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so i’m horribly sick, at home, still have to take care of myself with zero help, i have to suffer through the entire day of my sisters and nieces visiting tomorrow and then i have to work on friday.

at the moment i’m pretty sure i still have a fever, i cannot hear with my left ear and considering my forehead explodes every time i blow my nose or bend forward i’m pretty sure i have a bad sinusitis.

and i’m really really thinking of being on sick leave on friday and not giving a shit about how the company navigates the coordination with one less person

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i still have a a fever and it’s 1 am on christmas eve

i baked 3 different types of cookies and i’m working from 6 am and i’m done with everything

christmas should be about peace and love not this insanity lol

and i can’t even go on sick leave tomorrow cause half of us is already on holiday

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guess who’s posting from her brand new iphone

yaaay

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The Shining (1980) dir. Stanley Kubrick

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I knew poinsettias "faked" having big flowers by just turning some leaves red but I didn't know the real tiny flowers in the middle looked like such idiots

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i have a fever and i could not bake any of the cookies for christmas so far

i have one day, tomorrow as i work on christmas eve

this sucks so much especially since i really feel horrible and weak

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This is my favorite section of this baking book i recently bought

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i mean this whole thing with me and almost any guy with a guitar

what the fuck is wrong with me

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okay so the expert test was… easy?

which might be bad cause it might have been easy for everyone, or maybe i fucked up and that’s why it was so easy

but at least it’s done

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like i told my mom that i was so nervous about today and her reply was that she is also nervous about her day and that she’s just done with everything

this just does not really help at all. my feelings are regularly downplayed.

what hurts the most is i don’t even think it registered that i’m writing the expert test tomorrow. this is really important and while everyone has someone rooting for them i’m doing this alone again

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Cobh, Ireland 🇮🇪

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what hurts the most is i don’t even think it registered that i’m writing the expert test tomorrow. this is really important and while everyone has someone rooting for them i’m doing this alone again

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this is the worst.

i mean i’m already barely sleeping or eating. i don’t even have any food prepared for the next 3 days.

everything feels hopeless and to start christmas from this madness… i guess christmas is cancelled this year

the test at my job is on thursday

my two exams are on friday

and the work test is really important. i mean it could be life changing. ffs why why why does all of this have to happen before christmas? will i ever have a christmas period when my stomach isn’t in a knot???

FOR F S

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Guangzhou in December, guangdong province in china

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