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dykedvonte · 29 days ago

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Can you talk about trans!Curly a little bit more? I'm curios if you have any headcanons and the like

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It's just such a thing in my mind because it adds a truthful sadness and differing aspect to mouthwashing.

If Curly was trans it adds the horror of the horribly selfish thought he could have easily been in Anya's situation. It could've been him but it wasn't and he so conflicted on the pit it put in his stomach that brings and the shameful relief it wasn't. In this scenario he is friends with Jimmy for a long time still. Jimmy likely knew him pretransition. Maybe he gave Curly weird looks then, maybe they never stopped after, maybe they seemed meaner. They are guys now, bros, both of them are. He doesn't really have to worry what those looks mean anymore, Jimmy just has that face with him sometimes. It's recontextualizing a lot of things for him that he was in denial about or too ashamed to admit. How naive he was being and how he let that get another person hurt.

Specifically with Anya, it's he knows the dread and fear she's feeling. He can understand it because he had to live with it for a good portion of his life, he knows it cause he still does, just in a slightly different way. It makes him think of all the times he's been alone with Jimmy, all the times he's been way more drunk off his ass and not remember the night, Jimmy was always with him the next day. Makes him think of the comments he would laugh off both because that's what guys do but because that part of being a girl says to laugh so Jimmy doesn't do something. It's the selfish realization that he was never safe and he's uncertain now too. Mad at himself for forgeting that feeling, espcially since for a long time he would've been considered the only woman on a crew (with all that implies) for a long time.

He should've taken those blinders off, step back into that position for just a moment and it's so much more painful that Anya likely came to him because he should've gotten it. Those thoughts don't leave his mind after the crash when he's in an even more vulnerable position than she was...

#this is less headcanons and more my thoughts of the intersectional horror this brings to mouthwashing which is also a thing it #already has but more directly in the mix vs just the class gender and positional struggle. like the idea he waited to confront Jimmy becaus #he could conceptualize the crime better because of experience with womanhood and also how it would've destroyed him in terms of being trans #like its weird to word as a comparison but thats kinda how empathy works as in an understanding and ability to project through aspects #like you found out your friend who has always had weird feelings about and relating to you is a rapist and got one of your other friend #pregnant and is now being openly hostile and aggressive towards you. You have only a few days to really think on all of this all the years #with him and how many oppurtunites he had that you blame yourself for giving him both in life and to do to you. You are starting to #realize that he may have done what he did to Anya because it was no longer viable with him or because of weird transphobia/homophobia #from Jimmy and god its so much and he should've know better and what did Jimmy do then - c r a s h #he is at such a small amount of mercy to Jimmy now and he can't protect Anya and it's terrifying because i know and you know that Jimmy is #giving him those weird looks again...#like it adds another layer of horror to things and while I don't think Jimmy would do anything to Curly it's heavily implied he targeted he #because of relatively more important position and getting Curly to have doubts about him as a power play and Curly knows Jimmy well enough #that him immediately exerting his authority and power would set him off after already having been mad about it and even when doing #damage control it still set him off. like its the horror of accidenlty siding with your oppresser and hurting other like you only to then b #stabbed in the back again by the person who took advantage of your nature like its so complext but my actual trans curly headcanons #are just a little bit happier like i imagine he was the first on the boys soccer team and a star player. maybe he and jimmy even picked ou #his first offical “boy” clothes and Jimmy picked most so he looked like the grungiest white boy but she was a boy so it didn't matter cause #it was with his friend who accepted him and I bet on the bed he looks back at all those moments and notices the little details that his #friend wasnt actually so happy but he can't be certain when he started looking so bitter or hes just imagining out of paranoia cause he jus #cant know and even if he could he wouldn't want to ask like god thinking about Anya and probably being a little glad if not heartbroken #that she did get out of it in the end like trans curly and anya destroy me even more its so upsetting like he didn't realize how much he go #you girl and waited to act like it was cowardice but then would she not realize what hes realizing? should that be a grace or more of a #condemnation in her mind like what are her thoughts? espically during the scene Jimmy hits Curly like she had to hear and what did she thin #they are tormented in a similar hells with the same demon and its fascinating #mouthwashing #mouthwashing game #anya mouthwashing #curly mouthwashing #jimmy mouthwashing

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teddybeartoji · 16 days ago

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thank you everybody who crossed their fingers and toes bc aventurine AND acheron are now both safely at home:3333333333

#the amount of tickets i went through?#let's not talk abt that #i also got six sampo's #and like eight (??) pela's #(i was about to fucking kill somebody i don'T EVEN USE HERRRR LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEEEE LITTLE LADY)#and then tingyun and hanya and yukong (2x)#and gepard #who is cute but at the moment i was not that happy bc he was standing between me and my wife😠😠😠😠#i feel like i'm forgetting someone lmao #anyway #acheron was playing hard to get i do feel just a bit sad bc i am so low on tickets now and i kinda wanted her lc too #and idk whether i should still try to get it or not............................#my brother pulled her for me btw😭😭😭#i was losing hope but then he came into my room to talk abt his day and i was like okok . i need you to just push this button for me #AND IT ONLY TOOK TWOOOOO PULLS #😭😭😭😭😭😭#everybody say thank you mickey's little brother we love you mickey's little brother #i can't even use her rn though bc i can't get a good relic set for her lmao #I CAN USE AVENTURINE THOUUUGHHH AND HE'S SOO SOO GOOD EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE I LOVE ITTTT #mmmm i should probably level up tingyun too right i've heard that she's good #i'm facing another very difficult decision now though bc................. i love jy...........................#but how many lightning charas do i need...................... if firefly is really getting a rerun at the same time........................#i might....................................... prioritize her.....................................#I HATE ITTTTT:(((((((((((((((#BUT I WANT JY TOOOO:(((((((((((((((((((#genuinely feels like i'm betraying him wahhhhhhhhh #anyway i'm in (what i hope) are my period feelings so hhhhhhhhhh #dying over and over again but dw i'll be back on my regular bs soon:333333 #mayor of loserville

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 years ago

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#i feel like I posted this already but I also can't find it in any recent posts so...#......he #cats #EVEN if I did post it.. why not poast himb again? it's he #I'm like halfway through actually editing aforementioned costumes and stuff and i WANT to work on sculptures again and I have video #s and that worldbuilding slideshow and all of these things so hopefully like.. more usual stuff soon maybe.. to be posted #for now though yeah.. just cats #The end of the year is also when I panic about the passage of time and how little I've gotten done and how I will never actually be a #sucessful game maker slash author slash cat cafe owner slash set designer slash costume designer slash psychologist #who lives in like Scotland or somehting and also owns my own candle company or something ghbjhb #and will probably just be a mentally ill hermit recluse all my life who dies early of mysterious health issues with 5000 projects left #undone and blah blah the crushing weight of chronic illness and capitalism and so on and so forth #So then I scramble to get projects done to try and meet some goals but usually that means I scatter between projects #so it takes longer to finish all of them. Like instead of dedicating 8 hours to one thing and finishing it one sitting. I'll do 2 hours on #this then 2 hours on that then 2 hours on another things. so they all get done slower even though I'm still technically making progress on #them all. This is also a very poo poo pee pee stink brain way to work and is not like. the most efficent thing but it's just how my brain #organizes tasks sometimes lol #***#(<ignore this its part of an OCD compulsion lol. anytime you see me type three asterisks I'm not bleeping out a curse word #it's just a Special Secret Foolish Thing I Have To Do At Specific Uncontrolable Times When Brain Says So gbjhhj)#ANYWAY... eeeee #Still haven't resolved my mystery chest injury though so being at te computer for too long is also kind of achey-inducing #Better get over it though because I have like 30+ hours of slideshow vidoe to edit hahaha hee hee hoo!!!!!

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passerinesoncaffeine · 24 days ago

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the irony of one the first main things established about omori as a character is that he's known for his great memory as if he hasn't lost the entire fucking plot repeatedly for years.

like he has a great memory!! if you don't take into account He's Actually The God Of Repression.

#replaying the game aggaaaiinnnn #now with full appreciation for foreshadowingggg #omori #omori spoilers #raven rambles #.....should probably have like a tag specifically for playing incase people wanna block it lmfao #raven plays omori #fr though he has a great memory until he forgets minor details like he was designed to help sunny forget everything #goddddddd it kinda makes you wonder though how much of it he's aware of #it's implied he still remembers basil after deep well. but I dont know if he's aware he's actively causing everyone else's #memory of him to disappear. like yeah yeah deep well is designed to make him forget too. he set himself up #to make sure sunny never reached blackspace. the loop resets if they fail. if they die #but the whole branch coral dialogue makes it seem like yes. omori is still very aware of basil's existence.#I have a lot of thoughts on deep well.#and especially omori not really realizing he's the one sending basil to blackspace because in past loops it was stranger who confronted him #his guilt of leaving basil is the one thing still tying sunny to the real world. mari is dead. he can't do anything about that except forge #basil is still alive.#as long as he remembers that basil exists #he will keep unknowingly dragging himself back to blackspace. blackspace would stay hidden if stranger wasnt haunting him lmao #he starts the loop by sending him there and then follows through on it by searching for him because he's not yet aware its his own fault #idk it's. aaaaaaaaaaaa #the hug in the true ending is everything to meeeeeee #I have a lot of thoughts about blackspace too but not right nowww thats an essay for much laterrrrr #there's just something about the “deity forgets theyre a deity and rediscovers it later and denies it and forgets again” that kills me #ESPECIALLY WITH THE FUCKING TIME LOOP #and then there's the route additions. he can accept it but he'll try to fight sunny to end it one final time #looooookkkk I'm veryyyy norMALLL ABOUT THIS GAAAAME #hylia and omori remind me of each other in their sort of ignorance of their own power. hylia being the reincarnations of zelda #see it all loops back to just Tropes I Fucking Love #there's a pattern here. do you see the pattern?

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lunar-wandering · 4 months ago

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head hurty

#was up so fucking late last night stressed out of my mind #cause it turns out all the stress and sacrifices i made for the foundational course i took??#all for fucking nothing #''the waitlist hasn't moved.'' yeah cause y'all brought in way more foundations students #than u actually had the diploma course space for #and like. theres nothing else i can fucking do.#if i try to get into a university i'd have to do something like a foundations course all over again #and have to do a bunch of shit i have no interest/talent in in order to get to the stuff i DO have interest/talent in #which is just fucking stupid. why the fuck is it set up like that.#if i'm trying to get into a uni creative writing course why the FUCK do i need to take SCIENCE #and i can't do online courses that are just writing. cause i can't fucking FOCUS in an online course #and any other course i might be interested in are in schools that are too damn far away and that i cant afford #so basically. i can do fucking nothing.#but once i tell my parents that the waitlist hasn't moved and that im definitely not gonna make it in #they're going to start HOUNDING me. even more than they already constantly do #im gonna have to sit through 3 hours of them yelling at me to ''stop pretending to be an idiot'#and to ''pull my life together''#and that ''everyone has to do stuff they don't like sometimes''#(yeah well my brain doesn't work like that. if i dont like the subject of the course i literally CAN'T LEARN)#(i will just straight up not retain any of the information and just be annoyed and stressed and upset the whole time)#and my parents will tell me im gonna end up living under a bridge for the thousandth time #and then they'll threaten to kick me out of the house/take away my internet for the millionth time #and then this will happen every day until i get into SOMETHING

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tmae3114 · 1 year ago

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So I originally wrote this back in August when this release was fresh and then!!! APPARENTLY!!! just COMPLETELY forgot to post it!! so you get it now, three months late.

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Some of the dialogue from the Guardian Tower has been living rent free in my head and now I want to yell about it because it’s SO GOOD for background lore

Okay, so, on the first floor, Mindi tells us this:

I really like this because it helps illustrate one of the logistical problems of the Rose. Like, even if you took away everything else that makes them bad (which, admittedly, is most of the organisation and its purpose), the fact that they tend to, by default, present themselves as the only option and drive out competition is bad. On paper, a force of people trained in combat against magical threats, with reasonably easy access to that training, which has garrisons stationed across the land, is actually a pretty good solution to the whole Recurring Evil Magical Threats thing. We know this because the guardians and the paladins and the dragonslayers exist! They do this! The Rose seems to make membership easier to access but, frankly, I suspect that is in part because their training is less thorough.

And when the Rose show up and drive those other groups out (like they’ve done with the Guardians), they don’t actually improve anything. Best case scenario, everything is exactly the way it was before. More likely, things would get worse, because the people with active experience defending a particular area have been driven away and now the Rose members have to play catch-up

(A good example of how on paper a group like the Rose could help an area is Book 3 Amityvale. The local Guardians were long gone, so the Rose were able to help without doing that extra damage and made Amityvale a safer place to live....... but that’s specifically for the human inhabitants. Plus, we know they’re affecting the magic of the area - Amaris’s moon has started having phases - and that’s! probably not good! Also see: Raven having to flee for her own safety after getting bitten by a werewolf. Even where they are ostensibly doing the most good, the Rose are still an active danger to many, even their own in the wrong circumstances)

And, meanwhile, on the ground floor...

......further proof that the Rose actively try to drive competition out of the area. Falconreach has repeatedly made it clear that they want nothing to do with the Rose and they keep picking fights with the patrols.

#dragonfable #tags following this are unaltered from the post as it was drafted:#look it's been a little bit vague re: Are The Rose Still Blockading Falconreach's Port And/Or Is It Still Canon That They Were Doing That #but the Rose ACTIVELY PICKING FIGHTS WITH THE GUARDIANS? that's SO juicy #Falconreach is. as far as we know. the ONLY big visible safe haven for magical beings.#Ravenloss and Sulen'eska are both actively hidden #Falconreach is a refugee safe zone and the Rose are THE PRIMARY REASON MOST OF THOSE PEOPLE ARE REFUGEES #and the Rose have been trying to MOVE IN on that territory #they pick fights with patrols from Falconreach's defenders OFTEN based on that ''again''#I bet you that's not a secret #I bet you the people of Falconreach KNOW that this happens #is it any wonder that the Rose showing up after the Calamity War offering to help rebuild almost incited a riot?#that would've been setting off SO MANY warning bells in SO MANY people's heads #most of Falconreach probably didn't hear an offer for help. they heard an enemy they've been fighting off try to get in through a weak point #and I can't blame them #tags from here on added when I found the post again:#so I did post /some/ of these thoughts. including some in the tags. I just did it in many thoughts head full mode #there was a lot of 'something something' in that one. this one I put a bunch of it into words #I cannot BELIEVE I forgot to post this and it sat in my drafts for three months. ridiculous #also I miss horizontal line breaks so much.... give me formatting again tumblr.......

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dutybcrne · 3 months ago

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Kaeya deffo loves possessive partners, send tweet-

#hc; kaeya #//P sure I wrote smth like this before; but can't find it kjdxngdgh #//But ye #//Genuinely gets weak-kneed for real possessive partners; be it the kind who scare off ppl getting a lil TOO close to him #//Or the kind to mark him up/give him gifts to wear to show he's theirs #//It's like crack cocaine to him jknfkfth #//He draws the line at ppl getting hurt on his account (if they didn't mean any harm/show actual interest in him)#//But he won't actually make any moves to stop any fights if he genuinely thinks it's called for otherwise #//Before getting together with his partner; he deffo has his moments of deliberately setting off their jealousy/possessiveness #//Juuust bc he loves to see it. But also bc he genuinely can't believed he's cared abt that much #//In a relationship; he deffo reins himself back a LOT #//Has no problems with their possessiveness carrying over into their relationship #//Again; as long as it doesn't border on irrational to the extent of his other loved ones/innocent ppl getting hurt; he's cool with it #//It's just that feeling of his partner being obsessed with him with ABSOLUTE certainty he's the only one in their eyes that gets him #//It's not soft and pure; so he doesn't balk at it as much as he would typical tender and sweet love #//It's deffo overwhelming and would scare him at first; but seeing how serious they are would make him cave SO fast #//In an ideal world; he gets a lover with that duality down PAT #//Person who is genuinely a sweetheart that treats him right; with a possessive streak a mile wide #//Kae's more than confident he can handle them if he needs to draw attention to them crossing any lines #//And would likewise trust them to back off when he needs them too #//Bc he would deffo have the intention to reward them for following through with either boundary scenario #//Oke; back to writings #//Another reason why he is so accepting/welcoming of possessive partners is bc he himself V possessive of his beloved #//But HELLA holds back #//Would 100% match energy/possessiveness the INSTANT he's aware of it #//Albeit with slightly different methods to go about showing it; he DOES have a reputation to maintain after all

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thecoolerbrother · 2 months ago

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i think something moonage daydream was really good at doing was capturing a vibe

#sir.txt #the thing it was second best at was painting a picture... that movie is a watercolor rendition of a galaxy to me #i feel like the linear progression of bowie's life in the movie never being marked by any specific dates not even years... it gives it that #not cut and dry feeling. none of these events exist solely in one day of one year they are something that will span longer than ourselves #one day- a couple of hours- stretched into infinity simply by the fact that they were not confined within a date #i think that's something worthy of bowie. to be immortalized not through the medium itself but by how the medium refuses to cage him within #any set parameters that would be too extreme and unsatisfying for him would he be there to choose #instead letting him trespass all those barriers and just be and transcend #my boyfriend says the film is like bowies superstar cosmic journal well i say the film is like bowies watercolor rendition of a galaxy in #formation- and all the stars are still forming and the watercolor still hasn't dried as another layer is added so shades melt within-into-#each other #like how bowie refused to keep himself caged within one style one look one identity he surpassed all of those boundaries and transformed #into something else... it is only fair that the film capture it in a similar way... all of the flashy colors and editing is just a #projection of bowies spirit itself in all its vibrancy and extravagance without being supercilious #this movie was touching but also fun for the sake of fun and eccentric for the sake of eccentricity. it's a must watch for whoever loves #bowie at his most raw and unrestrained and undefined... i felt like falling through the screen to bw held by him at several moments #BECAUSE that's what the movie is it's the galaxy wrapping its arms around the unknowing astronaut #and welcoming them into itself because nobody in this reality is actually an outsider of life- nobody passively observes the universe-#that's something that i found very moving in the film was how bowie surpassed that feeling of all-encompassing loneliness that was #what propeled him to create art... and found acceptance and loving and understood he wasn't alien to all of it.#it's very moving again like i said. but specially movingfor someone like me who struggles so hard not to simply idly observe things and let #life reject me. I can't keep letting these things write themselves into existence over and over and maybe just maybe #that film helped me snap back into a higher sense of lucidity where i realise i have to take control of my life #but like. anyway.#bowies life is very mythologised but in part it is very much a self constructed myth which he himself took the time to skillfully architect #and its such that myth ceases to be only in suspension and untangible: bowie being extraterrestrial.#he.... he integrates so much into the planet he does become an energy traversing through earth. he becomes life itself but in the least self #important way this sentiment could be expressed.#there will never be another bowie- as there will never be another dylan or reed or lennon. there will never be circumstances which will come #but to quote the movie. his life hasnt ended. only changed. thats beautiful. anyways my tags are up

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thelovelybitten · 11 months ago

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i actually find it interesting and quite the detail that when lexi's feeling sick or under the weather her ears are droopy ! (s2 ep2)

i also can't imagine the pain her ears must go through being tied up frequently but that could also lean into my hc of her not wanting to hear multiple brain waves all at once.

anyways, viv rewatches lu for like, the umpteenth time what's new

#faves: lu #lexi bunny #loonatics unleashed #queen of the loonatics #viv speaks #she's my little angel baby cake and I wanna put her in my pocket :"(((((#I'LL PROTECT U ALEXIS #and yes. that is her full name she just goes by lexi #I SAID WHAT I SAID.#anyway i'm watching lu again so i can edit i'm desperate #my brain is having a crisis and i- myself- am going through a crisis #she's so baby girl y'all i can't #anyway i'm also going to be making lu gif sets bc no one wants to feed the tag SO I WILL.#>:D

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iri-vail · 2 months ago

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I played mouthwashing because of a person on the dash 2 days ago and it hasn't left me alone for even a second. I've been unable to sleep for 2 nights now, not because I played a horror game and got scared, but because I keep waking up in a cold sweat with half-formed essay ideas on my lips. I think this game changed me as a person

#i think it's mainly bc the game does such a good job of getting you into the headspace of the player character #a lot of games force the player into doing stuff they don't want to that's not anything new #but combined with how well it sets up the human emotions at play and the fact that you /know/ someone who /would/ do these things...?#man i just #huh #feels bad to hurt people #also i'm usually the kind of person pretty convined that i would do better in horror films #rationally i know that depending on the situation your brain just stops functioning correctly etc #but for example (until dawn spoilers) that game /never/ made me feel like in that situation i would have cannibalized my sister #it just didn't make me feel desperate enough for that ig?#mouthwashing however... i don't think i would have coped better if i was anya #anya coped extraordinarily wel #and the way the narrative tries to minimize her role makes me feel queasy #like fuck #good game #i want to play it again and see all the implications i missed #more games should be 2-3 hrs #admittedly i rushed through it a bit #bc i am soooo scared of horror games #i actually wanted to quit after 1 hour bc i just don't deal well with the feeling of a jumpscare around the corner #but i saw that i was p much halfway through anyway and continued on #best decision of my life #now on to play how fish are made #if it's even half as well-thought-out and written as mouthwashing i'll gladly be freaked out again #(maybe if i force myself through enough jumpscares i'll finally desensitize myself)#(ongoing project of my life)#(i LOVE horror but i am sosososo scared!!!!)#also if you are the person who has been reblogging this game the past few days PLEASE say hi #i've been scrolling but i can't remember your username and i want to thank you and also yell at you :')

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inniave · 2 months ago

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god bless 20 year old forums

#the only way i was able to make sure the biggest xd card my camera can take!#new camera!!!!!!!!!!!!!#cause my other digicam is probably going on hospice soon......... i don't want him to die 😭😭😭#the new camera is from 2005ish as far as i can tell #so similar age #but it has much more features #and uses an xd card rather than sd (hence why i was checking size capatibility cause i can't use the sd cards i have)#which i just bought myself an sd card phone reader....... and now i'm switching to xd....... it's fine 😭#anyway i can't store pics yet but i've been going through the manual (again thank u 20 year old sites!!!!!) and testing a lot of the thibgs #i'm making a step up!!!!!!#i don't think i'll be able to replicate the old digicam looks #but i think it takes photos like that because it's broken lol #but i think this one will look cool too!!!!!#and it has a lot more settings like iso and apurature and stuff #so i'm excited!!!!!!!!#going out to the state park later this month and i'm excited to take lots of tree pictures hehehehheehe

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months ago

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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently

#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting #with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though #you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would #think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page #disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol #THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended #(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever #so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with #no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know #EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably #It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end #point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc #I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc #rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is #not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school #but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia #and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like #the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot #or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are #familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them #Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol

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loadinghellsing · 2 years ago

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I am surprised no one has drawn Alucard and Anderson walking Baskerville. Why make them just a couple if they can be a couple with a dog?

i fear anderson cares too heavily about the proper rules for dog walking where Alucard could not care less... dog walks are filled with many disputes...

However- Anderson suffers from 'I see something cute and fluffy- I must coddle" instincts... and thus Baskerville is deemed the most useless of weapons/an instant draw

#i contribute #doodle #andercard #alexander anderson #hellsing alucard #---#i had to draw baskerville like that in the second drawing #it had to be done #also i only realized half way through that my pen was set to the wrong size...#sooooooo doing asks while fixing/setting up all my art controls again #this was a really fun ask to do btw #because i absolutely headcanon anderson as adoring just about all animals #real reason for his look of defeat in hellsing ultimate #is because he saw the horses #and went 'awww shit i can't hurt those'#paired with the question we all have #'ALUCARD ATE HORSES?!?!'

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sysig · 2 years ago

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#Doodles #SCII #DAX #ZEX #The Captain #I was doodling their human forms again recently and apparently didn't get it all the way out of my system despite filling a page lol #It's probably 'cause I mostly reread A Sudden Discovery! after finishing them off - I still thought I'd gotten my thoughts down!#Apparently not lol ♪ ZEX's hair with grey streaks got me hagh lol #DAX admiring his Admiral is very good hehe ♥ Can't deny how handsome he is down to his core! He shines through his skin!#The rest were just sillies lol #ZEX is in su~uch a predicament lol #Tiny ''Oh my'' lol #A human no matter which way he looks! It's a win-win!#DAX playing dirty - what if he just used ZEX as a battering ram against the Captain lol #As long as he doesn't injure either of them it's fiiiiiine #Similar pose to the one of ZEX lifting the Captain from ages ago huh :0 It's a fun pose set!#I dunno exactly what ZEX is showing off in the last one other than giving the Captain bedroom eyes while being held by DAX haha #''I'll catch you later~'' but literally pfft #He's insatiable I'm sure he will #Watch your hand there DAX

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muckmagister · 9 months ago

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did you ever fall in love with the majesty of colors

every freaking day brother 🤝

#i love doing that thing where you flood your vision with a primary colour and exhaust the cells in your eyes that perceive it #and then when you look away for a little while afterwards you can't see that colour (or at least it's a lot more muted in comparison)#i mean it's kinda like giving yourself temporary colour blindness but i love messing with my perception of reality #gives me a better understanding and appreciation of the world outside of my own subjective experience #and in the case of the colour thing specifically it's like. when something's missing you appreciate it more #as well as noticing things you may not have before and gaining appreciation for them too #it's a very grounding experience imo. seeing the mundane again through almost literally a new set of eyes #even if it is through artificially limiting your senses for a time #i mean if a shrimp that sees 16 primary colours or something got limited to just what we see for a little bit #would it not be able to appreciate those last three primaries so much more?#would it not even more greatly appreciate the breadth of colours it sees normally?#i like this ask a lot actually fksjks ^^#askmuck

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loumauve · 4 months ago

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dhl wasting everybody's time again. notification card says to pick up at 1pm the following day. no information available online to check which package etc. go to pickup point at 1:30pm. package nowhere to be found. dude searching everywhere, meanwhile ppl just wanting to buy shit are having to wait. ends up looking it up online, suddenly there's info that there will be a notification email once it arrives at the pickup point. amazing.

just fucking stop putting times on the card if it's never accurate. you're stressing out the drivers. pissing off the folks in the pickup point having to deal with disgruntled recipients and wasting the time of ppl going to pick sth up that's not there and then having to guess when it'll maybe be delivered if you never get another notification

#just. fucking stop setting expectations you can't keep and be realistic for once #I wouldn't mind waiting if it meant not trecking through the scalding sun for half an hour only to have to head back again

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