#I feel so unwell lmao

[wishingprince]

I packed my first box. It’s so hard this time lol.

[saltpepperbeard]

A purple heart and unicorn. Two emojis typically reserved for Dad’s OFMD posts.

So uh.

RENEWAL TOMORROW? 🤡

[victorie552]

I headcannon that after 3rd Kinslaying, and especially after Elrond and Elros left them in whatever fashion, Maedhros was a total dick to Maglor.

You know how sometimes old or sick people are nice to neighbours/nurses/strangers, but are horrible to their primal caretakers? That's them.

People aren't dicks to their caretakers just to be dicks - it's because they are often frustrated with themselves or their situation and don't know how else to deal with it or they can't deal with it the usual way. It also happens because, paradoxally, they feel safe around their caretakers - you can be a dick because you know they won't leave just because of that.

And boy, did Maglor cast himself in a role of caretaker (let's not kid ourselves, he wasn't qualified, and with his own problems to boot), and BOY, did Maedhros resent him for it. He did not NEED help, he did not DESERVE help, he's not another kidnapped child MAGLOR, I'M the older brother, I should take care of YOU YOU WRECK, WHY DO I ALWAYS HAVE TO BABYSIT YOU GROW UP ALREADY and leave me Nothing is EVER your fault, even when you left me to Angband as you should Why would you care now, it amounted to NOTHING before, it's WORTHLESS

And about half the time Maglor just takes it, actually likes it even. Mostly because of his guilt complex about how he deserves it, but also because Maedhros is only like this with him - he's trying his best to pretend to be fine and be a leader to few followers they have left, because they deserve better and that's the only thing he can give them now, and their brothers are all dead and would always be Too Little to act like that around them anyway. Maedhros would behave himself even around Fingon, to make him think rescuing him was worth something. So by being a dick to Maglor, Meadhros sees him as an equal, a safe haven. Maglor basks in that.

But obviously no one could just take such abuse like it's nothing, and Maglor is a Feanorian too, is prideful and stubborn, with his own laundry list of complains about Maedhros, and also unwell, and also thought of a new insult while lying awake at night and just wants to yell too. So half the time Maglor yells back and their yelling matches would bring orcs to tears, with hate and blame dripping from every word. I don't have enough imagination to picture it realistically, and actually I don't want to, it's too heartbreaking.

And sometimes, one or the other just starts crying. They don't talk about these times.

After some time, their arguments and insults are just a noise, something to repeat endlessly to the point of boredom.

By then, what actually hurts are the words that were not meant to harm.

Example 1:

Maedhros: 'did an all-night inspection of their stores cause he couldn't sleep' I found a herb you always liked to wash your hair with.

Maglor: 'doesn't remember last time he washed his hair, no less scented them'

Maglor: 'choked up' Appreciated.

Example 2:

Maedhros: 'feels like he's dragging Maglor to damnation with him' You could go with the twins, you know.

Maglor: 'doesn't want to upset Maedhros today so decides to pretend as if that was actually an option' Vanyar would probably like my singing but you know they would get mad at you for having better battle plans than them.

Maedhros: 'now KNOWS he's dragging Maglor to damnation with him'

Maedhros: 'dying inside' Of course they would.

When love hurts, it's easier to be a dick.

[putuponpercy]

Trainspotting is fun until the horn blasts so loud so close to you that it ruptures your eardrum

[ghost-bard]

Main d20 fandom that hates on kipperlilly for being mentally unwell, for being angry and confiding in a trusted adult about said anger and then dying and coming back serving a distorted goddess of conquest and rage im so happy for you not ever having a genuinely fucked up thought because being an angry person and having thoughts of wanting to physically harm someone because of something truly childish is not a hell i would wish upon anyone but lord have mercy should any of you meet someone irl like that i hope you treat them with respect knowing that feeling insurmountable anger and not being able to truly understand why you are that way is not something that anyone who feels that way wants.

And i personally hope i never meet any of you and i think some of you should analyze how you talk about fictional characters with very real mental illnesses because YES it’s fucked up that she was jealous of riz for having this tragic backstory, but have any of you considered the fact that she was working through it with jawbone and then she fucking died and is in service to a corrupted god of conquest and rage and lost her closest friend and now has so much anger in her that she is now forced to put somewhere

Anyway apologies for the rant/wall of text i just find kipperlilly and the rat grinders as a whole very interesting and knowing how others perceive primarily kipperlilly deeply annoys me, especially now that im completely caught up with fhjy, and if some of (or most of i know how i sound most of the time) this reads as condescending or similar it’s because i was a bit upset when i started writing it lmao i have since calmed down

[moregraceful]

watching the rip curl eddie aikau big wave invitational (thank you for letting us know @croszukis!!!!) to recover from my harrowing experience of leaving the house when it was 21f (it is currently 24f) and. i have tried a handful of sports in my time, including surfing, but i do think like actual surfing is the one sport where i would be like genuinely too scared to do if it got too intense. like if the waves were over like 10 feet, which is not even that big??? the waves i took a lesson where i think 4-5ft so watching these athletes do 40ft waves is wild to me like i think i would be throwing up with anxiety

saying that i am currently so cold and my lungs hurt so bad that getting pummeled by a warmer part of the pacific ocean sounds so nice. so it makes sense to me too

[akkivee]

My mutual whose been into hypmic for more time than me listened to Get Busy around 7 thousand times...(Yes it was their top song, yes i did feel threatened)

HOW ARE YALL REAL?????

[kkoct-ik]

happy birthday to me

[barbieaiden]

rememberwhen he. remember. when. when.when. he

[saltpepperbeard]

y'all. we're going to see them kiss again.

like.

how am i meant to deal with that fact <3

[sweetestflow3rs]

10 & 13 for Cody!

10. Share a sentence of dialogue from your OC that you think represents them well.

I couldn't think of a quote he'd say, so I found other quotes said that I think represent Cody & his whole thing: but the quote of "Creation from Destruction".

It's a very simple phrase, that encapsulates the entirety of Cody's character and his own motivations, as he has a very ouroboros-like mindset that by destroying things, you can restart anew and make it better. Hence his very chaotic & destructive behaviors and why he is very carefree in regards to how he goes about his own life, but also very meticulous & 4D chessing everything to fulfill his own desires.

Cause I'm not sure if I ever gone into detail, but Cody's whole reason as to why he hasn't left town, and plays into one of his quest branches, is because he genuinely wants to see & enact the destruction of the entire town ( ESPECIALLY since he is an angel, he feels he is still allowed to have his angel TF despite his corrupt lifestyle because Virgo genuinely believes in his plans ). Believes that the town has ran the last of its cycle and has to restart again, but the only way to do so is to decimate it, regardless of how many deaths & lives are uprooted. Just happily cause a cataclysm like event like Life is Strange!! ( He can't cause a weather disaster, but if there is a will there is way! )

13. How do they deal with pain (physical or emotional)?

PHYSICALLY, Cody plays it off very nonchalantly. Man could be bleeding from a stab wound and he's like "hey it's no biggie. anyway does anyone have a first aid-" Because he knows that if he succumbs to the pressure that's showing off a vulnerability, and that he is someone able to be affected, and he'd rather DIE than let others see that side of him. Just plays it cool, even if he is in a situation where he can't see help immediately.

EMOTIONALLY... that's a different story. If Cody is dealing with emotional pain, the PC would definitely notice that Cody has been working at the Pub for longer hours than usual. He's a workaholic and likes to drown himself in work & business so after a certain amount of time, whatever caused him pain? He could care less about!! He's already indifferent ( numb ) to it!

However, if someone tried to push it while he's like this, before the window of time closed down, it's a very rare moment to see Cody.... like actually upset. Will probably snap at the person, like "What is it!? What is it that you need so bad that you can't drop it!?" grabbing their face close to his to make sure they get the hint that he's not in a playful mood. Which, honestly, can go in multiple directions because of how volatile Cody is in this state.

[averystressedcrow]

man I hate being sick :((

[potetosaradas]

🍊🍋 reference

[flowers-of-io]

I write lots of rant posts when I'm sad or angry, so to balance it out I'm now writing this one to announce that I am happy :>

[gremzon]

I might have OCD actually

[starstruckodysseys]

save me incorrect quotes… part 5. might as well call them. uh. um. fuck uhhhh quintes. bc quinque is five in latin. turns out my elementary school greek/latin root word teachings weren’t for naught.

ft @lucy-frostblades’ girlie cassie as always !! thank u for always putting up w my yapping eli <3

[ sappho’s legacies ]

cheddar cheese

full brawl beat down tonight at denny’s at 2am don’t miss it

laniebug

wtf who are we fighting at denny’s

cheddar cheese

idk there’s gotta be someone who will step to us

— —

cassie: we’ve gotta get through this locked door. lanie, give me your credit card

lanie: here

cassie, pocketing it: thanks. liv, kick down the door

— —

lanie: hi, i’m lanie. i work at a video store now. here to help. look, they’ve given me a badge with my name on it in case i forget. very helpful, as that does happen

— —

lanie: let’s play twenty questions!

liv: okay! what’s your favorite color?

lanie, laser fucking focused: triangle. do you like girls?

— —

[ very serious work chat ]

cheddar cheese

so my laptop wasn’t working so i yelled CRISTO at it

and then the screen went black

i’m now performing an exorcism

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wendell thee morris

is that silly string??

cheddar cheese

it’s not silly string if it’s a serious matter

laniebug

serious string

— —

cassie: you’d think that because mobsters are part of a mob then lobsters would be part of a lob, but ohohoho! life isn’t so simple!

— —

lanie, hungover: please tell me i’m imagining that i claimed i was queen of the ducks

cassie: i would, but then i would be lying to the Queen of All Ducks

— —

lanie: okay. so. i may or may not like someone, but i don’t really want to tell you who it is because i know you’re not gonna like it

cassie: just rip the bandaid off!

lanie: it’s wendell

cassie:

cassie: put the bandaid back on

— —

[ grip it n rip it ]

laniebug

dang this is crucial what animal do you think you could take in a fight

everything is you

toad

laniebug

elaborate

everything is you

no

— —

and now. my magnum opus

cassie: i think we should get a divorce

lanie: what are you doing?

cassie: just practicing

lanie: why are you already planning your hypothetical divorce?

cassie: i don’t know. i’m getting old, i think i'm having a midlife crisis

lanie: you don’t even have a girlfriend

cassie: hypothetically divorce me

lanie: okay, then i’m hypothetically taking half your assets

cassie: well, you didn’t sign the hypothetical prenup

cassie, to liv: it’s called a prenup, right?

liv: yeah, a prenup, and you did hypothetically sign one

lanie: who the fuck is this guy?

liv: i’m her hypothetical lawyer in this divorce case

lanie: well, then i’m taking the hypothetical kids

lanie, to wendell: right? we can get those, right?

wendell: yeah, we can definitely get the hypothetical kids, don’t worry about that

cassie: who the fuck is this hypothetical idiot? fucking nerd idiot

wendell: wow, that’s a lot of hypothetical insults. i need to keep these on for continuity because i look like the other lawyer

lanie: this is my hypothetical lawyer, and we’ve been hypothetically sleeping with each other

cassie: how could you hypothetically do this to me?!

lanie: because you’re hypothetically an alcoholic!

— —

russell: i’m leaving for a few days, usha’s in charge. i’ve left notes for each of you with instructions

cassie: mine just says “cassie don’t”

russell: and i want you to apply that to every possible situation

— —

lanie: oh my god this coffee is so fucking good i can think so clearly i could probably do a math problem right now

cassie: correctly?

lanie, vibrating: i don’t know

— —

[ very serious work chat ]

laniebug

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cheddar cheese

if i had a dollar for every pixel in that image i would have fifteen cents

laniebug

if i had a dollar for every ounce of rage i felt in my body after that message i would have enough money to buy a cannon to fire at you

wendell thee morris

actually i did the math and cassie would have $225 and not $0.15

cheddar cheese

bro i’m right here…

sky’s the limit

if i had a dollar i would buy a can of soda :)

laniebug

while you’re there can you get me an apply juice

sky’s the limit

sorry i only have a dollar

laniebug

:(

wendell thee morris

hey i just consulted with my brother and cassie would actually have $22500 because it’s a dollar for every pixel not a cent

sky’s the limit

if i had $22,500 i would buy a can of soda and apply juice :)

rust

You can buy anything you want with $22,500

everything is you

yeah and she wants a can of soda and apply juice

rust

Apply juice to what

cheddar cheese

directly to the forehead

laniebug

great work everyone