#said this before i mean on my blog that was deactivated and i remember getting vv happy anytime someone rbed it bc i always like

[loveryoushouldvecomeover-mp3]

said this before but being bad at things will always be soooo endearing and beautiful and whimsical To Me like gosh you're so bad at this thing you're learning for the first time what a wonder!! what a curious individual with a lust for life you are what a lust for life!!!!! and if this isn't your first time and yet you're still bad at it how lovely too! your enjoyment doesn't come from being the best or even being good but just the participation of such a thing!!!!?!??? what a fucking lust for fucking life!

[spillthepuckingtea]

Jack: In the early months of their hook ups and now relationship ex anon discussed how poor Jack's mental health was. He had his shoulder injury and his performance was declining. Ex anon stressed that in the beginning Sammy was very emotionally supportive of Jack and there was no toxicity or antics to be found (again, she polished herself up to lock him down.) Ex anon believed that a key reason Jack has stuck around so long once the toxicity started (and they emphasized it's toxic) is because he's holding onto that early time as being something they can get back to, and is now just locked in this cycle. That's why his family "gets along great with her." Obvs to not be rude, support Jack, and he's still struggling with some things even after recovery (just look at how inconsistent his playing is).

Quinn: Chilling in Vancouver. Lol but Luke told Quinn the extent of the Sammy stuff (Jack didn't/doesn't know all of it.) Quinn will run interference and be a buffer for Luke (I personally think we've seen evidence of this but won't waste more time.)

The Random Ass Blank Blog Phenomena: Early to mid last summer this whole crop of blank blogs (no header, no pfp, no bio) popped up and started sharing photos/videos of Sammy that were previously unseen (her partying, with friends, being all up on people.) They made posts discussing how they wanted to expose Sammy because she is a terrible person; one said a close friend or themself can't remember was bullied out of rushing by Sammy and her friends for not meeting the "sorority girl standards." They harped on how her relationship with Jack was clearly not great. In specific one compared a photo of Jack and Sienna posing for the camera with the photo Sammy posted for Jack's birthday, which was a cropped photo from the photo booth at the Hockey In NJ Gala (side note, still weird to me that the photo she chose for her bf's b-day was a photo from an event- that was part of a widely accessible Google drive with all the other photo booths pics- in which she cropped out his family. Nothing candid or personal.) They emphasized how tired and put on Jack's smile with Sammy is. A now deactivated gossip blog started mentioning they were sent a photo of Sammy so bad they refused to say what it was. One of the blank, Sammy exposing blogs posted a close up photo of Sammy giving a blow job (the gossip blog confirmes that is what they were sent) (also psa: revenge porn is never ok even when it's a mean person.) Except no it wasn't! Someone did a reverse Google Image search and it was a screenshot from a PHub video and the actress had a visible wrist/arm tattoo we know Sammy doesn't have as well as gages ear piercings. After that all of these blogs deleted. Who they were (clearly someone with some involvement with Sammy/her circle to get the photos they did), who sent the fake revenge porn, remains unsolved.

That One Golden TikTok Comment: One of Sammy's friends posted a TikTok of them posing and acting rather trashy in a Vegas hotel room, some random girl commented something to the effect of "you all look like such nice girls who wouldn't snark about my body to my face." This comment was made in like summer 2023, before she and Jack were publicly together if together at all. Just another piece of evidence of her being a bad person.

Thank you for reading! I'm off to bed!

No, thank you for ranting and taking time out of your day to do this for us and good night. Sweet dreams. 

[ohnoproblems]

ok i know youre probably done with these kinds of asks, but i have a question that probably wont make sense

i am apart of the precure community, and one of our jokes is calling toei animation, the creators of precure, john toei. the term came from the kamen rider community from what i know, but i wanna know the first instance of the term "john videogame/company"

i searched 4chan since i thought that would be to most likely place for the term "john toei" would come up, which, it did in 2016

another lead i got was john backflip, but due to the undocumented nature of it, i am unsure it came from that since as far as i know, the joke as we know it originated in 2013

i also got clues from people asking the same question as me on reddit, which lead me to you. i cannot contact op since they deactivated and i dont know if youll even respond but always shoot yo shot ig

my question is

before you made the john darksouls reblog post, have you, by any chance, seen that term be used even before the john darksouls post? has there been an earlier instant of something similar to john darksouls?

oh fuck it's no trouble at all and this question delights me. the thing is we HAVE done a cursory historical analysis of the term "john darksoul" before. but i do mean cursory - the mesh of influences grows diffuse almost immediately, but nonetheless i and others have attempted to weave them. the one i was thinking about was here, though some of the links to @3liza's blog in the post itself might have exploded:

(for those of you saying "huh? john darksoul?" well, here. he's had a hard life.)

one thing i always remember is that one time i had a phone interview for a writing position at gearbox with some Names there while they were still working on battleborn. and over the course of the interview i said the words "john darksoul" with my mouth to them. they didn't know what i meant in the slightest. i realized this gulf of understanding and my own mistake immediately. i didn't get that job

[convoy-system]

Addressing the "Micahverse"

This has gotten insanely out of hand. I'm making one big post and then I'm going back to being a normal sysblr blog. I'm just an 18yo guy whose still fresh out of my abuse environment, I'm not some evil mastermind plotting against sysblr. When I say I just want to exist, I mean that.

From my perspective, this all started with me answering 2 asks on this blog.

(Edit: To make my blog timeline clear, I ran dissociative-misinfo and snowchester at the same time last year from Sept-Nov I believe. I made my apology for those blogs in December on micah-nicholas, and by then I was pro-endo privately. I deactivated micah-nicholas shortly after posting the apology because I felt uncomfortable being on sysblr at that point. A while later, I created my current main blog @obviously-im-a-boyo and I ran reveromantics and zain-syscourse as sideblogs. I deleted reveromantics and zain-syscourse after the Dia situation, and that's around when I made this blog. I ran other non-system sideblogs here and there, but currently my only system blog is this one.)

The first ask was an anon that just said "misogynist." I found this funny because it was random as hell, so I screenshotted it and showed it to my One Direction discord server, they made some funny commentary, and I answered the ask with that commentary. A user who claims they weren't the anon started a comment chain accusing me of being misogynistic and transmisogynistic, and when I asked them to show evidence, they refused. I have no idea who this blog is, apparantly they were in my old server when I was dissociative-misinfo, but I have no further info on them.

The second ask was from ratinacoat, a former friend of mine who I stopped associating with after I deleted dissociative-misinfo and stopped being anti-endo. Some timeline info- after I deleted dissociative-misinfo, I took a short break from sysblr as a whole, before I came back anonymously as two sideblogs zain-syscourse and reveromantics. These blogs were pro-endo. I deleted those blogs recently after the Dia situation in which I was blamed for Dia's public mental breakdown and subsequent IRL hospitalization. More on that in a bit because it could be it's own fucking post.

Rat's ask was asking if my recent pro-endo blogs were bait like Snowchester had been. Snowchester was the bait blog I ran cocurrently with dissociative-misinfo. I've apologized for both of those blogs back in December. I was going to ignore Rat's ask because I was ignoring a lot of anon hate already, but I was worried Rat might try to make a post claiming zain-syscourse and reveromantics were bait blogs, so I answered the ask to clear the air. I clarified that no, those blogs were not bait, I've just been changing and going through some questioning about my system. I also clarified that I'm pro-endo and have been for a while now.

Me answering those two asks, the anon and rat's, seem to have opened the absolute hellish floodgates upon me. This is where the micahverse begins, from my perspective. I know multiple of the people who posted about me are in a discord server that discusses me, but I don't know if this was a planned or coordinated effort, or just likeminded people all deciding to jump my ass at the same time.

At first I just noticed the anons I was getting directly, and the direct reblogs to my posts. What was being brought up at this point was all just dissociative-misinfo drama, shit I've already made an apology for and wanted to move forward from. I made a post on this blog clarifying that if you dislike me, please just block me instead of sending/tagging me in hate, or posting about me. Just block me.

Then I found out about the micahverse tag. Validity-system started it, with their long post listing accusations at me. I'll quickfire this.

Yes, I do remember deleting my discord server I ran when I was dissociative-misinfo. Yes, I know I deleted it because I got triggered during an argument about the semantics of the term functional multiplicity. Yes, I know that was stupid. I don't agree with my opinions at that time anymore, they stemmed from me being staunchly anti-endo, and I'm not anti-endo anymore. I also don't care to police other systems or their terms anymore. I've moved past this.

I know I had trouble stepping away from arguments. I know in hindsight that I wasn't equipped to be running that kind of server that's so volatile and built on syscourse. That's why I don't run a syscourse-y server anymore. I mean, I run a One Direction fan server, but all we do there is talk about boybanders and music so I'm not putting myself in a compromising position there.

Yeah, when I triggered myself into a severe derealization episode, I probably did claim I was being ganged up on. I was triggered and in an episode. I know that was fucked up, and it was a messy fallout, but again I've accepted that I no longer have the priviledge of friendship with the people I hurt by deleting the server and blowing up on everyone. I made my apology post for the things that happened on tumblr, and I sent out private apologies on discord to the old server members. This was all months ago.

I have vague memories of the conversation about men and women and dogs. I don't remember the full context of why I brought up my distrust of women, but that's one of my personal trauma triggers. Women who remind me of my abuser (my mother) tend to set off alarm bells in my head. It's not their fault of course, but I guess I wasn't clear about this being a personal trauma thing for me. As for the dog thing, actually fuck off. You misrepresented what I said on purpose. I know for a fact that the only time I've ever mentioned that I would "kick a dog if it got too close to me" is in context of self-defense. I live in a city full of stray dogs, MANY of which are violent. I've been chased by dogs dozens of times in the year I've lived here, and I've mentally prepared myself to potentially have to kick or fight a stray dog if I ever got properly attacked. I would never hurt a dog just because, it's a hypothetical self-defense tactic I've planned for but never had to employ. I've never kicked a dog, is the short version of all that.

Dragging the Wilbur Soot allegations of all things into this is fucking random but fine, I'll address it. I believe in innocent until proven guilty, and Wilbur Soot hasn't been formally charged with any crimes. I'm skeptical of both him and Shubble's claims, and I could get into why, but it really doesn't matter. At the end of the day, they're both massive youtubers and my opinion on their public feud doesn't hold any real weight.

Yeah, on dis-misinfo I did act like an authority on DID. That was shitty, I've already gone into that in my big apology post.

Yeah, again, I do remember telling Prose they weren't real. I was in a severe derealization episode when they dmed me. I apologized to Prose privately, but as I'll get into later in the post, Prose decided to reopen this shit again too.

Yep again my original apology post in DECEMBER addressed Snowchester and the disagreement that ended the server and dis-misinfo.

Addressing Okami. I don't like Okami very much, and I didn't even when I was running my server with her as my co-mod. When I'd started talking about starting a server, she wanted to help, and I was already feeling pressured to stay friends with her because we were common enemies with another server. I felt pressured to let her co-mod even though I didn't trust her, because I didn't want her to accuse me of discriminating against her for her personality disorders like she'd accused another server of doing when she got banned for blowing up at their mods. Okami said multiple questionable things during my dis-misinfo server run, and I never fully agreed or sided with her in my mind. I felt pressured to side with her because she was my co-mod and all this built-up pressure already existed in our dynamic, but I really tried to convey to the other server members that I don't like Okami. I even spoke in VC a few times about wanting to ban or unmod her, but not knowing how to go about it without her reacting negatively. So I was stuck in this limbo with her. By the time my dis-misinfo apology post came out, I don't think I was speaking to any of the server members anymore, including Okami. I don't currently associate with Okami.

Again with the bait blog. I've already addressed this publically in my apology post. Most of these points validity-system has brought up are old drama from dis-misinfo, and it's mainly things I've already publically held myself accountable for via my apology post, or things that happened within the server or dms that I apologized for in private. The main thing that I never addressed was Okami, because I was in a pressuring dynamic with her at the time, and after I stopped associating with the other server members, I blocked Okami out of my mind entirely. I'd actually completely forgotten about her until validity-system said her name.

Summary of this section: So far there's no good reason for why these posts are being made. It's dis-misinfo shit that I've already addressed in December and made it clear I wanted to move forward from. My beliefs and opinions have entirely changed since then, and I've made a public apology that addressed everything the public was present for. There's not much else in that regard to 'hold me accountable' for when I already held myself accountable in December.

I made a post asking validity-system in particular to leave me alone. Some other blogs started noticing what was going on and I got some kind asks from people I respect a lot, which was immensely helpful for my mental state. The flood of posts about me was overwhelming and I couldn't begin to try addressing them when I felt like I was being suddenly attacked on all angles. I also made a post asking anyone with concerns to message me privately, because I didn't want to encourage the micahverse posting by continuing to publically acknowledge it on this blog.

Then I saw rat's list of gripes, which included some outright lies and VERY serious accusations. I made a post addressing it because I was terrified people would see his post and run with it, despite the fact he didn't include any evidence for any of his claims. And yes, I know, the old server is deleted so you all can't get screenshots. But you still can't make accusations this serious without evidence. That's fucked up. ESPECIALLY when they're false. Rat reblogged my post combatting the accusations, but it didn't say anything substantial backing his side. All of that is visible in the link at the top of this paragraph, I won't rehash what I already said in that post.

So, like, to recap. I ran a shitty anti-endo blog, a bait blog, and a server a few months ago. I deleted all of them after a semantics argument got wildly out of hand and I was in the middle of a severe episode. I came back in December, apologizing for all of that mess. Now, the micahverse tag starts with multiple people (mainly ratinacoat and validity-system) bringing up dissociative-misinfo shit I've already addressed and apologized for, and generally being assholes towards me. It quickly spirals into rat straight-up lying about me. It gets worse.

I go to sleep. I wake up to some supportive posts from other syscourse blogs, and a few new kind asks. That was really nice, and again really helped me feel better about the situation. It didn't feel as much like the whole world was against me, at least.

The micahverse's newest argument was people claiming that I 'flip-flop' and change my syscourse stances constantly for attention. A lot of posters were assuming I'm a snake whose out for attention. Particularly, syscoursers were honing in on my change from anti to pro endo. Key note here, I've changed my endocourse stance TWICE. Ever. In all 3 years I've known I'm a system, my endocourse stance has changed twice. I started out as pro-endo in 2021, I became anti-endo in 2022, and I became pro-endo again sometime around December 2024. So, honestly, this whole bit of the micahverse is fucking stupid. People saw "micah changes his stances a lot!" and ran with it, despite not knowing how often my stances my changed or WHY they changed, and it ballooned into some people genuinely thinking I'm flip flopping every other day when I'm really not.

Brief interlude to mention that at some point during all this, I was spam @ in posts saying "hawk tuah" and tagged micahverse. Real mature, guys. Way to handle what you consider a serious situation seriously. Anyway.

Prose's first post. I already have a headache, but onwards I type. I'm not keen on reiterating how unproductive and pointless it is to bring up dis-misinfo gripes again, so I'll be addressing bits and pieces of this and jumping around.

Prose mentions that they mistakenly saw me as an older diagnosed person actively in treatment. I am none of those things and I never claimed to be. Me and Prose actually discussed this privately, MONTHS AGO, where I explained that I had no idea they saw me in such an incorrect light and I couldn't have possibly known that until they told me. I never lied about my age, diagnosis status, or treatment status. Prose made assumptions about me and blamed me when those assumptions weren't accurate.

The trans discourse bit. Oh my god stab me at this point. This is exhausting. Some of the shit being yapped about in trans discourse right now IS very oppression olympics when it comes to which trans people are "the most" oppressed. It's not a competition, we're all crossdressing groomers under the eyes of the law and state. Also the discussion Prose is referencing I believe was about the slur tranny. There were people arguing that only transfeminine people can say it? And not transmasculine people? Stupid ass discourse, I'm a trans person, I can say tranny when referring to my damn self.

Prose claims I pass very well. Uhm. Where the hell did you get that idea, lmao? I don't pass very well. I look fairly boyish, but despite my best efforts I am consistantly gendered and seen as female by everyone in real life who isn't one of my friends aware of my gender identity. But sure, go off I guess. I also never claimed that my oppression is because I "pass as a man and women are scared of men." I'm oppressed because I'm visibly queer and seen as female, so I experience misogyny, homophobia, and transphobia. I'm not seen as a man, I'm seen as a faggy woman who wants to be a boy.

Prose talks about how they also ran a bait blog that interacted with Snowchester, but they deleted it after a few days because it made them feel icky. That's valid. However it doesn't hold relevance to me? The way they phrase it is acting as though I forced them to make a bait blog. That was never the case. In the server, the channel where we talked about the bait blogs was locked behind an opt in role, specifically so people uncomfy with the concept didn't have to see or participate. Prose chose to participate and regretted it, and that's fine. But it's not my fault that they chose to participate?? They said they felt like making a bait blog would gain my approval, but I didn't even know Prose was vying for my approval until AFTER this all blew up and I discussed things with them privately. They were silently treating me like some sort of appraised figure that I never claimed to be, and then got mad at me for not reading their mind and knowing how they personally viewed me.

The "stalking and spam liking" was me making a new blog the day after deleting dis-misinfo and friending some of the server members back because I didn't think the big deletion was a big deal and I was lowkey still episodic, so I thought it was perfectly rational for me to follow everyone back and like a few of their posts. Like, the SAME day I think, I got a dm from one of the server members saying I was making everyone uncomfortable with the likes and follows, so I stopped. The "stalking" was one day of interacting with people I, at that moment, still believed I was friends with.

After I came back as publically pro endo, I believe on micah-nicholas (so post-apology), Prose made a vaguepost warning the endogenic community of people whose endocourse stance changed quickly and radically. It was about me, and I sent them a single dm asking if it was about me. They never replied, and I never dmed them again.

And now, zain-syscourse. I wasn't intentionally interacting with people like rat and august because of my prior association to them, I was just in the syscourse tag and so were they. My alter Zain interacted with like, everyone in the syscourse tag, because he was running a syscourse blog. He was putting aside our histories and interacting without prior bias, just from a pro endo viewpoint. All of my interactions with Prose's friend group after my apology post were a result of those people being active syscoursers at the same time as I was, not out of targetted malice or stalking.

"It made me feel like my privacy was being invaded" for... for me to interact with public syscourse posts YOU weren't even making? I haven't interacted with Prose since my single dm back on micah-nicholas where I asked if their vaguepost was about me, and I find out now that it WAS about me. I genuinely don't understand what you mean with this one.

I don't want to be your friend. I have no intentions of befriending any of the people I used to be in that deleted server with. We are on opposite sides of syscourse stances, and I have SO many gripes with all of you after this entire micahverse situation that would prevent us from being friends again.

Prose made two more longposts about me after this, mostly just ranting about how they can't trust me and are paranoid about me "stalking" them. In the past like 2 months since we stopped being friends, I've only ever interacted with Prose when they made a vaguepost about me. So they quite literally talked about me, and got mad that I addressed the fact they're talking about me. That's not stalking, that's a response to shit that's very clearly about me. If you don't want me to talk to you anymore, stop posting about me. I literally don't care about you one way or another outside of your posts discussing me.

ANYWAY. I said I'd briefly mention the Dia situation. Dia or solxxrsys had a public manic episode/mental breakdown in the syscourse tags, posted a death threat, self-harm baited directly on my blog, and sui-baited before deactivating. I was on zain-syscourse at this point, and I was responding to Dia's posts in a fairly calm manner up until Dia started self-harm baiting at me and that triggered me. Still, I didn't say anything much ruder than calling Dia an asshole. After Dia deactivated, it was found out that Dia got hospitalized, and I was immediately blamed. People were acting like I drove Dia to suicide with my posts, which honest to god weren't saying anything particularly mean.

Interlude over, back to the micahverse. Chips-in-a-bag fakeclaimed me. This is the longest fucking tumblr post ever but there's a lot to address and I don't want to make any more fucking posts after this if I don't ABSOLUTELY have to. So, chips in a bag. I already actually responded in the comments, but I'll add screenshots of my comment in this post in case they get deleted later, to be safe. This was just. rude. to be honest. Like, why?

FINALLY the conclusion: This was all fucking stupid and a thinly veiled excuse to bully and harass me. The majority of the complaints are for things I said and did when I was dissociative-misinfo, which I've already made a comprehensive apology for 2 months ago, as well as the private apologies I sent out at the time. The few things mentioned that weren't already handled in December, I have now addressed, like Okami. After bringing up dead dis-misinfo gripes got old, people like ratinacoat started fucking lying about me and accusing me of serious crimes like animal abuse with zero evidence or reasoning. That's when i started really getting pissed, because what the hell? And now, I get my systemhood questioned on top of all of that, coz like why the fuck not.

If the goal was holding me accountable for my fuck-ups, you didn't do that. There was nothing left to do. I held MYSELF accountable 2 months ago when I made my big public apology post and outed all of the shitty opinions and behaviors I no longer stand behind. In the past 2 months, I've CHANGED. I'm pro endo, I don't police other systems anymore, I don't post to syscringe and I don't condone bait blogs. All the behaviors you have issues with are behaviors I DON'T DO ANYMORE AND HAVE ALREADY APOLOGIZED FOR BOTH PUBLICALLY AND PRIVATELY. So, this has all ended up just being a micah hate train and an excuse for extreme anti endos to clown on me.

It was honestly clear what this was from the first time I saw #micahverse. Turning my name, not even my username but my actual name, into a "universe" tag and treating me like a character you're all discoursing on. I'm a person, man. I'm not a syscourse topic, I'm an 18 year old with multiple severe mental disorders whose trying to move forward from my mistakes and grow. Whose just trying to exist on sysblr and post about my personal system stuff and whatnot. I'm not bothering anybody, I don't even syscourse anymore. What else do you guys want from me?

Genuinely. What more do you guys want. I've apologized and changed, you're trying to hold me accountable for shit I don't do or support anymore, shit I've already publically acknowledged I don't do or support anymore. Anything else brought up I've now addressed in this long ass post. Can it be over now? Can I be left alone now? Can I just exist on tumblr now? Or is nothing enough?

Signed, Micah.

[funnyburneracct]

Hi, I'm Xiao/burningrqs. this post is going to be long. Posting this from a burner so that it doesn't go down the drain when we deactivate.

But essentially, this is an apology to the radqueer community for multiple different things. I'm going to do my best to type this out as well as possible, and I apologize if I miss anything or word things poorly. I am going to explain myself to the best of my abilities, but please keep in mind that my explanations do not excuse my actions by any means.

Post under the cut.

for those who don't want to read it though, TL;DR: I was a complete asshole and I'm genuinely very sorry about it.

So, I want to start off by apologizing in general for the "burning radqueers" thing. Not only was it just not funny, but it was also really weird. I know damn well that if I saw someone pop up with a "burningmogais" blog or something, I would be pissed. So I don't know what made me think that running burningradqueers was a good idea in any sense.

My rude and dehumanizing comments did not help. Regardless of how I view people, what disorders I have, or how symptoms present themselves, it was disgusting of me to act as though I can't be held accountable for my cruelty towards others.

The targeted posts were even worse, and allowing people to just pick a random blog to "burn" was teetering on harassment. It put the user in front of so many people who clearly did not have good intentions towards them, and inherently put the user being "burnt" in danger. I wish I noticed that fact sooner. Even if I disagreed with people or didn't like them for whatever reason, I still should not have felt as though I had the right to post stuff like that.

Adding onto that, I should have never used my ASPD as an excuse for anything. I tend to get defensive when I feel insulted, which is what happened, and I decided to bite back despite being in the wrong. I acted impulsively and out of pure anger, and then tried to defend it, which I shouldn't have. When saying the kinds of things I did, I am open to criticism whether I like that fact or not, and trying to act as though I am immune to that criticism because of a disorder was disgusting on my part.

Another thing, somewhat on a similar note, is that an apology is owed for my hostility in general. Every time it was even lightly suggested I was wrong, I seemed to lash out and get angry. This really just comes down to me needing to learn to admit my wrongs. I should not have made my inability to understand my wrongdoings anyone else's problem.

Then there's also the things I said when I lashed out before deciding to drop burningradqueers entirely. I don't fully remember all of what I said as the event happened during an episode (this does not excuse my words at all by the way. regardless of my state at the time, what I said wasn't okay and should not be excused) and the posts have since been deleted. But, I do remember at one point making harassment out to be a competition of sorts when someone was simply trying to calmly explain to my why the namedropping was not a good move. I can't for the life of me remember why I did that, but I am very sorry about it. A lot of people in the radqueer community have been harassed (and likely do still get harassed constantly), and for me to act like I am the only victim of harassment was wrong on multiple levels.

I'm sure there was a lot of bad stuff I said during that episode, but as I said, I do not remember most of it. I'm sorry that I can't apologize for the specific things I said, but I am apologizing for the situation as a whole.

The entire thing started over me not being able to handle much deserved criticism, and I stood "my ground" despite having absolutely no ground to stand on.

I started burningradqueers over baseless hatred. I didn't know why I was supposed to hate radqueers, or what I was even really hating. I joined the anti community thinking that it is much easier to just move with the pack and hate what everyone else seems to hate, but hatred really isn't that easy. It's exhausting. And realizing how much the anti community really wouldn't want me if I was honest about things made me realize that. Realizing that there are so many antis who would rather see us suffer forever due to dysphoria than see us live happily after getting amputations was rough, and honestly kinda gave me a taste of what radqueers have to deal with every single day, and it felt horrible.

Without realizing it, I managed to do so much damage to a community full of people who deal with exactly the same things I do, a community that is mostly traumatized and mentally ill people who are just trying to get by. Not even just that, but genuinely just people trying to exist and be honest about themselves.

It is not my place to dictate what is and isn't valid in terms of someone's personal identity, and even more, it's not okay for me to treat a whole community like garbage just because I didn't understand it.

Again, I do not want my actions to be excused. I treated people horribly and was a total dick, but I hope that me apologizing can at least make some of you feel better about how I behaved.

[ficoandleo]

I have mega ADHD so I forget things easily and have a hard time settling down and doing stuff. I don't remember everyone who deactivates or goes inactive. And I know I should express my love more for people who are currently around--i'd like to do that someday too!! But idk i kinda wanted to shout out to some of the people who deactivated/disappeared, especially recently, in the off chance they see this and know i love them lol

@battyoldman let's start with you because whether or not you decide to stick around you're kind of the most recent. I really hope you just need some time away for your mental health and, if this is something you'd like to continue doing, if it's something you enjoy, that you come back and keep blessing us with your presence. Your Ed is so. Silly and fun and chill and perfect. The video and movie titles you'd come up with are so befitting of his goofy conspiracy interests. You have really captured that old man's essence, in my opinion. Your interactions with Rui were so seamless I figured you were in one of the discord servers and already knew each other and you were just growing and exploring a relationship you'd already practiced in another setting. Honestly everything felt so seamless on your end when I saw you interact with others and when I got to interact with you--Ed was so largely unphased by everyone's shit and distaste for him(up until Towa said he was bad at sucking dick, he was not taking that lying down--) and the way he entertained himself with everyone's affairs. . .he really had the feeling of lying away in his tower, entertained by the humans. 10/10, if it's still fun for you I hope you won't leave us because we will miss you.

@ask-kaito-fuji i didn't get to interact with you much WHICH IS A SHAME. Your Kaito is so cute and he's. Really trying he felt so solid and charming and just awkward enough and I love the way you let him interact with posts that were ooc too because lbr he loves social media! He would be vibing out on tumblr!! It felt like he was this close to realizing he was in the matrix sometimes. Seeing people know a bunch of stuff and going 'why/how do you know so much it's so creepy!!' was delightful, and getting to personally chat with him once or twice was also very fun. 10/10 you brought the party to other people and you captured the character very well. His PDL is coming up though, so you may wanna hide him /joke

@frostheimking so your blog is gone but not deactivated(deactivated tumblrs have '-deactivated' and a string of numbers on the end of them and you can often still ping them) which, to me, reeks of Tumblr being stupid because I've seen that happen to multiple people before. I don't think you're gone on purpose, I assume there was a bad spam deletion somewhere or an alleged break of the rules because I've seen that happen before. So I'm hoping you either get the blog back or remake because, while you weren't around often because lbr it's slow around here for the most part, I loved your Jin??? I don't just mean because he was kinda flirting with Romeo, he was snappy and cold and. Idk he really felt like Jin. That's the best way I can think to word it, you captured his character from what I could see. I enjoyed our interactions and I enjoyed the ones you had with others too! I was looking forward to exploring Romeo and Jin's history and dynamic with you quite a bit haha. HOPEFULLY YOU GET YOUR BLOG BACK or remake if you're interested!! 10/10 tumblr fix your shit there's unfinished business--

@leo-brat-kurosagi-deactivated20 hey. You. You are far more Leo than I am lmao. I DO NOT HAVE THE MENTAL CAPACITY TO BE THE MEAN LEO THAT YOU WERE. I WISH I COULD BE AS SNARKY AND BRILLIANT. You weren't around super long and you didn't get to have a ton of interactions or answer a lot of asks but like. How do I say that I could just kind of tell what kind of potential was there for something great??? You handled him very well in the time you played him. You lived up to being a little brat for sure.

@sinostracasino-deactivated20241 YOU DO NOT UNDERSTAND THE VISCERAL REACTION OF WHAT NO WHY COME BACK THAT I FELT SEEING YOU GONE. You were hilarious and fun and silly and also a good writer as I recall. Your Taiga had great energy and this underlying tension to him and we would have dug into that Taiga doesn't care about himself if Romeo wasn't afraid to do so. I was looking forward to them having some great, stupid, cyclical arguments, maybe a shootout, maybe eventually getting back together a little. And maybe a little something for that birthday trip to Rui's bar. And his chemistry and interactions with others and with anons were fun??? Immediately warming up to Towa? Teasing the honor students?? The little bit of 'bickering' with Ritsu? Also the way you tagged some of your reblogs god. 10/10 Taiga, he owes so much child support.

. . .those are the ones off the top of my head, mostly recent, which isn't to say I don't see or recognize or have appreciation for others not being around a lot or going away(like @/ask-lucas-errant who did answer an ask recently-ish, who isn't too active but that's probably because of lack of asks/interaction; @/shiranami-ren who I figure isn't around much because they draw a lot of their answers and that's a bit more intensive of a way to run their blog--amazing stuff and very much the classic way to do this from the old days, I would absolutely do the same if I could draw; and the Lycas who deleted probably because of inactivity) all of whom have/had great presentation for their characters and handled them well but. Idk. Maybe i ended up posting mostly people 'closer' to me in this context haha. . . .

I wish this fandom was bigger and more active with sending asks and stuff because I feel like that's a big contributor to people falling off or deleting, and I wish I were more consistent with asks and responses and better at sending asks myself because I could be the change I want to see in the world. (I feel like the asks I send have to be, like, good. Like I appreciate getting simple and basic asks but I feel like I need to ask Big Headcanon Questions or something.) But I know everyone's got their own lives and their own things going on so I'm not going to pretend I know what's going on with everyone, y'know? More than anything I hope everyone--active, inactive, deleted, or otherwise--is happy and safe and comfortable where they are and that the ones who've dropped off didn't do so because of anything bad or any kind of discouragement. Sometimes we lose interest in things and that's more than fine. Or life is busy. I hope you're all doing well. I miss you! I'm sure I'm not the only one!

[little-devils-advocate]

My Personal Experience With Neil Gaiman Here on Tumblr

So, I'm sure anyone who comes across my Blog will see from my Pinned Post that it was previously Deactivated here on Tumblr. I essentially used the Blog to discuss controversial issues: abortion, gun control, BLM, etc. & had done a lot of work there. I had been running it for years & talked about some pretty heavy stuff, catching a lot of criticism for my views, but I had never been Deactivated or even had anything taken down.

As you can see from what I have Posted here since restarting, I am a huge advocate for the homeless. I had been Following @neil-gaiman for a while as a minor fan, mainly due to my enjoyment of his stories Stardust & American Gods. I've read none of his books, because the writing style didn't appeal to me, but I have some of them & watched the Stardust movie & the American Gods show.

Anyway, I'd previously seen him Posting here on Tumblr complaining about his residuals & how little money he was making, which rubbed me the wrong way for obvious reasons, but I let it go, because it wasn't that big of a deal to me at the time. Everyone has scruples.

OP:

Months later I saw him Posting about the recent writer's strike & going on a tangent again. Everyone was patting him on the back & agreeing with him & it irked me. Badly. So, I Reblogged it with a picture of a tent city & a link to Sia's album Some People Have Real Problems. Obviously, it irked me that someone of his means was complaining about his residuals & how little writers make when people all over the country are struggling to make ends meet, many of them falling victim to homelessness. Like I said: some people have real problems. Writers also make much more than your average worker, but I digress.

He. Was. PISSED. He then proceeded to attack me on his Blog. I can't remember exactly what he said, but it was something along the lines of 'I'm famous, how dare you question me!' I was then attacked relentlessly by his mob of fans to whom I vehemently defended myself & my position. I even recall one fan telling me that 'One day [I was] gonna wake up & regret insulting Neil Gaiman.' I think it's safe to say that day never came. 🙄

I wish I had screenshots for you all, but, like I said, my Blog was almost immediately taken down after the incident, which I find crazy as nothing I Posted in regards to this was out of line in any way. I did have some questionable shit on my Blog due to my endless defense against trolls, but like I said before, none of it had ever gotten pulled until then, so I'm really not sure what happened. I checked his Blog, but I can no longer find the Post there.

My guess is that Neil has some very serious issues with women &, quite frankly, I'm not suprised. I feel terrible for cracking up at him being dragged through the mud when I first got online this morning. I just saw part of the Post on FB via Threads & couldn't read it all, so I wondered what he did this time. I could never have imagined that it had to do with a SA or I would never have cracked a joke. I will try to be fully informed before I Post from now on, I just really felt a sense of vindication & closure when I saw that, & now even more so. And to that asshole, I will never wake up & regret insulting Neil Gaiman; Maybe if he wasn't being an entitled piece of shit with a broken moral compass I never would have done it. It just goes to show you that we need to stop idolizing celebrities. "You don't know these people."

I hope any of his victims continue to come forward so he can get his just desserts. On a personal level, I am so, so sorry that this happened to you & I empathize with you.

-LDA

Context:

[ilyuu-archive]

update!

get ready folks this is a rollercoaster of emotions but uh, just to put this out here, it isn’t exactly good news

alright, so i think i’m gonna go ahead and quit writing for this blog. yeah, not exactly the best start to this - you think as a writer i’d know what words to use.

before anything - nope, i am not going to deactivate my blog, next best thing is to archive it since there’s so many memories that i like to at least keep, of my moots and of just a lot of things in general that i like to memorialize and a lot of writings and posts.

i want to keep them here because i want someone, whoever comes across it, to read whichever one and feel some semblance of comfort; that’s the main reason why i made this blog in the first place and that’s how i intend to leave it.

oh uh, yeah, for the reasons why i’m quitting, i can technically list a few :

genshin burnout : i don’t feel as strongly as i do for the game anymore, not as excited, even as fontaine was released, and stopped playing it a few months back. so, y’know, as genshin-centric this blog is, it’s technically a bit hard to try and get into something that you long lost interest for.

school : it’s catching me off-guard every time and even though i found a rhythm with my classes and schedule, it’s only asking for more of my time and, quite literally demanding. i’ll be honest and say that i can’t juggle a blog with a post every day and stay consistent with my schoolwork and what’s expected of me. i need to start thinking about my future.

spiraling thoughts : yup, you read that right; i’m back at it again with me thinking that my writing isn’t good enough and am doubting my skills as a writer as a whole, especially with my way of writing that as his poetic touch to it that’s making me wonder if it’s even worth anything at all.

with that, i think i just need to start writing for myself again because i haven’t felt that feeling for literally a while now.

have i thought about this for a while now? i have actually, somewhere in the middle of august but i was really, really hesitant for a lot of reasons.

said reasons being mainly my moots. i don’t like the ideas of leaving any of them behind at all, especially with them being the main reason why i love opening this app every day, seeing them flood my dash with everything that happened the night before, saying good morning, and seeing them in my notifs and inbox with their chaos and genuineness. i have so many memories here that i consider so dear to me because of each and every one of them, making my day and night, and… i don’t know, it’d suck to lose all of them.

@mikacynth : you were my first moot and i know i’ve mentioned and said this so many times to the point that you’d probably get sick of it but it did and does mean a lot to me knowing that you opened a door for me to meet so many others that made writing and just being on here amazing. you’re just so damn cool, creative, and nice and i’m so, so happy that i met you.

@floraldresvi : i don’t remember how i met you, and i’m so sorry for that vi, but you’re the kindest, absolutely gentle and attentive person i know and i just wonder how i ever got the chance to talk to you and be moots. i wish you nothing but the best because that’s all you deserve and more and you better keep that in mind vi.

@st0pthatsgay : this was a strangers to friends to lovers arc fr!! sorry i couldn’t help that, do you know how long i wanted to make that joke? but seriously, oli, you and your unbridled chaos and energy never fails to make my dash and quite literally everyone else who follows you like a rom-com movie or something; i’m so glad that i can call you a moot and one that i cherish so, so much.

@papiliotao : rei, you made my day whenever you drop in one of your small blurbs into my inbox and i get the space to just write whatever comes to mind; it was a little thing we had and, i don’t know, i loved it. i love it still a lot. it was like a duo we had and always made me smile with whatever we talked about, maybe just about writing in general or the cats that you always see. i’m just sorry that we won’t be able to have our wedding soon. really.

@supernova25 : bestie, i still remember those times about the ai bots!! i still think about them a lot!! it was fun!! in general, you’re always a lot of fun to talk to, and it could be about anything and it’d fly off the roof. also your asks about the most random of things has definitely made me feel better on my worst of days just to put that out there.

@soleillunne : i’d make a joke about you running up for the title of creator of angst and all that but you’ve always been so sweet so let me just push that aside, considerate as well; don’t think i didn’t see you send me links of anything scaramouche related because i do and i appreciate that so much

@hollythius-rising : YOU AND YOUR THEME CHANGES DON’T THINK I DON’T NOTICE THEM you’re also very very sweet and chaotic when it comes to your taste in tall purple men in lab coats but we don’t talk about that aosjksjs just that it’s always been a pleasure to talk to you whenever we have the chance to

@mondaymelon : YOU. we vibe with each other a lot like radio waves and it got me all giddy, and i’d just drop a lot of memes into your inbox just so i could see how you’d react only for you to give me a taste of my own medicine when you do the same thing 100 times more effectiveaisjsjs

@venusflwers : those late nights of playing roblox with you makes me feel so, so happy, you have no idea. it’s filled with crack with whatever you say and you somehow make a horror game feel like some comedy instead i swear; you’re literally the most unhinged and funniest person i met and i love that about you so much

@kazumist : it’s like a parent watching their kid grow up and then completely surpass them in terms of height. yeah, that’s you akiaki!! always frothing over your writing, your drabbles, because it had that soft and domestic feeling to them that i absolutely love to the moon and back

@m1shapanda, @snobwaffles, @vennnnn-diagram : you three are, excuse me for my language, so fucking amazing. i always wanted to talk to you so many times and even when i did, always hoped that we could’ve talked a bit more. misha, you’re so cool and i always wanted to just ramble with you; that and your art is so pretty and soft and just so DAMN COOL did i mention that? snob, you detective, you and your curse arts that make me laugh as much as pour bleach on my eyes (/j), you’re just so supportive and i really like that about you. ven, i wished we could’ve talked a lot more too with how just vibe with everyone so quickly and easily - you’re just as amazing, really.

and to all of my other moots, the same goes to you, even with the ones i didn’t talk to as much - just being moots with you, knowing that someone liked me like i liked them made me feel more belong on here and more a part of something. i’ve never been a part of something like this, and know so many people and to know that i mean something to them? yeah, that really, really means a lot to me.

i’d probably just be a lurker on here than anything… haven’t really thought that far, only that i know that i can’t stay on here any longer without feeling guilty, burdened, stressed, or all of the above. or maybe just start off as a smaller blog again without any sense of obligation because ever since i’ve hit 500, which was a while ago, that’s what this blog started to feel like with each bit of time that passed.

i’ve enjoyed it, of course i did, don’t get me wrong! i’ve just been enjoying it less than i did when i started off, that feeling of accomplishment and joy and pride at myself numbing a bit more with each milestone i passed. that’s just all me though, i’m sure.

anyways, not right now though, maybe just around the weekends when i actually have time to spare. so, until then, i’ll stick around here as much as i can. other than that, i don’t have much else to say other than thank you.

that i hope that you’ll keep doing what you love, whatever that is, despite the highs and lows. just know that the community you’re in is filled with people who love you through and through and that i do too - that you’ll do what you love because you want to, not because you should.

[fishing-lesbian-catgirl]

genuine question: how can we use this website to be less annoying to others?

Glad to give my thoughts. Like I said, I’m very petty and most of this stuff probably isn’t as big a deal to most people. Anyway I’m bad at being brief so I added a readmore. Here are my personal rules:

1: Don’t add anything to the body of a post unless you have something that you really feel will add some degree of value, meaning, humor, context, or at least something to people further down the reblog chain.

This is the most important rule. Adding something to a post makes it longer, it makes it so everyone who reblogs it in the chain after you has to see it. If you have nothing to add but “wow” or “holy shit” you are lengthening the post for no reason. Those reactions can easily go in the tags.

This is also the reason I think gimmick blogs are so annoying. It’s one thing for a “heritage post” blog to reblog things related to its respective gimmick. Simply reblogging them puts that thing on their blog, so anyone looking at it or following them because they want to see “heritage posts” will see it. But they go a step further and add “X heritage post” for no real reason other than to brand the post as theirs.

When I see a post that I like that has useless additions that take up space while adding nothing I get mildly annoyed and go to the reblog of the person who reblogged it before they did just to trim the useless comments off. But if that person deactivated then I can’t trim the comment. Tumblr lets you trim to the original post without any of the additions regardless of if op is deactivated or not with the little X on the reblog menu, but only to the original post. It’s better than nothing though

This whole point is, to me, a bit of tumblr etiquette that makes it so you don’t have to see unrelated comments from someone you don’t follow just because they thought to add a pointless comment way up the chain. This definitely is petty, but if you remember how the old tumblr formatting worked, this was extremely important because each addition took up even more screen space with the line to the next persons url and squished the original post into smaller and smaller spaces. So that’s probably why I feel so strongly about it even though it doesn’t matter as much anymore.

2: The tags are mostly your free space to say what you want, BUT try and respect that OP will likely see them.

A LOT of communication done on this website is done through talking in the tags. That’s not what they were originally meant for but that doesn’t matter anymore. People will likely be looking in their notes to see tags by their mutuals.

The original poster can and will see every tag on a post, unless they delete the post or mute notifications. Mute notifications seems like it doesn’t work, but that’s because it only mutes future notifications on the post, the tags in your notes before muting will still be there regardless

This is to say that in most situations, if the op is someone like me who uses their notes to communicate with their mutuals and others in their communities, your irrelevant tags might also be there and annoy them. So use courtesy when tagging. Thankfully tumblr cuts off tags after a certain point on the notes page but still keep it in mind. I go overboard writing mini essays in the tags all the time, and while I do think that is a little annoying I do it anyway so I can’t blame people.

3: Keep blorbo tagging to a minimum if you can help it.

This is probably my most controversial stance, but blorbo tagging can be really annoying in certain circumstances.

The biggest offender to me are tagging make characters on posts about women. I don’t care that you think he’s your babygirl or whatever, I find this extremely annoying. I get it, sometimes a post fits your character really closely but the gender is wrong, but usually it doesn’t and they’re just doing this on any post even slightly related to a single aspect of a male character they care about. Often because most tumblr fandom people couldn’t be bothered to care about female characters if that was the only way to escape a saw trap alive.

There are other blorbo tag type things that annoy me, and again I’m a petty bitch, so take it with a grain of salt. But to me this one is a little personal (for lack of a better word). One of my first big posts on this blog was about wizard girls leaning in to kiss and having the brims of their hats get in the way. I didn’t mind the blorbo tagging about men that much, but they got less and less related to the post that it was annoying. The last straw before I deleted the post (back when I didn’t realize mute notifications actually worked. It might not have at the time) was a tag about their male blorbos leaning in to kiss and their belt buckles got in the way???

Idk I just find blorbo tagging in general mildly annoying and only do it when the post is an extremely perfect fit for on the characters I care about. I often block people for blorbo tagging about characters from things I dislike, I’m petty and the block button is fun for me to press, so I do that often. :)

4: NOT EVERY POST IS ABOUT YOU!!!

If you see a post that isn’t about you or your demographics or gender or whatever, you really don’t need to make it about you. That will very likely annoy op, especially because no one would have anything against you if you went and wrote your own post inspired by whatever the post in question said.

Not every post about lesbians needs to be made about gay men. Not every post about trans women needs to be made about trans men. Not every post about women needs to be made about men. And probably most important:

Not every post needs to be made about white people!

I know you might be thinking how writing something in the tags about your experience as a white person relating to what op is talking about, but I promise you they don’t want to hear it from us. They almost certainly are seeing tags from other white people because for some reason we can’t seem to see someone posting about issues of racism without having either the “I’m sorry for being white” or “white devils advocate” voices appear in our heads, just ignore it. Bite your tongue and reblog or move on for the love of god stop pestering the op.

Obviously the lesbian, trans women, and women ones are the ones I see in my notes that are annoying. But I can’t pretend I haven’t seen other white people say some really unnecessary shit in the tags / haven’t seen posts by nonwhite people who are clearly annoyed about how we always make everything about us.

Remember, you can always write your own post!

5: OP didn’t “turn off replies”

This feels like something that wouldn’t happen that often, but multiple times when I’ve made even mildly controversial takes about like video games or whatever, people will either add in a reblog or send me an ask complaining that I “turned off replies because I was afraid of hearing them disagree” usually followed by them calling me a coward. It’s very simple, I have reply settings so that people I follow and people who have followed me for at least like a week can reply, that’s it. I don’t have replies from everyone on because most people outside of those categories I don’t care about their opinions and they are annoying. If you can’t reply, that’s probably why. And if they actually did turn off replies, that’s because they don’t want replies, especially from people like the ones I just described.

6: I actually don’t have a problem with spam reblogging

This might seem backwards given my other stances on things taking up unnecessary space like useless comments, but I really don’t mind spam reblogs. I frequently do it when I see art I really like or when there’s a post that really resonates with me. Yes, it is annoying! No, I probably won’t stop. I do it so I can’t judge other people who do too. I am trying to keep it to like 5 times at most though, any more is just overkill.

7: OP is a stranger, not your friend

This one applies basically everywhere on the internet, but unless the person who made the post is someone who is like a mutual or someone that’s you’ve interacted with a lot before, they’re probably a stranger. Don’t try to be “playfully rude” or overly familiar. It’s annoying and weird and you will get blocked.

8: If you’re sending an anonymous ask, remember that OP is not going to take you in good faith most of the time

A lot of anon asks aren’t meant to be malicious, but a lot of others are. Bait, hate mail, insults, you name it, there’s a very good reason people like me assume every anon is sent in bad faith for some purpose. If you are going to send an anon ask, try to make it clear that you genuinely just want to ask a question and that you aren’t trying to trick op into saying something you can use to write a callout post against her or whatever.

You did that in this very ask thing and that’s why I’m writing out this long post instead of deleting it or letting it rot in the inbox.

9: Prev Tags etiquette / “Peer Reviewed” Tags

The usage of “prev tags” is controversial, a lot of people have different opinions on it. But with all the changes they made last year that made it harder to see the tags of the person before the person who’s reblog you are viewing, I think prev tags etiquette has changed.

My personal rules for prev tags are to copy the tags into my own tags, and then follow them up with a tag that says “<- prev tags”. Unfortunately tumblr tags convert dashes into spaces for some reason so it ends up looking like “< prev tags”. I’m stubborn and don’t want to like use an emoji arrow though. Anyway, tumblr mobile conveniently allows you to copy the tags of the person you are reblogging from surprisingly easily which I appreciate.

Unlike previous tags, which stay in the tags and don’t turn into an addition to the post, “peer reviewed” tags as they are sometimes called do get added to the post permanently for the remaining blog chain.

The unfortunate truth about this website is that some people have bad opinions on what qualifies as being meaningful enough to be cemented as an addition to the post via “peer review”. As such, the phrase “how could you leave this in the tags 🤣” has essentially become another “you sir have won the internet 🤣”

The shitty part about that is sometimes there are good and meaningful additions in the tags that are worth being added to the post as a whole. But you can add someone’s tags to a post without saying “how could you leave this in the tags”. Anyway this one is more subjective and hard to define so I hope I got my point across at least somewhat.

Anyway, there are probably a few other rules I personally follow that I’m not thinking about right now, but just follow general internet etiquette and try to keep in mind that op is a person who will likely read whatever you type, that covers most things tbh! Thanks for reading if you somehow read this far. Hope this helped! If it didn’t, oh well, I did try and warn you I’m petty and have strong opinions about things that usually don’t matter afterall

[bookishtheaterlover7]

Hi booky!

Marketing anon here.

So I don’t think whether or not CE is really married is really important at this point (RE: he’s in HW where the majority of relationships…I suspect have strings being pulled in the back).

The fact is that’s the narrative they are going to with and want to sell, so he is just pushing that narrative along. He/they want you to know and think he’s married. I personally believe that’s the important part about all this. But he and others around him are intentionally keeping it vague and I think it’s working to their favor because it plays into the whole privacy thing they were going for.

Saying “my wife is from PT” basically implies he married a woman from PT. That’s not giving anything exact but it’s also implying he married AB, the woman he’s been linked to most recently and she’s from PT. But at the same time, there millions of woman in PT/from PT. Who’s to say he’s not married to one of them, especially if they haven’t come out and said it was with each other? 🤣

So he confirms without actually having to confirm and if I had to make an educated guess, I would say that’s as good as you’re going to get it. Don’t quote me on this though.

I know some team real blogs were saying it’s normal for someone to not say their partner’s name, and that’s true for the most part. Think about how when you meet someone random - and you mention your partner. Do you necessarily say your partner’s name? Probably not, especially if you don’t know the person like that.

The thing is, with CE/AB the plausible deniability and vagueness is a pattern.

It’s not just him once saying my wife in passing, it’s also him not mentioning her for two years, then suddenly mentioning a nameless GF, then eventual nameless wife.

Same goes for her.

“My husband” “my dog” “pictures of the dog but no tags of the husband even tho everyone knows whose dog that is”. Even her trolling best friends do the most and only troll by posting suggestive backgrounds and no direct tags. If you’ve paid attention this entire time it’s very easy to tell there’s a reason they’ve done this for this long. TBH, I had my suspicions at first they were just trying to protect privacy because they hadn’t gone public yet and people were already harassing them. But after they went fully public the same charades continued all the way past the wedding and into the new year? That’s when my suspicions were more or less confirmed - that this was intentional orchestration and some form of strategy. Weird, yes, but not unheard of. In fact, my suspicions are that other celebs have done something similar to this too (re: Leo DiCaprio and Gigi hadid, bill hader and Anna Kendrick). I think in Hollywood there are so many strings being pulled all the time. Nothing is coincidence. Nothing is coincidence in marketing in general. Things are planned out well in advance and I mean this wholeheartedly.

He posted two stories with her and he never says her name out loud (does everyone remember that?), he doesn’t tag her (well she was deactivated, but he doesn’t mention her name in the videos in captions either).

She never refers to him by name and the one time PT reporters tried to talk to her she refused to talk to them. She lets in tags of herself but never anything confirming or alluding to anything directly to him. Notice how before they went public she was letting herself get tagged in basically everything related to their dating rumors and she was keeping all their dating comments in but deleting and untagging others? Now she’s doing the opposite and I feel that may be intentional too. Maybe.

The one time they attend the same premiere - did you notice he didn’t take pics with her? She got her solo pics and then disappeared? She then posts a pic of herself at this premier but doesn’t tag him, the movie, or the cast? Is it ungratefulness or is it strategy? Think about it.

His friends/her friends all post separately from the same place and it’s only this most recent PT sighting he’s in a photo with Joana (weird right?)

You get suggestive follows and likes but no real interactions that can be legitimate.

I believe that’s why TMZ has been acting so shady throughout all of this. I think they know something’s up.

I think everyone knows the big thing at play here is plausible deniability. It always has been.

Wearing wedding rings - ok but anyone can wear a ring TBH? It doesn’t really say too much.

Lastly - in my line of work marketing and PR work the same in some ways but also different. My company puts out press releases (which I help write) when we announce things like winning industry awards, acquisitions, partnerships, rebranding. But we don’t do a ton of really innovative stuff and PR is pretty low maintenance here. So while the methods and processes are the same, I imagine PR in HW is much different, more complex, and more creative (lol). I don’t have any answers for why they do what they do, but I can tell you the vague wording they’ve repeatedly use definitely means something. I don’t think it’s just coincidental.

What I’m trying to get here is that marketing and PR in any industry is going to involve a bit of “fudging the truth and stretching the line to make things seem a certain way to fit a certain narrative. It’s absolutely manipulative when you put it that way but it’s also business. It’s not personal. It’s why I don’t let it get to me and I just let it be. Don’t lose sleep over it. All things will unfold as they should.

Have a great night!

Hey, Marketing An🫶n!

Good to see you again! ☺️ And as I expected, you're insightful. And gave well-articulated thoughts. So, thank you 😌

Have a good night! ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

[pancakejikook]

So, I used to pretty active here, some of you might remember me. I'm not an army anymore but I still have a soft spot for jikook so I occasionally check on what they've been up to, but I don't delve deep at all and miss a lot of stuff. In the past few days however I was overcome by a sudden jikook-missing wave and started going through some of my tags from when my blog was active which made me miss them even more (and also made me realize that the overwhelming majority of the blogs I used to reblog from have since deactivated or just stopped posting/turned their blogs into something else, which was a bit sad). So I went to the jikook tag and started browsing a bit to see what was going on in the shipdom. I was a bit surprised to see how little activity there is in the tag compared to a few years ago, and there seems to be quite a mess going on: extremely polarized views compared to before, dubious amounts of delulu theories, and especially a lot of jikookers dropping the ship for one reason or another, although most or the reasons given make little sense to me (yes, I did see THAT post and all I'm gonna say is.. yikes). And like, you do you. We don't have to agree on everything. You know more than I do anyway lol, since I don't follow jikook closely. But there was one specific thing that kinda baffled me. The JM tattoo discourse. I'm late to the party, I know. I'm sure a lot was said at the time, but I wasn't around back then checking the tag. I was vaguely aware that jk talked about his tattoos in a live, and claimed the ARMY tattoo on his hand referred to armys (duh) and the J referred to Jungkook (makes sense). I literally didn't think anything of it at all at the time, I just thought it was nice of him to explain the meaning of his tats. But while scrolling through the jikook tag these past few days I realized that quite a lot of people considered that to be some sort of "debunking" that the JM stands for Jimin, sometimes to the point of dropping the ship because of it, or considering it the ultimate proof that jikookers have lost it if they still believe it stands for jimin and are now moving like teakookers or whatever. And I'm just, confused. I was like where is the debunking. Now. I'm not one for delulu theories. I think they can be fun sometimes, and I used to reblog some of them from time to time but for the most part I just thought they were cringe and always preferred to focus on jikook's actual actions and words (I never really actually cared if they were "real" or not, I just love their relationship and have enough reasons to believe they have feelings for each other and are attracted to each other, but how they deal with these feelings and attraction isn't really any of my business). However, the JM thing. I wasn't even aware it was considered a theory. For me it's just.. there. His ring finger literally spells out JM. Not a theory, it's a fact. Jk knows that JM is frequently used to refer to jimin, we literally have abundant proof of it. Jimin knows it. Armys know it. So unless you think Jungkook is a complete idiot who has somewhat never realized how that's gonna be perceived (which is possible I guess, but very unlikely), it was obviously deliberate. However, I never, ever, ever for a second thought that Jungkook would ever "confirm" it verbally one day. I see it as a statement on its own, that doesn't require an explanation and will never get one because it doesn't need one. It's just there, it speaks for itself, you can just choose whether you wanna see it or ignore it. So I was just puzzled to see people think there was any "debunking" going on. He didn't lie. Of course the M is part of ARMY. Of course the J is for Jungkook. But the JM is still for Jimin. He's not gonna say it because there is no need for him to. In a way, it's comparable to gcft. It's all there for everyone to see, and he knows it, but he's never gonna spell it out. He's never gonna say this is my love declaration for Jimin in video format. He doesn't need to, you'll see it on your own if you're open to it.

I really mean no offense but I feel that sometimes some people go so hard with the whole "I am SKEPTICAL because I'm smart and not a delulu shipper like you and I don't wanna be associated with you clowns" that it ends up circling back to being delusional except in the opposite direction. Apparently some of you genuinely think he just happened to put the J above the M, on his ring finger, and it just HAPPENS to read JM vertically. He also concidentally happens to never cover up the J with rings, and regularly gets the JM touched up but not the other letters (and I DID think jikookers were being delusional about this at first, but it kept happening and became undeniable so what was the point of denying it, I thought). All a coincidence. It doesn't mean anything, because Jungkook pointed out the obviousness of ARMY meaning his fandom and J meaning Jungkook. Did I miss something huge here?

[frizzlelamb]

No offence, but I don't think that it is possible to have "a grasp" on a situation judging by the opinions of a couple of loud individuals that don't even know them personally when dirthavhen themselves have spoken about it publicly like once. I don't remember them saying anything on their blog before they left but the way community was so eager to drop them because of claims of third party is quite sad tbh bc it seemed like they were just minding their own business and posting for themselves

What I mean by my "[general] grasp" of the situation is that my understanding is limited to public posts from different sides that appeared on my feed. English isn't my first language, so I'm not sure if that was the best way to put it, but basically my knowledge is surface-level—kind of like watching a crowd gather around a school fight without seeing what's actually happening. lol

From what I remember, Dirthavhen had multiple blogs before they were deactivated (we were mutuals on some) and in those they posted a lot of DA fandom critiques, including on S0lrook. I can see how some of their takes might have stirred up a hornet's nest since they had pretty strong opinions that could come off as condescending at times. Otherwise I think their content was mostly metas, headcanons, and analyses, and I even agreed with a few. That said, from what the other party posted, it sounds like a lot happened behind closed doors, so it really is a he-said-she-said situation. I was asleep when their last blog was deactivated and the callout posts started rolling in so I don't have much to add on that part either.

Anyway, this is just my understanding based on what's been publicly posted and there's probably more to the story that we don't know. But in all honesty I'm not the best person to talk about the situation, and I'm really not looking to get involved in fandom drama—just here to enjoy S0lrook content! 🥹

[minhosimthings]

i hope riddhi fucks off tumblr please. and yes, i strongly believe that's her and not some random adult

like, think about it, if she wasn't riddhi, there would be no need to do all that she did and an adult would simply say, "oh, no, i'm not riddhi, my english is just like that because (whatever fucking reason because it's ok to not have good english)"

instead she goes and acts like a child, which she very obviously is, and says unwarranted shit. there was no fucking reason to try and shame mona for talking about her nightmares because this is her fucking blog, and riddhi doing it is even more fucked up because as her once moot, she shouldn't have crossed that line. but then again, what do we expect from a fucking 12 year old who's not even fully 12 yet

also anyone with two fucking eyes would know mona's writing is legendary and if you don't think so, it's ok but you can at least agree that she's better than a 12 year old who's still learning english. if she said "riddhi's writing is better than yours" then i'm believing that it's riddhi herself

like i said in the post i reblogged, as someone who had no problems lying about her age and run a whole ass nsfw blog, i didn't think her deactivating deluluriddhi was the last we were gonna see of her

at first i wanted to be considerate of her age despite all that she did and hoped she wouldn't get any hate, but now i don't know anymore

NO CAUSE THAT'S WHY I WAS SAYING LIKE if you really were an adult why would you ever say "I hate being misunderstood"? No one is trying to misunderstand you seriously, we just made a collective decision because you eerily reminded us of someone we once knew where the fuck did misunderstanding come from?

Omg writing lengendary stop Selene I will smooch you and never let you go I have no problem with her saying anything against my writing, but to shame my nightmares? Something she did before the entire revealing her actual age fiasco came over? *Sighs* it's like she's trying to expose herself.

The one thing that pisses me off, is the fact that we were ok with welcoming Riddhi back if she agreed to only interact with sfw. But lo and behold remember what she said? "That won't work for me" I mean Kid seriously you brought the downfall upon yourself

[pizzahutchan124]

I gotta work on finding my voice

All too often I fear posting anything original on here out of fear of being mediocre. But being mediocre is the only way to learn how to be extraordinary. Its a catch 22. You fling shit at a wall until one of it sticks. Really, the worst thing to happen on this site is that its out in the happy little gapping hell of an abyss that is tumblr, with little to no traction made in terms of engagement.

Is engagement on here truly the worse thing possible? Maybe. It probably depends on what circle you're in or what sort of brand you want to show to the world. I remember the last time I got into a discourse with a user on here. We fought over how valid Jaspers character (from Steven Universe) was and then he blocked me after spouting ad hominems. YEA, that lil exchange was over 7/8 years ago, yet I faintly remember the bitter bile I felt afterward. It could've been worse. Im not sure how, nor do I really feel like extrapolating those possible scenarios. There are also blogs who blow up over night, then deactivate due to being overwhelmed with the nature of being popular. The only proof that they exist remains in the posts that circulate around this site.

I don't go looking for fights whenever I log on here. My time here is meant to explore spaces and interests that I otherwise wouldn't have the means or resources to. And its interesting see the different takes people have on here. But I need to be aware of not crossing certain territories online. As nice as it can be broadening your horizons, the online world will always emulate the real world, and the real world often harbors terrifying, odious entities who thinks very little of the humanity inside you. Some are passive, others are upfront in their rancidity. Most of all of them are selfish to their core.

With that being said, I want to leave the world better then it was when I came in. Preferably that would be through transformative works or creating some sort of content, but that requires actual forethought and planning. Its hard to mesh creative pursuits with the all too real necessities of eating and paying bills, but its one that I'm trying to navigate. So far I think I'm doing a better job then most. My support system is still strong and I'm lucky enough to be in a position where I can be anything that I choose. Freelancing's been tough, but the work I've been getting has been top notch. The world is a scary place right now, but I'm confident that I'm smart enough to rise up to the challenge and blaze through it with flying colors.

Whenever I want to make a post here, I want it to be an original take and not something I parroted from another user, while keeping a tone that says "I'm in control and I'm knowledgeable about this thing right here." Yet, I end up sitting on my laurels only for the moment to pass. I don't sit with myself like I use to. I mean, I do, but not like before. Its different. Its for me, instead of the world. I don't event know what I want to show to the world in terms of Original Content. If I wanted to reflect back to the world what it truly was, I'd be a terrifying, wonderful creature with many beautiful eyes and gnarled teeth. Sadly I am only human. I'm going to have to make do with petting my Blorbos and my precious furbaby until my next paycheck comes in.

[torushawty]

thank u emmie for posting this, hi so ! first v sorry for the never ending annoying discourse, i’m like not on here anymore but this is needed to add my side of the story especially since i play a part, i had to take my blog of seven months @/kazushawty down for some petty accusations i didn’t start. as well as since i’ve dealt w the same sub post issue/bullying not that long ago this month + similar drama kind of by this creator.

i was mentioned here by another fellow writer (won’t mention to protect their peace) so, i’m gonna speak up because i know i previously said, i have a life and i don’t care about this high school type drama, but what i’m not gonna do is stay quiet and keep my mouth closed while i was being mocked and talked about from the side lines for no reason when i didn’t even do anything

that being said, i have every right to defend myself and i’d like to also speak for any other fellow deactivated writers who lost their hobby or passion of writing just to this unnecessary childish discourse

also this isn’t a post to by any means be hateful i’m just simply sharing my experience

i remember around sometime the beginning of this october right before the discourse started i got two anons on the same day that involved this writer, and me being confused, i answered it because i figured people were being genuine. one was like “is this saetoru’s second account? /gen” and then another was like “i hope this doesn’t come off as weird but you remind me so much of saetoru you guys have the same humor” and i guess they figured i sent those to myself? because it was mentioned (i obviously didn’t, it’s even weird i got not one but two anons that revolved that blog on the same day hm) i honestly didn’t think much of it really, so i answered both and went along with my day.

but then come to find out a day or two the drama started, someone shows me this screenshot from said writer’s main and it revolves around this ask which was revealed of being my @

while i appreciate it a lot, i can see how it would have caused things between writers— however for the anon, there’s no need to pin writers against each other and consider one’s skill better than the other, but i feel like this entire situation was a simple misunderstanding (?) i think it was unintentional but reacted in the wrong way, also i got randomly accused of sending this ask, which again i did not. i’ll say this right now, if you have something you wanna talk about just dm. the only “proof” it was apparently me doing everything was all because of the backwards apostrophe and i do that in my writing sometimes only because (1) …. not everyone has an american keyboard, and also, (2) it could be anyone sending that anon. literally. anyone. so blaming it on one person without solid proof anyway is nuts

my thing is, i was literally never contacted in private to deal with this, only to find out i get blocked not even hours later and talked about after i find out this even happened. i completely understand blocking someone, i am not mad in the slightest about being blocked, you’re utilizing the button, that’s in your right. but to hard block and proceed to bash them behind closed doors is entirely childish in every shape or form.

some might say “no one asked you to deactivate” i left on my own choice and accord, mainly being this discourse shit is not worth it. reason why i’m not on here at all after everything happened. all this for some anime porn about pixels. this is tumblr dot com, this app doesn’t pay my bills or any of my necessities and i know when to not take things serious and this entire thing has been so so so so drawn out. literally i write for fictional characters for fun then out of nowhere i get accused of things with no proof only to then get talked about as if i won’t see it, as if i won’t respond. don’t get me wrong, i hate any types of drama, i don’t care for it but if my name is getting dragged out i’m gonna say something because i have every right to defend myself. if you’re gonna talk about me, at least message me so we can have an adult conversation? 😭 all this ‘hard block and sub post all types of bullshit about this person’ is really.. this is so unneeded. no confrontation happened at all and it’s just so

strange how all this evidence is now all deleted, but i wanna talk about this too, because firstly i didn’t befriend anyone. if anyone knows me, i don’t ask people to be mutuals anymore due to my own comfort reasons. and about my anons on my main being off days before, i never said i got those anons sent from her, i’ve been getting hate silently way before this discourse even happened, i only then decided to speak about it on oct. 9 on my call out post + plus this thing coming out of nowhere on top of the constant racism and hate was just really again, not needed in the slightest.

and again, idk why i kept getting accused of sending anons to this blog when NO PROOF IS BEING SHOWN. how are you gonna accuse someone then not show evidence of what’s being spoken of, let alone confront the person directly. at that point you’re just going off your own word. it makes no sense. like i said, if i have an issue, i’m gonna be an adult and say what i need to say to your face instead of just blocking to only then continue to bring a person’s name up while they clearly can’t speak for themselves

instead of accusing someone, maybe i don’t know, get proof first. because at that point you’re just spreading erroneous false claims. i have no types of time to be living in anyone’s inbox, let alone anonymously. it’s the way this could have easily been prevented and cleared up if i was contacted about the matter, but i literally never was. i got hard blocked for an issue i only found out about many hours later, then i start getting mocked and blamed for doing all types of untrue things—

i’m not gonna immediately assume they’re talking about me in this post like they immediately assumed i was dogpiling them wtv anons but i recall this post that’s now deleted was perhaps sneak dissing me judging from the shawty in my url, also this was right after i deactivated. if i can remember in the asks that was answered about me, i thought you said you didn’t know i existed, so you miss my posts on the dash now? weird

if this ain’t about me, my bad. it is kinda odd.. this is deleted now but just something to think about

this is ridiculous, and really immature. if you have a problem with me you wanna talk about, just spare the energy and @ me or dm. bc all this lame sub posting shit towards people and not confronting them in private is so kiddy, we’re supposed to be adults and stuff like this is happening. what is this, high school? the constant mocking, bashing, and belittling other writers is just really . . i cant depict a word for it, but it’s really concerning.

this is supposed to be a fun place, not a toxic competitive place— this is an app, to write, create or do whatever. and why yes it is sad i was one of the many writers leaving due to this, at the end of the day it’s not the end of the world because i don’t take it serious like most do. tumblr is a hobby, and i won’t get worked up over it. i can always start over again

without tumblr, you’re literally.. just an average person behind a screen lol. no one is a celebrity on here regardless if you’re a big known blog or not. we all do the same thing at the end of the day, and that’s to write about fictional made up characters. i agree, i feel like people weaponize their high following count to do or say whatever they want and not get held accountable.

sadly after reading everyone else’s shared experiences, i’m sure even this won’t do anything. this will pass and then more writers are gonna get ran off. it’s truly not fun to spend time on a platform where such discourse is never ending, but it’s important to know your worth, there’s no shame in deactivating. there aren’t any hard feelings because again, i don’t take this entire thing serious, i wish all parties nothing but the best regardless. logging out and later deleting this acc like i said to move on but that’s all i had to say. it is quite sad to abandon your passion or hobby because of dumb drama, but what’s really important is to protect your peace.

saetoru is talking abt you on her private blog (@/clorindes) yuckkkkk

CW BULLYING, LITERALLY IMMATURE HIGH SCHOOL DRAMA, SUB POSTING.

hi nonnie, thank you for letting me know! since i’m leaving this blog & this platform for the foreseeable future i figured i might aswell get a few things off of my chest before i go. i apologise in advance for the vibes this post will probably bring, the discourse & the posts that will ofcourse follow, but i honestly i am not the first person to be targeted by this creator and i’m sure i won’t be the last considering the amount of creators that have been bullied off of this app by them.

first off i’ve had multiple blogs that would be considered bigger blogs such as @/hvnlydmn, @/atsymu + now this blog which is the biggest of all 3. i think there’s a sort of unspoken responsibility that comes with being a bigger blog which i know is no fun but it’s also because it can be super harmful on a site like this, when people weaponise their following.

on that note i’ll start this post by saying that i’ve known tee for probably around 3/4 years, maybe? we were mutuals on hvnlydmn & atsymu and we continued to talk on discord even when i was off of tumblr. i will honestly admit to this day i have never had a negative interaction with tee to my face and she was genuinely supportive of me during any discourse i was involved in. i am not some angel, i’ve had my fair share of crap on this app (of my own doing) but this post is not meant to come across like “oh she doesn’t like me so i’m calling her out” no. im sorry if this doesn’t line up with my brand and my ‘victim complex’ but i’m not gonna lie down and let someone on a power trip on a hobby app drag me through the mud.

first off i had began to get some off vibes from tee when i had started writing on garoujo, notably when i’d just hit my first milestone which was probably around 1k. during this i had decided to move my instagram theme from my main blog to my writing blog.

i’d noticed tee subposting (on main and on her personal blog which i followed at the time) about someone basically using the same theme as her, which after then clicking onto her blog i realised was an instagram theme. i didn’t think much of it, again me & tee were friends and she hadn’t came to me directly so ignored it. i was still a new blog and trying to solidly an aesthetic (before the beige lol) so i changed my theme / masterlists / layouts a lot.

a few more sub posts later i decided to message tee about it because with every thing i’d change / post on my blog, there always seemed to be another post. so i messaged her and got this response in: (i’ve blurred out my irl name btw) open up pics for convo!

so i let it slide, kept posting & that was that. probably a few days / a week later, tee had soft blocked me which then eventually led to me being hard blocked. i was upset ofcourse because i genuinely considered tee a good friend but i’ve always been a big advocate in controlling your space.

this was when, one of our mutuals in common (the first of many may i add) approached me on discord to say that just like now, i was being ripped to shreds on tee’s personal blog:

again i was notably upset about this because i was being accused of not only copying her theme but also her writing & masterlists, we did have a lot of mutuals in common so it was also upsetting knowing they would all be seeing these posts aswell. i allowed myself one sub post about “creating a narrative” because i was particularly frustrated but tee then also subposted about this, even though she had me blocked?

i would also like to say regarding our mutuals in common that this was not the first or last mutual to approach me regarding tee. i’ve had multiple people tell me that “they’re only mutuals with her because it would be more damaging not to be” “it’s easier to be on her side”. also i am not saying this is okay but i’ve had multiple of her current mutuals send me not only her posts, but screenshots of her private, personal instagram & also tell me about how all of them and their friends had a running joke / theory that tee made up her boyfriend (ex-boyfriend?) for attention.

regarding the accusations from tee i’d like to first comment on the instagram themes, again i had done an instagram theme on my main blog but it seemed to only be an issue when it was on my writing blog that was gaining traction. if the timing was off and it seemed like i copied her, i genuinely have nothing to say except it’s not the case— it’s instagram (which tee already admits she doesn’t own above) also the hanma writing? i’m still not 100% sure which drabbles she was referring to but i can only assume that 1. is when i posted a drabble about hanma fucking you outside of his subordinates house — this was a almost completely word by word rewrite of a suna drabble i done on my old blog @/atsymu i literally just changed the concept to fit tokyo revengers themes. i can post screenshots of this suna drabble also from my google docs dated February when i deactivated. the other one may have been some basic concept about him fucking you against the window.

she also mentions in the very first recent screenshot at the beginning of this post that i have apparently stolen concepts of fics / posts from her mutuals. what i want to say regarding this is, do you believe that i would have made it this far on stolen work? i don’t know any of the mutuals she’s referring to apart from 1 which i’ll get into. but every single accusation i’ve ever received has always come from someone associated or in contact with tee, she has always been at the root of it all but i have yet to receive a single anon or ask about me copying or taking inspiration from anyone’s work.

i know there was apparently a blog and an ex mutual of mine, who i had a lot of respect & time for who was under the impression i’d stolen their concept for this gojo fic. the whole premise of this fic is honestly not uncommon considering how many times people losing control of their techniques / powers / quirks during orgasm has been done in fanfiction. this concept was completely my own, i had originally posted shitposts about him losing control of his technique & also him putting you into a mating press / breeding before i’d decided to smoosh them together into a fic. we all read from the same workbook, we all have the same material to work off of — two people in a fanbase of THOUSANDS having a similar idea is not unheard of.

now onto the masterlist banners. the screenshot on the far left are the comparison photos that tee made herself— i’m sure you’ll be able to see them in better quality when she makes her own post about it; because obviously that’s going to come. first off i will say, i will admit i took inspiration from her official art masterlist banners — i thought hers looked good and i needed a masterlist so i used official art. fair game there although i only kept them for a few days before i changed again.

but onto the grey masterlist banners, i can honestly say i did not even know tee had this masterlist, also the only comparison i myself see is the colour. the only reason i chose grey was because i had started to use a grey / white overlay on my manga panels for my layout (as you can see far right), and as you know— i’ve always kept my colour scheme pretty consistent. on that note, regarding the actual layout of the masterlists— i’ve added screenshots from atsymu (that i could find due to it being deactivated) that shows the layout of my old masterlists, which was what i took inspiration from for my current. although the title font for each heading like headcanons is different, i had used the sort of old style, basic font that everyone uses before i had deactivated so it would match my fic headers i just don’t have photos obviously.

anyway on the back of this there was then discourse over me apparently copying tee’s kinktober masterlist, which again was not the case. but again due to tee’s following i had received multiple death threats into my asks the morning after i posted mine. as far as i was aware, the only similarities were the fact we both used gifs in our headers & the layout listing thirsts, hcs & fics (which is very common during kinktober but i admitted below i could see that similarity). unfortunately during all of this discourse was when ffflowers, my hate blog also came into the mix which then lead to tee reaching out to me in dm’s from her old blog.

the interaction between me & tee was pretty good, again she was nothing but nice to me directly despite the way she obviously spoke about me in private above. but as you can see below, tee herself told me that basically most of the similarities all made above were brushed off as basic. we spoke about the ig themes & i apologised, saying i could understand where she was coming from and that was that. i unblocked her & she unblocked me so i could reblog her post, it’s been that way since.

it is not my place to comment on other people’s experiences on this app but i would need more than 2 hands to list the amount of people that i’m sure have had similar if not worse experiences with tee. i know i have had multiple mutuals who have been bullied off of this platform & had their safe space ripped from them for little things such as: liking a character that this group selfship with, tee and her friends not liking their characterisation. they’ve even went as far as to go through other larger creators notes to check for minors so they can make excuses as to why they’re thriving.

i also know of a blog who was ‘blacklisted’ from tee & her mutuals as they self shipped with arataki itto at the time, one of tee’s friends also did, so they blacklisted this creator and had all of their mutuals block them for this which then in turn drove this creator off the app. there has been other notably bitchy things that i’ve heard but i have no receipts for therefore i don’t see any relevance in starting rumours.

i would also like to say i know plagiarism is a horrible thing, we have all been through it— myself included but it’s got to the point where being accused of copying tee has become a canon event. notably, bigger platforms have been ruined and driven off of this app for little things such as mdni dividers, similar colours schemes etc. and it’s the reason i’m also leaving.

i will say i have met some amazing people through my discourse with tee, notably people who have been in similar situations and i also apologise to any mutuals who we still have in common who are now sort of stuck inbetween. no hard feelings. although to tee: id be careful of the people you trust because it seems the loyalties they have to you are not as sincere as you may believe. you can also go to her personal & read the other things she was saying about me like how she was always so ? at how many people seemed to like me.

so that’s all i have to say, i’m sure dash will get a few responses from this but i’ll be logging out & turning off asks because honestly? couldnt care less. the only thing i’d change about my experience on this app would be i wish i’d blocked tee sooner.

i’d say have a nice day, but instead, have the day you deserve.

— emmie :)

[dathen]

I cannot emphasize enough how much exclusionism harms LGBT ace and aro people.  There is no such thing as “well those aces are allowed, I’m just worried about straight infiltration” because they’re not actually doing shit to include even the aces that they give their free pass to!

I am asexual, aromantic, and agender.  While a lot of people would say that being nonbinary/agender doesn’t count as trans, but for the sake of theory let’s say it does.  By supposed exclusionist theory, one of these identities allows me to be included in queer spaces--my gender identity.  By their logic this should mean I have nothing to worry about, right?

Except I can’t check my asexual and aromantic identities at the door.  I may have three separate words to define myself, but in reality they’re so intertwined I can barely tell where one ends and where another begins.  I was best able to explore being agender when around other aromantic and asexual people, who had similar experiences as me.  I can’t put into words how beneficial this was in a very dark time in my life.

LGBT aces are not accepted by exclusionists in any real sense of the word.  We constantly see your mockery and your ace cringe compilation posts, we constantly see the “I hope ace people have a bad day--gays and lesbians only!” shitposts.  We’re told that half of our identity is embarrassing and childish and humiliating, don’t talk about it, pretend it away, only hype the attraction we do have (if any).  If you’re a trans aroace person like myself, you’re completely out of luck--it’s difficult enough for the community to remember that trans people exist and don’t also need to justify their place in the community with LGB attraction.  Hell, I remember seeing some using the term “queer trans people” to separate them out from straight and aroace trans people, to make sure the rest of us know we’re not welcome.

It erases the extremely important space to talk about the intersection of being ace and LGBT.  People shouldn’t have to talk about their sexuality while bottling up how being ace or aro affects it.  People shouldn’t be made to think that being ace or aro makes them a diluted form of queerness.  I shouldn’t have to untangle the jumble that is my identity, peel away and discard the threads of asexuality and aromanticism and how those have affected my life, and somehow try to talk about and relate to my gender as a stand-alone thing.  

This is NOT “acceptance.”  This is NOT “oh we’re just trying to keep straight people out.”  

When I first started considering I may not be straight, the first resources I found were LGBT blogs that said that asexuality was just people with so much internalized homophobia that they couldn’t accept their own attraction.  I tried forcing myself to have attraction, training myself to warm up to the idea of having sex, and just traumatized myself further.  I still don’t think I’ve recovered from this almost ten years later, and I think the extent of my sex repulsion came from these self-corrective behaviors.  While I’ve seen people who formerly identified as asexual later decide a different identity fits them better, stating this is fact for everyone who doesn’t experience attraction is unspeakably harmful.

I’ve been in this game for a long time, well before the backlash that caused aspec resources to vanish, back before “discourse” was even a commonly used word.  I used to try to play along with what everyone told me to do to be a Good Little Ace.  Avoided calling myself “queer” because only people with attraction can call themselves that, right?  So if I made a post about the struggles I had with self-worth and suicide ideation as an asexual person, in hopes to reaching other asexual people with similar struggles as me, I was still staying within the lines!  No mention of being part of any community or calling myself “queer” or “LGBT” or anything!  It didn’t prevent me from getting so much harassment I had to deactivate my blog, half of involved accusations of “you’re just pretending to be oppressed so you can infiltrate the LGBT community!” even though I hadn’t said a word about it in my posts!

I am so discouraged by young people who are already so deep in exclusionist rhetoric, and who would rather swallow up and parrot unquestioned hatred rather than think about the harm they’re doing.  If your attitude is “I’m not an aphobe, I’m just an exclusionist,” please stop and think of the actual effects of your beliefs.  Listen to the people this affects, listen to how this has affected our entire lives.  This isn’t an announcement that we’re more oppressed than you, this is a call to recognize we’re with you and that giving us space and companionship and support can be literally life-saving.  I am begging for people to listen to each other’s experiences, see and hear us as people, rather than just a jumble of letters to unfeelingly sort.