#I haven't eaten

[supersumc]

You ever have that moment when you're walking by some brush or shrubs and you have to calm your inner animal because you heard something that would make a nice snack rustling inside of it? Bonus points if you haven't eaten all day.

[popcorn-plots]

me: why do I feel like shit

also me: *hasn't eaten in two days*

also me: *is sick and hasn't had any human interaction outside of my family and the internet for two weeks*

[carbonarbonmanarbon]

I Have Moots I Dont Know About??

Apparently people who I follow. Also follow me. And the hellsite didn't think to let me know???

Well this can only mean one thing.

Step one: collect all the mutuals I was not previously aware of (some of you are just people I don't talk to)

@kawamari-p @snazzynjazzy1 @toulouseradiosilence @thegaymaruader @coreplush @balaklaus13 @cuddlebugsirius

Step two: fIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT-

[newtness532]

if the bus doesnt come soon i might start crying

[timewaster4531]

Wait have i ate anything today?????????

[elmistometer]

Literally all I've been doing all day is doomscroll through YouTube and Tumblr, too scared to even look at my mother once 😁

[sam-sessington-the-third]

this is how the cruise adventure arc went right??

[casino-lights]

so. the thing about Illario and Lucanis.

I don't have the screenshots but somewhere in Lucanis' mind, you hear Illario's voice saying "If I was in charge, you wouldn't have to do this anymore." as far as I can tell, all the other lines in his memories are from the game, but this one is from The Wigmaker Job. the story that took place over a year (probably more) prior to the events of the game. it's referring to a scene where Lucanis comes back from their contract, injured, and Illario, worried about his cousin, says that Lucanis wouldn't have to do Caterina's bidding anymore if Illario was First Talon. so now we know Lucanis still thinks about that conversation, even though it happened so long ago.

two other things about The Wigmaker Job: 1) Illario is a lot different in it and in some ways he seems more competent than the Illario we get in veilguard; and 2) we see Zara Renata at the end, and she already has Lucanis in her sights. depending on how much time passed between that contract and Lucanis' kidnapping, she could've been setting this up for months to years.

in the concept art/storyboard frames that were recently released, Zara is hardcore giving siren in the first image and it almost looks like she's straight up controlling Illario via blood magic in the second (imo)

now imagine if Zara was looking into Lucanis, started with the people closest to him, found Illario, and said all the right things. imagine she said he should be First Talon, Caterina never loved him, Lucanis doesn't believe in him and is secretly just tolerating him, he can save Antiva from the Antaam (or whoever else), he can lead the Crows to their long-awaited unification and make them even stronger, he's the smartest prettiest most super special boy in the whole wide world, etc. (if you give this man an ounce of praise and he actually believes it, he will crumble, I know it.)

now imagine Zara, having successfully sunk her claws into Illario - Lucanis Dellamorte's cousin, the only person closer to the Demon of Vyrantium than the First Talon herself - manages to convince him to let her kill Lucanis. he doesn't have to do it himself so there's less guilt. there's no way Caterina would make him First Talon if Lucanis was alive. and then Illario would be in a position to protect his beloved Antiva because if there's one thing the Antivan Crows are, it's patriots. I think Zara played Illario like a fucking fiddle and the game was just really bad at showing us that. I think when her spirit says "he fooled us both," she means he fooled her by being less of a coward than she thought and straight up killing her.

and maybe this is the Illario apologist in me, but I also think he realized the whole thing was a doomed plan after he was defeated. I mean, he shows up to the final battle to help, at risk of his own life. maybe he's trying to atone, maybe not, but still - he is there, and he sounds more like the Illario we see in The Wigmaker Job than whatever we got through the rest of the game. with his quippy little "was that suitably self-important?" line, he's closer to himself than he was this whole time, and that makes me wonder if maybe he wasn't fully Illario. maybe that was grief and guilt and a shaky sense of self and Zara's manipulation and the feeling of losing his grip on the power he never quite had to begin with, all bundled up into a new, bitter, resentful man. I think he was used like a pawn in Zara's chess game, and that doesn't take away from his agency in this situation or lessen the blow of his betrayal, but it does make it easier for me to swallow the fact that the Obvious Traitor Illario I was immediately skeptical of in-game is not the Illario I immediately loved after one scene in Tevinter Nights where he shaves a single hair because it was uneven with the rest of his five o clock shadow.

I think ultimately, Illario realized Lucanis would forgive him anyway. I think it's because he realized he would forgive Lucanis too.

[crabsnpersimmons]

day two of clawing my way out of artblock

tried something a little more ambitious today: i've been thinking of how i can bring my digital art style into my traditional art. so i tried experimenting by drawing chef Moon from my Have You Eaten? AU with markers and colour pencils (because honestly, it's the lineless details in their design that make them harder to draw traditionally, which is why i lined them all with a fineliner in their original drawing, which is fine, but it's a different feel from lineless version of my digital art, so i wanted to see if i can accomplish it)

i was tempted to just leave today's practice at that, but then i decided to note down my thoughts:

(definitely recommend marking up your drawings/studies, or write your notes elsewhere.)

overall i felt kinda dissatisfied with the experiment and marking it up with my thoughts helped pinpoint the problem areas and what i should try for the next time. so i took all that and tried again:

(i also decided last minute to try something with the lineart, adding darker areas by adding a few dots of a darker blue and blending it out. dunno if i'll do that all the time, but it's pretty)

but i'm glad i kept going after the initial experiment. i'm pretty happy with the final one (maybe i'll try Sun and Eclipse in the coming days. you have been thoroughly warned.)

[despazito]

You're lucky I no longer run badcharacterdesign

[nipuni]

DONEEEEEEEEE 😭❤️ I finished the game!! now I need to put my thoughts together so I can talk about it and process everything, and also make dinner, I'll get back to you soon!!

[irl-batsignal]

Red Hood, bestie, my dearest brother.. if one of your safehouse alarms goes off, ignore it. That may or may not be me going in to take something to eat. Yeahhh. Just ignore it, thanks girly

[canisalbus]

Machete and Vasco are so pomegranate-and-the-hand-that-slices coded. To me.

Pomegranates are seen as messy, bloody, inconvenient fruits. You slice or tear or bite and in return for your effort you come away underwhelmed, disgusted, and stained too deep to wash. The consumption of a pomegranate is a violent act of defilement, for both the fruit and the eater.

But that is because most do not understand how to open a pomegranate. They have little patience for the precise carving. They see no point in coreing the fruit gently, no reason to be reverent as they pull the quarters apart. When done correctly, opening a pomegranate leaves little mess. Your fingers will still stain, your knife will still slick, but there will be no pool of crimson drowning both you and the fruit.

The seeds are only sweet to those who understand the merit of a light hand and intricate slicing. Why put in so much effort for a food so bitter and clearly armored against consumption? Surely it must not yearn to be eaten.

(^insane about silly catholic dogs)

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[fallen-kingdoms-crk]

((I saw this post and immediately wanted to draw this... The Vanillaverse au's dad...))

((Also, don't worry about Vanilla Orchid, they were put in a box for trying to turn everyone into topiaries again))

MirroredVoices! Vanilla - @mirroredvoices-au (dunno if the @ worked but here's the link)

the vanillas on the leashes are(up front):

Polivine Vanilla - @itzrhymesgamers

Saint Vanilla - @cuppajj

Trapped Forever Soul au - @sleepyflowershead

(behind):

Crescent Moon - @juartist

Me and My Shadow au - @raptor1312

Little Game au - @little-game-pv

[capn-twitchery]

what the hell, grace. come on

presented with the context that twitch thinks they need more gold teeth. for the gold tooth contest (that they made up). because like hell they're gonna let some kind of scrimshanding loser win

[mortuarywriting]

Something something when u sass johnny