#I need movies for people over 30 over 40 over 50
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at an age now where I feel annoyed that some movies or maaany movies mostly focus on young adults.
Sorry. I'm old now. I need and want movies of people at least my age or older.
#personal stuff#adulthood#so tired of young twentysomethings#I need movies for people over 30 over 40 over 50#and their realities and struggles#I dont want more coming of age movies#more like what to do with my old sick parents and my stupid boss at work#who will pay the rent when you lost your job#help I have a life crisis#help I am a single parent#etc there IS SO MUCH POTENTIAL#jfc I am getting angry lol
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Mother's smile
Summary: Raging war, it turns boys into men. Author note: Since the Marley world seemed to be around the 30s-40s, I’ll set this idea in a world that looks like the mid-50s. This is POST WAR. I've no idea what is this... the idea just came into my mind. Warnings: None...Angst? Perhaps? Word count: 3.8k Pairing: Dad! Levi x Mom! Reader
The muscles of his body twitched as he ran up and down, changing the train’s platform to return home. His hair flowed in the air, almost freezing from the bitter cold. He could feel the icy air biting at his undercut and chilling everything in its path. Exhaustion escaped with every puff of his reddened lips, the air condensing in front of his face. Yet, he kept running, desperate to connect one train to another.
If he didn’t time it perfectly, his family might begin to suspect he wasn't going to practice. He had quickly changed back into his regular school uniform in one of the train station's public bathrooms.
From the corner of his eye, he noticed a couple of girls. They couldn't be older than him, mumbling and locking eyes. He had no time to dwell on it, but he couldn't ignore it either. It was becoming a regular occurrence. People were starting to recognize him in the crowded streets of the capital.
"Why?" he wondered, even though he knew the answer. But he reasoned, "There are TV stars and movie actresses who take the train… I'm nobody."
He knew. Ever since someone took unauthorized pictures of him during practice, fully suited up, and they were posted first in the Paradise newspaper and then spread worldwide.
"Oh my- Sorry!" He almost tripped over someone. He quickly dodged a mother carrying two kids. "I’m SO sorry," he insisted.
"Please, something for my kids," she pleaded.
Levi's intuition told him something had been off lately.
"I’m so sorry… I have nothing," he replied, feeling a deep pang in his heart. The hunger and misery on the streets had only worsened since the war restarted.
—
"Could you set the table, love? Dinner is almost ready," Y/N said, breaking his deep thoughts as she handed him a pile of dishes. "It's just that the pot is old, and if I stop stirring it-"
"Sure," Levi quickly replied, not needing any further explanation. He stood up, grabbed the dishes, and wobbled a bit on his way to the dining room. "Tch," he clicked his tongue as he checked the clock. This was usually his son's duty.
Speak of the devil, the front door swung open. "I’M HOME!" Adrien shouted as he entered. 'Finally,' Levi thought. It was winter, and it got dark outside rather quickly.
"Welcome home, dear," Y/N said, peeking over from the kitchen to see her son taking off his shoes and coat in the hall. He quickly moved to give her a kiss on the cheek. "I was starting to wonder."
"I'm fine, I'm fine, mom," Adrien said, hurriedly.
"Dinner is ready," Y/N announced.
Adrien rushed into the dining room and almost bumped into his father.
"Where the hell have you been?" Levi demanded, almost pushing the dishware into his son’s arms.
"Sorry, I'll do it-" Adrien began, but as soon as he got closer, Levi grimaced in disgust.
"Shower, now. You stink," Levi commanded, holding onto the dishes.
Adrien took a quick sniff and seemed puzzled by his father's reaction. Groaning, he quickly moved upstairs. Levi frowned and continued setting the table. "The hormones are certainly working," he muttered.
Adrien had been arriving slightly late recently, not enough to raise concern but enough to annoy Levi. "The train services are delayed by the power outages…" Y/N tried to explain. These issues had become common since the war resumed and was edging closer to home as Paradise's forces, led by a queen Levi once helped put on the throne, continued their campaign.
Unauthorized pictures of his son had made it to the front page. His baby boy, photographed by spies. 'They fucking did not.' HIS baby boy, mocked by Paradise's news.
Initially, Levi thought it was a fluke. He went to grab the morning's newspaper at the front door and noticed the front page was missing. 'Maybe the boy tore it without realizing,' he thought. The delivery was usually smooth, so he dismissed it. He figured he could grab another edition on his way to his meeting. But when he saw it, his blood boiled.
Levi was furious. He broke every personal vow he had made to himself, that whatever war Paradise and the Jaegerists wanted to get into after almost 15 years post-Rumbling was none of his business. But taking pictures of HIS son and making fun of him? He made calls to people he hadn’t spoken to in years and simply stated, "Keep my son’s name out of your fucking mouth."
Adrien had been offered personal 3DMG training by the government from a very young age. Levi and Y/N were not naive. They knew since Adrien was a little kid why the government wanted him. He was Levi’s only child. The only available Ackerman after Levi and Mikasa stopped the Rumbling.
Levi had decided to break ties with the Paradise government because they continued to support the Jaegerists. He moved to another country, seeking peace for his family. That country was one of the few places the Rumbling hadn't devastated. He, Onkopop, Falco, Gabi, his wife, and his kids lived a peaceful life for many years.
Falco and Gabi eventually moved out as they grew older, though they visited frequently. Levi wanted to give his kid the childhood he never had. But he couldn't protect him forever. Adrien had insisted on practicing with 3DMG after being offered the chance as a kid. Levi stood firm on his decision. No. It was a firm no for months. Adrien was going to have a normal childhood, playing sports with his classmates and eating lunches packed by his mother. Levi had moved across the globe for his family to live without war, his family by blood and the one he made along the way.
The door slammed, surprising him. The family dog rushed to bark at the sound.
"Addy? You okay, kiddo?" Gabi asked, as they were still living with them. Hearing his son's name, Levi got up and walked as fast as his injuries allowed. It was too early for Adrien to be back from school. Also, Levi was the one who usually picked him up.
Wobbling, he reached the bedroom door, which was unusually closed. Even before he reached it, his heart began to ache as he could hear his 7-year-old boy's muffled cries. Adrien's chubby legs dangled from the edge of his bed, his face buried in the pillow.
"Oi, oi, oi," Levi said softly as he reached the bed and tried to gently push Adrien’s shoulder to the side to see his face. Adrien resisted. "Kid, what happened? Why are you back from school?"
Levi's mind raced, searching for injuries, any sign of hurt. Trying to come up with reasons, his brain was haunted by his baby’s endless tears.
"They kicked me off the team," Adrien finally managed to say between sobs. "The mothers complained that it’s not fair that I play."
Levi's heart sank. It had been hard for Adrien to make friends as a kid from another country, and he was obsessed with baseball since being allowed to join the team. He loved having a group of friends.
"I hate it, I hate it!" Adrien's soul-breaking cries echoed as his young mind couldn't comprehend the reasons. "Why can't I be normal?"
Levi forced himself out of his shock, slightly shaking his head to clear his mind. "Don’t say that. You’re normal. I'll talk to your teachers-"
Talking had never been his strength. He wished his wife was home.
“No, I’m not! All my friends look at me weirdly! Nobody wants to play with me anymore!” Adrien screamed at the top of his lungs. The frustration of his father not understanding only added salt to the wound. “I hate it!”
“No, Adrien—I'll talk—”
“I hate being an Ackerman!”
Levi felt as if he had been stabbed in the heart. White noise filled his head, merging with the sound of his son’s cries. Levi argued with himself that it shouldn’t have hurt as deeply as it did. “He’s just a kid who wants to play with the others,” he thought, remembering all the arguments he’d had with sports teams.
“It’s just not fair to the other kids, Mr. Ackerman.”
‘Next time, just point to my head,’ he thought bitterly. Watching his son sit on the benches with doe-like red eyes, trying to hold back tears at school, haunted Levi. He had come to pick him up and was forced to stay behind while the rest of the team practiced.
Falco and Gabi tried to play with him when they had free time, but they had their own responsibilities. Levi himself tried to play with Adrien as much as his injured leg allowed, but how fun could a one-on-one game be?
For many months, Levi refused to let Adrien take special training offered by the government. He knew they only saw his son as a potential new weapon.
“Daddy, did you see me? Did you see me?” Adrien’s face lit up with a smile that seemed too big for it, brimming with excitement after mastering a new 3DMG trick.
“Mm-hmm,” Levi hummed in approval, watching his son with a mix of pride and concern.
“He’s a prodigy, sir,” the female soldier standing next to him remarked. “You must be such a proud father.”
Levi’s death stare could hardly be disguised as he clenched his teeth. ‘This is wrong,’ he thought, but his hand, missing two fingers, reached for the Polaroid camera and took a picture. ‘It can’t be that wrong… if he’s smiling like this.’
“And then I twist! And then I jump! And then I—” Adrien rambled on excitedly at the dinner table.
“Addy, don’t talk with your mouth full,” Y/N gently reprimanded him, but he continued to beam, bright and cheerful, happy.
If teaching his boy everything he knew about 3DMG made him smile again, then perhaps it was worth it. He did it for his baby, only for his baby.
Adrien had grown into a moody teenager who now stole his car and rarely talked to Levi without an attitude. Levi wasn’t usually the melancholic type, but he missed the days when he was greeted at home with tight hugs and dreamy eyes.
Now, the war was getting closer to home. Paradise, untouched during the Rumbling, was growing increasingly tense. The Jaegerists wanted to finish what Eren had started, and the new regime wasn’t open to negotiation. They demanded blood; they demanded fire.
Admiring his reflection in the mirror, Levi noted how tired he looked. Time was unforgiving. He spotted several grey hairs among what used to be pristine raven locks. History seemed to be repeating itself, and sometimes he felt like he had fought for nothing. Small towns that were slowly rebuilding after the Rumbling were falling under the power of an island he had once defended with his blood and sweat.
The tie felt tight around his neck as he adjusted the bow tie. He had been asked—almost forced—to attend a charity event to raise funds for displaced refugees and military forces. They had declared war only a few months ago, and he felt strangely hopeless. “I’m just old,” he whispered to himself.
“Hey…”
Levi turned to his left to see his 16-year-old son leaning against the door frame with folded arms.
“Hey,” Levi greeted back cautiously. “I’ve no money,” he added quickly, the interaction feeling odd since Adrien rarely came into the couple’s bedroom, much less to talk to him.
Adrien rolled his eyes so dramatically Levi thought he might tear a muscle. “I wasn’t going to ask for anything!”
The teenager walked in and sat down on the bed, petting the cat. His long face and distant, translucent eyes were hard to ignore. Levi watched him for a while before turning back to the mirror to continue getting ready. The silence was so heavy it felt like breathing steam from the Colossal Titan.
After several minutes, Adrien's voice broke the silence, trembling with emotion. “You… you know I love you, Dad, right?”
Levi turned around, frowning deeply. “… What did you do?” he asked instinctively.
“Nothing!” Adrien's defensive tone only made him more suspicious.
“You got a chick knocked up?” Levi guessed quietly.
“W-what?!” Adrien’s face turned beet red with embarrassment. “NO!”
“What—”
“NOTHING! I did nothing!” Adrien protested, jumping up from the bed and heading for the door. “I’m never saying it again, you old man!”
The door slammed, and Levi clenched his teeth. The mood swings were something he wasn’t used to, no matter how hard he tried. Levi clicked his tongue. ‘What’s gotten into him lately?’
That was the issue; everything had been slightly off. Not enough to raise serious concerns, but as Levi walked downstairs to leave for the event, his mind kept replaying the scene in their bedroom. ‘Something smells off.’
‘I may be getting fucking old, but I’m not crazy.’
“He’s trying to grow up. Let’s show him that we trust him. Let’s give him some freedom, as long as he respects the curfew,” Y/N had tried to explain that shutting their son off wasn’t going to help.
Adrien’s insistence on coming home on his own… Levi had always driven him to and from school, especially since the school was quite far away by public transport. After the photo incident, Levi didn’t feel it was safe for his kid to walk back alone.
The front page of the newspaper had been missing the day his boy’s picture and the Paradise headline appeared:
“The Ackerman’s Cub: As Harmless as a Pussycat.”
Levi cursed at the memory, yanking his coat from the hanger by the door. Arms in—
It was too big.
He looked down at the sleeves, which hung past his hands. A part of his ego cracked a little—it was his son’s coat. His baby boy was growing non-stop, now 193 cm tall.
“Soon, he won’t fit through the damn door,” Levi muttered, half offended, half endeared. He wondered if he would have grown that tall if he hadn’t suffered so much as a child. “He truly inherited Kenny’s height,” his wife would say as their kid grew taller and taller.
Putting on his own coat—it was freezing outside—Levi sat in his car, but his mind kept circling back to it.
Adrien arriving late by only 10-15 minutes. His recent attitude wasn’t just typical teenage sulkiness; it was different. Adrien was distant but not moody.
Already at the party, Onyankopon, Falco, Gabi, and Y/N were talking around him, but Levi wasn’t there, at least not mentally. Call it the universe, call it signs, call it his Ackerman instincts. Call it what you want. But Levi knew something wasn’t right.
Suddenly, fragments of memories from the past month flashed through his mind. They hadn’t seemed suspicious at the time, just slightly unusual. Like that moment when he picked up something from Y/N’s boudoir table and got pricked by a needle.
“Ow,” he muttered, though it didn’t really hurt.
“Oh, I left a needle out? I thought I put it away,” she said innocently, placing it back in the sewing box.
Or when he was walking down the upper floor’s hall and noticed the string hanging from the attic hatch swaying. “Y/N, did you go to the attic?”
“No, why?”
“Nothing…” He meant to ask Adrien about it but got distracted by the teen blasting his record player.
Levi opened the door without knocking. He had warned Adrien to keep the door open multiple times. The teenager quickly turned down the rock music. “Hey!” Adrien complained, but Levi didn’t care.
“How many times do I have to tell you to keep the volume down? I’m half-blind; don’t make me deaf too,” Levi ordered. Before leaving, he added, “And get your shoes off the bed.”
Levi’s leg tapped against the floor uneasily. Something was not right. The silence of his brain seeking a logical explanation was becoming deafening. His wife squeezed his arm, drawing his attention.
“Captain Ackerman,” a man approached them, bowing slightly out of respect. Levi’s days as a captain were long gone, but he never lost the title in the eyes of some. ���It’s an honor…”
The man’s hands fidgeted nervously as a timid smile appeared on his face. He pressed his lips together, wet them, and then opened them as if trying to find the right words. “It must fill your heart with pride that you and your family stood up in such a difficult situation and did the right thing. As a representative of the Eldian community outside Paradise, we don’t stand with the Jaegerist decisions—”
Levi dismissed him quickly. “No need to praise me,” he cut in, anticipating the man’s gratitude for his role in the fight against Eren during the Rumbling. “I fought for what I believed was right.”
The man’s face twisted in confusion. “No—I…” he stammered, his previous uneasiness turning to confusion. “I wanted to thank you and acknowledge your family’s altruistic action.”
“No need—”
“I mean, it must be an honor but also extremely hard for you as a father to allow your son to volunteer for the front lines.”
It hit Levi like a thunder spear, just as the one he had once used against Zeke. As if the explosion had gone off right next to him, and he could only hear the ringing in his ears. Y/N’s grip on his arm loosened in shock before her nails dug in as the realization sank in.
Despite his Ackerman powers, Levi felt control over his body slip away as his legs shook. It felt impossible to breathe as he drove back home as fast as he could, but it surely felt as if his lungs caught no oxygen.
He slammed the door open, his injured leg giving way as he rushed upstairs to his son’s bedroom. Pain fading into nothing as it once did during the war. The white noise in his brain was shattered by Y/N’s piercing scream when they found the bedroom empty, except for a single paper note on the made bed. Falco held Y/N as she broke down in tears.
Levi’s face remained expressionless, but it felt as if his heart had been ripped from his chest. Holding the note in his hands, he sank onto the mattress. The bed where he had once read Mother Goose stories.
“I’m sorry… I just couldn’t sit back and do nothing.
P.S. Sorry for the coat.”
His baby, his baby boy. The mere thought of Adrien witnessing even half of what he had as a soldier brought tears to Levi’s eyes, a knot forming in his throat. His child, stolen from his arms, dragged into the chaos like pigs to a slaughterhouse. Everything Levi had fought for, everything he had done…
If only he hadn’t used that thunder spear, he would be as good as new. He would have fought a thousand wars and led a thousand more just to keep his baby safe at home. To wake up to Y/N making his favorite waffles on a lazy Sunday morning.
It should have been him. He should have been in better shape. If only—
After a few days, Levi understood what Adrien meant about the coat in the note. His lost eyes fixed on the piece of clothing that had been cut. His old scout’s jacket, stored in the attic, had been altered. Adrien must have cut and sewn the Wings of Freedom patch onto something else. The house had become a cemetery since the day Adrien left. Y/N hadn’t been able to sleep soundly as she usually did, waking at the slightest sound.
“I thought I heard the front door,” she said, as Levi tried to calm her down in the middle of the night.
Levi hated rock music; he found it too noisy. But one afternoon, he felt compelled to put on one of Adrien’s records. Each second felt like it was squeezing the life out of him.
As the days passed, the missing front page of the newspaper became a sign enough. The news arrived loudly at their home.
“Undaunted. As the higher-ranks abandoned the zone, giving up the strategic petrol supply, Adrien Ackerman held the front lines and won.
A kid worth an entire army, honoring his name.”
Levi’s eyes scanned the paragraphs without emotion. “While all wore the same uniform, Ackerman decided to stick a striking patch to his. ‘They called me powerless, so I made myself an easy target. If they want to come for me, let them come, and I’ll put up a fight,’” the article quoted Adrien.
A scoff escaped Levi’s lips; he had surely inherited his temper.
“I cut and stuck the article to my locker to remind myself who I have to show their place,” Adrien replied when asked about the Paradise press’s coverage.
“LEVI!” Y/N’s voice echoed through the house. He rushed to her side with worry, only to find her smiling softly and sobbing as she watched the black-and-white TV.
The screen showed his baby boy, his comrades ruffling his hair, beer bottles flying in celebration, and citizens offering him drinks. They hadn’t won the war, but it was clear this victory was much needed to lift their spirits. People looked at Adrien with starry eyes, much like they had looked at Levi after their first wins against the Titans.
Levi’s lips trembled as he bit the inside of his cheeks, trying to hold his composure.
“He’s alright,” Y/N whispered, slightly relieved. “God, he got your knack for giving me a heart attack.”
She tried to joke, but noticing her husband’s silence, she turned around. “Oh… Lev…” she sighed, quickly moving to hug him tightly.
Tears streamed down Levi’s cheeks as he watched his baby on the screen, basking in the attention and hope he gave to others. They hadn’t won the war, but for now, it was enough.
“We knew deep down we couldn’t shelter him forever,” Y/N said, caressing him. She understood the weight now on Adrien’s shoulders, responsibilities that had haunted Levi for many years. She sighed, making peace with herself. A part of her had known from the moment she gave birth to an Ackerman that this day would come.
However, through watery eyes, Levi saw something different. Watching the young man on the screen, Levi whispered with a broken voice the same words he had said when Adrien was born.
“He got your smile.”
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Rock bottom (But you pulled me up) (Ingrid Engen x Reader)
I'm trying to work on my requests and WIP, but inspiration is lacking so I thought I'd try something new. This is my first time writing for someone out of the uswnt and in this style so please let me know what you think.
Warnings: Mentions of depression, anxiety, brief emotional abuse. Slightly suggestive at the end. Anything I've missed let me know.
Words: 2.8K
You could tell Ingrid was hurt, it was written all over her face. She had made you a lovely dinner and just wanted to have a movie night after not spending much time together. Yet here you were making an excuse to leave once again, you felt like a horrible girlfriend. Ingrid had taken the time to do something nice for you, but you couldn't get out of your head enough to enjoy it. Before you had the chance to get up, Ingrid uttered those three words that sent dread coursing through you. "We need to talk."
You swallowed hard before speaking, "About what?"
"You barely spend anytime with me anymore. You never message me first, we only do stuff because I organise it. I don't feel like you want me anymore. You're slipping away. Are you trying to get me to break up with you because this hurts so much more than just doing it yourself."
"No! Ingrid-" Tears stung your eyes as you tried desperately to keep it together. Afraid that if she saw how broken you were she would just leave. Things had been difficult for you lately, you were depressed, anxious and stressed. You felt so close to rock bottom, as a result you had been pulling away from Ingrid. The last thing you wanted was Ingrid to leave you, but you also didn't want to be a burden to her or scare her away with your emotions.
"Then what is it? Did I do something wrong?"
You could practically see the hope disappearing from Ingrid's eyes the longer you didn't answer, leaving hurt in its place. "I feel like when I see you, I need to be able to give you 100% of myself, of my energy and time. I can't do that right now and it makes me feel guilty. Like I'm a horrible girlfriend, that you deserve better than what I'm giving you."
Ingrid took your hand, everything in you fighting the urge to lean into her touch, to fall into the comfort you knew was waiting. If only you could bring yourself to accept it. The voices of your parents and ex-girlfriend hung in the back of your mind stopped you though. The voices that told you you were a burden to the people around you, that everyone had bigger problems to worry about and didn't care about you. The voices that told you Ingrid deserved better than you and your problems.
"Elskling, relationships don't have to be equal all the time. There's times where it'll be 50/50, but there's times where you give 90% and I'll give 10% or the other way round, sometimes it'll be 70/30 or 60/40. You get my point. What's going on? You haven't been yourself lately and it's really worrying me. Talk to me please."
You sighed pulling away from Ingrid to cross your legs under yourself, grabbing a cushion to hold. There was a part of you that thought being single would be easier, that there was less risk of hurting Ingrid that way. At the same time you knew it was those stupid little voices in the back of your mind that kept pushing that thought. You loved Ingrid more than anything in this world and deep down you knew she loved you just as much. You didn't want to let everyone else win, you didn't want to let your mind win for once in your life.
Talking about feelings was incredibly hard, it wasn't something you could do while being comforted by Ingrid or anyone really. "I'm sorry for the way I've been acting lately, it's not fair to you and I know that. I-I'll try to explain it all, bu-but I need you to be patient with me. Just let me speak and not touch me, I can't do this if you do."
"Anything you need. I just need you to know that whatever you tell me, I won't ever judge you. I love you Y/n, I love you so much."
"I love you Ingrid. I'm sorry if I ever made you doubt that. Okay, so I um I think I need to start with why I have such a hard time letting people in, especially those I love. My family, well to put it bluntly they're assholes. They were constantly putting down everything about my sister and I, nothing we ever did was good enough. Any problems we went through were nothing to them, they always told us that people had bigger problems, that they had bigger problems and we were just adding more stress to their lives if we talked to them about anything remotely not positive. Tha-thats the short version anyway. My uh my ex was pretty similar, she would tell me that she had better things to do then deal with my trauma or depression. If I was unhappy she would turn it around, say that she wasn't enough to make me happy. Even before her, I majorly struggled with my feelings and opening up to people. Fear mostly, that's why I um haven't told you anything. Fear that I'll be too much for you and that you'll leave me."
Tears threatened to fall, but pushing them back you continued talking. "I'm really struggling right now Ingrid. My depression is the worst it's been in years. The anxiety just sits there constantly under the surface making it feel impossible to breathe. Constant doubt about if I've made the right decisions, if I'm good enough at football, if I'm good enough for you, there are so many more things I could list. Sometimes I feel like everyone would be better off if I just packed up and left. I'm so sick of feeling like this, but I don't know how to get it to stop. This is probably one of the scariest things I've ever done, but I've had already almost lost you Ingrid. I can't let them win by actually losing you. I love you so fucking much, I can't lose you Ingrid, I can't."
Tears were near pouring out of you both as Ingrid sat there for a second. When you didn't speak she must have decided you were finished talking because the next second arms wrapped around you so tightly and you completely broke. Ingrid held you tight until the sobs turned to sniffles then you feel silent. Ingrid's hold never completely let go, it was like a life line at this point.
"I love you Y/n. I loved you before and I still love you just as much now. I'm not going anywhere. Nothing your parents or ex said is true. I always want to know how and what you're feeling, I will always be here for you. No matter what your mind tells you, you are never too much for me or for the team or anyone who truly loves you. Our lives are so much better with you here so please don't even think about leaving because we will miss you. I will be here every step of the way while you figure things out, I will help you get the help you need. If you need space, I'll give you that, but if you need me here then I will always be here. I know you feel like you need to be giving me all of yourself, all of your energy, but you don't. Even if you can just give me 1% until you get over this bump in the road then that's enough for me. You are enough for me Y/n."
"I think there will be times when I need to be alone, but most of the time I just really want to be with you. I need to work on accepting that I deserve your love and comfort so I actually seek it out when I need it or want it. Some reassurance every now and then will help I think. Can we talk about the next steps tomorrow? I just want you to hold me right now."
"I will give you all the reassurance you need and more. Have you eaten today?" Ingrid asked, but the look in her eyes told you she knew the answer so you just shook your head. "Okay, I'm going to order some food while we cuddle here then we can go to bed."
True to her word, Ingrid held you tightly while you lay on the couch, staying close to your side during dinner and as you got ready for bed. "Thank you, for everything you've done, for being here, for loving me."
Ingrid kissed you softly, before pulling away and leaving soft kisses over your face, "Always."
Lying in bed later that night, head resting against Ingrid's chest, you decided to admit the one thing that kept swirling around your mind, "I think I need to take a break from football. Not the training, I think that helps me, but games. The pressure that comes from each game feels like weight being added. Makes me feel like I'm being dragged further down into this hole."
"Okay, if that's what you feel you need then we can talk to the coaches or Ale and she can sort it out. I know the thought of telling anyone else what is going on is scary, but Ale or anyone else on the team aren't going to judge you or think any less of you because of it."
"I think maybe we can talk to Alexia, not tell her everything, but the jist of it."
"I'll be by your side when you're ready." ---
It had been a few weeks since the talk with Ingrid and since you made the decision to stop playing in games for a while. The only person who knew why was Alexia, it was clear that everyone else was worried, but until now you hadn't felt ready to tell them and thankfully they didn't push.
There was still a long way to go, but things had been slowly getting better over the last few weeks. You had started seeing the team therapist multiple times a week and had restarted medication for the time being at least. Everything was starting to become clearer, you weren't as anxious all the time, you were becoming more willing to talk to Ingrid, to actually spend time with her without worrying about not being enough, and smiles and laughs were becoming more genuine when they did happened.
The team had been amazing despite not knowing what was going on, they were as supportive and loving as ever. So you decided it was time to let them in a little bit. You squeezed Ingrid's hand, getting her attention as you spoke quietly, "Can you get their attention please? I know they're worried about me and I think I'm ready to tell them."
"Hey! Can we have your attention for a minute."
Once everyone's attention was on you, the anxiousness started to creep in, but with Ingrid's hand still firmly holding yours, you took a deep breath and spoke, "I know you've all be wondering why I've effectively benched my self the last couple of weeks and I want to be honest about it. I've uh I've been um struggling a lot mentally at the moment and I decided I needed a break. The pressure was too much, I couldn't handle it on top of everything else. So uh yeah, I don't want you guys to keep worrying about me."
It was quiet for a few seconds before many arms wrapped themselves around you, mumbled we love you's and we're proud of you's were heard as you sunk into the arms of your teammates. Surprisingly, Mapi was the first to pull away, cupping your cheeks as she spoke uncharacteristically softly, "You keep doing what you're doing and come back to us when you're ready. You always have is in your corner Y/n. We are so proud of you and we love you. If there's anything you ever need you can come to us okay?"
"Thank you Mapi. Thanks all of you." --- A few months had passed and you were finally feeling like yourself again. There were still hard days, you were pretty sure there always would be, but you were genuinely happy again most of the time. You found yourself more willing to open up to not just Ingrid, but some of the other girls you were closest to. It was safe to say your life was pretty well back on track, there was just one thing left to do and that was get back to football. You hadn't told anyone of your plans to start playing games again, you had just been put in the line up as a sub, but after conversations with the coaching staff you knew you were likely to come in at half time.
When the line up came out, Alexia was the first to notice and speak up effectively getting everyone else's attention, "Y/n?"
"Yes Ale?"
"Is there anything you want to tell us?"
Ingrid looked at you confused as you shrugged trying to be as innocent as possible while knowing exactly what she was talking about. "Oh really? Well how about the small fact that your name is on the substitute list again?"
"Oh yeah. That is a thing I guess."
Smiles grew on everyone's faces as it clicked what was happening. Ingrid practically jumped on you repeating over and over how proud she was, kisses placed over your faces. The team joined not long after, everyone cheered and congratulated you.
"Okay okay, you can let go of me now. Yes I finally feel ready to come back."
Once everyone had let you go, Alexia pulled you up into a hug. Since she found out about your struggles, Alexia had been amazing. She was always subtly checking in whether you were at training or not, she would pull you away when everything got too overwhelming and Ingrid was busy, making some excuse so know one else would know the truth. Alexia was always just there in a way that was subtle and comforting. "Well we're so so glad you're back. I'm so proud of you Y/n."
"Thank you Ale, for everything."
As soon as your foot hit the pitch, you felt the excitement, adrenaline and happiness that you thought may have been gone for good. You felt yourself falling in love with football all over again, it was like the final weight had fallen from your shoulders. There would always be bad days or even bad weeks, you knew that, but with Ingrid, your family and your new found coping mechanisms, you finally felt ready to face them.
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You arms wrapped around Ingrid as she chopped the vegetables, she briefly turned to kiss your cheek before going back to her task. "Hi Elskling, you played really well today. How did it feel?"
"Hey love. It felt incredible, I know I needed a break, but man did I miss it. Anyway, enough about me I have a surprise for you. I was originally going to give it to you after dinner, but I can't wait anymore. Here." You replied, placing an envelope on the counter in front of her. You could never express how thankful you were for everything Ingrid had done for you over the last few months, for sticking by your side through everything. So instead you had decided to start with a few days away in Venice. It was something she had wanted to do for a while and you decided to make it happen.
Ingrid looked at you for a second before opening the envelope, a smile appearing as she looked at the tickets inside. "What's this?"
"I know what you're going to say to this, but I am so thankful for everything you've done for me. Sure we've spent a lot of time together, but it hasn't been the quality, good time you deserve. So you and I are going to spend a few days alone in Venice in a couple of weeks when we have a bit of time off. Now I don't want to hear any buts or I didn't have to do this, just say you're excited and give me a kiss."
Ingrid cupped your cheeks, allowing you to press her against the counter as she pulled you in for a lingering kiss. Just as Ingrid went to pull away, you cupped the back of her neck pulling her back in as the kiss grew heated. You didn't want to say that you stopped enjoying Ingrid's kisses because that's impossible, it was just intimacy beyond cuddling between the two of you had dropped off to almost nothing the last few months. There were still short kisses here and there, but you couldn't get out of your head long enough to actually be present for anything more and that wasn't fair to Ingrid. Your lips moved along her jaw as a quite moan slipped past Ingrid's lips.
"Di-dinner," Ingrid moaned as your hand slipped under her shirt.
Ingrid's legs wrapped around your waist as you walked back to the bedroom, "Dinner can wait."
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Upcoming Taiwanese BLs
We are over halfway through 2024, and as usual, I've only had two Taiwanese BLs (Unknown, Anti Reset), so even though I'm sitting on a stack of BLs to watch every single week from other countries, call me Smaug because I need MORE!
Honorary Korean BL: Uncovering the Curse of Taekwondo (2024)
Former friends (and possibly lovers) reunite at a funeral after going their separate ways for over a decade, but, honestly, I don't care about the plot because this comes from Hwang Da Seul who was behind Blueming, To My Star, and Where Your Eyes Linger, so I know it's going to be amazing. There is a movie and a series version, and the movie already premiered at the Bucheon International Fantastic Film Festival in South Korea at the beginning of July. The runtime was 154 minutes, but the series is eight episodes around thirty minutes each and is currently seeking distribution.
First Note of Love (August 2024)
My most beloved, Charles Tu, from my favorite BL HIStory 4: Close to You is finally returning to me in the form of a washed-up singer who stepped away from the spotlight due to a tragic event only to be dragged back in by an up-and-coming composer who is also a longtime fan. It is a joint production with Thailand's Star Hunter Entertainment (the company behind Big Dragon, Love Senior, City of Stars, and Sunset x Vibes) and features a side couple of a Thai singer and a Taiwanese agent. It will involve singing, but I'm already too comfortable in my seat with my snacks to care.
Fragrance of the First Flower Season 2 (2024)
The lone GL holding down this list finished filming late last year and Gagaoolala has been releasing BTS images since filming began, so it'll likely land there once it is released. The series is a continuation of the 2021 first season, which people were not thrilled about because of the ending, so this season should solve some of the angst we were left with by exploring the two women actually coming together to navigate life as a couple.
The Only One (August 2024)
Directed by Liu Kuang Hui, who directed Your Name Engraved Herein, written by the same folks behind The Untamed, and based on Mu Su Li's novel A Certain Someone which is about two boys whose parents are dating and move in together, so the mains go from enemies-to-??? and the only reason for the question marks on a Taiwanese BL is because the word on these BL streets (and his MDL page) is one of the actors works heavily in China, so this might be the reason this one has been was in limbo even though filming finished earlier this year, but the socials are still posting it's coming this year.
See Your Love (Filming Complete)
This co-production with Japan is about a rich man who falls in love with his hearing-impaired caregiver. It finished filming at the end of May and will have those sweet sweet Taiwanese BL cameos from some Be Loved in House: I Do and Plus and Minus folks PLUS it will be the first cameos for the Kiseki: Dear to Me guys since the company that produced their show is the same one for this show.
Impression of Youth (Filming Complete)
Very little is known about the plot of this teacher-student romance, but it comes from the same folks who produced DNA Says Love You and one of the mains, Muji Hsu, was also the lead in 2020's Because of You. Filming finished at the end of May, and the company stated it would be out before the end of the year.
Islanders (late 2024/early 2025)
This is based on a novel, Islands, by Lolita Hu, features some well known Taiwanese actors, and for a bit was under the name Sea of Intimacy. It's being presented as an 'older BL' but the MDL summary is sparse of the BL-plot: Hung, a successful entrepreneur, has three intimate relationships: his wife, his mistress, and his girlfriend. The lives of these individuals in their 20s, 30s, 40s, and 50s are intertwined because of romance, but their story extends beyond that. When Hung faces criticism on social media and loses everything, the way they react tells us how they see the world.
Wishing Upon the Shooting Star & The Young Gangster (2025)
These two deal with completely different plots but are together because of one reason: Ray Jiang. He is the director for these two and was the director for Unknown, My Tooth Your Love, and We Best Love. The companies behind them have stated the series are coming next year, but the guess is Ray's busy schedule is part of the hold up since he has a Netflix series in the works and apparently a film featuring Sam Lin (We Best Love) on the way. The Young Gangster is based on a novel and deals with a research assistant gathering information on the mafia (and we know how the mafia works in BLs), while Shooting Star deals with a man wishing that nobody notices him once he returns to his hometown after being fired. The wish backfires and nobody recognizes him, not even his dad or the boy he confessed to in high school! BL Mafia, Sideways Wishes, and Ray Ray are my favorite types of snacks!
Pray in Love (2025?)
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A police officer falls in love with a man only to realize that man is the son of a prominent leader on the day of his arranged wedding in which he was hired as security for the event. The series already released a short film of the basic premise for fundraising efforts and festival rounds. Apparently, filming has started on the series, but there is no concrete confirmation from the production company.
Eternal Butler (2025)
Edited to add thanks to @cankersoregirl! This is a sequel to VBL's Anti Reset and began filming in early July. It focuses on Ever 4 who is sent to be a bodyguard for a young rich man only to encounter a rebellious man.
That Year, 162 Rainfalls (In Production?)
Is this a movie? Is it a series? Is it happening?! Who knows, but last year, it finally got funding and a director attached to it, but the real kicker is Lin Pei Yu is the screenwriter, and she is the writer behind all of my favorite Taiwanese BLs: We Best Love, HIStory 3: Trapped, My Tooth Your Love, Kiseki: Dear to Me, and so much more. Basically, the company struck gold getting her for this story about two archers and best friends. One gets confessed to but admits he actually is in love with his best friend, but before love can happen, the best friend has an accident and falls into a coma. It is based on a novel of the same name, and the plot is way more hefty than this, but I know Lin Pei Yu will make it work!
Four Seasons (Pre, Pre, PRE-Production?)
This is supposed to be four different stories focusing on different seasons, and is rumored to be VBL's next group of shows since the company has stated it wants to continue its formula from last year of releasing slightly connected shows. VBL/Vidol was behind Stay by My Side, VIP Only, You Are Mine, and Anti Reset. Winter is about a scrooge CEO and a florist who is hired to decorate for the CEO's Christmas event. Spring is about two boys meeting on a bus and falling in love over music. Summer is about a market owner and a chef falling in love over food. Autumn is about two former best friends seeing each other ten years after graduating and exploring their hometown together.
Connecting to You (Pre-Production?)
It seems to have gotten funding, but it's been quiet since which isn't surprising because when it comes to Taiwanese BLs, nothing is really heard until filming begins or even after it ends. I still have my hopes high because this is *THE* BL for me as it deals with a man who can see colored threads connecting people and one day runs into a policeman whose thread connects to him. The thread between them begins to change color, from silver-grey to yellow, representing friendship, and even to red, representing love. If I have to sell an organ or two to fund this myself, I. Will. Do. It. I NEED THIS!
And this wouldn't be a Petty Post if I didn't include this final one:
HIStory 15: Freed (GIVE IT TO ME!)
I don't care if this a long shot. I don't care if I seem crazy always asking for this. I. Deserve. It. HIStory 3: Trapped ended with our best mafia boy in prison, and it's time he got out! The HIStory franchise has not had a series since 2022's HIStory 5: Love in the Future, and although there have been rumors that a HERstory story might be next, I think bringing back a popular story would be just as good. I will ask for this every chance I can until I get it, and I plan on living a long life, so I got time!
#taiwanese bls#upcoming taiwanese bls#give me more please#MORE!#so many to list but I'm gonna do it#first note of love#fragrance of the first flower 2#the only one#see your love#impression of youth#islanders#wishing upon the shooting star#the young gangster#pray in love#That Year‚ 162 Rainfalls#four seasons#connecting to you#HIStory 15: Freed WHEN?!#WHEN?!#Give it to me already!#Uncovering the Curse of Taekwondo#eternal butler
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Guys, buy physical media it’s dying. They are taking it from us.
My local Meijer (a regional variant of Walmart) has stopped selling physical media. Like outright. It’s now gift cards for streaming services, and online shit. They are phasing out physical video games too. They are phasing out laptops, DVDs players, blueray players.
I know, I know, streaming services are so easy and convenient. But like, you don’t own it. You are at the mercy of the services. Once they kill physical media completely they can hike up the prices as steep as they like, $30, $40, $50 and more a month. Because it will be the ONLY way (short of pirating) that you can watch shows and movies. They will make it cable and satellite premium levels of expensive. And you won’t be able to stop them. They’ll hold your favorite shows hostage behind paywalls and micro transactions. They’ll vault up shows and movies and make them unavailable for long periods of time. You’ll have to have 7 different streaming services all costing $40 bucks a pop to watch the things you want.
You’ll have access to NOTHING without paying a premium. And remember, you already pay money to have an internet connection. Are streaming services really as affordable as you think? Internet price + the price of each service? That adds up. And they keep raising the price, and will keep raising the prices, because they know you’ll keep paying.
Having physical media means you get to watch your favorite shows and movies anytime. With or without internet connection. Broke as fuck? You can still watch it, because it’s yours. Did they lock up your favorite show or movie to make it more exclusive? You can still watch it with physical media because you own it. Want to let your friend borrow it? You can lend it to them, or burn them a copy. No need to fret about stupid services cracking down on password sharing. Want to watch the movie or show with online friends? You can stream DVDs over Discord so friends can watch with you.
(Am currently streaming Teen Titans the original animated series with my best friend over Discord. It’s mine, so neither of us pay anything to watch it together.)
Companies are writing off physical media as unprofitable. They are culling it. Taking it out of stores, making it less accessible.
People around me talk about all these movies and tv series they’d love to watch, but have to buy another streaming service to access it. And I offer to let them borrow the DVDs or Blueray, and they straight up tell me they don’t own DVDs or dvd players. Why?! WHY!? They subscribe to 4 or 5 different service instead forking out $50+ a month. But they put themselves at the mercy of these services, at the mercy of internet connectivity and access. They can’t even borrow a movie or show from me, because they are so dependent on internet and streaming.
Did you know there are literally ways to save your movies digitally and take them on the go? Streaming should be a neat little thing that’s convenient, it has its perks and uses, but it should NOT the only way to watch media.
Save physical media.
Buy a dvd player.
Buy movies.
Buy shows.
Own your media.
Stop renting it. Streaming is just glorified rental.
Stop renting it.
Because soon that’s all you’ll ever be able to do.
#Netflix#hulu#Disney+#streaming services#streaming#physical media#movies#tv shows#shows#cartoons#dvds#Blueray#accessibility#affordability#concern#please save physical media
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y̶͙̍o̶̳̚ṵ̶́r̵͓͗ ̵͚̔m̷͖̋o̴̳͆v̵̧̓e̴̦̒ ̴͕́S̵̭̎M̵͙̓G̶̖͘4̷̬̆
IGBP REFERENCES & CONNECTIONS IN "THE MARIO PC VIRUS" EPISODE
[spoilers ahead]
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Ambition
the project SMG4 is working on and motive
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 0:10]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 0:56]
"Say the line, SMG4!"
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 0:10]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 0:20]
Need Some Editing Help?
Computer buddy
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 2:04 to 2:25]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 4:02 to 4:19]
Leave A Note
oh hey, Windows Notepad
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 2:28 to 2:43]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 4:02 to 4:19]
(and the fact that SMG4 uses a Windows PC ~Ink)
Every Mario's Worried for SMG4
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 3:28]
[SMG4: Mario Steals The Constitution // timestamp 2:50]
A Loss of Work and Patience
An event cuts off Four from his progress and noise being what ultimately pushes him to take action
Plus, Mario Buddy plays "relaxing" music for SMG4, which 4 is not a fan
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 3:30 to 3:50]
SMG4: "SHUT UP!! CAN YOU ALL SHUT UP?!?! LOOK AT WHAT YOU'VE DONE!!!"
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 3:25 to 3:55]
They're Always Watching
File Names (as much as I could decipher) from left to right, top to bottom:
[Default]
Blue Screen
Green Screen
Pure Red Screen
Pure Green Screen
Pure Blue Screen
Green 1
Green 2
purple 1
purple 1\puzzle
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 6:11]
Left to right, top to bottom:
[Default]
Blue Screen
Pure Red Screen
Pure Green Screen
Pure Blue Screen
green screen
purple screen
vn
vnooom(??)
name(??)
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 1:07 to 1:09, 2:44]
(Gonna do a whole theory dedicated to Goop!4 and bring back my analysis of the eye designs ~Ink, again)
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie]
PC Takeover Through Mother Board and Mind
Four's PC controlling its system vs the PC controlling Four
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 0:05 to 0:10, 8:03 to 8:16]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect Movie Countdown stream]
Did Somebody Call For (Military) Backup?
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 9:30 to 13:53]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 13:39 to 13:53]
A Sacrifice
Time, sweat, and tears went into his work but he was forced to left behind (the virus, to save 3)
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 11:58]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 1:07 to 1:09, 2:44]
Your End of the Deal
a deal offered through the computer buddy to aid Four's work but they demand something in return (star of Four's videos vs. control over Four)
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 12:06 to 12:40]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 30:58 to 31:11]
The Choice
knowing his self-worth :)
[The Mario PC Virus // timestamp 12:44 to 12:50]
[It's Gotta Be Perfect movie // timestamp 34:00 to 35:00]
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Ink here! That's all the ones I could find, but if I missed one, let me know, and I'll add it to the list. Four has really come a long way, and, believe it or not, he learned his lesson from IGBP.
Of course, he accidentally installed Mario Buddy, not a suspicious keyboard offered by Mr Puzzles. But once he realized what he had done, he tried everything he could to get rid of the program (after some fun).
By the end, when Bonzi offered to give Four's files back while in turn allowing the PC buddy to be the star of his video, Four had a choice. Past Four wouldn't have hesitated because that literally was his work. I've been in a situation like this and golly, I would've done anything to get it all back. Instead, Four gave his PC up, similar to how Four gave up the USB with the perfect video (one he has worked on for WEEKS nonstop) to save SMG3.
(...should I even count all the scenes where SMG4 and SMG3 caring for one another?)
AND despite everything, he is still SMG4, a content creator with the wish to make people happy. Well, of course he wants his videos to be higher quality. It's his job as a YT creator and meme guardian, you can't just ask him to NOT make videos. The whole reason IGBP happened in the first place is because he felt that he wasn't good enough for his friends, driving himself to be perfect to prove that he deserves the Crew. But lesson learned, through Three's speech: he doesn't need to be perfect, his friends will always be there for him regardless. They care for him and it was worth risking their lives to save him from the possession.
He can always make another video but they can't have another SMG4.
Whatever his next big project is (the Castle, Meme Factory, videos in general), he'll do it with passion but never alone. Just as Four said at the end of IGBP: "...it may be different, but as long as we're all together, I'm sure it's gonna be perfect!"
So, he made his choice, giving up his PC because there is nothing to prove to anyone.
so.... SMG4 Team....
WHAT'S WITH THE IGBP CALLBACKS—
#smg4#smg4 its gotta be perfect#smg4 igbp#smg4 spoilers#puzzlevision 2#goop!SMG4#ink rambles#chanting GOOP!4 GOOP!4
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To be young is to be free- is what Elisabeth Sparkle believes, in “The Substance 2024”.
But the inherent joy of life… is in the moments we forget ourselves and just admire the beauty of nature, laugh, watch stars, talk to friends…
There’s so much more to life. And yet this person’s own ideologies crushed their spirit.
Their will to live being tied to their will to do anything…
If you think about it, Elisabeth did not need to go back to being a pump girl tv host. She had money and time… she could have simply went around the world, maybe talked to strangers, took her show to another tv station tbh… or even taught her show for free or try to find herself in life after all these years..
Instead her own obsession with her own beauty and her feeling of “being old and not enough” just because that one show runner dude thought so- who looks Ugly as crap btw… he has no reason to judge Elisabeth for anything. Period.
This movie hits the nail on the head about women’s relationships with their own self, their own bodies. It’s a metaphor for birthing someone and it’s a metaphor for how we as a society have normalised not taking care of our elderly.
It is a movie that perpetuates the fallacy about how life is over after our -20s, -30s, -40s, -50s…. We keep making more arbitrary and ageist rules for many things.
The entire beauty and skincare industry thrives under these circumstances.
This movie is a stark reflection of how we as a society fail to see the inherent value of people. We consistently mistreat women, women mistreat each other, because it is so easy to hate on them and call some of their interests shallow or weak. When it is men who enjoy the showboating and performance type things that women do. Then go around back and accuse the same women of being artificial and superficial when it is men who perpetuate such stereotypes.
Men laugh at women for wearing make up. Men also prefer they do. Men can’t even accept stuff like menstruation which funnily enough many women go through on a monthly basis. Men often forget that ~50% of the world’s population is women and often cater to the men and keep catering only to them, in both entertainment and in opportunities… it’s sick.
But women are another breed, not only as victims but also as the perpetrators! Women harm each other and don’t support each other.
These are just some of the themes I observed in the film.
The other obvious ones about the beauty standards and isolationism and hedonism and self harm through binging/alcohol/drugs etc… I’m sure there’s so much more
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LULU’S CHRISTMAS PARTY 🎄🎅🏽
it’s the holidays! 🎄🎅🏽 my christmas party event will run from november 8th — december 24th!
you can find my list of people I write for here along with any of my au’s can be requested! and all prompts posted can be found under #lulu’s christmas party
as always, please when requesting add the entire prompt not just the number as this is easier for me - example: 1 "what are you doing up so early?" With X player!
Failure to comply will have me delete your request!
PROMPTS:
1. "Is that present for me?"
2. "Nobody can have enough Christmas jumpers"
3. "Christmas songs always make me smile"
4. "You have not bought the dog a Christmas jumper have you?"
5. "You're really making me wear matching pyjamas with you?"
6. "I missed you this Christmas"
7. "You have eaten all of those chocolates haven't you?"
8. "The snow looks cute in your hair'
9. Have you ever seen a sexier Father Christmas than me before?"
10. "Let's write your letter to Santa"
11. "It is absolutely freezing"
12. "Why are you sad this Christmas?"
13. "It is so cold, warm me up please"
14. "This is the best gift you have ever given me"
15. "I saw Mummy kissing Father Christmas"
16. "i need you to pretend to be my partner for the family christmas party."
17. “You spent how much on Christmas decorations?”
18. “Don’t eat those, they’re for Santa!”
19. "you broke my heart last christmas, but i'm still not over you."
20. “You need to sleep, or Santa won’t come”
21. “My mom knitted you a jumper”
22. "You bought me a present? I thought you hated me."
23. "You've been playing the same song for three hours. Please, play a new one."
25. Character A and Character B meet in the
ER on Christmas Eve.
26. Character A can't wrap gifts to save their life. Character B is thir neighbor and can
help.
27. Character A's ex will be at the Christmas Party A is attending. Character B poses as A's fiance.
28. Character A vows to do something nice for a stranger during the Christmas time.
Character B is that stranger.
29. Character A and Character B broke up, but now they meet at a Christmas party.
30. "Did you break into my house??" "You refused to put up any Christmas decorations! What choice did I have?"
31. "We made too many cookies."
32. “There’s no way I’m letting you spend Christmas alone.”
33. “Nope. This is not happening. It’s CHRISTMAS.”
34. “Wait, you’re not going home for Christmas?”
35. "you can't afford this..” “it's okay.?”
36. "this is the most thoughtful thing i've ever received. thank you."
37. "what do you want for christmas?" "you." "haha very funny."
38. ”I’m so grateful for you this christmas. i don't need anything else.”
39. “I mean, I knew you had Christmas spirit but this is ridiculous.”
40. “What do you mean, Santa’s not real?!”
41. running into each other at the airport
42. “No, you’ll burn the house down.”
43. “It’s almost midnight.”
44. “This is not for holiday cheer. This is blackmail.”
45. “No more holiday movies. Please.”
46. “Those cookies were for Santa!”
47. “Look out! It’s icy!”
48. “I’d like the snow a lot more if I didn’t have to drive in it.”
49. “Why is it so cold?”
50. “Wait, you mean this whole time, you hated peppermint?”
51. “I feel like there’s more frosting on you than on the gingerbread.”
52. “What are you doing with that mistletoe– oh.”
53. “I guess… this is when we kiss?”
54. winter proposal
55. “So… what are your plans for New Year’s?”
56. “You’re perfectly welcome to kiss whomever you wa–”
57. “Can I kiss you?” “You don’t even have to ask.”
58. “Surprise! I'm your Christmas present!”
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The Borderlands movie looks... really, really, REALLY bad. Why did they cast Kevin Hart of all people for the serious emotionally withdrawn strait-laced soldier character???? Why are the cast members ages so all over the place and dramatically different than the characters they're playing?? Going by Tiny Tina's age in the movie these should be the BL2 versions of these characters which puts the vault hunters in their mid to late 20s or early to mid 30s at the oldest, yet the cast has a bunch of 40, 50, 60+ year olds???? Kevin Hart is 44 playing Roland who should be in his early 30s, which is weird putting him next to Cate Blanchett at 54 playing his in universe love interest Lilith who should be younger than Roland in her late twenties. JAMIE LEE CURTIS IS 65 AND PLAYING TANNIS, who is made to seem to be not much older than Lilith in the series???? Meanwhile Hammerlock who is clearly a good bit older than the vault hunters when they meet him is being played by a 34 year old, one of the youngest cast members??
Also they just don't seem like the characters they're playing at all personality-wise in the trailer, as if not a single actor or director or producer of this movie bothered to look at the source material at all. Game series Lilith is snarky, cracking jokes even mid combat, has an attitude but it's teasing and playful most of the time making her sort of the balance to Roland's unwavering seriousness. Meanwhile Cate Blanchett looks like she's playing a "I'm so done with this shit" tough, cold, and serious old soldier bitch action movie archetype. Then there's serious soldier Roland being played by Kevin Hart who can only play himself and does so by playing himself as a constant joke. Tiny Tina is missing most of her crazy unique personality and seems like a normal bratty comedy movie teenager, just given guns and explosives. Even Jack Black as Claptrap feels like a huge miss in the trailer, and I was actually really expecting to like that casting decision. Can't have any opinion on Krieg because nothing is shown of him in the trailer, although him being with Roland and Lilith is super weird to begin with and I don't understand why they went with him over Mordecai to round off the team. Oddly enough from the trailer the person who feels closest to their character personality wise is Jamie Lee Curtis playing Tannis even though her age is WILDLY off.
NGL it really feels like they just went with names people recognize instead of finding actors who actually fit the roles at all because they don't care about actually making Borderlands, they just want to make a comedy action movie with a bunch of well known stars and Borderlands just happened to be the name they chose for it. The plot has nothing to do with Borderlands, the casting doesn't fit Borderlands, the characters are half new characters made up just for the movie that have nothing to do with the Borderlands series, the movie is leaving out a bunch of fan favorite important Borderlands characters... so why even make it a Borderlands movie? I've seen some people criticizing it saying that it feels like they're trying to make Borderlands into a Guardians of the Galaxy style movie, but I don't even get that from the trailer tbh. For me this feels more along the lines of the Jumanji reboot, which is even worse. Like yeah Borderlands has some cheesy and low bar humor in the series but ... not like *that*.
Honestly I think doing live action for Borderlands period was/is a mistake. Animated would be so much better. Not everything needs to be live action with big name celebs, sometimes (a lot of times) that is actually WAY WAY WORSE than doing nothing at all!!!!
#rant#ndr#not dog related#borderlands#feel free to ignore this lol#i am just a huge fan of the borderlands series so i find this movie so far to be ENRAGINGLY DISGUSTINGLY disappointing ngl
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He has a new Movie coming up in January 'In the Grey', he starts filming Highlander, Enola Holmes 3 and a new Cruise/McQuarrie Movie next year. His IG followers are not bought but when you look at The Rock, Gal Gadot and some other celebrities followers you can see the followers dont match likes and interactions. Henry doesnt have over 100 Million but gets more likes and engagement on posts then celebrities with over 100M or 200M followers.
He's not desperately trying to change his Image but he's not 30 years old anymore. He is now a 41 years old Man having different priorities then he had 10 years ago. All his brothers are married with children and I believe him when he said it's his biggest dream to have his own family. 40 is the best age to become a father why wait until he's 50? Time is now. Where is the Baby? At Home? What a stupid question.
Why do people think everybody has to follow a social standarized pattern in life? Oh, a guy has to get married by fourty. He needs to have a family with kids. He needs this and that. Haven't you asked yourself that maybe, this guy isn't the marrying type? My guess is he appreciates his single life too much to get married, now. He's still young.
Not everyone needs a plain standardized life. And I am almost sure he still enjoys hanging out with his gay friends for drinks, while having fast nightstands, when not gaming for hours in front of his computer.
Not every speech said in interviews is the truth. Most of them are just what he thinks people want to hear. And, most of the events involving him (like the parade with a PR keychain collection) is what he thinks you want to see.
Besides, he is an addicted gamer. A guy like that is unable to commit to the standardized ideal life of a fourty-year-old man you are describing. They have gaming and self-pleasure as priorities and usually leave the family unassisted.
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The number of people here who are genuinely upset if there aremore than two years between people in a romantic relationship, is downright disturbing.
Two years is nothing when you're an adult.
My husband is nine years older than me. Nearly a decade. We married when I was 23. We've been together since I was 21, when he was 30 years old.
I'm now over 40 years old, he's nearly 50.
We're absurdly in love, like the sort of love Hallmark movies imagine they're displaying. I've met the people he works for and with, upon meeting me, Italians the same thing. They tell me he gets this look on his face when they ask about me, or if he mentions me in passing. A look that no actor has been able to nail in a film or show. Absolutely admiration. Down in the marrow of his bones love. He blushes like a schoolgirl when they tell me these things.
The only people to ever mention anything about him being predatorial? The chronically online folks from age 10-25. Folks who look at us and think something is inherently wrong because of the age difference: disconnect from the internet, from current TVs and movies Read books and stories written more than 15 years ago, watch a show or film from 20+ years ago.
Expand your horizon beyond your age. Please. Your inability to comprehend age differences as anything other than inappropriate is deeply unsettling. You need to stop hearing your own echo and learn. It's really disturbing how conservative y'all are getting.
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do you want to talk about it my love?
Lmao I was going to say no but when I started writing out a short answer I got upset again and now I’m gonna rant
This girl in my class was just not being considerate of my comfort or my time. We were paired together today (I’m in makeup school btw and today we were basically glueing hair to the face to make beards. It’s really fucking itchy and uncomfortable.) and she started working around 12:50 and everyone except one other group was done before 2 pm. At 2:20 my teacher said the rest of the class could break and the people working could either finish and break after or break now and I expressed to her that I just wanted to finish so that I could be comfortable when I took my break and actually be able to eat but she didn’t care I guess? And she went on break (which is only 15 minutes…) and came back at 2:45…… she took almost a 30 minute break and I was just sitting there waiting for her. And while she was working she kept talking to people and pausing what she was doing and eventually I called my teacher over at 3pm and asked if he could cut her off because I still needed to take all of it off and work on my stuff and he gave her 20 minutes😐 so at 3:20 I went to take all of it off and as soon as I got in the bathroom I started crying lol. But I got back at 3:40 and I was fucking starving because my break was supposed to be almost an hour and a half before that so I told my teacher I was going to go to break now and I only took 10 min to eat a snack and I still had to clean and pack up and by the time I finished that it was almost 4 and I didn’t want to stay after so I didn’t get to work on anything to prepare for tomorrow. Yeah and as soon as I got home I started crying again lmao.
It probably seems like I’m over reacting but that shit is so uncomfortable and I was in it for almost three hours so imagine having wool glued to your chin and jawline and above your lips for that amount of time… it is not a pleasant experience.
Anyway I think imma order some dessert on Uber eats and just indulge and watch a funny movie or something. If you made it this far into the rant lol ty for staying <3
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a random rant about the fear of aging: okay so everyone knows all humans age we have birthdays every year but on social media ive heard so many women/girls rant about how scared they are turning 30. i think it has to do with society telling women their "expired" after 25, their biological clock is running out they need to get married have children asap those bs which is so absurd. i also used to worry about aging but now im extremely over it- i think what most people think is they age faster when their in their 30s 40s. okay so for example people will think the person who u are when u were 22 to the person u are when ur 28 will be drastically different ( in terms of maturity etc ) but i think people dont view 32 to 38 that way if u get what i mean. its thats i think people seem to view their 30s and 40s differently as if you completely stopped growing as a person. an example of ppl viewing it that way is that most people view med school or the process of becoming a doctor a waste of time ( esp girls my age ) just because it takes a long time and i can understand obviously its not for everyone because the process is like HELL but ive had friends who want to pursue that route but they chose not to because they view it like wasting ur 20s again i understand but the reason why they view it that way makes me sad. i feel like our current social media age has failed women esp bc most tiktok rich succesful influencers are in their extremely early 20s living life having fun and being extremely wealthy. coming from a teenage girl whos in highschool this is one of the worst things the new tiktok era has done i remember in the 2000s even in movies and actresses they were all in their mid 30s to even 50s yet they were all so beautiful and succesful and no on even cared about their age
all this talk about women expiring after 30 comes from teenagers. ask any person in their 30s or 40s and they'll tell u they feel the hottest they've ever been. both physically and mentally. theres this idea of having to have ur life set up before ur 30, family career etc. which is just wrong. people above 30 still do the same things they did in their 20s. they're still getting to know themselves. there's no clock ticking. and the pressure on women to look so young or saying women dont look young after 30 or 40 is pure marketing for cosmetic procedures. women above 50 still look amazing. truthfully. someone who takes care of themselves and has good genetics will look good even when theyre 70. these topics have tired themselves out so deeply that people just keep reciting them over and over again. whats the point in instilling some irrational unreal fear into a teenage girls head. life goes on after 30, it may start only after 30 honestly so don't worry
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Random Prompt List
Five days before the end of NANOWRIMO I decided to start a random prompt list. I figured if I did ten a day, I would have fifty when I was done and I could post them for people to use as they saw fit - inspiration, challenges to friends, text on memes....whatever.
I was 100% successful except for the part where I forgot to post then when I was finished. Oops. Rectifying that now! Now, clearly these are rather Downton Abbey themed, but most of them are vague enough to apply to any fandom you like and even where there are names, those can be swapped out, so if you feel something you like for, say, Star Trek or something, don’t feel like it’s off limits. Go for it. If people are having fun, success has been had.
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1. "If Mrs. Patmore murders you, I'm telling the jury it was suicide."
2. "Let the numbers be off! I'm not sitting at the same table as that man!"
3. "Oh bother."
4. "Downton's been a convalescence home and a movie studio. Why not this?"
5. "Where are we going to get a spare butler at this time of night?"
6. "There's not enough wine in the wine cellar for this."
7. "For the last time, put that back where you found it."
8. "Just don't tell the police. Or Carson."
9. "There is a God!"
10. "Help me with this and you can keep your job."
11. "I'd bet a year's wages it was Lady Mary."
12. "Don't you dare try to blame this on the dog!"
13. "Just think, we're getting paid to do this."
14. "Well, this situation calls for tea. And possibly a bludgeoning instrument of some sort."
15. "That's a grand idea. Why don't we simply teach the dog to carry a tray?"
16. "Did she give in gracefully, or do you need help burying the body?"
17. "Just imagine if we were American and buying nine Worth dresses per season."
18. "It could be worse, just don't ask me how."
19. "Are you certain this is a good idea?"
20. "How many bets Mrs. Patmore quits over this one?"
21. "What sort of mad suggestion are you going to make next? We get a cat?"
22. "Reading? Heavens, don't hurt yourself."
23. "You've not touched your food. Are you dying?"
24. "Try the blue one instead."
25. "That's hideous. Buy it."
26. "I hate arm garters. Why can't they just make shirts that fit?"
27. "Knife? Oh no, I slipped and cut myself on a collar."
28. "I'm not shaving in the dark, I'd be lucky if I slit my throat!"
29. "Oh, well, thank you Sweeny Todd."
30. "As if you'd survive reading anything less than Milton. A penny dreadful would finish you off!"
31. "You weren't a son either, so we're both failures."
32. "Oh dear, my actions had consequences. Blub blub."
33. "What's it like to have parents who care about you?"
34. "You want it so badly? Here. Enjoy."
35. "What do you mean she's run away to join the circus?"
36. "Well the surprise worked..."
37. "You're lucky I love you."
38. "That is not where that goes!"
39. "Dare I ask what happened to your dress?"
40. "Oh don't do that, it would make a mess of the roses."
41. "Dukes don't just vanish, unfortunately."
42. "I'm not paid enough to care about that."
43. "Now that the wireless is catching on, you should try and do something in that field. You have the face for it."
44. "Are you going to sell me into slavery if I ask for more?"
45. "If you want me to love you more then stop screaming when I have a headache."
46. "Oh don't do that! You'll hurt yourself."
47. "Oh go for it, I won't tattle."
48. "I was just committing the unholy sin of enjoying life for a few seconds."
49. "Would it kill you to smile? Wait, never mind, of course it would."
50. "Does anyone in this house happen to have some spare sanity?"
#downton abbey#downton abbey fanfiction#downton abbey writing prompts#downton abbey prompt challenge#john bates#daisy parker#thomas barrow#mrs. hughes#mr. carson#mrs. patmore#anna bates#robert crawley#cora crawley#mary crawley#edith crawley#joseph molesley#sarah o'brien#phyllis baxter#have at!
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Formula One Prompts
Rules
1 - No under 18 drivers!
2 - I would prefer drivers who ARENT married or have kids plz
3 - Drivers included from: F1, F2, F3, Formula Academy, Formula E, Moto GP, Moto 2, Moto 3 and Indycar
4 - Smut is now allowed
5 - 2 requests per person
6 - Lmk if you wanna be tagged when it's posted
7 - Request via private messages or in the asks
Prompts
1) "Was it worth it?"
2) "Catch me!"
3) "His smile gives me butterflies."
4) "You deserve better."
5) "If I could, I'd like to fall in love with you all over again."
6) "I'm not religious but I do think I've just seen an angel."
7) "She is half my soul as the poets say."
8) "That's my legacy. I loved you and was always loved by you."
9) "It will always be you who has my heart."
10) "Can we at least talk about this?"
11) "You're so stupid."
12) "Can you drive?"
13) "I think you do these things just to annoy me.
14) "No, it's too early."
15) "You're a wonderful person, don't ever forget that."
16) "I would do anything for you."
17) "There are plenty of people who love you, I do."
18) "My mum thinks we're dating."
19) "We could watching movies, if one of us didn't always fall asleep."
20) "Suddenly every love song is about you."
21) "I gave you a chance, you fucked it up."
22) "I like how your hand fits in mine."
23) "I can't believe you're actually wearing my jumper."
24) "It's cold, at least wear a jacket."
25) "It isn't a double date, we're both just third wheeling."
26) "You have something on your cheek."
27) "I haven't made a promise in years, but I can promise you this."
28) "Have you been drinking?"
29) "Let me take care of you."
30) "Talk to me about it."
31) "I think i may be falling in love with you."
32) "I could kiss your lips all day."
33) "Hands off."
34) "I'm sorry but I'm done waiting."
35) "Can I convince you to stay?"
36) "We have to be quiet."
37) "We can't do that here."
38) "I'm supposed to be making you feel good."
39) "Like what you see?"
40) "Ah, ah, ah, no touching."
41) "Do that thing I like"
42) "Come here."
43) "Leave me alone."
44) "Give me another chance."
45) "I don't love you anymore."
46) "In the driver room?"
47) "Wow, you look amazing."
48) "I love our cuddles."
49) "Stay here tonight."
50) "I can't keep kissing strangers and pretending they're you."
51) "Can I wear your helmet?"
52) "You looked great out there today."
53) "Well that was stupid.
54) "You got a fucking podium!"
55) "What kind of a stupid fucking move was that?"
56) "No matter what team you go to, I will always support you."
57) "I am loving the helmet hair."
58) "I would hug you but that race suit is practically stuck to you right now."
59) "Is he alright?"
60) "You need to learn your limits."
#f1 blurb#f1 oneshots#f1 imagine#f1 oneshot#f1 x reader#f1 fanfic#f1 fic#lando norris#max verstappen#charles leclerc#carlos sainz
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Ok so since you’re taking requests I shall put in mine(better buckle in your seatbelts 🙂)
Ok so you know how Lou literally looks like a piece of snow, a marshmallow, some milk, a literal ghost in disguise?
Can you write a fic where it’s snowing and Lou overhears MC making a joke that he’ll be even harder to find then he was before since it’s snowing and he blends in and he gets the amazing idea to surprise her by hiding in the snow and asks Christoph(The other person who also would blend into the snow 💀) to bring her to where he’s hiding and he just kinda snatched her from his hiding spot for some cuddle time in the snow? 💀
This is very specific but it brings to the chaos
Ok have fun ☺️
I thank you for this beautiful request it made me laugh Ngl 💀-
Warning: Crack, Fluff and Cursing
~Lou X Reader ~
The Abominable SnowMan
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3rd POV
It was a winter day,
Lou started walking around the halls of the Academy for no reason in particular, he doesn’t really know what he was doing but he decided to just to take a walk.
In a particular classroom however he heard a couple of familiar voices ‘Princess Sherry’ and his ‘beloved Mc, which he took a stop at to peek and eavesdrop in on the conversation.
“I 100% believe Lou could secretly be a murderer by ambushing people waiting for his next victim in the snow.”
“WHAT ALL WE DID WAS ASK HOWS YOUR RELATIONSHIP WITH LOU- NOT THIS.”
“I apologize I started getting flashbacks to the crime podcast I used to listen to. They’d definitely Nick name him the ‘Snow Man Killer’.”
“you know what, I’m done asking you questions-“
Soon a creepy wide smile creeped on the man’s face the one you’d see in horror movies.
He then walked off to go find Christoph
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Lou and Christoph sat in a cafe where Lou was buying cookies for him to buy him off
“I’m not doing that for you.” Christoph said with hesitation. Lou smiled not yet disappointed
“Cmon I know I can change your mind, how about I slide in some coins-“
“I’ll do it for 50 and an extra 30 for my good acting performance.”
“Alright don’t push it kid-“Lou’s tone completely changed, then changed back to how it originally was
“How about 10 coins and the acting experience” Lou smiled
Christoph still not buying it now with his brows furrowed; “45 coins and a pony named Nelson.” Christoph frowned looking serious.
“How about 20 coins and I’ll give you a stuffed pony named Nelson. “
“40 coins” “You know what, let’s shake on it.”
After they both shook hands, Lou goes “I would’ve done it for 50 coins” He smiled evilly.
“And I would’ve done it for 10 coins and acting experience” Christoph smirked as Lou looked as if he was questioning his whole like decisions.
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You were studying in your room learning Latin in particular so you could learn to read it more fluently while Robin was nocked out on your bed sleeping away
It was peaceful until
“Quickly MC, I NEED YOUR HELP! “ Christoph shouted from outside your door. You hurriedly put away your stuff and running over outside your door while Christoph grabs your hand and starts pulling you outside.
“There’s no time to explain, who knows what will happen.” Christoph said worryingly.
He led you outside in the cold snow, it was dark out so you were really scared he then led you to the snow then let go of your hand.
Soon something popped out and tackled you to the ground. “AGH WHAT THE FUCK”
“OW-“ a familiar voice yelled out. “HEAD MASTER LOU-WHAT IN THE FUCK” You kicked him in the face again, struggling to get out of his grip.
Lou now with foot marks on his face refuses to let go of you keeping you hostage in the snow. As he keeps you there he starts tickling you. And he gives Christoph and envelope while Christoph takes it while running off.
“JESUS FUCK HEADMASTER-“
Lou then started evil laughing, you then knew this was all set up. You gave him a side eye and a blank stare clearly pissed off.
“Head master let go,”
His hold got even tighter like a snake from a nature documentary.
“I don’t think I will.” He smiled “You’re quite comfy after all.”
You then decided your fate there in the snow with headmaster Lou.
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A couple days later you and Lou are sick.
Phinny and Nix hid from fear as a bunch of yelling and objects where being thrown by you as your were attempting to murder Lou.
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