#I just needed to vent a bit

[sakura-fraust]

hey hey, don't do anything stupid now, okay?

I'm not doing anything, I simply don't know how much time I still have

I simply don't know if I'll survive another month

I don't know if I'll be able to make rent, I still can't afford food, I'm quite literally skin and bones, and I'm growing certain that I have cancer but the state won't put me on Medicaid so I can't get anything treated at all

I'm faced with accepting that I'll probably die this year, if not from the cancer, then from malnutrition, assuming I can manage to keep my home somehow

And so I can't help but wonder.... there's very few people who still talk to me, who still bother with me, everyone else has given up and moved on... so when I die, will anyone even care? Will more than the 2 friends who still actively talk to me mourn the loss? Will people move on from my death as fast as they did my life? Am I really so worthless?

If my death this year is inevitable, maybe I should vanish from everyone's life preemptively? Make any impact from my death go from bothersome to nonexistent... give people more time to move on from me before I'm actually gone for good... I know no one would stop me, it'd be too easy to do...

But at any rate, I don't plan on doing anything stupid, my body is dying on its own and I'm just thinking about my very lonely existence

[kurara-black-blog]

Not only Shadow Milk Cookie refuses to come home, but he keeps kicking my ass in the Arena even when all his other teammates are way under levelled than him and this is so in character for that bastard I can't even stay frustrated for long–

[southpauz]

DO YOU BLEED?

[myfairstarlight]

Of course I write for myself and I've long stopped caring about kudos. That's about one-shot fics though. If it does well, good, if it doesn't, well I had my fun. Posting a multi-chaptered fic is another affair though, there's something a bit... lonely I guess about posting a new chapter, seeing the hits go up, and then get no feedback. Did people hate it? Did people love it? I'll never know, and it feels like throwing weeks of work into a brick wall.

[lilblueorchid]

Are you ok?

Of course I'm fine...

[artsymeeshee]

Second-guessing

[crabsnpersimmons]

"Slow down, Sunshine. You're not falling behind and you are loved for more than what you do for others."

[catboythanatos]

ok hear me out????

things that i think stone had to do to nurse robotnik back to health after the end of sonic 2:

-physically dig him out of the rubble and carry him in his arms to safety

-cut his clothes off of him to access his injuries without bending or pulling on anything

-clean, stitch, and bandage wounds

-set broken/dislocated bones

-procure (steal) hospital-grade painkillers and medical equipment

-surgically remove shrapnel embedded in him

-hook him up to an intravenous line to administer (stolen) fluids and nutrients

-build or procure some kind of machine to monitor his vitals and alert him immediately of any changes

-carefully bathe and dress him

-monitor him 24/7 for days, barely sleeping, meticulously cataloging every detail of his injuries to keep track of any slight change in his condition

-kiss him on the forehead (this is what actually made him better he didnt need to do all that other shit)

[web-of-arachne]

“431; or, queer loneliness”

unknown // emily palermo, what I could never confess without some bravado // good luck, babe! - chappell roan // unknown // unknown // jenny slate, little weirds // dr. seuss, oh the places you’ll go // unknown

[romatito]

coloring experiments with some displeased españas 🍅 i always love digging beneath his optimism to find the negativity underneath thats Just as passionate -- its one of the most fascinating things about him to me

closeups under the cut

[zoneofsmites]

Still laughing about how they didn't want to "invalidate" anyone's worldstate. But that is exactly what they did.

Morrigan is the most obvious, I really cannot believe that a Morrigan who was a mother would have so willingly taken into her something like Mythal if she was a mother - of at this point - a 10 year old Kieran. Maybe she would, but it would be for different reasons.

Isabela is the most annoying to me. She's talking about how "Kirkwall taught her about family." as if she couldn't have been given up by Hawke to the Arishok. As if she couldn't have ran away from Kirkwall and never looked back. If I had met an Isabela from a world state like that, she would never have said that.

Harding talking about the Inquisition also feels like it misses some... extra flavour here and there based on actual choices. Like my Inquisitor didn't do well with Blackwall, and he didn't survive to see the end of the game. But Lace speaks about him fondly and in such a way that I don't think she should if the Inquisitor never 'redeemed' him.

Zevran is never mentioned by name, but what if a warden outright killed the assassin hunting them. Or he turned on them in Denerim and died later? Then explain to me that entire banter Lucanis has with Harding about why House Arainai messed up so bad they went trough several Talons about it. And now the Crows don't take contracts in Ferelden anymore.

At that point the reason that was given to us for the lack of worldbuild choices to prevent 'invalidating everyone's worldstate' feels null and void. Because you have. You have invalidated many worldstates already by bringing back these character or have people talk around them in such a way that doesn't make sense.

[softhe4rted]

on loneliness jenny slate / japanese breakfast, posing for cars / corinne von lebusa, big glow / dadushin / alejandra pizarnik, tr. me / fka twings, home with you / avocado_ibuprofen / fiona apple, left alone / anne carson, “the anthropology of water”, plainwater / kiki smith, free fall / alejandra pizarnik, diaries

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

The fans: Ugh Sonic was just so preachy. I mean obviously he's supposed to be the good guy, so any uncomfortableness I feel here and any way I feel like Sonic's choices are framed as being why some other people have shitty lives is just bad writing because he is obviously supposed to be right always, but this characterization makes no sense. Isn't he right for the things he did?

Ian Flynn, using Kitsunami to say the (barely even at this point) quiet part even louder: Hey it's almost like ever since the Mr. Tinker event we've been purposely running with the critique of Sonic as being more selfish than he appears. Sonic is upholding a system of Eggman v Sonic that currently benefits him and shuts down talk of how to improve the current system because he likes his own personal enjoyment and he's attached enough to Eggman that he'd rather Eggman pretend to be a good person than be stuck in prison for life. He doesn't even quite practice what he preaches. We are trying to show that the current hero v villain system and Sonic's recklessness currently affects some people poorly and that Sonic isn't a perfect hero.

[le-panda-chocovore]

Do you ever stop and wonder what Sir Terry Pratchett would think of Neil Gaiman today ? Because I do.

[justjesusyall]

heavy stuff below, i just need some prayers. feel free to scroll <3

can yall please pray for me? these past two years have been the hardest years of my life. it feels like a new issue pops up every day, to the point where it almost seems unreal. i developed a chronic illness, i had tics pop up out of nowhere, i lost my dog, my family is struggling financially, my grandpa had a stroke and is in a nursing home, i’ve been struggling with anxiety, depression, suicidality, homosexuality, self-image, and recently i’ve even started to experience hallucinations and psychosis. it feels like the enemy is throwing literally everything he can at me, trying to stop me from my walk with Christ. i feel so far from God, and so unloved. i don’t know how i can carry the burden of all these problems, especially seeing as im so young. i’m only in high school. if it’s this bad now, how bad will it be when im an adult with real responsibilities? i don’t know what direction my life is taking. soon i’ll have to start applying to colleges, and i don’t know what career to pursue. i don’t even know if i’m sane right now. please pray for me for healing, for peace, and to feel the love of God over me and to know that He is with me. please pray for my family too as they are experiencing a lot of spiritual warfare, and i can feel the tension in my home right now.

[jerseyartblog]

The last few days have felt like years I KNOW the point is to overwhelm us, so trying to rally and find some grounding energy and vent out frustration by whipping this little doodle up.

Anyway all that said, here's some dandelions for hope and resilience, because we're here, surviving and stubborn enough, even when the systems want us to fall through the cracks.

We're not going anywhere. 🏵️