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some-pers0n · 1 month ago

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Adderall isn't enough I need a 700lbs grand piano precariously dangling 30ft above my head in order to get me to write

#sp-rambles #Biting into the walls and eating the wires #I just need to FOCUS for two seconds #Someone rip these earbuds outta me I've done nothing but play games and listen to Malevolent #Great podcast btw god I keep thinking about episode 18 and 26 #Everything after like 29 is new territory to me though I'm looking forward to it

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dykedvonte · 29 days ago

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I hate the stretch lines in the front of Curly's uniform because that means the devs rushed to make a model in like a month or so and thought "They gotta at least know he has huge knockers, gotta know he's got back pain." Cause like what is the thematic importance of his tits having overhang?

What responsibility is that representing? Breast reduction? It shows an inherent greed in his character due to the excess and heshouldletmeholdone and that he clearly is blinded cause if he tries to look down his damn ladder all he's seeing is his own cleavage.

#this is my curly slander post ig #disclaimer i need you to understand i see all fictional men i like as like butches Curly is no exception #but like they didnt need to add that many polygons to his chest like its unnessary and honestly a little mean he already has so many things #to handle and you expect him to hold those boys up like that just aint right this is like something so stupid but i know you can tell im #having strong feelings about it cause like what was the point why did they survive the fucking crash it has to be a injoke at this point #with the devs it shouldnt make me this mad im turning into a misandrist but only towards large chested men #mouthwashing #curly mouthwashing #shitpost #suggestive #ig because this is just about his chest but like also they made him objectively pretty for no reason like yeah like ideal man and work ig #but they went over the extra mile like i have a right to be mad they did that much for a model we see canonically for like two seconds its #crazy actually how little we see of curly pre crash because we also lose his physical movements to help characterize him the way we see #body language with the other characters and how it gives way to their struggles and personalities and sentiments in certain moments #like all he does and how he emotes is stifled by the fact we always play as him until the last moments where he takes over to try and save #the ship and crew and even right before that the scene is so wrought with tension we cant tell what that look he gave Jimmy meant due to #the limitations of the models and how stiff Curly is like was it fear acceptance denial we dont know enought about how he acts himself #to tell and then everything else is charaterized by what Jimmy had done to where we dont really just get to see Curly as himself like Anya #and Swansea and Daisuke we have no idea how theyd act in a regular moment outside of a few glimpses and even then it is them doing #their jobs like grrrr we hate an unreliable narrator but also its the fact jimmy clearly does not interact with them or try to outside of #his position as copilot and then captain harkening back to the entire capitlist view of utility and how he views all of them as useless eve #Curly which fandom tangent the fandom also tends to do to Curly as they base every trait on what they think he failed to do as Captain #between Jimmy and Anya when the QnAs kinda make him out to be a rather open and willing person but still someone who isnt like a push over #just thinking of QnA three where it mentions hes very open to trying new things and you need to be an open minded person to open urself up #to failure like that and ig this is just the weird view that Curly needs to learn that or that theres redemption he needs personality wise #verses healing and learning from trauma like idk its the idea that people assume he did abosultely nothing when the games points out direct #and throught parallels he was taking actions its just wasnt enough and an over focus on absolute inaction vs ineffective methods used to #tackle the issues and themes the game grapples with plus wanting someone to take the blame and have to make it up to Anya even tho #i think it would mean nothing from Curly because she saw his efforts and would be disappointed it wasnt enough but the idea she would #disregard the attempts or not acknoweldge Jimmy as the epicenter compared ot Curly is weird and too focused on someone

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nyxypoo · 4 months ago

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when are we getting more of these two

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grapecaseschoices · 1 month ago

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i can't stand how often we are pushed to use the bow in da4. i never lied it in game play and in da4 often it is impossible to go around it.

i don't like the mechanics/bindings. you have backward and forward .... but not up and down??

the fact that we cant play as companions stink.

#grapecase complains #da4 spoilers #datv spoilers #grapecase plays da4 #barely #i just wanted to do the blight boil quest in the catacombs #why are those things in the ceiling?#it would have been easier if i could switch to my one of TWO mage companions!#the only ability of theirs i can use is slow #and it doesnt last long so lmao #most of my skills focus has been on daggers. do i now need to repurpose to get precision or something??#ugh #would that even matter if the ridiculous circle wont go where i try and focus my camera?#and the fact taht every time i click tab it moves the camera way to where i finally got it perfectly #this is going to be the second time i will have to abandon a quest because how things are set up for the game #when they were making mage better they made rogue worse #da4 gameplay

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skeblinn · 2 years ago

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i just think about them a lot, your honor.

#the second picture is ten years later!#i imagine its an extremely slow burn for these two considering theyre both introverts #well elise for a time--i figure as her confidence grows she gets a smiggen more extroverted hanging with amy #they just enjoy each others company a lot!#i'm tempted to think more about a future au but i need to focus on my main project first hehe #sonic #sonic the hedgehog #princess elise #sonelise #for anyone curious: yes that is chip's bracelet

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questioningdragons · 1 month ago

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Every therapist I've ever had: You need to be less hard on yourself! Learn to take pride in your accomplishments!

Me: What accomplishments?*

Them: Literally anything that was hard for you! Was it hard to get out of bed this morning? That's an accomplishment. Did you have a shower today? Did you brush your teeth before bed? Those are accomplishments!

Me: Sounds fake but okay.

#notes from the word page #anxious spirals #*I literally have two degrees #I have things to be proud of #but it's just so hard to not focus on how I could have done better #getting my first degree didn't feel like an accomplishment because I was barely scraping good enough grades to graduate #getting my second degree somewhat felt like an accomplishment #but more in that I put a lot of work into my practicums #the degree itself and the coursework didn't always feel like things I should be proud of #sometimes they did #but then I went into the job market sending out a ton of applications and getting no responses #one of the best pieces of positive feedback I got from my last principal was that I gave very good feedback to my students #but that didn't really feel like an accomplishment #because when I started he said the teacher I was replacing did well with the school's feedback model #so I just based what I was doing on what she had done #it did feel like acknowledgement of what had often felt like pointlessly hard work #and maybe I need to tease out the fact that acknowledgement and accomplishment have such different definitions in my mind #but anyways #to get back to the celebrating tiny wins thing #I just find it so hard to celebrate something that other people do easily!#(this may be where I have to come to terms that yes adhd is a disability and yes that means things are harder than they are for other peopl #oops)

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welcometogrouchland · 9 months ago

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Also in the replies of the Steph concept art on twitter announcing she was gonna be in a new project at DC (posted by Travis Mercer), there were at least 3 comments saying "will Tim be there?" I don't care how hard you ship timsteph I'm exploding you with my eyeballs if you do that on my girls post again

#ramblings of a lunatic #taking a step back to acknowledge that my stanning may be getting overzealous #but then again I'm not in ppls quotes or replies I'm vagueing on an entirely different website with no relevant tags. it could be worse #anyway I know tims had it rough these past couple of months ever since zdarsky shifted focus of the batman title to have less tim #but it still feels. idk. just a wee bit uninspired to act like steph can't go two steps without tim being behind her #im ngl i like timsteph when they're cute but timsteph twitter has been. pissing me off a tad lately #the refusal to acknowledge the sexism in dixons robin run and how it impacts stephs writing and their relationships writing #the refusal to acknowledge tims occasional condescension and hypocrisy when it comes to stephs vigilantism #seemingly only wanting her to be spoiler when he wants her around and telling her to give it up most of the time #also the constant disrespect of stephs batgirl era on there weirdly enough?#I've harped on about this on main and in drafts but despite it's flaws it's a good turn for stephs character #she's the focus she gets development (an upward trajectory! which had previously been unheard of for her! bc she did have flaws as spoiler-#-its just that both writers and characters alike seemed to arbitrarily decide she didn't have the capacity to grow past them! but she did!)#hell i saw a BIZARRE take today i just have to bitch about #which was them saying that Batgirl was a ''heteronormative mask'' steph put on #with spoiler being her more authentic self (and this being paralleled to gender expression with stephs isolation from the batfam as spoiler-#-showing how she ''wasnt like them'')#which. I'm not denying you the view that spoiler has a certain genderific swag to her but the needless dragging of her batgirl persona #steph got treated badly as spoiler bc she was A Girl. it's genuinely that simple dixon felt batman and robin would never stand for a girl-#-running around doing the things they did and would need to chivalrously stop her. he's gone on record saying this #she's constantly getting belittled by mostly men (cass also dismisses her but it feels distinctly less gendered)#and in the end it's barbara who learns to give steph a second chance despite her mistakes and they have a positive relationship #something ppl are quick to dismiss as being in and of itself sexist bc they're pairing the two girls off together #as if batgirl isn't a legacy and as if babs and steph don't have parallels in their resilience and refusal to accept when ppl tell them no #for better and for worse!!#like. idk how you took the strongest feminist element in that comic (bc there are elements of sexism here and there! 2009 n all)#and somehow turn it into ''heteronormativity'' YOU PPL ARE JUST SAYING WORDS AT THIS POINT!!!#anyway. someone take away my internet access

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bearsbeetsbeskar · 1 year ago

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lots of ppl are happy about the mando movie but I am over here like:

#it could mean many things yall #it could mean the show will no longer center around din and grogu and solely focus on bo katan #and that's what I'm afraid of/leaning towards given how they wrapped up season 3 of mando #s3 was such a shitshow hot garbage mess like im sorry to anyone who enjoyed it #but there was so many points where they fumbled the plot or significant star wars lore #or just made din an incompetent little bitch who needed rescuing every gd second when he used to be this badass cunning ruthless hunter #but the way they ended it makes me think that the movie is the end of the line for them despite favreau saying that s4 is written already #im not ready to say goodbye to these two #but pedro couldn't play din forever i suppose #especially not after how his success and demand skyrocketed after tlou #DEEP SIGH #i am just feeling so many feelings #and if anyone is feeling the same way or can speak to this then PLS COME RAID MY INBOX CAUSE I HAVE SO MANY THINGS TO SAY #the mandalorian #ugh im gonna go put on s1 of mando from the start and stay in my delusional bubble of s1 and s2 mando glory days

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quarklynx · 10 months ago

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What do you do when your Sanity Projects are also driving you insane, asking for a friend

#lynx thinks #just expressing a little frustration dont mind me #all of my fun luttle projects are aslo driving me nuts. though not quite as nuts as other projects atm #im drawing my dnd party. the entire party. all of them. npc's included. and ive designed fancy little outfits for each of them #so yeah anyway its an enormous project and im dying bc its ehat im trying to do for fun between commissions and stuff #and i have two other main side projects (oxymoron i know) that are also driving me insane #and then theres the sewing project that i started and have left in a state of semi-abandon on the living room floor #and the wig still clamped to my desk that needs crimping and styling #and the fic that needs its second chapter so i can post it #theres just too many wips orz #but i have to focus on commissions first bc i need the money #i weep

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crimsonkenjii-writes · 2 years ago

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So question do you plan to have another kid with Giyuu? If so a daughter or another son?

Idk… the thought of just one kid with Giyuu is enough for me. I have thought about maybe another son cuz I think it’d be cute. See my lil babies be cute brothers together. And I definitely think Giyuu wouldn’t be opposed to the idea as well. He wants how ever many kids I’m willing to have lol. He’d be happy to have another kid and watch his family grow ♡

#i just personally see Giyuu as more of a boy dad than a girl dad #so two little boys with him would be cute #they’d be five years apart though #so that my first born gets all the attention and care he needs #before we have to focus our care and attention on the second born #crimsonkenjii answers #selfship shenanigans

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mamorigami · 1 year ago

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thinking about utahimes forehead...

#ooc.#just kidding im thinking of her scar. how unique and interesting of me.#describing it as not a “cataclysmic” event but just something she ended up carrying with her work....#it ruined me in a way it shouldnt #esp with how scars are viewed on women. whatever it was didnt have to be so permanent but it did and it cost her more than it should #even tho contrary to the scar she definitely won that fight. ik its obvious but it needs to be said!#oh to write an analysis on each of my jjk muses and their relation w/ the hierarchy of power and patriarchy #that is in the world...the traditions and how they digest them (or completely disregard them)#utahime seems contradictory. i can definitely see her be that positive influence for the girls she teaches. shes definitely not someone #to explain the shit way the world works and convinces the younger gen to just take it bc thats how its always been.#but also?? to wear the traditional miko attire??? its smthn thats dear to her. whether its thru personal means or for the sake of #upholding familial traditions. which. to carry something that has existed before u were ever imagined. before ur parents were.#that is smthn so strong and intimate so she holds specific traditions close (maybe her own family. not necessarily jjk society as a whole?#but then again i doubt her family is exempt from its prejudice..)#wtf was my main point.#she strives to better the next generation. but shes already stuck in this mold. her role was crafted for her and she is still #trying to break herself out.#those are my late night uta thoughts i might change this entire view later on but i wanted to focus on. um. not maki for two seconds..#can u believe that?? not focus on maki.....unbelievable of me.#its a battle to keep the life of tradition alive and pick apart the mold that has spread over time #oh the experience of living in such a culturally vibrant style that the lines blur. what is what and who do i believe #HER TECHNIQUE BEING A RITUAL DANCE FUCKCFUCKCUFKC

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dykeyuu · 1 year ago

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i’m at the end of my fucking rope with these annoying ass premeds in my orgo lecture

#if i get one more fucking email from some random person inviting me to a review session with a third party tutor i’m killing someone #like first of all the prof has been telling us for two entire semesters not to use third party tutors #because they’re not familiar with our specific curriculum and what needs to be emphasized and whatnot #and second of all if you use the course site to mass email 300 people and you’re not the professor then i hate you #no i don’t want to go to some useless review with a dude on zoom that has no idea what we really need to focus on #they do so many school affiliated review sessions and there are a ton of university resources beyond that #we have a whole chemistry tutoring program run by the school #like third party tutoring is the stupidest and most easily avoidable way of failing orgo #didn’t anyone learn after last semester…#i just KNOW it’s all premeds doing this #usually when someone pisses me off in a chem lecture it’s a premed

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disdaidal · 1 year ago

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The way I'm still not finished with writing the first two ideas I had in mind for this ship, I'm suddenly getting two more. 🙈🙊 Could somebody please arrange it so that I'd have all the time in the world to write it all? Because 24hrs a day is simply not enough.

#personal #for the record: i am STILL writing the first idea i got #the slow-burn just got way out of hand and i can't seem to stop this train kdjfkjkgkgk #i might actually send the first chapter soon once i'm done editing it #to the poor person/people who volunteered to check it/them for me #if they still want to give it a try lol #because i've written a lot and there's still more to come. 82 pages on google docs and counting #so it's already becoming a small novella #and i'm a little bit scared. not just for myself but for the other people involved as well #for now i've put the second idea on hold but i will continue writing it sooner or later #because i know how what to do with it. how to continue it and how to end it #but then this bitch is suddenly getting two new AUs in mind #they started jumping up and down in my brain like 'hey i think you'll like me; so why don't you write me ASAP'#and i'm like HOW. WHEN #like there's literally just 24hrs a day and there's other stuff i'm supposed to be doing too #i'm supposed to focus on my schoolwork and this is all i can think about and it's killing me for real jfkjf #priorities i has them #but muses have been kind to me and i kind of needed something like this #after feeling like shit for a long time recently #i just wish i had more TIME #anyway

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lionblaze03-2 · 1 year ago

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Just wanted to let everybody know: ancient ties has tools now

want to comprehend this post? tags. Why did I write it all in tags

#What is ancient ties? WELL FINALLY #See uhhh ancient ties is my main warrior cats oc universe. With fanclans entirely populated with full lineups #And stories planned out through two arcs.#The first arc consists of two comics and a short epilogue converging the two and setting up arc 2 #Well. It SHOULD. It doesn’t YET but it WILL I’m. Working on things #We originally got 2 chapters out I believe but. An artist left the team and that would significantly change the style #Because I let them sketch and line after my paper boards! So I’m gonna just. Remake the whole thing from my boards #My book of eligible scripts #I can read them and I’m the only one that needs tooooo #Then the second arc is just one gigantic comic plan. Oof #Prequel also possible. If I let myself think too much there WILL be a third arc so.#Gotta try and focus my brain so I can just get one thing done. Just one comic would be good.#The first planned one is Twisted Bonds (the subtitle. It’s under ancient ties still) and it shooouldnt be too more than ten chapters #I THINK. Which is like 30-70 pages each give or take. Avg 50 #POSSIBLE. Very possible for a creature that only works weekends and fridays #I need a passion and I will make it. I demand you all begin to get invested in my universe I promise I’ll make stuff #I’m doing concept art for real I prommy #warriors #warrior cats #shameless advertising #for a series that doesn’t exist nonetheless! But it will so get excited and stay tuned please. I want to share them so much #warrior cats oc #warrior cats fanclan #wc fanclan #upcoming #upcoming comic #OH YEAH I NEVER TALKED ABOUT THE FUCKING POST. Uhhh #Yeah there’s tools now! Each clan gets unique ones. I’m gonna give them unique jewelry and some jobs too I think #Have some more fun. Less close to canon more silly and individually unique #Like. For example cavernclan (where tb takes place) is allowed gemstone names and. Probably gemstone stuff

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chaserofstarsandtheabyss · 1 year ago

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This book I’m reading gives me SO MANY MIXED FEELINGS

#the plot and characters are very interesting #it would be nice if we foCUSED ON THEM MORE #THE ROMANCE HAS TAKEN OVER AND I WNAT TO DIE #PLEASE DEVELOP YOUR CHARACTERS YOUVE GIVEN SO LITTLE FOCUS TO 3/7 OF THEM #The subplot needs like 50% less time in the book I swear to GOD #also the characters who are given the most time developing are both assholes please #I can’t deal with them for this stretch of time please please just pov a more bearable character for two seconds #then we can go back to developing the two bitches of the crew #they’re great characters but I need a fucking break for them please #I SHOULDNT HAVE TO DIG THROUGH OFFHAND LINES ABOUT A MAIN CHARACGER JUST DEVELOP THE NON POV CHARACTERS #and the plot is so interesting if we could focus on it for TWO SECONDS #also why are there so many interesting off page moments that are only referenced to??#please I feel so cut off from like half the cast #do not have 7 main characters if you can’t spend time on each other them for the love of god

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ncmcrcysideblog · 2 years ago

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my biggest gripe with s5 is the show wants me to think j.ohnny is suddenly ready to be a dad after NOT dealing with his shit properly and that having a new kid suddenly means that not being there for r.obby for the first 17 years of his life doesn't matter anymore and I say fuck that

#❖ muse ⊱ ── 𝐉𝐨𝐡𝐧𝐧𝐲 𝐋𝐚𝐰𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 #and I love s5 actually it's probably my second favorite season #I think as a whole it's great #but you can tell they tried to band-aid a lot of the conflicts instead of *actually* writing fleshed out solutions #they did that with most of the rivalries #and j.ohnny having a new kid on the way doesn't suddenly make him a good dad #doing better for the new kid doesn't make up for how he treated r.obby. if anything it makes it worse #that he will step up for a baby that isn't even born yet but not the son he already had and the woman he left to raise him alone #I looooooove j.ohnny but this is just not a fair representation of his character and goes against his arc #which is about finally recognizing his past for what it was and trying to fix his mistakes. FINALLY breaking the cycle of abuse and neglect #it's regressive that they keep doing this to him #he spent four seasons learning that doing right by m.iguel doesn't make up for not doing right by r.obby #and that his son needs him too and he can't just keep ignoring the consequences of his own actions #only to then in s5 say hey actually here's another kid for him to focus on instead. and this is all he will care about now.#how dare????#s5 should have been him and r.obby working on their shit for the whole season not like ... two episodes lmao #I'm not against the baby plot I think the idea is interesting it's just . . . it wasn't handled well on the show.#it should have been treated like a source of conflict and a reason to confront some inner trauma. not baby ex machina.

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