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iliothermia · 1 year ago

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Anons are off because I'm done with people lying in my inbox, insulting me, and just piling on. I am one person who is trying to deal with hatred from multiple sides but those sending these messages see themselves as just one person throwing in their opinion because you can't see the other 15 messages I get insulting me for the same thing. I feel like I've been clear about my stance and why I function how I do in my small space online. If you find issue with how I function then please just unfollow me and leave me alone. I'll be offline for a while but I appreciate everyone who's sent me caring messages and things to consider a lot. I'm genuinely disappointed though, that this all comes from me saying I love my Jewish community and I hope they're doing okay- My first message directed at supporting other Jews I've made, after months of reaffirming my care for Palestine. Stay safe yall.

#I have too much to get done rn anyway #I didn't get to do my shop update because things are late but at this point id rather take half my income for the month being gone over thi #I need to protect my stress related health issue still too. my wounds might have healed up but i need to make sure it doesnt flare up again #I'm genuinely sorry to anyone who my way of functioning isn't enough for. I can't be everyone's idol or hero or person they respect.#and i dont want to be any of that to anyone. im not some moral figure for others. im legit just a guy who draws personal art some people #ended up liking #anyway i need to stop looping on this. i hope everyone will have a good week.#jumblr

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hinamie · 7 months ago

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ik i've done like 5 panel redraws from 265 alone but this is the last one promise

#my art #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #yuji itadori #itadori yuuji #fanart #jjk fanart #jujutsu kaisen fanart #yuuji #jjk spoilers #jjk manga spoilers #jjk leaks #jjk 265 #timelapse #jjk but its me and im the one possessed and i cant stop doing yuuji panel redraws :'>#fr tho im done i swear i think ive drawn all my favourite yuujis from the leaks i can stop now #....the one of him crouching while fishing Is good too tho...#IM JOKING I WON'T (today)#my pinky actually hurts rn i will rest #the thing w timelapses is theres never much 2 say abt the process bc like. its all right there #th red flash was me accidentally hitting the paint fill button gomen :'< i always do either that or i accidentally crop it #they should move those buttons further away from each other >:((((#hmm other than that total time abt 4 hours his hair fought me a bit during the render but gojo voice Nah Id Win >:)#symmetry ruler my beloved <333 until i get 2 his scars n have to turn it off rip #anyway im going 2 go rest my hand do some stretches etc etc #self care i hear they call it

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13eyond13 · 1 year ago

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love it when a character that's hard to read intuitively for you has like a dedicated fandom interpreter who can just glance at their blank face in a panel and then give you a 3k word essay on their innermost thoughts & desires & fears and neatly tie it back into the themes & whatnot as if it's the most obvious thing in the world

#im talking about griffith btw #guts i feel i get intuitively - maybe because i have some personality traits in common with him #and we get more about his life concretely told to us in canon. so he is a bit easier to pin down as a character and feel attached to for me #but whenever i was reading the manga i just kept wanting more insight about griffith's actions and feelings #like ok yeah its fun to have mysterious antagonists and suspense /tension etc but its also fun to feel like you deeply understand them too #and i felt like that was a bit missing from him for me in canon #so reading about him in analysis and fics is the most fun for me rn #he always felt kinda half unreal to me- which maybe was the point of him - but i wanted a bit more about his childhood or something?#and wished we had more stuff explicitly from his pov in the story to read or explanation about his transformation or wtv #and now he's so much more closed off to me even than he was in the golden age. i keep waiting for him to explain stuff and he does not #ANYWAYS all this rambling to say some people out there are very good at interpreting him and making his like. insecurities #more obvious to me bc i didnt really get that side of him from canon intuitively well #also im really enjoying reading the first few berserk fics ive read #there may not be a ton of them out there but there is def writing talent in the fandom #i'll share some recs once i'm done sifting through most of what's out there to read #also (not to tie everything back to death note but it IS my home fandom after all)#i feel griffith is obvs the more light-like character here and L maybe a bit guts-like? but unlike berserk in death note #light is the one you get to know best and L is the mysterious / unreal one you don't get a lot of concrete insight into #and in the DN fandom I can read the more mysterious character intuitively but had to warm up to the less mysterious one instead #and the mystery of L makes sense to me and doesnt bug me as much due to like - he HAS to hide a lot about himself or else he will die lol #so some similarities there but also some opposite feels as well #berserk spoilers #p

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the-red-hoodlum · 2 months ago

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killing people who don’t get an animals consent before touching them &/or ignore when animals are visibly uncomfortable with being touched.

#MOTHERS FRIEND DOING THIS WITH OUR CAT RN IM PISSED.#SHE DIDNT EVEN GIVE TOFU ANY TIME TO SNIFF OR ANYTHING??#Sigh.#tofu came downstairs to see what was up bc person was in the house #But person just immediately started petting her #even tho tofu was visibly uncomfortable and clearly just wanted a sniff test or sm #went to my room asap after that and tofu followed quick on my heels #obvs I let her sniff as much as she wants before petting her (if she even wants fuss) so she had a sniff and very much seemed to want fuss #so I gave her a few strokes and then sorta checked in and she swirled around and bumped her head into my hand (all the while her tail was #pointed straight up with the tip quivering a little every few moments - a sign of happiness/excitement to see a familiar person)#so we had cuddles for a bit until she hopped off my chest to go get water or sm :3 #BUT I DONT GET WHY MORE PEOPLE DONT HAVE SIMPLE WHOLESOME INTERACTION WITH THEIR CAT LIKE THIS??#LIKE. CATS ARE SENTIENT. THEY SEEK AUTONOMY - ESPECIALLY BODILY AUTONOMY. WHY TF WOULD YOU NOT LET THEM GIVE/DENY CONSENT??#like. if you aren’t willing to learn enough about an animal to understand when it’s unhappy at the very least *why* would you interact with #one?? (This person literally has a cat as well.)#idk man these are the same sorts of people that’d probably do the ‘awww just give me a hug! I’m your auntie(/whatever)! why can’t i have a #hug? 🥺’ sorta thing.. like. BRO. It isn’t my/the cat ‘s fucking job to regulate/look after your own grown ass feelings.#SIGH..#just. The fact this person has like.. met tofu once. Lived in the same house as her for maybe 4/5 days one time and thinks the cat is #obligated to put up with her or whatever.#(This is how I imagine people be acting around cats when they’re like ‘idk man cats just don’t like me! Cats are just independent by nature #I’m just stood there having to listen to them shit talk a whole species bc they don’t understand consent (or at least don’t universally #value it - eg; with children; with animals) ANYWAYS. CATS ARE A SOCIAL SPECIES WHO HAVE DEVELOPED TO LIVE CLOSELY WITH AND DEPEND ON HUMANS #THEYRE OFTEN VERY AFFECTIONATE AND LOVING AND FORM LASTING RELATIONSHIPS WITH THEIR HUMANS AND WILL MOURN THEIR DEATH PROBABLY MORE THAN #HALF OF THE HUMANS WHO ATTENDED THEIR FUNERAL.)#If tofu doesn’t like you I don’t like you mate. I am wholeheartedly willing to cut people off if they act wrong with my cat - like - BRO.#IVE KNOWN HER LONGER THAN I HAVE MOST OTHER PPL IN MY LIFE. SHES GOT ME THROUGH WORSE AND IS ALWAYS HAPPY N EXCITED TO SEE ME.#That cat has done more for me than you ever have! She loves me with her whole fucking soul and I her with mine. If she picks up the wrong #vibes from you/you break any of her clearly set boundaries we are DONE.#(Obvs /nbh - nobody here. & generally lighthearted but uhh yeah needed to rant abt this bc I care strongly abt it and other ppl should too)

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bunnyboy-juice · 10 days ago

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#bunny rambles #i was “cleared” to go back to work yesterday but she told me i could use the rest of the time also if i wanted/needed #and im using it. but the little corporateanxietybot who lives in my head and tries to make me be a Good Worker[tm] is SCREAMING HER HEAD OFF #cause she thinks my boss/Dad is gonna scream at and hit her for being Lazy #this is a trauma post also um. didnt expect to name her rn but she's screaming and i cant scream back cause she sounds like alarms and those #scare crustywhitedog so i have to calm that one so i don't meltdown #my wife submitted the RTW date for me so like. its okay im actually taking the time and ik this is necessary also bc. it is clearly unwell #that its freaking out because it's gotten a more than a 2 day break for the first time in a year #ik corporateanxietybot has protected me in some ways but. i gotta kill her so bad. maybe H can help me reformat her somehow .....#i also hate her is the thing. she cant hear me rn bc she's just looping in circles alarming but anyway. i hate her. like Me. she's so #capitalismcorebootlicker and i hate that about her and i hate that she exists and i hate that she exists bc my dad raised me to be an #Employee instead of a person 🙃🙃🙃🙃#im not elaborating or explaining any of this. this is a diary entry now #i wish i could click her to kill her like the drones in hardcoded lmao it'd be so much easier. ik she like. lives in the work mode mask as #well which is also HARD bc if im not actively thinking Of work or At work she's nonexistent #but shes so LOUD 🙃🙃 like shut up. we're not gonna explode n die from taking an extra week off you're being dramatic our boss isnt Dad #like he LITERALLY isn't Dad. not even close. he's like the most docile man in the world come on ik they're around the same age and both hve #held authority over u but boss checking in wasnt a trap ur not ab to get caught doing wrong ur fiiiiIIIIIIINE #(also corporateanxietybot is not an adult. she's 15 and terrified but she integrated to my work mask which is the problem cause she makes me #a “phenomenal employee” and also makes me work myself sick when she is given the reigns. little devil on my shoulder except the capitalist #system we live under treats her as a positive thing so she gets positive reinforcement at work which only makes her more anxious 😭 i gotta #talk to H about this next Friday huh. also wow. parts work has made it a lot easier for me to acknowledge these behaviors so i can confront #them easier. weird. strange even. so many parts have gotten names this past month n im realizing also why its been so hard to process stuff #but it also has made me kinder to myself. anyway she turned off (her batteries are low since she's been home for a month too) so im gonna #clean myself up and get some food in me and then get some cleaning done

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moreaujeans · 2 months ago

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IM FREEEEEE

#(FROM PROJECTS)#personal #the engineering chronicles #WILL HOPEFULLY NEVER NEED TO SLEEP THREE NIGHTS ON THE FLOOR OF THE ENGINEERING BUILDING AGAIN!!!#one class the final project was to build a karaoke machine which my partner and i had planned on making look like actual speakers and #microphone but we couldn’t find the stuff in time and her mom made a joke abt singing into hairbrushes and we decided to take that and #run lol we used a pink sparkly makeup box to store our circuit and cut out holes for the speakers and decorated it with makeup and put the #hairbrush mics inside and it was very fun actually and our class voted us as one of the groups to go to project day which was pretty cool!!#project day did get canceled bc of. asnow day which was unfortunate especially considering we stayed up until 4am the night before #preparing our documents for it and trying to perfect the karaoke machine when we could have been putting that time toward project number #2 😐 but whatever we still get our extra credit and i can say i qualified for it so im happy enough #then project 2 was for another class but we’re lab partners in both (+ another guy for this project) and it was digital monster pet so we #made a dragon i was mostly on design so i hand CADed the whole thing which was living hell if i never want to lay eyes on solidworks #again but also he came out very cute after MUCH hasle putting him together with all the wires and components bc our wires from the kit are #so bad they’re constantly getting disconnected from each other which we didn’t know would happen bc the labs we usually do we don’t have to #connect them together like that since you’re not routing them thru bodies etc and they’ve worked great until now but anywya.#i did the lcd faces and the light sensor and a couple other things + a lot of the code was copy and paste from past labs and fitting it to #suit the project but for the most part it was a shit ton of hardware on my end while she and the other guy managed the rest of the code #which i really wish i could have been more involved with but oh well. as it is though he’s my baby i birthed him <3 we’re planning on #meeting up over weekends next semester to change some stuff and add other extra features that we missed we got a decent grade 85% but we #all agreed we don’t want to leave him like this we want to add the extra features we had come up with and also i think we should switch out #our motors for servos bc the motors we were required to use #instead suck they’re not strong at all compared to what a servo can do for you. also we want to make it so you can not only pet him which w #already have with light sensors but also wash him with a Hall effect sensor and magnet so like we’d stick the sensor inside and the magnet #inside a little cad brush or sponge is what im envisioning and i have an expression in mind for what we’d do then. also paint him and #redesign the platform he stands on bc it’s rlly cramped and also make a pcb bc we only have him with the microcontroller and breadboards rn #and i might mess with his face piece a bit too im not sure. oh and speakers!!! those were technically a requirement but we didn’t get them #done on time but i want to make him play music sooooo bad so definitely that. anyway want to be more involved in the software when we do #all this. pretty excited actually :]

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sakitenmaenjoyer · 6 months ago

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fic idea from a looong time ago. asahi doesnt say anything to discourage rui from joining arcland, and they both run into some issues because of it (some personal, some legal, ahaha....)

#txt #my writing #i wanted to have him be mad but rui already explained himself + apologized + looks sad #so tsukasa's like 'okay let me make it easier for him'#even tho he's huffing copium so badly rn #emu would be doing the same but her chest hurts wayyy too much. sorry emu #nene is staring at rui like a wet cat like 'well yeah i support you but...' bc thats her bestie #rui broke the news in gentlest way he could but it was too soon for all of them LMAO they dont even have time to process it #anyways maybe ill get back to this #or turn it into a different fic #even tho it already WAS a different fic at some point #also 'whos mad in the first screenshot' shousuke. lmao. if you can believe it #bc iirc: their collab was a truce between arcland and phoenix wonderland! a cultural exchange!#tfw ur cultural exchange makes you lose an employee thats done a lot for you/emu's friend

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which-qsmp-egg-would · 3 months ago

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Poll has to focus to not talk at mach speed

Tequilla has to focus to not talk super slowly

neither of them are bothered by the other's vocal quirks because they always compensate for the other

#I'm absolutely projecting rn #Growing up with my adhd making me hyperverbal I used to talk so fast that literally noone could understand me #I had to teach myself how to measure my voice and keep it at an even pace since the adults couldn't explain it to me in a way i understood #nowadays I don't have to think about it too much but sometimes my adderall makes that come back #anyways both Poll and TQ have volume control issues on either side of the spectrum #also its not exactly that TQ talks too slow its just his speech problems. he's got a stutter and drags out words sometimes #especially if they have multiple syllables. He can get stuck on them sometimes #i don't know the name for it but a friend in high school had it and it's based off of her #i don't quite know how to properly put it into writing tho so I don't know if it's apparent lol #okay I'm done now #not a poll #poll the egg #Tequilla the egg #captain's egg OCs #did you know that I love these kids

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inga-don-studio · 6 months ago

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And so ...

... it begins. 🎃

#🎃 Cryptid sighting #Spirit Halloween #Under lovely overcast skies :)#This one has actually been open for a little while but I was too busy to make the rather long bus trip #OMW to the one that's like ... a couple miles away? I don't know why they have two so close together but I'm not complaining #EDIT: the second one was playing Weird Science over the speakers so I’m choosing to consider that a good omen for the season to come #Didn’t find the specific things I was looking for but the season is young and I haven’t even been to Party City yet #Not that I can afford much of anything rn but ya’ know - gotta scout for the perfect zombie mask for a cosplay I have in mind #but that’ll have to wait to get worked on anyway until after the Headcrab zombie + Mangle puppet + maybe Xenrey? are done

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memorys-skyscraper · 2 months ago

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fuck the new year, everyone say happy birthday ichiban kasuga!!!!!

#rambles #yakuza liveblogging #my 2024 was pretty shit overall but im glad i spent much of it falling down the yakuza rabbithole #ive been in desperate need of a story-heavy series to sink my teeth into since my ffxiv fixation has cooled off #and yakuza perfectly fit the bill- got a hell of a lot of bang for my buck too #and while much of the fun of the yakuza games comes from the characters & drama & humor etc some of the themes hit home #y7 & y8's themes were particularly well-timed for me personally #'rock bottom doesnt have to be all bad' + 'as long as youre alive its never too late to change' are pretty poignant ideas for me rn #even more so now than when i first played them back in feb/march #as i just had a birthday that increased my age to a number that i dont much care to think about #but i just need to keep reminding myself that it literally does not matter how old i am #all i can do is try to become who i want to be in the present #i will always wish i'd done it sooner but that regret will only ever get worse the more i stall #and it isnt worth agonizing over the time i've wasted up until now because there's literally nothing i can do about it #anyway. my expectations are low but here's hoping 2025 isnt aggressively awful

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your--isgayrights · 7 months ago

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Outside of Lee Seolhwa and Lee Sookyung, do you have plans for any other character outside of Kim Dokja’s primary companions (like Gong Pildu or Han Doonghoon) for your soulmate fanfiction? Constellations like Persephone or Uriel or Sun Wukong probably wouldn’t make sense to exist in real life but maybe characters such as Han Myungoh/Han Dareum or Jang Hayoung could fit? If I recall correctly, Jang Hayoung in particular is the one responsible for the title of the fanfiction, right? I feel like she alongside the Unidentifiable Wall and the Fourth Wall would be so thematically appropriate but I couldn’t imagine how you would do it if at all. I also want to say that I’m impressed how you managed to seamlessly incorporate so many references to the original ORV into your work. It must have required you to reread and recheck the wiki.

Yess, I'm glad you asked this anon bc literally I just threw in a little reference to Han Doonghoon and Lee Sungkook in the 4.4 update and got worried people would think they had to remember the characters well to understand the surrounding plot point better than Kim Dokja does. But I think I should trust the reader a bit more lol.

Unfortunately my inclusion of Aileen and Jang Hayoung isn't going to be as big as the other kdjco members, but they're sort of already set up in the fic and have a role in chap 5. I think JHY doesn't appear directly bc to me the relationship between her and KDJ is harder to make 'real,' though I have some ideas depending on how much I decide to include in chap 5. In my plans 5 will have a gaming tourney featured, so other big 'wos players' may be referenced further there as well.

Of course like you mention the fic title and many of the chapter titles are coming directly from the mouth of Jang Hayoung, so in that way she is constantly being referenced, haha.

Han Myungoh and his daughter are referenced earlier in Chapter 4. It's sort of a drive by.

I do make use of the wiki (bless the editorsn🙏), though mostly just to check dates, numbers, and spellings of names. I like to think of myself as someone with a pretty decent memory tho, so a lot of the more specific story references are definitely just me pulling in stuff I remember from my novel read throughs. Like I might have to look at the wiki to remember Han Dareum's name, but I'll never forget Han Myungoh's entire Male Pregnancy that he had like that was a crazy random W to me on my first ORV read through I was like hello??? Also that being around when JHY was being confirmed trans haha. I think I was only out for like a year or so before reading orv so the little gender fucky moments really stuck out to me.

Sometimes rereading my old work I also remember things I forgot happened in ORV. I think part of the reason I'm struggling so much with chap 4 and onward is that now that the wall fic characters have sort of developed to where they are some of the scenes I had in mind are less 1 to 1 with the OG. For instance, I'm trying to rewrite a scene I have of YJH and KDJ having a rooftop chat that like parallels the one back before the seoul's strongest incarnation arc in the novel, but it's a bit difficult. At first I wanted to include a lot more of KDJ interacting with the rest of YJH's team, but the rooftop Scene makes more sense to put a cap on the themes explored in chap 4. But when I first wrote this scene it was less specifically addressing that theme, because it was in the outline of like right after I wrote chapter 1, so it was kind of just the OG ORV scene with the flavoring of my AU on top. A lot of the little things they do and say in the OG novel would have to be quite finagled to fit anymore, so reworking it is the big task rn.

Anyway I'm really appreciative of people like you who take note of these small details <3. it's kind of helping me remember and appreciate a lot of the parts of me that were behind a lot of Wall fic originally if that makes sense? I am like reintroducing myself to him and giving him a hug instead of running away cringing just because it's me lol.

#in games like 'thats not my neighbor' im able to memorize things about 'people'/characters maybe a bit easier than others?#like i dont have to check the ID numbers after a few rounds because i can just associate that with a face #so its sort of the same with novel characters #when i think of them its easy to remember their significant moments because i tend to picture them especially in my mind. so when the name #comes up i think of the imagined faces i had for them in the scenes they were in you know #which is why its easy to write all the little one on one sort of dialoguey scenes i do that reference the little details about those scenes #anyway i am rambling rn and maybe giving too much away? im about to go into a therapy session and hoping to plan out my week #so that i feel less stressed about packing but yesterday i had a cry sesh and orv reread that is making me want to write today #but the therapist might discourage me from that? we will see if much gets done i guess #im hoping she'll let me just turn the session into a packing schedule meeting #personal #ask #anonymous

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burningcomputerpersona · 2 months ago

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local enby shocked to realize that taking their prescribed medication actually works and they can do stuff now