#I love the sketchy-to-marker feel

[cherrio-krispz]

Alpha cross being edgy

[rockintapper]

why is it with every brush test i make art to ever exist

[thewandererh]

‼️⚠️TW // medical imagry (IV, slight depiction of veins), noose imagry, a poorly drawn realistic heart organ, intense eye contact, and a set of fellows who are in anguish

@calamarispider💥💥

recently rewatched a playthrough of little nightmares 1 and 2, and drew calamari’s folks with said videos as background noise :]! was trying out different styles of brushes and things on ibispaintX, and had quite a bit of fun doing so. i’ve been easing into doing stress relief art and this was a good example of that?

hope you enjoy yet another bout of fanart calamari haha 🐥 (<- looks up at you like this)

💙 - [gouche brushes, some watercolor] was playing around with the various palettes he was given in arts of him by calamarispider, and sort or blended them all together. I love how blurry mind looks, almost as if you’re passing out while viewing the image. fits with the medical vibe! he looks like he’s skulking away in shame or fear or something. i think i made him look weak because i’m a mind enthusiast. damn. the dark background makes it feel gloomy and mellow, but also scary?

❤️ - {marker primarily, little watercolor} i know he’s like 🧍 but his presence alone can be intimidating, that stare could drive away anyone and he *knows* it. played around a lot with layers and lasso stuff here, and leaned more into a sketchy style almost as if he’s barely there. i love the background in particular because it’s grey and not red, giving him a loss of and a heightening of individuality. doing the hair was fun XD. i specifically remember the fella i was watching play little nightmares 2 at this point getting frustrated with the teacher. silly memory

💜 - (watercolor, pencil pens) this one bounces around styles a lot, and it almost makes him seem more real? i was frustrated with it at first, but i love how some parts of him are more complex and sharp than others. mixed two art references of heart calamarispider had drawn, giving him a sketchy little eye and a more unseen bleeding eye under the blindfold. it looks cool i think :]. this was a big experimentation piece that i look back fondly on :D! I love them all but this especially. I love heart’s almost ‘angel of death’ wing cloak things haha

off i go 🏃💨

OH MAN i forgor minds crown. its ok he left it in the oven(??????)

[rotzaprachim]

the thing about “secret israeli restaurants” is americans are generally more positive to israelis than arabs so a vague restaurant is more likely to be hiding arab origins than israeli

pretty sure the og tweet poster was Canadian but yeahhhhh I read it and blinked about the antisemitism but I also read it and blinked about the fact that like bro… are you…. are you that fucking unaware about the extent of anti-Arab and anti-middle eastern racism in the us&canada? Are you that fucking obtuse? Oh my god. It literally doesn’t fucking matter what “origins” the restaurants are “hinting at” but I couldn’t fucking process how a white Canadian would think that “people who simply describe themselves/their business establishment as “middle eastern” or “Mediterranean” are inherently sketchy” is in any way a productive idea to have for literally anyone

a) a restaurant/establishment describing themselves as “Mediterranean” or “middle eastern” would be inherently sketchy and suspicious (as loaded as “middle eastern” itself is, “Mediterranean” can often be taken more positively in the west and anglophone/francophone worlds, after all nutritionists have been going on about the “Mediterranean diet) for a while) but also

B) that those people would inherently be (in his opinion) Zionists and/or Israelis

also feel this person has big “have never interacted with middle eastern person in my life” because as much as xenophobia and various other issues pushes people to go for either the “Mediterranean/middle eastern” marker, there’s plenty of other reasons why establishments go for those identifiers like.

1) a lottttt of Mediterranean diaspora families, due to immigration and intermarriage, really are franco-lebanese, or palestinain-Greek, or Ashkenazi Jewish and Algerian, or Moroccan Spaniards, or something like that, (check the Arabs, Jews, and Italians of the greater nyc area lol) and

2) in diasporic situations one (1) grocery store or deli often services OR competes with others for a broader market share, I’ve lived places where I regularly shopped at a Turkish/greek/arab grocery store (Labelled itself “Mediterranean”) and a Persian/armenian/arab grocery store (Labelled itself “middle eastern groceries”) because it would be dishonest to say that these grocery stores are for any one “nationality!” Walk into many a Mediterranean or middle eastern grocery store or deli and you’ll see Turkish products from Germany, maghrebi Jewish products from France, halal versions of jamón and chorizo, and labneh from lebanon next to Greek and Persian yogurt. My favorite local market once had an entire NOT HALAL!!!!! Fridge Labelled in three languages to store the frozen pork products for the Greek and Romanian markets next to the general halal cheese boreks.

I’m not saying this is the case everywhere or like it’s all peachy perfect in diaspora but this just comes across as someone who has a lot of political Ideas about Mediterranean & middle eastern people but haven’t met them in real life. Also it’s a love letter to the diaspora grocery store with 6+ ethnicities inside them and an entire wall of tomato pastes. If there’s one in your city you should patronize them! (Also note the fantastic phenomenon of the “Black Sea” grocery, the mass halal Mart, and the particular greater London “Indian Bangladeshi Sri Lankan Persian Pakistani polish” mart

Also lol gonna have to lol at the “I’m so angry these diaspora Israelis would hide their nationality in order to avoid harassment because I want to boycott and harass them”

[ideasarestuckinmyhead]

Bam 💥

How would the boys feel if their listeners got/have tattoos?(cuz my silly clowns have tattoos—)

Tattoos

Alphonse

He wants to know all the meanings behind them! He thinks they look really cool, lowkey making him want to get more.

If he's able to he wants to help you pick out the next tattoo your gonna get! (A candy for him bc why not?)

If you got a tattoo he's gonna help you clean it and make sure it doesn't get infected.

Seth

Loves staring at them and tracing them after a long day. Will remember every meaning behind them.

I can see him wanting to get a tattoo too bc the one u got look cool and now he wants one-

Makes sure to get the stuff you need for the tattoo.

Charlie

I can see him liking the silliest tattoo you got and has even named it.

He'll try and guess the meanings of the tattoos with the most craziest story. Like "You got his after winning a bar fight huh?"

If you get a tattoo he might know a person off of Pete and see if they're reliable.

Finn

In really curious of them! He feels like of he got one he's ruined it (bc of how clumsy he is) or get infected bc he garden's.

Will listen to every story and meanings! If you have flower ones he'll gush about them.

If you do get a tattoo he'd try and help you thinking of what to get. Mostly flowers and if you get one in honor of him he'd turn bright red.

Faust

I think he'd have a tattoo for a Anime or Otome game he REALLY loves. So he'd asked you if you have hand too.

Loves how the inky looks on your skin and makes sure you moisturize it correctly.

If you do go and get a tattoo he's making sure it's the most reliable place bc he doesn't want you to get a fucked tattoo.

Auron

After the new ep he'd love to trace it when your asleep. Wants to memorize all the tattoos on you, might even write about them too.

If you have a tramp stamp be warned he's touching it when he can.

I can see him having sleeves or as I multiplexed about a tramp stamp. He's making sure the place you go to isn't sketchy and doing background checks on them.

Lucien

Angel why is there doodles on your body? Was confused at first but then as like oh its like markings! Okay cool.

Might say fuck it and get all tatted up bc he has a higher pain tolerance than mortals. Loves poking them and tracing with a claw.

If you go and get one he's coming w you to make sure nobody tries to rip you off. Or fuck up your tattoo.

Jack

Complements the tattoo artist handy work bc he worked under one before! He makes sure you treat them right also.

If you have those ones where it doesn't have color he'll color them. With like markers bc its silly.

If you go and get one he knows a shop where a friend works at so he can get you a discount for a new tattoo!

[the-derpy-duck]

I do really like tales of the tmnt/mutant mayhem. The animation is really good and it has a unique style that sort of carries over from movie to show (the show feels a little more sketchy and the movie looks almost like clay or like markers were used just with the way they all look). Leo making a comic is really really cute! Me and my friends used to do that when we were younger as well! I also like how the two stories are separated. It feels kind of like a comic arc. Also the recaps are amazing and I never skip them because they are done in such a fun way that feels really authentic to the characters giving the recap.

I really love all the characters. Each of them have something that makes me really like them (Donnie is my favorite because he almost always is but I really like this version of Raph).

[trilobitepunch]

I really really really like your art!!

ITS SO SKETCHY it also feels so… creative? Idk if that’s the right word but it feels like it’s the raw art and you can kinda see the process? Idk if that makes sense but your art makes me feel things and I’m very happy about it

Also I LOVE the eyes SO MUCH!

+ I have a question… what are the grey shaded spots? Like are they watercolor, markers, or something else?

I hope you have a fantastic day/night! Your art is incredible ^-^

Aaaa thank you so much! /)>u<(\ I'm happy that it makes you happy!

The gray shading is usually fountain pen ink in a water brush. I like keeping the sketch lines because it looks kind of weird to me when it's clean, sometimes, like something's missing. It's probably just me.

I use a gray Micron for the initial sketch, and then a pen for the outlines. Most of these I just use my Uniball One, the ink goes down smooth and it dries pretty quick and doesn't smear when I go over with my waterbrush.

<3 Hope you have a nice day/night/week too!

[drill-teeth-art]

Hey what's it like being so swag? The people wanna know! (It's me, I'm people)

I just wanted to drop by and say something silly since I've been lurking following you for a while and your art is such a delight! You've been a huge source of motivation for me to work on improving my own art and keeping up with your fan continuity has been super fun! (I love all of your trans headcanons so much, it's really nice to see people like me)

I was wondering if you had any advice on how to build up confidence with physical art work? I'd like to try and go beyond just pencil sketches but using pens for line art or adding color to a piece can feel so intimidating since that's a lot harder to undo than pencil lines... Part of me knows it'll just take some time and practice but the rest of me can't seem to work up the courage to start anyway (⁠^⁠～⁠^⁠;⁠)⁠ゞ

Regardless, you're very cool and I hope you continue to feel better! Have a nice day/night! :D

First of all, thank you so so much for the kind words! I'm so glad you enjoy all my art and trans headcanons! And I'm so so happy to hear my work has been inspiring you! That makes me so glad to hear. I am very passionate about encouraging other artists to explore and develop their own process and work.

And second, here is my hot tip for building traditional art confidence. And it is...make stuff in mediums you have been hesitating to use. Non-erasable mediums work best for building up confidence. Pens. Markers. Even paint if you prefer. You can find and watch traditional process videos if you want as you do. However, the best way to figure out your favorite way to use art supplies and to figure out how to make it look the way you want is just to experiment.

You may notice that the lines on my traditional pieces are sketchy and not polished lineart. With practice, I figured out how to do that my way and make it visually clear and appealing like I wanted. Sometimes, it really does help to just move out of your comfort zone and say "no pencils and no erasers I gotta be a little messy for a bit". I hope this helps!

And thank you for the well wishes! I hope you have a good day/night too!

[cyandreamzaceattorney]

✭ Maya Fey drawings ✭

Today I felt like drawing Maya. The first drawing I referenced this official art pose and designed the outfit myself :3 I gave her a crop top because noticed that I often draw her in loose t-shirts and long skirts so I wanted to mix it up a bit and crop tops were trendy in mid-late 2010s (which is when the trilogy takes place :P and these Maya's are based off her teen design) so I can see Maya wearing a crop top in warmer weather. Still gave her a long skirt though XD

Than I thought of drawing her eating her favourite food and honestly, this drawing might be my favourite if the bunch lol (though I think the first drawing is the cutest). I think it's mostly because I had the most fun with this drawing as I was super quick and flowy with my sketch, tried to be less precious about my lineart, leading to it being more silly and sketchy, than when I added markers for colours every layer made it pop more and more! So much fun (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

than for the last drawing I ended up not loving it :( I wanted to try and do a pastel drawing with coloured lineart but in so used to brush liners that holding a fine liner seems to make my hand shake, leading to me making many errors (⁠￣⁠ヘ⁠￣⁠;⁠) than I coloured the eyes in first, noticed you could only just seen the lineart and rushed the rest only to not finished it! I hated it immediately after finishing this drawing but now I think it's okay and kinda cute... just feel disappointed.

But that's okay as this drawing page helped showed me my drawing strength and weaknesses more clearly while making more fanart of Maya Fey, who is such a great character!!!!!!

[kiddphel]

feeling very not normal that the linework on him looks like its a chalk brush its all sketchy and i love cinema and art and also this man. he has so many sketchy lines on him hes supposed to be visible sketchlines, marker, and gouache and its cuz from afar hes put together but up close hes unstable and messy and AAAUGHGGH

[deadlystarchart]

What drawing methods do you use? Like art program, brushes, hacks? I need to know you do it so good!

Hello there!! I use SAI2, my simplest brush is technically just the usual Pencil, the other 2 are for really sketchy things. The middle one is for my horror content and the right-most one is the one I usually use for things without sketches, a flat streak shape makes it feel more like a marker than a pen haha.

My biggest tip/hack is to not be scared, things WILL LOOK BAD a lot of the time, just be sure to enjoy and learn from every piece, be conscious of why you draw and where every line exists, what their purpose is... Once you're comfortable with where you're taking the lines, let the lines take YOU and go with it, go crazy, let your hands relax and follow the FLOW of art.

A lot of the time I do so and then I step away- AND NOTICE THAT THE ANATOMY MIGHT BE WONKY OR THAT THE HANDS ARE TOO BIG OR THE ARMS ARE TOO LONG- It's ok to go back and try your best to change it to make yourself comfortable with the piece.

And my last tip... Use references and a good amount of layers, ALSO NAME YOUR LAYERS, it helps a lot and it allows you to go back and change stuff relatively easily.

The most important thing about art is to always draw what you enjoy. Show yourself love and don't torture yourself lmao. It took me 9 years to get to where I am without studying or practicing daily, all I did was sketch and copy what I liked without thinking too much, following the tips I gave here should make that--- Maybe a 1 to 2 year travel instead of a 9 year odyssey hahaha!

[ask-sibverse]

art asks! for any oc you'd like

pencil, marker, crayon, charcoal, tortillon, and creative! please

Oh my god holy shit okay! I'll do Mari and Belladonna as they're my two favorite OCs I have for this blog

Pencil (Does this character have any "sketchy" habits? Have they ever broken the law?)

Belladonna- I mean, his magic literally creates poisonous plants as a side effect, although that probably doesn't count. Possibly his preference for amplifying the worst negative traits in a person?

Mari- while I don't think they've actually broken the law, I feel like they'd be the type to graffiti, if given the chance

Marker (what's one thing your character would never tattoo on themselves, even if paid a million dollars?) (Jeez this is hard because I absolutely love getting tattoos)

Belladonna- probably anything that would remind him of his origins. Daisies (his Dream) and apple blossoms specifically. the opposite response, his ideal tattoo would probably be vines.

Mari- a cage or anything representing physical constraints. Her ideal tattoo would probably be a crescent moon or something symbolic of Nightmare

Crayon (what were they like when they were four years old?)

Belladonna- he was a very curious child who tended to stick close to his twin. Some of his curiosity is still there as an adult, but buried.

Mari- the events in her AU "muted" her personality quite a bit. She was a very energetic and talkative young child.

Charcoal (Do they have any unique physical traits that are not scars or tattoos?)

Belladonna- he literally has his namesake (atropa belladonna, deadly nightshade) growing from and winding around his bones.

Mari- the butterflies in her ref are attached to her body. They seem to be at least somewhat alive, too, as they flutter and occasionally move to different parts of her head if necessary to avoid something

Tortillion (How do they "blend in" with those around them?)

Belladonna- his "social skills" are often him mimicking his twin as his twin is "more liked". And that is not always a good thing.

Mari- when her SOUL is functional, she usually "blends in" by keeping a calm attitude and a pleasant smile (although she can privately be quite the mischievous gremlin)

Creative (free space for the author)

Aaaaaaaa holy shit this was a lot of fun! And honestly working on these two OCs are some of my favorite things. Belladonna is honestly so fun to "pick his brain" to speak. As a Nightmare, he has absolutely done horrible things. He almost wrecked his universe. And yet he has a "redemption arc" in sibverse at least that involves him becoming a better person sure, but does not regret what he did. (Also the corruption actually causes him physical agony constantly but that's its own issue)

And Mari is also a lot of fun for me as well. Sibverse has very few human characters, and Mari has been through a lot. And goes through even more in the fic. (Or fics... Theres enough content I'll want to split it up into three, possibly four fics)

[stunfiskz]

Hey mutual... I really like your art... can... can I know which brushes you use and how long you've been drawing for... .3

Definitely not to steal

ok so i’m gonna be so honest. i have the worst habit of getting bored and downloading as many free brush sets as i can find. and i change the brushes i use a lot bc i get bored 😭 right now i mainly use (all for procreate btw):

all from different brush sets… the gw inkamigo sketch brush is from the gw sketch + draw pack, the marker smooth lineart brush and medium airbrush are from azzy’s brush pack, the hb soft sketch brush is from alicjanai’s sketchy set, the ms paint pencil tapered is from corro’s ms paint pack, and the two rendering brushes are from the theariyaki free pack.

generally speaking though, for sketching i prefer to use rougher brushes that are pressure sensitive for size and opacity. for lineart it really just depends on the mood, but recently i’ve been enjoying that smooth, almost wet? feeling that the smooth marker brush has. for coloring, i NEED that brush to not be soft at all, because it means there will be a million pixels not filled in with how i color (outlining the area w that brush then filling). and honestly how i shade just depends on the mood… i use the medium airbrush for simpler shading (like the jevil & undyne drawings i posted lately), while i use those rendering brushes for like. rendered pieces (like that noelle drawing i most recently posted). i actually recently downloaded the marmo shale brush pack and i’m super excited to try that out :)

OH ALSO WITH THE LINEAR BURN BLENDING MODE FOR MY CLEAN SKETCH/LINEART BRUSHES… started doing that fairly recently and i LOVE it. i don’t enjoy coloring much but i like making the colors look nice and that’s a godsend for that. picked that up from @skunkes actually!

as for how long i’ve been drawing.. basically since i can remember LOL i have always been the “art kid”. started drawing digitally around 8 i think? was a finger and phone artist for a while til i got my ipad a few years ago :) but yeah i hope this helps 🫡

[chipped-chimera]

Thought I'd do a little bit of a personal update! I'm doing the reorganising thing which is still slow but really motivating - enough that I'm having good energy days where I'm getting more done! I should be able to start work on the new fish tank soon!

More commentary/thoughts/where I'm going creatively below the cut. (It might be a bit heavy, you've been warned - check tags for more info)

EDIT: Fixed Tumblr borking this, now looks like how this WAS SUPPOSED TO oof

So I'm in the process of redoing my entire office just to fit this fish thank (which has now been leak tested so we're good to go), as well as reorganising based on tips I picked up from this book for people with ADHD that I've found massively helpful. Honestly it's been great for helping me just THROW SHIT OUT because while I can have my moments of ruthless detachment and clear inventory my family is very much a 'use/reuse/reappropriate' kind of deal, which while great often gives me hesitation throwing stuff out primarily because of that pressure - especially when I'm stuck living with them. Now I know it's necessary to get everything to a state where it will STAY organised.

It's also let me take inventory of the stupid amount of traditional media art supplies which have been sitting there since high school in near pristine unused condition (we are talking a LOT of very useable acrylic paints here) and get them all organised. After chatting with my psychologist yesterday I've bought more/replacements for things I had to throw out (literally dry as a bone markers) as she literally said she 'very much encouraged' my idea of starting a visual art diary to help process emotions and stuff.

I know over the years my inspiration to do stuff has withered, usually because it's been hammered by bad moods (caused primarily by external forces I could not control on top of my already battered neurology). I know now because of shit in my past that has been largely unresolved, art has never been an outlet for emotions for me because I'm so afraid of taking up space. Despite emotions being a powerful source for art, I rarely draw on them both because I have spent so much time trying not to feel them or hiding them because unfortunately my history is one of a lot of rejection, right down to a very young age where my caregivers should have been way more on the ball. It's helped me acknowledge my way of expressing love and affection is kind of fucked - when I feel close to someone or like them a lot it has the opposite effect where I instinctively want to pull away from them because I'm scared I'm going to 'ruin it', like my life is tainted and by associating with them I'll drag them down somehow. I know it's silly but it's very hard to get past because it's automatic - that was the only way I was guarenteed to get affection, if I was the most borin, biddable, palatable child in existence who caused no problems, even if it meant enduring physical and emotional pain alone. I inherently find it hard to trust people being genuine about liking me as a person because I'm just waiting for the shoe to drop when they realise I'm too much hassle - which unfortunately was the circumstance my relationship ended around so yeah, that did not fucking help. Basically I go from being really comfortable around someone to masking intensely and yeah that is NOT GOOD. I also legit feel the reason I have alexytheimia is because I had to develop a buffer so early in my life just to survive as far as I have.

I'm hoping art journalling will help me process some of those thoughts and feelings and I still want to try and show them, just to show myself they DO have value, they are a valid part of the human experience and they should be allowed to take up space - I do not need to hide them away or cut pieces of myself out to become more 'palateable' to people. So yeah um, I guess there will be some vent art, I don't know if I'll post only to my art blog or here because it's more sketchy shit and I reserve the art blog for finished pieces now ... either way knowing me it's going to be highly metaphorical and symbolic so I don't know how 'triggering' it could be but either way I'll probably tag the absolute shit out of it just to make sure I don't adversely effect someone (yes I am aware of the irony in me saying that as it's basically me trying to 'not ruin' things again but even putting it out there at all is a big enough step - also tags are just basic decency).

So uh ... That's what I've been up to? Also why I've been kind of shit about WIP Wednesday tagging and responding to other tag games (which I am now once again remembering a bunch of that I STILL have sitting in my motifs cause I still wanna do them ; m ;) I think I tend to get something like reverse SAD this time of year, arguably for the same reasons SAD develops - it gets so damn hot that I have the curtains closed in my office (which has the biggest window in the house) all day to keep the heat out. So arguably I have just made 'tiny dark winter' for about two months because I ain't going outside when it's over 30C (aka the temp tomorrow. And the day after THAT. Fuck I hate summer). Just instead of dark and cold it's dark and sweaty - feeling clammy also being a sensory problem for me so all around BAD TIME until the season changes :/

Outside of all that I'm speculating writing a wlw romance in a western setting because I have had on off cowboy rot since forever and I should probably do something with that already. Currently speculative Native American love interest/secondary protagonist with a background that probably touches on maybe the boarding schools and then reconnection with culture. We've had similar stories with our indigenous population in Australia unfortunately (colonialism is a plague) so I can sort of have some understanding but I probably need to hit the books on that one. For any Americans/Canadians reading this if you know some good books, PLEASE send me your references, I really want to make sure I do this right. I reblogged a post a few days ago about how Native Americans are often dehumanised in westerns and they just become part of the landscape, and I really want to push against that. Also do some contrasting against how oppressive western colonial era culture was by comparison to native culture honestly because I feel that would be a really interesting dynamic. Idk when/if stuff with this project will start happening but we'll see.

If you read this far, thanks! It's pretty validating to know people care this much, since it's hard for me to believe people do care a lot of the time because of all the above bullshit. So just so you know, I love you guys 💖 and you get a bonus cat:

Tiny p.s. living with my parents now is very different from when I was a child, I know the people who caused me hurt are long, long gone. They are not the same people anymore - so I am okay! It's still frustrating but more for the reasons of wishing I had my own (bigger) space to live in and put all my stuff and just 'I am a 30 year old extremely supressed lesbian speed running puberty and this environment is not conducive to exploring that' if anything. While I'm out with my Mum I can't like ... talk about that shit lol. So yeah, frustrating but for entirely different reasons. Just clearing that up.

[dragoncxv360]

I really like digital art but I totally get that. There are many advantages to working digitally for me but it definitely isn't the same experience. Sketching with pencil has a feel to it that just can't be replicated digitally. Same with using markers or paints. Yes it's harder and costly and maistakes are way hard to fix sometimes but it's absolutely worth it to see the finished peice.

Also like, with my paintings I do abstract stuff and doing that digitally just would not be the same at all. I feel like, at least for me, abstract stuff *relies* on being in a finicky medium like acrylic paint. It relies on there being mistakes and having to work through them and create something unexpected. Which...isn't really something you get with digital art.

But yeah, I love doing more finished stuff digitally and more sketchy stuff traditionally but every once in a while I break out the markers or paints or coloured pencils and actually colour something traditionally and it's difficult and can cause stress when things don't look right but it's well worth it.

Like, this would've been way way easy to draw digitally. The colours would've been smoother and I wouldn't have forgotten the sweat drops or drawn the nose slightly off 'cause colouring covered the sketch too much (I colour before lining 'cause otherwise it smears or I just hate the lineart so much I get discouraged). I could've colour picked his exact colours and gotten the right tones instead of just going with what colours I happened to have.

But it wouldn't be the same experience. It's challenging certainly, but really fun to do finished stuff traditionally. And I love doing digital art but there's definitely a different sense of pride when I finish something traditional

Sorry about that tangent I know it's not exactly the same thing you're talking about but yeah tactile stuff is pretty much non existent with digital art and it can be really weird and hard to get used to.

I started digital art 'cause my mom happened to have an old ipad mini and a crappy rubber stylus tip on the end of a pen and I was really sick of not having the right colours for my art and figured hey, digital art has every colour, maybe I can do that.

I've been working on getting more into doing coloured stuff traditionally again tho 'cause I miss it and wanna learn new stuff like watercolours, which I've always struggled with (I was using way too much water, rip)

Everyone is doing digital art now. That's great, that's wonderful,it's so much cheaper and more accessible and practical in so many ways to make art digitally.

I wish I could do digital art. It looks so good, but I can't. It doesn't work for me. I've been doing art my whole life and I'm good at it because of it's tactile elements, and digital doesn't have that.

Watercolour has a unique makeup to it. The ebb and flow of it, the reactions to wax and salt and air- it makes sense. It's like speaking a different dialect. I can manipulate watercolours because I can speak the language.

Acrylic is... similar, but different. Finicky. Like sculpting with clay instead of plastecene. It shifts differently, talks differently, moves differently, but I speak that language too.

Working with metal is more like working with wax. You need to be careful with the heat you expose it to, with how roughly you twist it, how you shave things off or stick things on, and it can warp or droop or shatter the same kind of way.

I don't get that from digital art. I can't feel if the paints are thick or oily or crunchy, powdery or thin or velvet-smooth. I can see it, yes, but I haven't been able to use digital mediums to create what I want, and it wasn't until I thought about the differences that I realized that the way I create is heavily dependant on the tactile and sensory experiences, and not so much on concious choices and visual input.

I feel like we're seeing less physical art, and it's mostly fine because it's expensive and environmentally not great and exposes the artist to a lot of toxic chemicals, but like. I wonder how many artists work like me and are running into the same issues.

(Sketching is like building a snowman. Carving is like chopping carrots. Wood is like fingernails. Fabric is like wood. I don't know what the fuck my computer is telling me, but working with my stylus feels like filling out my SAT's with finger paints and a stamp pad)

[suckitsurveys]

What was the last upsetting thing that happened to you? Realizing my sister only wants me around to help deal with her kids and that she doesn’t actually want anything to do with me. 

What was the last thing you ordered from Starbucks? An iced vanilla latte.

Do you trust your doctor? I should probably go to one of those at some point, huh?

Do you ever question if your mother loves you? Well, she’s dead, so there’s not really much physical love happening there. But when she was alive I never questioned it, even on the days where we’d clash.

Do you ever feel scared or unsafe around your dad? Sometimes when he gets angry I go into fight or flight mode, but I know he’d never hurt me so I’ve never felt actually scared or unsafe.

Do you have a pastor you can trust and talk to whenever you need to? Uh, no.

Do you have a best friend who always has your back? Yes.

What is missing in your life? Time.

What color shirt are you wearing? Green.

Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? My dad.

Who is your least favorite doctor you’ve been to? This pediatrician I had when I was a kid.

Who is your least favorite nurse? Some nurse who was taking care of my mom when she was in the hospital.

What is your favorite type of Lunchables? The pizza ones, of course.

What gives you migraines? I usually get them around my period. I don’t think anything else causes them.

What is the worst medication side effect you’ve ever had? Whatever they gave me after I got my wisdom teeth out made me SO fucking nauseous and anxious because I wasn’t supposed to throw up and thought I was going to have to go to the hospital if I did.

When was the last time you remember your life being good? It’s good in some ways right now. It would be fucking perfect if my brother in law didn’t exist.

What makes you forgetful? Uh, my whack ass brain?.

Do you block stupid, ignorant people on Facebook? Oh yes.

What is your favorite magazine to read? I haven’t read a magazine in years.

What is your favorite thing to order at Taco Bell? Crunchy tacos and a a Bajajajajaja Blast.

What was the first color you dyed your hair? I put red streaks in it in 7th grade.

Do you trust your parents completely? I’ve always trusted my dad. My mom was a little sketchy sometimes lol.

Do you have someone you feel completely safe around? Yes, my husband.

What church do you go to? I don’t.

Have you made a lot of mistakes? Haven’t we all?

Do you take risks often? I wouldn’t say often.

Who was the last person you called on the phone? My husband.

What color is your favorite whiteboard marker? Purple.