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Don't let yesterday take up too much of today.

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Let's go back to the basics

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miss lana del rey🙏

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An Old Anatomy Book

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feeling that oppressive urge to have a group of friends who have weekly dinners at someone’s apartment, flock together on campus, debate literature and philosophy over wine soaked nights, study in the library together long after everyone’s gone, write each other letters when we’re apart for the holidays, run about the woods at night and be utterly, utterly free.

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this summer recall <3

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A warm heart

I don't miss you

I miss your love

Want your gear back

even if your body turns black

even if you die as Balzac

To not have your charm by my side

feels like those early nights

looking at the bare sky blear-eyed

after daydreaming with a joyride!

I don't want your future though

neither your control over me

Although your heart is warm

Although it's passion for me was not norme

Is it right then to only want a side of it

only a nibble from it

To be so choosy that I can't help but

don't want you to go,

but don't want you to stay either.

16/09/2021

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lonely poet or god complex which one are we feeling today

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anne magill's work is so beautiful; it's vague & unfocused, like the fade of a good memory or blur of a dream. details are rare & yet the images come together clearly. movement & beauty in earthy tones. absolutely stunning <3

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Bad. Horrible. Traumatic even . But now I have a cool character background story

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Dramatically failing my attempt at stoping to procrastinate.

I've also convinced myself that I need to socialize, because I haven't even been out with anyone or got out of my place if it wasn't for university for two months now. The issue is that I literally only have one friend who's in another city at university (my other friend is even farer away) so It's not like I have it easy.

Also, it's been a month and I don't feel comfortable at my university class because I haven't made friends with whom I feel like I fit in completely. I am slowly feeling miserable and I think that's one of the reasons along not being out for that long.

This Saturday I'm probably meeting with the friend who lives in another city, but if my life doesn't drastically change after that, I'm going to read The Bell Jar, and I mean that as a threat.

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Atticus

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“You're the only person I've ever met who seems to have the faintest conception of what I mean when I say a thing.”

–Virginia Woolf

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Currently trying to avoid hyper realization episodes about how inevitable my death is while trying to stop being at the bottom of my class academically speaking

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Some of my books are annotated both by me and by my best friend.

Sometimes I like to look at them and mentally laugh at the differences on our personalities and how they manifest.

Little things like this, almost unnoticeable variances like this.

Book on the photo: My year of Rest and Relaxation (Ottesa Moshfegh)

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The dream of leaving oneself on the behalf of community rules that reduce, at its maximum, the painful decisions of individual freedom.

On Midsummer and sects

El sueño de abandonarse a las reglas comunitarias que reducen, al mínimo, las decisiones dolorosas de la libertad personal.