work'#you just want your stand-in avatar nic to have male attention as if male validation is the end all be all of a woman's success#and you see luke as the stand in for all the men who hurt you in the past but like he is literally not doing anything and y'all will be mad#and project that he somehow hurt nic as well by 'rejecting' her for his girlfriend who you hate because lbr she's conventionally attractive#when NICOLA Is conventionally attractive TOO ffs#how dare y'all make me step up to bat for a white man this way#leave him alone#aren't you exhausted?#'he didn't like xyz social media post and his girlfriend gives me the ick and he's not posting and appeasing me and blahblahblah' shut up#like y'all shut down at someone so much as raising their voice at you or posting some mild criticism for your bad takes#but you expect a man who has openly revealed his ADHD and anxiety to be the punching bag for all your vitriol#because he's not living his life in a way YOU approve of? like who are YOU to dictate how someone does and does not exist on this earth?#do some soul searching#do i love Luke's acting and want more of it and for him to star in everything i wanna watch? of course#but rn i'm gently cradling his face going 'baby you should RUN' because y'all are the PITS#YOU are the problem#one day y'all will realize that
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Since I'm digging myself a hole tonight, I kind of actively hate the "But I am ready for something, and I think maybe that something could be with you."
Like, my first instinct was that it was sweet and that Buck was taking back a little bit of agency there and asking for what he wanted.
But I don't know. In so many ways, it also actually feels like it feeds into a very unhealthy pattern for Buck.
I mean, I might just be projecting because I cannot imagine ever being so infatuated with someone that I'd be like "I want to try a relationship with you" after only knowing them for 30 seconds and being left on the curb after a failed first date, but I digress.
But just. I don't know. This feels like such a pattern for Buck. Have someone express interest, only to then be rejected (Abby, Taylor, Natalia, now Tommy) and then chase them that much harder.
Like, Buck. Darling. PLEASE. Your value is not defined by the people for whom you have to prove your worth.
And I don't even mean this as anything directly against these partners. But Buck gets so caught up in forcing a relationship that he speedruns things without actually giving anyone (including himself) any space to grow into it, and it just feels kind of devastating that that's still where he is with himself.
#this man has not worked through a single issue in his life#like baby please go back to therapy#what does it say about him that his healthiest relationship seems to have been with ali who was the most forgettable of all love interests?#also i know i'm not saying anything new here#but it just. makes me sad.#that he can't see that he needs to give himself space and grow into something meaningful#like. i don't know. i guess people do this#but as someone whose only meaningful relationship took something like a year to grow into#i just cannot imagine wanting something like a romantic connection with someone i'd barely just met#so buck's insistence on going the distance IMMEDIATELY with any potential romantic partner even after (sometimes multiple) rejection(s)#is. a lot.#but again i know i'm projecting#i just. don't get it.#and i feel for him because it's so clear how much he wants something meaningful but he just will not give himself the space to grow into it#anti bucktommy#anti tommy kinard#just in case#this isn't actually meant to be anti but i feel like it would be read that way#911 discourse#random 911 thoughts
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4-armed Sukuna Appreciation post!! These were my favourite OG Sukuna panels from the latest chapter.
#ryomen sukuna#sukuna#jjk sukuna#jjk leaks#jjk#manga#og sukuna#4 armed sukuna#jujutsu kaisen#jjk spoilers#Fellas i don't think i can do it anymore#i genuinely can't do this anymore he's too hot my brain is malfunctioning literally because-- the TWISTS my heart did after seeing#these panels and Sukuna's dialogue....i'm so in love with this monstrosity (affectionate)#he's so...handsome and hot and...especially those last 2 panels.... :') i can stare and admire them for hours man#It's funny seeing folks tweeting about finding og sukuna hot now like?? bro we've been saying this for the longest time !!#Like ?? are u ppl finally seeing the vision??? us Sukuna fans had our brain chemistry altered by???#Give us that Heian Sukuna Backstory Gege please don't finish the manga without it i'm literally going to :''''''''(((((( ..#can't wait to see if i can draw my beloved on the weekend <3 <3 <3 he's my pookie my moonshine <3 and insert every other cringe thing#see my tags don't even fit into the tag limit because i can't stop myself from wanting to yap about him#Also the way Sukuna says that ''It is because i understand love that i reject it'' and the ''Love is worthless/trash'' makes me think that#he's been hurt in some way ; maybe he loved to an extent it effed him up 'cause we all know what Gojo said in JJK 0;#''Love is the most twisted Curse of all''#:''''''< i-...
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damn remember when ichigo went full hollow and orihime was terrified of him but when ulquiorra, someone she has only known as a hollow and kidnapped her by threatening to murder all her friends and spent her whole imprisonment intimidating her, asked her if she was afraid of him she said she wasn't
🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃
LIKE WHAT WAS I SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THAT????????
#did he just mindlessly stumble into these parallels#am i really not supposed to think that orihime being afraid of the monster that the guy she's in 'love' with turned into FOR HER#and her not being afraid of the guy who has done NOTHING but MENACE her ISN'T POINTED AND SAYS SOMETHING VERY CLEAR ABOUT HER RELATIONSHIPS#WITH THEM?#DOES THAT NOT PROJECT A VERY CLEAR MESSAGE THAT SHE KNOWS THE SOUL OF ONE AND NOT THE OTHER#THAT SHE CAN'T ACCEPT THE REALITY OF SOMEONE SHE'S ADMIRED FOR YEARS BUT APPRECIATES THE HUMANITY OF A FULL-TIME MONSTER?#ulquihime have a very ''i know i'm a monster but you treat me like a man'' type relationship#this is the pattern of ih scenes they're always Almost romantic lol#ichigo totally losing himself to his darker side in his need to protect her can easily be read as romantic#but then she??? completely rejects him?????????#AND THEN ALL BUT LITERALLY GIVES ULQUIORRA HER HEART!!!!!!!!!#REACHES TO HOLD HIS HAND!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#bleaching#don't get me started about ichigo not administering the final blow with ulquiorra because both he and kubo fucking forgot how zanpakuto wor#ulquiorra could have been purified and gone to soul society and become a regular character but noooooooooooooooo#at least that scene is romantic af#even if AGAIN LIKE I KEEP SAYING an editor needed to be like uh hey sensei. remember. remember what zanpakuto do.#hey sensei. why don't we ever see hollows as souls in soul society. hey.#anyway.
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Dick or no dick confirmation Pickles was always going to be trans to me anyways; if he's swingin' somethin that's phallo babes, if he's not then his t-dick fat. What's not to get.
#metalocalypse#jay talkin#I'm sorry they wrote that awful gross little man far too likeable and relatable to on a trans level#for me not to hoot and holler and cheer for the trans pickles agenda#changes nothing about his character arc or any of the show anyone is capable of being the kind of person he is#don't make the mistake of thinking thats exclusive to cis men#his transness wouldnt change that#only adds on an extra layer to him that i think works fantastically.#Listen that dude was rejected by his family driven to drink and drugs young to escape that ran away to be in a band#is called fucking Pickles of all things and refuses to tell anyone his real last name;#over the span of four seasons and two movies he slowly starts to learn to be for others what he never had#he becomes more caring more supportive#it's not a stretch to say he undoes some of the toxic masculinity he's been keeping himself shielded behind#and learns how to be a kinder man.#all of which have no contradictions with him being trans!#In fact it doesn't take much extra thought to find ways a lot of this can line up with some trans masculine experiences#i mean. Did no one else have a younger phase where they swung as far as they could into crass rude and uncaring ways#to try and assert their masculinity only to grow and realise that you can be a man and be more caring.#Did no one else have father issues. 1 800 come on now i know those are both shared experiences a lot of us have had LOL.#at the end of the day this show aired nearly 20 years ago and is finished. we're not getting more of it#so nothing is altered nor changed if pickles is canonically trans or not ok. its fine#i mean hell i dont even need canon confirmation hes trans to me and thats all i care abt#but i think if yr getting suuuuuper weird abt needing him not to be canonically trans you have some issues#and bio essentialist ideals of gender if you think only a cis man can act like he does#again. anyone can be like that. its not exclusive. him being trans would not change him in any way shape or form lol#AND ALSO GODDDUUUGH for once i love getting to see a guy pushing 50 whos depicted as trans#do you have any idea how dire and barren it is out here. we never get to see a trans guy older than 30 and whos not a pristine model#I WANT MORE OLD SHLUBBY SHITHEAD TRANS GUYS IN MEDIA
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I was thinking of Megamind’s theme of heroes being made instead of born and the parallels between Megamind and Hal.
You can see how Megamind is trying his best, but Metroman is more privileged, so Megamind gives up. He had always had bad luck, compared to Metroman, so he thought it was his destiny to be a villain. So when Hal seemingly has everything delivered to his doorstep, it’s destiny that wanted this to happen. Megamind believes that it’s up to forces greater than him that make heroes or villains. And Hal had all the gifts Megamind hadn’t, and he chose to use them for evil.
But then I looked deeper into it. I compared Hal with Megamind. Both of them were social outcasts. Both of them were nerds. Both of them were in love with Roxanne. Both of them were rejected by her. And both turned to villainy when things didn’t go as they had hoped. In a dark twist of fate, one could recite the famous cliche “we’re not so different, you and I!”.
But obviously, they are so different. So what sets them apart?
Both of them wanted approval, but Megamind seeked acceptance from society and Hal sought to win love from another person. Both of them had a skewed idea of how human relationships work and both tried to follow in Metroman’s footsteps to get there.
But obviously, they failed. Because it’s not how it works. Again, they’re similar in this department.
And then it hit me.
Both of them tried to imitate Metroman to gain something- gain approval in their example. But you can’t just win someone’s approval, it’s up for them to decide whether they give it to you or not. And you may only get it by being genuinely good yourself. Even if both chose villainy, time and time again, Megamind proved himself to be good and Hal proved himself to be evil.
Here’s what I found so far.
Hard work
Megamind had worked hard and it gave him no results, so he thought it was meant to be. He put a lot of effort into creating devices that were supposed to imitate Metroman’s powers. Hal had everything given to him, which made him feel entitled to everything he desired.
Humility
Both of them had been rejected and degraded. But Megamind had enough humility to reflect on himself. He didn’t blame Roxanne for rejecting him (albeit the scene where she tells him to apologize and Megamind misunderstands and turns it around is hilarious). Rather, he blamed his status as a villain. Though he didn’t blame his choice to become a villain, but his destiny to be one- “Villains don’t get the girl”. However, Hal had an advantage of a status of a ‘hero’- one given to him, not the one he chose. He feels entitled to her love, so when she turns him down, he blames her. He played his part of being a ‘hero’, but she didn’t play her part of being a prize. She broke the rules.
Megamind had also reflected on what Roxanne told him. He corrected his mistakes, cleaned up the city and returned what he stole. He didn't have to, but he did it to make her happy and made an effort to be actually good.
And Hal has been actively gaslighting and lessening her, just to protect his ego.
Relationship with Roxanne
Obviously, I also had to include their relationship with Roxanne, and oh boy.
I know I’ve talked about it for the entire time, but I need to go in depth, because it’s a whole thing. Bcos Hal didn’t just have had his powers handed to him. He was also privileged even when it comes to their relationship with Roxanne. Hal had lots of time to form a real connection and friendship with her, but he chose to treat her like a prize he could win if he played the game right.
Megamind was doomed from the start, because he’s a villain. Yet when given a chance, he showed her his true self, became vulnerable with her and they shared each other’s nerdy passions. Though under another person’s skin, he showed her his soul and they formed a genuine bond. Megamind proved to be a better person, because he showed her true respect, valued her for her positive traits and just treated her as a person.
#megamind#megamind fandom#roxanne ritchi#hal stewart#analysis#honestly#I probably couldve used gifs or better quality screenshots#but im too lazy#so this is what you have to deal with#Im so normal about this movie#I love it so much#theory#I also noticed so many little details#but that would be off topic#but like hal constantly contradicting himself#like when megamind said 'would metroman have kept me waiting?'#and later when hal is threatening to kill roxanne he says 'don't keep me waiting'#or when he invited roxanne he said that he invited a wedding photographer#in case they wanted to have a photo to keep 'forever and ever' as a reminder#but when she rejects him he threatens to destroy metro tower#because it's a reminder of a day she rejected him#and he 'hates reminders'#food for thought#dreamworks
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#reject modernity#embrace tradition#this makes it look like I don't love Emmy's bo#but you guys know that I'm obsessed with him lmao#I love all eras of bo#🥹🥰😌#I will say tho...#I'm partial to egghead bo bc that's when I discovered him 🥹#bo burnham#bert gifs#bo burnham inside#bo burnham make happy#bo burnham what#egghead#robert pickering burnham#inside bo burnham#happy monday
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spending my whole life trying and trying and trying and trying to be good enough for people who don't give a fuck about me
#im so tired living seems pointless why am i doing this what is the reason#the firm i work at is going thru a merger so it's releasing all the interns except 2#i went into her office and said that id like to stay here bc my dad said so bc i got in cause he was friends with the head#and she said ill think about it based on performance ive not decided yet#and this other guy he went in to tell her that cool he'll leave and she told him that she was hoping that he'd stay#he literally does nothing but play games on his phone he doesn't work at all#i have no idea what he has that i don't#but just. im stuck like this forever right never ever good enough for people i like or care about#not for parents they have a diff fav child not for ex gf not for bestie who has a boyfriend much better at loving her than me#not for that one guy who rejected me in interview bc i don't read the newspaper and didn't know the date of the finance act#im so fucking sick of this i never even wanted to this fuckinh course and obviously even my best isn't enough and ofc im not good enough#for anyone in this field and ill just struggle and struggle and struggle all my life just to earn some fucking money so i can live away#from my sociopathic parents#and the worst part is that i can't stop feeling like maybe it IS me yk maybe i am the problem maybe im not trying hard enough#but how else am i supposed to handle this i prioritize my studies and lose all my friends i prioritise my friends and fail in d#exams#and the trauma keeps on coming every fucking day bc sociopathic parents but i jsut push it down and say not rn i will cry at night anx then#never cry#i wish someone would just tell me that idk you're wrong you're not made for this you really do have some mental illness and you're really#trying your best and do something that's easy and that you love doing#oh god this is now a ventpost#mes
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bro literally they have different exactlys....
when aziraphale says "come with me, to heaven!" he's not dismissing crowley's confession at all, he's directly responding to it. at that point aziraphale knows it's over, it's too late, and he's so desperate. they are so close to everything they want! the way he shakes his head, his pleading expression; he's not rejecting or ignoring crowley at all, he's telling him "no, don't you see? this is exactly how we get what we want, this is how we can finally be together!"
crowley is saying "we can be together", and aziraphale is saying "exactly! we can be together!" they just each think the other wants something else. those bullets sure are shooting past some ears.
#they both feel betrayed man#crowley feels like aziraphale's choosing heaven over him and even heaven over himself let's be honest#and además he feels like aziraphale is dismissing him as he is because he says he can make him an angel again#like imo aziraphale doesn't care WHAT crowley is but who he is (he's crowley <3) but making him an angel#would obviously make them be able to be together of course! they can fix things together!#but crowley doesn't see it that way#and aziraphale thinks crowley is running away and rejecting /him/ and their chance to be together#he thinks crowley's rejecting up their one chance to be happy and safe together#oh how i hate these two (i don't)(i love them)#anyways will i post this. remains to be seen.#i'm not saying anything new tbh but it's my blog and i post what i want‼️‼️‼️#bluebird.txt#good omens#good omens 2#posts that i definitely didn't write instead of sleeping#AAAAAAAAND post. que será será
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as i'm working on my interview questions for my buddy cole documentary i just had to make a side-by-side "before and after" of these two interviews related to buddy cole's presence in the amazon revival because wow look at that contrast.
first interview was from while the troupe was still writing the amazon sketches and the second is from while they were filming. gee i wonder what could have changed things??? why did we go from scott saying he'd written eleven buddy cole monologues to refusing to talk about buddy cole when prompted? why was bruce's anecdote about scott's buddy one man show delivered as a reason to get excited in the first half but with literal tears in his eyes in the second half? why did scott go from a very vocal participant in the interview in the first half to "just here to look pretty" in the second half? (spoiler alert: it was amazon completely censoring buddy cole)
i rewatched these interviews so i could write specific questions about promoting the amazon show but after watching that last clip i literally just had to lay on the floor listening to motion sickness by phoebe bridgers like jfc scott deserved better
#luckily the happy ending to this is scott got to do a tour consisting of 100% the monologues amazon rejected and it went super well#and now he's actually moved on from the amazon material completely and is letting go of a lot of that anger#and writing a new buddy show that's much more lighthearted while still containing some really biting satire#and at one point when we were on tour together after his best show scott said all the amazon bullshit was worth it bc it brought us this#(both worth it for his own buddy show but also because it brought the two of us together to tell buddy's story)#but yeah i don't blame the second interviewer bc they couldn't have known how bad scott was doing at the time#but the way he literally doesn't let scott refuse the question reminds me so much of the asshole from my college#like oh my god let the man LIVE.#luckily i have so many questions that if scott says he doesn't want to answer i can just be like ''cool now here's another topic''#also iirc scott mentioned that before the second interview he actually talked to bruce about giving him a signal so that bruce would know i#a question was too much for scott at the time so that bruce could jump in and answer it#god i love how supportive they are of each other. even if they complain about each other a lot (which they do lmao)
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silly little vent in the tags
#i really miss him and it's not fair how much i gave to him every day when i had to beg for attention back#i don't get why this always happens#it's every single person every single time#and they always tell me i was the best person they ever dated and i made them realize what being loved feels like or whatever#but i always end up more damaged#it feels like people think the way i love is like an apology from the universe that they can just take all of without reciprocating#instead of another traumatized person with feelings also trying to get what they give#it's so exhausting and frustrating i just want to love someone that loves me back#and they all say they do and tell me how great i am but they never listen when i communicate what i need and i have to beg#and they expect praise for the bare minimum#i asked him what he does for me and he said 'i was there to support you'#do you want a medal?? you SHOULD support your partners and your friends#and they all acknowledge that when the roles are reversed#what really fucks me up about it is when i see how they treated their exes#why not me?? what did i do wrong??#and they say i didn't do anything and that i was the best but no one acts like it#im so fucking tired of this it hurts so much#like i know for a fact my other ex legitimately saw me as his reward for persevering through rejection#when can people start seeing me as an equal to them that also wants to be loved and valued and needed?? it's not fair#people keep taking advantage of me and how caring i am towards them and it sucks#im losing hope once someone DOES treat me right i won't even trust it#personal posts 😌✨️✨️#tw vent
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☎️🎲 🤼♂️ ✈️🚪 ➡️ 🫀🎮⌛️
I've Been Losing You by a-ha
previous ⏪︎ now playing ⏩ next back to playlist
#byler#stranger things#bizarre love triangle playlist#mike wheeler#mike's pov#'it wasn't the rain--'#that line is just so on the nose for this situation bc will and mike's fight at rink-o-mania in s4 parallels their rain fight in s3#the singer attempts to find blame outside of himself ie. the rain. but ...#'it wasn't the rain that made a difference. i could have sworn it wasn't me'#this fits more with the rain fight bc mike was in a head space of feeling unapologetic at first during their fight#he could have sworn going into it that he was not at fault at all for what was going on#but then suddenly he's saying 'it's not my fault you don't like girls' and he's like shit#'yet i did it all so coldly. almost slowly. plain for all to see'#this would be both in line with s3 but more so s4 bc now their conflict is out in the open in public 'plain for all to see'#'please now talk to me. tell me things i could find helpful. how can i stop now? is there nothing i can do?'#mike becoming consumed with regret after his fights with will and the look on his face ready to risk it all alone giving him away#how can i stop now specifically is sad bc it's almost like his instinct to deflect is out of his control#'i've lost my way. i've been losing you'#bc he's definitely lost a past version of himself. a version that never would have imagined he would reject d&d AND will#and bc of what's happened he feels like he's losing will in the process too#but will is right next to him. and he's pissed and hurt just like after their rain fight... with mike sitting there staring at only him lik#'PLEASE NOW! TALK TO ME!!!'#'i can still hear our screams competing. hissing your s's like a snake'#s3-4 fight teas again#'now in the mirror stands half a man i thought no one could break'#ouch#'but i want the guilt to get me. thoughts to wreck me. preying on my mind'#mike's behavior after the s4 fight feels like mike not just lashing out at el bc of her lies but also the guilt he is feeling taking over#his instinct was to deny deny deny. but will was right. and he hurt him all bc he didn't want to face the truth..#PLEASEEEE TALK TO ME!!!
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Ghost is a walking dichotomy, Soap has discovered. He's watched him strip the layers of a man's skin away to get information from him, seen him snap someone's neck in as little time as it takes to take a breath. But he's also so capable of heartbreaking kindness. His genuine concern for the fish, the way he saves the best part of his plate for Soap; offering it to him with reverence. The way he's cleaning Johnny's wound so tenderly. It's in these moments of gentleness where Johnny almost forgets what they do, what they've seen, who they are.
So when Ghost's voice snaps into that serious tone it's almost like a slap in his dizzy, goofily smiling, face.
"Wha?"
"Where is it? I'll get rid of it for you." Under the sharp tone is still that lethal gentleness, and even under that is a shaking fear.
"Oh, oh Ghost." He shifts, uncomfortable in his skin and wanting to be anywhere but here. "Ye... Ye cannae get rid of it."
His Lieutenant draws back a little, a mix of apprehension and offense in his eyes.
"It hurt you, nothing else matters."
Soap can feel his heart splitting as his throat starts to burn. Ghost stares up at him with fiery eyes, hands still holding his wrist so so softly.
"Where is the snake Soap? I promise you it'll never hurt you again. Whoever brought it in is going to have hell to pay too." He earnestly promises and Soap feels a single hot tear slip out of his eye.
"Ghost..." He chokes out. "Simon... It's mine."
The small room goes silent. Nothing even dares to move but for the violent flinch the sentence rips out of Ghost.
He doesn't dare say anything, doesn't dare to move or even breathe. He looks down at Ghost and Ghost meets his stare with turmoil roiling in his gaze.
Soap doesn't know what he expected, screaming or sobbing or angry silence but the frantic confusion he can see in the other man is as far as can be from what he'd thought he'd get.
They sit there like that for a few long moments, each absorbed in his own thoughts, before Ghost slowly rises from his kneel. If Johnny were in better spirits he would tease him for the quiet cracks his knees make. And with that violent tenderness he slowly curls an arm around Johnny and leans him down into the bed, pressing behind him and holding him close just like they'd done on any number of frigid nights out in the blind. And they just sit there holding each other in silence as they slowly drift into a dreamless sleep.
#in this canon this is the first time theyve done something that can't be explained away by extenuating circumstances#but you don't really save the best parts of your meal religiously for your subordinate who youre friends with#Ghost is devoted to Soap#full stop#and Soap is dedicated to Ghost 100%#i hear you “Cthulhu why are the emotionally constipated military men just cuddling instead of resolving their issues unhealthily?”#to which i say:#Ghost just had his world tilted on its axis#a constant in his life is that snakes are bad and the people who keep them are bad people who do bad things#like his father#but here's John “he owns my soul” MacTavish bleeding profusely and still not letting Ghost kill the snake also being unquestionably good#even though he understands intellectually that Soap has done bad things#hes watched the little punk blow up shit for the sake of it and literally clip a car battery to a man's ears#that doesn't matter because Johnny is Good with a capital G and he is the exact opposite of Ghost's father#so he really doesnt have it in him to be angry and he just needs to hold close to the constancy and try to reconcile his new information#And Soap is just so so ready to be immediately rejected and never see Simon again#he doesn't want to sacrifice what he maybe has with Ghost to protect his rescues#because they need him and they didnt ask to be what they are or where they are#so hes just so so relieved that Ghost hasnt ordered him out and killed all of his babies#because he's seen Ghost shoot a dog in yhe head on a mission for barking and Ghost loves dogs#he doesnt want to see what Ghost would do to an animal he doesn't like#I HOPE THIS IS BETTER THAN THE CLIFFHANGERS#GUYS THERES SO MUCH CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT COMING#AHOFFBIDKSHAIAKBZJA#cod mw2#fish person gaz#ghost x soap#ghostsoap#reptile person soap
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#been thinking about Noa and Hugo lately#i know i've had him pine over her a lot#not like in a super pathetic way? i imagine he would play it cool most of the time. he's been rejected plenty of times before#but more like he wants her attention and approval but he doesn't exactly know why#i mean he wants her. he knows that#but i don't think he'd really say he's 'in love with her'#even if he really feels that way about her. even if her companionship is something he NEEDS as a human being#because i do think he's lonely. but i also imagine he'd be somewhat proud about that considering he has a massive ego#like he's cool and and a badass and doesn't need anyone. a lone wolf#but that lonely feeling does sting after a while#and it's kind of the same case with Noa. at least being lonely and desiring companionship#BOTH of them are asses and no one can really stand them being around tnem#but they CAN stand each other. they may be a little different but they're pretty like-minded#and that's what i love about them#because at the end of the day they're partners. both 'in crime' and romantically#it might take some time to get there though. and a whole lot of issues to work through together#but they do end up happy and being terrible to everyone else as a team#like an evil corporate power couple lol#sorry for rambling i just wanted to talk about this#it's been on my mind lately#otp: golden shot
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might fuck around an not be afraid of love anymore
#which is to say that i won't try to reject it anymore#to be loved is a gift#and i want to keep it#i wmat to nourish it and make it feel at home#cas once said good things do happen and i believe him. i know they do.#and they will continue to come if i let myself be open to the possibility#to feel anything at all is a gift. really#i have no idea how long i will be on this earth but i don't want to look back and say i didn't let love it too my life
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