#I only just remmebred

[mondaymelon]

this morning has been the biggest fumble i put in my contacts one of them falls down the sink drain. i have to unscrew the pipes and get it out. i go on my phone only to realize that I've somehow forgotten the password I've used for a whole year and i don't know how or why what is happening what the fuck its locked rn and i don't know what to do oh god ohs df holyshita

[solfinite]

been thinking abt fanfics recently and just realized that my first ever fanfic i read was a sonic one, specifically sonadow bc i remmebr the awkward romance. this back in like 6th grade??

i didn't know what sonic the hedgehog was at the time, and so i was like "wow shadow and tails are kinda weird names oh well" either i was completely obvious to the fact that they were Hedgehogs or the author didn't think someone reading it didn't know abt sonic

also this fanfic was on minecraft skinseed

[ilyasorokinn]

Please, something of adorable fluff with dad Travis Konecny I have such bad baby fever right now

HOCKEY CARD COLLECTION

i don't remmebr who it was, but a while ago, i saw a video of a player and his kid opening hockey cards, and they pull him and that's just stuck in my brain. also, i did decide to change the player, just personal reasons, we love tk in this house! so, instead, this is going to be for my au for nico cause i feel like i dpn't give that au enough love.

"THE HISCHIER FAMILY" MASTERLIST

something new that elena had started collecting in her ever growing hockey paraphernalia collection was hockey cards, they were her new obsession. it was probably the surprise aspect of it all but she had a giant binder filled with cards. whenever you went to the store, you made sure to stock up on the cards.

something that nico loved to do with her was get different players to sign the cards. of course every new jersey card she had had been signed by the respective player already, but whenever the away team came to play or he went away for games, he would always collect the players cards from that team and get them signed and it was always a sweet to see the smile on not only elena's face when she saw the card, but nico's as well.

"lena, i have a surprise for you!" you sang as you came through the door. not long after, you heard elena's quick footsteps running down the hall, frankie, your dog, following after her.

"mama!" she cheered. you quickly set down all the grocery bags and enveloped her in a hug. you had only been gone for a few hours but she was in a clingy stage, she missed you and nico no matter how long you had been gone.

"hi, girly." you smiled, kissing her head and setting her on your hip. nico came down the hallway, a smile on his face as you looked at the scene in front of him.

"i have some frozens." you pointed to the bags, kissing nico on the cheek and walking towards the living room leaving him to deal with the bags.

while you waited for nico to finish putting all the groceries away, elena spent the entire time telling you about everything she and nico had done in the time that you had been gone, "wow, you and papa did a lot today." you gasped.

"did you get me a present?" she asked, raising a brow at you the same way you did.

"i did." you nodded, "but what do you say first?" you raised a brow right back at her.

"please?" she asked, flashing you her puppy eyes.

"that's my girl." you nodded, reaching into your bag and pulling out the hockey packs.

"cards!" she cheered, snatching them from your hand and ripping into them before you even had time to reprimand her for snatching.

you and nico watched with smiles as she pulled out each card and attempted to read the names. she got a few right but got stumped on a few of the names. she ripped into the last little pack and flipped through the cards.

she got the second to last card and her eyes went wide, "papa!" she quickly flipped the card around to show him the card.

in all the hockey cards for you, for some reason, had yet to find a nico hischier card. you had millions of other players and tons of repeats, but none of her beloved 13.

so when she flipped the card over, you both couldn't help but cheer with her, "it's you, it's you!" she jumped around, giggling and laughing when frankie started doing the same.

"you have to sign it now. it's tradition." you reminded him. he quickly grabbed a sharpie and signed his name. he had signed his name for tons of different fan merch, other jerseys, bobbleheads, other cards, but this one was special for him.

he picked it up and held it up, showing it off, "i look good." he joked. elena laughed while you playfully rolled your eyes.

"i have to add it to my collection." she quickly gathered her new cards and ran up to her room, frankie on her heels.

once it was just you and nico, he looked over at you, "i looked good, right?"

you rolled your eyes again, "yes, nico, you looked good."

[pink-toonss]

do you like the musical ending or book ending better?? i think its interesting bc both endings are so different but end up telling the same moral anyway

Musical ending seems too perfect after every event that took place. Book ending felt more legit.

(I will say I remmebr reading that the musical ending was influenced by vizzini's passing, so that's neat I think and totally cool and chill)

But from a story perspective, I prefer book. It's more legit, with jeremy getting kicked out of the play and losing everything he worked so hard to do and *almost* giving up until Michael is like "bro just tell her" and squip uses jeremy to write a whole entire book on the events. And WE DONT KNOW IF IT WORKED!!! NED JUST LEFT IT ON A CLIFFHANGER AND I haven't scoured the internet for any answers but as far as the book goes, WE DONT KNOW IF IT WORKED.

The way heremy grows throughout both the book and the musical is there; in the musical, he now has the courage to ask christine out, he made amends with Michael, he made amends with his dad, literally every other character in the musical. In the book he failed but remained friends with Michael, feels horrible about rich and jake in the fire (bro cries over it), honestly I can't tell much more because the rest of the characters disappear after the party. But in both book and musical, he learned he didn't need to have a computer to help him becauze it only fucked up things further. It was the confidence inside himself the whole time type shit

And I went on a tangent just then, so my final verdict: book. Felt more raw to me and the musical ending was a little too happy (though that was for a good reason)

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

speaking of my dad, well, i have to explain the real reason im wondering what these dreams cld mean. You see, for my whole life i thought he was born in 1956 & died at age 50. because everyone would be like ohhhh he was only 50, how could this happen, he was just 50 years old. until last year at some point i was talking to my mom & she said no he’s  born in 1957, he was 49 when he died. it felt like some kind of “mandela effect” and fucked me up cus even when applying for passports + my usa visas and stuff, i would put that he was born in 1956. it seriously threw me off like  crazy cus ive always prided myself on the ability to remmebr peoples birthdays like an encyclopedia. and my own father i was wrong about!!

well, a few days ago, i decided i finally wanted to look up his birth chart. for some reason i just didnt want to for a while. like i was scared or something? but a few days ago i was like fuck it. & i discovered something that made me so happy.. we both have sun conjunct jupiter in libra, witha 3 degree orb. this is a very unusual aspect to possess, for us to both have it in the sign of libra too, this is something that only happens for a few days every 12 years. its also a placement i consciously think about for myself a lot.  like, im always trying to unlock its powers, cus its trine my saturn (the father planet lol..) so i feel ive had to overcome so many  obstacles in order to even begin truly embodying the expansive warmth & kindness of this aspect that he was able to create in his life effortlessly.

i wonder if he is appearing in my dreams like this to symbolize  im on the right track to understanding what im capable of..

[videostak]

always forgot how great of an album cosmic thing is like for a long time when i was 16 or so it was the only b52s album i had and i loved them so much for this album and this album alone then later i got wild planet then later got their debut and was hooked by then but like this album is so great im always convinced just like the hits on it are good and dry county but then i remmebr like every song on it is great and theres tons of underrated songs on it just like bouncing off the satellites . topaz is great tooooo

[sonknuxadow]

i think its so funny that whisper is 16 and mimic is like 32. imagine being an adult man and one of your worst enemies is a teenage girl thats exactly half your age

[crow-caller]

have you really lived if you don’t know this song by heart

[johnlockdynamic]

prof r***** and prof k****** tho. mans gave lectures more riveting than David Attenborough. like the content was literally a nature documentary but somehow both more suspenseful and informative??? how did they do that.

[convxction]

/ / would it bad if i............dagran blog?

[dballzposting]

BTW Ive already made like 5 posts like this im sure but i want to talk about how at the end of Z (where this screenshot is from like at the VERY end it is a very cool shot) Trunks is so chill and self-assured and confident and fully embodying himself and he is still very much Player 1 and Goten’s senior.  Even tho it’s only by a year , it never felt inconsequential. Goten still called him “-kun” which of course he did he was raised by ms Chichi and uses respectful language. But i just think that he could have gotten away with no suffix at all if he wanted to. But it was the polite and affectionate thing to do. Plus i’ve no clue the nuance of that shit anyway Listen

OK so actually im gonna utilize a readmore becasue i remmebered that they exists and literally who wants to scroll past all this shi... Love you

OK So ive made posts like this before but i want to say that I am sooooooooooo sorry for portraying Trunks as being soooooo comically BOTHERED by Goten’s antics. And by therefore (inadvertently or not) portraying him as Stressed Out and Less Than Chill and Bossy and Specific and Insecure and Anxious and Prone To Snapping. Ive walked the line between That and a more canon portrayal before but really all that secondary bullshit should just be dropped at this point like ive done enough :/ Like 

OK ive already said all this before but Im thinking about this again. Ok well basically TRUNKS IS PLAYER 1. Always has been and always will be. Goten is Player 2 and he has to use the player 2 controller hooked into the player 2 slot and he cant use the default colors bc he’s player 2 so he has to be Blue or Red or something thats Not the default and it’s not his game and it’s not his Gamecube and it’s not his house and it’s not his room and it’s not his TV. And it’s that fucking simple

THEY ARE A DUO..!!!!! BUT Trunks is player 1 and Goten is player 2. Theyre not so much equal as much as there is a yin-yang to it. 

OK. So Im sorry for portraying Trunks as even having a reaction to Goten’s antics bc the truth is that he really would not let anything that Goten does get to him at all whatsoever bc 1.) He’s seen it all before 2.) He’s unbothered by it 3.) He’s better than that. And he is not going to be one-upped by Son Goten.

HE IS THE CHILD OF BULMA AND VEGETA ....!! HE IS NOT GOING TO BE ONE-UPPED BY ANYONE FRANKLY...! 

NOT TO MENTION. HIS EASY SPIRIT. Even Future Trunks who came from a hellish reality had a very distinct Easiness to his spirit. He is fully embodying himself, is comfortable in himself. He does not waste time on dreaming and is instead interested in doing. He is capable of relaxing and capable of enjoying his time alive. And in no environment will he ever feel like there’s no room for him.

Ok... We see that so clearly in our Present Trunks at the end of Z somehow. Hes so chill and cool and comfortable. And we see it again in GT in how he didnt want to do all that paperwork so he just flew out the fuckign window. 

HE;’S JUST LOOKING FOR A GOOD TIME. THAT’S IT. It’s that simple.

OK Well I do remmebr how when i very first started talking about Goten & Trunks it was definitely before I even saw the end of Z . I didnt honestly know what to make of them yet but what I did know was that it was feasible that Trunks could grow into a bossy kind of guy. And the natural next step, obviously, was to have his counterpart be someone who could get under his skin. Because if Goten couldn’t bite back then why would they hang out .. they have to be equally matched in SOME capacity . And i figured that if I kept watching and kept thinking about it and then rewatched some then I would understand their characters better. 

Well I did keep watching it and I did keep thinking about it but my first impressions became Classic to me rather than a First Draft That Should Be Ditched. Partly becasue there was some FUNNY SHIT in my head at the beginning and i didnt want that to become obsolete lol. A lot of it did age past relevancy but a lot of it didnt and i ended up using it later (like that comic where Trunks was wearing Goten’s entire outfit and was like “well one of us is going to have to change.”) Anyway 

So anyway I dont know where Im going with this necessarily. Just that I really liked the idea that Trunks would grow into a bitchy teenager and have some difficult times and his player 1 complex would become exemplified as he became more self-aware and insecure about his power and place, and so he would boss Goten around like always, albeit more ardently because it’s a bit more needed now, and Goten would either tolerate it or tip his hand and say/do something that completely strikes the perfect nerve. Sometimes it was an accident but Goten himself would grow into somebody who is very emotionally intelligent and mature so he doesnt accidentally piss him off for forever. Sometimes he’d do it in self-defense and other times he would do it because it was funny. And then i guess Trunks grows out of it and into his Easy Spirit that we see at the end of Z. And i rememebr arriving at the End of Z and being like OMG OMG OMG OMG SO COOL but also being like “ummm this is a little different from what i was saying lol ...” and idk i never did anythign abt that .. Im a creature of habit i guess . Anyway

Anyway if you want my professional opinion I’d say that Trunks never has to get pissed off at Goten becasue he can hold his own. It is funny to think that at some age Goten becomes less childish and naive and more quick-witted, and Trunks, WHO HAD ALWAYS BEEN THE PRECOCIOUS ONE, who has enjoyed a life of being comfortably many levels of awareness above Goten, now has to reconcile with Goten catching up to him, and he does not handle it well. That is an interesting story but IT’S NOT EVERYTHING ...!! AND IF THAT DID HAPPEN it likely died down pretty soon becasue AGAIN. END OF Z. TRUNKS WAS SO CHILL AND HE AND PAN STILL KICKED GOTEN’S ASS IN THE TOURNEMENT. WHICH WAS SO FUNNY BTW. 

Becasue he’s STILL..! PLAYER..! ONE..!!!!!

It makes perfect sense tbh. Of course. Of course Trunks is still stronger than Goten. Goten is Goten after all. He comes from a loving rural home and even tho his mother is a hardass and his father only cares about fighting, he’s still a very chill dude. And Trunks is also chill but he does take life a bit more seriosuly. But not to the point of frequent stress. It’s just that his father is Vegeta and his mother is Bulma and he’s being fast-tracked to being the President of Capsule Corp and like ... He knows how to relax but he also experiences very high prestige. And here’s the important bit: HE CAN HANDLE IT. HE’S NOT STRESSED OUT ABOUT IT. HE’S BUILT FOR IT. HE’S BEEN TRAINING FOR THIS. HE CAN HANDLE IT. 

Anyway I dont want to say that it’s less funny and that there are less things to say if Trunks is chill and theyre actually on the same wavelength usually becasue that’s quitter talk. Thats quitter talk. Of course there’s still a lot to say .. of course there are stories to tell there .. It’s less emotionally piquant but that is in fact the point, what emotions are left between them? Theres no expressions of anger but thats fine. It’s whatever. Like i’ll be fine... .........

Anyway. Here is a list of the only ways that I can imagine where Goten one-ups Trunks:

1. I guess expressing unwarranted and unabated genuine affection. But only in really specific contexts becasue that usually works at bugging someone IF there’s space left between you that has yet to be revealed/explored. And i don’t think that there’s much space left between those two. Theyve known each other since they were babies but they lack the obligation and boundaries that family would share. So I really dont know what Goten could do in that field to bug him. He does live life with a much more prominent and open heart than Trunks does so he’s capable of expressing an amount of love that is sickening but I dont think that, if he afforded Trunks that, that Trunks would be bothered by it. First of all he’s probably heard it before. Second of all, if Goten really tried to push it, it would become clear that he’s doing a bit, and Trunks isn’t gonna let that go anywhere.  Third of all there is a very simple way to diffuse an attempted one-up which is to take it one step further. “i love you man” “cool i love you too” (kisses him on the lips) . And that really does mean nothing to them. Well actually in a strictly canon interpretation they would absolutely NOT do that but I already said that I dont think that theres much space left between them. They could do anything and it would not change anything. And that’s all there is to it

2. Honestly if Goten did something that was a little improper but hard to argue against. Like named his first child after Trunks’s family’s nomenclature. Like “hey Trunks guess what .. my ex just showed up with a baby and told me that it’s mine .. crazy right? .. I wanted to be a dad eventually but this is sort of shocking haha ... BUT I LOVE MY NEW BABY ... I named them Thong” and at which point Trunks would be like “Um. What”

That might cause a bit of an argument .. like ummmmm..... Maybe you should name it something in line for YOUR family .... and stay out of mine............

But we all know that Goten would name his first child “Gohan The Third” anyway so that would never happen lol.

3. If Goten really truly surpassed Trunks’s player 1 status somehow. If he became stronger than him and consistently so. If he became president of the World while Trunks is only president of Capsule Corp. It wouldnt break Trunks and it certainly woudlnt break what they have but it would cause Trunks to sit down for a bit and really think about that. Goten wouldnt let the power get to his head so they’d still be good. But that would still strike some mounting fear in Trunks’s heart I think. Especially becasue I dont think that he thinks his relative level of power plays into his self-image at all. But it does. It’s just never been questioned. 

BTW on ask-tarble.tumblr.com Trunks is still going to be relentlessly bothered by Goten’s antics bc the whole blog is broadly funny at the expense of relevant characterization like a western cartoon so... yeah. STRONGLY looking forward to showing all that. THANK YOUUUUUUU

[akookminsupporter]

also i heard that in sportify i am not remmebring the correct name of the site but that jk was also credited as teh producer of friends song , but i thought it was only jm aside from pdogg who actually produced it and given credit to ? is this true? or is it just a mistake

Yes, that happened on Spotify. It's definitely a mistake. I imagine since Jungkook's account was created the system got a bit confused. I imagine the error will be rectified shortly.

[posallys]

do you have any "fix it" fics for hoo or blood of olympus you would recommend? you guys discussing the second series falling flat at the end reminded me of how unsatisfying it was. Sorry if it's jumbled or snth, I went out drining with friends and I just remmebred this thing.

i don't because i only read percabeth and posally fic lmfao. if anyone has any recs, drop them in the replies

[ma-lark-ey]

~ Glenn dissection ~

this is genuinely not a post to start some kind of discourse, I just wanted to dissect gGenn close a little bit because i think the choices in today’s episodes are very interesting and i wanna dissect how I think they were the right ones. 

in summary; Lark is having a little special interest moment and wants to info dump sorry not sorry. 

My opinion on Glenn is fairly neutral, much like Henry. I don’t think he’s a terrible parent, but he’s also by no means a good parent. I do see some child neglect in his narrative, but he’s by no means ‘abusing’ Nicolas. 

So, I’ve been thinking about these two a lot over the past few days. Like, a lot a lot. They.... They’re a complex pair to digest

As Freddie and Anthony said in the latest episode of Talking Dads, people don’t like accepting characters who are good people and bad parents. Because if someone’s a good person, then they’re a good parent, or bad person equals a bad parent. Vice verse shit. 

Now, Glenn was ruled as a good person. And, I won’t say Glenn is a ‘bad person,’ but I also won’t say he’s a good person. Again, he’s a grey area. he’s a grey character. he’s a mediocre person. 

Glenn, at his core, is an immature person. A broken man who refuses to acknowledge he’s broken, and that gets increasingly clear with each time he talks about Morgan, or is asked about Morgan. There’s an unresolved grief there, and who knows if he’ll ever resolve it. He avoids those kinds of emotions (’harshing his vibe’) 

I think, narratively, the only option that would’ve made sense would have been to give up Nick. 

there are three core things we have to think about here. 

- Player; how would this decision affect Freddie? How do his personal desires for Glenn play into this? 

- Narrative; what decision makes the most compelling narrative? What furthers the story in the most dramatic way? 

- Character; What decision would the character make in this sitation? Why would they choose this? 

These are all things that are constantly needed ot be brought into topic when it comes to these kinds of major plot points. The only other instance I can think of for this in DnDads was the chimera and Grant. 

I’ll start at the top. 

1. PLAYER; The most intense part of a narrative is the player’s decisions in said narrative. As a dungeon master, I’ve watched my players choose some baffling things for their characters (such as, a typically laid back background player taking the lead in a mystery to try and assist our younger player) and these players own wants and desires in the storyline play a major role in these things. In this case; Freddie didn’t want to kill off Glenn. And that is absolutely valid and understandable and by no means wrong of him. He’s played this character for two years (or coming up on it) and that’s huge. That’s a lot of time for him to become attached and fall in love with this character he’s made. It’s completely normal, acceptable, and welcome for players to fall absolutely in love with the character they play. These players, over the course of their campaigns, become a way the players bond with each other. It’s no secret that Freddie feels very attached to Glenn, to the point there’s jokes there’s little to no line between them during episodes. He didn’t want to end a character he held so near and dear, and if anyone faults him for that; a personal fuck you to you, good tiz. 

A content creator is going to love the characters in the content they produce, and shaming them for wanting to hold onto those characters as long as possible is absolutely absurd. If Scott Cawthon can keep making FNaF games six years later, and no one insults him about it, Freddie Wong can choose the timeline where Glenn stays alive. 

2. NARRATIVE; in crafting a narrative, you want to choose the option that will cause the most conflict and interesting plots to follow. While, killing off Glenn would have provided us with a very interesting arc where they go to hell to rescue Glenn and go into this weird Entourage-style campaign; it’d be repetive. We just had an episode or two where the gang had to go save Glenn, and while we currently do have to save Glenn again, it’s very different this time. It’s not ‘Glenn got sent to a hell dimension’ it’s ‘let’s pull a jailbreak’ and yeah, I’m not to excited about another ‘go save glenn’ arc right after Deck Picks, I AM excited for Jimmy Wong and this new character of his, I’m vibrating with excitement. 

Choosing to give Nick up makes narrative sense, whether it was a ‘good dad’ decision or not. It made sense. It provided more conflict for the party, because now there’s a new guy in the party and Nick doesn’t remmebr who Glenn even is, it provides a very interesting new character arc (i.e, Glenn building a cool uncle type relationship with Glenn, and befriending Nick’s new dad.) No, Glenn giving up Nick was not some big heoric deed as some people are portraying it, but it’s more selfless than dying just so your kid can become an orphan and mourn your memory. That would’ve been the shitty option, I’m sorry, but it would’ve been. Especially given Freddie, nor Glenn, thought they owuld be able to bring Glenn back this itme. 

3. CHARACTER; I feel that this is a very telling decision for Glenn and wanting to better himself. I’m gonna focus on the topic of Glenn seeing Nick as his last tie to Morgan. 

We know Glenn is very stuck on Morgan, to the point of being stuck at the same maturity he was when Moran was born. He’s stuck there, trying to keep her memory alive. Because, Morgan was all he had and he lost her. And that sucks. When your partner dies, it feels like everything in the world is absolutely gone and there’s nothing you can do to get them back and that everything you ever were is gone. So, of course he would latch everything he had of Morgan onto Nick. It makes such logical sense. His wife has died, y’all. Unexpectedly. Suddenly. In a horrific way. But, here he has this little kid who is a physical manifestation of their love and commitment to each other. Obviously, he’s gonna latch onto that child and hold them close, see them as their last tie to Morgan. Because Nick is his last tie to Morgan. A child inherits parts of both their parents, and I’m sure there are things Nick does that Glenn sees nothing but Morgan in. 

Glenn wanted to keep Nick. He loves that kid so much. (Freddie’s first reaction upon meeting Nick in episode one is “Guys, I love my kid!” and that transfers into Glenn’s love language, encouraging Nick even if it’s in a very bad way.) But, I feel., and this is strictly me looking into his character, he realizes he needs to let go. He realizes he needs to let himself grow, and that him and Nick aren’t healthy and that he’s becoming Bill. And he let’s go. 

This also plays into how the Close family is known to live hard and long, (YOLO mentality) and so, clearly he won’t take the death option. Not happening. 

TL;DR Glenn choosing to give Nick up shows a major character growth in unhealthy attachment and admitting fault, and Freddie also is totally justified in choosing option to give up an NPC his player character is attached to instead of just killing off the character he’s clearly very attached to. 

[blockheadjnr]

🤩 going from completing everything in Ac Odyssey to Valhalla is so satisfying already. I forgot how fun the “Assassin Creed” part of the franchise was, cause uhhh Kassandra did not join any assassin brotherhood but the adventure through Greece cleansed the pallet from the AC dark years. I only played part of Origins & recognize the like...Post Assassination Hallucination from the game in Valhalla. I loved Bayek...

this game is feeling like they blended Odyssey & Origins together in good ways.

Immediately improved mechanics I was sick and tired of in Odyssey. Non spoiler: Horse can go to map point. Ship can auto sail to your destination 😭 Change your hair 😭😭😭 I said out loud “NO NOT ANOTHER BRAID OVER THE SHOULDER!!!” But then I found the barber n I’ve been hooked on this game ever since

ALSO INSTEAD OF AN EAGLE YOU HAVE RAVENS!!! one flew out of a dudes throat it was fucking metal. The weight of the flight between Ikaros the eagle & my New Bird Whose Name I Don’t Remmebr The Raven is really neat too.

It’s reminding me of dragon age 1 + 2. I’m just blown away already and the music is hyping me up too much.

[twdeadfanfic]

Random stuff about me.

I have issues with body weight image since I was little. I'm not good at dealing with it. This morning is being a rough one as I dress in something that's not pajamas for the first time in fifteen days.

Anyway that's not the point.

Everytime I feel like this something comes to my mind and I feel so angry. When I was around 19 I was skinny, like now maybe you look at me and you won't say "wow you're so fat" but you won't say I'm skinni either, but I was when I was 19, the only time.

You wanna know why.

I was in one of the lowest point of depression. My insomnia and my anxiety were out of control. People I though were my friends had dumped me in a very bad way. The only guy (besides Daryl Dixon) I thought I was in love with was only using me and I knew but couldn't let go of him. I had started college because my family wanted me to and I'd failed the course miserable and I felt dumb as a rock. Among other things. Nobody knew it, and to this day only one person knows (well know all of you...also I belive this is when twd started, I remmebr watching it at college).

I couldn't sleep. If I slept I couldn't really wake up. I couldn't eat. I didn't want to get up from bed. I didn't want to do anything but lie down and not feel. Hours passed and I didn't even know.

I got skinnier.

To this day, everyone says, "oh, you were so skinny when you were 19! You were so healthy back then! You looked so good! You should try and go like that again!"

Yes, I was super healthy. One of my lowest points in life, I almost killed myself. I was super healthy.

Believe, I didn't look healthy. I just looked skinny. I looked out of myself, I spaced out, I looked like I hadn't slept in ages, I barely formed coherent thoughts. But, yes I was so healthy.

Because I was skinny, then I must have been much more healthier than know.

It's stupid. But it makes me so mad.