#I just needed to air my thoughts on this

[cursedvibes]

I've been picking up Killing Eve again. I watched the 1st season when it was initially airing, quite liked it, but then didn't manage to pick up the following seasons as well. Now it popped up on my Netflix recommendation and I gave it another shot. Uff, it's quite different from what I remember.

I think the story is most interesting to me not as a love story, but as a story about Villanelle, where one of her obsessions happens to be Eve. I don't feel much of a spark between them anyway beyond Villanelle being aimless and having mommy issues, and Eve wanting some dangerous thrill in her life. I watched the first two seasons and I still don't quite understand why it has to be them who get together and not someone else. Plus, I think relationships like Villanelle and Constantine are much more layered and interesting than what Eve and Villanelle have going on.

Generally, I find the story interesting, particularly in the 1st season, but I think their handling of Eve is very poor. She gets the worst writing in my opinion. Or more like the writing isn't "bad", it's just very predictable and not exactly deep. Eve often feels very blatantly edgy "I'm not like other girls, I want to finger an assassin and am bored of my husband treating me nicely". It kinda feels like the protagonists of these 50 Shades of Grey-esque books, but wlw. Some of the dialogue she gets is really cringey and just doesn't sound believable. Sandra Oh does her best with it, but man...

Her character development is the crux of it. When the story starts, you already know her archetype and where she's going with barely any new twist to it. From the first episode you already know what will happen. She's kind of similar to Will Graham, but written with way less subtlety. You can just tick off all the boxes as you watch the episodes. Gets a kick out of killers/assassins. Check. Becomes married to her job. Check. Becomes fixed by violence and crime. Check. Neglecting her personal life. Check. Neglecting her husband and resenting him for being a good person. Check. Gets very blatant murderous urges. Check. And the longer it goes on, the worse it gets. They put so much effort into making Villanelle a more three dimensional and compelling character that they neglected who is supposedly the main character of this series.

Also, the stuff this series spouts about "psychopaths" or anyone lacking empathy is just disgusting. Nothing new in this genre, but they do it especially blatant. Just straight up saying people who lack empathy/have anti-social personality disorder are not human, just killing machines, and that they are fundamentally broken. Do they know that these people they're talking about actually exist? And aren't all gleeful serial killers?

Also Villanelle is a terrible assassin. She's leaving evidence and her fingerprints splattered everywhere. If she didn't have such important people covering for her, she would've been found ages ago.

So yeah, my main problem with this is that the writing of Eve is just way too edgy and generic. Everything else is quite interesting actually, but man...getting pretty difficult to watch these episodes and apparently it gets worse in the coming seasons.

[sevenines]

i saw this tweet and found it interesting for two reasons. one is that some people base how good cartoon network would be to toh by how it treated su, and despite the fact that su’s treatment by the network was considered poor at the time, now its thought to be exceptionally good in comparison to modern shows.

two is how exactly su got impacted by a limited budget. a common criticism is how characters like connie, peridot, and lapis are left out of missions. but balancing a lot of characters is not only hard but also costly (extra animation, extra voices—it’s been revealed that the show is limited to a set number of characters per episode otherwise they’re over budget). animation mistakes are not uncommon since retakes cost extra. the entire reason the original show got cut short was due to loss of funding!

[turtleblogatlast]

[ cw: violence mention / death mention / ]

Will never stop thinking about how Leo, all alone in an endless void and being beaten again and again and again by the only other living thing around, still finds comfort in that space. The situation he was in was completely hopeless, and in any other circumstances he would not have escaped, at least not fast enough to save him from permanent (or even fatal) damage, be it physical or mental.

And yet, despite the bleakness of his situation, despite the agony and helplessness, all he needs is one glance at a crumbled photograph, one glance to remember his family, and that’s enough of a reason for him to smile.

Maybe that’s why his powers center around manipulating space - because no matter how much space is between them, no matter how dire his own situation may be, just the thought of his family, alive and okay, is enough to give Leo hope.

[finncakes]

"I'd be up shit's creek by myself. I was by myself. It's not great."

"Yeah. No, it's not."

[cirrus-grey]

Does the Archivist have a car to itself, or is it just like. Chilling with the rest of the commuters?

[secriden]

so i wonder if anyone else has thoughts about mame's choices regarding sky vs tongrak's stories and how she tackled the complexity of loving and being loved.

when i first heard about love sea, i saw a lot of people say that fortpeat were just re-cast as sky and prapai but with tongrak being older and richer than mahasamut. personally, i think that's a pretty reductionist view because mame explored the idea of being afraid to love and be loved from very different angles and perspective in these two stories.

i will give that there are some similarities on the surface - peat's character does that whole 'pretends to hate it but secretly loves it' thing; the cat-like 'push and pull' thing and fort's character is still a overly excited, loveable golden retriever of a human being with a strong sense of self; also both sky and tongrak have had experiences which make them both fearful of 'love'.

but i think while sky's main fear is being loved, tongrak's is very much a fear of loving.

like, sky's story is very... raw. it's an exposed nerve, tender and painful and present. sky's fear is so immediately tied to his trauma which he's still in the throes of. the betrayal he faced was from the one who claimed to love him and it's telling that sky's first flashback is not triggered by his feelings FOR prapai but by prapai expressing his 'love' for him. this trauma is intimate and physical and close, but that means that the start of his healing journey can begin because of an external force (prapai) giving him that safety but also physically removing the threat. when sky begins to feel safe again, he is able to begin healing.

in contrast: tongrak's trauma is relatively... hmmm, separated (? not the best word but...) on a physical level. it doesn't make it less or even less painful (or more, or more painful), but his fear of love largely stems from how he sees the people immediately around him being hurt by love. he's internalised the idea that love doesn't last. mahasamut starts confessing his feelings pretty early on; like episode 4 mahasamut straight up goes, 'well you can't stop me from loving you' and tongrak's disapproving but he's not triggered. what's the difference between this and episode 10, i think, is that tongrak's actively fighting his own awareness of his feelings for mahasamut. it's why his fight or flight response is triggered by vie calling him out about his feelings in episode 8 and also why he tries to force parameters back into their relationship (my take: i don't care if you love me but i won't love you) in episode 10. but it's also why his healing doesn't actually come from an external force - yes, vie kind of knocks him out of his depressed stupor by hiding the bracelet, but note that tongrak's has that breakdown realisation ('please come back, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, can't you please come back to me? i'm afraid you'll end up hating me (emphasis added) if you love me') before he has that chat with vie. he's already realised that the root of his fear of mahasamut's love isn't the love itself, but the fear that if he admits his own love for mahasamut, it will eventually get betrayed. it's also why even after he resolves that he wants to try at a relationship with mahasamut, he still can't say it. at this point, his father's a non-entity in terms of the fear of him going after his loved ones - he's already been proven a weakling and a coward and also they're physically on the island so removed from jak that it shouldn't be an immediate fear anymore. no; this struggle is completely internal and it's why we linger on his heartbreaking attempts to confess (also, love sea had some pacing issues but i'm so so grateful they took time to show this part; bless fort for insisting on it!). tongrak's afraid to love but he pushes and pushes himself, and finally breaks through and its entirely on his own terms because of his own strength.

i'm not saying sky's weaker for (in a sense) needing someone else to rescue him before he could heal, but i think it just speaks to mame really telling quite a different story of healing with tongrak.

like... have you ever thought you'd healed from something and then it comes back in an unexpected way but then your response to the trigger is also different? the pain is there but it's... at once deeper but also more distant? a deep pulse rather than a high pitched shriek? and the way you go about beginning this new phase of healing is also different? i think that's whats happening here.

it's fascinating how us humans can fear vulnerability in so many ways, so many forms, on so many levels but i think the lesson mame's stories tell is that sometimes it really is worth it to become vulnerable. not with everyone, and not all the time (goodness, that would be foolish). but also, keep holding onto hope. keep looking for that right person, keep being kind to yourself and others. know that it's ok if your healing feels different, if you didn't catch it some point in the past, its not too late.

you'll be ok.

[robinfollies]

some design comcepts for older lily + lewis!!! my latest and greatest headcanon for them is that in the future they get gems and can do magic of their own :33 i just think it’d be neat,,, something to do with their love of magic!!!! 🥺

[emeraldwarriors]

begging jeremy adams please make them friends this time around and let hal!!! apologize!!!!!!!

[fionaapplesmackdown]

said this before but being bad at things will always be soooo endearing and beautiful and whimsical To Me like gosh you're so bad at this thing you're learning for the first time what a wonder!! what a curious individual with a lust for life you are what a lust for life!!!!! and if this isn't your first time and yet you're still bad at it how lovely too! your enjoyment doesn't come from being the best or even being good but just the participation of such a thing!!!!?!??? what a fucking lust for fucking life!

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneepy cozy time....

[fluffs-n-stuffs]

Finally catching up on the Horizons episodes I missed 👍

[ciaomarie]

The quiet angst of Sydcarmy S3 was almost too much to bear...

LIke if Storer and Calo just give us this

and this again

GIF by thiscoldheart

by the end of S4, I will treasure those scraps. I might get all tantrumy and moany with y'all on Tumblr eventually, but I'd be grateful for awhile. So grateful Claire would tell ME to stand up!

[wexhappyxfew]

Kennedy Farley and John Egan of the Silver Bullets MOTA-verse Series

I burn for you / And you don't even know my name / If you asked me to / I'd give up everything / To be close to you / Pull the trigger on the gun I gave you when we met / I wanna be close to you / Break my heart and start a fire, you got me overnight / Just let me be

- close to you by gracie abrams

[cestacruz]

Drawing the messiest sketches is actually so good for my brain

[hitmeupaep]

Erik Krippe, Jensen Ackles and Misha Collins could all come to my door and look me dead in my eyes and say destiel isn’t real and i would not give a single fuck

[willowser]

WILLOWWWW i love love love your dad!bakugou stuff 😫 like omg i just can't get enough of it. also i'm not sure if you've ever done anything like this before so sorry if you have, but imagine bakugou taking his little girl to the zoo for the first time 🥺 and she's just so excited over all the animals!!

omg how cute 🥺 girl dad bakugou has a little home built right in my heart and in my head, i love it so much, i think about them constantly !! 🥺 but !! that's actually so interesting 🥺

because — i can't imagine that bakugou cares any specific way about going to the zoo; like sure, he guesses that he'll go ?? if that's what you wanna do ?? not something he would propose on his own but it's like !! 🥺 getting to witness his daughter in that environment, for the first time 🥺 not something he really thought about, but the pure joy on her face when she's seeing giraffes and elephants and all the animals that are in her little story, learn-to-read books 🥺 and the aquarium where she gets to see all the fish 🥺 and she's just so enamored by how close she can get to see them !! 🥺 how fun !! 🥺

or she wants a soft stuffed monkey that she carries with her everywhere, or some a little headband that looks like fox ears 🥺 gets a lion cookie 🥺 HOW CUTE like this isn't something he thought about doing, but he gets there and so quickly realizes, like, this is new to her ??? this is incredible and amazing and something she's never experienced in her little life, and how lucky he is to get to experience it with her THAT'S WHAT BEING A DAD IS WAAAHHHH 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🩷✨️