#I just want to cry and sleep

[hinamie]

to moving forward

[sadseniorsloth]

Woke up to my alarm to get up for work today and my first thought was “oh please god, no”.

That’s how my last 3 months have been in case anyone wanted to know

[chloesimaginationthings]

FNAF 4 nightmares haunted all the Afton kids..

[somerandomcockroach]

[witch--btch]

Sleeping positions…

Official Art by Satoru Nii

[kagedbird]

So you may have seen a post last night about me always being stuck in a financial hole last night.

Yes it's related to my computer.

I took my desktop, Sylvie, to Best Buy in the absolute hopes that they could get something done in regards to repairs.

I was told that if I paid the membership fee, it would cover the diagnosis fee as well as any replacement for 192$.

That was a lie.

I was called by the manager of the team to let me know that my fucking PSU— the original 750 silver I have— is dead. Died from being left at that stupid fucking original tech shop's place. And that I'd need to pay them 99$ to replace it.

That's not what I was told. I was told my 192$ membership fee would cover any replacement.

And he was hardly willing to even grab the one PSU they had in stock to use for further testing on my fucking PC, so I don't even know if that will be the end of my fucking issues.

I am 400$ short on rent. I was out a day last week on Friday because my hEDS flared up so bad, I dislocated and relocated my shoulder and it still hurts to move even today on Sunday will three full days of rest.

I'm exhausted, in pain, and absolutely mentally in shambles. I just want my fucking computer back.

If you can, please consider donating to help me with this. The manager said he'd be willing to see what he could do in regards to the membership issue and PSU, but again, this might not even be the end of all my goddamn issues.

I'm so fucking tired. Link above.

So: further bad news, gang

Laptop I bought shit a brick and would no longer boot (had several blue screens even during before and after attempting to factory reset it and multiple windows recovery errors) so no more writing for a bit.

Instead of buying a new laptop, I'm going to take my original borked desktop to Best Buy to see if Geeksquad can't fix her because god almighty if I trust another local shop and they forget her again, I will actually commit murder.

So if you would like to assist me in paying for repairs as I attempt to save every last penny I have for rent, food, and travel, you can do so here:

I don't know how much it will be but I fully anticipate having to get another new motherboard or a brand new psu since it won't boot up at all since the local shop incident— so any amount helps.

Thank you for your time and hhhhhhhhh I am so tired man

[s-4pphics]

teenage!ellie not knowing how to accept that she has a crush on girl so she comes off as stoic and rude but she’s actually nervous and giddy because the girl she likes is so vibrant and loud with her affections towards her….

ellie’s crush doesn’t think she’s rude at all; she just needs some gentle guidance and she’ll nuzzle up like a kitty

baby ellie turning to mush whenever crush comes around but she’s not comfortable expressing it yet because what will people think? they’re already off put by her and now she’s gay?

she tries to protect her crush’s reputation by ignoring her; the other kids like her and think she’s funny. she shouldn’t have to sacrifice her status for ellie

[yuwuta]

JJK OLYMPICS OHHH YOURE A GENIUS

head spinning w sooooooo many athlete aus rn….. 

satoru honestly isn’t half as cocky as the media makes him out to be but he could be because you bring up world champion men’s freestyle swim times and it’s his name on the scoreboard ten times before someone else shows up. he’s faster than himself by fifteen seconds all around, he’s earned a bit of cockiness. mentioned in the last post that whenever he’s at a competition and he finishes a race, he looks at the camera and signs a little infinity sign and then blows a kiss to you. some bitter old coach always calls him out on it, and gets him fined for unsportsmanlike conduct, and he’s happy to pay the fees if it means getting a message home to you, but eventually you two come up with a new code; and at his next race, he places gold, turns to the camera, crosses his middle finger over his pointer finger and smiles. when he’s in his post-race interview, he makes sure to explain that he does it for you with the widest smile on his face.

megumi nepotism baby but not in the same sport. toji was a multi gold medalist back in his heyday for shooting, so it’s not really a surprise to anybody that megumi has scary good aim, but he takes to archery instead of shooting. actually the idea of megumi being an emo little kid and throwing rocks at a tree when his dad pissed him off his hilarious, and even funnier is toji watching him, slightly amused and a little scared because megumi is maybe six and hitting the exact same spot every single time. he grows to be very blase about it—it’s more of a release/hobby for him that he happens to be really good at, and well, now good enough to earn a few olympic medals. megumi is not a fan of having his dad ruffle his hair on international television after he’s won, but he supposes it can’t be helped.

i don’t know where to put yuuta…. tennis…. tempting….. him in his little white shorts…. little grunts after he serves…. cries….. a complete 180 in his personality when he’s playing vs doing anything else. so charming and sweet and kinda shy when he’s being interviewed, and the second he steps on the court his eyes are so cold it’s scary…. need him… extremely nerdy about his rackets, and shoes, and clothes, and rambles to you about aerodynamics and posture and torque whenever you ask him to teach you, and you always have to shutup him up with a kiss and remind him that yeah you sort of want to learn to play tennis for him, but mostly you came bc he looks hot doing it. once he got asked in an interview if he ever thinks about you while he’s playing and his response was very concise, “no, never. it would be a big distraction,” and did not realize the implications of his heavily televised words. 

also…. not to make this post 40% yuuta but we could pull from canon a bit and make his sport fencing. he doesn’t excel because he’s the strongest, it’s because he’s learned to treat the sword as an extension of himself and a good strategist… also because i like the image of him pulling the helmet/mask off and shaking his hair out………..

don’t even know where to put yuuji…. volleyball? basketball? track and field??? the irony of him easily being the most athletic but canonically does not want to play sports 😭 but i can see him playing a sport because someone scouts him and it turns out to be a way to make steady money to support himself and his grandpa :( by the time he’s qualified and made it to the olympics, wasuke is doing much better (thanks to yuuji having landed some preemptive sponsorships and being able to afford better medical care), but not so well enough that he can travel across the world to watch yuuji play. wasuke tells you that you should travel and be with yuuji, but yuuji is so touched by the idea that you would stay with his grandpa and be by his side when he’s away :(( he wins gold, of course, and he doesn’t even wait until the closing ceremony—which, he’d mentioned in all of his interviews, so nobody can be too upset. he’s on record saying, “i’m excited to play, but i’m even happier to be going home. my girlfriend and my grandpa are watching me and i miss them!” several times— he’s on the first flight home with flowers, and tears in his eyes. puts his gold medal on his grandpa’s neck as a thank you, and spends probably thirty minutes straight hugging you and kissing you and honestly don’t put it past him to propose now that he’s got nike ambassador money 

nanami started judo as a way to relieve the stress of his overbearing job, and someone at the gym/training center notices he seems to be a natural despite being a beginner. he starts to draw a crowd, which annoys him at first because the point of judo was discipline and release from having to deal with too many people at his office job, but nanami supposes he can’t be too mad when you introduce yourself as a talent scout and offer him professional training. there’s irony in him accepting your offer, because it was definitely not based in professionalism at all… quitting his job as a salaryman to become a professional athlete in his mid-twenties was not on his bingo chart, but if it means he will have met you, then so be it. you’re with him all the way, through his training, competitions, world championships, qualifiers, all the way until he’s on the podium. you’re the first to congratulate him, but he interjects by telling you he’s quitting. you ask him why—he just won at the olympics for crying out loud, but nanami just shakes his head, puts down his flowers and his medal so his hands are free to hold your face and tell you, “it would be unethical to kiss my manager, so i am quitting.” (later, when everything is said and done, and you two are cuddling, you mention to him that he could just hire a new manager, and not quit his new career, to which he blushes because yeah… that’s probably more rational, but rational was not in his train of thought at the time)

[heartorbit]

i'm sending this endless melody to a nameless you

[cto10121]

Book Fiyero: *immediately recognizes Elphaba and stations himself at the backdoor to prevent her from evading him, stalks her halfway across town to her aerie (even though at that point in time she was only a college friend he hadn’t seen in five years), insists on seeing her again, instinctively goes to comfort her when she first cries, gets sucked into increasingly deep and fraught conversations with her about collateral damage and freedom fighter terrorism, calls her the “most individual, the most separate, the most real” DURING AN ARGUMENT, says he adores Elphaba’s looks IN THAT SAME ARGUMENT, doesn’t understand Elphaba’s “being born with a talent or an inclination for goodness is the aberration” comment because (implied) he sincerely believes Elphaba isn’t evil, changes his mind about the plight of the Animals all by himself but doesn’t mention it to Elphaba because he is afraid she would distance himself from him, buys scarves for both his wife and Elphaba even though only Elphaba likes scarves, is so concerned for Elphaba and her dangerous Lurlinemas Eve mission that he stalks her instead of staying at his club or just leaving town altogether, and is so worried about her that he returns to the aerie just to see her*

Also Book Fiyero: Am I in love with Elphaba?

[falsehero]

"it's time, maestro."

[kokoasci]

finished tpn

[shittypersonsstuff]

[opheliasflorist]

I'm starting to look at a lot of male artist that I've loved over time through this lens of Neil Gaiman's absolutely heinous acts. Especially the ones who've made a career on telling the stories of women. Like Robert Eggers, or Alex Garland. What have they done? Am I going to find something horrible about them that makes me unable to watch Nosferatu or Annihilation?

I know there are good men out there, and good creators, and it isn't fair to conflate them all. But in a cultural moment like this, it's hard to trust my own taste. I'm just furious. I'm wondering, what other signs am I missing? Who is the next snake in the grass? Who else is hurting someone who doesn't deserve it and using their money and power to cover it up? Is it someone whose art shaped me as a person?

And the shittiest part is, he won't be the last. There WILL be others. We've all known this for a long time.

Does anyone have a positive take I can borrow to get me through the night?

[ancientbygone]

I DON'T WANT TO BE HAPPY, I DON'T WANT TO BE GOOD

[l3irdl3rain]

Your place is already the Best Place for elderly cats, but I think it's especially so for Valentine with his dementia. There's plenty of comfy, warm spots, so he doesn't have to remember where one is; there's always food, so he doesn't have to worry about that either. Sometimes company passes through, suitable for a good cuddle or even a bath.

And then sometimes, when he's on one of the wide soft places, there's someone with a warm lap and clever hands, and he can wake up and go "Oh! There it is! I remember that!" and go snuggle.

We should all be so fortunate when we are old and tired and forgetful.

Thank you. I am so, so thankful and lucky that he has the kind of dementia where everything is good all the time. We've had to euthanize animals at the clinic before because they get senile and anxious and they just seem miserable all the time no matter what you do for them.

Valentine doesn't read any social cues from the other cats but for the most part everyone is nice to him. The only "bad" thing is he always thinks he needs to be fed. And then sometimes you feed him and he just looks at you all confused.