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Thinking about writing a Blade/reader oneshot (not sagau), and I canāt decide whether switching between 2nd and 3rd person would be really funny for the premise or if I should just make it creepy yan fic.
On one hand itās really funny to imagine the gap between the two perspectives
āwtf wtf why is this scary ass emotionless rock of man following me around every where?? He keeps glaring at me!! Kafka help!!ā
ā:) they look nice today. I want them to stab me :)ā
On the other hand mmmm delicious paranoia and stalking potential š© I love writing scared af timid little loser characters
#StardustSpiels#really out here struggling between crack fic and yan fic huh#I love the idea of blade still being really depressing and cynical but also just being a silly little guy who has committed war crimes#honkai star rail x reader#hsr blade x reader
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Naruto, One Piece, and Free Match-Up Request
May I request another match-up but for Free, One Piece, and Naruto this time? :) Hereās all my info once more!
Name: Corethra (or Corey for short)
Age: 25
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual
Occupation: Hand Packer at an ice cream factory. I work 12 hours (5:30pm to 6am) on a rotating schedule.
Birthplace: Memphis, TN, USA. I was raised in the neighborhood called Frayser which is the most impoverished area in Memphis and has a high crime rate as expected.
Zodiac Sign: Pisces (born March 2) My full birth chart can be found here
Enneagram: 5w6
Chinese Zodiac: Year Of The Pig
MBTI Type: INFJ
Alignment: Lawful Neutral
Hogwarts House: Slytherin
Love Language: Acts Of Service
Race/Ethnicity: African-American
Height: 4'11 (Call me short and Iāll kick your butt!)
Body Type/Shape: Average but well developed figure at best. I weigh about 158 lbs and am pretty insecure about my body. I also have really bad scars on my left arm from being bitten by a dog.
Hair Color/Style: Black and naturally curly but I keep it flat-ironed so itās straight. Itās long and goes down to just below my shoulder blades. There are times when I will have braids put in of various lengths.
Glasses or No?: Yes I wear glasses
Eye Color: Brown
Dress Style: I usually dress up in a casual way, just throwing on whatever looks good at the time but I will sometimes put in the effort when the time calls for it or when Iām in a good mood. I have an affinity for the punk, emo, and goth styles and I rarely wear feminine clothes but I will wear something risky every once in a while.
Hobbies/Interests: Video games, reading, writing, anime, internet surfing, listening to music, politics (sometimes), watching movies/TV shows, basically being an overall nerd. Iām usually either on my laptop or one of my many video game consoles if Iām not on my phone or reading one of my books.
Dislikes: Ignorance, stupidity, restriction, manipulation/gas-lighting, bullying, humanity, not being understood, corruption/injustice, close-mindedness
Personality: At first glance, I seem quiet and keep to myself, only speaking when I need to or when Iām spoken to. Iām an anti-social introvert to the fullest and donāt care much for small talk or going out. I prefer to have deeper conversations. When I get comfortable enough in whatever environment Iām in, I start to open up bit by bit. Iām a tomboy and pretty rough-minded as well as stubborn. Iām very sassy, have a smart, sarcastic, and witty mouth if not humorous and outrageous at times, can be borderline rude and mean, and Iām more sensitive than I care to be. I can literally cry at someoneās suffering especially if itās someone Iām close to or even a total stranger. Iām very empathetic and my heart is bigger than what most people would expect. Most people describe me as quiet, intelligent, creative, dorky, a smartass, and really sweet. I love a good laugh and have an open sense of humor to boot.
Many of my friends say that Iām very sweet and kind which I usually am if Iām in a good mood as well as affectionate as hell. Hugs and pet names galore with me! However only my friends and family see that side of me. My language is often unfiltered, harsh, foul, and blunt which shocks people because they think Iām a pure angel. I say what I want when I want and no one tells me otherwise. If they do, they can expect a mouthful from me. Iām an escapist and very imaginative, can be a bit scatterbrained at times, and Iām methodical and detailed to the point of perfectionism. Iām usually a walking contradiction in terms of personality in so many ways to the point where the real me is almost impossible to decipher. To make matters more complicated, Iām not very good at expressing myself verbally and prefer to let my actions do the talking. I also express myself better through written form.
I have many pet peeves and I get annoyed easily in general. Iām also slowly embracing misanthropy and nihilism but I can be pretty idealistic so it balances out. Iām practically zero tolerance when it comes to bullshit. I hate confrontation and conflict but Iām starting to work on it so I can be less passive-aggressive and more assertive. I also wish to stand up for myself more often than I should so people wonāt think that Iām weak and an easy target. Iām pretty cynical which is to be expected and usually expect the worst from people. When someone angers me, I will either just withdraw altogether and completely cut them off (slam the door basically) or get in their face and go off before doing the former. Iām the āhold my anger in and release it all at onceā type but I hope to change that one day and stop letting things fester before they get out of hand. I can be quite petty and even cold as well and if someone wrongs me, they will have to make the first move to mend fences. I refuse to apologize if Iām not in the wrong and I will not accept gaslighting/guilt tripping. I also refuse to change for others and will admit to having quite a lot of pride but thatās mostly due to me not wanting to be hurt and manipulated, mistreated, or used.
I have issues with trust and a wild imagination to boot. I usually trust my instincts and can see right through bullshit. I donāt like taking risks and I have to know all the details when I do something so I donāt mess up and look like an idiot. I am indeed a perfectionist and introverted to a fault which often prevents me from trying new things and going outside my comfort zone. I havenāt been in a relationship yet and am still a virgin due to my issues with trust and not wanting to be hurt or humiliated as well as being quite picky/perfectionistic with the people I allow in my life. I have high standards for both people and myself although Iām pretty laid-back and my dislike of conflict allows me to also take a lot of shit from people too before I eventually say āfuck itā and slam the door or go off on them. I donāt think very highly of myself and can sometimes fall into a period of self-hatred and self-pity.
Many people praise me for my intelligence which is fitting since Iām an intellectual. My ideals and beliefs are rather odd to say the least (Iām a classical liberal/independent and despise most ideologies/ideas. This includes religion, feminism, social justice, traditionalism, statism, big government, nationalism, socialism/communism, etc.) and I feel misunderstood because of it (mostly because of the black community ostracizing me). I am indeed a rebel, open-minded, and a free thinker. No one tells me how to think or feel or else they face my wrath. I highly value power over myself and I think itās the most important thing that a person needs in order to survive. I am definitely an outcast at heart and I often distance myself from others and donāt like talking about my feelings or beliefs because I think most people lack the ability/capacity to understand me. Before I give my opinion on something, I like to do as much research as possible as well as look at things from all perspectives before coming to my own conclusion. I donāt mind discussing things but I prefer logic over emotion when doing so which makes it damn near impossible these days for me to have an real conversation without insults and threats being thrown (usually towards me). Chances are Iām gonna find something wrong with damn near anything someone believes in or says and Iām not afraid to call it out when I see it. Once I do open up and express how I feel, the gates of passion will open up and never close. I also have high morals and values and stick to my guns no matter what which can make me pretty stubborn at times.
Iām currently battling depression and often experience many symptoms of it including suicidal thoughts and depression spells. I also suffer from iron-deficiency anemia as well as irregular, prolonged periods. These things are pretty annoying for me to deal with whenever they flare up.Ā
Overall, Iām pretty crazy and a handful to deal with. Good luck matching me up with someone :P
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Ace! I feel that you and ace would be such a great couple! He is open minded and kind to others whereas you are the same way! You are passionate like he is, caring like he is, loyal to the bone like he is! He would see you and see your personality and just instantly fall in love you and your personality! Like, I canāt even imagine how much he will want you on his crew, so they he can keep on you and protect you at all times-- though he will soon figure out that you donāt need help, you can take care yourself--which he will find extremely attractive, no doubt about that!Ā
He will love that fact that you are independent, because he really values individualism and independency, he sees it as a great traits to have. But he will also love the fact that you are sensitive, and can sometimes get into your ownĀ head. He understands that, knows it all too well, so he will try with all his might to try and make sure that you are happy and always smiling! But he will love how fierce you can be to other people, never bowing down to their expectations!Ā
All in all, I feel like Ace would be a great man for you in the one piece universe! He would be attentive to you, would love your attitude and personality, and would absolutely adore how loyal and strong you are! make sure to love him thoroughly!
Ah, Sai! He is much like Ace, just a little less emotional, which is fine! I feel like you and Sai would make a couple for a couple reasons! He would love how mature you are, and how logical you can be, and-- like ace-- he loves the fact that you are extremely loyal to your friends! That is a true factor in the way he will see you, and it is for the better! He will se how strong you are, emotionally and will be envious and at the same time fascinated! I Feel like Sai will look at you with wide eyes, his breath caught in his throat, his heart beating wildly in his ribcage because he will love you that much! All the things you are interested he will want to hear with enthusiasm, everything you love he will want to learn and hear from you, to get to know you better!
Another thing is that if you were to go to him with your insecurities and how you are battling depression, he will try to understand, and once he does he will try to everything and anything to make sure you feel better! You need a massage? Heās on it! You need cuddles? oh yeah he will give you some! You need chocolate or sweets or anything of the like? Heāll run to the store, and be back 5 minutes tops!Ā
All in all, I feel like the cool, mature Sai, with a heart of pure gold will be such a good match for you! He will make sure that you uncomfortable with him, he will never want to make you unhappy, and he will definitely do anything i his power to make sure that you will keep on loving him as much as you can!
Rei! Now, with Rei, I wanted to go a more cute route. I feel that Rei would be equal parts and scared and in love with you! He sees how strong you are against people that oppose, he sees how strong you are for your friends, and how you have such a different personality to everybody else around him, and he will immediately fall in with you. Like instantly! To him, youād be like a beautiful butterfly blooming right in front of him, and he will want to have you all tot himself! Of course, he wonāt force you, but he will definitely watch you at a distance longingly!
He is very much an introvert and your calm but strong aura would definitely help with his anxiety! I just see him melting next you, into your lap or shoulder whenever you are around him because he is so comfortable around you. He doesnāt do this with just anybody so it would be a real honor! And when it it comes to your insecurities, he would want to make sure that you know he loves you the way are, and if you were to want to change something about yourself, then he will support you all the way, as long as you are happy! He will just love that you are such a freethinker and so openminded about things, so unlike him!
All in all, I feel like Rei would love you and (somewhat) idolize because you have all these traits that he would love to have. This perfectionist will understand how it feels to be such a perfectionist and will want to help you with that too! He will love to the moon and back(stroke)!
#match-ups#matchup#submissions#anime matchup#submission#naruto matchup#free! matchup#one piece matchup#naruto x you#free x you#one piece x you
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Free! Match-Up Request
Name: Corethra (or Corey for short)
Age: 24
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual
Occupation: Hand Packer at an ice cream factory
Zodiac Sign: Pisces (born March 2)
Chinese Zodiac: Year Of The Pig
MBTI Type: INFJ
Alignment: Lawful Neutral
Hogwarts House: Slytherin
Love Language: Acts Of Service
Race/Ethnicity: African-American
Height: 4'11 (Call me short and Iāll kick your butt!)
Body Type/Shape: Average but well developed figure at best. I weigh about 158 lbs and am pretty insecure about my body.
Hair Color/Style: Black and naturally curly but I keep it relaxed and flat-ironed so itās straight. Itās long and goes down to just below my shoulder blades.
Glasses or No?: Yes I wear glasses
Eye Color: Brown
Dress Style: I usually dress up in a casual way, just throwing on whatever looks good at the time but I will sometimes put in the effort when the time calls for it or when Iām in a good mood. I have an affinity for the punk, emo, and goth styles and I rarely wear feminine clothes.
Hobbies/Interests: Video games, reading, writing, anime, internet surfing, listening to music, politics (sometimes), watching movies/TV shows, basically being an overall nerd
Dislikes: Ignorance, stupidity, restriction, manipulation/gas-lighting, bullying, humanity, not being understood
Personality: At first glance, I seem quiet and keep to myself, only speaking when I need to or when Iām spoken to. Iām an anti-social introvert to the fullest and donāt care much for small talk or going out. I prefer to have deeper conversations. When I get comfortable enough in whatever environment Iām in, I start to open up bit by bit. Iām a tomboy and pretty rough-minded as well as stubborn. Iām very sassy, have a smart, sarcastic, and witty mouth if not humorous and outrageous at times, can be borderline rude, and Iām more sensitive than I care to be. I can literally cry at someoneās suffering especially if itās someone Iām close to or even a total stranger. Iām very empathetic and my heart is bigger than what most people would expect. Most people describe me as quiet, intelligent, creative, dorky, a smartass, and really sweet. I love a good laugh and have an open sense of humor to boot.
Many of my friends say that Iām very sweet and kind which I usually am if Iām in a good mood as well as affectionate as hell. Hugs and pet names galore with me! However only my friends and family see that side of me. My language is often unfiltered, harsh, foul, and blunt which shocks people because they think Iām a pure angel. I say what I want when I want and no one tells me otherwise. If they do, they can expect a mouthful from me. Iām an escapist and very imaginative, can be a bit scatterbrained at times, and Iām methodical and detailed to the point of perfectionism. Iām usually a walking contradiction in terms of personality in so many ways to the point where the real me is almost impossible to decipher. To make matters more complicated, Iām not very good at expressing myself verbally and prefer to let my actions do the talking.
I have many pet peeves and I get annoyed easily in general. Iām also slowly embracing misanthropy and nihilism but I can be pretty idealistic so it balances out. Iām practically zero tolerance when it comes to bullshit. I hate confrontation and conflict but Iām starting to work on it so I can be less passive-aggressive and more assertive. I also wish to stand up for myself more often than I should so people wonāt think that Iām weak and an easy target. Iām pretty cynical which is to be expected and usually expect the worst from people. When someone angers me, I will either just withdraw altogether and completely cut them off (slam the door basically) or get in their face and go off before doing the former. Iām the āhold my anger in and release it all at onceā type but I hope to change that one day and stop letting things fester before they get out of hand. I can be quite petty and even cold as well and if someone wrongs me, they will have to make the first move to mend fences. I refuse to apologize if Iām not in the wrong and I will not accept gaslighting/guilt tripping.
I have issues with trust and a wild imagination to boot. I usually trust my instincts and can see right through bullshit. I donāt like taking risks and I have to know all the details when I do something so I donāt mess up and look like an idiot. I am indeed a perfectionist to a fault which often prevents me from trying new things and going outside my comfort zone. I havenāt been in a relationship yet and am still a virgin due to my issues with trust and not wanting to be hurt or humiliated as well as being picky/perfectionistic with the people I allow in my life. I have high standards for both people and myself although Iām pretty laid-back and my dislike of conflict allows me to also take a lot of shit from people too before I eventually say āfuck itā and slam the door on them. I donāt think very highly of myself and can sometimes fall into a period of self-hatred.
Many people praise me for my intelligence which is fitting since Iām an intellectual. My ideals and beliefs are rather odd to say the least (Iām a classical liberal/independent and despise most ideologies/ideas. This includes religion, feminism, social justice, traditionalism, statism, big government, nationalism, socialism/communism, etc.) and I feel misunderstood because of it (mostly because of the black community ostracizing me). I am indeed a rebel, open-minded, and a free thinker. No one tells me how to think or feel or else they face my wrath. I highly value power over myself and I think itās the most important thing that a person needs in order to survive. I am definitely an outcast at heart and I often distance myself from others and donāt like talking about my feelings or beliefs because I think most people lack the ability/capacity to understand me. Before I give my opinion on something, I like to do as much research as possible as well as look at things from all perspectives before coming to my own conclusion. I donāt mind discussing things but I prefer logic over emotion when doing so which makes it damn near impossible these days for me to have an real conversation without insults and threats being thrown (usually towards me). Chances are Iām gonna find something wrong with damn near anything someone believes in or says and Iām not afraid to call it out when I see it. Once I do open up and express how I feel, the gates of passion will open up and never close. I also have high morals and values and stick to my guns no matter what which can make me pretty stubborn at times.
Iām currently battling depression and often experience many symptoms of it including suicidal thoughts and depression spells. I also suffer from iron-deficiency anemia as well. These things are pretty annoying for me to deal with whenever they flare up.Ā
Overall, Iām pretty crazy and a handful to deal with. Good luck matching me up with someone :P
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Okay! Lot of info but letās see here. I think out of all the guys, Rin matches you the best. Heās a bit of a hothead but super supportive at the end of the day.
Headcanons:
He might not call you short but he will use you as an arm rest.Ā
He might also steal your glasses just to mess with you. Itās all in fun, if you asked heād give them back but holding them out of reach is just too much fun for him
Heās smarter than he lets on. Sure heās no genius but he can hold a conversation well and knows what heās passionate about. So a good conversation is a fine way to spend the time
Heās incredibly supportive of every dream you have and will cheer you on from right beside you. Or from the sidelines, if he canāt be by your side
His love language is also the same as yours, making you an excellent match
#match up#free#free! iwatobi swim club#rin#rin matsuoka#long post#lots of infor#tw:#mention of:#suicide#suicidal thoughts#depression#submission
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Bleach and One Piece Match-Up Request
Name: Corethra (or Corey for short)
Age: 24
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual
Occupation: Hand Packer at an ice cream factory
Zodiac Sign: Pisces (born March 2)
Chinese Zodiac: Year Of The Pig
MBTI Type: INFJ
Alignment: Lawful Neutral
Hogwarts House: Slytherin
Love Language: Acts Of Service
Race/Ethnicity: African-American
Height: 4'11 (Call me short and Iāll kick your butt!)
Body Type/Shape: Average but well developed figure at best. I weigh about 158 lbs and am pretty insecure about my body.
Hair Color/Style: Black and naturally curly but I keep it relaxed and flat-ironed so itās straight. Itās long and goes down to just below my shoulder blades.
Glasses or No?: Yes I wear glasses
Eye Color: Brown
Dress Style: I usually dress up in a casual way, just throwing on whatever looks good at the time but I will sometimes put in the effort when the time calls for it or when Iām in a good mood. I have an affinity for the punk, emo, and goth styles and I donāt like feminine clothes.
Hobbies/Interests: Video games, reading, writing, anime, internet surfing, listening to music, politics (sometimes), watching movies/TV shows, basically being an overall nerd
Dislikes: Ignorance, stupidity, restriction, manipulation/gas-lighting, bullying, humanity, not being understood
Personality: At first glance, I seem quiet and keep to myself, only speaking when I need to or when Iām spoken to. Iām an anti-social introvert to the fullest and donāt care much for small talk or going out. I prefer to have deeper conversations. When I get comfortable enough in whatever environment Iām in, I start to open up bit by bit. Iām a tomboy and pretty rough-minded as well as stubborn. Iām very sassy, have a smart, sarcastic, and witty mouth if not humorous and outrageous at times, can be borderline rude, and Iām more sensitive than I care to be. I can literally cry at someoneās suffering especially if itās someone Iām close to or even a total stranger. Iām very empathetic and my heart is bigger than what most people would expect. Most people describe me as quiet, intelligent, creative, dorky, a smartass, and really sweet. I love a good laugh and have an open sense of humor to boot.
Many of my friends say that Iām very sweet and kind which I usually am if Iām in a good mood as well as affectionate as hell. Hugs and pet names galore with me! However only my friends and family see that side of me. My language is often unfiltered, harsh, foul, and blunt which shocks people because they think Iām a pure angel. I say what I want when I want and no one tells me otherwise. If they do, they can expect a mouthful from me. Iām an escapist and very imaginative, can be a bit scatterbrained at times, and Iām methodical and detailed to the point of perfectionism. Iām usually a walking contradiction in terms of personality in so many ways to the point where the real me is almost impossible to decipher. To make matters more complicated, Iām not very good at expressing myself verbally and prefer to let my actions do the talking.
I have many pet peeves and I get annoyed easily in general. Iām also slowly embracing misanthropy and nihilism but I can be pretty idealistic so it balances out. Iām practically zero tolerance when it comes to bullshit. I hate confrontation and conflict but Iām starting to work on it so I can be less passive-aggressive and more assertive. I also wish to stand up for myself more often than I should so people wonāt think that Iām weak and an easy target. Iām pretty cynical which is to be expected and usually expect the worst from people. When someone angers me, I will either just withdraw altogether and completely cut them off (slam the door basically) or get in their face and go off before doing the former. Iām the āhold my anger in and release it all at onceā type but I hope to change that one day and stop letting things fester before they get out of hand. I can be quite petty and even cold as well and if someone wrongs me, they will have to make the first move to mend fences. I refuse to apologize if Iām not in the wrong and I will not accept gaslighting/guilt tripping.
I have issues with trust and a wild imagination to boot. I usually trust my instincts and can see right through bullshit. I donāt like taking risks and I have to know all the details when I do something so I donāt mess up and look like an idiot. I am indeed a perfectionist to a fault which often prevents me from trying new things and going outside my comfort zone. I havenāt been in a relationship yet and am still a virgin due to my issues with trust and not wanting to be hurt or humiliated as well as being picky/perfectionistic with the people I allow in my life. I have high standards for both people and myself although Iām pretty laid-back and my dislike of conflict allows me to also take a lot of shit from people too before I eventually say āfuck itā and slam the door on them. I donāt think very highly of myself and can sometimes fall into a period of self-hatred.
Many people praise me for my intelligence which is fitting since Iām an intellectual. My ideals and beliefs are rather odd to say the least (Iām a classical liberal/independent and despise most ideologies/ideas. This includes religion, feminism, social justice, traditionalism, statism, big government, nationalism, socialism/communism, etc.) and I feel misunderstood because of it (mostly because of the black community ostracizing me). I am indeed a rebel, open-minded, and a free thinker. No one tells me how to think or feel or else they face my wrath. I highly value power over myself and I think itās the most important thing that a person needs in order to survive. I am definitely an outcast at heart and I often distance myself from others and donāt like talking about my feelings or beliefs because I think most people lack the ability/capacity to understand me. Before I give my opinion on something, I like to do as much research as possible as well as look at things from all perspectives before coming to my own conclusion. I donāt mind discussing things but I prefer logic over emotion when doing so which makes it damn near impossible these days for me to have an real conversation without insults and threats being thrown (usually towards me). Chances are Iām gonna find something wrong with damn near anything someone believes in or says and Iām not afraid to call it out when I see it. Once I do open up and express how I feel, the gates of passion will open up and never close.
Iām currently battling depression and often experience many symptoms of it including suicidal thoughts and depression spells. I also suffer from iron-deficiency anemia as well. These things are pretty annoying and humiliating for me to deal with whenever they pop up.Ā
Overall, Iām pretty crazy and a handful to deal with. Good luck matching me up with someone :P
(Iām happy you gave me so much info to work with!)Ā
Nothing says punk or goth like skulls, right? I played around with some other accessories like a choker necklace and some earrings, but since you mentioned you donāt like feminine clothing I just went with the good olā leather jacket)
For Bleach, I match you with....Grimmjow Jaegerjaquez!
You mentioned you were a Pisces, and I like to take zodiacs/birthdays into account when theyāre provided in matchups. Grimmjowās a Leo, and from what I read, Leos and Pisces bring out a lot of great qualities within each other; the more I thought about it, the more I think that holds true. Like Grimmjow, you arenāt ever afraid to speak your mind, youāre both ambitious (I think Grimmjow would be a Slytherin too!) and are both rebels in your own right. The both of you also prefer to let your actions do the talking, and I think he would appreciate a partner who he can trust to speak their mind and not hide anything theyāre feeling just to be nice. I think that Grimmjow would be able to help you be more assertive and less passive-aggressive, which you mentioned in your submission, and you would be able to get him to calm down and think things through before flying off the handle and beating the shit out of whoever or whatever is pissing him off.Ā
You mentioned that you were slowly starting to embrace nihilism and misanthropy (and I feel that Grimmjow post-defeat by Nnoitora would share similar thoughts about his lifeās meaning at the time. Dude just got his shit wrecked and his dreams of being the strongest/the King just got shot down by Nnoitoraās sword slicing him through the chest), but I think your optimism would not only balance out your perspective on life, but his as well. To āfixā your partnerās views/negative outlook on life shouldnāt be up to you (heās his own person, and asking that much emotional labor of someone would be inappropriate, even if he does love you), but I think whenever you talk about your life philosophy, heād slowly start to realize that you can find a balance between ānothing fucking matters, why botherā and ānothing fucking matters, so why not?ā
Leo men are somewhat protective of their partners, so Grimmjow is always there if youāre in need of emotional or physical help. Fatigue from your anemia? Heāll straight up carry you where you need to go if he has to. Is your depression causing you to go into a downswing? Heāll keep an eye on you and do whatever it takes to lessen the weight on your shoulders/mind. Sometimes heāll do things too comfort you without considering how youād react (you mentioned that things get annoying and humiliating whenever your symptoms flare up like this, so having Grimmjow do something like picking you up and carry would...not be great, to say the least), but if you tell him why doing things like that upsets you heāll try to stop and consider your feelings the next time something like that happens again. Thereāll be a few instances like that where heāll say or do something without considering how youād react, because heās used to being an egocentric guy (being a creature like an Arrancar, where you can only survive if you look out for yourself and ONLY yourself, makes this a difficult thing for him to change. But for you, heāll try). This would be the main issue in your relationship, but as time goes on heās more and more considerate of you the longer heās with you. He has given you a cake with the (poorly) handwritten icing message āSorry I was an assholeā more than once.
In conclusion, IĀ think that you two would be a great example of two people who seem like total opposites finding common ground/traits/strengths/weaknesses and really complementing each other in a relationship.
Ā For One Piece, I match you with...Zoro!
So, letās start with zodiac compatibility. Zoro is a Scorpio, which is one of the better matches for Pisces according to what I looked up. Scorpio men and Pisces women share a lot of emotional depth, and that sort of conflicting nature/personality you have is something that Zoro can relate to. Like you, Zoro also tends to let his actions speak louder than words (especially since he isnāt the most talkative guy). A relationship with him would involve a lot of small kind gestures that let you know he cares about you.Ā Even though heās not one to talk a lot, he listens to anything you have to say and is a great person to vent to.Ā
He may not be as well versed in intellectual subjects as you (social justice, politics, religion, etc.) but he keeps track of what you have to say about a particular topic. Sometimes he worries that his lack of response makes you think heās not interested in what youāre talking about, but in reality heās paying attention to every word; every time you talk about something he doesnāt know, he writes it down so he can either ask Robin about it or read about it himself. He doesnāt try to become an expert or anything, but he learns enough to try and form his own thoughts based on what youāve said and what heās looked up. His responses arenāt super eloquent, but heās able to put things together (Normally if you asked him about the World Government heād describe it as just ābadā¦ā but once he learns about concepts like totalitarianism from you, he can talk about it in more depth).
Like you, Zoro is incredibly blunt and he appreciates having a partner who also speaks their mind regardless of who theyāre talking to. Unlike you, heās not as imaginative and scatterbrained, but I think this would be a case of opposites complementing each other; he likes how creative you are, and sometimes when heās making a decision he wonders what youād do. Like Grimmjow, Zoro would absolutely help you with asserting yourself but unlike Grimmjow heās more considerate of how youād react to what he does; heās respectful of your boundaries, and if he sees that you just need to walk away from whoeverās pissing you off he doesnāt force you to confront them. Heās considerate, in his own Zoro-ish way; like heāll quietly ask you if you want him to kick someoneās ass if you werenāt wanting to argue with them/escalate things further.Ā
Zoro struggles with some aspects of his mental health, and that includes depression. Once you two have been together for a while, he can tell when youāre starting to enter a downswing/darker period. He doesnāt want to embarrass you by constantly smothering you/asking if you need anything, and he reassures you that thereās no shame in asking for help if you need it. Like you, heās also not fond of expressing how heās feeling, but he doesnāt want you to feel alone if youāre suffering.Ā
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Kingdom Hearts Match-Up Request
Name: Corethra (or Corey for short)
Age: 24
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual
Occupation: Hand Packer at an ice cream factory
Zodiac Sign: Pisces
Chinese Zodiac: Year Of The Pig
MBTI Type: INFJ
Alignment: Lawful Neutral
Race/Ethnicity: African-American
Height: 4'11
Body Type/Shape: Average but well developed figure at best. Iām pretty small because of my height.
Hair Color/Style: Black and naturally curly but I keep it relaxed and flat-ironed so itās straight. Itās long and goes down to just below my shoulder blades.
Glasses or No?: Yes I wear glasses
Eye Color: Brown
Hobbies/Interests: Video games, reading, writing, anime, internet surfing, listening to music, politics (sometimes), watching movies/TV shows, basically being an overall nerd
Dislikes: Ignorance, stupidity, restriction, manipulation/gas-lighting, bullying, humanity, not being understood
Personality: At first glance, I seem quiet and keep to myself, only speaking when I need to or when Iām spoken to. Iām an anti-social introvert to the fullest and donāt care much for small talk or going out. I prefer to have deeper conversations. When I get comfortable enough in whatever environment Iām in, I start to open up bit by bit. Iām a tomboy and pretty rough-minded. Iām very sassy, have a smart, sarcastic, and witty mouth if not humorous and outrageous at times, can be borderline rude, and Iām more sensitive than I care to be. I can literally cry at someoneās suffering especially if itās someone Iām close to or even a total stranger. Iām very empathetic and my heart is bigger than what most people would expect. Most people describe me as quiet, intelligent, creative, dorky, and really sweet. I love a good laugh and have an open sense of humor to boot.
Many of my friends say that Iām very sweet and kind which I usually am if Iām in a good mood as well as affectionate as hell. Hugs and pet names galore with me! However only my friends and family see that side of me. My language is often unfiltered, harsh, foul, and blunt which shocks people because they think Iām a pure angel. I say what I want when I want and no one tells me otherwise. If they do, they can expect a mouthful from me. Iām an escapist and very imaginative, can be a bit scatterbrained at times, and Iām methodical and detailed almost to the point of perfectionism. Iām usually a walking contradiction in terms of personality in so many ways to the point where the real me is almost impossible to decipher.
I have many pet peeves and I get annoyed easily in general. Iām also slowly embracing misanthropy and nihilism to a lesser extent. Iām practically zero tolerance when it comes to bullshit. I hate confrontation and conflict but Iām starting to work on it so I can be less passive-aggressive and more assertive. I also wish to stand up for myself more often than I should so people wonāt think that Iām weak and an easy target. Iām pretty cynical which is to be expected and usually expect the worst from people. When someone angers me, I will either just withdraw altogether and completely cut them off (slam the door basically) or get in their face and go off before doing the former. Iām the āhold my anger in and release it all at onceā type but I hope to change that one day and stop letting things fester before they get out of hand. I can be quite petty and even cold as well and if someone wrongs me, they will have to make the first move to mend fences. I refuse to apologize if Iām not in the wrong and I will not accept gaslighting/guilt tripping.
I have issues with trust and a wild imagination to boot. I usually trust my instincts and can see right through bullshit. I donāt like taking risks and I have to know all the details when I do something so I donāt mess up and look like an idiot. I am indeed a perfectionist at times. I havenāt been in a relationship yet and am still a virgin due to my issues with trust and not wanting to be hurt or humiliated as well as being picky/perfectionistic with the people I allow in my life. I expect a lot from people and myself although Iām pretty laid-back and a bit lazy most of the time which allows me to also take a lot of shit from people too before I eventually say āfuck itā and slam the door on them.
Many people praise me for my intelligence which is fitting since Iām an intellectual. My ideals and beliefs are rather odd to say the least (Iām a classical liberal/independent and despise most ideologies/ideas. This includes religion, feminism, social justice, traditionalism, statism, big government, nationalism, socialism/communism, etc.) and I feel misunderstood because of it (mostly because of the black community ostracizing me). I am indeed a rebel, open-minded, and a free thinker. No one tells me how to think or feel or else they face my wrath. I highly value power over myself and I think itās the most important thing that a person needs in order to survive. I am definitely an outcast at heart and I often distance myself from others and donāt like talking about my feelings or beliefs because I think most people lack the ability/capacity to understand me. Before I give my opinion on something, I like to do as much research as possible as well as look at things from all perspectives before coming to my own conclusion. I donāt mind discussing things but I prefer logic over emotion when doing so which makes it damn near impossible these days for me to have an real conversation without insults and threats being thrown (usually towards me). Chances are Iām gonna find something wrong with damn near anything someone believes in or says and Iām not afraid to call it out when I see it. Once I do open up and express how I feel, the gates of passion will open up and never close.
Iām currently battling depression and often experience many symptoms of it including suicidal thoughts. I also suffer from iron-deficiency anemia and irregular periods. These things are pretty annoying and humiliating for me to deal with whenever they pop up.
Overall, Iām pretty crazy and a handful to deal with. Good luck matching me up with someone :P
I can see you with...
Ansem the Wise
You both share the same level of intelligence and sometimes get into heated debates. (You both eventually stop once you realize that neither of you are wiling to give up the fray.) Ansem, at first, was like a support system, a therapist for you then he started to feel for you. You thought he was just taking pity on you for your conditions, but those feelings turned out to be genuine. You awake to a hot breakfast everyday before you head off to work. Ansem does his best to provide for you and keep you happy. He does worry about you and will leave the laboratory early if he feels like somethings not right. He gives you space when you need it, he holds you when you cry, he's there for you when you're at your worst, he's always there to pick you back up and dust you off. He treasures your smile, your laugh, you in general.
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Naruto, Disney, and Life Is Strange Match-Up Request
Name: Corethra (or Corey for short)
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual
Occupation: Hand Packer at an ice cream factory
Zodiac Sign: Pisces
MBTI Type: INFJ
Race/Ethnicity: African-American
Height: 4'11
Body Type/Shape: Average with some curves here and there. Iām pretty small because of my height.
Hair Color/Style: Black and naturally curly but I keep it relaxed and flat-ironed so itās straight. Itās long and goes down to just below my shoulder blades.
Glasses or No?: Yes I wear glasses
Eye Color: Brown
Hobbies/Interests: Video games, reading, writing, anime, internet surfing, listening to music, politics (sometimes), watching movies/TV shows, basically being an overall nerd
Personality: At first glance, I seem quiet and keep to myself, only speaking when I need to or when Iām spoken to. Iām an anti-social introvert to the fullest. When I get comfortable enough in whatever environment Iām in, I start to open up bit by bit. Iām a tomboy and pretty rough-minded. Iām very sassy, have a smart, sarcastic, and witty mouth if not humorous and outrageous at times, can be borderline rude/mean, and Iām more sensitive than I care to be which can make my temper flare. I can literally cry at someoneās suffering especially if itās someone Iām close to.
Many of my friends say that Iām very sweet and kind which I usually am if Iām in a good mood as well as affectionate as hell. Hugs and pet names galore with me! However only my friends and family see that side of me. My language is often unfiltered, harsh, and blunt which shocks people because they think Iām a pure angel. I say what I want when I want and no one tells me otherwise. If they do, they can expect a mouthful from me.
I have many pet peeves and I get annoyed easily in general. Iām also slowly embracing misanthropy and nihilism. Iām practically zero tolerance when it comes to bullshit. I hate confrontation and conflict but Iām starting to work on it so I can be less passive-aggressive and stop running away. I also wish to stand up for myself more often than I should so people wonāt think that Iām weak and an easy target. Iām pretty cynical which is to be expected and usually expect the worst from people. When someone angers me, I will either just withdraw altogether (slam the door so to speak) and completely cut them off or get in their face and go off before doing the former. Iām the āhold my anger in and release it all at onceā type but I hope to change that one day. I can be quite petty and even cold as well and if someone wrongs me, they will have to make the first move to mend fences.
I have issues with trust and a wild imagination to boot. I usually trust my instincts and can see right through bullshit. I donāt like taking risks and I have to know all the details and be organized as hell when I do something so I donāt mess up and look like an idiot. Iām definitely a ābig pictureā thinker. I havenāt been in a relationship yet and am still a virgin due to my issues with trust and not wanting to be hurt or humiliated. I expect a lot from people and am rather picky/perfectionistic although Iām pretty laid-back and a bit lazy most of the time which allows me to also take a lot of shit from people too before I eventually say āfuck itā.
Many people praise me for my intelligence which is fitting since Iām an intellectual. My ideals and beliefs are rather odd to say the least (Iām a classical liberal/independent and despise most ideologies/ideas. This includes religion, feminism, social justice, traditionalism, statism, big government, nationalism, socialism/communism, etc.) and I feel misunderstood because of it (mostly because of the black community ostracizing me). Because of this, I hide myself away because I donāt like putting up with peopleās unwanted criticism/judgment of me. I am indeed a rebel, open-minded, and a free thinker. No one tells me how to think or feel or else they face my wrath. I am definitely an outcast at heart. Before I give my opinion on something, I like to do as much research as possible before coming to my own conclusion. I donāt mind discussing things but I prefer logic over emotion when doing so which makes it damn near impossible these days for me to have an real conversation without insults and threats being thrown (usually towards me). Chances are Iām gonna find something wrong with damn near anything someone believes in or says and Iām not afraid to call it out when I see it.
Iām currently battling depression and often experience many symptoms including suicidal thoughts. I also suffer from iron-deficiency anemia and irregular periods. These things are pretty annoying and humiliating for me to deal with whenever they pop up.
Overall, Iām pretty crazy and a handful to deal with. Good luck matching me up with someone :P
Naruto: Choji!Ā
Ā -As a Pisces, youāre most likely a very friendly person, and that means you would get along really well with someone like Choji! Heās a sweetheart, and never does anything hurtful unless he needs to. Heād like you because of your kindness too, as thatās a must to be in a relationship with him.
Ā -He doesnāt mention it often, but heās really into anime, manga, and certain TV shows. When heās not working or relaxing outside, he spends time getting caught up in all the different medias heās invested in, so if you share any of the same favorites, heād want to be around you a lot.
Ā -Choji is a sensitive person too, so heād never judge you for getting too emotional over something, and hopefully youād never judge him. At least you both would get teared up over the same things and comfort each other!Ā
Disney: Kristoff!Ā
Ā -For along time, he didnāt have any other human friends or even family, so once he gets a partner who means a lot to him heāll be very affectionate too! Thatās good since youāre affectionate too. Itād be very very rare for him to turn down any of your advances.Ā
Ā -heād really encourage you to start standing up for yourself, which could help you make progress. He wouldnāt be able to stand anyone saying anything bad about you if you were his partner, so heād actively encourage you to throw a reply right back to whatever was said.Ā
Ā -Again, since he had an unusual childhood, he also goes with his first gut instinct. Itās what got him through a large portion of living in the wilderness with his family, so him being able to think the same way you do would help you understand each other a lot better too!Ā
Life is Strange: Warren!Ā
Ā -Warren is also a highly intelligent person, so you would be able to match each other on that level, which is good for any relationship. Also, heād really respect you even before the relationship if he knew how smart you are, and hopefully the same would happen vice versa.Ā
Ā -Heās very compassionate, and tries his hardest to make people happy. So if his partner was experiencing depression like you are, heād always be there sending them little texts throughout the day or talking to them in person to check up on them. he would care a lot about your well being!Ā
Ā -He can deal with a lot, and you and your lovely personality wouldnāt even be a challenge! Heād try to take everything in stride and be mature, so heād love every part of you, but still be willing to help you if you wanted to change certain habits or traits. Heād always find a way to be comforting and there.Ā
#sarcredwarrior88#naruto shipuden#naruto matchup#naruto#choji akimichi#disney#disney matchup#kristoff#frozen#lis#life is strange#life is strange matchup#warren graham#submission
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Deus Ex & the Spirit of Noir
OrĀ āitās not just the venetian blinds and the scotch and the trenchcoat.ā
(Look, I might well be rusty. If someone has issues with my history or my summations of these genres, Iād love for them to tell me. Note: I kind of poked at this and adapted it from a conversation with @casie-mod.)
All right, so Iāve been thinking... Deus Ex and cyberpunk in general, for good and for ill, are so utterly influenced by noir tropes. And oddly, despite not being a direct grandson, I think Deus Ex gets the spirit of noir and some of what it was trying to say better than a lot of self-professed neo-noirs.Ā A lot of people get stuck on the specific aesthetics or tropes without understanding why they're there. DX falls into that trap sometimes, but it also manages some nice subversions and recontextualises them in some really cool ways.Ā
*puts on nerd fedora and trenchcoat*
Noir heroes tend to be everymen, cogs in machines. Though I think it's significant that a lot of later noir was written and filmed in the Forties, so many later heroes ended up being tangentially affected by the war in some way. Scarred - mentally or physically - men who kept the world at bay through sarcasm and wanted to trust people but couldn't afford to, with a weakness for women they perceived as damsels in distress. With flappy trenchcoats. And usually a liking for scotch. So on. May sound familiar.Ā
People often think "jazz score" without understanding that writers were telling stories about disenfranchised heroes who were working-class and viewed as shady and who had often left behind more respectable lives, so they had a social mobility other people didn't and were good at moving around unnoticed - which also meant they often interfaced with black neighbourhoods and black servants. That social flexibility is part of why many noir protags were connected with "respectability" which they then had to turn away from - that's why so many are/were cops, or were in the army, so on. It's a bridge between theĀ ārespectableā readers and writers, giving them a relateable starting point, and the worlds of the greyer protags. It makes the protag more understandable.Ā
For Deus Ex, the idea of transition from a respected position/part of the system to an underclass starts with Jensen moving from police to a morally greyer position in the form of private security work (which would be very much an equivalent of the modern PI, hence its use in cyberpunk), and then that transition is completed/intensified by the augmentations. Is that at times awkwardly handled? Hell yes. They canāt seem to decide whether augs are class, race, disability or none of the above, and whether they should be telling a story like that is an interesting, significant question. But thematically, that arc is pretty consistent with a lot of noir, particularly later, more hard-bitten noir.Ā
A big thing in noir was class commentary and the way rich, clueless clients are contrasted with the weary PIs. PIs move between the oppressors and the oppressed because everyone equally views PIs as trouble and hates them. (The class + hatred stuff is something DX utterly gets right, actually. There is a big reason they went for a cynical āworking-class heroā type in the game.) People hated private dicks and still do. Quite often with good reason. Look at the rl history of the Pinkertons, for example. So you may view the protag as cool, but in-universe they shouldn't be, and they shouldn't straight-up be presented as cool unless it's with nuance and downsides. This is kind of where Deus Ex diverges sharply, because most traditional noir protags donāt have superpowers or wear shades indoors, but at least they balance it with his fallibility and the way his augs close doors for him as well as open them. ThatĀ ādownside of all the cool techā stuff is part of why I love cyberpunk in general.
A lot of people see the snark as this easy part of noir, as much as lyricism. It's cool, I like it, I enjoy snark. They miss that it comes from pain and oppression, and the societal context for what makes someone "hardboiled."
Like cyberpunk, noir has always been class commentary. It's always been about hatred and societal ills and the little evils people do to each other.
Also, a noir protag does not have to be a PI. Several instances of the genre had protags that weren't, but that stereotype came about because the crime comics and stuff with PI heroes tended to sell well (Sam Spade, Dick Tracy) and then be made into films. Those images are the ones that lasted most, but they're not the only thing. "Gravelly private investigator in a trenchcoat" is not required for noir, even if I like it. (I do. A lot.)Ā
And the trench and gear? In the case of noir, it was often cheap, and often worn-down (*glares at jensen*), and utterly ordinary. It's working gear, not something fancy. It marked them out as separate and a bit rough.
Megan actually both subverts and plays into the femme fatale trope in ways I adore - it's like Eidos almost set out to make that trope make more psychological sense and be less misogynistic. A lot of writers use femme fatale tropes as an excuse to be misogynistic without realising that several noir writers were female, even if they were working under male pseuds, and used this as a subversion of the damsel in distress trope, because this was often the best they could get at the time. And that happened less than the Chandlers of this world, but it did happen as well as male writers doing the "she had legs that went on for miles" thing. Subverting it would be exactly the modern equivalent and the right thing to do. Noir is all aboutĀ subversion. It walked the line between being a very popular, sellable genre and one the government hated.
(Noir also doesn't have to be a murder mystery. But that's a whole other thing. And it's not just novels, serials, films or comics, it encompasses a whole... thing. It's not just venetian blinds and red lipstick. Those were just an easy shorthand.)Ā Ā
Hereās my theory: Like cyberpunk, and like a lot of later comics in the 70s and such, noir came about as a symptom of people no longer trusting their government and being terrified of what they saw as extremism and moral absolutes. Noir's heyday was the 20s to the 40s/early 50s, the Jazz Age and the fall of the Weimar Republic + the rise of fascism. And then with later 40s noir... America, pre-Greatest Generation mindset, saw this weirdness and then eventually saw its people dying. Add that to the Depression, Capone scandals and Prohibition basically growing gangsters from the ground-up, and you end up with people still scarred from economic hardship and systemic corruption, knowing that the cops didn't go into certain neighbourhoods, and trying to balance the fact that their mindset didn't entirely match the boom times of the 40s due to war imports happening around them. Noir was a healthy way of dealing with despair and a sort of... systemic "ugh." Cyberpunk and superhero comics kept this root. This idea that when the government and the police wouldn't help, sometimes someone else would, and this idea of trauma making you into a kind of, at the very least, anti-hero.
So this concept of a dark mood and score coming from the background societal oppression, of the exploited coming back as a hero because trauma has given them certain skills and a very particular perspective, of the hero being spat at everywhere they go and having the opportunity to be part of a corrupt system, whether or not they take it... and flappy trenchcoats... in a video game, the modern equivalent of the written-off comics and pulp novels at the time?
Yeah. I like it.
Cyberpunk always plays with some of the hallmarks of noir, but whether intentionally or not, the Deus Ex prequels got the spirit of the thing. It got that noir comes from corruption, and how easily real life can seem like a dystopia. Rather than skate over the oppression to get to the procedural mystery and cool metal arms the way a lot of cyberpunk does, it put that oppression front and centre. And then it chucked some cool wing motifs and an awesome soundtrack and Renaissance motifs in there, too. Of course I was in.
(Also, yes, the devs were waaay into Blade Runner. Most cyberpunk creators are. But somehow, whether by accident or not - I suspect by accident - they managed to tell a slightly more trad-noir story than BR did.)
#meta#ie me rambling#deus ex#adam jensen#deus ex human revolution#deus ex mankind divided#is it obvious i have favourite genres?#what do you mean 'yes'?#oi#'Deus Ex wouldn't exist without Prohibition'#'Wait what'#'why are you backing away...'#i also think jessica jones very much Got It Right
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So, I see you write in tags about your OCs. Could you tell us more about them?
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Iām going to answer for myĀ āmain sevenā/my favourites atm, AND for Var, Jose, Eva, and Claudia (these 4 are from a different original universe of mine than the āmain sevenā) bc Iāve been thinking about them a lot, BUT I have 25 OCs in totalā¦ itās just overwhelming to answer for all of them at once. I hope this is okay!! A main masterpost for all my OCs is coming soon in the new year if Tumblr survives that long!!
Joseph is a 25 year old man. Heās got blondish brown hair and blue eyes. He has anger management issues that are a sure fire way to get him into trouble. He is all too loyal and protective of the people he loves and can love very deeply, which can also get him into trouble. Heās reckless, impulsive, but his heart is always in the right place where his loved ones are concerned.Ā He has a daughter, Claudia, by his late wife who he loves more than anything in the whole world. He was raising her alongside his best friend, Var, before the apocalypse hit. He later becomes a part of a poly relationship with Var and Eva.
Varisse is also 25 year old. Heās got close-cropped black hair (and a few grey hairs to show the years heās spent putting up with Joseās shit), dark brown eyes and dark skin. He is patient, intelligent, and caring, the ying to Josephās yang. He tries to try to see both sides of an issue, almost too much so. He worked as a DJ before the apocalypse and he has a lifelong passion for musicā¦ though he canāt sing a straight note to save his life, heād be the first to tell you that, with a rueful smile. Heās known and been in love with Joseph since kindergarten, and was happy to raise Claudie alongside his best friend.
Eva is a 26 years old woman. She has fair hair, green eyes, and pale skin that burns very easily. She tries her best to be brave and level-headed but is far out of her depth, since sheās used to being a teacher and dealing with a bunch of 6 year olds, not hordes of ravening undead. She can still show spine when pushed to it, though, and is capable of ripping apart arguments and ego with no effort at all. She was Claudiaās teacher before and after the apocalypse and over that time developed a crush on both Varisse and Joseph. After they meet up again amid zombie-filled hardship, that crush developed even more and was quickly requited. Sheās out of depth as Claudiaās mother but is learning more each day, and is always a pillar of faith for her boys.
Claudia is Josephās 6 year old daughter. She may have her fatherās sandy-brown hair but otherwise sheās a spitting image of her mother, with her olive skin and hazel eyes (sheās cranky she didnāt get her dadās eyes). Sheās made up of pureĀ precocious intelligence and sass. She doesnāt take shit from anyone, least of all her dad; Varisse is the only person that can order her around and sheāll listen to no matter what. She has no problem with doing what sheās toldā¦ so long as that person asks her respectfully, she thinks itās a good/fun idea, and they donāt try to boss her around. She has her Dadās recklessness and will and her momās wit and cute face, not a great combination if youāre an authority figure, sheās a master manipulator. Sheās very proud of her dads and mom and will loudly support them.
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June is a demon. Theyāre agender, have black hair cut down to their chin, olive skin, black eyes, and an oval-shaped face with a sharper jawline. Theyāre covered in tiny crucifix-shaped scars all over, one in particular above their left eyebrow. Theyāre tiny (4ā²9) but armed with a mouth full of razor-sharp shark teeth, hands tipped in claw-like nails, and a ready willingness to use them. They dislike the features of the modern world and are generally a Grinch about everything. They only like about 2 people in the whole world. They believe complaining to be an art form and practice it - regularly. In a nutshell theyāre a bitter, cynical, PTSD-filled, cantankerous ball of apathy and hate. Theyāre the leader of Hellās pack of hellhounds. They were in a very abusive relationship with Mars but after a particularly horrific event, they left with Danteās help. They keep a lessor hellhound with them at all times as a companion; on earth, it takes the shape of a small black pug named Taco. They somehow mix not caring about anything and being very Extra. They sleep in expensive silk pajamas. Theyāre fond of red wine. They also love fast food - they particularly enjoy it when it runs. :) yes Juneās my favourite how can you tell
August is a drama queen angel. Theyāre genderfluid (they go mostly by gendered pronouns but since their gender isnāt clear or pointed out in most posts I make on Tumblr, I useĀ āthey/themā as a catch-all kind of thing.) Theyāre Asian in appearance but since angels are not natural humans, they have silvery-blonde hair down to their shoulder-blades and their eyes are a bright crystal blue (they hate looking so unusual though so most of the time they use dark contacts and hair dye to blend in with the humans.) Theyāre tall at 5ā²11 and they love elegant dresses. They excel at dancing (theyāve mastered all kinds but their favourite is ballet) and swordsmanship. They have AD(H)D but rather than sort it out like a normal person, they deny it and disguise it as them just not caring. They also have anxiety and struggle with overthinking. Theyāre somewhat (understatement) of an alcoholic due to the constant deaths of their mortal lovers from old age, while they themself remain unchanged. Theyāre aloof and think of themself as superior, though theyāre easily flustered if you try and can actually be quite clingy. Theyāre very emotional despite their shows of coldness in public.
Myriad is a demon. Theyāre also genderfluid and theyāre indifferent to pronouns. Theyāre very tall at 6ā²5, they have very dark skin, and wear their black hair in dreadlocks down to their shoulders. Their eyes change colours like a kaleidoscope, shifting eerily between shades of yellow, grey, blue, and green depending on the lighting and their mood. How they treat you depends entirely on how you treat them and others: if youāre kind, theyāll be fine with you, but if youāre a bad personā¦ well, they are the demon of punishment after all. They do have a soft spot for the small, the sweet, and the helpless and can be quite protective, but mostly theyāre entirely self-centred and act on their own whims. Theyāre quite sexually prolific. They enjoy pranks with malicious glee. Theyāre very physically intimidating. They have 2 sets of fangs, both potent, one full of a paralytic venom and the other an excruciatingly painful and lethal venom. They also have a harmless pet ball python named Albert and their favourite item of clothing is a soft knitted sweater with kittens on it. :D
Ben is a fallen angel/demon. He identifies as male. Heās medium to smallish height at 5ā²8. His facial features are quite plain, with a slightly crooked nose and a squarer chin. His eyes are calf-brown and his hair, the most noticeable thing about him, is wavy/loosely curly down past his ears and a bright, dark, unnatural red colour (though it is quite natural for him.) He fell in love with a demon and fell from heaven for her, but it turned out that she was tricking him and left him soon after. His angel grace is out-of-control since he is now technically a demon, and randomly bursts out of him every few months, obliterating everything around him with black fire. Despite how volatile he is, heās a very quiet person who keeps to himself. He has trust issues and is wary of people, and can be quite timid and easily embarrassed. He works on earth as a primary school teacher, since he loves kids and the demons in hell scorn him and he canāt return to heaven. His fashion sense is absolutely abyssal and he dresses like heās a 90 year old (technically heās older even than that but, come on, man, get with the times!) He is very, very depressed.
Ginger is a demon. She identifies as a girl and, unlike the others, who are all pansexual, she is mostly only attracted to girls. She is chubby and has carrot-orange hair (thus, the nickname-that-stuck-and-became-her-name-while-on-earth) and pale turquoise eyes. She doesnāt have a filter and loves very loudly, openly, and strongly. She has a big heart but that can be hard to see since she mostly only thinks of/about herself. She has a great need for speed and her version of heaven is being behind the wheel of a fast car. She has a hard time settling down and is constantly itching for her next adventure and/or challenge. She thinks of Ben as a big brother and constantly annoys him like a little sister; sheās the only demon who accepts him as one of them. For somebody who is so loud, she has a hard time really and truly expressing her feelings when she cares deeply about someone. If she has a crush, she is the stereotypicalĀ āteenager in loveā, stuttering and blushing bright red. She swears a lot, is pretty brash, and - you guessed it - has a strong Australian accent.
Mars is a stink man, evil horrible person, most hated OC an angel. He identifies mostly as male with some exceptions. He has white skin, cherubic blond curls, bright golden eyes, a kind, handsome face, and a charming smile. Heās also an abusive piece of shit . He often dallies with the mortals, luring in lovers with charm and sweetness, and then abusing them in every way possible before eventually killing them. If somebody refuses him, he hunts them down, murders their loved ones in front of them, before raping them and murdering them, too. Heās very possessive and volatile and will throw very dangerous tantrums when denied what he wants. Heās spoiled rotten and has never had consequences for his actions. He wears a ring adorned with a crucifix. Heās got an excellent sense of fashion and is very rich. Heās owned a great number of mansions throughout the years and still does, though he currently lives in a very expensive penthouse.
Dante is a demon - a hellhound, to be exact. He identifies as male, and is the only of the seven to have been born a human before being inducted to hell. Heās not very tall but is bulky due to pure muscle, Vietnamese in appearance, with brown skin and a large scar across his collar bone and shoulder like heād been savaged by a massive dog at some point (spoiler alert: thatās exactly what happened.) His black hair is cut short military-style. Heās second in command of the pack of hellhounds, under only June, who he sort of took under his wing after they left Mars, built them back up from the years of servitudeĀ and abuse. He cares about them more than anyoneā¦ That being said, that doesnāt mean he doesnāt call them out if he thinks theyāre making a dumb decision. They banter like siblings and he finds great delight in taking his life in his hands and messing up their hair. Heās fiercely loyal but strong willed and will only take orders that he thinks are good ones. A solider born and raised, from human life to demon existence. He loves adrenaline rushes and thinks all fun has to involve danger of some kind. Heās absolutely deadly in a fight, whether it be in his ānormalā form with its proficiency with all kinds of weaponry, or his hound form - a mountain of sheer muscle and terrifyingly large jaws. He shows affection in rough ways, such as headlocks and friendly punches, but make no mistake, he really cares. also his ears stick out a bit and he sleeps with his mouth open and hes actually kind of adorable
If you made it this farā¦ thank you so much. Getting questions/messages about my babies honestly keeps me going, soā¦ thank you!!!
#thank you#thank you thank you thank you thank you#it makes me so so happy when people take interest in my bbs#:')#<3#made my whole day#week#year!!!#:'DDDDD#Matt speaks#my OCs#Joseph#Claudia#Varisse#Eva#June#Myriad#August#Ben#Ginger#Mars#Dante#I ended up slipping up and roasting them occasionally woooops#X'D#I wasn't joking when I said that asking about them was the key to my heart#sorry for any typos!!!#I'm not good at re-reading/proof reading#my attention span is worse than Augi's#XD#tw: rape
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BASIC.
FULL NAME. John Constantine NICKNAME. officially, Conjob, mostly from his days on the punk scene. On the esoteric side of things he may be referred toĀ āThe Laughing Magicianā or, more derisivelyĀ āa petty dabblerā. BIRTHDAY. May 10 (by original Hellblazer canon, he was born in 1953, but Iāve taken it upon myself to adjust his birth year to some time in the early 70s give or take) ETHNIC GROUP. Ā Caucasian NATIONALITY. Ā English (with strongly implied deep Russian roots) LANGUAGE. Ā English, basic grasp of most major European languages, profound fluency in dead/magical/infernal languages SEXUAL ORIENTATION. Bisexual af RELATIONSHIP STATUS. Verse/continuity dependent, though this blog is fairly heavily multi-ship. However, it should be noted that on the MCU continuity, John is in an exclusive, committed relationship with Matt Murdock ( @dcviltongued ) CLASS. Middle to lower class. Is very good at getting fast money (scams, gambling, dealing in magic artifacts/antiques of questionable quality and veracity) so may appear to be better off at certain times HOME TOWN / AREA. Liverpool, England, but has been living in London since leaving the family home at 17. CURRENT HOME. Heavily verse/continuity/thread dependent. John is a frequent traveller. PROFESSION.Ā Somewhat verse/continuity dependent. Really itās just a matter of whether or not he charges for exorcisms or magic rituals. My personal endgame for John is legitimacy. Like becoming a preternatural PI (and sometimes mundane) for hire or whatever. As a general rule though, his profession is con artist. Heās never worked a honest dayās work in his life. The closest he ever got was when he was aĀ ārock starā. He could also be considered a professional gambler, patronizing horse tracks, underground card games, legal casinos, and I imagine can hustle at pool. Scams range from blackmail to using his reputation as an occultist to take advantage of people willing to pay for spell work.
PHYSICAL.
HAIR. Short and usually rather messy. He rocks bedhead pretty aggressively. May be shaved and very short on the sides and styled into a faux to actual mohawk. Heās very blonde despite not getting very much sun as a general.Ā EYES. Electric blue, often almost fever bright. Deep and captivating, extremely intense straight on. NOSE. difficult to pin down due to the range of styles in which John have been drawn. Usually broad and more or less regular, occasionally somewhat crooked from being broken, though by and large, itās portrayed as straight. Some artists, such as Moriat and Sean Murphy have drawn it as narrow and somewhat aquiline. I guess, I tend lean toward the former despite my deep love for Murphyās interpretation of John, simply because I feel like my choice in FC is somewhat based on Tim Bradstreet and Leonardo Mancoās artistic interpretations of John, both of which I honestly adore just as well. FACE. Yet another loooongĀ explanation here, Iām sorry. Artists tend to lean between giving him either a square face, classically handsome appearance (Steve Dillon, John Higgins, Ron Tiner, most of artists that have drawn him in the DC titles heās appeared in), a broader, more every man appearance (Sean Phillips, Leonardo Manco to some degree, though later proved quite capable of drawing him stunningly handsome, and Tim Bradstreet), however still attractive but somewhat more haggard, stubbled, and/or slightly seedy in appearance, and finally a sharper, more diamond shape to his face featuring high cheekbones, a pointed chin and fine bone structure (Sean Murphy, Marcelo Frusin, and Moriat). Once more, in reference to my face claim for John, I suppose I tend to favour a more classically handsome appearance, simply because I like the idea of him having a pleasant, almost trustworthy face given that he is a con artist and considered an extremely good one (sometimes even the greatest con artist alive but idk whatever), and I feel like looking as dodgy as say,Ā Frusinās interpretation, I canāt imagine him being as successful as he is, you feel me? That guy looks like heāll fuck you over for a corn chip. LIPS. Sensuous, faintly lined from his his smoking habit COMPLEXION. Ā Like any good Englishman that tends to move about by night and quite a bit dressed, Johnās very pale. I do think he has a faintly pronounced undertone of pink. This colour will get brighter when he gets drunk, aroused, angry, or the exceedingly rare instance that heās embarrassedĀ BLEMISHES. None SCARS. Aside from the scarification, which is better off detailed in the next section, and I ALWAYS FORGET TO MENTION THIS, he definitely has a long scar over one eye from a demon trying to cut it out with a blade. Since many magic rituals call for blood, I head canon that he also has faint scarring on his arms because he doesnāt practice human or animal sacrifice and his own blood instead.
TATTOOS. Arse tattoo of pine tree courtesy of Swamp Thing being a punk bitch, ritual tattoos faded into appearing as scarification. HEIGHT. 5ā²11 (184.34 cm) WEIGHT: prolly ranges between 150-160lbs (140 at his lightest) BUILD. Ā Long legs, somewhat of a broad upper torso, can be a bit soft in the middle. In general, heās rather thin but his musculature is not usually very defined. In other words, no big, sexy pecs or cut abs. If anything heās more sleek lines and narrow planes. ALLERGIES. Ā none USUAL HAIR STYLE. Freshly fucked USUAL CLOTHING. Dark suits, usually dark blue or black and trench coat, usually tan, has also been portrayed as black, yellow, or a mossy kinda green. In theory it could be said that these arenāt just differing interpretations from artists but that John owns coats in different colours, styles, and fabrics, but his favourite is the tan, longer style
PSYCHOLOGY.
FEAR. abandonment, amounting to nothing, not being able to protect those he cares about ASPIRATION. survival, making some kind of mark on this world, a measure of contentment POSITIVE TRAITS. Compassionate and determined, above all. Though not about to admit to it, he's still deeply idealistic. Strangely forgiving. He doesnāt really keep grudges. Loving, considerate, understanding, and rarely judgmentalĀ NEGATIVE TRAITS. Those good things up above? Theyāre encased in a shell of harsh cynicism and apathy. Depending on his mood or particular part of his life depends on how hard a shell he is to crack. He may also experience depressive periods where he doesnāt give a shit about anyone or anything and just wants to drink. VICE HABIT. Ā Chain smokes, drinks, frequency dependent on whatās up in his life, though I do not believe heās an alcoholic, sorry, because lol look, drinking a lot doesnāt mean you have a dependency.Ā Indulges in drugs infrequently, mostly hallucinogens and weed, though I also tend to head canon that he flirted with a cocaine habit while fronting Mucous Membrane.Ā FAITH. Ā Itās complicated GHOSTS? Duh. He seesĀ them plain as any living person AFTERLIFE? Ā Yeah, but uh, he doesnāt consider them eternal respites. Theyāre just planes of existence that he can either enter, leave, or pull people out. REINCARNATION? Maybe? ALIENS? I meeeeaannn....technically in DCU heās acquainted with the concept of aliens and may or may not have fucked Hal Jordan POLITICAL ALIGNMENT. Liberal ECONOMIC PREFERENCE. comfortableĀ SOCIOPOLITICAL POSITION. working class warlock EDUCATION LEVEL. Ā Predominately self-educated. His frightfully intelligent and has been cited as having genius level intellect. Although Iām not sure Iād go so far as confirm that, I do thing heās extremely clever and pragmatic. School bored him to tears and he was the type of kid the counselors and teachers sayĀ āexceedingly bright but unwilling to apply himselfā. He reads voraciously, has an eidetic memory, and isnāt afraid of putting himself in new situations.
FAMILY.
FATHER. Ā Thomas (dead, murdered by the Family Man) MOTHER. Ā Mary Anne (died in child birth) SIBLINGS. Ā Cheryl (murdered by husband, currently residing in Hell), an unnamed twin brother referred to as the Golden Child or Boy, the true heir to the Laughing Magician (stillborn, soul was later absorbed by John in trippy magic ritual, only to be expelled later in life when it was revealed that...uh...he was influencing Johnās destiny to be perpetually sabotaged.Ā Hellblazerās a weird comic, you guys) EXTENDED Ā FAMILY. Ā Gemma, his niece. They have a rather stormy relationship. Chas, his best mate. Lovers may also be included in this. NAME MEANING. John: Jehovah has been Gracious/Shown Favour (lmao) Constantine: Constant, steadfast, generally referred to asĀ āThe Constant Oneā
HISTORICAL CONNECTION. Is strongly implied that Johnās related, if perhaps distantly, to Constantine the Great.
FAVOURITES.
BOOKS. Ā Prefers non-fiction MUSIC. Rock music, most notably 70s and 80s era punk rock. Likes the Pogues. Given the stack of evidence that John skirts the edge of the Goth scene cos he likes the aesthetic on women, I have a feeling heās adopted into his music tastes. The Cure, Smiths, and Cocteau Twins in reference to an 80s mixtape John might make. Which i question the Smiths heavily, but The Cure and Cocteau Twins seems fairly legit. I bet Kit loved the Cocteau Twins. In that same vein of thought, although I tend to think John doesnāt like electronic music, he may have adopted some industrial bands into his preferences but heās not about to talk about ti any time soon. DEITY. Ā Whichever one doesnāt hate him HOLIDAY. Ā doesnāt care MONTH. same SEASON. Ā Fall PLACE. Ā London or New York, in the case of sentimentality that he will never be able to get back to, the years when he was bumming around Ireland with Brenden and Kit WEATHER. Overcast SOUND. Ā Heās a city boy through and through, even if he may get frustrated with society on a whole, so heās comforted by city sounds more than silence SCENT. Ā A freshly poured pint, the first cigarette of the day, skin and sex sweat TASTE. Ā Gin FEEL. Heās a sensualist. Body to body, breathing another personās breath, his please, another personās pleasure, his pleasure, all that good stuff. I also feel like he enjoys being drunk or stoned for the sake of having his thoughts dulled to a degree. Heās the sort of man who has lots of thoughts and situational observational input. John is basically perpetually mentally overstimulated and he likes the relief from that in inebriation. ANIMAL. Ā FoxĀ NUMBER. Ā hahaha idea numerology man COLOUR. Ā warm and neutral tones
EXTRA.
TALENTS. So many. Heās a jack of all trades in a lot of ways. He can pick a lock, displays some artistic talent in that he can draw very intricate magic circles and sigils, if you consider that John wrote Venus of the Hardsell, heās clearly got some ability to express himself in lyrics and words, i like to think he can play guitar, is apparently good with delicate craftsmanship (he used to help Dani build furniture for her dollhouses. This is canon by the way), suppose you could say he can sort of sing, but thatās debatable, and of course heās very manipulative and speaks very well, is educated enough to be able to bullshit through various situations. TURN ONS. Total ass man, loves a great ass on a man or woman, dark hair, dark eyes, strong men, heās a switch, but loves being manhandled and dominated to a degree, by either gender, honestly, danger, open affection, being wanted, loved, and cherished. So many things, honestly. John Constantine is easy. TURN OFFS. Ā Hardcore kink HOBBIES. Sleep, pub crawls, pretending heās normal, reading TROPES. Con man with a heart of gold, charming bastard, unrepentant rogue, urban magician, supernatural detective, living legend AESTHETICS. smoke, chalk dust, wind and rain swept streets, London after midnight, narrow, dark alleys, haunted places, rumpled bed sheets, messy hair, dive bars, wicked smiles, deep kisses
FC INFO.
MAIN Ā FC. Ewan McGregor // comic caps from various issues heās appeared ALT Ā FC. Keanu Reeves for my filmverse OLDER Ā FC. Donāt have one as yet YOUNGER Ā FC. Ewan McGregorĀ Ā VOICE Ā CLAIM. Ā Jason Stathem
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Therapy Is Weird Part 1
The main reason I decided to start this blog is because my therapist knows I love writing. She had been having me go in once every week from the start of June to around the end of September, now itās only once every two or three weeks. Weāll call her W for the sake of anonymity. Sheās definitely unlike any other therapist Iād ever been to and thatās certainly a good thing. W is not my first therapist and, since I plan to move out of state in the coming years, she definitely wonāt be my last. My history with therapy has certainly been a tumultuous one.
I donāt want to go into my life story in just one post since itās pretty long and strange, especially when Iām hoping to expand upon it little by little in various posts. The most Iāll talk about in this post is my last few years of high school and the time afterwards.
It probably will sound like a presumptuous or weird thing to say, but for some reason people who are unfortunate are drawn to me. My friend group at the time consisted of ādelinquentsā, but who were really just people dealing with a lot of negativity. Most of them were either abused at home for one reason or another (most of my friends were queer), came from broken families, or were very poor. As a result, they sold drugs to support their family or ran in gangs, but no one was ever cruel to me or pressured me to do anything. If anything, when I came out about not being straight (at the time I thought I was a lesbian) and talked about my depression, they tried to help the best they could. Sometimes it was not always in the best ways.
Before I had told anyone about any of that, I had taken to burning my legs with a lighter. As a kid, it didnāt feel like I was actually hurting myself because I was not cutting my arms like someone who āreallyā self-harmed. It also helped me hide the scars because I refused to wear anything other than pants. Still, I was curious about the sensation of cutting and part of me felt like I was faking if I didnāt ādo it rightā. I lied to a friend that I was being threatened and, without a second thought, she gave me a ceramic blade and a razor. Looking back on it now, she wanted to protect me so I canāt blame her for forgetting about my depression or even not really considering it. And, as we went to a public school that was barely a step below a private school, she knew from experience that the teachers would not take anyone who wasnāt top of the class seriously. So I took the blades, intent on using them that night, but I never did.
It was a conflicting emotion, knowing subconsciously that I WAS harming myself with the lighter, but also feeling like I was a fake if I wasnāt cutting, but ALSO terrified of āactuallyā self-harming with a blade. Instead, the blades stayed in my purse and I forgot about them. Unfortunately, it bit me in the ass later.
The school I used to go to had an area outside the cafeteria where you could hide under the building. Sometimes one or two people would skip to go down there and smoke, but there was a time when at least a dozen kids decided to hang out down there as well. Obviously, we all got caught, me with a cigarette in one hand and a spray can for tagging in the other. As a result, everyone got marched down to the office. Honestly, with such a pristine image, Iām still shocked it never made the paper that over ten kids were caught skipping and smoking weed and cigarettes. The conspiracy theorist in me believes they hushed it up with all the money the school gets from the rich kids who go there, but thatās a story for another time.
It was mortifying sitting in the office. Despite my behaviour, I was a top student and most definitely an insufferable teacherās pet. So, when the school police officer called my name into the principalās office, I could have died right there. The sensation sitting in the small room with the principal who had given me awards across the way from me and a police officer glaring at me was heavy. When the officer demanded to search my bag for illicit material, I handed it to him without question. Even if I had known my rights back then, the fear inside of me was too much to bear.
The principal began scolding me, demanding why I was hanging out with my friends when I had such a bright future ahead of me. He went on and on about how they were ruining my life and that he would be forced to expel me because of my illegal behaviours. It was then that the officer pushed his way into the conversation and help my razor blade up to my face. āAre you cutting yourself?ā he demanded. My heart sank into my belly and, even though I hadnāt been, I nodded yes because I had certainly wanted to and I knew about my burning.
Of course he found my ceramic and my stash of cigarettes and my lighter, too, but he kept eyeing my razor. It felt like the tone of the room had changed when he held it out for the principal to examine. āAre you depressed?ā It was such a blunt question and I felt ashamed when I nodded. I donāt remember what was said at that point, only that they talked to each other and sent me out to wait for my parents. The look on my parentsā faces was horrible and they said nothing as they waited for all of us to go into the office together.
The principal and the officer relayed what happened to my parents, saying a group of kids were found skipping and doing drugs. The one thing I donāt recall is if they mentioned that I had been smoking and tagging the school. Looking back, they might have worried I was being abused at home and that it might be worsened if my parents found out. Instead, the officer held up the razor and proclaimed that I had been cutting and confessed to having depression. The principal said he would be willing to suspend me instead of expel me if I went to therapy in the time I was out of school. He said it was because I was, otherwise, a good student, but the cynical part of me feels like he didnāt want the idea that someone was self-harming to become public knowledge. Sure, he could have been compassionate with me, but if that was the reason why I was given a lighter sentence, it made no sense to me that people who wereĀ āmoreā depressed than me DID get expelled.
Regardless, my parents were shocked, but they, of course, agreed to the terms. My father was military so if I caused trouble, he could have potentially face issues at work. I donāt know if the principal had said that I needed to be ābetterā before coming back, but the thought that that needed to happen was seared into my brain.
It was difficult to leave the office with my parents, not because I felt shame in walking in front of my peers out of the building, but because I was terrified at what my parents would say to me when we were alone.
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InuYasha, Full Metal Alchemist, and Yu-Gi-Oh! Match-Up Request
May I please have a match-up for these fandoms? :) Thank you very much :D
Name: Corethra (or Corey for short)
Age: 25
Gender: Female
Sexual Orientation: Heterosexual
Occupation: Hand Packer at an ice cream factory. I work 12 hours (5:30pm to 6am) 2-2-3.
Birthplace: Memphis, TN, USA. I was raised in the neighborhood called Frayser which is the most impoverished area in Memphis and has a high crime rate as expected.
Zodiac Sign: Pisces (born March 2)
Chinese Zodiac: Year Of The Pig
MBTI Type: INFJ
Alignment: Lawful Neutral
Hogwarts House: Slytherin
Love Language: Acts Of Service
Race/Ethnicity: African-American
Height: 4'11 (Call me short and Iāll kick your butt!)
Body Type/Shape: Average but well developed figure at best. I weigh about 158 lbs and am pretty insecure about my body.
Hair Color/Style: Black and naturally curly but I keep it flat-ironed so itās straight. Itās long and goes down to just below my shoulder blades. There are times when I will have braids put in of various lengths.
Glasses or No?: Yes I wear glasses
Eye Color: Brown
Dress Style: I usually dress up in a casual way, just throwing on whatever looks good at the time but I will sometimes put in the effort when the time calls for it or when Iām in a good mood. I have an affinity for the punk, emo, and goth styles and I rarely wear feminine clothes but I will wear something risky every once in a while.
Hobbies/Interests: Video games, reading, writing, anime, internet surfing, listening to music, politics (sometimes), watching movies/TV shows, basically being an overall nerd. Iām usually either on my laptop or one of my many video game consoles if Iām not on my phone or reading one of my books.
Dislikes: Ignorance, stupidity, restriction, manipulation/gas-lighting, bullying, humanity, not being understood, corruption/injustice, close-mindedness
Personality: At first glance, I seem quiet and keep to myself, only speaking when I need to or when Iām spoken to. Iām an anti-social introvert to the fullest and donāt care much for small talk or going out. I prefer to have deeper conversations. When I get comfortable enough in whatever environment Iām in, I start to open up bit by bit. Iām a tomboy and pretty rough-minded as well as stubborn. Iām very sassy, have a smart, sarcastic, and witty mouth if not humorous and outrageous at times, can be borderline rude, and Iām more sensitive than I care to be. I can literally cry at someoneās suffering especially if itās someone Iām close to or even a total stranger. Iām very empathetic and my heart is bigger than what most people would expect. Most people describe me as quiet, intelligent, creative, dorky, a smartass, and really sweet. I love a good laugh and have an open sense of humor to boot.
Many of my friends say that Iām very sweet and kind which I usually am if Iām in a good mood as well as affectionate as hell. Hugs and pet names galore with me! However only my friends and family see that side of me. My language is often unfiltered, harsh, foul, and blunt which shocks people because they think Iām a pure angel. I say what I want when I want and no one tells me otherwise. If they do, they can expect a mouthful from me. Iām an escapist and very imaginative, can be a bit scatterbrained at times, and Iām methodical and detailed to the point of perfectionism. Iām usually a walking contradiction in terms of personality in so many ways to the point where the real me is almost impossible to decipher. To make matters more complicated, Iām not very good at expressing myself verbally and prefer to let my actions do the talking. I also express myself better through written form.
I have many pet peeves and I get annoyed easily in general. Iām also slowly embracing misanthropy and nihilism but I can be pretty idealistic so it balances out. Iām practically zero tolerance when it comes to bullshit. I hate confrontation and conflict but Iām starting to work on it so I can be less passive-aggressive and more assertive. I also wish to stand up for myself more often than I should so people wonāt think that Iām weak and an easy target. Iām pretty cynical which is to be expected and usually expect the worst from people. When someone angers me, I will either just withdraw altogether and completely cut them off (slam the door basically) or get in their face and go off before doing the former. Iām the āhold my anger in and release it all at onceā type but I hope to change that one day and stop letting things fester before they get out of hand. I can be quite petty and even cold as well and if someone wrongs me, they will have to make the first move to mend fences. I refuse to apologize if Iām not in the wrong and I will not accept gaslighting/guilt tripping. I also refuse to change for others and will admit to having quite a lot of pride but thatās mostly due to me not wanting to be hurt and manipulated, mistreated, or used.
I have issues with trust and a wild imagination to boot. I usually trust my instincts and can see right through bullshit. I donāt like taking risks and I have to know all the details when I do something so I donāt mess up and look like an idiot. I am indeed a perfectionist and introverted to a fault which often prevents me from trying new things and going outside my comfort zone. I havenāt been in a relationship yet and am still a virgin due to my issues with trust and not wanting to be hurt or humiliated as well as being quite picky/perfectionistic with the people I allow in my life. I have high standards for both people and myself although Iām pretty laid-back and my dislike of conflict allows me to also take a lot of shit from people too before I eventually say āfuck itā and slam the door or go off on them. I donāt think very highly of myself and can sometimes fall into a period of self-hatred and self-pity.
Many people praise me for my intelligence which is fitting since Iām an intellectual. My ideals and beliefs are rather odd to say the least (Iām a classical liberal/independent and despise most ideologies/ideas. This includes religion, feminism, social justice, traditionalism, statism, big government, nationalism, socialism/communism, etc.) and I feel misunderstood because of it (mostly because of the black community ostracizing me). I am indeed a rebel, open-minded, and a free thinker. No one tells me how to think or feel or else they face my wrath. I highly value power over myself and I think itās the most important thing that a person needs in order to survive. I am definitely an outcast at heart and I often distance myself from others and donāt like talking about my feelings or beliefs because I think most people lack the ability/capacity to understand me. Before I give my opinion on something, I like to do as much research as possible as well as look at things from all perspectives before coming to my own conclusion. I donāt mind discussing things but I prefer logic over emotion when doing so which makes it damn near impossible these days for me to have an real conversation without insults and threats being thrown (usually towards me). Chances are Iām gonna find something wrong with damn near anything someone believes in or says and Iām not afraid to call it out when I see it. Once I do open up and express how I feel, the gates of passion will open up and never close. I also have high morals and values and stick to my guns no matter what which can make me pretty stubborn at times.
Iām currently battling depression and often experience many symptoms of it including suicidal thoughts and depression spells. I also suffer from iron-deficiency anemia as well. These things are pretty annoying for me to deal with whenever they flare up.
Overall, Iām pretty crazy and a handful to deal with. Good luck matching me up with someone :P
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Out of all the charactsers in fullmetal alchemist I can definitely see Scar as being someone that would truly appreciate you! If we just skip by the homicidal tendencies, he would be such a gentle lover! I feel we would really appreciate your body and your appearances to the absolute maximum, I can definitely see Scar as someone who would constantly compliment you, especially if you are feeling pretty insecure one day! He was also love the you wear glasses; not because he likes people that where glasses, but only because you just look too damn cute in them!
He also hates people who are arrogant and mean manipulative to get what they want, so I feel you two could really bond on that! As for personality, I feel that Scar would compliment your stubbornness and cockiness. He will also the love the fact that you say what is on your mind, and can be a little sarcastic when you want to be! He thinks it is a little sexy to him, how you stand up for yourself and donāt take shit from nobody, even from him sometimes. He will see that you strong and independent when you need, but can also become very empathetic and cry tears of sadness for anything and anybody that has experienced anything bad in their life.Ā
Scar is the same way when it comes to being verbally affectionate; he is really not good with words, but he is great with actions. So seeing as you are the same way as him, he will really appreciate and love the fact that you wouldnāt judge him for it! He will feel accepted around you, you will make him feel safe to be himself and show you his vulnerable side, so that he isnāt alone anymore, you will be there for him. When he needs to cry, you will be there to be his shoulder to cry on, you will be his crutch when he needs help standing up. He will love the fact that you give hugs and petnames; every time you call him something different in an affectionate way, it will go straight to his heart, and make him feel like he is walking on water or flying high up in the clouds.
This stoic demon will be the one for you! He will love how you look, though he hates human, he will make an exception for you! The most enthralling part he will find about you, is your hair and how curly it is. He will love how it looks if a breeze comes by and rustles it, making it move beautifully. As for physicals, he wouldnāt care much for it, all that matters is that you are strong and can take care of yourself without needing someone elseās help, for the most part! He will see that you are independent and can take no shit from anybody, and he will find that very admirable, and something he would definitely cherish in a lover.
He will love how sarcastic you are, and how on the other side of it you can be the nicest person, when they deserve it. He will see how emotional you can be, and how you can cry for anything and think it is very cute; charming in a way, since it is something that he canāt really understand. He will understand that you arenāt affectionate in the verbal sense, but more in the written and body language sense, and honestly, he would like that better then you constantly telling him how you feel about him. He would find that quite annoying.
He will see that sometimes you can be down on yourself, and he will try to make sure that you are okay, or will try to sheer you up. Key word, try, here. Most of the time he fails, but the efforts wouldnāt go unnoticed. Itās the effort that would help the most, because it shows that he cares and that he wants you happy and not so self loathing. He will try to tell you that you are much more than your insecurities and then list all the great things about you. And then once he was done, he will just walk away because, wow, that was embarrassing even more for him. He doesnāt usually go on rants like that. Especially to help someone.
But all in all, I feel Sesshomaru would be the perfect man, for you, since he has the same ideal as you, would love how you keep more to yourself in an introvert way, but at the same time can be super affectionate when you want to be. Someone who can teach him what it means to feel and have emotions. To cry when you feel sad and laugh when something is amusing to him. You are the one for him!
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Itās to the absolute surprise of no one that initially meeting, you both donāt start off on the right foot. With how energetic and confrontational he can be, Joey isnāt necessarily the best when it comes to making friends quickly. Thus, the relationship you both have in the beginning starts off rocky.Ā
With time though, and a lot of assurance from your friends and his friends, you both interact with one another properly in neutral terrain where you can both get to know one another without jumping the gun too quickly. Itās through this that Joey begins to slowly garner a crush for you. He loves your stubborn and rough minded self as it not only correlates well with his, but serves as a sort of reminder / signal to him that not only should he try to tone it down, but try to keep you from blowing up unnecessarily. Though this doesnāt work often as you both donāt hesitate to double team on someone with wit and sarcastic comebacks.
He loves your snark and your blunt way of speaking. As someone who never enjoyed it when people blatantly lied or beat around the bush with him, he appreciates the sharp honesty you provide for him. Though of course this wonāt be one sided as heāll be sure to give you his own thoughts and opinions.Ā
Overall, Joey may be rough around the edges, but heās loyal to a fault and wonāt hesitate to help you overcome any obstacle. No matter how big or small. Heās adamant in becoming your boulder in those bouts of spells and will alwaysĀ remind you that no matter what heāll be there for you.
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