#I listened a lot to hozier

[zerpentele]

Aziraphale thought demons aren’t capable of love.

Actually, he misinterpreted Crowley’s whole being. Aziraphale’s whole speech and behaviour makes perfect sense at it is. No lies, no poisoned coffee.  

First let me establish Azi’s perspective on Crowley and Heaven, because that’s what motivates the whole last 15 minutes, before I go trough them and explain why Azi says what he says. And then get hit by a truck.

Azi doesn’t know Crowley loves him back. I’m going so far as to say Azi does not think Crowley is capable of love (as in “loving somebody”).

In S1 as they’re searching for the Antichrist, Azi explains to Crowley what he means when he says “This place feels loved.” As Crowley asks what “loved” means, my guess is he wanted to know what the reason could be, or how that could be possible. But Azi explains “I mean the opposite of when you mean ‘I don’t like this place. It feels spooky.’”  Aziraphale is so deep in his black/white morality, he straight up assumes the reason why Crowley asks is that he has no idea what the word “love” means. And from his perspective, of course it makes sense a demon can’t possibly know what “love” is. Angels are beings of love, demons are supposed to be the opposite.

And it’s within this perspective that Azi mistakes all the good things Crowley does not for something that defines Crowley’s character at being on his own side, but instead proves he can’t be a demon, since demons can’t do good or be nice. There’re only meant to be two sides.

And from Azi’s perspective Crowley can’t resist to be a good person at heart. Which is why he is so sensible about being called “nice”, because he isn’t allowed to be good. Even though he is. Him being a demon is Crowley being on the wrong side. But Crowley is stuck there, right?

Only after Armageddon’t Azi accepts “their side”, because he is finally proven wrong about heaven being good, by heaven itself. His last attempt to contact a higher authority in S1 ends up with him speaking to the Metatron, who again explains “The point is not to avoid, but to win the war.” This leads Azi to stick to Crowley in the end, since they are the only ones who doesn’t want the world to end. There can be their own side.

Now let’s look at the last 15 minutes.

Azi begins with “I have some incredibly good news to give you.” Which is heartbreaking, since he genuinely believes those are good news for Crowley. He thinks it will make the demon happier then ever to hear them, which is why he doesn’t even let him speak first.

He starts to explain by saying he might’ve misjudged the Metatron, which means heaven actually is good and was never at fault. It was just a matter of miscommunication.

The way Metatron delivers his offer gives Azi hope again that heaven truly is good. The Metatron judges neither Azi consuming earthly mater (he even brings him the coffee), nor his “partnership” with the demon Crowley and even makes them being together part of the offer.  Even more so; Heaven allowing Azi to restore Crowley’s angelic status confirms Azis belief that Crowley should never become a demon in the first place. It confirms Azi was right the whole time with his perspective. There is and always was one, good side.

And that gives Azi so. much. hope.

After the flashbacks Azi’s focus is still on Crowley. Azi doesn’t care about his gains from the offer in that moment, he now finally gets to the good news, which are; appointing Crowley to be an angel (which Crowley always wanted too). Crowley coming back to Heaven (where Crowley can finally be good). Everything like the old times (when Crowley was happy making nebulas). Only even nicer (I’ll get to that)  

Azi gets confused at Crowley’s reaction. He doesn’t understand why Crowley doesn’t jump for joy. After Crowley tells he refused getting back to Hell, Azi begins to repeat himself and find some other descriptions which might help Crowley to understand what the Metatron is offering (although Crowley understands perfectly well). You’re the bad guys (He includes Crowley, caus that’s what he now is. A demon. Forced to be bad. Of course Crowley refuses them).  Heaven is the side of Truth (where Crowley truly can be who he is. A good person). Of Light (which should remind Crowley of his work as an angel). Of Good (why Crowley belongs there).

Crowley brings his old argument that Heaven and Hell are basically the same, the outcome is the same. Azi has nothing to counter that at first but now the tables have tabled; “If I am in charge, I can make a difference”. Now there is the opportunity to make heaven a better place and to not end live on earth. Crowley’s argument vanishes.

So this old pattern doesn’t make sense anymore, Azi is in charge and can be the difference so Heaven distinguishes from Hell. That’s why Crowley starts to confess. To make Azi stay for Crowley’s sake.

The problem is everything Crowley offers is included in Aziraphale’s offer from Azi’s perspective. That’s why his expressions don’t change much but seem rather confused. Azi doesn’t understand why Crowly wants what he wants. They can have everything in heaven, let me show you;

Crowley talks about them being together, a group of the two of us. Azi replies with “Come with me to Heaven”. It’s possible for them to be together in Heaven. They don’t need to go off somewhere and flee, fearing that Heaven, Hell or the next Armageddon will get them anyways. They can be save, when Aziraphale runs it and Crowley is his second in command, “We can make a difference”. He includes Crowley and assures him he wouldn’t just be his sidekick. They could be “us” in Heaven and be the good guys. Azi wants to give him hope. Heaven once rejected Crowley, but all this can be forgiven, something Crowley himself never believed could ever happen (remember S1E3). The good side aka Heaven and “our side” could be one and the same. (and even nicer; We’ll get there in a minute)

Nothing lasts forever (at least for now on earth. It would be different in Heaven).

Like in S1E3 Azi doesn’t want Crowley to leave and calls him back. I think the order in which Azi repeats his pros is interesting. “come back, - to Heaven. Work with me. We can be together. Angels… doing good!”

Azi thinks being good is the primarily thing which drives Crowley. He uses it as his last, final argument to make Crowley accept his offer. Only at Crowley’s silence he pleads “I need you”, to make Crowley come with him for Azi’s sake. If both where angels, there would be nothing that separates their beings from being together, they would be equal. (I’ll come to that in a sec)

Again, he is meet with silence and this can only mean, Crowley doesn’t understand what Aziraphale is offering. But Crowley knows, he’s been there, done that. Still from Azi’s perspective its logical he gets frustrated; he thought doing good on a daily level by being an angel with the extra of being safe and having Azi by his side, is everything Crowley ever wanted. There is nothing more to say.

Now we get to the devastating part of my analysis.

Crowley brings up Nightingales and you can see when the realisation kicks Aziraphale. It is then that Azi realises Crowley knows what the nightingales mean to them both, that Crowley, the demon, loves him.

Let us reconsider; In Azi’s perspective Crowley enjoys Aziraphale’s company and is a good person, because he wants to be an angel and belongs in Heaven. But he is technically a demon and as such unable to “love”. If Crowley’s angelic status would be restored, it would be nicer, they would be equal, they could be ‘us’, since then all obstacles of them being on opposite sides and having nothing whatsoever in common are gone. And Crowley might be able to love Aziraphale back.

What Aziraphale fails to see and what is in fact blocked from his perspective is, that Crowley never cared about being heavenly good and/or an angel. He only ever cared for Aziraphale. He already loves him.

Seeing Beelzebub and Gabriel together might’ve brought Azi to that realisation eventually, but we all know how long it takes for this angel to internalize new concepts.

Aziraphale turns away to cry (sis, same).       

Now Azi understands even less why Crowley rejects his offer, and that’s what Azi forgives after the kiss. If Crowley loves him, it shouldn’t matter where they are. That Crowley loves him but wouldn’t come with him to make Heaven and live on earth a better place (or make heaven earthly or whatever), and to be forever safe together, makes no sense. But if Cowley won’t help, he won’t (Their argument in S2E1 ends exactly the same)

Aziraphale’s perspective is shattered, and so is Crowley’s. He lived his whole existence on earth believing Crowley was nice because he should actually still be an angel. Azi desperately wants to be together with Crowley, that’s why he starts considering the offer only after Crowley is included. And it makes Azi so happy because in Heaven they could be together and love each other.

All those years and Crowley still was unknown to Aziraphale.

Thanks for reading!

I don't want it to make sense. Thoughts?

[mikkeneko]

If we're all pretty much on board by now with "media consumption is not activism," are we ready to move on yet to the necessary corollary of "failure to consume media is not failure of activism?"

[astrobei]

it’s always wyd and never ngchmbdichth*

*no grave can hold my body down i’ll crawl home to her

[rileys-battlecats]

my problem is that i love my ocs and want them to be happy. but. i am a tragedy enjoyer at heart

[canisalbus]

have you heard the acoustic version of be by hozier? i was just listening to it and thinking about your dogs and it completely destroyed me. maybe i'm just in my feels but it sounds so tender contrasted to the original version. they're like two halves of a whole; soft and tender—loud and intense. i haven't been able to listen to hozier the same after you mentioned that you imagine vasco's voice sounds similar to his, and that his music reminds you of them. sorry for rambling your boys make my brain do a happy dance and my friends are growing tired of hearing all about it lol

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[kacievvbbbb]

Question for the community;

I like music and I like associating music with characters I like. If you do as well, What are some songs you associate with Mishanks or just Mihawk or Shanks.

I've said this before - but I heavily associate Mishanks (specifically from Shanks' pov with Do I wanna know - Hozier cover

And I associate Shanks with Wait for it from Hamilton in terms of his approach to life after meeting Luffy or honestly maybe even before

I don't really have anything for Mihawk mybe Be by Hozier but not solidly.

But yeah let me know! I'm interested to see what people are vibing too.

Also if you have one you want to share that's not about Mishanks or one piece in general go ahead and put it in the comments just include the fandom!

[neverknoah]

Nicholas has a thing for seeing you in dainty, traditionally feminine clothes, especially sun dresses. With the days warming up, he's excited that you'll start wearing cute little sundresses again.

He loves the way they flare out around your waist, and the skirt bellows in the wind when the two of you are out walking around town. He thinks you look absolutely ethereal. Like an angel sent straight from heaven. He doesn't know how he got so lucky.

He also loves how his dark tattoos pop off your pastel and light-colored dresses. When his arms are wrapped around your waist from behind, chin resting on your shoulder, as the two of you wait in line for coffee, he's admiring how the tattoos adorning his hands and arms contrast against your dress.

[prythianpages]

*sighs* I need someone to love me like a Hozier song

[an-au-blog]

Oh, your love is sunlight

Happy (late) Valentine's Day (version without text ↓ +description in tags)

[heir-of-the-chair]

Guys. Guys please listen to the band Haunted Like Human. Please I need someone to freak out over their music with please!

[mlattegirl]

Someone said my music taste was a dark and mysterious kind of gay but it’s actually just marauders fan fiction gay. They think I’m cool…I can’t explain it to them.

[soaps-mohawk]

Hiiii! 💛 Sorry if you've got this already but just passing on the fun! BTW I'm in love with CRCB and omg the depth of lore you have for it.

Anyway:

You've got mail! 📨 Share 3 songs from a fic's playlist. Then send this mail along to another! 📤

Aww thank you!!! I'm glad you're enjoying the fic!!

So...I don't have a fic playlist 😅 I do have 141 specific playlists so I'm gonna pull three from there lol

Chokehold - Sleep Token from Simon's Playlist

Shake That Bagpipe - The Sidh from Johnny's Playlist

Everytime We Touch - Cascada from Kyle's Playlist

[mossymenagerieart]

help it is late at night and I’m listening to the song “putting the dog to sleep” by the antlers. And now I actually kind of wish I was the dog in that song. I am NOT suicidal btw. I love living I love sunlight I love being on earth etc. HOWEVER I want that. I want to bleed out to death in a snowy forest where the sky is so so clear and I can see the stars as they were when I was born, being held in the arms of someone who loves me so dearly that to give me peace they shot me. Even if it kills them. Even if it breaks their heart, they love me enough to let me go gently because I begged them to. Because I wanted it to be them. I will always choose them, and it always will be even if it’s the last thing I do. I want to be held tight in their warm embrace in the snow surrounding us, my life bleeding out from me and into their gentle hands, the hands that held me when I cried for them, held me when we danced all those summers ago, cradled my face and wiped the tears from my eyes even though I snarled in fear, in pain. The hands that belonged to someone so human, so unafraid, so caring as to love a beast as I. To take my teeth in his neck with a smile and hold my talons despite my claws, to wipe the blood from my snout with a loving gaze. Someone I will love forever until my last dying breath and then beyond my life. Someone who will miss me for the rest of his. I want to go looking at his face, despite his tears, despite the blood on his hands, my blood. Despite it all, I want that. To be with him one last time like this, held close to his heart so I may hear him sing in his heartbeat once more to me of our time together. Then I close my eyes one final time, the stars gleaming so bright exactly as they looked the day I saw them the first time all those years ago, then blurring together as the world spins and fades away…

idk is that like. Normal. Is that a normal thing to want?? idk but i promise I’m fine ok i don’t WANT to die. But like when I do I want to go like that does that make sense. Something something dog motif something something being truly loved by someone that they’ll kill me if I asked because I want it to be them. Someone who will hold me as I bleed and fade away in their arms under the moonlit snow and stars. Someone who will let me go even if it kills them, but hold me in their arms as I do.

⬆️actual text messages I sent to one of my friends

straight people: I love boys so muchhhhh I love kissing boys they are so pretty!! I want to hug him and I want to dance in his arms on a nice spring day in the meadows!!

gay people: I want to bleed out in his arms while he cradles me tight, close to his chest, his heartbeat a song that fills my chest as my own heartbeat slows and fades. I want him to be the last thing I ever see, I want the life to spill from me slowly in the sparkling quiet night, into the hands of someone who loves me truly, the hands of someone who loves me enough to let me go even though it will kill him, will let me go because I wanted it to be him, because I will and always have chosen him, even if it’s the last thing I do. I want my life to stain the snow and frozen ground around us, color blooming into the blank winter forest for the first time in a long time, so that one day in the coming spring when life blooms anew my blood may bloom through the new shoots and buds and I may live on through them. I want to see the stars fade and blur around my beloved’s face, reach my bloodied paws up to his tear stained cheek and cradle it close, so warm as my life fades into the snow around us, as I grow colder in his embrace. To look in his eyes one last time, see the stars as they were when we met, when I was born, and again as I die.

Anyways here’s the song btw if you want to experience what it’s like to die bleeding out in your lovers arms as their dogboy/werewolf boyfriend or whatever. Idk. Shuffles away and hits my head on a tree branch on the way out.

[iamnotawomanimagod]

I will always be that person who makes things uncomfortable by reminding people that "Cherry Wine" is a song about domestic violence and shouldn't feature on your cutesy love song playlists

[gayabeilles]

listening to hozier while I prepare dinner ☺️☺️☺️

[once-in-a-blood-moon]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers (positivity is cool)🎶✨

Hi, Ven! 😊 Asking me to narrow down only five songs I like to listen to is so difficult since I'm always listening to something and there's many songs I like, lol.

Circle With Me - Spiritbox

Red Wine Supernova - Chappell Roan

Nobody - Hozier

The Future is a Foreign Land - Ghost

Pretty Girls - Renee Rapp