#I probaly do have trauma

[00venator]

Listen I’m very comfy saying shit. And bloody hell, cause my family says ain’t a lot. I’m ok with saying fuck and bitch.

But.

BUT

I need to overcome the stress I get when I wanna say “You can suck my invisible dick”. Because funny. Because gender.

[batwingsrosa]

Snape and what a victim is supposed to look like.

Or: The reason you all hate him so much while making up excuses for other characters!

Would he still be so despised by the fandom, if he had been portrayed as weaker? As more emotional?

No, i don’t think so.

Others have said this before and i have to agree with what they said:

Y‘all are angry, because he is not the perfect victim.

He is not what you would expect a victim of abuse and bullying to look like.

He is confident.

He is strong.

He is sharp.

And he is bitter.

He is so, so bitter.

he harbours resentment.

He does not forgive those who wronged him.

When that is exactly what you would expect from a victim, is it not??

A victim is supposed to look weak and behave weak and to suck it up.

And to forgive.

When you tell people they have to forgive their tormentors, do you really tell them that so that they can heal?

Or…. so you don‘t have to deal with the mess?

Maybe, so you don‘t have to adjust your world view?

People are not obligated to forgive their tormentors.

It doesn‘t matter if they have changed.

What matters is how they made the victim feel.

And if the victim feels if they can forgive them.

And if they chose not to forgive, they turn in something else in your eyes.

They turn into the hater, the bully, the bad guy.

Bacause the victim is supposed to forgive and forget and let it go and not be bitter about it.

A victim is supposed to turn into a good person.

To learn from their experiences to be kinder to others.

To not treat others like they have been treated.

They are not supposed to not be able to let it go.

And if they are not able to do that, well then there‘s something wrong with them.

If a victim doesn‘t turn out the way they wanted them too, well - then they had it coming from the beginning and they probaly deserved what happened to them because they would have turned out bad either way!

Snape is the opposite of what a victim is supposed to be like.

Severus turned into a resentful and bitter adult.

He was never able to move on and heal from his trauma.

And at the same time, he knows who he is and what and doesn‘t make up excuses for his behaviour and instead just accepts himself the way he is.

And that is what makes you so fucking mad.

He turns into an asshole and is not sorry about it.

He is openly resentful and at times hateful.

And he is not fucking sorry about it.

And it makes all of you mad because that is not what is supposed to happen.

And let‘s not lie to yourselves- if he didn‘t have greasy hair and a hooked nose- you would look at him from an entirely different angle.

Like you do with Tom Riddle, or Regulus Black or Draco Malfoy.

[callistosposts]

Hey Chat.. I would like your indepth opinion on Hades... How did u create their design... Which ships containing them do u fw... Why do you personally think they got flung out of the solar system.... Do u think they could get back into the solar system....

🫣 Stare.

oooh i like this :D THIS IS GONNA BE A LONGGG POST

for Hades design it was really a matter of how I make a character as mysterious but still interesting as possible - his design is very subject to change once we learn more about him, get to know his personality and stuff

for now though, i wanted him very neutrally aligned, i didnt want to make him seem evil nor did i want to make him look innocent cause theres no confirmation of either of those things

so his design, hes kinda a demon, hes got priest-inspired religious type clothing though instead of crosses its stars and such cause obviously religion is man made. but i still kinda wanted to dig into that religious trauma type feeling

because religious trauma is often built on the sense of being betrayed - betrayed by higher powers, betrayed by the people who you thought were trustworthy

being told your evil or wrong for something you did, whether its something thats not bad at all or maybe you did do something bad and instead of helping you instead get ostracized and told your spawn of satan

thats the feeling I've gotten from the whole story of jupiter and saturn, these big strong planets who are clearly looked up to as higher power, kicking out and clearly, in the past, seeing this smaller, more vulnerable planet as evil

so thats how i got the design , i built it off the connection of religious trauma

also i was listening to Hells Comin With Me

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for why I think he was kicked out, I honestly dont know, I cant really come up with anything definitive

ive seen a lot of interpretations, but a lot of them kinda bend space history or make little to no sense so I havent really been able to come up with anything

if I HAD to say something id guess - his existence messed with the gas giants orbits some to the point where it was causing accidental or purposeful damage that left things a little messy

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I don't think he would be getting back into the solar system, i just dont find that being a canonical move solarballs would do considering hes a theoretical planet

i find it much more likely for Hades to be an occasional character that pops in every now and then, maybe cause a little mischief, drop a space fact

even if the direction they go with Hades is to make him want to come back , I dont believe he will be let back

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OKAYSHIPS ... more silly thing...

ive mentioned before I like Hades x Neptune, I know a lot of people have seen them as siblings and ifff they do go down that route ill immediately back off from that ship but FOR NOW . WITH NO RELATION CONFIRMATION. i think the idea of Neptune x Hades is cute,, specifically past wise, before Neptune lost his mind and such

ive drawn Uranus x Hades before on request, i have no idea where it came from , but I always think shipping Uranus with others is silly fun cause I get to draw him flustered , so 8/10 for me

i think those are generally the only ships I've encountered with him, i dont actually have any problems with any others though I just dont have any I heavily am die hard for and have actually encountered before

if you drop me Jupiter x Hades id probaly eat it up, I am not hater im a LOVER !!!

[v-anrouge]

Hello! 👋 I’m a lurker 🙈

I love Rook too obvi (I mean.. I’m here 🤣) and the other person trauma dumping was.. uh yeah. That was a lot… 😶

But they also said they were autistic, so maybe they just legit didn’t realize you were joking? Maybe they aren’t a follower? Idk. 🤷

Like I’m trying to give the benefit of the doubt because they seemed like one of those people wandering into the wrong classroom like “wait this.. isn’t my homeroom?”

Also you said you have Rook haters DNI interact on your card… but ima be honest. Please don’t hate me. I actually took a legit second to find your card in your pinned post because the text and the link is so smol. 😩 But also I’m blind and dumb sometimes so like don’t mind me too much…

But I DID find it!!! But then I couldn’t find where it said Rook haters DNI. I’m on mobile so maybe there’s a different section that it’s not letting me see??? Maybe THAT’S what happened to them too?

ANYWAY!! I may be a lurker and am just popping up for this so I’m going back down to lurking (aaaa social anxietyyyy) but I love your various posts. I honestly thought that post in question was really funny before all the drama started 😅

Rook going off on long tangents about his much-loved hyperfixations and having time blindness is so relatable help 😭😭😭

Hi nonnie first thank you for warning me about the problems w my carrd! I think ill just make a text and put the link there on pinned then in hopes it will make it easier to see. About the carrd itself i made it on mobile so you're seeing it correctly i just noticed though that a part of my dni is missing, i probaly deleted it accidentally last time i was fixing it so oops that's embarrassing 😭 but to answer they were a follower, they're no longer one because i softblocked and the reason i was so shocked was not because they don't hc rook as autistic since obv it's just a comfort hc i have as someone who also is autistic, but how they said rook was PURPOSELY ignoring social cues like😭😭 that part caught me SO off guard especially as someone who deeply relates to rook, ive had ppl do the same thing to me say that i was just purposely being weird despite knowing i had a difficult time telling what is and what isnt acceptable to say so i simply don't feel comfortable with them in my blog anymore, that trauma dump they had already made me a bit icky but i thought okay maybe they're just joking? because the post i made was clearly joking but clearly they were not (they said it themselves) and rook is one of my ultimate faves and i cant tolerate to see him get mischaracterized, especially not in such extreme manners so yeah they're not coming back but anyways thank you so much for warning me about the pinned thing ill fix it pls tell me if its better for you!

[glammerqueen]

Ello, I'm Piper Mclean, daughter of Aphrodite, counseller of the Aphrodite cabin, and official beauty Queen

Here are some of my friends!

Leo Valdez -@r3pair-b0y- he' a dork. But he's also a very funny guy and I probaly would've have been able to do half th things of done withought him by my side, I wish luck with the ladies Leo! #alldaladiesloveleo

Will Solace -@your-local-glowstick- Oh my God's he's such a pretty boy! he NEEDS to stop by the Aphrodite cabin so we can take a better look at him, even Drew agree's! He is currently dating Nico Di Angelo, the guy is kinda scary and looks more traumatized then ever-but I think Will helps him through it. western boy to the bone.

Nico Di Angelo-currently working on their blog- I think he could have really good style if he was open to modernizing it! He def needs a haircut but whatever, let your dead ends rule. Dating Will Solace, which I think is helping with his own mental health, because Gods does Nico look like he needs trauma bonding, poor boy walked through Tartarus and back ALONE, and then so much more. I hope you feel better Ghost king (get. your. edges. TRIMMED.)

Hazel Levesque -no roleplayer yet- she's adorable! like actually so adorable! She's also so sweet, and that add's on to the cuteness, Frank, you are so lucky to have such an amazing girl! Hazel's eyes make me think of like- bronze gold, the blood of the gods or somthing!

Frank Zhang -no roleplayer yet- at first it was he was a little intimidating, but he's like a shy bear really. I think that its really cool he got suck adorable power's, yet again intimidating.

Annabeth Chase -no roleplayer yet- gorgeous. Percues Jackson if you break my girls heart I will literally break everyone in your body. Best blonde ever! very od friend but sometimes I feel dump next to her, and it makes me feel small. I think the fact she continues to push herself and be apart of the team is amazing considering she's the only one with out powers and brains alone! definition of girl power!

Percy Jackson -no roleplayer yet- I think your cute, but not my type personaly. you need to teach Leo you way's. you dont need me to tell you beauty tips, every girl already has. Perce you are pretty awsome though, your a very good friend, always ready to help or be there.

Jason Grace -@lightning-boi-superman- thing's are tense sometimes, but I still think your amazing, you and Leo are still ;friends; which makes me happy, your a VERY great guy, your ready to lead with burning passion, and I admire that.

Reyna Avilla Arellone -no roleplayer yet- sorry for taking your man once, that was my bad girlie!! I think you are a very respectable leader, you put the power in to girl power, and your ability to stand so long when things try to bring you down amazes me!!

[batbirdies]

Thank you @coyote-nebula and @selkienight60 for the tag!

1. how many works do you have on AO3?

22

2. what's your total AO3 word count?

610,258 - the fact that it's over half a million but I've only written 22 fics is... telling lmao.

3. what fandoms do you write for?

currently and for the forseeable future, just Batfam, but I have written for the Hobbit fandom and Marvel in the past. And I think Harry Potter way back in my OC days.

4. what are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Clearly Calm and Keeping Terrorized in which Jason has a ROUGH time with PTSD and the timing is right to do some relationship healing with the fam. The Penny Drops the Penny Dreads in which Jason is a 12 year old Robin new to the manor and struggling to deal with some unresolved trauma thats not so far behind him. I'll Come Our Right On the Other Side in which Bruce is in therapy and trying to work on his relationships with his kids Overcoming Our Antecedents in which Jason is deaged to the day before he ran away to Ethiopia and Bruce gets to try again Live While I Breathe in which Bruce is badly triggered by an explosion, deals with it badly, is yelled at by Stephanie Brown to get his shit together, and has a a slow internal battle that ends in the decision to go to therapy.

5. do you respond to comments?

Not very often :( I used to reply to all my comments but it just started to be a source of anxiety and to feel overwhelming so i decided to stop unless something just really inspires a response or asks a direct question I can easily answer.

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I struggled to think of one for this because I just don't write angsty endings. HOWEVER I do have one from 2014 when I was in the marvel fandom. Seams in which Bucky internalizes the fear surrounding his metal arm. (it's only 500ish words)

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I would say most of my fics have postive endings if not outright "happy". But I would saaaaay probably Overcoming Our Antecedents?

8. do you get hate on fics?

Occasionally I get rude comments, usually complaining about how a certain character is unfairly treated by the narrative. Which always makes me a little insane lol. I try to just delete them.

9. do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I don't. Never been interested. Probably actively uninsterested lol.

10. do you write crossovers?

I don't, and probaly the same as above lol.

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?

I don't believe so.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

I have! Mengru on AO3 translated multiple of my fics into Chinese.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Yes! Recently with Coyote_Nebula. Tip for a Successful Interview: Lie (down)

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

I really don't care about romantic ships, if I'm willing to read a fic that centers around it it's up there lol. But I dearly love platonic ships. Having said that I am terrible at choosing favorites of things. My reading and writing history probably supports Bruce &Jason as my fav platonic relationship but lately I'm also loving Bruce & Clark friendship.

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you will?

A Bad Case of the Good 'Ol Days I still really like whats there but the rest of the fic is a mystery to me at this point. I've plotted it like three times at least but it never feels right.

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think Dialogue and complicated emotions. I have also been told that I'm good at evoking anxiety in readers lol.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I am VERBOSE I'm very bad at being concise which is clearly reflected in my stack of long ass fics lol. I think I've improved but its definitely still my biggest weakness. I also struggle with any kind of complicated plot. I have a WIP currently that has a deeper plot and it panics me lmao.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I think it depends what you're going for. If you want the audience to understand what's being said, you should provide a ready translation that doesn't involve jumping to the end notes and then having to find your way back to the place you were previously reading. Its just really disruptive to the reading experience for me. I have seen people do really cool formatting on AO3 where you can hover over text and see a pre-input translation. Its very cool on desktop but I'm not sure if it works on Mobile. My go to is pretty much always just to state that someone is speaking in a different language and tell the audience what they said. Sometimes I'll italicize it only so the reader doesn't forget that the words are not meant to be in English.

Of course sometimes you don't want the audience to know what is being said and that can be fun, however you do risk some of your readers speaking the language and getting hints other people don't lol. Or google translating it for themselves. So up to the author if they're cool with that or not.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I honestly am not sure. I think I wrote fic for most of the cartoons I watched as a ten year old lol, but I didn't know what fandom was then. Harry Potter if we're getting official.

20. Favourite fic you've written?

Still CCAKT at this point I think, but once Penny Drops is finally FINALLY completed it might give it a run for its money.

Sorry I don't have the bandwidth to think of anyone to tag right now, it took me three days to finish filling this out despite the entertainment value 😅 but thanks for the tags and I hope anyone who wants to will do it too, feel free to tag me when you post it if you do :)

[sharpth1ng]

Different anon but I’ve been curious about what you think about BPD stu/billy?

Alright get ready for another long one.

Same disclaimers as before, diagnosing both BPD and autism/adhd is complicated, but it is more common to co-diagnose than ASPD as there’s less overlap and autistic and ADHD folks appear to be somewhat more vulnerable to the kind of trauma associated with the development of BPD.

Same as before it takes a long time to diagnose a personality disorder and it should.

But here are our criteria:

1. This is complicated. We don’t see this behaviour from Billy but his response to his mom leaving is to kill someone, I think we can tick this box for him☑️

For Stu we have less movie evidence but if I’m going from my own characterization this is complicated. His behaviour in Ch9 could count as this but also I legit believe he would let Billy go if he wanted to. Would he be a fucking mess? Yeah 100% but the fact that I think he would let him leave makes me think this is a no ✖️

2. This is a no for both of them. ✖️

They do both have patterns of unstable relationships but the idealization/devaluation cycle is important here. Billy idealizes his mom but he doesn’t cycle, and Stu idealizes Billy but doesn’t cycle. I would say they have patterns of unstable relationships but not in the way that is characteristic of BPD

3. Complicated for Billy. I would say based on my characterization he does have this, but I would almost say it’s more a result of Autism (lots of weird sense of self stuff there let me tell you) and his own internalized homophobia. Stu I think has a pretty stable sense of self, so this is a no for both of them imo ✖️

4. I don’t think we can say Billy qualifies for this, he does risky things but they’re planned, not reckless. I think we can say Stu probaly qualifies. He’s 100% a reckless driver IMO, steals constantly, and also would take random pills offered to him at a party. That said this could be debated as a result of ADHD so take this with a grain of salt.

Billy: ✖️

Stu: ☑️

5. Complicated. I’d say no for Billy, I don’t think he’s particularly suicidal although with the right set of stressors he could be passively suicidal (eg getting yourself killed by someone else on purpose). I’d say he has some self-injurious stims, but that’s not the same thing so I’m going to say no for him.

Stu isn’t suicidal and doesn’t self-injure, but he does happily allow an incredible amount of injury to be done to him. Again, because he’s doing it for pleasure I think I may have to say no for this because generally the self-injurious behaviour in BPD is coming from a place of depression.

This is probably more a paraphillia for Stu (a diagnostic label I usually feel very complicated about generally given that it comes from a very puritanical scientific tradition but also Stu’s behaviour is pretty damn extreme.)

So Billy: ✖️

Stu: ✖️

6. Billy ticks this box no question ☑️. Stu does not ✖️

7. I don’t think either of them feel this way because they have each other, but I think if they suddenly lost the other for whatever reason this would kick in big time so I’ll give them a ☑️

8. Billy ticks this ☑️ again, could be argued to be a result of emotional regulation issues from autism and trauma though, take this with a grain of salt.

Stu’s anger is generally disproportionate to the situation and rarer/less easily triggered than Billy but not particularly well controlled so I’ll give him a check on this too ☑️

9. Again, not something we have movie evidence for but I do think Billy dissociates. I would call it an autistic shutdown though so this one is a no ✖️ and its a no for Stu as well ✖️

Final tally:

Billy-☑️✖️✖️✖️✖️☑️☑️☑️✖️

Stu-✖️✖️✖️☑️✖️✖️☑️☑️✖️

So yeah, Billy is much closer to a BPD diagnosis (you need 5/9) and I think could be diagnosed that way depending on how you read some of his behaviour.

Stu is not as close, and I think could even be a 2/9 year if you count impulsivity and trouble with emotional regulation as a result of ADHD.

As usual, this is just for fun and I’m not a clinician. I study this stuff but I don’t practice it so take all of what I say with a grain of salt.

[mirabella96]

Trainee ep 2

EP REACTION

She throw him under the bus, also there is a receptionist/secretary maybe she knows the numer

DEAR GOD THEY ARE JUST STUPID why do I even take it seriously

STUPID

How come this has more eps ahahhahahahahahha Ryan should be really happy he dose not lost his head hahahhaha bc I have seen some murderous intentions there

oh maybe not

There are propably more extra agencies in the town....

red flag red flag red flag

he is so STUPID

Did he not study economy or sth

What is this supposed to be

I do not know what to think of this show is so random so unconeccted and I really do not know if I shoudl see it seriously or not

Alleluja finally a worthy scene

It's actually cute

I have to remind mayself it's his SECOND day and he is an intern - and that this series is kinda absurd

Like I know Jane cannot think for Ryan but he probaly could have been a little better mentor since the start

this looks AI generated XD

Some personal findings regarding why I do not like Jane as of first ep

Last Sunday I was even kinda suprised with myself how much I did not like Jane but then I remembered. (Also this week BLs all feel weidly personal to me). I studied Management of artistic institutions and I did my fair share of student internships (our requrement was like 2 to 4 weeks, but we also had a lot of practical classes (mosty in theaters)) and I wanted to say that in all this years I have never ever meet a person with attitude like Jane. BUT actually I did. It's just the denial syndrome kicked in and I really do not like to remember it. She pretty openly told me that I'm not suitable for this job and I should behave differently and so on and on and etc., and she also kinda accused me of taking drugs (which was absurd and only added to my confusion) - it was before theaters arrived to festival in town and it was my first day with this team (before I worked with marketing, cinema staff and in decorator room) - and I like run away from the building, call my mum, cried and I was really contemplating not coming back - but I needed to finish last week of my intership. Which I did, and this lady finally got around to me, but this first interaction kinda gave me trauma. (Also there where a lady in art gallery who called me young lady in the nastiest way possible, when I went to check if stuff for theather parade was ready, but this was a one time thing)

Fun fact: it's like 7 or 8 years later (and I did some other stuff in between) I do work in the place I did my intership and the lady who said all this things to me retired in conflict with the entire company. (Second lasy still works there but I do not think she remembers me)

So like yeah, this is why I do not like Jane in first ep

[ineffablelara]

Well I'd love for that to happen, but the things is: I'm kinda scared about the russos, they clearly have problems with Loki, they killed him in IW because they didn't want him to steal Thanos' spotlight, I understand that things are different now and Loki is in a whole new level power wise and couldn't just be so easily killed off but... what if they do it anyways?

I honestly feel like the mcu doesn't treat Loki with much respect (aside from the projects where Tom is heavily involved with and still, s1 was, well... it was like that), most directors and writers just see him as a popular asshole with an army of fangirls and they don't bother approaching the character with respect and seriousness (maybe I'm reaching with this one but idk, I think Loki is only safe when Tom is involved with the project too)

What scares me is RDJ returning and them probaly wanting to make him the most badass character who ever appeared in the history of comic book movies, and what if that's achieved by putting other characters down and making them look weaker and incompetent compared to him? Especially Loki who is treated so easily as a joke in the movies

I want to have faith that things will be different now and Loki and Yggdrasil will have an important role in the future of the mcu but sometimes I feel so pessimistic, what if they just kill him off? What if they have Doom absorbing Loki's powers and destroying Yggdrasil in a very easy way to shock the audience and make him feel like a huge threat like they did in 2018 with Thanos?

I'm scared, I'm really scared for Loki, I'm scared they'll make him look weak and have him be easily defeated by Doom, I'm scared the russos will just try to get rid of him asap so they can focus on RDJ, I'm scared that after all Loki went through and after all he lost he'll be killed off in a traumatic way for shock value, I don't wanna go through that trauma again

BUT

I have anxiety and I'm always imagining the worst possible scenario for everything, maybe none of what I wrote happens, maybe you're spot on with your theory, maybe the movie will surprise everyone, anything could happen and I'm here for it, I just hope they don't drop the ball with Loki this time

Avengers Doomsday Theory

Been a long time since I’ve done a theory post, but I had to get this out there just in case it actually happens.

So I’ve seen everybody saying they think Dr Doom is gonna kill Loki and absorb his powers in order to reach god emperor status, but this is both anticlimactic story-wise, likely to piss off a lot of long-time fans, and also throwing away arguably one of Marvel’s only powerhouse characters/franchises since Endgame. But it’s undeniable that they probably are going to go the Molecule Man route, since that’s the most convenient way to explain Doom getting so strong. So here’s how I think it’ll happen.

Doom will find a way to siphon off the life force of the multiverse- the temporal energy that runs through all the timelines, keeping them alive (which is really just Loki’s power). He’ll use that go on his universe-hopping quest to do god-knows-whatever his endgame is. Since this energy source is theoretically infinite, he just keeps getting more and more powerful along the way.

Loki, of course, can tell this is happening. But the problem lies in his unique position and the way his powers seemingly work now.

Before anyone says anything- yes, Loki can rewrite stories. But we’ve mostly just seen him do it on a larger scale- deleting branches, bringing back dead timelines, encouraging nexus events, etc. Based on all the evidence we have so far, in order to “rewrite stories” on a smaller scale, he has to actually timeslip into the universe he wants to change and manually manipulate events until he gets the desired outcome.

He’s already shown that he has trouble with navigation. He can go to any timeline whether it still exists or not, hop into different universes, access places that aren’t even part of the multiverse- but just because he has the ability to reach these places doesn’t necessarily mean he has the knowledge. From what we’ve seen, it’s only easy for him to do it if it’s somewhere he’s been before or somewhere a variant of his loved ones exists so he can use them as anchor points. It’s implied that he can track temporal auras across the multiverse, but that’s only if he’s familiar with those auras. There’s no real precedent for how he’d navigate if he had none of these things to go on. Just because he’s sitting on the throne doesn’t really mean anything- it’d be hard as hell to find a specific supermarket on a world map if you were looking at it in its entirety and had no idea which hemisphere to focus on. I imagine it would be doable, but very difficult.

So I think it’s gonna be a case of Loki knowing Doom is sucking power from him and the tree, but not knowing exactly where he is to take him out. He can’t leave his throne for long periods, so it’s not like he could go and search everywhere and gather clues and interrogate people for his whereabouts, etc. The only way for Loki to cut off Doom’s power supply would be to stop powering the timelines altogether. But then they’d all die, so of course he’s never gonna do that.

And there lies the problem. Doom absorbs power from Loki until he’s nearly unstoppable, the whole time going around to different universes wreaking havoc in order to achieve whatever goal he has. Loki’s trapped- acting as the Molecule Man and basically just being a battery for the big bad due to his unwillingness to let the tree die. So how’s he supposed to get out of this pickle? He enlists the TVA and the multiversal avengers to hunt down Doom and fight him, of course!

This even fits with most of the rumors I’ve seen from insiders. Sylvie’s likely the one Loki sends to recruit the new avengers, like folks were saying. Doom does absorb Loki, like they said, just not in a draining-him-dry-til-he-dies kinda way. Loki would be a big part of the movie but have very little screen time (this plot would only require like… a 3 minute intro scene with him and then he could be absent until the last 5 minutes) as was speculated.

Since we know Secret Wars and Battleworld are coming, I would imagine this all ends in the avengers failing and Loki eventually having to leave the throne to try to take care of it himself. This, of course, would lead to the multiverse falling apart and it would also leave the Citadel open to being taken over by someone else while he’s gone (likely Doom). And you know what? Maybe that was his plan all along- to goad Loki into leaving the throne so he could steal it. Who knows.

I’m curious as to what Loki’s role would be in Secret Wars if this happens though. If the timelines all fell apart because he left, that would cause some massive guilt for him. If Doom is now on his throne, there must be something stopping him from just popping in and removing him lol. Maybe he doesn’t realise someone else is occupying the Citadel for awhile? Maybe he’s weak from all the power sucking and has to regain his strength? Maybe there’s something else at play- hostages, new multiverse logic, emotional stuff? I have no idea.

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We focus on genders and identities based on other types of media! We love looking up stuff

We also don't really have a DNI. We ask that you are not here to cause drama, and thats about it. We do use the block button if you make us uncomfortable.

Rules for requests and info about us under the cut

Request Rules:

[PT: Request Rules:]

While we may coin other non-media realted genders, we will probaly only do requests for non-media stuff if we really like

We are willing to do problematic media, HOWEVER, please inform us if it is so we can tag it probably

Speaking of tags, you are always welcome to ask for me to tag something

We are shadeblind! That means we might have difficulty with knowing if something is eyestrain. Please let us know if it is!

Please note that we have some pretty bad Entomophobia ( phobia of Insects) and may decline requests that contain them

We also reserve the right to turn down any request

Please be patient with us! We stuggle a lot in our daily life, and it doesn't give us much time to work on this stuff.

Info about us

[PT: Info about us.]

We are a traumatic ployfragmented system with an unknown count. Physically. we are a non-binary fem-presenting intersex person, and mixed Japanese. We have Autsim, ADHD, Kleptomania and UDD. We are self-dx SAD, DID and currecntly investing if we have PDD or PD-TS PDD. We also have PCOS.

Pronouns Page

There are about 3 people who regularly run this blog(and yes their all introjects:

Yu

[PT: Yu]

Male

Source: Persona Series (specifically 4)

He/Him, Thu/Thunder. Will also use Thou/Thee and that kinda stuff rarely.

Identities with every single tarot gender at this point.

Caretaker and Gatekeeper

Sol

[PT: Sol]

Enby.

Source: Revita (Revita Kid, aka that bean in our profile pic.)

They/Them, Soul/Soulself, and the blue heart emojis.

Is okay at their own Source

Emotional part

Adzumi

[PT: Adzumi]

Does not inditfy with a gender; can not be explained in human terms

Source: Revita (Acceptance)

They/Them and most darkness and shadow related pronuns

Does not get anlong with Yu often, very Black Angel of death towards Sol (If i hurt you others can't hurt you more.)

MAKE UP YOUR MIND ON YOUR ROLES ADZUMI /lhj (make up your mind on your roles Adzumi)

At the very least, an angry shadow that does not like most of the system.

Still deserves respect. Void has a very importnat job of trauma breaking (standing up for the rest of the system and geting help)

Things we like

Special interests (Non-media): Mental illnesses and Disorders, Tarot, Jung Psychology (thanks Yu), Psychic Phenomenon, Hypnotherapy.

Special interests (Media): Persona Series (thanks Yu again), Literally any Rougelite or like (dispte this i have never played Isaac), Terraira.

Things we love coining: Genders for fictional fruit/ores/crystals, genders based on a fictional species, genders that are in a group in fiction (like x gender is a dark type pokemon), genders realted to types of magic

Gernal: Rock and Metal music, Mangos, amber, gemstones, RPG games, video games, chickens

[wingedbeings]

hi ok mor tjings 2 say actualy sory i am incapablenof shuttign up <3

[majimemegoro]

kinda tired of how yakuza characters all have like the same boring body just with slight tweaks in proportions so here are some body & eating/exercise headcanons for a few characters.

kiryu is probably the closest in my head to how he looks in canon, with the caveat that when he gets ‘out of shape’ in between games, he does actually lose some muscle tone. when hes in his most muscled form during the stressful main events of each game, he really does look LikeThatTM, but he doesn’t really do it on purpose. he just... drinks too many energy drinks and not enough water. kiryu youre dehydrated please take care of yourself kiryu please. also he eats stupid nonsense but somehow still has a hollywood-style body. his arms are SO good. has forgotten to eat vegetables for a whole month before. he has several gunshot-wound scars and also scars from the torture and the abdominal stabbings. [if anyone wants to go through the history and make a ‘map’ of the places on kiryu’s body where he would have scars, that would be amazing. i plan to do it myself but probaly wont have time for a few years.]

nishiki is a bit vain about his body. so hes the Health Conscious One [canon, y0 intro scene]. he doesnt diet exactly and hes always happy to eat a huge delicious meal while out on the town, but on his own he tries to make really balanced meals and stuff. his exercise regimen is second only to his haircare routine. he follows it strictly, but it’s nothing too intense. like kiryu, he’s pretty naturally good at being muscly and toned. hes never as bulky as kiryu though.

nishida is a small guy. stronger than he looks, but not shredded at all, hes just a normal pretty strong guy. loses weight in times of higher stress than usual (i.e. 100000 instead of 10000 stress, which is nishida’s daily level). tattoo is a Buddha and lotus flowers.

majima really freaking cares what he looks like. hes starved-shredded and hed do it on purpose if he had to, he wants to look ripped. he eats like garbage [canon, kiwami smile burger majima everywhere event] or just forgets to eat even though hes hungry. really disorganized and a mess but he looks good??? I guess????? hes passed out before possibly from eating only staminams for two weeks straight malnutrition, but it’s hard to say for sure what the cause was because he also... doesnt.. sleep. his joints are in surprisingly good shape, but his knees always crack when he stands up from his lil crouches. long legs. most impressive body part is probably his thighs and shredded abs. his butt is “the great plains”

its been said before but akiyama has. dad bod.

saejima eats a lot [canon, y5 gourmet substory with the girl] and exercises a lot, and gains weight really easily, muscle and fat. so hes super super bulky and well muscled, but not that shredded. like he often has visible abs but theyre meaty abs, not shrink-wrapped abs. he doesnt care what he looks like, but he wants to be  s t r o n g e. he doesn’t really like western food, and he refuses to even try smile burger. will pretty much eat anything else. despite his iconic eyebrow scar he doesnt really scar easily, most of his wounds heal without leaving too much of a mark. his boobies are one of the seven wonders of the world. also one of the few characters with a bodacious butt.

okudera is quite small, especially compared to the giant-size protagonists. maybe like 5′6″? he’s also one of those people who naturally doesnt get that hungry, and combined with his experience of starvation while dealing with trauma & guilt, the guy never eats enough. still in good shape from trekking all over the mountain day & night, skinny but really compact and sinewy. hes also mega scarred up [canon for his face]. not tattooed. his joints are in phenomenal shape for someone of his age and disregard for his personal wellbeing. gets sick pretty easily though.

kashiwagi. hes muscular but never shrink-wrapped like kiryu sometimes gets, but he has broad shoulders and a naturally snatched waist. his torso still looks like that no matter how many cold noodles he stress-eats. doesnt care at all what he looks like but people find it hard to believe because if they see him shirtless they think he has to be a narcissist (bc theyre jealous). has a really big tattoo (im thinkin full sleeves, etc) but idk what its of. actually only has a few scars aside from the facial scar.

please add your own, on new characters or where your headcanon on these characters differs from mine! i’d love to hear !!

[stitcheswashere13]

Small Horror Movie Character Head Cannons! Part 2

helloooo- sorry for not posting yesterday i was very busy- this is part 2 to this Dms are open for request, check out part one Btw I rate my fluff reading 13+ so if you are younger I would not recommend this. 

Warnings! Fluff? mentions of abuse, trauma, things like that, murder, mental stuff, bad spelling, a bit of cursing- 

Includes the following in this part : Brahms, Bubba, Thomas, Freddy, Billy and Stu (Scream)  

Part one includes: Vincent and Bo Sinclair, Micheal Myers ( Og and RZ) And Jason                                                                             

Brahms-

 I think that any fear this man had as a kid has now, because I mean- he does act like a child (yk) So if he had a fear of lets say spiders he will run the other way to go find someone in the house to go kill it while he hides. He has over come a few though. 

(A x Y/n shipping one-) Golden retriever boyfriend material, there is no doubt about that.   

Give this man a harry potter book and he will finish it in less than a day.

He is a mix between a dog and a cat person in my eyes would be happy with either if i’m being honest

Bubba- 

Yk, those sweet kids giving there mom a small handful of flowers, he was one of those kids. 

 He most likely  has body dysphoria from the mental abuse he has had from kid up to now from all of those people. 

Like Jason he would be happy with any animal. 

 If him and Vincent Sinclair ever meet you would find them in a room working together on something related to art, whether its drawing, painting or sculpting, they would be doing it.  

Most likely has either a nice hair routine or skin- 

Thomas-

Would also join Vincent and Bubba on this little art project   

  Also  Golden retriever boyfriend material   

Acts tough and is tough around some people and is a softie with a few

 (He has the same head cannons as Bubba for the rest)

Freddy-

(Though I dislike this little bitch)  he gives me the same sass level as Bo Sinclair and I don’t know why.

 Probaly has thought about or has painted his “ nails”   

Dog person for sure, most likely scared of cats (they would rip his skin) 

Only likes dark colors I have a feeling he absolutly HATES bright colors

Billy & Stu- 

They are both kinda slow, kinda airhead like, dumbasses but we still love them

Most likely were the little kids whole where full of energy and reckless

They are dog people without a doubt

They like horror and comedy movies the most ( I feel like there favorite comedy would be Dumb and Dumber, the friendship of them two would fit them) 

Authors Note! DMS ARE OPEN FOR REQUEST!! Fluff, Nsfw, more head cannon’s ect. I can do However, i will write aganst depending on the character I don’t mind writing for ya’ll so don’t be shy not to ask, Sorry for this being short I just wanted a Short Fluff-ish head Cannon! 

Well, The all for now Have a lovely day! 

[arminocean]

¿Am I the only one who thinks sakamakis have a strong mommy kink? is that,looking at them,they never had a good relationship with their mothers and I feel that they want to fill that void in some way,feel...complete.

Actually that's an amazing point, I feel like it will take a lot of time for them to accept that kink. We know most of the boys hate their mother so them meeting someone who like their mother will make them uncomfortable or mad. But, if they met someone who were caring towards them, gave them the attention, and love they never got they would feel confused. The mommy kink is there but once they become vulnerable towards that type of s/o or reader they would try to push them away. When the time come of them accepting that fact they could feel complete in a way and some traits they got from their actual mothers would extremely slowly become less visible. The reader walked in a dangerous zone, but if they are willing to be faithful and show them love I feel like the Sakamaki boys will come to appreciate it as time go on. You know what let me show an example how they react to this even though you never asked.

Kanato

He is extremely deprived of attention cause he never got it from his own mother

We also can show sighns of seperation anxiety

When their a reader who wasn't like an exact mothe figure, but show characteristics of how a loving mother would act

He automatically grasp on

He would threaten the reader a lot, bit when only met with comforting words he goes on a tantrum

He dosen't want to accept of having a mommy kink but when he does he actually become really vulnerable

Not in the bratty way, but in the way young Kanato was vulnerable if that make since

I feel like it will be a lot easier for him to accept his mommy kink while having sex

But once you reach the scale of making it more than another kink during sex, you reached and dangerous but good point

Kanato will still threaten you, but when he realize how dependent he is on you and that you are willing not out of fear, to love him and care about him

He would find a really hard time killing you, and if you cn actually help heal some of his trauma he will stay attached to you forever. (Can have effects of yandere Kanato, Kanato being around you all the time, some blood loss, many tea parties, and headaches from loud noise, do at your own risk)

Laito

Did someone hear kink

Now Laito is adventurous during sex and down for everything

But he is also a playboy, and smart

When he realize he have a mommy kink he was honestly like "Cool hey reader come on we are trying mommy kink"

But when a reader who has traits that would make up a loving mother he tries to avoid that by sex

But when he is confronted with his mommy kink being brougt out the sex category

He turns a blind eye, he may try to date other girl, he may cheat all of that

But when he realize you can see straight threw him he try to keep up this I don't care facade but is slowly cracking

He try to make you stop by having sex, but when you are stern and admitt you won't put up with his bs

You can see he start cracking looking like he is about to throw up

Whe you keep showing him actual love that is outside of sex he becomes vulnerable and does not like it

But, also have a hard time pushing you away since he never got this kind of love

When he actually admitt that he likes the mommy kink more than just it being about sex

You can see some weight be lifted off his shoulders

You will probaly have to comfort him a lot because he will actually cry for once

After that, and as your relationship keeps growing he is actually a pretty nice, serious , caring, and smart "person"

He will trust you more than anyone else and appreciate you a lot, especially if you help heal his trauma

Also starts to understand the difference between lust and love slowly but surely

Subaru

Subaru relationship with his mother is a little different since he actually loves her

But the problem is she didn't love him back, well atleast didn't make it too clear for Subaru that she did

You can see he has more comman since than most of his brothers

When a reader who give off traits of a loving, caring mother he is disturbed at first

He will try to avoid them, not because they remind him of a good mother

But feel if he gets too close to them, they just think of him as a monster

When he realize that he has a mommy kink he gets embarrassed and mad

He probably going to have hard time admitting it

But when he realize you know what he is thinking he will be embarrassed and scared

Even thoug he tried to avoid you, he felt at ease that you gave him comfort nobody else would

So when you found out, he thought you were going to call him a monster

When all you said is that his kink was fine, and you guys could try it out he looked really confused

When the mommy kink started to go beyond the bedroom that where he started to really panic

He tried pushing you away not wanting to get his hope up, just to then mess up and get called a monster

When he tried to push you away, and instead you tried to talk to him and explain that you give him time if he need it

He just felt guilty, but thankful

When he did admitt he has a mommy kink more than just sex he was kind of releived

If you keep showing him love, and affection you might see another side of Subaru

A Subaru who is sweet, gentle, and loving

I promise you he is going to love, and protect you with all his soul

Reiji

He always wanted his mother to say that she was proud of him, or that he is amazing

He wanted to be better than his brother

So when a reader who can give him what he always wanted from a mother appears

He is intrigue

He won't be nice just for that reason he might even be more strict with the reader

But he isn't dumb, he does realize that the reader is something that he always wanted

So he will try to keep them all to himself

When he realize he has mommy issues he ignores it, he has too much pride to admitt to something like that

And when the readers confront him on it, he scolds them and tell them to stay in their place

But when the reader actually stick up to him and scold him for acting like a child he freezes

His ego felt a little bruised, and when the reader hugged him and comforted him he felt confused

He knew this mommy kink wasn't just about sex so he knew what he was getting into

But as time went on an he accepted it he felt kind of happy

He appreciated how his s/o gave him everything his mother couldn't

He was still the strict Reiji

But now he also felt like he didn't have to put that facade up when with you

He really will have a soft spot just for you

Ayato

Ayato really is a playful vampire

So someone who is kind of like a mom can annoy him at first

Now he does have a mommy kink but he dosent really realize that

Someone who is caring, and give him much needed attention make him happy

Someone wh only care about him feeds his ego

But when he realize he has a mommy kink he is really confused

He hates his mother so how does he have a mommy kink

He will ask the other brothers even though he dosent want to

The person who point of view on mommy kink make the most since is Reiji

Since he now know the meaning of it he will try to bring it up without actually bringing it up.

He try to avoid the part of the kink that goes you know beyond the bedroom

When you bring up the topic of the actual emotional parts of the relationship he gets mad at you

You have to be patient and calm because Ayato is stubborn

He Isn't good at handling emotions, especially when he has to be vulnerable

But when he does come in terms with it he honestly dosent look like he change at all from someone like yuma point of view

But he actually does change he better at showing emotion, and putting his god complex away

Yes he still tease you but It's more in a loving way

Since he know that you actually love him, and going to stay loyal to him he is going to shower you with all the love he has

He also going to be loyal to you

Shuu

Now Shuu always had high expectations he needed to reach as a child

So when someone who gives off vibes a good mother give off he dosent care

He too caught up in his own world to care about them

Also he feels like you are just going to be annoying like everyone else in the mansion

When he realize he have mommy kink he really dosent care

He know that if he admitt this kink it probably going to become more than just a kink

He act like he dosent care that you are taking care of him and showing him love

In reality he actually like it but dosent want to deal with the consequences of saying it at loud

When he does admitt he has a mommy kink he makes it clear that he dosent want you making a big deal out of it

When in return your gentle, and say your proud lf him for admitting that

Like you knew how hard it was for him to say that

A switch in his brain turn on making him confused

He gets upset because he keep thinking if the small actions you do, making it hard for him to sleep

But when he does feel more comfortable around you, and the mommy kink become more than a kink

He a very sweet, talented, and sarcastic vampire

Both you and Shuu know that there are going to be some difficulties in this relationship

But him knowing that you are going to stick with him threw thick and thin

Makes him happy, and he'll try to do his best with you

A/n- yes they probably have a mommy kink༼⊼ɷ⊼༽

[thegreatfraud]

She a nice person.....

So many people are so judgy these days. Huey gotta make sure to remind Lyney to show her some leeway in future screw up. He frankly think her uniqueness to good to be changed.

(Jeez are you this compliment starve Huey?)

"Hey again. Trial period and if nothing works i have a secret hidden job just for you. Let's start you off with ser-"

Just as Huey about to clap his hand and simulate a typical monday at a resturant. Her comment about the picture cause him to pause.

The painting? He thought he....Huey scan the mess of paper pile as he found it. Bury deep under some of the plumbing permits and electricity permit.

Oh right the painting he was planning to hang private in his room. Of course he going to code lock his door once his office is set up. Since Isola don't have transferable picture from your home. Huey had to commission a painter to paint a scene from his head by memories.

Huey got a pretty good memory. Hey idiot she still looking for you to respond? Gas light or give her a half truth?

"Yeah. Every important looking place have the office hang a cool picture right? Since i can't acess to the cloud or my photo from my home world. I had to pay a guy to paint this. Tipped generously also."

It's TECHNICALLY true.

"And yeah it is me. Me and my older brother William. Our...parents kinda abandoned us as kids. We had to survive though the foster care system with people more intersted in the money then us. The Ponzi name was a curse. I had Will and Will had me. We were smarmy little scamps as kids and did all sort of crazy shit together. We know we were nobody so together we were gonna be somebody. Our first con for travel fee was knicking some spoil teenager car. Asshole been crashing his thing and keep getting mommy and daddy to pay off the cops and buy new ones. Stole it from him in the middle of the date. Dude so hooked on alcohol he didn't realize two seven year old brat got the best of him...got my first suit out the job. Foreign cars really do be worth a lot."

Unlike his other stories. This don't feel as heroic yet feel more....real. This is something he rather enjoyed. The little smirk on the corner of Huey lips as he having a flash back for just a second. The chuckle that even after all these years. It's still a bit of pride in his work. Those eyes of his look just a bit sad though. It's almost like it's a memory of joy but also sorrow. The One Who carry on....this relate back to his brother don't it?

Huey drawing the attention from the painting. He...can't fully get into it today.

"Anyway enough about me. Get a note pad and let's start. STAFF SIMULATE MONDAY! We have a new trainee with us! Be nice to her and teach her the basics of serve."

A model size number of waitress stand in a row and began to disperse as some of the workers sit down in booth.

"Well let's see how you do Ramy. And if you get over whelm you can say stop whenever okay? And don't feel bad about failing. Nobody perfect the first time."

Huey send her off as she going to get a taste of what it's like to be in the server business. A dark thought he swore he bury with therapy and a shit ton of booze resurface as he continue to watch Ramthiel trying her best.

Your not telling her the full truth are you little Huey? That you got your brother killed. The painting is you trying to bury those bad memories deep deep down because even after therapy you feel like shit. You shouldn't have been the one to be alive. William should have been here.

Intrusive thoughts. Intrusive thoughts. She don't need to worry about this. Huey a professional. He not gonna trauma dump onto Ramthiel. She probaly wouldn't care or be intersted anyway. Long as he worth something to her then she continue to bother to show up.

Isn't that what relationship is? People using each other? He using her to lived up the place and she using him to fuel her burger addiction.....he really should get her a gift card after all this.

or else what reason she have to keep visiting huh?

"And time. You just completed a hour and thirty minutes of what it like to work in the Isolan Server industry. How you feel? You okay with it?"

If Ramlethal wasn’t stunned, she would say, ‘yes, that is what you call this place, and your reasoning makes sense, but what is the name of it?’. Fortunately, she is stunned, so she never quite gets around to getting that out. Her jaw drops ever so subtly.

“Wow. I am impressed.” She goes on to say without even a smidgen of sarcasm. As if on que, a light flickers and blows out with a pathetic zzt! as she speaks, darkening where they stand even more than it already was. “It is all so dismal and dismissible. And yet you’ve made it your mission to improve everything about it despite the odds. Incredible. You really are a very driven person, Huey. And a…hm. I need to think of the word. Oh. A visionary. I cannot wait to see what is you want to show me on top of here.”

He goes on to list the different functions of the establishment, and she takes it all in, thinks it all over, never once interjecting. There is much to consider, but she is willing to try everything he suggests. Everything except the role of a mechanic, for although Mother did provide her with technological knowledge, it was neither for this kind of technology nor did it have anything to do with repairing it.

Her thoughts are interrupted when Huey pauses-his gaze distracted by something on the table. A picture of two humans. One of them very much resembles him. They looked happy. Created for Huey Makoto Ponzi. The One Who Carry On, it is written.

Quickly she answers his question. “I will try out all positions except mechanic.” And she means exactly that. Then, just as quick as that answer, she moves back to the previous subject of interest. The one that has just gone unspoken.

“What is that a picture of? Is it you?” For an indicator, she extends her bandaged up arm and points to exactly what it is she is talking about. "It looks important."

[mischiefthedreamerx]

To Heal From The Past [Part 4]

Synopsis: After the events in Cairo, Marc is returning to his childhood home, in hopes of rebuilding his distant relationship with his dad. With the help of Layla and Steven, is Marc finally ready to heal from the past?

A/N: So this will be the chapter where Marc and Layla explain to Elias about Marc's DID. The characters will try their best to explain it.

Click here for part 1

Word Count: 2.5k

Chapter 4: Time To Unhide

Morning had resumed somewhat normal, all three had breakfast together which felt less akward than before. Elias had questions to ask but knew it was not the time. He would not push Marc in any way, Elias had to see things from his son's point of view. To Layla's surpirse, the two of them even spoke casually, though Layla could still feel the tension in Marc's body.

"I saw you in your old room last night. You can go in there as much as you like. I cleaned it up a bit, though I still kept some of the toys. Didn't have the heart to throw them away."

Marc frowned. "I was in my room last night?" Marc had literally no recollection of waking up that night. He turned to Layla who also looked just as confused. Marc briefly looked in the window to see his reflection; he saw Steven silently shake his head.

"You don't remember?" Elias asked.

"I was probably just sleep walking." Though both Marc and Layla knew he had never once sleep walked. It woud be a conversation Marc and Layla would have later on.

"Oh." Elias said, Marc was glad he did not question it futher. "I was thinking, maybe we could take a ride around the neighbourhood? Show Layla around?"

Layla piped in. "I'd like that." Maybe it would do them all some good to get out the house that was smoking with tension and heightend emotions. Marc wanted to choose the right time to tell his father about his DID but to be honest, there was no 'right time'. Might as well get over it. Marc felt slightly more relaxed since switching back after had Steven fronted.

"Dad. There's something I need to talk to you about." Marc said as he was sat down on the sofa.

Elias paused in worry. "About what? Is something wrong?"

Marc shook his head. "Everything's fine. It's about what happened after you left the bedroom this morning. I have, um, have this..disorder." Calling it a disorder was so new to him that it was hard to say the words. Layla sat beside him.

"Disorder?"

"Yeah. Had it ever since I was 10. " There was no going back now. Layla held Marc's hand.

"Okay." Elias sat down on the oposite side. "I'm listening."

Marc sighed. "I don't even know where to start."

"What's this disorder called?" Elias asked. That was a good place to start at least, thought Marc tensed up. Layla looked at him, squeezing his hand.

"Want me to explain it?" She asked. Marc shook his head, as much as he loved Layla or Steven to explain it, Marc needed to do this, he had to do this or he'd always be this way; hiding his truths.

"No. I need to do this."

Elias looked between Marc and Layla. "Whatever it is Marc, I'll support you no matter what."

"Thanks." Marc smiled, it was genuine but brief. "I don't want you to think I'm faking it or loosing my mind." Marc probaly lost his mind the moment he died and met a talking hippo.

"I wont."

Marc wanted to believe him. "I have...dissociate identity disorder." Marc looked at his father's face that remained neutral, waiting for Marc to explain more before talking. "It's caused by childhood trauma." Marc said as matter of fact.

Elias's face dropped. He held his hands together, lowering his head.

"Oh. I see."

Marc could see the guilt in his father’s eyes, Marc couldn't help but feel sad for him. Guilt was a heavy burden to bare.

"It causes the person's personality to split apart. To become fragmentened." Marc wasn't so keen on that word, it made him feel like he was broken but he knew deep down that he was never broken. He had always been whole. "I have a seperate identity inside of me, or personality. I created him to escape from all the trauma." Marc didn't want to unload too much information to his father.

Elias sat there in silence for a moment taking this all in, he frowned trying to make sense of it all. "Sorry, this is a lot to take in. So what you're saying is that you have someone else living inside of you?"

"I guess, it's hard to explain this all, even for me. It would be better if I showed you but it doesn't always work out like that."

"Okay. So what was happening when I left the room this morning?"

Marc shared a tender look in Layla's direction before continuing, silently thanking her for being here with him. "When I become distressed with emotions, I, um, change. Steven takes over to help me handle my emotions."

"Steven?" Elias frowned. "He's your other identity, right?"

"Yeah he is. He's been there for me more times then I can count."

"He protects you?" Elias asked.

Marc smiled down to himself, eyes softening as he looked at his brief reflection on the glass coffee table. "Yeah. He protects me."

"There's plenty of webistes and resources I could show you if you ever need more information." Layla commented. "It is a lot to take in but you'll get used to it. Steven’s a lovely guy, I'm sure the two of you will get on fine."

Marc then looked down again at the table, he wouldn’t try to convience Steven to come out but he wanted to ask anyway; "You want to come out, Steven? No one's forcing you to."

Within seconds, Marc's expressions changed; large innocent eyes, not a single stain of tention on his soft face. Elias was taken back in surprise as he sat back, analysing the body that had so suddenly changed in more ways than one.

The first thing Steven did was turn to look at Layla, anxiety riddled across his features, wide eyes lost for words as if searching for guidance and reasurance. Steven was always the one for many words, once he started talking it was sometimes hard for him to stop but right now he didn't know what he was suppose to say. Steven didn't imagine he'd feel this way. He thought he’d be happy.

Still holding the body's hand, Layla spoke; "It's okay, Steven. Take your time.”

Though to both Layla and Steven's surpirse, Elias was the one to initate the conversation with Steven;

"It's nice to finally meet you, Steven." Elias wouldn't admit it out loud but it felt so strange to use a diffrent name to the body that belonged to his son, in fact all of this felt strange but Elias focused on his son's feelings, this wasn't his time to voice his own.

Steven slowly turned to face Marc's father. "Hiya.." He waved. "Sorry I know this must be super weird for you, and all. I'm not dangerous like they show in the films with the whole 'evil split personality' thing. I watched this film once called 'Split' pretty crap representaion actually..We don't turn into some monster that climbs walls and kidnaps people.." Steven mumbled,half talking to himself towards the end. He saw the confusion in Elias's face only increase.

"Sorry, I talk a lot when I'm nevous."

Layla couldn't help but supress her laughter. "Relax, Steven."

"So you're not Marc, are you?"

"Um, this is where it get pretty confusing. I'm him, and he's me but at the same type we're seperate people living in one body. It's complicated. Wasn't even that long ago that I found out I wasn't the original one.”

"Right, I guess that make sense..Do you share the same memories of Marc's childhood?" It would take Elias awhile to get his head around this all but he'd do this for his son, it was the least he could do.

"I remember all the happy memories. I remembr you and mum, though I have no memories of ever having a brother. I..don't have any memories of the horrible things mum did to Marc. I remember having a happy childhood." Then Steven forget about his anxiety, sadness took its place instead. "It was only recently that Marc told me our mum had died. For years I'd been sending her voicemails..Marc was sending postcards to my flat in London to pretend they were from her." At first Steven had hated Marc for doing that, giving Steven false hopes but he soon began to understand why Marc did it all; to protect Steven. They both protected each other in diferrent ways.

"He wanted to give you life that he never had." This wasn't a question, it was the conclusion Elias had came to.

Steven nodded.

Then Elias asked a question that shook Steven to his core, a part of reality he did not wish to encounter.

"So I'm not really your father, am I?" Elias asked out of curiosity.

Steven wanted to curl into himself and disapear. He had so many happy memories with Marc's parents, but were they really his memories? Steven had no parents, it was all a lie. But Steven could never hate Marc for trying to make Steven’s miserable life happy.

Steven didn't want to cry but his tears easily slipped through fast. Steven was never the one to hide his emotions, he wasn’t quite sure how. He slowly shook his head. Layla placed a hand on his shoulder as Steven wiped away the tears.

Elias did not press on for more. "Sorry, it wasn't my intention to upset you. I only want to better understand this." Elias spoke softly.

Layla spoke for Steven instead; "We understand." Steven remained silent, avoiding eye contact with anyone.

"Steven?" Layla squeezed his shoulder.

"I, um, I think I'd like to go back now, Marc, if that's alright? Sorry I’ve been a right ol’ killjoy. Guess I’ll see you around, yeah?” He turned his gaze away from the coffee table, eyes returning to Elias before they closed and Steven disappeared. Marc returned, body posture becoming more defensive. Layla removed her hand from his shoulder.

"Marc?" Elias called out.

"It's me." Marc stated. "He’s a pretty sensitive guy at times."

"Sorry about that, I didn't wish to hurt him." Elias apologised. "You heard the conversation between us two?"

"Sort of, only parts of it. Whoever is currently in control of the body, the other one has little or no memory of what happened, like we're loosing time."

Elias laid back against the sofa, becoming more relaxed. "I won't bore you with anymore questions. I think I've said quite enough." Though Marc did appreciate Elias was open minded and interested in wanting to understand it more. But Marc knew one day there would be people who weren't willing to learn.

"No, it's fine. I appreaciate it. I was worried you wouldn't believe me."

"I believe you, son. Thank you for telling me. It must of been hard for you to keep this all to yourself."

It was now all over and done with. No more secrets, well apart from the whole Moon Knight situation which Marc was quite happy to keep that part of his life a hidden, maybe if he had solid proof and evidence that he was once enslaved to an egyptian god he'd show his father but that was no longer possible.

"So there's no one else? Just Steven?" Elias asked.

Marc and Layla exchanged a look between them. Maybe. Yes. Definetly. Layla let Marc decide on what to say to Elias.

"We don't know just yet." It wasn't entirely a lie since Marc and Layla had yet to meet this other alter. Marc wasn't ready for when he'd meet them, what kind of person were they?. "Still trying to figure that out."

"Okay." Elias smiled softly.

And so that was that. It had been three full days of heavy emotions and far too much heartche, they all now hoped things would gradually begin to settle. It would still take time but right now would be a good place to start.

"I'd love to take a ride out if the offer still stands?" Layla asked Elias as she stood up.

"Of course, I'll treat us to lunch."

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And so Elias drove Layla and Marc out of town for the day, Marc was glad to be out for awhile. They first walked round a nearby nature reserve, Marc remembered this place well; a long lake and many routes and pathways that him and his brother used to explore together. Marc picked up a few small stones and placed them in his pocket, though Layla did not ask why.

Whilst they were there, Elias was keen on asking questions about their wedding as Layla showed him a few photos from her phone.

"You've definetly got a keeper here, Marc." Elias commented as Layla showed him a photo of herself in her white and golden wedding dress.

"I sure have." Marc smiled at his wife, placing his arm around her as they walked down the lake. The divorce papers were still half unsighned at Steven's apartment but Marc hoped and prayed they got lost in all the clutter.

After the nature reserve, Elias drove them to a diner for lunch, wasn't anything fancy at all but it was decent. They had planned to head back home afterwards but Marc wanted to visit one final place that he hadn’t visited in a very long time.

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Elias opened the wooden gates to the graveyards. The graveyard was farely large, lined with many trees that had begun to loose their leafs, covering the ground in yellow and orange hues.

They gravestone wasn't a far way to walk. It was a simple grey headstone. The top part contained some jewish scripture then below read; 'Here lies Randall Spector (RoRo) A kind and adventurous soul. Beloved son and brother.' Then with his date of birth and death written at the end.

"I came here a few weeks ago to tidy it up." Elias said. Layla stood there in silence, her hands held together.

"Can't remember the last time I visited, must of been before I left home at 16." Time flew too fast. Marc wanted to visit during the day of his mother's shiva but was unable to due to his emotional breakdown.

"It shouldn't of took me so long to come visit you. I'm sorry." Marc took the stones out of his pocket and placed them top of the headstone were several over stones and pebbled lay.

Elias placed a hand on Marc's shoulder. "You had a lot going on,Marc. Don't be so hard on yourself." Elias then looked to his left down the line of tomb stones.

"Don't mind me, I'll only be a few minutes. Take your time.” He then walked down into that direction. Marc knew were he was going; to visit his mothers gravestone. Selfishly, Marc had no deisre to follow. He had a single stone left in his pocket but made no attempt to take it out.

“What are the stones for?” Layla asked.

“It’s a common Jewish cemetery custom to leave stones on graves. It’s a sign that someone’s visited the grave; an act of remembrance. ” Marc explained. He then asked her an usual question;

"What do you think happens, when we die?" Marc casually asked out of interested.

Layla frowned at the odd question. "I believe the afterlife takes on many forms. Or perhaps we live on through other people." It definetely took on different forms from Marc and Stevens wild experience.

"Well for one, I hope my afterlife doesnt involve any more talkng animals this time..." Marc joked. Layla laughed in response.

"She was actually pretty nice." Layla confessed, maybe slightly annoying but Layla couldn't thank her enough for assisting them in stoping Amit.

"The talking hippo?" Marc said is disbelief. Marc heard Steven's nattering voice reminding him of Tawerets name.

"Yeah. I did look pretty badass too." Both him and Steven couldn't agree more. She was a sight to behold.

"The Scarlet Scrab." Marc mavouled in wonder.

Elias returned back to them after visting his wife's gravestone.

"You two ready to head back home?"

"We're ready." Marc pulled Layla close to him. He took one final look at his brother's grave before turning away. He promised to return again.

The three of them headed back into the car as Elias drove them home.

Home. Maybe Marc could begin to use that word once again.

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I wanted to include Jake in a sneaky way XD The next chapter will be the final chapter and a smaller one just to tie up a few loose ends.