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Been thinking about a few things… (don’t actually send in asks to Henry, this is a test if people would wanna see an ask blog from me)
#thsc#thsc fanart#the henry stickmin collection#henry stickmin#henry stickmin fanart#welllll?#opinions?#these panels wouldn’t actually be the start of the blog lol#I have a different opening planned#but I drew these when I was still in the ideating phase
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the beginning!
I just rewatched the first season after a looong time and man. I love it a lot!!
#I know this trio was basically only in the ogre opening and not in s1 but I struggled adding more characters#I want to do little arts for every season I rewatch! planning to go at least up to galaxy#(areori are a different situation since they're a group watch but might draw for them too)#might have started s2 before this gets posted.. not sure where I get to stick this in the queue#own art#inazuma eleven
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A large burning canvas could be seen in the distance.
The neat fingers, full of small dents from the friction of the sword handle, caught a small flame, which immediately went out from faint pressure.
There was silence, a living silence, one of those that strains with its sound. A warm wind heated his battered, but carefully polished armor.
"You want to say something"
"I want" Blurr answered, turning sharply to the dark silhouette behind him that was quietly watching him until now. He clenched his fist with a grinding sound, where the spark died out, and demonstratively opened it towards the darkness. "And this is how you are paid for making the world freer! This is what remains of your legacy, and you react as if it doesn’t concern you at all!"
"It does not concern me anymore" the figure answered him calmly.
"Shockwave, stop!"
"Is that an order?"
"It's a request” His angry expression made it clear that this request was an obligation. “I just don't recognize you for these few months." His hand shook slightly with anger. Black smoke seeped through the cracks in his armor.
"I don't recognize myself for even longer time." Blurr visibly trembled at these words, realizing where the dialogue was leading. Shockwave slowly approached, his long, deformed fingers, three times longer than one of Blurr's fingers, carefully reached out to his hand and wrapped his palms in his huge paws, kneeling down to be on the same level with him. "Blurr, I-"
Blurr turned his head away so as not to see one piercing, but such a swampy dim light of his terrifying eye, which had become more precious to him than his weekly knightly brigandage. "Shut up. It's too early, we haven't agreed on when exactly to do this"
The dull mass of metal, which was only a tangible casing, after some hope of catching at least a spark of doubt, only lowered its head heavily. The crackling of the fire continued to be heard around. The soot reached them, gifting them with at least some warm light among the shades of cold before dying. Realization, regret, reluctance were not reflected in the knight's optics. His armor, always proudly looking into the face of danger, now reflected only the cowardly lights of the fire from behind. Despite this, he did not remove his hand from the strong lock until the blades themselves parted. Shockwave disappeared. Disappeared as he had done for the past few months.
Blurr turned back to the burning wall. From afar were heard screams, squeals, grinding, clanking. The column of fire did not subside, as if it was fed by fuel from secret reserves. It had been burning like that for hours, as if to show the greatness of this building over others that would have left only a column of smoke long ago.
Shockwave's last school of dark magic was burning out, as was the will of its creator to live.
#*gets in the shelter* Don't bite me don't look at me I don't exist#Just had a lil thought but sparing the hand from intense drawing sounds like a good idea... yet I barely even can properly convey 1/10 of#characters#If no one will see it means that my plan worked perfectly XDD#Spellbound au#Having a whole damn intense movie trailer inside your head is a torture#And having different characters come across in the same places#Like ahah... welp I imagined that Ratchet Orion and Drift are the ones who tried to prevent it#I don't know... somehow my head ended up with the concept of functionalism revolution and the school wasn't conveying their ways#So we have like... clear oppositions going on but don't see them directly affect characters#okay *opening my cage* *gets in* I like writing I did it a few times when was little but I have problems with a few structures and the way#I write. It is so much easier to portrait everything properly in the doodles
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Just don't say I didn't warn you. You're Cid now, and if anything happens to him, we're finished.
#ffxvi#clive rosfield#jill warrick#ffxviedit#ffedit#final fantasy 16#final fantasy xvi#i started this gifset bc i wanted to gif these two in their cool hoods but then i realized#i really love the way this second half of the game is set up#how they both think they're saving the world and expect everyone to thank them#but they're unintentionally making life harder for a lot of people#and what “saving” looks like to them is very different than how others see it#and they can't expect a thank you from people when they never asked to be saved#in fact their presence is making things worse#it's a lesson they sorta learn but Not Really bc otherwise they would have changed course in their destroy-all-mothercrystals plan#but most importantly they both look so hot like this#my husband and my wife#and what a way to open up the second half of the game too bc the writers were like “clive got hotter!! jill's still a beaut!!”#and i was like yES this is all i care about#mine
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Let me explain what happened. I'm going to work through events one by one, ending with the state you see in the screenshot.
I am playing Ironman (basically no saving or loading except as needed to restore the game state after program shutdown).
I am playing on Genius difficulty (4/5, I didn't want to get my ass turned inside out by Superhuman difficulty)
I am besieging the enemy UFO.
I am 90% convinced the map is empty of aliens, save for the UFO.
I carelessly explore the map with the XCOM soldier seen at the bottom.
At 1 TU left, the XCOM soldier makes Line of Sight with an alien.
My reaction: Oh shit, oh fuck, uhhh.
1 TU is not enough for the XCOM soldier to scratch their fucking ass, let alone retreat or fire.
On the next turn that alien is going to turn around and without fail obliterate my soldier.
Nobody else has LOS on the alien and nobody, even if they spent their entire turn's worth of TUs could not possibly move into a position that can allow them to shoot the alien.
I select the XCOM that you see still selected in the screenshot -- Jungo Chiba.
I contort all of my brain muscles to try to find a way to save my beloved anti-xeno legionnaire.
Jungo Chiba has exactly enough moves to face up against the wall on a trajectory towards the alien.
I use ctrl+click to force Jungo to shoot in the direction of the wall in 3x Auto mode.
The first shot destroys a section of yellow-brownish brick wall.
The second shot destroys a section of wooden wall.
The third shot destroys a wooden door and the same shot hits the alien in the side, obliterating them immediately.
I pog so ungraciously and take this ugly ass screenshot.
(I move him one tile away from the hole he just shot for no reason.)
What a fucking legend.
Thank you for your service, Jungo Chiba.
#anramble#vidya#xcom#my backup plan was to try to chuck a grenade#but i think it would have been really difficult given the angle#i love xcom#also this is oxce#i like the alternate moving rules#they let you expend extra energy to move at lower TU cost#that's one way you can make oxce differ from vanilla#it makes the game a little easier#but also i'm playing ironman so give me a break here#oxce is “open xcom extended” btw
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I found out there was an anteater LPS so obviously the only logical thing to do was go and buy one immediately and make it into Flint. My phone hates me so pictures are bad but look!!!!! That's a little guy!!!!!
#toontown corporate clash#ttcc#firestarter#lps custom#I thought this would be easy#it would have been easy if not for my “brilliant” idea to remove the head to make it easier to paint#i could not for the life of me get that thing back on#tried boiling water to soften the plastic which a) didn't work and b) MESSED UP ALL OF MY PAINT#so I had to do basically the ENTIRE head over again#poor guy had to go through emergency surgery like three times#eventually got the head back on tho! even if I had to cut it open in like three different places to do it...#the worst of its under his hat dont worry about it#planning on making Graham too at some point#just trying to figure out what animal i should make him#theres no cheetah but there is a jaguar and that's both pretty cheetah adjacent and easily purchasable by me#otherwise a bunny maybe? I think I like cheetah better but we'll have to see
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nothing ever excites me more than a spontaneous genshin, or more particularly, mondstadt discovery. i sat diluc upon the barbatos statue as a nice spot to go afk on without being interrupted by repetitive idle animations and voicelines (sorry diluc, this is nothing personal). my volume was turned up more than regularly by accident, and my in-game music was off despite how much i like the original game soundtrack. aNYHOW- i was about to go afk when i heard some strange noises that i didn't recall hearing in mondt before. it made me pause and turn my volume up even more. in the video above, it's kind of hard to discern the brief sounds over the noise of the wind up on the statue and in mondstadt in general, but when the wind dies down a little, you can distinctly hear voices of people, and what shocked me the most – neighs of horses. i have no clue whether it is just me discovering this only now, after 4 years of playing this godforsaken game and clearly not having paid enough attention to mondstadt's sfx before, but i still felt the need to share this terribly interesting tidbit in case there's other clueless mondstadt enthusiasts like me.
#what makes me so curious about these sfx is my inability to discern the meaning behind them#the sounds in the clip can only be heard during the night‚ which inserts various questions into my head#first and foremost‚ the sounds obviously confirm the existence of horses in mondstadt. the horses that AREN'T THERE in the current timeline#the horses that PHYSICALLY have no space for them within the city‚ but that's a problem of a different kind that i want to touch upon later#what makes their situation even more curious is that they're only heard during the night‚ with no trace of them during the day#so‚ my question is – surely they wouldn't add this specific sound if they didn't plan on introducing the horses in-game at some point?#even if there was no mentions of horses in genshin whatsoever‚ except in the manga which is set prior to the game's events#aka the timeline before the beginning or during the early stages of varka's expedition considering seamus's presence in mondstadt#and if that is so‚ is the peculiar activity of horses only at night a result of them being out of the city alongside the kof during the day#next curious thing to me are the voices and shouts‚ most likely in chinese‚ that i cannot discern and that i found nothing about online yet#however‚ in my opinion‚ the shouts seem too loud for the peaceful‚ post-stormterror crisis atmosphere of mondstadt#most of the words sound as if they're spoken through a megaphone‚ repeatedly‚ like call-outs to something or somebody#and not at all like shouts of people‚ regular citizens‚ from within their homes‚ or those of random drunkards on the streets at night#during daytime‚ the chatter is more coherent and distinctly chinese‚ words they clearly didn't bother translating to other voice-overs#another random and interesting sound is of something akin to a bell chiming‚ and i don't mean the big church bell tolling like in the clip#i am eager for feedback on this‚ for any sort of help or translation to sate my curiosity#and i'm also very much open to ideas or even random interpretations as i am overflowing with them‚ too#mondstadt#old mondstadt#genshin impact#genshin brainrot#genshin headcanon#genshin ost#genshin help#wilhelminaesque
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btw in case anybody's wondering what i've been working on as of late i've mostly been redesigning this guy for the 4th time because sometimes good ideas are bad
#he wears biker gear now 👍 the level of detail is murdering me in real life but it looks cool#atbb#karma#not art-tagging or main-tagging this bc its a wip#but i'll still leave rbs open for a bit bc i don't plan to post any finished redesigns until a good bit in the future#oh yea im gonna be redesigning like the entire atbb crew btw . i wanna Fix them all now that i have the skills of someone older than 14#as shown here by karma no longer being a skinny rectangle with a head the size of a prized pumpkin#and the fact that i'm not nearly as scared of actually drawing wrinkles in clothes anymore lmao#i was planning to start drawing the new refs after i finished the whole ebony thing#but my brain decided to go on strike until i drew a different character and after 4 months i had to give in to demand 😔#i'll get back to that hopefully soon enough once i get back into the groove of drawing but for now i'm focused on Hellish Details#pro tip never design a character with biker gear it looks sick but you'll be in pain the entire time#especially if u try to make the collar accurate. dont ever ever make the collar of a leather jacket accurate just trust me on this one#anyway thats all for now i will disappear for another ten thousand years
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commissions are: closed for now!
hello everyone!
i’ve had health problems that are making it very difficult for me to work and function outside of my home, which just isn’t viable with how expensive necessities are. so while i’m in this limbo, i’m opening up commissions! reblogs are greatly appreciated :]
a lot of my examples are bg3/dnd related, but regular ocs are more than welcome, too! i can also do fanart for other media if you’d like.
for right now, these will be through paypal. just send me a dm here if you’re interested! more information below the cut.
commission info:
- first come first serve, i will keep in contact with you throughout the process and start the sketch asap. for drawings with the highest level of detail, it’s possible that it may take a few weeks for me to complete. lower levels will take about a week or a few days over.
- while this is over dms for the moment, i’m going to make a proper form to fill out! reference photos are greatly appreciated for ocs, but detailed descriptions work too! i would also prefer if you provided a short personality description, and any ideas you have for poses or character interactions. i want it to be as close to what you envision as possible! if you want the drawing to be set at a specific time, or a specific aspect ratio for the image, let me know that too! busts cut off at the mid-chest, and half-bodies are cut off at the mid-thigh. i can also make icons (head-shot only) for a discount!
- payment comes after you’re happy with the composition! i’ll block out the characters and where they’ll be on the canvas before moving on to the full detailed sketch.
- i know my example images don’t have much shading. it’s because i enjoy the lineart process a lot more than anything else, so i don’t focus on it as much in my personal work. for fully rendered pieces, though, there will be actual light and shadow.
- more explanation on backgrounds: basic flats, simple patterns, and simple objects for framing are free of charge. keep in mind that detailed backgrounds are not my strong-suit, but i do need the practice, and i will try my absolute best. the more detailed the background is, the more it will cost, but everything is negotiable.
- i can do anthro characters (like tabaxi, dragonborn, etc) in my detailed style too! i don’t have as much experience in drawing robotics or machinery, but it’s not off the table. i like doing little details :]
- i will not draw illegal ships or anything hateful (racist, homophobic, the obvious), and i don’t do nsfw.
- don’t use my art for ai training or nfts.
- if you have any questions, feel free to ask!
- thank you for reading ^^
a better look at some of my examples - for more, check the #digitalart tag:
#pricing these was difficult#i got a few different suggestions and decided to go somewhere in the middle#i plan on making more finished pieces + any commissions i get#so i’ll likely update the example images when i have more for specific tiers#but i had art block for a while so i’ve really only been getting back into it these past few months#and i have more time now#this made me very aware of how many right facing 3/4 busts i do#art commisions#art commissions open#art commission prices#bg3#baldur's gate 3#bg3 commissions#gale dekarios#wyll ravengard#bg3 karlach#creature design#bg3 tav#dnd art#if i shouldn’t tag the characters in the examples just lmk
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#BEHIND THE CODES SPRINGTRAP NOOO#Hi. im posting this here during a break from studying. i'll be back soon though#:]#i plan on making some springdad au animations in the future to better my skills#working on the au helped me get through some stuff irl and honestly im not ready to let go of it so soon#i'd say its different from the aftons suburb one. i had lost interest in it when it became some sort of shitpost#there is nothing wrong in having 'shitpost aus' but ig its not how i wish to view things#i do like ephemeral stuff#things that last for a while and that make you think 'woah. im glad i had the opportunity to see this' are always my favorite#aftons suburb was one of these cases#springdad au is going through the same path. but i trully believe theres more content to come from it#oh and about BTC?#i took a break from it. its been two or three months since that folder was last opened (and if i did open it. i didnt do anything)#its relatively hard to come up with good dialogs when theres also a need to comprehend how different characters express themselves#especially when said characters are older than you. or smarter than you in some way#some of them speak louder. while others will speak through their actions#thought i had to grow up a bit more to understand how these things work.#turns out. that mindset was blocking the whole creative process#anyway. its going to take a while#thank you for your patience
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"heist roles" this, "adventuring party" that, c'mon y'all the point of a polycule is forbidden access to all the majors you didn't get to study yourself
#I had like 5 different configurations of plans before being forced to settle on my double#My advisor literally had to tell me 'no more'#But don't think I don't have 'what if' moments almost every day though#Anyway of any of my mutuals are attractive organic chemists my dms are open
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I hate that people on a whole don't understand a narrative. Like...your English/literature teacher should've flunked people over this.
Probably the people who understand it best are the ones marginalized in life, because hey, we see ourselves in those characters. Other people have the luxury of just going "eh" and moving on.
But when hugely popular shows and movies and even books keep killing off their marginalized and suffering characters as the "only way this could've ended" I want to reach through a screen and choke them out because stop telling me the world is better without me in it., Or I will take you with me, and we'll see who's mourned.
It's not even just Bury Your Gays. In Outer Banks, they kill of the kid who is told from season 1 that you'll never make anything of yourself. You will always be poor, homeless, unloved, and alone. And then spend three and a half seasons showing you that this character absolutely will beat his own narrative - he finds friends that are his family, he finds a life he loves with the people he loves and they love him back, and then - they kill him. BUT THE RICH BITCH FUCKING PSYCHOPATH GETS A REDEMPTION ARC? I don't care how good the actors are, the narrative has now wildly swung from 'you can make it if you don't give up' to 'don't even bother - life will find a way to beat you down to where you belong' and airing two days after the catastrophic American elections - where the billionaires and greed and hate win?
The Umbrella Academy had three seasons of fun, quirky, broken people who tried so hard to fix their mistakes, to fix what they broke, and canonically, are representing marginalized groups that never get the happy endings. But dammit, this family tried. They didn't always get along, they were dysfunctional, but they still came together in the end, and loved one another despite the bad they have done. And then - the narrative again spins a wild one eighty and the story ends with "the world is better without you in it - die". Which is a very real narrative a lot of us live with.
The MCU - kills off Iron Man/Tony Stark, one of the very first popular characters who suffers from extreme CPTSD along with an alphabet of mental disorders; Loki, who is the adopted child and queer across the board, loses absolutely everyone and everything; Steve, who while he isn't dead, his character most certainly is because he goes from the one who does sacrifice everything to making a selfish, personal decision that winds up fucking over everyone; Bucky, who again isn't dead but he is openly blamed for the things he did while he was a prisoner and a mind-controlled assassin for the bad guys against his will by his mental health professional. And the narrative is "no, you should sacrifice yourself so the rest of us who treated you like shit can live a better life."
The stupidity of wanting to punish your audience who is punished enough in the real world often enough we don't need it or want it in fiction is just...mind boggling. And when those are the real words used by writers to justify their shit decisions?
I hope your death serves a narrative purpose, since you seem to think that is the noblist way to go.
#I am all for grim dark fanfiction#I am okay with pretty much everything in fanfiction because we are a niche audience and is a million different ways to write something#but to have the CANON storylines always tell you you're broken beyond repair#that you don't deserve a life at all never mind a happy one#That's some straight up bullshit#If at the end of your story the story itself didn't matter then it's a shit story#if nothing would've changed if the story didn't happen that's some lazy fucking writing#I hate that death is the noble sacrifice#and I can only think of 3 shows right now where they actively go no that's stupid#one is stargate where Jack is repeatedly asking if they can possibly make a plan that doesn't involve dying#second is discovery where the writers realized their mistake in killing off one half of the gay couple#and bring him back with the explanation of the power of love or willed back alive by his husband#Third is surreal estate where the characters have multiple opportunities to change their 'weirdness' for normal lives and they refuse#but seriously#where the fuck is my narrative of I will live to spite you#I will love to spite you#My very existence is an open rebellion against what you want me to believe
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I occasionally wish to reach out to old friends/acquaintances I haven't spoken to since high school/some other even earlier time in my life, but I have SOOO little social energy even for required tasks (like making dr phone calls or etc), I never have any leftover for extra ones, and it would be very odd to message someone I haven't spoken to in like 5 years out of the blue but then take 4 entire months to respond back lol.. My natural curiosity with nostalgia/collecting details of the past/etc. (literally if I were born a little earlier I would definitely do scrapbooking or something lol) is very strong, but, alas, not strong enough to beat out the Social Issues Demons apparently
#facebook always does that 'here's a post from this day 8 years ago' thing. and I see old comments interacting#with people and it's so like.. OOOOO~~ where are they now?? what's going on? how much have they changed as people?#how much are they the same? this is fascinating. i should contact them!!' but then it's like... take that to it's logical conclusion though#you would contact them and then IF they even responded it would take you 80 years to respond and then they would#think there was something wrong or that you were trying to be insulting or something. To contact anyone I need to include an 85 page#disclaimer of all of my social issues & mental illness things. 'If i take 3 weeks to reply I promise it has nothing to do with u' etc lol#THIS is why more people need to be into phone calls/voice calls/some form of audio real time communication/etc.#I think one of the main things that's hard about messaging through text for me is it's so unscheduled and open ended#(plus it takes forever if you're talking about anything in detail and gets very long very quickly)#because like you can send a message and then just get a reply whenever. and then you're expected to reply back whenever#so it's like you never know when the response will come or when a new obligation to reply can come up? so it's like this sudden thing with#no outline?? if that makes sense. whereas a phone call is very like 'hello let's schedule a call from 10am - 2pm on thursday'. And you know#EXACTLY when the interaction will start and EXACTLY when it will end and you can plan around it in your schedule easily.#I have the reverse thing of a lot of people (how people don't pick up phone calls/hate calls/only text)#I would literally talk on the phone with a stranger. I would have a discord voice chat with someone I barely know.#if someone I hardly even remember from elementary school asked to have a voice call with me out of nowhere I would do it.#but if a stranger MESSAGED me?? or someone I barely know sent me a TEXT or something?? I will never reply probably#It's just too vague and weird. and you can't read voice tone over text. and the interaction could last forever with no clear end#point and etc. etc. But a call is like. set. established. clear boundaries. you can read the flow of conversation better. rapport. etc. etc#I get that I guess people feel more anonymous or distanced over text?? but you can have fake phone numbers on the computer. or do like disc#rd calls. or zoom without a camera or etc. etc. Also the distance that's present in text is BAD distance because it just means that tone is#not conveyed properly and you will never truly get a sense of the person's conversational vibe or mannerisms or how well you really click.#ANYWAY ghgjh...... I'm so so so interested in concepts of like.. How did that one kid I used to talk to in elementary school#but then they moved away in 5th grade - how did they end up? what are they doing now?? etc. etc. Like despite the severe social anhedonia#and general lack of connection with others I'm just really fascinated in like.. idk. the human development of it all and like#the concept of how we're actually a million different people through the course of our lives ever evolving in different iterations and etc.#PLUS again. i love nostalgia. sometimes old peple you know might remember a shared memory or can tell you about something you forgot#or etc. like it's SUCH A COOL THING in CONCEPT but I am too socially inept generally speaking lol. which people I still talk to today are#familiar with my 'phone call once every few months' communication style. but strangers would just be like... wtf. And I don't blame them#Sure I literally cannot change the physical health + brain issues i have - but also I know enough to not put others through that lol
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It’s Bisexuality Visibility Month (also Suicide Awareness Month), and the biphobia has been constant and intense, even in our own bi spaces, mostly from fellow LGBTQIA+ people.
Bi women have been told they are tainted for being with men, that we are dirty and dick obsessed. We’ve been told we are perverted fetishists by both cis and trans lesbians, with even gay men joining in on the insults, with one even threatening violence towards bi women if they come near lesbians. We even got told we deserve to be abused, raped, and murdered by our male partners because that’s what we deserve for dating men.
Bi men are being accused again for being HIV carriers, with gay men saying they are only good for sex because they will end up leaving them for women. One trans man said he would kill himself if a man started dating a woman after him, not leave him for one but just start dating again and that person being a woman.
I haven’t seen insults directly about non-binary bisexuals, but I’m sure there would be and a lot of hate lumps us all together. All this hates stings me but I can’t imagine the pain of all this for non-binary, trans women, and trans men dealing with it all, and it makes me so disappointed and angry that fellow trans people in this community are hurting them.
Pride Month a lesbian wrote “I wish god would eradicate all the bisexuals” while another wrote “For Pride Month let all the bi people disappear” with both having thousands of likes and comments agreeing. Now during Bi Visibility Month, a non-binary lesbian with feminist in their profile posted “Happy bi visibility month, I hope they find a cure soon 💖”. While continuing to mock us after.
Our allies and so-called LGBTQIA+ advocates have been silent and have even participated in bierasure, laughing at us when we point it out, saying “It’s not that serious.” “Lol the bis are getting upset over nothing again”. Only the bisexual advocates and pages have spoken out against the hate.
The B in LGBTQIA+ is suppose to be for bisexual but this community says and treats us as awfully as the bigots do to all of us. Bisexual is the sexuality that is attracted to two or more genders, that we have the ability to love anyone regardless of their gender. But we’re treated as greedy, perverted, hyper sexual, unfaithful, which from bigots you understand and usually brush off, but from those within the community who go through similar prejudice and should understand, sharing the same ignorant mindset.
These spaces are suppose to be our safe havens as well, but are just as dangerous. We try making our own spaces and even that is invaded by these people, we are beyond exhausted. We need the other members of the community that aren’t biphobic to speak out more and shut these people and this hate down. Because the lack of empathy from this community is frightening and all this in-fighting will allow the bigots to pick us a part more easily.
#i’ve been struggling mentally since pride month because of all the hate#i had to unfollow a lot of lgbtqia creators due to them ignoring or participating in it#i even had to unfollow most lgbtqia pages because of the comments#i’ve been sticking to bi pages and tags but it’s full of biphobia#i’m a sa survivor being told by the community that is suppose to be the most understanding and supporting that i deserved what happened#why do i deserve to be abused and die because i have an attraction that isnt limited by gender#the trauma from that relationship has left me disabled#i thought i found a community that was safe for someone like me#but the biggest deception is that us bi people are a part of lgbtqia#them and the bigots could settle their differences with their combined hatred for bi people#but i’m the one that is the danger and doesn’t belong#i spent my youth hiding my attraction to women during the 90s and early 2000s due how that time was#and now this community is making me feel ashamed again#my mental health was doing okay until i opened myself up to this community#i regret coming out#i wish i went ahead with killing myself in 2012 like i planned#bi visibility month#bisexual visibility month#bisexual#lgbtqia#tw: biphobia#our rights are being striped away again but sure bisexuals are the problem#i have too much unfinished business to end my life#i was harassed through out school being accused of being a lesbian and was assaulted by one of those girls#pulled down to the ground by my hair and kicked non stop in the ribs until someone pulled her off#even my gender came into question when that show there's something about miriam came out#telling me i don't belong in queer spaces when i've been assumed queer almost my whole fucking life and before most of you were born
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Omoide no Tama (思い出の玉)
DO NOT REPOST!!! Also on deviantART
#inside out#riley#riley andersen#fanart#my art#museum of stephanie#artists on tumblr#the idea is that it's like a visual you'd see in an anime opening#i just really wanted to draw riley in a sailor school uniform#i'm planning on revisiting her time-skipped and in a different uniform#but i'm gonna have to wait on that one#pixar#disney
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A Mirror Across Timelines: Mitsurugi
(For the September community prompt. This will also be on Ao3 with notes and stuff later.)
As strange as it had been for Mitsurugi to find himself in Beijing, he was brimming with strength. Not a moment ago, he was in a Spanish port town and what had happened there was far too invigorating to have been a dream. In a flash of white light, he was spirited away to a place lit by a strange fiery glow. All around him floated towers and arches that twisted and broke into rubble, all being pulled into a blue maelstrom. The air itself thrummed with power when he dueled the silver-haired shapeshifter Iska Acht who brought him there. Then came a voice that rumbled through the chaos like distant rapids, but its words were no clearer to him even as the second white light faded. Whatever it was that had awakened there—warrior or demon—Mitsurugi wondered if it was waiting for him in Ming.
Passing shop after shop along the wide street, Mitsurugi looked around to get his bearings. Although he could recognize many characters, his pronunciation of any of them would stand out as much as his armor did. Passersby gave him a wide berth and he caught more than a few uneasy looks from them. Mitsurugi maintained a nonchalant attitude that had served him well in his travels, but there seemed to be something more to their wariness. Was Hideyoshi carrying out his ambitions of conquest?
Amid all the chatter, he caught the word wōkòu—Japanese pirate. Mitsurugi jerked his head to his left and saw two young men hurry into an alley and disappear. He scowled, knowing it would make no difference to them that he had slain pirates on his way back to Japan several years ago. Shading his eyes as the sun glared through a gap in the dark clouds, he hastened his steps. Though the clouds were rolling northward, toward the mountains, the air felt heavy enough to rain at any moment. Much to his relief, ahead was a red-fringed banner that bore the character for wine.
He had not realized just how hungry he was until he walked into the tavern. Mitsurugi had no desire to explain in halting Chinese how he had gotten here from Spain, but the tavern-keeper had noticed the reals among his few wén coins and seemed to give a knowing nod. After a filling meal of fried rice and enough wine to ease his nerves, Mitsurugi bought a night’s stay in a small room upstairs. As he settled in and began to unfasten his armor, thunder rumbled outside and rain followed.
Whoever this new opponent is, he thought to himself, maybe the silver-haired child will lead me to him.
A white flash, like lightning striking nearby, startled him to his feet. But no sound came. A blaze of crimson light filled the room. Mitsurugi grabbed his sword, with only his cuirass remaining to shield him. His heart pounded fiercely as he recognized the power that coursed through him once more as he prepared to draw. The red light vanished as though it had been snuffed, leaving only the soft light of the paper lantern overhead.
Now a swordsman stood before him. His short, black hair was streaked with gray, as was his beard. A katana was tied at his sash, yet the top of his frayed, black kimono hung off his left shoulder like a monk’s robe. The hems of his black hakama were equally tattered. A large necklace of prayer beads hanging from his right shoulder seemed to complete his monkish look. Yet, his bare right arm bore what were almost certainly dueling scars.
“Are you here to fight me?” Mitsurugi challenged.
Sardonically, the swordsman raised a thick eyebrow. “Here?” he asked with a barely suppressed laugh. “Don’t you know who I am?” He pointed to a single, round scar just below his right shoulder.
Mitsurugi sheathed his sword and instinctively touched the same spot on his cuirass. “How…?” he gasped. “How is it possible?”
“You should know.”
There was no mistaking the scar from the tanegashima duel. Mitsurugi remembered how Iska Acht changed her form three times to test him, but it had been nothing like this. If this was a trick, he suspected that his older self would not have bothered to kick off his geta. “I mean… How did you get here?”
“Ah, that. The Astral Chaos brought me here, and there’s no telling where it can take you. I could’ve gotten lost there if it wasn’t for you. Tell me, where are we now?”
“Beijing. The outer city.”
The swordsman took a glance from the lattice window. “So it is. What year is it? You look about twenty years younger than me.”
“Eighteenth year of Tenshō, unless something happened while I was gone. Or, an Earth Ox year.”
At this, his older self cracked a wry smile. “Hm. Say, is that Shishi-Oh?”
Mitsurugi hesitated, noticing that the grip on the swordsman’s katana was black. “Yes.”
“May I see it for a moment?” The swordsman’s voice lowered to an almost reverent tone.
Mitsurugi’s heart sank at the thought that his finest sword had been lost. Even so, he unsheathed it. The older Mitsurugi gazed upon Shishi-Oh as though it were a son he had not seen in years. His expression turned somber and wizened.
“Cherish it. Hone it and wield it well.”
“Of course.” Mitsurugi gravely nodded and sheathed his sword. “I need it in top condition. There’s an opponent I’m supposed to meet. He must have something to do with this Astral Chaos. I heard something—”
Surprise flashed in the older swordsman’s eyes. “What did you hear?”
“I couldn’t make it out. That silver-haired child, what’s her name…? Iska Ahha…” He felt his throat catch on what was meant to be a guttural sound, along with slight embarrassment for it. “Acht, that’s it! I thought this Iska Acht would bring me to a worthy opponent, but well, here I am. Whatever that voice was, she had different ideas.”
The older swordsman thoughtfully rubbed his chin. “You’ll meet him, this new opponent.”
“Where did—uh, where might I find him?” Mitsurugi felt as though he had been talking to Edge Master, rather than himself.
“You won’t find him right away, but you will need one thing. Head to the fortress at Xiwei on the western border of Ming, and in time, you’ll meet your greatest opponent yet.”
Mitsurugi grinned. “That’s more like it! But what am I supposed to find there?”
“A shard of the very sword that started this. You’ll know you’ve found it when you feel it.”
With his brow furrowed, Mitsurugi wondered if it was that same power he had felt in the Astral Chaos. “If that’s so, I’ll prepare to set off at once!”
The older swordsman grinned back at him. Then crimson light filled the room once more. A regretful look crossed his face he stepped back into his geta. “I'm afraid I can’t stay much longer.”
Mitsurugi stood transfixed at the glowing portal, half-expecting Iska Acht to appear. He almost wanted to reach out to his older self, but he gratefully bowed.
“Fare well.”
Mitsurugi felt a chill as his older self stepped into the twisting chaos. At once, the crimson light was gone, and in one last flash of white, the room was once again as it should have been. He fell silent as the sounds of people in the tavern, noises of the street, and rain returned all at once to his ears.
“Damn,” he hissed, pressing a hand to his forehead. “I could’ve asked him what changed in his time!” But he knew it would be a long time before he reached Japan again, and he was no stranger to long journeys. Mitsurugi quietly settled on the bed and began to plan. Soul Edge itself seemed nearer than it had ever been.
#soul calibur#soulcalibur#heishiro mitsurugi#my fic#sorry if this is a mess; real life kept getting in the way#i did not need to open 8 tabs about ming dynasty beijing for this#i got the damnedest sense of déjà vu writing the tavern scene so i planned to have him take shelter from the rain in a temple instead#but i didn't want to spend another 4 hours researching architecture and this was delayed long enough#there's a little linguistic in-joke in the dialogue if you know where to look#i think i might be using two different romanizations for japanese here oops
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