#I probably need antibiotics

[vitiateoriginator]

Im incredibly miserable right now, I was awake all night for the second time in a row from coughing. And what's worse is that I kept my datemate up, again. I literally took cough medicine before bed too and it didn't work at all

[naomiknight-17]

Hey so. It looks like that time again where I have to ask for a little help

My insurance ran out and I had to pay out of pocket for my physiotherapy session today. It's also a short pay week because hubby lost a day of work due to his inner ear problem last week

Long story short:

After paying the rent, this is the situation. Hubby Jon has about $160 in his account, not enough to get me out of overdraft. I'm trying to decide whether to cancel our meal kits or skimp on groceries, we can't afford both. I mean. Technically between us we have negative $55 so... we can't really afford either

I also have a minor medical procedure scheduled for tomorrow and I'd sure like to have food in the house while I'm recovering. It would be one less thing to worry about.

Anyway.

If you have a few bucks to spare, I would appreciate a tip over at my Ko-Fi:

Thank you for reading

[strechanadi]

Teaching about all the artists dying of pneumonia while having pneumonia yourself, what a way to go!

Live while it lasts.

[daisywords]

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[crimeronan]

in a weird place with my illness currently wherein i feel fundamentally alienated from the majority of the online spoonie community because the things happening to my body are so far beyond the scope of chronic fatigue and/or general joint pain that it's like. mindboggling. like we are living fundamentally separate lives like there is very little overlap in our fears or experiences, even when we have some shared symptoms. and at the same time i am fundamentally excluded from online Very Serious Disease (TM) communities because i do not have cancer or a terminal diagnosis and my organ damage has not been quantified yet (even tho several medical professionals have agreed it for sure exists in some form) so i'm not really sick.

i'm just so tired. there's, like..... there are tiers of Feeling Sick when you're chronically ill, and from what i've seen online most spoonies are at a tier of "coping day to day, strategizing," and then people talk about the tier of "if you suddenly unequivocally know that you're going to die extremely soon, you HAVE to go to the hospital, because you are probably right"

there's a middle tier that's more along the lines of "i am not going to die tomorrow but i am going to die. i am helpless and if i don't get help from a doctor i am going to die and i am getting slowly worse because my body is eating itself and/or shutting down because i am going to die. i am in desperate need of immediate medication that i cannot get because i have to wait to see a specialist prescriber and my body will continue to slowly shut down in the meantime and i will continue to slowly die but it will be so slow that nobody will really care"

like where do i go with that what do i do with that. what am i supposed to do about the five-year survival rate for vasculitis being 78% and most of the deaths being people who couldn't see a doctor in time to get the medicine they need. while i'm waiting to see a doctor to get the medicine i need and i'm feeling things get worse and worse. i don't have any community that's going through the same thing because i'm not sick enough but i'm also way way way too sick simultaneously.

i dunno i dunno i dunno. i'm overtired which means that my emotions are fried and people are talking about disability pride month starting tomorrow and that just made me cry because some of my physical issues are so common/widespread that i Should have a community but i just. don't. i don't have a community that's specifically Mine i'm just alone out here or at least that's how it feels. like don't get me wrong i have my family and friends and support network i'm not ALONE alone and all of that is wonderful i just. feel very alone. as far as the current experience goes.

[skywarpie]

Feeling depressed after the dentist appointment. Although figures out why my left eye feels like it's gonna swell shut. Apparently that sinus cavity is almost fully blocked

[vault81]

woo!! got my second doctors appointment for my lung problem!!!

[hyliasblade]

Un fortunately I Do need to eat and Shower As I have errands To day so I will be Back to attack You All more later

[sunlightbabe]

hospital waiting rooms are the worst but me and my mother made a new bff. hes 8 and cut his hand on his hockey blade and he likes my new shoes and that we have matching hospital bracelets x

[sanchoyo]

today is my dogs bday!! hes 15!! i baked him some treats (a lot of the store bought ones, even the chewy ones, are too firm for him and his (2) teeth so i have to make them usually) using oats, blueberries, bananas, and peanut butter and garnished w watermelon and he LOVED them bc i included all of his fav treats (aside from ham and cheese but maybe for dinner i will add a lil bit of those 2 his meal...) hes been havin a rough time lately so it felt nice to be able to do smth like this for him ;_; (also i did buy number candles and we sang happy birthday to him. he was confused (is deaf) jkhsdfjk but I thought it was very cute :))

[moghedien]

Now I don’t recommend this, but my doctor was right. Having a sinus so infected and blocked and unable to drain for two weeks and then blowing my nose so hard that I burst said sinus and have fluids drain out of my nose for like five minutes straight and clear out everything all at once, did actually feel really fucking good

[knifefightandchill]

i legit haven’t had the energy to finish any of my projects for the last couple weeks and i feel some kind of way.  granted i’ve had a lot going on but ugh

[theood]

My toofy woofy hurts. My teethy weethy are in pain I'm getting so sick of eating on one side of my mouth I need this supposed infection to please fucking leave my mouth. All I'm eating is rice and bananas right now I want some fucking protein I haven't been able to eat proper since 9/10 or 9/11 I can barely brush my teeth this feels like a root canal that didnt take the moment I got it done and it's not at all making me.confident for the other one I'm scheduled for because it seems like my tooth pain is never going away andnif the other root canal is on the other side of my mouth I'm just straight uo fucked like what will I do because i had a banana i was eating touch that tooth again last night by accident and it hurt so fuckinf bad. I didn't even bite down!! I can't do this anymore

[etherealperrie]

LITERALLY only I would get a UTI the day before leaving for a weekend trip with my boyfriend & it’s our last real time together before he moves 7 hours away for the next two years

[mars-ipan]

having anxiety sucks so bad when you might have a slight medical problem