#I just have to um. start them.
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Btw I was not on tumblr much today bc I went to the store to buy HERBS. And now they are GROWING in my WINDOW!!! YEEAAAAHHHHH WOOOOO
#only two rn. bc they didn't have all the ones I wanted#but I got seeds for some of the others!!!!!!#I just have to um. start them.#but rn I have oregano and parsley in little flower pots in the kitchennnnn ♡#the world is so beautiful#roz posts#also yes one outing (buying) and task (planting) takes up a whole day for me. it's the neurodivergence and also the chronic illness ♡
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other people have already said it but it’s really soooo lame how Flat elgar’nan and ghilan’nain are. especially when you compare them to solas and mythal. elgar’nan was literally mythal’s husband, they had children together, surely he wasn’t just pure evil the entire time? why don’t we get to see any of their regrets in the literal regret prison that was originally intended for them? (because theyre just evil, of course!) why couldn’t what happened with the titans have been an unintended tragedy born from them just desiring bodies, unknowing that it would hurt and anger the titans, with those consequences spiraling into a brutal and bloody war between them… and then we could have actually seen more of what happened during this war, the impact it had on the titans and dwarves, and the desperation to end it that led to the death of the titans and solas’s regret and the eventual twisting of the evanuris into godhood… but nah. they’re just pure evil.
#literally could have fixed harding’s quest just by giving them even a fraction of depth#but no. lol#well you’d also have to let the other dwarves exist in any meaningful capacity outside of how special harding is#idk i fear both the elves and dwarves are shafted terribly in this game#dwarves are just as flat as the gods but in the opposite direction#i still cant get over how boring kal sharok and that whole section is. im not asking for an origins deep roads level#but um. could we have gotten literally Anything at all. lol#datv spoilers#da posting#also. addendum. it all makes mythal look really fucking stupid lmao#like if they were so cruel and evil since the start why did she ever think she could just talk to them…
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOU!!!
Fluff for the occasion!!! set in 2015; in the current day and age he's turning 25 which is crazy, hope mans nailing adulthood
bonus air kiss to my fellow queers and especially aspecs:
#i turn 25 in exactly one month like hol up!!!!!!!!!!#decided to draw the year 2015 cause i headcanon the further they go in their friendship the closer they will strive to be#so it wouldn't align to have them live in different cities way later#Breathing Room is canon so they bouta go to the same high school#so for a few years post canon shou lives with his mom#who moved back to japan from US for him.#he started going to school and facing Struggles there#evident by a plastered bruise which he didn't wake up with#He's eccentric and confrontational and previously homeschooled and the child of a known criminal so um#safe to say he doesn't make friends in middle school. he's closest with Tome and the esper gang back in Seasoning#thank you to a few fics for introducing me to the beauty of tome and shou friendship yes#He's artistically driven as said in the wikia so he took up guitar and painting clubs#Also i do love the fact he denounced his powers in the series finale#and that's bound to be something that's resolved in some huge way#that i may or may not draw if i have a solid script its currently just a buncha dialogue#mob psycho 100#mp100#mp100 fanart#kageyama ritsu#suzuki shou#ritshou#shouritsu#WHY THE T???? WHY THE T. RISHOU SOUNDS BETTER NO?#rishou#shou suzuki#ritsu kageyama#happy birthday shou
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some WIPs from the 80s AU i never finished
#so… hi#i think…. i might start making some stuff here soon#i’ve been gone a lot longer than i intended to be#& i feel a lil bad about it bc i really miss my boys & bein here & all that but#idk it’s just been a rough month#but i’m starting to get the itch to create again#i have a very silly idea for the mbz AU#i also just really want to draw some stuff#i miss making things. i’m going nuts. i’ve hardly done anything fun in WEEKS#i’ve sort of started working on some new OCs but ngl#doing anything that doesn’t involve dhes or kel genuinely feels like i’m betraying them#but i have a concept that i really want to explore so that’s what i’m trying to do#i have been working on a few AUs here & there too but#but mostly nothing fun#i need to do something fun while i still can bc i’m starting at uni next month#& i just know i’m gonna have shit for free time then#i’m taking all in person classes which makes me very nervous#i’m trying to be excited about it but mostly it’s just causing me anxiety lol#but anyway. um. yea. hopefully i’ll catch up on everything & reply to the tags/asks i’ve gotten since i’ve been gone#if i reply to something you said/sent to me a month ago… pls just act like that’s not weird. thanks.#rainyrambles
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congrats 2 henry peglar for being the only bitch confirmed as to be Fucking That Old Man
#the heron giveth#the terror#alright here come the funny tags#bridglar#briglar#people spell it both ways i think. ill do both hujst to be safe#henry peglar#john bridgens#uh um um. uh#peglar x bridgens#THIS FEELS WEIRD. TO TYPE#bridgens x peglar#alright im done good GRIEF#this isnt even that extreme compared to the shit people are putting on ao3 about these two. god.#anyways hi ive watched this show maybe 7 or 8 times? only just recently have i gotten hooked on them#the scripts make me go nuts too. ''they were lovers in their pasts'' shut the fuck up dont say that to me ill start crying#this is the most risque thing i have ever posted on here#getting out of the fandom game for a while rewired my brain i have to get weird again. and boy do they make me feel weird !#i have a number of terror mutuals who r gonna go nuts over this. fuck yes a little bowl of seeds for me style#this looks blurry posting it hopefully tumblr doesnt crunch the shit out of the quality anyways im done typing goodbye
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I can't find it now but there's a post about suspension of disbelief and how it's broken when the story starts trying to excuse it. "character gets knocked unconscious for hours but there's no further issues from this" okay 👍 "and actually this makes perfect sense because of this and that" um no it doesn't why are you lying to me. like i am willing to ignore the holes and the discrepancies!! all you need to do is let me and not bring unnecessary attention to it!!!
and all that is my issue with the whole robin child soldier argument. like i am willing to ignore it i am willing to engage with the fantasy literally all you need to do is NOT try to convince me that Actually It's Fine Because They Want To Do It or whatever. like literally just shut up about it and i can engage with the fantasy!!
#my dc posting#dc#robin#batman#like. if you want to tell a story and not worry abt the child endangerement thing just DONT BRING IT UP ???#all you're doing when you bring it up is telling me this is something i'm allowed to think abt when it comes to the story#and then you tell me Um Actually It's Fine ?? no! what the fuck are you talking about!!#i am tryinggggg to just have fun n read fics your lil “isnt that child endangerement and kinda fucked up?” “no actually they wouldve done i#anyways bla bla bla batman couldnt have stopped them bla bla bla''#is COUNTERPRODUCTIVEEE#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#<- tagging the robins sorry#sorry this just. this topic annoys me so much#...also ''batman couldnt have stopped them/they wouldve done it with or without him'' are literally#just factually incorrect in jason's case. he did not in fact start on his own and the only thing batman wouldve#needed to do to stop him is literally just NOT make him robin BUT- at this point im just beating a dead horse on that topic#w how many times i bring it up lmao#like. in real life you cant just knock a person unconscious for hours with no consequences on them.#but i dont care when it happens in fiction despite being not realistic!! bc its fiction!!!#unless of course the characters out of nowhere do a lil sidequest PSA abt how actually doing that is fine#and completely safe with no risks#yknow??#like if that happened id be annoyed and like no its fucking not fine why are you trying to convince me. just move on and dont bring it up#and I wont bring it up#anyway. yeah these are just some thoughts im having rn sorry its not more coherent and put-together i cant be assed rn lmao
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rotund creature
#this is my apology for abandoning this account in favor of touching grass kjhkfg#fr tho i just fell out of everything for a bit. plus i was SUPER busy. BUT DONT BE FOOLED THO HE STILL SITS IN MY BRAIN ALL THE TIME#my art inspiration is dead tho i've just been drawing my splatoon ocs :P#i WOULD like to draw him again tho. at least a sketch#and maybe more of that splatoon au...#if i could find a way to make a crossover with balatro i promise i would. but um. balatro doesnt exactly have.... ''characters'' 😭#actually wait shit i could make mcyt legendary cards..... oh i could make them have themes ohhhhhhh hang on.#give me a minute let me think#imagine this is how i find out how to make mods KJFDHGDG#THERE IS ACTUALLY A MOD I WOULD LOVE TO ATTEMPT TO DEVELOP I THINK IT COULD BE FUN........ i have NO IDEA where to start tho#awa
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i cant even lie, the moment i saw Meowdas i knew he'd look good all tied up LMAO (prob part 1/2)
#fortnite#meowdas#nyanja#this idea has just been stewing and marinating....#so like.... i do have a third page already thumbnailed and therell prob be one more of them being interrupted#because of course they cant have peace LOL#um but uhhh errmmmm. i am going to write a follow up fic as well#and by 'going to' what i really mean is that ive already started writing it#not sorry i am gonna need them to fuck lol#whether i draw it first or write it first is another question entirely#ill point yall to the bsky post if/when the spicy art happens#hehehe so much fuuunnnn
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PLEASE DO NOT TAG AS YOUR OWN OC OR PAIRING.
Nathan and Ruben share a bond more powerful than most; mutual understanding through past experiences no one should ever have to go through, and through past actions so horrible they cannot be spoken of. Their grief and the blood on their hands binds them to the STEM technology they created, which has alienated them from the rest of the world— but they give each other the comfort they have both longed for so desperately for years, and that is all they need. They are each other's counterpart; you cannot imagine one without the other, like two sides of the same coin. Through their pain, their grief, their desire, and their regret, they have become one.
anna akhmatova, the guest // bones; equinox // 'i won't become' by kim jakobsson // agustín gómez-arcos, the carnivorous lamb // by oxy // achilles come down; gang of youths // czeslaw milosz, from 'new and collected poems: 1931-2001' // 'extended ambience portrait from a resonant biostructure' and 'migraine tenfold times ten' by daniel vega // a little death; the neighbourhood // marina tsvetaeva, from 'poem of the end' // by drummnist // katie maria, winter // 'nocturne in black and gold the falling rocket' by james abbott mcneill whistler // micah nemerever, these violent delights // body language; we are fury // 'the penitent' by emil melmoth // chelsea dingman, from 'of those who can't afford to be gentle'
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@shellibisshe, @florbelles, @ncytiri, @hibernationsuit, @stars-of-the-heart;
@lestatlioncunt, @katsigian, @radioactiveshitstorm, @estevnys, @adelaidedrubman;
@celticwoman, @rindemption, @carlosoliveiraa, @noirapocalypto, @dickytwister;
@killerspinal, @euryalex, @ri-a-rose, @velocitic, @thedeadthree
#tew#edit:nathan#nuclearocs#nuclearedits#so much shame in my body but still used my taglist but um let me know if you want to be excluded from oc/ship web weaves#just really wanted to share this one because i'm very proud of it and i want it on my blog. so. :]#recognition of the self through the other + wanting so desperately for the other to be deserving of a second chance#because if there is hope for them than there is hope for you etc etc and so on. that's the core of their dynamic i think#they understand each other on such a fundamental level that no one else comes close to because they are in so many ways the same#like how in in the first game leslie could sync up with ru/vik and all that? nathan would be a VERY good candidate for that as well#and it makes me insane!! and then the added layer of nathan being lead developer of mobius' new and improved STEM system#which makes him the same as ru/vik AGAIN but in like. the way that they're both men of [computer] science#and there's the fact they both have a dead sister. they both killed their parents. they were both mobius playthings for YEARS#and they've happily killed and tortured during all of it. they're angry they're out for revenge they're completely disconnected from#the normal human experience and they're working with what they have. and then after all of that is over then what is left?#their story focuses on them picking up all the pieces. everything that's still salvageable at least. and try to start over in a way#they cannot be forgiven for what they've done but they can move on from the past and do different in the future#there's still things left undone and left unsaid... in my canon at least. i know there's not gonna be any more games. it's fine#anyway they end up going to therapy and then they get better they're not a doomed couple they just like being dramatic#if you read all of this we can get married tomorrow if you'd like
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THE X-FILES (1993-2018)
SEASON FOUR — The truth will save you, Scully. I think it'll save both of us.
#txf#tv#txf4#the x files#txfedit#tvedit#scifiedit#horroredit#.gif#thexfilesnet#*txfrewatch#this season did NOT have to go this hard...#most insane moment to me is in elegy after mulder asks her 'why can't you trust me?' when scully sits in her car and cries#and as a parallel mulder crying at home (bottom left gif) after scully tells him 'it's easier to believe the lies isn't it?' and#that she was made ill just as a means to make him believe. to fool him#INSANE SEASON for insane people#& what I already said the other day: it's also the season where they're both just stupidly attractive. :')#it's also the best acted I think (for both of them. and not just thanks to better writing)#...I still prefer s3 tho :') because I love the silly episodes too much and this season just doesn't have those (except small potatoes)#also...I watched this so quickly omg...💀 like I started on saturday I think? um... :'')#but I have to take a break now anyway. because of the horrors (adulting) so it's nice that I got this far at least!
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ive reached the point where the term batfam is like a dog whistle to me
#which makes me really upset because i really do love these characters and their dynamics and its just easier to refer to them as ‘batfam’#but if i have to see one more post where jason and damian interact like siblings or really just jason anywhere near any of these characters#im gonna start ripping my hair out#motherfucker would NOT intentionally interact with like over half the batfam#i cant handle any more watered down relationships or forcing these characters into a nuclear family#i saw a mom!selina post earlier and wanted to shrivel up. she would hate motherhood…#im just tired#and god forbid anyone get annoyed with the bastardization of bats characters because ‘um actually i like when everyones happy’#ok great for you go read heartstopper or something#fran talks
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playing my game with my friend
#freedyn#<- my new tag for me playing halflife#that first barney. um. i accidentally killed.#I DIDNT MEAN TO. I FEEL SO BAD#HE WAS ALREADY HURT AND I TURNED AROUND TO SAY SOMETHING TO HIM AND MISCLICKED AND BEAT HIM TO DEATH#i fell out of my chair to my knees i felt so fucking bad. oh my god#i SHOULDVE LEFT HIM AT HIS LITTLE POST ohh my gpd. im gonna hurl.#the other barney was just an actual madman he took out all the vorts in office complex by himself unprompted it was kind of scary#he jjust ran past me and started shootin and was like :D did you see that shot!#trailing behind him like yeah babe i did that was so cool. are you feeling okay#HE WAS BEING SCARY he was so brave and charming but jesus christ#*i* didnt have to kill them but. woah#transmission#VIDEO GAMES ARE FUN#half life#barney calhoun
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i draw these guys so much it's not funny. anyways stalker/steven by my friend @kordbot :]
#art#oc#i could post more <threat. but tumblr hates meeee <image limit#um idk what more to say. these guys are so fun i'm having a wonderful time being crushed to death by them every day yippiee!!! ^__^#i fucking love how. i often can't think of a pose for stalker so he's just standing there starting directly at YOU
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okay i need feedback from the autism mentall illness website um. this is going to read like an AITA post. brother vs half-sister (who are currently my dependents do to their own individual disabilities + ptsd/depression) spat i will skim the details on but i'm worried my sister will discount my take since i'm not autistic myself so. am i crazy to call it ableist to look at an autistic person (23) who is clearly going through it dealing w long term depression, a world that doesn't give a shit abt him, unemployment, very self-isolated and burnt out barely leaving his room because the world is an ableist dumpster fire with zero opportunities for him, and then bring up childhood abuse he's suffered and his diagnosis as reasonable factors on top of this to worry he'll [checks notes] abuse my cat just to hurt me or even worse have a breakdown and kill me and his other sibling in a violent episode, a train of thought i probably wouldn't even be having were he not [checks notes] mad at me for the first time in my life?
like i don't have any other read on this kind of fear-based characterization other than ableism. like those are very real things in his life but she never points out any current violent behavior, of which there are none, only the one (1) instance of him lashing out when he was like 14 and Officially Diagnosed Low Empathy she thinks is a concern and Hateful Looks toward her since he stopped getting along with her, that's it. i tried explaining to her why i, someone who's lived w him his entire life, can vouch for how unlikely he is to do anything like that, especially when it's again not based on anything he's actually currently doing except for isolating in a way that is much more indicative of him potentially being a danger to himself than anyone else, and being cold towards her specifically, and i thought she had let it go, but when i brought it up off-hand in a conversation tangentially related, she continued to defend and justify her Concern about the potential directions his behavior could lead to because [checks notes] other people in similar situations have lashed out and killed their entire families according to. true crime books or videos she's watched on youtube as far as i'm aware. ignoring the fact that her and i have had the same or Worse childhood abuse and have acted similarly isolated in the past, or for her literally just as currently as him, and she's not expressed any worry past or present about either of us doing anything like that, in my opinion obviously because i haven't cut her off due to our differences like he decided to. like am i big sibling biased because this is pissing me off so bad.
#j.txt#autism#ableism#very sorry to hang all my dirty laundry like this but she is absolutely the type of person to not take accusations of ableism seriously#due to being disabled/traumatized herself and i. feel like she thinks just because she's fixated on and consumed so much about like#mental disorders and illness and whatever she thinks she's an expert on it#enough to like. non-gendered equivalent mansplain peoples' own traumas and disorders to them lol which she has done to me as well#my brother actually last i checked felt like his diagnosis wasn't even accurate#but to me knowing our mom was v ableist antivax about her understanding of autism and a very neurotypical definition of it#it makes sense if the criterias or definitions don't feel accurate to him#idk. IDK#um. if this gets no engagement i'll delete it rather quick probably i just#don't wanna talk out of my ass when i'm not even autistic yk#i'm very aware i can be biased about him vs her because i actually grew up w him and he's younger than us but like#i havent heard him use her own diagnosis and childhood trauma and ugly moments in this way to justify his bad faith characterizations of he#so it's very much. just something she's doing. if my brother started doin it too i'd have the same conversation but he hasn't which i think#is u.m Telling <3#like She's the one actually complaining about how he assumes the worst of her in everything she does now and it makes her feel awful#meanwhile she. probably doesn't say any of this to Him but boy has she talked about it with me!#if it's not obvious we are all very mentally ill trapped in a house 2gether trying to save up to move so we can get away from each other lo
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venting like an idiot
the main reason i dont wanna go back to uni is that i feel like i've completely embarrassed myself last year. idk, i feel horrified at the thought of returning and looking these people in the eye. i didn't do anything, i was lazy and barely finished my projects and the only way to redeem myself somehow would be to come back with some new energy and work hard. i didn't even really get a job this summer because i really wanted to rest, cause i thought i would drop out. and i just feel worse, i feel even more tired
#ughhhh#im not going to drop out just yet#itd be a shame i think#theres many opportunities at my uni that i just dont take cause i cant commit to them or im too tired or im too scared#idk if doing any of this is worth it if i don't truly commit tho#i dont think ive learned anything these past 2 years tbh i feel like ive been wasting time and money#and i know my mental state is just my fault cause i cant get myself to do anything and i feel shame and spiral but goddd#idk i just feel like shit#the academic year starts so soon and i just dread everything thats to come#idk i dont even feel like im going to come out of this school with a portfolio. im literally nothing and ive done nothing#i have no idea how i could write a dissertation because ive literally learned nothing i have no desire to learn i just want to fucking chil#i cant get myself to care much for anything except silly shit thats just a distraction from uni work ughhhhhhhhhhhhhh#sucks sucks everything sucks#sorry for this stupid fucking essay im just having lots of thoughts and no one to tell them so.. um#vent#i know this is all my fault but also like. what am i supposed to do about it every solution sounds like literal hell to me -_-#i guess ive been feeling less suicidal recently which i guess is good but i feel like its bad cause like ykiyk ig#idk its all a huge contradiction
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I'm curious, why not get a job to move out? Ik most jobs sound miserable but there are some out there that don't need experience and can be tolerable, especially part time
I saw this ask before I fell asleep and was thinking of a response so hard that I dreamed about job hunting LOL
Anyway, that's kinda happening rn! Im working on resume and my friend who lives in my target city (being near her wld help both of us out a lot) is helping me look for listings... it's just the same little issues so far while we look though of course, which is either "manageable, or even Dream office job with very low pay" or "kinda higher Okay Pay job, but id have to be in charge of an entire country and work 16 hour days including weekends (10 yrs of experience + Master's required)."
#so even my friend was saying i shld take a lower pay job but then make up for it with comms but i dont#want to make comms part of the plan just yet. ykwim.#like if i get a job and end up still wanting to do comms for extra money then Yey#but i dont want to lean on them at the start...bc what if a job kills all my energy and i cant do it#ykwim. id be in so much trouble if i couldnt do it or if my remaining energy had to mostly be used to um Survive (chores and eating)#anonymous#skunk mail#i thot it would be easier bc i DONT wanna work remote i want to have to leave my house and see ppl. but alas
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