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why do i see myself wearing these with a black blazer and black boots

why can’t i like normal things

and actually i think i’m too shy to actually buy itttttt

what on earth would people even say

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got the quality evaluation back for october

two tickets and two calls. one of them is 89 percent, the other 3 are above 90

but the new policy is that there’s no praise and no option for them to write the positives like they used to

so basically all we got is all the negatives and things to improve in a list. and i can already feel that if this system stays then i’ll be wrecked mentally. even october feels like a disaster to me

there’s literally no positive reinforcement because it is not allowed.

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i don’t know. i’m barely a person. i just want to be kind and hold someone’s hand. eat an ice cream cone. stare at the lake. feel the sun on my skin. lay in the grass. run through a sprinkler. it’s so easy to forget life is supposed to feel like a deep breath and not a gasp

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LOVE WILL FIND YOU AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN EVEN WHEN YOU THINK IT WON'T

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god please take all of my mutuals' suffering, double it and give it to donald trump

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lou dvina & leontin lacombe

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the hated colleague gave me a feedback because i waited for a reply from a user instead of closing a ticket. (that by the way he closed and the user reopened) i hate him so much it's unreal. others are straight up idiots, completely unreliable, do not give a shit about the rules and this.. this one mistake needs to be called out like this? you know what i think i do not feel like having 110% productivity anymore.

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– Haruki Murakami, from “Charlie Parker Plays Bossa Nova,” First Person Singular: Stories (Alfred A. Knopf, 2021)

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The Hangover (2009) dir. Todd Phillips

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An American Werewolf in London (1981) dir. John Landis  

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nah actually i really question the mental state of that side of america.. how blind can you be

i guess we just have to accept it at this point that the majority of people want this fucking misery.

yeah it’s close but still.

this is a fucking fever dream again.

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i guess we just have to accept it at this point that the majority of people want this fucking misery.

yeah it’s close but still.

this is a fucking fever dream again.

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gosh i’m exhausted

and i’ve had a lot of shit days lately. forever wondering how things could have been different. i wish i could have finished med school cause i honestly don’t think i’ll ever respect myself again no matter what i achieve.

also have been real fucking depressed about not being able to wear contacts. every time i look in the mirror i can’t help but notice how ugly i am in my glasses. i hate myself when i have to wear them outside. so yeah i guess that’s about my confidence. also about finding someone who finds me attractive even like that.

so yeah things aren’t okay

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