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bonafidehero · 9 months ago

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Oh boy grief over the death of a child is probably the worst feeling for me, especially when you were a child with them and now they’re gone and you’re not and you’ve aged and they haven’t. I’m gonna be 33 and you’ll always be 10 and in my head I’ll always be 7 in relation to you and somehow that makes it worse. I try so hard to not daydream about what you’d be like and what our relationship would look like but literally just seeing a older brother younger sister duo sends me into tears over my oatmeal.

#tw child death #tw grief #I hear The Beach Boys and I think of you #i see the power rangers or the simpsons or ninja turtles and I think of you #you celebrated your birthdays alone until I was born because they’re only two days apart #and now I’m the one who has to celebrate alone #it’s so fucked up #I can’t stopping thinking about Randy but I need to because I need to sleep #and I can tell I’ll have a panic attack if I keep letting myself crumble #literally today my hubs and I we’re having a conversation how I’m doing much better now than I have been in a long time #my brain was like ‘bet’#I feel like I never truly grieved growing up #I just never could conceptualized the full extent of the loss ya know #and it was like after my parents deaths the flood gates were open and I’m now grieving all my losses at once #I’m so tired of talking and thinking about this tbh #I’m a broken record #but hey progress and healing isn’t linear #I know I’ll feel better tomorrow

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skoulsons · 1 year ago

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Baylan “faith in his padawan” Skoll? Baylan “protective father figure to Shin” Skoll? Baylan “threw Ahsoka off a cliff for knocking Shin out” Skoll? Baylan “vulnerable and open with Shin” Skoll? Baylan “comfortably touching Shin’s shoulder” Skoll? Baylan “openly smiles when he’s alone with Shin” Skoll? Baylan “has trained and raised Shin since she was young” Skoll? Baylan “clearly a comforting presence for Shin” Skoll?

That Baylan Skoll? PARTING FROM HIS DAUGHTER HER?

#this is the emotional side of me speaking #which is very emotional #I was going to write some big big analysis about their relationship #try and cover some things that are wreaking havoc in my brain #but instead my uterus is committing war crimes against me #tomorrow I’ll feel a lot better (and maybe tonight) and I’ll be more up to writing it all out #and thinking about. you know. the whole parting thing #and maybe some softer conversations because I need it after that episode #ahsoka tv #ahsoka spoilers #baylan skoll #shin hati

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mars-ipan · 2 months ago

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don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode) don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode) don’t trust your brain after 7pm (winter mode)

#marzi speaks #hi i’m fine. no intrusive thoughts or anything like genuinely i’m ok #just thinking a bit too hard about a bit too much at once #i loveeeee anxiety rumination brain. can we GO TO SLEEP #i offered to drive my dad to his pharmacy tomorrow since i’m getting my pneumonia shot there as well #it is a perfectly safe drive and i know the route exactly. but i haven’t been at a traffic light in months #i’m nervous 👍 i’m most nervous about the parking #i’ll feel better once i do it. and now that i offered to i can’t back down unless it becomes a matter of safety #which it won’t because i know i can do it #but if i avoid doing it now it’ll just reinforce the fear. so i have to push myself a little #and i’m overthinking with that and everything else. as per usual i feel like i have no time. which is Freaky Scary !!#hooray for anxiety rumination brain. oh hey i basically already said that. my mind’s running in circles can u tell :3 #i AM okay tho. i’ve had worse anxiety spells. think i just need to get to sleep. and maybe have a cry first we’ll see

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macaron-vents · 29 days ago

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do the jirais like this low quality cat

TUMLBR DO WE FW THIS CAT

that I wish I had the source for

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musicalcompanions · 1 year ago

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Idk how to explain this but these latest JJK chapters feel somewhat nihilistic to me. It’s like nothing anyone does really matters in the end and everyone is just going to die unfulfilled.

I’m not even sure if I like it or not.

#I genuinely haven’t the words yet to explain #im tired #I’ll function better tomorrow #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #jjk leaks #jjk 239 #i don’t even know if it’s intentional #maybe it’s a reflection of how Gege is feeling about jjk atp #maybe it’s a build up to an amazing end #shrodinger ending ig

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ahappyphjl · 9 months ago

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i made some gif sets that actually made me tear up and wanna scream so look out for those in like an hour… it’s an emotional friday okay

#anticipating i’ll be super tired tomorrow after work so if i can’t make gifs then #i’ll feel better knowing i posted these at least lol #assuming dnp or just phil might upload #jenna rambles #dan and phil #phan

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harmonizewithechoes · 5 months ago

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#sure wish lack of sleep wasn’t such a trigger for SI #I’d be able to get so much more done if it wasn’t #instead I’m fighting with myself just to be able to do basic tasks #🙃#I’m going to be fine I know that #it’s just that I’m tired and stressed and my brains first line of defense has always been thinking about taking myself out unfortunately #this is the point where it’s hard to not have anyone to talk to #because that’s one of the first things you’re supposed to do when you feel this way- reach out to someone #but if there’s no one to reach out to then what?#I need some specific reassurance right now #and it won’t happen so I’ll just try to hope listening to an audiobook helps and suck it up and go make dinner #tomorrow will be different #not necessarily better stress wise but different nonetheless

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tricoufamily · 10 months ago

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u don't have to answer this bc i think u just deleted it but who tf is vaguing you... you're a fantastic artist making beautiful beautiful pieces of art and i am constantly in awe of the things you're creating. i barely play the sims anymore let alone participate in the community at all but i have you on notifs forever and ever bc of your storytelling and skill. i am genuinely shocked to see someone talking shit bc i don't even knwo what it wld be about. anyway i keep coming back to look at ur recent edit and it's so tender and evokes such a comforting quiet feeling. anyway. u can ignore me or delete this like i said i just want u to know u've got ppl out in the crowd rooting for u byeee

imagine me crying…..

thank you so much, genuinely. i don’t even know how to accept this properly to show my level of appreciation. this means so much to me.

just gotta remind myself i am a real artist and writer and no one can take it from me. i have talent!!! suck it!!!

#it’s honestly not even a big deal like it’s stupid but i’ve just got so much going on that it was the straw that broke the camel’s back lol #any other time i would have laughed it off and Le Epically Own this person but. man. i’m still crying #it’s a culmination!! i suppose #i don’t know if this person knew how much it would hurt me but it’s still a shitty thing to do regardless #like i don’t know why you couldn’t just share your opinion without attacking me as a person? whatever!#i’ll feel better in the morning i just can’t sleep bc of it is the problem lmfao #and tomorrow is going to be a Bad Day also which is.#btchwzrd #ask

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rawbin-hsr · 2 months ago

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Jesus Christ bro just received the most aggressive ask in my inbox confronting me about how I write Aventurine and demanding proof for why I interpret him the way I do 😭😭 I’m not good at making straight up analytical content but ig I’m gonna have to try to do it so I can support my own ideas because ig it’s not fair of me to say things about him without backing myself up. I wouldn’t mind if they hadn’t been so hostile like pls I like to think I’m pretty reasonable you don’t need to yell at me 😞

#[rawbin]#[aventurine]#Like it’s fine if you don’t like me and the way I write him but like. man.#please can you at least not be outright aggressive towards me ?#it’s kind of frustrating #like I do think I have decently thick skin when it comes to random hate comments (being a content creator since u were like 13 will do that-#- to you) but it’s still not fun to have people come up to me and insinuate they think I suck :/#Like yeah fair enough that you disagree with my takes I can see why but pls maybe don’t imply I’m a terrible person who doesn’t know what-#-abuse and toxicity is ?#sorry I feel like I’ve been very negative these last couple of posts #I’d probably be able to handle all this better if I wasn’t already in a pretty bad way 😭#I won’t even be able to put the analysis together tomorrow to make myself feel better about my own writing because I’ll be so busy #but whatever I’ll live and get over it I’ll be fine in like two weeks

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esoteric-altruism · 4 months ago

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uggggggh i don’t wanna do woooork 😭 checking service notes is so boring why can’t these people just write the correct shit down like it’s really not that hard

#i dont even know how i’m to get this all done #i mean i guess i could do it at home but tbh i dont feel like i should since my salary is what it is #if i got paid hourly at 16 a hr then yeah i would #bc i’d clock in and get paid to do all this extra shit #from 9-4 i will do whatever you want #shit even if she made me work 9-5 #that would be even better since i’d have an extra hour to work just in general id get more shit done #it probably wouldn’t even be that much of an issue if i haven’t been late all those times #bc ofc now my manager is pissed at me and wants me to get all this shit done #and then ima be out on the field tomorrow so that’s another day not in the office where i could be getting this shit done #but whatever i’ll stop being a little bitch about it #at least i have a job that pays well enough yaknow #i think i just want more moneyyyyy #ramblings #prsnl #me

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exopelagic · 5 months ago

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okay I severely misjudged spaghetti guy he’s actually just really cool

#okay so I came to this flat and he wasn’t here. greeted by a very dirty flat with shit all over the kitchen counters over cling film #I meet first my other flatmate who told me he stays in his room constantly bc of previous bad flatmates #has literally just a saucepan and some salt in the kitchen. so I’m like okay spaghetti guy potentially not great but could just be #how this guy is yknow #on Tuesday I get an email back saying he’s coming back from Norway tonight looking forward to seeing you feel free to use the kitchen sauces #rlly friendly message that I wasn’t expecting. I also didn’t know he’d been on a trip i just knew he wasn’t there bc his door was open #(to a REALLY nice room. multiple rlly nice plants (which he has little care labels for!!!) and it’s tidy and pretty #and he’s got a sheep teddy on the bed)#meanwhile I am in my own head bc I don’t wanna cook in the kitchen until I can clean it and I can’t clean it without moving his shit and #I haven’t seen him yet to talk abt it and I can’t bring myself to talk to him immediately bc I’m dying #and embarrassed as hell by how I’ve been cooking in my room with a microwave and air fryer (loud) and sneaking my shit out of the kitchen #but then yesterday I DO talk to him!! and he’s super friendly!! actually interested in having a conversation and Good at it.#and then he’s cooking and like. spaghetti burns but I’m not there for long and seems to be a mistake (he made the same thing for lunch today #and did Not burn the spaghetti) and is otherwise clearly competent bc the food smells Good and despite leaving a few things out it’s like #washed up stuff isn’t dirty and the sides are better despite still under cling film. more a case that he’s spread out than he’s messy #and now today we talked and i offered to hold onto some shit over summer bc complicated situation that boils down to he’s flying back home #and he cant take all his stuff and had to choose between chucking stuff/having literally nothing this weekend. like sleeping on the sofa etc #and then cleans the whole flat?? which I’m assuming a good chunk is his mess? but he did not need to do that. could’ve easily left #bc there are two people still living here who would’ve had to deal with it and he doesn’t know either at all #and THEN tonight we talk abt food which is fun bc we both ordered stuff. and he offers me some honeydew melon bc he’s been gorging himself #these past two days to finish it before it goes bad/he leaves which is also really sweet #and JUST NOW. I take my headphones out after finishing dinner and hear the sweetest fucking guitar #he plays the gentlest like dreamy sounding acoustic guitar I’ve heard in my life in his room (door closed by the time I leave)#this is actually just a really cool dude #now that the kitchens clear I’m gonna cook tomorrow and will probably offer him some bc otherwise he’s gonna be eating out all weekend #he has extra takeout for tomorrow night but might want smth Sunday #regardless I am just. huh??? left a bit stunned bc of the u turn my opinion of this guy has taken. bc my opinion of him was a reflection #of my discomfort moving to this weird dirty basement flat with two people I didn’t know #well. idk where to go from here. I think I’ll start by talking to him more this weekend. bc holy fucking shit.#luke.txt

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pepprs · 1 year ago

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it’s yom kippur now and im not supposed to eat anything until sunset tomorrow but ive had a headache all day and rn its fucking SPLITTING but im 5 hours into the fast and i don’t know what to do. eating something would probably make me feel better but it’s yom kippur and i don’t have a longstanding ailment that would prohibit me from fasting or whatever it’s just i woke up with a headache that has gotten worse throughout the day and now the fast has started but it’s the worst it’s been all day. idk what to do. i need to eat something but i can’t

#purrs #i feel bad having any other thoughts other than like. atonement on this day but imso stressed i didn’t do my homework all weekend bc #yesterday i had horrible cramps and today i had a horrible headache and i was holding out for it to get better and it didn’t and now im #going to be in HELL fasting tomorrow bc not eating or drinking already *gives* me a headache idk what it’s going to be like when I already #have one and i can’t just take pain meds bc we don’t have any 💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻💃🏻 im absolutely fucking miserable #food #definitely not getting written in the book of life for saying this 😻✌️ but im so tired of there being a struggle every day. like every day s #something happens and i can’t make a decision that i know will be best for me because im scared of what others who are more powerful will #think. and in this specific instance it’s god and my mom. most of the time it’s just my mom. and im just so tired. i can never do what i #know is best for me because the timing is never right. lol #like can i please not have a horrible headache on the holiest day of the year when im not supposed to eat anything. can i please have a win.#anyway my homework is due tomorrow at 4:30 and ive done nothing to work on it at all whatsoever so i won’t even be able to observe the h #holiday anyway bc i’ll be doing that homework stressed and hungry and dealing with a horrible headache. can’t wait!

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skyward-floored · 1 year ago

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mmm nearly everyone in my family went somewhere tonight :(

#siiiiigh #it’s my own fault really I never go anywhere #plus you know sick atm #though I’ll probably go somewhere tomorrow cause I’m feeling better #but it’s not somewhere I meet people really it’s just a job #guhhhh #it would be cool if being lonely didn’t come with side effects such as bad social skills and anxiety 🙄#rambles from the floor

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hathsinsurvivor · 9 months ago

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why the fuck did i change majors from something i was good at to something i’m the absolute fucking worst at ???? i honestly don’t even know what to do anymore

#had an exam/test yesterday and thought i did sooo good bc i actually knew shit for once #nope! just saw my grade and it was in fact one of the worst of the class🤩#like i just genuinely don’t know what to do anymore bc clearly i suck at this and i’m not getting better even when i think i am #i have another test tomorrow but i don’t feel like studying anymore #when i like and (think) i know the subject i perform poorly so why should i keep trying?#i hate myself for being so dumb #i think i’ll just cry myself to sleep and wing it tomorrow bc who cares at this point #personal

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emily-mooon · 1 year ago

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Sometimes I just feel like writing a fic where chapters are episodic and I don’t have to elongate an event cause I finished it in one chapter.

And this is where I pull out a fake presentation talking about a 1930s Jancy au that is a slow burn friends to lovers where they get into weird situations and go on adventures like it’s a book written by L.M. Montgomery and has a similar energy to Little Women.

#ok I have to admit that I am horrible at writing about one event for too long #when I was in my creative writing class I noticed when writing a book for my final project that I could write one paragraph for each chapter #I was unable to write a chapter that was multiple pages #because of this I think that writing something more episodic would be good for me to write becuase then I’ll probably finish it #I think I’m also much better at writing things that are short and sweet and get straight to the point #I love all of my other au ideas that I have or want to put into fics but I think I need to start writing in a zone that I’m comfortable with #and not dive head first into something I need to work on more #so I’m going to start plotting out the first few chapters for this fic tonight and start writing tomorrow #give myself a bit of a break from drawing and allow myself to get back into writing #in way that works for me and my rollercoaster of ideas of a brain #sorry for the wall of text here in the tags and if you read them I hope you are all doing well and for those of you going back to school #or are already back I wish you good luck on your studies #btw all my other fic ideas will be written and turned into a fic or finished at some point #I don’t know when but they will be when I feel like I’m ready to dive in #(and also when I get a grasp on how to plot better with the dumb plot triangle)

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theres-whump-in-that-nebula · 9 months ago

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I’m really starting to feel like Gregor Samsa now

#exjw #going pomo #my mom knows I’m gay and also “opposed” but my dad doesn’t yet so I’m hiding in my room #So naturally I don’t feel well; but I’m going to work anyway because I don’t feel as bad there as I do here #Now all I need is for my dad to throw something at me (I don’t think he would but I wouldn’t be surprised if he did)#I think my mom is hoping that maybe when I start ADHD meds I’ll “come to my senses”#because she asked if I thought my ADHD had anything to do with my decisions #And she went on and on yesterday reading stuff she researched about these specific meds #Like… no? If anything the ADHD meds will make me pack up faster because then I won’t be as inhibited to gtfo #She oddly doesn’t seem as angry/sad as I thought she would; so maybe she hasn’t fully accepted it yet #I start meds tomorrow btw so we’ll see what happens. Hell of a time to be messing with my brain chemistry sjdjdjdjdndndn #This will either make things way better or way worse. We’ll see #I’m just afraid that they’ll make my already VERY high anxiety worse because they are stimulants #the anxiety wasn’t high before but it is now that I’m obligated to tell my dad knowing how much he hates gays #I don’t want to suddenly pass out projectile vomit or shit myself; because that’s what high anxiety does to me #I’ve almost passed out twice because of nerves in the past year in reaction to this situation #one such incident occurring just three days ago… while projectile vomiting

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