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multishipper-baby · 2 years ago

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After that last post about Golden's family I've been obsessing over them and writing a whole backstory in my head for them send help

#fnafhs #ideas so far: golden's paternal grandpa is the one with all the money and fame and he's very controlling about all that #he only had a child so he'd have a successor when he died and he doesn't care about his kids (or grandkids for that matter)#he had a son (golden's dad) and a daughter (joy's mom) and he filled them both with toxic ideas of family and fame and all that shit #(we might talk more about joy's side of the family later but we'll focus on golden for now)#anyway. golden's parents had an arranged marriage that actually worked out pretty good for them #dad wanted an heir but didn't want to raise children #mom wanted children but needed someone to take care of her own business so she could focus on raising a family #they didn't love each other but they did work really well together and both families became richer with their marriage #anyway golden is born so now we have an heir but dad thinks they probably should get a second one #you know. in case the first one spontaneously dies or just grows up to be a loser that can't run the company #they decide that it would be an amazing idea to have the second baby close to the first so they can grow up together #spoilers: it wasn't an amazing idea. there's complications- baby is born weak and mom ends up real sick #(the baby is gold because I like the idea of golden having an evil lil brother. leave me alone)#anyway mom has her ups and downs over the years but eventually dies of cardiovascular disease #dad doesn't want to take care of two children so he pawns them off to grandpa #who forces golden into the music industry to grow his business even more #so yeah those are my thoughts for now #future au

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nothingweirdhere · 2 years ago

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podcasts are the root of all evil

#i started tma like two days ago and i’m on episode 34 #it may actually kill me #i love it but i hate listening to podcasts #i Need something visual to focus on or i will go Insane #(this is also why i’ve never even considered attempting listening to audiobooks)#(there’s no chance in hell that’d work)#and i can’t just read the transcript while i listen because i read faster than people speak #so i sit there and suffer #sometimes i try to play a game but usually it just distracts me and i have to rewind the podcast every 30 seconds because i missed something #so 😫😭😠#jx.txt #adhd tag #actually adhd

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thisaliennerd · 3 years ago

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the absolute irony of me self-medicating (just with caffeine!!!) so I can finish writing my research paper about adhd and addiction at 3:45am two days (and a bit) after the due date

#ive been doing really well about not doing this too #ive been drinking minimal caffeine #and then two nights in a row i had to consume copious amounts to focus for more than 30 seconds #but whatever #its over now #dont rb #adhd things ✌️#rants #ramblings #i cant tell if im shivering bc its freezing in my room or if it's the caffeine and sleep deprivation #but my heart was doing weird things earlier lol #im fine #i just need to sleep now #i just wanted to put this into the void #goodnight

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exrayspex · 3 years ago

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huh, so over the last like year and a half i've finally managed to start flossing my teeth regularly for the first time in my life, and it hurt at first but eventually as i got it worked into my routine for long enough it stopped

but recently for some reason it's started hurting again? my gums ache pretty bad every time now. i haven't stopped being consistent with it though.

anyway it's weird and i'm wondering if it's an autonomic issue, since those tend to be weird and i already have so many

#i Will forget to ask my neuro about it though and my next appt is like 4 months away #i should go to the dentist for a cleaning and bring it up by urgh #i don't have dental ins so i have to go to the little sliding scale dental clinic #and you have to answer a million questions beforehand every time and they're all like #so are you STILL unemployed? are you not seeking employment? what's wrong with you? why are you STILL a deadbeat?#not those past two questions literally but it always feels like it it's so humiliating :/#the actual appointment is always fine! but the fucking paperwork/scale tier determining shit is awful #also tbh i'm not going to the dentist until hutchie has gotten his teeth cleaned #he needs it way more my boy's got mouth Problems and his tartar has gotten bad #ANYWAY. why this happen.#i also really need to put my focus towards working a second teeth brushing into my day #i'm still only doing it once. which is way better than it was!! and my mouth is p naturally healthy i lucked out there genetically #so i haven't had any issues bc of it so far. but i should still get to 2x.#it's just hard bc my wakeup times can vary so wildly since who knows when i'm gonna get locked into a Big Sleep

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hale-of-stiles-heart · 3 years ago

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wrote out a list of things I wanna get done over the next few days and just looking at it is so daunting, no wonder I've been putting it all off for so long

#it's mostly getting rid of cat stuff i don't need anymore like the second litter box and stuff and finally putting the mini fridge upstairs #idk maybe i should just focus on those instead of trying to do everything within two days #gonna try to focus on the big 3 #dishes cat stuff mini fridge #ignore me

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illfoandillfie · 3 years ago

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Earlier this week you might have seen me reblog this post about the “Aggressively Arospec Week” event which promotes the creation of aromantic spectrum fan content. In the tags I mentioned considering doing some sort of blurb event themed around my Platonically fic verse. I’ve ummed and aahed about actually going through with that idea since I wasn’t sure how many people would be interested in reading more in that series but the more I think about it the more I want to do it and also this is my blog and I’m going to do what I want on it so fuck it. I’m doing it.

I’d love to be able to post something every day of the week but I’m going to need help coming up with enough concepts for that. So, if you have any ideas for blurbs or short one shots related to Platonically and it’s sequel I would love to hear them! I’ll be collecting ideas right up until AAW starts on June 20 so start sending things in now and I’ll start working on writing them!

#this is because i just finished reading Loveless #and now i very much have the itch to write my own aro stuff #I'm still mostly going to focus on the next part of ADKoE #but i'm hopeful i'll have it posted before aaw starts anyway #the first half is pretty much done though i need to edit it down a little #and i dont think the second half will take as long to write #its dialogue heavy but technically there are only two main things that happen in it so fingers crossed it'll be easier #ANYWAY #send me ben x aro!reader themed prompts #please and thank you #i do already have a couple of ideas but not as many as i'd like #platonically event

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born-to-lose · 4 years ago

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Shit I just realized I have to look like a human tomorrow for the class photo

#everyone needs to turn their camera on during online class and our teacher will take screenshots #i'm gonna look like a fucking raccoon ugh #so i'm trying out hairstyles that could possibly make me look less like i just crawled out of the gutter #i'm wearing two braids overnight hoping my hair is wavy tomorrow morning #and i look like frau antje #(shut up idk what her name is in english and if an english version even exists lmao)#anyways with those little bangs (which you guys luckily haven't seen) i now look like britney spears in the baby one more time mv #pray for me that i look presentable then bc that shit will be in our yearbook #y'know what? i'll do my makeup and put on some flashy outfit #what do you mean that can't possibly be my quarantine outfit? perfectly normal casual clothes pfff #watch me wearing red lipstick and smoky eyes #i guess it's time for a lil photoshoot for you guys #maybe i'll record some covers too then idk #probably won't be without vocals bc i'm really not a good singer even if teddy says my voice is nice #but that's bc he gets the exclusive stuff and you're left with instrumentals only #it's not that you're not worthy but you really ain't missing out and i want y'all to focus on my guitar and bass skills #should i try to play keyboards again? i can't find free sheet music for any carpenters songs and i'm big mad #i kinda really want to do a solitaire cover bc i love this song sm and it's actually in my vocal range #and i used to be able to play it years ago but i haven't played in like a year #if you don't count playing random melodies i came up with and recorded as 20 second demos #hey i could finally post my bass cover of i love rock n roll #also blaze of glory bc i actually liked the way it sounded last time i played it #wow i trailed off there sorry #mel talks

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shmaptainwrites · 4 years ago

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i planned four fics tonight with my multicoloured gel pens i would call that productive 😌

#mimi chats #there’s a sam one #and another zemo one #which i plot twisted myself on #and a john one #that’s a pretty cute concept imo #but it’s still sad #and two steve ones #one isn’t reader insert cause i wanted to focus on him #and his relationship and emotions attached to his mother #and the other one is tattooed!steve #and i got really into tattoo meanings #idk if you can tell but i want one badly #but i can’t wait to write all of these #now i just need to finish planning my jazzy steve fic #and i’m debating doing a second part to blame #and two doctors and a thousand incurable ills #we’ll see if inspiration strikes #wow i went off kudos if you read all this

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lovecanbesostrange · 4 years ago

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Avengers (vol. 1) #503 The Avengers Disassembled, Chaos part 4 writer: Brian Michael Bendis artist: David Finch

“Please forget we are talking about your friend. And listen to me tell you the story of an orphaned mutant with a sordid, violent past. With powers she did not earn nor can she control. Powers she never fully understood. Can you understand the delicate mindset of a woman, a person, who has control over reality? It means reality controls her. Imagination becomes the enemy. Structure disappears. Reality, eventually, as she knows it, starts to slip away. Elude her. Blur. Drama, conflict, tragedy. They become excuses to change the world to fit the image that she has for it. Anything she doesn't like, she can change. No matter how slight. People. Places. Things. Everything is hers to change. But every time she does that, every time she gives in to her desires, no matter how noble they may be -.a little more of her slips away. She loses herself. Her reason. But she struggles quietly every day to keep it in check - to keep it all together. For a person of strong mind and body, for a person of pure spirit, the task of coping with these powers would be all-consuming. But here's a woman for whom, by the nature of her upbringing and chosen occupation, every day is stressful, chaotic. And after a life lived with lost love, violence, and drama, what does she do? She says to herself: "I deserve happiness. I want to bring something into this world that is good. That I can love." And she gives birth to children.,, even though she can't. She played mommy to make herself feel like someone she thinks is normal. And that ends tragically as well? If I told you a story like this, you'd say to yourself this sounds like a person who has lost control of themselves on a deep psychological level. You'd say this sounds like a disturbed person. Now does anything I have described not sound like Wanda Maximoff?”

- Doctor Strange