#I just had to get it out

[compressedrage]

Okay so imagine you're Victim. You've escaped your Creator, after a strange dizzying cycle of being created and then dying.

Again and Again and Again–

You find yourself in a bright new world. Full of possibilities and life, away from the hand of your Creator. But you can't enjoy it. Everything you see, everything you touch is tainted by the bitterness simmering in your chest.

Your Creator would have kept this from you. All of this, only to shove you back in a box and kill you. Again and again and again–

You get a job. It starts small; then you rise rapidly. Your company is successful, you're making profits and the people like you. At least, they think they like you.

But you can't enjoy it. You built this company, this empire for a reason. Your Creator thought He could control stick figures, easily keep them under his thumb. Toy with them. Well, this population of stick figures– your customers– are safer now. Because of you and your technology.

Or so you think.

You hear rumors of them. The twin terrorists, burning through websites and leaving nothing but scattered code behind. Refugees flock to the city, and doubt and fear spread like wildfires. It's a virus. You can use that.

The people are terrified, but you offer protection. Safety, guaranteed. You think that will be the end of it; the authorities will catch the hooligans and you will be able to return to your true work.

That is, until you see them yourself.

Until you realize who they are.

A camera caught footage of them far outside the city and something buried deep inside of you shifts. You know who these stick figures are, who look just like you. Who wield such god-like power, who flaunt it at every turn–

It is no longer bitterness simmering in your chest. It is hate, and it burns.

Your Creator didn't stop, didn't learn His lesson, didn't care at all. He got rid of you, then moved on. And He made his next creations More. They didn't deserve His blessings, you had never even done anything–

You will continue your mission, and this time you will not stop. Your company thrives, but you barely pay any attention to it anymore. You pour yourself into research; of codes so complicated they make your head spin, of methods of containment, of weapons. You hire on an entire new department: separate from your original company. You're doing bigger things now. Greater things.

The posters go up. You have faith; you have eyes everywhere now. Nowhere on the Internet is hidden.

Or so you think.

Somehow, somewhere– there is another. It hadn't just been the two terrorists at the bay that day. There is another and he is even more powerful than the other two. Than you.

And he doesn't even know.

You hate him.

You lock him down and leave your prisoners. You are on a path toward everything you ever wanted. Your victory is in reach.

And you can't even enjoy it.

[the-bi-fangirl-biatch]

@neil-gaiman regarding that last episode

i think i speak for the entirety of the fandom when i say:

[emofaq]

the reason why i’m so emotionally attached to mclennon is because i personally had an intense homoerotic friendship where we would write songs for each other and pretend we weren’t in love but it was hard because we kept looking at each other like that. and now i have him blocked on everything but i still think of him every time i hear a train horn.

i remember the first time i realized i was attracted to him. we were in his sloped ceiling attic bedroom, i was on guitar and he was on drums. i was playing hard and fast, something he encouraged me to do. i was always too scared to be loud. he was on drums, keeping up with me. the eye contact he made while he was focusing as hard as he could is something i’ll remember for a while. when we were done he got back from behind the kit, completely out of breath, looked me in the eye and said “i’d do anything for you, *my name*”. my boyfriend at the time never said my name. it’s kind of a long, weird name. i’ve never met someone with the same one. my friend said it with so much intensity and devotion that it scared me for a second, but then i liked it too much to be scared.

he tried to kiss me and i pulled away when we were sharing a bed in a hotel room. we’d been cuddling all night after seeing one of our favorite bands together, it was both of our first times seeing them (the band is dave matthews band. i know people HATE them but i’d defend them with my life). we were already steadily moving towards being in love but that day we spent together just cemented it in place. i couldn’t help it, him and i just worked so well together. we were in bed together, holding each other, unable to stop talking and just go to sleep. after he tried to kiss me he started apologizing profusely. he said he just couldn’t take it anymore. i held him and told him it was okay. i told him i would’ve kissed him back if i didn’t have my boyfriend.

there were only two nights where we kissed and played guitar until the sun came up, during both there were big summer thunderstorms going on outside. for months i thought of him every time it rained.

the specifics of how he broke my heart aren’t important but i could never talk to him again: i think if i saw him in real life. but yeah thats why i love beatles yaoi

[nemotakeit]

hot take? i don't think blurryface is going to be "defeated" by the end of the lore. he might be the villain of the story but at the same time he's a living part of tyler as well. i think they'll win, but not completely eradicate the existence of blurryface. they might suppress him, or learn to peacefully coexist with him, or outgrow his influence or whatever - that's the "managing the tension" part. we also have to keep in mind that tyler is still struggling to some extent with his insecurities and vulnerabilities (though he's gotten much better ofc) and i think that aspect will be reflected in his art.

besides, they've said that some people might not like the ending, which insinuates we won't be getting a perfectly hunky-dory happy ending. i also don't think tyler is the type to give this kind of story a sunshines and rainbows type of closure.

the core message of twenty one pilots, although it has certainly evolved over the years, is that it's fine to be not okay, but you must fight for your survival. i think that the lore ending will leave us with the message that broken as we are, we have to stay alive AND push on through - and before you know it, you'll be in a much better place than when you first started.

[dave-me0wstaine]

thinking about domestic 90s dave who's home from tour and loves the slowness of everyday life back at home. he especially loves the fact he can wake up next to you, and show you just how much he loves you.

nsfw under the cut!

dave's recently gotten back from tour and you're sleeping in bed together. it's early in the morning and there's a slight drizzle outside. you feel his calloused, warm hands lift up the old shirt of his that you're wearing and spread out across your tummy. in your sleepy daze, you feel dave begin to lazy kiss up and down your neck, slightly nibbing at your skin along the way. slowly, you feel his warm hand begin to trail downward toward your heat.

"missed you so much, pretty girl," dave mutters, his voice ladden with sleep. "you gonna let me show you?"

sleepily, you nod, and pivot yourself to face him so that you can place a kiss on his lips. quickly the kiss becomes heated with dave coaxing his tongue into your mouth. all the while, he's rubbing lazy circles over your still clothed clit.

"lift up, baby, wanna feel you." dave whispers, tugging at your panties. he helps you pull them down just enough so that he can rub you properly, and moans begin spilling from your mouth. before you realize, dave has his own underwear discarded, and you feel his hot length nudge at your slit.

"gonna make you feel so good, hun," dave breathes out as he lines himself up with your entrance. slowly he pushes himself inside, letting out a hiss. "fuck, missed this."

"please," you whimper and begin trying to rock back into him to gain some friction. dave starts shallowly fucking you from behind, all the while running his big hands up and down your body.

"shh, just lay there and be good for me, pretty baby." dave cuts you off, however your pleas don't fall on deaf ears. dave begins picking up the pace, fucking into your heat with a gentle, deep pace.

he continues slowly rocking into you and whispering praises and profanities into your ears. he feels you clench around him, and picks up your leg to get himself even deeper inside of you.

"go on and cum for me, i know you can, baby." he pants, he himself getting close. its only a few more seconds before you're reaching your high, your hands gripping his arms and your body rocking back into his. behind you, you hear dave let out a deep groan as he spills inside you. you and dave lie there for what feels like hours, just holding each other and coming down from your respective highs. you try to turn around to face him, but before you can, dave stops you.

"wait, i wanna say inside you for a little bit longer," he admits, and you crane your head back to see a blush on his face. "i wasn't kidding when i said i missed you, y'know?"

[dessinatsunset]

So...I had a Vision. I am currently for no reason really into bunny suits so I had to do it

[somewhatsentientspellbook]

Somewhere in Nicodranas...

[krismatic]

Allies or Enemies mizuena short amv

oughgh how are we feeling about mizuki5 in a few hours…..

[rootbeer-queer]

What pronouns do minecraft villagers use?

...

She/Hurrgh

[morgana-ren]

Alrighty, everyone mute me here cause I'm about to go on a tirade.

Look, I've been playing video games since I was young. Very young. Probably too young, if we're being completely honest. We had an old Nintendo 64 from my step-dad's youth that I used to play religiously. I played my ps2 for hours and hours a day as a way to cope with a.. shall we say unstable household. I had Gameboy Advanced, Gameboy color, all the way up to Nintendo DS to the switch. This is something I've been doing since I was barely old enough to speak. I used to get games at Blockbuster, okay? I played the OG Baldur's Gate and Neverwinter Nights on a clunky old computer. Even when we were flat-busted ass broke with absolutely no money to spare, I would play at friend's houses. I would play old AV consoles on those fat ass TVs. It's my oldest hobby besides reading, is the point here.

My point is I'm old enough to remember when gaming was a niche hobby that you could actually get bullied for. It was back when studios made games mostly out of passion, and not to sell to a broader audience. There wasn't really even such a thing as microtransactions. You bought a full and complete game. Blizzard released good products, actually (unbelievable, I know.) Games knew their audience, and there wasn't necessarily an assload of money in it, so it was mostly made out of love for the games and their community.

Gaming has grown in popularity over the last 10-20 years, and that can be an excellent thing! Really! It can be! But Baldur's Gate 3 winning game of the year brought something to my attention that has been driving me mad for a few days now. It's a concept I've found myself repeating for a long time, but barely just sort of sat down to analyze it:

Not everything is for you.

The last few winners of GOTY have had some... sour people be very upset. Not that this is uncommon, but especially the last few years. People saying Elden Ring is 'too hard,' people saying that Baldur's Gate 3 is nothing but pedantic dice rolls, etc. People who, in general, were very unhappy that these games did not appeal to them in particular, and they were very vocal about how these games should be changed to appeal to them personally.

What I'm saying is that these people, along with most others, were not there during the days of niche gaming, where when you didn't like a game, you didn't necessarily throw a tantrum and stamp your feet and demand that these games aren't good and that they need to change, but rather, you just... didn't play them. They weren't made for you.

We live in an age where absolutely everything is being scraped for every last dollar. Games that used to be made out of passion for their communities are now being made to sell, sell, sell as many copies as physically possible to everyone. If it won't pander to every last person, it's not going to be made. Things are being 'streamlined' to make the games appeal to anyone and everyone who might play them.

'Streamlined' in this case, means 'dumbed down.' As Bethesda famously says, KISS: Keep It Simple Stupid.

Games that used to be a little bit more 'niche' and 'complex' like Morrowind, are now games like Skyrim, that are dumbed down to sell to everyone. They remove a lot of the aspects that made them beloved in the name of 'garnering a new and broader audience.' Older folks, adults, children, everyone. But this attitude of inclusivity isn't as great as it might seem initially. It isn't done out of community. It is done to get absolutely every last person possible to empty their wallet at the altar. To get every last fucking dollar out of everyone.

Games are passionless money pits. They sell you a half-baked, simple product that insults your intelligence. It's impossible to fail quests, because God forbid one person doesn't like that and asks for their money back. They won't touch on complex topics, because they don't want to cause a controversy that might drain their prospective bank account. They can't make things so intricate that God forbid a toddler might not understand them. They are milquettoast, miserable little games that appeal not even to people who enjoy games, but rather, people who don't.

Yes, they are making games to try and get money from people who don't even like them. They can't make anything nuanced or put a learning curve or put any actual work or fun into the game, because people who don't actually like playing games might realize "Hey, actually, I'm not enjoying this at all." and not give anymore money.

I'll get to the point.

Games being disliked by certain people is a good thing. It means those companies were unwavering on their vision and their loyalty to their fans. It means it was a game made from passion, and not just to be marketed and sold to literally every living person. They were made with their communities in mind, and no offense, but if you aren't one of the people that likes the things those communities stand for, maybe you should seek it elsewhere rather than trying to change something someone loves to suit you instead. You are not the demographic here.

You hear people that hate turnbased saying that Baldur's Gate 3 should not have been turnbased. Guess what? That's literally DnD. It's a DnD game. Don't like the lack of day cycles? Again, that's long resting in DnD. Pedantic dice rolls? That's fucking DnD, baby. Maybe you don't like it, but just because the game got popular does not mean it was made for you. Too much gay? Go away. Baldur's Gate was not made to sell copies to everyone. In fact, it was a relatively niche prospect that gained massive popularity near the end because of a scandal. I've been with them since Patch 2 of Early Access, and it very much was a passion project by people who loved DnD and TT games. They did not think it was going to hit this level of popularity, and they stuck to their guns even when it did. I cannot tell you how rare and remarkable that is.

Dark Souls is too hard? Maybe it's not the game for you. If you don't like certain design aspects, that's fine and okay! But Miyazaki and Fromsoft should not be forced to change their vision of their passion project because you personally do not like it. It was around before you, and they have a loyal community that does love the game just how it is. If you want a game with a difficulty slider, maybe you should play a game that has one. I'm sorry if you don't like the fundamentals of the game, but they exist for a reason, the community likes it, and no, it's not just for elitist reasons like I see all too often. You just do not understand because you don't like the game and do not like being told no for once by a company that has integrity.

I'm not trying to insult you. I'm being honest when I say that it's an attitude that is expected in the current climate where everything is changed when people complain the loudest because changing it means more money, and more money is the goal. These people are not your friends. Do not forget that. They are not changing it because they care about you. They are changing it because they think they can con you out of another dime.

People have a masochistic relationship with these companies. They have gotten used to being pandered to. They have gotten used to being sold a shitty game that everyone from their grandmother to their toddler niece and nephew can beat. And no, there's nothing wrong with games for everyone. But it's not because they wanted to make a game for everyone. It was because they wanted everyone's money.

People make hour long youtube videos about how Baldur's Gate would have been better if it was real time, and if it was more like this game and that game (namely games that pander to everyone) and then, in the same week, release a video bewailing that all games are so bad now and they don't understand why. They grasp that greed has a part in it, but they don't understand that they are directly contributing to the problem.

Games are bad because when everything is for everyone, nothing is truly for you. You won't have a chance to be passionate about anything, because on the off chance you find something you love, you will inevitably watch it die the same way that those of us who have been here forever did, because someone outside of the community doesn't like it, so it has to go because Christ forbid they don't sell two more copies.

And no, I am not talking about 'woke' or 'political correctness' so you alt-right weirdos can keep the fuck off of this post. I am talking about things like a lack of quest markers. Complex puzzles that you can fail. Political nuance. Things that take brainpower and are fun but not everyone likes.

Maybe not everything is for you. Maybe a game is allowed to exist even if you don't like it. Maybe communities are allowed to have their thing while you have yours. Maybe you have gotten so used to being pandered and catered to with every game being this blase, half-baked experience that is sorta liked by most, but... beloved by none. It's a forgettable, boring experience that garners no real loyalty, but at most a "Ha, that was alright." And then you put it on the shelf never to touch it again.

It means these companies aren't thinking of money; they are thinking of their communities. They are thinking of their fans and the people who love their games. Every time Miyazaki says 'no' to changing the formula that we love about his games, he is thinking of his loyalty to his community and his passion to the game. When Sven refuses to change aspects of the game to suit people who don't like DnD, he is staying loyal to the DnD community.

More companies should be doing this. Not less.

But consumers need to remember that one little creedo: Not everything is for me.

It can exist and I can exist. I do not have to play it and I do not have to enjoy it. It doesn't mean that it's bad. It means it's not for me. And that's fine.

[the-art-of-surviving-hiatus]

Imagine you create a character. He’s rough around the edges, abrasive, but highly skilled and competent at his job. He’s deeply in love with his friend/boss, and does everything he can to make him happy, but he’s failing and he doesn’t know why. Suddenly a new guy comes into the picture, the kind of guy they usually hate. But, to his horror, his friend and this new guy hit it off immediately. This is wildly out of left field for his friend, so much so that our character suspects some kind of trickery is at play. Nothing he does seems to help restore his friend’s sanity, and the norm he’s been used to is flipped on its head. Used to working with teams of competent professionals, he is now forced to deal with a small group of inexperienced people who have little interest in doing their jobs.

Finally, the new guy leaves and our character has his life back. Except now that he has his friend’s attention back, the love he had before is gone now. Dark, violent rage is all his friend has left for him in return for his love. He demonstrates this by brutally removing parts of our character’s body. He violates and verbally abuses him, using the crew’s lack of obedience as reason. Despite this, our character sees the warmth and love he’s been craving in the crew. He takes a chance on it, and is rewarded with their loyalty. His friend tries to kill him, tries to have him do it himself. He nearly does. He drags himself into a storm on one leg to protect his new family - the only people he can trust now. When the other guy finally returns, our character tries to mend what has been broken, but is dismissed. He struggles by himself, drinking his days away and waiting to die.

For the second time, his life is saved by the kindness of his crew. They give him another chance at life, a way to continue what he’s good at while also experiencing the softness he’s been missing for far too long. The next time the crew is in trouble, our character is a solid part of the group. He’s put in a situation where he’s going to be physically vulnerable, and he says nothing. The vulnerability is exposed and attacked, and he says nothing. He internalises his pain and holds on until his crew are all safe.

He dies apologising for needing love. He dies not knowing he had it. He dies thinking it’s for the best, since his usefulness has come to an end. He dies not knowing that he never needed to be useful to deserve to exist. He dies not knowing how wanted he could have been if he hadn’t been so focused on being needed.

His funeral is awkward, rushed, and mainly silent. His body is buried and his friends immediately move on. He never knew the deep love and acceptance he could have enjoyed, but imagine if he had.

[sugdenlovesdingle]

so the incoming Dutch government has (among others)

a prime minister who is not a member of a political party but basically just someone who knows the right people to get him a nice job, former head of immigration and naturalisation services

a health minister/deputy PM who used to be a member of a white power/neo nazi forum and strongly opposes late term abortion.

a minister in charge of trade and international aid (as in aid sent to other countries from the Netherlands) who wanted to cut that aid significantly or even get rid of it altogether to pay for a hair brained plan to lower health insurance costs here a few years ago, who is (or was i'm not entirely sure) a board member for an even more racist and unhinged Dutch version of fox news, believes in some ass backwards conspiracy theory that the "elite" are trying to "replace" the population with non white/non western (Jewish!) people but claims that is not nazi rhetoric but a "factual description of a demographic development" , pro zwarte piet (loooong story but basically she's pro blackface)

a minister of immigration who also believes in the replacement conspiracy theory, is also racist, has referred to Islam as despicable. She's been called out on spouting nazi bullshit and just went "it's possible it's a nazi thing, I don't know, I don't really care/think about that"

a speaker of the house who also believes in the replace conspiracy theory and has mentioned it several times as an mp. He also complained about being sick of talks about slavery when there was a discussion on whether or not the (then) prime minister and the king should officially apologise for the Dutch slavery history. July 1st is Keti koti in the Netherlands - which celebrates the end of slavery and remembers those who lost their lives during it (kind of like Juneteenth in the US) and there is an 'official' celebration/memorial service in Amsterdam where normally at least some politicians would show their face and speak. The organisation has said they don't want Bosman (that's his name) there because he's a racist asshole. He's planning to go anyway.

an MP who blatantly denies there is famine in Gaza and says 2000 aid trucks enter the Gaza strip every week.

the leader of that ^ gang who is bffs with Viktor Orbán (Hungarian PM) and the American republicans (that should tell you enough), who was going to make sure there would be 'less Moroccans' in The Hague after winning local elections there, has insulted Islam on various occasions throughout the past 20 or so years, and wants to ban people from having dual citizenship except that one guy in his own party he kinda forgot about

The daughter of an immigrant who opposes immigration and wants to stop people from bringing their family here when they've officially been told they can stay. The EXACT same law that allowed her father to bring her and her mother and siblings here after he left Turkey when she was a kid. She also claims hundreds of thousands of people do this every year - which is bullshit, but she 'didn't do it on purpose' so it's ok.

a minister of housing who actively opposed building plans in her city. And also who nobody takes seriously because she got kicked out of her old party for openly criticising their covid policies during lockdown. Comedians love her because she says stupid shit all the time that they can use to make fun of her.

the leader of the farmers party who can't do maths, won't let anyone run the numbers on her party's plans because it's "not important what things cost or how they'd be paid for"

So yeah - the country is going to shit!

[cybernightart]

This isn't very well written out because it's 1 am and I just have to get this out so I can sleep lol

Very heavy Gency content!

Okay so I've seen quite a few people say they don't like gency purely for the reason that it would put mercy in a position of constantly looking after Genji like she does with every one and it's the role she gets put into all the time but I would like to present this idea. (More than likely nowhere near unique idea and is definitely been depicted before but this is just how I view their relationship)

While in everyday stuff mercy is the caretaker and the one that looks after everyone and makes sure everyone is healthy and okay, we know she is not very good taking care of herself in the same way. So, I very much picture in their relationship Genji more often than not is the one taking care of her, he makes her food, she makes sure she's taking care of herself, he physically lifts her away from her desk and carries her to bed because she has not slept in far too long, and she's just overall destroying her own because she is clawing and scraping for every drop of energy that she can put back into trying to help people while completely ignoring herself. She has been helping people for so long that she doesn't fully know how to justify helping herself, so Genji helps pull her away from this downward spiral of basing her worth off of how much she can help others, I either mentally or physically pulling her away from her work and taking care of her and being with her.

End of the exact same time mercy is allowing Genji to be something he wasn't allowed to before, when he was in the shimada clan he saw the name sparrow for being too soft and small and having too big of a heart for what was needed, they tried to turn him into a heartless killer and when he didn't want to and he said no they tried to have him killed. And with that not working, they unintentionally succeeded on their goal of turning Genji into a weapon, he was raised and now made especially in black watch for the sole purpose of revenge, destruction and death. Thanks to zenyatta he was able to come to terms with his body and see he is not a weapon he is Genji, he is his own person that his past is not determine him but rather forms a part of him which is ever growing. And even now he is still a ninja, that is something that will never change, but he is still deadly and dangerous and can be brutal swift and efficient, but when he's with Angela he can be soft and caring and be something other than a bringer of death. He can be gentle, cuddly and warm with her. She needs someone to force her to take care of herself and he wants nothing more than to just take care of her, obviously she takes care of him too but Genji is doing more small but meaningful and big gestures.

Genji when he's with mercy can lay there just holding and cuddling with her, that nothing else around the matters, he gets to live this unfamiliar but amazing feeling of pure love, pure love that brings an uncontrollable grid to his face whenever he gets to hold her. And even when they're just together, he can stand near her, be by her side, protect her and take care of her. And he knows she does not need him to protect her, if someone tried she would kick their butt.

So in short mercy gets to take a break from giving and receives, and Genji gets a break from brutally taking and gets to give.

I Can also see this playing into the Love languages I picture them having, they both love quality time, Genji loves giving acts of service, while mercy loves giving words of affirmation. And without dangerous their jobs are, and Genji wearing armor 99% of the time whenever he gets a chance to take off his armor, love physical affection. They'll both just constantly be touching each other in some way, like Genji moving Angela's hair out of her face/brushing his hand against his arm/pulling her in for a full embrace will he buries his face into her neck, or like mercy running her fingers through Genji's hair/holding his face in her hands and running her thumb gently against his scars/holding Genji's hand (or fingers) whenever he seems nervous.

Like I don't have the words to describe how I imagine fully their love being except for like comforting warm fire, like a fuzzy blanket with a warm drink cuddled up on the couch with a crackling fire as it blizzards outside, just pure love not only romantic but also best friends, they could just sit talking for hours being in each other's company and even sit in silence comfortably and just being together is enough.

Vibes like the one song "rises the moon" calming almost like a lullaby or "golden hour"

I have no idea if any of that made sense because I'm exhausted but I hope I at least got some of my point across.

[robineatsworms]

saw that one pic on twitter and immediately thought of #them

[paranormaljones]

The 1975 song 'About You' was written about Lockwood and Lucy particularly in The Creeping Shadow, no I do not take constructive criticism.

Dive into this with me.

Down to the fact that it's nearly a duet, this song is THEM. I'm gonna break down the lines that stand out to me and explain why.

Let's begin. Listen along, if you like.

I know a place It's somewhere I go when I need to remember your face We get married in our heads Something to do while we try to recall how we met

Starting off strong with the second half of the first verse, which immediately brings to mind the quote from TCS, where Lucy talks about imagining Lockwood "going down on bended knee" to beg her to come back. Not quite a marriage proposal, but let's not pretend she hasn't thought hazily about that scenario as well.

Do you think I have forgotten? Do you think I have forgotten? Do you think I have forgotten About you?

And on to the chorus. To me, this is coming straight from Lockwood. It SCREAMS 'conversation in Lucy's apartment' to me. Lucy tries to pretend that she was unbothered by her departure from Lockwood & Co. and then by Lockwood's sudden appearance, when in fact she's an emotional hurricane internally. Lockwood, on the other hand, barely tries to disguise how much he wants her back in his life. He makes an effort not to pressure her or scare her, but he can't keep himself from telling her that there's "no one else I would want at my side." look at that, another proposal parallel

You and I (Don't let go) We're alive (Don't let go) With nothing to do, I could lay and just look in your eyes

I don't think I need to remind anyone how much these two love to gaze into each other's eyes; yes, I'm bringing show canon into this. But really it's both. Lockwood regularly finds Lucy's gaze in the books, so much that she notices, and she of course can't stop looking at him ever.

Wait (Don't let go) And pretend (Don't let go, oh) Hold on and hope that we'll find our way back in the end (In the end)

OKAY HELLO?????? THIS IS WHERE IT GETS REAL

This is literally the plot of the beginning of TCS. Both of them pretending that they're okay being apart, that they don't miss each other desperately, and yet still holding on to hope that they'll find their way back to each other. Lucy hoping that Lockwood will come after her, Lockwood spending all winter trying to figure out how to bring her back (his literal words). And (as I imagine them) Lucy's "don't let go"s begging him to hold on to her, even though she had to leave for his sake, in her mind.

Now on to Lucy's bit.

And there was something about you that now I can't remember It's the same damn thing that made my heart surrender And I'll miss you on a train, I'll miss you in the mornin' I never know what to think about I think about you (Don't let go) About you (Don't let go)

This paints a perfect picture in my mind of Lucy's turmoil in trying to be okay with leaving Lockwood behind, but surrendering to the fact that she can't let go of him. She misses him everywhere, in everything that she does. The frustration and the tension of her undeniable feelings are EVERYWHERE here.

It's also worth noting that those last two lines are Lockwood literally telling her, again, that he's thought all winter of how to bring her back and how much he misses her. He doesn't pretend.

And then the chorus repeats.

So anyways there's that, this is one of my favorite songs and reading The Creeping Shadow has given me a whole new reason to cry about it.

[rosesncarnations]

A brainrot spiral while I dissociate at work

Have a Sammy pic for the road

I was reading this neris fic (it’s fantastic but I’m picking at it so I don’t want to like “negatively” promote them [human being behind the screen] also casually can’t remember names of titles for the life of me) and it had Beron as half human (which I fuck with) and that’s why he has so many children

But that’s not how that works. If either parent were not fully fae it’d be more like loa as the fully fae have their periods twice a year (if I remember correctly) [theoretically dropping an egg twice a year]

Unless male fae have a far lower amount of viable sperm (more blanks I suppose) but even then you still have the difficulty on the female side so like you’d still need either the fae equivalent of ivf and hormones or they’re both not fully fae