#I know there's a ton of people who do passionately care about Current Thing and Previous Current Thing for real

[ratsandfashion]

I get that no one can care a hundred percent about everything all the time so you pick your causes, which is what I do And I get that not everyone's activism is reflected in their blog. Mine largely is not. Aside for raising awareness/support for potoroos, which is pretty unique to me, most of what I have to say about what I support isn't really something I think most of Tumblr needs to hear, they already agree. So I focus that on irl, and use Tumblr to LEARN about more issues instead, or understand the ones I'm already aware of better, so I can explain them better in conversations elsewhere. Meanwhile my blog is mostly fashion, animals, and aesthetics. So yeah, I get these two things. I really do. But it’s impossible not to notice when everyone is picking and dropping the same causes at once. Honestly, I’m genuinely convinced the only reason trans issues posts remain popular is because such a large chunk of this community is trans. Otherwise it would die in one , maybe two years like the rest of the problems that don’t resolve fast enough to keep the political fandom’s interest.

[meatmatician]

i've continued to keep an eye on this whole watcher situation just because i'm so fascinated and flabbergasted by the whole thing and the two things i've been seeing the most from people on both here and also reddit is that a) a lot of fans had no idea they had a patreon and b) that, at the end of the day, watcher just does not have the depth of content currently to make paying $6 for a separate streaming service worth it for a lot of the people who can afford it

to A's point: i know i personally had no clue they had a patreon until someone brought it up once this whole thing exploded. how many subs, how much money, were they leaving on the table by not pushing it harder? how difficult would it really have been to put together a polished, funny, engaging video to advertise the patreon and pin it to their channel page and socials?

to B's point: there are a handful of streaming services out there asking for either the same price of $6 or in a similar range (ad-supported hulu or disney plus, paramount plus, shudder, dropout) that offer way more bang for their buck, a ton of more content from a variety of creators, directors, studios etc and yes most of those are major corporations/companies but that also doesn't stop that from unfortunately being a true statement. what's watcher going to give us besides the shows they already have (of which many, many people i have noticed saying they only really care about one or two of them at most) and the new one they've promised? personally i'd need a list of at least 5+ new, regular, diverse shows before i even consider giving them money for a streaming service dedicated to only them and they'd have to be shows that are unlike anything i can get anywhere else to even be a little enticing

i don't want them to fail. overall i think they're good guys who want to make things they're passionate about with a quality that's meaningful to them but i do fear this whole thing is going to be the death of them as artists and will be incredibly difficult to recover from

[kaycode1999]

hi! i was wondering if i could get male lmk matchup?

please don't ship me with mk, sandy, tang and pigsy because i see them only in platonic way<3

ᓚᘏᗢ general info:

/ 19 / she/her / enfp / 7w8 / leo /

𓆈appearance𓆈

𓆈 i'm tall, taller than most of my friends → i'm 6'2. my figure is hourglass shaped, something like models in 50s/60s fashion magezines, i think. i have shaggy golden blonde thick curls, my hair is long so i usually tie it up in two buns and two braids (like goldilocks from puss in boots: the last wish). my eyes are amber. i have skinny hands with long fingers

𓆈 my clothing style is mix of whimsigoth, cryptidcore and grandmacore. i really like unusual jewelry → weird shaped rings, earrings, brooches (i especially love the insect shaped and art nouveau ones)

𓆣personality𓆣

𓆣 i'm positive and upbeat person, i try to see the bright side in most situations. i'm friendly, cheerful and bubbly. i'm full of energy and i can be a bit chaotic, but i try to be as responsible as possible, i want people to feel that they can rely on me

𓆣 i'm really confident and i'm not afraid to express myself

𓆣 i care about my friends and family a lot, and go out of my way to show it. i love making people smile

𓆣 i'm super kind person, but won't take any nonsense

𓆣 i have morbid, dark sense of humor. sometimes i randomly say a weird obscure fact in the middle of conversation

𓆣 i'm kinda struggling with taking rest, doing nothing, because there is always something to do, something new to learn, etc. → i'm afraid of stagnation. i overwork myself a lot

𓆣 can't think of anything that i don't like, guess i'm so fixated on my hobbies and passions, i don't pay any attention to other things

𓃹 my hobbies 𓃹

𓃹 dancing and performing. i'm ballet dancer since i was a kid. i also try my skills as figure skater

𓃹 sewing and knitting. i sew most of my clothes and i made for myself tons of sweaters, with most silly patterns like characters from old cartoons, for example "wilk i zając" or "krecik"

𓃹 playing on instruments. i can play on violin, cello, piano, guitar, saxophone, harp and drums, i'm currently learning how to play on trumpet

𓃹 learning. about world and universe or learning new skills. i'm deeply fascinated by space and oceans, they're still unknown to humanity, learning about them makes me sigh in wonder and admiration. i also love nature, i could spend days wandering in forests, observing and learning about animals, insects, plants

𓃹 doll making. i love making dolls, puppets, marionettes. wooden, porcelain, rag, basically every type. i organize puppet theaters, sometimes i give my works as gifts to my loved ones

𓃹 art, any kind of art actually. i like to learn about artists and their work, and i like to try different types of art. sculpting, painting, ceramics, photography, filmmaking, i adore them all. i work as illustrator for fantasy books and books for kids (and honestly this job is dream come true for me!)

𓃹 gardening and herbalism. i work on in garden a lot, i grow flowers, vegetables and herbs. i know herbal medicine, i make my own infusions and tinctures

𓃹 cooking and baking. i learn new recipes whenever i have the opportunity. my favorite things to bake are bread and cookies. i also pick mushrooms, dry them or pickle them

sorry if it's too long or chaotic

thank you so much for even reading this!

I match you with

Monkey King- AKA Sun Wukong- AKA The great Sage equal to heaven

I’m pretty sure he's a little taller than you so your height works out well, and he just thinks you're the most gorgeous thing he's ever seen

He really likes your jewelry, like a lot. Almost like a bird with shiny objects, your jewelry just fascinates him

He loves and admires your confidence. He finds it inspiring

Your kindness is one of the reasons he adores you

He appreciates your expressiveness and he needs someone who isn't afraid to tell him when or if he does something that upsets you

Your sense of humor was a surprise, but honestly he finds it so funny. Also he enjoys any facts you have

He helps you take things more easy so you don't overwork yourself as much, and you get him more interested in learning and doing things

If you're dancing or just performing in general he's completely entranced with the most heart eyes look on his face

If you make anything for him, be it some kind of clothing or a doll he will treasure it forever

He's an immortal being so he will make special trips into outer space or into the ocean to bring you some special souvenirs like a piece of space debris or pictures of a deep sea creature

The monkies and the other animals that live on mountain all love you being around

He actually loves helping you with your gardening and herbalism. You have 2 beautiful gardens near his house and the monkies all make sure not to mess with them

While he loves anything peach-flavored, he's just generally a foodie so he loves anything you make him

P.S. I'm sorry this took a minute. I've had a rough couple of days but fingers crossed things are looking up👍🏻

[ventruevitae]

OC SMASH OR PASS

tagged by @ineed-to-sleep ily <3<3<3

go ahead and consider this a tag if you see it! i can't think of anyone rn + i'll probably be doing these for other ocs anyway so sdgfhhj

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rules: pretty self explanatory. include physical descriptions or pics, and propaganda. the “other” label can be used for “sexuality misalignment” (ie: oc is femme and you’re gay, vice versa or you aren’t into smashing but a specific thing you wanna do with them like perhaps hug or study them under a microscope idc).

these images are all over the place don't @ me

BASICS:

Full name: Katerina Irakleidis (That last name gets swapped out every few decades. Most people just call her Kat.)

Age: Looks like she's in her mid-twenties, was actually born in the 20s

Height: 5"3-ish (almost always wearing some sort of heel tbh, it's hard to clock her actual height between that & the hair)

Eyes: green

Gender: cis woman

Pronouns: she/her

Sexuality: bisexual (major preference for masc/butch types gender notwithstanding btw lmao)

PROS:

vampire.

bit of a hard outer shell but if you break through it ohh man, truly one of the most passionate & devoted people you will meet

surprisingly selfless also?

knows how to dress well, you'll always have something pretty on your arm & she'll be so happy if you let her coordinate outfits

you want to see the world burn? cool, so does she. just point her in a direction & tell her who you want dead.

really goddamn good in bed. she knows it too.

money isn't a problem. how did she come by it? don't worry about it darling.

loves physical touch. top contender of the cuddliest vampire in LA currently.

she can teach you how to do some fun swing dance stuff from her fledgling years c: (she knows a ton of partner dance styles & is pretty good at making up steps/choreo on the fly--so yes, you will get those midnight kitchen dances if you so desire)

basically a happy/content kat is someone who likes to get pretty domestic with her partners. she seems like she'd be looking for something flashy, but nope. her biggest desire is really just settling into something peaceful & being called someone's baby.

CONS:

vampire but also a Ventrue. ymmv on how much of a con this is.

see above: ventrue possessiveness. not necessarily your fault, but can & will become your problem.

"hard outer shell" = she can be genuinely prickly & argumentative at times and can leave a fairly negative impression on people. doesn't care if this happens 99% of the time either.

will not be staying with you if her sire is still alive.

actually that probably puts a pretty massive target on your back, sorry.

is probably definitely still hung up on her sort-of-not-really-an-ex. you will never be him, i am sorry. can you blame her though, who's out here getting over nines rodriguez?

she has a sister, which would be a pro except this sister is a lasombra who will regularly fuck up any emotional regulation kat has scraped together after they cross paths (assuming it doesn't get more physical)

chain smokes. dead god she smokes So Much. doesn't matter for health reasons, being dead and all, but still.

[kin-the-muffin]

i currently have a half-baked theory about alastor…

ok so in the finale, he said that he wants freedom, meaning he has been restricted in some way. but as far as we’ve seen and can tell, he is basically free to do as he wishes. and of course there’s the theory with lilith being the one owning his soul, which he might have traded away to gain such insane amounts of power. but what has he ever done that didn’t seem to be in his best interest?

charlie.

yea, yea, i hear you and your sassy clips of him saying he’s helping the hotel simply for boredom’s sake and that he enjoys watching people try to do something meaningful but then fail in the process but! that would imply that he’d done so before, but we have never, not once, ever heard that he even dabbled in such a thing. (and don’t you dare try to tell me that he actually cares about charlie, the man is the most manipulative, sadistic little mf i’ve ever seen, and that’s saying something because i’ve seen miraculous ladybug and hate liela rossi as much as anyone else.) the only things we know about his past is that he appeared in hell very suddenly with lots of power, he toppled countless overlords overnight, and his radio podcast killed tons of demons. nothing of this has to do with other beings in hell trying to make it better (as i highly doubt any of those overlords had good intentions since they were, well, overlords). but he doesn’t seem the type to do things meaninglessly, he always has ulterior motives.

but then if his excuses of entertainment are as flimsy as i’m making them out to be then why would he ever help charlie? well, i think that brings us back to lilith. it’s far from a rarely-noticed detail that the length of alastor and her’s disappearances were for the same amount of time and while we know that lilith spent that time in heaven (if that even is lilith, but idk enough about that theory so i’m just gonna assume that it’s her and that she’s been in heaven the whole time), we don’t have a smack-dab CLUE as to what alastor was up to during his vacay. then he just shows up out of nowhere, at the idealistic princess of hell’s doorstep of all places.

well, i’ve had a sneaking suspicion for a while that lilith’s deal (at least part of it), in exchange for his power, was to help charlie in some way. i’m thinking that’s why he seemed so torn-up about how he almost ‘died for his friends’. he doesn’t care for any of them (except maybe nifty but i think that’s just bonding over shared mania (i think rosie (and maybe zestial) is the only one he truly, honestly cares about, but i get the feeling that even that relationship is pretty business-based)).

we have no idea what lilith is like, we have absolutely zero characterization of her except for what charlie explains about her in episode 1, that she’s passionate and hardworking and stubborn and independent—qualities that charlie mostly has in abundance. so i would say that she’s cared about charlie this whole time but due to whatever is keeping her in heaven, she can’t help her, except that lilith seems a little too malevolent to care about charlie’s hotel. why would she? she fell in love with a dreamer who shared her rebellious heart and for this, she was the first human soul cast into hell. she has never had any kind of reason as to why she would ever want to go to heaven, or anyone else for that matter (as she did work to make hell into the semi-civil place it is now). and we have no idea how close she and charlie were before she left (i suspect we’ll learn more about that in season 2), so we can’t assume that she’ll just support charlie, whatever her aspirations may be. so i honestly have no idea as to why lilith would enlist alastor to help charlie, but i am fairly convinced that this is the case of what’s happened.

thoughts?

[dyketennant]

it’s my 21st birthday. i’m in line to get the horizontal drivers license because my photo on my current one is outdated, but more importantly it sucks, and i need the cute bartenders at the lesbian bar to like me. the line winds around the room like a snake, and because the government doesn’t think i’m disabled enough i have to stand. i forgot to bring my book with me—category 4 catastrophe. so i start playing a game of 2048 cupcakes to take the edge off. now, for those who don’t know me, this game has me hooked like any other drug. this past semester i played it every day during class, to the point where people who sit behind/around me talk to me about it. problem is i’m not very good, and despite my hours of grinding, i have not gotten better. but i’m doing okay so far. i get to the toasted marshmallow (do not ask me the corresponding number in 2048 because i do not know, just be impressed by me) and i’ve got a fairly clear board, so things are looking good. i notice the girl behind me has been staring at me, or…is she just looking around to stave her boredom? no, she’s definitely checking me out. i turn around to confront her. realizing she’s been caught, she blushes and says, “sorry, it’s just…you’re really good at this game.” i blush too and thank her. we start talking—apparently she’s more of a run kid herself, but her dad is the one who makes the cupcakes for 2048 cupcakes. i’m in shock, feeling as if i’m talking to the child of a god. she leans in and whispers to me that if you beat the game, a real cupcake will appear in my fridge, but no one’s ever done it. “how is that possible?” i ask. “well,” she says, “people think you win once you get to the rainbow cupcake, but that’s not true. there’s another cupcake after that that nobody’s seen before—except for me that is.” i’m incredibly turned on by her insider knowledge of 2048 cupcakes. i ask her what 2048+2048 even is, since that’s what you’d have to combine to get the secret cupcake, and she tells me it’s the year that the world will end. that’s why it’s so difficult to get: the knowledge would drive any average person to insanity. also, based on her tone, i’m pretty sure the secret cupcake you get is actually poisoned, but she’s talking around it because she knows if the secret gets out, her dad will stop sending her checks on her birthday, and these cupcakes pay a fuck ton apparently. she asks if i’m interested in going to nationals, but i’ve never played 2048 cupcakes competitively. she volunteers to be my coach. i don’t even know her name, but i’m already wondering if i should wait to get my new id until after we get married and i take her last name. she must see it on my face, or maybe something snaps between both of us, because the next second she’s on me. we kiss passionately and wetly. nobody in line cares because they’re busy trying to survive the dmv, which we all know is the seventh circle of hell.

[junowritings]

Hello! Could I please get a Baldur's Gate 3 matchup? Any gender is fine ^-^

I'm an autistic girl who also has adhd, asthma and chronic joint pain. I work as a librarian currently and am simultaneously very smart and scholarly and also full of energy. I'm definitely the sunshine person in a group, I love taking care of people and I'm very good at making other people laugh, I have a very dry witty sense of humor. I'm also super short, 4' 10"/147 cm, but I can get kinda insecure about it when dating. I have a very boyish style, long wavy auburn hair that floofs up around my head, glasses and I'm pale and covered in moles and freckles. I also love being out in nature, and if I can't be I bring nature to me, I have tons of houseplants.

Thank you so so much, have a great day!!

I just wanna say now that the line between two characters was so close I damn near considered doing both, but ultimately one boy won out for you lmao.

With that being said, I match you with...

You know who’d give you the love you so rightly deserve? HALSIN.

Halsin’s mere presence exudes a warmth that is difficult to put into words - it’s one of the many reasons others seem to flock to him for guidance or look to him for comfort. Perhaps it is that warmth that leads you to his side.

The first few interactions with the druid, the two of you hit it off like nobody's business. Halsin is the kind of man who with your equally vibrant personality makes it feel as though you’ve known this man for months longer than you actually have.

There’s a fierce focus behind your eyes that speaks of your sharp wit and intelligence, your pursuit of all things knowledge and academic clear from his very first meeting with you. There’s nothing that Halsin loves more than watching that fire kindle when something’s caught your interest, fascinated by the way your whole demeanor seems to brighten when something has managed to spark up your passion. You call yourself a sunshine person, but to Halsin you’re almost akin to the sun; a bright presence who warms up the very air around you as though breathing life into every place and every person you touch. Halsin would find himself wanting to see more of it; compelled to see what else he can do to get you to light up like that and bring out that radiance he’s so quickly begun to associate with you.

He will absolutely visit your workplace in the middle of the day. Of course he’d much prefer to take you outdoors any chance that he gets, but understands that the library is your territory - a fitting workplace, he comments, considering your pursuits. Expect his visits to be spontaneous though; whenever he finds himself thinking or pining for you he just follows the desire to seek you out to spend time at your side. The only warning that you’ll likely get is seeing his unmistakable figure outside of your peripheral before you’re scooped away from whatever task you’re working on; this can be cute but expect a few book based casualties if you happen to be holding any at the time. He’ll try not to disrupt your work, but let's be honest, having this big guy watching you with a gaze loving enough to make ice melt you’re gonna cave no matter how resilient you may be.

You’ll quickly begin finding little gifts left around your workspace, all of them expressions of his affection. Most of them, unsurprisingly, are plants; not only because he finds that nature can breathe a life into even the most mundane of places, but also because your mutual appreciation of nature makes him believe that you would enjoy nature’s gifts. Given your own love of nature you may find your coworkers suspecting you’re the one bringing them in; that is until they catch him on his way to you with a potted ribbon plant cradled in his arms.

You brim with energy, enough so that even Halsin finds himself caught up within the wake of it. His heart swells watching you care for others and bringing them joy as though it’s second nature. The willingness to care and tend to others is a trait so easily overlooked in the world, and given that Halsin has more than once taken on such a role in the past and present he finds a kindred spirit in that kind nature of yours. Dote on him, try to make him laugh, and watch this man melt for you like honey in the sun. Be it with your words or your touch, your care touches a place within his chest; one that carves a place in his heart for you to fill like it was made for you. 

With that being said, the role of a caretaker so often comes with the consequence of overlooking your own care. This is a man though who knows that those who love taking care of others need the exact same love and attention lavished upon them in kind; and there is no one more eager to do so than himself. The care of oneself is just as important, and giving yourself time to heal and relax is vital. Taking you out into nature is a predictable date idea for the druid, but he does it to also get you away from the hustle and bustle of your everyday life if only for a few hours. To allow you a moment to breathe, ease some of the burdens from your shoulders, and give you a place away from others to vent and give yourself some peace.

Plus outdoorsy dates in the middle of nowhere gives him the excuse to remain affectionately glued to your side under the pretense of sticking close together - a fact he has no hesitation admitting to if you call him out on it.

His care also extends to your chronic pain. If you suffer from flare ups in your joints Halsin will insist on helping you in whatever way he can, so long as you’re comfortable of course. Balms and healing spells aplenty - anything that he can do to alleviate even a fraction of your suffering he's happy to do without a second of hesitation. He’d wish nothing more than to ease that pain from you entirely, but he does what he can to make the worst days a little more manageable.

Tall king won’t even think twice about your height, nor the potential insecurity that you are dealing with as a result. He strives to be accommodating for you, and there is not an inch of you that is not loved fully and wholly by this guy. If you open up about any potential insecurities, rest assured that he will devote every second of that very day reminding you of his appreciation for your form, and every little mark that makes up who you are.

If you think this man won’t kiss every single one of your moles and freckles, prepare to be proven so very wrong. Literally his favorite pastime when you’re cuddling is to kiss the freckles and marks that he can reach, whether that’s your face, your shoulders, your back, arms, or anywhere else. Has a habit of kissing the marks on your hands, intertwining his fingers with yours and brushing his nose along the top or palm of your hand before planting a kiss. Sometimes gets a little too enthusiastic with the kisses. He’s smushed your glasses into your nose a couple times beneath the barrage of his kisses, but your complaints about it are only met with a rumbling chuckle as he leans up to place an apologetic kiss to the bridge of your nose. Depending on where they are he’ll trace along those freckles and moles, mapping them out reverently beneath his fingertips as though committing them to memory. There’s a softness in his expression whenever he does this, but don’t call him out on it unless you’re gunning for some more kisses.

I do hope you’re prepared for your home to become a greenhouse! With both of your meticulous care your houseplants will practically thrive before your very eyes, and soon will be growing in number the more that Halsin integrates himself around your home. It’s as though he’s bringing the very outdoors inside with him, and he’s in turn deeply impressed by the attention and love which you have poured into the plants that take residence within your home.

[alligatorjesie]

*glances at the raging cunt who keeps posting harassment to this fandom's tags every month or so*

You know the last time I checked you're not a fucking reylo so beats the fuck out of us why you're up in our goddamn shit so often @watchingtheearthrise

Cait Corrain isn't active in this fandom. She's hardly a reylo, and if she's gonna act like that she's not fuckin' welcome here.

I think they may have wrote a few reylo fics a long time ago but they're not a big name writer and the fandom as a whole don't really know who the fuck this person is.

I've seen a few people online mention Cait's book is published reylo fanfiction but I can't find anything from the writer confirming it so we’re all just assuming it started out as a reylo fic.

Looking at it, it seems more like lore olympus fanfiction than reylo but again, until the author says otherwise we’re just assuming.

Cait did however talk a gullible friend into helping her sabotage other people's book reviews and when the lacky she coerced did it wrong because she didn't really explain her dastardly plan very well and the moment she realized how badly the 'friend' fucked up she threw that kid under the bus.

But even that shit is kinda sus because these timestamps don't fucking line up. This conversation looks doctored to a lot of people meaning the only person responsible for being a cunt here is cait and you @watchingtheearthrise.

The friend is mentioned to be a reylo but you can't really put much of the blame on them since they were just doing what their cool(shitty) published writer friend asked them to do, assuming this friend is even real.

Cait didn't get mad she did a bad thing. She got mad she did it poorly and got caught. Which speaks volumes about Cait.

You being here assuming the worst out of this fandom every time someone so much as sneezes without saying 'god bless you' speaks volumes about you @watchingtheearthrise.

Please for the love of fuck would you find a fucking hobby to pour this endless passion into.

You know something really fun that I've spent a lot of mental energy on over the years and has brought me great pride and joy is this Star Wars Episode 9 rewrite comic I've been working on.

Legit!

I got character sheets and new alien designs.

Most of the script is wrote out, I'm currently working on storyboards and page framing.

I'm only as far as I am because I have a life outside the computer and can't dedicate endless hours a pet project but it's got 2 of my favorite things in it:

A narratively cohesive continuation of The Last Jedi-

And furries.

Because fuckit why not it's my fucking comic.

You're welcome to laugh, and I know you will because you're a huge pile of shit, but doing this has been incredibly cathartic.

we live in a world were we have increasingly little control over basic shit in it. Media can feel like it wants to make money more than it cares about the story and character development and if I want media I’ll actually enjoy well goddamnit I guess I’ll make it myself.

I want it to be good. I want the salt of the fact a random furry wrote and created a better Star Wars EP9 to burn. I think thats funny.

I personally didn't like EP9

(Notice how I dislike EP9 but don't go out of my way to harass people who like it @watchingtheearthrise?)

So I decided to just make my own. Instead of being asshole to people in a fandom who do like it.

(Notice what I'm doing there @watchingtheearthrise?)

I don't see you in here when the fandom does nice shit like donating a shit ton of money to Adam Driver's arts for the military foundation.

I didn't see you in here when Thea Guanzon, a southeast asian reylo's published book became a new york times bestseller.

I don't fucking see you pop in when the dedicated members of this fandom post art and stories and celebrate the thing they love.

Don't let a single person who is acting shitty color your entire opinion about a whole ass fandom man. God fucking knows if I took this approach with finnreys I would just assume all of them are huge pieces of shit because nine times out of ten the people posting anti hate to the reylo tag are finnreys.

But since I'm not a complete fucking dumbass Like Some People Here

I'm able to use some common fucking sense and see it's not the finnreys that are shit.

finnreys are fine.

It's just like... 4 unique people with a lot of extra accounts.

real fucking bold to comment on someone making extra accounts to do nefarious things online from someone who already does that.

I’m pretty fucking sure at least 6 of the antis I regularly come across in this tag Are Your Accounts @watchingtheearthrise. You admit to 2 extra ones you’ve used to harass people in this fandom in the past In Your Fucking Bio

( I love hate how you have reylos in your DNI but paradoxically will not stop posting to this fucking fandoms’s tag I swear to Jesus Fucking Chri-)

God fucking bless you @watchingtheearthrise I hope you find someone who helps you learn how to not be such a festering cunt.

I started out this post not even know who the fuck Cait Corrain is. I still don't give a fuck because shit people can go fuck off into oblivion for all the fucks I don't give but since some asshat antis can’t be fucked to do a goddamn second of research I guess much like that ep9 I'm rewriting I’ll just fucking do this too.

Cait's a reylo about as much as you @watchingtheearthrise and you’re both welcome to let the door hit y’all on the ass on the way out.

[twig-tea]

SHIPPER TAG GAME

Tagged by @lurkingshan and @stuffnonsenseandotherthings to dig into the vault. Friends, I have been Perpetually Online since 1995, when that meant I had to haunt my school library computer at lunchtime, so this is going to be for the fellow Olds. Sorry in advance for the HP mentions.

1. What ship were you completely obsessed with when you were a teenager, but now you don't care anymore?

Have I let any ships go? Hmm. I'll go with Mulder/Scully from X-Files. Watching now, they should definitely not end up together lol

2. Which ship would you consider your first one?

Sailor Mercury/Sailor Jupiter from Pretty Soldier Sailor Moon. I. Was. Obsessed. This ship hit me like a ton of bricks in I want to say 6th or 7th grade.

I watched the show as it aired with English dubs, found out the episodes we got were censored, immediately fell into my completionist ways, went to the Asian mall (it was literally pan-Asian with stuff from Japan, China, Taiwain, Korea, etc.) and got definitely not official VCDs with Mandarin subtitles, and would sit with friends who spoke Mandarin and had them translate the subs to English for me (I say this like I forced them, but they offered because they were my friends and they also felt passionately about people seeing the uncensored show). I then learned how to Internet and would trawl for fanpages of the manga (it would take 20 minutes to load an image at the time, so rather than full scanlations I'd get walls of text describing what happened with maybe a single panel illustration). Uranus and Neptune were fantastic, but I already had Ami and Makoto aka Mercury and Jupiter long before I got to the Uranus/Neptune episodes (or the Sailor Stars manga arc).

3. Your first fanfic belonged to which couple?

Definitely Sailor Moon fanfic was the first fic I read. It was an easy step from finding fan summaries of the chapters not yet out in English > finding fan sites with fanfic on them, back before we had archives or even decent search engines and you had to just find the sites you needed through links from other sites. It was like a whole new world of possibilities opening up. The first real fanfic community I was in was Harry Potter.

In terms of first fic I wrote, I am not a writer; I've only ever written a small handful of not worth mentioning ficlets featuring the Kirk/Spock ship (Star Trek TOS).

4. Do you remember the first couple you saw a fanart over?

Oh it was likely Serena/Tuxedo Mask from Sailor Moon and it was in person, because I had friends who got me into anime and manga early and they were artists who drew a lot of fanart.

5. Did you ever get into ship discourse?

Friends, I had a Livejournal. It was impossible not to get into ship discourse.

6. Did you used to have any no-otp or have it currently?

I am going to echo @stuffnonsenseandotherthings and @lurkingshan and say I was dead-set against Hermione as a ship with any of the men in Harry Potter (Hermione/Luna or Hermione/Ginny, though, we could talk), and I also really disliked Draco/Ron. I also am not here for Spock/McCoy (Star Trek), and I don't really enjoy Stucky (as in Captain America/Winter Soldier or Steve Rogers/Bucky Barnes from Marvel).

OH and can I be a hater on main for a second? The first couple that I remember hating as a thing was probably Jo and Professor Bhaer from Little Women; I was SO MAD they married in the end. I felt very validated years later when I read that the author Lousia May Alcott was forced by her publisher to marry Jo off and made up the couple out of spite.

7. Who were the couple in the last fanfic you read?

The last fic I read was a Word of Honour modern AU pairing Wen Ke Xing/Zhou Zishu in which they rescued stray kittens.

SInce I started this, I've also read a One Piece Luffy/Zoro fic (and that's not even my favourite ship--I've been a Zoro/Sanji girlie since the early 2000s! I'm weak for banter.)

8. Currently, do you have any OTPs?

I have so many. SO many. Truly. I don't even know where to start with this question! I follow several AO3 tags and fanfic writers that I get regular fic updates from. Most of my OTPs are either canon (from queer/BL/GL media) or the most popular ship (I feel very lucky that my taste is so basic). There is no one couple I love the most. Just going to throw a dart at the board: From BL, the one I come back to a lot is Hira/Kiyoi in Utsukushii Kare, because their dynamic is so intense.

9. Is there any couple that, to this day, you are extremely mad about not getting together?

Hmm. That's what fandom is for, so not really? I usually get more annoyed when people do get together that I wish had stayed platonic (never forgiving Pacific Rim for that kiss, it was so unnecessary). And I'm extremely mad about censorship, i.e. couples that DID get together but we didn't get to see it for whatever reason (see e.g. Uranus and Neptune from Sailor Moon Sailor Stars; Chinese danmei novel live-action adaptations). Otherwise there are lots of these but I just read the fanfic and recover. I'll say I'm still annoyed Buffy didn't get to have with Faith what she had with Spike though. Their chemistry was off the charts.

10. Is there any ship you used to dislike but now you think they are kind of interesting?

This is such a hard question. I came around a little on Lan Xichen/Jiang Cheng from MDZS/the Untamed, though it's still not my fave (it's a soft no not a hard no). I'll also give you an oldie: Andie McPhee and Pacey from Dawson's Creek. I hated Andie's character back in the day but now I like her character but really dislike how she was used in the show, which isn't the same thing. And I actually really liked how she and Pacey worked together.

I'll also give you a BL one: Kurosawa and Haruta in Ossan's Love. Ossan's Love s1 & 3 it was clear they were not OTP so that's a bit irrelevant anyway, but it's much less clear in s2 (the AU season) and the first time I watched it I wasn't sure how I felt about the way that season ended as much as I loved the season as a whole. I like it more every time I rewatch.

11. Do you have any ship that, in the past, was considered normal but now you would be cancelled over?

LOL I am with everyone else on the Brian/Justin train but since that's been said twice I'll go with something else. I was a big Harry/Draco shipper back in the day, which would now probably get me cancelled for shipping someone with his bully (though a significant part of the fun of that ship was about how Draco was such an ineffectual bully...but I digress), in addition to of course how the author's transphobia ruined the whole thing for all of us (fanfic doesn't make her any money, so I don't have a problem continuing to read it in theory, but it's left a sour note over my experience and makes any engagement in that fandom less fun).

12. What was your favorite crack ship?

I was one of those foolish people obsessed with Hawkeye/Coulson before we'd even seen them face-to-face or knew almost anything about MCU Clint Barton. I still read fanfic of that ship even though it's been fully jossed and makes no sense at all anymore. Ok one more, I really love the very small Breakfast Club fandom shipping Brian/John and Claire/Allison. I've read the few fics on AO3 for the queer pair ghost ships in that show multiple times.

13. Who is the couple you read more fanfics of?

Of all time, I've probably read the most Kirk/Spock fanfic. But that's due to the length of time I've been into the ship, the amount of time it's existed, and its popularity. I still read Kirk/Spock regularly.

14. What most of your ships usually have in common?

Honestly most can be boiled down to grumpy/sunshine pairs in which both are very competent in specific ways and both are hiding crippling self esteem issues behind their grumpy or sunshine-ness, and have strong but differing moral codes that they each respect in one another (and is usually where the feelings start). Banter is a must. I am admittedly also here for height difference in my ships. Double-plus bonus for terrible communicators who learn to understand one another's particular communication quirks.

Perfect encapsulation of this dynamic is Danny/Steve from Hawaii Five-0 (listen that show was copaganda trash but the fanfic was fun as hell).

15. What do you absolutely hate in a ship?

Power dynamics that remain unaddressed as part of the story. Hate to love that isn't earned over time. When the relationship makes each other worse rather than better. When they never learn to trust one another. When one of them is in it as part of a savior complex and that doesn't get challenged or worked through. When only one of them has a personality. There's very little that I'd say is a hard no in terms of dynamics or setup for me, but it has to be handled well, and sometimes I don't have the energy to give something the benefit of the doubt.

tagging: @respectthepetty @wen-kexing-apologist @so-much-yet-to-learn @ginnymoonbeam @bengiyo with as always no pressure, plus anyone who sees this who wants to fill it out, consider yourself tagged and let me know so I can see it!

[mbrainspaz]

been at the lake for 2 hours and my conservative gay uncle is already back on that capitalist bullshit. I appreciate his intention was to help me brainstorm ways to navigate my latest job/living crisis (in which the rich people are once again f*cking me over for doing the best at my job it's possible to do) but he strayed off the mark when he said 'there are jobs you could do for more money' and I said, 'oh? Do tell. I'll take one.' And of course he can't name any jobs paying a livable entry level wage. We'd just been talking about how all the jobs I've interviewed for in my field have been offering $17 max.

But okay—I'll do anything. I don't care what I have to do for 8-10 hours a day anymore as long as it pays enough to live (and isn't causing harm to others). He essentially goes, 'but an advantage of your current job is that it's fun.' Bruuuuuuh. I don't think there are many jobs outside of farm & ranch that pay so little for so much back breaking work. Probably mining. Some construction jobs. I heard railway inspectors have to walk about as much as I do, but I'm pretty sure they make more.

But you know there's no way I'm ever going to convince my corporate CEO uncle that what I do on the daily is one of the most grueling jobs on the planet because it's horsies, right? It's fuuuun. omg so fun. I love shoveling 3 tons of manure daily in 120 degree summers. I love dumping carrying dozens of 100 pound buckets because our equipment broke down again. I love walking 12 miles while getting eaten alive by mosquitos. I love trudging through rivers in lightning storms in the middle of the night. I love casually risking life and limb to calm a panicking horse.

I mean, I do kinda love it, but not because it's 'fun' or 'easy.' I love it because it's metal. I could probably make more as a barista if there were a coffee shop that'd give me enough hours, which apparently there isn't because lots of my friends have tried that already and they're just as broke as I am.

I tried to tell my uncle the only friends I have who're making a living are the ones who inherited either a house or a job from their company owning dad. He mentioned 'working my way up' in a company and I nearly fell off the bar chair laughing. Dude I'm litterally in the process of getting punished by corporate for doing The Most And Best Work at my job for two years.

Then he had to top it off by telling me my comic is a hobby and if it's costing me money I can't afford to do it and should just quit.

Oh like... my passion project? The main thing that's given me the will to keep living through most of the last 7 years? That comic? For f*ck's sake man.

He wasn't even done there! He decided to go for the jackpot of Bad Life Advice with, "well you should consider getting rid of your dogs then."

"The dogs I've had for almost 10 years that also give me the will to live and have been my best friends and companions through it all?"

"You can make new friends."

Anyway, I'm chilling in my hideout in the attic now and I'll probably be here for most of the next 4 days. Gonna try to finish one more page of my comic before the year is over and my life fully goes back to broke hobo mode.

[shouldhavestayedawayfromhere]

My thoughts & opinions on thoughtforms

I wanna talk about my thoughtforms, because it's something I'm really passionate about. This post will not directly relate to witchcraft or paganism/deity work, even though thoughtforms can be a spiritual practice, I do not currently include mine in my craft. With that out of the way, let's talk about got I got to them. (This is a long post btw)

In case you don't know exactly what a thoughtform is, it's an entity created of one's own energy that can fulfill it's designated purpose, which can be as small or big as it's creator decided. It may be a human friend or an animal companion, or a weird, eight-legged creature that helps you fall asleep at night. Good we got that down, so let's go!

As a kid I've had a ton of "imaginary friends". Going through puberty, that only solidified, since I didn't have many real life friends. I've also had maladaptive daydreams all my life which may have caused this almost irrational attachment towards made up characters. However, only after finding the witchcraft community on Tumblr, did I learn that thoughtforms are a thing in magic.

Destroying thoughtforms

When I learned about thoughtforms, I read that you're supposed to be able to destroy them once they no longer serve your purpose, or else they would either "run off" or get bitter from the lack of attention and energy being invested into them. To that I wanna say, everyone has their own practice and their own rules, and for me, this just isn't the case. My thoughtforms have never gotten upset at me for forgetting about them for a while. They're still my friends, and I don't have to spend every single free minute on them.

I also don't believe in destroying my thoughtforms. There's just no reason I could think of to do that. They go through life with me like other things do. And if I'll eventually forget about them, the universe will take care of it. Maybe we'll reunite some day.

Creating thoughtforms

Another opinion I have on thoughtforms is that many people, especially those teaching about thoughtforms, are too strict on what is and isn't a thoughtform and how to create one. If you make up a character and give it permission to roam around and do things and you believe that this is your thought form, then it most probably is.

There are different approaches and opinions about "feeding" your thoughtform. Put shortly – I don't do that. They are an extension of me, my energy, and have become independent. They exist because I believe in them and interact with them. That just my standpoint and it works for me.

Of course you can do a ritual, perform a spell, light a candle, write a contract and make a 3D model of your thoughtform and you can read three books on it and write your own. But you can also sit in your bed and think up a silly figure and say "your name shall be Silversparkle and you will remind me that I'm pretty every day" and you have your thoughtform. (Not making fun of people who like to have a formal and fancy process, I'm just saying it's not necessary to do all that if it feels like too much)

Intimidating thoughtforms

Here's a note on thoughtforms being "too powerful" or "pushy". I personally haven't had this issue, but apparently others have. In my personal experience, a thoughtform is only ever as powerful as you believe it to be. Therefore, the only way they could come across as "too powerful" or intimidating is if you are unsure of yourself and create something you don't fully understand – therefore are scared of.

When I first officially introduced my first thoughtform, he had existed way before this point. I just basically told him "you get this label now, and I allow you to develop a mind of your own," and that was it. And that was scary at first, because I didn't know what this would change. In the end, it only brought us closer together, and I've never been intimidated by him anymore after that initial introduction.

I have a mental space for my human thoughtforms. It's where they are when they're not with me. I can visit this place too in my mind. They're both very beautiful places that I find a lot of comfort in. I've set clear boundaries with my first thought form about when he can and can't leave that place, since he started just popping up in inconvenient moments in the beginning. Never dealt with that again, not even with another thoughtform.

I also wanna mention here that I no longer rely on my thoughtforms as substitutes for real friends, and no one ever should. My thoughtform was my closest companion for a while because I didn't have any good, close friends, and I was struggling with mental health. No one should ever (have to) view their thoughtform as a replacement for human interaction. I'm very grateful for the friends I've made since.

I'm probably gonna make a follow-up post where I talk about my own thoughtforms and what they do, and how I interact with them. Cause I like really love them and they do a lot for me so I wanna share it with the community, since I very rarely see anyone in the witchcraft community talk about thoughtforms.

That's all, lots of love 💜

[drbennedict-writingadvice]

hello! any advice to get out of your head for someone who hasn’t picked up writing since they were a teenager? for some reason, in my head, i view writing on my own time for fun as “embarrassing” or “cringy” simply because i’m getting older and view it as a immature hobby…

…which is obviously not true! i have a lot of respect for writers and i know you can write at any age, but whenever i open a page, i feel out of place and can’t read my old writing in fear people would look at me as immature. the same goes for creating detailed characters and storylines.

i’m not even old either (19) but i mainly wrote a lot in middle school—maybe that’s why? idk.

tdlr; any advice on writing for myself again without fear of judgement?

Hi anon,

Thanks for writing in! This is something a lot of creators struggle with especially if it’s something they did when they were younger and during a time they considered themselves to be “immature” or “cringey”. The brain is great at linking things and creating patterns, and because you wrote a lot when you were in middle school, a time period that I think is universally accepted as the worst and cringiest part of life lol, your mind linked the hobbies you did during that time to the feeling of immaturity and cringiness. The great news is that most people grow out of this phase naturally! I know it’s not exactly the same but I remember when I was just starting college I felt embarrassed to talk about the bands I liked in high school (and secretly still liked) but as I got older and became more self confident and sure of myself, I learned to unabashedly embrace those parts of myself. And nobody cared! In fact a lot of people felt the same way as I did.

But don’t worry, I’m not saying that you just have to wait it out! There are definitely things you can do to speed up this process. My first suggestion is that if you’re worried that people will think writing for fun is immature (which as a 29 year-old with a writing themed blog I promise you it’s not!) , then for right now, just don’t tell anyone! It can be your secret hobby while you learn to be more confident and rewire the way your brain thinks about this.

I’d also suggest trying to find other people who also enjoy writing either as a hobby or as a hopeful profession so you have a safe community you can explore your writing in. Surrounding yourself with like minded people can be really helpful! I remember the first time I attended a writing workshop it felt so amazing and freeing to be surrounded by people who I knew also loved writing and were never going to judge me for my passion. It’s currently national novel writing month and even if you don’t feel up to trying to write an entire novel in one month, there are still plenty of NaNoWriMo activities you can take part in. There are tons of discord channels, forums, virtual events, and in person events you could join.

A lot of it will just be reminding yourself that it’s not immature or cringey. This won’t change you knee jerk reaction overnight, but just like how positive affirmations work (at first you think it’s dumb, then it’s kind of neutral, and then you start to believe what you’re saying to yourself) after a while you’ll find that the way you think about writing has changed. Think of writers you love and admire and how you don’t think they’re immature or cringey for writing, and neither do most people! Think of Tolkien who created incredibly detailed story lines and characters, and even went so far as to create multiple fake languages that many people now genuinely learn for fun. Even if fantasy isn’t your preferred genre I have yet to meet someone who considers what he did anything less than impressive. Not once have I heard someone call what he did immature or cringey. So I think just recognizing that you have this thought pattern that your logical brain knows isn’t true, and for now just accepting that you have this cognitive dissonance and not feeling bad about it, but taking these small steps to work towards changing that thought pattern.

And finally, just write anyway! Like I said you can keep it a secret for now if you want to, there is absolutely nothing wrong with that! But try to write anyway. The more you write now then the more examples your brain has to rewire writing not as something you did when you were younger and therefore something immature but as something you do now as a young adult. And don’t put too much pressure on yourself as you’re getting back into writing for the first time in a while. Do not expect that your first attempt is going to be a masterpiece, but just have fun with it! Get into the habit or writing regularly, whatever that means for you. It could be once a week, it could be every day, just do what works for your life and your schedule right now. The more you practice the more normal it’ll feel and like anything, the better you’ll get at it, which will help you feel less cringey about your writing.

I’ll leave you with one small anecdote. Any time I tell people that I’m writing a novel they are always immediately impressed. I have never had someone say anything negative about it or anyone act like it was a dumb thing to spend time on. And most of the time I hear things like “Oh I wish I could do that, but I just don’t have the dedication.” Or “Oh I always wanted to write a novel, maybe I’ll give it a try now” or “Oh me too! What writing software do you use?”

I know this was a long answer but I wanted to try and ensure I was actually helpful! Please always feel free to reach out if you have other questions, or if you ever just need another reminder that there is nothing immature or cringey about wanting to write in your free time.

[theneighborhoodwatch]

Hello! I wanted to say how much I love the wiki you created! It’s amazing, I really like how every character has its own page with their favorite colors. It’s a really nice detail, and I know the ton of work it takes to do something like this. I love Welcome Home and seeing people creating wikis about it makes me really happy! I also like seeing people having fun creating their own AUs and stuff, but I enjoy much more the canon content of WH and the original work made by Clown, so I really appreciate it.

Now… I want to reveal something and I hope you don’t hate me for this… But I’m one of the bureaucrats in the WH Fandom Wiki. I was accepted as a staff member there some time before the big website update that made WH skyrocket in popularity, and since then I’ve added a lot of info in the trivia, relationships sections, secrets and images in the galleries, because I adore Welcome Home and when I arrived there the wiki lacked quite a bit of information.

Wait! Don’t think I’m here to tell you off, to make you delete your wiki or something like that, it’s actually the opposite. I wanted to thank you because thanks to you and other people (and some incidents that have happened during the years I’ve been working in the Fandom wikis) have made me realize that Fandom as a platform has changed a lot for the worse and they don’t really care about the hard work the editors do in there. (As an example, they actually deleted all informational and replaced an entire article about a character named “Grimace” to turn it into a giant ad just because McDonald's payed them to do so and without telling anything first to the bureaucrat of the McDonald's Fandom Wiki. But there are more things that have happened.)

I’m going to be honest, I’m a bit lost about what to do right now. I’m even thinking on leaving Fandom, or at least not be as active as before, but I don’t want to leave the people that is in there or abandon all the work we’ve done either. But in the other hand, I think I’m doing something really bad by continuing visiting and helping in Fandom Wikis after knowing what Fandom/Wikia does and how much people hate them right now.

I joined Fandom Wiki years ago to know more about my favorite media and help as much as I can. This was a passion of mine, but now this stresses me out more and more every day.

Sorry about all the rambling. I just wanted to let you know that someone in the own Fandom WH Wiki is rooting for you and your own WH personal wiki, and that you helped me open my eyes. And sorry for sending this anonymously, I fear that people will figure out who I am in the Fandom Wiki if they read this.

well, first of all, thank you for taking a look at my wiki! i worry a lot about whether i'm missing anything, which is why i always ask for feedback whenever i put a new page up, so it's actually a bit of a relief to hear that other wiki editors think that my work is up to snuff.

second of all, i want to make it clear that while i have Many issues with fandom.com as a platform (i didn't even know about the grimace thing, but yeah, add that to the list) i don't resent any of its users. fandom.com was the most popular wiki-hosting site back in the day for a reason, after all - the userbase isn't responsible for the intrusive advertising or the unintuitive site design or any other number of poorly thought out decisions that led to the site's decline in quality; more often than not, the people editing each individual wiki are doing the best they can with the tools they've been given, and that includes you.

i'll be totally upfront with you: i know i've mentioned being a bit disappointed with the fandom.com WH wiki in the past (and to be clear, most of that just comes down to personal taste) but one of the first things that stood out to me as a positive back when i first went through it was that it was extremely thorough in its citations, to the point where i actually used it as a reference for sourcing almost all of the trivia currently on welcome to welcome home. if that was all you (or, all 200-ish of you, if i remember the wiki server's numbers correctly) AND you've been beefing up other sections of the wiki at the same time, then you have every right to be proud of your work!

if you still want to move to a new platform, but understandably don't to lose any of what you've written so far, i would suggest floating the idea of moving everything you have now over to another wiki-hosting service (i.e. mediawiki or miraheze) to your fellow editors. in the event that this is too much to move all at once, you can also use breezewiki to try to make fandom.com pages less clunky.

good luck! and thank you for the well wishes; i hope things start looking up for y'all soon.

[justsomerandomfanfic]

hi! i was wondering if i could get romantic and platonic matchup for mha? For romantic i'd like male ship, please!

ᓚᘏᗢ general info:

/ 21 / she/her / enfp / 7w8 / leo /

𓆈appearance𓆈

𓆈 i'm tall, taller than most of my friends → i'm 6'2. my figure is hourglass shaped, something like models in 50s/60s fashion magezines, i think. i have shaggy golden blonde thick curls, my hair is long so i usually tie it up in two buns and two braids (like goldilocks from puss in boots: the last wish). my eyes are amber. i have skinny hands with long fingers

𓆈 my clothing style is mix of whimsigoth, cryptidcore and grandmacore. i really like unusual jewelry → weird shaped rings, earrings, brooches (i especially love the insect shaped and art nouveau ones)

𓆣personality𓆣

𓆣 i'm positive and upbeat person, i try to see the bright side in most situations. i'm friendly, cheerful and bubbly. i'm full of energy and i can be a bit chaotic, but i try to be as responsible as possible, i want people to feel that they can rely on me

𓆣 i'm really confident and i'm not afraid to express myself

𓆣 i care about my friends and family a lot, and go out of my way to show it. i love making people smile

𓆣 i'm super kind person, but won't take any nonsense

𓆣 i have morbid, dark sense of humor. sometimes i randomly say a weird obscure fact in the middle of conversation

𓆣 i'm kinda struggling with taking rest, doing nothing, because there is always something to do, something new to learn, etc. → i'm afraid of stagnation. i overwork myself a lot

𓆣 can't think of anything that i don't like, guess i'm so fixated on my hobbies and passions, i don't pay any attention to other things

𓃹 my hobbies 𓃹

𓃹 dancing and performing. i'm ballet dancer since i was a kid. i also try my skills as figure skater

𓃹 sewing and knitting. i sew most of my clothes and i made for myself tons of sweaters, with most silly patterns like characters from old cartoons, for example "wilk i zając" or "krecik"

𓃹 playing on instruments. i can play on violin, cello, piano, guitar, saxophone, harp and drums, i'm currently learning how to play on trumpet

𓃹 learning. about world and universe or learning new skills. i'm deeply fascinated by space and oceans, they're still unknown to humanity, learning about them makes me sigh in wonder and admiration. i also love nature, i could spend days wandering in forests, observing and learning about animals, insects, plants

𓃹 doll making. i love making dolls, puppets, marionettes. wooden, porcelain, rag, basically every type. i organize puppet theaters, sometimes i give my works as gifts to my loved ones

𓃹 art, any kind of art actually. i like to learn about artists and their work, and i like to try different types of art. sculpting, painting, ceramics, photography, filmmaking, i adore them all. i work as illustrator for fantasy books and books for kids (and honestly this job is dream come true for me!)

𓃹 gardening and herbalism. i work on in garden a lot, i grow flowers, vegetables and herbs. i know herbal medicine, i make my own infusions and tinctures

𓃹 cooking and baking. i learn new recipes whenever i have the opportunity. my favorite things to bake are bread and cookies. i also pick mushrooms, dry them or pickle them

sorry if it's too long or too chaotic (⁠･ั⁠ω⁠･ั⁠)

thank you so much for even reading this! (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠)

i love your writing sm, btw! ♡

Hello! I hope you like your matchups! <3333

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My Hero Academia;

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Platonic;

Tamaki Amajiki:

🐙 You met Tamaki while out Pro-heroing, you have a pretty useful fighting quirk, but you usual go out and help those who are in need during/after crazy battles - the poor civilians often needed medical help, and you were there to help them; and then you met Tamaki

🐙 After one nasty battle, thankfully not a lot of people were harmed, you finished healing a few people and decided to go up and thank the other heroes for their good work - Mirio and Nejire matched the same bright and bubbly vibe of yours perfectly, while Tamaki was a bit nervous and thanked you in return

🐙 From then on, you met up with the three young heroes, going to little cafes to grab a bite to eat, and during that time, you got to know Tamaki a little bit more too - you actually surprise him, mirio, and nejire when randomly in a conversation you blurted out a really random fact

🐙 For Tamaki's birthday, after having known him for a while, you gifted him a homemade puppet - you took his little smile and words of thanks as a very good sign that he liked and appreciated it; he was amazed how talented you are

🐙 You and Tamaki are very much opposites, but like mirio and nejire, he works well with you, believing that you are a great and loyal friend - he knows that he could always rely on you

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Romantic;

Hizashi Yamada:

🎤 You and Hizashi are literally like the most perfect match - you are both bright, friendly, cheerful, bubbly little fire balls of energy (and both very much chaotic); he's confident , you're confident, he's loves making people happy, you love making people happy - I could say more but I think you get the idea (bit of an age gap? Who cares? You guys are perfect)

🎤 On to the dating stages of your life, cause we all know that you and he would just automatically be best friends in the beginning, you and Hazashi would literally always be there for each other; ride or die really - another thing that the two of you hate, stagnation, Hizashi is always doing something, (as are you)

🎤 Though, if things do settle down, (just slightly, we all know he won't stop moving), Hizashi is totally down to help you do whatever you need to get done; you're gardening? Hizashi is already repotting your plants, you're baking cookies? He's already tossing them in the oven and stealing cookie dough on the side

🎤 You do spend a lot of time together - it's like his favorite thing, if you haven't noticed - whether it's painting portraits of each other, dancing around the kitchen while baking bread, or teaching him how to sew his own clothes, he's loving it because you love it and he's doing it all with you

🎤 But then again, when times are slower, Hizashi will always take walks through forests with you, his curiosity getting the best of him as he asks you about almost every insect, animal, or plant that you both pass by; Hizashi loves everything that you do, finding you incredible, and he tells you often - he gifts you a lot of things that you like as well (like weird jewelry), but most of all, he loves spending time with you, just being in your presence fuels him

[trans-axolotl]

Speaking as a psych survivor that wants there to be better treatment for people with highly stigmatized disorders like my own, what are things that I can do within my community to help?

hey anon!

First thing I want to say is that you are absolutely the expert on your own experiences. Your own instincts, wisdom, and past experiences are such a valuable resource, and whatever ways you choose to show up in community is important and valued. Ways of helping that make me feel connected to community might not be what you want, and that's totally okay.

A great step can be to look at what's already there in your local community. Is there a consumer/survivor/mental health advocacy group in your location? Is there peer support groups or peer respite? Are there any policy campaigns that resonate with you? Some helpful resources to find out if advocacy is going on in your community can be to go to Hearing Voices Groups, other local support groups, or even NAMI groups. (I dislike NAMI as an organization, but the support groups can sometimes be a way to find other mad/mentally ill/neurodivergent people in your area who are doing cool things.) If there is advocacy happening already in your community that feels important to you, that can be a great way to get involved. Other advocacy campaigns that aren't directly related to mental health can be great resources--things like harm reduction organizations, other justice and advocacy organizations, other disability organizations like Centers for Independent Living.

Another thing that's been super helpful for me is just getting access to more education about how to help people in crisis, and going to a lot of trainings on peer support, noncarceral suicide prevention, conflict resolution, things like that. I love the pay-what-you-can webinars that Project LETS offers. IDHA also has tons of amazing resources and training courses, but they do cost more. Most states also have peer specialist training courses--I think a lot of these courses kind of suck in terms of content, but getting certified as a peer specialist can open the door to some volunteer and job opportunities, if that's what you're interested in.

Something else that I think can be really important is just educating ourselves and building relationships with people in our community. Learning about mad mapping, knowing your rights for hospitalization, practicing coping skills, meeting your neighbors, cooking for people --really just investing into support systems can help people learn ways of helping each other and meeting our needs that don't require us to interact with fucked up systems. If we build relationships and have those social connections in place, it can help us be more prepared to care for each other through distress and crisis, and make sure that everyone's basic needs are being met. I love the book Care Work by Leah Lakshmi Piepzna-Samarasinha for thinking through some of the ways we can build community and care for eachother as disabled people. Also, spending time identifying my own needs, asking for help, and sharing aspects of my own story with people in my community has helped me connect to other people who have those same needs, and I think sometimes can help challenge some of the stigma we face by being really authentic with each other.

This is definitely not a comprehensive list, and is just a small snapshot of some of the things that have been meaningful to me! My values and passions are more centered in building community alternatives to the current mental health system rather than trying to reform the mental health system, but there are absolutely groups out there that are more focused on changing policies. There's so many ways, big and small, that I can think of for getting involved in radical mental health work in your community, and I would love it if people could add on things that they're doing or that they're passionate about!!

[freedomxfire]

Welcome to Freedom x Fire.

Hey ya'll... welcome to Freedom x Fire.

Freedom x Fire is my initiative and endeavor to help you turn your personal pains (flames) into personal gains. To help you heal, to help you get over your hurts, habits, and hangups, to help you get yourself together, to help you succeed, and to help you live a better, more peaceful, and more joyful life.

I was born into dysfunction and trauma, and suffered from it for about 2.5 decades (yes, to many of you, I am old - and I don't care. I am loving life at my current age, which is not THAT old.)

In my late twenties, I was sick of hurting, so I just made a decision that I was going to pursue healing.

I picked up a journal, committed to staying home after work instead of going out and spending a solid 1-2 hours every night on this important work.

And it changed my life.

It didn't come easy and it didn't necessarily come fast - there was a pivotal year later that made it start coming a lot easier and a lot faster, and we'll get to that - but it began changing my life in the ways that I needed it to change. Things started getting better and I began feeling better. I began learning what I needed to know in order for it to KEEP getting better.

I'm never going to reveal my identity, because this isn't about me - it's about you. Who I am doesn't matter - what matters is who you are, who you want to be, and who you're going to decide to be.

I'm never going to reveal my identity, because this isn't about me - it's about you. Who I am doesn't matter - what matters is who you are, who you want to be, and who you're going to decide to be.

And since we're being respectful and compassionate of the pain we've all gone through, I will also tell you that I endured deeply scarring trauma in elementary school through being bullied and ostracized, that prevents me from being able to make myself that vulnerable - vulnerable by putting my name and face out there in connection with the deepest passions of my heart, capable of being rejected and insulted as badly or as worse as I was then. My highly sensitive little kid heart can't take it.

On this blog, I will be sharing all of the methods and tools that I've used to find lasting healing and freedom and to help me get my shit together.

*There will be four letter words, because I enjoy them. I also believe in God/Love/The Universe and can attest that he has showered me with miracles even though I say them. I don't believe in legalism or misinterpretations of the word "cursing" in modern day Bible translations or narrow-box thinking that says you're not being "holy" or "setting yourself apart from the world" if you curse. Fuck that, darlings!

I'll also be sharing all the wisdom and insight I've learned along the way.

It's going to be a treasure trove, and if you stick with me, it could be life changing for you too if you're willing to walk down the road of inner work and healing. It requires humility and being willing to face the pain and ugly truth instead of denying and running away. Many people choose not to do that, and that's why we still have so many fucked up people in this world and why our world is still fucked up.

Also, you can very well think you're doing that, having healed a ton and come a long way, and still have several blind spots and need more healing.

It is truly a journey, and yes, one that is really never-ending.

But I promise that each step along the way makes life better.

And, once you start experiencing healing and freedom, you will. You'll get addicted to it.

So come along. Be here for it.