#I know so much is in the past
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mcnuggyy Ā· 2 years ago
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man having grown up in an abusive household makes it so hard to tell when something is a normal disagreement a normal family would have and what is a fight that is absolutely something a normal healthy family would never ever haveā€¦ likeā€¦. šŸ˜
#it happened so fast too I canā€™t even process how it set off#context being my mom got really dizzy which happens because of her condition#and so we asked her to lay down#about 30 min later sheā€™s back up again making sandwiches for my dad#we all start like calmly kinda teasingly being like cmon dad#she should be laying down why did you have her get up for that#and then my sister said something and then my dad got louder and she got louder and I was like why are we yelling#and so I had to get loud and it was just a whole mess#and my dad got really really fucking mad#and was being a total dick in my opinion#over likeā€¦ nothing#and my mom sounded all scared and idk man it was a very weird interaction#and I was really shocked up about it because my brain just always goes back to when we used to get hit#but weā€™re adults now so Iā€™m sure that wonā€™t happen again but sometimes the way my dad gets pissed off#like it feels like it still could happen again one day yknoā€¦.#idk#I know so much is in the past#but it still feels like it happen again every so often and itā€™s very very very scary lol#anyways I canā€™t wait to leave <3 hahaha#but seriously like is that normal idk probably not I wish I had some sort of reference to what a healthy parent is supposed to be like#i donā€™t know a single person with a good relationship w their parents at least not both of them#itā€™s always just like one or none of them lmao#anyways#</3#abuse cw#also to make matters worse this all happened during our movie nights weā€™ve been having#to make my sisters boyfriend feel welcome in the family#since he moved in#like I canā€™t imagine moving into my partners house#and just hearing like constant screaming fighting matches randomly throughout the week like ok šŸ˜šŸ˜šŸ˜
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illusioncanthurtme--art Ā· 5 months ago
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Physically? I am sitting in my bedroom. Mentally? Spiritually? I AM DEAD ON THE FLOOR!!!!! THESE TWO HAVE KILLED ME!!!!
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(Another drawing! This was originally attempt #1 at drawing stan, and then fiddleford just showed up. Kinda feels like them five minutes after the above acting like nothing happened though, so it works sdjkgkjfshj)
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uncanny-tranny Ā· 1 year ago
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I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.
I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:
Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)
Getting the dƩcor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' dƩcor section and I adore it)
Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often
Eat dessert first
Celebrate well, and often
Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)
Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.
Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate
Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)
Walk without having a specific destination or goal
Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.
I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.
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hansoeii Ā· 11 months ago
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crowley
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originalartblog Ā· 4 months ago
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Someone's last crush didn't live up to the hype šŸ˜¬
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hinamie Ā· 4 months ago
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the new jjk cafe fits have been living in my head . no thoughts except yuuji in a letterman
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poorly-drawn-mdzs Ā· 8 months ago
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Soup solves everything.
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densewentz Ā· 3 months ago
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mmm not to be a solasmancer on main but im thinking about those few days after the Cole debacle if a solavellan Inquisitor encourages him to remain a spirit. just. Solas, watching her fret so much in the aftermath, terrified that she may have taken someone's choice away, worried that she influenced what Cole wanted somehow, watching her sheer relief and unbridled joy after Cole's, free and light and brimming with happy incredulity, "but you didnā€™t change, didnā€™t make me change. Thank you". He watches her, and thinks of Mythal. Thinks of devotion, and abuse. Regret. Thinks of Cole, and spirits and Wisdom and Pride- Thinks, wistfully, achingly, "in her hands, I might have been safe".
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choodraws Ā· 1 year ago
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šŸŒ±āœ‚ļø (crop from this month's patreon piece)
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fortunatelychaoticphantom Ā· 30 days ago
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This past year and three months have been such an awakening for Jewish people, but one with a certain flair of absurdity. It feels like un-reality, like a wicked nightmare you can't wake up from. It's like the entire world has lost its mind and when you try to tell them this isn't normal, that what they're doing is wrong, they twist reality itself to say that no it is actually normal, it is you who is wrong. They dehumanize you, treat you as a symbol of evil and disgust. It's like we all woke up a year ago no longer humans, something else, something vile, like a bug, like a... oh. oh.
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suchbeloved Ā· 8 days ago
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leftists genuinely need to start confronting the fact that if theyā€™re unwilling to associate with anyone who has ā€œconnectionsā€ to israel or israelis then theyā€™re never going to know a single jew
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mellosdrawings Ā· 7 months ago
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It's "bully Azul" time !!
(Og post here)
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stealingpotatoes Ā· 10 days ago
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heres a crappy venn (??) diagram explaining the dynamics in the tl4j time travel au bc it's easier than trying to write a full plot
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hansoeii Ā· 7 months ago
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crowley!
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fanfic-gremlin-ft-trauma Ā· 1 year ago
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happy birthday to one of the greatest fics of all time <3 ( @bisexuallsokka , thank you for writing this masterpiece.)
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hinamie Ā· 9 months ago
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dead man walking
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