#I love how much spirk was in this collection

[hopecomesbacktolife]

just finished reading Star Trek: The New Voyages and I just— 🥹

this book made me cry so many times (and laugh too though!) oh my god. I wish I could say thank you a million times to Sondra Marshak and Myrna Culbreath for compiling these stories into this book, and to the TOS actors for their lovely contributions in writing prefaces for the fics, as well. what a lovely collection ♡

[star-trek-fandom-confessions]

#1148

i think confessions blaming the slash fandom for the hate some female characters got, came from the AOS movie in 2009 with the hate of Nyota Uhura by the Spirk fandom and maybe before with DS9 with the hate Keiko O'Brien had because of the O'brien/Bashir shipper. There are probably other female character but those are the one who get the worst. And people are like "you all blame the slash fandom for the way female character are threated." And yes, we do. I never forget what the Spirk fandom did . I never forget your hate, the awful things you say about the actress. You were a damn true collective and now you hate it when we brought back the topic? You want us to what... move on? Nyota Uhura was more than a random female character, she was a symbol. Nichelle Nichol's involvement went far more than just being an actress. She worked with the NASA, she helped young black women to get in this field. I don't care if the new spirk generation is nicer or love Nyota. After the hate Nyota got, I feel like the writers were holding her focus in the movies and now they are holding her in SNW. Her screentime as well as her plot isn't that much. She had some moment, but as the iconic character she was in TOS, she doesn't get as much she deserved. And the fact the minutes they brought back Jim Kirk in the show made the fandom focus on Spirk, made me think we'll have to wait a long time until we have the version of Nyota Uhura her fans deserve. So I cancelled spirk. I'm against this ship and I don't care about their so call queer subtext. I held the Spirk fandom responsible for the writing issues with Nyota Uhura. Maybe I'll be less mad if some of those fans took accountability that their ship is build upon the hate of an iconic black character. But it's 2024, and they didn't get the memo. I was only a teenager in 2009 when I read all those hate against Nyota Uhura, I still didn't forget the post and some of those people are still on tumblr. They moved on, became pro feminist, pro queer and apparently I'm supposed to do the same lol. I don't know how it really was for Keiko O'Brien,I didn't watch the show when it was aired and was young at the time. But some of the post I found about her were awful. Any slash fandom should questions their internalized hate against female character and specially non white female characters. And they should do it as a collective. They should bring all their old post and saying what was wrong. Because we had in fact many interesting female characters since at least the 60, despite sexist issues. But the one who hate the most the female characters are women slash shippers. Thanks for reading this.

[affixjoy]

I’ve read a few fics lately with some great timey wimey premises so if that’s your jam you might also enjoy them!

If I missed your fav please share in the comments! I love this sort of thing and will always want to read more.

Some Version Of You by @ncc1701ohno

Summary: Bones is stuck in a time loop and stuck in his room. With Jim. He's forced to admit how intense this thing between them has gotten, how much he feels for Jim, even as he's been falling in love with Spock.

Does what happens in a time loop stay in a time loop?

Thoughts: I’m a sucker for time loops and this is just such a great short look at it with academy era McKirk.

Highlights: the angst! The longing! THE END!

It Ends Or It Doesn’t by @muirmarie

Summary: McCoy dies, and Kirk breaks his hand on a wall. Kirk dies to save McCoy, and McCoy breaks his hand on Spock's face for not stopping him. Spock dies, and he doesn't have to see what happens next, because the day resets. The day keeps resetting. McCoy keeps dying.

Thoughts: these self sacrificing idiots just love each other so much and I love THEM!

Highlights: there’s a loop towards the end where they accept what is happening and it’s probably my favorite part of this fic.

Grief As A Four Dimensional Figure by @jennelikejennay (moreta1848)

Summary: "One might arguably say it is not fully logical to care whether I cannot return to Vulcan because it no longer exists or because it is separated from me permanently in five-dimensional space.”

“No, I think I get it,” said Jim. “Like, I haven’t gone back to the old house in Iowa in years, but I do like knowing it’s there. If my mom sold it and it got knocked down, it would make a difference to me.”

The ambassador nodded. “Likewise, even in four-dimensional space, we are separated from the things we have lost only by distance—by the fact that we cannot easily travel along the timeline.” He marked out a section of his timeline, then a dot further back in the bottom timeline—Jim’s timeline. “My marriage is here. I am here, in a different timeline and at a different time. But my marriage exists. It is a figure in four-dimensional space which will continue to exist, in that sense, eternally. So long as the timeline does not collapse, it is a permanent part of history. So although I do not have my spouse with me, I know that he existed. That somewhere, in a time and a dimension I cannot go, we are meeting for the first time. That somewhere, I am asleep in his arms.”

Thoughts: I rarely like aos as much as tos fics, but this one worked so so well for me.

Highlights: every reference to the one with the whales, all the feelings about Amanda, all of Spirk’s big feelings about each other.

Way From Within by @gunstreet and @justveeing

Summary: Jim and Spock are assigned together for a rescue mission, and in the exhilarating aftermath, their attraction to each other comes bubbling to the surface. But the next day Spock is surprisingly distant, and the rest of the morning starts to seem eerily familiar to Jim...

Written by gunstreet and illustrated by lorvee, this is a K/S timeloop story in the vein of Palm Springs or Groundhog Day.

Thoughts: pretty sure we all collectively lost our minds about this one when it came out a few months ago, but if you haven’t read it yet it is GREAT. All the fun time loop tropes I love with Kirk and Spock at the center.

Highlights: the art is so good! I love seeing these scenes illustrated!

Happy reading everyone! 🖖

[jaybejaybenot]

tagged by @patheticjayce - thanks for the tag :)

whats the origin of your blog title?

i heard viktors va saying it and its been on loop in my mind ever since. i say it to myself when im trying to decide on things. when i made this sideblog i needed a name and was like "well that works" and then it wasn't taken so it was perfect

otp(s)/shipnames:

in arcane, jayvik of course but also zaundads and caitvi. outside of arcane, gotta be spirk and garashir man i love those aliens

favorite color:

red

favorite game:

rdr2, hands down. im a horse girl at heart

song stuck in my head:

a horrible mix between abracadabra and sharks with legs

weirdest habit/trait:

uhh man idk, i drink hot coco in the summer to cool off and i have a truly absurd amount of freckles on my body (i got bored once during SAT testing and counted 583 on my just forearms)

hobbies:

so so many; i'm an equestrian, photography, drawing, writing, book binding, chainmail making, and atm im reading two copies of the odyssey to see where the differences are. those are my main ones at the moment but i've dabbled in so many things lol

if you work, what's your profession?

i work in an entomology museum imaging bees and moths for an international database - i am not an entomologist tho, this just pays the bills and is really cool so i've gotten interested in it as a bonus

if you could have any job, what would you do?

im studying for my bachelors in archaeology so ideally somewhere in a museum doing experimental archaeology work but honestly, dream job would be cattle herding or helping on a horse ranch. i managed a horse farm for a year and god it was the best, my mind is made for manual labor. unfortunately my body would break into shards if i tried it professionally but dream job if i could

something you're good at:

i'm weirdly good at cooking, i can just wing it and come up with something that tastes really good. i made a really good cornbread once but didn't use corn and was actually trying to make a brownie brick so 💅🏼 call me chef boy arby

something you're bad at:

i'm atrocious at focusing. the senioritis is hitting so hard, i can't focus on anything at the moment, even stuff i like. outside of that, im so bad at knowing when to quit. i'm a perfectionist and completionist at heart

something you love:

kindness, the smell of rain and snow before it does, music, horses, people honking in tunnels, my roommates - really hit the jackpot with them they're amazing. i also love committing to the bit, i will do anything for that payoff

something you could talk about for hours off the cuff:

star trek, and spirk. i could literally write a thesis length paper about spirk and how misinterpreted they are in the modern trek era (mostly kelvin timeline, disco/snw is still too new to say for sure) its infuriating. i also have a spreadsheet on them cuz i got really in the weeds a few years back. and honestly i could tie them in with arcane/jayvik now that i think about it, there are definitely some parallels i could draw. oh and also greek mythology i love it so much

something you hate:

people who can't admit they're wrong/don't know/don't like not being the expert on things and who can't apologize. grew up with a dad that was like this so now i try to keep people like that at arms length cuz it fucked me up so bad as a kid

something you collect:

books, coins, bugs, postcards, keychains

something you forget:

so much, i have pretty bad memory problems so i forget a lot of things. i have to ask people about things multiple times so often, its such a pain (and also lowkey scary cuz its a fairly recent development)

whats your love language?

gift giving/acts of service, i love doing things for people or getting them things they want/need especially when they aren't expecting it, or mentioned it offhand or in passing

favorite movies/shows:

star trek - except for that fucking section 31 movie fuck that thing, arcane, rosencrantz and guildenstern are dead, stardust, starcrash, the little prince, silverado and clearcut

favorite food:

mangoes, mini bagels, and this kimchi dip i get at my local farmers market

favorite animal:

horses, cats and whales; got multiple tattoos of all of them

what were you like as a child:

outgoing, friendly, kind of an outsider, definitely the weird kid tho - closet queer meets so much undiagnosed stuff + warrior cats obsession + small christian town lmaooo i was cringe but i was free

favorite subject at school:

history and art are tied, which isn't too surprising given where i am now lmao

least favorite subject:

in my heart i want to love math but math does not love me </3

best character trait:

ive been told i'm really friendly and warm, and would give my shirt to a friend who needed it, and i'm a good listener

worst character trait:

awkward as fuck, i don't know how to talk with people i don't know so i come off as standoffish/shy, i have a hard time being honest with people and trusting people due to childhood trauma (also daddy issues out the wazoo)

if you could change any detail about your life right now, what would it be?

probably just making a bit more money, i can afford rent and such but it doesn't leave much extra for things like tuition and books and things i want to do for myself and it means money is very tight so when things go wrong i'm set back for months. i can't plan for a lot of future things like top surgery or moving abroad to get my masters because of it

if you could travel in time, who would you meet?

funny answer: ea-nasir

serious answer: i'd want to meet a neanderthal or denisovan. i just... i think about them so much, and i love them and i want to know what they were like, did they speak like us? how did their world work? could we communicate?

ok i would tag mutuals but i made this blog like 3 months ago so i don't have any others atm, and all my other mutuals are on my main blog and have been my mutuals/friends for years so if you want to join just hop on!

[stanelma]

hello!!! Hope you’re doing well. Was looking through your old vids of spirk. How many albums have you made so far? 🖖🏼

That's a good question. I'm not sure how to count them. I made my first album at spring 2020, I wanted to collect memories over the corona time and it sounded to good idea to collect them at the album. So it was first one, but there was not a lot of mechanisms in it.

The next one was a little Spirk album, well it is not little, but it was not so big as my albums now a days. There was more mechanismis, but not so much pop up elements. After that album I fell in love of pop up mechanisms, so everything after that has been more and more pop up's and harder and harder mechanisms. Now I know how they work and how to create them, and it is fun! And frustraiting.

I think that I had made maybe nine or ten pop up -albums, and they are more like books now a days. And there will be more. My next work will be snack, it's theme is Alice in Wonderland and I will be use old calenders and stuff like that - I'm not sure if I share that one here - of course, if people want to see something like that I can show it to you.

And after season 2 of Our Flag Means Death I will defenitely do a new album/book.

[sarah-skylark]

This summer will mark the 35th year I’ve been into Star Trek. 35 years of fangirling TOS and TNG and everything else that came after. Which also means 34 years of shipping Spirk, even though those first few years it was more me thinking- wow, if one of them was a girl, this would be a love story!!! ( it was the 80s, people, and I was being raised hardline catholic).

So I was 11 and a half and I stayed overnight at my friend’s house a weekend she was at her mom’s and not dad’s house. She spent the two weeks before at her dads and came home obsessed with the Star Trek movies (ALL 4 of them!!!!!). She wanted me to see them. We rode our bikes past the (faaaaaar too expensive) blockbuster to the Pharmor grocery near Midway airport in Chicago to rent the tapes, made a bunch of popcorn and watched I, II, III, and IV all night.

I was hooked. Around the same time, my mom passed away after a cancer diagnosis. Star Trek became my comfort. In the world of Star Trek, my mom could have lived, I thought. They would have cured her.

I interlibrary loaned VHS tapes of the original series and tried to find it on TV. I started reading and buying the books from Crown books (which I could also get to on bike). I saw V and VI in the movie theater and had enough money to buy collectables when VI came out. I got all the cups from 7-11. I clipped articles in the paper. I sewed my own next generation uniform (red, though sciences were my thing). I made tribbles and sold them in a spot at the comic shop. I subscribed to the magazine and found pen pals in the back pages.

I discovered the existence of zines, and by the time I was in high school, I’d learned the comic book lady would have OMG SLASH zines she’d bring back from cons (which I didn’t/couldn’t go to) that i could ask for by asking if she had anything featuring The Premise.

(Remember that part where I said I was raised hardline catholic? Hahahahahaha yeah I was a bisexual teen not knowing what that was reading mostly Kirk/Spock hurt comfort. or even OT3 with bones. Yeah. That would’ve gone well if discovered).

I made a radio play parody where captain Pecan was protecting federation twinkies from Klingons and Ferengi and used the score music from IV and III in the background. ( Wesley got lost on the ship running around to the music from chekov’s run, fun times)

I made a part of a video where I turned my living room into the enterprise bridge made out of poster board. My friends grew out of Star Trek and I only had more fun with it.

Years after this, my dad remarried and while I was living in an apartment and going to college, stepmom threw out my entire Star Trek collection I had at home. I only had my 6 VHS movies, my scrapbook, a small amount of my own art, my pins, and the books Ishmael, How Much for Just the Planet, uhura’s song, Spock’s world, dwellers in the crucible, killing time, and doctors orders. Everything else, gone. All my zines, my books, my art, the model enterprise… gone. About 15 years later, I also discovered my card collection while cleaning out my dad’s trailer after he passed. They probably thought it’d be worth money.

—

It’s a different world now. I have my own things. I have kids, some of who are grown. I married a Star Wars fan (hilarious in many ways as we are fans of both now though I added Stargate to my fangirling to make a trifecta). I can find friends on the internet with the same ridiculous sense of humor as I have and the same geeking out I do. And I have new content getting created all the time to enjoy for the foreseeable future.

What a great time to be a long-term Star Trek fan.

Though I sure wish I still had those 7-11 cups.

[startrekfangirl2233]

Get to know your moots!

Thanks for the tag @desert-fern! I love learning more about my moots!

This is long, so I'm sticking most of this behind the Read more!

What’s the origin of your blog title? - I started my primary tumblr blog way, way before I ever started writing. And as I'm sure you can guess, I started this blog off as a Star Trek one. I made up my primary tagging scheme and everything for it back when I created this blog!

OTP(s) + ship names - My longest OTP has been Spock/Jim (Spirk) and an OT3 is Spock/Jim/Bones (aptly called McSpirk)!

Favourite Colour - Purple! I love the bluer purple shades!

Favourite Game - I play video games once in a while. I've played most of the Pokemon games (on DS and Nintendo Switch) as well as Legend of Zelda and a few others!

Song stuck in your head - Don Quixote by SEVENTEEN and Selfish by Justin Timberlake (they've been switching off in my brain for like 2 weeks)

Weirdest habit/trait - I have a weird (hyper-organized) way of organizing my WIPs.

Hobbies - Writing. Reading. Hanging out with my family.

If you work, what’s your profession? - I'm a Software Engineer!

If you could have ANY job, what would it be? - I would love to be a novelist!

Something you’re good at - I'm not sure I'm good at it, but programming/logical reasoning. I wish I could say I'm a good writer, but I'm 100% a work in progress.

Something you’re bad at - Being patient

Something you love - Food, Music (KPOP)

Something you could talk about for hours off the cuff - Star Trek (I can and have spent hours talking about it). Books,

Something you hate - Repeating myself (See lack of patience up above) 😓

Something you collect - Books I never seem to read. Wires (this is accidental)

Something you forgot - Where the hell I put my discontinued Halloween Beanie Baby

Love language? - Quality Time. Good conversations. Hugs

Favorite movie/show - Star Trek (Movies - AOS, Almost all of the TV Shows)

Favorite food - Pumpkin!

Favorite animal - Elephants

What were you like as a child? - I was a bookish tomboy. I couldn't play a sport to save my life, but I would 100% spend all day staring at the guts of a robot if I could.

Favourite school subject - Math and English

Least favorite subject - Physics.

What’s your best character trait - I'm kind and caring. I love getting to know people.

What’s your worst character trait - I’m impatient and quick to anger. Most of the time, I'm just as quick to forgive, but when someone hits me where it hurts I don't forgive so easily.

If you could change any detail of your job right now, what would it be? - I wouldn't change a thing about my job (except Midnight Deployments - iykyk)

If you could travel through time, who would you most like to meet? - Ada Lovelace, Princess Diana, Jane Austen

Recommend one of your favorite fanfics! - I have read SO many good ones! And it totally depends on the fandom too.

For Top Gun:

Damn Those Dog Tags by @horseshoegirl - Lucky wrote a true magnum opus in this fic. You'll laugh, you'll cry and more than anything I've ever read you'll understand grief and what it means to grieve.

For Star Trek:

A Gun Amongst Daggers by @desert-fern - Fern wrote an amazing action/adventure in this fic. I love Bear and Jake's relationship, but more than anything, I love how amazing Bear is as a woman in a male-dominated field. I want to be her when I grow up!

Lieutenant Rogers by @sarahsmi13s - Vinny started this gorgeous Top Gun and Marvel crossover which I'm so obsessed about! She's got so many amazing ideas and I can’t wait to read them all!

Of course, I also have to recommend @roosterforme, @roosterbruiser, @a-reader-and-a-writer and so many others!

Papers in the Roadside by @kianspo  (AO3) - I love this fic so much! Jim and Spock's relationship is perfection, and I love a twist on the happenings of Star Trek 2009.

Leave No Soul Behind by whochick (AO3)  - I am absolutely obsessed with this fic. I found it way back in the Fall of 2016, when I first started reading fanfic. It ripped me apart and put me back together again. I think I could read it a hundred times and still not be able to understand everything this fic holds.

Bluebird by @waldorph (AO3) - I love Star Trek (this should be obvious by now). This fic gave me everything I wished to see between Winona and Jim after the few moments we saw of them both during the prologue scene in Star Trek 2009. I loved seeing the evolution of their relationship and how Jim and Spock get together after the events of Star Trek Beyond.

No Pressure Tags: @horseshoegirl @sarahsmi13s @teacupsandtopgun @cherrycola27 @a-reader-and-a-writer and anyone else who'd like to join in!

[chocolatepot]

OP, I'm sorry to jump in because I'm sure you're going to get dozens of responses (and in line with them I'll tell you that I'm 36 and have been in fandom since I was 12), but I wanted to highlight a couple of things in your response to the ask that stood out to me.

With so many new queer shows (which is an incredible thing, btw), younger people don't really seem to understand that for most of our teenage/childhoods, we didn't have queer relationships to look up to. It's in really bad taste to mock queer adults for finding community in non-canon ships like Stucky in their adolescence because we wouldn't have had anybody to look up to otherwise. People have created a very dedicated community out of necessity, and that's why so many Stucky stans are so defensive.

Like Appleteeth is saying, we were actually there. We are by and large not only old enough to remember the 2010s and its slash juggernauts, but the 2000s and 1990s when queer shipping was often derided or harassed even within fandom. Queer people who just wanted to reflect themselves in the fiction they were reading were often relegated to the fringes of fandoms, required to use heavier warnings on their fics and accused of doing something wrong by "making them gay". AO3 was created in 2009 - several years before Winter Soldier! - in part because slash fandom's existence was so tenuous. You could be kicked off an archive if the canon het fans got sick of you or if a homophobic religious group pushed advertisers, so we needed a space by fans, for fans, that was explicitly welcoming of queer ships (and that's why even today stats from AO3 do not tend to reflect wider fandom when it comes to types of ships, just saying; I wish people would stop disregarding this when going ooooo fandom just likes men, look at all the m/m).

In other words, nobody is mocking Stucky fans for finding their own queer community in slash. They are mocking Stucky fans for positioning themselves as the first to find queer community that way, as deserving deference for it.

OFMD fandom is in fact made up of more older fans than others I've been in online. There are younger people in it as well, but nearly everyone I digitally rub elbows with on a regular basis is 30+. This is because we also spent years finding ourselves and each other in slash fandoms for shows that were never, ever going to make the queer ships canon, and then found this show that wrote pretty much exactly the sort of dynamic we were used to (oh, they're opposites? oh, they don't have solid/believable romances with women? oh, they immediately mean more to each other than anyone else? oh, they'd risk death for each other?) and then actually followed through instead of pretending there's no romance in it.

The reason we are so goddamn annoying and loud about how much we love this show isn't because we're teenagers who have lots of time on our hands to be stupid online. It's because we're middle-aged queers who see ourselves reflected in the text for the first time in our lives. And being validated by the cast and crew of a show we love this way for the first time in our lives, rather than laughed at by them as sad weirdoes who are watching it wrong.

OFMD fandom as an entity is very young. OFMD fandom as a collective is much older and reflects fannish history in a significant way.

Additionally, it was the dedication of fans in the 2010's that got studios to understand that there was a demand for queer shows/movies, which absolutely paved the way for the queer shows that younger people/newer fans take for granted (imo). OFMD and other shows like it would not exist without non-canon ships like destiel, spirk, stucky, etc.

Likewise, here I don't think you're entirely wrong - though as Appleteeth noted, our writer specifically wasn't even aware of queerbaiting, or I think slash fandom. I do think studios started to loosen up because slash fandom became more mainstream, and that's why we keep getting minor queer ships dotted here and there in the media landscape. However, again, we were part of the 2010s-era non-canon shipping. If you're saying that OFMD would not exist without these efforts, you're really telling us to celebrate ourselves. We owe its existence to a collective that we're part of, and what has been making us upset over the last week is the insistence that we're not a part of it and we owe deference to all of these fans who are younger than us and who have been in fandom for less time than us just because we are now into a canon ship, which is silly.

(Also, it's worth noting somewhere in here that HBO MAX did not act like they liked this show at all. We all found out about it via word of mouth. We did a ton of publicity for it ourselves, as did the cast and crew members who believed in it. We had to sit in limbo for over a month to find out if the show would get renewed even though it was breaking records in streaming because they simply did not want to seem to acknowledge or reward it. There was no publicity for s2 until like a month and a half ago. The success of the show is not a reflection of rainbow capitalism we're too young and stupid to understand - it's a reflection of how much we as fans loved the show and demanded more of it.)

Hey I’m sorry about your poll, I didn’t vote but when I looked and saw how many ofmd fans were getting death threats I stopped looking, so I don’t know much of what is happening, but I am sorry you’re sad. Fandom is supposed to bring people together and I feel like that girl from mean girls that just wants everyone to get along

First I want to start off by saying that people shouldn't send death threats unprovoked, that's doing a bit much for an online poll.

I think the main problem here is that a lot of OFMD fans are relatively young, and/or relatively new to fandom spaces, especially tumblr (from what I can tell). Tumblr has a lot of kind of unspoken etiquette, as do fandom spaces as a whole, and I think it kind of rubs years-or-decades-long fans the wrong way when people who don't understand the history and etiquette of fandom start acting in certain ways.

I also think that a lot of OFMD fans, again being younger and only starting to consume media and enter fan spaces in the 2020's, have no idea how long fans have been waiting and fighting for adequate queer representation. With so many new queer shows (which is an incredible thing, btw), younger people don't really seem to understand that for most of our teenage/childhoods, we didn't have queer relationships to look up to. It's in really bad taste to mock queer adults for finding community in non-canon ships like Stucky in their adolescence because we wouldn't have had anybody to look up to otherwise. People have created a very dedicated community out of necessity, and that's why so many Stucky stans are so defensive.

Additionally, it was the dedication of fans in the 2010's that got studios to understand that there was a demand for queer shows/movies, which absolutely paved the way for the queer shows that younger people/newer fans take for granted (imo). OFMD and other shows like it would not exist without non-canon ships like destiel, spirk, stucky, etc.

I feel like I'm rambling but yeah that's pretty much it. Younger people in fandom spaces should respect the literal decades of fandom that created the shit they take for granted. This was really never about the poll, it was about the disrespect OFMD fans showed towards Stucky fans.

[thehappyfeminist-22]

All of y’all’s old married Spirk headcanons are so beautiful and wholesome, I grin and squee every time I read them. It just makes me so happy for there to be no Nexus, no wormholes, none of that, just our space husbands being happy together.

Like they live in San Francisco in a cozy apartment, probably with a cat or two.

Jim enjoys his Admiral duties and Spock is a professor at Starfleet Academy.

They take frequent walks together through the park.

There is a Vulcan grocery store a few blocks from their apartment and it stocks all of Spock’s favorite things.

Jim falls asleep on the couch with a book open on his chest and Spock smiles gently as he removes his glasses and drapes a blanket over him.

Their apartment complex has a pool and Spock goes swimming all the time because they don’t get many opportunities to swim on Vulcan. Jim joins him sometimes (he’s a little self-conscious about his soft tummy, but Spock loves it and tells him he’s beautiful all the time).

They go out for Italian once a week.

Spock teaches Jim all about Vulcan cooking and they cook together all the time, bumping butts in their little kitchen.

Spock tends to their houseplants and Jim collects old books.

They still can’t keep their hands off each other and still make love early in the mornings.

Jim thinks dirty thoughts and purposely sends them across their telepathic bond while they’re at work, and the next time Spock sees him he has this look that says ‘you little shit’.

They sometimes spend their vacations at the farmhouse in Iowa where Jim grew up.

Other times they go back to Vulcan and Spock thinks Jim looks so handsome in the robes that are specifically designed to keep your body temperature at a comfortable level.

They comfort one another when they have bad dreams about their more traumatic adventures.

They cuddle on the couch and watch documentaries.

Sometimes they go to the beach and walk hand-in-hand while the waves wash over their feet.

They shamelessly give each other Vulcan kisses in public (and at work) because that’s just as intimate as a human kiss and not everyone realizes they’re making out right in front of them.

They sit out on their little balcony and sip tea and gaze at the stars and reminisce about their adventures.

There is a Vulcan student in one of Spock’s classes and he gives her advice on how to makes things work with her human girlfriend, who she is so in love with, but doesn’t fully understand all the time.

They take turns having the temperature in their apartment at a level that is comfortable for each of them. When it’s comfortable for Jim, Spock puts on a sweater. When it’s comfortable for Spock, Jim puts on a tank top and shorts and suddenly Spock has to lower the temperature again.

Spock has a special corner in their apartment dedicated to his meditation space, and Jim makes sure he’s always extra quiet when Spock meditates because he’s respectful of his Vulcan culture like that.

Jim listens like a lovestruck teenager whenever Spock plays his Vulcan lyre.

The old crew of the Enterprise throws them a small party every year on their anniversary.

I could probably think of a dozen more if I sat here long enough, but I’ll leave it at this. I just love old married Spirk so much! 🥺

[uss-genderprise]

I posted 1,937 times in 2022

That's 1,423 more posts than 2021!

122 posts created (6%)

1,815 posts reblogged (94%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@ichayalovesyou

@space-dog-from-space

@weyounbathwater

@buttspocks

@uss-genderprise

I tagged 1,543 of my posts in 2022

Only 20% of my posts had no tags

#fanart - 586 posts

#weekly calendar - 58 posts

#threshold day - 52 posts

#star trek - 35 posts

#snw spoilers - 31 posts

#goncharov - 27 posts

#unreality - 27 posts

#so true - 26 posts

#asks - 25 posts

#long post - 17 posts

Longest Tag: 129 characters

#the word ‘top’ and the names ‘quark’ and ‘julian bashir’ do not belong in a sentence together unless its in this specific context

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

i think the thing that really draws me to ks is that thing that old fics used to do all the time but i don't seen as much anymore, where they both care for the enterprise above all, they both love space so much, it's like a hyperfixation. how instead of that fixation making your partner resent you for "caring more" about that thing than about them, for taking up so much of your time and your mental space and energy, they instead share that love with you and instead of pushing you apart it's what brings you closer together. i just love that for them, i think it's so sweet and it works so well with their characters

and how, after all those years being together, kirk doesn't even hesitate to give up the enterprise for spock, because even though once upon a time they would have sacrificed each other for the ship and crew, now they're each other's whole universe, and their love is the most important thing. i am so soft

128 notes - Posted April 27, 2022

#4

people all complaining about straight spock and edgy chapel but i'm just gonna say that the biggest change from tos is sam kirk. literally his name is george samuel kirk in tos only jim called him sam everyone else knew him as george

152 notes - Posted May 7, 2022

#3

i painted @/spocksjuul's paper mache spock on my friend's wardrobe so now he stares at my friend every night <3

161 notes - Posted February 21, 2022

#2

happy worm wife wednesday everybody

294 notes - Posted February 16, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

The K/S fanfiction masterpost is finally here!

For the past 8 months or so I've been working on this very special project for the benefit of mankind Spirk shippers

With 132 fics (and more being added every day!), all tagged with tropes and warnings, it's specifically designed to help you find fics you’ve lost, see if a fic might have something that is triggering to you but wasn’t tagged originally, avoid spoilers for episodes/movies you haven’t seen yet, and anything else you might need in a masterlist like this.

If you have any comments, questions, or tips to make it better, please don't hesitate to dm me, leave a comment, or shoot me an ask!

All reblogs and shares will be greatly appreciated!

323 notes - Posted February 23, 2022

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[pryde7]

As a Spock and Uhura  fan, I am worried  about Strange New Worlds.

As a spock and uhura fan for more than 10 years, I can only hope for the best  in strange new worlds, although i have this bad feeling in my heart that strange new worlds will likely make Uhura gay and pair spock with chapel.I dont trust Alex Kurtzman since after Star Trek  Into Darkness, when he chose to downplay the spock and uhura relationship in that awful movie. He  instead dropped many spirk innuendos  that when you watched the movie, you wondered who spock was supposed to be in love with kirk or  uhura.

it made me angry as a spock and uhura fan,  no doubt alex kurtzman wrote star trek into darkness that way because he as he admits listens to fans and the spirk fans make the loudest noises between 2009 and 2013  and that factored in into the movie.   Thank goodness we got Star Trek Beyond that wiped out the trash that was Into Darkness and made Spock seem very much in love with Uhura again even if it was to the point of loving obsession However I fear he will continue this pattern in strange new worlds, especially now that we have a non binary actress playing uhura and they gave her an androgynous    look and it Kurtzman's  world, that he how he mostly writes and gives the appearances of lgbt characters, not to mention that in star trek now, they cast only lgbtq characters in lgbtq roles and Celia Rose Gooding  is lgbtq, so all the signs points to an lgbt Uhura in strange new worlds.

I also think some spock and uhura fans like lucyintheskywithdiamonds have become extremist kind of fans  and is now as  bad as some of the spirk fans, apparently if you love spock and uhura as I do, but express some concerns  and worry or even make heart breaking predictions about how the writers may try to downplay their relationship in SNW, luckyintheskywithdaimond thinks you are a hater, racist and a sexist and a fake spuura fans that needs to be ignored.

And that in itself is  sad since Spuhura is my OTP ship, anyone can go to my archive  to see it is fully dedicated to spuhura , how lucyintheskywithdaimonds calling me a fake fan and a racist  and sexist was down right offensive to me, when what I am doing is fighting for uhura's ferminity , the fact that she is a POC  and well worthy to be loved by a man like spock. so no, I don't want a gay Uhura,  but apparently to be a spuhura fan you must think like lucyintheskywithdaimonds wants you to think only or not express some concerns about how the writers may choose to write. Sorry I ain't   part of some borg collective.

Not to stay more on topic, I am worried  and scared of how SNW is going to turn out, so far soo good with Picard and Discovery, I have been disappointed with these shows because they flipped  things so much on established characters not in the best ways and I fear SNW will bring me more more disappointment  especially with Spock and Uhura, I just have the gut feeling they will be making Uhura gay like they did with 7 of 9 in Picard and we will get Spock and Chapel instead.

I pray this does not happen but a part of me is already preparing myself for this, but at the same time, this is why Zachary Quinto and Zoe Saldana will always be my Spock and Uhura, regardless of how the outcome of strange new worlds turns out.

[kirk-understander]

20 Questions For Fic Writers

Tagged on my main but I'm going to answer this here, if thats okay :)

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

As of yesterday: 30!!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

89,815 words (from June 2023 to now)

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Pretty much exclusively Star Trek TOS

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Human Resources: https://archiveofourown.org/works/52524067

The other side of the dresser: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48085150

Up we go: https://archiveofourown.org/works/49781029

Eurydice, stay with me: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48124630

My mother never cried a lot: https://archiveofourown.org/works/48685723

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

WIPs nonwithstanding, I don't actually write angsty endings (anymore)! So got nothing on this account because canon was angsty enough, they deserve a happy ending.

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

I think my entire series is a collection of happy endings :D

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Nothing so far, thankfully!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

No, but I'm so tempted to translate my own work into yiddish

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

My beta reader @hrmmmm13 and I have been planning one since the beginning of time but so far, its just notes. Stay tuned though ;)

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Oof, tough question. Spirk has me in a chokehold but I like many ships from many different fandoms, starting with OG Sherlock Holmes / Watson to McKirk and McSpirk

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

It's another Spirk kid fic AU where Jim is an instructor at the academy and Spock is transferring from the VSA for one semester - you'll never guess what happens next ;)

16. What are your writing strengths?

I got a lovely comment once that said that my writing has a sort of wavey flow, a cadence that is very enjoyable to read, I'm still thinking about that every time I write. But I think, dialogue is my greatest strength.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

Definitely action (and paragraph breaks T-T) - I put way too many of those. I definitely struggle with balancing dialogue and action, but thankfully, I've got help.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Like I said, Yiddish Spirk is on my mind all the time, but I sTruggle with the hebrew keyboard on the computer so probably not for a while XD

19. First fandom you wrote for?

I think Harry Potter when I was around 12 and before that, just original works.

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

Also tough question..... I’m really invested in Up we go (see above) and the sequel that I’m working on.

Thanks for tagging me!

20 Questions For Fic Writers

Tagged by @rngaredead :)

For simplicity's sake I'm going to go with just my biDEMONium/trentcrimminallybeautiful ao3 and not try to combine it with my thesorrowoflizards one (why do i have more than one? because i was, among other things, an idiot who didn't know how pseuds worked next question) even though that would probably double some of these numbers lkfjgh

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

Again, just on this account? 171 (some of those are oneshot compilations though)

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

661,851 for now

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Ted Lasso, The Mysterious Benedict Society, The House on the Cerulean Sea, House MD, Death by Dying, Instinct, King Falls AM. Also, sort of Gravity Falls. Mostly those first two though, tbh. This one I think I will include other fandoms I've written and posted for on other accounts because it's fun and less about math. So also Shadowhunters, The Librarians, The Mentalist, The Dresden Files (TV), Roswell New Mexico, The Sandman, Star Trek, Professor Layton, Sanders Sides, Miraculous Ladybug, and sort of The Legend of Zelda. Also see, for unposted or posted a very long time ago and no longer something I would willingly share, Supernatural, Dirk Gently (both 2016 and 2010), Doctor Who, Warehouse 13, SurrealEstate, Person of Interest, Haven, Leverage, Bones. Psych, and probably more

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Ted Lasso Kisses Trent Crimm On The Mouth (Trent/Ted - 1,157 kudos)

semaphore (Trent/Ted; Trent & Colin - 997 kudos)

off the handle (Trent/Ted - 736 kudos)

linger (Trent/Ted - 709 kudos)

a preacher, a bikini, and a kiss or two (Trent/Ted; Diamond Dogs - 673 kudos)

5. Do you respond to comments?

I try to but I always get really busy/tired and then it's been so long it feels like it would be weird if I did. Plus, sometimes my answers by nature of the comments can get repetitive and then even though I'm being sincere I feel insincere which sucks. However, if a comment has a direct question or something I actually have like, something unique to say about, I'm much more likely to respond sooner rather than later/never. I appreciate every single comment soooo much though literally my motivation to get through the day like 80 percent of the time

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I'm going to stick with Ted Lasso fics here since I have so many fics posted and this is my Ted Lasso sideblog and say... well, most of the time I have a bittersweet ending and then some sort of hopeful epilogue (such as with ink sunset and make a mess of you) but I guess betrayal's sting / absolution's balm or something to get off my chest may qualify?

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Uhhh, honestly, most of them are happy endings. I think trick & treat and matters of the heart end on particularly high notes?

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not in this fandom! Yet

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Oh, yeah, baby. So much. Not sure what "kind" means in this context. It sure is explicit smut. I have tended almost exclusively towards hot transgender sex the last few years because. yknow. hi. but somehow I don't think that's the intention in the question.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest one you’ve written?

I do, but I haven't posted a lot. Only one on this account (a Gravity Falls x The Mysterious Benedict Society crossover that started as a joke because of a shared actress) although I had an interesting Shadowhunters x The Legend of Zelda: Twilight Princess fusion on my other account. I've written some pretty weird WIPs, though. And I've got some posts about Ted Lasso crossover/AUs, like a Sarah Jane Adventures AU, a Pushing Daisies AU, a Stardust AU... You can find that kind of thing in this tag on my blog.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Yes. Not in this fandom, though, as far as I'm aware.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Yes! Again, not in this fandom, though.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

Not really.

14. What’s your all time favorite ship?

Oh, man, I don't know if I can decide. Magnus/Alec (TV version only I'll die on this hill) will always hold a special place in my heart, but I've got other "obsessed with this when I was a kid" ships and also recency bias/current hyperfixation means Trent/Ted screams as an immediate answer, and so on and so forth. I'm bad at picking favorites. Overall, I'd probably say one of those two, or both.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Sticking to Ted Lasso again (I have. so many MBS WIPs. god.) I'd say lost sight of (who you are) (lost motivation, want to finish, fuck!!) or sweeter than heaven (hotter than hell) (got mad at it), or!! oh!!! ink sunset (stuck) and possibly the next installment of matters of the heart. Yeah, I have a problem

16. What are your writing strengths?

I think I'm pretty good at being funny and also at eloquent but perhaps a little too verbose metaphors. I love me an elaborate metaphor

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

It's hard for me to focus and get what I have in my head out sometimes, even when I really want to. Whether it's being unable to organize or just my brain flat-out refusing to cooperate and do anything. Also, I'm way too like. easily discouraged with lack of feedback, and even a little negative feedback can kind of ruin my week and make me never wanna go back to that story ever again.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

I just realized. The questions seemed familiar but I wasn't sure why and now I know, now that I've gotten to this question. I have done this game before and I remember bc of this question. I was confused bc it was under a different name, I think the questions were in a different order, and it was sometimes slightly differently worded but nope! This is the same one! Weird Anyway, just for this particular question, I'm going to copy-paste my old answer because I'm lazy. I’m extremely bad at linguistics in general, so if I must include someone talking in another language in my fic, I think I’d tend to cheat and do italics or some other indication that this is ‘in another language’ (ie “Where are you going?” she asked in Russian), but that’s admittedly a lazy approach. But I also think it’s probably better than butchering it with an auto-translator? Also, when people just include the translation in the end notes, even with a link (although that makes it marginally better) it breaks the flow of the story and makes it hard to read. Making an effort to at least match grammar is good (which I would do if it was for longer than a single scene, probably) but I think the best solution is when people know what they’re doing and like, have an actual translation with a little html code so you can click on it and it reveals what it means? Or if you’re clever, revealing what it means using context around it, but that has its own limitations. So that both like, uses the actual language and doesn’t break up the flow. It balances accessibility, flow, and respect for the other language in question well. But you’ve got to both know what you’re doing with the language (either asking someone/hiring someone/knowing the language yourself) and the html (although there are guides for that you’d have to spend time figuring it out + know it exists in the first place to look). And this is fanfiction, something we ultimately do for free in our spare time, so the lazy approach, I think, can be understandable. Maybe not in every context, but it’s not worth stressing a lot over in a few random lines or anything, you know? It is really cool when people do know a language well enough to include it properly in a fic, though, it can say a lot about a character or dynamic; and their background(s) and like. it’s neat :)

19. First fandom you wrote for?

Ever? Doctor Who. And I don't remember the order, but after that I know I wrote some stuff about Star Trek (mostly TNG but I believe also TOS), Supernatural, A:LTA, Marvel, WTNV, and the Stanley Parable? I think I first posted either Supernatural or WTNV

20. Favourite fic you’ve written?

I have no idea. Some of my top ones (for Ted Lasso again) would be matters of the heart and trick & treat I suppose?

Tagging: whoever wants to do this man, I probably tagged everyone I'd normally tag last time so if you see this and you wanna do it, go ahead and tag me and do it!

[aliform]

Today at the library I checked out a book by Josepha Sherman, found out she passed, found an obit on someone's blog where the entire world commented including childhood fave Jane Yolen, discovered obit blog author was excommunicated for protesting against the church's fight against ERA (uncovering that historical event started my own path towards resignation so um, kinship?), unearthed two dead cons from the comments, and if anything I wish the world was as small as it used to be.

Watching Light & Magic/The Imagineering Story and seeing all of these passionate women and men fall into their craft, same with all these SFF nerds who wrote fanzines and Tor books and went to cons all over the place, never letting go of what made them happy and made them tick, carving out spaces in publishing and writing from it, I am just so jealous!

I want to be 27 in some 1970s kitchen talking about Spirk and making con plans and getting published for just being an active member of a community!

I want to show up at some small indie workshop that will eventually become a behemoth and say hey I like to paint! I like to clack clack on a keyboard and figure out programs, hire me! And then years later the same jobs will require an Iowa Writers Workshop graduation and conference meetups and a twitter or a move to the Bay, and a bachelors in illustration and a portfolio started when you were 11 and two internships during school and an uncle in an unrelated department.

Tech is really the only industry you can really bootstrap anymore and maybe my deep attraction to the SFF community (much stronger than actually reading SFF books lmao) is because these people were all so knitted together (leading to things like the geek social fallacies which in its darkest forms protected people like MZB and Breen).

I'm in a things are darkest before the dawn personal era where I'm attempting to, nonoriginally, pivot into a different career, a both banal (because of the hard work and all the thousands of people also doing this) and excruciating (creating the time to do so) effort.

I know my own inner strength and am putting on the extrovert networking mask to do this, and in a way it's invigorating (learning something new) and in another it's frustrating (seeing it through).

My failures post maybe isn't about failures as much as it is the ebb and flow of energy. Some interest will spark and I'll do a deep dive into it; pause or leave, come back perhaps -- is that not everyone? Am I just upset with time itself and how my whole life, and everyone else's, has phases? Why do I want to exist as all my interests at once? That's not even who I am as a person, but I want to be able to hold on to things and not let go.

Since I left livejournal (14 years ago omg) I've toyed with the idea of making a blog and maybe I finally need to do that to be the aggregator to collect all the interesting bits, and anyway I feel like a bother here (nonsensical). But it would be nice to have a custom-made space just for myself that's my own feel that does whatever I want. Ugh. There's too many lifetimes all around me and just myself, plodding along, captivated by too much, in love with the larger themes behind too many interesting small things. It's endless! Time is god.

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Got any good novel recommendations for Kirk and Spock? (I have amassed a sizable collection of EU material, but not really settled down and read it)

Ohohoho I was WAITING for this one (literally. I have had this sitting in drafts for so long and I have thought about it, like, every day so I am very happy to finally get to answer!)

As you may or may not know, I am obsessed with doing reviews (shocker, right?) and keep detailed accounts of each Star Trek book I read/buy. At this point, I've got a decent number of books (just over 15) and let me tell you HONEY I have thoughts

You're looking specifically for Spock and Jim, so I'll give you the best books I've read for them, and then also some ones to avoid haha. There are snippets from my yet-to-be-posted reviews under each of them to give a little more insight! I haven't included any plot comments but I'll eventually post my complete reviews if you're curious :)

The Good Stuff

Strangers from the Sky

Absolutely remarkable. A lovely read. Everyone was completely in character the entire time, with COPIOUS amounts of triumvirate content and very good character analysis. Spock and Jim are main, but Bones is also substantial and doesn't leave you feeling like he's been forgotten about. Reallllly good Spirk moments but not in a raunchy way, it's just like Wow They Are Really T'hy'la's, Huh? Also some quality Old Married Spirk content as well!

New Voyages 1

The first of two fanfic-turned-EU-canon complications, and it is chock full of absolute gold in both quality writing and Spirk content. (The original cast members wrote intros/endorsements for the stories, so it's officially approved!) Some stories are not quite as good as the others, but the ones that are good are legendary. Ni Var is my favorite piece of Star Trek writing to date. It's an absolutely beautiful Spock-and-Jim-centric story (yet without leaving Bones behind! He is involved and excellent) that feels both completely believable and utterly heart-wrenching. I will never forget the ending. The Winged Dreamers is another really solid story, with another oft-screenshotted Spirk scene (well-deserved!) and further Spirk throughout, and a good deal of triumvirate content. A natural and poignant read. The Mind-Sifter can be a bit jarring at first, but the payoff (both in general development and with Jim and Spock) as the story progresses, and especially at the end, sets it all to rights. (Really, that ending scene!!!) And finally, The Face on the Barroom Floor is less Spirk (it has one moment but is definitely not a focus), but it's still a pretty decent story.

New Voyages 2

I haven't gotten through this one entirely yet, but the stories I've read are of a similar caliber to those from the first volume, and I would absolutely recommend it as well! It has the excellent Spirk poem Soliloquy along with a charming story from Nichelle Nichols herself that has many notable Spirk moments. I'm sure there are some more gold nuggets in the other stories, too!

Doctor's Orders

The dynamics are largely focused on Bones and Jim or Spock interacting, since Bones is the main character, but there are a few moments where everyone is together, and two VERY notable Spock and Jim moments (even though one of them is actually in a Spock and Bones interaction!! It really showed how deeply Bones understands the both of them, and the bond between them). I loved how the book handled all of their relationships, as each of the characters is undeniably close with both of the others.

Crisis on Centaurus

This one is more subtle from a Jim and Spock perspective, but still has many good moments worked in throughout the story. There's a particularly nice moment at the end that really made me smile. On the whole, the characters are authentic, and everyone gets development and insight; not too much focus is given to one character, and they felt pretty believable. A solid read!

The Not-So-Good Stuff

The Price of the Phoenix

If you're looking for Spirk, you will find it here. This one is so blatantly Spirk that you don't ever have to look for it. In many places, this is handled pretty darn well, but overall, the book felt like slash fanfic after the (excellent) opening section--and nothing against fanfic, but that's not what I was looking for. It distinctly stopped feeling canonical, because of how unbelievable some of the character decisions and situations were. (I then found out that it was in fact originally a slash fiction piece that was revised and then published officially. Its original title was "Never Mourn for Black Omne.") Many scenes made me deeply uncomfortable, and the book largely was just difficult to get through. Overall, I might reread it for the feels at points, but I'm not gonna heavily recommend it if you're looking for a quality Star Trek novel.

Black Fire

This one's a doozy, folks. The characterizations of literally every character are off-base (to say nothing of the utterly wack premise). The first half of the book has the worst-written Spock I have ever read, and the other characters are similarly mishandled (although not quite so extremely). The characterizations do get stronger as the book goes on, but it's not enough to balance out the mistakes of the first half. The Spirk content woven throughout, and more noticably present at the end, does its best, but is ultimately overshadowed by the largely unsatisfying story. (It's also quite easy to read Spock as aroace, and a few scenes specifically bolster that reading, but even that isn't enough for me to like it.) You might give it a try if you want to laugh at how ridiculous it is, but honestly, I found it more frustrating than anything, and I wouldn't recommend it.

I think this oughta give you a decent-enough place to start! Let me know what you think of them (and if there are any stories you think I should read--I am always eager for recommendations, and especially things to review!). And I will eventually publish my full collection of reviews...at some point!

[deepdowninshipperhell]

Thank you @imnotheretodie for tagging me!

Tag 9 people who you want to get to know better!

Favourite piece of clothing you own?

A lovely goth dress with a corset and a long lace-y skirt, it was the first proper goth dress I ever bought for myself and I love it.

Favourite time of the year?

Winter!!! I love winter activities, I love the cold, I love it when it’s dark outside, and I really, really love snow!

Favourite song?

Don’t really have one! My favourite song changes all the goddamn time. There is one song that currently makes me feel really warm simply bc my partner said the first part made them think a lot of us, and they had it playing a lot in the background the last time I visited, so now it’s my I Love My Partner song. Anyway, the song is Cold, Cold Man by Saint Hotel, and it’s not my typical type of music but it does fill me with so much affection.

Comfort food?

A nice Sauerkraut bake! <3

Do you collect something?

Books. I read a LOT, so I don’t just collect books to have them stand on my shelf, I collect books that I know I’ll open time and time again. So truly, why wouldn’t I spend money on a nice version?

Favourite drink?

Probably mulled wine or hot chocolate for warm drinks, love a good orange juice as far as cold drinks go.

Favourite fanfic?

This deserves a whole fucking list, oh my God. I’ll try to keep it to my absolute top favourites, so a maximum of three and ideally just one per fandom.

Okay, buckle up, I’m gonna start with ice hockey rpf, go into Haikyuu, then Spirk, Hannibal, and I’ll end on F1, this’ll be a ride. And by ride I mean it’ll be a fucking list. I’m gonna expose my whole ass here. I read for over 30 fandoms very regularly, by the way, and have well over 4k bookmarks, so be glad I’ve narrowed it down this much.

I’m sorry but I’m also not.

Ice Hockey RPF

More Things In Heaven And Earth - this one is, hands down, my favourite. I’ve read it like forty or fifty times. I don’t know what exactly about it just makes me lose my sanity, but this fanfic. This fanfic. I cannot get enough of it. I think about it every day of my life. All of the works of this author are worth a try, by the way, because goddamn.

Linsky’s Werewolf Series - I love everything Linsky has ever written, like much like with RainyForecast I have read every single fic, but this series specifically is my favourite, especially the Tyler/Jamie and the SidGeno works, I have also read them an unholy amount.

To Happily Ever After (and a Cup or two) - I think about this one a lot. Every time I re-read my favourite ice hockey fics, this is an absolute must read.

Haikyuu

When The Stars Threw Down Their Spears - this one. This Goddamn fic. Kuroken, of course, and it makes me feral. Is it the best-written thing I’ve ever read? No. Is it the one that has had the longest lasting impact on me within all of the over one thousand Haikyuu fics I’ve read? Yes. Yes, by far. I think about this fic at least once a week. ‘Changing a culture,’ changed me, as a person. I would personally kiss the author on the mouth in a sign of thanks.

Star Trek, specifically: Spirk

(this was by far the hardest one to narrow down, because I have many favourites that make me feral but I don’t have a singular fic that leaves all others in its shadow. So for this one and this one only you’re getting a great many more fics than three, and they’re not in any particular order either, but all of these mage me feel absolutely unhinged. Sorry?)

The Third Wheel - a masterpiece. Like every other fic on this list I’ve read it countless times. Sometimes AOS and asshole Jim can have some rights, but it’s only for fics like this

Bang A Gong - probably the one I’ve read the most times out of this entire Spirk list. I think about it a lot. One scene in particular which I won’t spoil.

How We Are (but not how we’re going to be) - this fic fucking ruined me. It did. It ruined me. This one. This one. AOS rights once more and also god fucking damnit this is the ONE ‘enemies’ to lovers Spirk fic I will accept. This fic. This goddamn fic. I would love to be coherent but I’m not I think about this fic so much. I think about it SO much. It has absolutely ruined me. If you read just one fic from this list make it this one.

Inside The River - arranged marriage my beloved. A fucking masterpiece <3

Something Smart To Do - Fake dating absolute fucking idiots. They’re so dumb. I love them so much.

The Bond - anyone who knows me knows I despise amnesia fic. This is the one exception to this rule. This fic. This goddamn fic. I do not have the words I just know it makes me feel so much they’re so in love I’m not okay. And menace Nyota my beloved

Translating Ennoia - You want Spock’s POV for once? You want to see Spock be stupidly in love? You want instant t’hy’la connections but a fucking build up to the payoff?? This. This fic.

As You Wish - Q appears in this one. Do I have to say more. Do I.

Hannibal

What Dreams Series - read this series. Do it. Read it. I’ve read these two fics so many times, they’re SO good, I was so floored by them I ended up buying all of the author’s original books because I thought if you can make me feel this way then I need every single one of your works. Anyway. This goddamn series.

With a Crown of Stars - wishbabies trope but make it Hannigram??? We love to see it. Anyway this one has it all. Babies, possessiveness, murder, violence, Hannigram being stupidly in love, just the whole mix. I’ve read this fic many a time and will read it many a time more.

The Fox’s Wedding - I really like this fic. I really do. The symbolism in it is so nice, and you can really see how much the author thought about it; every small detail has such a big impact and significance.

Formula 1

the rounds and a sound - absolutely unrivalled number one. This one. This one. Yes, it’s Maxiel, but most of all it’s an incredible piece of writing and I think about it a whole lot. There are a handful of f1 fics I really love, but this one is just. Beyond compare. For me personally.

quench your thirst and chase the high - this one makes me feel feral. Yes, it’s smut, but it has feelings. I actually cried reading this fic, it’s incredible

Okay!!! After all of that I’m not gonna tag nine people, but I will tag @geooooooorge and @theizzyryder in case you wanna do this!

[the-sill-of-all-sills]

@scaredysap you have tagged me. I'm caught completely off guard but let me just do some answering

My favorite clothing?: I have this really nice summer dress with flowers on it. I find it hard to find dresses that look good on me but I really like it.

Comfort food: Pov you've had a really bad day. Instead of driving home you drive to the grocery store. You get overpriced sushi and discount coffee. You eat that at the parking lot in your car while you let music play out of the phone. It's not just the food that has become comforting it's the whole experience. Idk how why and how this is a comfort but it is.

Favorite time of the year: summer. Not so super hot that your skin melts but you know warm.

Favorite song: that changes every two weeks lol. Uhm right now I guess it'd be "Prom Dress" by mxmtoon bc listen school is fucking killing me at the moment and this song just is a comfort. Also I found it on a lxc playlist so I associate it with him a lot now.

smth you collect: books. I have some fans as well.

Fav drink: Tea. Not a specific type. But I prefer the more herbal ones. Indian Chai maybe?

Favorite fic: okay listen I rarely reread fanfiction but some that stick in my mind are

"If not you" by ketolic. I think it's the best smut I've ever read. Like bro I love it so much.

"I am what I am I know what I know" by Ibijau it's the first XiSang fic I've read and I think it's a great start for diving in to the xisang rabbit hole.

"Warm thoughts" by lettered. Its a Spirk fic I read ages ago but I know that I absolutely adored it.

"Think fondly of change" by LesbianlazerOwl. A Xisang fic that had everything I wanted and more. Like I can't describe in words how much I love it.

I have no idea who to tagg I'm gonna pock @marsdiogenes with a stick.