#I have an exam tomorrow…idk how that will go tbh

[roseofcards90]

Today feels like a lonely day but also not one at the same time 😭

[kyouka-supremacy]

Btw today is a month since this blog was shadowbanned 🥳🥳

[cr4yolaas]

blue spring — guilt

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when she returns to class beside him, he does his best to pretend he isn't shocked to see her. he can see the remnants of her lost sleep beneath her eyelids, and the slowed tempo of her movements only further proves her exhaustion. he wants to say something, he just doesn't know what. more importantly, he can't stop staring at her.

"yachi got you this," she mumbles. she places a sandwich, wrapped up in paper with a floral design, in front of him. he notices she has her own, and he fights the urge to smile at the concept of them sharing a meal.

he thanks her quietly before the lecture starts. the exam is tomorrow, and while they were initially planning on having a session this afternoon to go over the content in preparation, he isn't sure if it's right to ask her about it. instead, he watches her spin her pen around in her hand while her notes remain empty. he assumes it's because she already understands the lesson, and he wouldn't be surprised if he was right. there's a thick silence between them. he can't tell if it's suffocating or comfortable, but he hopes and prays its the latter.

he tries desperately to pay attention to his professor. there's graphs and writing all over the board, and his notes should be full, but they aren't. he can't stop looking at her. her eyes catch onto his, and a soft bout of red seeps onto his face. he's about to apologize before she whispers, "i'm sorry for last night."

the lecture at the front of the class is now white noise to him. he reassures her that he doesn't mind, but the guilt is still clear on her face. "it's alright," he begins. "if anything, i understand it."

it takes a moment for her to comprehend his words before she recalls blurry tales from her friends regarding his hunger for volleyball and his abrasive nature. she doesn't think the image they painted in her head so long ago quite matches with who she's talking to right now. in fact, it's much calmer. and nicer. and sweeter.

she chooses not to respond, instead biting the inside of her cheek and pretending to pay attention to the lesson. he tries to follow suit, but it's hard when he finds himself so, so, so horribly magnetized to her.

𝜗𝜚 a much shorter chapter ... i didn't want to go too in-depth to show how yn's world somewhat stops when she's in this trance of endless work

𝜗𝜚 she has definitely forgotten about the math and physics exams. she's way too stressed to be an academic weapon rn

𝜗𝜚 yachi felt insanely bad for their argument. she's not unfamiliar with yn's fits of like anger and stress and she knows it's better not to bother her but she just really wants the best for her friend

𝜗𝜚 tsukishima hasn't been in the house for a while LMAO he's too busy studying and going to work

𝜗𝜚 i feel like it's a little late to mention this and tbh idk if this interferes with my own plot but tsukki works at the museum and he gets paid quite a bit (his boss loves how nerdy he is). hence his fancy car from the last chapter

𝜗𝜚 bokuto loves his mentally deranged friends he's just a little worried for all of them and doesn't know how to show it properly

𝜗𝜚 also i promise yn won't leave kags on read after he spilled his heart out to her LOL she's just. struggling rn.

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[thrandilf]

okay. for the first time in my life I'm using the #tdp critical tag because I have some things to get off my chest about s6 and I desperately need to focus on an exam for tomorrow and can't and idk I feel slightly out of my mind/wondering if this really is just a me problem but like

this season felt kind of sparse to me regarding character interactions outside of duos they wanted to focus on/letting characters present react to situations. stuff like Amaya not having a comment about Callum not being at her wedding or the Celestial Elves really not having much to say about Aaravos himself despite the Elder theoretically having been around in the days pre imprisonment like

I don't mind that Viren died but I do feel out of my MIND that he and Ezran didn't actually get a conversation, and beyond that that Viren didn't try to pass along any Aaravos information to anyone, and that even if Soren and Viren's relationship was just Maxed Out that we didn't get Opeli and Ezran talking about what to do with him (could've even had Soren walk in and do a Callum S4 moment of 'you ever walk into a room and everyone goes quiet and you know they were talking about you' moment), Opeli reacting/checking on Soren while Viren was imprisoned even if he didn't want to talk to her, there being any verdict about Viren at all and we're never getting anything else out of him again which is why no Ezran and by extension Callum/Rayla/ect feels sort of disappointing to me, as he hasn't interacted with Callum since S1

It's a really good moment, don't get me wrong, but we traded the suspense of thinking Viren had perhaps killed Soren for us getting any last words or gesture from him to Soren face to face

the Celestial Elves gave us info on Startouch Elves in general but not on Aaravos specifically even though the Elder I thought would know more? They aren't surprised at the idea of trying to kill a Great One/Aaravos but there wasn't even a word of warning about if he does get loose or anything Specific about the last time it happened or, if they didn't know anything, confusion about why a Great One is imprisoned like idk

no one had any concern either when getting access to the stars which again, idk, I thought Callum might've been more worried about Aaravos being at the Starscraper and the prison (when he thought he had it) being surrounded by Aaravos's main connection but idk, it didn't matter but I thought it could have

ALSO THE STAVES. HELLO. AT THE STARSCRAPER I JUST

No Aaravos and Callum interaction is also smth I've made my peace about but after the trailer, especially the choice to use that thumbnail for it/as a promo image, idk, I am kind of sad I have to wait until S7 for any of that and now I wonder how significant it can really be/why hes gonna need callum as a puppet now if he's Out and as powerful as he seems to be. we just raised the stakes but had three entire seasons of building towards it, so how can s7 handle getting callum to do dark magic again, theoretical possession/aaravos use, coming back from that, ect, all within 9 eps?

tbh no one really had grief about sir sparklepuff being gone which I guess he wasn't a full Person in anyone's eyes and the focus was all on Claudia/her state which was fine, like we did get some of that nonverbally with Terry at least but we kinda moved right past it. like even one line in ep 9 from terry like "look what he had you do to his most recent child" would have made me go yeah exactly that Mattered but it wasn't there

in addition to no Callum at the wedding Ezran also just sat on Viren being back like idk I guess I wish he'd talked to Amaya more. like I loved him and Aanya I just feel there was room for Both

Listen I'm not one of the people only watching the show for Aaravos and I am delighted with the two episodes we got of him but that he was in more episodes in S3 than in S6 does have me like. cries. really. s4 and s5 i didn't mind in part because I figured stars would be big and it Was but im like oh my god. i got to ep 7 and was like is he REALLY not gonna get out which thankfully he did but only at the end

and the end was like. the biggest cliffhanger we've ever had and i get going for the suspense but it's KILLING ME MAN

I know Aaravos's motivation/goal but not exactly how his actions are leading to that whatsoever as he seems to play every side and doesn't even favor humans if he's willing to torch katolis. unbridled chaos i guess? is that it? I don't even know what to be afraid of next season with him except I'd presume he's going to Xadia next and will Somehow be getting back at the Cosmic Order but idk what the past thousand years have truly been for unless it's waiting around for the stars to align and throwing a fit while doing so

Runaan is out and he and Callum didn't get so much as a sentence between them and that and the Aaravos out but also no conversation double whammy just has me like

PLEASE

at the end of this all this was a more dramatic/cinematic season but it didn't have a lot of the smaller character reaction moments/balance the prior seasons all seemed to give me tbh and it took all season to lead up to highly anticipated events aka letting Runaan and Aaravos out but I didn't get any of the Payoff of that characterwise except for Runaan and Rayla and idk I do feel both like S6 had some of the best moments of the show and also really disappointed in places where it feels like it could have been so easy to have had just a Bit more cohesion and characters plugged into their overarching circumstances/dynamics more

like I think we had the time for it

and going into this expecting a penultimate season and then learning theres a third arc planned, it makes the pacing and lack of aaravos sort of make sense but also has me like, we may not even get that and now I feel like s7 will make or break the Entire show for me which is terrifying

like we got a lot of new info but it was largely not what I was expecting without touching on a lot of stuff I was hoping for and I AGH. i didnt expect this season to continue the build up train and I'm having a hard time accepting that it's the first time tdp has ever like. idk. thrown me such a curveball that it's gotten me honest to god upset which is on me and not the show, and i keep hoping i feel better but so much rides on s7 now

[taissaswifelowkey]

Yellowjackets calling/texting you 🗣️‼️

a/n: i hesitated between choosing a modern or sticking to the original timeline ngl 💀 love love love doing these sm but i love that people read it even more youre all the best 😎🔥 italics: text messages

warnings: none, self-indulgent obviously 🙄 proofread bc i forget to do it most of the time

1996 timeline

📚 okay so taissa prefers seeing you in person but that wouldn’t stop her from sending you a message, meaning replying to your texts. like you would text her the most random thing ever like “im gnawing on this apple” (ifykyk) she would also send reminders telling you to drink water or that your assignment is due this week. uses “ok” and elipses or periods but her messages still mean well :((

I passed my oral exam!!

Congrats. I’m proud of you.

Can you pick me up later on after class?

Ok.

Don’t forget we have practice tomorrow…

I am going to live tomorrow?

🛹 LOTSSS AND LOTSSS of random text messages with van!! she would page you every ten minutes, every two hours. and so would you tbh.

i don’t understand this assignment

what assignment lol

also sends you letters! you sent her a letter back and everyone is just like “???? can’t you call or text each other???”

they don’t know understand how classic you two are and like to be :(

🕷️ i feel like nat would sneak off to a payphone to call you or just sneak off to your place. like taissa, she prefers to see you in person. it was mostly bc you kinda told her off for calling you at a random pay phone at god knows what time where anything could happen.

“i was perfectly fine and safe kevyn was waiting for me in his car.”

“oh so it was kevyn’s idea to drive you to a payphone at one in the morning?”

you’ll definitely make it a point to remind kevyn not to entertain her ideas anymore.

🦉 misty would call you. she LOVESSS the sound of your voice. talk to her about anything but ask her about her a day and she would def twirl her hair ngl 💀💀 the simplest of questions about her makes her stop to think every two minutes and you’re on the other line wondering if the connection got cut or something.

“what about your day? anything interesting happened in english period?”

“well…my day, you mean? as in…my day?”

she would have to be careful just bc of the phone bill. is the type of person to say “you hang up first 😜😜😜” and you did it once UNINTENTIONALLY.

🎀 jackie would text or call you but sometimes she would forget to answer you though. she mentally answers them. your logs is basically just you texting her, and her replying like two three business days.

Hey, let me know what I should get for lunch!!

Chicken dumplings please <33

? I asked you that a WEEK ago.

I know but can you still get it pls

and if she doesn’t answer your text messages she would just do it in person. though most of the time you’d forget what it was about. you two are seriously forgetful but catch up once you’re with each other. lottie is just better at talking than texting. if anything, i feel like it’s also bc she’s lowkey stressed

🧸 jackie would call, text, email, kick her feet and twirl her hair. would still text you right after calling you. would either feel bad or kinda grumpy if you take your time though.

I miss you

We literally just got off the phone

Wow, SORRY for MISSING my GIRLFRIEND.

Besides we got off the phone 30 mins ago. What were you doing then???

I was showering????

would send you so many “ily” texts, would spam your inbox with heart emojis.

🪵 answer shauna’s texts on time or she’ll be grumpy. definitely said “without me?” when you told her you were going to sleep. an avid “lol” user

Hi lol

Hiii <33

You left your sweater at my place lol

Okay, I’ll get it tomorrow. Whats with the lol though?

Idk lol

like misty, when you call, she loves the sound of your voice. her brain is focused on every syllables and consonants, and the way you would accentuate certain words. definitely twirled her hair and caught herself in the mirror while doing so and got the ick.

[luffyvace]

hiii can i request hairo x male reader romantic texts?

sure love!! The romantics texts are pretty fun to do since it’s all in quotation marks 😋

I’m happy to be writing more hcs for him tbh bc i have more ideas for him

🔥🙏

。。。。。。<3 。。。。。

“Do you wanna come play tennis with me?”

”are you gonna watch me play tennis after school?”

”are you gonna be able to make it to the tennis tournament?? I hope so! It would fuel me to see your support from the crowd!! 🔥🔥”

”would you like to come over for dinner? My mom wants to know”

“When your done with your homework do you wanna go for a jog? Our goal could be the dog park so we’ll feel motivated to go pet the dogs!!”

”im going to go to the gym this weekend 💪💪 can I have your support?”

”im gonna move up in weights again :) it will not be easy but the gain will be worth it! 💪☝️“

”Nendo is a formidable opponent! I challenged him to a tennis game, are you gonna be there?”

”how big do you think the gap is between me and nendo when it comes to physical prowess?”

”I’ve noticed your muscles have gotten bigger lately! Keep up the good work m/n! It’s paying off!! 🔥💪🙏”

”do you wanna go out with me, Saiki, kaido and nendo? They invited me out for noodles so I was wondering if you wanted to join!”

convos :P

”how about we start off tomorrow with some laps around the school? We could both get up at 5 and meet up”

”uhh I’ll meet you there at 7”

”your only gonna do an hour? Come in m/n I know you can go longer than that!”

”ive seen you run longer when getting chased by a vicious dog! 😁🙏”

”uhh yeah thanks for that reminder….I’ll be there by 6:30”

”that’s the spirit! Push your limit always!! 🔥🔥”

convo 2

”hey hairo I found an online tennis game do you wanna play?”

”even when playing video games your still playing a sport! How admirable! Of course I would! What’s the name of it?”

”I knew you’d like it :) it’s called tennis clash!”

”downloaded now! What’s your user?”

convo 3

“My aunt is moving and she needs help, do you think you could help carry the heavy stuff?”

”of course! I would more than love to both help you and work out at the same time!! 💪💓”

”thanks hairo!”

”you can always count on me m/n!”

convo 4

“My mom would like you to come over for dinner once again :)”

”sure her cooking is great!”

”she also wants you to invite your parents”

”alright I will! We’ll all come over!”

”okay! Can you come over now so we can play that tennis game you found?”

”ya! I’ll be there in 10!”

”sounds good!”

convo 5

“awww man this homework is so hard! Do you get it??”

”come over I’ve got an idea!”

“What is it?”

”for every question you get wrong we’ll both do an exercise for 5 minutes! That’ll motivate you to get the questions right, relieve stress and build muscle simultaneously!”

”that’s a well thought out plan but with all the questions I’m getting wrong idk If I can do it 😭”

”we’ll be excerising all night and I know you can’t stay up past 8”

”besides you ranked fourth in exams! Can’t you help me? 😭”

”yes you can! you can do it m/n!”

”I’ll stay up as long as it takes! 😼”

”of course I’ll help! But we still have to do an excerise for every one you get wrong!”

”look on the bright side we’ll be doing it together!”

”alright fine 😭😭”

convo 6

”hey hairo I know something that’ll motivate you to stay up past 8!”

”what is it? 😄”

”let’s have a competition! Whoever falls asleep first has to carry the other on they’re back on the way to school then do 5 laps around campus when we get there! 😼”

”wow!! That’s a great idea! Even if I loose it’s still a win because I’ll be getting exercise!”

”yeah! Ya see? Come over for a sleepover tomorrow and we’ll do the challenge”

”you bet!”

convo 7

”my mom wants me to go grocery shopping for her will you come?”

”yeah sure :) which store?”

“Street goods, but not the one near the gas station”

”let’s jog all the way to the far out one!”

”come on I know we can do it!”

”promise me we get to walk back and if I get tired your carrying me and the groceries“

”challenge accepted!! 💪☝️“

Convo 8

”how much weight can your father lift?”

”huh why?”

”because today my new goal is to lift more than a grown man can!! 😆”

”😭”

”okay well I’ll ask em”

”right!”

”now that I think about it how come you didn’t ask your dad?”

”oh I would have but he’s at work so I didn’t want to disturb his grind!”

”he works on Saturdays?”

”it’s voluntary but still admirable!”

”ohhh”

”well he says he can lift around 280 last he checked”

”wow!! A worthy goal! Thank you! And tell your father thank you as well!”

”of course hairo :)”

”tell him I said we should work out together some time! 280 isn’t a weight just any man can lift overnight!”

”you should join us as well!”

”I’ll let em know :) but idk if I’ll be able to lift 280 😅😂😂”

“Of course you can m/n! With enough dedication any weight is able to be lifted! Whether that’s by 100,000 people helping or one man who is very strong!”

”thanks, I’ll do my best‼️“

”Always! And glad to hear it!”

“Is he available Sunday?”

”he says yes”

”great! Hope to see you there too!”

”depends! 😋”

convo 9

”I’m going to make a low carb sandwich for lunch tomorrow at school, would you like me to make you one?”

”sure! I appreciate it!”

”no problem!!”

Convo 10

”I’ve found a 100% healthy restaurant where they’re target audience are those who want to eat healthy and build muscle! Isn’t this great!?”

”if your free can we meet at *distant location* tomorrow??”

”wow that’s a very diverse restaurant! I’d love to go!”

”the walking distance tho..😭”

”yep! It’s a great way to build muscle on the way there! 💪”

”cardio is great when paired with a healthy diet!”

”it’ll be like working for you food”

”well I’m sure it’ll be worth it by the time we’re there so why not! :)”

”happy to hear your on board! It’s a date then :)”

convo 11

“I'm going to hit the gym! Will you be there to hold down my feet on sit-ups?”

”as always 🙏”

”thank you!”

”don’t mention it 👍”

convo 12

”your mother’s cooking from last night was very fufilling and nutritional! May I ask if you could send me her recipe?”

”sure I’ll ask her!”

”can’t wait!”

” *recipe* ”

”thank you! And tell her I said thank her as well! The meal was delicious and bursting with flavor and I felt extra energized to do my before bed push-ups!”

”and for the recipe!”

”LOL np, and she said the same”

dude idk how or why but my ideas for hairo pop out like poop, like it’s just infinite!

I have another 2 requests to do, then some stuff I wanna write for fun then I’m back to my list of characters I wanna write for…man I haven’t worked on that thing in a while

[purplesurveys]

1904

Have you had more hot or cold drinks today? Cold. I don't really like hot drinks.

What's a name you like that's similar to yours? The only similar name I can think of and that I like is Rowan, for a girl.

Where did you get the last plate/bowl you ate with from? I'm currently eating tuna sashimi salad from a paper bowl that the restaurant I ordered from provided.

How's your mental health today? Not too shabby. I've been rattled the last couple of weeks for various reasons, but I think it's all mellowed down now and it also helps that it's Friday again.

What bands and artists did you listen to when you were a teenager? So the #1 band in my heart then, now, and always will be Paramore, but I also got way way into punk rock because of CM Punk. In the bus to and from school, I would listen to Against Me!, Rancid, H2O, The Bouncing Souls...basically all of his favorites that he used to plug on social media all the time at the time. I also really liked Killswitch Engage.

Do your feelings get hurt easily? Idk, it depends on what's thrown at me. I don't care how people think of me for the most part, and being called out does not bother me; but I do get bothered when I am talked to in a way that the other person is clearly thinking that I'm stupid.

What sort of restaurant did you last eat at? Does food delivery count? I ordered Japanese tonight.

Do you have a friend who's always sending you TikTok videos? Do you actually watch them? I'm pretty sure my close friends occasionally would, but I never open my TikTok messages hahaha.

Have you ever seen a cougar in the wild? Nope.

Will you attend a wedding in the next 3 months? Nope.

Are you good at following instructions? In general, yeah. As long as I can read the instructions or have visual aid as either is how I prefer to pick up details.

What's your backyard or outdoor area like? Apart from being paved and having a basketball stand/net/hoop (what do you even call the whole thing?), there's not much else to it really. We have our cars parked nearby as well, and my dad's newest baby - his motorcycle - is by the backyard too.

Do you like your boss? (or your last boss if you don't currently have one? I like Trina, and I'm gonna miss her when she leaves.

When was the last time you took a selfie? Tuesday.

What did you have for breakfast yesterday? I didn't eat anything yesterday until 1 PM.

What do you do to entertain yourself on a long flight or journey? The 'longest' I've experienced was like 3.5 hours lol, but in any case I like downloading YouTube videos offline so I don't go crazy sitting down. It's also why a part of me, while excited at the prospect of traveling the world, also kind of dreads it because I can't imagine being on a plane for any longer than 5 hours... :/ Where are you right now? In my room.

Have you ever done a hearing test? I don't think so.

Do you hate small talk? Well, no. Sometimes it has to happen. The only aspect of it I would find awkward by is if the other person barely makes an effort to reply or make conversation.

What's the hottest temperature your current town/city has ever had? I'm not sure tbh, maybe somewhere around the 40s?

What programs/applications do you currently have open on the device you're using right now? I usually have only Chrome open on this laptop anymore.

How many steps per day do you do, generally? When I work from home, which takes up most of my time, nothing over 200. But then I'll have my event days or days out, and my steps for those can range anywhere between 3,000 to 8,000.

Have you had any snacks today? Nope, just full meals.

What's the next thing you'll tick off your to-do list? I'll need to take Agi to the groomers tomorrow because that boy's fur has gotten long and STINKY lmao.

Have you ever had a chia pet? No.

What's your favourite sandwich filling? Pulled pork.

Do you have any nieces or nephews? I don't.

What was the last reason you saw a doctor? Needed to take my annual medical exam.

Do you use light mode or dark mode on your phone? Dark.

[elegyofthemoon]

im posting this before i forget and also sorta leave for the night cuz i gotta sleep a little early

• Posted stuff today ☺️

• I decided to do a bit of the writing tag game on my other account and it is WILD to see just how much i wrote the past few months??? im kinda proud tbh. I may be a little discouraged from posting these days but it's honestly really nice to see myself posting as much as I do - and esp to see how much ive written during all this time. this is aside from all the logs i do bc thatd just add further to my word count, but hdhfjdjd really despite the horrors, i'll always have writing. or well, writing's just been such a huge part of my life that if i cannot write then I'm not myself anymore. njdjrjd and my friend nick has mentioned this too that i dont seem like myself if i dont have a wip and all that jfjdndd

• i hate to say the rafayel birthday event made me embarrassingly happy but it really did 🙈

• speedwriting a fic. much shorter than something i wrote earlier but like !! idk i havent felt that surge of inspiration that was fun lmao wish that happened more often

• getting another message from a job i applied to that might be interested in hiring me. the positive is this ones a little more interesting than the one i did a recent interview with but same general position. still very 👀

• my friend finished london holiday and might start second key real soon and im so fucking sorry to him about the person i'l turn into when he starts liveblogging at me about it BUT ALSO im actually really happy and excited about it .3.

• OH FOUND OUT THAT MY SISTER WILL BE HOME EVEN FOR THE LITTLE BIT WHEN I GET BACK!! i thought i'd miss n entirely when she's back which made me sad but she'll be there for at least a day when she's back so !! i will beat my jet lag to hang out with her if i have to >:(

• n sending me something that reminded them of me was really sweet 🥹 it made me very happy tbh jfnfnddjj i was kinda shocked

•also saw new artist drawing characters from anti entropy that genuinely made me very happy 🥹🥹

• ngl thinking about tomorrow after the exam has me excited. i still have one more exam to go, but for once, i feel excited by the idea of saying goodbye. i dont really care anymore how i do for either exams, but it's one more step out of this life and one more step into the new one. i think thats exciting and im excited for it. i wish i could say the same about doing the practical exam but that one i just know ill go home dreading so ✌🏼 but tomorrow! lets have fun after the exam and visit the bakery ive been wanting to go to and finally get that silly plush ive been eyeing 🤧 let's give this life a nice farewell and send off before i go

[mysadnotsolittlelife]

Diary I guess?

It’s 3 am rn. I have an appointment for tomorrow. They are going to take my photo for drivers license. And I’m so excited. This is gonna be my first drivers license ever hopefully (I still don’t know how to drive)

I’m happy bc I’m not going to work but yeah not so happy about the fact that I’m gonna spend the whole day with my mom. I made a salad and turkey sandwich for us. Because I know if I leave the food prep to her she is either gonna go crazy and make something really calorie dense or we’re gonna do take out which always sucks. Tbh I wanted to keep fasting but yeah can’t do that with her.

It’s raining like crazy and it’s gonna keep raining for the next 2 days I think. I wish the weather was better tomorrow I’m going to wear make up I don’t want to mess that up and I need to take the train and walk to rmv. Ughhhhh I just remembered my mom has an exam or something we also need to go there after. Anyways I really should go to sleep

AGHHHHHHH and also my brother quit his job ughh I’m gonna cry I hate him so much. Like I don’t hate him but just get your act together man. Idk him leaving his job means he will be at home at night and well I do phone calls, spa days, sacrifice rituals late at night. Him being home is gonna fuck that up. Idek

I just don’t even know

[acourtofthought]

I'm honestly scared of the next book lol not bc its going to be bad or anything but bc of the ship war that is going to happen after!! Like I'm 100% with the fact that gwynriel and elucien are endgame bc Sarah loves to write retellings. And gwynriel is the retelling of Lancelot, Guinevere and Elaine... (I'm still not sure what elucien might be tho) And it make sense tbh and e/riels are just trying to ignore that fact and harass anyone who doesn't ship theirs...

And like I said it's going to be so bad bc its already bad and the disrespect ppl show toward each other is scary like we're fighting over fictional characters and not real situation or ppl and how many times I've seen these kind of behaviour from e/riels is concerning bc I feel like I'm already getting mentally tired and burned out and I'm scared I won't be able to even read the next books if I stay in this fandom bc its such unhealthy place!!

Yep... sorry I had to rant somewhere

ps: also about that retelling, from what I read I know that Guinevere fells in love with Lancelot when he saves her from a life or death situation and she falls in love with him ever since also him with her. But he's already married to Elaine and they have a son too apparently but still he has an fair with Guinevere... which I hope sjm doesn't go that far lmao nothing with cheating pls

ps.2: this is so messy, its midnight and I have an exam tomorrow and my mind is a mix of everything lmao idk how you will respond to this haha

I hope your exam goes well (went well?)!! I think your concern is valid and it's probably something we're all worried about. People have invested a lot of time and money into the ships they're hoping to be endgame and that is going to come with a lot of disappointment if things don't turn out the way some thought (understandable). But....there is a lot of negative behavior in the fandom without confirmation of anything so are things going to be worse once there is? As for your worry about the affair and cheating that occurs in the Lancelot fairytale, I do remember SJM once saying that the fairytales she samples from are a "fairytale-light" version. And I think that's pretty obvious concerning the fairytales she's previously used as inspiration are kind of unrecognizable. Like, there are some very loose details but that can be pointed out but I have never seen her force the story to fit only within the parameters of a certain fairytale. If that were the case, Feyre's father would have been kidnapped in book one, she would have gone to rescue him then eventually been the one to tame Tamlin's "beast" form. Instead she and Tamlin made one another worse while together and Feyre ended up having her own beast form. But I would say that if the fandom is ruining your experience with the series, it's never a bad idea to give yourself a mental health break from it all then come back to us when the next one is released! Or...if all you need is to occasionally vent to me in order to reboot your tolerance for the fandom, you can do that as well 😁

I hope you were able to get a good nights rest before your test!

[khaleesiofalicante]

Hellooooo!!! How are you???

Guess what? ? Last week it was a national holiday here and we had two days off, so it was fucking awesome and god if I needed that rest😂 (I couldn't go out with Thomas but hey! nothing is perfect lmao) ( also why TF did i named him Thomas? Couldn't I come up with something better???)

Bad news is that exams started this week and I hate exams :) today we had to do a questionary 5 pages long just to have the RIGHT to take the exam... Is setting a school on fire illegal?

It hasn't been THAT bad tbh, it could be worse, and at least my friends and I are always helping each other in assignments and projects so now, besides all the studying, I don't have work accumulated rn 😎

Anyway, idk why but today i don't have motivation for absolutely anything. I have been going through my day out of spite and nothing else... I wanted to write and I couldn't concentrate, I wanted to read and I fell asleep!! And on lbaf day😭 this is so homophobic

Good thing is that I did find some time and I started writing in this... Idk how to call it... Journal? I only write there when I feel I will lose my mind if I don't, so I don't think that counts as journal

But I was reading some things from months ago and... Wow

Do you ever have those times when you are like "yeah, it's not great, but I'm sure it's not that bad, I'm just overthinking :)" and then some months go by and when you remember that you are like "wtf?? That was DEFINITELY not ok!!! I was in a really bad place!!!" ??

Well, I just had that after reading a little bit of those months. I was definitely not ok!!

Just wanted to say tlnd and lbaf were kinda like a lifesaver those times bc I remember they were the only things I looked forward to, thank you so much for that💙 I don't know how I could have managed otherwise

On an abrupt change of subject, I do have a writing question: How do you manage to be constant when you write? Like, I have been trying to stay constant bc I like having things in order, but it's just so hard sometimes....

Hope you are taking care of yourself 💙🔪

See you on Friday!!!!💚

First of all, Thomas is a fantastic name. Good choice!

Exam week is so stressful! I hope you are taking good care of yourself too! Remember to do one nice self-care thing for yourself EVERY DAY or I will sue.

(in the meantime, i will look into arson lawyers in case we need to set your school on fire!)

I'm glad my writing was a comfort to you and I totally relate to the need to have something to look forward to! Here is to finding more constants and good things in the future.

Love you so much!

I'm going on a week retreat tomorrow (barf!) but I get to spend two days next to the beach and get to sleep on a hotel bed so i will take it lol!

See ya Friday 💙

PS - I am jamming to Disney/Pixar songs right now. Here is a rec for you: Hawaiian Rollercoaster Ride from Lilo and Stitch 🥺

[gggeeeeen]

EOD thoughts

May 24, 2024

It's now 4PM here and I'm about to sleep. It's been a couple of days since my last writing. So much for my target to write everyday lol

Work has been a breeze recently with minor setbacks because our portal is acting up. Not sure if they're updating it or what.

Work out is fun. Ran 6KMs yesterday and did back (pull) earlier this day.

My schedule since my adjustment to nightshift work has been:

Work 8PM to 5AM

Sleep ideally 5AM (but does not often happen) to 9 or 10AM

9AM or 10AM prep for gym

11AM to 2PM gym

Usually home by 2:30 to 3PM

Sleep from whenever after 3PM then wake up at 8PM to work again

Body clock is fucked up. Last APE exam resulted with high heart rate. Not sure if it's because of my night shift sched or a result of me working out regularly?

Update on the man situation, I was able to get my hands on this phone this morning, after work, before going to sleep. He handed it to me so easily before he went to sleep which was a relief (Not sure pala, I had to ask for it. Said I would charge it. Magmumusic dapat sya pero lowbatt daw pala so I said give it to me, I will charge it. Before, he'd voluntarily give it to me but the past few weeks, he's been holding on to it. Playing music or saying it has enough battery pa). No messages, nothing alarming. But he's been liking photos of girls. Which idk i think is normal nowadays? It bothers me tho. Should I say something?

I saw a saved photo of him and this girl. Not sure if yun yung Pheobe, which I saw he's been talking to in IG. Nothing flirty. But idk.

Anyway, what was a bit alarming was he turned off his location in google maps. He turned it off in the past already but I secretly turned it back on. This morning, I didn't turn it back on. It was off since May 19. Or 16, I don't really remember. I'm thinking of a way to bring this up. Should I?

But what I'm most concerned about is my reaction. Like, I searched for spy apps to install to his phone. I searched for a GPS device I can secretly plant to his stuff. I'm really bothered on how I'm reacting and idk, I don't want to be this kind of girl. I don't want to resort to crazy ideas, stalking, going thru his stuff, lacking trust, thinking about things he's doing or might do behind my back.

He's been great for the most part, working out together, going home straight after work, tho he said, I think last week, that he might go with his team to eat dinner after work. He said his team has been going out to dinner most Fridays, asking him to come along and one of these Fridays, he might say yes. Should I be worried. I am tho TBH.

Biggest challenge lang siguro is time for life events. Like for example, a few weeks back, I attended this wedding in Paranaque, I wanted him to come with sana. That was a Sunday. So the scenario was, He filed a leave on Friday because ate Miq's birthday. Their original plan was to Elyu or Tagaytay for the whole weekend sana. But hindi natuloy and they decided to have dinner nalang. .Anyway, so after gym ng Friday, he went straight to Cubao. He was there Saturday and Sunday. We planned to meet Sunday somewhere after the wedding and go home to Taguig together. Like leave early on Sunday sa Cubao para sabay kami uuwi. I was actually the one that suggested na punta na sya ng Friday in the hopes of him saying na uwi nalang sya ng Taguig early on Sunday para makasama sa wedding. But no, so okay. I was hoping na sabay nalang kami uuwi. But ended up hindi padin sya nakauwi ng early. Late na din sya nakauwi kasi pinatulog nya daw yung kids. Okay. I know naman the kids are priority pero what about me? I was crying on the grab back to Taguig.

There's been other scenarios like this, one of his other priorities is RDOT (Rest day OT), I mean I get and I understand he needs money. For sustento, for going out with the kids, for car payment, cat and motor maintenance, insurance + other misc stuff. But idk. Like tomorrow, my family will be having a grad dinner for Hann, and he said he can't come kasi he has to RDOT. WHICCHHHH IF he really wants to, he can RDOT early, we can gym early para lang makasama. IFFFF he really wants. But I guess, not. So okay.

I've just been thinking about this whole relationship a lot recently. a lot if idk moments. I find myself detaching and not relying on him being present on these things. And other things in general. He would usually say, "lakad mo naman yan.". Which I think means a great deal to me. I consider us as one na kasi, which is normal naman when you're in a relationship diba? I get we still need to have separate lives pero idk. Push lang ba? Nakakalungkot kasi I think we're good together, and dami lang nya talagang other priorities and I come at the bottom.

I'm afraid if I bring these up, we'd realize it's better to be just friends/room mates?. If I bring these up, I know he's make me feel bad about feeling this way. I've thought, what if we don't live together, would this still work out? Princess said, I was the one making this relationship work. Like even before moving in together sa FTI, I was always staying in his and Nate's place already. I actually asked him this and he thinks it's going to work out naman. He's find a way na magkita kami. Pero with all the stuff he's dealing with, idk. Baka ako yung umayaw and just find someone new. I give him credit, too, pero those words got to me. I find myself asking, until when am I going to be at the bottom of his priorities? I keep telling myself things would get better. It's hard but I want to believe it, too.

Haba na neto. Okay, until next rant! Haha

[minhosimthings]

MOMO BEAR!!!!!!!

hi🥺

how’re you doing my dumpling? have you tried more cooking and how’s the octopus?

saw you going absolutely batshit over chan 🤭 I mean, I don’t blame you, man’s fine as fuck😖

tbh I don’t really have anything important to say but I dropped by bc I wanted to talk to you. So tell me something random, whatever it is.

a rant about something you hate, or something you’re going crazy about right now (read: bangchan), or something new you’re trying, whatever you want to talk about💕

I love you 😚

I GIGGLE SO HARD WHEN YOU CALL ME NICKNAMES JCUDJDJ DUMPLING IS SAUR CUTE

Well I baked some cookies yesterday (again) cause I was craving them so much but I haven't done much cooking this week since I am FINALLY ON HOLIDAY!! The octopus...... Idk bruh I haven't been to work and I probably won't visit her until 11th of March because H O L I D A Y

DONT TELL MINHO ABOUT MY CHAN RANTS and YES MAN IS FINE AS FUCK I WILL KMS OVER HIS BEAUTY (and his booty)

Oh by the way baby are your exams over yet? I hope you're not too overworked 🥺

A RANT HMMM ALRIGHTY

Let me rant about my effed up sleep schedule for a bit. I AM ACTUALLY DYING SELENE LIKE DYING. I tried taking my medication for a while but it's legit just making me throw up my dinner so much and nothing is working. Idk if it's the Bristol air (I highly doubt it cause it's so nice here) but I seriously am so sleep deprived nowadays. I think I'll buy some candles tomorrow so it can work because even my tea ain't working UGHH. And the nightmares have been coming back lately and I feel so bad for my gf because she's been singing ms to sleep at night and I feel so guilty 💀 But I think some candles will work because I used to have candles back home so maybe it'll work I'll tell ya if it does!

I love you too my mon chou 💞💞

How is your life going recently? Eating well? Drinking enough water?

[rrxnjun]

I ACTUALLY YELLED SEEING LIEBESTRAUM WAHHHHH;-;-;;-;-;-;-;; THANK U SO MUCH FOR WRITING IT I CANT WAIT TILL JUNE;-;;-;-; i cannottttt tell u how happy u actually made me with that wahhdhfjf

OOO MAN☹️☹️I HOPE UR MENTAL HEALTH WILL GET BETTER!!!! AND U DONT SUCK!!! TAKE UR TIME WITH IT u shouldn't listen to them when ur not in the mood for them it will deff ruin the vibes so take all the time u need!!!!

i agree with that the only good noise music i listen to now is all from nct and when i hear other bgs' i'm just😟😟😟 IM SURE HE WAS AMAZING CUZ ALL OF THEM WERE🤌🤌 the song genuinely slaps so i'm not surprised if it makes it in there

well idk people said i study a lot so i just accepted the fact but i never feel prepared enough so;-; tbh the percentage is lower just to pass💀 but i need the plus point for uni and that's the limit for getting it but yeah i feel like it shows that hungary does not go for making people smarter lmao💀 I WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND THE POINT LIMITS FOR GETTING INTO UNI wahhh the whole thing is dumb🫠 thank u!!!! i have three more speaking exams so i'm shitting my pants rn😃OH NO☹️ i hope u passed the second one exams suck so i hope it didn't hit u hard!!!! GOOD LUCK WITH THEM!!! IM SURE U WILL DO GOOD ON THEM!! MANIFESTING SO HARD!!!! I HOPE U ARE DOING WELL AND ARE TAKING CARE OF URSELF!!!! (liebestraum anon💓💕)

(the review reply: art sucks for that reason sm;-; but i deff learned after a few times of that happening with me as well to just sleep on it and throw it out after but it still amuses me how can art have this effect in a way (idk how to explain what i mean rip) AND THANK U FOR NOT HATING IT U JUST MADE ME THE HAPPIEST PERSON ISTG!!!)

IM REPLYING TO THIS ASK LITERALLY SO LATE THAT THE FIC IS DROPPING TOMORROW LMAO ADJSK i have to warn u tho its quite different to the original draft i had and the teaser i posted from it 😶😶 hope you still end up liking it !!!

SJSJ thank you thank you 😔😔 you are always so sweet and understanding ily mwah.

nct noise is the only good noise in kpop. there i said it. 😶 (this is a joke there are a few more good noise songs from diff groups pls dont jump me im targeting one fandom in specific w this yes) like nct could do any of your favs songs but could your favs do sticker? no. thats right.😌 AHHH im glad u liked my babies cix i was told by spotify that they are my top listened to artist of the last 4 weeks so. 😃 yeah. they also had a comeback like 2 days ago if u wanna check that out cough cough

if people tell u that, its probably true AHAHA 😭😭 me and my friend were talking the other day like i dont even study that much like i get to the 2 hour mark and i go well 🤷‍♀️ thats it for the day ig. like i dont have any more brain capacity LMAO. Oooh i do get you w the uni points stuff!! me being a straight A student was what got me into uni too bc switching from business hs to psychology was actually kind of insane coming from me LMAOOO i had no bonus points from biology or anything so my grades helped a TON since i fucked up the entrance exam too lol 😭😭😭 im rooting for you !!!! I feel like slovakia doesnt really care abt that either ?? there are definitely better and worse unis tho and i unfortunately attend the one thats one of the best so they kinda care..😔 SPEAKING EXAMS ARE THE WORST THEY SHOULD BE CANCELLED LIKE THATS 3 TIMES THE STRESS U HAVE WHEN TAKING A WRITTEN ONE. i hate those sm omg i am PRAYING for you (i have only one speaking one this semester and i am mentally preparing for it for the last few weeks) i actually passed the second try (with an E, but i still did it....) and i have another exam w the same professor this friday so..🤞

i am trying to learn how to be patient w art (and life) so it prevents me tearing everything out and throwing it out.....so you are right abt that AHAHA thats a good advice to take

as always i hope youre doing good, taking care of yourself and having a good time!! mwah

[psychblurred]

so going back to my old secondary school wasn’t as horrible as i thought. met one of my former teachers during my exam so she did not have the time to ask what i’m doing there. the other attending teacher was the mother of a former high school classmate. never thought she would recognise my name but when i handed the papers in she was like “you are our R. aren’t you?”

and it just felt nice. this old familiar place.

the exam itself. idk. i’m worried about the letters tbh… i had loads of corrections so it’s ugly af…. and i’m not sure how many mistakes i made…

anyways. PT certification exam tomorrow. 200kms of travelling ahead… ahhh…

[angel-zerocal]

okayy so

damn

idk how day will go tbh it’s hard i don’t want to eat but all those emotions

woke up very early did some of uni stuff my friend is having hard time too it’s just damn

i’ll try to go out today bc the weather seems nice but i really need to study for my exam tomorrow